#not badly but it's just gonna mean it scars even more isn't it because of course

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

friendly reminder that self harm is lying to you

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

Am I the asshole for calling a (now ex-) mutual a stingy asshole?

So to start, I (NB20) am in a pretty rough situation, I'm facing homelessness soon, transphobia at home and work and my hours have been getting cut resulting in me making even less money that can sustain me. I have a toyhou.se forum post up stating I have emergency commissions open to help me out and to please support me if you can. This is where the situation begins. I have a mutual on toyhou.se who I'll call Apple (MTF22) I talk to sometimes to the point I'd say we are friends, not super close but friends nonetheless. She made a bulletin telling people about my commissions and to please comm me if they could which I'm very grateful for since I did get a few customers from her because of that. The thing is, a few weeks later, she made a bulletin talking about how happy she was so many commissions she bought were finished around the same time and posted all of them with the artists tagged in the post. It was honestly... quite a few, I'm talking like 9 pieces of art of her fursona and even a custom vtuber model she got of her sona. I was going to reply all happy for her, but it made me think... how much did she spend on those commissions?? So I went through all the artists socials to find their commission prices and came to a total of fucking $385!!! More than half of my current goal I'm trying to make through commissions to stay out of homelessness!! So I messaged Apple saying since I saw she bought a few commissions if she was interested in buying a comm from me. She replies saying "Ohh! I'd love to <333 but im just not in a place to buy any more comms right now :< sorry >.<!!" So I casually reply really? because it seems like your in the perfect place to help me out after already spending over $300 in commissions. She tells me she's sorry and really wishes someone would be able to help me out but she just wasn't that interested in my art or a custom to which I tell her she could've easily donated to my ko-fi which I have always had since she clearly has money to spend? To this, she straight up IP blocks me. So still fucking annoyed, I vented in a discord server I share with a few friends from being in a few shared CS together, saying how annoying it is rich assholes like her would drop half a thousand for a picture of their fursona but don't even blink twice at their so called friends. anyway, one of my friends takes a look at Apples th profile and notices she has a new bulletin up and sends me a screenshot, but anways the bulletin reads like "hey!! just saying, but please dont come into my dms acting like you know my financial situation better than i do, just because i buy a lot of commissions doesnt mean im made of money! and please dont think that me commisioning artist 1 means i hate artist 2? thats so weird, thanks!!!!!" and seeing all their subscribers just kissing her ass pissed me off so i made my own bulletin that just stated "i thought it was pretty fucking weird to know how bad ur friend's situation was and to go buy a bunch of comms instead of buying a comm from or even throwing a buck to help me out? like yeah im gonna think i know ur situation better than u, you stingy fuck!!!" Anyway, she mustve been block evading (which I reported her for) since she unblocked me, took a screenshot of my bulletin, then went on about how she lived in an abusive household; her dad had thrown her into a sink and chipped her tooth, bruised half her face and scarred it pretty badly. She bought a bunch of commissions immediately afterwards in a panic to make herself feel better, paying everything with her savings. Which to me.. isn't an excuse. Ive been hit and abused and still found scraps of money to pull together to give to mutuals who need it and Ive been bumping my own post like crazy and she had literal weeks to donate or comm me. Not to mention Ive had exmutuals of hers come to me saying that shes never donated anything to them either despite advertising their posts but always had money for plushies, comms and other crap, meaning Im not alone in thinking shes a stingy asshole. This is getting long, so here, tumblr AITA?

What are these acronyms?

[photoniccyclone]

Crack Theory: Zym Will Be the One To Save Claudia

Sounds crazy right? But here me out, I may be huffing some major copium right now and it requires some other headcannons to come true but when you think about it... this could be a really cool thing for them to do.

Zym can talk now, which means he's gonna need to be a charatcer and do character things, what better way to do that then take a crack at saving Claudia and bringing a new perspective the others didn't? Picking up where they failed?

In order to be saved now, after all the damage that's been done to her, she's going to need two things in my eyes.

A lot of empathy. Those who try to save her need to have sympathy and empathy for her situation and while not agreeing with what she did, have the understanding of why she did them and what she's going through, and have the ability to be patient with her and help her when she's struggling. This is going to be hard for a lot of the cast. Rayla definitely can not do this because she just downright hates her (she spent the two year time jump trying to kill her) so she's out. The rest, their emphathy has been spent potentially after their failed attempts to save her, which were, not very successful for a variety of reasons i.e tricking her with a fake mom (diabolical) or straight up making her feel gaslit. (I'm referencing the "I think we have different bone feelings" it's important to note that I don't think Soren was gaslighting her because he truly believed in what he said, but to someone like her, it can come across as gaslighting.) Or not giving her the time of day, but that's not the point. The point is that the rest of the cast feels they've done all they can, even Soren feels that way, remember he begs Terry to let him kill her! While we don't know where Zym stands on this, we can start to sow some doubt in his mind about the dragaang's methods. This will not only help explain why Zym wants to try and take a crack at saving Claudia but also help develop him into his own character who isn't just Ezran 2.0. Maybe him and Ez can even have a disagreement over this at some point! Wouldn't it be cool to see an argument or a bit of a temporary falling out between these two? Zym has been shown to be extremely emphathetic so far, similar to Ezran and has a chance that he could feel like he could bring something new to the table that the gang hasn't tried before which I will get into later. (ANNNNDDDDD, if a certain headcannon holds true he might be perfect for the job)

A proper addressing of Xadia's crimes. Yes, she's definitely going to need this. What Xadia did in the past drives a lot of her character, maybe not as much as family but it's a huge motivator, and it must sting really hard when her own brother contradicts everything with "I don't have the same bone feelings". It could easily be going through her mind right now like "Are you crazy? after everything they did to us your just all lovey dovey with them? Like it just didn't happen?". Someone is going to need to acknowledge what happened, clearly and definitively and also apologize for it and deliver the promise that they will make sure it will never happen again. Now... who better to deliver this message to her than the literal King of The Dragons himself who literally has the power to make it never happen again? Could this cure her instantly? No, maybe not... Claudia is hurting badly and the scars run deep, but that could be the beginning to set off a chain reaction that Zym could help her through by instilling point 1.

Now, if a certain headcannon comes true which could make narrative sense, it would just make this all the more powerful. You know how Ezran is an empath with animals? Like he can basically talk to them to an extent and can also feel their pain (novelizations), what if Zym is the same, but for humans and elves. This is not entirely baseless either, other than providing cool symmetry it would also explain why Zym is able to communicate telepathically with Ezran to an extent. It's two empaths connecting to each other. If Zym has this power, he could potentially understand what Claudia feels on a deeper level then anyone else because he literally feels it too, and thus would easier be able to empathize with her making point 1 all the more plausible.

And on top of everything... I just feel it would be really sweet. I love Zym, I love Claudia and seeing Zym be a character by performing something so monumental and helping someone who clearly needs help would just be... kinda heartwarming to me if done correctly. That's why it's a crack theory at the end of the day. There's not hard evidence and it relies on some assumptions, but do I want it to happen? Absolutely?

But hey, if you disagree, that's fine too! :)

"But Claudia is pure evil and I want her to burn."

I disagree on that but to each their own, fine If you want that too I guess lmao.

[dvchvnde]

excerpt: dogpile | Ghoap

incest (stepson/dad). age gap. Soap solo.

Soap is three fingers deep inside of himself, pretending it's Simon splitting him open on his cock, before he's ready to admit he has a problem.

Namely, he wants to fuck his new stepdad so bad it makes him a little stupid. 

(maybe more than a little. a lot, really—so fucking badly he can't think straight without imagining this man carving him open, squeezing inside—

an addiction. a problem—)

He entertains the idea of fucking someone else just to get it over with. Close his eyes tight and pretend the man above him is six-foot-four, three hundred and eighty pounds—a wall of muscle hiding beneath a layer of soft fat. Rolled up in scarred, mangled flesh. That the cock spearing him open is the monster he caught a glimpse of when Simon came trotting out of the shower, holding a scrap of fabric around his waist. All thick and fat, veined. Sinking inside him with a brassy, yeah, Johnny. You like tha’?

Could do it, he thinks, prodding is stretched, slick rim with two fingers. Wanting the sting. The burn. Getting a sick thrill when he imagines it's Simon instead. 

Yeah, Johnny—

Could. But he doesn't. Settles instead for his hand buried between his thighs, laying on his back as he stares up at the ceiling, and pretends he can't hear the creak of the floorboards down the hall. The sound of his mam watching her shows. Simon lurking somewhere in the foreground. Probably fiddling with his knives—a quirk his mam assures him is harmless, but he can't help wondering what she'd think if she knew the reason he went so pale at the sight of the man curved over a dizzying array of knives, long, thick fingers wrapped around the hilt, thumb pressing against the blade, is because he was imagining those hands on him.

His neck, specifically.

And fuck—

Isn't that a thought?

And Johnny knows he'd be mean about it. Fucking brute. Would squeeze and squeeze until his head went fuzzy. Vision popcorning with black motes. Make his tongue hang out, panting like a—

Dog.

("s'at what you are, Johnny? Little guard dog followin' mummy around?")

His fingers slip inside. He'd call it an accident if it wasn't his own hand, but the stretch burns, stings—just like he knew it would. And it makes him moan. Shameless. Loud. Head bowing back on the pillow, neck arching. Wanting. Greedy. Pressing, searching. Wishing every inch that it was Simon's hands on him instead. His fingers digging into his hole, hooking just on the inside of his rim. Tugging on it like the mean, cruel bastard Johnny knows he is—

("fuckin' hell—slutty little thing, ain't you?")

His mam is down the hall. In the back of his head, he knows he needs to be quiet. To swallow down the gasps, the mewls, that spill out of his bruised, sore lips, but he can't. There is an itch inside of him. A fever in his veins. He thinks he might really go mad if he doesn't cum right this minute—

The floorboards outside of his bedroom creak. Johnny goes still. Pulse racing. Thudding so harshly inside of his chest, he can feel the ache against his ribs.

His mam, he thinks, and then—shite. "Ahm busy—" he grunts, but doesn't pull his fingers out. Not yet. Not when release is still within reach; a flurry behind his ribs, a rush in his head. He clings to it now even as the handle begins to rattle.

"Mam! Ah said—"

It's quiet. And then: "aren't you gonna open the door for me, Johnny?"

[gojossotoru]

UR A TWICE FAN ME TOO I LOVE TWICEEEE

2. what do u think ur ocs would think of mine? her info is on my basically dead art acc (@namraniiart)

1. YAYYY, ANOTHER ONCE SPOTTED (fave songs are Doughnut, Talk That Talk and Look At Me btw hehe)

2. Thanks for the question!!! <3

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Frankie

she thinks Harin is cool and nicer than Lola. When Frankie met her for the first time, she was slightly concerned about the scars all over her neck and she was wondering how she got that but she doesn't want to ask Harin right away because they met for the first time and Frankie doesn't want to make her uncomfortable. They talk from time to time when Frankie was with Johnny (and him with his gang) and slowly Harin becomes comfortable with her

HARIN RANTING TO FRANKIE ABOUT HER PERSONAL ISSUES WHILE HER BEING HARIN'S THERAPIST/SISTERLY FIGURE. Although Frankie is not good at social skills, at least she can comfort people when it comes to them ranting to her, especially Harin. Overall, Frankie thinks Harin is the nicest greaser ever :3

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Charlie

not gonna lie, she wouldn't even notice her (but she does notice Harin sometimes, it's just that Charlie wears headphones all of the time and doesn't notice most of the people :/) but when Charlie sees Harin, she thinks Harin is like the rest of the greasers, tough and imitating as everyone says about the greasers. But as Charlie gets to know more about Harin and slowly trusts her, she's surprised that Harin is super kind and Charlie actually wondered if Harin was in a wrong clique (her personality didn't match with the rest of the greasers). Overall, Charlie thinks that Harin isn't really a greaser but she likes her for being really nice and not being a completely total bitch like SOMEONE...

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Barbara

They were never getting along due to the rivalries of the preps and the greasers, and Barbara used to think that Harin was mean and a bitch like Lola and pretty much treated her a little badly (but not in a classist way). Barbara used to glare at her while walking when she saw Harin and believes all the rumors of Harin because it sounds believable and legit. But 8 weeks later of being a Harin hater, Barbara considered changing her views of Harin after seeing her being really nice to someone (that someone is FRANKIE!!! surprised, surprised ^_^). Now, she isn't hateful and hostile towards Harin but she doesn't interact with her because she doesn't want another argument with the preps, it makes her want to smack them. Overall although the two are somehow rivals (but not actually really are), Barbara doesn't hate Harin anymore and considered her as someone who's misjudged by her

(yayy I'm done with this, I hope you like it 💖💖💖)

[goosewriting]

Yeahhh I’m SO GLAD you’re back!! I open tumblr every now and then to see if you've posted anything new,hope you’re doing well!🥺💖

I just got home from my graduation trip and in a while I'm going to keep preparing to apply to my grad school, I know all too well what it's like to have no motivation to study, it's always hard to get started on something serious, even when I'm drawing my own stuff, I always turn on my computer in the morning and then I don't start drawing until the evening lol

Just curious if you've found anything interesting lately? Movies and TV shows or novels or whatever, I recently read the novel I've read a million times again and started reading battle scars 🫡

And am looking forward to your new works! hope to see you write more about Cal, your writing of Cal is my favorite, you're a genius at writing Cal!🥹🤲❤️

Have a nice day and hope you do well at the finals<333

(This is my first time using ask box and I don’t know if I’m using this right,still confused about how to use tumblr 💦)

hi! thank you so much for the message and your kind words <3 they mean a lot to me! and i'm flattered to hear you like my writing that much :') 💕

i had my first final today, it was an oral exam, i thought i was going to fail because i slept very badly due to the heat and i barely studied for it, but i passed :'D so one less, two more to go. and then two essays. but that's a problem for future goose lol

i hope you had a fun trip Lin! applications are always stressful but i hope you get into your dream school<3

oof battle scars,, have fun with that one lol it's a good one! i should revisit my notes i took when i read it for future writing references lol currently i'm reading the republic commando series by karen traviss, i'm on book 3 rn. it's been such a fun read, i can't wait to speed through it after this week is over haha while it isn't canon anymore, i think the way the clones are depicted is very interesting, especially in the first book, the things the clones were taught about jedis and all that; it was a refreshing insight imo.

as for movies/tv, i'm really looking forward to arcane s2, as well as deadpool and wolverine. it feels like i've been waiting a decade for this movie! xD i miss the good ol' marvel days. i should rewatch some of the older ones now that i think about it~

ah i have some new ideas for cal that i just now remembered, so i'm gonna go jot those down before i forget lol

thank you sm again for your message, and my ask box is still open for all of you, dear goslings :D feel free to send something in!

have a fantastic week everyone, stay hydrated, have a snack. you deserve it. i'm glad you're here 🐤❤️🪿

[twistedtummies2]

Since we are in Spooky Month, what are your Twisted OCs greatest fears? Could be something mundane or psychologically scarring.

Hmmmm...that's a good one. That's a very good one. Let me see...I think for this one, I'm gonna kind of do two different answers. One will be a more mundane, possibly even silly sort of fear; the other will be something deeper and more soul-consuming, so to speak.

NAKODA

Nakoda does not like fire. He's based on Kaa, and while Kaa never SPECIFICALLY points out an aversion to flames - that's really more Shere Khan's thing - we can presume it's not something he likes. In the movie, and ESPECIALLY in the original books, it's indicated that ALL jungle creatures fear "The Red Flower." Kaa included. So I think, as homage to that, fire would be something Nakoda isn't especially fond of. In his case, though, I think it's more likely because he got burned pretty badly at some point in his youth; not sure where or if he still has the scars, but regardless, that sort of makes him averse to flames. On a deeper and more psychological level, Nakoda is afraid of being...worthless. I think that's really the great fear in his heart: that nothing he does or will do will be WORTH anything. This is ironic, because a big part of Nako's character is that he lives in the moment, and isn't really sure of his future...but I think, deep down, he recognizes that's an issue. He WANTS to be worth something: that, I think, is the "control of his life" that he desperately seeks. He just doesn't know how to get it or what form of worth he really needs to find.

BILLY

Billy's greatest fear is loneliness. It's something he's experienced for a very long time, and it's something he hates feeling to the depths of his soul. His worst nightmare would be everyone he has gained in his life suddenly just disappearing off the face of the Earth, with no sign they ever even existed. He craves affection, attention, and companionship above all else; the whole reason he tried to kidnap Grim and the other "little ones" he first befriended was because he just wanted those things, and didn't know how else he was going to get them. It took him time to realize you can't force people to care about you and stay with you, but that doesn't mean he doesn't still fear people not doing those very things. I would say a more mundane fear he has is...(thinks)...honestly, only thing I can think of is some of his own schoolmates, specifically the likes of Malleus, Lilia, and - to a lesser degree - Vil. He does not want to make them mad. Basically, any specific person that could potentially do him harm. Beyond that, not really sure, since a lot of the more common obvious fears I think Billy wouldn't be bothered by at all. He likes spiders, he likes clowns, he's not scared of sharp things, he very obviously doesn't have an issue with heights...maybe claustrophobia could be one? I dunno, it's weirdly difficult thinking of what could scare him just on a more "obvious" sort of level. XD

ELIAS

Elias has an understandable aversion to water. Taking a shower is one thing, that can be nice, but he's not fond of swimming, not fond of heavy rain, certainly not fond of flooding and other such things...basically, unless it involves soap and him singing in the shower, he's not big on water. In his natural state, obviously it doesn't hurt him, but when he's in Blot form, water is a primary weakness for him, so that sort of carries over. A more complex fear Elias has is the fear of being forgotten. It's why he craves the spotlight so much, why he puts on the show of being "The Phantom Blot," why he occasionally gets so hammy and wants everything to be big and spectacular. He wants to have a lasting impact. His worst nightmare would be everyone he ever met forgetting he ever even existed.

RENO

Bug Spray, for a start. I think the reasons why are understandable, albeit comical. I also have this silly thought in my head of him being afraid of flyswatters...for no other reason than the idea of someone chasing him around with a flyswatter in their hand, and him whimpering like a baby even though it wouldn't actually do any real harm to him, is HILARIOUS to me. XD Beyond that...I'd say his worst fear is losing the things he cares about. A vague notion, perhaps, but I think it's the best descriptor I can give: his fear isn't so much that people will forget him, or that he'll just be alone, it's specifically that the people and things he cares about most will be TAKEN AWAY from him, with him being unable to stop that from happening. For someone who will do anything to win, loss ITSELF is probably the greatest fear they can have. And the higher the stakes, the more he dreads that loss.

JAMES

James is equal parts afraid of and flustered by the thought of getting eaten and digested alive, much like me/the MC. >////> So that's an obvious one right off the bat. But beyond that, I think James' greatest fear - what he's TRULY scared of - is death itself. It's WHY the thought sort of scares him as well as flusters him, actually. Because on the one hand, the idea of being permanently preserved as part of some other, stronger, mightier beast is something that makes him blush and squeak. But on the flip side, that means losing who he is, and James has QUITE the ego. On still another side, however...there's the alternative. Aging. Growing Old. Feeling your body shut down around your soul as you draw nearer and nearer to an uncertain and unstoppable end. Getting eaten, digested, and made part of some gorgeous animal's body is a certain and disturbingly appealing fate, in the way James sees and imagines it. Simply...fading from youth and life as time goes on...that is what James REALLY fears. Just like his inspiration, Captain Hook, James is afraid of time ticking away.

SMITTY

So, this may sound silly, at first, but...Smitty is afraid of jellyfish. Seriously. Not a joke. While most people think they are beautiful creatures to behold, he thinks they're freaky and creepy. And when you add in the absolutely nasty things jellyfish can do, he just gets more and more disturbed by them. So jellyfish are a genuine fear for him. He can take all kinds of other beastly creatures, but jellyfish? Perish the thought. (This is all inspired by the version of Smee in the Disney-published book series "Peter and the Starcatchers": he, too, is afraid of jellyfish, and even suggests naming a Pirate Ship after them, specifically because he thinks they are so scary.) Beyond that, I think Smitty's greatest fear is abandonment. He's afraid of being left behind by the people he cares for most - the most obvious one, of course, being James. The idea that those he cares for most could just stop caring about him and leave him behind, without another thought...that terrifies and saddens him deeply.

MAELSTROM

Maelstrom is afraid of sharp, pointy objects. Not to an excessive degree, mind you: he can handle a butter knife or a pair of scissors just fine. But due to personal and unpleasant experiences, a lot of really sharp, pointed, metallic objects just give him an unpleasant, unsettling feeling. Swords, spears, daggers...harpoons...very large hooks...not a fan of any of those. On a more personal, deeper level...I think Maelstrom is probably most afraid of what many bullies like him are truly afraid of: being seen as weak and small. His worst nightmare would probably be something like finding himself in a fishbowl with giant versions of people he's tormented tapping on the glass and jeering at him...perhaps a couple even threatening to swallow the "little blue fish" for no other reason than sport. Basically, put him on the opposite end of what he's probably put a lot of tiny ones through, and he'll be a babbling little baby.

THEODORE

Much like Elias, Theo has an aversion to water. However, in his case, it's a much less understandable issue. Unlike his inspiration, Theo won't melt if you throw a bucket of water on him...but he REALLY doesn't like getting wet. A bit like a cat, it makes him feel trapped in his own hide. Even though he does...you know...BATHE and so on, it's always a quick and hurried affair. I think the reason is because he nearly drowned at some point in his childhood, and ever since then, water has always been an iffy thing for him. On a deeper level, Theodore's greatest fear...is perhaps an ironic one. His greatest fear is...not being loved. Now, this is probably confusing, since I've made it clear Theodore isn't really the sort to BEHAVE in a way that invites one to love him. That behavior, however, comes from him feeling betrayed and disappointed in the past, and not being able to let go of that frustration: he is eternally frustrated with the world itself, and feels immense disappointment with himself. His greatest fear is that he will disappoint people who try to get close to him, so he does everything in his power to AVOID that happening, and stay focused on trying to gain the power he feels he must have in order to EARN that love and respect. It's a bit of a backwards way of working, but bottom line...Theodore is an oddball. He hates just about everyone, or at least claims to, and he's a constant grouch and occasional sadist...but part of that is a fear of attachment. Because attachment can be so easily broken.

GRIT

Grit is allergic to eggs, and does not like birds. While he won't DIE from ingesting a single egg - unlike a full Nome - he is still PART Nome, and so eggs...do not agree with him. Too much egg in any substance will potentially kill him if he eats enough, and even a little can give him a bellyache. So anything with eggs disgusts and mildly scares him...and birds? Birds and he do NOT get along: he is scared of them at worst, and annoyed by them at best. Beyond a general detestation of poultry and fowl and anything avian-related, however...Grit's greatest fear is losing his home. He is very close to his parents - especially his human mother - and genuinely cares about and loves the underground kingdom where he was born and raised. The idea of losing all of that, of it being taken away or emptied or otherwise ruined or destroyed, is the single most appalling thing he can imagine in the world. He fears and loathes anything that threatens his home and family as a result.

[mangoposts]

OKAY im finally alone so TW for anyone reading this, i will be mentioning rape & knives/scars.

i'll try to make this short but the summer before i went into 10th grade, i had hung out w this guy and i really did just wanna hang out and go for a drive, but he thought i wanted to hook up. i definitely did not because i was a virgin and never done anything with a guy at all. he was a senior and a lot bigger than me and forced me into having sex w him, i kept saying no and stop and take me home but he just kept getting angrier and eventually held a knife to my like pubic bone? pelvis? just down there idk. so i caved. i hated every second and cried but i stopped fighting. i haven't had sex since then, im 20 years old now and i haven't even been fingered by a guy, never given or received head, and never given a handjob. and im honestly really embarrassed about it and wanna have sex with someone SO BADLY but im scared.

the main reason i'm scared isn't because i'm scared i'll be forced into it again, although that is absolutely in the back of my mind. i'm completely fine now and over the situation, but it does worry me that i could get overwhelmed and the guy im with wouldn't wanna stop. but my bigger fear which im 100x more embarrassed of, is what a guy is gonna think when he sees my pussy. now hear me out bc i know that sounds weird😭 but all throughout high school i always heard guys make comments about how ugly this girls pussy is or how gross this girls is and it terrified me. but now i'm even more scared because of what that guy did to me, he literally cut into my skin and left scars. what is a guy gonna think when he sees that? how am i supposed to explain all this? i just i have a lot of questions and concerns but i'm a fucking 20 year old "virgin" if i can even call myself that, i've technically had sex but i didn't want it so idk if i even count that as a body. i just have been panicking over this for forever and have no idea what to do, if you have any advice at all i'd really appreciate it so so much

- 🌙

Oh baby :-(. Im so sorry this happened to you. You were really young and you didn’t deserve that whatsoever, if you can feel it im giving you a hug thru the phone. Im so so so sorry and i hope that man is dead in a ditch somewhere 🤍

On the other hand, i promise you you have nothing to worry about at all. Im telling you rn and i know it sounds so corny and lame and everybody always says this but its true, the right person is not going to judge you for anything and im so Fr when i say that. Trust when i was in high school guys would say all kinda stupid shit like that about girls in the school and it never bothered me because i knew there was at least one person out there who wouldn’t care about anything other people would talk shit about, and i was right 🤷🏻‍♀️ There’s so many people out there who would find u beautiful the way u are and just because some guys in the past thought in that immature goofy ass way doesn’t mean every guy will you know what i mean?

Babe, my only advice for you is to stay the way you are, hang out w ur frennies and the right person is gon come trust. It’ll come when you aren’t looking for it or worrying about it, when you least expect it to be honest. What you went through was horrible and it might be the worlds way of saying you gotta give yourself time before exploring that area of your life yanno. There’s NOTHINGGG wrong with being a virgin at any age let alone 20. You’re still young and you have ur whole life ahead of you. Don’t worry about this, when it happens it’s gonna be fine you’ll see it

Thank you so much for trusting me to be vulnerable with, im sorry if im treating you too delicately im just speaking thru the soul rn 😭 And again im sorry this happened to you. Even if i dont know u i love u a lot and im proud of you for moving past the situation despite how hard it might’ve been

Also im sorry for taking awhile to get back to you, i just scrolled through my inbox and finally found this

[toxic-potions-productions]

"It really is you" (Demon Slayer) (Manga spoilers???)

This is what I meant in that last post where I apologized in advance for a drawing of these two I was gonna get out

I can't tell if this has any specific Manga spoilers, so a warning is there just incase ^^"

I'm also not even gonna bother with the Kanji or even TRY to do it anymore for Koku or any of the other uppermoons if I ever draw them since it's such a pain in the ass

I was actually finished with it last night, but was too lazy to past it right away so that's why it's posted today. Also, in the last posts with Zakiko & Yuzuki being different ranks, just ignore what I said. They're hashiras, so they're both hashira rank. I know how demon slayer ranks work, I promise! I'm just very stupid qwp

Also, Zakiko becomes a half-demon in the late Sengoku period instead of Meiji, so ignore that too. Again, I is a dumb bitch

Anyways, the top part is in the Moonlit reunions arc where the two meet in an abandoned garden at nighttime & eventually realize who the other one is. After she introduces herself to him, Koku feels a bit of familiarity with her name. It isn't until he takes a look at the Cresent moon pin she has that really made it click with him, even though it was a delayed reaction for Zakiko. He hugged her & she was confused for a second, but did eventually realized it was her old friend

& the bottom part takes place in the Infinity castle arc in the castle itself where Zakiko fights Koku next to Sanemi & Gyomei. But not making it out alive, unfortunately. & you also get to see Zakiko's blade & hilt, too (Yes, I did my research & learned moon breathing users blades are light purple. Bless you, tik tok!). Koku is about to attack Gyomei & Sanemi again but Zakiko interrupts him with the first form of Moon breathing & knocks him back a bit. After hearing the two talk to her for a second & say how relieved they are to have her there, Koku's praying it's not actually her & he looks up to realize it is, hence why he looks so horrified & she looks so numb & sad. Sanemi even joked with Zakiko saying how she must be more intimidating than he thought if she can easily scare uppermoon one himself just from being there. Tsk tsk, if only they knew the whole story

Fun fact, Zakiko actually has scars on her face & hands when she goes into the afterlife from her fight in the real world. I just thought that nice little detail would be pretty cool

Also, just because I'm down bad for Kokushibo doesn't mean I'm gonna ship these two together. The love they have is a platonic, found family love if you really wanna know so badly. Besides, I just think they'd just be better off like that (Mostly cuz it wouldn't work anyway since Zakiko likes girls mostly LMFAO)

I'm gonna have a nicer drawing of these two later to make it up to all of you for the angst, I promise!

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Zakiko Shibata by: Me

Kokushibo from: Demon slayer

Demon slayer by: Ufotable

Do not steal, trace or copy.

[blockgamepirate]

Limited Life spoilers (I just didn't really wanna tag this but I also don't wanna spoil people so cut it is)

Unfortunately my hunch about the Clockers being the first full team out of the series seems increasingly likely.

Sure the Bad Boys are technically gone but Grian is still alive and that was my whole argument: I said I thought Grian would probably outlast all the Clockers and so far that's exactly how it seems to be going.

In all likelihood (even though we don't know Bdubs' time for sure) they're the team with the least time left AND their spawn point is trapped as well, so the first one of them to die next time will probably die twice. If it's Scar or Bdubs that'll probably be the end of their series. If it's Cleo, that only means the team member with the most time will be as low as the other two and makes the full team even more likely to go down early.

(That's unless Martyn changes his mind and disables the trap but idk, he might be too much of an opportunist to do that. It's 30 minutes, whether it comes from an ally or an enemy, and he can probably also tell that the Clockers are on their way out so it's not like the alliance is gonna last long anyway.)

Also lbr it's Scar, Bdubs and Cleo. Sure they can sometimes survive surprisingly well when they try but are any of them actually even trying? They've all just been having fun roleplaying, goofing off and playing recklessly and based on previous seasons that's unlikely to change towards the end of the series.

It also doesn't help that Bdubs has mixed loyalties as well.

Now admittedly Cleo has about four hours and Impulse who has the highest time among TIES only has about three and a half, so there's a chance that Cleo will outlast him. But out of the two of them, who's more likely to lose a life first? The one who was the second to last yellow or the one who's only above the former now because they had a different player take over for them and get two kills last session? (No offence to Cleo but it's true, and Cleo would probably agree.) And if Cleo dies before Impulse, she's gonna have half an hour less than him. If she also dies first out of the Clockers, she's gonna have one and a half hours less than him.

That said anything could happen of course, all it takes is Impulse having some bad luck. Or maybe Cleo (or Scar or Bdubs) will actually manage to get a bunch of kills somehow, idk. Admittedly Scar has been very aggro and has been getting kills and might have gotten more if Scott hadn't stolen so many.

Alternatively Grian could mess up really badly and die multiple times very early on, finishing off the Bad Boys, but he has an hour and a half more time than Cleo and is much better at getting kills. He has also outlasted every member of the Clockers in every season except the one where his life was literally tied to Scar's. And he has a new team now as well so he isn't even alone despite being the last member of his team.

My point is, the Clockers are pretty much doomed in every way, and unless TIES has very bad luck, or unless one of the other teams has EXTREMELY bad luck, the family is probably gonna be the first full team out.

(The thing is, I really hope I'm wrong because I'm rooting for Cleo, but it doesn't look good, not good at all. Well, then again it was always a long shot.)

[rorys-letters]

Entry 1 !!

I wanted to start making a Digital diary so this is it!!! it was supposed to be a daily thing but whateverr

This is rly long so sorry abt that </3

cw: talk of sh, depression, su1cidal thoughts

i though i would do these entries like daily and its the tenth so i guess not but even so i thin its better this way, its less pressure yk. Anyways it has been ROUGH out here it rly is a struggle but whateverrr.I don't really know how i'm supposed to do this but i gues ill figure it out eventually. okay so i've been trying to get clean for like at least four-ish months i think, and its been so hard and ive always known it was a problem but yk with addiction yo always think you have it under control, even when you don't and I think i realised it was a genuine problem not bc it was sh but bc i couldnt stop for a day and i think that like woke me up kinda, and two weeks ago i was on winter break right and it was so lonley and i hated it soo much bc it was busy and i felt useless as if i hadn't been in an episode since decemeber, and on new years it was like as bed as it gets usually, and i felt like that until like the 3rd or 4th, and obviously i sh bc how else am i gonna cope if i wasn't getting clean, then on the 5th i guess things were really put into perspective and i tried to get clean like properly, and every single time i try to do that its always hardest in the first 3 days-ish, then it gets easier, then harder again depending on period, naturally i relapsed on the 7th, and since then its been hard again, bc im trying so hard not to and it makes me feel ugly and i hate it when people see them because it always gets so awkward, esp worse if don't know them bc the last thing i need is for another person to know, i think i've only told like 4 people about it and i only talk to two of them regularly, not even about sh, or anything abt my depression which isn't healthy ik but what's a girl to do if she's emotionally avoidant. Anyway i had a close call on the 9th and I'm really scared she saw the c*ts bc thats not fun even though i'd been trying to minimise scarring which worked pretty well since they're quite faint for 1 week but at the time they were still scabbed. And now that they're faint I can't help byt want to cut again. and it feels so useless staying clean bc I'm almost always reliant on something to self-medicated, sometimes I stop eating, sometimes i sh, and sometimes i drink rly obscene amounts of caffeine, and if im not doing any of those consistently im stuck in an episode which i am in one anyway but they make it easier yk. I think recently I've been really sensitive, more so than usual, my mom told me to wake up and i started crying about how badly i wanted to sleep, even though I know that she means well, and my english teacher said something about how relying on something to help you feel better (it was like shopping addictions an whatnot) makes the person week, which only made me feel worse because I'm trying SO HARD just to be normal, and not do something so basic and its so hard and saying something alot less worse than sh is weak then what is sh to her, obviously i wouldn't confind in her but knowing that someone could see me as weak is like gut-wrenching in a sense and i'm not quite sure why.

i started hating talking to ppl and week-ends make me feel worse about everything, my grades are fine but i know they could be better, and it reminds me of how i've had people tell me i have so much potential (around december while i was in an episode) and i was doing so bad mentally at the time it only made me feel worse, because i don't need you telling me i've got so much potential if you don't even know how hard everything feels, let alone know how much I want to die but 'm still dong work, and passing classes. I think at the time I would always think about how much I needed to be dead, and by the week before the break i didn't think i'd reach the end of it, by the beginning of the break I was convinced I wouldn't make it to new-years, then I didn't think i'd make it to attend school, and i felt so ashamed when i came back because how am i supposed to tell my teachers that i was so su1cidal i didn't think it would matter if i did my homeworks, and i sometimes wish i told them that, it would make so many things easier, I wouldn't have to tell my mom that i want to die because that's just cruel, i wouldn't have to tell my friends bout it, and maybe school work would get easier.

When it gets bad like this. i always watch "It's Kind of a Funny Story" because I feel i need to be locked-up, like the thoughts are so consuming I can't take it, even if i'm not institutionalised i need to be medicated i don't care about side-effects, i don't care about reliance, sh is sm worse than controlled meds, and the worst part is my psychiatrist might have been genuinely considering giving me anti-depressants, but my mom is worried about the side-effects. I stopped going to her because i dreaded it so much, it only made me feel worse because we never really talked how i wanted, i was scared yes, but i think it could've gone so much better if she focused on the depression side, bc she said i had mdd (clinical depression) and gad (anxiety), but she only focused on the gad part of it, and she had me see why my thoughts are irrational, but i knew that they were, i knew that they weren't true my problem is that i wanted to k1ill myself. whatever

I think something that scares me a lot is the effects of prolonged depression on the brain, i think knowing what happens chemically helps me understand better but i only end up feeling worse, i know that memory is heavily impacted, and i've been so scared of forgetting, but i already did, i couldn't tell you what happened most of my life, i just can't remember a lot, and i don't remember well anymore, it takes so much longer and it makes it so much harder to keep up.

I also read that it impacts neural connections, like how neurons work to connect to each other in the brain, which is essentially like critical thinking and making connections to new ideas, and i find that really scary, like r u seriously telling me i'm so depressed i physically can't think right? what the hell!

Also I think i feel really guilty for being depressed because i don't know why i am, i know i have no reason to be and i'm so thankful for the life i have, i guess i just don't know why i'm not dead, like this isn't me but i'm alive and i feel like i'm useless, i'm not helping anyone by being here and i don';t want to be here either so why can't i go?

A lot of the time when i feel like this i listen to Part of the Band by the 1975 and i don't know why but it helps me feel something, sometimes i feel worse and other times better, but i just watched it and its a mix of both, sometimes i wish i wasn't so messed up for no reason. I feel like i'm rotting from the inside out, im decaying infornt of my own eyes and no one can do anything about it, not even myself, especially not myself. It feels futile trying to get better because i have nothing to live for, i don't even know what i'm saying anymore. I', just so tired all the time, and im so pissy its frustrating and unfair of me because people only want to help and i hate taht i won't let them, even when it's what i want most. I'm so like lethargic at this point and it can't be normal. I think what i hate most is people not taking me seriously, or misunderstanding me, it makes it harder for me to reach out. and i feel like i lost all of my communication skills because i feel so much and i just can't articulate it, i don't know if it's me deteriorating or if these feelings are indescribable. I really hope writing this make it easier, i just might but i don't know anymore.

jan 10 2025

-rory

[enzie-ki]

OOC || UNCANNY COUNTER S2E8 THOUGHTS

WAHOO LET'S GO GUYSSS

That credits scene was so unexpected because like HE'S BAD??? AND POOR DO-HWI NO

Oh it's back to Gelly and ha-na

IF YOU TOUCH DO-HWI I WILL MURDER YOU

NOOOO

UHHUH GO HANA GET HER

Don't tell me

.......

MR HWANG YOU SEXY MAN I LOVE/HATE YOU BUT PLEASE LEAVE

excuse me

I want Gelly gone but also this is such a betrayal

damn

HE'S GONNA EAT HER?????

WAIT DOES THIS MEAN GELLY AND HANA ARE GONNA TEAM UP????

NAH THAT'S TOO OUT

MR HWANG DONT TOUCH DO-HWI

HAHA BRO GOT SNATCHED

yo where'd they all go

UH oh Mr hwang, you've made quite a few enemies today

I'M SO SORRY DO HWI

OH THANK. JEHOVA LORD ABOVE HE'S ALIVEEEE

YESSSS

Mo-Tak you're so smart but damnnnnnnn

that's very bad

Mr Hwang I want Gelly gone but I want hana to get her don't eat her please

HEY LEAVE JEOK-BONG ALONE

BRO NOT THE NOSE HAIRS

AHH DO-HWI IS GOOD

oh good it's only Gelly who's gone from his memories

Ha-na I feel for you girl

eyo maybe give him his clothes back?

HE'S AWAKE WAHOO

DO-HWI YOU'RE SO IN LOVE IT HURTS

THAT'S SO SAD NOOO

wait wdym you won't be in danger because of me anymore

WHAT DO YOU MEAN

ARE YOU WIPING ALL HIS MEMORIES OF YOU IN THE PRESENT

I KNEW THIS MOMENT WOULD COME

DAMNIT

WAIT IT'S ALL HIS MEMORIES OF YOU EVER???

THAT'S TERRIBLE

AND THE MUSIC TOO

HE LOOKS SO PEACEFUL

oh it's a pharmacy

AHAHA GELLY I HOPE IT HURTS

but Mr Hwang ur also an a-hole tho

surely not, you aren't gonna try and turn into a counter

Surely not

ope dead pharmacist of course

OH NO SHE HAS TO PACK ALL THE TOYS AWAY

😭😭😭😭

NOOO SHE HAS TO SEE HIM AVAKN

DOES HE RECOGNISE HER?

NO HE DOESN'T THAT'S SO UPSETTING

ok this confirms that mun isn't in love with hana

JEOK BONG WHAT ARE YOU WEARING

NAHH THAT'S TOO FAR

yall are so funny

Such a functional little family

BRO MO-TAK IS SO AGGRESSIVE DAMN

yall this is so sad

bro just wants to eat

Evil spirits??? Now???

The sniffing noises are cracking me uppp

Yo its the popped eyeball vein man

BRO STOP SCREAMING

Mo-Tak you're so intense sometimes but other times you're 3 nine-year olds an otter and a balloon in a trench coat

Oh it's ripoff hatter— I mean chung-jae again

who the heck are these guys

stop stroking them wth

EXCUSE ME

DONT GO AFTER MY HUSBAND

EXCUSE ME WHY IS 37 HERE

DIDN'T MS CHU SET YOU ON THE RIGHT PATH

AHHH

So ungrateful

ripoff hatter leave him alone

WAIT A MINUTE

ARE YOU GONNA TARGET MS CHU????

NO

37 please leave ms chu alone

Bro she knows more about that knife scar than you do

This is so sweet and the thing is I watched the credits scene in the last episode so I know hes gonna betray her

MS Chu don't drink that

NOO THIS IS SO SWEET

BRO WHYYYYYY

37 you better change your ways

THAT JUICE WAS POISONED OH NO

37 YOU BASTARD

HE REALLY DOESN'T WANT TO HURT YOU

MS CHU NOOO

LEAVE MY HALMEONI ALONE

LEAVE MY HUSBAND ALONE TOO

Oh ms chu ur so badass

MO-TAK IS GOING TO KILL ALL OF YOU

AHH THERE HE IS

MY HUSBAND

I LOVE ALL THIS MAN'S FIGHT SCENES

THE HEAD FLICK

YO THAT KICK THO

YAAAH MS CHU YOU BADASS WOMAN

HER AND MO-TAK ARE ONE OF THE BEST DUOS IF NOT THE BEST DUO IN THIS SHOW

ohooohoohoo they plotting

oh not 37 again

she's gonna be in your house again

WAIT WHAT

OILY MA

PLEASE LEAVE 37 ALONE

bro this bodyguard I feel him

ripoff hatter treats him so badly

BRO'S GOLFING IN THE NIGHT

GO SLEEP

bro why are you so mean to your employees leave that woman alone!

MHM

OH NOOOOOOOO

OILY MA

HE'S TRULY OILY NOW

HE'S GONNA KILL YOU

bro you think you can run from a man with telekinesis

I HATE YOU BUT I DONT WANT OIL DEMON TO GET MORE POWERFUL

MOTAK YOU CAN'T TAKE THIS GUY ALONE

OH YEAH YOU'RE FREAKISHLY STEONG

OILY MA DOESN'T EVEN WANT YOU HE WANTS RIPOFF HATTER/ CHUNG-JAE

bro what

what

WHAT????

EXCUSE ME?

SIR

SIR WHY CAN YOU TIE HANDCUFFS THAT FAST

(sure as heck gonna use that in a fanfiction coming up😏)

PLEASE DONT DIE THO OR LOSE A HAND

I FEEL LIKE HE GONNA RIP UR HAND OFF THE GET THE CUFFS OFF

NOOO MY HUSBAND

OIL MONKEY NOOOOO

I SWEAR

I SWEAR

I SWEAR IF THEY KILL MO-TAK

OIL MONKEY IM GOING TO LIGHT YOU ON FIRE AND FRY YOU LIKE CHICKEN AND THEN CHOKE YOU FOR CHOKING MY HUSBAND

(why do your arms stick out of the screen that is concerning)

OH THANK GOD

DONT LET THE OIL MONKEY GET YOU

Ok Mr ma please leave my husband alone

YOUR HAND NO

LEAVE MS CHU ALONE

RIPOFF HATTER I HATE U BUT DONT GET EATEN BY MA

FINALLY

WEAPONS

FINALLY

ma just hit him with the get rotated combo

this is so funnt

just a guy running after a golf cart

BRO THE TERRITORY FINALLY

MO-TAK PLS BE OK

OIL MONKEY SHUT THE FRICK UP

ew

bullet

no, don't even THINK about listening to Mr hwang

JEOK BONG BE QUIET DONT CRY

So Mun your poor grandma

surely Mr ma won't go soft again

MUN WHY ARE YOU TALKING SO FROSTILY

Ok he's just putting up a hard exterior

I wanna hug you both so badly

NOO THEY'RE ALL CRYING

MR HWANG.

YOU AND I HAVE A LOT TO TALK ABOUT

2 THINGS ACTUALLY

ONE: STOP BEING SO DAMN SEXY ALL THE TIME

TWO: LEAVE MR MA ALONE

MR MA NOOOOOOOOO

YOU'VE GONE FULL OILY

I CAN SEE IT I YOUR EYES

IT'S ONLY OIL THAT'S THERE

Mr Hwang I think your sexiness adds to your manipulation skills

THE EYES R SO EXPRESSIVE

bro the sniffing sounds

Mo-Tak what just happened to you

what's up tiger

ah yes, always a reason

HE WANTS TO LEARN TO FIGHT THE TELEKINESIS I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

you're so wonderful motak

BRO GOT FOLDED LIKE AN OMELETTE

bro!!

YOU DID IT I'M SO PROUD OF YOU

HE'S SO HAPPY

oop bro flew

why are yall wearing jackets indoor, surely u must be sweating bullets

JEOK BONG YOUR NOSE DAMNIT

OILY MA NO

MUN IF YOU'RE UNSURE JUST SUMMON THE TERRITORY

OOH SNIFF SNIFF JEOK BONG

THAT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE NOW

FINALLY

TERRITORY

wait what

Territory why happened

it doesn't reach that high?

bro that's so much bs

NAHH that's BS

IT'S THE SEXY MAN AGAIN

BRO RUN

LEAVE

YOU ARE OUTPOWERED

IT'S OILY MA TOO

MUN YOU CANT TAKE HIM ALONE

WAIT WHAT

MUN YOU'RE STRONGER THAN THIS

OOH THE SEXY MAN IS BLEEDING

YUH GET THEM

bro isn't someone going to call security or something

Y'ALL R REALLY DESTROYING THE PLACE

MUN U CANT TAKE BOTH AT THE SAME TIME

NOOOOO

WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN NOTHE EPISODES ABOUT TO END TOO

oop love the mun pov

BITE HIM I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH

USE YOUR TEETH

THEYRE ALL FEFKENDIGN MUN GREAT

HELL YEAH HIT THAT MAN

GELLY?????????

EXCUSE ME

WHY ARE YOU BACK

YOU BETTER NOT HELP THE BAD GUYS

LEAVE MUN ALONE

NOOO SHE WANTS TO BECOME A COUNTER

OR AT LEAST GET THEIR POWERS

BUT WIGEN'S DEFFO GONNA DECLINE YOU

WAIT MUN NO

WHAT

EXCUSE ME

GELLY WHAT THE HELL

EXCUSE ME

HIS HAIR

BRO THIS IS THE SECOND TIME

ABSOLUTELY NOT

WIGEN NOOOO

wait he's just gonna go into a coma again right?

OH SHE'S PISSED OFF MR HWANG

YUP UR DEAD GELLY

YOU LAUGH LIKE A HYENA TOO

Gelly please you will die and you will make Hwang stronger

NUH UH IT DOESNT END THERE NOOO

NOPE

I REFUSE TO BELIEVE JT

I NEED TO SEE THE CREDITS SCENE

OK HE'S BACK IN A COMA GOOD

BUT NO MORE MEMORIES

AYO DID I JUST SEE MY BOY

MY LITTLE KITTEN

JI CHEONG-SIN????

WAHOO HE'S BACK BUT THAT ALSO MEANS THAT YOU'RE ALL ROYALLY SCREWED

NAHHHHHH

BRO I LOVED THAT EP BUT ALSO THE CLIFFHANGER

THIS IS ME RN

WELP, GOTTA WAIT TILL SATURDAY

OOC || UNCANNY COUNTER S2E4 THOUGHTS

SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT

glad we've got another furry lady (Gelly) to replace hyang-hui

If she hurts my baby I will break her acrylics

and also her spine

Pil Kwang and Mun are really just stranger things-ing it right now and I'm all here for it

It's giving eleven vs one but better because I like this show

Ah yes the power of a promise made you stronger good

how dare that man try and shoot chairman Choi if I snatch your weave this second

Gelly please stop with the scratching

So many problems would be stopped if people used their teeth as weapons

Getting choked? Bite. Getting held down? Bite. Jeok Bong I know you're new but please just bite her

MS SO IS BACK WOOHOO AND WONG IS GONE BOY GETCHA VAMPIRE LOOKIN-AHH OUT OF HERE

(he was kinda cool though)

oh damnit I forgot about the other Chinese counters

WAHOO MS CHU AND MS SO APPRECIATION

Chairman Choi you better thank Mun for saving you from that bullet

mo tak coming in with the tango disc pop off king

MS CHU WHAT HAS GOTTEN INTO YOU

CHAIRMAN CHOI IS SIMPING REAL HARD RN

DAMN ARE THEY GOOD AT DANCE

oh no jeok-Bong are you good

my poor baby noo

GELLY YOU DESERVED THAT I DIDN'T EVEN REALISE YOUR EYE WAS GONE BUT HELL IF YOU DESERVED IT

Pil Kwang why are you naked Pil Kwang why are you naked I don't care you just got out of the bath WHY ARE YOU NAKED PIL KWANG WHY ARE YOU

excuse me what is this wet monkey looking thing

you look like you smell of bin juice and petrol

STOP CORRUPTING MY MR. MA

STOP BREATHING IN HIS FACE TOO YOU'LL GIVE HIM BLACK LUNG

oh I really hope he doesn't get possessed but I have a very bad feeling he will

JEOK BONG WHERE ARE YOU

YOU BETTER NOT LEAVE ME NOOOO

GELLY YOU FURRY BASTARD YOU SCARED HIM

NOW HE FEELS WORTHLESS ASDAGFJGKGASHKHF

HE BETTER COME BACK

I swear if its because his pores are clogged that his power stopped working or because he got punched I will cry

Jeok-Bong's dad stop comparing your son, that happened to me and it was BAD

My poor baby UnU

SEONG-SIK YOU BASTARD

HOW DARE YOU PUT MY BABY IN DANGER

LEAVE HIM ALONE

LEAVE THE DAD ALONE TOO

ayo why does this man have so much blood in his nose

AHH HIS POWER CAME BACK

HE JUST HAD TO GET GUT IN THE NOSE AGAIN

HELL YEAH GET WRECKED YOU STINKY BASTARD

GET HIM BABY WAHOO

PUT COW DUNG ON THAT MAN

MMMMM Y'ALL IN YUNG BETTER BE CHEERING

WELL DONE JEOK-BONG

👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏

TO ETERNAL OIL HELL WITH YOU EVIL SPIRIT

AWWW JONG-GUK ISNT MAD GOOD

WAIT HE'S 21?

I SMELL MORE BS IN THAT STATEMENT THAN JEOK-BONG DOES AT WORK GOSH DAMN

THE BIG BROTHER STATEMENT

Aww him and his dad are bonding again finally

This is so wholesome I'm going to cry

MHM UR MAKING YOUR DAD PROUD JEOK-BONG

💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙

No because tell me why Mun has such a good fashion sense

And Mo-Tak too

And Ha Na

All of them actually

Gelly I regret to tell you but that steak is raw

I hope you get food poisoning

STOP MAKING CONNECTIONS DAMNIT

LEAVE MR MA ALONE

NOO IT'S THE EVIL OIL DEMON THING

LEAVE HIM ALONE

YOU AND YOUR MONKEY SOUNDING VOICE BETTER SINK BACK INTO THE OIL OCEAN

Mo-Tak please relax you're like three 9 year-olds in a trench coat

KWANG AND GELLY

YOU BASTARDS

EVIL OIL DEMON STUPID

LEAVE MY MR. MA OUT OF THIS

HOW DARE THE EPISODE END THERE

[kazewhara]

grr i have severe childe brainrot i want to kiss his freckles so bad 👎

- mari anon

"you have freckles?"

childe's grin is boyish as he gazes up at you from his place on your lap. "what, you didn't know that from looking at teucer?" he brushes his finger over his nose. "we're practically twins, you know?"

"oh, ha-ha." you roll your eyes and motion for him to sit up.

it's childe's off day, so he's visiting you in your apartment, the two of you just lounging around until one of you decides to move. you found it amusing at first how the insatiable childe was willing to just laze around for an entire day despite his ready-to-go nature, but after seeing how much he has to do on a day to day basis, you realized just how badly he needed days like this. he's had his head in your lap for about half an hour now, his eyes closed as you worked your fingers through his hair and studied his face.

childe is pretty -- there was really no going around that fact. you try not to tell him that too much in fear of boosting his ego any higher than it already is, but that doesn't mean you don't ogle him whenever you get the chance. with his eyes closed, you can properly explore the little details that you may usually miss.

there are faded scars on his neck and jaw, and even a few pale ones on his face that you're surprised no one has ever said anything about. it's a little reassuring that the first aid he received was good enough to barely leave a mark. but what stands out isn't the scars, it's the freckles. how hadn't you noticed them before? there's a smattering of them across his cheeks and nose, and if you look down, you can see some freckles on his neck that seem to cover his shoulders as well.

obviously, there's only one thing to do at a time like this.

childe sits up with an exaggerated groan. "your lap was so comfy, though." he gives you his best wounded puppy look. "are you gonna kick me out because i have freckles or something?"

"you're insufferable, shut up." you click your tongue and scoot closer to him, taking his face in your hands. the freckles are so much more visible now that you know that they're there.

childe's eyes scan your face, but you're not paying attention. "is there something wrong?" he asks.

you shake your head. "i just wanna do something, okay?"

"o...kay? but if you're gonna stab me, just let me know."

"i will if you don't shut up."

"okay, okay, fair enough."

once he's quiet for longer than two seconds, you kiss the freckles on his nose, chuckling when you see him blinking when you pull away. if there's one thing you've learned during your time with childe, it's that he's never prepared for kisses that aren't initiated by himself. it's always funny how his eyes will blow wide when you kiss him.

"not... not that i'm complaining, but..." you hear his breath catch in his throat when you kiss at the freckles on his left cheek. "is there a reason for this?"

you hum and kiss his cheek a few more times. "you didn't tell me about the freckles," you say, giggling when you feel his skin warming under your touch, "so i gotta make up for lost time."

"that's..." childe falls silent when you move to his other cheek. as he flushes more under all the attention, you notice the freckles standing out more. he seems to notice, because he makes a soft, embarrassed noise. childe's never been good with being the recipient of so much affection; he can dish it out but he's not very good at taking it, which makes it all the more fun to give it to him.

once you've finished kissing all the freckles you can find, you decide to keep moving, kissing at any other places on his face that you may have missed. you realize a bit belatedly that you're not even doing this because of the freckles anymore -- you're just so in love with him that you can't help it. you have to will yourself to pull away when you're done.

childe's completely red. he covers his face with a hand and turns away from you when you laugh. "you shut up." he swats at you blindly. "what was that for?"

"what, i can't kiss my boyfriend now?" you gasp dramatically. "what is this world coming to?"

"you know what i mean!" he huffs as his face starts to cool.

you pat his cheek. "i told you; it's 'cause of the freckles."

childe raises a brow at you. "that's it? you only kissed me because of the freckles? well," he pouts, "when you say it like that, i guess i should've told you sooner."

"damn right you should have." you stand and reach upwards, stretching yourself out. "i'm hungry. do you want any-- hey!"

childe pulls you back down into his lap without warning, laughing as you stumble. you glare at him but it does nothing. "falling for me again, i see?"

you punch his arm. maybe you should think twice about how much you love him. "what'd you do that for?"

your boyfriend sucks in a pained breath through his teeth and rubs at the spot you punched. you didn't hit him very hard, so you know he's faking, but you get the feeling that he'd still have faked it even if you really did put your all into it. "i just wanted to tell you that you missed a spot earlier." he whines. "no need to hit me. sheesh."

you squint at him. "what are you talking about? i got all the freckles i could see."

childe huffs a laugh. "wow," he murmurs, taking your chin in his fingers, "you can be really dense sometimes, can't you?"

before you can ask what he means, his lips are covering yours, his fingers tilting your head to the side to deepen the kiss quickly. you don't resist him much -- you never can -- but you do have to be the one to pull away first. childe looks at you through his lashes and you inhale sharply. "you could've just asked for a kiss." you whisper.

childe hums with consent. "where's the fun in that, though?" he leans in again but sighs exasperatedly when you cover his mouth with a hand. "meanie." he mutters, his voice muffled by your fingers.

"i'm still hungry." you pinch his lips gently before you stand up again. "let's go get food. i think chef mao has a new special today."

"i try to make out with you and you only think about food." childe shakes his head. "unbelievable."

"if it helps you believe it, i always think about food when we make out."

"...i hate you."

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man i feel you so badly about how the dlc dropped the ball on proper rose and eveline writing especially with their parallels… if you were to write the dlc, how would you handle it though, your analysis and RE thoughts are the best

Okay first off aww that's so sweet I really appreciate that. Second, idk how long this is going to be, so it'll go under a read more just in case

I'm going to split my personal choices for the DLC into basically two thoughts: How I would do a DLC of my own, and how I would change the DLC we actually got. Gonna do the latter first cuz I think it'll be shorter.

Changing Shadows of Rose

Right off the bat, I would like to give an inkling of what this world Rose is a part of looks like, and how it is different to the world as we last saw it in Resident Evil: Village. Because 16 years is a long time. The beginning of Resident Evil 0, and the end of Resident Evil Vendetta, all happened within 16 years. That is every single canon Resident Evil game, movie, tv show, etc. before 7 and 8 came out. Every single one. A lot can happen in this universe in 16 years. Adding on the fact that there were a lot of unanswered questions in 8 (Why did HWS go rogue? Who even are they? What's up with the Connections and what are they still up to (did they even ever get anything from the end of Not A Hero?)? Is the BSAA evil now since they were using fucking bioweapons as soldiers? What happened when HWS got to BSAA Europe HQ? What happened to Mia? How did Rose grow up? Is she an agent? Was she trained? Where are literally any member of the BSAA or any recurring characters in general apart from Chris?) it just comes across as brushing aside a mountain as if it were a molehill. The information we do get is laughable at best, and raises even more questions at worst.

Who is K? I already speculated that he was supposed to be John (before I watched the DLC) because their models are so similar, but their voices aren't the same and K doesn't have the scar on his face that John does. But Rose explicitly mentions that K is on Hound Wolf Squad, so,

Why is Hound Wolf Squad still around? Weren't they a rogue unit that the BSAA was trying to get a handle on, but Chris was focused on taking down Miranda and not listening to the BSAA's orders

Why is Hound Wolf Squad accepting new members? As I said, K isn't John, and John is the only white man on HWS apart from Chris, so this is clearly a new guy. I thought HWS was solely made up of people Chris really trusted, more than the BSAA.

Wow that's a lot and that's just one bullet point I want to fix. Here's a bit more, rapid fire:

Just make K be John. Have her call him J or L instead of splitting the difference

Have Rose mention whatever organization Chris is working for. BSAA, an individual company, fucking something to give us input

Don't have Rose be going to school. I (as an audience member) would sympathize with her so much more if she were kept in a lab and called "freak" by the people who watch over her, than going to public school as a normal kid and getting called "freak" by kids her age

Also make Rose's insults more than just things that 7 year olds could come up with. Have her be called inhuman, have her be called a mistake, have her be called a little bitch, have her be called a failure. That kind of dehumanization name calling is what got me to sympathize for Eveline (along with, you know, the fact that Eveline was abused)

The insults being so laughable makes Rose's extreme reaction to it, covering her ears with her hands and screaming to stop, look unreasonable, make her look childish

I can't fault her for a lot of the cringy observational dialogue since that's a staple of horror game protagonists to get the audience questioning what's going on, but the degree which it happened still pissed me off. Moving on

Don't have her be so mean to Eveline. Or draw worthwhile parallels between Rose and Eveline. Have them connect on what makes them feel isolated. Evie is not a villain for taking out the anger and frustration that stemmed from her abuse, fueled by seeing Rose being ungrateful for having everything Evie wanted, it is the understandable reaction of a 7 year old who has had enough of this shit. The fact that the DLC shows Evie crying and lamenting about how she's "worthless" and "no one loves her" so they're clearly aware that this is something Evie struggles with

Semi-related, give Eveline a happy ending. Eveline has never been a villain. She was an antagonist in 7. She can still be an antagonist in Shadows of Rose. But for the love of g-d let this character, who has arguably the most suffering of anyone in the whole series, have some catharsis of a happy ending. Have her go live with Jack and Marguerite, for example.

Doubly for Eveline, I still really think that Evie would've worked better as Michael rather than Ethan. They could've made it so "Michael" was luring Rose to Eveline's domain, which is why Michael can't help Rose out when she's there, Michael was decent to Rose, and Rose was nice to them in return, it could've been nice to see Eveline having her first ever friend that she reached out to in kindness first. Only for Rose to shut Eveline out when Evie wants Rose to be her friend in the mold forever, which causes Evie to lash out and try to force Rose to stay with her like she was taught to do since birth. There, now Eveline gets some sympathy and is shown kindness, and her hatred towards Rose is more obvious to people who don't connect the dots and realize Evie is jealous of Rose having the life and family that Eveline wanted.

I have nothing to say about Miranda's plan, it's very fucking dumb, but I do have two notes about the ending:

Number one, show us Ethan's fucking face. But ONLY at the moment where, after defeating Miranda, Rose says to him "But then we wouldn't have this moment talking face to face." We can finally see the face of the man who sacrificed and fought with everything for his daughter, we can see the first emotion on Ethan's face ever, love, as he looks at his daughter and the girl she has grown up to be. It would be moving for us and make us feel more for Rose

Number two: Don't have it end the way it did. I actually have two potential alternate endings. Either have Rose "die" and stay in the mold with Ethan, the man she has missed out on her whole life, her only family (since apparently according to developers she didn't grow up under Mia) and someone who treated her like a real friend. Or have Rose leave the mold, but choose to lose her powers. The whole fucking reason she went in there to begin with. Rose didn't grow, didn't learn anything, and her outlook on her powers didn't really seem to change, at least that we could see. Sure she's more powerful now but does she have them outside of the mold? Does she have control of them outside of the mold? More unanswered questions. Just have her use the crystal to take away her powers, and therefore with her mold gone, so is her connection to the mind palace, and she's human again. Boom good ending (the fact that this happened before the graveyard scene is sooo stupid) My point is have her LOSE something. She lost nothing throughout the entire story, only gaining closure and even more op mold powers that are still ambiguous. Having her lose something might make her more sympathetic or more interesting.

Okay so that's how I'd fix the Rose DLC we got. Still there? Great

What MY version of the 8 DLC would look like

Gonna first paste this (whatever the opposite of prophetic is) poll from my friend's Eveline support discord server:

Funny. None of our predictions even suggested Rose would be in it, let alone be the main character

Gonna go in poll order

Follow HWS

Like I stated prior, there are SO many unanswered questions related to HWS. Even during Village. We could still play as Chris, but see what he and his squad were up to during Village while Ethan is...over there. You could flesh out these side characters, give us some insight as to why Chris trusts them, show us HWS' battle with the mold creatures, learn more about their mission. (Spoilers for WAY down the line for my fic series YHSB but clearly this is something I've put a lot of consideration into. Wink. Lol)

If they didn't want to lazily reuse assets from 8 which is what Shadows of Rose did then the DLC could pull a Not A Hero and pick up immediately after the events of 8. For whatever reason, not everyone was on the Osprey when the aircraft took off, they were probably at some rendezvous point since Chris says "pick up the rest of the squad" sooo wouldn't it be interesting to follow them leaving the village? Play as one of them fighting the monsters? Hell you could play as Canine fighting the lycans and the bioweapon soldiers before the ending I think that’d be neat. Off topic but I’m excited to get to play as them in RE: Verse. Anyway next DLC idea

Follow a maiden/the events at Castle Dimitrescu before the events of 8

This one I’m less enthusiastic about, but I could still come up with a DLC for it, since Shadows of Rose felt like recycling the castle setting, why shouldn’t I? You can follow a maiden avoiding the Dimitrescu sisters, trying and failing to help her fellow captives in the dungeon, and maybe even using some firepower to try to escape. Not sure what the ending would be but obviously you’d end up one of the dungeon zombies at the very end. It might be cool to see some of Castle Dimitrescu, maybe even doing some puzzles in reverse to see how they came to be in 8 like the masks or something. Idk could offer a fun perspective. Could also be an alternate history where she manages to kill at least one of the sisters, who knows?

Follow Elena/events in the village before the end of 8

This one I feel like really has the potential to be interesting, since when we see the village it’s obviously in tatters since the lycans have been attacking for some time and everyone is in paranoia. It’d be cool to see how the village looked before, like Castle Dimitrescu seeing how things came to be the way they were, maybe even watching attacks happen on the people we eventually see in Luiza’s house. Could end just before Ethan shows up or be an alternate history where Elena and her father make it to Luiza’s home on their own before being subdued by her father or just a random lycan attack

Follow Mia after getting kidnapped

This one pretty much stemmed from, “hey, another plot hole, maybe a DLC could answer our questions.” Probably would play out similar to some of the games Clancy had to sit through in his DLC, since Mia mentioned being used in experiments, or we could even see Mia trying to escape with weapons she finds/crafts before Miranda puts her back in that cell Chris finds her in. I personally don’t think this is much on its own but I figured it could’ve been paired with other DLC ideas I had like following Elena or something

Follow Ada

This one was kind of a joke tbh, I know Ada was obviously scrapped from being in 8 which makes sense but it could’ve been a 4th survivor/separate ways situation where we see Ada was there the whole time behind the scenes fighting off lycans with a crossbow for. Reasons. Idk maybe she wants the mold or something. Still at least it’d take place in this timeline’s present.

Follow Eveline

Okay just came up with this one because I am refueled with anger about how Shadows of Rose treated Eveline. Since we see her in the mold, it might be cool to play as Evie traversing the mold, meeting enemies who died in 7 and 8, fighting against monsters with Evie’s ambiguous disorder autism mold powers. Would have been nice to see a happy ending for Eveline, maybe as she was reunited with Jack…

Thanks for the ask, anon, sorry it was so long

[aashi-heartfilia]

Ft 100YQ ch 102: OMG! So much I have to say about this chapter!

First of all, Lucy saying 'Payback' and actually getting a chance to showcase her skills doesn't happen very often. We don't usually see Lucy being this playful either so, it's all fun and games.

Lol, she even says, "I could lend you some of mine if you admit defeat" looks like Lucy is being a hang of it UNTIL!

Well Kyria decides to fight butt naked because it doesn't matter since they're both woman but OH! JOKES ON YOU KYRIA CAUSE LAXUS SHOWED UP!!!

AGAIN! A big turn table moment 😂

Laxus is like

Oh! Why is she like this?!

And Lucy's like "Woah I went a bit overboard"

So now that Laxus is here you would think that it would steal Lucy out of some torture but no!!

Oh and can we just appreciate how proud Lucy is of her fellow Guild mate. We need more of Laxus and Lucy!!

On a side note, LUCY'S SO DAMN CUTE IN HER CANCER STAR DRESS!!!

Why don't we see it more often?!! Just why!!?

Laxus is all like "if you want to keep it a one on one that's fine". Lol, chad boy.

And Lucy's all like! HELL NO BIG GUY JUST FINISH HER ALREADY!!

Oh we have got this in the bag, right Lucy?

Lol, NOPE!

She cut his strength and the last time it didn't work because he was already in White Wizard's Hypnosis (oh looks like you can't put a person in two hypnosis) but it's interesting and seriously!

JUST. HOW. MANY. TWISTS. THIS. CHAPTER. IS. GONNA. HAVE!!?.

So it was first Erza that gets humiliated badly and now poor Laxus but well it was Wendy the last time who jumped into action and this time it's Lucy.

And this panel is BADASS!!

Look at her clashing blades with a dragon Slayer!!

So basically Laxus can still use his lightning magic? It just makes people more obedient.

Also, Lucy is my comfort character. Seeing her all confident and badass makes me so proud!

*INSERT SURPRISED PIKACHU FACE NOISES*

It's good to see Fleauve De Toules back but only for it to get chopped off? NOOO!!

Also, it's easy to see how Kyria can cut through her water whip but still!

Notice how Lucy isn't using more of her spirits anymore. Doing everything by herself which is a contrast to her Mimi Battle 1.0 where she was using just her spirits.

Return of epic Lion Maiden, but Kyria cuts through that too

What THE HOLY FU*K JUST HAPPENED??!!

Personal opinion:

I loved the chapter and ya the hand chopped off part too cause either Wendy's gonna show up soon and fix it up or it may act as a charcters development for Lucy.

Honestly, we have never seen Lucy angry but Lucy getting angry here because her hand gets chopped off, the hand she uses to write her novels, the hand that holds her dear guild mark. It can have a lot of meanings.

Even if it does leaves a battle scar or two, it will make her look even more badass. Overall, I'm just super hyped for the next chapter. It's good to see that after Edens Zero, Hero and Atsuo are becoming more daring and putting actual stakes in battles.

Until next time!

Cheers! Aashi

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INCOMING VAMPIRE AU THOUGHTS

Don't mind me I'm finally getting the ideas I had on this shit out so I can actually go forward with developing it as an AU. It's my usual mixup of fps protags, Gordon Guy and John, but I'm starting with Gordon as the Vampire and Guy as the Vampire Hunter.

absolute beast of a wall of text under the cut

What If Being A Vampire Literally Sucks All The Time Forever like chronic pain sucks. like THAT level of sucks. Like Here's what I was thinking of. Being a vampire isn't just "being alive forever but you need to drink human blood" It's like Oh man I have some lore you look at vampires and their main thing is that they're blood suckers right so lets start with a corpse dead body. cadaver. no longer with us. just some rotting meat. The brain needs oxygen as fuel. The blood supplies the oxygen through blood. The blood is pumped through the heart. The blood is made by your bone marrow. You die. Your heart stops beating Blood stops pumping Brain no longer has oxygen to think marrow stops making blood thats standard! Now, becoming undead, as a vampire, is a little more complicated. The long and short of it is: your body is FIGHTING ACTIVELY to be alive against all odds and wins every time (immortality), but it hurts the whole way

I have the gist of it. It's like. Your heart stops. By all means, you should be dead. but the magic kicks in, and you're still thinking. Your brain is still sending signals to your muscles to move. But using what oxygen to move? whats burning in you? You don't know but you know it's just enough to get to your next meal. So you ferociously eat something, and then find you can't swallow. You can't make saliva. You barely have the energy to chew, and once you DO get something in your stomach, it immediately comes back up. Why can't you feel your pulse? What's going on? You're out of options so you figure you might as well just lie down and die. You're too tired to keep going anyway. So you do, you lie down, and you close your eyes, and you quietly hope that death is as peaceful as sleep. You realize you've actually been moving around without breathing, which makes sense because you can barely flex your diaphragm for more than a shaky wheeze. How are you thinking with such little oxygen? But as you fade from consciousness, you can feel something in you, and it's so upset, it's crying, it's filled with grief, and you instantly can tell it's your skeleton. It's your bones. You're distraught down to your marrow. You're dying. You're dying! Your heart stopped and you have no more blood! You need blood! You need blood to move! To breathe! To think! You try to breath deep again for the voices in your bones, trying to comfort them, to sooth them with the repetitive motion in your lungs, trying to fill yourself with anything but grief, but they keep wailing. We make the blood, our creation, our child, what we put all of our work into is gone! gone! gone! We need it back! Anything! All of it! Find it! Bring it back to us! We're hungry! WE'RE HUNGRY!

and once you find yourself too exhausted to listen, to think, how badly you wish just to die already to cease hearing this wailing, you find your body moving without you. And it's hungry and it's searching and it's crawling on all fours and it misses its beautiful red life that made it feel so full before and it needs it back, and the next thing you know you're desperately grabbing anything with blood in it and shoving it in your mouth in a desperate attempt to sooth this cry for life, you don't want to die, you don't want to die, you worked so hard to keep up this body and craft it and LIVE with it and you're not going to go, and even when you try, even when you try to lay down and die, your body refuses, it takes the reigns, and it keeps up the work itself with or without your help. And it's not until your stomach is full and your teeth are stained and you feel a pulsating burning in your bones that you snap back awake, completely conscious, just fine. You're lucid, you don't feel any more pain. Everything around you is dead and drained and messy and your heart still isn't beating. but you can breathe now and holy shit you guess you literally need to kill to survive and the less you eat and the more you starve yourself the worse it gets when your body finally decides to take recourse.

my idea was like. "the vampires curse is actually stored in the bones, thats why the teeth get so sharp and also theres a connection between blood and bones with the creation via bone marrow" its literally like i was sitting there thinking "no no no, whats it like to be a vampire. what neurosis would you develop. How would you panic? What are common mistakes beginner vampires make" which, by the way, gordon is a beginner vampire

so now you gotta factor, what blood lasts for how long? how long can you go between meals? not only that, but what creatures satisfy the urge? How long can you go avoiding human blood? Does it work like drugs where you develop a resistance to the high, or is it like food where it will keep you moving until you eat again? How the fuck are you gonna get your hands on blood? Can you just eat raw meat? Does that count? and thats where im at lol

OKAY now. now thoughts on beginning scenes of vampire au

So my idea was this Doomguy is a vampire hunter independent and one of his buds says that some freak scared and almost attacked his daughter when she got too close to his old abandoned laboratory up the hill and hes like “he might be… you know… a problem. if you needed a lead” and guys like yeah i fuckin hate the undead ill kill this dude so he busts into old lab space and sees so many dead animals its actually mostly Bones and pelt that hes seeing piles of feathers etc so hes like yeah this is all telltale signs of vampire uhhh hes introduced to gordon SOMEHOW im not totally sure of the details but the working idea i have is guy falls into a trap gordon devised that restrains him suspended in wire or something and gordon like. limps/stumbles into the room and this dude looks haggard he’s breathing heavy, his cheeks are hollow, he’s bug-eyed and shaking while looking at this massive wall of meat in his trap and he bares a bunch of hideous teeth and grits them and looks like hes really struggling with somethin... Like if these dudes don't know each other then Gordon might give in and try to drain Guy, and Guy would absolutely do anything in his power to turn this new vampire into ash, im thinking the inclusion if g-man as a coven leader can fix both issues.

i like the idea of guy falling into gordons trap and gordon thinking about what to do with him before gman shows up and whisks gordon away for a “meeting” while complimenting him on his good work catching the most feared vampire hunter in the country and gman just leaving guy suspended in wires that he has to fight his way out of. Instant situation defuser.

Guy ends up needing to take care of other monsters before going back to Gordon, and he DOES plan to go back to gordon, because no vampire is a good one, especially not one associated with the fucking head of a coven, but next time he sees Gordon, Gordon helps him out of a scrape by attacking and draining a combine who was going to take Guy out or something and escaping before Guy can catch him, or otherwise seeing Gordon do something good with his insane undead powers and like, the third time he meets up with him is when they can actually talk, and Gordons fuckin SO haggard, he’s not even fighting back and he’s even going as far as to say “just make sure theres nothing of me left when you’re done, I don’t want anyone else getting hurt”

Side Note: Guy has a bunch of scarring on his body from dealing with vampires, cops, ghosts, werewolves, anything violent that kills people. I'm playing with the inkling of an idea that he has Divine Blood in him, so that any time something undead bites him or tries to drink his blood, it burns. We'll see.

Side Note 2: now i really like the idea of the combine actually being an organized faction of vampire hunters that are WICKED crooked and exploit people for all their worth in exchange for their “safety” when they kill a vampire They’re essentially loansharks and Guy fucking hates them and hates the name theyve given to vampire hunting

Side Note 3: You've probably noticed that I haven't said anything about John yet! He's in this too. His species is a surprise but I need to get to him later I have an idea for where he came from (Cortana too)

I still need a good reason for Guy to not instantly kill this vampire, if not it's just gonna be "Gordon Freeman escapes the countrys best vampire hunter like a seventh time" every time they meet and they end up being rivals. And it gives Guy enough time to look past the whole "undead monster" thing and start looking at the "Oh this dude figured out how to fight his ridiculous craving for blood in a way more humane than most and is actually staying out of peoples way and keeping to himself. Guess he's not that big of a threat but I still need to keep an eye on him in case he loses it. Turns out he's got a family (Probably Alyx, Eli, Issac and Barney) who's been lookin for him and cares about him as well, don't wanna hurt them". I like the idea of them ending up needing to team up to take out undead together.

And that's what I got so far!!!