#no. actually he had Clay's whole life lmao

[claymton]

I've read some of your posts (I love your art by the way) and as a Clay simp I have to say I HATE ARTHUR PUPPINGTON MY GOD, AS MUCH AS CLAY HAD BEEN A SPOILED BRAT YOU CAN'T JUST IGNORE A FCKING CHILD AAAAAcbsknx The old man needed to mature instead of seeing a 12-year-old as competition

I get Arthur puppington but this old man should be upset at his wife not at the 12 year old who's been sheltered, spoiled and tricked into believing everyone should kneel down for him his whole life, that kid literally does not know any better

[bambi-kinos]

Would you like to answer a few questions about you opinions about Paul. Peoples read him very different and of course as a human he too has good and bad sides. What are the things that stands out to you the most: pros and cons besides being icon and music genius. Not from beatle historians or anyone else's opinions just your personal views? In the Beatles, pre and post Beatles. How do you view him today vs from decades ago? (Don't know how long you've been a fan) do you think he's mostly happy or sad in private. I'm asking you this because to me you seem like the one on line blogger that seem to "get him". Also would you say that you are attracted to him? Have you seen him live? What are you favourite songs by him both as a Beatle and beyond. I'm a super-Paul-stan fan and proud of it and nothing you say can change my own opinions of Paul but because nobody is perfect. Ok I'll let you go now.

Had to think about this one for a couple of weeks.

My opinion about Paul is that most of positive and negative feelings towards him are earned. He deserves the reverence but sometimes people take it too far like when his stepsister Ruth called him a god with feet of clay or whatever lmao. That kind of behavior is incredibly cringe and its very embarrassing that people can talk that way about Paul. But I think that he's busted his ass for over 60 years so truthfully he's earned the accolades and praise that he gets. There are some people that get really pissy and mad that he's revered so much and the only thing that we can say to them is "get a fucking life." Paul McCartney has been working his shapely ass off for decades to get where he is and is still slamming out music at in his fucking 80s. When you accomplish half as much as he has than you can think about whining that he's too revered and too worshipped.

On the other hand Paul has done a good job of earning all the negative emotions directed at him. He's egotistical and isn't graceful about wearing that praise. He tries to pretend he doesn't care but it's so transparent and see through that it's actively irritating, I think it's this more than anything that can get people to bitch. There is a phony veneer to Paul where he's clearly doing a bit of some sort and it's aggravating because it's not entirely clear what the bit actually is. Like all the posts making fun of him for pretending to be """normal""" are not coming out of no where, it's real aggravation that he's worked his whole life to get where he is and he tries to go "heehee I don't actually want it I'm just a guy like you <3~" like cmon dude really. For fuck's sake.

When it comes to Paul himself, my take on him, idk. I identify with Paul heavily. I like to think I'm more aggressive than he is but who actually fucking knows. I went through a life changing trauma at a similar age. (I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes when I was eleven years old which is the insulin dependent diabetes that you hear about a lot on social media. BTW if anyone else has diabetes type 1 or 2 I'm available to talk, my dad and my partner are both type 2 and I know a lot about both.) I can identify with how your life is heavily bifurcated between Before and After. I also identify with how Paul really struggles to come to grips with his family life, while it's clear Jim and Mary did love him a lot they also simply were not stellar parents and a lot of their success with Paul and Mike lies in the fact that they gave their sons a steady home life without chaotic disruptions more than that they navigated the trials of parenthood well. I identify with that as well because diabetes makes my life very chaotic, and my parents did work to smooth those things over; but on the other hand my folks also had nasty and ugly moments with me just like Jim did with Paul. So I know what its like to love your parent immensely and be loved by them and still have a deeply resentful and distrustful relationship with them. And I never had a John Lennon in the mix to disrupt things.

I think it left me and Paul in similar places though our birth order is reversed with him being the oldest and me being the youngest. I realized a long time ago that I was completely on my own in terms of my diabetes and the rest of my life (my mother made some treatment decisions about my diabetes that nearly killed me a few times before I took control of it completely.) A parent can love you immensely, try to do everything right, and still damage you profoundly. With Paul having to endure physical blows and attempted emotional manipulation from his father, I think he too realized that he was totally on his own and that Jim could not give Paul what he needed. That is why Paul has such a strong self preservation instinct and why he comes off as two faced and why MLH remarked that he did not want to be in a dark alley with Paul if Paul did not like him. I've had to do some nasty things for self preservation and I think Paul has had to do it too. Some of them we know about but the majority we never will.

I think that it's hard to be the first born or the last born kid. You get so much of your parents attention but they screw you up in so many ways. I know middle children tend to feel ignored but I'm going to tell you right now, you're being shielded from a lot because you're not getting the Eye of Morder trained on you. Maybe we should all be thankful for what we have, idk. I have a lot more in common with my oldest sister than any of my middle siblings.

Paul is ruthlessly out for himself. I think John dying actually changed that a bit, it made him somewhat less vindictive and he was more open to letting people in but he's never not going to protect himself first. Or else he wouldn't have married Nancy in the first place, Nancy's first cousin was Barbara Walters and through Nancy Paul has a direct line to the news media which means he has yet one more string of influence so that he can control his public image. Nancy and Paul like each other a lot and their relationship is sincere, but Paul also benefits greatly by it. Do you see how this goes with him lol, he can invest in sincere relationships (and to be clear he does love Nancy) while still benefitting from it materially and immaterially. Note that a lot of the negative stuff about Paul started fading out of the press after he married Nancy.

Other fans often think I'm being negative and hateful about Paul when I point out that he is a manipulator and that he has a ruthless streak in him but that can't be farther from the truth. I sincerely admire Paul's ability to arrange his life in such a way that he is safe from most tangible threats and that he has such a way of moving chess pieces so that his hand isn't visible. I find that a great deal more admirable and amazing than John's bluntforce "let me squawk like a chicken to a reporter and they'll shit on Paul for me because I took a photo with them" thing. John was very blunt and clumsy with his sledgehammer and that did get results but I think that Paul is a great deal more artistic and beautiful with his media manipulation. The fact that he can carefully line up his pieces, get the results he wants, and then his influence is never seen (unless you extrapolate your way backwards from the results) is, to me, a great deal more elegant and sophisticated than the Lennono approach to bloviating during interviews.

Paul learned this during the initial Beatlemania rush when he had scads of heterosexual men all on their hands and knees begging him to let them fuck him. He does things exclusively through dangling something people want in front of them and then lets them take a course of action that suits him. And despite the fact that he is the architect of these movements you can never trace anything back to him because he does everything through influence and suggestion, not by out and out coercion or bribery. It's actually kind of incredible. Last week my friend remarked "I think Paul could pull off a bank heist and never get caught" and she's right.

That's what I admire about Paul. That is what I think is beautiful about him. Not necessarily the music or the lyrics or the insane life. Just the fact that he is a very patient and careful human being that doesn't lose his cool easily. I want to know more about him because I want that, you know? Being able to control facets of my life with that much care and harmony.

But that wasn't always the case. Paul was very clumsy during the 1970s because he let his feelings rule him when he should have crushed John like a bug. It wasn't until after John died that Paul started building the fortress, that was when he finally realized "oh shit, I need to build a persona for PR. I can't just be me anymore." Wings Paul is in some ways the most honest Paul, he vomits his feelings everywhere and we get a lot of insights into his mind and home life. That was before he had formed his own network of influence and political chicanry. 1980s Paul is when he's investing in that network finally and then 1990s Paul is when he started putting it into motion culminating in the divorce with Heather Mills. All in all I find it fascinating that Paul was not able to pull these disparate parts of himself together until he was in his 40s and Linda died. What is to be done with such a man?

I think that Paul has always had disparate parts of himself that he hasn't been able to reconcile. This is of course not unusual, it is the work of our lifetimes that we must see, accept, and internalize our contradictory natures. It's Paul's bad luck that he has to do this all in the public eye. No one envies him that. It's hell on earth and my heart breaks for him sometimes.

When it comes to Paul's moods in private, I think he is more or less "happy." Paul himself has said that he doesn't overthink his actions, he just decides what he wants to do and does it and whether it pans out or not is a different matter. I think that he's the kind of person that doesn't ruminate and he doesn't overthink what he's doing. And if he does do that then he goes to his guitar and does the "tell it all my problems" thing which is actually music therapy. It clearly helps him a lot and it clears his head so that he can keep his problems in perspective. I do that with journaling and my common place book, and I should do it more. It clearly helps Paul which is a good habit to have. All in all during his day to day life, Paul is happy and accomplished and has a big family with lots of grandchildren. Clearly loves Beatrice to bits and would do anything for her. The fact that we never hear anything bad about Beatrice is proof that she inherited all the right things from Paul lmao, she knows better than to get in trouble. Interestingly I think Beatrice is Paul's mini-me and considering Heather Mills is the same kind of personality as John Lennon, it makes me think that John and Paul having children together would actually have worked out very well for them.

On the other hand we know that Paul carries his share of anger and bitterness and old grudges. "No one knows the real me, do they." We're lucky that we live in a time where we can be relatively open about our personalities as well as our wants and needs. Paul did not grow up with such privileges and is only just recently starting to feel his way to the place we have inhabited our entire lives. He's suffered greatly for it. He's a naturally reticent person but I think John Lennon is the only person in the world Paul could fully express himself with; even Linda did not get full access to Paul considering comments made by others about Paul's controlling nature which belies anxiety. Why was Paul anxious around Linda, his soul mate? Because there were still parts of himself he didn't want her to know. And so on.

I think that in some ways Paul's lack of rumination and cheeriness is a choice that he's made for himself. He's been "tired" of negativity and hurtfulness for pretty much his entire life, he's always wanted to bring light into the world. John once said that Yoko painting "yes" on the ceiling of her exhibit was what he liked about her because it was positive, unlike the self absorbed 'woe is me' bullshit exhibits other avante garde people put up. I think John was attracted to Paul for similar reasons. Paul tries to take the sad song and make it better. Paul transformed John's life and he saved John from a much harder and painful path like the common belief that John would have landed himself in prison if he hadn't met Paul. I don't think it would have happened precisely that way but it was certainly a distinct possibility that John was aware of and he knew that Paul saved him from it.

Paul does it for himself as much as anyone else. I think he's actively trying to avoid the traps that many of us fall into. Rumination, bitterness, regrets. These are things that poison a person's life and even without therapeutic language Paul realized that he didn't want his life to be consumed by it. That doesn't mean he doesn't have his well of pain to tap into but he wants to live and be happy. He said once that John wouldn't want him to be hurt and depressed and he was right. I think if we all approached our lives with that kind of attitude, "I deserve to be happy and I'm going to do what it takes to get there," we would all be much better off. Paul is a role model in more ways than one.

Paul is a sport, a one off. There is no one else like him and when he dies there will never be anyone like him ever again. Treasure him now while he is here.

I have never seen him perform. When he has his next US tour then I'll go, I don't care what it costs.

Am I attracted to him: yes and yes. I find it more like an aspirational attractiveness but I think he's intensely beautiful and he became more beautiful as he aged (though there is something very special and breedable about 22 year old Paul McCartney. It's deeply depressing that he never got pregnant.) That's different from being handsome, all of the Beatles were handsome but Paul is intensely beautiful. It's the kind of thing that gets memorialized in Sumarian poems. If we were told he was descended from swan maidens or something like that, it would not be a shock. There's a story in that somewhere lol, imagine Paul bathing in a lake and John steals his feathered coat so that Paul will marry him or something like that. IDK. Paul is very intense.

Beauty is sovereign. Beauty triumphs over all things. Paul is one of those rare people that handles (almost) all of his affairs adroitly. Every little thing he does is magic.

I'm a big fan of all of Paul's work, I genuinely enjoy London Town for instance and I don't get why some circles make fun of it. Synth owns what is the problem here. Some of my favorite Paul songs:

With a Little Luck

Probably my favorite "John, I love you, I'm sorry, please come home" song. It's just very Paul, the very carefully arranged harmony, the minor key in an upbeat tempo, with the almost mismatched lyrics before Paul brings it back to a major key resolution. It makes me want to find my partner and kiss them on their lower lip. (My partner has a very pouty lower lip, easily one of their best features.)

Let 'em In

I have an entire animated music video in my head about this song. I've actually been looking up how to teach myself art because I want to pursue it. First learning to draw, then learning to animate and all because I want to animate this sequence I have in my head. Oh Paul. I adore you.

Rock Show

This one actually made me stand up and dance around my house which never happens anymore. I just love the energy and Paul's silly voices. And Paul's platonic fascination with axe wielders rears its head again! I wonder if Paul ever fantasized about killing people with an axe.

Another Day

This is the anthem of my life lmao. At least I have a romantic partner but we're long distance until I can emigrate to the United Kingdom so again I identify very heavily with this Paul piece. Ahhh…

When it comes to Paul's Beatle work, I don't really want to reference anything there because Beatles music was such a community effort, even Paul's songs aren't fully his once the other three got their hands on it. That's not a bad thing but it does mean the Beatles were an engine unto themselves. Paul never had full control of his songs. My choices are not particularly enlightened but they are true which is all I can provide.

This was a really great ask to get, thank you for sending it in. Very flattered if I'm someone who "gets" Paul. I think it's more like he makes a lot of sense to me and it's very rare that he does something that does not make sense to me. I'm probably projecting a lot but we all do that so who cares?

[sinvilles]

Thoughts on Arthur, Angela and Clay: Oedipus Complex or just touch starvation?

You know the drill: I'm unconcerned about redemption because I'm not a fuckin lutheran. I'm a writer and I like sociological stories and seeing characters achieve wholeness within narrative. moral orel is a unique case because the story was cut short halfway through, and all character arcs were arrested at their lowest point in the narrative, except for some characters on the side who were just kind of beginning to shine.

Mother, child and the father laid to the wayside. The dynamic in that family is cursed by something we often disregard in analysis: Clay's 10 dead siblings who never saw light outside the womb.

Their ghosts are present, haunting Angela every time she looks at her son and thinks of the fragility of his little life. Their ghosts haunt Arthur when he sees his wife overcoddling their son. And when Clay is told the truth, their ghosts surround him as well.

CLAY

Think about that moment. He is 12, sheltered, the apple of his mother's eye, and probably didn't even know miscarriages were a thing- his mother won't even say the word "dead".

Then suddenly, his mother's body- once his source of comfort, associated with life, nourishment, love- is a graveyard. Her body is no longer safe, secure and homelike. His mother is now a stranger, and deeply suspect.

Not only has she had children pass inside her- she put every one of them behind her, choosing to move on and focus her love on the next child, and the next one and the next one... But even that makes her suspect- if Clay dies will she just move on and have another baby?

So he tests her. Like a little kid would. Maybe it's a prank he thought of earlier in the episode when he saw the bullets lined up in his father's study. He expected to be let off easy, because his mommy always laughs at his jokes and pranks- it's part of what makes their relationship special. But he didn't expect to kill her.

Of course the loss of his mother impacts him forever. I don't think that, as an adult, he's actually IN LOVE with her, or that he lusts after her. He comes off as wanting to crawl back into the womb for comfort. Every woman's body is now his mother's, and he can't really engage with women without being reminded of all of the baggage attached, the womb simultaneously a warm cradle and a grave. Of course he has to drink to do it. That and he's gay.

It seems to really freak him out when he visualizes those thoughts- when he thinks about his mother he literally imagines lubing his entire body up and crawling back up into her womb. He tries to drown it instead of examining those emotions because it's WEIRD lmao. But I doubt it's a sexual thing for him.

also, speaking of 10 dead siblings, I'm going to drop this Wikipedia article on the fraternal birth order effect. Read this and get back to me.

ANGELA AND ARTHUR

We see them progress in family photos from a very lively, happy couple, with interests and hobbies, to a pair who can barely recognize one another. The trauma of miscarriage can do a number on a couples love life- I have no doubt it was Angela who wanted to continue trying for a baby. I wonder if Arthur was so used to the disappointment that he actively kept himself from getting attached to his first living son before he was born.

He seemed to be trying to bond with him in the episode- though Angela may have taken his aloofness to heart and hoarded little Clay to her bosom. So not only is he denied the love of his wife, but the bond with his son as well. It's like an Oedipus complex in reverse, where the father is jealous and (SUBCONCIOUSLY!!!) seeks to destroy the son for competing with him for the mothers affections. Whereas Clay didn't seem to bear any ill will towards his father prior to his mother's death and his rejection of him.

Lets reflect on the use of the word leftovers: this can also mean something secondhand or second best. When Clay is done eating, Angela doesn't even bother preparing a plate for her husband, but pushes a plate of Clay's leftovers in his direction. When Clay tries reaching for his father after just having lost his mother- needing the physical comfort and safety he is so used to receiving- he is pushed away, and Arthur angrily says: "I don't want your LEFTOVERS!"

Arthur was always aware that Clay's love for him was secondary to his love for his mother. Clay, in his stupidity (it's a very natural thing) was content to sell him out, prank him, humiliate him. And a lot of resentment had festered for years to get to that point- Arthur didn't have the maturity in him to set it aside and just be there for the child that needed him. Hell, he expected the kid to die before his wife did. He does come to regret how he treated Clay in the future, but only because he saw how it affected his grandson.

Arthur didn't just deny Clay his physical affection, leaving him starved for any kind of touch (even being hit), he straight up ignored him. You can't ignore a kid.

Arthur and Clay's situation is one that I'm actually stumped about plot-wise. I don't think Clay would even be willing to accept an apology from Arthur- the damage he did so deeply affected Clay's formative years. Does Clay have to forgive him? Alternatively, does Orel have to forgive Clay? It really is a vicious cycle; I do think it will hurt Arthur not to be forgiven by his son, but he might possibly accept it. But Clay, unable to forgive his father, in turn cannot forgive himself. And when Arthur dies and its too late, it will definitely break him.

[miralyk]

love the drawings you've been making for desmond and alex, what's ghosts in the machine? first i see them crawling out of your screen and now everyone's angels devils or monsters, i don't know if i'm missing something!

ah man, think it's time to try to summarize everything and apologize LMAO;; ty for asking though, i should've made things less confusing! this will be a Pretty lengthy post for irl context/backstory and "actual au" info so be ready if you want to read everything!

(for starters, the title's just a pun on the philosophical phrase "ghost in the machine" interpreted Literally and taking inspiration from clay in ac revelations, since he Was a ghost in a machine and jokingly called "my guardian angel" by des, haha)

the short version: basically, "ghosts in the machine" is what i've called the au(?) where i just doodle silly "artist talking to her art muse(s)" stuff like these kinds of comics instead w me,, the ""art muse"" is whatever i'm hyperfixated on (currently desmond, the assassin brotherhood as a whole, and alex/prototype lmao):

the Full LONG version: when replaying prototype and ac awhile back, i also posted fanart on LOFTER (china’s local version of tumblr) and made a mainlander mutual/friend who drew fanart too, like her oc w the assassins in an animal shapeshifter 刺客信条乙女向 (assassin’s creed otome) au! as i’m vietnamese-american and she’s chinese, we use translators and send pictures/doodles to talk about the games and our days, and when i was replaying prototype, she started ac2 too and sent me this as commentary:

from there, whenever we’d text or send pics/art, it became a running joke of sorts to also include our ""game companions"" like that fanfiction thing of “author’s note where the author and fictional characters comment on the situation and/or talk to each other”, and my doodles also became us or our computers being accompanied by them LMAO;; that’s pretty much the origin and setting of the particular doodles; just the daily shenanigans and art struggles of an artist (me and her) talking to their art muses (characters from special interests) haunting them and their computers

as for the "supernatural" aspects, at some point desmond and alex got drawn an as angel and devil because i’ve had ridiculous “protected by a guardian angel” luck lately like surviving a car crash unharmed, they’re my favorites and associated with me, the motifs match the duo, etc, it's not really that deep and/or for a "Lore Reason";;

likewise, the brotherhood got drawn as ghosts to emphasize the “we/our computers are haunted by them” joke more, along with how my friend and i are both asian and used to like ghosts and ancestral worship casually being a part of our lives already LMAO (ig in the context of the au then, they’re basically desmond’s ancestral spirits disney-mulan-style that freeload off of his vietnamese protectee (me) for both spiritual veneration or "worship" like staying relevant in this modern age via fanart)

for example, i'm also considering drawing like altair, ezio, connor, and edward as the vietnamese four holy beasts just to play around, things like that! there's no special lore reason aside from just personal thoughts and "oh that'd be fun to draw", they just thematically fit well being four prominent “legends” and being desmond's ancestors, etc,, haha

at the end of the day, "ghosts in the machine" are just silly shenanigans of me drawing what's on my mind, from who/what i'm hyperfixated on (aka impromptu art muses for me), any thoughts/frustrations i have w daily life or drawing stuff,, and "hm this sounds cool, i could draw this design or Cool Thing" stuff. it's not really an au persay (plus i still really cringe and feel self-consciously wary about the embarrassing self-insert aspect of all this, help lmao), it’s just,, just silly personal scribblings that are kind of sharing an inside joke to everyone now, but i'm happy to know people still humor these silly drawings and are curious if there's more to it, thank you!

[hydrangeyes]

I ramble about headcanons while reading the artbook:

Here are my notes::

So idk if peeps talk about it but timeline wise I'm going to assume brozone's last concert had to be before the bergen fully captured the trolls.

I'm mainly basing this on the art work from the artbook, as well as how it would make sense how easily the older brothers could just walk off and live their own lives. Given previously with the whole bergen town surrounding the tree, and the only actual safe way out had to be a tunnel they were digging potentially not even ready yet.

So I would assume say a month at least after they left the bergen took over. Which could also play into all of them thinking the other was dead/captured and simply couldn't risk coming back even if they wanted too.

John dory returning when he had more experience and got "floyd's" letter. But for the most part genuinely was fine on his own. Maybe wanting to at least open communications back with his family.

Clay having found his way to Viv (I REFUSE to entertain the thought that he was with them when escaping just didn't contact branch or grandma)

I don't think floyd was even CLOSE to the tree to know. I imagine he did do a solo career but everything was so big and trolls being cared about wasn't till later. Which plays into that image of him playing alone in some alley on mount rageous.

Bruce traveled and maybe sent out a letter that never got received and found himself starting a new life and having kids.

I DIDN'T KNOW BRIDGET AND KING GRISTLE WERE IN THEIR MID TO LATE 20S HUUUHHH

I thought they were at MOST early 20s. Huh. Makes me wonder about the life spans of bergen.

I like to think outside bergen long since learned they don't have to eat trolls to be happy.

I need the extra of Viv consoling Poppy. Cause I need that.

I also need poppy and branch talking about sense of being left by siblings. How branch is still upset but dammit he's just as happy to be around them and singing with them again. How poppy just found a sibling who filled that unknown/forgotten side of her and having to potentially give a family member up. How now she understands branches hesitant to be involved with John dory at the start, etc etc.

I need more solo songs from the brothers. I need those scenes where they're bonding again. (Idk if you can tell but I want a TV series for the movie like the others).

I NEED backstop of the brother's parents and just WHERE are they if we're going with the before the bergen's theory.

I think it's funny before floyd and Branch were born. That Bruce was the middle child to probably dory's older brother and Clay's younger brother shenanigans. And then Clay becomes a middle child himself but not the peace maker kind lmao.

I need to see and hear that talk the sisters have with king peppy. Cause that whole side scene where he feels guilty was NOT enough.

I have this idea that what positivity was to branch in movie 1 is what being silly is to clay. Like it's not that they hate it but being taken serious and not always that one thing is a nice breath of fresh air. And maybe Viv had been someone who was able to welcome both sides for clay.

Branch is a poet idc what anyone says. He doesn't write anything bit he has his moments.

Also Poppy being a Clay stan idc idc idc

I LOVE SEEING MORE TYPES OF TROLLS. especially interesting when they don't seem like the typical singing ones!

Mount outrageous being a place without a single adult is... I have several questions on that. Whether that stayed in the final movie or not....

Concepts of the bergens remind me of old og Shrek designs.

Floyd not just being the more emotionally mature one is nice, he's also generally intelligent and clever/witty (from the artbook). Also, his style being confirmed emo is funny to me. Like, yeah, the hair is obvious, but now it gives me the pass to draw him wearing SO many cool/interesting outfits.

Creek concepts have me feeling annoyed at the fact that yeah... I can see it.

MOVING ON-

[meymmey]

AHEM AHEM. My lovely lovely mutual, yk I love u right.....

I AM HERE!! TO ASK !!!! RANDOM FACTS ABOUT CRIS AND CLAY!!!!!!??! I luv em. (random tought I need to get out of my head ignore it. or don't. I'm not the boss of u)

.......Thinking about how they'd get along with my mcs..... Mariana is probably out of the picture since she doesn't knowledge them much.........

HAVE A GREAT DAY/AFTERNOON/NIGHT AND STAY HYDRATED!! mwah

HELLO MY LOVELY MUTUAL!!!! I LOVE YOU TOO, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE ASK, I'M DELIGHTED AND HAPPY

Ahem, as for the facts... I've been waiting for this.

Let's start with Clay :3

A bit before Step 3 he actually got fur (??) allergies! He doesn't know why it happened but he was DEFEATED when he found out

Somewhere in Step 4 Clay fully understood that he wanted to be a Math teacher and stay in Golden Grove. In Step 1 he wanted to be a sorcerer, in Step 2 he didn't really know, but wanted the job to be connected with Math somehow and in Step 3 he just.. didn't know anymore. The initial choice would be soo predictable, so "like him", but he couldn't do anything else at the same level as Math and he genuinely likes it, so what is he supposed to do?

I'm not sure if I've written this before, but in Step 1 he really likes rain and would honestly spend his whole day just walking around the neighbourhood with an umbrella and a rain coat (if he could😞). But in Step 2 Clay completely dislikes even the slightest of drizzles and just... sorry, no.

Not really fun facts but I think I forgot to say the basics lmao

He/him pronouns through all the Steps! And he is French. Please tell me if something is inaccurate (specifically his surname...) alright?😭 Ahem, he does speak French and will teach you some words if you want! Always gets excited if a person knows his native language. Didn't really have trouble with English since he did have friends back in his hometown that spoke it and he got used to switching languages. Not entirely though, his pronounciation of certain words is definetly a bit.. softer? than a native speaker's.

Okay, moving on to Cris...

In Step 1 she was actually quite energetic and a bit... bossy? She was much more talkative but bits and parts of her character in Step 2 still could be seen. (I need to draw her Step 1 design...)

Cristine REALLY likes the colour blue (the specific tint is on her skirt in Step 3 design, the main one!). She has liked it since Step 1 (maybe it was foreshadowing....) and made it quite clear with her usual outer wear (it's all blue)

She will be a vet in the future :3 Cris joined a volunteer organisation that helps stray animals in Golden Grove in Step 3 and she just... knew that she WOULD help animals for the rest of her life. Before her crush on Tamarack in Step 1 she had wanted to be a pop-star, after that she wanted to be a knight. In Step 2 she didn't really think about all of that, but maybe something related to fish... Or singing? Well, anyway

Her pronouns are she/her through all the Steps, and she is half British and half Romanian! Doesn't speak Romanian though since Opal is British here and nobody is there to teach her. In Step 1 liked to brag a bit about her Romanian side, but calmed down a bit since then.

And as for your MCs... Well, Maymay and Cris are besties now, no questions asked, thank you. Maymay and Clay though... I think they would get along, but it would be hard to call them friends (but I think they both would say that they are if asked lol), they would be only just acquantancies probably? They have potential, but they wouldn't have much things to talk about :')

I haven't fully grasped Lu's character yet, I think, so I'll just voice my thoughts, you can correct me or give more details :3

So, I imagine all of our MCs' meetings would happen in Step 2 for some reason, so I'll go from that.

Cris is not really enthusiastic about keeping people who don't like her (or at least seem to) close so I don't think they would be close :') Especially since they both have their own problems to deal with. However, even if they were not close, she could lend an ear to Lu's ramblings (but only that... She is not good at giving advice, she knows that and will not try), only if they open up.

But Clay is a different story. He is a bit like Qiu in Step 1, he will NOT give up on befriending a person even if it's quite clear that they don't like him (he doesn't want to admit that people can just... not like him. Without even knowing him first. He isn't stuck-up or anything, just confused.) It would take a looong time for Clay to give up, he would try to be as gentle or as energetic as needed, and it's easy for him to understand what people need at the moment, so maybe that might help Lu open up?

Mariana.....😭😭 Oh well, the dynamics between her and my MCs are clear now I think lol

Again, THANK YOU FOR ASKING (AND reading all of this :3) STAY HYDRATED AND GOOD LUCK MWAH MWAH

[saintmouthed]

dtcfdp chapter 2 (author commentary)

I fear it is time to Reread dtcfdp Again and I'm going to be so annoying about it, actually. Anyway I'm gonna basically reread my own fic and liveblog the experience. Chapter 2 commentary starts under the cut, but you can find chapter 1 commentary here if you're interested!

FLIRTING DISGUISED AS NEGOTIATION...oh I see that's always been a favorite of mine.

"But it’s difficult not to feel like life is passing him by, stuck in this temporary place between all the milestones of ‘average’ adulthood and unable to find his way to the next stage, watching everyone else leave him behind. With jobs, with relationships, with careers. If not with those things, then at least they know what they want and how to get it."

yeah I was going through it in early adulthood, how did you know? (I wanted this fic to like... explore that more thoroughly, but I had SO MANY threads going on in this fic, and the most interesting was the goofiness and the kink, so that's what we got)

(though this does remind me that I found my notebook where I brainstormed dtcfdp in the first time,,, perhaps I will share some of those notes as a DVD extra at the end of the commentary)

It was fun. It was kind of silly, though, because that’s just the way that we were, and I don’t think I necessarily left those encounters feeling like I got everything I could from it. R.

baby masochist R my beloved. SOOOO much projection in this fic, except my adventurous partner (the one that inspired this ex-boyfriend of R's) was too embarrassed to even admit they were into That even though it was so obvious and I knew.

Aren’t you a sadist? Do you even know the meaning of the word? R. For the sake of making sure you’re comfortable playing with me at the end of the week, I absolutely know the meaning of the word. Ange. What about for the sake of honesty? R. Rarely. Ange.

been talking about this a lot lately. Another thing that I wanted in the fic but it never made it into the actual text. I always imagined that Enjolras had a nasty breakup with someone in the scene before he met Grantaire and he blames himself, and that's why he's holding back so much and trying so so hard to be careful with Grantaire's boundaries. Of course that's part of where the whole mess comes in, they're both so worried they're doing something Wrong that they don't want to Talk to each other. lmao.

Besides, Fantine lets him use the wheels after-hours and on his days off so long as he pays for the clay, and sometimes he really fucking misses the ceramics lab.

I FORGOT ABOUT THIS...oh Grantaire and Joly and Bossuet only drink from Grantaire's hand thrown mugs. When he first started working at the Paint and Party, they were so wonky and small because he was out of practice. Now they're increasingly elaborate, to the point where Joly and Bossuet still use the wonky ones because they're afraid of dropping the pretty ones.

If you’re asking me if I’m attracted to you, though, the answer is yes. Ange

writing dtcfdp enjolras is soooo fun. Especially when I get to write his POV, because to Grantaire he's always trying his best to be suave and charming and mean, meanwhile mentally he's swearing up a storm.

Mhm. There’s nothing quite like it, and I am all kinds of mean there is. Ange.

LIKE THIS

“You feed your adventure to a hungry dragon,” Bossuet adds, helpfully. Grantaire doesn’t know how he manages to sound so excited. Bossuet has consistently gotten terrible rolls no matter the game or the dice, and out of the four of them, even with as much as they play together, he’s the only one who’s had multiple characters die in-game due to unfortunately timed crit-fails.

I STILL HAVEN'T PLAYED THIS GAME RIP....poor Grantaire having all his TTRPG characters die. That was cruel of me

the negotiation... tearing up, remembering my early forays into the scene,,, wow

Not this time, he says. R. This time? Ange.

as much as Grantaire goes insane for Enjolras saying "next time" in this fic... you just KNOW that Enjolras is frothing at the mouth at this mention.

Which is fine. He's fine (section break) He is not fine.

this never fails to make me laugh.

“This is my cue to remind you that everything about this is up to you.” “I know.” Grantaire says, voice muffled against his shoulder. “You can go home right now, if you like.” “I know.” “I absolutely will not ask you to do anything you don’t want to do.” “I know.” Grantaire says, once more, with a huff of laughter.

Ange runs his hand up and down Grantaire’s back in a comforting gesture before pulling away to look at his face. “Good. It’s always worth repeating just once more. Now, what would make you feel most comfortable? Do you want to call it off for today, or try another time, maybe?”

genuinely crying now....I love them and also just, agh. I loved getting to write him as gentle in these crucial moments. I love a sadist as you probably know but I also love a "hey, reminder, you're safe, you're in control" sweetness.

“That’s cute.” Ange says. “But unnecessary. Save your ‘sir’s for when I actually punish you.”

was just talking about this too!!!! this was legitimately my favorite thing to play with in this fic. Grantaire constantly throwing around sarcastic "sir yes sir"s and Enjolras tolerating it.... until That Scene

“Words, please.”

fucking menace. I hate when they do this (by which I mean I think it's mean, by which I mean I love it) but also I LOOOOOVE saying it myself. So. The duality of man.

“How are you feeling?” “…A little bit…fuzzy.” Ange chuckles, resting his hands on Grantaire’s thighs. “Happy?” Grantaire has to think about this for a moment. “Yeah, I guess so. Why?” “Because you’re grinning like crazy.” Grantaire touches his face to confirm that he is, in fact, grinning a wide smile. “Oh.”

SCREAMS... I forgot about this. FUCK. I love this. SO MUCH.

I'LL HOLD YOU AS LONG AS YOU NEED....do you ever CRY. I love the chapters that end like that. it's so CUTE.

this was so fun. I love reading over this fic, and lately people have really been flattering me telling me they reread it too. <3

next chapter commentary coming soon!

[yuyu-bi]

also well uh....we finished the first season of sons of anarchy.....yeah that happened lmao 

the plot finally started to happen in the second half of the season but like i have more issues than not lmao and i do hope it gets better it’s better when shows have a continuous plot rather than episodic plots that only last for one episode

first of all... the love triangle or whatever it is between jax tara and wendy...unecessary and literally being forced on wendy by gemma like??? you tried to kill this girl bc you thought she wasnt good enough for jax and then you pull her back in and give her false hope that her and jax could be together again bc she just really doesnt want tara w jax??? so you would rather the recovering addict who is still trying to figure herself out rather than an established doctor to be w your son??? also they’re like in their 30s why is gemma even involved w this i wonder if jax will ever call her out for this bc he knows she doesnt like tara

gemma even asked wendy if she still loved jax and she was like ‘well...sure i guess so’ like come on my guy what is this let her get to a stable point in her life first before giving her hope of getting her family back lmao 

the whole situation w opie possibly (not) being a rat for the club was handled in the worst possible way like especially bc legitimately if they took the time at actually really think about the possibility of him betraying the crew it would literally be borderline impossible for him to do so? and bc of that they got his wife killed which is dumb and i hate it :((( like opie spent probably the majority of the season trying to have more to do in the crew bc they weren’t sure if he was fully back in or not since donna didnt like him being in the club to begin with (since that is what got him sent to jail) but like if you see him doing that why would you think he flipped so easily?

i blame tig mainly clay def seemed a lot more hesitant at first before they found the wires in his car (which is valid) but like why not confront him first about it? they had this weird scene where opie had to like prove his innocence but he didnt really do that even lmao but like if there ever is a mole i dont think it would be him tbh not at all plus tig was the one that actually killed donna (i get the impression clay doesn’t actually do that type of stuff unless it’s like really personal to him lmao)

also like why is the fbi lady trying to manipulate these people who know more about the crew than she does and acts like she knows the actions people do despite never interacting w them??? like why act so cocky and arrogant especially when you yourself said that you dont even really care about this you just wanted something to bring back to your bosses so why sabotage literally everything and then at the end be like ‘oh i fucked up sorry’??? annoying and i hope she goes away for good 

[olivia-bakers]

All of this but also ( excuse my jumbled ramble)

It’s the fact that Jordan asked how patience was doing and she eventually said “enough about me.” . He didn’t ask about you. Jordan wanted to check on Patience and she answered then was quick to dismiss it. He was so excited about getting offers and thinking about his next move / what he wants then suddenly it’s about them together bc they can still hide. What?! She still has her walls up. I thought he had to grow a pair??!

When he wanted to spend time with her , he is rejected (valentine day / going to p’s mv) or she took it as sex ( when he wanted her company). They are rebounds for the other and it’s sad. She is using Jordan like she was using Clay. She doesn’t have actual feelings. She is attached because he hasn’t left, he is familiar territory for her.

I asked what was her storyline currently ( besides the mental health arc) and folks got mad. She still has no proper storyline outside of that. She has no loyalty to no damn body but herself. I am all for sis making her own money but she needs to listen to people. She needs to learn the music business and stop making it about herself. I am glad that Simone cut her off.

Two things can be true: you can like a character and hate how they behave / treat people. Layla went on that apology tour for nothing. She will have nobody in her corner continuing to behave like this. She tried to guilt trip my baby and Simone said absolutely the fuck not. Liv’s comment about not having loyalty is still relevant today.

Y’all wanna scream Layla is the mature one but how??? Lmao. Layla wanted to make it about her and Jordan not leaving when she is literally pushing him away too. He was going to go to Bringston. Simone didn’t want him to give up his dream or his whole life for her ( more than once!) Simone and Layla were cordial at best and had potential to be great friends. They almost had a double date ( which was Layla’s idea).

Y’all wanna claim that Simone had no friends like JJ didn’t call her his lady bro, like Olivia didn’t have her back even after the break up , like Spencer didn’t say he got her and Jordan always. Nobody is mad at simone but the Layla Stan’s. Jordan isn’t even mad, he still wanted her in his life.

Jordan was around and available because his other half was gone. People left because Layla pushed them away. Layla acted like her mom “left” her like she died??? I am sure she loved her more than anything. Her dad left bc he probably feels guilty. Other than that, Layla pushed everyone away bc of Carrie’s bitch ass.

People can watch this show and see it for what it is. Some characters aren’t growing and that’s not okay. Some have the potential and that’s great but just because people have different opinions doesn’t mean they aren’t watching or don’t understand. People are paying attention. Simone had good reason to cut her off.

Simone is choosing herself and her happiness. Layla should be choosing Patience and her happiness , if she still wants to thrive as a producer / manager / whatever the fuck her title is at this point. She should be proud of Jordan for wanting to get out of Spencer’s shadow and be happy for him instead of it making it about them who STILL ISN’T A COUPLE.

I blame the writers. The writers aren’t developing the characters properly. Everybody is unhappy 😭. Jordan went back to s1 Jordan in this first half like I said. Hopefully, they have Layla realize what she is doing is actually wrong and that she needs to cut the cord on leaning on people so much then trying to act like she ain’t l do shit. Nobody told you to go to Bringston and I refuse to believe that Simone kept reaching out, be serious.

STAND UP GIRL! Layla deserves to choose herself and her happiness too. I want to see her walls break down with the right people. A story line of her go to therapy ( where we see it!) , rekindle with her dad, hell.. running keating records with Clay would hit harder than whatever bullshit that is playing out.

A bunch of people who watch All American through the timeline and like Layla through gifs don’t see the whole truth but come into my dms not knowing whats really going on saying oh I don’t watch the show. But I watch the show. I see her. Even in her music storyline she’s doing the same thing she’s doing with Jordan which is deciding FOR people and not listening. Caring about what she wants and how she wants it over what’s best for the people she’s supposed to care about. Over their discomfort. 

In every episode Layla has been pushing Patience into things saying it’s whats best for her and then she told Clay she’s not pushing her, it’s what Patience wants. Is it? Because Layla is pushing Patience. That’s all she does.

When Clay said he misses the old Patience, Layla’s response was well THIS Patience got 2 million views showing that Layla’s priorities for Patience has changed. She wouldn’t have said that before. She’s forcing Patience for her own benefit. To prove she can have a successful artist because nobody wanted to work with her over Clay and her dad gave the company to Clay. She only has the one and her album flopped with her. She’s trying to prove herself to her dad that she’s pushing Patience into the image her dad had for her, the image for results and not Patience. That’s why Patience is so unhappy and scared of turning into someone she doesn’t recognize. Her ending scene was Patience staring at all her hate comments. Calling her fake, her music whack, saying she’s changed. Hate comments she’s getting because of LAYLA’S DIRECTION FOR HER. While Layla told Clay proudly she’s fine. She’s not. The point is she’s not. She’s hitting those milestones but she’s not happy because there’s no HER in it. Layla’s storylines aren’t posted here because one they are incredibly boring and two the people that watch the show hide what’s really going on because Layla’s flaws and problems in her behavior are shown all over the show but everybody elses are posted here to shame them. Simone was absolutely right to cut her off because she doesn’t care about her feelings and only her own. That’s who she is. And she’s pushing Patience away soon.

[jakelcckley]

omg the leftovers hcs were amazing 😭💙 you're an amazing writer

How do you think the moonboys would react if they found you having fast reflexes? Like if one of them was clumsy steven and dropped something but you caught it unnaturally fast. (My brother has fast reflexes and my sister always throws stuff at him to catch his off guard lol)

omg thank you so mucchhh!! I used to write fanfics before (especially harry potter fanfics lmao) but I stopped because of my grammatical errors. And hmmmm, fast reflexes, eh? Let's see what could I come up with how it happened and how each of them reacts:

Steven: was awestruck of how fast your reflexes are. It first happened when you were just passing by at the national museum. He looked like one of those tour guides and you went up to ask him what the etched symbols in the clay tablets meant (because you were in a museum, and the least thing that you could do is actually learn the background and history that you have zero knowledge of, right??). He looked like a deer in the headlights at first but after a few seconds of awkward silence, he gave you the rough translation of it and you were amazed by his ability to translate the symbols and how much information he holds about the history of Egypt. You commended him for it, and he has gotten all shy and fidgety. His name is steven (as you read out from his badge) and it turns out that he's not a tour guide and he handles the gift shop within the museum. His stuttering behavior alone is enough to know that he is not used to receiving praises and being under the spotlight. Due to steven's erratic movements; unbeknownst to him was there's a hundred year old ancient looking jar behind him with just a single fragile pillar as a stand. it really looks like one of those artefacts that was not supposed to be left alone without a glass case. Before you know it, you moved in a light speed manner and caught the heavy, scary looking jar on your hands just in time before it tilts completely and fell off to the floor. Steven was frozen and wide-eyed in fear, and all he could see that time is his love of his life saving his arse from being fired.

Marc: didnt mind it at first after steven recounted the story of your meet-cute with him in the museum and how steven was engrossed to you already even after the management still fired him. After being together with them for almost a year and after the whole incident of harrow summoning ammit: you have successfully insisted marc to bring you in a mission after he lost the bet between you two; and what happened after, it left marc dumbfounded. The mission was already going sideways as soon as marc realized that the target had already become aware of your presence. Marc couldn't reach you any faster and the target had unexpectedly thrown a ticking time bomb to where you are standing. He watched you turn around to catch the ticking bomb with your hand at lightning speed. it was just in time before it countdowns into zero and you have thrown it back with all of your might to the target where it successfully landed and exploded. Marc was stunned after witnessing how quick your reflexes are, even Khonshu shuts up for the first time. Steven took granted of Marc's stillness and fronted to cheer and shower you with praises for how good that was. After that night and when you two reach home, Marc finally shows up and kisses you roughly before his kisses turned mellow and soft, almost apologetic. Marc still couldn't believe what happened back there and he promised that he won't bring you any more in his missions because he fears that your life is in peril every time you are out of his sight and your reflexes might not be enough to keep you alive in the long run. Marc couldn't bear the idea of losing you and he will blame himself forever if that happens.

Jake: was the other persona who you have not met yet properly, but you are kinda aware of. You became used to the nights where you are suddenly awoken at 2 am because of the lack of warmth coming from the other side of the bed. The only traces left by your partner on your home were the creases in the pillow and sheets. it's already 4 am and you couldn't sleep anymore because of the uneasiness on your stomach ever since you woke up, and jake or whoever fronted in the middle of the night is still nowhere to be found. Instead, you tried to distract yourself by sitting at the kitchen and turning your laptop on. you decided to check your email that was bombarded with emails coming from secure and encrypted networks. Minutes later after scrolling and opening some of the emails, you instinctively tuned out the eerie white sound of your apartment before swiftly moving out of the chair and landing behind the kitchen counter to hide. Your eyes traced the knife that pierced through the wooden kitchen cabinet above the kitchen sink. It was thrown at your direction when you were (stupidly) sitting with your back at the open. A slow and heavy clap resounded in the silence of your flat and you cautiously stood up to see who it was. Unmistakably, it was jake who entered the apartment through the window with a dangerous smirk plastered on his face. He opened his mouth and a hoarse rough voice filled the tense air, "eres muy rapida, corazón. Muy buena en ocultar tu identidad también." (You're very fast, sweetheart, very good at hiding your identity too) Jake says, "how about coming with me on a ride, agent?"

THAT WAS SUCH A RIDE OMG. IM SORRY IF IT TOOK ME A LONG TIME TO RESPOND AND IT FELT LIKE THIS WAS A REACH??? I'm sorry if it's not what you expected but it ended up with the reader as a secret agent and a trained ex-assassin, it is the only explanation why you have unnaturally fast reflexes. jake leaves every midnight and he uses his connections to gather information about you.

thank you so much for reading and sending me this!!! I had a great time imagining this whole thing and this is the result of it lol. I apologize if there are any grammatical errors, i also used google translator for jake and I apologize if there are errors in that translation. I am open for corrections, and i appreciate them 🫶🏼. I will sleep now as it is almost 7 AM from where I am lol.

Thank you once again @avatar-of-procrastination 💥 hope that you like it!

Link to the headcanon about who's more possesive: marc or jake?

Link to the headcanon about our moon boys finding out that you ate their leftovers.

[sootneo]

i basically wrote the main selling point of tv show hannibal but hear me out,

in all his career and life, wilbur had never seen something nearly as creepy, weird, nauseating and fucking mental like his new case. he was an amazing and reliable investigator, known throughout all of europe, so of course he was the one the italian police called when they found the freakiest crime scene ever seen in the history of that country: a freezer in sapienza, filled with corpses of hundreds of people – they had to count after retrieving them because at one point four mortuaries still weren't enough for some reason – that were presumably killed by one single person. he obviously accepted to be the head investigator of it, being paired with a few guys: seán jack, brian terroriser and alex quackity. some police officers that were helping them out were george notfound and nick sapnap.

first and foremost, he had two suspects, one being clay dream, based on some background checks and his involvement with the whole case, being seen close to the crime scene, and his closeness to he officers which seemed really shady. and the other being a local, based on criminal record, also being seen close to the crime scene and knowing the owner of the establishment. the second guy gets a public defender, meanwhile clay has enough money to hire a professional criminal defence attorney: daniel condren.

while clay doesn't get proven innocent and walks free, daniel gets in contact with wilbur and notifies him he has started conducting his own investigation, which sounds and is normal, until they start crossing paths way too often, principally when daniel seems to be so incredibly friendly towards him – and even though will is sure there is something illegal about being the head investigator who's having a coffee with the main suspect's lawyer, he doesn't mind having him as background when he's doing research.

but will does start caring when evidence start to sound weird, wrong or not like he first remembers seeing it as. witnesses telling different stories, objects so small and barely noticeable disappearing, things appearing too, new clues, new paths, new names, the victims barely having anything to back him up even though he, at some point, felt like he had everything in his hands – it's like he was hallucinating some things, like he didn't hear them, seen the right way, like he was going crazy. now he's just doing everything while keeping his eyes glued on every move daniel makes, on every word he says, he even starts secretly investigating daniel himself, but why can't he find any proof of his involvement and only proof of the fact that maybe he is indeed going insane?

he doesn't know that clay has nothing to do with anything. nor does the second suspect. actually, he is right about daniel. he has been the one behind the butcher of sapienza, and his friend alex, quackity, has been helping him carefully manipulate stuff behind the scenes.

also, because i can't live without some crime boys input into aus, so i wanna say that wilbur was kinda glad he didn't let his pupil, tommy, follow him to the scene and left him out of the case. such a young man didn't deserve to witness the same horror will did.

also also, i don't know much about the whole crime world 👍🏻 LMAO so i don't really know how to write about these things. i think i'd have to watch hannibal to get a grip on how he was that good at hiding it. and i know hannibal was like. a psychologist. which makes stuff easier for him. but rt is way too smart to not be able to do the same stuff as him in an au where he's just an evil phoenix wright.

[keravnos-kori]

Hi love! You asked for some low-quality Tech content and I hope it’s okay for me to deliver you a silly little flustered Tech thot.

So the two of you are out for a date-date. Like, your first real one. Tech had arrived precisely on time to pick you up, looking extremely uncomfortable (but very handsome) in borrowed civilian clothes that Echo and Wrecker wrestled him into after hearing he was just going to wear his armour. He’d been stiffly upright the entire walk here, your hand in the crook of his arm, talking a mile a minute about nothing in particular; a nervous tic of his. He doesn’t seem much less nervous now that you’re at dinner.

He’s leaning across from you at the table, where he keeps clearing his throat and blinking too fast, telling you about the life-cycles of the sautéed Neimoidian crustaceans on your plate. He describes how they secrete a hormone from their leg-joints to signal that they’re ready for mating, and how the females select their partner based on the lustre of their shells, and how the males prepare the females’ reproductive organs with their mouths before they penetrate their egg-sacs, and how the preparation stage can last for hours—days at a time. He’s still talking, his nervousness obvious, when you lay your hand over his.

“Days might be pushing it a little. But hours doesn’t sound too bad to me.” It’s worth it just to see the colour his ears turn. For the first time tonight, he stops talking, his eyes huge behind his glasses. As he stares across at you, you offer him an encouraging little smile, and his posture finally relaxes, just a touch.

(How do you think the rest of the evening pans out? No pressure if you don’t want 💕) x

Hiiiiiiiiii Sam!!!!!!! Congrats on becoming my favorite most special and epic mutual of the week - I genuinely can't express the emotions I felt when I woke up this morning and saw this in my inbox. You're really too good to me for pandering to my tumultuous emotional state with a character maybe two and a half other people care about as much as I do lmao. I've read this a billion times and I'm not afraid to admit that I'm currently shirking some homework in order to respond to this. What you sent me is entirely perfect and I'd love to expand on it a bit more if you'd all me...

· Sorry in advance if these thoughts are so scattered but

· Could you imagine Tech just being so completely and utterly out of his comfort zone in this situation? The clothing, the physical proximity, this non-militarized setting where just two people who like each other are meant to dine and converse and revel in the company? Eating actual food that doesn’t come prepackaged or tasting of raw clay?

· No wonder he’s nervous and coping the only way he knows how…

· This is your first real date together. His first real date period. No matter who asked who out or planned on the setting, he wants so desperately to impress you, which only adds to his uptight demeanor – does he realize the lack of eye contact might come off as a bit antisocial? In the back of his mind, he does. Does he care that every time he clears his throat, he’s worried you might think him to be an acid reflux-ridden Wookiee? More than he’d like to admit.

· But he can’t stop talking – just as a Binexan Shark must swim to survive, so must Tech with his own mechanism.

· The truth is, the domesticity of it all is reallygetting to him – the wardrobe, the ambiance, and you, dressed more casually than how he’s used to seeing you, looking as magnificent as ever and sitting right across from him with those unwavering eyes that display such devotion, such attention.

· So when you crack your little innuendo of a joke, the whole scene breaks down around him.

· You want him to feel comfortable, to relax – you knew Tech could get a little wound up in normal circumstances, but right here, right now, was meant to be different: intimate and special and a major change of pace from what the pair of you are used to.

· You adore his reaction as your hands touch, but you’re the one left in a state of shock as his own turns ever so slowly underneath yours, adjusting your palm and running his thumb across the top of your fingers.

· Public displays of affection weren’t really Tech’s strong suit. In general, any display of affection was few and far between - you could tell how much of an effort he was putting in to connect with you in this moment.

· He might pay a compliment to your wit and crack a small smile himself, which is just enough praise for you – you’re more than willing to laugh at your jokes for you both.

· The part that means the most to him from your silly comment is the fact that you were absorbing all of his espousal to begin with. You listened to him, enough to synthesize the information and attempt to crack a joke.

· A joke that wasn’t at the expense of his intelligence.

· Once the ice breaks, you can tell he’s appreciating the outing just a bit more. He’s been given a night to enjoy himself and you don’t intend to waste it with awkward, stiff interactions. You offer him more to drink and you goad him into sharing a dessert towards the end of the night. He initially declines, stating how he doesn’t have much of an experiential tolerance for sugar, and you cast your vote for the most obscenely decorated confection on the menu just to see his reaction. In the end, you compromise and convince him to split a caramelized jogan tart with you.

· You may or may not have offered him to steal a taste from your own spoonful.

· Yes, the tips of his ears turned red again.

· By the time your meal had ended, you found yourself across the table from where you started. There was still ample room between you, but neither of you had commented on the change of seating arrangement until you stood from your table.

· This was always the worst part of dates for you – you had always been so awful at reading social cues after events like these ended. Was the night officially over? Was he disappointed you both weren’t staying at the restaurant longer? Should you step up and offer to continue the escapade, suggest touring your surroundings and keep him to yourself for a while longer? What if he was exhausted and just wanted to retire for the night but decided to be too polite to turn you down?

· Sure enough, these were the thoughts on Tech’s geniusmind as well – if only you two didn’t have to return to the others at some point. Now that he found himself at ease, he wasn’t quite sure he wanted to return so soon, despite the night closing in and growing ever so colder in the process.

· But you don’t mention your desires, and neither does he - for once.

· Your trek back through the small town towards the barracks is a slow one, a leisurely one.

· Or depending on the perspective, the feeling of walking towards an imminent death that can only be delayed, not prevented.

· You try you best to stay positive.

· You pass a shimmering stone fountain just outside the township’s boundary, and you nod in its direction, a silent request.

· The pair of you veer off the path and take a seat on the edge of the cold marble ring surrounding the fountain – he’s a good few feet away from you, and you prayed to the Maker that he’d just move a little closer.

· He’s busying himself with recapping the extent of your date so far – regaling you with the tale of his initial wardrobe struggle, asking you if a recognized a certain species of flora that resided just up the road that you passed mere hours ago.

· He suggests he might take a quick scan tomorrow morning if the crew remains grounded an extra day.

· You just want him to move closer.

· He asks you if you enjoyed your meal, if everything was to your liking. What your favorite part was. If you preferred white over red wine.

· You just want him to move closer.

· He compliments the construction of the fountain you currently reside on, running a hand between the two of you in order the inspect the texture more closely.

· Your hand lands on his.

· And he’s silent again.

· And he notices you have that look in your eye still – the one he noticed after your joke, but one he now realizes never left your gaze all night.

· And you move closer.

· And closer.

· And closer.

· Until he can smell the coarse sugar and fruit of the tart you shared for dessert on your breath.

· And he can feel your body heat emanating between you despite the chill from the breeze.

· And he can taste your lips against his in a kiss he had wanted to partake in since he first escorted you from your quarters.

· Slow and soft and grazing, yet so tender and addictive and right.

· He pulls away, a bit too abruptly and you’re afraid you misjudged everything.

· You begin to worry your bottom lip between your teeth, and you notice his dark brown eyes following your actions in the light of the streetlamps.

· “I forgot to tell you.”

· “What is it?” Your voice is no more than a whisper.

· “The Neimoidian Firespit Lobsters mate for life.”

· You’re in the middle of breaking into a smile when he leans in for a second kiss.

[batmanrogues-scenarios]

Thoughts on Arkham City

The beginning with Catwoman was so interesting and Two Face suddenly showing up was a nice little scare

The Strange name definitely sparked interest

Lmao Bruce "Billionaire. Millionaires are so last year." was fucking brilliant.

Hugo knowing Bruce secret is honesty so good of idea

Wait, how did Wayne's destroyed Penguins family?

Two Face isn't sexist, he believes in beating ANYONE if deserved

I like Harleys new outfit

Bane wanting to help Batman is interesting concept

The fake out with Joker being dead was pretty good

Selina calling Pamela Red is so cute

Penguins museum is pretty creepy

Batman is a fucking dick for what he had done to Viktor Really Bat? You tell people enough?

Never heard of woman who knew Rā but it's cool they added Talias assassins

Not big on Talia x Bruce

Really Oracle? What if Bruce is killing them? Do they forgot Clay face exist?

It's so weird seeing Robin in costume but he's adult. It just it hits with itself so much

Don't like Talias outfit + Rā's challenge was kinda boring

Rā is an asshole

I did not expected Hush to be the face killer, I thought Black Mask or Clayface

Of course Joker took Nora, at least

Batman isn't enough of dick to leave her

Heard of Azreal before but dude is still weird

I didn't expected Hatter's to sound so cute but his scene is seriously creepy

I didn't expected Zsasz to want his parents back, that's cool motiv

When I saw Deadshot have to assassinate Bruce I was like "Oh, he will go for Hush"

Zszasz story is actually pretty good

Ok but Talia saving Bruce was nice

FINALLY we're back to Catwoman, I honesty forgot about her

Did Pamela wanted to murder Selina because she didn't watered her plants? Lmao

Very bad move with plant Catwoman

Selina not wanting to leave Batman is so sweet

Aight, nevermind then

Wait it's over?!

Nah, there's no way it's happening, it's gotta be Fear Toxin or something

Oh it was multiple choice

Of course Batman is willing to sacrifice life's for sword lady; at least he make a good choice in the end

Hugo feels like someone who sees problem and decides best resolution I'd to eliminate it

Hugo deserved that

I did not expected Rā to kill Hugo

Of course there's Protocol 11

Rā death was kinda funny

I knew Joker was dead because I watched Arkham Knight I the best wasn't expecting it to be because of Talia

I'm with Bayman on no killing but at least she took it in her own hands instead of pressuring Batman into it

Ok twist was pretty good

Might not like Talia but she's good girlfriend

Joker looks horrible; wait then who played him?

Ah Clayface; I like how he just wanted to play Joker. Wait his name is Karlo? I knew him as Matt from BTAS, I just learned few villains use the same name (it isn't going to be confusing at all)

Bat just fucking slashed him into pieces

Bruce with sword is kinda cool

Fact that Batman actually thought about not giving Joker cure but it was Joker action that lead to it being destroyed is ironic

Bat carrying Joker like Robin is nice reference

Not suprised Bat didn't anserw Gordon's question, he has the right after that whole fuckery

Cat just woke up and immediately started kicking ass like it was nothing

Oswald being afraid of Cat lol

I feel like game is going for too long with Selina trying to get her stuff back

Batman disappearing is quite interesting

Ah, so it was Tim

Harley basically went emo

Tim deserves a Thank You

No, Batman isn't alright

I think I liked it more than the first one but overall it was pretty okay game.

Tapes :

Riddler

I love how defeated he was at the end

Catwoman

I like how they went more in depth of her character; it would be cool to see Holly

Mr Freeze

I really like his origins, him trying to freeze neighbors pets was an interesting detail

Joker

I like how they used Killing Joke as hid backstory, and theory that what he's saying is true just to fuck with Strange

Penguin

He is such asshole but in unlikeother versions he's an idiot, not big of a fan

Two Face

I love the voice acting, I wish they could talk more about Bruce that would be interesting

Zsasz

I talked about it earlier but I love his backstrory, there is actual group of people who thinks like that and it's scary

Mad Hatter

That was both sad and terrifying, he is completely detached from reality

[makeste]

BnHA Chapter 305: Worst Intervention Ever

Previously on BnHA: Shinomori, whose name took me an entire week to memorize, was all, “nice to meet you Deku, I’m ten feet tall, do you want to know how I died?” and without waiting for an answer explained that he kicked it from old age at forty thanks to good ol’ OFA. Deku was all “wait a minute, then how come All Might, who’s fifty-five and is definitely dyeing his gray hair, is still alive?” First and Shino were all, “we really have no fucking clue but we think it’s cuz he’s quirkless, JUST LIKE YOU!” So basically, since quirkless people don’t exactly grow on trees these days, Deku is probably going to be the last user of OFA. The chapter ended with Nana being all, “psst, Deku, about my grandson. Uh, can you kill him?” which is sure to lead to a very interesting conversation this week.

Today on BnHA: Nana And The Gang are all “so, Deku, how can we put this delicately. The thing is, we’re pretty sure that AFO really fucked my grandson up, so on the off chance you can’t save him, how would you feel about, you know... [throat slitting gesture].” Deku is all “idk you guys, I kinda feel like he’s really just a traumatized child at heart and he’s in a lot of pain and stuff and so I should try to help him.” The Vestiges are all “BUT WHAT IF YOU CAN’T” and Deku is all “BUT I WANT TO TRY, DAMMIT” and the Vestiges are all “well when you put it that way, we, uh, were just testing you, so congrats, you passed!” The chapter ends with First being all, “ANYWAY SO WHY DON’T YOU TWO SHY BOYS STANDING OVER THERE IN THE SHADOWS COME SAY HELLO” before we CUT AWAY FOR ANOTHER WEEK, goddammit.

seriously, Nana

just... have you met Deku?? look, if you really want Tomura dead, just sic him on the U.A. first years and tell Shouto and Honenuki that it’s a training exercise

oh my god lmao

we’re too far away to see Nana’s face here so I will just assume that she turned and is staring DIRECTLY INTO THE CAMERA for this one line lmao. “I just wanted to clarify in case anyone felt inclined to take my dialogue out of context and spend an entire week complaining about it”

oh my god?! are you all purposely trying to make me sad??

someone stop me before I launch into an impromptu rant about all my Tomura feels. WHY IS NOBODY STOPPING ME. oh my god but yes, exactly. he’s just in pain all the time. this is exactly why I think Tomura has such high redemption potential even though so far he seems to lack so many of the redemption arc essentials such as feeling remorse, wanting to change, and taking responsibility for his actions. the reason why I’m willing to overlook all that in his case is because Tomura has essentially had zero agency his entire life. AFO molded him into a killer by making sure he was in constant mental agony, and making it so that the only thing that even slightly relieved that agony was killing peeps. like, please don’t think I’m making excuses for him or anything, but if you take a child and manipulate their existence to make it virtually impossible for that child to grow up as anything other than a killer, and basically never give him the chance to be anything else, then no shit he’s gonna be a killer?? he’s basically never had the choice not to be. it’s never been an option for him. anyways I feel like I am EXPLAINING MYSELF SO BADLY but nonetheless I am prepared to die on this hill

anyway so now Nana is all “that’s a rhetorical question btw because Our Hearts And Minds Are One so we can feel everything you feel bro.” so yeah, that’s interesting

now Banjou is getting started on the “let’s try and talk Deku out of wanting to save Tomura because it’s insane” part of their OFA Mystical Space Void Reunion agenda

look, Banjou, I feel you, I really do. you guys don’t think it’s realistic that Deku can defeat Tomura without killing him. so if it’s a choice between killing Tomura vs letting Deku and everyone else in the entire world die, then duh, you think Deku should kill him. I get it! and if this were a real life mass murderer I’d totally agree with you. but the problem is that this isn’t real life, this is a sympathetic shounen villain with a tragic past who might as well have FUTURE REDEMPTION ARC RECEIPIENT stamped on his forehead at this point

so First is all “look, there’s absolutely no doubt my brother has fucked this kid up good and proper by now”, which, again, fair

though, that’s kind of exactly my point though. everything that Tomura is, everything he’s done, he’s done because of AFO. AFO has so effectively shaped his personality and his worldview by this point that it’s all but impossible to penetrate that. he’s AFO’s puppet. but the problem is that rather than treating him like a victim, you all are treating him like a casualty. like he’s already a lost cause. but good luck trying to convince Deku of that

WHOA WHAT, RANDOM SUPER-IMPORTANT AND BIZARRELY UNRELATED EXPOSITION DROPPED IN JUST LIKE THAT??

way to still not reveal Sixth’s name, btw. THE PEOPLE WANT TO KNOW, DAMMIT. but also so this confirms something we basically already knew already, which is that not even AFO can steal OFA. it literally can’t be taken away by anyone unless the owner wills it. SO SUCK ON THAT AFO YOU EGG

(ETA: so I have no idea why this was omitted from this translation, but apparently the Sixth’s name was revealed as “En”, which is obviously not his full name but at least it’s something. also he most likely has a fire or smoke-related quirk based on the kanji used, 煙.)

so Banjou is saying that Deku’s “lack of an iron will” could be a disadvantage against AFO. hahaha what?? Midoriya “I’ll break all of my bones without blinking an eye just to protect someone” Izuku lacks an iron will? do tell

he says this is going to be a test of Deku’s determination. well yeah, no shit. but just not in the way you guys think

OH HELLO AGAIN

darker hair again here! but I don’t trust the contrast in these scans at all after last week. his coveralls are way darker than they looked before too, and you can clearly see he’s standing in the shadows now

(ETA: yep, once again the raw shows that his hair is considerably lighter than what’s shown in these scans here. although there’s no mistaking now that his hair is consistently being colored in this slightly darker shade, and it’s not just the lighting.)

anyways lol First was saying something about how AFO can’t steal OFA, and they’ve spent all this time cultivating it as the ultimate weapon against AFO, and blah blah blah. go on then, keep lecturing

NANA GODDAMMIT NONE OF THIS IS YOUR FAULT

girl what?? you did everything in your power to protect your family, and AFO, fucked up man that he is, targeted them anyway. there is one person and one person only to blame for what’s happened to Tomura, and that potato-faced asshole needs a good kick in the balls

NANA GODDAMMIT DON’T MAKE ME COME OVER THERE

SO HELP ME GOD!! I WILL GIVE YOU THE BIGGEST HUG YOU’VE EVER HAD!! THAT IS A THREAT

so now Nana is all “I’m just going to call my grandson a Thing to ensure that fandom has only the freshest, grass-fed no-hormones-added discourse this week”

I don’t even need to drop into the tags to know exactly which specific people are going to respond to this, and what kind of posts they are going to write lmao. everyone’s all caught up in the “that thing”, and meanwhile I’m over here completely hung up on this “nay” that’s appeared out of NOWHERE you guys. look at that. she really said “NAY”

Nana, my love, my dearest, I feel you girl I really do. but he’s not an unforgivable manifestation of pure evil, Deku is exactly right actually, he’s a boy in pain. you guys need to stop questioning Deku’s shounen protagonist instincts here and just let him work his sparkly magic. “let’s try and convince Midoriya Fucking Izuku that he can’t save someone” is a plan that is NEVER going to turn out well you guys

“DEKU GODDAMMIT WHAT IF WE CAN’T SAVE HIM” lmao it’s like an intervention

“DAMMIT DEKU JUST ADMIT YOU HAVE A SAVING PEOPLE PROBLEM!”

RED ALERT IT’S ANOTHER CLOSE-UP OF THE BACK OF MISTER TWO BON CLAY’S HEAD OMG

(ETA: I was too distracted with freaking out about Two and Three to really appreciate how ridiculously handsome First looks in this panel. but on my second readthrough it stood out so much that I had to go back and add an extra bullet point just to talk about how hot he is. look at him. wtf.)

THAT IS DEFINITELY AN UNDERCUT. THE PLOT THICKENSSSS. also those are fucking exhaust vents on Mister Three’s neck. MISTER THREE COULD YOU POSSIBLY BE RELATED TO THE IIDAS, PLEASE TELL ME YOUR SECRETS I’M DYING OVER HERE

so now Deku is launching into what will undoubtedly be a “saving people problems require SAVING PEOPLE SOLUTIONS” heroic counter-speech!

I mean, they can already feel the “lol nah I’m gonna try and save him” feelings running through him lol. ~OuR hEaRtS aNd MiNdS aRe CoNnEcTeD~ and all that. this is just a formality, but that doesn’t mean I don’t love a good shounen protag speech

oh wait hold up, do you mean to tell me that the whole “hearts and minds are connected” thing I was just mocking just a paragraph ago actually allowed Deku to feel what Tomura was feeling?? like literally feel it??

YET AGAIN these Tomura feels are pounding on my front door you guys?? they just will not quit?? people my house is already full of feels, does it look like I need you to sell me any more of them?? -- what do you mean, they’re free??

AW YISS THAT’S IT DEKU. THAT’S SOME GOOD SPEECH RIGHT THERE

I appreciate the contrast here between the Douchebag Triumvirate of Overhaul, Muscular, and Stain versus the Misguided Twosome of Gentle and La Brava. never let it be said that Deku doesn’t know the difference between a redeemable villain and an unredeemable one

OH NO -- OH MY GOD

someone please help me I need directions to the OFA Spooky Galactic Nebula Realm in this fictional Japanese manga land. it’s not on google maps. I need to give these two babies a big hug and wrap them up in a blanket and treat them to some McDonalds Happy Meals please help

other things: (1) ENDEAVOR CHILLING OUT IN DEKU’S “PEOPLE I HOLD DEAR” PANEL LMAO NEON DISCOURSE EXTRAVAGANZA, (2) “ONE FOR ALL IS A POWER TO SAVE, NOT TO KILL” I’M ABOUT TO CRY DEKU I LOVE YOU SO MUCH HOW IS IT EVEN POSSIBLE TO FEEL ALL THIS LOVE, (3) [SLAMS HANDS ON TABLE] THERE’S YOUR MOTHERFUCKING IRON WILL!!!!!!!! -- I’m sorry, please don’t call security, I’ll be good

I just randomly remembered that Deku is still saying all of this in his muffled “FMMPHHMMPHMM” voice and I’m somehow cracking up lol. so actually it’s a very good thing Their Hearts And Minds Are Connected, otherwise they’d no doubt be all, “...what?”

(ETA: so I completely missed this on account of it literally not being visible in the scan at all, but in the raw you can clearly see Baby Kacchan and Baby Shouto fanboying over All Might in two of these panels, and excuse me, ma’am??

thank you very much Deku for including them in your montage, particularly since you’ve never seen Baby Shouto before lol. amazingly accurate image you managed to conjure up, all things considered.)

SDKFJLSKHG -- AS IF ON CUE???

HE’S SO ADORABLE HELP?? Trippy Space All Might looks like he’s about to cry, and First is all “don’t crack a smile... you have to be Firm and Serious here... dammit, don’t smile” omg

anyways! YOU GO DEKU. “MY QUIRK MY RULES, BITCHES” damn, son

KLJLKKHLG TRIPPY SPACE ALL MIGHT LITERALLY ACTUALLY IS CRYING ALL MIGHT HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME

“I JUST... [CLENCHES FIST] REALLY LOVE SAVING PEOPLE” FUCKING HELL LMAO THIS IS THE WORST INTERVENTION OF ALL TIME

Deku is literally all “sure, maybe I’ll have to kill him, but have you guys also considered, MAYBE NOT??” it’s no use Nana he’s too powerful

LMAO FIRST

“like I’ve been saying this whole time, you should definitely try saving Shigaraki Tomura.” “but, uh... First, didn’t you just -- ” “shut up”

(ETA: clearly it’s not just his brother who inherited those smooth-talking genes.)

so now Deku has turned back into a sixteen year old and his clothes have gone missing again. just OFA things

dskljdlsklgk

yes... sure... “testing” you...

HEY

FIRST OF ALL, DAMN YOU HORIKOSHI YOU MADE NANA CRY. even if I’m pretty sure they’re actually tears of happiness/relief. and SECOND OF ALL, “TELL MY BOYFRIEND I SAID HI” DJSKDLKJJL ANYWAY MAYBE GRAN, NANA, AND MR. SHIMURA WERE IN A THROUPLE

[SCREAMS]

WHY WOULD YOU END IT THERE?? WHY WOULD YOU END IT THERE!!!!!

(ETA: and two-to-one odds that we cut away to some other scene once they finally start to turn around next week. I’M CALLING IT NOW. giving myself a week to brace myself for the rage.)

fucking hell. well if anyone needs me I will be adding Horikoshi fucking Kouhei to the list of irredeemable villains, peace

[the-dark-abyss]

Mafia 3

Okay so I’m gonna take the L and admit I’ve never played the other 2 games, I just watched the cut-scene movies on YouTube, and while I enjoyed the story and characters of the first 2, when I watched Mafia 3′s it DID something to me. So I actually went out and got the game so I can play it all myself.

First things first, I’m gonna wonder why people seem to hate this game so much until the day I die, sure it’s glitchy but not as bad as any Bethesda glitch I’ve seen and nothing game breaking, more or less just funny stuff like “lol that cop car exploded in the middle of the street. I’m gucci tho.”. I really like the time-period cause I actually like learning about the 60′s in American history because SO MUCH important stuff was set in motion back then. Others seem to not like how it’s nt focused on the Italian Mafia anymore and...sure?? I guess?? I mean they’re still there, you’re allied with some Italians while taking out the bigger Italian crime family (I think they’re mad that the protag is black and it’s an important part of the game tbh) And another complaint I see a lot is the games too repetitive, I think that’s the lamest excuse personally. I played this after I beat Far Cry 6, and honestly? It was NICE! I like being able to sneak and take people down, or just blow up everything!  Maybe it’s cause I’m autistic perhaps (ASD gang rise up!) but having a pattern was nice for me, I have a specific way of playing and it was fun. Hell, I’ve beat the game twice already cause it felt nice to play.

I know this game came out in 2016 and I’m way late to the party, I became aware of the Mafia series in 2021 and finally played Mafia 3 in March 2022. And I need to be physically restrained from playing it a third time lol.

Anyways onto the story and characters (SPOILERS BTW)

The story is so 😩👌💦💕 I love crime stories, I love historical fiction (sometimes...), I love seeing racists get CRUSHED, I love the time period, I love the music. It’s just AAHHHH so good!!!

Sure I guess a black Vietnam vet cruising around in 1960′s New Orleans isn't what you’d think when you imagine “American Mafia” but that’s a you problem at this rate, I’m having a great time.

I did like Tommy Angelo, and Vito Scaletta too, but Lincoln Clay is honestly my favorite of the 3 and I wish people looked at him and appreciated him more. Imma say something real controversial here: I know Vito is the fan favorite, he’s unofficially the face of the series now and while I DO LIKE HIM, I think... he makes a better side character in Mafia 3 (also low-key irritated Lincoln gets thrown to the wayside while everyone rushes to Vito). That’s just my personal opinion... also my man aged like milk, how is he 10 years younger than the Irish man dying of liver cancer and yet Burke has his hair color still while Vito looks so chewed up? lmao anyways yeah I do like Vito, when I pick up my kickback from him I always leave saying “Bye Peepaw!!”

Anyways, Lincoln comes back home from Vietnam and is ready to see his adopted family again, Sammy and Ellis Robinson (Father and Brother), Father James Ballard (Raised him in the orphanage before he got adopted and sticks around) and his other friends, Danny Burke and Giorgi Marcano. Without getting too much into it, Giorgi is the son of Sal Marcano, boss of the Marcano Crime Family (Which has power over Sammy Robinson and his Black Mob). Giorgi was friends with Lincoln, Ellis and Danny, but this whole time Sal had him playing the long game of eventually screwing them all over. It ends with Giorgi, Sal and an associate of the Dixie Mafia betraying them all after a job they did together (For Sammy to pay back Sal). Giorgi shoots Lincoln in the head, leaves him for dead, kills Danny, Richie Doucet (Dixie mafia) stabs Ellis to death and Sal shoots Sammy in the back. They burn down Sammy’s bar and in the flames Father James ran in looking for survivors and found Lincoln clinging onto life. Lincoln survives, but he lost his family, friends and was betrayed by someone he thought he could trust. And now he’s got the scar to prove it.

This ignites his revenge quest to wipe out the Marcano Crime family, and all the damage they’ve done to him, his community (Delray Hollow) and eventually the mess he’s made for his soon-to-be under bosses. And while he’s doing that he’s sworn to build up a crime family of his own and needs people he can fully trust.

When he’s recovering from the gunshot wound to the head, he tells Father James to call his old friend and contact from Vietnam, Donovan, who is currently working for the C.I.A. He drops everything and shows up willing to help Lincoln with his goal (btw their friendship is so great, it’s so sad Lincoln lost everyone but he’s got Donovan still and the writers did so great with their chemistry *chefs kiss*). While Lincoln’s recovering, Giorgi lets the Dixie Mafia move into Delray Hollow and turn it inside out. Donovan tracks down possible allies for Lincoln to get in touch with by the time he’s recovered.

The Under bosses:

Delray Hollow: Ran by Cassandra and her Haitian mob. (She’s also called the “Voodoo Queen” btw and she runs a Voodoo shop) You meet Cassandra  first and it’s a shaky start, Sammy’s Black Mob has been fighting with the Haitians beforehand so she has many reasons to not trust Lincoln, but since then now the Dixie Mafia took over, thanks to the Marcanos and is greatly harming the community with human trafficking and she wants them wiped out and she can’t do it alone. Cassandra has some painful history with the Dixie Mafia and she wants nothing more than to see them all dead.

River Row: Ran by Vito Scaletta and his Italian mob (that's loyal to him at least). After everything that happened in 2nd game, Vito found his way down here and had to work with Sal Marcano as one of his lieutenants, Vito’s miserable and Sal hates him but can;t do anything about it cause Leo Galante put him there. Sal did put Grecco, his nephew, into River Row to mess things up from the inside and make it look like Vito’s fault so Sal can finally have an excuse to put a hit out on him to not anger the Commission. Being screwed over and wanting to get back, Vito agrees to help Lincoln because this is personal for him too.

Point Verdun: Ran by Thomas Burke and his Irish mob. He did have a deal worked out with Marcanos prior, but at some point there was a failed shipment of Burke’s end and that made Sal insert someone else to take over his rackets, Barbieri, who brutally took over a crippled Burke’s leg. And after Danny, his son’s murder, Burke’s been spiraling into alcoholism and constant grief. He wants nothing more than to make Barbieri suffer for what he did to him and for the Marcanos to burn for murdering his son. Which makes him eventually side with Lincoln.

Thoughts and extra on the bosses: They all got folks that work under them as their own lieutenants, Cassandra has Emmanuel Lazare, Vito has Alma Diaz and Burke has his own daughter, Nicki Burke.  Unlike the other 2, Lincoln is actually friends with Nicki and they all used to hang out together. She’s mourning the loss of her younger brother and it’s clear there’s some tension between her and her father.

Nicki’s actually a lesbian and comes out to Lincoln, she even has a girlfriend. Burke already kind of knows somehow and does not approve of it, but they still have to work together, so it causes inner personal problems. ALSO SIDENOTE: It was kind of refreshing seeing gay characters in a crime based video game, Nicki is a lesbian, Lincoln is a supportive ally (may or may not be bi/pan himself cause of his response to Nicki after she asks him about his thoughts...) and in one of the DLC’s, there's a side character named Oscar who’s a gay Vietnam vet and Lincoln gives him a job at the renovated Sammy’s bar.

While they may be side characters, I still appreciated it, and because of that dialogue between him and Nicki, it does strongly suggest he might be bisexual, so I’m def taking it and running with it. You can play a bi protag at least and I love my bisexual headcanons.

The Main Antagonists:

Sal Marcano: Sal is the Don of The Marcano Crime family. He does have a pretty interesting history and how he got to where he is now. I won’t deny that, but he’s a master of fucking over people he works with just because they were deemed useless. He did it to Sammy, once Sammy was having problems with the Haitians and short on his kickback, that was his death sentence along with his sons. He was doing it to Burke, who had a shipment go missing and that was a sign he needed an immediate replacement. Working on Vito, who just hated him and was willing to mess up his whole rackets just so he can be allowed to put a hit on him. And let’s not forget his racism at all, he knowingly works with the Southern Union and the Dixie Mafia that do lynchings/hate crimes and specifically target the black folk in New Bordeaux. He keeps using slurs when talking about Lincoln. So...yeah. This dude sucks lol.

Giorgi Marcano: Sal’s only son and the Under boss of the Marcano Crime Family, unlike his dad, he was given his life on a silver platter and is a typical spoiled rich kid with a gun who thinks he owns everyone. Hey may have been Lincoln’s “friend” at one point, but either he was playing a long game or that friendship was truly one sided if he could be fine with shooting him in the head when the time came. (I’m looking at everyone sideways who stan him btw). He worked with Ritchie Doucet, the leader of the Dixie Mafia and let them take over Delray Hollow to abuse and traffic folks in the community there after he thought Lincoln was dead. Racist little spoiled brat with access to weapons and a Daddy’s boy. I hate this rat. In his dying breath, he could have tried to make peace with Lincoln and apologize or something, but it was clear he never saw Lincoln like that at all.

YES I AM LOOKING AT PEOPLE SIDEWAYS IF I SEE PEOPLE STAN GIORGI, SHIP HIM WITH LINCOLN OR TRY TO SOFTEN HIM UP IN ANYWAY. I’VE HAD IT, YOU’RE ALL ON A LIST NOW!...anyways. There’s a whole lot of Capos and Lieutenants that work under them but I’m not really gonna get into em all.

There’s other characters and the DLC’s now I can get to instead.

Father James Ballard: Ran the orphanage before it got shut down and has known Lincoln since he was a child. Kind of an Uncle figure. WW2 Vet and kept close to the Robinson’s. Now....why I understand why he doesn't want Lincoln to go down the path he does go down....cause seeing a loved one do that kind of stuff is painful... I also...REAALLLY...don’t like him.  A whole family got wiped out, Lincoln lost so much and is scarred from it, the people that did the killings are also ruining the Hollow and making it worse. If Lincoln did just, after healing, decide to listen to Father James and not do anything, things would have been WORSE. The Marcanos would have full control, the Dixie Mafia would have free reign, The Southern Union would have gotten stronger. AND IT’S DOUBLY INFURIATING IN ONE THE DLC’S: THE SIGN OF THE TIMES! Lincoln’s adopted family was killed, Father James knew them, sure they were a mob but they were still individual people who loved and cared for each other. And yet he wants Lincoln to let go of his revenge and just leave. BUT THEN THERE’S THIS CREEPY ASS WHITE SUPREMACIST CULT THAT FUCKS UP A WHITE GIRL WHO’S A COMPLETE STRANGER AND THE JAMES IS LIKE “Okay Lincoln, take them out.” AND IT’S JUST SO-...no diss to the white girl though, Anna, she was a victim and it’s tragic what happens in her story, but idk man. James bothers me.

John Donovan: I already talked about him a little bit, but him and Lincoln met in Vietnam where Lincoln was assigned to work with him on an ops mission for the C.I.A. Lincoln learned a lot, including psychological warfare which he uses against the Marcanos later. They eventually got really close, to the point that John dropped everything and ruined his C.I.A career to work with Lincoln in building his own crime empire. He’s a fun character, he’s very chaotic, and him and Lincoln bounce off each other really well, no wild card/straight man dynamic, they’re both wild cards in their own right. I think the game is trying to frame Father James and Donovan as the Angel and Devil on Lincoln’s shoulders and, like, sure, okay, Father James is like “Don’t do it!” while Donovan is like “LETS FUCKIN GOOO!” and neither character really likes each other. James is priest and John is an atheist so the usual clash there too. I’ve made my thoughts clear on James. Donovan though is just willing to do the most for Lincoln and in a DLC he asks him for his help with his own problems that’s started before they even met. And Lincoln gladly helps him. It’s a real “I’m here for you and I hope when the time comes you’re here for me” kinda friendship. Anyways, despite leaving the C.I.A and becomes involved in criminal organizations, John is dead-set to find out who really organized the JFK assassination and finds that Sal Marcano has ties to politicians and others in the country to he goes off on his own manhunt. It’s a fun time. Good time. Don’t watch live political hearings on TV at the time though cause you might see someone get blasted.

The DLC’s

Sign of the Times: A creepy cult called the “Ensanglante” infests the burned remains of Sammy’s bar and Lincoln and Father James discover this on their way to pay the old place a visit. A young girl runs out terrified and men chase after her. After James takes the girl to a safe place and Lincoln investigates what they were doing in the bar. The learn the girl is named Anna McGee and the cult was doing a ritual in the bar because of the past human suffering in there, the murder of Lincoln’s family. The Ensanglante preforms rituals in places where people have suffered, like old slave market areas, a middle school that burned down, a plantation house etc. It’s run by a woman named Bonnie Harless who indoctrinated Anna into the cult through manipulation and promising she’ll be loved. It just left Anna abused and out of her own mind and miserable. This side story isn't really crime orientated, but it’s taking down a creepy racist cult and it gets really trippy sometimes. In my Father James bit I said a little about this already. Bonnie is a creepy bitch and off her rocker, Anna’s story is so tragic what happens to her. The cult does get wiped out and after that Lincoln meets with his aunt Lily and they restore Sammy’s bar into a functioning club again and as a memorial to Sammy and Ellis. 

Faster, Baby!: You go to Sinclair Parish, a sun-down town outside of New Bordeaux that’s run by a corrupt Sheriff “Slim” Beaumont, who wants to keep the town white, even if that means making people who oppose him disappear. There’s civil rights activists who are ran by another of one of Lincoln’s allies in the main game, “The Voice” (Charles Laveau). One of their members who was carrying the evidence that they compiled against was murdered by the sheriff and they need to get it. The Voice’s daughter, Roxy joins and works alongside Lincoln to take down this entire corrupt police force with the help of her friend, M.J, another Vietnam vet who just wants to see his hometown become better. A pretty fun DLC, a lot of car chaos and destruction, brings ACAB to a whole new level. Lincoln and Roxy kinda got a thing going on (I think Lincoln likes girls who bully him lol), and it is pretty cute, especially near the end of the story, Lincoln hears something he really needed to hear to give him comfort and it’s pretty sweet (WELL IT WOULD BE SWEET IF ROXY DIDN'T IMMEDIATELY LEAVE BACK FOR GEORGIA RIGHT AFTER SHE GOT SOME DICK FROM HIM 😭). Not crime focused either, but a lot of fun and with M.J you can actually grow weed and make new strands to actually sell to the districts you take over in the main game. Roxy’s cool, even if it does kinda hurt if I think too much that she just said all the right things to get into Lincoln’s pants but....I’m not gonna judge her either cause he really...👀💦. She’s got a really cool car you get when you beat the story. M.J is cool, Vietnam vet, turned pot smoking/growing, racism fighting hippie. You also get a hippie van from him later when level up the grow operations, and I love me some hippie vans.

Stones Unturned: Donovan calls onto Lincoln for his help once someone from his past starts showing up in New Bordeaux and stirs up some shit. You meet one of Donovan’s old allies, a former C.I.A agent now turned bounty hunter Robert Marshall and he joins in the hunt down for Conner Aldridge. You learn more about John and Connor’s history, they used to work together and be friends but Connor turned his back on America and started feeding intel to the NVA. Eventually John found out and they had a violent falling out. Aldridge’s face got scarred and Donovan’s hand got really messed up. Aldridge’s main goal is to sell information on the U.S to all their enemies, from Vietnam to Cuba. There’s a lot of heavy weapons in this DLC and military grade vehicles. You even leave New Bordeaux to somewhere in Cuba to infiltrate a bunker to get the warhead and hunt down Aldridge. Very much more of a war/action plot than a crime plot, even though I guess John’s brand of shady is better than Connor’s brand of shady (??), still very fun to see more interactions with Lincoln and Donovan. Lincoln even forces him to open up more, that’s how we learn more about Aldridge (I still think he’s hiding more from Lincoln cause that anger felt more visceral...hmm). You first reach Cuba and it’s BEAAUUTTIFULLL, the water is so blue omg it’s so pretty. Robert Marshall is a weird guy, I see why him and John are friends. He’s a little unhinged but over all he’s friendly??in his own weird little way. You actually get bounty hunting missions from, only 3 though, once you’re back in town, and he offers this pretty handy sniping service. Connor as a villain is something alright, not saying he’s a bad character but I do wish there was more information you could have uncovered with Donovan. And he’s pretty nihilistic about the war and America and stuff and as someone who personally is pessimistic about how America is now...uhh...can’t say I blame him. Though selling weapons to people who wanna blast us to the Fallout Universe, that’s not cool. Nooo nope no sir, don’t like that. Anyways, the DLC is a good time. Less of a heavy story than the other 2 which is good cause I don’t wanna feel totally miserable lol

The order in which the DLC’s came out isn't an indicator of a timeline either, there’s no real set timeline in the game. Just the main plot begins during Mardi Gras in 1968, Lincoln needs his time to recover, and the only other indicator is on Anna’s gravestone so I’m assuming at least Sign of the Times is the first one and takes place when Lincoln’s trying to get his under bosses together. That’s a me thing tho, I’m a stickler for timelines and stuff like that.

BUT ANYWAYS I TYPED A LOT SO MUCH OMG I JUST WANTED TO GIVE MY THOUGHTS ON THE GAME AND THE BASIC RUN DOWN OF THE STORY AND CHARACTERS LOL

MAYBE I’LL SHARE MORE HEADCANONS LATER AND SHIZZ CAUSE IT’S SUCH A HYPERFIXATION RIGHT NOW AND EVEN ON MY ART BLOG I MADE SOME FANART K BYE

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Fall favorites 2022!

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October 30th/2022

Happy Halloween!

It’s been like 4 months since the last update.lol. As you can tell I was busy with life. Specifically work and preparing to possibly open my etsy store soon.

I have been testing out different prints to sell and stickers, also thinking about making some clay pins. I have seen some videos on sellers making them and I have all the tools so why not right?

I’ll let you guys know more as it gets closer to opening date. I also have not been reading many webtoons and that’s kind of why the reviews haven’t been monthly.lol. I have to say I probably reached the peak of reading good webtoons now and I just don’t find a lot of new stories that interesting. But I will try to compile at least a couple to talk about and feature them when I can.

Anyways, you’re not here to listen to me ramble about my life so let’s get to it.

                                          Happy reading!

Sheena

Please suggest me some dramas to watch...I’m just watching stranger things and i’ll review that after I’m done.

Recap:

I’m just going to put up the ongoing list only. I also eliminated some titles because they are now completed or I dropped them for now

Ongoing  

Liveta (hiatus)

Pearl boy

Semantic error

The foul (hiatus)

Secret relationships

Kings Maker (S2)

One night mate (hiatus)

Night fragments (hiatus)

The pizza delivery man and the gold palace

Dangerous convenient store

Updates on ongoing titles:

I think the recap section is going to be the longest this update...lol. Just a heads up Spoilers are ahead so if you don’t want to be spoiled ...don’t read it.

You may have noticed some of the ongoing ones are now finished. It was not worth mentioning. Turn off the camera, like how I figured jihoon ended up with yujin, of course...whatever choosing the second lead was never a thing in the first place so why do I bother....

I honestly don’t remember anything about semantic error anymore, it’s been so long since I last read it, I’ll have to get back on that train.

Secret relationships:

Oh boy...the absolute landmine, every person is triggered every Monday by any type of update, lmao it’s honestly so funny to see people defend a 2D character like they are best friends and just covering for their mistakes and making up things to excuse their actions...I’m like, dude if this was your actual friend you would call them out on their shit, you would end your friendship with them if they did something stupid. Needless to say this is all fiction...don’t be rude to other people just cause you have different opinions.

Let me just say the last few updates, if it’s not a flash back it’s a really confusing chapter. I have said this before and I’ll say it again, the plot line at this point is fan service up until now the story had been 75% flashbacks and maybe less than 25% story...it was not until chapter 110 that finally something happened that moves the story forward..Meaning that Daon was finally able to let go of jaemin and go their separate ways, whatever happened in the last 10 years was draining and heavy on both parties, they kept this whole weird relationship going on as more a security sense rather than anything else, even if it was the biggest betrayal a person can commit. It was really hard to read because it is like a 10 year relationship break up where you don’t want to let go because it’s familiar and at the same time you need to choose yourself and think about what you want and just not care. This is the hardest thing people can go through at the time but let me just tell you after it’s all done and time goes by...it will be just fine...just know that and move forward and things will work out!

Maybe I’m giving that author too much credit but that chapter was daon’s defining moment, and I was really happy for him, finally he was able to let go and chase after his own happiness, not saying it has to be Sunghyeon...but just in general being free from something that isn’t working.

But speaking of Sunghyeon...well a picture is worth a thousand words right? After he runs off from jaemin, he went running straight into a certain person’s arms.

Following up to the next chapter 111, Daon talked about how he was ready to start something new and he wants to do that with sunghyeon, so asked for a chance to be with him. I cannot tell you how long I have waited for this from them, my sungda fangirl heart was screaming. I have to say sunghyeon’s reaction was very real and understanding especially since he didn’t know what had happened between him and jaemin and didn’t really know how to react, most people would expect him to just kiss him right there and then...which Korean dramas love to portray as romantic, but he didn’t and instead was hesitating a bit since he was contemplating about his relationship with daon at this point and whether or not he trusts him since in a way daon did betray his trust more than a few times, but in the end he accepted him. This makes him feel anxious and daon reassures him by holding his hand while they are in a taxi, signifying that he wasn’t going anywhere I guess.

On that note some stupid comments were made by people who clearly are just dumb and don’t realize that there are something called “trains” in Korea and not everyone drives cause they were all salty about sunghyeon not for his character but because he does not having a car and therefore he’s poor why would you choose him...I’m like I don’t know what money you are making to afford one especially if you are an average salary office worker...

If this all you can come up with...educate yourself please. Haters be hating on really dumb things. I mean doesn’t everyone deserve to be with someone who encourages them rather than someone who disregards the person’s feelings and emotional well being?

Also the guy waited for Daon in the rain.  He stood in the pouring rain with Daon until he was able to collect himself and leave. Get yourself a man who will do that cause that is the kind of partner that will stand by you though hard times, and Daon was at his lowest point, he essentially lost a relationship he worked so hard to maintain and now is unsure about this new relationship.

I’m saying “unsure” meaning that he has never been in a proper relationship involving both parties being mutually interested. So he does not know how this is going to go.

But I’m so glad Sunghyeon stood with him and held him in that moment.

After wards, they went to Sunghyeon’s place and washed up...not together..I presume. And Sunghyeon was patching up Daon’s feet because he ran out of jaemin’s place without his shoes...he just needed to go. During this time there was so much sexual tension between the two and Daon started giving some “bed room” eyes that does not go unnoticed by Sunghyeon and they started to make out...believe me when I say that I stopped breathing for a sec...lol.

Now saying this there are people who believe that it would not be right to engage into sexual activity as Daon is emotionally vulnerable, but from the way he looked at him..it looked like he was waiting for something to happen, his lips where parted a little and cheeks flushed and eyes locked onto sunghyeon, I don’t know...looked like he wanted a kiss. So there is nothing wrong with wanting to touch the person you love, he is aware of what’s going on and does not reject it so we should just let it be and stop being salty just ‘cause your pairing is not the end game. But I guess we will see what happens in the next chapter....I’m happy clearly.

Pearl boy:

Guess who’s back...

Can I just say that season 3 is here and the art just keeps getting better, the creator is working real hard on the art and it really shows...she is so talented.

I think where we left off was when dooshik had come back from his ex’s funeral and had overheard some dudes in a van talk about kidnapping jooha, these men were actually pilwon’s henchman. It’s been a while since I wrote his name lol, I almost wrote pinworm again.

From the first few chapters you can tell that dooshik was being anxious but not really vocalizing it to jooha which made him frustrated since he was going to start working at a sushi restaurant he applied for when they were out on a date. There were snippets of dooshik’s past and you got to see the glimpses of what he went through during his time in jail and the host club. There was a line that he said that was intriguing, “I can’t seem to get rid of this smell” and it was from the time where he was in jail presuming that he had blood on his hands from getting into fights and even after starting anew at the host club he would still encounter that “smell” and saying that he was can never get rid of it no matter how many times he tried to cover it. I’m not really sure if this is what he meant, but to me that phrase just means you can never forgot where you come from, you can’t cover up the things you’ve done. I still don’t know what happened and how he ended up in prison back then, maybe when it is revealed then I’ll figure it out.

Also a lot of new characters were introduced, I really like sunghyun, I think he could be a good ally for dooshik but it does not look like their relationship is that great and he does not seem to trust dooshik. I don’t know why...but some part of me would really enjoy the thought that he secretly had a crush on dooshik...lol. I don’t know why maybe because I know jooha and dooshik’s love is so strong that it seems impenetrable so I don’t mind it if it were true.

I think the thing I liked the most is the progression of dooshik and jooha’s relationship, I mean yes they were cute together before but they are 10x more romantic and in deeper sense, they trust each other even if they can’t communicate their feelings well. Just seeing jooha look at the picture of them together and looking all smitten is really rewarding after all the things he went through, he was getting the opportunity to build his future together with dooshik and that made him excited.

Who wouldn’t get excited look at dat face yall....he’s so fine...

Lol anyways, I hope the English translations will come out soon cause I don’t fully understand from just summaries and raw pictures. I definitely know something bad is about to happen because in the chapter that described how dooshik and sunghyun met , sunghyun had asked what does he want in exchange for giving him Intel, and dooshik just said he wanted jooha to be safe

And right after that a bunch of foreshadowing of events yet to come was shown, dooshik was bleeding and on a stretcher with a oxygen mask attached clearly being sent to the hospital and jooha looked like he was trying to run to him and screaming while looking wrecked, while there are faint beeping sounds of the heart monitor in the background, that whole segment I can visually see it happening and I was not ready for it. So get ready for me to cry a river when that happens.

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Welcome to some spicy reads (21+)

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Killer Crush:

Breaking News: Professional killer Joo Tae Man fell in love with Korea's favorite actor, Kang Da Hyuk! Professional killer Joo Tae-man has endured extreme physical training, mental education, and cruel torture-- but somehow easily falls apart to Kang Da-hyuk's kindness...?

Joo Tae Man who has trained for years as a professional killer thought “is this love?”

What should I do at times like this?”

I think part of my not reading more BL manhwa is because of shitty summaries like this

So this story starts off with a group of thugs interrogating this man for information and the gang leader gets a call saying that the target is with them and the leader was baffled because the target was right here tied up. Turns out the target had killed the guy guarding him and turns out to a hired hitman. The hitman’s name is joo tae man, and he is like a phantom assassin that leaves no traces of his victims and is what these thugs have been having trouble dealing with lately.

Another person named kang dahuyk is Koreas’ favorite actor who wanted to try out a different role as a killer and was not able play the role perfectly, due to his face  being too pretty.lol.

Not wanting to be boxed in as a one trick pony he finds ways to improve his acting ability including following tae man who had the look of a serial killer to his part time job as a convenience store part timer only to learn the ways of getting into character. in the store an old drunk man was harassing tae man at the counter and his thoughts of killing him is so funny...he wanted to break his spine just to get him to shut up.lol. but of course that would blow his cover

But then da hyuk said that he’d pay for the old man just so he wouldn’t start something. He then bought a coffee and gave it to tae man saying it was for him and that made taeman’s stone cold heart go crazy...lol. The boy fell in love for the first time in his 34 years of existence..oh boy

Dahyuk had been on his mind since that day and it turns out that he had a boss and co-worker that were also killers and they can sense that something is off about taeman and they were finding ways to torture the crap out of him just to purge the romantic feelings out...lol. Out demon!

Dahyuk became interested in taeman and started to show up at the convenient store often, there was a confirmation between taeman and the gang leader from chapter 1, the gang leader had suspected the killer was nearby and could possibly be taeman so he decided to confront him.

Dahyuk tried to save taeman and almost ended up getting hit in the process. This was what initiated them to actually talk to each other and they found that they enjoyed each other’s company and dahyuk gave him his number, his colleague was telling him to turn him down by being rude on the phone, instead they made plans to have a date in the “mountains” which is what dahyuk wanted in the first place, he wanted to observe taeman to improve his acting skills.

During their trip together, taeman did everything to be a turn off to dahyuk trying to make him seem like the worst person, but ended up with dahyuk slipping and hurting his leg and they both were almost getting attacked by boars. One of the boars was going to kill dahyuk but taeman jumps in and kills it, thinking that he exposed himself and that dahyuk was disgusted by him he apologizes. Dahyuk was in fact convinced that he had served in the Special Forces and that’s why he knew so much about hunting and was just glad that he’s not hurt.

Things progressed well after and taeman started to accept the fact that he likes taeman and found other ways to get involved with him, the gangster in chapter one was targeting dahyuk for some reason and that made taeman more inclined to be involved. His friend however...has major issues and didn’t like the fact that taeman and dahyuk may like each other and he his love interest (boss man) didn’t give a crap about him. He tried to mess up their relationship by pretending him and taeman were dating, this made dahyuk back off a couples days from contacting taeman, until the boy does not care anymore and just wants to see him. Taeman felt the same and said that he won’t let this affect his work even if he was interested in another person, so they ran to meet up with each other and some cute events happen...

You’ll need to read it to find out cause i’ll just stop here. This was a really interesting read, I mean I can actually see this getting an anime adaptation because it’s just light hearted comedy and it has a good mixture of romantic scenes between two awkward people and comedic scenes in how they deal with their emotions. I highly recommend this if you want something fun to read. You can read this on Lezhin comics.

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Trash segment (21+)

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a.k.a the part of the series where I shit on your favorite manhwa/manga/webtoon etc. Joking but not really, you have been warned.

This is the new section where you’re going to find titles that I dropped and the reasons why I discontinued the series all together, fair warning if you triggered by people criticizing your favorite series then you may want to skip this section all together. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion and not every series that is “popular” or well liked by others will be like by all...therefore if there is content that makes a person uncomfortable enough to stop the series, that is on them and please don’t judge them for their morals.

So to recap, the series that I mentioned dropping so far are

Love or Hate

Yours to claim

Wistful summer

Anti-p.t.

The sound of fire

Kiss damnation

Cherry blossoms after the winter

Chasing Mr. CEO

Who’s a sweet cheater?

Another sequence

Thinking of dropping Love is a fantasy...lol. This goes to show you that the author only knows how to write certain type of stories, the situations between the adults in here seems more like teenagers dealing with puberty rather than adults dealing with these situations. So I’ve become uninterested at this point.

Currently watching chainsaw man so i’ll let you know how that goes. Liking it so far.

No music suggestions this month, please recommend me some!

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Ending note:

Hello,

You have reached the end, what do you think? Sorry for the one review really but like I’ve said nothing has been catching my attention as of late due to me being busy with work and side projects. Hope fully I can go back to writing monthly again.

I will update about my shop once that is up and running, and I will work on more art soon, I have uploaded a few prints that will be available for purchasing, if you have any ideas of prints you would want to see please let me know in the comments!

Okay, bye for now.

Take care

sheena