#not a good sign when i start remembering bojack horseman

[your-god-empress-lavender]

Forgot to add that a higher percent of this batch reacted in the cool skippy, repulsed way to the magnet, so maybe whatever change happened to it was actually a good thing? It also could simply be that there was a slight difference in the initial composition tho, so who knows. There's even a moderate to very good chance that i mixed up the vials because i'm a stupid idiot and i actually used the Fe(II) vial (i used a very small amount of FeCl2 instead of the CuCl2) which would obviously explain the colour change observed and why the colour change didn't impact reaction (well, it actually would have since the Fe(II) samples that were cooked immediately, without the chance to go to Fe(III), showed no magnetic response). The response of this substance is still very strongly diamagnetic, not para- or ferro- magnetic, so that's somewhat of a good sign. AFAIK, if this is in fact Fe(III), then that would make sense to be doing something somewhat similar but possibly to a greater degree than Cu if it's true that the Cu is in the 3+ state. Obviously if this was in fact an iron compound, that means that i wasn't successful in reproducing a copper based stp superconductor (or other funky magnetic substance), but that's an issue for future me (once i find the other vial that i brought with me that either contains the Fe(II) doped suspension or the thing i had intended to cook 2 days ago which is the Cu based one.

(potential) Superconductor updates:

Replicated it in the dorms despite the fact that the suspension had turned an awful yellow-red colour (it was a faint blue-white). Unfortunately, despite putting a lid on it, it doesn't seem to work 20 hours later. Also, this was a mix brought from home more than 2 weeks ago. The fact that the amount of time in water doesn't seem to show any difference indicates to me that the most important part is in the cooking. Alas, i have no copper or calcium chloride despite begging the chem department. So, that'll be needed for future experiments. Gonna try to get them from the uni again but i may have to buy it sadly. It's very strange that the colour was so dramatically changed and yet the effect was largely unchanged. That seems to indicate that the colourant (presumably a copper ion) was not in fact a necessary part? And it's not like it remains unchanged afterwards either, with the earlier samples, after i heated it it would be off-white whereas now the whole substance is an awful yellow-green-brown colour. It may be solely working with Ca2+, Al3+, and B3+. IDK tho. It'd still be kinda weird to me, if there was no help by the copper at all. I gotta get some calcium chloride first and test to see if i really do also need the copper. Or even if i can replicate it at all.

At the very least i saved a few drops of the suspension in an airtight container so that if worst comes to worst and i can't make it anew, i can (hopefully) run a mass spec and a few analytical chem tests (assuming the chem lab folks let me). Ideally though i'd just make it anew sometime soon. I can very super easily and definitively rule out iron contamination this time as any sort of possible factor since the cooking step took place in an aluminium container (the cut out bottom of a thoroughly cleaned out monster energy can). I was pretty sure it wasn't iron contamination (like, it was doing the wrong effect from what one would assume from iron anyways), but now i'm very confident.

I feel like there was something else important to say, but idk what it is.

Last thought on the matter: I will hopefully very soon be able to have more resources because i'm gonna be in conversation with one of the professors at my school who's an expert in magnetism and also ceramics and her research group is currently focusing on things that aren't publicly disclosed, but vaguely about inorganic "magnetically and electrically interesting" compounds. Also her students say she's the nicest person in the world, so i'm double excited. Anyway, so, tuesday afternoon, i'll either be infantilized, found to be not quite up to spec, or be given a great opportunity.

[mysteriouslyhopefulstranger]

((Helluva Boss spoilers below, but also some perspective to think about:))

((OK, deep breath everybody. I know for the Stoliz shippers [me included], this was not how we wanted it to go. But I see where Vivziepop is going with this drag out. Realistically, no one would go back to someone after getting hurt and after they can't apologize. Oh, and after someone failed to let them know that someone else was trying to kill them. In fact, that last part reminds me that Vivziepop said that she was inspired by Bojack Horseman, another adult cartoon show that deconstructs sitcoms and brings back moments all the way from Season One to put into perspective how messed up that situation was [example: Bojack makes out and fucks Sarah Lynn, someone he knew since she was a child and was a surrogate father to her. Normally this would be brushed off as a joke, but Season 6 emphasized how horrible that was].

This kind of drag out was also seen in a kid's show: Steven Universe. Remember when Garnet found out that Pearl lied to her about Peridot just so that she could make Sardonyx with her? That episode ended in MASSIVE tension that lasted for a week's worth of episodes before they made up.

Then there's Zuko's redemption arc from Avatar: The Last Airbender [the cartoon version]. We watched him be a good person, then separate himself from his kind uncle, reunite with him, do a good deed that changed his demeanor, SIDE WITH HIS SISTER TO DEFEAT AANG, and then finally join Team Avatar. All this in three seasons.

These second half of Season 2 episodes are not only past consequences catching up to the characters, but also a journey for Blitz's character development. Someone said that Blitz shows signs of Borderline Personality Disorder, and yeah, I see that. But if he ever wants to have a healthy and stable relationship, he's going to need to work on the parts that are hurting other people [putting on a "who cares" mask when someone is vulnerable or hurt, fucking other people while in a relationship, not apologizing]. Full Moon and Apology Tour seem to act as a wakeup call for Blitz to start working on himself.

He needs to see Stolas break down in tears after being insulted.

He needs to see the massive crowd of demons he hurt in the past bonding over the heartbreak he caused.

He needs to see Stolas bonding with another demon he had hurt.

Otherwise, what's going to encourage him to change?))

[aspecpplarebeautiful]

hi, so my mom has always been supportive of the lgbtq community. My mom has mentioned she is fine and supportive of me if I was lesbian or bi. I was happy until I’ve brought up not being sexually attracted to anyone, she didn’t seem to think that was possible and said it was normal and I haven’t met the right person yet. I didn’t want to mention it was a sexuality yet, and just continued explaining how I haven’t been sexually attracted to anyone in my 18 yrs of living and how I’m sure it’s not a “meeting the right person” thing. She said how back then people didn’t use to think like that, or see someone and think “I want that person in my pants.” I think now I’m confused? I wanted to say that’s an over exaggeration but I’m actually not sure if it is cause idk how allos think? Now it’s got me thinking if I got this all wrong? What if my mom doesn’t get what I’m saying? What if she herself doesn’t have these thoughts cause she’s also… I’m not sure. I guess I’m just surprised at how much doubt I have after hearing that, and I view myself as someone who wouldn’t be as shaken over such few words. She seems supportive of the big titles but not the less heard ones. I guess times like these I wish I knew another aspec person in real life so I can ask questions. Sorry about my ramble 💜

So there seems to be two things going on here, so let's start with the doubt. Doubt is normal, and it doesn't necessarily mean you're wrong about your identity. A lot of people will experience a bit of doubt if someone straight up says 'that's not real, you're wrong.' This is even more common if you haven't been identifying as ace that long, or if you still had some personal doubts.

You mentioned not really understanding what sexual attraction is/feels like and that can contribute to feelings of doubt too because you're defining an absence of something, which is already hard, it's even harder when you're not 100% sure what you're looking for.

Sexual attraction is complex, because humans are complex and heaven forbid anything is ever simple. You're right that thinking 'I want that person in my pants' can be a bit of an exaggeration (not to say it never happens that way, but I wouldn't say it's what it always is).

My favourite definition of sexual attraction is a sexual pull towards another specific person (so not in general finding people of a certain type, but actually directed at someone). And that can be being turned on by a specific person (so it's hot, but specifically hot because this person did it), but often it feels a lot like a craving. Like the same way you could really go for cheesecake or a big plate of fries, you could really go for sex with that specific person.

Hot can mean arousal, but there's sexual attraction symptoms, like sometimes the air around you feels too warm (where the term 'hot' comes from). Your mouth can either become water, or it can do the opposite and suddenly get dry. Clothes may feel uncomfortable or you may find yourself hyperaware of them, stuff like that. (Just a note that attraction symptoms like these can appear with other types of attraction, so this doesn't necessarily mean it's sexual attraction. There's other symptoms I didn't mention as well, these are just some common ones.)

So in general sexual attraction is kind of a big feeling (some people experience it more weakly, but if it's so weak you have trouble noticing it, you can identify as ace on the basis of experiencing sexual attraction too.)

Another thing that helps people with doubt too is to remember labels are subjective. So if you're finding asexual to be a useful label, then that's usually a sign it is the right label for you. That you have a reason to relate to asexuality or that you do have reason for not relating or identifying with allosexuality.

It may also help to join an online space, maybe find a discord server (you can find a list by searching disboard) or something like that where you can talk to other aces may help too and help you feel like a bigger part of a community.

For your mom doubting, it's up to you what you want to do about that. And you don't have to do anything. It's also OK to want to talk to her but not feel ready to do it, especially if you think it's going to make you doubt yourself again. And it's absolutely OK to ask her to drop the subject for the time being.

If it is something you want to talk to her more about though (or if she won't let it go/starts thinking there's something wrong), sometimes in cases like this appealing to more authoritative sources may help. So explaining what asexuality is, and then sending her to something that explains it/legitimizes it as an orientation may help a lot. And there's a lot out there these days, from articles from major news sources/wikipedia, scholarly sources, rep on tv shows (Bojack Horseman in season 3 or Sex Education in season 2. So are two shows you could try watching together for example). If she considers herself a queer ally, most major queer orgs have pages/articles about asexuality so you can show that to her too. Or if there's any Pride stuff going on, that can help too. So you don't have to show her all these things, but if there's anything you think may be effective in reaching her that may help. Sometimes seeing it's mostly accepted in other places such as academia/lgbtq+ orgs can help with that too.

I know this involves telling her you're ace and not just not sexually attracted to others, but if she can see a lot of other people are like this too, that may help her get away from the idea there's something going on with you.

But again remember it's up to you, and what you're comfortable with is always going to be what matters the most. It's also OK to lie to get her to leave you alone, so if saying 'oh I think you were right I just haven't met the right person yet' is a temporary solution that works until you're more ready to bring it up again, or you need her to drop it, that's OK too.

All the best, Anon! And good luck!

[apieceofmindblog]

AX3001 - Personal Project Research - BoJack Horseman

BoJack Horseman was a show that really surprised me when I first watched it, I heard good things about it but they never really mentioned the dark places and heavy subject matter BoJack ends up touching upon. It made for an experience unlike any other adult animated show because typically they’re all made into comedies.

That’s not to say the series isn’t a comedy, it certainly appears like any old adult animation at first but with a world of human-animal hybrids. However, the dark subject matter touched upon in BoJack ends up hitting home and resonating with it’s viewers way more than any other adult animated properties at that time. We follow BoJack, a washed up former sitcom star of the show ‘Horsing Around’ and we learn about his dark past, regrets, feelings towards others and see how far he sometimes falls... Consequences in this show are permanent, if BoJack messes up big time, he can’t fix it. Here are just a small list of sillier elements of the show that are effected by the consequences of others.

Hollywoo

In Season 1, BoJack steals the D from the Hollywood sign as a romantic gesture for his ghost writer, Diane and for the rest of the series, Hollywood is referred to as Hollywoo by everyone.

Spaghetti Strainer Payoff

Another example for continuity was a joke made early in Season 3, where Mr Peanutbutter and Todd (initially BoJack’s best friend) ordered a bunch of Spaghetti Strainers in bulk because they planned to make a TV show with them. However, these two characters are rather foolish and quickly forgot whatever plans they had for them.

However, it pays off in the end with several other plot threads set up in Season 3 as the spaghetti strainers turn out to be extremely useful for a city-sized spaghetti disaster!

The F Word

The word “Fuck” is used sparingly within the series and typically it’s used to show when BoJack damages a relationship beyond repair. It’s saved for once a season which kind of makes these emotional moments even more tense, since as a fan that had to wait for the last few seasons, it became something to look out for and anticipate to see who BoJack will hurt. There’s a few cases where it was used to subvert audience expectations and those cases really work well too.

These are just examples of the continuity throughout the series, even rather simple things like these are consistent, but this even extends to the characters.

BoJack, the Star of the Show

BoJack is consistently plagued with a bunch of issues, going back to his childhood and up to present day. We’re shown he has a lot of negative opinions of himself, needing alcohol or drugs or sex to numb those feelings of inadequacy. 

Though those are only just his actions, an episode where we see into the mind of BoJack is “Stupid Piece of Shit”. An episode pretty revered and loved by the fanbase due to it’s relatability and fairly accurate depictions of overthinking and anxiety.

Stupid Piece of Shit

This is an episode I’ve looked to for inspiration several times with research and I think it’s probably because of how it hits home for me. Although, the visual style definitely has something to do with it too, since BoJack is typically animated with rigged characters, so when we get this rough cartoon style it stands out and stays with you much more.

Having it stand out immediately in your mind makes audiences remember it much better, I think the visuals alone would make this episode identifiable to any BoJack fan and the personal monologue of BoJack constantly putting himself down is the cherry on top of creating a very memorable episode.

BoJack finds nearly every excuse to start ridiculing himself, for breakfast he eats a bunch of cookies all the while criticising his choices and trying to mentally convince himself not to eat another cookie. Only to eat another cookie and be extremely disappointed in himself. Even in mundane circumstances, he will find a way to abuse himself. 

However, a rather interesting observation is that when he’s actively doing something shitty, such as throwing a baby doll over his balcony to spite his dementia-ridden mother, his inner monologue is pretty minimal. Obviously having two recordings of Will Arnett over one another wouldn’t sound good, but even when he pauses there’s no voice inside his head telling him to stop. The only one we hear is “Do it.”

And once everyone leaves him alone because of his actions, he’s back to the same old “You stupid piece of shit” routine. Admittedly, doing things that can hurt you in the long run is something I’ve dealt with before and while it might feel good at the time, when you have to deal with your lack of action before hand it can feel overwhelming and your opinions of yourself just plummet. Now, I’ve never done anything like torment an eldery woman by throwing a symbol of her child off of a balcony, but I’ve done things that immediately resulted in a “Why did I do that” reaction.

BoJack is a Very Flawed Person

As BoJack creator, Raphael Bob-Waksberg, once said, BoJack is not a character you want to be. He is a deeply flawed individual with a mindset that is simply too dangerous to himself. That doesn’t mean we can’t relate to BoJack and find humanity within his struggles because that’s really what he is. He’s a horse man, he goes through things celebrities have probably gone through and his rough childhood and low opinions of himself humanise him to such an extent that we disconnect the fact that he’s a celebrity with a big house, money and while not much of a legacy, still has people around him that care and want him there.

However, he tries his best...

At the very end of “Stupid Piece of Shit”, BoJack decides to sit outside with Hollyhock, a teenage girl that sought out BoJack in Season 4 believing he was her dad. Hollyhock asks what BoJack does all day when he leaves and never comes home, BoJack decides to be honest and tell her that it’s because he’s shitty. But, he makes sure to let Hollyhock know that it’s not because of her.

Hollyhock confides in BoJack, telling him about the voice she hears that tells her “Everyone hates you and they’re not wrong to feel that way” and she asks whether that voice goes away. BoJack says that it does and we see Hollyhock smile at hearing that, while once she looks away BoJack’s face clearly shows us and well the whole episode has shown us that it’s a lie. 

While it’s not a good thing to lie just to make someone happy, it brought Hollyhock peace and that’s all BoJack wanted. There’s glimmers of hope within his character and while may not want to be him or are anything like him, we want to see him succeed and become a better person. That’s the whole appeal of BoJack as a character.

In Conclusion

BoJack Horseman, in my opinion, is one of the best animated shows out there with such a morally wrong but compelling character in the centre spotlight is quite a risk and BoJack executed it amazingly.

A lot of people have related to BoJack, not because of all the things he’s done or his lifestyle, but simply because of his state of mind. During the show’s run, on places such as Facebook or Reddit, communities would gather on posts discussing the whole episode and “Stupid Piece of Shit” describe BoJack’s state of mind and inner voice extremely relatable. Even a silly scene like him eating the cookies, people found a bit of themselves represented in this episode.

Mental health depiction is something that is becoming more common within media I feel and BoJack Horseman is a great observation on how to do it. With me creating my film, it’s helped me realise that not all depressing stories have to be depressing. BoJack knows where to put the laughs and where to make sure the emotional scenes lands and I definitely feel more equipped to go this route with this film having watched this amazing show.

If you haven’t already, go watch it.

[keyofjetwolf]

Pitch Me your thing!

HELLO HELLO MY SUNBEAMS. For most every category, there was an impressive turn-out for pitches, so I thought we’d utilize the weirdness of this year’s GIFTENING to give something new a try. The popular vote winner for each category will happen on the first day, but on the second, the winner will be chosen from YOUR PITCHES. Mostly those pitches will be to me. The exception is in Miscellaneous, where you’ll be pitching to my family, because what I want to do and what is most entertaining isn’t necessarily the same thing.

So! How will we do this thing? GLAD YOU ASKED. I’ll link you to a form in a minute with space for one pitch. Once you fill it out, you’ll be asked if you want to do another. There’s no limit to the number of pitches you can send in! But remember that if you submit multiple entries for the same category, you’ll basically be competing against yourself.

NOW WE’VE GOT SOME RULES FOR DOING THIS (which I mostly stole from Holligay, because I have no creativity this year). Please read them carefully! I’ll toss pitches that break any of these, and I’d rather your hard work not go to waste.

Pitch Me is open for your submissions from RIGHT NOW (22 December) through the very last day of this hellyear (31 December) at 11:59pm MT.

The thing you pitch must have come from what was nominated for THE GIFTENING 2020. (Full list of those nominations in every category below the cut on this post.)

Entries must be unsigned! I’m looking to chose based on the pitch alone, regardless of who submitted it.

The pitch itself must be 100 words or less. HAVE PITY ON ME I CAN ONLY CONSUME SO MUCH.

If you’d like to get some help, ideas, feedback, all that good stuff, the Discord is a FANTASTIC resource I encourage you to use.

HERE IS YOUR PITCH SUBMISSION LINK

And, as promised, below the cut you’ll find the list of all the nominees in every category you guys sent in this year. IT’S A LONG LIST HAVE FUN WITH THAT

Anime

A Place Further Than The Universe/Sora Yori mo Toi Basho Ace Attorney (Gyakuten Saiban) Action Heroine Cheer Fruits Aggretsuko Aho Girl Air Master Akuma No Riddle Alien Nine Angel Beats! Angelic Layer Appare-Ranman Aria Aria the Animation Arrietty/ The Secret World of Arrietty (Ghibli film) Ascendance of a Bookworm Azumamga Daioh Baccano! Beastars Black Cat Blood + (the series) Bloom Into You Blue Drop/Tenshitachino Gikyoku Bodacious Space Pirates (starting right where you left off) BOFURI: I Don't Want to Get Hurt, so I'll Max Out My Defense Boku no hero academia Bubblegum Crisis Card Captor Sakura: Clear Card Cardcaptor Sakura Castlevania the Animated Series Cells at Work Chaos; Head Chihayafuru Code Geass cowboy Bebop Cyborg 009 Death Note Death Parade Deca-Dence Demon Girl Next Door Demon Slayer (Kimetsu no Yaiba) Diebuster: Aim For the Top 2 Dog Days dorohedoro Dot Hack//SIGN Dr. Stone Elfen Lied Erased (Boku Dake Ga Inai Machi) Escaflowne Excel Saga Fantastic Children Fate/Zero Flip Flappers Fresh Precure Fruits Basket 2019 Full Metal Alchemist Brotherhood Ga rei Zero GaoGaiGar gekkan shoujo nozaki-kun Ghost in the Shell: Standalone Complex Ghost Stories (dubbed) Girls' Last Tour Great Pretender Hoseki no Kuni/ Land of the Lustrous House of Five Leaves/ Saraiya Goyou Inari konkon koi iroha Interviews with Monster Girls Inuyasha Isekai Izakaya "Nobu" Jellyfish Princess/ Kuragehime JoJo's Bizarre Adventure Part 4: Diamond is Unbreakable Kaguya-sama Love Is War Kaleido Star Kannazuki no Miko Keep Your Hands Off Eizouken! Kemono Friends Kiki's Delivery Service Kimi ni Todoke: From Me To You Kino's Journey/Kino no Tabi (2003) Land of the Lustrous (Houseki no Kuni) Little Witch Academia Lord El-Melloi II's Case Files EP0 {"A Grave Keeper") Love is Hard for an Otaku Love Live! Sunshine!! lupin the 3rd part 4 Madoka: The Rebellion Movie Magic knight rayearth Magical Girl Lyrical Nanoha March Comes in Like a Lion Mardock Scramble Master of Martial Hearts Mawaru Penguindrum Megalobox Miss Kobayashi's Dragon Maid Mob Psycho 100 Mobile Suit Gundam (1979) Monster Mushishi My Bride is a Mermaid (Seto No Hanayome) My Love Story!!! My Neighbor Totoro My Next Life As A Villainess: All Routes Lead to Doom My Roommate is a Cat NANA Naruto Natsume’s Book of Friends Neon Genesis Evangelion (hateblog) New Cutey Honey Nichijou Ōban Star-Racers One Piece Ouran High school Host club Outlaw Star Paranoia Agent Perfect Blue Please Save My Earth Pop Team Epic Pretty Cure Fresh Princess Jellyfish/ Kuragehime Princess Mononoke Princess Principal Princess Tutu Project A-Ko promised neverland (/yakusoku no neverland) Psycho-Pass Ranma 1/2 Re: Cutie Honey Re:Creators Read or Die (OAV) Red Garden relife Revolutionalry Girl Utena Rose of Versailles Ruroni Kenshin Sailor Moon Sailor Moon (viz dub) Samurai Champloo (english dub) Sarazanmai School Days School-Live! Scum's Wish Senki Zesshou Symphogear (listed as just "Symphogear" on Crunchyroll.) Serei no Moribito (Guardian of the Spirit) Shin Sekai Yori (From The New World) Shirobako Shoujo Kageki Revue Starlight Showa Genroku Rakugo Shinju Sleepy Princess in the Demon Castle Smile Pretty Cure (Japanese original)/ Glitter Force (english adaptation) Snow White with the Red Hair Sound Euphonium Strawberry Panic (yuri) Sweetness and Lightning The Devil is a Part-timer The Devil Lady The disasterous life of saiki k (saiki kusuo no Sai Nan) The End of Evangelion (movie) the Promised Neverland The Twelve Kingdoms Tiger & Bunny Tokimeki Tonight ToraDora Tsubasa Chronicle Umineko When They Cry Valkyrie Drive: Mermaid Vinland Saga Violet Evergarden Whispered Words (Sasameki Koto) With a Dog AND a Cat, Every Day is Fun Yona of the Dawn Yu Yu Hakusho Yugioh Duel Monster Yuki Yuna is a Hero Yuri Kuma Arashi Yuri On Ice!!! Zoids: Chaotic Century Zombie Land Saga

Non-Anime Animated

Adventure Time Amphibia Animainiacs (Original) Animaniacs (Reboot) Archie's Weird Mysteries As Told By Ginger Barbie Life in The Dreamhouse Batman the Animated Series Big Guy and Rusty the Boy Robot Big Mouth Bob's Burgers Bojack Horseman Bravest Warriors Captain N: the Game Master Carmen Sandiego (1994) Carmen Sandiego (2019) Castlevania (Netflix) Cats Don't Dance Coco Courage the Cowardly Dog Craig of the Creek Cyber Six Daria Darkwing Duck Dragon Booster Dragons: Riders of Berk DuckTales (2017) Exo-Squad Fern Gully Fillmore! Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends Futurama Gargoyles Glitch Techs Godzilla: The Animated Series Green Lantern the Animated Series Hedgehog in the Fog (Ёжик в тумане) Hey Arnold Hilda Infinity Train Iron Giant JEM Kim Possible Kipo and the Age of the Wonderbeasts Legend of Zelda animated series (1989) Legion of Super-Heroes Liberty Kids Magical Girl Friendship Squad Mao Mao: Heroes of Pure Heart The Legend of Korra Moominvalley Motorcity My Little Pony (Classic, NOT FiM) My Little Pony: Equestria Girls: Rainbow Rocks Onyx Equinox Over the Garden Wall Over the Moon (2020 film) Owl House Primal Rapunzel's Tangled Adventure Redwall Rise of the TMNT Roco's Modern Life Rugrats RWBY Samurai Jack Seis Manos She-Ra (1985) She-Ra and the Princesses of Power (2018) Sonic Boom Spartakus and the Sun Beneath the Sea Spiderman: Into the Spiderverse Star vs. the Forces of Evil Strange Magic Super Mario Brothers Super Show Superman: The Animated Series Teen Titans The 13 Ghosts of Scooby Doo The Animals of Farthing Wood The Dragon Prince The Hollow The Legend of Tarzan (TV series) The Magic School Bus (1994) The Mysterious Cities of Gold The Pirate Fairy (Disney Fairies) The Powerpuff Girls (1998) The Real Ghostbusters Thundercats (1985) Thundercats (2011) Transformers: Prime Tuca and Bertie Twelve Forever Undone Venture Bros Wakko's Wish Wakfu Wander Over Yonder We Bare Bears (TV) Winx Club Wreck-It Ralph (2012) X-Men Evolution X-Men: The Animated Series Xiaolin Showdown

Live Action

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[angelbabylu]

Birthday Present // CH

pairing: reader x calum 

warnings: fluff, smut towards the very end so you can skip it if you want, an itsy bitsy bit of angst 

word count: 5.5k ish 

notes: this was really supposed to be a short fic about you and Cal fucking for his birthday but my brain decided to add an extra 3 thousand words of plot so??? which is also why i’m posting this more than a week after his birthday haha. also i’m the only one who has edited this so if you find mistakes let me know so i can fix them.

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Calum was on the couch across from Luke idly plucking at his bass strings. The two of them were supposed to be working on the rhythm and lyrics for a song Luke had written a few days before. They had only been together for five minutes before it became clear they were both not in the mood to get anything done.

His eyes flickered from Calum to the notebook in his lap, where his handwriting was scrawled, barely decipherable, pen ink smeared from the tears he had cried while writing it. They were lyrics about a stupid fight he and Sierra were both too stubborn to apologize to each other about. This never got easier for him - putting himself in his lyrics like this. But what was he supposed to write about if not himself?

Sighing, he looked back up at Calum whose random plucking had yet to become a discernable bassline. Calum wasn’t getting anywhere with the rhythm and Luke didn’t want to put any effort into finishing the lyrics. With the wound still fresh, it was hard for him to put words to his pain. He decided to make an attempt, anyway.

“What do you think about this,” he said, trying to grab Calum’s attention before reading off the pre-chorus idea that had been stuck in his head for the past few days.

He looked up to Calum for his advice. It was no secret that Calum was a crazy talented songwriter. Luke almost always deferred to his judgment on these things. But Calum was not paying attention to him. Instead, he was miles away, smiling at what Luke hoped wasn’t the lyrics about heartbreak.

Luke had to call his name three times before his eyes refocused, locking with Luke’s for the first time that session.

“Huh?” he asked, trying to seem as if he was listening along. “Sorry, I didn’t catch that last part.”

“I said, what do you think about the pre-chorus?”

“Yeah, it’s really – “

Before he could come up with a bullshit answer to pretend he had been listening, Luke leveled him with a glare.

Calum’s mouth snapped shut.

“Sorry,” he grimaced.

Luke closed his notebook and relaxed back into the loveseat. Honestly, he was thankful for a reason not to think about the lyrics or how much he missed Sierra. “Want to tell me what you were thinking about?”

“No, man.” Calum was replying, removing the bass from his lap and placing it in the stand next to the couch. “Today’s supposed to be about you. Run those lyrics by me one more time.”

Luke really didn’t want to, so instead he took a guess. “Were you thinking about (Y/N)?”

(Y/N) was a friend of the band. They had met her at a party in West Hollywood early last year where they all became fast friends. On New Year’s a few weeks ago, Luke, Calum, and Ashton ended up at the same party as her. Calum had mentioned a few times that he regretted not kissing her that night. Luke, knowing what a hopeless romantic Calum was, guessed that was what had him smiling and staring off into space.

Calum blushed and tried to hide his face at the mention of her name.

“Calum,” Luke couldn’t help his teasing tone. He was so gone for her it was cute. “(Y/N)? Seriously?”

Next thing he knew, the pillow closest to Calum was sailing through the air and hitting him in the face.

“Shut up,” Cal grumbled, the smile and the blush never leaving his face. “I never said anything about how vomit-inducing you were with Sierra.”

Luke threw the pillow back at him with a little bit more force than necessary. “Actually, you did.” Calum, Michael, and Ashton had teased him about her for months. “But let’s not talk about Sierra.”

He could see the second Calum remembered why they were in the studio, the second he remembered the lyrics they were supposed to be working on that day.

Calum’s lips twitched downward into a small worried frown; then, he was sitting forward, elbows coming to rest on his knees. Luke instantly recognized these motions as signs of Calum wanting to have a talk. “Luke,” He said, voice softening as if he thought that speaking too loud would re-break Luke’s heart. “You and Sierra will be fine. Why don’t you just call her and talk to her?”

Luke shook his head. He didn’t want to be the first one to reach out to her. Yes, his behavior was childish and stubborn, but so was hers. He hadn’t heard a peep from her in two weeks, the longest they’ve ever gone without speaking to each other. The worst part is that she left L.A. to visit her dad and none of her friends seemed to know when she would be back. This meant that their old song and dance of getting mad at each other then running into each other at Ashton’s house and instantly apologizing wasn’t going to work this time.

Luke didn’t want to think about it, so again he tried to change the subject.

“Your birthday is coming up! What are we doing?”

Luke watched as Calum decided whether he should go along with Luke’s misdirection or attempt to have it out about how Luke was feeling.

“Fuck my birthday.”

He released a sigh in relief as Calum chose the second option.  

“I’d be happy to just stay at home and sleep,” Calum continued truthfully.

“You’re so fucking boring, man. Are you turning 23 or 40?”

Calum rolled his eyes, “75 actually.” He was probably tired of how often his friends called him an old man. Not that Calum didn’t enjoy a good party - he was just more lowkey than Luke or Ashton. “You guys’ll be pretty pissed if I don’t have a party, huh?”

“It’s not like we need an excuse to party - but it’s nice to have one. Besides, it’s not every day that you turn 23. We should celebrate!”

“There’s also nothing exciting about turning 23. It’s not like 21 or 18. If I spend this one birthday getting drunk on my couch and watching Bojack Horseman, it’s not like I’m going to regret it.”

A part of Luke didn’t want to push Calum too hard. It was his birthday. But a louder, more selfish part wanted a party. Anything to take his mind off Sierra. Plus, if he was clever, he could plan a party both he and Calum could benefit from.

“How about this? You throw a party, I’ll invite (Y/N).”

Calum pretended to take a minute to consider - but Luke knew there was no way Calum would turn him down.

His answer was, “Don’t be weird about it.”

Luke was confused. “Huh?”

“Don’t be weird about inviting (Y/N). Don’t tell her that I’m only having a party so I’d get to see her or something weird like that.”

Calum knew Luke too well. “Yeah of course,” Luke lied, hoping Calum would bite. “I’ll just tell her I need company or something, because of the whole Sierra situation.”

“Okay.”

Hook, line, and sinker. “Okay?” He didn’t bother concealing his excitement. “We’re having a party?”

“Yeah.” Calum sighed. “Let’s have a fucking party.”

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Calum was not enjoying his party. He had invited 100 people, but there were close to 200 packed into his living room alone, even more milling around in the kitchen. There were people in his house that he barely knew and definitely had not imagined spending his birthday with. He couldn’t even move around his living room without someone bumping into him. When a girl whose face he didn’t even recognize tried to start a conversation with him, he finally had too much. Before she could even begin speaking, he turned around and pushed through the crowd towards his backyard.

The most annoying part of this entire birthday party ordeal was Luke.

Hours after they had decided on the party, Sierra showed up at Luke’s door with tears and apologies. No matter how many times Calum had spoken to Luke since then, he couldn’t seem to get a concrete answer on whether or not he had invited (Y/N). His mind was all Sierra all the time. Calum didn’t have it in his heart to feel anything more than mild annoyance, however, knowing how much the two-week spat had affected his best friend.

Now, Luke was probably off with Sierra somewhere, and Calum was heading outside alone with a pack of cigarettes and a lighter.

A lit cigarette in hand, he leaned his forearms on the railing of his deck, his back to the party going on inside his house. He should have kissed (Y/N) when he had the chance on New Years. The more he tried not to think about it, the more the thought stayed at the forefront of his mind. In truth, it was all he had thought about in the three weeks since then. He needed to see her again. Desperately. Before his mind started writing lyrics about it.

“You do not look like you’re enjoying your own party.”

He turned so fast, his cigarette almost flew out of his hand. If he believed in that sort of thing, he would have thought her an answer to his prayers.

“I’m not,” he said, trying to control the widening grin that contradicted the somberness of his words. “Too many people.”

“Oh definitely.” She was like him, her willingness to be in a crowd very dependent on her mood.

“You know,” he began, gesturing with his cigarette, ash flicking off the edge. “There are people here tonight that I’ve never even met? They walked in saying ‘It’s your birthday!’ and I had to restrain myself from saying, ‘Yeah I know that, do you?’”

She laughed, and he hated how he was so gone for her that even her laugh made his heart jump.

“Maybe they were asking you - to make sure that they were at the right house, you know?”

Calum snickered. “It’s your birthday?” He mocked, exaggerating the question.

“So it is your birthday! Perfect, that means I have the right house.”

It was a dumb joke, but it had her giggling at him, so he counted it as a win.

“Do you want me to go kick them out?” She asked after a beat. “I totally would.” And she would. That’s one of the things he liked the most about her. She didn’t really care what other people thought. Which was perfect, because it could be said that he cared too much.

“Nah,” He responded. “But keep me company, maybe?” He couldn’t care less what was happening in his house at that moment. Not if she was out there with him.

“Of course.”

A moment passed where they both just stood, smiling at each other, soaking up this nearness they hadn’t shared since New Year’s. There was a magnetism about her that had Calum taking a few steps closer. “I was afraid you wouldn’t be here,” he was saying, and he hated how something about her presence pulled confessions from him. He hated even more how desperate he was for her to feel the same.

“Why wouldn’t I be here?”

“Well,” Calum began to explain. “I know Luke invited you because he didn’t want to be alone after the whole Sierra thing. . .”

At the look on her face, he trailed off. The way she bit her lip to hide a grimace suggested that Luke hadn’t invited her as his plus one.

“Fuck,” he groaned. “What did he say to you?”

Anxious for her answer, he took a drag of his cigarette, giving his mouth something to do. He knew he should have invited her himself.  He shouldn’t have trusted Luke not to embarrass him.

“Are you sure you want to know?” she asked, already pulling her cell phone from her pocket.  

Calum wasn’t, but he nodded anyway.

He immediately cringed as she started to read. “Calum desperately wants you at his party, but he’s too afraid to ask you himself. Please come and make out with him or something. Put the man out of his misery.”

“Fuck,” Calum groaned, dragging out the word, before taking another puff of his cigarette. He was going to murder Luke.

(Y/N) must have seen the murderous intent on his face - or perhaps the flush of embarrassment - because she was smiling sweetly and stepping closer to him and saying, “Well it worked, didn’t it? I’m here.”

She was there, despite the very embarrassing text she had received. He was about to ask what that meant for them when she shivered and pushed her hand into the pocket at the front of her hoodie.

“You’re cold,” he said, and before he could think better of it he followed up with, “Want to share my jacket?”

They both blushed at the implications of his words. Then, in true (Y/N) like fashion, she teased him about it. “Are you putting the moves on me, Hood?”

Calum considered shooting back a teasing joke of his own, but he needed to know, “Is it working?”

“Yeah,” she breathed out, crossing the few steps between them, wrapping her arms around him, resting her head on his chest. Calum’s heart fluttered as his chest touched hers, one arm reaching up and around her, pulling her closer. He had to breathe in deep to keep his emotions in check. He realized too late that taking a deep breath was a bad idea. Her scent, her touch - his senses were overflowing with her.

It didn’t help that his mind was racing a million miles an hour, going over everything that happened in the past 5 minutes with her, making sure that he wasn’t misreading anything. He wanted to ask her what it all meant, that she came despite the embarrassing text, that she stood in front of him, arms around his waist, face on his chest.

She distracted him from the question again by groaning, “Fuck, you’re always so warm,” and melting further into his chest. “My hands are freezing. Do you mind if I-?” She was pushing up the back of his shirt, asking for skin-to-skin contact.

He doesn’t hesitate before saying, “Yeah, of course.”

But, as soon as her hands touched his back, he was jumping away from her and she was laughing as he shivered.

“Goddamn,” he exclaimed. With the hand not holding the cigarette, he reached for hers, rubbing her icy fingers with his thumb. “Why are you so cold?”

“I warned you!”

“I know. I just wasn’t expecting it, is all.” He popped the cigarette into his mouth so he could have both hands free. Then, he grabbed each of her hands in each of his and rubbed them together, before ushering them back beneath his jacket and his shirt. When the cold of her fingers hit his skin for the second time, he barely flinched. His right arm came around her again, the left taking the cigarette from her mouth.

The stood quietly for a moment before he realized, “You are the perfect height for me to rest my chin on your head.”

She squeezed him tighter, then dislodged his head from hers by leaning her head away and looking up to meet his eyes.

“To quote Luke,” and he knew exactly where she was going with that statement.

“Throwing some cheddar in the works here.” They both finished together with a laugh.

“Sorry. Just something about you makes me such a fucking cliche.” He immediately had to stick his cigarette back into his mouth to avoid saying anything else he would eventually regret.

She watched as he avoided speaking with one puff and then another.

“Those things will kill you, you know.”

He rolled his eyes and laughed. “You smoke more than I do.”

“Yeah,” She sighed. “We should try quitting again, maybe?”

As soon as the words leave her mouth, they’re both laughing again. They had both tried to quit late last year. It did not go very well. It was two weeks before she was caving and three weeks before he followed suit.

“But,” she said, voice low, once they had their laughter under control. “If you put the cigarette out, you could kiss me maybe?”

He had never dropped a cigarette so fast. He snuffed it out beneath his feet and brought the hand that was holding the cigarette to rest on her face.

“Yeah?” He asked, eyes flickering from her lips to her eyes, looking for any hesitation.

Before she could finish nodding, his lips were on hers.

Calum was afraid to go to seem overeager. He knew he had wanted this - craved this - for months now, but he didn’t know where she stood. He didn’t know if this was a decision made in the moment, if this was a decision made because of Luke’s shitty text, or if, like him, this kiss had been the subject of her daily daydreams.

So, he tried to take it slow with her. Lips pressed hard together, hand gently cradling her head, rubbing softly at the hairs at her nape. She had other ideas. It only took a minute before she was pushing for more, moving her hand from under his jacket, up around his shoulders. Her fingers tangled in his blonde hair, pulling him closer, opening up her mouth to him. He barely had time to groan “fuck,” against her open mouth before they were deepening the kiss. He finally allowed himself to get lost in the taste and feel of her - so lost, it was not until his head began to spin that he realized he had not been breathing.

He pulled away, chest heaving. As he caught his breath, she leaned forward to attach her lips to his neck.

“You’re trying to kill me,” he panted, the hand that previously cradled her head running down her back, coming to rest parallel to the other on her waist. He squeezed as she detached her lips from his neck with a wet sound, then leaned forward again to bite down.

“You have no idea how long I’ve been waiting to do this,” she was saying - but he could barely understand her with his skin still between her teeth.

He replaced the hand on the back of her head, to guide her back into another heated kiss. He didn’t want to assume where this was heading, but he’d fuck her right there on his deck if she’d let him. The issue was there were 200 people on the other side of his sliding glass door that would be getting a free show.

“We should take this upstairs, maybe?” He asked when they came up for air again, relieved when she nodded, grabbed his arm, and led him back inside. She had been to his house often enough to know the route to his bedroom blindfolded, but the massive amount of people still gathered in his living room made it hard to push through.

Cal was annoyed, grunting, “Fuck people,” when they were finally enveloped in the silence of his soundproofed bedroom. She didn’t seem to care. She just toed off her shoes and got on the bed before removing her hoodie, tossing it somewhere on the floor.  

Calum instantly forgot about the mass of people in his house, his sole focus on her. She wasn’t wearing a bra. Instead, she wore a thin white camisole that left nothing to Calum’s imagination. He felt his mouth water at her nipples peeking through.

“Damn.” He whispered under his breath, appreciative and aroused at the sight in front of him. He moved towards her, toeing off his shoes as well.

She laughed, and he wasn’t sure what prompted the laughter until she asked, “Do you think this is what Luke meant when he asked me to make out with you or something?”

Calum groaned, unbuttoning his pants and dropping them to the ground. “Please don’t talk about my bandmates while I have a half chub.”

She was laughing even harder then, waiting for him to step out of his pants, before pulling him down to sit against the headboard and straddling him. “You’re right,” she said, ass immediately grinding down to meet his erection. His hands flew to her waist in surprise. He released a low his hiss of arousal, his head tipping back in frustration. “Let’s get you all the way there, then we can talk about Luke.”

He ended the Luke conversation the best way he knew how - bringing their lips together to meet once more. Her laughter turned to whines as he gripped her ass and ground up against her a few times. Then, he gently shifted them, rolling them over so she could lie down, and he could hover over her, attaching his lips gently to the place where her jaw met her neck. He kissed softly down her throat, hands underneath the camisole, moving slowly towards her breasts.

“This okay?” he asked, pushing the camisole up, almost to her armpits, ready to take it off.

She nodded, sat up, and removed the thin material. As soon as she was under him again, his lips were attached to one nipple, his hand pinching and rolling the other. He loved the sounds that she made and the movement of her body as she whined and arched up towards him.

“Feels so good,” she huffed, voice high and breathless. Calum moved on to the other nipple, sucking and tugging lightly with his teeth. This had her whining, “Fuck yeah,” hips snapping up, trying to seek friction from Calum’s body. Her jeans needed to go. Besides, there were other places that he wanted to get his lips on.

He left her breasts with a final kiss on both, then slowly trailed his kisses downward. He feathered a kiss on each of the freckles she had scattered across her stomach, before reaching her belly button, dipping into it, and blowing cool air over it lightly. 

Finally reaching the button of her jeans, he looked up to her for approval. She nodded and moaned, “Jesus,” running her hand through his hair. “I love that you do that. I love that you ask for approval every step of the way. It’s fucking hot.”

He hummed in agreement, unbuttoning her pants, waiting for her to lift her hips so he could roll them down. “There is nothing hotter than enthusiastic, verbal consent,” he croaked, voice gruff with arousal. And it was true - he loved it when women were vocal about wanting him.

(Y/N) was smiling again. “Look at us. We could be the face of the next high school sex-ed consent campaign.”

Calum chuckled as he finished taking her pants all the way off, throwing them over the side of the bed. He liked this with her - he liked that they could still joke with each other in the middle of sex. Another part of him wondered what it would take to leave her speechless. He gave it a shot.

He made quick work of her panties before settling between her thighs, scruff, and lips gently rubbing and kissing the sensitive skin there. “I’ve wanted to eat you out for ages,” he hummed, before giving the same attention to the other thigh. “Thought about holding you down for hours - maybe get you to ride my face?” He looked up to see if that would be something she was into.

And it was if the dark flush that had overtaken her was any indication. She whined and bent her knees, running her foot up the side of his body. “Not tonight though, Calum,” her hand running through his hair. “Want you to fuck me.”

At that, Calum felt a wave of arousal flush through him. He nodded. He could do that. He had been dreaming about that. But first, “Just a taste, okay?”

He waited until she was nodding before he brought his head back down. He didn’t taste her immediately - he went back to her thighs, nipping at them, loving the sounds she made as his scruff rubbed lightly against them.

“Cal, don’t tease.” She pushed slightly, trying to direct him towards her pussy. He just moved over to the next thigh.

It wasn’t until she whined “Cal,” again that he gave into her. He flattened his tongue and ran it over her clit before taking it between his lips and sucking. She cried out, bending her other knee, bringing it up to match the other.

Calum wove both arms underneath her legs, bringing his hands to rest on her waist, holding her still beneath him. He alternated between sucking her clit and licking between her folds, loving how wet she was, loving being enveloped in her scent, enjoying the noises she made and the way she tried to get a grip on his too-short hair. She was so responsive under him, panting and squirming at him tonguing her.

He pulled away for a short breath asking, “You like that?”

She could barely breathe out “Yeah,” before he was on her again. He felt himself pulse with desire at every, “Jesus” and “Cal that feels so good.”

He spent forever between her until she pushed him away, hissing, “Cal.”

He looked up at her, licking the lingering taste of her off his lips. “Yes?”

She looked down at him, panting and sweaty, somewhere between wanting to pull him up towards her and push him down towards her cunt.

“What do I have to do to get you to fuck me?” she breathed out.

Chuckling, he untangled his arms from her waist, coming up on his knees. He put one hand on her stomach, holding her down. “Sorry,” he said, slowly removing his rings, tossing them on his bedside table. “I got carried away.”

She doesn’t get to respond before he is slipping two fingers inside her. They both groaned in unison as he watched as his fingers scissored in and out of her.

“God, I could play with your pussy all night,” he teased, knowing that was not what she wanted to hear.

She glared and pouted up at him, making her frustration evident.

“Put that lip away.” 

When she didn’t, he leaned down and kissed it away.

They spent a minute licking into each other as Calum’s finger worked inside her. Their lips had barely parted before she asked, “Now will you fuck me?”

Instead of answering, he slid his fingers out of her and moved over to his bedside table drawer, pulling out a condom. He held it up to show her, a silent yes to her earlier question. She rolled her eyes, watching and waiting as he rolled the condom on.

“How do you want it?” He settled over her again, lightly peppering her neck with kisses.

“Just like this,” she requested. “Wanna see you.”

He captured her lips once more with his own in silent agreement. The next time he’d take her from behind, hard and fast, until both of them were breathing hard, unable to do or say anything more than each other’s names. Right now, he wanted to enjoy her, savoring what he had spent weeks dreaming of.

He aligned himself with her and pressed in slowly, overwhelmed by how good she felt, enjoying every second until he was buried inside her. Then, Calum took a moment, drawing awareness to the fire he felt everywhere they connected, wanting to chase that heat. He flattened himself on her, burying his face in her neck, flooding his senses with her, before putting one hand on her waist, the other gripping the sheets above her head. Her legs came up to wrap around him, one arm in his hair, the other around his back. The noises she made were downright filthy, as she gasped and whimpered and cried out with every stroke.

“You feel so fucking good,” he grunted, lips attaching to her neck, sucking and biting at the skin there.

“C’mon Cal,” she pleaded. “More.”

And that was all it took for him to lose his resolve to go slow. He got up on his elbows and pounded into her. She had both hands in his hair now, pulling his head down, unable to keep their lips connected with the jerkiness of his rhythm, but wanting his mouth close anyway. He slowed for a second, to join their lips, to taste her. Then, he let his desires overtake him, got to his knees, and rammed her. His hands gripped and held her boobs while hers twisted in the bedsheets above her head.    

He wasn’t surprised how quickly he felt his orgasm building. He was surprised, however when she came before him, her whole body tightening, head thrown back in ecstasy.

He rode out the aftershocks of her orgasm then went to pull out of her, to finish himself off, but she shook her head. “Come in me.”

He couldn’t even form a coherent response to that. All he managed was, “Fuck,” drawing out the vowel of the word.

She’s nodding in agreement as if her suggestion affected her just as much as it did him. “We’re going to have to get tested ASAP, so you can actually come in me when we do this again.”

He nodded eagerly, both at the idea and the implications that this would be happening again.

“But for now. . .” She trailed off because she really didn’t have to finish. He got the message. He braced both hands on her waist and slammed into her. It only took a few strokes before he was gone. He let out a deep groan, hips coming to a halt as he came inside her. 

“Fuck,” he whispered, barely breathing, before burying his face into her neck. He had to take a moment waiting for his limbs to work again, before he moved off of her and deposited the soiled condom in the trash near his bedside table. 

When he rolled back over, coming to lie flat on his back, she laid on him, heaving a content sigh. He lazily ran his fingers down her back while she mimicked his motion on his chest.

Then, it only took a few seconds for reality to hit. Everything had happened so fast they never really talked it out. What was this to her? She had briefly mentioned a next time, but even with that he couldn’t get his hopes up. They were both notorious for friends with benefits arrangements. And that was another thing - if they did decide to give this a try, would it be exclusively? Would they end all other arrangements on the side?

He didn’t know how to ask all this without seeming desperate and insecure, so instead, he asked, “What do you want for breakfast tomorrow morning?”

He knew she had a rule, no staying overnight at an fwb’s house. If he could gage if she were staying the night, he would know where he stood with her. Getting on her elbows, she raised herself above him and leveled him with an unimpressed look. 

She saw right through him.

“You can just ask me,” she said, silently, reaching her hands up to run through his hair. He leaned into her touch. “Ask me what I want from this, from you. This is us. It will only work if we’re real with each other.”

She was right - she wasn’t just some girl he picked up at a party and decided to fuck. This was (Y/N). They were friends first. They had a rule about transparency in their friendship, and when he started hiding the fact that he was falling for her, they had lost some of that. It was time for him to start again.

“I really like you,” he confessed, eyes never once leaving hers. It took a lot for him to say those words, to put his feelings out there. He could only hope she felt the same. “I want to try this, try us, together, exclusively.”

In the few seconds it took for her to answer, he couldn’t breathe, anticipation thick in the air. He was afraid that what she said next would break his heart.

It didn't.

“I love that we’re always on the same page.”

He breathed out a sigh of relief as he pulled her down for a celebratory kiss.

“This is the best birthday present,” he murmured against her lips.

“We’ll have to send Luke a thank you card.”

“Do they make ‘thank you for inviting a mutual friend to my party so that I could bone her’ thank you cards?”

She shrugged, settling back down on his chest. “We’ll have to give hallmark a call in the morning.”

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Be honest with yourself, are you proud of your actions? Yes. If there’s one good thing going for me it’s that I’m happy with the things I’ve done, overall. I regret few of my actions.

Have you ever had an operation? No, and the thought scares me to be honest. I get uncomfortable with the idea of being put under anaesthesia or being cut open D:

Favorite sit-down restaurant? Yabu, Frankie’s, or Mendokoro Ramenba. Missing all these places bigtime, too. I can’t wait to start getting my internship money, heh. Chicken wings will probably be one of the first things I’d buy.

What have you eaten today? I had sushi bake with nori sheets in the afternoon, during a lull at work.

Who has made you laugh the hardest in the last week? Rhett and Link, if people from YouTube count. But Angela made me laugh quite a bit today, if you’re looking for an irl person.

If you had to get a tattoo on your face to save your life, what would it be? But would I be down with the tattoo...? Probably should have been the first question you asked, haha.

What is something you find romantic? I like different ways of saying I love you without having to say those words. Like, “I thought of you when I saw this,” or “Should I drive to you?” or “Did you get home safe?” Those are my favorite things to hear when in a relationship; it makes me feel I’m looked out for, which I appreciate.

What is your style? Sometimes I like going the 90s route with graphic tees and high-waist denim jeans, but other days I like to look more modern or chic.

If you could be doing anything you like right now, what would it be? Not that I enjoy doing it, but I’d love to visit Nacho’s resting place right now. I’m just not sure if I’m allowed to go out at this time. I’m certainly hoping he wasn’t alone today and that he got a lot of love.

What is the best movie you have ever seen? Good Will Hunting.

What makes you attracted to the person you like right now? Intelligence.

What, if anything, is too serious to be joked about? I don’t appreciate jokes on miscarriages and rape, and those that poke fun at transphobia. Jokes on suicide and mental health issues can sometimes be offensive, but it depends on the context.

How long was your longest relationship? 4 years.

Would you rather live in a castle or a spaceship? I’d take the castle. I personally prefer the spaceship a lot more, but I feel like I’d be barfing in there a lot lmao. Also, the amount of controls and buttons that I’ll have to move around will probably overwhelm me.

Have you ever felt unimportant in someone’s life? Unfortunately, yes.

Has someone ever made you a Build-A-Bear? No. Not my gift of choice either, so I’d say it’s a good thing that no one has made one for me.

Did you have any unread texts this morning? I don’t think so, no.

What are your initials? RIAC.

What is your definition of “having sex”? I don’t feel like describing it in detail lol, just look it up.

Who was the last person you were “in a relationship with” on Facebook (including anyone you may have put “in a relationship with” for a joke)? I never used that feature on Facebook. I don’t like sharing too much personal info on there, because Filipino relatives tend to be nosy and gossip around lol. All they need to see are the memes I share and my political stances.

Do you think a relationship with a 16-year-old girl and a 35-year-old man would work out? Do you think age differences like that (when they’re under 18) should be legal? 16 years old...say that again, but slowly. That’s pretty disgusting.

Were you ever “the other man/woman”? How did it turn out? How do you feel about it today? No. I’d never want to be; I wouldn’t know how to deal with it if I ever found out I was one.

What do you think of open relationships? If your partner suggested it, what would you say? i dont care what other people do, but that is not for me.  < Sums it up well.

Would you ever date out of your race? I’m open to it. I don’t see why I shouldn’t be.

Who were you with yesterday? Just family, but I was mostly by myself.

Have you ever had a reptile for a pet? Nope.

What time do you have to get up tomorrow? My work starts at 9 AM so I always have to be up by then, but because I like taking a shower and polishing the work I did the day before, I personally like to be ready anywhere between 8–8:30 AM.

Have you ever kissed anyone with a tattoo? I never have.

What kinds of alcohol do you like? I like cocktails; I like having a good, chill time with friends and I’m usually not in a hurry to get drunk, so cocktails are the perfect drinks for me for most situations. As for hard drinks, I usually go for tequila shots and whatever Bacardi is.

Did you have a swing set when you were a kid? We didn’t, but as a kid I regularly came over to my cousins’ place who did have a playground and they had a variety of swings that I loved riding.

Can you do the alphabet in sign language? Incompletely.

Have you ever been so hurt that you wanted to stop feeling completely? Of course.

State you most want to visit? Illinois, but only for Chicago.

What is a book that you really want to read? I’m not really eyeing any at the moment, but I’m currently reading Midnight Sun. Except by ‘currently’ I really mean reading a few pages or so once a week lol. I’ve always been terrible at reading books as a teenager/adult.

What brand was the last lotion that you used? I don’t remember anymore. I don’t use lotion often.

What color is your underwear? Green.

What was the last type of cookie that you ate? Sandwich cookies. They were Oreos.

If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be? In a happier place, mentally. I’d give an arm and a leg to be there rn.

What genre was the last song you listened to? R&B I think.

What sort of surveys catch your interest and which ones bore you? I like ones with random questions or those with themes that I can relate to, like college or film surveys. I can’t say I enjoy surveys that ask what kind of X you are and then just lists down traits that you’re asked to bold or not. Bolding surveys can also be kinda bleh, but I like putting my own twist on them and elaborating on each entry so that I don’t finish them too quickly.

What books do you usually enjoy reading and which do you not enjoy? I enjoy autobiographies. I don’t like the fantasy and epic genres, or anything that has too many fictional or supernatural elements.

What is something that you really want to try, whether it’s a hobby, food, etc.? Baking! I feel like it would be therapeutic for me, so it’s something I want to get into. It’d be awesome to master chocolate chip cookies.

What websites do you frequent most often? YouTube these days, for sure. I also use a lot of Google Suite for work.

The last person you found attractive — what did they look like? Big eyes, medium-length hair, bright smile.

If you could go back in time, would you prefer to go forward or backward? this question is so jacked LOL. "if you could go back, would you go foward?" go away. < Hahahaha true, but I’d go forward in time. I want to fast forward to feeling happy again, if that will even be the correct guess.

Post a link to the last video you watched online. Aw man, your timing made me a little sad. I’m currently watching the GMM episode that featured Kobe Bryant a few years ago.

Is there anything bothering you at the moment? You bet there is.

What color was the last shirt you wore? I’m wearing a black and white striped shirt right now, but the one I wore before this had a leopard print.

What sort of things do you like to post or look at on Tumblr? I just do surveys full-time now, man. I hopped off the fandom side of Tumblr 6-7 years ago and this has been my ~main blog since, if I had to call it anything.

What scent was the last candle you burned? It was just a plain candle that we had to light up because we had a blackout. I don’t really get my own candles to relax or whatever.

What type of people are you usually attracted to? I’m demi, so it will always differ. I don’t have a ‘type’ of person.

Do you collect anything? If so, what? Can’t say I do.

When you look to your left, what is the first thing you see? What about the right? I see my bed on the left, and the wall and the glare from my phone on the right.

What room are you currently in? What color are the walls/floor? I’m in my bedroom. Walls are white, floor is brown.

What color is the last blanket you used? Pink but it has polka dots of various colors. My light is currently turned off and it’s dark, though, so I don’t feel like reaching for my blanket just to list down its other colors.

What do you smell like right now? I think I just smell like person...I wasn’t around strong scents today.

If it was possible to celebrate a holiday everyday, which would you choose? That would get boring really fast, but idk...Christmas, I guess? It’d be nice to have big grand dinners everyday and to see regularly relatives I only see 1-2 times a year.

If you could compare yourself to a celebrity or character, who would it be? Mr. Peanutbutter from BoJack Horseman. Loyal, wacky, covers everything up with humor, very expressive when it comes to love.

Which male celebrities do you find attractive? Timothée Chalamet, Troye Sivan, Mark Ruffalo.

Which female celebrities do you find attractive? Kristen Stewart, Kate Winslet, Rosamund Pike, Claire Foy, Courteney Cox, Mila Kunis, Emma Stone.

If you could marry one of your favorite celebrities and have a happy relationship until the end of your days, who would it be? I’d go with Mark Ruffalo, heh

What song are you listening to at the moment? I have Good Mythical Morning on, not music.

What is currently on your desk? Just my headphones at the moment. I usually use my laptop on the desk too, but right now I prefer to be on the floor just because.

What brand is your computer? Apple.

What are the last things you ate and drank? For eat, I had sushi bake with nori sheets. For drink, I had water.

How often do you take naps and how long do they usually last? I take naps in the afternoon but only on weekends now, because work. How long they last always varies, depending on how hot it is in my room. Higher temperature = quicker, less satisfying naps.

Which season do you wish lasted all year? I definitely wish we got rain all year.

What is the last part of your body that itched? My back.

Is there anything that you should be doing right now? Nope. My day is over and I’m happy to take a survey or two tonight.

Is there anything you’re craving right now? Pad thai. I did ask my dad to make it again, so I should expect it any day soon.

How do you take your tea? I don’t drink tea.

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Get to Know Me (Taken from @yougoghkiddo-blog)

1) What is your full Name?

September Blue Rose (Not pitting my last name, sorry)

2) What is your Nickname?

B, Blueberry, Blue’s Clues, Blooragarde, Blur

3) What is your Zodiac sign?

I’m a fucking Libra! (Party)

4) What is your favorite book series?

I don’t read a lot of traditional books but my favorite comic series is Fables by Bill Willingham!

5) Do you believe in aliens or ghosts?

Both! Ghosts is just a personal belief and as for Aliens, it just seems statistically improbable that we’re alone!

6) Who is your favorite author?

I don’t have a definitive favorite but Roald Dahl is up there!

7) What is your favorite radio station?

Lofi/hip hop beats to Relax/Study to

8) What is your favorite flavor of anything?

Idk 😅

9) What word would you use often to describe something as great or wonderful?

“Rad” typically

10) What’s your current favorite song?

I’ve been really digging “HateF**k” by The Bravery and “Kids” by PUP

11) What’s your favorite word?

“Boy” is pretty good

12) What’s the last song you listened to?

Currently listening to “Wait a minute!” By WILLOW

13) What TV show would you recommend everyone to watch?

Bojack Horseman

14) What’s your favorite movie to watch when you’re feeling down?

Mulan, Heathers, or Scott Pilgrim. Pretty different I know 😅

15) Do you play video games?

I’m a true gamer 😎

16) What’s your biggest fear?

To be forgotten

17) What is your best quality, in your opinion?

I’ve got a pretty good taste in music

18) What is your worst quality, in your opinion?

I can be selfish and possessive, which I hate

19) Do you like cats or dogs better?

Both 🥺

20) What is your favorite season?

Late summer early fall

21) Are you in a relationship?

Not really?

22) What is something you miss from your childhood?

My innocence and sense of hope

23) Who is your best friend?

@crybabycrush and @/avocadoclo who doesn’t have a tumblr 😅

24) What is your eye color?

Blue!

25) What is your hair color?

Currently Blue and pink

26) Who is someone you love?

My sisters, my best friends, a few others

27) Who is someone you trust

Nobody a whole lot (yaaayyyyyy trauma!)

28) Who is someone you think about often?

@crybabycrush and Dan Avidan 🥰

29) Are your currently excited about/for something?

MTAC 2020 and cosplaying Shadow the Hedgehog!!!

30) What is your biggest obsession?

I was gonna make a joke but for real it’s Game Grumps/Ninja Sex Party

31) What was your favorite TV show as a child?

Bear in The Big Blue House, says so my mom.

32) Who of the opposite gender can you tell anything to, if anyone?

I’m non binary so uhhhhh

33) Are you superstitious?

Ye

34) Do you have any unusual phobias?

Ants, Tall Buildings/Statues, more that I’m forgetting at the moment

35) Do you prefer to be in front of the camera or behind it?

In front. I’m an attention whore 😅

36) What is your favorite hobby?

Drawing!

37) What was the last book you read?

I fully don’t remember. I almost never read

38) What was the last movie you watched?

Garfield Gets Real LMAO

39) What musical instruments do you play, if any?

Sadly, none 😞

40) What is your favorite animal?

Birds, frogs, foxes

41) What are your top 5 favorite tumblr blogs you follow?

In no particular order, @shittycryptids @shittythrifting @one-time-i-dreamt @simpscreens and @i-am-a-fish

42) What superpower do you wish you had?

Shapeshifting!!!

43) When and where do you feel most at peace?

Anytime I’m with @crybabycrush 🥰

44) What makes you smile?

Good music and nice art

45) What sports do you play, if any?

Lol nah

46) What is your favorite drink?

Any fruit juice!!!!

47) When was the last time you wrote a hand-written letter or note to somebody?

I don’t think I ever have?

48) Are you afraid of heights?

Yep

49) What is your biggest pet peeve?

Whenever someone talks over somebody

50) Have you ever been to a concert?

Two!! First Ninja Sex Party and second P!nk!!

51) Are you a vegan/vegetarian?

I’m slowly working my way up to vegetarian

52) When you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up?

Either an astronaut or a chef

53) What fictional world would you want to live in?

Monster Prom!!!!

54) What is something you worry about?

What I’m going to do with my life

55) Are you scared of the dark?

Ye

56) Do you like to sing?

I LOVE to sing

57) Have you ever skipped school?

I was homeschooled my entire life so uhhhh

58) What is your favorite place on the planet?

Yet to find it

59) Where do you want to live?

New York or LA, maybe space.

60) Do you have any pets?

7 cats, 1 dog, and 1 chinchilla

61) Are you more of a early bird or a night owl?

Night owl for sure

62) Do you like sunrises or sunsets better?

Sunsets

63) Do you know how to drive?

I’m a virgin who can’t drive

64) Do you prefer earbuds or headphones?

Earbuds

65) Have you ever had braces?

Nope!

66) What is your favorite genre of music?

God I have no idea

67) Who is your hero?

Dan Avidan and Arin Hanson

68) Do you read comic books?

Yeah!! Mainly Fables, Harley Quinn, and Gwenpool!!

69) (nice) What makes you the most angry?

People who think their better than everyone

70) Do you prefer to read on a electronic device or a real book?

Real comics, digital fan fic

71) What is your favorite subject in school?

Idk art history?

72) Do you have any siblings?

An older sister and a younger sister!

73) What was the last thing you bought?

Fishnets LMAO

74) How y’all are you?

5’1

75) Can you cook?

I can bake! Cook?? Eh kinda 😅

76) What are three things you love?

Music, Video Games, and conventions

77) What are three things you hate?

Cringe culture, my dad, and conventions

78) Do you have more female friends or more male friends?

I actually probably have more non binary friends

79) What is your sexual orientation?

Bisexual!

80) Where do you currently live?

A constant state of anxiety

81) Who was the last person you texted?

My brother in law

82) When was the last time you cried?

Yesterday?

83) Who is your favorite youtuber?

Forever Game Grumps, but currently Sorrow TV and SnapCube

84) Do you like to take selfies?

Occasionally

85) What is your favorite app?

Mario Kart Tour

86) What is your relationship with your parents like?

Mom, pretty good. Dad, not so much.

87) What is your favorite foreign accent?

A less posh British accent? (Sorry I don’t know all the areas😅) and French

88) What is a place you’ve never been to, but want to visit?

New York, France, And Japan

89) What is you favorite number?

69 ;)))))) I have no idea

90) Can you juggle?

Not very well

91) Are you religious?

Not very

92) Do you find outer space or the deep ocean more interesting?

Outer space. I’m terrified of the ocean.

93) Do you consider your self to be a daredevil?

I consider myself to be a dumbass

94) Are you allergic to anything?

Pumpkin and long haired cats

95) Can you curl your tongue?

Yep

96) Can you you wiggle your ears?

Nope

97) How often do you admit that you were wrong about something?

Not very

98) Do prefer the forest or the beach?

Neither?

99) What is your favorite piece of advice that anyone has ever given you?

I honestly can’t think of anything

100) Are you a good liar?

LMAO NO

101) What is your hogwarts house?

Hufflepuff

102) Do you talk to yourself?

Uhhhhhh yeah

103) Are you an introvert or an Extrovert?

Introvert 100%

104) Do you keep a journal/diary?

Occasionally

105) Do you believe in second chances?

Sometimes too much

106) If you found a wallet full of money on the ground, what would you do?

Turn it into the police I guess?

107) Do you believe that people can change?

100%

108) Are you ticklish?

Yeah but I’m not gonna tell you where

109) Have you ever been on a plane?

Nope

110) Do you have any piercings?

Just my ears but I want more soon

111) What fictional character do you wish was real?

Damien Lavey or Julian Devorak 😩😩😩😩

112) Do you have any tattoos?

No but I want some REAL BAD

113) What is the best decision you’ve made in your life so far?

Probably to start cosplaying. Even though I don’t enjoy it as much as I used to I wouldn’t know almost any of my friends if I never cosplayed

114) Do you believe in karma?

hell yeah

115) Do you wear glasses or contacts?

Not anymore! Thanks laser surgery!

116) Do you want to have children?

Really really bad

117) Who’s the smartest person you know?

Probably my mom

118) What is your most embarrassing memory?

I really don’t like thinking about that

119) Have you ever pulled an all-nighter?

Multiple times

120) What color are most of your clothes?

Black 😅

121) Do you like adventures?

YES

122) Have you ever been on TV?

I’m like the only person in my family who hasn’t LMAO

123) How old are you?

18!

124) What is you favorite quote?

“Love Everyone, Forgive Everyone, Especially yourself.”

125) Do you prefer Sweet or Savory foods? (I ran out of room) Sweet!

[televisor-reviews]

Top 10 WORST Movies Of 2018!

As everyone is talking about their favorite and least favorite films of last year, I’d much rather take a look at what came out two years ago! This is what I do every New Year, get used to it. And keep in mind that I haven’t seen every film from 2018, so as bad as I’m sure Sherlock Gnomes and Pacific Rim: Uprising are, I haven’t gotten around to them. If you’d like a list of every film I have seen, I have them listed on my Letterboxd: https://drive.google.com/uc?id=1HnDnQ4ibO82ryM9lOCGgw1FZhVLdC4SZ

#10. Fifty Shades Freed On my 2015 list, I didn’t even bother putting Fifty Shades Of Grey on it because I thought it was absolutely hilarious! On my 2017 list, I placed Fifty Shades Darker at the very top for its lack of even the basics of what makes a decent flick, notably there being no real plot. So I guess I’m meeting this franchise in the middle by putting Fifty Shades Freed at the tenth spot for just how batshit this movie is. Shit kinda just happens randomly with little to no reason while also not being funny in the slightest. In fact, large segments of the film is kinda boring, particularly the sex scenes in which there are so many that by the 20th time, you’d just get used to it like a jump scare in Winchester. Really, the biggest reason this is only at #10 is because Fifty Shades Freed has Freed us all from this series, assuming that a film adaptation of Grey isn’t made. And that’s the greatest compliment I’ve ever given to one of these movies. #9. A Wrinkle In Time I once heard someone justify Disney’s live action remakes by saying they help fund their more unique film escapades like Nutcracker And The Four Realms (which barely didn’t make the list). The problem with that is that I don’t want those ether! And considering how Solo and The Rise Of Skywalker turned out, maybe Disney’s live action department should just stick with Marvel movies. Honestly, I don’t completely remember why I left the theater after seeing A Wrinkle In Time so angry, like legitimately pissed off. I remember the girl who looks like one of the Mean Girls being treated like a member of the Losers Club, how terrible the child acting was, how even worse the adult acting was, how annoying everybody who wasn’t Chris Pine was, and how that little kid was named Charles Wallace because the characters said it at least a million times! Considering how angry I am just writing about it, I’m guessing it was a combination of all of those elements being wrapped up with a pretentious bow. Honestly, A Wrinkle In Time was a humongous waste of my time. #8. Show Dogs It’s a bad sign when the movie starring Bojack Horseman yelling at Ludacris dog is only at #8 on my list. The big reason for that is because this is so terrible that I had to break down laughing at times. Not because Show Dogs is genuinely or ironically funny, it’s just so batshit insane that I had to laugh. Almost like a defense reflex: like if I wasn’t laughing, I’d end up jumping off the roof. The plot is crazy, the acting is crazy, the whole fucking idea is crazy! I’d like you to stop and imagine Will Arnett with the straightest face possible yelling at a dog voiced by Ludacris that nobody can actually hear in the middle of a very serious police station about the dog fucking up an undercover job and somehow not laughing your ass off. That is what it was like watching Show Dogs. You’re welcome. #7. Slender Man I think people really downgrade how good horror has been lately. I know that in a world of Insidious: The Last Key and Truth Or Dare, it’s easy to be pessimistic. And I think people also dismiss the greatness the internet has had on modern pop culture. Considering how bad things like Daphne And Velma and Mowgli: Legend Of The Jungle are, I kinda get it. In reality, these tend to be the outliers among a lot of greatness, but after seeing Slender Man, I’m starting to think similarly. I was one of the only people who was actually excited about this movie because I’m young enough to remember a time when Slender Man: The Eight Pages was the scariest thing in the world and after seeing how well Hollywood treated the character in Beware The Slender Man, I was really hopeful. Little did I know that Madhouse Entertainment had one of the least interesting and least scary horror movies I’ve ever seen with boring characters, a monster that’s barely in the movie, and a script that’s closer to Rings than it is to its source material. I really hope this’ll go the way of Ouija and Annabelle and end up having a really good followup or else Slender Man will be a huge blot on the legitimacy of the internet. #6. Snake Outta Compton I’m gonna be straight with y’all, I have been doing a pretty bad job at keeping up with horror B-movies lately. I mean, I did watch The Last Sharknado: It’s About Time and Leprechaun Returns but those were mostly just mediocre, even within the context of the rest of their franchises. So when I saw the title Snake Outta Compton, I knew I had to watch it expecting something really stupid and funny as all hell. Instead I got a boring and uninteresting barely even an attempt at cinema. I really hated this film, it’s just such a boringly dull film where little to nothing ever happens and I hated every dumb second of it. The terrible rapping, the awful effects, the horrendous acting, everything in snake Outta Compton sucks and I hate it. #5. Norm Of The North: Keys To The Kingdom Remember that god awful polar bear movie starring Rob Schneider from a few years ago… yeah, they made four of those. Normal people would say the first Norm Of The North was the absolute bottom of the barrel, I say “No!… It’s Norm Of The North: Keys To The Kingdom,” and even more suicidal people would probably say it’s Norm Of The North: King Sized Adventure. If you thought the animation in the original was bad, you’ve seen nothing! This is so bad that I’m not even sure it should be considered animation! This is so bad that it makes Duck Duck Goose look like The Grinch! This is so bad that they couldn’t even get Rob Schneider back! The plot, it’s like this is one of those straight to DVD Disney sequels that were made up of episodes of conceled TV shows except why would anyone try to make Norm Of the FUCKING North into a TV show! But apparently it made money considering how (and I’ll repeat this again) there are four of these! Maybe the immense failure of Arctic Dogs will stop Entertainment Studios from making any more. #4. The Thinning: New World Order Speaking of sequels that’ll make the originals look like masterpieces, we’ve got Logan Paul’s magnum opus, coming straight outta that Japanese suicide forest. A film that tells you that a country made up of the smartest 95% of citizens are stupid enough to not catch on to the pretty obvious government plan going on in this universe. Even more so, apparently presidents to be are allowed to just make major laws that’ll arrest about 50% of the population before being sworn in as president. But even more so, I’m to believe that Logan Paul of all people is smart enough to escape these poorly conceived concentration camps. This is a key example of suspension of disbelief gone too far. I don’t believe for a second that this world actually could exist. And I want everyone reading this to remember The Thinning: New World Order after seeing what I put at number one that even liberals can make terrible movies too! #3. The 15:17 To Paris No shit, this is easily the worst movie I’ve ever seen in theaters. No joke, no sarcasm, the Clint Eastwood trainwreck that is The 15:17 To Paris is by far one of the worst movies of the decade… and it’s only at #3 on my bottom 10 of the year. Let me explain. Where the absolute bottom of the barrels of the year are total slogs that I wouldn’t be able to stand watching again, this is actually really fun to watch. Immediately after seeing it in theaters, I wanted to see it again just to make sure it wasn’t a fever dream. In every conversation I have, I recommend this movie because it has to be seen to be believed. Of all the films on this list, this is the only one I’d actually recommend to people. No other film has the balls to portray three normies with ADD talking as boringly as possible taking selfies in Venice for 30 minutes for no goddamn reason. In no other movie will you see a bunch of comedians try and do serious roles that they had no right being casted in. When I went back to school and brought this up with my film nerd friends, every one of them had a different story of watching this. My god, please watch The 15:17 To Paris so that we can convince Clint Eastwood into making The 15:18 To Paris. #2. Gotti Let me tell ya, Gotti is one of the wurst felms ya’ll evar see! Who in da hell convinced John Travolta that he culd do serious roles! But in all seriousness, this movie sucks. I’m not super familiar with the story of John Gotti, and by that I mean I’ve never even heard the name before seeing this film. And I’m pretty sure that to even get what’s going on in this, you’d have to see a 3 hour documentary on the guy beforehand or else you’d be incredibly confused the entire time because I know I was! Don’t even ask me what happens in Gotti because I have no clue. It goes all over the place with different characters doing different things at different points in time and eventually, I stopped paying attention! I do remember that there were about 20 characters named “John,” John Gotti only kills one guy though I’m pretty sure that as a mob boss he’d kill more, and I have no idea how this mafia makes money. Oh, and this convicted feline is apparently also Jesus Christ. I’ll tells yas, ya can live 100 yeers an neva see a moovy as bad as Gotti. Before we get to #1, let’s do some runners up!

Jurassic World: Fallen Kingdom I wanted so bad to put this on the list because as a pretty big Jurassic Park fan, I can fairly say that Fallen Kingdom is easily the worst film in the franchise. If only because of that dumb ass twist at the end with that kid I kinda forgot even existed. Or just for those annoying ass comedic reliefs that are consistently useless. Or just because on a base filmmaking level, this movie sucks. Hurricane Bianca: From Russia With Hate Listen, I’m openly and proudly bisexual, so I get how important it is to get good representation out there in the film industry. And I also get why a lot of the Ru Paul: Drag Race fandom has latched onto this series. But Jesus Christ guys, drag queens can do better and they deserve better. From Russia With Hate is definitely a step in the right direction with it being way more interesting and fun than the first Hurricane Bianca… but come on guys! These aren’t good movies! Just watch more Drag Race, it’s much better. The Happytime Murders Disney, please let Muppets Now be good! The puppetry artform deserves better than this garbage! The Happytime Murders is a movie in which half the jokes is that a puppet is jizzing a lot. Honestly, my biggest beef with this film is that it doesn’t even get to the heart of what people love about the Jim Henson style of puppetry, notably the fun. Look at most of the cast, they are very humanoid compared to Kermit The Frog or Fozzy Bear. This movie is, first and foremost, not fun. Bob Lazar: Area 51 And Flying Saucers This is my nomination for worst documentary of the year. It’s just annoying to me that this guy can get away with lying to so many people without any repercussions. In fact, he gets this whole documentary that’s basically sucking his dick the entire time! I went in expecting something along the lines of Behind The Curve, a doc that takes an even stance at looking at its crazy subject matter but in a respectful way. In reality, Area 51 And Flying Saucers isn’t even in the slightest being totally on Bob Lazar’s side without questioning his all knowing wisdom for a second and is n’t respectful in the slightest for the intelligence of its viewers! Fuck this doc! A Simple Favor This is my nomination for best worst movie of the year. A Simple Favor is a crazy film with a cast and crew taking it weirdly seriously for a comedy, all with super monotone voices. None of the actual jokes are genuinely funny but lots of them are ironically hilarious. Granted I was very high while watching this, but as far as I’m concerned, that’s the best state of mind to be in while watching it! And did I mention how nobody acts during this but rather just say their lines monotonely! Loved it! God’s Not Dead: A Light In Darkness This was the year Christian propaganda got boring. I was so excited when I went to see I Can Only Imagine in theaters as my first theatrical Christian film experience only to be totally disappointed when it turned out to be pretty dull. Even more so when, later on in the year, the newest installment in the world famous God’s Not Dead franchise, the same one that first brought upon this new age of Christian based filmmaking that’s brought me so much joy before, turned out to be similarly dull. There was a split moment when a character states, “Jesus Christ was the original social justice warrior,” when I was brought back to life with its own stupidity, but it turned out to be fleeting. Not outrageous enough to be put on the list, but too outrageous to be any good. So this is how God’s Not Dead ends: not with a bang, but with a whimper. The Meg And speaking of boring, The Meg has to be the most boring shark movie ever made. A film that feels like it lasts for days and in which no real stakes feel like are in play. This has got to be the most boring and dull and uninteresting and BORING movie of the year! And considering how boring of a year it was for film, that’s saying a goddamn lot! Mary Poppins Returns I feel like I went through an arc of my own while watching this. I went from, “this isn’t bad,” to, “okay, this is a little too much like the original,” to, “why the fuck am I watching this?” Mary Poppins Returns feels like one of the Disney live action remakes because it’s basically just a shittier version of the original with absolutely no good reason to exist let alone to watch, especially compared to said original. And the climax makes absolutely no sense with the logic of the film universe; she can literally fly! And by god, does this feel like anything but Mary Poppins. Blockers Listen, I get that this film is sex positive and that’s a really great thing and all the actors are really trying their best. But it is all in vain for this film with a really unfunny script and that’s kinda important for a comedy. Sometimes Blockers can get a chuckle out of me because of how over the top it can get at times but those are just outliers in a mostly mediocre movie that got built up too much because of how much positivity is in this. Proud Mary Proud Mary is the perfect example of a film in which just because someone can do it well, doesn’t mean everyone can. Ever since Quentin Tarantino has been making movies like Pulp Fiction and Kill Bill, throw back action films have been really cool to see. Then, all of a sudden, the director of London Has Fallen had to come around and remind everyone that they can’t all be winners. Mostly dull dialogue between characters I don’t care about waiting for the action that isn’t even all that good. I was really hopeful that Proud Mary would be fun, but it’s anything but. #1. The Trump Prophecy Listen, I get that when I say that a movie literally titled The Trump Prophecy is the worst film of the year, it comes off as if I’m making a big political statement but believe me, I am not. Politically, admittedly, I am pretty liberal but I’m not really a political dude. But I do know terrible filmmaking when I see it, and believe it or not, a film about a crazy firefighter who gets a vision in his sleep from a god orb that Donald Trump must be president might not be very good. In fact, fuck this cynical, piece of shit, taking advantage of conservatives, monotonely acted, with no love or passion put into it, goddamn movie! As much as I didn’t like any of the movies I’ve mentioned on this list, it’s clear someone, anyone, was passionate about making them. But considering how clearly the director never asked any of his actors to do a second take, no love is clearly put into this. How cynical, how shameless. As someone who does genuinely love the art of filmmaking and would adore the opportunity to make a relatively big budget movie myself, the fact that something as lifeless as The Trump Prophecy gets to be put into any theaters really pisses me off. Say what you want about The 15:17 To Paris, at least it had its heart in the right place. Say what you want about Gotti, at least John Travolta was obviously passionate about the project. This has nothing and is easily the most hatable film I’ve seen in years!

[n3bel]

Got tagged by @kennyhickeyapologist and @lovedelux , thank you so much. You have no idea how much things like these help when a person is stuck bored at work!

LAST:

1. Drink: Cappucino from a vending machine

2. Phone call: A few days ago, I was calling my dad because we wanted to meet up and we had to decide where and when :0

3. Text message: “...Richard is such a creative soul. He understands.” , on behalf of discussing Reesh’s opinion on fanfics.

4. Song you listened to: Queen - We Are The Champions

5. Time you cried: I actually don’t remember.

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: Yeah

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: Of course

8. Been cheated on: Technically no but there was a guy who wasn’t 100 % loyal 

9. Lost someone special: Yeah

10. Been depressed: Yeah

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: Thankfully I haven’t thrown up from being drunk yet!

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12. pastel/dark blue

13. white

14. black

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: Yos!

16. Fallen out of love: Absolutely

17. Laughed until you cried: Yeah. Yesterday. At the fucking cookie story.

18. Found out someone was talking about you: I don’t think so

19. Met someone who changed you: A b s o l u t e l y

20. Found out who your friends are: Yos

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: Hell y e a h 

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: Most of them.

24. Do you want to change your name: Probably not, even though I hate it. 

25. What did you do for your last Birthday: Absolute nothing. Mostly was anxious because the entire family would gather and all the attention was making me fucking sick - but these birthdays are gonna be a fucking blast lmao

26. What time did you wake up: 5:40 AM

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Well there were bunch of Reesh gifs you know? Go try and figure 

28. Name something you can’t wait for: for Rammstein to come back to Prague... and for me managing to get tickets.

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: She’s literally sitting a few meters away from me as I’m writing this

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: Having more work ethic, being completely resistant to writer’s block because that shit ruins my life

31. What are you listening right now: A track from a Bojack Horseman edit asdfhash

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yup

34. Most visited Website: Tumblr because I have no fucking life

LOST QUESTIONS

35. Mole/s: Hmm none

36. Mark/s: Also none I guess

37. Childhood dream: To be an astronaut, but it changed to astronomer over the years lol

38. Hair colour: dirty blonde

40. Do you have a crush on someone: My s/o probably,, always

41. What do you like about yourself: my bIGASS BROWN EYES OOF also nose is big but i lived up to it and now i actually like it

42. Piercings: None :(

43. Blood type: Shid,,, not even my mom knows

44. Nickname: Hmmm... I don’t have nicknames when I come to think of it. Oh. Wait. Actually I do. “Chlebíček” (I hope you’re reading this, Pomidorek).

45. Relationship status: in a relationship that feels pretty distant but yeah we have each other’s backs

46. Zodiac: Sagittarius Sun, Capricorn rising and Pisces Moon

47. Pronouns: she/her

48. Favorite TV Show: The Office/Red Dwarf/Bojack Horseman/LD&R I honestly can’t choose just one those are all bangers

49. Tattoos: So far none

50. Right or left hand: Right

51. Surgery: When I was very young another small sharp bone began growing out of my normal bone under the knee?? So I had to get that removed lol

52. Hair dyed in different color: Dark blue

55. Vacation: Croatia!!!

56. Pair of trainers: Shit I don’t think I have any,,, okay I got like 1 pair of some offbrand light shoes but that’s about it

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: I. Can. Eat. Shittons. Junk food especially, sign me up for those chicken strips flavored Lays 

58. Drinking: Cappucino, Coke, bottled waters.

59. I’m about to: Well shit, probably work, probably also figure out some fanfic things while doing so

61. Waiting for: my workshift to end

62. Want: TO START WRITING THE FANFIC ALREADY HFDHH

63. Get married: Noooooooooooooope nope nonono

64. Career: Astronomer!

WHICH IS BETTER

65. Hugs or kisses: Hugs

66. Lips or eyes: Eyes

67. Shorter or taller: Taller

68. Older or younger: Older

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: ARMS

71. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive

72. Hook up or relationship: It depends. Currently, relationship

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: Hesitant but hey troublemakers are fun?

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a stranger: No

75. Drank hard liquor: Yes

76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: No

77. Turned someone down: Yes

78. Sex in the first date: Nope

79. Broken someone’s heart: Yes

80. Had your heart broken: Yes

81. Been arrested: No

82. Cried when someone died: Yes

83. Fallen for a friend: Y E S 

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: Mostly, I try to

85. Miracles: Yes

86. Love at first sight: No

87. Santa Claus: No

88. Kiss on the first date: Yaaas

89. Angels: I don’t believe in Angels/Demons, but I believe in entities such as ghosts, personal guidances etc. Angel or Demon is for me, just a determination whether the being is good or not, but that depends on person’s point of view, hence relativity. So I don’t really choose to believe in these terms personally.

OTHER:

90. Current best friends name: Luca

91. Eye colour: Brown

92. Favorite movie: Interstellar

I’m tagging @extinctsunset, @rammquotes and @mein-radio to do this! Have fun lol

[lookwhatilost]

i finished my second watch of bojack s6 p1 and here’s a predictably massive post of some thoughts/observations abt it

spoilers under the cut obviously

the “fuck” of the season definitely came in a moment that i didn’t expect, but i rly liked how it was used. like, it was a callback to when gina dropped it in the last season –– something that traumatized her vs a reaction to her PTSD symptoms. a lot of people seem unhappy w it but i think it’s more powerful than people are giving it credit for being

the gatsby reference in e3 rly brought to mind that there are, like, a lot of gatsby tie-ins w this show and i never rly pasted them together mentally bc of the ubiquity of the “rich guy is utterly depressed and alone” trope. like, the imagery related to the pool, the shallow parties, the yellow car, the spacious but empty house, the billboards staring him down as he drives when he’s hallucinating in s5. charlotte/daisy being a weak parallel in that he had feelings for her when they were younger, held onto them for years, only for her to be married when they reconnect, but it’s worth mentioning that the glow stick balloons were green.

someone on reddit pointed out that jameson’s baby in e1 had physical traits associated w fetal alcohol syndrome. like, short, upturned nose, eyes that are far apart, and low ears. it’s hard to say if it’s intentional, but he’s drawn w a lot more detail than a lot of the other babies i’ve seen in the show. if it’s purposeful, like, that’s amazing attention to detail

i liked how the season opened on a planetarium flashback, because honestly, the immediate aftermath of sarah lynn’s death is definitely kind of glossed over in s3 when it initially happens. and though i suppose the added information isn’t terribly surprising (like him lying abt the events that lead up to her overdose and minimizing his own role in it as much as possible), it did make me wonder why i hadn’t thought abt it before

bojack rly does show signs of serious growth in the 6th season and it’s cool to finally see him move forward w/o simultaneously backsliding in other ways. a lot of his good actions in previous seasons were only rly things that benefitted him. and there are a lot of examples of it, but i think the one that stuck out to me the most was w his therapist. when he fell off the wagon, it’d have been rly easy for bojack to look the other direction and walk away like we’ve seen him do before. realistically, he has no real incentive to care for doctor champ’s wellbeing if he’s no longer staying at pastiches, but he checks him into rehab anyway, and when doctor champ throws his insecurities in his face to be hurtful, he immediately identifies it for the petty jab it is instead of letting it fuel his negative thoughts and using it as an excuse to dive into self-destructive behavior. honestly e6 was the emotional high water mark of part 1, even though it wasn’t the kind of gut punch that the dramatic, narrative focused episodes of bojack tend to be

i’m glad that the writers finally /did/ something w todd that made him feel like an actual character instead of jst a device for the comedy part of the show. i used to watch this show w a friend and we always used to say that todd had very little depth given the amount of screen time he occupies and seeing them move away from that was refreshing. his struggle w jorge is very relatable as someone whose parents have always pushed me towards things i didn’t sincerely want based on their expectations and desires for me vs my actual opinions of what success and happiness would look like for myself. but, on the other side of the coin, there’s finally a little bit of confrontation of the fact that todd’s erratic behavior and shenanigans are very taxing things for people who care abt him to deal w. and todd is rly the only character who’s somehow defied the show’s formula in that he never faces accountability for the things he does. like, he’s enabled PB’s impulsivity many times and drove him to bankruptcy, care of PB Livin’, and it’s a detail in the show that’s never truly been acknowledged or talked abt at all. he fucked PC over when he wouldn’t follow through w his sham marriage to courtney, and it was met w a cheesy speech from her abt how he needs to follow his heart and do what he thinks is right. it always struck me as a weird oversight, and to finally see someone take him to task for how taxing his behavior can be was refreshing. his only other “depth” was the asexual stuff and honestly? that is stupid and does not actually count for anything

if it didnt warm your heart when PC named her daughter ruthie then you dnt have one. i wasn’t as invested in her narrative as i’d have liked to be, but its good when PC is happy and that’s what everyone wants

IM SO GLAD JUDAH IS BACK. also i still hope he and PC end up together (and maybe she has a viable pregnancy this time w him a la sex and the city charlotte but that’s a little too cornball sappy for this show). generally rly enjoyed how characters from previous seasons were incorporated this time around. but i dnt want them to bring back vincent adultman jst to spite everyone who’s always saying “bring back vincent adultman”

pickles is still my least favorite character even tho the surprise wedding episode was probably the one i found the funniest. realistically i wanna see things work out for PB but his relationship w her is obviously not the move for him, and she’s also the worst

i like diane and guy together, they have rly good chemistry but i also have a bad feeling abt where things are headed w them. he seems ambivalent abt how principled she is and the scene where his son comes to the party and he makes her leave when he could have jst introduced her as a party guest if it even needed to happen at all... there was jst something off abt it. like you can definitely see the cracks in the foundation already and it’s disappointing

the scene btwn PB and bojack where bojack says to him “but i understand that feeling of needing to bottle up your guilt, not burden other people w it. you think you’re protecting them from your toxicity, you convince yourself that you’re being selfless, but it comes out in other ways and it infects everything” hit close to home bc it reminded me of someone i used to bond over this show w and like... whew

i rly love how the dominoes are being set up w the reporters (even tho their his girl friday shtick got old fast) bc the way things are culminating, the story getting out is liable to expose bojack for everything. if they approach penny and she talks to them abt what happened, she’s liable to tell them that bojack and sarah lynn went to ohio to find her in the time before sarah lynn overdosed, and the pictures that her classmates took of them could establish a time frame. he was in new mexico when he was supposed to be filming secretariat, and that knowledge could lead to them finding out that he’d been digitally replaced in the movie. when this information gets out, it’s very likely that gina will dogpile onto it w the truth abt what happened on the set of philbert, since trying to conceal her ptsd is actively hurting her acting career bc of the reputation she’s developing as a problem actress, and even though she dznt *want* to be “that girl that got choked by bojack horseman”, she won’t have a choice if she can’t get jobs otherwise. i guess there’s always a chance that penny and charlotte won’t talk to them, but now that hollyhock knows about what happened in new mexico, either way his personal life will be hurt by this. i’m not sure what’ll happen to him professionally, since there’s a recurring point the series has been making w famous people never being held fully culpable for their negative actions, and it’s a dicey thing for them to approach w a character that many viewers find sympathetic without ending on some myopic note abt cancel culture (whether intentionally or by popular interpretation) but im excited

i also hate how my obsessive watching and rewatching of this show meant that the intended pete repeat reveal (like, you’re not supposed to recognize him until his identity becomes obvious through the prom night story) was sort of compromised for me bc i recognized his voice and the second he introduced himself, i placed him IMMEDIATELY but it was still such a great scene. it’s the most tense i remember feeling when watching and an all around great cliffhanger

the final line of e7 comes off as some rly grim foreshadowing–– “it looks like you found solace in our show. stay if you’d like. in 30 minutes, we start over”. but it’s such an incredible line in context. my god, i fucking love this show, you guys

[michalwu]

Best of 2018 in TV

Another year passed and again I watched a lot of good quality tv. I think that although again it was very hard to choose my top 10 this year was a little bit less intense than previous. Still I had to do a short list of places 20-11 because I couldn’t resist not to mention a few more productions. That said remember I’m not a critic. I watch thinks I like not because I have to and this list is totally subjective though I tried to be fair. I watched over 50 series from 2018 and that’s the results:

20-11 (in random order)

The Affair (season 4), Atlanta (season 2), Homecoming, ACS: The Assassination of Gianni Versace, Killing Eve, One Day at the Time (season 2), Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate Events, Maniac (season 2), Legion (season 2), AHS: Apocalypse.

10. Anne with and E (season 2)

I never was a huge fan of the book as a kid but I read it as mandatory lecture in primary school. But I am a huge fan of this series. Beautiful placement of the plot plus very talented young cast with leading Amybeth. The best part of the story for me always was the dynamics of Anna's relationship with her adopted parents.

9. Patrick Melrose

What an absolutely outstanding trio of actors: Benedict Cumberbatch, Hugo Weaving and Jennifer Jason Leigh. Plus another young talent this year Seabstian Maltz who as a young Patrick is giving one of the most dramatic performence of the year. Creators did justice to the novel.

8. The Deuce (season 2)

This was one of the most enjoyable series this year. I love the period it shows and since the first season I started to develop a sympathy for all those characters especially for Candy. Too bad the series seems to be forgotten this year by critics. In my opion it came back in a lot better shape than last year. It’s funnier, it’s faster and the whole fuss around making porno adaptation of Red Riding Hood is just captivating.

7. Sharp Objects

Another great limited series and another proof of my love to the craftsmanship of brilliant Jean-Marc Vallée. The story from book was kinda predictable and tacky. But thanks to the director who is an expert of showing emotions and dilemmas from the past plus the cast of three great actresses made it into phenomenal work. I am really looking forward to see more projects from cooperation of Mr. Vallee and HBO because so far it brings only true treasures.

6. Barry

I was always a fan of Bill Harder on SNL and his (usually) small roles in comedies. So then I found out that he’s making his own show I kept my fingers crossed for the success. And the results are better than expected. Barry is a great combination of drama and comedy. It sound like things we see lately very often but Barry is the best mix of two this year (not to mention animated series). Why? Because drama is real (he’s a seriall killer with many very hard moral choices to make) and the comedy provided (mostly) by Henry Winkler is just a poor gold. Well done.

5. The Haunting of  Hill House

I’m not a big horror enthusiast but I do have a soft spot for those stories in classical form. And what’s more classic than beautiful, old, and huge haunted house. I fell in love with this series and it’s so much better than the previous movies. This one is actually very far from the original story written by Shirley Jackson but it capture the atmosphere the best. Separation of episode focusing on different from five siblings was a great idea. From non-believer to the most affected of the kids the story became more and more intense and scary. I honestly was scared almost the whole time. Still I tried to play with creators and watch for all  the hidden ghosts in the background. The secret of Bent Neck Lady was haunting me for a while and even after finishing the series it all stayed with me in my mind. This was my favorite new series of the year. I’d love to see it again in other form, maybe as anthology like AHS. With this cast yes please!

4. GLOW (season 2)

It’s so nice today that we can get such a smahing tv show this such a huge female cast. I love this series and those Gorgeous Ladies Of Wrestling since season 1. I always enjoy it when show or movie takes me to another peroid of time and GLOW blend us into into that reality of 80 like nothing else. We had so many exctiting things this season with Debbie becoming single mother after divorce, Sam Silvia trying himself as a father and the whole team becoiming more and more like a crazy family (recording of intro in the mall was amazing). In real life I’m not really intrested in wrestling (like at all) and though it probably differs a lot than reality I loved those duels bethween characters. Episode Mother of All Matches is one of the best in 2018.

3. BoJack Horseman (season 5)

Oh how I love this show and this character. And before anyone judge me I don’t love BoJack for being a walking disaster and misery. I love this character and many other on the show for the incredibly smart writing. He is a alcoholic, narcissus and washed-out tv star and that who he is. Just like Priness Caroline is an ambitious woman who will give up many things for career even if she know it won’t give her happines in the end. But that’s the greatest thing about this show and creators that they won’t change those characters and put them in unexpected positions just to get the wow factor from the viewers. They still find  a way to present those persons in fresh and captivating way but making it “in” the nature of the character. And that’s the fift season so congrats! And still we can count on them to give us some real gems like episode Free Churro which is a masterpiece of writing. The thing is this season of BoJack doesn’t stand out in specific way from other but it gives us the thing it always did and never disappoints - crazy rollercoaster ride.

2. Mozart in the Jungle (season 4)

When I said at the beginning that this list is totally subjective I meant it inter alia because of this series. Mozart IS my favorite tv series. I don’t know if the best but it always gave me the most joy when watching it adn that’s a pretty good determinant. Unfortunately I will have to start saying it WAS my favorite because Amazon cancelled series after this season. I’m still mad and disappointed because GoT is about to end so all platforms grab the money to invest in “next huge thing” (in case of Amazon it’s new Lord of the Ring..yeah we need it). But don’t get me wrong. I didn’t put Mozart this high because I’m mad and or to mark someone’s mistake. I just really loved this season. Placing the plot in Japan was bull’s-eye move. Rodrigo De Souza (favorite tv character next to Leslie Knope) as a boyfriend of Hailey was hilarious, a much as observing her way to become succesfull and independent artist. The scene when she debuts as conductor with piece “Hi” is maybe my favorite moment in whole season. Even stronger is her performence at the finale. Although I rooted for Hailey and Rodrigo as a couple I’m glad that creators didn’t go into cliche with their relationship. Another strong scene is the on at traditional tea ceremony. Of course as always the whole season was very firm from the music side (this series helped me to discover a little piece of classical music and I’m grateful for that). I will really miss this series. I think it could easily do another season especially now when creators decided to end this season in such an interesting place. Too bad...

1. The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel (season 2)

There’s nothing to explain... but I will ;) I compared all the series with each other and in my opinion there was nothing better that Mrs. Maisel this year. I enjoyed it last year but I didn’t even expected how much delight will it be to have it back. Visually it is the most beautiful thing in tv right now. And the writing as always is case of Amy Sherman-Palladino is just excellent. Those characters are so fast and wit it’s just a pleasure to observe them interact and discuss with much to many words and refrences than any normal person would use. And those actors really take it like a champs. All episodes in Paris was nice but it was nothing compre to Catskill where it felt like watching dirty dancing but with much better and more interesting story. I love the way Palladino direct her characters. How they develop especially Midge, her friendship with Susie and her realisation that stand-up comedy is not only the thing she want to do but it is something she will do for the rest of her life. Every time she stands in front of audience, camera or father himself she proves to be nailer and we as audience live for those moments! I really enjoyed see her parents in Paris as we could discover totally different side of them both and also new romance of Midge. But my favorite sequence of the season was Midge watching Lenny Bruce (Luke Kirby is so on point with this role) in last episode and realising it all (inconspicuous scene but made me waste a few tears). At the end I will add that I love the attitude towards the children presented in this series...irrational like many other things.

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Suming up in my list dominant are HBO and Netflix productions but in the end two first places go to Amazon.

Comapring with previous year there is no sign of Legion in top 10. Well season 2 was good, sometimes even great but not enough to get into the top. Beside there’s less new series on the list (seven in 2017, four this year) but we had some amazing comebacks.

I don’t have huge disappointments this year, maybe just a few. 1) Romanoffs were boring as hell and I really counted on Weiner. 2) Cancelling of many good series like Mozart in the Jungle or Daredevil. 3) Riverdale became so absurd that it beats and law of logic. I mean why it gotta be so intense?

[aspecpplarebeautiful]

tbh idk how I feel at this point, I can’t tell if I’m just forcing myself to be sexual and making myself think it’s attraction or if it’s real attraction ... and if I am ace I feel bad abt myself bc I feel like if I have no sexual attraction or desire then I am worthless (not that aces are but I am) :( it’s confusing.. do allos also have repulsion like that for no reason.. bc there is no reason for me to feel like that- no trauma related to it.. and when I find ppl more attractive with clothes I mean like,, swimsuits,, still having some covering over genitals,, and I find that more attractive and I don’t think of as romantic or platonic it feels more sexual maybe?

It can definitely be really hard to figure out. One thing that may help could be to work on your feelings of self worth and try and separate that from your sexuality (I say that as though it’s easy, I know it’s not). But the more you can make the question ‘am I ace or allosexual?’ a neutral question, the easier that’s going to make it to figure out the answer to that question. 

Because if you’re pushing yourself one direction, even if it ends up being the right direction in the end, it can still create a lot of doubt and just create a lot of confused feelings. 

Some things you can do to help get over feeling worthless as ace, follow ace blogs. Specifically follow cool people you like and respect who are ace, and who like being ace. Follow some positivity blogs too, and that’ll just help you regularly see that kind of thing. 

Find some ace media, personally I love Bojack Horseman (Todd’s arc on being ace starts in season 3), and the Jughead 2015 run from Archie comics are both really good. I’m also making my way through the Magnus Archives which is a fun horror podcast and the main character is ace. But there’s actually a lot of ace media around, especially books and podcasts, and if you do a search you can find some good lists and see what appeals to you. 

Meeting and getting to know other aces can be good too if you can, a lot of ace communities are very accepting of questioning people, even you end up not identifying as ace in the end, you’re still allowed to mingle in those communities and meet other aces. 

And all these things will just help you see asexuality in a more neutral. And seeing other people who like and respect and relate to be ace can really help you unlearn the internalized message that asexuality is somehow bad. If you value these people, then maybe if you turn out to be less sexual you can still value yourself. 

Therapy could be another option to consider too, but if you go this route be sure to find an ace-friendly therapist (and remember you can switch therapists at any time if you end up with one who puts too much value on sexuality). But therapy can be really helpful for finding your own self worth and not tying it to something arbitrary that’s beyond our control like our sexuality. 

Find other things you value about yourself. What are your good qualities? What are your hobbies? Find things to value that are within your control, and work towards doing those or making those stronger. Build up skills, be kind to people or help people, all these things can help too. 

If there’s anywhere you’re getting the message that our value is tied to being sexual, anything like ‘sex makes us human’, ‘sex is the greatest thing in the world’, etc. do whatever you can to cut that out. It’s not always possible but do your best. 

Can repulsion be its own thing and not be asexual in any other way? Yes. Most people experience some degree of repulsion, though it’s more common to be repulsed to the point sex is difficult, or in general sexual situations for people who are otherwise asexual. Repulsion tends to follow its own rules though, and it’s entirely possible to experience a high degree of repulsion without being otherwise asexual. And it’s up to individuals to decide if their repulsion is at a level where they’d consider themselves ace or not.

Finding people more attractive with their clothes on could be a sign the attraction you’re experiencing isn’t sexual attraction. But it could also be that it’s just not setting your repulsion off. How does the attraction feel to you? Does it feel sexual? Does it feel more like you want to study them and watch them? That may be aesthetic attraction. Does it feel sort of sexual but you’d rather do sensual things like kissing? Touching? Smelling? That could be sensual attraction. 

But yeah definitely these things are confusing, and it’s possible it’s going to take you a little while to sort these things out. I definitely think some of the suggestions above will help you out though. 

If you have more questions, want anything clarified, etc. please don’t be afraid to ask. And you can ask more questions at any point. 

All the best and good luck, Anon!

[iknownothingihearnothing]

BoJack Horseman: 5.2 The Dog Days Are Over

Kay, we ended episode 5.1 with the Goldfish Ladies doin’ their thang in BoJack’s pool. Aside: if their water ballet team isn’t called the Goldfish Ladies, I’ma be disappoint. 

Fish Fridays have gotta be like The Purge for these ladies. 

We also left off, at the tail end of the episode, with Diane and Mr. Peanutbutter. He was dropping her off at her new, um, let’s just call it “not a mansion in the Hollywoo Hills” after a trip and giving her a set of signed divorce papers. 

“Take *that*, our marriage!” she joked awkwardly before leaving. 

So, Diane and Mr. Peanutbutter are friendly but awks around each other. As tends to happen when exes who’ve seen each other nekkid many, many times try to stay friends with each other.

The episode starts with Diane crying in her car, mascara running down her face. She is wearing an outfit that is very unDianeish and she has cut her hair short. AKA the post-breakup haircut all girls know and eventually come to regret.

As poor Diane is cryin’ her eyes out over her canine ex-husband, uh, this happens:

This couple must be transplants from the underwater land BoJack went to for the premiere of Secretariat in season 3. 

Still crying, Diane heads to the airport and asks to be taken as far away from Los Ageless as possible. She demands this of the airport attendant, who is an emu. 

After the title sequence, Diane lands in Vietnam, and as she is walking through Hanoi, dodging people and reptiles alike (look, conspiracy theorists! lizard people!), Stefani calls, salivating for fresh content. Diane, if you remember, is a contributer at the website Girl Croosh, which I guess is a site for, like, everything. 

She promises to write something up from there, the article of which becomes the Top 10 Reasons Why You Should Travel To Vietnam 

I, personally, do not have ancestral roots with Vietnam...as far as I know. I took one of those Ancestry DNA tests a few weeks ago and am waiting on the results. As far as I know I could be 15 percent Tongan, which would be awesome. 

I should visit Germany. Or Austria. Or Russia. Those I know I have roots to. Really close roots. Munich-y roots. My dad’s side of the family were from a valley near the Caucasus Mountains. I am literally Caucasian. 

Sometimes, I don’t know whether to interested in the rich history or saddened and embarrassed at how white that is.

In VO, Diane explains that her family wasn’t much help in explaining to her where they came from when she was growing up, or their family history. We are shown a flashback of pre-teen Diane inquiring to her dad about just this, but he is busy with baseball. Likely a Red Sox game. Or a Red Fox game. 

Furthermore, many of the stores and billboards bear her last name.

I know. Many people in Vietnam share surnames. One of my friend’s last name is Nguyen. 

Everybody she passes, Diane continues, look like her (except the flamingo in the  nón lá hat).But then a woman bumps into her and speaks Vietnamese to her and she has no idea what she’s saying.

At the gorgeous (cartoon) hotel, Diane checks in just as a gang of American filmmakers bust in; they are filming a movie in the hotel. It stars Laura Linney as a recently divorced woman who comes to Vietnam to find herself.

So much for escaping the LA life. 

Diane puts on the dress she bought and the rice paddy hat but she still feels like a tourist.

Speaking of tourist--

Cut to Diane in her usual clothes plus the rice paddy hat appearing to take a selfie in front of the Thien Mu Pagoda.Then everything zooms out.

Pretending to be somewhere more awesome than where you actually are to make other people jealous of you on social media? The hell you say, that never happens!

Diane eats her chicken in the park when Mr. Peanutbutter calls, and, in his usual Mr. Peanutbutter way, inquires as to why she left his party early. He was gonna ask earlier but he was distracted by Todd getting his tongue stuck to the ice sculpture. Todd’s tongue swelled up, and Mr. Peanutbutter had to interfere between him and a mob boss when Todd started talking to him all muffled, the mob boss thinking he was making fun of his deaf sister.

Ya, don’t blame the mob boss.

She makes up an excuse about having a plane to catch to Vietnam while Mr. Peanutbutter literally catches his newspaper in his mouth like a good boy and he promises to pick her up like a good boy/ex-hubby. He is also glad that he is not paying for her phone bills anymore because that international call is gonna be bazongers

Wah wah wahhhhhh as joke falls flat.

In flashback, a still longhaired Diane and Mr. Peanutbutter, recently separated, are celebrating how friendly their separation is by having a divorce dinner. Their waitress turns out to be an excitable young pug by the name of Pickles and I need to call my next dog that. Not fit for a pug, tho. Maybe a dachshund.

She and Mr. Peanutbutter seem to hit it off right away, much to Diane’s annoyance. They both like water! And food scraps! And are full of boundless energy! Amazing! Diane just wants to know if he’s signed the divorce papers yet. Then suggests a housewarming party to curb his loneliness. 

Back in the Bojackverse present, a family of American tourists dressed in American flag shirts and polos mistake Diane for a Vietnamese citizen and talk to her like she’s an idiot.

Yup yup yup. Reminds me of the tourist from California who carved her initials into the Roman Colosseum and then took a selfie.  

I can go a few streets over and meet new people, Diane!

This is a bad reason to travel to Vietnam, Diane!

The internet exists, Diane!

At the hotel bar, Diane meets one of the only other Americans staying there, a dude working on Laura Linney’s movie about the recently divorced woman going to Vietnam to find herself. He appears to be a bald eagle, but we do not know that he is indeed bald because he is wearing a hat. 

He is likely bald, tho. 

I mean, unless people start fake tanning and fist-pumping there. Then I’d feel right at home.

In flashback, Diane hangs a painting of the gorgeous Te Huc Bridge at the Hoàn Kiếm Lake in her crappy new apartment just as BoJack stops by. While helping her move, he, in true blunt BoJack fashion, informs her that this place is a shithole and invites her to stay at his place for a bit. She likes the shithole though. It may be a shithole, but it is her shithole.

At Girl Croosh HQ, Stefani is signing a contract outside of their be-tented building. It seems that the “cockroaches at IT tried to unionize” so Stefani called an exterminator--ahem, “negotiator”. The exterminators, natch, are flies. She also requires that listicle from Diane of 5 Empowering Roles For Women Over 40 Who Would’ve Been Better Played By Jennifer Lawrence. 

Somehow, I predict that role opposite that (now 58) year old actor Maggie Gyllenhaal didn’t get because she was told she was “too old” to play his love interest at the shocking age of 37 will go to JLaw. She’s, like, 28 now! That’s almost thirty!

Still in flashback, Diane’s trying to get work done in her shithole when a pipe leaks and a stray cat meows and someone burps. She shows up at BoJack’s door intoning “I’m a sad, sad girl with a dirty apartment” as was the phrase agreed upon she needed to utter if she ever needed a space. 

Diane finishes her article there and has a glass of wine with BoJack before going back to her shithole. But it turns into...

Keep saying it, Diane. Maybe if you utter it enough times, it’ll actually come true! like the Darling kids shouting “I can fly!” 

Diane mumbles drunkenly how weird it is that they are both single at the same time. BoJack knows why he thinks it’s weird, but why does she? It is just weird, they can totally make out and it’d be okay. But that is gross because he’s BoJack and he’s gross and she’s getting a divorce and allowed to be mean. Then, just as BoJack is ruminating on the last time Diane stayed in the guest room, when he went to New Mexico *andtotallydidnothookupwithateenager* she passes out on the couch in a drunken stupor.

In all my years of seeing therapists, not once has any of them advised me to fly to the capital of Vietnam. 

Diane’s therapist also gossips about the non celebrities she sees. Including Demi who had a first husband named Bruce and a second named Ashton. And a client named Angelina J., who does not think of herself as an actress anymore.

An actress, a director, a humanitarian, a savior of all mankind, all in a painfully obvious attempt to keep the spotlight on her. 

Yeah, I am not much of a Jolie fan.

Diane meets American Bald Eagle working on the Laura Linney movie at the bar and helps him order a drink. He thinks she’s a Vietnamese citizen. They walk through Hanoi’s market area, he tells her about his life in America, thinking she cannot understand a word he is saying, and she kisses him.

I have no bloody idea how you tongue a dude with a beak. There must be some particular angling involved.

American Bald Eagle takes her to Ha Long Bay...the set. It’s actually a backdrop for the Laura Linney movie. American Bald Eagle is the executive grip on the crew. He is Very Important. Or so he claims. But then, as they are perplexedly kissing again, a klieg light falls beside them and Diane curses. In English. 

The jig is up!

Diane tries to defend her actions but American Bald Eagle ain’t havin’ it. She’s the bad guy here! 

Diane is NOT having it, y’all.

Oooh, mic drop!

Number 9 reason to go to Vietnam:

She worries that this is similar to reason #5, which is Get Out Of Your Natural Habitat, but it’s whatever. Diane is getting divorced, she is owed a whatever.

In flashback, Diane has just chopped off her hair and she is wearing a kick jumpsuit looking all fly ready for her ex’s party but when BoJack arrives and compliments her she flies off the handle a bit, accusing him of trying to take advantage of her when she is vulnerable. He sighs and leaves, telling her that Mr. Peanutbutter will love her new hair.

At the party, Todd is wearing what he always is and eyes the ice swan greedily. Yes, he will lick it tonight. Oh, yes he will.

Oh, Todd. You are a delight.

Diane wanders into the library that used to be hers (her Belle-room) and bumps into Mr. Peanutbutter dressed in a tuxedo shirt and what look to be electric blue plastic pants. Carrying a dog bowl full of nachos.

Mr. Peanutbutter mumbles that she looks good. The new haircut really brings out her...neck. It is all really awkward and uncomfortable and Mr. Peanutbutter quickly finds an excuse to greet someone else.

PC hugs Diane and cries that she saw the whole thing; she will be her rock as long as it does not interfere with being Mr. Peanutbutter’s rock because they are both her friends and it also cannot interfere with her work, which is keeping her very bizzay.

There are a lot of heartbreakingly awkward moments in this episode. I kinda sympathize with PC, though. It’s always a fragile position to be in, being a friend of both parties in a divorce. There’s a fine line you have to tread. 

In the present, Diane gets on a plane in Hanoi and calls BoJack to apologize for how shook she’s been post-divorce. She really just needs a friend right now. Get that, BoJack? A friend. 

No more yanky your wanky, BoJack.

Or maybe do.

On the plane, none other than Laura Linney sits down beside Diane.

After she gets over her initial star struck reaction, Diane asks her how her movie ends. Does Laura find herself in Vietnam? Well, yes. Literally. She finds her clone sleeping with her ex. And they team up to take down the government.

Someone call Alex Jones!

But those, Diane says in VO, are not the real reasons to go to Vietnam. The real reason is because you see your ex-husband kissing someone else at a party.

Mr. Peanutbutter picks Diane up from the airport, we are shown the uncomfortable exchange from the first episode in his car, and just as she is about to leave with the signed divorce papers, Mr. PB admits that he is seeing someone. Who is not her. 

Flashback to the party. PC is still rambling on about being supportive while talking on her phone about work related stuffs when Diane spots her ex and Pickles through a window. She kisses him, and, at first, Diane waves it off as just Mr. PB being drunk. Then, the golden retriever and the pug kiss more thoroughly, and poor Diane is crushed.

There. You can fully see the shock and heartache in her eyes, rendered perfectly through simple animation. Another reason why I heart this show so much. 

Because even though she left him, even though she knows she made the right choice, it still frigging HURTS. Like shards of glass pricking her heart.

The heart is an unreasonable muscle.

Diane spends the next few frames drifting through her days. At her shithole apartment. At BoJack’s. On the plane. Even in Vietnam. In VO, she tells us she had hoped the vacation would give her some perspective, but it doesn’t. When she returns, she feels worse than ever.

And that is okay. It’s okay to ache. It’s okay to be confused. When your heart is crushed, nothing makes sense.

So, back in the present, Diane takes a deep breath, smiles a little, and says--

Wow, that was a great episode! I mean, they are all great, but this one was particularly awesome. Took FOREVER to cap, tho. I loved the artistry of the animated Vietnam, how beautiful Ha Long Bay and the Pagoda looked even rendered in animation. The attention to detail is exquisite. 

The emotions were so real. When our hearts ache, whether it be after a horrible break up or a divorce or any kind of tragedy in our lives, we tend to be erratic like Diane was in this episode. We lash out at our friends. We try to doll ourselves up when we know we’re going to see ex boyfriends or girlfriends. We feel as if we’ve been stabbed when we glimpse them moving on when we cannot. Sometimes, we take unplanned trips. Or some of us spend a lot in lieu. I could not take such a trip as Diane took after the worst breakup of my life because I was in the middle of a semester...so I spent money at the local mall. Everything I earned. My paycheck was GONE as soon as I got it. I think I spent over a grand in one month alone. 

We find ways to cope. And eventually, we start on the road to becoming okay again.

[travllingbunny]

Thanks for the tag, @weareagentsofnothing

Rules: Answer 30 questions. Tag 10 blogs you want to get to know better whoever you want, if you want

Nickname(s): I don’t really have any nicknames, at least not once that stuck. Most people call me by my first name, Ivana. Back in high school, people used to call me “Cveta” because that’s shortened from my last name - because that’s what we used to do in high school, especially when there were multiple people with the same first name in the class, and even when there weren’t. Fortunately, no one has ever called me that since.

Gender: female

Sign: Taurus

Height: 163 cm (for those who don’t know the metric system, hat’s a little above 5′4″).

Time: CET

Fave band(s): where do I begin? Depeche Mode, Joy Division, The Smiths, Florence + the Machine, Massive Attack, Portishead, 

Fave solo artist(s): the late and great Leonard Cohen. I also like many jazz singers such as Billie Holiday, Sarah Vaughan, Diana Krall...

Song stuck in my head: For the last few days, I had a really annoying popular song stuck in my head - I don’t know what it is, one of those they just can’t stop playing everywhere. But for some reason, it seems to have disappeared, and right now I have “Ship to Wreck” by Florence and the Machine in my head. I don’t know how it happened - I don’t think I’ve heard it in the last few days, and it’s not even one of my favorites by Florence, but it’s certainly very welcome.

Last movie I saw: Deadpool 2

Last show I watched: Sharp Objects, the first episode

When did I create my blog: I don’t remember, but I think it was 9 or 10 years ago, because I got a notification about an anniversary recently. It was definitely while Lost was still on, and not along after after the season 4 finale, when I started using “Time Travelling Bunny” (because it was a line from the finale and a nick that I found funny) for some of my accounts (my YouTube/Google account still has my BSG nick, FrakkinToasterLuvva, which I created earlier, during/after season 3 of BSG - yes, it also comes from a line of dialogue). But I wasn’t as active for the first few years as I’m now.

What do I post: looking through my tags makes it clear (not that I didn’t know that before) that most of my posts are about: A Song of Ice and Fire; rants against Game of Thrones and its showrunners, the way they choose to not adapt the series, and everything they stand for; then behind that, there’s a lot of AoS and Buffy related stuff (I’ve been mostly posting a lot of AoS-related stuff lately), then there’s Jessica Jones, MCU movies and other MCU shows, The Hunger Games book series, history-related stuff (especially Wars of the Roses), general topics... There are a ton of my favorite shows, however, that I haven’t written about - I hope to make some top lists about The Americans and BoJack Horseman soon. I also have, in my anti tags, aside from GoT, The Walking Dead (which I used to really like), Big Bang Theory (which I never liked) and the YouTube channel Cinema Sins (which is just annoying).

Last thing I googled: France-Croatia. I was walking my dogs when the match had already started, and wanted to see the resul.

Do I have any other blogs: Not on Tumblr. I used to have an active blog on Livejournal, when it was still a thing (too bad what happened to it - the format was more suitable for discussions than Tumblr), and Dreamweaver (just to post stuff on Livejournal when it used to malfunction). I had many Buffy episode reviews there. Actually, they’re still there and the blog exists - it’s just that, well you know, no one uses LJ anymore.

Do I get asks: I’ve gotten a few

Why did I choose my url: See above, under when I chose my url (Time Travelling Bunny turned out to be too long).

Following: 409+

Followed by: 233+ I think I’ve blocked all the porn accounts, so they aren’t among those.

Average hours of sleep: I don’t know, I never fall asleep immediately, and my sleeping habits are incredibly uneven (it comes with the job - I’m a translator who works at home and has no working hours, but has deadlines)

Lucky number: I don’t think I have one.

Instruments: piano/keyboards

What I am wearing: err. this is going to sound weird, but I’m washing my hair (I’m about to wash out the hair mask), so, not much, because I don’t want my clothes to get wet.

Dream job: This one is pretty good, but dream job.. probably a writer? 

Dream trip: I dunno, maybe Rome or Paris or New York? Or even LA? 

Fave food: breaded cheese, falafel, grilled cheese, pizza, etc. Something salty, tasty, not spicy, and without any meat, since I’m a vegetarian.

Nationality: Serbian, but I prefer to think of myself as a citizen of the world.

Fave song: I can’t even pick one band, you expect me to pick one song?! No idea, there are too many of them. 

Last book I read: The Wizard of Earthsea by Ursula LeGuin. It took me a while, because I just couldn’t get into it.

Top 3 fictional universes I wanna join: Most of the fictional universes I enjoy watching/reading about are horrible worlds where I would never want to live in. Star Trek and MCU are the only ones that are OK. In Trek, I guess the 24th century Earth would be the obvious choice, since it’s supposed to be a ‘paradise’, but I would probably be bored out of my mind, and prefer to go and work on the post-war Deep Space Nine, with working trips to Bajor and post-Dominion Cardassia. MCU would be nice if I get a cool superpower. As for the rest... I guess Buffyverse is OK, as long as you don’t live in Sunnydale or Cleveland or any other place that’s on a Hellmouth. Alternatively, if I had to live in the world of ASOAIF, I could only endure Braavos or Dorne (book Dorne! Not show Dorne - yuk!) Tagging... @jaehaerys1 @misskittyspuffy @miraculousagentsofkrypton @kateofthecanals @ladyofthefrostfangs @eyesofmist @maddalenamackelena @maidenoftheforestlight @annedey @irritatinglyboring and anyone else who wants to do it.

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Why You Should Watch Bojack Horseman

BoJack Horseman is a Netflix original series originally released in 2014. This show contains the voice talents of Will Arnett (BoJack Horseman), Aaron Paul (Todd Chavez), Alison Brie (Diane Nguyen), Amy Sedaris (Princess Carolyn), and Paul F. Tompkins (Mr. Peanutbutter), and many more. The show follows BoJack Horseman, a washed-up sitcom celebrity as he goes through everyday life. This show contains many comedic moments throughout thanks to the genius writing. However, the comedy is not why I am writing this piece.

 When I first started watching this show, as someone who didn’t see any of the trailers, I was expecting more or less a sort of Family Guy esc show that contained some funny jokes here and there with the animation serving as the means to do so.  Although in a way I was right, I couldn’t be more wrong. This show is much more than a comedy piece, it is a full out drama that deals with a variety of real and sometimes depressing topics in a civilized way. These range from the fleeting experience that is life, abuse, struggles with depression, dark pasts, and many more.

 When you first start the show, you can basically pick out what archetypes are taken by each character. You know what to expect to come out of these characters, and don’t think anything else of it. However, things slowly start to change as you make your way through the show. You slowly start to see into the past lives of these characters, how they met, and you see why they act the way they do. It gets to a point where when something bad happens to a character, you feel the impact, you feel those last shreds of hope they have slowly die as they become less like their former selves.

 The setting of Hollywood, is also what helps this show. It shows what this place does to the people that enter it as it slowly turns into more of a sign of grief than it does a sign of making it big. However, a show is only as good as its supporting characters, and this show has those to spare. Each one is, in my opinion, not wasted. Each are used to get a point across and are never there for just a quick laugh and bolt. You can remember every past supporting character due to their impact on the story and the events that happen to the characters.

 What I am trying to get across is that despite the shows appearance, the content is much more. The comedy is great, and the character building is even better. This show deserves every season it gets and should be watched if given the chance. BoJack Horseman, go watch it, you just might find something out of it.