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Me on New Year's Day:
I can't believe it's 2023
Time flies so fast and I'm always so tired
BUT I'm trying to stay positive!
#new year#happy new year#2023#new year 2023#wow#omg wow#just... wow#it went by so fast#im so tired#now I have to deal with another year#am so done tbh#BUT hope it will be filled with hope and happiness#New Year new start#hecc yee!#ruubesz talk#ruubesz post
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~What i couldve been~
I was just gonna do the adult timeline zelda but im so enchanted by the idea of these two versions of the same character. People always talk about how link would be changed but never zelda.
#tloz#princess zelda#sheik#majoras mask#ocarina of time#loz redesigns round 2#art#my art#redesigns#they had Entirely different teen years#a zelda who had to deal with the deaths of those close to her and having to be in hiding#meanwhile training up to hopefully take care of it on her own#only to seemingly doom her kingdom in the future to save another timeline from the same grief#creating this zelda who seemingly at most has one bad vision which is immedietly#confirmed by random fairy boy in the woods#and seemingly lives happily ever after?#i wish we knew more from the new timeline other than boring implications from tw-light pr-ncess#but yes i split different design element over both of them#oot zelda having shorter hair like her sheik form#while mm zelda keeps the long#also using some elements from the kid design like mm still kinda having that headband alongside the crown#the l-nks will be another post since i only have ideas for one right now
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y'all think Penelope pulled a "if it weren't for the baby" peeta mallark style on everyone present there to marry odysseus or
#penelope#odysseus#odyssey#just imagine poor 18 year old ody having to deal w everyones eyes on him suddenly#penelope did it cause someone was mouthing off about helen loudly after the wedding#and she could see her cousin visibly wilt. she had to do something. and this prince courting her is sort of not bad and she kinda wants him#(shes tryna downplay it; shes very infatuated and ready for marriage lmao)#odysseus is not havint a good time tho hes tryna fight off#a. political collegues warmly congratulating him over a lie (theyve seen this gangly child pine and sigh over pen for weeks now)#b. athena SCREAMING at him in quickthought and not letting him get a word in#c. spartan royalty shouting and throwing glares at him#d. penelope. they havent even so much as held hands WHAT is she talking about did he accidentally do something wrong somehow#(also she knew she had to. her dad wouldnt let her marry odysseus otherwise.)#i think shes peeta style clever ykwim?#telemachus doesnt show for another two entire years lmfao#pls interact with me epic fandom where r u
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I need some prayers. My health is really bad right now, and i might lose my job.
#i had to go home on Saturday because I had a fever and wasn't really able to function#I took Monday off two weeks ago so I could see a doctor about some of the health issues I have#then today I had another COMPLETELY unrelated health problem that sent me home (it's sent me home from my last job on multiple occasions)#i don't know what to do#i keep getting sick#(fevers puking and lung infections)#and i can't kick it#and that's ON TOP of the other chronic issues I've been dealing with for the last three or four years#i'm so discouraged and upset right now and i have no idea what on earth I'm gonna do#i just want to get better and not have to deal with this#i have never been this sick for this long in my entire life#but I've been sick for month long stretches three times already this year#i don't know what to do at this point#i hate this so much
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Crazy wild shit man
#how are we straight up accepting the emmrich romance lich choice for how it’s written#does anyone feel me#hello???#no one else can see the inherent tragedy in this?#maybe I’m too mort ass pilled but um. trading away your life to escape death is no life at all#and why can’t rook be like. you killed yourself and took yourself away from me and now you have no skin for me to caress and no warmth for#me to share and though it’s still your consciousness you’ve a) gained a perspective I can never ever share and b) you have accepted#outliving me so thoroughly that I will be just a drop in the bucket of your life even if I get another good 50 years out of life.#why can’t I ask him is all this worth it without your heart????!??#why can’t I break it off?!!!???#why do I HAVE to celebrate this choice#emmrich volkarin#dav spoilers#and that’s not even getting into the philosophical questions surrounding fear and what it means to live like.#emmrich… has ocd. and I have no doubt that those fears are truly debilitating (despite this almost never coming up in the narrative)#and essentially this choice is one about how to deal with it. acceptance vs avoidance. and we see no consequences for either!!!#if he chooses to accept this fear as a part of him and work through it WE SHOULD SEE THAT WORK#he should struggle!! and that struggle should lead him towards making peace with that fear#AND!!#if he chooses to escape from that fear— to actively avoid ever resolving it— we should see him struggle with that too!!!!#molding your entire existence around this fear to the point you embody it… where are the emotional consequences for that!?#WHY DO I— AS SOMEONE WHO SUPPOSEDLY LOVES HIM— NOT GET ANY OPPORTUNITY TO PUSH BACK OR ASK SOME TOUGH QUESTIONS?!?#in a game about the tyranny of immortality… we can send our beloved to kill his mortal self to come back as an immortal husk.#and we’re not even allowed to be sad abt it the very next scene is some goofy cartoon shit at the lighthouse where every single person just#immediately accepts this reality and has no issues. not even taash 😭
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dyke!Chilaios has me understanding breeding kink all of a sudden
#chilaios#that's a lie i understand breeding kink very well lmao#HOWEVER IT MUST BE SAID#they finish up a great scene. hot lesbian sex. all going well.#and laios lies back with her eyes closed. still flushed and sweaty. she rests her naked hand on her naked lower stomach and says. 'hah....#'did you know ...that tallmen and halflings can have kids together?' Like its just another fun monster fact.#she's trailing her fingers absentmindedly over her stomach now. tracing idle patterns.#'with our lifespans being so similar it isn't even as big a deal as it is for elves and humans. they're even fertile and that's ...#that's really rare for hybrids.' her eyes are still closed. she swallows hard. She's more red now than she was when they fucked.#'you should talk about that next time you're in me. i'd like it...' and she cracks one eye open a sliver#to see chilchuck . BEET. RED.#because Chilchuck DID NOT. KNOW.#She was already fucked out and now she's dying?? she's dying. Laios still has her huge hand resting on her huge smooth stomach#miles and miles of soft skin...that she wants chilchuck to put a BABY in#she's thought about the hypothetical lifespan and safety of the hypothetical baby! is this just a sex thing? is this a for real thing?#chilchuck does not know and does not know which one she's hoping for now!! cause both sound GREAT#AND OF COURSE THERE'S ALSO#chilchuck remembering that conversaion next time Laios's huge huge fingers are inside her. Laios's hot wet breathing by her ear.#Laios's breathing going ragged even though no one is touching HER she is the one toying with Chilchuck right now. She always does that.#between the breathing and the fingers and the warmth and the smell Laios is all around her and she just thinks -#'Laios is so huge. Laios's baby would be so huge. I'd be so huge. Pregnant with it.' And she cums.#rattles her to her fucking core. Chilchuck who HAS BEEN PREGNANT BEFORE realising. holy shit.#i want this fluffy haired socially awkward 26 year old doggirl to . to fuck a baby into me. in a sexy way.#i think . I think it's hot.#enough to turn you to drink isn't it!#u may ask - hey how come chilchuck has a girlcock and has got pregnant? can laios get chilchuck pregnant?#does anyone even have a womb in this situation? I may answer - don't worry about it#a wizard did it. whatever. its a fantasy world.#whatever is sexiest in the moment i don't care#lesbiance
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Another thing I need pjsk fandom to realize:
1) there are literal 10 years old (and younger) children in this fandom;
2) the percentage of these children in the fandom is MUCH, MUCH higher than every single one of you here on tumbrl think it is.
"why do people write so much for popular characters?" "why do people write for kudos only?" aside from the fact that the "write for yourself" is a self-perpetuating issue in every fandom and the fact that every writer deserves engagement with their works, it's because there are kids here. Who want to fit in and get praised for their creativity. Which they can only achieve by writing for popular stuff. So maybe take that into account.
#jay rambles.txt#I've met so many kids who have no business knowing that pjsk is considering the Themes it deals with know what pjsk is#and if you want to argue this game is a) a scummy gacha game b) too grim for a lot of them - sure. did that stop YOU for being in#fandoms you shouldn't have been in when you were 12?#yeah I didn't think so. this is very normal and will continue being normal#seeing as the spaces for young kids on the internet have all but been destroyed by every factor imaginable#of course they're not interested in nuance and detailed characterisation as well. they are kids. were you media literate at 10 when you've#just discovered fandoms? like actually? at like 10? cmon now. give them some grace#sometimes when you see another run of the mill poor grammar and no formatting cliche yaoi fic of your otp I need you to stop and think#'wait a minute. is there a non-zero probability this is written by a 10 year old who just found out what fanfic is?' before you get mad#and then just close the tab and move on with your life. as god intended#'why is this misconception so popular!!' because 80% of the 'rui is a cannibal' people are edgy 13 years old who just Do This Shit. peace.#jay with the unpopular takes again hoo boy
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I've started playing Potion Permit, and so far it's one of my favorite games I've messed around with, but the most big brained move the devs made was giving you a dog on day 1, and then making that dog able to track NPCs and lead you directly to them no matter where they are in the town.
#im still early game but i like the play and the writing is passable#like#Theres a flatness#the characters Are distinct but theyre mostly just their jobs#with only a few who stand out and have like. something to really grab onto#Like rue? rues entire deal is little girl you can date. Nothing else behind those eyes. She has nothing better to talk to you about#than the fact her favorite color is red#Sorcelia? Sorcelia is a goth nun who loves singing and teaches one of the village children#Reynerd? sure is a guy#got nothing else to say about him. hes just a Guy™. Victor? Has ghost friends and loves bugs and cares deeply about the cemetery#he tends to. At the moment it feels like they're trying to imply there aren't actually ghosts. and hes just talking to himself/#insisting his imaginary friends are real people#and so far? The games been cool about it. Victor's a member of his community and his eccentricities are accepted and not ridiculed#all four characters ive mentioned are romance candidates. but its just as hit or miss with the regular towns folk#Opalheart is an older woman and a world renowned blacksmith who only takes jobs if they will do Good. regardless of whether or not they#pay well. She declines to make a dagger for a rich man but makes a helmet for a childs father bc the girl asked#and olive is here#anyways you can be best friends with a cat (shes just a regular cat) and i appreciate that#idk im putting it above sun haven in my ranking of life sim games#purely because there are older romance candidates.#no fat romance candidates. but sun haven doesn't have thise either.#and sdv has neither fat or old candidates Nor can you fuck a cat boy. it goes at the bottom.#gameplay wise sunhaven is at the bottom then sdv then potion permit at the top. sunhaven has the Most™ but having#a lot of crap doesn't mean its fun and it ends up making half the game feel really incomplete#idk. Sdv is a game you should've started playing a year ago. sun haven is a game that perpetually needs another year worth of updates#before id say its worth it bc the devs keep pushing content ™ updates instead of quality of life or polish so what is there is uh#Bad. plentiful. and a large portion is good#but a Lot is just bad.#its insincere and cant take itself seriously it gives you (the right dialogue option) an (the shit joke option) which is worse than just#i ram out of space. tldr. potion permit is good Now. sdv Was good. sun haven Might be great Eventually
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an idea i invite anyone else to write about / run with lol....
the premise that The Change gets all messed up for alberto, say it's something that can happen from stress, &/or happens rarely and you just have to wait for it to resolve itself....used as some parallel to struggling through some emotional turbulence / upheaval / questioning / Realizing Things, etc etc
#luca 2021#pixar luca#alberto scorfano#another idea i've failed to write for & so invite anyone else to run with: ciao alberto but what if he peaces out by swimming off lol#ends up in a coastal town maybe an hour's swim from genoa. but not Getting In Touch w/anyone for a while b/c plausibly he thinks that#giulia may not be a fan of him now by extension; just being too embarrassed asf to reach out to luca kinda lol....luca off doing his own#thing just fine & alberto not wanting to write him now like b/c i Ruined Everything again ahaha....#and by ''not in touch w/anyone for a while'' who knows. months; a few years even....might stumble across news of him b/c like.#say more sea folk are coming to land / more humans know abt them & not many places are as [harpoon]ly from the start anyways#portorosso exceptional in that way....maybe where alberto settles down they're like legendary but also considered Good Luck anyways lol.#anyways like some people know of him who might; say; swim down to portorosso. have their own teen who knows a teen who mostly lives on land#most convenient re sparking [wow could they mean Our alberto] if he doesn't go so far as to take up an alias lol. but why would he....#that difference in that massimo might figure that however alberto was surviving before; he could continue to do so now; but even though tha#is some comfort it's still Not Actually Enough....feeling way more Parentally towards alberto than his biological dad like that; obv#and anyways re: this [The Change gets messed up] idea it's more of an inconvenience lol but one that could still have some significance#like if he first finds out the issue exists via hopping right into the ocean; failing to change forms; never being human form'd in water b4#thee worst....crash intro course to the experience of drowning. observation of How Humans Swim / being able to grab any part of the boat...#and besides That unpleasantness it's like; hey. where's my nonhuman form at#or; of course; being in sea form even while dry....especially if he's still dealing with Nonsense on land. which is presumed.#&/or if there's an upswing in nonsense b/c of Other ways you're Othered...ofc we can consider like; tfw you're a gay fish & maybe that's no#something that on its own would be like Aah until it's like well a) i kinda wanna do things that would make this Visible and b) i've learne#that humans also Have Issues about this kind of thing....#appropriately my tablet was also all thrown off. no pressure sensitivity; input sensitivity overall was rough#but i would've had to restart my laptop about it lol like eh i'll just work around it
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y'all what is the funniest way I can come out as trans to my parents. special points if you're trans and have firsthand advice. I am going to sleep now and would love to see some answers in the morning.
#i plan on telling my parents before i move again this year so i dont have to deal with another holiday season of faking being a guy#they're transphobic in the “they probably wouldn't have cared a few years ago but are riled up by far right losers on the internet now” way
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can someone just paypal me like $2000 itd solve one of the biggest problems in my life right now. tax stress is starting to keep me from sleeping
(i dont actually expect donations but if you want to assist, here's my paypal.me)
#id have saved to deal with self employment taxes had i not spent the past year moving twice#once to escape a shitty town and empty home#and another to escape an abusive roommate#life is hard right now.
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#19 days#he tian#mo guan shan#I can retire now :'D but honestly short few years of editing and now we don't need that we have the REAL deal#I thought last time was the thing but old xian just delivered another jab
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Jerez 2017: Valentino Rossi, Marc Marquez, Maverick Vinales and Jorge Lorenzo are asked about who they would like to battle on the last lap in the last corner.
#rosquez#maverick vinales#brr brr#//#4693#mv12#i swear i've seen this video before on here but i can't findddd it and i need to upload it to reference in another post#anyway listen these are three boring responses and then jorge lorenzo#i like how marc's gaze visibly flicks to valentino when jorge calls them both 'hard brakers'#deeply endearing to see him joke about how he's too slow for this to be his problem#it's like. at least i don't have to deal with these two assholes right now. good luck maverick :)#i do look at this and instinctively go oh post yamaha jorge <3 he became so much more chill <3 so much more comfortable in his own skin#and then i remember how him and dovi almost strangled each other like a dozen different times in those two years#idol tag
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As per the "do it alone do it scared etc" rule, I went to an art market today... It was pretty awesome, saw some cool paintings especially, and bought a bunch of fun stickers!! Also, you know you're with your people when you see someone with a Lemon Demon pin on their backpack among the visitors
#pretty exciting to see a fellow person in the wild who's in the same sort of general field of interests as me#since i'm pretty sure ld is not exactly mainstream or well known you know. esp not here#(unless that changed in the past year or two when i wasn't looking)#(also this would have been such a big deal to 2021 me honestly)#still a fair number of fans though i think. now i wonder if they could also know what a TMBG is???#i had my apollo 18 and tmbptmbg pins today actually!! they're some of my favourites#(i got the tmptmbg one last year as a prize for the drawing contest hueueue)#i have the bad habit lately of buying pins and stickers etc and then never using them though#saying this right before i make another purchase of just pins and stickers. lmao#anyway. still holding on to the dream that i'll become friends with other artists that i can meet up with often#and do cool stuff and interesting projects and such together (besides being friends and doing friends things ofc)#slowly trying to get there maybe....#goosepost
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just got an email that apple is forcing patreon to make everyone switch to a subscription model instead of first of the month payment or else they can’t keep the patreon app in the app store which is sooooo fucked. so of course everyone is being forced onto the subscription model. i kept turning it down because its shit for people who mail things and don’t want to keep track of a million sign up dates but i guess i don’t have a choice!!!!!!
#you can defer it until november 2025 but they’re starting to switch people over this november#and you can’t join a patreon in-app if they haven’t switched to subscription#which IMO isn’t worth it anyway bc part of it is that apple is going to start doing an up charge to join in-app! like i would rather people#not pay the up charge! use the website!!#anyway now i have til november next year to decide if i can deal with subscription billing or if i should find another platform. lol#and i don’t even have a huge following i feel bad for all the people who do first of the month & have a lot more people than me#this sucks why does everything keep getting worse#chatpost
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I've literally never understood parents who don't let their like... TODDLER age kids play with kids of the "opposite" gender. Like wtf do you think your 3 year old is gonna get up to????? News flash heteros people aren't literally born sexual beings and you don't need to protect your sweet baby girl from the boy from her preschool class.
Which also makes boy/girl friendships later on actually LESS TABOO meaning, if your kid grew up being friends with OTHER GENDERS, they will be less likely to see others solely as potential romantic/sexual objects and can actually have positive normal friendships with people of any sex or gender. Who fucking knew that if you don't treat something as FORBIDDEN then it stops being so appealing, especially if you have a rebellious streak
#its just fucking weird!!!!#like i know im a guy now but when i was little i was allowed to play with anyone of any gender. it wasnt a factor#my first ''friend'' (another baby about my age when i was like less than 1 year old) was a boy!!!#my parents are far from perfect vut at least they didnt treat gender as this all important thing that actually really matters#me and my siblings could do whatever we wanted with our hair and could dress how we wanted and i played with trucks and my brother played#with barbies!!! and guess what only one of us ended up trans and gay as far as i know !!!!!#also my dad took me fishing and taught me how to tie the line and bait the hooks and i sucked at it but he still taught me#he didnt assume i wouldnt want to just cus i was a 'girl' and if i ever showed any interest in mechanical stuff he would have taught me that#my mom taught my other brother how to sew just like she taught me and my sister. it wasnt cus of gender roles it was cus we were creative#our other brother might know too idk!! i havent asked. but my mom was basically a seamstress so she probably taught us all#tho i suck at it unfortunately#anyway point is stop making gender and inter-gender friendships such a big fucking deal and maybe your kid will actually grow up normal#''men and women cant be just friends'' only because you never let boys and girls be friends ☝️ 🤓
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