#no me ama

[missinfortunio]

Basta ya. Estoy harta.

No voy a mendigar amor nunca más.

Ya me cansé de las sobras.

Ya me cansé de ser la segunda opción.

[randik-86]

Dancing barefoot in the kitchen

[nyx07]

Me dijiste que yo ya no era una niña y que empezara a madurar. Ese día, justo en ese momento pude ver que nunca te darías cuenta, cuenta de que esta niña, tierna, amorosa y detallista aparecía solo contigo, nadie más tenía eso de mí, y tu acababas de renegar de ello, entonces entendí que nunca me quisiste y que por más que yo quisiera, jamás me ibas querer, me rompiste el corazón, pero me salvaste de ti.

ℕ𝕐𝕏-𝟘𝟟

[catgirlbae]

Hace un año escribi aqui por ese motivo, hace dos y hace tres estoy segura que también, sigo sintiendome igual, la que nunca eligen, la que nadie encuentra, la que sueña con amar y que la amen , que llora de panico cada que hay una leve posibilidad por que tiene miedo de que falle de nuevo y solo sea su mente engañandola, como lo ha sido todas las veces anteriores …

Cada año estoy mas asustada, cada año soy mas grande, cada año la oportunidad y el tiempo se van y yo sigo aqui sola mendigando atención y mimos y nisiquiera asi puedo conseguirlo, cada año y cada dia es una oportunidad y tiempo que no volvera, crezco y todos también se hacen grandes a mi lado, pronto parecere la tia soltera solo que no tengo sobrinos, y no se si en algún momento mi sueño de amor se desvanecera y eso me da miedo, pensar que tal vez en un tiempo este tan decepcionada que desista y me condene a vivir sola y sin el amor que soñe, quiero mi amor adolescente, quiero magia, mimos, dormir abrazaditos, besitos en la frente, abrazos por la espalda, un brazo del cual agarrarme fuerte para sentirme segura, ese alguien con el que viviré mi primera vez, alguien a quien decirle todas las palabras bonitas que se me ocurren, alguien para besar en la disco en medio de un cancion mágica con las luces brillando a nuestro alrededor.

No quiero dejar de soñar, pero parece que la vida me lo esta negando, es como si en mi plan de vida se les olvidara anotar el amor, no quiero rendirme, por favor Dios , universo,Vida regálenme esa oportunidad de amar, tengo mucho miedo, no quiero perderme de un amor en mi juventud, quiero ser suficiente para alguien, tal vez no soy muy bonita , me falte ponerme brakets y tal vez hacer ejercicio, pero amaría tanto poder dormir sabiendo que el hombre que me ama me escribirá a la mañana siguiente para salir a caminar juntos

[diamelass]

porfavor, tratame bien...te juro que las intenciones son totalmente buenas, pero aveces el café se enfría y no es mi culpa, perdón..

[magicasonrisa]

¿El destino me odia o me lo pone a él adelante siempre apropósito?

[mysoulmateuwu]

Claro que me duele porque mientras yo te ame COMO A NADIE descubrí que tú me querías como lo habrías hecho con cualquier otra persona.

Tu drama emocional nunca fue por amor, todo fue gracias a tu carencia. Ahora pasarás a la siguiente, y repetirás la misma historia, incapaz de sentimientos profundos, mientras que YO morí de cierta manera. Perdí algo de mi alma que ya nunca voy a recuperar y lo peor es que lo DESPERDICIÉ contigo.

Y sé que debo soltar para sanar, y seguir adelante, con mi camino, pero en ocasiones no puedo evitar ODIARTE. Porque sé que esto que te llevaste, tú nunca, nunca me lo devolverás. Ladrón, no te lo merecías.

[genericpuff]

Tbh at this point you should just make your own webcomic app/website because it would probably be 100 times better than whatever going on with webtoon right now.

hahaha it wouldn't tho, sorry 💀

Here's the fundamental issue with webcomic platforms that a lot of people just don't realize (and why they're so difficult to run successfully):

Storage costs are incredibly expensive, it's why so many sites have limitations on file sizes / page sizes / etc. because all of those images and site info have to be stored somewhere, which costs $$$.

Maintenance costs are expensive and get more so as you grow, you need people who are capable of fixing bugs ASAP and managing the servers and site itself

Financially speaking, webcomics are in a state of high supply, low demand. Loads of artists are willing to create their passion projects, but getting people to read them and pay for them is a whole other issue. Demand is high in the general sense that once people get attached to a webtoon they'll demand more, but many people aren't actually willing to go looking for new stuff to read and depend more on what sites feed them (and what they already like). There are a lot of comics to go around and thus a lot of competition with a limited audience of people willing to actually pay for them.

Trying to build a new platform from the ground up is incredibly difficult and a majority of sites fail within their first year. Not only do you have to convince artists to take a chance on your platform, you have to convince readers to come. Readers won't come if there isn't work on the platform to read, but artists won't come if they don't think the site will be worth it due to low traffic numbers. This is why the artists with large followings who are willing to take chances on the smaller sites are crucial, but that's only if you can convince them to use the site in favor of (or alongside) whatever platform they're using already where the majority of their audience lies. For many creators it's just not worth the time, energy, or risk.

Even if you find short-term success, in the long-term there are always going to be profit margins to maintain. The more users you pull in, the more storage is used by incoming artists, the more you have to spend on storage and server maintenance costs, and that means either taking the risk at crowdfunding (ex. ComicFury) or having to resort to outsider investments (ex. Tapas). Look at SmackJeeves, it used to be a titan in the independent webcomic hosting community, until it folded over to a buyout by NHN and then was pretty much immediately shuttered due to NHN basically turning it into a manwha scanlation site and driving away its entire userbase. And if you don't get bought out and try your hand at crowdfunding, you may just wind up living on a lifeline that could cut out at any moment, like what happened to Inkblazers (fun fact, the death of Inkblazers was what kicked off the cultural shift in Tapas around 2015-16 when all of IB's users migrated over and brought their work with them which was more aimed towards the BL and romancee drama community, rather than the comedy / gag-a-day culture that Tapas had made itself known for... now you deadass can't tell Tapas apart from a lot of scanlation sites because it got bought out by Kakao and kept putting all of its eggs into the isekai/romance drama basket.)

Right now the mindset in which artists and readers are operating is that they're trying way, way too hard to find a "one size fits all" site. Readers want a place where they can find all their favorite webtoons without much effort, artists wants a place where they can post to an audience of thousands, and both sides want a community that will feel tight-knit. But the reality is that you can't really have all three of those things, not on one site. Something always winds up having to be sacrificed - if a site grows big enough, it'll have to start seeking more funding while also cutting costs which will result in features becoming paywall'd, intrusive ads, creators losing their freedom, and/or outsider support which often results in the platform losing its core identity and alienating its tight-knit community.

If I had to describe what I'm talking about in a "pick one" graphic, it would look something like this:

(*note: this is mostly based on my own observations from using all of these sites at some point or another, they're not necessarily entirely accurate to the statistical performance of each site, I can only glean so much from experience and traffic trackers LMAO that said I did ask some comic pals for input and they were very helpful in helping me adjust it with their own takes <3).

The homogenization of the Internet has really whipped people into submission for the "big sites" that offer "everything", but that's never been the Internet, it relies on being multi-faceted and offering different spaces for different purposes. And we're seeing that ideology falter through the enshittification of sites like Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, etc. where users are at odds with the platforms because the platforms are gutting features in an attempt to satisfy shareholders whom without the platforms would not exist. Like, most of us aren't paying money to use social media sites / comic platform sites, so where else are they gonna make the necessary funds to keep these sites running? Selling ad space and locking features behind paywalls.

And this is especially true for a lot of budding sites that don't have the audience to support them via crowdfunding but also don't have the leverage to ask for investments - so unless they get really REALLY lucky in EITHER of those departments, they're gonna be operating at a loss, and even once they do achieve either of those things there are gonna be issues in the site's longevity, whether it be dying from lack of growing crowdfunding support or dying from shareholder meddling.

So what can we do?

We can learn how to take our independence back. We don't have to stop using these big platforms altogether as they do have things to offer in their own way, particularly their large audience sizes and dipping into other demographics that might not be reachable from certain sites - but we gotta learn that no single site is going to satisfy every wish we have and we have to be willing to learn the skills necessary to running our own spaces again. Pick up HTML/CSS, get to know other people who know HTML/CSS if you can't grasp it (it's me, I can't grasp it LOL), be willing to take a chance on those "smaller sites" and don't write them off entirely as spaces that can be beneficial to you just because they don't have large numbers or because they don't offer rewards programs. And if you have a really polished piece of work in your hands, look into agencies and publishing houses that specialize in indie comics / graphic novels, don't settle for the first Originals contract that gets sent your way.

For the last decade corporations have been convincing us that our worth is tied to the eyes we can bring to them. Instead of serving ourselves, we've begun serving the big guys, insisting that it has to be worth something eventually and that it'll "payoff" simply by the virtue of gambler's fallacy. Ask yourself what site is right for you and your work rather than asking yourself if your work is good enough for them. Most of us are broke trying to make it work on these sites anyways, may as well be broke and fulfilled by posting in places that actually suit us and our work if we can. Don't define your success by what sites like Webtoons are enforcing - that definition only benefits them, not you.

[lifeinpoetry]

Sometimes, I cry so hard I can feel it in my ribs. / I feel like the real me is backed into a corner inside me

— Ama Asantewa Diaka, from "Saturday Evening WhatsApp Message," Woman, Eat Me Whole

[missinfortunio]

Sí, me hacías sentir mal, pero qué bonito era cuando me hacías sentir especial.

[alostsoulbae]

Inseguridades

[anpanman95]

we all know where he gets it from

[pelmeshikk]

it was in Russia, so it was a long time ago (монеточка - это было в России)

[diamelass]

volví amor...rubia, más flaca más ojerosa y más enferma...pero volví

[drawnfamiliarfaces]

Call me, Beep me! 📱

[sashthesloth]

POV the pathfinder is taking diplomatic relations a bit too seriously