#nobody asked for my thoughts but here they are anyway

[science-hoes]

Kaleidoscope

Dr. Jack Abbot x Reader

Warnings: suicidal ideation

A/N: Welcome to my first Jack Abbot fic! It’s not super long, but boy he is a cutie. I can’t wait to write some more for him 🥺

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Dr. Jack Abbot gave Michaelangelo’s sculptures a run for their money when it came to stone cold emotions. He never smiled, never laughed. No reason to, in his opinion. Perlah claimed to have seen him crack a smirk one time when a med student spilled their energy smoothie in Dr. Robby’s lap. But nobody believed her.

When he was younger, before his deployment tours, he laughed all the time. He was a class clown, according to all of his elementary and high school teachers. But the light in Jack Abbot died with every gunshot wound, every amputated limb, every final breath. And it didn’t improve when he came to the States.

He flirted with the roof of the hospital quite often. Never planning to jump, but also never certain that he wanted to go back down the safe way either. He knew many of his former troop mates chose to follow through with it, but he couldn’t bring himself to do it. Maybe because he knew the pain it would cause, and that seemed like it would be an inconvenience to everyone around him.

One day after a grueling night shift filled with death and pain, he stood at the ledge of the hospital’s roof again. His toes hung over the concrete. Just enough thrill to numb the existential dead. And he heard the door to the roof open.

Michael fucking Robinavitch. He thought to himself.

His friend and colleague always managed to find him during times like these, always talking him back to the safe side of the guard rail. But he didn’t hear any lecture coming from behind him. No sarcastic jokes. Instead, he heard crying.

Jack turned around and saw you on your knees, hands in your lap, and hunched over sobbing. The soldier in him took over, and he hopped over the guard rail to run to your side in concern that you might have been attacked or injured.

When you heard his footsteps, you froze in panic. You didn’t see him when you came outside.

“Are you okay? Are you hurt?” Jack asked, kneeling down to your level.

You stared at your senior attending with red, puffy eyes. The sniffling continued, but your embarrassment managed to curb your tears. “No, sir. I’m okay.” You said, wiping away any watery evidence from your cheeks.

Jack stared at you, like he couldn’t figure out any other reason why you would cry if you were physically okay. “Then why are you up here?” The slight annoyance in his voice signaled that maybe you had interrupted his own privacy on the roof.

You shrugged, shaking your head as the tears welled up again. “I just don’t know how to do it.” You whispered. “How can I go home and sleep when I just watched three people die? I watched a toddler die because she snuck into the neighbor’s pool.” And the sobs came back like a tidal wave.

Jack sighed heavily, looking around as if there might be someone else to handle your breakdown instead of him. He pulled his lips in a tight line, coming to terms that you were his problem. “Listen, kid. You’ve gotta bag up the feelings and shove ‘em in the closet. That’s the only way to be a doctor.” He lectured like he had given the speech to every single intern who walked through the doors of the Pitt. Which he had. “The more you do that, the more you’ll be able to dissociate.”

You looked up to him, vision blurred from the tears, disgusted. “What? Just so I can end up like a heartless prick like you?” You hissed, not caring if he had been your boss for the last 12 hours. Your shift was technically over anyway.

And that’s when it happened. Jack Abbot smiled. He grinned, showing off the picture-perfect smile that nobody downstairs had ever seen. Not even old timers like Robby or Dana. And then he laughed. If the circumstances hadn’t been different, it would have been a laugh that you daydreamed of hearing again. But he was laughing in your face as you cried about the loss of several patients that night.

“Are you fucking laughing at me?” You asked, wanting to slap that charming smile off his face.

Jack’s shoulders shook with more laughter at your words, and he hunched over from the contractions in his diaphragm. You were ready to stand up and leave him on the roof alone, keeled over like a hyena. But when he looked up again, his eyes matched yours with sorrow and tears. Despite his laughter, he was breaking.

Your brows furrowed at the confusing sight in front of you, but the empathy in your heart ordered your hands to grab his, holding them tightly. Whether it was for your sake or his, you didn’t know.

Jack pulled your hands close to his chest, and his laughs turned to gasps for air. His face scrunched as he tried to fight back whatever dam was crumbling inside of him. Within 30 seconds, you had seen more emotion than anyone in the Pitt had ever seen during his career there. You reached a hand to caress his jaw and tilt his head up to look at you.

When he opened his eyes, you were met with a kaleidoscope of colors. The rising sun refracted brown, blue, and green from his hazel eyes, and you knew in that moment that no artist could ever replicate the beauty staring straight back at you. Despite the reddening in his sclera that matched yours, you were awestruck.

Jack raised a calloused hand to grasp the forearm that supported his head, and he leaned into your hold. You both stayed that way for a long time, with you gently stroking a thumb on his cheek and him holding onto you like it was his only tether to reality. The labored breaths eventually returned to normal rhythm. The tears stopped flowing.

After what felt like hours, he finally spoke. “You’re a good doctor.”

You tilted your head at the unexpected praise. “What do-“

“I’ve watched you the last few days. You have a personal touch that most ER docs don’t have. It’s different.” He mused.

Jack Abbot didn’t just toss around compliments. Hell, he never said anything nice. Not even to his pediatric patients. You traced your fingers from his stubbled jaw to the silver laced curls of his scalp, running through them gently. He nearly fell forward into your arms at the contact, but he only let his head tilt down.

“I guess you aren’t really a prick.” You said.

Jack smiled again and chuckled. You wanted to hold onto that image forever. “No, I am a prick.” He countered.

You giggled at his confession. Without much thought, you wrapped your arms around his chest and rested your head on his shoulder. Jack froze, his brain unable to process the embrace. But eventually, one hand came to rest on the small of your back and the other to the back of your head, fingers weaving through your hair. He breathed in your scent of vanilla and sweat from the shift, feeling intoxicated.

When you eventually pulled away to look at him again, Jack finally admired your beauty for the first time in person. The way the sunrise glittered off your eyes, the orange flow giving life to your sleepy features. He curled the hand that cradled your head around to your cheek, and his rough thumb brushed over your lips.

“Are you tired?” He asked quietly, almost a whisper.

Your lips instinctively followed his thumb as it traced your skin. “Yes.”

A moment of silence. “Do you want to sleep with me?”

You could see in his gorgeous, weary eyes that there was no sexual implication. For now, anyway. Only the opening of his soul, pining for a peaceful rest. You finally pressed the tiniest kiss on his thumb. “Yes.” You breathed.

And Jack smiled again.

[alex-andrya]

lol more like how did it happen I’m so curious on how it goes from a fantasy to reality

okay...so...

this is going to be huge

i started going to the school gym over summer break and that's when i really developed a yearning for him. i mean i always thought he was handsome, sexy, manly, whatever. But i wasn't like obsessing over him until this started. I wasn't flicking the bean, polishing the pearl, tossing my own salad, etc. Some days we had small groups, some days there were big groups, but most days I'd catch him looking at me for obvious reasons (have you seen me???) and i'd give him a lil smile or like pop my hip for him or somethign like that. Anything to let him know i knew he was looking and didn't mind. The first couple times he got super flustered and like wouldn't even say bye to me after training. Right before school started we had a morning where nobody showed up (the football team was doing their own thing) except me and him (a copule more showed up later) and i asked him to train me. It was really cool because he went into like coach mode (also really fucking hot) and even touched me a few times to make sure i was moving the right way.

Well I told him afterward (after the late people left) that i really appreciated his advice and asked if he could like help me work out some stiffness and he was like obviously hesitant and i said "relax, it's not like i'm asking you for a massage," and he was like okay. It was mostly in my neck region (i'm a cocksucker so it comes with the territory) and his hands felt SO fucking good. They were warm and soft but hard and strong at the same time. I didn't even mean to like moan but it felt so good and at one point i think i was like sounding sexual and he paused and I was like "sorry."

he said he was worried about someone hearing and getting the wrong idea, and i was like "don't worry I'll never tell on you." and then giggled a little.

He stopped rubbing my neck and said some shit about how we needed to maybe talk about boundaries because even though he thought I was really cool and funny and smart, he didn't want anybody to get the wrong idea about us, or me to get the wrong idea about him.

I kinda stepped away and just smiled and shrugged and said "if you want to set boundaries, it's okay. I'm not like thinking you're trying to groom me or anything. But if you do have a crush on me you should just tell me and get it out of your system." I was like super flirty about it and started walking away because it was like time to go home anyway.

The next day there were a lot of people and he barely looked at me. But at the end of the day he was like offering extra conditioning for anybody that wanted to stay and i was like okay this is my chance because nobody wants to do extra conditioning

EXCEPT THIS ONE BITCH WHO OBVIOUSLY WANTED HIM so we both stayed after to do sprints with him, like actually with him, beside him and if it wasnt' for her i probably would have passed out from being so nervous and excited and anxious and shit from the day before.

we were all three dripping with sweat bc late summer and i asked her (she's actually super nice and we are kinda friends) if she wanted to get together for dinner that night and she was like sure she just had to go home and shower and change and i'm like okay fuck yeah i'm going to shower HERE because he was already in the shower and i knew we'd be the only two here so when I got out of the shower and dried off and put on something clean I was like listening for him and when i heard him close the office door I started going out to the parking lot and we ran into each other like PHYSICALLY outside of the gym.

he told me i was really fast and put in a lot of good work and i just kind of joked and said "yeah well unfortunately my neck is SO sore now if only i had someone to rub it for me!"

He laughed, like out loud, and it was the sweetest sound, and i told him that he had a beautiful laugh and he kinda froze as he was locking the gym doors and i remember looking up at him with the sun behind his head and feeling like i could see him thinking hard about what he was gonna say next and i just said "sorry, i forgot...boundaries and shit, right?"

he smiled at me and it was like a sad smile. he said that i was a great girl and he was glad we had a good relationship, but that it was inappropriate for me to flirt with him and i was fucking heartbroken.

fast forward two weeks and i'm in his class and we are sharing looks and he gives me this smile that i'd never seen him give before and it sent a rush through me so strong that i thought i was going to cum then and there. It was such a hot and enchanting look. And I felt like it meant something...

So after school, he managed the gym for like sports teams that worked out, but most of the teams went straight into practice and by 4, nobody was in the gym.

Except me. And him.

We were working out apart. I remember it so clear, I was doing squats and I could see him looking at me in the mirror and i racked the bar and i turned around and walked up to him and said "are you checking my form or my ass?"

Now normally something like this would have sent him for a loop. he would have looked away and blushed and stuttered and shit because obv i'm his student and he's a teacher. But he just stood there liek a fucking mountain and didn't say anything. his eyes kept looking at mine, my left one and my right one, back and forth, and my mouth went fucking dry because i felt like we were about to do something insane.

Then he turned around, but instead of being upset i got pissed off and just fucking snapped "I know you want me, and i want you, and I'd never fucking tell anybody and I'd give up everything to be your girl even if it was just for a day."

Idk what made me say it i was just so pissed that he wouldn't acknowledge me as a woman he just kept seeing me as this fucking kid in his class that liked to joke around.

Then he snapped at me. "Don't fucking say shit like that, Alex." He had his finger in my face and everything. I thought I was going to cry. now I look back on that and my imagination runs wild but in the moment i was so scared that i fucked everything up.

Then he told me that he likes to go for evening walks. By himself. He told me where he did it and I knew exactly where. He told me what time. So I went there, five minutes early, sober as a fucking nun wearing a denim skirt and a tank top because it was hot, but i definitely didn't wear anything underneath.

I sat by the water and told myself that he wasn't going to come, this was a waste of time, and when the time he said came i got up to leave because i was so scared that he wasn't going to show up but when i turned around, he was just standing there staring at me like he didn't know who i was or what to do.

So I walked up to him and took his hand. He didn't pull away. I touched his face (he's a foot taller than me), and he didn't pull away. I smiled at him, and idk what my lips looked like but he couldn't look away from them.

Then he kissed me. And I kissed him back. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he crushed me with his arms. We kissed softly for a bit, like we weren't sure if this was real or stupid or what. I pushed my tongue into his mouth and he let me rub his tongue with mine. I ran my fingers through his hair. Idk how long we kissed like that for but when we were done i felt like i couldn't breathe.

We spent the rest of the night talking about our feelings. Connecting intellectually and spiritually. Talked about nature, about beauty, about what we loved about the water, the sky, the moon, etc. I told him finally that I wanted to be with him for a long time and that i knew how risky it was to do what we just did, but that i'd never betray him or give him up and no matter what happened I'd do anything he needed me to do to make sure this stayed safe, that he stayed safe. I told him that i never wanted to be one of those girls that was seen as a victim. I told him a lot of the stuff i share here about how i don't want to be treated any certain way because of my age, that i feel like i'm way more mature anyway. I told him that i felt like we connected on a much deeper level and he agreed. He was surprised by how he felt for me because he didn't expect to find such a strong match in someone...like me. I was a little sad at how he said that but then he was like "I don't see you as a student, as anything but a young woman with a strong heart and a sharp mind. I know women twice your age that are half the woman you are." So naturally i asked if they were hot and he said "not like you are." I bit my lip and crawled onto his lap and straddled him and held his face and started kissing him. I put his hands on my butt and he froze. Then he started squeezing my butt and i felt his fingertips go under my skirt and my skin was on fire under his touch. I told him i wanted him and he kissed me harder. I told him i needed him and he pulled away because I was obviously trying to fuck him then and there. He said we should wait, that this is very new and we shouldn't move too fast.

"Besides, i don't want to hurt you."

I rolled my eyes at him and said "okay mister big dick i'm not exactly a virgin you know i can handle whatever you've got."

He laughed and said "I'm sure you can." He checked the time and said he had to go back before it got suspicious and that's hwen I remembered he was married. I didn't even think twice about it. I didn't give a fuck. I just wanted to know when we could meet up again.

He went for an evening walk every night that week, and by the end of the week, he was out of reasons for us not to do anything beyond kissing. I remember it was friday night. his wife was out with her friends. He was fishing when I got there, and I was wearing the same outfit from the first night except i had my hair braided by a friend who only knew i had a hot date lmao. I also wore a necklace my mom got me. It was gold with a cross on it. I kinda had a feeling he would give in that night, but i tried to go in with no expectations. We snuggled up on a log by the water. He was wearing short gym shorts that were like midthigh lenght and a tshirt. he smelled clean and his beard oil was like foresty or something ikd. I had my head on his shoulder and we weren't talking while he was reeling in without a fish for like the 30th time that night. I asked him if i could try and he said sure if i knew how to cast and like i'm an indiana girl so obviously i know how to cast a fishing rod, so i did it and reeled it in really fast because i only cared about getting the rod out of his hands and getting his ROD into MY HANDS. He was trying to get me to slow down while i was reeling and saying shit i'll never catch anything like that and when i had it in i said "Good then i won't have fish piss on my hands when I jerk you off."

He froze and i jumped on his lap and started kissing him and almost knocked him off the log lmao. now up to this point we had kissed a lot and were kind of handsy but he never felt more than my butt, and he hadn't seen me naked or anthing, and i'd only ever seen him shirtless. That was all about to change. While we were kissing I felt his hands going up and down my back and then he went under my shirt, for the first time, to feel my back and that's when i rippe dmy tank off and showed him my tits. He couldn't stop looking at them and was like instantly sucking on my tits and rubbing them on his face before he had them in his hands and kissing me. I reached down and into his shorts to feel how hard his dick was. Like i'd seen his bulge before and had even felt it when we would make out so i knew he was packing but having my hand around it was fucking world changing. he is HUGE. and i was like "Holy fuck your dick is huge," and he said "you sure you can handle it still?"

To that i just got off his lap and pulled off his shirt and started kissing down to his dick and pulled his shorts off so he was bare ass on the log while I knelt between his legs staring at his dick. I started stroking it and then put my mouth on the head and i stg i never opened my mouth so wide in my life. It felt amazing in my mouth and my pussy was throbbing at the thought of him inside of me. I had to use both hands to stroke him and suck him because i couldn't get enough of him in my mouth and he held my head in his hands while i sucked him and his dick tasted so clean and warm and slightly salty beacuse we were both kinda dewy from the hot night. Once he was hard I went to get back on his lap and ride him but he stopped me and walked, butt naked, dick bouncing, to his truck to get a blanket that he had packed and laid it out for me. he laid me down on it and pulled my skirt off and gave me the most mindblowing head i've ever had liek i came so hard and so much that his beard was sparkling with my wetness and then he was on top of me, his dick hovering over my pussy and just for a second i was like holy fuck this is real this is real this is real

AND THEN HE WAS PUSHING IT IN ME MY TEACHER OVER TWICE MY AGE WAS PUTTING HIS GIANT DICK IN MY PUSSY and i bit his shoulder so hard so i wouldn't scream that he was like grunting but i thought he just felt so good in me i had no idea he was hurting (or that he liked it!!!) so i just kept digging my teeth in while his dick stretche dme and yeah it HURT but in the BESt fucking way.

Idk how long we fucked for he was slow and as deep as i could let him and he was like "i don't have a condom" and i just said "i don't give a fuck just fucking fuck me..." and he completely let go and plowed me and i was so close to cumming again when he pulled out and came on my stomach and titties and i was like sobbing because i almost came again so i just started rubbing my clit while he hovered over me and came while he just watched me.

anyway that was the first time

[lupe-jess]

well. that was definitely an episode..

my thoughts on the episode/show overall for now:

hong jo and shin yu were so fucking cute this episode it almost killed me

i'm glad they're not having a baby yet but shin yu's parents having a baby instead.. why the fuck. she was gonna divorce that asshole 😭😭 one drunk sorry does not make up for years of (verbal) abuse

also also shin yu why the fuck would u tell your parents about the 'baby' without telling hong jo first??? that was not cute at all

i did not understand ms ma like she was dead set against marriage and the next scene they're getting married.. do the women in this show not get a say in anything or.. hello writers???

i'm glad hong jo and shin yu got their happy ending but sad we barely got any answers

anyway the show overall: solid idea but the execution needs some work lmao i loved the romcom stuff and all the silliness. the curse/red hand was well done and i loved that it turned out to be hong jo's hand (kudo's to everyone who figured that out only a few episodes in)

i loved how hong jo stood her ground, against that creep and na yeon. i'm so proud of her and she really has grown stronger since the start of the show. hong jo ily forever <3

speaking of that creep: i hate to say it but he was a great villian he really creeped me out

overall a fun show to watch, i'm gonna do a rewatch soon (soon = probably tomorrow lmao i already miss them)

this was the first time i've seen jo bo ah and rowoon in anything and they were both amazing, their chemistry 🔥🔥🔥🔥 sometimes i'd almost forget they were acting. i'm definitely gonna check out more of their stuff (please send me recommendations)

[starrstruckcanuck]

Been thinking of making a tierlist of my thoughts on all the teams for a while so here it is!! As you can see, I am indifferent to or hate most of the league... 😶‍🌫️🫣 which is why I generally say I'm more of a Canucks fan than a hockey fan lol

[tzufcallsmeshomps]

Why did it take my landlords' young kid pulling a prank on me to realize I do in fact have unprocessed ptsd

[yjwhatif]

Okay, my imagination has officially run away with me… so, after this post, I really had the urge to watch Hercules and now I actually have that Ed/Bart Hercules AU (that nobody asked for) forming in my head…

One where Bart is Hercules with super speed and Ed is Meg - already jaded by life and under the control of Lex as hades - who owns his soul and his powers. the league are the gods of Olympus and the Light fills the ranks of the underworld, Jay and Joan are the couple who raise Bart, the muses are made up of the OG team girlies - M’gann, Zatanna, Raquel and Artemis but Cassie is also one as well… then I think Wally is Phil… and Jaime would fit into the Pegasus role… and that’s all I got as of yet for the roles…

With whatever deal Ed originally makes to Lex - I haven’t figured out if it’s a similar saving a past love situation, like Meg, or maybe something involving his dad or even just trying to help a stranger who he thought was in need - he loses his powers and must do Luthor's bidding, which is what gets him stuck in the bind with whoever he’s meeting for the businessman, that Bart determines as an ‘I need to save this person’ situation. Lex then gives him the power back so Ed can get close to Bart and figure out his weakness. The power is then stripped away from Ed in front of Bart in order to convince him to sign away his own powers - which he does. Then, now being free, they’re finally fully back for the big Meg saves Hercules moment… this version would consist of Bart, having signed away his speed, not being fast enough to notice the big heavy object that’s about to squash him, and Ed, with his powers back, teleporting in to push Bart out of the way and ultimately taking the fatal hit which then breaks lex’s deal and gives Bart his powers back. Bart saves the league but isn’t fast enough to get back to Ed before he succumbs to his injuries… leading into the finale that I haven’t figured out yet…

and that’s all I got.

LB :)

[cinnamonanddean]

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[radgeorgie]

I hatey life i aute my life i aye my life!!!!! what's the point of staying alive if the only person who wants you to is dead!!!!!! pect behind a widow and son!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so fucking stupid

[riddlerosehearts]

figured out how to edit the game files and combine some mods so i could try out different things with gale's earring because i have a lot of thoughts... also gale's earring should really be positioned lower but i'm having an issue with one of the mods, oh well

[ioannemos]

yay what are your favourite lyrics from your #1 most played song? and numbers 8, 16, 82 and 100?

1: blood in the cut, k.flay

guess i'm contagious, it'd be safest if you ran

fk, that's what they all just end up doing in the end

take my car and paint it black

take my arm, break it in half

say something, do it soon

it's too quiet in this room

8: love is beginning, imaginary future

oh, look how colors are changing

new stars appear in the night sky

this heart is starting to come to life

16: nobody else will be there, the national

hey baby, where were you back then

when i needed your help

i thought that if i stuck my neck out

i'd get you out of your shell

my faith is sick and my skin is thin as ever

i need you alone

goodbyes always take us half an hour

can't we just go home

82: send me on my way, guy meets girl

i would like to reach out my hand

i may see you

i may tell you to run

know what they say about the young

100: broken, jonah kagen

i'm begging you to come and pull me out the fire

come and save me like you did when we were young

oh please, come bring me up from my lowest, take me higher

can you see me through the ashes and the smoke

[kavehayati]

I cannot fathom the level of self importance some people must have to behave this way

[lazarus-harp]

HI!! HELLO!! SORRY IF THIS IS SUDDEN. HOWEVER. THOUGHTS AND/OR THEORIES ON THE NEW ETN CONTENT? WHAT DO YOU THINK WE'LL GET IN A WEEK?

hello!!! and don't worry it's not sudden, my inbox is free for any questions or thoughts or what have you haha. as for any theories ...

for starters, i think it's pretty clear we're getting season five rather than a spin-off or what have you. at first i wasn't too sure, but once the artifact was revealed as pandora's box? yeah, this is s5. this was the cliffhanger we were left on four years ago and i think it was very purposeful of the team to include that as our first teaser. there's still a tiny chance that instead of a season, we'll get a book, given the use of 'chapter' and the fact joey's an author irl but i doubt this? joey was pretty upfront about the season one board game awhile back after some basic teasing, probably because he knew fans would be disappointed if he led them to believe it was a new season for too long, so i can't see him pulling these cryptic stunts unless it was for a real season. he's been steadily and quietly building intense anticipation for this, which is similar to his announcements of other seasons in the past. maybe this is something everyone knows but i just wanted to clarify! since i've seen some people ( rightfully! ) still being on the fence about it as to not get their hopes up. i can also say my theory for the era will be 1950s themed, since mr. graceffa has a penchant for the 1900s ( 3/4 of his seasons are set in this era ) and he's expressed interest in it before ; most notably with a diner setting of sorts. personally, i'd want an era that's further back like s2, but maybe he'll surprise me!

honestly, i don't have many theories for etn s5 in general. i was of the firm belief it wasn't happening, so i haven't spared it much thought besides what everyone else expected it to be. people are probably going to enter pandora's box to save joey, or for another unrelated reason, or maybe they've been trapped there, but it'll likely still revolve around getting the savant out of the box. the only two things i'm forming tentative theories about, in an overall fashion, is that we might return to the s1 estate? the house emoji reminded me of it, considering the estate was called 'the house built without hands', and the decrepit look of the house was too interesting to be anything but intentional. something that's been abandoned and has rotted because of it. after such a long hiatus and how long etn has been running for, it would feel fitting to make a return to where the tragedy started ... so i could see this in the cards for s5. the other thing is that, due to the social media cleanse etn's pages took, i do think something will be different about the usual formula as well. i heard they were following amazon tv and netflix right before going dark, so it might also move platforms, which. yeah. obviously! the entire point as to why it got stalled to begin with was due to youtube red no longer supporting it. but i'm trying to cover all my bases here, since you asked and i like being thorough! my point being that when another production company gets involved, there should be an expectation of little or major changes coming with it. so i like keeping that in mind, just in case. i also semi hope joey learned his lesson after fans' disappointment ( unjustified or not ) with s4 keeping the same formula despite being a 'special' season.

the accounts also posted something about halloween weekend, which if this is a season, i'm guessing we might get a trailer or another teaser in video form ( but longer ). 11/2 seems to be the most important date overall, because that's probably when they'll start releasing it? or maybe, like before, halloween will be promotional images of the cast that'll get revealed on november second, with a trailer to boot. who knows! those are just my guesses as for what i think i'll see in the following days.

now! with my weak attempts of theory crafting out of the way, i'll share my thoughts!

as mentioned in a previous post, and as all my friends know from countless dms, i'm actually more nervous than excited for s5! it's been four years and as a die hard fan who's poured a lot of time, effort, and care into the individual characters and storyline i'm naturally weary of this being a 'bad' season. my main concern is that'll feel like just any other season of escape the night rather than something important ; because this is our fifth go at this and we haven't advanced much in the plot, or dedicated much time into the savant's progression and downfall. in my head, i've always viewed s5 as the finale so to speak. an end to etn. i guess it's because i don't know where else we'll go after joey is, inevitably, freed from pandora's box. we can't keep up the same rhythm of : joey gets trapped/hurt/needs help, so he invites his friends willingly or unwillingly over to an era out of time, they come and then die, and boom here's our two survivors as this shit starts again. s4 changed this slightly, which i give it some credit for, but at the end of the day it was still the same thing. etn isn't only a reality show competition and a fun death game, it's always been given this overarching plot that we're supposed to care about and believe in. but uh! we haven't gone anywhere with that. there's been no real sign of this cursed god and we've hardly explored the society against evil and we still know nothing about why the collector even did what she did. these blanks are ones i've happily filled and played with over the years, but people want answers! and the show really has to stop dancing around actual, meaningful plot for the sake of doing this for as long as possible. shows who have ten or so seasons are never good and they quickly lose any semblance of interesting plots, well done characters, and general creativity by season six and onward. it's happened to countless shows! including cartoon products who don't have the same amount of serious stakes or plot. it's just a risky move, so we need to start delving into this shit now rather than later, that is if etn wants to go that route.

in my opinion, the cursed god vs sae battle is one that isn't joey's ( or any of the other characters' ) concern. it never has been. the carnival master wasn't lying when he said the sae caught joey into a war that isn't his, and frankly i'm very vocal about my distaste towards the so called good guys of the story. they've used joey just as much as the other side at this point. people love forgetting this but the only reason joey actually lured the s3 gang into danger and let them die was because jael and ryu gave him the choice to begin with. had they not bothered him, he would've stayed dead and not hurt anyone anymore ... would've been allowed to rest! during the scene, they also use very purposeful and pointed wording to scare him into agreeing. if people told me i'd be 'lost among the dead forever' if i refused to potentially sacrifice my friends? i'd be tempted to make that deal too. at the end of the day, these people are bad for the savant. they need to get out of his life pronto and they need to stop using his friends as body shields for a war nobody's agreed to. the only reason mat and nikita even joined them was because they were under the illusion they could save the everlockers! like, i do not fuck with the sae. and if i could wishfully conjure up a plotline in s5, it'd be joey realizing that they're bad news and that they've played a heavy hand in how traumatized, apathetic, and hated he's become. to me the perfect s5 ending would be joey stepping back, letting this centuries old war continue without him, and then just going somewhere. disappears all quiet. now i know that's unlikely lol. yet i do want it to be clear that if joey dies and stays dead, i'll likely come out of the new season disliking it. i've never been a fan of people wanting some perfect happy ending, where joey dies and then everyone else is revived. it'd make the emotions i've felt over this show and these avoidable deaths meaningless! and besides, i think joey should actually be forced to live with his actions after everything's said and done, rather than getting a quick out.

ahem! i also hope the box has warped joey in some way, like it did with that sae agent. let him have non-human features! let him be a villain! as lovingly as possible, joey needs to hit rock bottom before we can see any real redemption from him. his character development has always been negative, a downwards spiral, so i hope this sticks in s5. let him get worse before he gets better! its simply more fun than way, and irl joey deserves to play a bad guy and have total fun with it tbh.

oh, and i don't want this to be an all winners season. i actually don't ever want an all winners season <3 mainly because if i have to watch any of the survivor pairs be forced into killing each other i'll never recover. and i'm just not interested in having to listen to people claim mat and eva would be the survivers because they're just 'so smart' ... if i have to re-do arguments of why having a big brain isn't enough to save you in etn, and that these death games are in fact not fair, it'll be a bad day for everyone. some things are better left in the past! on this note, despite my selfish want for them to return, i don't know if i actually want mat and nikita back, like narratively? while they care for joey and want answers, they failed the one thing they wanted to do. and now they actually have to begin the grieving process for everyone they desperately hoped to get back. just feels like seeing them in s5 all smiles and behaving nonchalantly would feel off, you know? although that's probably a minor, insignificant concern compared to the rest of these things. ahhh what else ...

i can't really think of anything more! i'm sure something will hit me later, yet that's it for now i guess! sorry for how absolutely incoherent this all is ; it's three am and i'm not good at airing so many things out at once, no matter how many times i've thought about it. however, thank you for the question!!! it was very fun to answer, if not a little nerve wrecking since i know some of these are. unpopular opinions. but i just wanted to be brutally honest!

[mycological-mariner]

Hi! may i have 13, 16 and 20 >:) for the history ask?

Yes you may!

13 - Something random about some random historical person in a random era

William Gregor, a Cornish mineralologist and the guy who discovered titanium, had a ballistic approach to punctuation, with ‘—‘ for commas, periods, semicolons and so on. He also never kept any of the letters he was sent so while reading his correspondence you really just go “What the fuck are you referring to - Gregor —“

16 - Do you own some historical item? If yes, which one is your favourite?

I do! I have a bunch of Roman coins (and just a sizeable historical coin collection), a sailmaker’s palm from the early to mid-1800s, a bosun’s pipe (unsure of the date but I assume late 1800s-early 1900s), a key to a sea chest because I couldn’t afford the chest but did have £8 on me (so if you have an old sea chest missing a key, sorry), a couple of old pocket watches I’ve fixed up over the years - one with the receipt of repair still pasted to the inside of the back and dates to 1924 - an old botany textbook and a spyglass.

I gotta say that the spyglass is my favourite (I had to sell an officer’s sword otherwise easily the sword). I can’t pin any date to it. But I used to love sitting down at the wharf and trying to see the village opposite. I enjoy maritime history a great deal! Here’s a picture of the engraving on it! I’ve not been able to find anything out from it, though. If it’s a cheap replica, I don’t want to know.

20 - History crush

Feel free to judge me for any of these

Harry Allen, Dr James Barry, Thomas Cochrane (it’s the redheads, man), Nikola Tesla and Pamela Colman Smith

[tartt9]

me deep into google to find out semi accurate stats for jamie it's more likely than you think

[gojoest]

had beef with one of my coworkers today 😍

[girlivealwaysbean]

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