#no one talks to me i'm sensitive

[ifellforittwice]

Niall and Ryley Tate on ep. 16 of The Voice US: “I do feel protective over him”.

©NBC's The Voice USA, 2023.

[karliahs]

okay i do have to post Something from a soft place to land or i'm gonna explode...

[seasononesam]

2x21 // 15x20

I’m gonna take care of you. I’m gonna take care of you. I’ve got you.

Hold on. Okay. I got you.

[milfbrainrot]

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I feel like in the past the mix of this site being used for both activism and fandom helped contribute to a lot of unhinged politicized fandom discourse where yeah ofc there's a political tie to media but ppl used it as... a form of activism where it was given disproportionate importance compared to other activism discussions? Whereas now we're swinging to the opposite site of How Dare You Care About Meaningless TV Shows When Politics.

Like... we can have a mix of realizing there's more important stuff to focus on than shipping discourse in the world at large without also minimizing the insane doxxing and death threats behavior going on in fandom that people in fandom have to take into consideration to be able to do their hobby, esp given how those attitudes stem from irl political climates at times in ways that are telling to study. Hobbies are kinda how we prevent activism burnout also. Crazey how that works.

[choccorin]

i don't think i'll have a new friend group this school year . . .

[deathsbestgirl]

okay i'm gonna try this again because i think i can say it better:

my post about mulder wasn't to say he's perfect or literally never done anything wrong or to hurt scully. i'm a mulder apologist to the extreme (scully too if you haven't noticed), but that isn't what i was doing.

mulder isn't doing it *to* her. he's doing what he does, he's working, he's following a path simultaneously set out for him & that he forged. he isn't intentionally doing anything to her, and he isn't being thoughtless or an asshole. that's so extremely reductive to me. yes i keep referencing trauma, because this fandom talks endlessly about scully's and dismisses mulder's. (all that the path to hell is paved with good intentions.)

but mainly what i'm talking about is that he's not responsible for her abduction, cancer, emily, melissa, etc etc. like i stated in the post. and somehow, he's still getting blamed for these things? as if it isn't the fault of aliens & the conspiracy of men & csm. literally everyone except mulder because he did not have a hand in it, he did not orchestrate any of it. a lot of the things scully goes through is because of these men who think they're gods, who have too much money & too much power. and the other chunk of it is the dangers of their job. which scully is aware of and she still chose then fbi. it's literally at the core of why she chose it, even if it takes her time to figure it out.

mulder does a lot because of his trauma & because he wants to believe, and it's all stepped in love. the alternative to not believing is terrifying for him — the way believing is terrifying for scully. they are so similar, but still fundamentally different. their approaches, their childhoods, their perspectives, what they cling to. they both deal with their trauma in different ways, and one very similar way: diving into work, using it to bury what they can't yet face or deal with, or bring into the light (each other).

anytime i talk about trauma, i don't mean "every single thing he did was perfectly okay because trauma" — i just mean people need room to figure that out and it isn't something he does *to* her. @actual-changeling said it pretty well here. intentions don't erase hurt but he's never tried to hurt her, and she's never tried to hurt him. it doesn't mean it didn't hurt them and of course that's valid. but it still isn't even what i was talking about. but i guess i'm going to anyway.

a huge part of their relationship is learning to communicate clearly & openly. people aren't just born knowing how to do it, and certainly not people with their history. this is how you heal & grow. (yes therapy can help, but it's extremely hard to do alone. because healing in relationship, in my opinion, is the most effective way. someone who will stick around for the hard parts, work with you through trial & error. loving you through your mistakes & struggles, as you're learning/unlearning. and it goes both ways.)

mulder carries guilt for things that aren't his fault (as does scully). i understand talking about it in this respect, but that isn't what i see very often. it's how horrible he is for what he does to her & puts her through. when most of what happens to scully is because of the job & csm & the syndicate. scully understood the dangers of her job. in irresistible, she tells karen kosseff she's aware there's predators in the world, it's her job to bring justice to these people and she needs to believe she's capable. she couldn't open up to mulder in that way yet, so she dealt with it in her own way. (she does this with her family too, she's the strong one.) later in the cancer arc, she admits to karen kosseff that she relies on mulder & his strength — but the only way she opened up emotionally, with true vulnerability, was in the letters she wrote to him in a journal. that she intended him to have after her death. it takes her years to just call him and not hang up when she needs him, and really it happens in fits and starts and backpedaling. but they continuously try! mulder is always trying to let her know she can show him her vulnerability, that he's there to support her. and she does the same for him. there are times they're successful, usually at very trying times for them. where they do talk, they take physical comfort. they learn the ways the other will accept care.

in fire, mulder pushes scully away but he learns it's a way she cares for him. doctorly & physical. he touches her cheek in beyond the sea & firewalker. she touches his arm in squeeze, conduit, pusher. she runs face first into his chest in the pilot, he lifts her chin & hugs her in irresistible. scully covers him in a blanket and pulls his head to her shoulder in herronvolk when his mom is lying in a hospital, near death. they learned each other's minds, what comforts the other and what they will allow and it slowly expands. as does their verbal communication.

i don't mean that his actions don't affect her, but it takes mulder a long time to really understand it because scully does not communicate her feelings, wants, needs. that's something that takes her a long time. there are ways they've both communicated these kinds of things that the other wasn't able to understand, or maybe didn't take seriously because of the circumstances. syzygy, never again, elegy, fight the future, triangle, dreamland, one son. it's why, to me, it's important leonard betts comes after never again. in never again they struggle to communicate, they're not on the same page. the choose silence instead of talking about it. but in leonard betts, he helps her dig through body parts without question. he tells her she did a good job, she should be proud. he didn't get it in never again, but he started to and he did something about it. there are many ways to take responsibility and changed actions, voicing things that matter, that the other person should hear is part of it.

sometimes i just think people are very unforgiving of mulder's struggle, the way he is because of his trauma. and he always does something wrong that's talked about almost like it's unforgivable when that isn't true. even if he was selfish in the cancer arc, he's helpless watching the person he loves most die "because" of him. someone who deserves answers & the truth as much as he does.

it upsets me because it's one of the most realistic & human things about them. it's one of the things handled so beautifully in this show. it's often so raw, the depth of connection & effort & patience & love. despairing yet full of hope & wonder. it so often robs scully of the little agency she does have. it feels dismissive to only focus on scully's. to ignore every step they take together & apart, the ways they change each other, the way they forgive each other everything because they have this intrinsic understanding.

scully's entire arc is difficult to watch, but so much of it is true to the reality of what women experience. yes it's a lot, but it's a tv show. and a scifi horror drama one at that. do they textually cover every single thing? no, but a lot of it is weaved into their cases (kaddish is always a standout to me) and the acting (which if you believe ga, comes across so well in the script she's able to grasp the cancer arc through them alone, not having experience with it herself). there is so much meaning in everything on this show.

the x files is about love because everything mulder (and scully) does is about love, comes from love. and people don't always love perfectly or well. and everyone understands the world & love differently. something else i think is incredibly poignant about their relationship. they keep learning each other until their way of loving completely merges on the foundation of their trust & faith in each other.

[littledesertfox]

Kinda thinking about whether I should post some of my art on here should I find the time to draw again ... on one hand I think it'd be nice to share it, but on the other hand I'm worried that somehow, people who know me from my regular account will stumble across this one and recognise my art style, and I'll be called out/cancelled because they probably won't understand this community🤐

[blujayonthewing]

felix: [takes limerick aside early in the campaign and confides, with difficulty because he's ashamed about it, that he sometimes has trouble speaking at all, because he wants at least someone to have fair warning ahead of it possibly coming up if he's gonna be traveling in a group for any amount of time]

limerick the first time felix mostly loses speech: you've been really quiet, everything okay? do you have any thoughts to add [to this discussion]? :)

limerick last session when simon lowkey assigned felix to go do a social encounter: I'll go with you, to help with the talking :)

limerick as soon as we're in the social encounter: [looks directly at felix, expectantly]

[chocosvt]

oh

[manuinout]

Me, who's an anxious and sensitive auDHD that feels absolutely scared of watching anything Inside Out related that isn't from the only Pixar account I see, scared of having a heart attack:

[lutarre]

this has nothing to do with any mutuals, i just happened to be browsing tags and blogs by extension for stuff to queue. but. i don't feel like it's necessary to vague post about someone you've blocked. especially if it's about past details that are no longer relevant.

[shalom-iamcominghome]

As much as I appreciate and admire my family's religion because it brings them comfort and strength, there really isn't anything else like being told to youtube search for videos about atheists going to hell and then coming back to life, and knowing that, functionally, you are the same as an atheist because you aren't xtian to them. Like!!! Being told inadvertently and in a roundabout way that I'm going to hell by my dad is very odd, and the only thing to say in his defense is I have never delved into my religious beliefs and practices at all once. I'm just in awe about the idea of hell frankly

[shikai-the-storyteller]

Why on earth is Pac giving a tour of his house

[dandyshucks]

feel like i should clarify re: last post but also idk how to clarify without the loop of "say something, clarify it, say something to clarify the clarification, say something to clarify the clarification's clarification, etc etc etc" happening so like. y'all know me well enough to know that i'm not saying anything weird or bad. i am Literally Only talking about folklore. that's it. nothing else. no other things. just folklore. do not try to fill in gaps that are not there please ;-;

[parlerenfleurs]

It is actually really tiring to see so many mean jokes about France and people hating France online, especially with some French people cheerfully agreeing to what is sometimes plain falsehood at worst or stereotypical nonsense at best.

I'm not nationalistic. I didn't even grow up on the mainland. I'm not even french on both sides of my family. And yes, a lot of French people suck (case in point: they elected Macron twice), our government sucks, and, yes, historically France colonized other countries and is still fucking with some African countries' governements and selling armament and generally being a lot of the awful things countries which have some power tend to do internationally in this giant mess that our current dominating system is.

Why don't people talk about that if they've got a problem with France instead of making shitty hurtful jokes, I wonder? Why is it okay to dunk on us? We're not pitiful, but by the same metric the USA for instance are not exactly pitiful either, and yet, people mostly make the effort to put some nuance into their criticisms, to reblog pleas for understanding and explanations of the complex nature of things and situations from interested parties.

We are a whole country with many different regional cultures, quirks, dialects and histories. We are a whole population with many different individuals, just like everywhere else. We have poets, and good authors, and great artists just like everywhere else. We are the good and the bad, and are frustrated and dismayed at our government's actions, or at our violent history, just like everywhere else. Where does not have a violent history, and where does not have most people upset about it, after all?

For some reason it seems it is fashionable to make fun of us and that it is socially unacceptable to defend ourselves when it happens. And since this is an USAmerican dominated space, I do have to wonder, and if you're USAmerican you should ask yourself that too: is this the consequence of the passionate anti-French propaganda that took place when our President at the time (rightfully) condemned and criticised the war in Irak? Is this what is being echoed and perpetuated here, like a virus in our collective consciousness, even though it's not conscious?

I would like for people online to treat us with as much grace and attempt to have as much nuance as they would any other country (and to fact check things for goodness' sake). Don't just treat a whole country callously and mispronounce our words like there is no other way to pronounce them that exists and say whatever because you think it's funny to repeat mean jokes or can't be bothered to wonder if this is the truth. We are online too, we see your jokes and sloppy caricatures, be they intended as flattering or not. We may not necessarily love this country, we may not necesseraly identify strongly with it, but we are a part of it and it is a part of us, whether we want it or not, and when you dump everyone in the same crudely made basket, then we're definitely part of it, whether we want it or not.

[growingwithem]

Lee Hyukjae taking a break...