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Was writing a connor fic, my bad this is late
Oogly Boogly, @outlandishscenarios !! I was your secret Santa all along mwuhahahah
Happy new year, haha (im very sorry)
Beforehand; they are separate. Oh, and you smuggled them in your home.
Walmart was a wonderful place. Especially as the holidays were in full swing, and the formidable climb of high quality clothes, it was a haven of cheap thrills and a retreat for both the poor and the wealthy. A cultural center in the whole of America built on an infrastructure meant to appeal to the primitive brain, complete with just the right setup to convince us into purchasing more products- to the advertisements to persuade our subconscious minds. But all this had led to this one pivotal moment.
You hadn't thought that much of Walmart before the moment you met eyes with the Sun and Moon themed pajamas. You were just going to be in and out that day- collecting some necessities and some not, but something glittery and yellow had caught your eye and something itched inside of you to walk over to it like a magnet. And oh, were you happy about it.
You had bought the massively oversized pajamas with him specifically in mind. Bright yellow and orange in color- a fuzzy mess of sequins you knew would make an absolute mess of your washing machine; but it was far that worth it to watch him bounce from one leg to the other in surprise and elation at the gift. Just to hear the tinkling lilt of grateful happiness spilling from his voice box was a gift enough. You had known him long enough to know the differences in pitch he held in his voice- there was a clear change from real happiness, and the happiness he was programmed to portray.
“Oh, Thank you, Thank you, Thank you Y/N!” His long arms cocooned around your midriff tightly, swinging you around in dizzying circles. You wished you could get out the few syllables needed to respond in affirmative- if food didn't threaten to chase your words.
Moon was more moody, to keep it in one word. He enjoyed the things he was related to- the moon and stars and galaxy. He would idly chatter about how he admired the constellations that glittered in the sky, so firmly put in their respective spaces for generations on end, yet strung in one of the most empty and inhabitable places we know.
He enjoyed lounging in a pair of simple gray sweatpants, paired with an untucked and oversized black tee with painted splatters across it with soft airbrushing of cool toned colors to simulate the look of a pulsing galaxy. He didn't accept the gift with the same excitement as Sun did- but instead disappeared behind a corner quietly as Sun was given his comfy clothes, and in a haste put it on, stepping back into the conversation with the clothes situated neatly on his body like nothing happened at all. It was his own way of saying 'Thank you'.
“It’s snowing pretty hard outside.” He remarked, reassuming his seat on the couch bordering the window of your living room, with the utmost casualty. Edgy boy.
It was a goal far beforehand- from the very first time you found out who the daycare attendants really were behind all the paint and glitter glue and angst, to bring as much light to their life as they would allow you. Seeing firsthand how deeply they could not only feel- but scar- made you want to shower them with as much love and compassion as you possibly could.
Naturally, you smuggle two lanky animatronics out of their respective positions, and into your home. You had backup, of course. As long as you did not damage the animatronics or take them permanently, the software and repair manager, (who, frankly, might be some kind of drug dealer) gave you the green light.
Much to your delight, you discovered each one of their interests one by one.
Moon enjoyed scrapbooking. Just doing little things with his hands- gluing bits of paper together and the satisfying intricacies of stationary and ink. He enjoyed finding little pretty things, whether it be petite flowers pressed between the pages of a book for a long while- or the jumbled clippings of magazines he collected here and there. Oddly enough- you hadn't caught him accumulating most of the things he scrapbooked, they just… appeared. But the way his red eyes flickered thoughtfully as he placed pictures and film- slick with glue, carefully onto pages. Almost like he was a surgeon, he treated scrapbooking with frightening accuracy.
Sun, on the other hand, liked plants and flowers. The daycare had no windows, so your little modest house tucked away in a quiet neighborhood was one of the best places he could have been taken. You had purchased a few brightly-colored perennials from the local market earlier on in the year, and helped him plant them in the backyard during the summer.
Summer had since then come and gone, leaving nothing but blankets of snow and shorter days with a reliant chill. It was a wonderful season in terms of snuggling and warm drinks and anything related to affection and warmth, but snowstorms proved to be a great opponent in your quest to cater to your lanky robot boys. Just one nasty storm could knock down your dainty power grid, and ruin all your plans for the day. But Zeus be damned, you'd make the best out of any situation.
Is what you said in your head, but when your light did dim out while your freshly brewed coffee that just began to trickle out of the espresso machine to come to an abrupt halt; you didn't have a damn of what to do.
Zues probably heard you.
A barrage of desperately muffled curses(in order to not trigger sun) jumped freely from your mouth as both the daycare animatronics looked inquisitively at all the lights and lamps now suddenly dark in your living room.
“Hm. But the lights were just all on? Do you also have to shut the lights off to conserve energy?” Sun questioned with a tilt to his head, as you were able to see the red glowing of Moon’s eyes behind him, partially closed and exhausted. He didn't bother to say much, just a low vibrato of a sigh, of irritation or just robot fatigue, you weren't sure.
“Good God! I really can't have anything, can I? Ha, of course the fuckin-”
“Language, sunshine.”
“FREAKING!” Instantaneously, you corrected yourself. It had been so long dealing with these boys that things like Sundrop’s censorship was almost expected every time you let out a swear.
“-Power would go out. How wonderful.” Blindly, you felt yourself tumble through your house to try and find the flashlight you knew you had in a drawer in your credenza, but doing anything frustrated will only turn out to be a hot mess with you.
“Where IS that flashlight?!” Your fingers and arms spread stiffly in front of you to navigate your own house; but you felt a lurch in your stomach as you ankle caught the leg of a couch or a table or a chair- a fall so sudden no noise could escape you- just blown eyes wide in desperation to see and avoid any possible threat. But there was nothing. Just darkness.
But Moon was oh, so familiar with the dark.
He hugged the part of you that was closest to where he was seated, hand snaking around your waist and rib cage, much like the supportive arm a parent would thrust out in case of a sudden brake while driving.
When you look behind you back to where his face is- the half-mast look in his eyes was no longer there. Red LEDs were wide and alert, this time around.
He sighed- but it sounded far more similar to a growl in his voice box “Be careful.” His faceplate was dipped slightly into the crook of your neck- as she had to pull your body towards his slightly heavier body to negate the force of the fall. “And slow down. Stop panicking.” You huffed a laugh, not really humorous at all, and clutched his hand that rested firmly on your stomach.
“Thanks… ‘preciate it, Moonie.”
He only replies with another grunt, Though this one a little softer.
“Jus’ tell me where it's at. I'll get it.”
You felt a tinge flustered, only able to watch his eyes wander down the hallway as you gave vague directions towards where you thought the nearest flashlight was, and when you finally did, his cool metal hand cupped the bottom of yours; his other hand placing the small bit of plastic in your hand.
“M’ sitting back down.” His regards were sent through a slight wave of his hand as he wandered back towards the couch. If he wasn't so close, you'd have been beside yourself in embarrassment.
“Robot boys and their subtle little acts of affection…” You stood and fiddled with the strap attached to the flashlight until the tingling heat subsided from your cheeks.
You flicked the light into the on position, finally lighting ip your carpeted floor. A few ideas of the priorities rooted in your mind as you made your way to the kitchen once again.
Sticking the flashlight in your teeth and rooting through overhead cabinets in your kitchen, you yanked out a coffee percolator from the very back of the shelving. It was heavy and old, something you probably pulled from a thrift or antique shop out of pure curiosity. Couldn't have cost much. Brushing away a mile of dust from it and blindly grabbing a bag of ground coffee- you prepared it as you could faintly remember. Coffee in the little basket-looking thing- water in the bigger container.
Flicking a match to light and twisting the knob to your oven, you lit a front eye on fire. Placing the percolator over the oven, you finally spit the flashlight from in between your teeth out and waited for what seemed like an adequate amount of time for the coffee to accumulate.
"Sunshine?" Slightly high-pitched and kindly, Sun's voice perked up behind you.
"What'cha doing?" Out of the corner of you eye, you dimly saw the outline of a hand rested on the countertop next to your hip. He was right behind you.
"I'm making coffee on the stove since the powers out." You responded simply, placing the light back in your mouth.
"Well, I can do that, sunshine." He tugged lightly at the dangling strap, looking at you with slightly less bright LED eyes as Moons, watching as it fell from your lips.
"How sweet of you!" You traded him an equally soft smile, as his rays spun a little in recognition of the praise.
Your blind grab for mugs resulted in a few mis-matched ones, different in size and color but fine enough for your purposes. The dark and rich liquid spilled from the nozzle into each cup, and you fixed them how you thought they each would like it. Sun’s- milky and overly sweet, closer to creamer than actual coffee you’d assume. And moons, pitch black with only a tad of sugar.
You felt a little bad that they couldn't drink any of it per se, but Sun explained how he liked the way the steam came out of the mug. Moon just enjoyed the feeling of being included. And with his help, you located your hoard of wool blankets in the linen closet to wrap you all in comfortably finding a few scented candles you had never bothered to use and lit them for the dim lighting.
You found a dimpled spot on your couch a little next to Moondrop, and spread the blanket over the length of your arm to cover you both. Sunny boy followed keenly behind, holding his own blanked and finding a nook at the other side of you to properly get comfortable in. All three of you were tied together mostly by one blanket, but with the knots of throws and piled if pillows, one couldn't really tell.
You noticed moon was decently cool to the touch. Like the hand that had caressed you earlier, the metal connecting his limbs were smooth and cold. Not a wet cold that made you shiver, but beneath the heat of the blankets, all you wanted to do was lean closer to him. Like the cooler side of the pillow on a summer night.
But Sundrop was a whole different animal. You thirsted after every drink of warmth he produced. Sun’s fans were like white noise, rested against his chest, a more sustained and softer version of rainfall. Of course he had silicone padding for the safety of the kids- but an extra warm body? Fans whirring inside of him like the gentlest of air conditioners?
You had to fight the sand underneath your eyes to stay in the moment.
But you stayed sandwiched, peppering little kisses on their faceplate every so often, and drawing little reassuring shapes on whatever you could reach with the soft pads of your fingers. Goodness, with the candles and the warmth you were encased in, you weren't sure how long you were going to last. You might as well leave with something, you thought, before you conked out cold on both of them.
Sundrops soft eyes with a graceful light spilling from them.
And Moon with his red, passionate half mast gaze.
"You're both so pretty." You tucked yourself further into the blanket, sleep fogging your brain intensely with the certainty of death.
What was there ever really to worry about?
You fell asleep without an answer.
Ew! I hate it. This is my first time writing fluff, actually haha. Horror and smut are more down my alley, but it was really interesting to try to write something new. Genuinely apologizing to @outlandishsenarios. Happy Christma-Hannu-Kwanza-nothingatall!
Just now kinda realizing I focused on moon alot. Welp! Its here now
#DCASS#dcass2022#ofc i didnt stay up to write this#lol#the writer has a perfecly good sleeping schedule#with ideal time management skills#sorry 4 spelling mistakes#was half asleep writing this#not sure if im awake or not writing this#goodnight
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Sometimes venturing onto the For You side of Twitter sparks joy.
Based take. Shoujo and Josei are fucking top notch, both in characters and art style (how can you not think they’re beautiful?)
“Ruined the JJK and MHA fandoms” is WILD. I avoid fandoms for the most part (except perusing tumblr for the occasional fucking thesis women write about character motivations i love you women <3) because they usually suck. Seriously, I kept up with OPM for a bit because it was entertaining but holy shit the subreddit (very much full of men) is literally just… sexy woman. More sexy woman. Memes about artist constantly drawing sexy woman. Memes. Occasional power scaling arguments. Low quality page colorings of the exact same page. There is NOTHING. How the hell can women ruin the fandom when the fandom IS the women?!
It’s the women creating in depth analyses on characters; it’s the women writing fanfiction, creating doujinshis; it’s the women creating fandom centered accounts; it’s the women buying every new merch piece that comes out AND giving free advertising by posting about it online. And then men will go on and rag on women for doing all these things. It’s infuriating.
Longevity of a series is also something these idiots ignore. Seriously, look at Katekyo Hitman Reborn. The manga ended in 2012 and the creator is working on a different series. Katekyo Hitman Reborn still gets regular merch releases. This is a series that ended over a decade ago and still has an incredibly dedicated fanbase of, I wonder who, that regularly spends enough money to keep it consistent. You cannot look me in the eyes and tell me that series is supported mainly by men. I do not care how hard Amano Akira tried to alienate her female fans with her treatment of the female characters you know exactly whos spending the money based on who is constantly getting merch (minus the titular character, because of course he has to be there.)
Honestly I don’t give a damn that fandom can often be absolute insanity; you get a group of people together and it’s always going to be a shitshow, that isn’t unique to fandom, people just like to pretend it is because as always, there’s an undercurrent of misogyny because people know women carry that shit but they only want to acknowledge it when they can use it to criticize them.
I love that she came for the JJK fandom as well. I’ve been following the series because honestly it is really fucking funny because it is the epitome of shounen tropes. The author literally baked them into the world. Explaining your abilities to the opponent makes them stronger. So this entire series you get giant pages of just white with text explaining every little fucking thing like theres a narrator standing over your shoulder making sure you can’t possibly miss anything on the first read. Fuck dude, I don’t mind exorbitant amounts of text in my manga, but you cannot be serious in pretending that is good writing. There’s a deus ex machina that every character can pull out of their ass called a binding vow. Black flash also falls into this category.
Hell, the latest arc has literally just been flashback after flashback playing during the battle of the characters forming a bunch of plans in preparation for the fight we currently are following. This is genuinely one of my most hated tropes. The characters just get off screen power ups that then get handwaved as “well we showed you the flashback right?” there is NO anticipation, any excitement you feel for the battle is purely manufactured rather than genuine. It’s not “I can’t wait to see how the growth I followed of these characters affects the battle” it’s “wow, what cool ability will they pull out of their ass next?” I hate it I loathe it and it’s even worse with emotional moments. Why couldn’t you write this into the story in the first place? Why are you giving it to me in a shitty flashback?
Maybe I didn’t explain it well enough because I launched into a rant. The reason I hated it so much is because it forced the reader to be an observer rather than an active participant in the manga. Everything is spoonfed to you. You don’t need to reread the chapters over and over to put together the pieces on how, where, and why each action took place, the author does that for you. You don’t see everything from a new perspective when you read it a second time, catching lots of things you may have missed because you’re not allowed to miss anything the author deems important.
I enjoy this manga. There is good things about it. But it is nowhere near the god manga (“kamige” would be the term if it was a visual novel; I don’t know a manga equivalent) men like to pretend it is. It genuinely seems like they think everything being explained every page is good writing.
Based and succinct.
Anyway, you shouldn’t restrict yourself from experiencing specific genres because they’re for “the lessers” because that’s actually fucking cringe and maybe you should touch a Josei manga, or even a Shoujo manga. Maybe it’ll open your eyes and you’ll realize, hey, women’s media is actually- oh who the fuck am I kidding just pull the trigger.
#taking the bait and getting mad about things that dont matter dot rtf#i would genuinely love to write actual well thought out well written and well researched essays on the shit im into#but going on barely edited rants is easier and gives me those feel good chemicals faster#i started this with twitter sparking joy then proceeded to go on a rant about how much hate fills my heart#i hope my ranting is at least somewhat coherent because my thought process is incredibly scattered right now#i also rant about JJKs writing because i was going to do that one of these days anyway but i read my sleeper activation phrase in a tweet#basically im mad at how much men ignore womens contributions to the series they claim to enjoy#no evidence is ever good enough for them either#you have a japanese study showing the sex division for a popular series has an even 50:50 split?#it doesnt fit the exact parameters that i believe it should! (angry mention about ‘the gays’ when they werent even brought up)#also yeah im sure when theres an even amount of both women and men watching something ONLY the men actually contribute right#ask me about my opinions i dont bite ;^)#also i need a nap because i have been awake far too long hello insomnia#was about to go to sleep then i was provoked and had to fight (opened twitter and then rant on a blog out in nowhere)#goodnight (its noon)
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While you'd think the relationship would have moved at a truly glacial pace, once together, it's only eh....five or six months before Samuels comes back to their flat with an actual honest-to-god engagement ring. Logically, they're living together, they've exchanged words of intentions for this to be a long term relationship, so he figures he should do this the proper human way.
Unfortunately, Amanda balks at the concept of being/engaged/ because what the fuck, Chris, (not counting cryo) I haven't known you for a year yet??? Poor thing assumes her distaste is because he grossly misread their situation and his place in her life. She has to stress to him that it's not him, not the color of his blood ("Amy, it's not really blood,") just that its awfully fast. Its enough to calm him down but he's still embarrassed, and then the horror of having to return the ring occurs to him and--
"Why would you return it?"
"You said--"
"Hold on to it, for a little while." She never wanted to be anyone's wife, anyone's mother, anyone's possession...But if anyone on the planet would understand the hesitation she had with commitment, it would be the man she helped carve company logos out his fingerprints.
"Do you mean it?"
It breaks her heart, the way he's beaming at her like she actually accepted instead of requesting an extension, but his sheer /joy/ is infectious. He's like her, so very dry and to the point, their shared sense of humor is subtle, sarcastic, and often dark--yet she cracks, and she's giggling. Samuels can't laugh: almost no synthetic can by design, it's too complex of a biological process to bother mimicking but she knows if he could, he'd be joining her.
He over thinks how long "a while" is and goes through a monthly crisis, takes to carrying the ring in his coat, but never asking out of fear it hasn't been long enough. Amanda finds it there one day about four months later, while looking for a missing key. Christopher finds her sitting on the bedroom floor, glassy eyed, coat over her knees, twisting the ring around (of course it fits perfectly he probably laser measured her hands)
"If...you want, you can keep it on." Amanda nods slowly, the realization of the 'yes' sinking in belatedly she she has to stand shakily to hug him. Tightly.
#ripuels#alien isolation#ive misses them so much#like theres an actual novel im writing rn and a couple other ships that rotate but THESE TWO....#theyre always lurking#sometimes i rotate thru characters in my head at night to see what theyre up to#most often theyve just ended their day#and amanda is showering off the grime of work and chris is making her dinner#while the tv reports a news story about some debate about synthetics and he only half listens#more than anything it reminds him not to forget the coolant in the freezer and amanda walks out of thr bathroom with her hair wet#barefoot and in an oversized band shirt and a pair of his boxers#he smiles a little. not at her long bare legs or her obvious lack of a bra but bc he likes her hair down#she makes a remark about the news story and he deflects it with some dark humor#she walks past him to the fridge for a beer and they play a board game over dinner that amanda has never won even though chris swears#its just chance and no skill#they stay up too late and go to bed and nearly pass out immediately#amanda stays awake just long enough to make sure Chris's charger is working#and then falls asleep while he reads a book ii the dark
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see i think the problem with bein out in public socializing for a 3rd day in a row is that ive only slept 3 hours last night
#shut up dave#sure im like. seemengly way more awake and functional than my friend who also slept barely over 4 hrs#i think i had a follow up to that but i forgot in the time it took me to write it
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Giratina is often said to be Arceus' last child. By extension, this must make Palkia and Dialga the first and second.
Herein arises a problem, a longstanding debate, and its eventual resolution. Neither time nor space can be said to be greater or more important than the other; therefore, the two are held to be twins.
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Volo's plan is quite simple. The meddling of Sinnoh's lesser servants cannot be tolerated. They must be dealt with somehow. And he knows of no limiter more effective—no chains more tightly binding, no prison more perfectly restrictive—than a human body.
The Pearl Clan's newest visitor—Ingo, if that is his name, though there's always that lingering uncertainty about it—he isn't sure how to answer any other questions about himself, either. His knowledge of Hisui is too strangely absolute for a newcomer. It suggests long familiarity with the territory—but if that's the case, why does nobody else in the region recognize him?
Irida presents the Lustrous to him, once, as is tradition.
It is agony.
Just standing in its presence is a pressure like the bottom of the deepest ocean, like a singular force bearing down on him without mercy. To touch it is—he suddenly feels as though his body cannot possibly contain him, like something is pulling him to pieces—the light of the pearl is blinding—
To provoke a reaction from Sinnoh's treasure is a sign of divine recognition. It usually isn't... like... that. But still, if you ignore that discrepancy—and the Pearl Clan is nothing if not good at ignoring discrepancies—it can only mean good things for a warden. Right?
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Deities move on a glacial scale, or so it seems at times to humans. Nevertheless, imprisoning a god—binding it to a human form to prevent its intervention—cannot be without consequence. Nor will it go unnoticed by its fellows.
It takes Hisui a long time to notice, but reality has... gone strange. Eroded. The seas stretch on endlessly. Mount Coronet is a spear against a yawning void. The winter has become eternal; days are short and nights are long, and the more time passes—though perhaps that phrase is not so apt—the less rhyme or reason there is to the changing of the celestial bodies.
And far beyond, in a realm above both time and space, a once-dual, now-singular god rages...
#the nemesis speaks#swift writes#pokefic pitch#it is. SO late and i should not be awake. but do you ever just get slapped in the face with an idea#yes im sure someone else has pitched something like this DON'T CARE DIDN'T ASK#anyway#intentionally sort of vague bc i have a couple nebulous thoughts on how this could go#ingo is almost definitely palkia in this drabble and i like the thought of the pearl clan unknowingly#harboring their Deity. that's fun.#but there's also something very fun about him being *dialga* instead#and then there's the question of where the persona of ''ingo'' comes from. is that just the form palkia took for Reasons?#OR is ingo a Real Human Person who volo summoned via the rift—purely to use as a prison for the god#and now his consciousness is completely crushed and repressed by the deity.#options!#uuuughhh should i tag this with real tags or not ugghgh
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Someone stop me sending a passive-aggressive thank you for considering it message to the lecturer who said she wouldn't let me take a quiz at a later date despite my being like. actually pretty sick.
#Sighhhhh#Id skip it but the developmental psych lecturer hates me and is determined to sink my gpa#So i might as well do well in this course#When asked about low marks on the midterm. (which went really well actually. I knew all the answers /and/justified them.) she said content#Was good but the writing was really bad#Huh? T.T#Like it's totally legible. Not cutesy yes. But legible...#ANYWAY. im gonna loudly drag a chair off to the side tomorrow. 'sorry. Just making sure i dont get anyone else sick. Continue please :)'#Also sneezing every few minutes today so that should be fun in class tomorrow :)#:)#(ok im kidding but also am i really dragging myself out of bed tomorrow? T.T everything hurts and my throat itches and my body has yet to#Decide if it wants a fever or not because im alternating between feverish and then the hated fever-breaking state#:(#I attend every class. I stay awake. I answer questions. I do well in exams/quizes/assignments. Ive earnt a sick day :(
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Semi-hiatus? Hiatus? It's one of those. I'm going to be non existent so might as well go on one. Step by step on why I'm taking time of and just with how busy I'll be.
15th - 21st July - I am working 6 days this week and my one day off I have to essentially pack my suitcase for comic con as well as do con prep like ensuring my wigs are good and doing last minute touches on Wallys cosplay.
22nd - 28th July - I will be working the start of the week. Thursday I will be off but I am flying to England and then will be spending the rest of the week plus Monday there.
29th July - 4th August - I fly Monday night back home. I'll be spending the next couple days I'm off just recovering from comic con. I'll be back to work either Thursday or Friday I'm unsure but I'll most likely work long shifts them days.
When I have free time I will be creating a new blog for Wally. I've decided he's getting his own blog. I'm hoping with the free time I do have I'll be able to get it set up so it's ready for when I'm back. I will post a link for the new blog.
I'm hoping to have things done for the 5th but I'll have to wait and see if anything else decides to appear.
#【☆】 ooc ramblings / asks.#【☆】 updates / psa.#// i'll place this in my pinned when I'm awake#// im sleepy writing this#// i'll go over it when i add this to pinned#// now for sure i go to bed!!!!
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oooh there about to be some mfing ND on ND crime at work if this fucker keeps trying me
#high anxiety noise sensitivity high sense of justice ND#meets vocal stims and 'doesnt do his job because he knows he can get away with it and push shit onto other ppl' ND#like he NEEDS a job coach and he needs help but there's like. INTENT in this shit he does. like he KNOWS and i feel like#all the NT's at work just ignore it and let him do it because they dont fucking realize it IS something he can help and change#he has focus issues and memory issues. all valid but not at all related how he actively ignores direction or gets sassy and how ill watch#him fuck shit up after having looked around to make sure no one sees him. shit he's been told SOOOO many times how to do/etc. AND HE KNOWS#i have told this bastard sO MANY TIMES to not abandon me in the evening to cover his TEN+ MINUTE BATHROOOOM BREAAAAAAAAKS!!!!!!!!#and he just walked out before i could even say No. I won't be Covering Your Position. Get a Manager.#and i was late getting home#wishing ill intent on him!!!! im tired of everyone having to fix his shit or deal with his gross behavior or get extra work#just because management doesnt know how to deal with a bad employee who HAPPENS to be ND and because corp wont get him a job coach#it's not FAAAAAAIR AND IM OVER IT!!!!#cw negativity#anyway the plus side of coming home pISSED is im awake and ready to write#and like MULTIPLE PEOPLE HAVE QUIT /because/ of this dude like idk if there's legal shit involved or like fucking what but like i have#no idea why he still has a job. he's been there longer than me btw. i think at some point he said like fucking 5 years#PERISH!!!!
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A kiss as a "yes"
I'm not sure if you have strong character preferences but... Maybe pick two from Eden?
Ask game
25. …as a ‘yes’.
I had to think about the exact scenario for this one but I was very instantly drawn to it being NagiHiyo. I really should read more Eden stories eventually....
The two children were laying on Hiyori's bed, looking through the most recent idol magazine together. Nagisa always thought that the two of them would make a good duo some day, jealous of the idols on the cover that so easily drew Hiyori's attention.
"We should become idols someday," he thought aloud. Hiyori turned to look at him.
"That would be fun, wouldn't it." Hiyori chuckled, flipping through the idol magazine for something. "Let's see...here we go. 'What it takes to be an idol!' Hmm...Nagisa-kun, do you think you could do all of this?"
Nagisa skimmed the interview Hiyori had found and nodded along. "Hmm...I don't see why we couldn't."
"With your mysteriousness and my charm, I'm sure we could become the best idols ever!" The two of them chuckled at the image of them singing and dancing together on stage. It was a lovely dream to Nagisa.
"Then...will you promise me that we'll become idols someday?" Nagisa asked, turning back to Hiyori.
Hiyori leaned in and pecked his cheek, a light blush dusting both of their cheeks. "I promise."
#message in a bottle#clockworkspider#enstars#nagisa ran#hiyori tomoe#nagihiyo#this one is short and im. not entirely versed on eden dynamics#i gave a quick glance at their relationship page on the wiki. uuu i really should read some war era stuff w them and shit#but theyre like. babies here (9ish? young children) just having a little fun late at night before hiyori's parents realize#that theyre still awake and make them go to bed.#originally i wanted to do like. a confession thing but i wasnt entirely sure on that so it kinda turned into this?#also i will at least try to write for anyone in enstars. there's just some people im more versed with than others#but i like the challenge of writing other characters and making excuses to dig into other units i havent had a chance to really get to know#i am reading duel rn from ! era. almost done with it ehehe but i'll look for maybe some war era stuff later#that i havent already read anyway
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ok so you know these cute AF glasses? the ones that every pink gal and pal loves?????
i had a terrible, BUT CREATIVE, idea...
these glasses but atomically accurate hearts...
and there's another version of them where it's both red and blue, like those diagrams in the biology books....
JUST SAYING..... would be funny to wear them.... imagine the insane queer outfits out of this....we could be slayying... just saying 💅
THIS but as coloured glasses !
i'll accept constructive criticism in the language of silly goose,
plz and ty
#terrible but creative idea#queer things#i am half awake as im writing all this i WILL admit#but like#think about it#also... has this been done before???? surely not??? right???
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haven't been able to get back to sleep 🙃
#never did call the pharmacy but i might tomorrow or monday#i have an alarm for 10:15 for rwby but im considering shutting it off tbh and ill just watch it first thing#i dont trust the internet not to spoil it instantly lmaoo thats part of why i have these alarms#id call the pharmacy today but we're being fucked by some snow and yk. yeah#and i dont wanna drive in it and i DEFINITELY dont wanna walk in it. i also have a headlight out </3#plus im pretty sure theyre gonna need to contact my doctor#rn im just tired.#i think i am gonna shut my alarm off tho#tbh when i made that i was mostly thinking of being awake and losing track of time#but rn i am so tired ive been busy both with irl stuff and with writing stuff
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sigh
#also this is why these are the times that get me thinking about getting tested for autism again#because i seemingly cannot deal with any new social sitchies#because even thought technically i know that the museum trip itself would probably be chill the stuff surrounding it makes me ill#cause its over two days in a different city which in theory is fine but looking for a place to stay and having to like organize food#and getting there in the first place. and id still have to do a presentation for it#and some other stuff i procrastinated over this term so i could then write the paper and finish the module but i kind of already fucked it#by not attending another seminar id need to finish the module. because i forgot about it until later in the semester and then id have had to#email people and i couldnt? do it? apparently.#and then i get fixated on stupid shit for days on end and cant make myself think about anything else instead of doing uni work#but to circle back in my heart i actually know im not autistic. its perhaps something else or im just organically overwhelmed by being alive#and like i am really embarrassed by considering an autism assessment. online brained and not proud of it lmao#im sure theres typos in this please ignore. also if my sentences dont make sense im only half awake#pax posts
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feeling a mxmtoon autumn coming up
#the situation is a banger#sabs speaks#unrelated but im so sleepy#i accidentally napped during the day#ive been feeling rlly bad nausea for the past week plus w period stuff its been Rough#and u might think sabs surely u napping during the day doesnt mean you have to go to bed at 5am#and that u would be correct if my ass wasnt up writing n watching streams#yesterday was 4sd today was luxie the night before them both was also luxie and tomorrow might be more cr#this is why u should never have a special interest ever u will never sleep again it sucks#i love sleeping#and Yet im still awake#i was actually free from my tb plague but then they annouced the quangles and like we might not even get that one till december so now they#are awake in my head again#i tell a lie honestly im probably also awake because of the deep Dread going on right now#and thats why im up stupidly chasing dopmine#but thats not as fun as dnd blorbos soooo
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#ughhhh i started writing a quick bro / dave for todays date but im def not gonna finish in 45 minutes nooooo#its my ki.nk and i wanted to savour what i was writing by dragging it out hffffffff#wish i thought to start it before last night ughhhhh#but ughhhhhhhh dudeeeee its hapeninggggggggggg#god im so fucking thorsty for it#no one writes it the way i want it#and now ive gone and made it silly by trying to do it for today#but i cant just take those parts out bc they're so... baked... into the plotline#hfffffffff why didnt i just make this its own thing ughhhhhh (bc dave would never wanna do that sober thats why)#hffffffffffff screams#writing sm. ut is so time consuming for me#(tbh writing is on its own lol)#but to write. my fave thing. for the first time. its a lot of pressure for a fic that was supposed to be a quick joke#bro ended up being fucking smitten as hell too bc thats how i feel abt this ki. nk lmao#i dont think im even gonna get hi tonight lmao its okay a holiday doesnt mean shit when its something i do on the reg#im so tired hhhhh im just wasting more time typing out more tags bc im too tired to write fic words lol ugh#delete later / /#maybe i will so i can just go the fuck to sleep rn and write more when im more awake. date be damned. im not finishing in 30 mins lol#and even if i did finish in 30 mins i sure as hell aint proofreading and posting within 30 mins#ok yeah gonna get ready for bed and set the writing down for when im not gonna write something rushed ill regret and have to undo later
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I love taking naps but the dreams i get are fucking wack
#so like i'm in a state where i wasn't totally sure i was fully awake or asleep#im laying down on my bed in the same way i woke up in (on my left side) scrolling news#something is playing on the tv (i assume music? i wasnt paying attention)#i come across news that said [author name] who wrote this book was found dead#i'm like oh shit the book that person wrote probably had info in it that put them on the govt hit list#i go to text bf about it and then the tv stops whatever was playing#i hear a deep voice say 'enough of this off it goes' and the tv goes black. turns off like one of those old tvs#obviously my tv doesnt do that. so immediately i'm like oh shit media blackout???#and my text to bf gets even more urgent. i actually wake up before the dream continues#i remained awake and stayed weary about it for like 10 mins bc what the fuck kind of dream#i dont typically write down my dreams but i woke up Shook. not like a nightmare but i def woke up with urgency
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God once my situation is better and I actually get the motivation to write/draw again? I will be unstoppable.
#personal#I'm so so tired#and i've been working so hard to make sure I'll be free. every time I think im done more just keeps piling on. but im so so close to freedo#just a little less than 2 weeks now#ill be able to eat when im hungry and drink when im thirsty and not worry about how much noise im making and ill be able to sleep#like jesus christ just to be able to SLEEP. for years i slept by keeping lights on so it wouldnt look like i was sleeping#and i had to be ready to be wide awake/pretend i wasnt sleeping in a moments notice#These weeks can't pass fast enough#I just want a home. So so badly#and freedom. and food. and safety.#and to not feel like a burden#ill have my own bed too. an actual bed. something soft that doesnt hurt#even gonna have a bathtub. its gonna be so relaxing.#i miss art and i miss writing. i really hope once things are settled that i can get back to that#it doesnt feel real yet#ive fought so hard to be free my whole life and now its so close#sorry i just need to vent and no one reads tags like these anyway so it works#sort of#everything is so overwhelming#q
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