#not about c pretty sure

[r0achinfested]

trying to keep these prying eyes out of my chest. it all comes to nothing again at the end of a longer day. at the end of the day i do everything wrong. you’re always in the back of my mind, the front of my mind, and the middle. you roam the streets in my brain and i crumple at your feet each time. you outlast me. you run down my cheeks when i cry and i pick up the slack with my arms. you’re the warmth when i’m cold even though you’re the cause of this. thinking of you rn because i’m not sober. my more normal these days. you threw me to him like a washed up volleyball and i put you over my head like a paper bag. i ramble incoherently as my mind rattles. she spills over me in waves and crashes on my achey rainy coasts. i wake up and roll over into darkness again. my mind swarms like a toppled over beehive. where they sting i can see through into a kaleidoscope of hazey seas. i breathe you in and over and over again and i spill back into my lungs and spit you out like hazelnut honey. i tear at my skin and bleed all of you out like a coastal tsunami in the rainy season. your tears sprinkle out of me like the one i played in as a child and i relive my summertime fears. they can keep me off the hill but they’ll die falling down and toppling over like spinning seats at a county fair. id die to be in the background. i wish you could spill rum down my hot bones and lick it off my lips. but i spill my dad’s leftover vodka down my throat with a pipe in my hand. i stumble down a road of false enlightenment while i’m actually just rotting away in my room. my black strands of hair fall down my wilted body like rain on a forgotten rose. i lick my lip piercing whenever someone talks to me and i pull at my fraying skin whenever someone tells me i’m too young and pretty to be this miserable. the rusty razors in my nightstand would disagree. the reddened circles of my eyes always pointed downwards say more. you say more to me than anyone else. you speak in tongues and i want to drop acid again so i can talk back with my broken bones. you pull me in like a broken heart pulls in a memory every millisecond they breathe. should i fall into myself like broken glass on a old knifewound. i always thought about what i would look like in flames. problem is i’ve already pushed the world around me into fire something awful. i think about kissing him one more time and falling into the one last look one last time. he spins circles around my brain like an asian silkworm. i fall into his lap like cerulean sea waves. i sink on his shore just to resurface a siren. you. i love you how i wish you loved me back. i love you like you loved me last summer. i love you like you loved me when you told me you would have no reason to exist if you didn’t marry me. i hate myself!!! i scream this at every molecule on earth when i take an undeserved breath. why do i break someone’s heart for every time you broke mine. why do i listen for signs of him in songs i haven’t heard in months that i listened to on cold hardwood floors and a summer spent alone crying to him on facetime and railing lines of my seraquel in a drastic attempt to feel high again. didnt work because that bullshit antipsychotic tranquilizer shit gets you nowhere. i still shake from my bones to my teeth. i still think about if desert oasis’s are real. if so i won’t drink so much water and i’ll sit in your shadow and look for the realm to the other side. i was always weak to your touch and you were always the same to mine. you loved me more than you were capable. i loved you like a crackhead loves crack. i loved you like jane loved heroin. i loved you like the sun loves sunflowers and the moon loves lonely lakes. you’re the prince to my cold dead lips. come find me.

[essektheylyss]

I'm thinking, for no real reason except that I was reminded of it, about Thuron, the Kryn agent the Nein interrogated in the sewers who they initially let take the beacon.

The Crownsguard immediately killed him when the Nein let him go, and they of course promptly stole the beacon back. It's easy to imagine that his soul was captured by that beacon in particular, purely based on proximity. It's not clear whether the case the Nein put the beacon in to avoid its detection prevented souls from leaving the beacon, but let's say for speculatory purposes that it did.

The Nein didn't get that container until the following day, so it is possible that in the time between their taking it and its containment, his soul was bestowed on some infant in Zadash. However, the next place the Nein used the beacon extensively in an urban setting was in Hupperdook, and I think that that's where Thuron should've been reborn, because it is SO funny to imagine that from his perspective when he goes through anamnesis in, idk, forty years.

Like, you're a reasonably high-level drow Kryn agent, probably in the Lens hierarchy, because you were sent with one other agent on this extremely important, very secretive mission on behalf of the Dynasty. You were killed in the streets of Zadash certain you'd failed in your quest of bringing this sacred artifact back to your people. You come to several decades after this and have to process the following:

your death effectively started a war,

the random jackasses who interrogated you and then let you go in the sewers went and stole this artifact back the moment you were downed, for seemingly no reason except impulse, given their otherwise disinterest in messing with the Crownsguard and the artifact itself,

months later they hand-delivered it to the Bright Queen herself, having supposedly walked across the continent,

these jackasses evidently carried it around for a hot minute through a Dwendalian party town known for weapons manufacturing at SOME POINT between these two events, WHILE the war was going on,

and also, you're a fucking gnome.

This has NO business being this funny but god, it is so funny.

[coldbycrossfade]

MAN THAT REALLY COLORS THIS RESPONSE IN THIS CONVERSATION SO DIFFERENTLY FOR ME

[bleue-flora]

"He has friends, Tommy. I'm right here. I'm his friend... What are you gonna say about that? You think I'm not his friend?" — Punz —

Thought it was only fair that I do c!Punz after doing c!Dream, so here he is, ready to fight anyone who messes with his friend. And yes, just like with c!Dream all of his Minecraft skin elements and colors are apart of the design in one way or another.

[dsmp-lainey]

as cute as i find the art and au’s where people depict c!jack as joining the syndicate, i think it’s so incredibly important for both c!niki and c!jack that he doesn’t, that they have some things that are independent to them.

because a lot of the issues niki and jack struggle with is are amplified by how codependent they are (not to the extent of c!wilbur and c!tommy, but still more than two healthy adults should be) they feed into each others paranoia and anger because they’re convinced no one else could ever understand their pain or can be trusted.

c!niki and c!jack always cared about each other deeply, but unfortunately that love wasn’t what kept them so close, it was the fear of not having anyone else, of being abandoned and discarded again.

as c!niki connects with the syndicate, she begins to see there ARE other places for her in the world, that she IS still lovable and capable of forming new bonds despite what she’s gone through. she still cares about c!jack so much ofc, but she realizes that he doesn’t have to be the ONLY thing she cares about, and that she shouldn’t be the only thing HE cares about. this helps her finally be able to let go of the past and begin to heal.

(oh also c!niki and c!technos friendships is one of my fav duos and i really wish it got more appreciation)

[ddodol]

several kpop shops, including the biggest ones in several countries (seoul stop and subk, just to name a few), have voiced that they won't be restocking and pre-ordering future riize merchandise. sm, are you seeing this? this is the majority that is getting affected, not some stupid 'fans' that have to resort to sending death threats just to be 'heard'.

[vaguely-concerned]

I've been picking mostly only the essential flirt options with lucanis in the romance so far (I've personally found the dynamic much more natural and mutual when you do that, more like forming a solid friendship slowly and inevitably becoming something else and less like you keep pushing on him and getting little back b/c he seemingly just gets overwhelmed and goes into freeze instead), and I think rye is a pretty hard person to read at the best of times even though he's been Down Real Bad from pretty early on and their chemistry as people is naturally really good. so the way the almost-kiss plays out in this playthrough feels a lot like it has the added layer of lucanis realizing that no but for sure rook is flirting and not just being kind or a good friend* it IS actually happening it's not just wishful/fearful thinking!!! and then uh. maybe going a bit too hard a bit too fast in all the excitement at that revelation haha

*in lucanis' defense he has seemingly literally never had a friend who wasn't his cousin-brother before, under those circumstances I suppose some confusion is extremely natural if not outright expected lmao

[moldy-flowers]

Sakura: It was this day 3 years ago he left...

Naruto: Dont worry, Sakura! I'm sure this time next year we'll have him right back at home.

(Meanwhile)

Sasuke: *Sneezes*

Kabuto: You know Sasuke, they say when you sneeze it means someone's talking about you.

Sasuke: *Repeated sneezing*

Sasuke: OBBsessIVe motherFUCKERS *Sneeze*

[clowndotgay]

ooh... do you think you could do the Bird Cogs hanging out? (Redd, Buck, Tawney... maybe a silly HR and low ballers...)

sure! i added a couple more cogs, hope you don't mind! version without shading under the cut

i think high roller is like an urban legend to a bunch of lower level street cogs n whatnot. nobodys quite sure if she exists, but they occasionally pop up in random locations (such as the weekly bird dinner) to cause general chaos for no reason

[singingcicadas]

The way it's depicted, Cybertron's pre-war societal issues had a lot less to do with Functionism and more to do with unchecked government corruption, massive wealth disparity, high layoff/unemployment rates, and disenfranchisement.

People were starving, they needed work, they weren’t getting any. Those that were fortunate enough to have work didn’t get paid living wages, much less have anything to spare for health contingencies. Even then stability’s still the luxury of the top few tiers; they live one cut away from layoff. The government cared only enough to exacerbate these issues by coming up with new ways for exploitation. Any attempts to protest or lobby were shut down through political persecution. As a result the masses turned increasingly to crime, drug abuse, thuggery, and violence. Extreme acts of terrorism gets lauded as long as the collateral damage's suffered by someone else. Morality and caution are eroded in the face of desperation.

Meanwhile the many alleged restrictions of Functionism are just lip service complaints made by the characters which doesn’t match up to most of the stuff we’re shown. Like if Rung could become a psychologist, a specialized job that requires higher education, despite having zero background on top of such a weird alt that he had to be classified as an ornament, then wow the functionists must be open-minded. If Dominus Ambus could be a scientist/doctor/explorer/author/successful social rights advocator during the height of functionist control with a minesweeper military-use alt (assuming that his secondary alt's the same as Minimus'), then wow the functionists must be accommodating. If Tyrest could become chief engineer under Nova and later go into law, a complete change of profession, while being a jet, then wow functionism's flexible. If Ratbat and Momus could become senators in a society that discriminates heavily against beastformers and labor frames, then wow that’s progressive. If every Prime from Nova to Zeta (with the exception of Sentinel, his alt’s a tank, he only has wings in Megatron Origin as part of his Apex armour upgrade), every single named pre-war senator other than Proteus and Momus, and four out of five of Nova Prime’s buddy club (only Galvatron's a grounder) were wingframes in a society that supposedly discriminates against wingframes, then wow that’s… inconsistent worldbuilding.

Megatron didn’t get into bloodsports or start a war because he didn’t get to pursue his dream job. He got driven into the pits and down the slippery slope of moral degeneration because his only source of income was cut off by the mine closure incident. People wanted livelihoods above anything else, it's the failure to provide that that made the miners go off the deep end and resulted in the death of a guard. If Functionism actually ensured that everyone could be guaranteed a job or at least minimized the unemployment rates, then stratified castes or not, there would have been no war. People, or societies, are generally capable of tolerating an incredible amount of injustice as long as the majority still have a chance at scraping by at the end of the day. But the government, and later Megatron, kept yanking the rug out from under everyone over and over until they no longer even had a chance at that; there's no other choice left but fight or die.

[sing-me-under]

Current c!Alyssa tentative design.

[spop-romanticizes-abuse]

you know. the term “gaslighting” is being misused so much that it's difficult to figure out if a person is referring to actual gaslighting, or if they're talking about any kind of manipulation or even just a white lie. with the rise of awareness for mental health, the unfortunate downside is that people label everything with psychological terms and spread misinformation. the term “gaslighting” has lost its original meaning and has turned into a sort of buzzword.

it's obvious that this happens in media analyses too, where people are quick to label any kind of undesirable behaviour as “gaslighting”. however, the only exception to this that i've seen so far is catra.

to refresh your memory (or lend you some new information), here's the definition of gaslighting, according to the APA:

To gaslight someone means to manipulate another person into doubting their own perceptions, experiences or understanding of events.

“I think of gaslighting as trying to associate someone with the label 'crazy',” says Paige Sweet, Ph.D., an assistant professor of sociology at the University of Michigan who studies gaslighting in relationships and in the workplace. “It’s making someone seem or feel unstable, irrational and not credible, making them feel like what they’re seeing or experiencing isn’t real, that they’re making it up, that no one else will believe them.”

when we say catra gaslit adora in the show, we mean it. we don't mean that catra just lied to adora or manipulated her (both of which she has done, to her credit).

some common phrases that gaslighters use are along the lines of:

“you're crazy”

“you're just imagining it”

“it's all in your head”

“you're just being dramatic”

“you're making things up”

this ensures that the victim believes that they are the problem and starts questioning their own sanity. if it continues for too long, the victim might actually be driven to a mentally unstable state.

let's see some of these examples with catra, shall we?

she says all of this word for word. they don't even try to disguise it. and we already know that catra remembered everything or almost everything, at this point. she was not only playing dumb when adora questioned her about it, but further went on to make adora believe that she was going crazy and that she was making everything up.

she also attempts to gaslight scorpia later on, and make her admit that entrapta betrayed them when that is not what happened, and scorpia was there to witness what actually happened.

(i am a bit hesitant to call this “gaslighting” because catra doesn't call scorpia crazy or anything like that, however, she does imply that scorpia was making things up about entrapta trying to save them from the portal.)

and people still have the gall to say that catra never gaslit adora or worse„ that she only did it because she wanted adora to stay. there's no excuse to abuse, manipulation and gaslighting. you can't just woobify an abuser by saying “oh but she just wanted her crush to stay with her 🥺” that's just gross. catra fans say that they empathize with abuse victims but their empathy starts and ends with catra. adora's trauma doesn't matter to them in the slightest, which is why they keep romanticizing this shit.

[recurring-polynya]

Me: (reading about historical muggers on Wikipedia)

Wikipedia: "Hey, you wanna see this fucking sweet engraving I got? It's called DOCTOR SYNTAX AND THE HIGHWAYMEN

Me: "You know what? I do want to see that."

[bleue-flora]

tbh to me c!sapnap is on the same level of betraying c!dream as c!sam. It may seem far-fetched considering what c!sam did and considering we don't have much real lore content with c!sapnap or c!dreamnap, but when you look at what we DO have, it's kind of a picture

like, he's not just some stupid or short-sighted character, as it might seem at first glance - we have a ton of evidence that he understands perfectly well that prison makes c!dream physically and mentally ill, but he agrees with it. In the dialogue with c!michael he literally says "dream fucked up, prison fucked him up in another sense, but it doesn't matter, cause dream has to get better and become *my* dream again, let him stay in prison and improve, even if it breaks him idc", like wtf is this? funny, but at the same time, c!sapnap doesn't visit dream more than once, how will he know that c!dream is making progress? In c!sapnap's head, prison is supposed to be a rehabilitation for c!dream, only no one checks his progress in stopping being a "fucked up", he either sits there completely alone or people go there to hurt him and c!sapnap understands and acknowledged it, but he doesn't give a shit. I'm sorry, but this gives off sam's "I thought I broke his will to do something like that". He obviously doesn't care about c!dream and just wants his good old *convenient* friend, and he doesn't care about the consequences.

But he's not just passively harming c!dream, he's doing it actively. If the threat could still be interpreted as an emotional outburst, something he could say and regret, then his other actions clearly say the opposite. Like, the dude literally stalked and harassed c!dream for months after he found out where he lived??

The revival book was more important to him than torture. Even in the beginning, he didn't care about c!dream's reputation, when c!wilbur and c!tommy dragged it into the dirt for no reason, and he repeatedly went against c!dream or supported things that directly harmed c!dream. For me, one of the most telling scenes is c!sapnap and c!george's meeting with mexican dream's ghost, where c!sapnap, without any reason, pins the explosion of El Rapids on c!dream, and then, when he finds out that actually c!quackity was the one who did it, c!sapnap immediately says that they urgently need to go and find out why he did it, to check if he's okay and all that. This is literally the attitude you'd expect from c!tommy, to attribute every bad event to c!dream, but no, this is his so-called best friend! And of course, he only wants to know the reasons for an action when someone else does a bad action, but not c!dream - well, of course, cause it's clear that c!dream reasons are "being evil" or smth.

So, I've been in my c!sapnap hate arc for over two years now and you all should join me lmao

I didn't think I'd write SO much, but emotions took over after reading the new chapter of your fic and some of your posts, sorry abt that :"^

[context a & b]

Honestly, in my opinion his betrayal is almost worse than Sam’s, which is saying something since he literally enabled and facilitated daily torture. But like Sam wasn’t Dream’s self proclaimed brother, and at least Sam’s delusion kinda makes sense. Sapnap is just like - the chicken tastes rubbery and overcooked, so I put it in the oven and then it tasted burnt, so I put it back in the oven to help the taste and at some point I’ll take it out of the oven and then it’ll taste good again. No idea how long that’ll take, and no don’t be ridiculous I’m not gonna check on it. I swear though if anyone touches my chicken before it tastes good again like so much as removes it from the oven or seasons it I’m gonna throw it in the trash… vs Sam who’s like - the chicken tastes rubbery but I spent money on it so I’m gonna put it in the oven and turn it to charcoal so at least then it won’t be a complete waste…

ya know? Like at least Sam was corrupted by power, financial benefit, manipulated a bit, and had the blood of a “child” on his hands. Sapnap doesn’t even have that, he has a life long best friend who he heard made a speech about not caring about anything and then later a speech about wanting to control everyone, a fish in a item frame and a letter saying “thanks for visiting”…

Well I don’t know about the “even if it breaks him” I don’t think he is thinking that directing about Dream’s suffering if that makes sense, but Sapnap is delusional no doubt. I also don’t know if he even cares that much about the book in general, he just doesn’t seem to given a damn about the torture. He seems to really just be about the fear of what Dream might do and how he needs to be stopped before that.

And you do have a point, in the beginning even as his “brother” he on many occasions went against him, down to the very first disc war where they killed him multiple times. I mean if Sapnap weren’t American, he’d have probably been right alongside clingy duo in L’manberg and stuff… oh I had no idea about the El Rapids thing but am also not surprised…

What do you even mean, I am literally an engineer of this Sapnap hate train 🚂 choo choo! I be shoveling coal to keep this engine running ya know. like literally the more lore I watch the more he actually just kills me.

but anyways, I mean you read the chapter (and presumably the one before) so you know my thoughts on Sapnap lol. ;D

[bookrat]

Pretty sure my little man has a case of abundism affecting the marble tabby coat under all those white splotches

[disasterhimbo]

So… when are we gonna do something big about climate change? With the way things are going, it seems like humanity will just try to continue doing things how it’s used to until we go extinct (never mind the many animals that have and will go extinct before and after us).