#none of this makes any sense at all

[twig-tea]

The Jack and Joker ending ended up falling on the side of 'organized crime is for the good of community', which I could maybe see the argument for if it had been positioned in terms of a balancing force against state and police corruption, or even if they'd shown the Four Horsemen to be doing anything other than playing with people's lives, exploiting them, and cheerfully sending people to their deaths for their own amusement. I am flabbergasted.

[theguardianace]

hate it when that happens :( i hope you're alright, try taking some pain medicine and eating a snack maybe? i hope your mood gets better soon /gen

thank you anon /gen <3

i have a hard time with medicine, but i’m going to take a shower and stretch out quick. clean my room while i’m at it too. the rest of the physical stuff with go with time. i just suck at handling negative emotions so it tends to spill out that way. (also things hurt because i play a high intensity sport that’s back in swing and lift today absolutely killed. good mood had overshadowed it but now that that’s gone. it hurts)

and yeah. to protect mine and my friends privacy i won’t say anything about the situation here, but it’s really really sucky. it didn’t have to happen at all but someone i used to consider a friend made some really awful choices and is continuing to do so. i can’t do anything about it bc as far as anyone involved is aware i have absolutely no clue it happened. but. yeah. i don’t think i’ll ever understand why people choose to be so mean.

[purpleshadow-star]

It's kind of funny (heartbreaking) that there were multiple Ravens who wanted a number, to the point where some tried to manipulate Jean into helping them one way or another, but none of them would have been next in line. No matter what they did, there was always someone ahead of them on the list. Someone who wasn't even on the team. That someone wasn't Neil. Neil was a surprise to everyone, including Riko. That someone was Andrew.

Kevin might have had to beg Riko to go visit Andrew, and Riko might have laughed at Kevin and dismissed Andrew when Andrew turned him down, but make no mistake, if Andrew had accepted and had become a Raven, he would have taken that #4 spot within his first year.

If we're being real, Andrew had more of a chance at becoming part of the perfect Court than any of those Ravens ever had. Even Jean thinks of Andrew as one of them.

The other Ravens never stood a chance.

[letterful]

i know i'm not saying anything revolutionary here, but the american cult of individualism really is going to doom us all. in a very real - and very global - sense.

[calware]

programming comments headcanons

june: tries to leave helpful comments but most of them are like

// this sucks

// this sucks

// ugh

karkat: constantly forgets to write comments so when he goes back and can't remember what he was doing he writes new comments that are just keysmashing

sollux: at one point he had to force himself to start writing comments because he was convinced he doesn't need them and kept having to learn the hard way that, yes, he does need them

vriska: convinced herself she doesn't need them. will never learn

equius: man i don't know. there are way too many of these guys

roxy: all of her comments are completely incomprehensible to everyone except her

dirk: all of his comments are written in iambic pentameter. they are also completely incomprehensible

[tavina-writes]

I'm not exactly sure how I want to phrase this yet, but I think a lot of the utterly weird takes I see sometimes float by me on our cursed blue hellsite (esp when it comes to mdzscql fandom) is coming from a refusal to meet the genre where it's at.

Like, why are we trying to interrogate classism in MDZS society, MDZS is a romance, the societal worldbuilding is just enough to support some general big ideas and the provide context for the romance. We can't get ANY kind of read on general classim/sexism/anything else from. this source material. if you think you can get granular when your sample size of characters from various social and gender strata are so small and we don't know how the vast majority of people in here live you are making stuff up.

Like, meet the story where it's at: it's a romance novel.

[froggy-nebula]

honestly i just dont get why sometimes people get all weird about quadrants and insist they’re unhealthy always no matter what

like yeah im not stupid i know they CAN be fucked up and can be weird and toxic but so can any romance. human romance has been toxic and fucked up for me many times. tbh if we take a step back and just look at the basic ideas of all of them i don’t think any of those have to be evil and terrible necessarily

like oh no me and my boyfriend have a fun rivalry that we both like being in and both agreed to where we have fun competing with each other and talking shit and then make out! FUCK!!! that’s horrible i would NEVER want that! i would never be guilty of forcing my boyfriend to play tetris with me over and over and insulting him the entire time

oh no my boyfriend has anxiety and i calm him down! oh god we like cuddling and talking about feelings! we both agreed we like this relationship dynamic and feel fulfilled by it! AAA SCARY!!! GET SCARED!!!

oh no sometimes my boyfriends are both annoying and i voluntarily get between that and make people be less annoying! FUCK!!!!!!!! we are going to DIVORCE!!!

[robbyykeene]

Anyway I wish this show was actually bold enough to give Miguel an arc exploring his feelings of entitlement over the captaincy spot. Throughout the show Johnny has repeatedly told Miguel that Robby is a lost cause but hey, It’s okay because he has Miguel now. That Miguel’s his champion, his Number One Boy. So how could Miguel not feel at least somewhat entitled to the captain spot? How could he not feel insecure about his place in Johnny’s life with Robby not just back in the picture, but now literally taking the number one spot? When Johnny has repeatedly put into both kids heads that when it comes to his love and attention its one vs. the other, how could there be no lingering feelings of resentment and jealousy?

[odetojupiter]

this is a surprise to no one but i’m thinking of the twins again. cause i don’t know whether we’re told when tilda developed her drug addiction but considering her erratic behaviour surrounding the twins birth im assuming she was already using prior to the twins arrival. and if she was using before, during, and after giving birth, that introduces so many heartbreaking possibilities for the twins.

this one ran away from me (they say, as tho they don’t always)

i see people saying they just couldn’t take andrew or aaron seriously because they’re five foot even cause that’s a funny height apparently and i just think: did u know a long term impact of prenatal drug use is impaired growth? add that to potential malnutrition and yeah suddenly it’s not that funny anymore. besides andrew being short probably made him seem like an easy target to his abusers which is what made it necessary for him to learn to defend himself in the first place sooo

other impacts of prenatal drug use: altered brain development, cognitive and behavioural issues, damaged communication/language development, newborns can be born addicted and subsequently go through withdrawals (called neonatal abstinence syndrome, which has a long list of symptoms and can cause newborns to be hospitalised or worse). in any context, this is a horribly traumatic thing for a baby to go through but then consider this:

andrew’s brain is already struggling to develop properly thanks to his mother’s drug abuse. and then you add on frequent repetitive abuse including but not limited to several occurrences of child sa. already a 7 year old brain is not wired to be able to cope with that. tie that in with his significant abandonment issues stemming from first his mother and then every subsequent family he stays with giving him up. his own narrative tries so hard to doom him, and he responds to that the only way he can: through anger. violence. how else was he supposed to respond? yes this is more andrew defence bc it seems there’s been a sudden influx of andrew hate and it boils my piss

that brings me to a new point: andrew as a newborn. and his foster family does not want to give him the extra attention he needs as a baby born through prenatal drug use. so they give him up. again and again. so

but to talk about aaron for a sec - not only could he have been born addicted, but being breastfed by a drug user (it’s up in arms whether tilda would breast feed) also has its symptoms - can make the baby sick, can ruin its sleep, cause later behavioural issues and even transfer the drug to the baby. aaron, living with tilda, was also doomed to follow the narrative.

[epiphainie]

i can't with all these "the show is highlighting tommy's jealousy, they're planting seeds that it will cause problems" takes like bffr. he mentioned being envious over the 118's dynamic twice, sure, but in what world (literally how?) would that cause a relationship problem? do yall expect him to be in cahoots with gerrard behind their back and murder buck to take over his life or something?? like even with the hyperbole aside, i genuinely cannot see how they can turn this into relationship drama without going against everything they showed us with tommy so far

[miyagi-fang-dojo]

The biggest thing about S6B that doesn't make sense is Tory even being at the Sekai Taikai.

Like in S4 we get introduced to Tory's aunt who outright tells Tory she's basically just waiting for Tory's mom to die so she can take Tory's little brother and collect Tory's mom's life insurance.

And now this season Tory's mom dies and Tory just dips out the country for a big ass fucking karate tournament? And we haven't heard one word about Tory's little brother and where he's at while Tory's off in another country.

The only way that makes any kind of sense is that sometime between her mom dying and her leaving for the Sekai Taikai her aunt did in fact show up, took her little brother and all the life insurance money, then dipped leaving Tory all alone.

Because if she didn't do that, then that means Tory basically just abandoned her little brother all alone back in the Valley after their mother died. It means that she dipped off to another country for a karate tournament, leaving her little brother back home all alone to deal with his grief without her. It means she left instead of staying to protect her brother from their aunt who would take advantage of Tory not even being in the country, to swoop in, take Brandon and whatever life insurance money there is!

And this is completely out of character for Tory. She's been helping to take care of and raise her brother for years. And she was extremely protective of him during that conversation with her aunt! It just doesn't make sense for Tory to even go to the Sekai Taikai with her mom dying suddenly like that. Especially with them not telling us what happened to her brother or where he's at during all this!!!

[read-write-thrive]

there are all of 6 fics on ao3 that come up when you search the word “disabled” in the dead boy detectives fandom. I’m dealing with a fibromyalgia flare up rn so I’ve decided to come up with some (potential!) disability/condition/syndrome/etc. headcanons. enjoy!

(oh and just to note: I stayed away from conditions with obvious facial / appearance difference as no actors with facial / appearance difference were cast in the show and I was unsure if it would be appropriate. while I have experience with a lot of the following diagnoses, I do not claim to be an expert on any of them and do not intend for this to be used as a diagnostic tool. if you feel any of these are offensive/inappropriate, please message me and I’m happy to talk about it :) this is more just to encourage broader disability representation within the fandom!)

Edwin: autistic, PTSD (from hell), chronic pain/fibromyalgia (from his death/hell), minor visual impairment (not enough to need the hard-to-come-by testing needed for glasses when he was alive and so assumed the various limits/effects were normal. was told otherwise by Niko), would’ve had shingles if lived long enough

Charles: ADHD, PTSD (from his father/growing up in an abusive household), dyslexia, Reynaud’s syndrome (either already born with it or as a result of his death—both angsty), was in the beginning stages of an ED prior to his death, post-concussion syndrome, near-sightedness (never given glasses bc he wasn’t about to tell his dad the board looked a little blurry sometimes)

Crystal: cPTSD (reminder that neglect is also abuse :), bipolar 1, IBS, endometriosis

Niko: autism, depression, POTS, hEDS, anxiety, sprite-induced agoraphobia, epilepsy, lactose intolerance

Monty: Depersonalization-derealization disorder, selective amnesia (this is not the first times Esther has messed with his form/killed and revived him, but the experience is traumatic and so his brain decides not to remember it), recurrent arrhythmia, synesthesia

Jenny: OCD, BPD, ED recovered, Celiac’s disease, diabetes type 1, anemia

TCK: autism, NPD, lactose intolerance, colourblind

Esther: chronic pain (I’m choosing to believe that the cane isn’t just for show!!), NPD, endometriosis

Tragic Mick: cPTSD, depression, HoH, arthritis, diabetes

(The Night Nurse , the Dandelion Sprites, and various other characters felt either too supernatural and/or not developed enough to assign anything to lmao)

[jackattack20writes]

As much as I love the reading of Bleach’s ending as a tragedy, one thing’s always bugged me about it and it’s why Renji has a happy ending. Like out of the core cast (in my eyes this is Ichigo, Rukia, Orihime, Chad, Uryuu, Renji & maybe Byakuya, just cause they’re most consistently prominent in the arcs) he!s the only one that doesn’t have the easy argument that he’s settled or unhappy with the epilogue, like Ichigo & Rukia you can argue their with people that aren’t who they love, Uryuu is a doctor and alone while his friends celebrate, Chad is using his fists for profit, Orihime is still at the bakery and never got to live the dreams she had (also she was probably kicked out of home at post high school because her aunt housing her was dependant on her grades) and Byakuya is tied with Rukia being unhappy.

But Renji is seemingly the happiest he’s ever been, he’s married the woman he’s spent over 80 years crushing on and he has a kid with her. But then it hit me the other day that’s exactly why his ending is one of the worst out of the characters I’ve mentioned. When Renji actually gains some detail as a character we find out he has one major goal in life, surpass Byakuya and save Rukia from the Kuchiki’s (slight paraphrasing). But Renji never manages any of it. He fails to both save Rukia and defeat Byakuya in the Soul Society arc, firstly because he’s too scared to try to go against them and then because he’s too weak (both these goals are also largely dropped here and Renji just kind of floats along as one of Ichigo’s multiple rivals and has no more character growth or change) but Ichigo achieves both of these goals rather easily in comparison. Ichigo unlocks Bankai ridiculously faster than Renji does and then defeats Byakuya and saves Rukia.

Meaning there’s nothing left for Renji to do. Sure he could continue trying to conquer Byakuya, but he never seems to reach his level (especially going by the fact Renji’s still his vice captain in the epilogue.) Byakuya is still the star Renji can’t reach. Same with Rukia, sure he marries her but she’s still Rukia Kuchiki. Hell she’s even a captain now while Renji is still a vice captain, not only is Rukia still as far from him as she was in the soul society arc she’s even further away, he’s just the stray dog barking at the moon he called himself back in the soul society arc. But then just like his goals if you compare it to Ichigo, ichigo does it. Ichigo’s symbolism is the rain is dried by the white moon, the moon is reachable by Ichigo, we’re shown one of Byakuya’s central beliefs of who he is loyalty to Ichigo. But Renji is trapped on earth seperate, never truly reaching the star or the moon.

And with how we’re shown Renji thinks about himself he’d never let himself forget it. Every member of his immediate family other than his daughter is someone he’s separated himself from in his mind and since we never get shown anything to indicate that changes, Occam’s razor suggests it doesn’t. Somthat’s renji’s tragedy in the ending. His entire life is reminding him every goal he ever set he not only failed but someone else achieved. That’s the tragedy of Renji’s ending and really is the final nail in the coffin that no one is truly happy or anything past content in Bleach’s ending.

[extravagav]

AND WE JUST DONT TALK ABOUT THIS?!?!?!!????

[toosaltyforacookie]

He knows exactly what this looks like to anyone outside of his brain. Hell, he knows what it looks like because he learned it from watching Bobby and Athena keep each other stable in the worst of situations. You couldn't find better teachers to observe and absorb without having to pry into their personal lives. So screw him for taking notes on each lesson offered to him with glitter pens and silly stickers that represent each important person in his life.

But fuck does loving someone hurt.

If he has to stand around and listen to one more conversation about Eddie leaving for El Paso Buck swears to anything willing to listen that he's going to tear out his hair one follicle at a time. His brain hasn't stopped replaying the meeting with the realtor, or the small smile on Eddie's face as they both jokingly argued over the benefits of an above or below ground pool. Buck really wishes he hadn't flipped that tablet over to try and find out what stupid things his best friend was watching. Or bet yet, he should've just gone to pick up the ingredients he used up at his place to avoid the interaction as a whole and live with his head buried in the sand for just a little bit longer.

Buck wishes he didn't have to love his best friend so much that he'd support him in finding his joy if it meant leaving him behind. But Bobby and Athena had taught him too well that true love meant making sacrifices for each other. And if he was the one making those sacrifices every time? He'd do it over and over again without changing a thing just to see Eddie feel true joy.

A rhythmic buzzing pulls Buck from his thoughts and he lifts his phone to his ear without thinking.

"Go for Buckley!"

"Hey Buck." The sound of Eddie's voice instantly lifts his spirits from their pit of boredom induced spiraling.

"What's up Eds? Do you already miss me?" He can make jokes, that's a normal thing they do. Everything is so normal right now so that has to be the perfect response.

A hearty chuckle is the only response for a few moments before Eddie clears his throat. "Our shift ended 10 hours ago, I'm not that desperate. I was uh, actually calling to ask a favor."

"Anything! I'm your go to guy!"

"Would you mind driving me to the airport next weekend?"

Buck is now absolutely certain that there are sacrifices he's going to regret with every fiber of his being. Giving too much of yourself in offerings is actually a bad thing and he really should stop now before it becomes an addiction. He needs to say no in a way that doesn't fill Eddie in on all the racing thoughts running through his head right now. His best friend will understand if he says no, Uber exists and they've both used it almost hundreds of times now.

"Yeah of course, you know I'd always help you out!" Buck's voice stumbles on the first bit before smoothing out to sound nonchalant.

Holy fuck someone kill him now to stop his mouth from running him off a cliff face first. Buck really needs to stop watching others around him showing love to their partners, his notes were now becoming a jumbled mess laughing in his face while he tries and fails to keep himself together.

"You're the best Buck, really. I appreciate everything you've done to help me during this move. I honestly don't know what I would've done without." Eddie lets out a deep breath and Buck can easily imagine the smile of relief he has on.

"I know without you I'm going to fall apart, and it hurts me to the core that I'll ever have to know the answer to that question." Buck's heart screams at him to speak those words through the static between them but he'll never reveal his magician's secrets now that he's in too deep.

"I won't let you know." He answers instead.

And that's the truth. Eddie might be leaving him but he'll never stop loving his best friend to let him know what it feels like to do anything alone ever again.

Maybe he shouldn't have fallen in love in the first place.

[willow-p012]

"Kotoko looks so angry in this scene" yeah old news LOOK AT HOW HER EYES LIGHT UP AT KEIKO/LUCKY!?!?? ARE WE IGNORING THAT???? IT JUST. LIKE. SHE'S FOCUSED, MAYBE SHE'S ANGRY, BUT KEIKO IS STILL SO IMPORTANT TO HER THAT SHE CAN'T HELP BUT LIGHT UP WHEN SHE SEES HER EVEN IF IT'S ONLY FOR A MOMENT.