#no that's not what i meant to say but y'know
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I feel like when people emphasize Akechi's murders, they often act like his motivation only boils down to "daddy issues" or they really make light of the impacts societal discrimination can have on a person. "But Futaba didn't end up like Akechi," I've seen people say, but the thing is, Akechi is meant to show the worst case scenario. Someone without anyone left to uplift him, to ground him, and to give him a reason to be better. Futaba had Sojiro, though that hardly justifies her mother's death, nor the horrible mistreatment from her relatives or what Shido put her through by framing Wakaba's death as a suicide. Futaba was in a very dark place, and she needed a helping hand. The Phantom Thieves saved her. But Akechi didn't have that helping hand when he needed it most. He lost his mother at a very young age, endured the foster system, never finding a new forever home, and at his absolute lowest point, was granted power he didn't understand with no one to guide him, and wanted to get close to Shido to one day backstab him and give him a taste of his own medicine. The murders came later, when Shido "instructed him." And given the way Shido yells at Akechi about what happens to people who cross him, and given what he did to Futaba (the men in suits), his cleaner, and how many people he had on his side, on top of Sojiro making it very clear how cutthroat Shido was to his enemies... Akechi was screwed no matter what. His face, his name, all of it could be used to ruin him in the real world. Alone, he would not have been enough to go through Shido's Palace, given how much trouble the Phantom Thieves had as a group. Plus, y'know, this:
Something so many people ignore when they talk about Akechi and his murders and ignore everything else the narrative tries to say about him.
What P5 tries to say about Akechi is so important to its core themes. That, if Akechi hadn't been a victim of so much injustice, he might have never gone to such lengths. That doesn't undo the damage he's done, but it's so important to understanding why the game approaches him with sympathy rather than writing him off as pure evil. Because it didn't have to be this way. If he had just met Joker sooner, if he had just had somebody. Akechi represents what can happen to vulnerable children who are failed by systems meant to uphold justice and other ideals, and how those who have nothing, who have only ever been hurt, are far more likely to lash out in turn. Persona 5 places so much importance on the suffering of children and the ways society needs to improve for the sake of children. That, I think, is one of the key reasons Akechi is framed as a victim. He is a warning, a cry to do better.
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Would love to read something about Johnny or price grovelling to the missus after an argument or something and her making him work for it
Omgg this is Johnny coded (though I might redo this one and do Price instead because like... Yeah :) )
Warnings: mentions of smut, but other than that it's good :)
AN: I'm sick rn, but I was less lethargic while writing this!
"Bonnie.." he whines out, head resting on your stomach, "c'mon.. gimme a break.."
Johnny acts like this every *single* time you both argue. His fault or yours, he always gets those stupid(ly adorable) puppy dog eyes and huffs and pouts until he gets his way -straight inside you.-
"I said 'm sorrae, lovie... I meant it," Johnny mumbles out, reaching up and out to grab your breasts.
You let out a scoff, "John." He's immediately deterred, pulling his hand away and letting it waver in the air.
"Bonnie."
"What are you trying to do here, hm?" You ask, crossing your arms. He sits up beside your figure, resting his hands awkwardly in his lap.
"Bonnie.." he tries again, a slight whine to his voice, "C'mon.. y'know I wan'it, an' you're wantin' too, your panties are probably sopping."
You flush at the comment, he wasn't necessarily wrong, but it annoyed you.
"No, Johnny. You can't sleep your way into being forgiven," you say, trying your damnedest to hold out and not be spread out over your bed in about five minutes. He pouts a little harder, this time leaning in.
"Bonnie.." he whines, closing the distance and softly kissing you. You let him do this, kissing back with no ferver or fire. He groans in annoyance and pulls back, grabbing your jaw and turning your face, "Don' be a sourpuss, bonnie.." he grumbles, causing you to chuckle.
He leans in again and kisses you, it's romantic and nice and perfect--just like Johnny. This time you kiss back, your lips a soft embrace over his own. He cups your cheeks, climbing on top of you when you break away.
"You cheeky devil.." you mumble, arms going around Johnny's neck, shaking your head.
"I know I am, you love i', bonnie," he responds, straddling your hips and leaning in to kiss you again. His hands cradle you, holding you like you're special and need to be loved. He pulls back after a small peck, looking into your eyes, almost expectantly.
You let out a heavy sigh, "I always cave," you grumble, rolling your eyes before saying, "Yes, you're forgiven."
He leans in eagerly, kissing you with all the passion he can muster. His tongue is running along your bottom lip, his hands holding you against him.
Needless to say he's forgiven.
#the missus#call of duty cold war#cod black ops#cod cold war#black ops#cod fanfiction#call of duty#john soap mctavish#john soap mactavish#soap call of duty#call of duty soap#soap cod#soap mactavish#johnny soap mactavish#soap mw2#cod soap#john soap mactavish x reader#john soap mactavish x you#john soap mctavish x reader#johnny soap mactavish x reader#johnny soap mctavish x reader#soap mactavish x reader#soap x reader#soap x you#john mactavish#johnny mactavish#johnny mactavish x female reader#johnny mactavish x reader#johnny mctavish x reader
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Fidds, while he and Stan are sitting outside silently: I love ya, Stanley.
Stan: Love you too, Fidds.
Fidds: No, I mean I really love ya. I love ya so much, to the moon an' back.
Stan: Uhm... okay? The feeling is mutual?
Fidds, urgently: Stanley, please, I need ya t' understand that I love ya!
Stan, chuckling nervously: Hey, what's gotten into you, Honey Bunches? I know you love me. Ya say it every day.
Fidds: But do ya believe it?
Stan: What??? Of course I do! I did marry you; that's gotta mean something, right?
Fidds, twirling his wedding band around: Yeah. O' course it does. Sorry, Oats. I guess I got a little anxious.
Stan, suddenly catching on: Right... anything specific that... y'know...?
Fidds: The silence.
Stan: The silence?
Fidds: *Hums and Nods* I ain't used t' havin' silence like this. Even... back then... I had some sorta noise at all times. A Critter or a prankster skitterin' 'round and keepin' me outta my thinkin' place.
Stan: Hmm... d'you... would me wearing a bell help?
Fidds, surprised but amused: A bell?
Stan: Yeah! That way you'll always hear something, and that something will, mostly, be me! Your 100% favorite person on earth!
Fidds: *Giggles* Thank ya much fer the suggestion, hon, but I think it'd be better if we just, I dunno, talked?
Stan: About...
Fidds: Life, love, our future. *Looks at His Wedding Band* Our future.
Stan, after a moment of thinking: Alright, I can do that. And I can also take you to the best restaurants! Better than Greasy's!
Fidds: Oh, my! Better than Greasy's? Well, ya certainly know how t' pamper someone, don't ya?
Stan: No, I know how to pamper my husband. Now, c'mere!
Fidds: *Squeaks as He's Pulled Into a Kiss* Stanley! Manners!
Stan: You say that like you hate my kisses.
Fidds, clearly smitten: Y'know what I meant, goofball.
Stan: Yeah, I do... another kiss? Please?
Fidds: That's much better.
They spent the rest of the day kissing and cuddling and saying "I love you" every five seconds
#Gravity Falls#Fiddlestan#Don't Mind Fidds#He's Just Having a Crisis#But Stanley Pines is a Wonderful Husband Who Does Whatever He Can to Make Fidds Happy#Even if That's Just Being There to Listen to Fidds and Provide a Distraction From His Fears#They're Both Horrifically Traumatized#Stan is Just Slightly Better at Hiding it#He Hides His Episodes so Fidds Doesn’t Worry#Master of Healthy Communication Here Folks 🙄
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I'm gonna be fr: as an ex anti, it's so surreal how peaceful proshippers are in comparison. Like, if you've never been an anti, you probably wouldn't understand so I'll try to explain what I mean.
Imagine seeing people getting harassed and getting call out posts made about them. All of your friends reblog these posts and make vague posts about your other friends who have ships that aren't just wholesome and pure because their definition of "proship" is anything that isn't just wholesome. You see your friends make posts over explaining their ships to answer these vague posts.
You feel so scared everyday, fearing that you'll do or say something that'll get you called out. You obsessively check your followers/followings because you've seen your friends call people out for even just following a proshipper. You don't dare post about any relationship that even has the possibility to be misinterpreted as less than wholesome. You tell your friends that maybe they shouldn't suibait people and they imply that you're a proshipper so you stop saying anything about it.
So you believe that proshippers are probably this intense, right? If proshippers are the "bad guys" and antis are the "good guys", then proshippers have to be even worse!
But now that I've taken the time to learn more about proshippers, I just feel very... Saddened that I didn't learn about it sooner, y'know? Proshippers are wonderful in comparison! The amount of times I've seen proshippers trying their best to explain their stance to bad faith actors without getting angry while antis fly out the gate with insults is just very interesting.
The only reason antis are as pervasive as they are is because they're bullies and their ideology is based on personal/moral accusations. They attack you at your "morals". That's why they automatically go "so you're a pedo" when you say you're proship. It's a personal attack meant to make you go "No, I'm not-" and then you've lost the argument because they successfully switched the conversation from logic to judging your character. While proshippers don't attack because no parts of "don't like don't read" and "ship and let ship" lend itself towards harassment.
Idk a lot of words just to say that I really do love being a proshipper. I wish I could call myself a proshipper on main. 🫶
#fandom ramble#antishippers dni#lukewarm take#fandom wank#proship#proshippers please interact#op is a proshipper#antis dni
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Forever mourning that we would’ve had a scene in the finale where the protagonists apparently reach a resolution with Odalia on some level??? It got cut so Camila could take her place and hell yeah more for Camila, never gonna apologize for that. But man it’d have been nice to have both. The Odalia-Collector storyline set up in CotH was evidently going somewhere there but in the end the finale was already extended ten minutes past the usual mark.
Also yes plsss on the twins! Emira my dearrrrr you were molded into the new Odalia into the next showman matriarch while your sister was meant to become the next Alador the next moneymaker!!! What are your thoughts what if we had a storyline about you being your own person!!! I have to acknowledge that there’s always someone who’s going to have to take the fall for another character to shine at this point in the story but man.
i'm actually mostly happy with how things ended with odalia. i really like that amity never forgives her and continues to go no-contact with her. far too often, media does a "but they're your PARENT, it would be wrong to cut them out of your life" message, and having that be the dominant cultural narrative can be really harmful to victims of parental abuse. so it was VERY refreshing to see a story that said "this character going no contact with her abusive parent was the right choice"
that said, i think there could have been a way to give odalia's storyline more of a resolution without tossing that down message down the drain.
see, you know how i've complained before about how making odalia a full-on villain really undercut her storyline as just an abusive mother. how it accidentally kiiinda had the implication of like "the abuse on its own wasn't enough to cut her off. she had to be willing to kill literally her entire race in order to earn that." which i don't think was intentional.
i think it would have been cool if the resolution to her arc was like. she's no longer a full on villain. she helps our protagonists and makes up for her involvement in the big plot. she's technically on our side now... but that still doesn't make up for the abuse, and amity still is better off without her in her life.
i'm imagining a scene of like, after odalia helps the gang with the collector in some way, she talks to amity. says something like "i will admit that you were right, for once. helping with the day of unity was a poor business decision on my part." and maybe even a "these months with the collector have shown me you weren't such a bad daughter" perhaps followed by a pompous "so i will forgive your little outburst at the factory and accept you as a member of my family again" (despite, y'know, being the one who got cut off)
so amity goes off on her. says it wasn't about the day of unity. or, at least, wasn't JUST about the day of unity. that it was about the years of being treated like a puppet rather than a person (cue some kind of clever shot of the collector's puppets). she says that he friends have shown her what real love is supposed to look like, and her time with camila has shown her how mothers are supposed to treat children, and that none of odalia's actions have matched that. so she says that no, she will not be allowing odalia to be her family anymore.
and odalia doesn't understand, just keeps arguing that she only did these things because she wanted what was best for her family. and so amity leaves.
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AND YESSS THE TWINS. like. i get it. the show had a lot going on and not a lot of time, of course the protagonist's girlfriend's siblings aren't gonna get that much time dedicated to them. but man. i love me a fucked up family and i want to know more about those two so bad. emira especially. like her twin brother (who, up to that point, had exactly as much relevance as her) got his own episode subplot and she got nothing! and like she interests me for all the reasons you said AND like. she seems to be odalia's favorite (perhaps tied with edric, perhaps even above him) but she seems even more cynical about BOTH of their parents than amity does. AND LIKE she's got eldest daughter syndrome despite being a TWIN! she seems to feel responsibility for looking after her brother who is the exact same age as her! i need to know what's the deal with that dynamic! god the fic ideas and headcanons i have about her that i never got around to writing/finishing
#eliot posts#toh#the owl house#odalia blight#emira blight#part of me still wants to finish the custody battle/home repair fic someday#it was gonna deal primarily w themes of alador having to win the twins' trust#bc he doesn't seem to have the same bond w them that he does with amity#(as well as jealousy directed at amity over that fact + amity growing to understand their side of things too)#also emira's more complicated feelings towards odalia and odalia making an effort for her favorite children but not for amity#but that effort still ultimately ringing hollow because she wants them back as posessions and mini-me's rather than as their own people#and emira having to figure out who she is outside of being her siblings' caretaker#and learning to let herself be taken care of#but also alador has to EARN her trust that he can be relied upon to take care of her AND her siblings#interspersed with domestic moments and the rebuilding of a house symbolising the rebuilding of a family and healing from abuse#it was perhaps a bit ambitious of me but Oh Well#i also wanna finish interlacing (and also rewrite the chapters i have rekeased cuz i Don't Like Them anymore lol)#the next chapter was gonna tackle emira's identity struggles both as a twin and as a caretaker#actually utilizing hunter as a foil for her there bc that boy's issues are best utilized as a tool to explore other characters' issues imo
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Delighted to say that I spent two hours and went absolutely tunnel-vision insane and cleaned so much of my room and also packed.
#moving is hell and ill say that with my dying breath#which may come sooner than anticipated if i have to keep moving#ive been so bad at cleaning and packing lately and i need to get good fast because im moving in (checks calendar)#seven weeks. which sounds like a lot but it isnt#because my brain will keep repeating 'we still have seven weeks' up until my dad pulls up with the uhaul#time doesnt make sense in my brain. i have a bad brain#so today i didnt have work so i buckled down and cleaned so fucking much#old doordash bags in the trash. old soda bottles recycled. trash taken out. rug vacuumed. desk cleared. shit picked up#and so much packed!!#books. mugs. camp stuff. art supplies. clothes. blankets. stuffed animals. heater. and so much more!#i have a pile in my bedroom just dedicated to shit ive packed and it looks amazing#you know when you just get in the zone. auto zone#no that's not what i meant to say but y'know#it was good. fantastic. that's all of my energy for the next week used up#im just so proud of myself tbh#gonna go dye my hair now. and do some laundry
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I'll take care of you, take care of you. That's true.
#OFMD#Our Flag Means Death#OFMD Season 2#Gentlebeard#Blackbonnet#Edward Teach#Stede Bonnet#Edit#ofmdedit#ofmdgifs#ofmd gifs#ofmdblog#ofmdsource#ofmdaily#tv gifs#television gifs#DON'T KNOW WHERE THIS SUDDEN GIFING BURST CAME FROM BUT Y'KNOW WHAT HSDLKS#I'LL TAKE IT#MAYBE IT'S ~*~THE MONTH~*~#also the way my soul belonged to beach house all through may lol Send Help#ALSO also i feel like this is something of a Spiritual Sequel/Successor/Pair to my OTHER stede bunnet set hsdklsj#because in my eyes everything he's saying to that little bunny is essentially what he'd be telling stede#it's meant for stede#soooooo something something him vowing to keep that little bunny safe is also him vowing to keep HIS little bunny safe#AND HE DOES
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~ X Marks Th' Spot ~
'Cause they matter... ...N'... I see now... I matter... I understand, I'm th' treasure, You'll pay fer keeping me from them.
#Y'know what they say about truth.#It's painful#Captain Kuro Solaire#ffxiv screenshots#Final Fantasy XIV#FF14#Getting closer to mastering the new style#Taken sleepless nights though#But passion is meant to engulf#I gladly will become cinder#ffxiv wol#ffxiv miqo'te#miqo'te#FFXIV Screenshots#Gpose
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Let him dad her!! (Patreon)
#Doodles#Adventure Time#Fionna and Cake#Fionna Campbell#Simon Petrikov#I cannot BeLieve that they didn't hug at any point - illegal. One million years dungeon#She slapped him (deservedly) but they didn't hug by the end??? I had to fix it#Jerry is my favourite episode so that at least was an easy choice lol#If anywhere would be a good place to cross that line it would be to comfort her! I can't imagine he'd initiate tho haha#She's just seeking comfort so badly <3 I know she's at least legally considered an adult but she's still a kid!#And Simon just keeps adopting kids lol#He's a good dad :) Not a perfect one but y'know? He helps where he can#Sometimes all we need is a parent figure giving you a hug and saying ''You know what? You're right - this sucks. But I see you''#Fionna's quite interesting 'cause like - she's meant to be a Finn but there are a lot of differences between her and quite a few Finns!#A lot of that is Because she lived in Simon's head for so long but I wonder - most Finns have decent support systems and she seems a little#Well not lacking Exactly but her fallbacks aren't as numerous - and she's not able to fulfill her life's purpose so she's just kinda wayward#Seeing that kind of Finn finally able to spread their wings but still have a lot of Finn trappings like naivety and impulsivity ♪#She's interesting! I quite like her :D Plus it's cool to see her natural EQ when she calls out Simon later in this episode unknowingly haha#I stopped at episode eight for a while but year her line about ''Then you got on the bus right? :D'' and him refuting it#Hmmm ♪ It was certainly interesting - I'm glad they addressed it :)#Plus she's fun to draw haha ♫ Her bunny ears! And the jacket she took from Martin </3 She has a fun design#And as always Simon is fun to draw :) Especially piecemeal here haha - just his mouth or just his eyes ♪ Cute :)
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Man if Marcy keeps ending up with like child protection services in all these fics over her parents being slightly distant then my parents should be in JAIL
#idk if I'm wording it correctly but this goes hand in hand with some posts I#I've made abt Marcy's parents not being super great but also not being like...#like i didn't imagine them as outright abusive or deserving of losing custody over her#and people kept reblogging them and tagging them as abuse?? 😭😭#like if THAT is abuse. then what the fuck what up at my house#c'mon! her parents growing to kinda hate her because they couldn't stand her personality and failing to fulfill her emotional needs#while still always making sure she always had her material needs met#and doing their best not to blow up at her#resulting in them always acting mildly annoyed towards her#is not *really* abuse. right? like that's just how pretty much every parent feels tbh#like i've never seen a parent who genuinely likes their kids. every parent i know is either sick of them or morbidly depressed#like wondering why the hell they chose this life for themselves#some parents are just better at being optimistic and focusing on the nice parts than others#but not all have the mental fortitude to smile through the disgust and resentment they feel all the time#which tbh is an inhumane thing to ask from a person. parents are humans too and there's only so much a person can repress#i'm convinced parents like the boonchuys only exist in fiction#i just imagine Marcy's parents as being average parents who just don't always have the patience a kid like Marcy needs#like over here my parents are breaking my assistive devices and spying on me while i'm in the bathroom and I never considered that abuse#i just used to drive them insaneeeee back in the day lol#just like with friends and couples. sometimes parents and their kids aren't meant for each other y'know? and maybe that's just Marcy's case#i do know that's my case#but strangers online are here crying abuse for less#so now i'm like. hehehehe. say what now#personal
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Good day! A genuine question. Do you really won't think about comment like " WOW!!! Thank you for this chapter! " from a person who usually writes more in-depth commentaries as something like " they didn't llke it enough for the extra sentence or two " ?
Hi anon!
So, everyone's human. Even the people who love to leave longer comments get tired sometimes, or have other things going on in their life.
And I'd rather those people leave a shorter comment or an emoji, than like, feel guilty about not leaving long comments, or just vanish into thin air (at which point I just assume they've stopped reading, because I have literally no evidence otherwise unless they're sending replies or something else). Though obviously people can stop commenting too!
There are some people who leave me three hearts (or around 3 hearts) every chapter they read. I take them as little extra kudos, or just a little sign of appreciation. It's someone going 'I'm here, I like this.' And I reply with little hearts as a little sign of appreciation to go 'I'm here too, thank you, I see you.'
That's special to me.
I love love love long meaty comments that I can sink my teeth into, but I love all my commenters, anon.
But even the people who love leaving long comments get tired, get stressed out, can't think of words, have nothing to say because they're speechless, and then it's like well, I hope they feel comfortable enough to just leave a 💜💜💜 - and if they can't, they can't.
If people don't like my fic, anon, they stop reading! They don't leave comments, they stop leaving comments and they disappear (which is why when a regular commenter vanishes, that's when I think they don't like the chapter/s or story anymore, which is fair, and they don't have to, but sometimes it can make me a little sad).
But yeah the sign of a person who doesn't like to read a story is a person who isn't there to read the story at all! Not someone who only has the energy or will to leave a sentence or two! Some of those people don't speak English as a first language, and still practicing, some are really tired, some genuinely don't have much to say, some are embarrassed because it was a sex scene, etc. There's lots of reasons!
Everyone who's ever left a long comment doesn't need my permission, but certainly has it to leave extremely tiny comments when it's all they can manage / and they want to leave something! Honestly, putting pressure on yourself to leave long comments every single time can actually stress people out to the point that they stop reading fics when they know they can't comment like that, I've been in that position myself and that's not...what we're going for.
I want people to enjoy the story first, because like...that's...what I want the most. :)
(For folks wondering, this is - I think - in reference to this post I reblogged earlier today).
#asks and answers#pia on fanfiction#pia on writing#pia on fandom#i don't think 'didn't they like it enough to say more' - that thought has never entered my mind anon!#i think 'wow they liked it!'#or 'wow they left little hearts that's sweet'#some people can't think of what to say for lots and lots of reasons#and lots of people are so tired and so burnt out right now#even i am#so we have to spend our energy wisely#i love *all* my commenters#from the ones who leave two random comments#to the ones who comment every chapter#to the ones who comment long comments and short ones#to the ones who only send hearts#in fact there are lurkers who i think never ever would have commented#if i hadn't said i was okay with hearts and stuff first#and they learned i *meant it*#sometimes you gotta start easy y'know?
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Alright now that Summer Nights is over its time to lock in and be on guard cause Nintendo could announce FinalFest literally at any moment. The World's End splatfest was obviously suspicious as fuck and that’s usually the trigger for a FinalFest announcement. So for everything to go on as normal this time means some actual world ending shit might happen. Im betting on IdolFest happening or another popular idea where it's the three poisons each Deep Cut member represents. More rambling under the read more Im just talking out my ass at this point.
Tbh at first I thought the FinalFest would be another race war with Salmoninds as the third option due to their increasing presence in both cities. But that immediately didn't make sense since A) Lore wise it would be ridiculous for there to even be Inklings vs Octolings and B) Nintendo might be cooking something bigger with the Salmoninds if Big Big Run was anything to go by. Im doing all this yappin just to say and Idol Theme splatfest is the most likely outcome my mindless rambling knows no bounds.
#rev's ramblings#I meant to post this like an hour ago but I got distracted thinking about old man cephalopod yaoi#And trying to determine what the distance from Splatsville to Inkadia would have been 6 years ago#Since y'know both Hammerhead Bridge and the train station were still under construction#Anyways buckle up cause FinalFest might be closer than we think#I didn't believe that Summer Nights was the gonna be it like everyone was saying it was#Mainly because I didn't get the feeling and they definitely would have announced it probably#But now? Ho boy the next one might be it#splatoon 3#splatoon#splatfest
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#been thinking a lot lately about if i want a new name#and what that name would be#gui is just a nickname for my birth name so it's meant as a temporary thing#and y'know i've been thinking about a lot of names#but yesterday the name Pallas came to me#and... i'm sort of very on board with it?#like it's not a full Woman Name like say Cereza or Cassandra#it's vaguely feminine in sound but could be a neutral name for all intents and purposes#plus i've never met anyone with Pallas as a given name not even online#it's fairly unique and that has appeal to my i'm not like other girls side#we'll see#ugh wish i could start transition already#but... money....#also idk how to talk about this with my dad rn#he's not reactionary or anything but it's always scary#wish i didn't have to depend on him for that#doesn't feel very big girl of me to not even pay for my own transition
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mmm found a song with lyrics that fit hhau grian so well.
you're begging me somehow to believe that you could take it if i'd only find a way to let you in but i'd feel like i'm selfish don't know how to help it and so i wonder if you'd be better off without me i'll kill the time 'til you see that i'm nothing more than a lost cause 'cause i've been drowning in the violence bleeding out in silence 'cause i'm nothing more than a lost cause oh, i feel like a lost cause so could you find a way to try to save me now
#dw about the line that's later in the song#that says#“i know i said i wouldn't run this time”#:3#and we do know he runs at the rescue bit#but maybe that's not what i'm referencing here#.... ok no you know what okay yes i WILL tease#so what if there was another time when grian and scar separated#and grian did not expect to see scar ever again after that#i did say there's angst and things to look forward to on some other post i believe :3c#“you'd be better off without me” does not encompass only scar but it does consume grian so much#grian does very much feel like a lost cause#the more the longer he spends in this world </3#there are tiny ups!!#but they make the lows that much lower y'know#having hope? having a glimpse of healing?#that just gives you more things to lose#and losing them just makes you see that you can never truly have them#they're not meant for you#aaaanyway i need to stop with the tag rambles pff-#hhau
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I wish I could like inquisition bc it's technically a good game and I would love it if it was just a standalone game that had nothing to do with dragon age, but it just doesn't feel like a dragon age game to me.
#inquisition critical#it's the exact kind of game you get as a result of trying to get your game to reach a broader audience instead of sticking to its genre#i dont play rpgs for the combar but still god it feels so bad in inquisition#it feels like an mmorpg#tactical mode sucks ass. it can't even be compared to wath dao and da2 had#why would you take a good series and make a game to it that's meant to appeal to as many people as possible instead of uh. idk! people who#enjoy the genre the game is supposed to be#inquisition feels so bland and lacks personality bc of it all#gh i'm bad at expressing my exact emotions about this but y'know#this isnt related to the game directly but also i hate how everyone wants to turn everything into an open world game#what does it say about the quality of the open world if getting into a closed or semi closed area feels relieving?#but thats a complaint i have for. numerous games.#leevi liveblogs
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THE DANCING DRUID | BALDUR'S GATE 3 AU
you remember now. foraging for herbs, goblins swarming you, a painful blow to your skull, and then... nothing. how is it you came to be aboard a nautiloid?
you are more concerned about the tadpole in your head than how it got there. you are more curious how you are not a splatter of viscera upon the beach. who cares how it happened? you have no idea where you are and ache all over. ► could the goblins have something to do with it?
you have never known goblins to align themselves with illithids, but you suppose there is a first time for everything. no matter your theories, the pressing matter of your tadpole hangs over your head; you need to find a healer. soon.
born to a drow mother and human father, chiyo grew up in a small village in the wilds of faerun. she felt more at home among the flora than people who eyed her warily, though, often exploring the forest, marking paths to pretty fields and little hideaways. it seemed to come natural to chiyo, like she belonged among the bubbling brooks and whispering leaves. it felt natural.
noticing her affinity for nature, her father taught her how to harness its magic and how to honor and serve silvanus; her mother, too, taught her the teachings of eilistraee, the goddess who had wished for the drow to return to the surface as well as the deity she had once served as a cleric. the young half-drow sometimes doubted that the gods would truly watch over someone so insignificant, but she learned and worshipped them nonetheless.
there came a day when her father decided it was time that they return to the circle he left long ago. his attempts to create one of his own had been unsuccessful over the years, and chiyo could learn from the druids there, find a community that she would never find in the village they currently lived in. so they left for the emerald grove, and there they have stayed.
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chiyo is a druid of the circle of the land, focusing more on magic that manipulates the elements than wild shaping; eilistraee also plays a part in her magic/combat, making her partial to blades and allowing her to use spellsong to heal and buff/debuff those around her. she may wield moonfire as well, though this spell is mainly intended to provide light rather than having any combat use.
she and her family have lived in the emerald grove for the past 8 years, making chiyo 28 in this verse. she's familiar with the druids and tieflings, most likely on good terms with most of them, but i won't assume close friendships unless plotted/given the okay!
she still has similar issues to her original verses, such as struggling to make real connections and opening herself up and being vulnerable. even so, she makes the decision to continue travelling with her companions not only because it's the right thing to do and her fate hangs in the balance, but because she grows attached to them.
i'm writing chiyo as " tav, " but i don't mind one bit writing her as a companion -- basically if you want your muse to be the group's leader, just let me know <3
i won't be using icons for this verse, but i'll have a screenshot of chiyo's appearance below!
i'm sure i'll add more here as things come to mind!
#the dancing druid | baldur's gate 3 | chiyoko#me: i dunno what i'm gonna write#me a lil bit later and after a bunch of reading: actually--#there was more i could've written but it wasn't relevant to interact with her asdfg#reading about eilistraee gave me so many brain worms my gosh#y'all let me know if there's something important i need to include bc i am just kinda ??? what else do i need to exactly say??#we've got her origin and i've got ideas as to how she'd handle certain situations so i think we're good but y'know#there might be something i'm not thinking of uvu#for now i'm dropping this on the dash and leaving to get a few things done bc i really spent much longer than i meant to on this#bro i gotta eat something and i gotta clean.......... i don't wanna do that latter but :(#headcanons | chiyoko
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