#now all i need is a face claim
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one of these years... ONE OF THESE YEARS.... people will send me nice / normal messages instead of whatever this is LMAO
#(pushes glasses up face) heh... curious... you used to claim you had back pain... now you say you also have other problems....#tsk tsk tsk... excuses... we all know that carpal tunnel and mental illness are not real.... now give me the free art you feeble Female#sergle.txt#mark my words it'll happen. people will act human towards me at some point. It'll happen for sure#I like the implication that the only reason I needed my breast reduction was so others could get more art out of me#and not because the pain and discomfort was inhibiting my life
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watched hamlet 1948 recently.... she is cersei lannister... to me...
#asoiaf#cunterly rock#house lannister#cersei lannister#nicole kidman is the classic cers faceclaim but she will always be jean simmons as ophelia. to me.#hamlet 1948#all seeing chaos#jean simmons#sooo many good costumes and sets ily old movies u will ALWAYS be famous to me.#esp when it comes to face claims🤭 now i feel a deep need to draw cersei again. alas#valyrianscrolls
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I really can't say enough good things about the expression work they did with rook in this scene, the way you can see it all dawn for them and all the little nuances along the way. I've had some trouble at points to get rye's more distinct features to play nice with whatever the facial animation setup is (still always tweaking. every day in every way we get closer and closer etc., getting the mouth to move just right is such a struggle for many scenes lol), but in this it really worked out. perfectly. yeah, that is exactly how he would emote and I would DIE for him. just. look at him. his hard tight little mouth like a child furiously holding back tears. the shifts between vulnerability and anger, the swell of fury rising through that angry option. the way you can see his eyes go wide at hearing the companion's voices and how he immediately realizes that joining them means leaving varric behind. the warring emotions at 'you're not alone' -- confusion, wanting to protest, knowing varric is right but maybe not quite how yet. so much of the arc I'd envisioned for Rye going in hinged on this scene, and I'm so glad that when I got there it worked out so well. yeah. that's how it happened.
(I also like that you can see how tough it is for varric to be faced with 'I can't do this alone' and having to let rook down, in a way. it's the one time he glances away from rook not contemplatively but reflexively. looking up at the path they're going to have to walk -- without him. having to send them off with nothing but words and hope and your faith in them, because you can't be there with them anymore. and he only lets himself look sad when rook turns their back to him for a moment. the parent feelings in that. ouch aou aough I'm. fhsdjkfhas. ow. considering how little time rook and (plausibly real) varric actually spend on screen together, they really pack the animation so full of information and meaning when you look closely.)
also a true blink and you miss it moment but uh
yeah. sure solas wants to be a hero deep down. sure he deserves a second -- third?? fucking millionth????? -- chance to redeem himself. and I'll totally be the person to give it to him. don't you worry about it varric. you just rest now. I'll be taking it from here fhdsakj
extra heartbreak detail for the road: when varric tells rook not to get misty-eyed on him...
it's because they are actually visibly tearing up. so fuck me I guess
(also I know I'm always saying this lol allow me my broken record moment, but big shoutout to Jeff Berg for his voice acting as American masc Rook, this performance really has become so incredibly dear to me so quickly)
#sorry it cuts off so abruptly at the end I was fighting for my life against the ps5 clip length limitations lol have pity upon me#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#oc: Ellaryen Ingellvar#varric tethras#dragon age meta#for extremely understandable reasons they save the facial animation budget in this game for when they really need it.#but man. when they go there they go OFF and it HURTS ME#I think 'one step at a time' could be a decent varric & rye tag but it doesn't have that 'makes me feel crazy' element.#hm. I shall bide my time until some line of poetry knocks me the fuck out with feelings methinks#I do love rye's little face so impossibly much it brings me such simple joy just to. see him#I have refined a bit more now that I'm on a second playthrough and I think I'm starting to realize more what the sliders do#with better specificity and have troubleshot at least some of the problem areas I'd been noticing#(hilariously his makeup somehow didn't make it when I did the import character option so I spent the whole prologue yesterday#squinting at the screen a bit like... 'hm. he is my boy but something's slightly off'. and it was the fact that I was seeing#his nakey eyes for the first time in 150+ hours fjdsa. he looks even more baby without all the kohl btw)#anyway in being able to show us characters welling up bioware has claimed so much power and I was not ready
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is it just me or has casual racism against desi people become increasingly rampant on social media lately
#like i have been noticing lately and the name calling the slurs everything has become so normalized#people are saying vile things and others are agreeing with it#thing is#racism against desi people has existed for so long without being addressed at all#firstly there's the southern asian countries aren't 'actually' asian discourse#then the blatant hatred and racism against brown people#and worse#content creators of desi ethnicity laughing along with it and taking it as a joke and playing into this#there is so much casual racism right now it is very concerning#the internet is not a safe space for if you are indian Pakistani bangladeshi sri lankan nepali etc#there are people who are literally saying things like curry-licking shit faced slave and no one is batting an eye#and whenever someone critcizes a popular desi content creator like aj bhairav or that one guy who wants to fuck himself#(rightfully so their content sucks)#even if the person making the video respectfully criticizes the content alone without even mentioning the race#the comment section is filled with so much racism#the internet has made assholes very comfortable with being an absolute dick and facing no consequences for it#and even worse#there are actual desi people who go on to say 'we don't claim them' like you are part of the problem#do not roll over and let people call us disgusting things#racism doesn't happen only to black people#it really really needs to be addressed#desi tag#desi#desiblr
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I am genuinely upset about Andi! WTF is FSG doing? She's one of the best in the entire league! The pens online presense was top tier but with ITR gone last year, and now Andi, I don't have any idea what their plans are. Please let Jen be safe! I'm sure Andi will find a place. I'm not too worried for her. The Pens media department tho
I really wish her the best in whatever she does next. She was at the helm at the peak of the Pens' social media engagement and prominence, and while that fell off as she ascended the ladder and became a VP/further removed from the day-to-day posting, I think she did a ton of good work here.
I'll be very interested in how the department reconfigures in her absence. There seem to be a lot of power vacuums right now, with lots of people with long tenures at the Pens departing. Part of me hopes there's a chance for young blood; other teams have been doing more innovative, more curious, and more creative stuff in terms of their media. While losing legacy employees is a loss, I can only hope that there's an infusion of youthful, out-of-the-box thinking coming our team's way. It's the best we can hope for.
#I'd be galled if jen were let go frankly. like sure no one is too high up to be safe w/e but she is HIGH UP#and she's very ingratiated w/ the players (think about geno's “I want to go home jen” lol)#while I don't doubt andi was a familiar face to them I think they rely on jen a *lot*.#I think about her interview she did where she said she thought of some of them (kris/sid/g) as her kids lol#but also I thought andi was safe when I read the announcement today so clearly this is all conjecture and I don't claim to KNOW anything#I think our media has been falling behind in the past several years admittedly.#it's hard because I *did* join the fandom when the team was at its peak and I think that makes media/fan engagement easier. you're a winner#but I think it's just a matter of fact that we are not as cutting edge as we once were on our socials#the loss of ITR blows and I'm still mad at FSG for that#but I think they have a chance now to prove they care about getting back to innovation. I don't know that I trust them to execute it though#also I don't want this to be a critique of andi. especially when she's freshly off of losing her role.#this is more about the org itself needing to refocus on being innovative.#they've been a bit too comfortable in a lot of aspects in the past few years. having been to more arenas now and seeing more teams do thing#I have found it easy to say it feels like other teams/orgs are TRYING harder.#seattle puts on a show every game. their in-arena partners are cool. they have live music before every game. they have a freakin' drum line#y'know? pittsburgh had.... a really annoying train airhorn this season that they abandoned halfway through lol#the spirit of innovation has been gone for a few years now. if this gets it back... well we'll all be lucky IF that happens.
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[ Biblically Accurate Angel ] - Does your muse have any dogmatic habits? @ Lillevi??
Monster Movie Headcanon Questions : Accepting!
Likely the easiest point to pin on Lillevi is she does take Miquella's teaching in a literal fashion. Given that he wishes to usher in a kinder world, Lillevi from a young age tried to mimic these beliefs. She genuinely wants to aid those around her even if the idea is somewhat based in naive dreams. You can't save everyone, but she wants to try.
In doing this, one would find her eventually surrounding herself with allies who's own followings don't necessarily align with her own, but she feels they deserve a chance at redemption nonetheless. She will often stop to aid those who are in need, from begger merchants to those looking for a fighter. Lillevi is likely to assist without fault.
This does not mean she will always treat those around her with blind kindness if they were to draw a blade against her. While she does believe there is good in a cruel world and every one is capable of doing that same goodness - if one were to make an attempt on her life she would defend herself. Kindness will never be her weakness. She's not so naive to allow herself to fall to another's blade.
One would do well to remember she survived massacres after the shattering. She wants to do good but is not blind to the evil within people's hearts.
#🐉 • extra info#I NEED TO GET A FACE CLAIM FOR LILLEVI but for now iconless inFO GO#honestly as good as she can be her funniest fault remains she is legit just a heretic who collects everyone else's faith magic to make#herself stronger just justifying the reasons she serves miquella#and tbh like aren't they all LMAO#but i love her she's great uwu
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how to not hate who you are no borax no glue
#i need to stop yapping on tumblr#but oh my god#when your surname is actually fascinating#and has very captivating etymology#but#you have#no connection to it#when it comes from a beautiful culture#that you#don’t exist in#when your middle name AND FACE are taken from someone#who you never got to know#whose culture you practiced in youth and taste only echoes of now#when all you can do is bitch about it#as if it’s not a privilege to just Be American with nothing to claim#because at least i didn’t suffer right#at least generations of the culture i’m connected to haven’t been through literal torture#because i am connected to no culture#i am nothing and no one with names that should mean Something#and instead only serve to mock me#but lollllll#tw vent#vent post
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having to explain myself after being assaulted multiple times in this flat is hurting my chest because i had to clear my name with the other neighbours who don't know the full story of why i didn't get along with that white woman living above me
#the life of a black person 👍#like i did apologise (i dont really mean it) because i wanted this shit to stop. how areyou going to start assaulting me by spraying#bathroom cleaner in my face and spitting on me because i asked you to stop dropping letters at my door. ones that aren't#even addressed to me in the first place? and now i have to apologise because you went and told all the other neighbours i started#coming for you out of nowhere when you are the one who called me a black bitch for asking u nicely to leave the letters alone???#and even going the length of claiming you called the police on me (which i don't think is true becuz they would've found me by now)#when YOU assualted me? i came to class with red eyes because of the fucking chemicals you sprayed in my face but yea#i should get questioned by the police lol#i cant wait to get out of here i need to find a better paying job so soon i need to leaveeeeee
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OOH U KNOW WHAT SORT OF STORY I WOULD LOVE TO SEE???
ok so hua cheng is feeling cheeky and naughty!! 'heehee hoohoo,' he thinks, 'i shall convince gege to let me send a lil butterfly to spy on his dumb friends!! their sexually charged antics will get us ~in the mood~ for fun!!! huehuehue >:D'
he goes to xie lian: 'gege!! let's look in on ur old pals, idiot 1 and idiot 2! it'll be fun :D'
xie lian: 'ohhhh idk san lang, that's violating their privacy, we probably shouldn't...... 👀👀👀' and 'it would be SO HARD to convince me to go along with it....... 👀👀👀' but actually he is. SUPER CURIOUS about how things are going for fengqing, ever since they got together. OFC HE WANTS TO SEE DAMMIT!!!!
so hua cheng sends the lil butterfly!! he and xie lian snuggle up to SPY on poor fengqing!!! (obvs they'll stop if it's VERY BAD and apologise later!! it's just!!! they're just CHECKING on them ok!!! IT'S NOT WEIRD!!! (it's very weird. they are very weird. (affectionate)))
LO AND BEHOLD. feng xin and mu qing are TOGETHER!!!! in a BEDROOM!!!!!!!! IN THEIR.........NIGHT CLOTHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
....................................................but they're just having a cuddle and being the sappiest, gentlest, most adorable couple of ALL TIME and it's AWFUL ;A; it's nothing spicy at all!! THEY'RE JUST MAKING SILLY FACES AND SMILING AND LAUGHING AND USING GROSS PET NAMES!!!!! EW!!!
CURSES!!! hua cheng's plans have been FOILED!!! lol the end 🤣
#birb still says#i wish i could write aaaaaaaaa ;A;#then i could write it myself lmao 🤣🤣#idk i just thought the idea was funny so i wanted to put it out there#the look on hua cheng's face would be. PRICELESS 🤣🤣🤣#xie lian would be all happy tho!!! likke 'yaaaay my friends are so sweet together omg 💚'#'san lang thank u for showing me this u are the bestest husbando 💚'#meanwhile hua cheng is like '.......of course gege. anything for u gege 😱'#low-key shell-shocked#or whatever it is the young ppl say#does this need a trigger warning???#since it's technically hc attempting voyeurism of some sort?? does it count if he FAILS???#i meant this to be light hearted and silly!!!#anyway I NOW RELEASE THIS INTO THE WILD#if someone wants it then by all means!!! help urselves!!!#it's just an idle fancy on my part~ i lay no claim to it~~#lol im all out of it after this morning i guess lmfao 🤣🤣🤣#should i tag this fengqing and hualian???? i guess so???#tgcf#story idea#fengqing#hualian
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I really just wish I could dial back in time to August, to the day when he sent a friend request to me, and simply deny it. I was fully coped with harsh reality and ready to move on, I finally disconnected and recovered. Why did I have to accept it? It was that time when he managed to open a wound that took such a long time to heal, only to leave it open. Just.. why the hell I had to hear him out? Why can't I take that decision back?
#/vent#personal#honesty not regretting having met him and went through everything#experience and all that#I would not have had problems if I was allowed to *stay* healed#it was just that exact day that want to take back#if only I could alter just one event in my life..#i just don't know how I can recover and move on the SECOND time. I am not strong enough.#I can't pick myself back together the SECOND time#especially not after how much he rubbed it into my face how he didn't need me anymore#despite claiming that he could no longer live without me just like 10 days before#just why did I have to hear him out? why did I have to believe him?#I can't wait for mom to leave the house already#I really really really need everyone who could stop me gone right now
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christ i'm finally home. thank gd
#sasha speaks#i wanna talk about me#rehearsal in the morning#then i discovered that my phone is. broken. very distressingly so#the back is popping off because the battery is bulging. very Not Good#so i had to make an unplanned visit to the phone store...#spent like thirty very stressful minutes on call with phone insurance to file a claim.#good news is they're sending me a replacement and it'll be here monday#so i don't have to scramble being phoneless for very long. and i'll definitely have it ready for spain next weekend#which is really the important thing...i need my phone to travel sorry#but gd. i'm wiped#i haven't had much to eat today i've just been going nonstop since close to 8#well i have an iced chai and a pastry now. and i'm chillin.#all my roommates and a bunch of their friends are out at pride rn#it was pretty neat seeing so many people out on the metro and around the city all decked out for pride today tbh#lots of colors and hair/face paint and funky outfits#i would go if i wasn't so tired. and bad with crowds#but. gah. enough excitement for one day i just want to sit in front of a screen for a bit...#shoutout to my 6'1 skinny straight white man roommate tho and his mustache he dyed rainbow for pride tho
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{ NEW VERSE DROP // OOC } Since it's been talked about in the show a little bit, I decided to give Marinette a College/University verse. In this verse she will be 18-23 (depending on the thread, muses etc.) She can be shipped with other adult muses in this verse only, but I ask that anything sexual will be faded-to-black or implied! This is due to my own comfort and the fact that I don't want others getting the wrong impression. (If you want my thoughts about this topic, feel free to ask because I'm all about exploring every aspect of a character, as long as it's done so with tact!)
SOME INFO; MAY BE EXPANDED ON LATER;
Currently majors in fashion and design, along with graphic design. Her biggest dream is to get into the fashion industry!
She lives in her own apartment, near campus and often bikes herself to classes.
Still helps out at her parents' bakery every weekend, when she has the time, that is!
Of course, she's still defending Paris as Ladybug!! (For the time being, the villain will be referred to the one in Season 6, unless canon changes!)
New height --- has grown to 5'2!!
#{ you're a sky full of stars. ooc posts }#{ v4. 🍨🐞 ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ʟɪᴠɪɴ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴅʀᴇᴀᴍ }#{ this is all of the thoughts i have right now }#{ also..... i don't think i need a new face claim. }#{ adults can still look like how they did when they were teens ? i certainly did ! }#{ so 🤷♀️ idk but if anyone has any opinions or suggestions i'd totally love to hear them !! }
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they're so pretty, it hurts, i'm not talking 'bout boys, i'm talking 'bout girls. they're so pretty with their button-up shirts.
- girls by girl in red
it'd be fine, if we never met. another guy i'd never have the chance to get, but i don't know what to do, 'cause you're too beautiful.
- too beautiful by pansy division — original images dylan: [x] | [x] | [x] | [x] | [x] | [x] bam: [x] | [x] | [x] | [x] | [x] | [x]
texture credits! [x] | [x] difference clouds on GIMP
#ooc#crow edits#dylan carrero : feels like the whole world's waiting#bam napier : queer chaotic energy#first time listening to pansy division and i love them so much#I recently made a playlist for dylan and girls is on it and i went 'man i need to do another bam and dylan joint aesthetic edit'#but then i needed a song for bam bcus i was originally going to do boys but i was like... nah#and then i looked up gay musicians bcus idk#and went 'oh right i meant to listen to them once'#so now i've listened to them and i'm just saying hearing someone make 'hetero' sound like a slur was WILD#but hilarious#me not adding face claims to edits makes it seem like i'm testing people#like 'oh you're a fan of my muses? which one has shiny sparkly balls as an associated aesthetic?'#it's not meant to be but it is kinda funny#'WHO ARE THE QUEERS‚ MUTUALS?'#I was going to delete that tag but future me is going to see it and fucking die#you're welcome‚ future me‚ you ungrateful prick#future me like 'what the fuck did /I/ do?!'#('who are the queers' is a trick question; the answer is 'all of them')#eye strain warning#eyeburn warning#eyeburn#eye burn#eye burn warning#eye strain#l o n g b o i
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gojo hates condoms ☆
not even in an ‘i can’t feel a thing’ frat-fuck way either. he just wants to be close to you. he’s touch starved as it is and being inside of you is quite literally the closet he can be to you. why would he want a barrier between his achy length and your silken walls?
he hates condoms. hates them like they’re pointing south on his moral compass. hates them like they hurt to use—which they do, in a way—the mental anguish feels real to him, at least. he picks up a fuss in the grocery store when you pull a pack of ribbed condoms from the shelf to try because why would you seek pleasure from artificial ridges when the protruding veins of his cock would feel just as good if not dressed in a condom?
sometimes he eats you out for twice as long as usual to get you really fucked out and dumb. he’ll make you cum hard and fast and so much that your mind is a mess in the hopes that you’ll forget all about your safety precautions and let him feel you from the inside out. but you always catch on. with a tsk and a finger pointed to the draw where he keeps the horrid things out of sight.
so when you let him fuck you raw for the first time, gojo is reeling. it’s on the condition that he promises to pull out, and promise he does—with a pinky finger hooked around yours and his lips to his thumb—he promises to pull out.
he decides on missionary, because as much as he loves the hundred different positions he knows how to wrangle you into, he wants to connect with you. to make love, not fuck.
and even your wetness against his tip is enough to jolt his stomach downwards. collecting your glossing over his angry head as he rubs himself up and down your folds—he would cum just like this if he wasn’t so stuck on feeling all of you. you’re warm and wet and tight as he pushes against your entrance and oh god he’s going to cum already.
“oh,” he stills, eyes deadset on yours as he slides into you. his tip is rubbing against that spot that makes your back arch upwards and it takes everything in you not to laugh at the distraught look on his face as he says “i have to pull out.”
“you’re joking, right?”
“i really wish i was baby,” he looks pained. he’s never felt something so heavenly and ungodly at the same time. he wants to do bad things, to fuck you into the mattress and breed you full of himself until you’re too weak to care about the aftermath of such recklessness. “i can’t pull out.”
“what?” you laugh, his balls tighten at the sound.
“if i move—” satoru has never looked so serious, “—i will cum. this was a bad idea. why would you let me do this?”
“you’re the one always—”
“actually don’t argue with me, you know what it does to me.” he squeezes his eyes shut and focuses on anything other then the way you feel around him. he does math in his head, thinks about the people he’s killed, how much he loves you… how pretty you look right now… growing old with you.
“i swear you’re getting harder inside of—”
“imsorryiloveyoubutpleasebequietorelseyouaregoingtogetpregnant.”
it takes him a minute of mental gymnastics to feel confident enough to start slowly sliding out of you, but all hope dies when the heel of your foot presses against his ass and with a smile made of sin you pull him deeper inside of you.
he opens his mouth to protest, to tell you he is not joking and all that comes out is a beautiful strangled moan that makes you tighten around him. for a man who claims to be the strongest he is rather weak-willed when it comes to your pussy. he needs to cum so hard that it hurts, but a fear of maybe ruining your life and relationship digs his teeth into his bottom lip.
“don’t do this to me,” he whines.
but you’re smiling. you’re so tight and wet and beautiful and everything he’s ever dreamt of having and holding and you’re smiling. “satoru,” you say, and he’s weak. “cum inside.”
anything for you. it’s gorgeous: the way he lets loose, falling forward to press all his weight into you as he groans and his balls release in hot spurts that you can feel painting your insides white. it’s the connection, the intimacy, the tears that prick at his eyes.
and he doesn’t pull out. no, he presses his hips forward to fuck his cum as deep into you as he possibly can and he vows to throw out every condom in the goddamn house.
god he hates condoms.
#cw dubcon#<- just in case#gojo smut#satoru gojo smut#gojo x reader#satoru gojo x reader#jjk smut#jujutsu kaisen smut#jjk x reader#jjk x you#jujutsu kaisen x reader#gojo x you#satoru gojo x you#gojo
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God I wish finding face claims weren’t so damn hard for my OCs OTL
Like for example, my spidersona Rosa.
Originally when I first created her, I had Rita Hayworth as her face claim because I originally designed Rosa as a super white passing Latina/Spanish Woman (like how I am in real life… OTL people think that I’m Portuguese and not Dominican) and because I wanted a vintage old Hollywood actress to fit with her aesthetic.

But then later on, I ended up liking how better she looked with tanned skin and I wanted her to look more Dominican so I changed her design slightly

so now I have to try finding a new face claim that fits her and I can’t seem to find one. OTL and I’m trying to be realistic here too. Because I know how hard it’s going to be to find a vintage brown-skinned and red-headed Latina Hollywood actress so I’m not even bothering with those and I’m just trying to look at normal face claim directories with more modern actors.
But I can’t seem to find anything at all. Nothing ever fits. And it’s the same for a lot of my OCs. DX
#personal#like it’s a miracle that I could even find a face claim for Renzo#I lucked out with finding Indya Moore who’s also brown skinned/non-binary/ and Latino#I still wish I could still use Rita Hayworth for Rosa but she’s too pale for her now#which is ironic considering that she was forced to lighten her skin by the studio to hide her Spanish heritage#also#my art#I really need to post all of my more recent tarantella art here#all of my crap is on twitter
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really awesome day to think everythings going alright and then you wake up and get hit in the face twice in a row
#vent#why am i suddenly the worst person to exist to everyone again for having bpd and complex emotions. 2023s coming back in a new way#like oh wow Have you ever thoguht of how Aria Feels. Have you ever thought to fucking talk to me about this . god.#this specific group of people keeps making me miserable and then complains about me being miserable about it. like yea. bc that makes sense#maybe i shouldve left all of you huh. maybe i shouldve done that. i need to be the one with agency over my emotions for fucking once.#everyone walks all over me and expects it to do nothing. keeping my fears in check and keeping my confirmation biases very much there.#lua if you see this that was entirely fucking unwarranted. im not some fucking evil person. i just have BPD. we tried.#i dont like venting to you for every single little thing either and it makes me miserable too! it wouldve been nice if you said that first.#all of it made me miserable but thats all we ever fucking talked about.#i really fucking tried just to get kicked down and spit at again for something so stupid and then the remaining 3 also left again.#what am i supposed to do. what do you want me to do.#i genuinely tried. i always wanted to try but just got left with questions and unexplainable emotions. and now everythings like this again#no explanations. nothing to give me any benefit of the doubt. just no youre evil and awful for this thing that we all also do but#were all going to blame YOU for not being honest about your emotions. and then i start being very open about my emotions#and people hate that too. literally what do you fucking want from me anymore. have i been anything other than a strawman to any of you#just an ideal to chase . just whatever you want to form me into ?#i am not a saint and never claim to be or claim to be the best or even most reasonable opinion. but you should all maybe evaluate that your#extraordinarily comically bad at anything regarding this. better at communicating my fucking ass.#i dont want to be at either of you twos fucking whims anymore. i dont even want to be at my own.#leave me the hell alone. observe me at a distance. just dont fucking talk to me until you have something better to say.#i did not need that. it is unfair to me. not now. not any time. not near my birthday not near new years. i did not need this suddenly today#because people dont communicate anything to me. and then expect me to be fine to be slapped in the face with it like its expected.#you people fucking suck.#i feel abused by fucking everyone. i am not a real person to any of you and never will be. nobody cared about my personhood#and you know what. im fine with that. because neither of you are here anymore.#literally i am mentally not built for people who made me miserable then blaming me for my misery . or the most stupid friendgroup drama of#the century i am built for playing touys and having fun Fuck u all forever get out of my life FOREVER !#itll probably come back again and then ill be mentally susceptible to this bullshit again but for now literally just . fuck off.#i dont want to be in your ouroboros ( lol ) of endless misery feedback loop bullshit anymore#like woww i have problems but Wow. Its almost like you two made it worse? Idk! Just a thought.
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