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Developing Incantations and Word-Based Charms
In contemporary witchcraft, cute little rhyming couplets are both common and fun to work with. It makes me feel like a Disney witch to chant little rhymes.
But it's also not necessary, or always even practical. I'm not a freestyler, I can't come up with based rhymes on the spot. So anyway, if you're looking for discourse on how to come up with your own word-based incantations and charms, here you go:
You can keep it simple and speak plainly in your everyday language. What's the difference between,
Creature of fire, this charge I lay: no phantom in thy presence stay! Hear my will addressed to thee; as my word, so mote it be!
and,
Candle flame, I give you this job: Chase away all illusions, uninvited spirits, and energies that conflict with my intent in this spell. As I command you, you have listened, and my will has been done.
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The main difference, imo, is aesthetic. If you vibe with the nebulous implications of what a "phantom" is, and you like thys, thees, and motes, go with the former.
If you just want to sit there and figure out what you want, and then tell the candle to do that, go with the latter. It's going to pretty much do the exact same thing.
Now, that being said, the specific language used can really matter, especially when working in traditional currents. Going in to that in-depth is for another post, and it doesn't particularly apply to us for most circumstances.
Really think about exactly you want to have happen. I really believe there's a difference between "candle flame, chase away all unwanted spirits," and "candle flame, chase away all uninvited spirits." Consider the implications of your words.
The intent you feel in your heart does not automatically override the crystalized meaning of your words and actions.
Your words have incredible power. Once you invoke your intent with a specific word or phrase, that's what it is.
You can reuse and repurpose the good stuff. Way back when I was starting, I read Mastering Witchcraft by Paul Huson, where he presents two cleansing charms: one for saltwater, and one for incense. The saltwater one was a rhyming couplet that was easy to remember. "Water and earth, where you are cast, let no spell nor ill intention last not in complete accord with me. As my word, so mote it be."
The incense one was way longer and in a totally different, non-rhyming format. I wasn't fixing to memorize two things, so I modified the saltwater one: "Fire and air, where you flare, let no spell nor ill intention last..."
Easy.
There is no practical reason that all of your spells or charms must be totally independent and unique. In fact, if you use repeating lines shared between many charms, various theories of magic would say that this actually stores and shares more power between all of them.
Having a standard format can really help. Creating a format for all of your charms is a great way to explore your personal path, because you gotta sit there and ask what stuff is important for you and what you think magic requires in order to work. It can also really aid in building charms because you've already decided the kind of stuff you want to include, so you're not just starting with a blank slate. Here's an example:
Name the influencing powers/energies State what you want them to do Describe how your will becomes manifest Affirm that your will shall be done Close/seal charm
This might look like:
Sun and Moon, crown my room, and cradle me to sleep Not the outside world, nor stress, nor nightmares Will touch me while I'm in your keep My will is spoken, my word complete By my power: so mote it be
Standard formats can make memorization easier because you know what part comes next. If you've just finished naming the powers, next comes telling them what you want them to do.
Take pressure off of the development process by taking your charms out for test drives. I know you, friend. You're anxious about writing the perfect charm as an ideal vehicle for your magical power, and you might spend weeks tinkering with a single charm without ever getting out there and using it.
But here's the thing. How are you going to know if it's perfect if you've never used it? Like how do you know the changes you make are improvements if you don't already have a baseline effectiveness?
You can (and maybe should!) use rough draft, partially completed charms - even individual lines from charms - and try them out in your daily life. Practice putting your power into them, see how they flow, see how they blend with situations. A charm that looks perfect on paper may be clunky when you vibrate it through your mind. A charm that seems to flow well the first five times you use it might have strange, unwanted energies below the surface.
Remember, your charms aren't museum-quality historical artifacts; they are a living part of your craft that can evolve with you. I know, my beauties. We are all enchanted by the thought of a leather-bound tome to pass down to our students decades from now, hand-written in magical inks, our spells and charms immortalized for future generations. Maybe they'll name a school of witchcraft after us one day.
But if we maintain this ideal in our minds that the spells and charms we write have to be perfect, they're never going to get finished. Let me encourage you to accept fluidity when writing your charms, and modify them as-needed; even every time you use them. As good as you are at magic, I hope you will not be offended that I am betting against any of us writing a perfect charm used our whole lives, without ever reformatting or upgrading it.
So don't pressure yourself to make something pristine and perfect! Let your charms be your faithful hound dogs, your tools slung in your pack. Let them grow and learn with you, and become perfectly honed to the environments within which you work.
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Shuichi, Kokichi and Nagitoâs crush likes napping on his lap during breaks
Shuichi Saihara:
·      Ah yes, the Super High School Level Astronomer, it was no wonder Kaito would be friends with such a person, and whoever Kaito was friends with, all his other friends would be friends with them as well, that was how Shuichi had met you. Often in those nightly training sessions, for a break Kaito, Shuichi, Maki and whoever else felt like joining them that evening would jog around till finding you, telescope by your side. Youâd speak of the stars, of legends that surrounded them, of how travelers of old navigated the world through them, how stars were born, what there different colors meant, and so much more. Folklore, history, science, didnât matter, you knew and continued to learn about each and any possible aspect you could about those specks of light. However, you were rather quiet outside of those moments, though you werenât closed off. It was more so, if you werenât speaking of stars youâd just so intently listen to others.
·      ⊠Maybe thatâs how or why it happened? More often than not, when at school you were rather drowsy. You were often out, camping in the mountains away from the harsh city lights so when you were at school it was nice. When you were around, Shuichi made sure to spend time with you. You were able to speak so much without words, it was fun trying to interpret your expressions. Truthfully Shuichi didnât think much of it at first, it was just how you were, quiet, yet outgoing, bubbly even. Others however had a more difficult time understanding you, somehow they didnât notice the many little nuances that made up you, your slightest shift of expression or tilt of the head, your body language, how you spoke more so with your eyes, engaging in the conversations in your own way. How others couldnât Shuichi had no idea at first, you were captivating, how could they NOT notice!?
·      At first he had thought it was simply him being a detective, often having to interpret and read people through his work with his Uncle, but⊠that was not quite it, there was more to this. I didnât come naturally, he WANTED to understand you. He found himself drawn to you, your gravity too powerful for him to even consider resisting. And it seemed the same could be said for you too. Whenever break rolled around, no matter how short it may be, youâd always seek him out. Due to more often than not being awake through the night youâd nap, but Shuichi didnât mind, not even when you used his shoulder or lap as a pillow. Heâd read his novels aloud to you, or if he was working through a case, walk through his logic aloud, heâd just speak even if you were asleep, something in him just knew you were still taking this all in.
·      Even if he was somehow one of the few people who understood you, he wondered how you had even seen him yet. You were like a supernova in his eyes, so bright, so stunning, so colorful, leaving only beauty and wonder in your wake, how did you notice him? By chance did your heart race too at the thought of spending more time together? Did you also find a soft, comforting, warmth in his presence as he did you? Did you adore hearing him speak just as he did you? Whatever the case may be for you, he sure hopped it was something similar because he simply wished to your beloved stars above that you felt even half as amazing as he did with you, he just wanted you to know of such a fantastic emotion, it, no⊠you were astonishing and he simply wished to share and indulge in it with you.
   Kokichi Oma:
·      âY/N!â âHu-AHâ You groaned, shakily pushing yourself off the ground. Then you noticed all your items had slipped out of your bookbag. You sighed, seeing all your papers had fallen out of your folders as well. âGeez, Y/N, I didnât know you were so clumsy!â âAh, just tired today I guess.â You noticed how Kokichi kept taking glances to you as he helped gather your items. Not surprising considering you literally just tumbled down a flight of stairs. Before you knew it all your supplied had already been collected and placed back in your bag. That was really quick. You winced as you stood up. Your knees almost collapsed under you and Kokichi was in the position to catch you should you have fallen but thankfully you were able to do so yourself. âHey, hey! Where are you going?â âOh, uh⊠umm.â You thought and thought but couldnât remember. It was so hard, you felt like your mind was swimming and swirling, all thoughts fuzzy and difficult to reach.
·      Then suddenly you were being dragged along by the hand. âWhat the-â âYou are coming with me! Thisâll be fun! Especially if you have nothing better to do!â You were completely confused but more so shocked from the whole situation so you couldnât really bring yourself to try to stop or ask where you were even going.
·      Koichi just kept running around, getting you completely lost. Eventually though he let go, dashing a few paces forward before tumbling and falling. âO-Oma!?â He simply laughed, sitting up. He hummed as the wind rolled past swaying his hair as he looked up to the sky. âOh, Y/N, Y/N! Look at that!â You were confused looking up to the sky where he was pointing. âUgh, you canât see it from there, sit down already!â Taking your arm, he playfully tugged on it, but even that was enough to send you falling. Even with you sprawled across his lap, he managed to scooch over enough so just your head was there. âPerfect! Now, that cloud looks like Gonta; giant, kinda dumb, soft. And that one-â You were⊠quite puzzled. Clouds? Of all things? That was what he wanted to show you? You heard Kokichi speaking, but it was all noise to you, it held no meaning. You just listened as he droned on and pointed, the shadow of his outstretched arm conveniently covering your eyes.
·      You never really noticed how nice and soft Kokichiâs voice could be. Then again, he was always so loud or quiet, constantly shifting tone you never got the chance to just hear it⊠It was⊠rather pleasant. You wanted to hear him longer, engage in whatever game he was playing but so quickly your eyes drooped and all our senses simply lulled to nothing.
·      Then it was evening. At first the sight of those orange and purple hues confused you, but then- âY/N, youâre alive! Itâs been twenty years and Miuâs army of robots have taken over! We need you to join the resistance!â He couldnât help but laugh at your absolutely baffled expression. âBut thatâs a lie.â â⊠oh yeah⊠WaitâŠâ You suddenly completely awakened, abruptly sitting up. âItâs evening already!? Did we skip class!?â âItâs whateves, Y/N. Hopeâs Peak doesnât care if we skip class.â âNo, not that!â You sighed, burrowing your face into your hands and mumbled to yourself. âI didnât take the new meds again. Of course, I didnât.â Huh, new medicine was it. Kokichi smirked, dragging you up onto your feet. âCâmon! Youâll make us late for dinner!â
·      The next several weeks were like that. No matter what you did youâd always end up napping on Kokichiâs lap at some point. This was much needed. Your therapist had been fired so you had to start all over with someone new, who wanted to give you new medicine meaning new side affects that could only be worked around via time management. It was a process trying to work out what amount you needed and what not. Napping with Kokichi was just about the only solace you had gotten in the chaos. When you had found a good balance of medication no longer were you exhausted in the day or losing sleep at night. It was great though, admittedly you missed it.
·      It had been about a week or so since your medication seemed to stable out and all was well with you once more. The bells for break had tolled and you left class. Break wasnât long, but you didnât care. Hearing shrieks and screams of terror and that âNishishiâ you knew you were close. Seeing Kokichi make his escape you simply went to one of the benches outside. And there you waited.
·      You still waited even after the bells signaling the end of break had tolled. âOh? Y/N actually skipping class!? What has this world come too!? Soon the sky will be falling!â Seeing he wasnât lying per say and just exaggerating you decided to answer. âI havenât taken my nap yet.â You took his hand, pulling him onto the bench and you placed your head atop his lap. Though you werenât not tired, a mid-day nap in the sun just felt so nice.
·      Thankfully for Kokichi, you were asleep so you couldnât see his giddy smile. Though with this seemingly becoming the new norm youâd likely catch him one of these days. For now heâd just indulge in this moment with you, his crush and worry about that when it happens.
   Nagito Komaeda:
·      Though you were an Ultimate, an amazing person who could take care of themself just fine, Nagito worried about you. You slept, a lot. No matter when or where you could find a place to nap should you want too. It wasnât all the time though, Nagito still had many conversations with you and had gotten to see your talent firsthand, an extraordinary sight! When you were awake, youâd spend much of your time with him, often over analyzing him trying to see if there was a scientific cause for the outlandish phenomena that was his luck. Not surprising since you were a scientist. At times Nagito wondered if your mind worked so hard when you were awake, trying to solve every last mystery the world had to offer, that drove you to exhaustion so quickly. That would explain how you could be so excitedly chatting away about one theory of yours or another only for you to suddenly fall over, knocked out. Thankfully it seemed Nagitoâs luck would kick in moments like that so he could catch you before your face smashed into the ground.
·      Always following you around, trying to keep your drowsy tendency from getting you into danger, from just always being beside he had become your assistant of sorts. Though he would never dare to insist on it, he always sneakily became the one to carry your stuff around in the end, even if you had started your journey with them. Taking you by your shoulders heâd steer you away from bumping into other people or objects. He would take your hand, but he felt unworthy of such an honor unless you decided he could and he knew if he did a bright scarlet would erupt on his cheeks and his heart would pick up in pace, things you surely would notice with your keen eye. When you were awake, nothing could get past you, so Nagito would have to be extra careful. He couldnât let you figure out his feelings. He simply didnât have it in him to confess and he was garbage, surely you wouldnât reciprocate his feelings, but if you did somehow, itâs not like he would deny you, someone like him had no right to deny an Ultimate, or so he thought at least.
·      Although⊠Nagito couldnât help his feelings seeping out, no matter how much he had tried to keep them inside. Often, he was just talking and suddenly heâd be complimenting you and about to say he loved you and heâd have to cut himself off by causing an âaccidentâ like tripping over chairs or abruptly changing his words to say something else. He was always left a flustered mess.
·      It was just another day when Nagito strolled into your lab, finding your workspace was filled with many documents, many taped to white boards with string attacked to each and every last one, some string simply linking two pages on the same board, others stretching across the room, forcing one to duck, and twist to avoid them all, one could compare it to avoiding the lights in the laser filled room in some generic spy flic. âHmm, but how to go about testing this?â âTesting what?â âOh, Komaeda! Perfect timing!â You strolled over to him, looking through some file, seemingly not paying attention to your surroundings yet still avoiding all that strings. âToday Iâm studying human communication!â âUh huh.â âAnd I wish to test something!â You looked to him with those stunningly bright eyes as you explained, completely captivating him. âThe power of words. I wish to see if they are like water in a pipe. For comparison, imagine a person as the pipe and the words water. I wonder if say a person is upset, if speaking to another person was the only way to alleviate the pressure of those emotions, or if just speaking aloud, even to no one, if thatâd alleviate the pressure as well, OR if something else would happen. Yes, each individual is different, but there could still be a majority! Iâm thinking weâll go about-â a yawn escaped you before you continued. âabout this⊠byâŠâ You took a small notebook from your pocket, quickly scribbling down notes as Nagito lead you to a couch in the corner of the room. Nagito already knew this was coming considering that âpipeâ comparison didnât make much sense since pipes would still leak, even if with another pipe around.
·      He sat beside you on the couch and moments later you rested your head on his lap. You tried holding up the little book to him and when he took it your hand and arm went limp, you already fast asleep. Nagito couldnât help but smile, seeing you already so restful. As usually he looked through your notebook, seeing what he needed to prepare in order to set up your tests. Curiously he also looked over your notes, wondering how your interest in astrology the day prior lead to this through your connective thinking. It was always fun seeing how you could draw connections between seemingly completely unrelated topics, then again that was likely how you were such a good scientist. As he continued to read, fascinated by your research he began to wonder something. Looking to you his heart melted. âI love you.â Immediately his heart raced, and he felt that heat raising to his cheeks. What if a person were to vent to another, even if they werenât paying attention? Perhaps because he still had told you, he still would have gotten this off his chest and heâd stop almost confessing to you so often.
·      That was how Nagito had begun to whisper his affections to you as you slept. It was a thrill like no other, fearing youâd awake right as he confessed his feelings, yet also endlessly excited by the thought as well. There was more than a fair share of times where he was almost caught, but it seemed you were none the wiser to his words of love.
·      âHmm? Komeada? What are you mumbling about?â For a moment he froze, love struck at your soft tender expression. âAh-uh-Oh? I was speaking? I apologize if I woke you up.â You simply huffed in response⊠a-and you just kept looking at him? Oh boy. Did you know? Was he finally caught? What would your response be? What did you think of him? âThank you.â âHuh?â You smiled, nuzzling into him. âhaving this⊠instantaneous version of narcolepsy⊠Even though I started studying, I could never figure out how to stop it, maybe thatâs because I get distracted easily, I- wait, no. No tangents.â You took a deep breath trying to reorganize your thoughts. âIt⊠can be scary, one moment being awake then suddenly asleep. Before you Iâd often sleep on the train and go way past my stop and get lost. There have also been a number of near-death experiences like when I fell asleep when walking across the street. I⊠itâs nice, knowing youâre around. To keep me safe and keep an eye on me. And I guess waking up to hearing your voice, waking up knowing for a fact I was safe⊠I donât know, it was just nice, and I want you to know, I truly do appreciate you putting up with me.â
·      How⊠how could you make him fall for you more and more so effortlessly? Well, if you liked hearing his voice when you woke up⊠maybe⊠maybe next time he wouldnât stop speaking of his love for you, even as you awoke. After all, he could never deny you anything, especially not your own comfort and ease of mind.
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Iâve Got You
Part of Mercyâs 1k Celebration: A collection of Spencer Reid x Reader requests to celebrate 1,000 followers.
Pairing: Spencer Reid x fem!Reader Summary: An embarrassed Reader accepts a swimming lesson from Spencer Category: FLUFF / SMUT ending (will be specified before it splits) Warnings: Language, fluffy smut at the end Word Count: 5.5k
Full Request:Â â...For your 1k celebration, I was wondering if you could write a fic where Spencer teaches reader how to swim, and then smut happens? Congratulations for 1k btw đ„°!â â @jareauswifey
***EDITED: 7/23/2021***
MASTERLIST | 1K MASTERLIST
NOTE: Fun fact: I donât know how to swim either, so this was incredibly fun to write and I canât wait for you guys to read it!Â
Also, the more I wrote this the more it became absolutely fluffy, but since there was a request for smut, I wrote it in as an extra ending. So the majority of this is still fluffy, and thereâs a good, solid end for those who donât/canât read smut. But the smut is added at the end for those who want it. Totally up to you! I hope yâall really enjoy this one!!
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"Wait, she dragged you into the pool?"
"She didn't... drag me, she pulled me in."
"Look, no matter how you say it, Pretty Boy, the fact of the matter is, you ended up making out with a movie star in her pool. I call that a win."
While everyone in the bullpen was laughing, you found yourself distanced from the conversation, definitely not thrilled about the idea of re-living the case you'd just worked. And you loved Garcia as much as the next person, but this was one of those times you wished she wasn't so adamantly curious about everyone's personal lives.
"Look, it's not even a big deal, okay, people... kiss each other in pools all the time," Reid got out quickly, also not very thrilled about this conversation. "I mean, you've all done it, right?"
Garcia, Morgan, Elle, and JJ all recounted quickly a few times they'd experienced it, and you were hoping desperately that they wouldn't ask you, since you'd stayed quiet pretty much the whole time, immersing yourself in paperwork (or so you made them believe; you were really just trying not to think about how sad this whole situation made you).
But, of course, it was not your week.
"What about you, Y/N?" Garcia asked. You looked up to see all of your friends looking at you expectantly, and you felt like you could have cried right then and there.
"Oâoh, um... I haven't... done that before."
You wanted to smack the smile off Morgan's face when he said, "Oh, so you're telling me Pretty Boy's got Pretty Girl beat in something for once?"
"That's... That's not true, he beats me at everything," you countered, already feeling your face get warm. "Look, it isn't a big deal. It's just not something I've ever done before, and there's nothing wrong with that."
"Never said there was... Why are you getting so defensive?"
The teasing tone in his voice made everything worse, especially since he knew about your huge crush on Reid. He was the first one to point it out, and you swore him to secrecy. And now, he was threatening to expose you, and you wanted to tackle him, even though you were positive you wouldn't get very far.
"I'm not defensive! I just... I haven't kissed anyone in a pool before, and Reid's right, you guys are acting like it's a big deal when it isn't, that's all."
"Well, how come?" Morgan pressed.
"How come it's not a big deal?"
"No, how come you haven't done it?"
That settled it. You were going to deck him in the face the first chance you got.
"Because... I... I can't swim."
You'd said it so quietly, completely embarrassed over the fact, but everyone still was able to hear you.
"You can't?" Elle asked, obviously amused.
"No," you stated firmly, crossing your arms and huffing, a strand of your hair blowing away from your face as you did so. "Before you ask why, I just always had other things to do growing up, and I never bothered to learn. And there's nothing wrong with that either, by the way."
You refused to look at your friends as they took in all this information about you, and by this point you couldn't wait to go home. In fact, you were thinking about leaving right now, to save yourself from further embarrassment.
But then, of freaking course, Derek Morgan had to say something.
"Hey, maybe Reid could teach you how."
The second you were alone with him, he was dead meat.
Your face was even warmer now, and you wanted nothing more than to hide, maybe under the desk, though perhaps a hole in the ground in the middle of nowhere sounded more satisfying. Hell, anything sounded more satisfying than being here right now.
"Ha-ha," you laughed instead, trying to play it off like a joke-suggestion. "I'm sure Reid has better things to do with his time than teaching a woman in her twenties how to swim."
"Are you kidding me, Reid never has anything better to do with his time," Morgan countered, earning a few chuckles from the room.
You rolled your eyes and started to gather your things. You were going to decline and say goodnight, but before you could someone spoke up.
"Iâif it's something you really wanted to learn, I could... I wouldn't mind teaching you the basics... or something."
As much as you didn't want to look at Reid in that moment, you did it anyway, because you had to make sure he was being serious. To make sure you'd heard that right.
"What?" you asked quietly.
"Well... You are always saying how we should hang out more. Maybe... it would be a good idea?"
You had said that. But that was before. You know, when you were starting to grow your confidence around him. When you were finally starting to grow the guts to ask him out on a date. Before he started kissing movie stars in pools...
Now all that confidence had been shattered, and you felt smaller than you'd ever been, embarrassed and incredibly babied at your inability to fucking swim.
All of this should have nudged you to say, "no". It should have saved you from making any rash decisions, but...
The way Reid was looking at you, so genuine in that kind way of his, you could have sworn he was begging you to say, "yes".
Or maybe that was your crush talking.
Whatever the case, it was that stupid crush that pushed all reason out of your brain and made you agree.
"Oâokay. Â Why not?"
Your friends clapped, Reid smiled at you, and you could practically feel Morgan's burning Gotcha! look all the way from the other side of the room.
What were you getting yourself into?
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You almost thought about bailing. There was no way you were going to survive this! Not only was it embarrassing enough that you couldn't swim, but now the guy you have the biggest crush on was going to teach you how? You were going to have to see him, wet, and he was going to have to see you in a swimsuit, and he was probably going to touch you, too.
Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckâ
You were about to call Reid and tell him you weren't feeling well, but just as you got out your phone, he showed up in front of you, walking into the pool room at the hotel you were staying at for the weekend. Neither of you had a pool, and to avoid further embarrassment on your part, he offered to rent a room for the weekend so you could use the pool when no one else would be there. In theory it was a good idea, but in actuality it was an awful idea, because now not only did you have to take swimming lessons from your crush, but you were sharing a room with him for the weekend as well.
It was your worst nightmare.
"Hey! IâI got here a little earlier than planned, so I wasn't gonna wait here that long, and I... Never mind. I'm sorry. Hello." Great, now I'm rambling... Good start, Y/N...
Reid laughed a little, setting down a bag. "Hi, Y/N. Are you still sure you want to do this? I know... I kind of pushed it on you last minute, andâ"
"No! I'm... It's probably something I should learn at some point anyway... Better get it done now while I can, right?"
"Yeah, I suppose you're right. So, uh... You want to get started?"
You turned to the pool, gesturing with your arms. "Lead the way, Genius."
He laughed a little and made his way to the water, and you took a deep breath as you followed behind, hoping you wouldn't make a bigger fool of yourself than you already had.
Reminding yourself to breathe and stay cool, you reluctantly and very slowly made your way into the water, staying close to the edges even though you were tall enough to stand with the water sitting safely at your chest. You'd been in pools before, but always just like this, at the edge. Your friends growing up were always supportive in your decision not to do anything more, even though they'd offered multiple times to teach you, but the truth was that you were quite afraid of being in deep water.
You were never going to tell them that, though. You weren't even sure you wanted to tell Spencer. But you supposed that if he was really going to teach you how to swim, you'd have to come clean.
Just... Not right now.
"Hmm... Okay, so I'm thinking for now I should teach you how to float."
Shit.
"Um... Oâkay..."
He could tell you were nervous, it was obvious by the sympathetic way he looked at you and tilted his head. "I know it's probably intimidating because you don't know how to swim, but floating is actually pretty easy."
He then proceeded to lean back and float on his back. His head was tilted so he could still look at you, and he looked serene. Calm. And supportive, as he said, "There's nothing to it, all you have to do is lean back and just let your body relax. It might feel like you're starting to sink a little, but you won't."
"WhywouldyoutellmethatohmyGod," you squeaked, leaning out and holding very tightly to the edge of the pool. The panic you outwardly exuded was just about the most embarrassing thing you could have done, and it only made you feel worse, shutting your eyes tightly and regretting every life choice youd ever made.
Reid was suddenly beside you, laying a gentle hand on your shoulder, and you jumped, making him retreat. "Y/N, hey. Look at me."
You didn't want to. God, you wanted to do anything else. You would have rather floated in the water.
But you did it anyway, refusing to make things worse.
His face was just as soft as his touch, and even though you had nothing to worry about, you felt like you were going to cry.
"Are you... afraid of the water?" It wasn't mean or mocking. It was a genuine, concerned observation, and that somehow made it even worse.
"Yâyes," you choked out, feeling your throat start to tighten.
"Why did you agree to do this, then? I... I'm still more than happy to help you, but if you're afraid, you don't have to do anything you don't want to. I won't make you..."
"I know that, I just... You were practically begging to teach me how to swim, and I didn't want to make you sad," you joked hoping it would lighten the mood and keep you from actually shedding any tears.
Thankfully he laughed, and it made you laugh right along with him, some of your troubles easing and the tightness in your throat letting up just a little. The two of you were silent for a few beats before you reached out with one hand and grabbed his, taking a deep breath and nodding.
"Okay. I'm ready to let you teach me how to float. I promise I won't... freak out this time."
He looked down at your hand on his for a second, something changing in his eyes before he looked back up. "Are you sure?"
No. "Yes."
"Okay... Do you... want to stay here by the edge?"
You scoffed. "Where else would we go?"
"Um... Never mind, we'll stay here. Just um... Come here?"
You laughed a little at the fact that he didn't get that you were joking, and then let go of the ledge with your other hand, pulling yourself towards him and letting him get closer. His hands gently held onto your arms as your feet planted themselves on the pool floor. The proximity was surprisingly calming, considering your outburst just a minute earlier, and you were thankful for that.
Despite all the mess, things weren't nearly as bad as you'd imagined they'd be.
"Okay," Spencer said, nodding slightly. "I'm going to float first. I want you to keep your hands pressed up under my back, okay?"
"But... don't you already know how to float? What do you need me for?"
"I'm demonstrating how light your body weight is while you're in water. See, when I go back like this..."
That was your cue. He leaned back just like he had before, and your hands moved, laying your palms out to lay under his back as instructed. You instantly understood what he meant, because he started to sink a little, and when you lifted him up, it was like he weighed nothing.
"So, even if you do start to sink, I'll be right there to keep you steady. You'll be just fine," he reassured, standing up again. You removed your hands and smiled at him, already feeling better about this.
"Okay. How do I... Go back? Do I just..."
"Oh, uh... Here," he offered, reaching out his arms. You walked into them, and instantly felt your heartbeat pick up when he wrapped them around you, the two of you closer than you'd ever been.
"I'm going to lay you on your back, okay? I've got you."
You nodded, unable to form any words. And when he leaned your body back into the water, you were suddenly aware of all he could see.
Warmth flooded through you as you looked up at him, his hands planting themselves firmly under your back. Your bare back. One of them was pressed against the tie on your upper back, and immediately your mind went there, imagining his fingers deftly untying the knot and letting your bathing top come undone. Your heart raced faster and faster, and it was becoming harder to relax.
"Y/N, it's okay," Spencer said, snapping you out of it. "I'm right here. I'm not going to let you go, okay?"
"Okay," you whispered. "I trust you."
"I'm gonna start letting you go, okay? Just relax your muscles, take nice, calm breaths, and let everything go. Just... float."
His words were soft and whispered, so light it was like in a past life they were dandelion seeds floating in the wind on a warm summer day. You closed your eyes and focused on that image, the white fluff floating in a field, and your body started to relax.
"That's it," you barely heard Spencer's voice as you drifted off. Everything was light, airy, and... non-existent.
You weren't sure how long you stayed like that, but eventually you realized that there was nothing holding you up anymore. Nothing was there to ground you, to keep you steady.
Your heart leapt out of your chest, and you gasped, flailing and you felt your face start to go under as a result. "No!" you screamed, suddenly panicked.
Almost as quickly as the panic set in, Spencer's arms were wrapped around you again, pulling you from under the water and into his body. Your arms instantly clung to his neck, trying to pull yourself up and away from the water, where it couldn't drown you.
"Y/N, hey, I've got you. It's okay, I'm right here. You're okay..."
"I'm done," you breathed, trying to calm yourself. "Can we be done?"
"Yes, we can be done," he said back softly, using one of his hands to stroke the wet hair from your face.
Despite your urgency to be done, however, you stayed like that, wrapped up in him for what felt like forever. His hand continued stroking your hair and his lips continued to whisper sweet words of encouragement and praise. Gradually your breathing slowed to a steady pace, and you almost forgot where you were again. At least until he spoke up.
"Are you okay?"
You lifted your head back to look into his eyes, managing to get out a quick, "Uh huh," even as your breath caught in your throat. The way he was looking at you with such concern and sweetness sent a course of butterflies through your stomach. They migrated out towards your chest, accompanying your heartbeat in a quick, thundering pace that only seemed to get faster when his hand grazed your cheek.
Against your better judgement, your eyes fluttered closed, and you savored the feeling of his hands on you. The one brushed down your cheek and over your neck and collarbone, while the other found purchase against your lower back, his thumb rubbing comforting circles just above the hemline of your swim bottoms.
You felt his forehead touch yours and audibly gasped, clinging tighter to his neck and refusing to open your eyes.
"I've got you," he said so softly you weren't even sure you heard it at all. "I've always got you. Can you plant your feet down?"
You were still close enough to the edge of the pool that you knew you could, but in all honesty you'd forgotten you were even there. The sheer panic that came with floating on your own made you feel like you were in the middle of the ocean, and if he hadn't told you otherwise, you would have believed it to be true.
"I can," you answered truthfully. "But I don't want to."
With your foreheads pressed together still, you opened your eyes to find him staring at you, and it was sheer sparkling amusement you found swimming in his gaze as he spoke.
"Then don't."
You weren't sure who moved first. The next thing you knew, your lips were pressed together, and it was all you could take not to simply absorb into him. Which... of course, you practically did anyway. Because of the water, he lifted you to him with ease, giving you a better angle to cling to him since you'd done it so frantically before.
Your lips moved together without a care in the world, the two of you taking your time to just feel the moment. The tender, caring way in which he reciprocated and explored your kiss was almost as butterfly-inducing as all the simple looks he'd thrown your way and the gentle tone he always took with you.
It was almost as if he liked you back.
The thought made you pull away, breathless and dizzy, and the sheer look of contentment, followed by immense panic that set on Spencer's face brought you back to real life.
"I'm sorry," he rushed. "I... Y/N, I..."
Knowing you were already in too deep, you stopped him. "I like you."
He was silent. Frozen. And then, simply, "What?"
You sighed. "I... I like you. I have a crush on you. And I've had a crush on you pretty much from the moment we met. And I... I was trying to find the courage to tell you, and then the thing with Lila Archer happened and I wasn't even... like, she's so pretty, and she can swim, obviously, and I just felt like a total loser after that case, and so when you said youâ"
Your words were cut off when he kissed you again, and you'd never been so surprised. Well, save for the panic you felt while floating in the water on your own just a few minutes ago, you supposed...
Though you were inclined to say this surprise was much better.
He pulled away after a few seconds, searching your eyes. "I like you, too," he said quietly.
"YâYou do?"
"Well, of course I do. You're... You're smart, and you're beautiful, aâand you're really good at swimming..."
You laughed. Hard. And Spencer laughed right along with you, until the two of you were just there, smiling at each other. And eventually, you ended up kissing each other again, just as you had before.
Only this time, your kisses got deeper. With every second, the two of you became more hungry, the low and soft moans coming from the bass of your throat urging him to become bolder.
Rather than holding you up by your back, he lowered his hands, gently over your butt and hooking under your thighs as your legs clung around his waist. Your arms still stayed around his neck, only now your fingers weaved through the hair at the nape of it, and when you tugged a little, he moaned into your mouth.
You didn't know how you got there, but all of a sudden, your back was pressed up against the edge of the pool, and you used that leverage to let go of his neck and let your hands roam freely, over his arms and down his chest.
But eventually the two of you had to come up for air, so you broke apart reluctantly, both panting and smiling like fools.
"So, is, uh... is this a hobby of yours?" you asked. "Making out with girls in pools?"
Spencer laughed, pressing his forehead to yours. "Only recently, but... I think this time is the only one that really counts."
He nuzzled his nose against yours and you laughed, feeling completely warm all over and suddenly thankful for not being able to swim.
***NSFW ENDING BELOW***
Now it was just... weird. Maybe that wasn't the right word, but it definitely was a weird feeling.
You'd both showered separately, barely saying a word to each other in between that wasn't awkward mumbling... And now you were sleeping in separate beds, faced away from each other, and you were pretty sure that neither of you were actually awake.
It had been like that for hours.
You weren't positive of how he was feeling right now, but you were still on fire. His kisses had burned you in a way that still lingered, even after taking a warm shower to clean the chlorine from your body, and a small cold shower to refresh you and quell the heat you were feeling that was no doubt a product of him.
Because nothing ever seemed to work out in your favor, it obviously hadn't worked.
So there you were, trying and failing to sleep, hyperaware of Spencer sleeping(?) in the bed next to yours, pressing your fingers to your lips and hoping you could recover from this.
You... liked each other, though... You'd both admitted it, mutually agreed that the feelings were there on both sides, and you happily kissed one another. A lot.
So why was this feeling so weird? Why was everything awkward? Maybe it was just a byproduct of your awkwardness and his combining, rather than cancelling each other out and creating a perfect match. Maybe it wouldn't last, because you'd always heard that opposites attracted, and as far as you could tell, you and Spencer Reid were anything but opposite.
The thought made you curl into a ball, all the awkwardness you were feeling suddenly dissolving into a sorrow and worry that had never nagged you like this before. The burning your body had felt before seemed to cool, leaving you numb and hollow.
But then, a beam of light through the clouds.
"Y/N?"
"Yâyeah?" you said back, matching his near-whisper.
"I know we have our own beds, but... I... I was wondering iâif maybe you'd want... to sleep in mine? With me?"
Maybe it was pathetic and desperate, but you didn't answer. You got up from your bedâpractically leaptâ and met him in a few strides, getting in under the covers and laying down, facing him in the dark your eyes had adjusted to.
He was smiling, half triumphant and half amused at your eagerness. "Can't sleep either?"
"No," you said quietly, still searching what little of his eyes you could see. "I... Truthfully, I think I just missed being close to you."
"Me, too," he whispered, scooting closer.
His hands were tentative in touching you, but you gently gripped his wrist and guided it to your waist, where it firmly rested and brought warmth back into your veins. Even through the fabric of your tee shirt, his touch burned hot, and it was everything you needed.
But it wasn't everything you got.
He leaned forward and kissed your forehead, and it burned just as hotly. It made you scoot even closer, until your chests were practically flush and your arms rested firmly around his neck again, making him smile. You felt it against your forehead, and that alone was enough to fully bring you back to life.
You wanted more. Just being close to him wasn't enough anymore. So you stretched a little and found your way to his neck, pressing soft kisses under his jaw. The grip on your waist tightened a little, and it urged you forward, strengthening your kisses and even encouraging you to get in a few licks and bites.
He stuttered your name, and you pulled back, looking at his face. But before you could say anything, he leaned forward and captured your lips in a kiss that could only be described as pure desperation. You sighed against him and purely relented as he pulled you closer. Instinctively your leg lifted and wrapped around his, the tangle of limbs and lips becoming second nature in no time.
Before, when you were kissing in the pool, you were careful to avoid the teeth accidentally clanking together or the accidental tongue slip, afraid of ruining the sweet moment you were sharing, but all caution was thrown to the wind this time. You were both so desperate to be near one another that you welcomed every imperfection. In fact, it's like they weren't even imperfections at all.
At one point, you all but grinded your lower half into him, warmth flooding there, now, too.
And it seemed he was feeling the same...
You could tell he wanted to pull back, to explain himself, but you didn't care. You wanted it just as badly, so you did the only thing that felt natural and shifted, straddling his waist and deepening your kiss.
In no time, he gathered your hair in his hands, sweeping it away from your face and tucking it behind your ear as you slowly moved your hips. The groan he let slip was just about the most delicious sound you'd ever heard, the grandest thing you'd ever felt, and you wanted to hear it again, over and over until your last breath.
And then you felt him grow harder underneath you, and the mere implications of that sent you into a tailspin.
"Y/N," Spencer said softly, and you paused, leaning back a little and combing through his hair with your fingers. It was still damp from the shower.
"Do... Do you not want to?" you asked sweetly. "We don't... we don't have to tonight. Oâor at all, if you don't want to."
"Oh, no I do, it's... just that I didn't know if you wanted to. And I don't... have a whole lot of experience with sex, aâand I didn't want to... I don't know, be bad."
With a small laugh, you leaned down and kissed his cheek. "I'm with you, Spencer Reid. Nothing could ever be bad."
"You're just saying that," he said, though you could hear the smile in his voice.
"I mean it. You make me feel safe, and I... I trust you."
He kissed you then, gently one second and then hungrily the next, and it was all too much to bear. So you grabbed his face and kissed him back, as hard as you could, and he matched your energy by lightly bucking his hips up towards you. The feeling sent a shockwave through you, and even elicited a whine from the back of your throat.
The two of you kept at that for a good five minutes or so before you decided it was, again, all too much. You pulled away from him and sat up, still straddling his hips. And while looking down at him, seeing him breathe as steadily as he could, you brought your hands to the hem of your shirt and slowly yanked it over your head, revealing yourself to him and welcoming the warmth that bloomed through you at his reaction.
His eyes widened and his breathing faltered, and even though it was dim, you could have sworn you'd seen a pink tint paint his cheeks.
"Touch me," you whispered suddenly, the urgency surprising even yourself. Without hesitation, Spencer reached out as far as he could and gripped your bare waist. His thumbs swiped gently up the front of your stomach, and then you leaned down a bit, giving him full access.
The second his hands brushed over your bare chest, you sighed out, small pricks of pleasure beaming through your whole body. Your hands reached down to anchor yourself, landing on his chest and gripping his shirt. He kneaded your breasts first, feeling them out and getting used to how they weighed in his hands, and then he slid them over, brushing the pads of his thumbs over your nipples.
You leaned down and kissed him then, gripping his shirt and lifting it until he understood what you were trying to do.
Both of your clothes came off one by one, and by the time you were both fully naked, time seemed to slow. You both marveled at each other, pressed soft kisses to each inch of bare skin, and inevitably prepared for what you both wanted most.
He slipped on a condom, fumbling an explanation of how Morgan gave it to him after the case in LA, and you laughed, promising to give him a piece of your mind later.
And then, you wrapped yourself around him once more. Only, rather than in the pool, he was sitting up in the bed, leaning against the headboard while your arms rested on his shoulders and your legs clung to his waist.
You sunk onto him slowly, gasping out at how full he made you feel. Every millimeter deeper was slowly splitting you from the inside out, and it was... God, it was everything. Especially as he wrapped his arms around your back, making those comforting circles with his thumbs again, and whispering, "I've got you," over and over again.
By the time he was as deep inside you as he could be, you were breathing into his neck, kissing him there and trying to catch your breath. It had been so long since the last time you'd done this, and now that it was happening, and with Spencer of all people, you were overwhelmed in the best way possible.
Once you were ready, you started moving, slowly lifting your hips and bringing them back down. Until, eventually, you found a slow, searing rhythm that had you panting against his skin.
A low groan left his throat when you clenched around him, and it spurred you on. With another tight squeeze, you quickened your pace just a little, and everything was starting to build.
"Y/N... Y/N, fuck..."
His words were few and far between, but they were laced with just the right amount of wonderment and desire, sending another swarm of butterflies all throughout your entire body.
"Say it again," you breathed desperately in his ear, gripping his shoulders as you clenched around him again. "Say my name, please..."
And he did. It was the sweetest thing you'd ever heard, better than your favorite song, and the only thing you wanted to hear for the rest of your life. He said it again and again, thrown into a mix of expletives and little whimpers that all meshed together to form your new favorite song.
You reciprocated, whimpering out his name when his hips lifted in time with yours, hitting something deeper within you that sent you flying into your own world.
"Kiss me," he pleaded, his hands pressing so firmly into your back you thought they'd leave handprints.
It was a plea you wouldn't deny even if you were able. You kissed him deeply, gladly welcoming the soft push of his tongue against yours and the little sounds he offered. You returned each and every one of them as your body knotted, that imminent feeling of tension starting to rise within every part of you.
He must have felt it, too, because one of his hands reached over and slid in between your bodies, looking for and then finding your clit. His middle finger made easy circles that brought you closer and closer until you snapped, tightening around himâyour arms and your legs included.
You cried out against his mouth, and he breathed a final, "I've got you, baby," that shattered your world as you shattered around him. He fell closely behind, and you relished the feeling of him tensing and twitching inside of you.
As your heartbeats slowed, and your breathing right along with it, you slumped against him, your foreheads resting gently against one another. He kissed you sweetly, and you returned it, feeling yourself become more at ease the longer you stayed there.
"Are you okay?" he asked softly, still catching his breath. "Can you move?"
Recalling the moment in the pool earlier, you laughed a little, nudging his nose with yours and promptly answering, "I can. But I don't want to."
With a smile, Spencer hugged you closer and let you rest your head in the crook of his neck.
"Then don't."
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The Nanny (Part Three)
Featuring: Cillian Murphy x Virgin!Reader
Words: 6229
Warning: Smut, Age Gap
Requested: Yes
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Sorting Things Out
In the last 24 hours, Cillian had been trying to unsuccessfully reach you, but you ignored his calls.
You were upset by what you saw and you had to concentrate on your university assignments and your upcoming play. It was too much for you to handle and the last thing you wanted was to experience emotional disappointment yet again.
You had a terrible track record with men and, whilst you expected Cillian to be different, perhaps you were wrong. Or werenât you?
Tuesday afternoon you had theatre practice as usual and were rehearsing your play with Anita. The other two members of the cast, Darcy and Johnathan, had called in sick. This wasnât unusual as, no doubt, they were making the most of Monday nightâs happy hour at the local pub. Despite, Darcy really tried to avoid you since your last encounter and, if it wasnât for his parents, he would have resigned from the play by now.
Just as you were practicing for the second part of the play, you saw a familiar face. Â
âWhat are you doing here?â you asked somewhat surprised to see Cillian as he approached the stage.
âYouâve ignored my calls and messages for the past 24 hours. So, I just came to check on you to see whether everything was alrightâ Cillian said quietly so that Anita couldnât hear you.
âWell, I am sure you know why I ignored your calls Cillianâ you said with a sigh.
âI have got my suspicions but whatever you think you saw isnât what it looked like Y/N. Can we talk somewhere in private please?â Cillian asked as Anitaâs eyes widened, trying to listen into your conversation.
You nodded and, just as you did, Anita approached you demanding an introduction.
You introduced Cillian to Anita quickly before excusing yourself in order to walk with Cillian to a quiet corner of the theatre hall.
âListen Y/N, I am sorry for having sent you away yesterday. The woman at my apartment was my ex and whilst I knew for the past few weeks that I am not going to give her a second chance after what she did, I only officially ended it yesterday. I thought that it would be the right thing to do before I get involved with you. Me and her just needed to talk, sort things out and if she would have known about me seeing you, she would have made things very difficult, believe meâ Cillian explained.
âSo why didnât you just tell me that yesterday?â you asked.
âI suppose I didnât want to worry youâ Cillian said.
âI am sorry for getting upset Cilly. Itâs justâŠyou know what Iâve been through and I know how reluctant you are about us and the age gap between us. I thought that, perhaps, you changed your mind after Sunday nightâ you said somewhat upset and worried about how he would react.
âWhy would I change my mind after having spent the night with you?â Cillian asked curiously.
âBecause we didnât sleep with each otherâ you said nervously.
âY/N, we talked about this. I am quite happy to wait. I just love spending time with you, alrightâ Cillian asked.
âAlright. Sorry, I am just not used to having someone actually being patient with me and wanting to be with me at the same timeâ you said shyly.
âPerhaps youâve just been unlucky with menâ Cillian chuckled before taking a pause. His comment made you laugh.
âDo you want me to show you how much I want to be with you?â Cillian asked, causing you to smile and answer with a shy nod.
âAlrightâ Cillian smirked before asking you how your relationship with Anita was noting that she was the only person left in the theatre with you.
âSheâs my best friend, why?â you asked.
âDo you trust her?â Cillian asked.
âYes, but why are you asking?â you asked.
âBecause she is watching us talk and I am about to do thisâ Cillian smirked just before he leaned in and gave you a long and passionate kiss on your lips.
âWell thanks, this will open up an awkward conversation nowâ you said with a giggle as you observed Anita looking over to you in disbelieve.
âYou are welcome. See you tonight for dinner at my place? I will cookâ he said before shouting out âgoodbyeâ to Anita with a cheeky grin on his face.
âYes, see you laterâ you said before giving him another kiss.
As you walked back towards the stage, you could see Anita waiting for you. Her face was full of questions.
âYou need to tell me everything, immediatelyâ she said before you could say anything at all.
âThere is nothing to tell Anitaâ you said, your cheeks flushed with embarrassment.
âHe just kissed you, on the lipsâ Anita said.
âYes, we are seeing each otherâ you explained shyly.
âOh my god, seriously? Is this why you broke up with Darcy?â Anita asked.
âI broke up with Darcy because he was treating me badly. I met Cillian through the couple I am staying with and who I work for. Things just happened between us over the weekend. It wasnât something either of us had contemplatedâ you explained, knowing that this was just half of the truth. After all, you shared a kiss much earlier and you took a liking in Cillian the moment you met him.
âDo they know? Does Darcy know?â Anita asked.
âNo, and I would like it to stay that way for now. We are just working things out between us at the momentâ you said.
âMy lips are sealed Y/N. But, you do know that heâs in his 40s, right? Itâs a fair age gap between youâ she asked.
âI am aware and thatâs why we both want to keep this between us for nowâ you said before you demanded to change the topic.
You personally did not care about the age gap between you, but you knew that Cillian did.
Him kissing you in front of your friend was unexpected to you and certainly evidence that he was coming around.
Perhaps the age gap started to bother him less.
The Next Two Weeks
Over the next few weeks, you were busy rehearsing your play and managed well to keep your relationship with Cillian a secret.
You almost got caught once by Craig when Cillian came over for dinner one night after he avoided Craig and Ella for a little while. During his visit, you managed to steal a kiss from Cillian when no one was in the kitchen with you. Craig walked into the kitchen just after you did. It was a close call.
Other than that, it was smooth sailing for now.
Over the past two weeks, Cillian had also moved back into his house which was only a ten-minute walk from where you were living.
His ex fiancĂ©e had moved out as she couldnât have maintained the repayments on the mortgage on her own and Cillian spent most of his free time redecorating the house, decluttering pretty much everything that belonged to his ex.
You visited him often and helped him with painting and some of the work. It was fun and you enjoyed his company.
You also managed to sleep over at his place a few nights per week, raising some suspicions with Craig and Ella.
You told them that you were staying with a friend to rehearse the play and they never minded since you were extremely reliable and helpful when it came to their children. After all, you were not required to work past 6pm but often chose to do so at your own accord. You enjoyed the childrenâs company.
Despite what you had told Craig and Ella, Craig believed that you were back with Darcy. But, this time around, you seemed much happier and he didnât dare to question it.
But this wasnât all he had noticed and thought about. He had his suspicions about Cillianâs behaviour as well.
On Thursday Night, the 23th of May, you had dinner with Craig, Ella and their children. Cillian was in Cork until the following day to see his parents and you spent a lot of time at home, listening to Craigâs wild theories about what his friend was up to.
âSo, are you guys going to the pub on Saturday Night for Cillianâs birthday?â Ella asked.
âBelieve it or not, he said heâs busyâ Craig said with a chuckle.
âToo busy to go to the pub on his birthday? Thatâs very strangeâ Ella observed.
âApparently, yesâ Craig said, not knowing that Cillian asked you to spend the night with him instead.
âHe really needs to get out there especially after the break upâ Ella suggested.
âI actually think he is seeing someone. Heâs been rather busy and in unusually good mood. Despite, I did notice some long hair in the bathroom sink when I visited him the other dayâ Craig laughed.
âAre you a detective now Craig?â you asked with a shy laugh.
âAnd he didnât tell you anything?â Ella asked surprised, causing Craig to shake his head.
Craig and Ellaâs mind ran through all of the single females they knew and they believed to be compatible with Cillian but, after some speculations between them, they finally put this matter to rest and changed the topic.
Little did they know that the person they were wanting to know about was sitting right in front of them.
Birthday Surprise
The following day, you had the day off and went shopping with Anita. You needed a birthday present for Cillian and had no idea what to get him.
After visiting several shops, you finally found what you were looking for. He loved music and had recently bought himself a new record player. You knew he was collection records and you found one that you thought he doesnât already have and would appreciate. After all, it was by his favourite band.
âSo, you done?â Anita asked after you bought the record and some wrapping paper.
âNot quite. I need something to wearâ you said shyly.
âArenât you just having dinner at his house?â Anita asked.
âYes, but I am talking about lingerieâ you said with some embarrassment and, before you knew it, Anita dragged you into a well-known underwear shop.
âHow about this one?â Anita asked as she pulled out some red lace panties made out of the tiniest bit of fabric.
âUhm, I donât think so, thanksâ you said as you looked at it. It was rather trashy and you were after something more elegant.
In the end, Anita convinced you to purchase a set of black lace lingerie and matching stockings that were held up by a suspender.
The set was elegant, but yet sexy. It was just right for what you had planned.
As the evening of Cillianâs birthday approached, you were beginning to get rather nervous.
That night, you were determined to give yourself to him. All of you. It is what you wanted and youâve been ready for a few days now to take this next step.
You arrived at Cillianâs house at 6pm with some take away from Cillianâs favourite Italian restaurant and his birthday present.
âHappy Birthdayâ you smiled as he opened the door and you gave him a gentle kiss.
âThank youâŠyou look lovelyâ Cillian observed as you walked inside and took off your coat, revealing your black and white satin wrap dress and high heels.
âThanks, I bought it just for youâ you winked. âUhm, and this is for youâ you said with a warm smile as you handed him his present.
âYou know you didnât have to get me anything, right. Just spending the evening with you is perfectâ Cillian said politely.
âBut I wanted toâ you said as you sat down on one of the bar stools at the side of the kitchen bench while Cillian opened his present.
He was impressed with your choice of album and confirmed that he did not already have this record. He was quick to put it on and you were happy that he liked it.
After listening to some music and enjoying some wine and Italian food, Cillian excused himself to have a shower after you managed to spill half of your glass of red wine onto his lap.
You were rather clumsy that evening and it was probably because of your nervousness. You knew what you wanted that night and it made your thoughts go crazy and your mind play tricks on you, causing you to not pay much attention to your surroundings. Â
Cillian suggested that you pick a movie to watch while he was in the shower and, whilst you agreed with his suggestion, you had other ideas. Â
Taking off your dress and putting your heels back on, you decided to wait for him in the living room while enjoying a bit more of your wine and changing the music to a playlist on your phone.
When Cillian returned from the bathroom in nothing but his black Calvin Kleins, his chin dropped at the sight of you, sitting on his white leather lounge almost suggestively wearing nothing but black lace lingerie.
âUhmâŠâ Cillian said, before taking a deep breath. âDid you find a movie?â he asked politely, causing you to smile and shake your head.
âI donât think I want to watch a movieâ you said as you walked over to him before giving him a passionate kiss.
âAlright, then what would you like to do instead?â Cillian asked as your lips drifted apart.
âHave sex with youâ you said shyly.
âDidnât we say that we would take things slow?â Cillian asked.
âWell, weâve been seeing each other for almost two weeks now. Despite, itâs your birthday and that is what I had in mind to surprise youâ you grinned.
âY/N, listen, it doesnât matter what day it is. I need you to want this and be sure about this, alright?â Cillian said reassuringly.
âI am sure Cillian. I want this and I want you. All of you. Please donât make me have put this on for nothingâ you said as you looked down on yourself.
âI didnât quite prepare for thisâ Cillian chuckled.
âPrepare? You literally just came out of the showerâ you said with laughter.
âI meant that I donât have condomsâ Cillian chuckled.
âOh rightâŠcondoms, of courseâ you said, your face turning flushed instantly while Cillian couldnât help but laugh. This had become rather awkward but he adored your shyness.
âWell, I am on the pillâ you said shyly knowing that it would be safe after recent conversations you had following your respective break ups.
âUhm, alrightâ Cillian said somewhat nervously himself as he ran his hand over your cheek gently. He didnât expect to find himself in a situation like this again at his age.
âWell, letâs break in your new bed, shall we?â you chuckled, causing Cillian to laugh and take your hand before walking with you to his bedroom.
After you entered it, you stood there in front of the large bed, holding each other's hands and looking deep into each other's eyes.
His lips met yours. You kissed lovingly, your tongues searching deep into each other's mouths while your hands were running over each other's bodies.
He was delicious and you leaned forward to plant little butterfly kisses on his warm skin.
Of course, you had seen Cillian bare chested and naked before, but somehow, the dim light of the room made him appear even more sexy than before. His freckled skin shone at you and his glorious smile radiated strength and confidence. You gasped at his sight, knowing what you were about to do. What had you done to deserve him?
As you were standing in front of his bed, facing him and gazing over his body, Cillian planted a kiss on your bare neck while his hands explored your curves and breasts.
âYou are so beautifulâ Cillian whispered. He was in awe of you and his eyes sparkled as he beheld your beauty.
In response to his comment, you fell against his chest, frantically covering his warm skin with kisses, running your fingertips over the swell of his muscles. His hand went to the back of your head. Emboldened, you took one of his nipples gently between your teeth and pulled lightly.
A strangled gasp sounded in his throat and, like a whore, you ran your hand over the front of his briefs, feeling his erect cock trapped behind the fabric. That proud bulge in between his legs looked simply delicious and you wanted to taste him again.
He stood and pulled you gently to him, holding you close, letting you feel his hardness as it pressed against your belly. Your arms slipped around his waist and down to his buttocks. You squeezed hard and pulled him tighter against you.
Boldly he swept you up and carried you round the side of the bed, effortlessly laying you down on the bed. You loved that wonderful feeling of weightlessness as he held you in his arms.
As you were lying on the bed, he hungrily crawled between your legs like an Iberian tiger stalking his prey, feasting his eyes on the prize beneath him. Lust was plastered across his face.
It was obvious to you that he wanted you. All of you. And you werenât afraid, werenât anxious, not even nervous. This is what you wanted, what you'd dreamed of. You were expectant and excited. This was the man who'd make you a woman and you were ready more than you'd ever been.
As he was hoovering over you, you pulled him deeper with your arms and legs, thrusting your sex up against his hardness.
As you did, you could feel the ridges of his cock through your panties and felt so good.
âEasyâ he chuckled as you eagerly tried to grind against him.
âI want you so badly Cillianâ you said, your eyes hungry and desperate.
âAnd I want you too Y/N, but, this is your first time, so we need to take it slow, trust meâ Cillian said as he pushed himself up from you and reached between your breasts to unfasten your bra. You smiled as he'd spotted the clasp at the front, somehow that was very pleasing to you and you hadn't needed to show him.
Delicately he spread the two halves of the garment, as if opening a treasure cabinet. Despite the fact that heâs seen them before, flames lit up in his eyes as he exposed your naked breasts.
Your nipples throbbed as he caressed them gently with his tongue. The warmth of his mouth closed over each one in turn as he worshipped your body, driving a gasp from your lips at his touch. He placed soft kisses between your breasts, nuzzling their gentle swell, then lavished his attention again on your proud buds.
âI am one lucky man to have such a beautiful woman with me right hereâ he whispered again as your hands ran through his hair.
âI think I am the lucky one Cillyâ you whispered as he began to move downwards, honouring you, revering you, brushing his lips over your abs and across the top edge of your panties. His breath was warm and gentle, his fingers so soft and caring. A visceral moan resounded through your body as your aching core demanded his touch.
Your hands were still buried in his hair as his warm lips brushed against the inside of your thighs, tantalisingly close, but yet so far from your centre. You longed for him to slide your panties down your hips, to reveal your most delicate flower. You were so wet for him.
You moaned a little in disappointment as he kissed his way back up your body. Was he having second thoughts?
He held his face above yours and you looked up into those deep blue eyes. Then his touch, so light, making you tingle all the more as he stroked you through the fabric of your lace panties.
A soft groan escaped your lips. You closed your eyes, pressing your head back into the pillow, flinging your arms out wide as you surrendered to him.
âYou like that?â Cillian asked in his soft bass growl.
You nodded as he was teasing you, withdrawing his touch.
âYesâŠPlease CillianâŠpleaseâ you moaned in response, longing his touch.
You lifted your hips, imploring him to reveal your nakedness and pressing your sex against his hand.
âSo impatient, arenât we?â Cillian said as he shuffled his body downwards again and, with a final, tender kiss on the waistband of your lace panties, he hooked his fingers behind the elastic and eased your panties over your hips.
He leant forwards and placed a gentle kiss just above your mound just as his fingers trailed over your sex.
In the next moment, you felt him take your slender hips in his powerful hands and a shiver ran through you as he blew across the moistened lips of your sex.
He reached forwards to plant a kiss on your mons. Your eyes closed as he parted your dripping labia, licking repeatedly upwards to your clit.
You could hear him spreading your wetness as he lapped across the entrance to your channel. You moaned in frustration, trying to capture his tongue and suck it inside you. You gasped with pleasure.
Faster and faster his tongue worked your sex, stoking the fire, fanning the flames inside.
âYou know I should really be doing this to you instead. After all, itâs your birthdayâ you said in between moans as you buried your hands in his curls.
âTrust me, I enjoy this very muchâ Cillian said just before plunged his tongue back inside of you, causing you to buck your hips against him as he worked his magic.
The heat was rising inside you and driving your whimpers, your cries and your moans as the surging inside you prepared to blow.
You threw back your head and screamed, digging your fingers into his hair as your orgasm exploded over you. A thousand earthquakes thundered through you as he catapulted you to the stars. Blindly you clung to him, fighting to breathe.
âI am waiting for this knock on the door from my neighboursâ Cillian chuckled as you were rather loud when you orgasmed.
âI am really trying to stay quiet. Really. I promiseâ you giggled as Cillian trailed kissed back up your body while you came down from your high.
âI find that hard to believeâ Cillian smirked before his mouth met yours in a frenzy of passion.
You were wild as you kissed, driven by the taste of yourself on his tongue. His hands roamed over your body as he hoovered over you and you pressed back against him, brushing against his erect cock with your wet mound.
âCillian, pleaseâ you panted. âI want you inside of meâ you said.
âYou are determined, arenât you?â Cillian chuckled, causing you to nod.
Just after you gave him the nod of reassurance he needed, he got rid of his briefs and you delicately closed your fingers around his length, stroking him gently.
Soft moans escaped him and a little drop of pre-cum had collected on his glans, then running down over your fingers.
You wanted to take him in your mouth, to feel his cock against the back of your throat, but your core was aching, screaming, demanding him.
After a few more strokes and passionate kisses, Cillian hoovered over you and spread your legs apart as he kneeled between them. His cock bobbed in front of him as he got into position. You couldnât help it but look down in between you. He was so close and you bit your lip in anticipation.
Cillianâs hand reached between you as he lowered himself, lining himself up with your entrance. Â
âPleaseâ you whispered. âI am readyâ you said as you looked at him.
He kissed you again and carefully, tentatively began to push forwards.
His bulbous head slowly eased into your channel, stretching you wide.
You winced as you could feel a sharp, stinging and pinching pain. You closed your eyes and gritted your teeth before taking some deep breaths. Above you, Cillian held still, very still, comforting you with the lightest kisses on your cheeks and forehead, tenderly stroking your hair.
You opened your eyes, noticing Cillian looking down at you, a loving concern in his eyes. You lifted your head, seeking the softness of his lips.
âAre you OK?â he asked, causing you to nod.
He smiled and kissed you again.
âDo you want me to keep going?â he asked as he noticed that you began to relax a bit more.
âYes, keep goingâ you said before taking a deep breath and holding onto his shoulders.
âTell me if you want me to stop, alright?â Cillian asked, causing you to nod.
Millimetre by millimetre he moved forwards, watching you closely, ready to stop in a heartbeat. It hurt, of course it hurt. Your virginity was not giving up without a fight. But that was a battle you were already winning as you knew this pain was soon to turn into pleasure.
After he entered you slowly, pushing past your hymen, you eventually felt him coming to rest against your mons. He was all the way inside.
The walls of your channel gripped him tightly, probing his shaft which felt so big and hard. He felt so good and euphoria soon erupted inside you. It was a wonderful feeling of completeness, a joining of your bodies.
You kissed for a long time - for how long, you know not, but Cillian would have held you for eternity, safe and secure in his embrace.
You looked up at his face, cradled in your hands - his eyes sparkled with love for you.
Eventually, as you adjusted to him inside of you, you nodded, pleading with him to begin to move. Then, as you felt the slow withdraw as his hips eased away, you pressed your forehead against his, curving your body upwards and inwards, as if to prevent him escaping from you.
Another kiss, this time on your forehead. He looked down at you, searching your eyes again for signs of pain - but there were none.
Slowly, very slowly he began to press, pushing forward again, invading your softness once more. Your back arched, calling him deeper as you stretched around him. You threw back your head, gasping in pleasure, my your sightless as your fingers clawed at his skin.
Suddenly he was all the way inside you, sheathed to the hilt, splitting you open as the two of you united.
He kissed you tenderly on the lips, but as he started to move away, you grabbed the back of his head and held him, pushing your tongue hungrily into his mouth. Surprised, he hesitated for a split second, then responded vigorously, gripping your face between his hands, as we lost ourselves in a whirlpool of passion.
Withdrawing again, pulling from you, lifting his hips as he slid away. Your core cried out in anguish, clutching in vain, desperate to hold him inside, gasping to receive him again. A third push, a little smoother, a little quicker, all the way in once more.
âOh god that feels so goodâ you cried, delirious with pleasure.
Kisses, frantic kisses, endless kisses - on your cheeks, your forehead, your lips; Cillian' tenderness in that most masculine of acts. Your mouth searched blindly, your tongue thrusting against his as you tightly gripped the back of his head. Moans and whimpers emanated from your chest, words impossible, unfit to carry your emotions.
More thrusts - each time you arched your back as he filled you, a warm pleasure flooding through you.
He was slow, yet powerful, stretching you open as you surrendered to him. Above you the sinews of his body glistened lightly with perspiration, his muscles standing out strongly beneath his skin. His scent was raw, intoxicating - a testosterone-charged heat that drove you wilder still.
He pushed up away from you a little, straightening out his arms, so the two of you could crane your necks to see where you were joined. Entranced you watched as his cock slid from you, slick with your juices, then buried itself again. A hypnotic, mesmerising rhythm, lifting your soul from the bed where you lay, driving you to places never before seen. You flung your head backwards, surrendering yourself to pleasure, pain banished to the farthest corners of the earth as fire in your core burned ever brighter.
 There was a change in Cillian too, as he responded to your moans. He'd been tentative, hesitant in those first few strokes, but now he was settling and letting his own visceral power take control. Beneath him you writhed with pleasure. He was dominant, in charge and in control. He began to increase his pace, driven onwards by the same urgent, primeval desire that commanded you.
âOh god yes donât stopâ you hissed each time he thrusted into you, squealing and moaning in equal measure.
He brought his chest down again, crushing your nipples against his torso, binding you ever more tightly to him. The side of his head pressed against yours and you buried your face against his shoulder.
âOh god Cillianâ you moaned. You were so close.
Your body arched and the muscles of your tight walls clenched and spasmed around his hard cock as a great bubble of pleasure rose up within your core and your orgasm washed over you.
âFuckâ Cillian moaned at the sight of your pleasure. Your face and torso were flushed, your breath raspy, as you writhed beneath him and clawed at him while your body peaked again.
As your walls contracted around him one final time, a roar exploded from him as his body crested and he toppled over the edge. His cock throbbed and pulsed inside of you and you could feel him spill several steady streams of cum deep inside of you.
After he came down from his high, he collapsed on you gasping, trying to regain his breath.
âDon't move, please, Cillianâ you said, your face still flushed with your excitement. You stroked his hair lovingly. âI like the way you feel inside me...â you said.
âI take it you're okay then?â Cillian laughed softly, enjoying the little ebbing ripples from your tight walls against his cock. He smiled and kissed your lips softly.
âBetter than okayâ you answered, a look of wonder crossing her face. You never expected your first time to be so good and pleasurable.
âAre you sore at all?â he questioned with concern.
âNot that I can feel. All I feel now is exhausted blissâ you grinned.
âYou know, you are amazing in every way possible. Now I think you need to get some sleep, before I am tempted to do that all over againâ he chuckled as he gently pulled out of you.
âI didn't think men could, I meanâŠâ your voice trailed off.
âI guess it depends on the man and the situation. For me, there is nothing sexier than someone I am in love with lying naked beside me in satisfied bliss. With that, itâs hard to keep my hands off your beautiful and sexy bodyâ he smirked as he leaned forward to kiss your shoulder, his hand moving to your breast to fondle the nipple.
âDid you just say that you are in love with me?â you asked shyly.
âYes, I did. I know itâs early but, sometimes, if you know you knowâ Cillian said before kissing you gently.
âI am in love with you too Cillian. Iâve been feeling that way the moment I met youâ you said as your lips drifted apart.
âWell, then I am a very lucky manâ Cillian smiled before trailing kisses down your neck again.
âKeep that up, and I will demand a repeat performanceâ you teased him, your face flushing at his words.
âYou will be sore tomorrow Y/N. It might be better to wait untilâŠâ Cillian said and, just before he could finish his sentence, he found himself on his back with your head disappearing in between his thighs.
That night, you were lucky enough to experience another two orgasms before you finally decided to give Cillian some rest.
Eventually, after several more hours of passionate love making, you smiled without saying a word and snuggled up against him. You loved him, truly madly deeply and it was an absolute wonder to you that you have come that far in a such a small space of time. You sighed once in pleasure at holding him and being held, then slipped into contented oblivion.
The Morning After
The next morning, at around 8 am, the rising sun began to warm your skin through the ceiling window as you slowly start to stir. The birds began to chirp and chitter as the light reached across the bedroom in long hot streaks.
You felt extremely well rested and a little sore from the night before. It was warm beneath the thick doona lying next to Cillian and, with your eyes slowly opening to look next to you, you could see that he is still fast asleep.
You spooned behind him and wrapped your arms around his chest. He murmured gently as you nestled your face into his shoulder and kissed the curve of his neck. You were still naked and your skin was clammy with dried sweat from the night before.
Your nether regions tightened, throbbed, and tingled, thinking about Cillian being inside of you, making love to you. You rubbed your crotch against his soft ass and, as you did, he rolled his legs together. His eyes still closed. Your feet brush over and over and a low moan escaped his lips.
You carefully and gently grasped his already hard cock and began to move your hand up and down his shaft. He began to moan a little bit louder, causing you to pick up speed.
With his eyes still closed, he reached back with one hand and felt the curve of your body while you pressed your other arm against his stomach and hold onto him.
Finally, he opened his eyes and turned his face toward yours before pressing his lip against yours.
As your lips drifted apart, Cillian rolled on top of you. One knee bent and with his hands on your neck, he ran his tongue over your lips, teasing you.
You lift your hips to him and his erection glanced against your vulva while he kissed you deeply, so hard and all-consuming that you could barely catch your breath.
You folded your legs around his waist and, just like this, without words, he slid inside of you.
Your hands caressed his face as he entered you, causing you to moan loudly.
His thrusts were gentle but deep and you loved the feeling of him being inside of you.
You moved your hips in sync with his as his cock glided in and out of you over and over again.
Your moans soon became louder and your walls began to clench around him.
âOh god, Cillian please donât stopâ you moaned as you could feel another orgasm coming on.
âI am not intending toâ he barely managed to say as he continued to thrust in and out of you.
Within moments, you lost yourself in the pleasure of his cock slipping and thrusting in and out of you and your orgasm washed over you.
You were as loud as usual, sure to wake up the neighbours. But, your screams and moans sent Cillian over the edge as well and he filled you with more of his warm cum before he collapsed on top of you.
âHmm this was niceâŠ.good morning babeâ you smiled as Cillian carefully pulled out of you, which is when you both heard the doorbell ring.
âI am telling you, itâs probably the neighbour with a noise complaintâ Cillian laughed.
âWell, you better sort this out then yeah?â you smirked as you watched Cillian put on his briefs and a t-shirt quickly as the doorbell rang a second time.
Cillian was quick to walk downstairs once his erection had finally come down, making you giggle.
âFuck, heyâ Cillian said as he opened the door and Craig greeted him.
âHappy belated Birthday manâ Craig said as he handed Cillian a present and a bag of bagels.
âUhm, thanksâ Cillian said with some embarrassment as Craig walked inside.
As he walked into the living room, Craig was quick to notice your coat hanging up in the hallway. Your black dress and high heels were scattered through the living room and the two empty wine glasses were still sitting on the coffee table.
âOh shit man, you are having company?â Craig asked, causing Cillian to nod and, just as he did, Craig noticed your keys on the kitchen counter.
âArenât these Y/Nâs keys?â he asked, causing Cillian to nod with embarrassment and, as you overheard the conversation from upstairs, you joined Cillian and Craig in the living room.
âHi Craigâ you said nervously. Your cheeks were flushed and your hair was messy from your recent activities.
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Lost in Translation
A/N: Heyyyyy guys...remember when I used to post like every two weeks? Yeesh thatâs awkward...but Iâm backkkkk woooooooo party time! I was so excited that my discord buddies organized another fic swap because it was so much fun the first time. This time around I was chosen to write a doozy for the wonderful @writing-in-april and I have decided to bless you all with a beautiful subby boy. Sub Spencer lives in my head rent free, no cap. So sit back, relax and pretend it's you getting fricken railed. Peace out girl scouts;)
Pairing: SPENCER x READER
Category: SMUT hehe oh yeah and fluff
Word Count: 4.8k
ENJOY:)
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MASTERLIST
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For as long as she could remember, Y/n had always wanted to learn Russian.
So, naturally, when she found out that their newest case involved two lovers who also happened to be Russian criminals trying to escape the United States government, she simply couldnât help but jump at the opportunity to become more involved in the investigation.Â
Itâs not that sheâd never been on a stakeout for the Bureau before, in fact sheâd probably been on so many at this point that sheâd lost count. The only difference that this specific stakeout brought to her life was the fact that it was her first one to have ever been shared with Spencer Reid.
Her and the young doctor had lived in the same apartment building since her first day at the BAU, but their relationship pretty much began and ended at that. Of course they greeted each other whenever they passed in the halls of their building and ricocheted off of each otherâs theories whenever necessary during their meetings in the round table room, but it would be a lie to label their relationship as anything other than casual acquaintances as well as amicable coworkers.Â
She had never been able to fully get a grasp on the elusive Dr. Reid. The fact that he was already such an integral member of the F.B.I. at the ripe age of 25 astounded and, well to be honest, perplexed her. Not that she doubted his abilities or intelligence in any way, quite the opposite really. She admired how utterly brilliant he proved to be day in and day out, even with the shy exterior he presented himself with to the world. Well, shy was definitely more of an understatement.Â
She had never met someone more socially awkward in her entire life, but with that being said, she couldnât help but find it endearing and pretty dang adorable. Y/n constantly found herself enjoying his pathetic attempts at human interaction on a daily basis. From the nervous stutters to the out of this world hand gestures, there was much for her to dissect about the young doctor. And while she could openly admit that he was quite easy on the eyes, in a boyish-innocent kind of way, she had never really been able to see him in that sort of light.
If she thought his normal social interaction skills were entertaining to witness, his reactions to any of the conversations that took a more raunchy turn were to die for. The speed at which his features would ripen red like a tomato whenever anything of a sexual nature was brought up during cases was truly amazing, impressive even. However, unlike the rest of their team, she knew he wasnât completely innocent. The walls in their apartment were as good as paper when it came to thickness, so it wasnât that big surprise that the sounds created within them carried fairly well.Â
Or at least that was what she had discovered after the first night she heard him touching himself just through her bedroom wall.Â
Yes, it was less than ideal that their bedroom walls just happened to be adjacent to each other, but what could she do about it? It wasnât as though she never sought out her own pleasure while alone in her apartment...although she would bet money that she was much better at withholding her noises. Instead, she learned to adapt to the sounds from next door and continue on with her life, having accepted that guys will in fact be dudes, no matter how innocent and meek they may appear.
When her boss had explained the nature of the assignment to them, there wasnât anything of significance that had jumped out at her. It was all pretty standard instruction. They would wait, parked, in a government issued SUV overnight at a location close to the whereabouts of the criminals and simply translate their conversations using the mics that were planted prior. While Hotch knew that Y/n herself couldnât understand Russian, it was common knowledge that the resident genius easily could transcribe the language.
And that was how she found herself cramped next to Spencer Reid in the stagnant vehicle, pen and paper in hand, patiently waiting for the translations to begin.Â
It was almost completely silent inside the car, apart from the quiet whirring of the heat coming through the vents, and she could basically feel the nerves coming off of the man next to her in waves. Thatâs why she was completely thrown off her game when his timid voice was the first to break through the silence that had encompassed the space they inhabited together.
âSo um Y/n..h-how have you been recently?â
She did her best to hide the small smirk that started to form on her face from the stuttering mess that spilled out of his mouth. She definitely didnât want to make him feel even worse about himself so she decided to humour his adorable attempt at conversation with her...well...sort of.
âOh ya know Reid, just counting the days until I get some action. How about you?â If she thought he was sputtering nervously before, that was nothing compared to this treasure.
âOh um well uh I-I mean...I don-I donât...uh...w-what was the question a-again?â
This time she couldnât stop the airy chuckle that escaped her lips as she leaned over and patted him gently on his thigh.
âRelax Reid, Iâm just fucking around with you. Well for the most part...I certainly wouldnât be opposed to some action, but thatâs a whole can of worms I am not about to open during a stakeoutâ, Y/n laughed, not at all missing the steadily spreading blush that coated his sharp features.
âYeah...no..yeah right of course...I t-totally knew you were just um fu-messing with me! Uh we should probably um r-review our assignment...you know just so weâre all s-set before we start.â How adorable.
âAye-aye captain Reid. Ok so..â, she muttered while fiddling with the listening device to secure the right frequency. â...we just have to wait until they get back so weâre in range of their conversations. Thatâs when youâll have your time to shine and prove yourself as the resident genius once again. And Iâm sure that youâre aware that I donât know a lick of the Russian language so I will be the best damn transcriber for you that the world has ever seenâ, she finished with a smirk.Â
Even Reid chuckled a bit at her words, the ever-present blush slowly creeping back upon his face and neck.Â
âIâll uh-Iâll hold you to that then.â Y/n had to admit she particularly liked to see the boy smiling, especially when it was the result of her own words. His innocence seemed to call out to her like a siren and she didnât know how to feel about it.
âOh-oh there they are! Ok get the pen and paper ready because as soon as theyâre in range Iâll start translating.â
Getting themselves situated, they waited the few seconds it took for the couple to get close enough to the vicinity of the SUV for their conversations to begin to be broadcasted through their system.
âĐĐ°Đș ĐČŃ ĐŽŃĐŒĐ°Đ”ŃĐ”, ĐŸĐœĐž ОЎŃŃ ĐżĐŸ ĐœĐ°ŃĐ”ĐŒŃ ŃлДЎŃ?â
âDo you think theyâre on our trail?â, Spencer easily understands, leaning slightly closer to her so his words were clearly heard.
âĐĐž Đ·Đ° ŃŃĐŸ. ĐŁ ŃŃĐžŃ
глŃĐżŃŃ
Đ°ĐŒĐ”ŃĐžĐșĐ°ĐœŃĐ”ĐČ ĐœĐ”Ń ŃĐ°ĐœŃĐŸĐČ ĐżĐŸĐčĐŒĐ°ŃŃ ĐœĐ°Ń.â
âNo way. Those stupid Americans donât stand a chance at catching us.â
At this point, the couple had already disappeared behind the door at the entrance of their current base, leaving only their words to give the closely listening agents much needed context clues.
âĐŻ ĐșĐŸĐłĐŽĐ°-ĐœĐžĐ±ŃĐŽŃ ĐłĐŸĐČĐŸŃĐžïżœïżœ ŃДбД, ĐșĐ°Đș ŃОлŃĐœĐŸ ĐŒĐœĐ” ĐœŃĐ°ĐČĐžŃŃŃ ŃĐČĐŸŃ ŃĐČĐ”ŃĐ”ĐœĐœĐŸŃŃŃ?â
âHave I ever told you how much I love your confidence?âÂ
Even Spencer let himself smile at the chuckle that left Y/nâs lips. âAwww how cute...theyâre flirting with each other over mass murder. I strive for that kind of intimacy.â
âĐĐ° Ń ŃĐ”Đ±Ń Đ”ŃŃŃ. ĐĐŸ ĐżĐŸŃĐ”ĐŒŃ Đ±Ń ŃДбД ĐœĐ” ĐżĐŸĐșĐ°Đ·Đ°ŃŃ ĐŒĐœĐ”, ĐœĐ°ŃĐșĐŸĐ»ŃĐșĐŸ ŃДбД ŃŃĐŸ ĐœŃĐ°ĐČĐžŃŃŃ.â
âYes, you have. But why donât you show me just how much you love it.â
Uh oh, Y/n thought to herself. Not a second after the untimely thought permeated her brain, the sounds of wet lips sloppily colliding against each other filled the otherwise silent vehicle. After the few seconds of shock wore off, their heads whipped to face each other, eyes wide and mouths wide open. âHuh...well this was certainly an unexpected turn.â
âI uh um-uh well w-what do we do now?â, Tomato Boy nervously sputtered out over the chorus of moans and groans that were currently bouncing off the SUVâs walls. As unexpected as the present situation was, she was absolutely eating up his reaction to the crude sounds.
âWell, Hotch did say he wanted us to take down every single word that was shared between them so...I guess weâre just gonna have to keep moving forward with the translations. You can do that, canât you Reid?â, she explained, not even attempting to hide the growing smirk on her face.
âYeah! Yes! Mhmm I can do that, I c-can definitely do t-that.â, he gushed, trying to subtly clear his throat to clear the steadily growing tension in his body.
âGood to hear, Doc.â, she cheekily replied just as the raunchy sounds echoing through the system transitioned to different methods of communication, more legible ones.
âĐąŃ Đ±Ńла ĐŽĐ»Ń ĐŒĐ”ĐœŃ ŃĐ°ĐșĐŸĐč Ń
ĐŸŃĐŸŃĐ”Đč ĐŽĐ”ĐČĐŸŃĐșĐŸĐč. ĐŻ ĐŽŃĐŒĐ°Ń, ŃŃ Đ·Đ°ŃĐ»ŃжОĐČĐ°Đ”ŃŃ ĐœĐ°ĐłŃĐ°ĐŽŃ.â
Quickly clearing his throat once more, he jumped back into action, with what Y/n noticed was considerably less confidence than before. âYouâve b-been such a good g-girl for me. I think you deserve a r-reward.â Spencerâs voice had noticeably dropped to a whisper by the end of the sentence, forcing Y/n to lean closer to be able to hear his translations, only magnifying the already present tension in the air.Â
âĐĐŸĐ¶Đ°Đ»ŃĐčŃŃĐ°, папа, Ń ŃĐŽĐ”Đ»Đ°Ń ŃŃĐŸ ŃĐłĐŸĐŽĐœĐŸ.â
âP-please daddy.â His voice broke at the end igniting something deep inside Y/nâs being. âIâll do anything.â In that moment she truly believed he would do anything, his own words or not, based on the obvious strain in his pants that her eyes glanced over, and also by the way his skin completely succumbed to goosebumps as her warm breath caressed the shell of his ear. She didnât really know what the hell was happening, why her body was absolutely loving the way he gradually leaned into herâs, submitting all of his vulnerabilities into her hands.Â
âйДбД ŃŃĐŸ ĐœŃĐ°ĐČĐžŃŃŃ, ĐœĐ” ŃĐ°Đș лО, ĐŒĐ°Đ»Đ”ĐœŃĐșĐ°Ń ïżœïżœĐ»ŃŃĐșĐ°. ĐĐ°Đș ŃĐ»Đ”Đœ ĐżĐ°ĐżŃ ĐłĐ»ŃĐ±ĐŸĐșĐŸ ĐČĐœŃŃŃĐž ŃДбŃ?â
She watched the way he inhaled a deep breath and released a high-pitched sigh before continuing on, subtly pressing her legs together to control the excitement thrumming through her body at his pathetic tone and mannerisms.Â
âYou like t-that donât you, you little-uh-you little s-slut?â From their close proximity, she could clearly make out the speedy heartbeat clambering against his chest as he spoke. And if that was the case, he mustâve been able to feel hers as well. âLike daddyâs c-cock deep inside of y-you?â She couldâve sworn she saw his dick twitch slightly in his pants.
âĐĐ°Đ»Đ”ĐœŃĐșĐ°Ń ŃĐ»ŃŃĐșĐ° ŃжД ĐżŃĐžĐŽĐ”Ń Đ·Đ° ĐŒĐœĐŸĐč? ĐąĐŸĐłĐŽĐ° ŃĐŒĐŸĐ»ŃĐčŃĐ” ĐŸĐ± ŃŃĐŸĐŒ. ĐĐ»Ń, ŃĐŒĐŸĐ»ŃŃ ĐżĐŸĐ·ĐČĐŸĐ»ĐžŃŃ ŃДбД ĐșĐŸĐœŃĐžŃŃ.â
Y/n certainly did not miss the airy sigh that escaped his lips, watching as a bead of sweat dripped down his temple, confidently guessing it was not from the heat that had been coming through the vents.
âIs the little-little s-slut gonna come for me already? B-beg for it then. Fucking beg f-for me to let you c-come.â Spencer was speedily falling apart at the seams and she was loving it. More than loving it. She was craving it. Craving the little noises that he was trying to stop from escaping his lips. Craving the way he slightly bounced his leg in an attempt to control his arousal, which was futile because it had obviously already reached its full potential in the confines of his khaki slacks.Â
âĐĐŸĐ¶Đ°Đ»ŃĐčŃŃĐ°, папа. ĐĐŸĐ¶Đ°Đ»ŃĐčŃŃĐ°, ĐżĐŸĐ·ĐČĐŸĐ»Ń ĐŒĐœĐ” ĐżŃĐžĐčŃĐž. ĐĐœĐ” ŃŃĐŸ ĐœĐ°ĐŽĐŸ. ĐĐŸĐ¶Đ°Đ»ŃĐčŃŃĐ°.â
Without even hearing the words translated back to her, she could hear the utter desperation in the girlâs voice. She no longer needed to understand the Russian language to be able to finish the translation, and as she sat there with her thighs tightly pressed together, she knew exactly what it meant.
âPlease!â The utter need that was present in the original audio was somehow mirrored perfectly by the young doctorâs breathy voice, his eyes squeezed tightly shut, a prominent vein popping through the skin of his smooth forehead. âPlease, p-please, please let me come. I n-need it. Please!â
âĐŃОЎО Đ·Đ° ĐŒĐœĐŸĐč, ĐŽĐ”ŃĐșĐ°.â
Deciding that she could regret her actions in the morning, Y/n quickly grabbed his face before he could translate, angling his head so she could whisper directly into his ear at the same time he spoke the last line of the night.
âCome for me baby.â, they both spoke at the exact same time.
Pulling away as fast as possible, she watched his clamped eyes shoot open as the most obnoxiously loud moan she had ever heard escaped the poor kid, his whole body spasming as a result. And using the large stain on the crotch of his pants as a guide, she was pretty certain she knew what had happened.
For the next few minutes there was silence in the SUV, apart from Spencerâs heavy breathing as he came down of course, leading them to believe the couple had fallen asleep after their...activities. Of course she wanted nothing more than to tease the trembling mess next to her, but she could already tell he was mortified beyond belief because of what happened so she didnât want to make it any worse for him than it already was.Â
After waiting a few extra minutes just to make sure that they had actually gone to sleep, the pair drove away from the stakeout location, Spencer not having said a word since his...big finish. As much as she loved watching him fall apart in front of her, she really didnât want him to feel uncomfortable around her.Â
âWell that was certainly an unexpected turn of events for the night, huh?â, she said, lightly chuckling with the intent of lightening his mood. She was very glad to see it had the intended effect.
âUh y-yeah...you could definitely say that again.â, he mumbled with the ghost of a smile on his plump lips, though she could still clearly make out the blush coating his features.
âSo hey, I know that you usually take the metro, but Iâd be more than happy to give you a ride home after we drop the SUV off at the office if you want.â, she warmly smiled in his direction without taking her eyes completely off the road.
âOh um..yeah that would be perfect. Thank you.â
âDonât mention it Reid.â
~~~
The rest of the ride back to the office was pretty much spent in silence, but it was much more comfortable than it had been before, which was a huge relief. After dropping the keys to the SUV in the lock box inside, the two agents piled into Y/nâs car to go back home to their shared building. On their way back she considered just asking him if he wanted to ride with her everyday just to make his life a little easier in the long run.
Once they got to the parking lot and exited the vehicle, they began walking towards the entrance together, the awkward tension from before creeping back into the air around them. Soon enough, they found themselves standing in front of their respective doors, both unsure of how they were supposed to end the nightâs interactions. After a few moments of painful silence and eye contact, Y/n was the first one to rip off the band-aid.
âSo...I guess Iâll see you tomorrow Reid?â He seemed to be broken out of his trance by the sound of her voice, snapping back to attention.
âHuh? Oh yeah uh yes of course. S-see you tomorrow Y/n. Goodnight.â He scampered into his apartment before she could even get a chance to respond to his bidding.
âGoodnight.â, she whispered to no one other than herself as she unlocked her door and headed inside to shower quickly before diving into her soft sheets.
She was sitting up in her bed, book in hand, with only the small glow of her reading lamp illuminating her room when she heard it. Of course she knew immediately what they were, a talent that had developed and strengthened from living adjacent to a pretty much pubescent boy.
The tell-tale sound of moans and groans vibrating right through her wall.
She knew she probably shouldnât be listening, something about a violation of privacy or whatever, but she just couldnât help it. He sounded so desperate it was driving her insane. So much in fact that she was in the process of skimming her own hand downwards when she was interrupted by a certain something from the Docâs room.
âY/n! Oh god, please. Please.â
Oh. Oh.
Not even giving herself a second to consider her actions, she was up on her feet basically sprinting to his door, pajamas and all. Not even bothering with knocking, she noticed it was unlocked and let herself in, beelining for what she assumed was his bedroom by the increasing volume as she approached it. Standing in his doorframe, she was utterly mesmerized. There he was, sprawled across his sheets, completely bare with sweat coating his hair as he rapidly pumped his angry, red cock, her name tumbling from his lips like a chant.
âYouâre so beautiful like this.â She smirked as she watched his head shoot up to where she was standing, his hand immediately stilling itâs rapid movements. Watching the panic spread on his face was intoxicating to her as she slowly approached his bed.
âY/n! Oh my god, Iâm so sorry! I uh-I didnât um...â His words trailed off and his eyes widened as he watched her slowly begin removing her clothes as she moved closer to him.Â
âShhhhhh.â She managed to remove both her shirt and pajama pants in the short trip over to his bed and she had no intention of stopping there. Now standing directly in front of him, she let her eyes wander over his still frame completely, soaking in the amazement in his dark eyes and the slight tremble that was periodically rippling through his body. Maintaining eye contact with him the whole time, she reached behind her back and unclasped her bra, letting it pool on the floor next to her.
It was honestly shocking his eyes didnât actually fall onto the floor with how far they bulged out of their sockets, a small moan leaving his mouth.Â
She giggled at his enthusiasm before bringing her soft hands up to caress his face gently, his body shuddering at the contact. âDo you want me to keep going baby boy?â Taking a second to process the question that had left her lips, he slowly nodded while looking her in the eyes, his own full of awe.Â
Happy with his answer, she reached for the edge of her panties before pushing them down to join the other pieces of clothing already inhabiting his floor. Spencer couldnât speak. He could barely even breathe. Five minutes ago he had been jerking off to his neighbor, who also happened to be his coworker, and now said neighbor was crawling onto his bed, completely naked, with a wicked smirk on her face.
Straddling his lap, but making sure that there was no actual contact, she reached up to cup his face again, slowly rubbing circles into his defined cheekbone. âIs this ok baby boy? Is this what you want?â, she cooed.Â
Spencer looked like he honestly might cry from the pure compassion laced within her words, but still found a way to nervously nod his head in affirmation of her questions. With a warm smile on her face, she leaned forward and placed a feather-light kiss on his lower jaw before continuing up the side of his face, basking in the small whimpers that fell from his pretty lips. Finally reaching his ear, she let her warm breath tease him before proceeding.Â
âDo you want me to take control of you? Is that what you want sweet boy?â While the whine that immediately escaped him was answer enough, she pulled back searching for a more concrete answer to her question. âHmmmm, youâd like that?âÂ
âYes.â, he whispered, nodding his head anxiously.Â
While he was answering she had leaned back towards his face, placing soft kisses all over. âAs you wish baby boy.â, she whispered, changing course to attack his neck with her eager lips as soon the words left her mouth. Spencer gasped instantly and she couldnât help but smirk against his pale flesh, increasing the pressure in which she was assaulting his neck.
Through the groans that spilled past his lips, she was able to make out his pathetic attempt at words, not slowing down her lips at all. âJ-just make sure not to leave any m-marks. Weâll g-get in trouble at w-work.â Of course Spencer would be the only person on the planet to remember their office guidelines while getting his neck sucked like a vampire.
âNo marks...thatâll be difficult. I want everyone to know just how thoroughly I fucked you.â
Feeling extremely satisfied by his enthusiastic response to her vulgar words, she slowly lowered herself down his body, pausing with her mouth right above his groin. Somehow the poor kid already looked completely fucked out and she hadnât even done anything yet. Hearing him wince as she gently grasped and started stroking his cock, she knew this was gonna be fun.
Staring directly into her eyes, he watched the string of spit leave her mouth and drip directly onto his dick, eyes bulging at her bold actions, still in shock that any of this was actually happening.Â
Entranced by the way his chest expanded rapidly as he watched her curiously, she leaned forward and licked the tip, his head falling back onto the pillow behind him. âIâm gonna suck your cock...but only because I want to see if you can not be a spaz about getting head from me.â Her words made Spencer whimper and she smirked as she took him fully into her mouth, soaking in his pretty noises.Â
Y/n had only been going for a minute or two when she heard his groans get louder and felt him twitch in her mouth. Pulling off of him with a pop, she hummed at the sight of the completely wrecked boy in front of her, panting and shaking adorably. It wasnât long before the perfect idea infiltrated her head, her body thrumming with anticipation and excitement.
âYouâve been such a good boy for me. I think you deserve a reward.â, she smirked, reciting the words that they had heard verbatim. Seemingly catching on to what she was pushing for, he responded accordingly.
âPlease Y/n. Iâll do anything.â
She quirked her eyebrow in his direction questioningly, slowly grinding her dripping core against his achingly hard cock. âAnything, baby boy?â
Snapping his heated stare directly to her eyes, he cracked a beautiful smile. âAnything.â
She couldnât control the grin that overtook her lips as she lowered herself down onto his erection, writhing in pleasure at the feel of him inside of her and the sound of his wanton moans. âGood boy.âÂ
Wanting to give Spencer time to fully adjust and control himself, she started her movements out slow, lifting herself up until only his tip remained inside before dropping down completely into his lap repeatedly. He was a moaning mess on the sheets below her, sweat coating his body along with goosebumps covering every visible expanse of his skin as he panted like a dog. He was so fucking pretty like this.Â
Deciding enough was enough, she picked up the pace considerably, bouncing like a mad woman on his dick, while her sharp nails scratched down his creamy, pale chest in front of her, leaving angry, red streaks in their wake. Spencer had devolved into a blubbering mess underneath her and that lit her soul on fire.
âYou like that donât you, you little slut? Like your cock deep inside of me? Huh?âÂ
Y/n was pretty sure that he was short circuiting below her, his brain cutting off all control over his body as he spasmed uncontrollably and moaned for the entire fucking building to hear. Good, she thought. Let them hear how whipped he was for her. Even though it had only been a few minutes since she increased her speed, she could feel his cock starting to twitch violently inside of her and she knew he was close, really close.
âIs the little slut gonna come for me already?â All he could do was whimper in response, having to nod his head emphatically due to his loss of speech.
âBeg for it then. Fucking beg for me to let you come!â She was on fucking cloud nine right now, floating through the motions, as his whimpers increased in volume and speed. Mustering up all the strength he could, he spit out as many audible words as possible.
âPlease! Please, please, please let me come! I need it! Please!â He was crying now, tears rapidly pouring from his eyes and spilling down his cheeks out of sheer desperation and need to release the tension built up within his body.
She was in awe of him. As she watched the tears pour down his face, she couldnât help but whimper too. Desperately needing to finish, herself, she brought one hand down to make circles around her clit, while the other she brought up to wrap gently around his flushed throat, leaning over to whisper in his ear like she had earlier that night.
âCome for me, baby.â
She once again pulled back to witness his reactions to her hushed words, the outcome only more amazing than before. She watched as his eyes rolled back as far they could possibly go into his head as his mouth dropped open in pure ecstasy, high-pitched whines escaping his lips, his release shooting up into her like it had always belonged there. Maybe it had.
Watching him come undone below her, combined with her hand speedily rubbing circles on her clit, she was catapulted into the most amazing climax of her entire life, her body buzzing with excitement as she tightened around him and collapsed on his chest, weak as could be after that activity.
The pair laid silently, apart from the heaving breaths whirring through the room, still in shock over what had just transpired minutes before. Slowly shifting her eyes to the shivering boy below her, she saw he was caught in a trance, his eyes dazed, a soft grin on his lips.Â
Breaking him from his stupor, she gently cupped his cheek with one hand as the other drew lazy circles on his blotchy chest. Rubbing the skin on his face lightly, she leaned forward and kissed his nose, making him scrunch it up and giggle as a result. âSuch a sweet boy for me. Such a sweet, sweet boy.â Her words made him melt inside and words tumbled out of his own mouth before he could even think about stopping them.
âĐŃ ĐșŃĐ°ŃĐžĐČŃ ĐČĐœŃŃŃĐž Đž ŃĐœĐ°ŃŃжО.â
She looked up at him in shock, before breaking out in giggles. âDid you just serenade me in Russian? How romantic.â, she giggled, wiggling her eyebrows suggestively.
He couldnât seem to control his giggles either, a fact that warmed her heart. âYes, I suppose I did.â
Smiling up at the adorable boy she just had to ask. âWhat does it mean?â
Y/n watched as his signature blush quickly coated his features once again as he looked down at her with a shy smile. âYou are beautiful, inside and out.â
With the warmest grin she could muster, she leaned up and kissed his jaw once more before snuggling up against the young doctor who had melted her heart.
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Mission Debrief: Chapter Forty-two
...It's all coming together.
I'm just going to come outright and say it; I had no idea what to write for this review- not because there wasn't anything to discuss, but rather this chapter gave us so much that I didn't know what to focus on first. Chapter forty-two has single-handedly thrown open the doors to a hundred different theories, and believe me when I say that after a whole night of redbull and theorizing I couldn't come up with any clear answers (the folks over at the Strix discord group can attest to that).
So here's what we're gonna do; I'm not going to focus on the chapter itself.
It was cute. Cardshark Anya is hilariously awesome. Damian is a little shit (whom I adore), and the chapters where the kids can just be kids are- in my opinion- the best.
That's all I'm going to say on the matter. For the rest of this review, I want to go over all the facts we know so far about the story and setting. All of the things Endo has been slowly building up in the background and the pieces that we can stitch together from them, starting with this chapter. Two key things stuck out to me.
In the entirety of the story up till this point, this is the first time we have heard mention of a royal anything- and not only that, but this chef is a former royal chef. This of course implies that a) said chef was fired (not likely given that Eden wouldn't likely associate with someone who was disgraced like that) or retired, or b) that there is no royalty anymore. Ostania is a totalitarian state and the main power of the government- from what we've seen- lies with the ruling political party, i.e the National Unity Party, a.k.a Desmond's party. Such a political structure would have no room for royalty in a governing capacity, and therein begs the question; is there still a royal/noble class- albeit in a non-governing sense- or was it abolished sometime in the recent past?
Classical language is not proper speaking and diction like I had originally thought. Classical language is a specific term typically used to describe a dead language or dialect (think Latin, or Hebrew before it was revived). I find this particularly interesting because under no circumstance would a child as young as Anya know anything about a dead language unless- as Loid points out- she was exposed to it as a toddler. It would have had to have been when she was very young, as she herself doesn't realize she knows this information. This would mean she likely learned it from her birth family; Anya was old enough to remember the lab and scientists, meaning she became Subject 007 later on in life- otherwise she would have remembered knowing classical language.
These two concepts are incredibly important to keep in mind, both now and later on as the story progresses. We now know that a royal class plays a factor in the political game that Twilight and everyone else is playing, and we know that Anya knows information that she shouldn't know otherwise (even with her mind-reading powers). So where does that leave us?
Honestly, for the first time...I'm kind of stumped?
Let's look back at the story and see what else we can piece together- maybe there's something in there we can extrapolate for our purposes. Another clue to point us in the direction that Endo is seemingly funneling us towards.
From chapter forty-one
Franklin Perkins was a man who believed in making his country a better place to live. In his eyes and from what he saw, Ostania wasn't going in the right direction- but why? He blames his lack of money for his mother's death, and we see him hold resentment towards the government over socialistic policies. Wealth is something to be shared with others, not hoarded for ones self. That seems to be where Ostania's moral compass is pointing towards, but is that really the case?
From chapter 39
Mr. Green mentions that people have been fleeing to Westalis; from the way he says this it sounds like this is happening currently- not in the past- and people are going so far as to travel through a third country just to get to Westalis. Such a journey isn't without its perils, so anyone attempting to crossover from Ostania would likely be taking a huge risk in doing so. Not only that, but most of what we've seen in the story is Ostanians loathing Westalins...so what would compel people to do this in the first place?
From chapter three As Anya reads the minds of people gathered at a politcal rally near the start of the manga, we see their disgruntled thoughts behind her. There's multiple mentions of losing jobs and not having enough money- some people are even hungry. Most of these people blame Westalis for their troubles, though not the leader of the rally, ironically.
Also from chapter 3
We find out (and often forget) early on that there are multiple political parties in Ostania. Donovan leads the National Unity Party, whereas the political rally we see here is hosted by the Nationalist Party. The latter preaches peace with the west, but many of the people gathered reject this outright. This is important; the N.U.P is the most successful political party in Ostania, which means a majority of the country's citizens approve of their platform. If we're to assume the Nationalist Party's platform is to advocate for peace with Westalis, then we must also assume that the N.U.P stands for the opposite; direct aggression with the west.
From chapter 31 The Zacharis Dossier, though ultimately a bust, hinted at rumors that have permeated East and West since the start of the cold war. We know for a fact that human experiments did indeed take place in Ostania, so it also stands to reason that there is at least a kernel of truth to the claims of P.O.W (prisoner of war) massacres conducted by the west. It's a heinous crime, and also one that leads to another question; why would any country go through with it in the first place? In addition, piggy-backing off the former point;
From chapter 19 While Loid details Project Apple, he uses the word 'regime' to describe the former Ostanian government. The literal definition of a regime is a government, especially an authoritarian one (Oxfrod Dictionary). I won't highlight all the specifics of what is and isn't authoritarianism, but essentially the point I'm trying to make here is that the current Ostanian administration is still very much a regime. Donovan acts as the authoritarian ruler (or would-be ruler; we don't know if he's actively in charge or is looking to usurp power for himself) and continues on the legacy of the former government. We know for a fact that this is the case because Anya is only at most 6 years old, likely even younger. That would mean the experiments being run on her had to have been recent, which fits with the time frame that we established at the beginning of this rabbit hole- it also aligns with what we know about what Donovan has been doing on the back end of things. Those who have kept up with my reviews know what I'm talking about; gloom pharmaceuticals, the truth serum, OSO-R, etc. All of that, which then leads us to...
...right back where we started. So...what then? What can we conclude from all this? At least a few things;
Anya is tied to Desmond- either directly or indirectly.
Anya's past is also Ostania's past; she's familiar with a dead language that's no longer spoken, and there's definitely a reason why no one speaks it anymore.
Ostania is in a period of political and economic turmoil. This also comes on the heels of a (possible) former monarchy, and the struggle of a country willing to embrace authoritarianism so long as it means staying alive.
WISE and Westalis are not innocent in this game of chess with Ostania and the SSS, and more than likely have committed atrocities that may or may not be directly tied to Ostania and- possibly- Anya's past.
And...this is as far as I can go. I've hit a wall, as have other people I've talked to. We're still missing pieces to the puzzle. Endo will of course provide us with more clues and theory fodder as the weeks and months progress, but for now this is as far as I can go on my own. On the one hand I feel defeated because I can't come up with a meaningful explanation for everything and present it in a neat little bundle for you all to read, but on the other hand I'm thoroughly enjoying this. I'm more engaged with this manga and story than any other I've read before; I'm at the edge of my seat every week, and I'm sure most of you are, too. For now, I'll leave the review here. I find it fitting to leave it open ended, just as Endo did with Loid's self-imposed question. Hopefully, like him, we can find answers in the near future.
Also, BONUS...
...No fun panel with a snappy comment this time. Instead, Iâm going to humbly ask for your help.
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figure it out.
Aaron Hotchner x Gender Neutral Reader a joyful future fic
a/n: this has been in my wips for literal months as iâve done my best to get it just right for yall. i hope you enjoy it, and tell me what you think! Thereâs an addendum to this one, and iâm already working on it, but weâll see a few more things before thatâs ready :)
words: 3.5k warnings: sex mention, sex implication, language
summary: âlove is like a backache. it doesnât show up on an x-ray, but you know itâs there.â - george burns. au!january 2012.Â
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You roll over in bed when your alarm goes off, but you donât get very far. Aaron throws an arm over you and pulls you back to him with a grumble.Â
You huff a laugh and wiggle up against him. Itâs all a tease and you both know it - there isnât any time to get up to anything fun before work, but itâs far too entertaining to rile him up.
âDonât start something you canât finish.â His voice escapes his lips between your shoulder blades and you can feel his smile.Â
âOh, trust me, babe. I can finish.âÂ
He hums, his smile breaking out into something real. âI noticed.âÂ
+++
When the two of you finally make it out of bed (surprisingly still on time), you grab one of Aaronâs scarves and a hat on your way out. Itâs your turn to drop Jack at school today on your way into the office, and the task serves two purposes.Â
The first? Itâs nice to spend time with Jack, just the two of you, when itâs your turn and youâre not on a case. Itâs the same for Aaron, who always leaves a little earlier so he and Jack can sit down somewhere and have breakfast together.
The second is pure logistics. You two canât show up to work in the same car at the same time, so a convenient excuse to separate and stagger your arrivals is welcome.Â
âReally?âÂ
Aaronâs question stops you at the threshold and you look over your shoulder âWhat?âÂ
âMy hat? My scarf?âÂ
Itâs almost too tempting to cave when heâs looking at you like that - his tie hanging around his neck, shirt untucked, arms crossed, and playful frown hiding a smile.Â
âYeah. Itâs warm and itâs here and weâre late.âÂ
Jack squints up at you and says, âWeâre not late.â
âYouâre not late.â
The observations come within split seconds of each other and you laugh.Â
âFine. Not late, but warm. And you have more hats.â You scamper back into the house to plant a kiss on his lips, smoothing the hair at his temples.Â
Jackâs laughter is the underscore to your next quip. âYouâre very handsome and Iâm sure youâre very smart so you can figure it out.âÂ
âYeah, Dad,â Jack chirps. âFigure it out.â
He has nothing to say to your retreating forms as he catches a glimpse of your smile through the crack in the closing door.
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Emily and Spencer are away at a conference-book-signing thing, so itâs just the five of you and Penelope this morning. Youâd normally figure that would be Rossiâs purview, but apparently -Â
âMy book-signing days have been put on hold indefinitely in favor of -â
â - Heâs back.â Garcia interrupts, tossing case files at all of you. The conversation is cut short and you suppress a smile. âThe Marin headlands last night.âÂ
You can see Aaronâs lips pull as well.Â
Itâs the little things.Â
Penelope gestures with the notes and crime scene photos appear on the screen. âDavid Atley and Nicole Puli, both 24, both grad students at Berkeley, shot multiple times in their vehicle-- wait for it--â She clicks again and a familiar sigil appears.Â
âThe Zodiac?â Morganâs shock is almost sardonic in its delivery.Â
Rossi snorts. âNo way.â
âCome on,â Derek says, amused, while JJ chimes in as well.Â
 âIt's gotta be the 2.0 version.â
While neither of you speak, you share a glance with Aaron. Youâre kidding.Â
He only raises his eyebrows for a split second and shrugs.Â
Thereâs some part of you a little paranoid that youâre the most obvious couple to exist in the history of the universe. Sure, the team has been teasing you about your friendship for years, the will-the-wonât-they of it all, but now that itâs real youâre almost terrified that they know everything.Â
Thus, the overcompensation has been wretched. You and Aaron barely look at each other in the field if you can help it (which you usually canât) and he tends to put you with Derek more often than not.Â
In truth, the others have noticed, but are far too interested in the spectacle to say anything. Emilyâs almost certain the two of you have slept together, and Dave may or may not have suggested the possibility of a secret marriage during your period of suspension.Â
However far-fetched and ridiculous their theories, they know you two well enough to know that something happened. The tension is gone.Â
Derek almost finds himself missing the tension. There hasnât been much to tease you about lately in its absence.Â
âYeah, you would think so, except for the crazy similarities in the MO.â Penelope clicks through the photos as she talks.Â
âI'm talking same victimology, same geography. And,â she adds. âTwo souvenirs were left at the crime scene.â She clicks once more and stands back for the full effect.Â
âHe left a photo?â Rossi asks.
She hums in the affirmative. âLocal police say that is Marcia Miller. She was found near Napa in 1971. Strongly suspected that she was a victim of the Zodiac, but police never confirmed it and they didn't publicize the case.âÂ
Morganâs still squinting at the screen. âSo the Zodiac took this photo at the killing and then saved it all these years?â
âThe Zodiac's last confirmed victim was the cabdriver Paul Stine,â Dave notes devolving into a conversation about The Zodiac, his timeline, his signature.Â
Itâs nothing new - The Zodiac Killerâs case details are common knowledge in your line of work, nevermind the sheer number of copycats that try their hand at the highly-ritualistic murders before inevitably getting arrested.Â
Thereâs a reason this guy hasnât been caught in forty years.Â
After a few minutes of bouncing between you all, Hotch pushes back from the table and stands. âHave Reid and Prentiss meet us in San Francisco. Wheels up in 30.â
He heads straight to his office to collect his things and you swing in by the tips of your fingers for just a second. âYou wanna call Jess or do you want me to?âÂ
In the middle of throwing files in his briefcase, he doesnât look up when he answers. âCan you, please? I was supposed to meet with Strauss this afternoon and need to stop by her office before wheels up.âÂ
You smile at him, tapping the door frame twice. âYou got it.âÂ
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Itâs boots on the ground right away when you land in San Francisco. You drive to the crime scene with Aaron in the passenger seat beside you and JJ in the back. The radioâs on, and you sing under your breath, tapping your fingers on the steering wheel as you make your way up to the crime scene.Â
Before you get to the local FBI agents, JJ catches you by the sleeve. âItâs nice to have music in the car again.âÂ
You just smile at her. Aaron looks a little puzzled.Â
The three of you wipe the looks off your faces by the time you get to Agent Lynn.Â
+++
âWhat did JJ mean?â Aaron asks you.Â
The two of you are alone for the time being, posted up in the conference room with the old Zodiac case files. You look up. âHmm?âÂ
âWhat did she mean when she mentioned the music earlier?âÂ
âOh.â A little flush of embarrassment shoots down your gut. âDerek pointed out to me last summer that I didnât play any music in the car.âÂ
...while you were gone is the thing you donât say, but he knows thatâs what you mean.Â
âI didnât really notice.â You shrug to cover your fib. âI guess Iâve reacquainted myself with the radio in the last couple of weeks.âÂ
Aaron hums, returning to his work. Somethingâs off, but youâre sure itâll come up later.Â
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âYou donât think itâs really him, do you?â You ask, unbuttoning your shirt and throwing your pajamas on.Â
Surprisingly, this case seems to be one of those that allows for sleep at regular hours. For that, youâre grateful. Itâs much harder to find time to wind down with Aaron at the end of the day when youâre all forced to sleep in shifts.Â
Aaron shakes his head, âNo, I think Reidâs right. Weâre looking at a particularly sophisticated copycat.âÂ
âIsnât that kind of worse?â Hopping up on your bed, you curl up and look at him over your nose - a clear invitation to join you.Â
With a huff down his nose and a little smile, he flops down beside you and props his chin on his arms over your belly. âCould be. Luckily, we have Reid.âÂ
You almost think heâs going to say something else, but he gets that pensive look on his face again.Â
âWhat?âÂ
With a sigh, he says, âIâm just thinking about what JJ said.âÂ
âOh, Aaron -âÂ
He doesnât let you finish. Itâs probably a good thing. You didnât know what you wanted to say anyway.Â
âI knew how hard it was on me, but Iâm realizing more and more how hard it was on you, too.â He shakes his head. âI feel ...I donât know. I feel like I should have known better⊠or something.âÂ
Winding your fingers in his hair, you sit in silence for a moment. He doesnât have anything more to say and eventually he crawls up your body and settles in under your arm, his head on your chest and legs wound between yours.
Sometimes, youâve found, he likes to feel small. Â
âYouâre safe and youâre home. Thatâs what matters.â You kiss the top of his head. âAnd I love you.âÂ
He hums, arcing into your touch and wrapping an arm around your waist. âI love you.âÂ
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You spend much of the next day chasing Spencer around the city, keeping notes handy (for yourself, not for him - he doesn't need them) and reporting back on his discoveries to the team like some kind of overwrought and hyper-trained secretary.Â
Stepping off to the side, you answer a call from Aaron.Â
âHit your limit yet?âÂ
You look over at Spencer, whoâs flipping through a newspaper like a man on a mission. âItâs actually kind of entertaining.âÂ
And thatâs actually true. Watching Spencer push the limits of his intelligence is always a treat - it happens so rarely you almost forget how much you enjoy it every time.Â
He huffs into the phone. âHang in there. Weâll all meet back at the precinct once Reidâs done -â
âDoing magic?âÂ
âExactly. Keep me posted.â Thereâs a pause. Itâs an odd little habit you two developed in the field to leave space for the words you canât say in front of the others.Â
I love you.
âMe too.âÂ
+++
Youâre almost asleep when a sliver of yellow light shoots across your room, promptly disappearing as the door to the hallway closes.Â
He pads across the room and slips under the covers. âHi.âÂ
A little smile crosses your face as you roll over to face him. âHi.â
Before you can say anything else, his hands are on you and heâs half on top of you as he captures your lips.Â
Needless to say, the lack of sleep is worth it.Â
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Emily, long after she and Aaron are the only ones left in the precinct conference room, squints as she notices something right under his collar.Â
Heâs already loosened his tie and unbuttoned the top button of his dress shirt, no longer standing on ceremony now that all the local police have retired and the rest of the team gone up to their hotel rooms. Thereâs not much to do, but the compulsion to get ahead for tomorrow is one neither one of them can shake.Â
What Aaron failed to remember when executing his wardrobe adjustment was the rather...spirited romp in your room the night prior. The little purple swatches painted on his skin just under the line of his collar stood out stark against the crisp lines of his dress shirt.Â
Fortunately for you, there was no way in hell the rest of the team would find anything he left on you last night.Â
Emily reaches into her purse and pulls out a tube of concealer and a powder compact. Though heâs more olive-toned than she is, itâll be good enough in a pinch. âHey, Hotch.âÂ
He looks at her over his nose, his eyes tired.Â
âYou might want this for tomorrow morning.â She pushes the crisis control kit across the table to him, but he only frowns and deepens his squint.Â
By way of explanation, she reaches across the table and presses the tip of her finger into one of the visible bruises in the hollow of his throat. He flinches, freezes, and then immediately drops his head into his hands.Â
Itâs easy to say Emily is amused in the extreme. âThose look...really fresh.âÂ
He shakes his head, insisting as he picks up a file at random, âTheyâre from before we left.âÂ
Itâs only because itâs Emily that heâs even humoring this conversation.Â
âNo theyâre not.â She sticks her tongue firmly in her cheek. âThese ones are though.â She points at yellowing marks on his collarbone and he smacks her hands away.Â
âAnd I know what fresh hickies look like, Hotch. Those are fresh fresh. Like, last night fresh. And weâve been here for four days.â She frowns, tracking back through the day. âWhen on earth would you have time to -âÂ
A series of images flash through her head, random wayward connections flashing together in an alarmingly clear picture.
You, avoiding her at the office back in September with quickly-covered marks painted across your neck.
You, flirting with Sean and having way too much fun doing it, looking over his shoulder at ...someone else.
Hotch, in a perpetually good mood (for him, anyway, and despite looking ill-slept) for the last five months.Â
The way the mistletoe kiss at Daveâs Christmas party looked way too easy, too familiar.Â
And now, the obvious indicators that Hotch is not only getting it, heâs getting it good.Â
If he got those last nightâŠ
Wait.Â
Their hotel rooms are right next to âŠ
Oh my God.Â
Hotch watches the realization flash across Emilyâs face, and he knows youâre both busted. Instead of losing her shit like he expected, Emily just leans back in her chair - smug.Â
âSo. Are you still Not the Boyfriend, or has there been an update?â
He sighs.Â
The corner of her mouth tips up. âHow long?â
âFor which part? The not-boyfriend part, the boyfriend part, or this part?â He gestures vaguely to the space behind his tie, and Emily snorts.Â
âJust spill it.âÂ
Holding up a finger, he pulls his phone out of his pocket, dialing the first number on his speed dial.Â
Youâre hardly asleep, sitting up in bed waiting for him with a case file in your lap, when you get the call. Youâre not sure whoâs listening, so a âHey, Hotch. Whatâs up?â will have to do.Â
âEmily knows.âÂ
You straighten. âHow?â
âDoesnât matter. She knows.âÂ
Thereâs a scramble, and suddenly Emilyâs on the other end of the phone. âHeâs got very questionable and very fresh bruises just under his collar. Care to explain?â
Thereâs another shuffle.Â
âIgnore her,â Aaron says. With a hand pressed to your forehead, you understand the question implicit in his phone call.Â
âJust tell her. Itâs basically her fault, anyways. If she hadnât ditched it then weâd have our heads up our asses for another five years.â
âAlright,â then, after a second of realizing you donât sound sleepy at all, âGo to bed.â
âIâm in bed.âÂ
He rolls his eyes. Emily can only look on with amusement, gleeful in the extreme. âYou know thatâs not what I mean. Go to sleep.â
âAlright, alright. Fine.â You reluctantly close the casefile and put him on speaker so he can hear the light click off. âIâm going to sleep.â Then, âI love you. Come up soon.â
âOkay.â He shoots a glance at Emily. Because heâll never hear the end of it anyway, more ammo wonât hurt at this point. âI love you too. Now, really. Go to slee -â
You hang up on him. He double-takes at his phone for a moment before shoving it back in his pocket.Â
Heâs met with Emilyâs surprisingly moved eyes. âYouâre...okay.â
What she means is, Youâre happy.Â
He knows.Â
He nods. âIâm okay.â
She puts her files down and leans forward, resting her elbows on the table and lacing her fingers. âTell me.âÂ
So, he does.Â
He tells her about the way you stuck to him like glue through the divorce, the way you wiggled your way into Haleyâs heart, captured the love of his son, and earned the trust of his entire family.Â
He tells her what Haley said in the hospital, the tenacious care you showed his unyielding and unwilling ass when he was healing, the way your grief soothed his in the wake of Haleyâs loss.Â
He tells her about the moments of euphoria in the years of want and doubt and fear.Â
He tells Emily about the day she died, how there was nothing more painful than that necessary lie. He tells her how easy it was to lie to the others, how it ripped him in half to lie to you.Â
He tells her about the day he left for Pakistan, about the fight the night before, the kiss he pressed to your cheek on the tarmac, the endless, wretched nights missing you in the desert.Â
He tells her about the fight when he finally came home, skims over the following days, jumps and meanders around to Christmas, to moving in, to the bliss that now seems to follow him wherever he goes.Â
Emily watches the smile that plays at his mouth when he talks about you, the softness in his eyes as recalls the look on your face and the words you said and the way you are with Jack. Thereâs a kind of peace in him that sheâs never really seen before.Â
Maybe, she imagines, it was there before she met him (the second time). Maybe this peace existed with Haley. Maybe this is the most sheâs ever heard him speak at once. Maybe it makes her smile.Â
Maybe this peace is what his love looks like.Â
If thatâs the case, she thinks, you are very lucky indeed.Â
It could have been hours, it could have been minutes, but at some point he stops talking.Â
âHotch?âÂ
He looks over at her, the softness lingering in his eyes.Â
âIâm really happy for you.âÂ
His lips twitch. âThanks.âÂ
âAnd you know itâs my God-given right to tell everyone else once this case is over, right?â
+++
You actually are asleep by the time Aaron gets back to the hotel. He leans against the wall in the dark with his hands in his pockets, enjoying the peace before the inevitable shitshow.Â
He crosses the room and crouches at your side, running the back of his fingers over your cheek. You stir, sleepy noises leaving your throat as your eyes crack open.Â
âAaron?â
âYeah. Just me.âÂ
You smile a little and close your eyes again. âHowâd she take it?â
âRemarkably well.â He kisses your forehead. âGet some sleep. Iâll see you in the morning.âÂ
âNo,â you whine, drawn-out and slurred. âDonât leave. Stay. I set an alarm.â
With a resigned sigh, he strips and slides into bed behind you, wrapping you in his arms and holding you close.Â
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You and Aaron sit on proverbial pins and needles for the rest of the case, but Emily keeps her word. The only indication of her knowledge came the morning after her chat with Aaron, when she pulled you to her and hugged you so tight you could hardly breathe.Â
She seizes her moment on the plane, about halfway home.Â
âDerek, you owe me fifty bucks.âÂ
She hardly looks up from her book as she speaks.Â
He takes off his headphones and wrinkles his brow. âWhat?â
She repeats herself, slower, as if she was speaking to a child. âYou. Owe. Me. Fifty. Bucks.â
â...Why?âÂ
Emily finally looks up from her book to pointedly stare at you and Aaron, seated next to each other and sharing a bag of Goldfish you stole from Jackâs snack drawer. Youâre both reading from the same file, absently reaching for crackers as you go along.Â
Derekâs confusion continues to smother his face until it finally clicks in.Â
He steals a page from Reidâs notebook and balls it up, tossing it across the plane and breaking your concentration. You look up, only a little startled, to find a face-splitting grin blinding you across the cabin.
Derekâs small ruckus has drawn the attention of the rest of the team - well, all except JJ, whoâs fast asleep on the couch.Â
There seems to be a collective sigh of relief as money exchanges hands. Youâre not quite sure what the bet was, but Emily seems to have won handily.Â
Aaron takes your hand under the table, waiting for the other shoe to drop.Â
It doesnât.Â
Everyone simply returns to their tasks, little smiles on their faces.Â
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So Much Better
Pairing(s): Mother!Misty Day x Reader, Mother!Cordelia Goode x Reader, Platonic!Zoe Benson x Reader, Platonic!Madison Montgomery x reader
Warnings: Alcohol Use, Smoking, Strong Language
Words: 3,560
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"This party kinda sucks," Y/N knew she was yelling, but there was no other way to make sure Madison could hear her. Three hours ago her, Madison, and Zoe had claimed they were heading up stairs to go to sleep after dinner. In reality they were waiting for the household to settle so they could make their "grand" getaway out of Madison's room and to a party they had been invited to a week prior. There was no use in asking for permission to go, the answer was always no so they decided to answer the question themselves.
Madison looked at Y/N, almost offended at what she said. "The party is fine, you suck," she wrapped an arm around the witch's waist, pulling her out of the way of someone passing behind her. Y/N stepped back, pushing the arm off of her and grabbing the drink from Madison's hand. "There you go! That should make things a little more fun!" the blonde teased as she watch her finish what was left in the cup. Zoe had set out to get them all something new to drink so she wasn't as mad as she usually would've been.
Y/N nodded, slightly crushing the cup in her hand. "Hopefully... I'm starting to be over it already." The music was too loud to even understand what they were playing, there had been at least three fights within the past hour, and Zoe had been gone for a lot more than "just a minute" like she had promised. She would've had more fun actually studying or once she drunk something strong enough to fill a few of her senses.
As if God himself heard her thoughts, an arm stretched over her shoulder with a plastic cup almost too full to handle without a spill. "Take it before someone steals it," Zoe's words weren't any softer than Y/N's or Madi's. She handed the other cup to Madison, full just about the same amount but obviously falling victim to a few small spills. The girls took the cups, smelling of much stronger alcohol than what they had previously.
Zoe pressed up against Y/N's back, wrapping an arm around her shoulders. "Thank you ma'am," Y/N took a sip of the drink. She could feel the hangover building from the one cup alone.
"See, already so much better."
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"Hurry the fuck up!" Madison pulled Y/N behind her as she pushed pass people on the stairs. The drunken pair was laughing obnoxiously, tripping over their own feet as they tried to squeeze their way through groups of people who were somehow more drunk than them. Madison tried to open a door, failing on her first attempt and additionally giving herself a bruise to wake up to. She tried again, successfully turning the knob this time.
They were over taken with drunken laughter as they sat on the bed, Y/N falling back to look up at the ceiling. Madison took a hit of the vape she had convinced some guy to sell her for lower than half the price he was offering to everyone else at the party. She waved the device in front of Y/N's face, holding it in front of her lips when she nodded her head quickly. Y/N leaned forward, placing her hand on Madi's to hold it steady while she took her hit.
They laughed when Y/N blew the smoke back in her face. Madison laid back to lie down next to her. "Good thing Momma Delia doesn't know, she would have a fucking fit," Madison looked out of the corner of her eye to a now slightly pissed off Y/N. It was amusing to her just how quick she could make the witch's mood change. "Or maybe even Misty for that matter." She made herself laugh- Y/N, not finding it as funny as she did.
"If she knew this was your idea, let alone we just so happened to both be here, she would drag your ass again," Y/N rolled her eyes. She grumbled an insult when Madison jabbed her side, returning a softer elbow to her arm. "And Cordelia would just kick me out and call it a day."
"The fuck she would," Madison laughed. She looked at Y/N, chin basically resting on her shoulder. "Why the hell would she throw her pride and joy out to the curb? Me and Zoe would get abandoned before you did." Madison had a theory that Cordelia and Misty would empty the coven of everything but Y/N before they admitted she was at least a little responsible for her less than star-child behavior. In that theory she was the first to go.
"Whatever."
"What are you 'whatever'ing? It's true! Exactly how it fucking works actually."
"They don't hate you if that's what you're trying to say."
Y/N almost said it so low that Madison didn't hear. But she did, and that's what was important. "They do."
"They don't," Y/N looked at Madison, almost upset that's how she thought her mothers thought of her. "You're my friend... I wouldn't let them hate you, but you don't exactly help yourself.."
"Oh yeah?"
"Mo- Cordelia tries... We talked about it once, how you try sometimes to do your best but you always end up, like, doing shit to piss everyone off and start all over again," Y/N took Madison's hand, playing with the rings on her fingers. "Is this mine by the way?"
"Maybe."
"Cunt... Anyways!" Y/N rolled over. "Like, sad shit aside... They don't hate you, no one really does. Well I mean I hate you," she laughed at the way Madison rolled her eyes.
"Fuck you!" Madison took her hands out of Y/N's as she fought back the smile on her face.
"Now that's how you really get kicked out!"
The pair erupted into laughter. Madison took Y/N's hands this time, leaning to kiss her cheek. "That's how I get burned at the stake, don't even." They laid there for a while, laughing at random things the other said, sharing Madi's vape, and complaining about the music they were playing downstairs.
"Get the fuck up, we gotta fucking go."
Madison and Y/N looked over at the door- surprisingly still hanging on its hinges despite how hard it was thrown open. Zoe stood there as pale as a ghost, something the pair had chalked up to cheap booze mixed with even cheaper booze, or maybe even a bad hit from whatever some random was smoking. She rushed over to the pair, grabbing their hands and attempting to pull them up. She was determined, but evidently not enough to get them out of the bed.
Madison pulled her hand back, Zoe almost falling with it. "Okay... chill the fuck out," another puff of smoke traveled up the contours of the witch's face, disappearing into the air and leaving nothing but the smell of a cheap candy flavoring to linger for a moment. She noticed Zoe was red in the face, but couldn't decide if it was too much to drink red or anything a bit more serious.
Zoe had stopped pulling at Y/N's hand but held a firm grasp on it. "Do you think I'm fucking joking? Get your shit Madi," she took the puff out of Madison's hand, tossing it at the wall when she attempted to get it back. "Y/N get the hell up," another useless tug that barely made her move.
Y/N propped herself up with her free hand, tilting her head slightly as she looked at Zoe. She pulled Zoe down to be more level with her. "Why are you so uptight Zo? Like come on, it's a par-"
"-The neighbors called the fucking cops."
The drunken smile on Y/N's face turned into half-sober wide eyes. Madison, who at some point moved to the floor to find the discarded vape, shared the same expression as she looked over her shoulder. The stares lasted only for a few more seconds before they rushed to grab everything they owned in the room. There was no discussion necessary. They needed to leave as soon as they possibly could.
"You could've fucking said that!" Madison struggled to slip on her shoes. She lost her balance more than once, practically falling on top of both Zoe and Y/N at one point. "You were just gonna let us sit here until they walked in?"
Zoe rolled her eyes. "I'm so fucking sorry that I told you we had to leave and you were too busy laying on your ass! But hey, you're so fucking wasted you probably don't even remember!" Madison looked back at her, almost asking her to say something else to give her an excuse to bite back. No matter how good of a mood either of these were in they had always made a point to form some type of argument by the end of the night.
"Where the fuck is my phone? Oh my fucking God." Y/N was panicking, not even focused on the two about to fist fight behind her. She was sure they couldn't even hear her over the below the belt remarks they were making to one another.
"This was all your fucking idea!"
"It was Y/N's!"
"You wanted us to go out!"
"Shut up!"
"What are you even looking for?"
"My keys so we can actually fucking leave! We've got like thirty seconds to get out of here and you're standing there like a dumbass!"
"I'm the dumbass? Okay, says the bitch who probably got three different strands of mono tonight!"
"Both of you shut the fuck up and help me find my phone!" The pair turned their attention to Y/N who was pulling at the covers of the bed.
"I have your phone!" Zoe pulled the phone from her back pocket, holding it in front of her.
Y/N almost fell off the bed, catching herself with her hands moments before she tipped forward. "When the fuck did you get my phone?"
"When I had to talk you out of texting the fucking groupchat!"
"Give it a fucking break! Let's go!" Madison had already been making her way to the door. Zoe and Y/N looked at her then to each other before they followed after her, Y/N pulling Zoe after her as attempted to keep up with Madison.
Suddenly the blonde had stopped when she reached the bottom of the stairs. She looked back at Y/N and Zoe and before either of them could ask a question a police officer had already walked up to Madison.
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âDo you know who I am?â Madison struggled to take her wrist out of the officerâs hand, scoffing at him as she turned around to look at him.
He sighed, turning her back around. âQuite frankly maam, I do not care who you are. And if you keep giving me trouble youâll be taking the ride with your hands cuffed behind your back.â With that Madison stopped fighting, easily letting him guide her to the car Y/N and Zoe were already sat.
As soon as he opened the door she was met with two teary eyed witches. Zoeâs head rested against the window of the car, moving only slightly to look at Madison get in. Y/Nâs head was rested on Zoeâs shoulder, tears a bit more visible on her face than the brunettes. âTheyâre gonna fucking kill us.â
Never did the thought of ending up in the back of a police car ever pass through Y/N or Zoeâs mind- Madison was a different story. She knew they were done for when Madison made a big deal of announcing their names to the police officer like it would make any difference in the outcome of the night. From that point forward she knew the next obstacle was her mothers. And that was going to be the biggest obstacle of the night.
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The front door slammed hard enough to wake up the entire neighborhood. Y/N, Zoe, and Madison looked up at one another, each looking as if they had been to Hell and back in the span of the last few hours. Zoe's mascara had met at her chin and continued down her neck. She didn't have the perfect behavior, but she was yet to get caught so she was in a deep state of overthinking every decision in her life that had led up to this moment. On the other hand, Madison was conditioned to this already. She knew all the lines about disappointment and responsibility, but she had only seemed to look upset when she saw Y/N and Zoe.
Y/N had returned to stare off into the distance, hoping that possibly this was a really bad dream or even a trip from some secondhand smoke cloud she had walked through earlier that night. She didn't even have the energy to cry anymore, that was over with after the first turn in the direction of the police station. The silence of the car ride back to the academy was almost enough to make her start crying again, but she found herself paying attention to every small detail she could.
Cordelia's extremely white knuckles wrapped around the steering wheel as she broke every speed limit by at least 10 over. Zoe clicking her nails against each other as she readjusted in her seat every other second. Misty holding onto the handle above the passenger door almost as a way to fight back the urge to turn around and let the three of them hear every word she had built up on the way over. Even the slight sticky feeling that Madison's lipgloss had left on her cheek during their heart to heart in that strangers bed.
She was snapped out of her recollection of the night when Cordelia and Misty walked into the dining room where they were sat. Misty was red in the face, she hadn't said a word since the girls got into the car. Madison had sworn she was just a sitting statue in the passenger seat for most of the ride. Cordelia on the other hand had plenty to say when she first saw the girls. "Get in the car," the first words uttered. "What the hell were you three thinking? Are you all fucking idiots?" as they pulled out of the parking lot. "Out of all the things you could've done this what you decide to get caught up in!" just as they pulled up to the house.
As soon as Cordelia parked the car they had hurried inside, just barely hearing her say to wait in the dining room. Even then they couldn't say anything to one another. That's where they were left now, dizzy and tired as they waited for anyone to say anything. Misty took a seat across from the girls, Cordelia pacing behind her.
"We-"
"Don't fucking talk!" the girls shrunk at Cordelia's words, shocked at a harshness they were unfamiliar with. She hadn't stopped pacing, arms crossed firmly in front of her. "I don't want to hear any of you talk, not a single fucking word. Oh my God, how fucking stupid can you be!" Cordelia paused for just a moment. She had been thinking about this almost the entire ride over, yet couldn't find the words to say what she wanted to say. "Anything could have happened tonight and we didn't know where you were, and I sure as Hell hope you weren't stupid enough to get anyone else tangled in this!"
Y/N looked at Zoe, who was staring at her lap, then to Madison, who was staring up at Cordelia. She couldn't help but notice the dramatic difference in how they were taking it. She looked over at her mothers, Cordelia pacing again, Misty staring straight at her. She followed Zoe and fixed her gaze on her own lap.
"It was my idea." Focus in the room switched to Madison. She leaned back in her charge and let out a long breath. Weighing her options, it made the most sense for her to take the fall or this. It was in character for her. "I asked them to-"
"Madi," Y/N cut her off quickly. âIt was me... I mean... Fuck,â she ran a hand over her face, hands slightly shaking as she did so. âThey were my friends who invited me, I asked Zoe and Madison to go. Going to the party was my idea.â It wasnât right in her mind to let Madison go down for this just âcause. It was her friendâs party. It was her idea to go out tonight. It was her who asked them to go with.
Shock took over Mistyâs and Cordeliaâs expressions. Cordelia stopped pacing, head turned to look at her daughter. Misty shook her head, âYou donât have to lie for her.â
Madisonâs mouth fell agape. Y/N furrowed her brow. âIâm not,â she stated at Misty who obviously thought she had the whole situation figured out beforehand, but was now struggling to understand what was actually happening.
Cordelia leaned onto the table next Misty, staring just as hard at Y/N as Misty was. âZoe, Madison, go to your rooms,â her gaze didnât leave Y/Nâs as she took the seat next to Misty. Zoe and Madison shared a brief look with one another before they hurried out room, afraid Cordelia might change her mind.
âReally?â Mistyâs question was laced with venom, a look of utter disbelief sealing her tone.
Y/N nodded, wringing her hands in her lap. âI know,â she was soft spoken. âThey donât deser-â
â-Quite frankly, I donât really want to talk about those two,â Cordelia held up her hand. She was biting back her tone, afraid if she was too loud she would wake everyone else from their sleep. âThis all comes down on you.â It almost hurt her to admit.
Misty sat back in her chair, barely diverting her gaze. âMadison, I expect this from. You and Zoe? Never in a million years,â she spoke so calmly Y/N could feel chills travel up her spine. Mistyâs anger was unlike Cordeliaâs. Cordelia was simply just an angry Cordelia who would let a few more words slip than usual. Misty was a different person. Her smile faded, she offered no kind words, and she was willing to get years worth of tension and anger off of her chest in mere minutes if she so pleased. âI donât think you understand what couldâve happened tonight.â
âGod knows what type of trouble you three could have gotten in while we were here.â
âTrouble mightâve done you some good, especially if you think any of this is acceptable.â
Y/N nodded her head. The tears she was deprived of since the ride in the back of the police car were fighting to be released by now. âIâm sorry.â
âSave it,â Misty shook her head. Even Cordelia was a little shocked to hear her, possibly because she had never talked to Y/N like this. âWe raised you so much better than this. Itâs disrespectful!â her voice rose with her temper. âYou would think you would have no reason to act out like this! But no, lets end up in the back of a fucking police car by the end of the night!â
Y/N couldnât find anything to say, she was at a lost for words looking at her mother. She couldnât remember the last time she had raised her voice at her. Every apology she could think about was stuck in her throat. They wouldnât have much effect anyways.
âYouâre better than this Y/N,â Cordelia spoke softer than Misty, but no less stern.
âYouâre damn right she is.â
A sigh left the Supremeâs lips. She was tired, eyes heavy and barely put together enough to even look like herself. âItâs disappointing to us to know youâre better than this and for you to still go out and do something like this,â her volume rose slightly, obviously able to handle her temper much more than Misty. As much as she knew what she did was wrong, Cordelia couldnât deny that this was her baby. She had felt more disappointment in herself than she did her.
Misty stood, face red and knuckles whitened from how hard she was clenching her fist. âYouâll think of some way to apologize for this, possib- hopefully,â she held on to the back of the chair, looking down at Y/N. âWhatever the hell this is,â she waved her hand around, âI want it fucking fixed and nothing short of fixed. The day any fucking child of mind tries to pull that shit is a horrible fucking day for this coven.â And with that she pushed the chair against the table and turned to leave, muttering unseeing her breath about âhow unbelievableâ this all was.
Y/N watched as she walked out of dining room, Cordelia following right after with no less speed. She could feel the anger in the room dissipate, but every word her mothers shared with her were still there as if they were being repeated right in front of her face once again.
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PuthKaeng, the green&red couple: Daddy&Papi, mysterious man and lots of dots, everywhere
Hello, beautiful people! Itâs moonchild here and I hope none of you are tire of having to read the things I write because here I am, again, to talk about the only thing that gives me strength and energy to leave my bed in the morning, and the only couple that matters: PuthKaeng.
 Being honest, I had hopes that those two long ass analysis would be the last thing I would do related to them and would final begin to think about writing a fanfiction about them (yes, your resident analyst is a writer) but then, because they canât seem to leave me alone and let me breath for five minutes, a special episode came out and my brain went back to work in overdrive and started analyzing everything. I hate my brain sometimes.
Anyways. I would like to say that this wonât (hopefully) be a long analysis just like the others, only a commentary of the episode in general, me connecting the revelations we had about the âmysterious manâ and what were presented to us in the main arc of their story and me rambling in between, just because I can. Granted, the main focus of this post is to talk about the main focus of the special, which was to know who the mysterious man was, but that doesnât stop us from talking about other things in the episode as well.
When it was announced that we would have something about PuthKaeng again, it was in the guise of being an extra scene and I rushed to finish my main analysis because I was afraid that whatever was in said extra scene would throw a lot of monkey wrenches on my theories that I was writing but unfortunately that didnât happened, because the universe hates me sometimes. However, the universe also loves me because what we all thought would be a simple extra scene became a fucking 10 MINUTE SPECIAL EPISODE! Not only that, it gave me everything I wanted to see with them, and an opportunity to see them again in new things (PâChewin, I know you have a series of them ready, give it to me).
 The special episode was just beautiful and amazing, cute, pillow-biting, intense, sensual and perfect, all in once. Their chemistry was point, their acting skills were on point, the deliverance of feelings and usage of body language was on point, a solid 10/10 in my book. I would give those 10 minutes an award if I could, but because I canât, Iâm gonna talk about it the best I can.
 A small disclaimer before I start: because the episode didnât came with official subtitles (Ais Play/Copy A hates us, for sure), I had to search on YouTube for translations and found two, one of the entire episode and other of the first two and a half minutes. Iâll go back and forth between those two translations, especially when talking about the first minutes, because the translations are a bit different and convey different things, even if the context is the same. Just so you guys donât find it weird having screenshots with different fonts.
 1. Iâm addicted, Iâm addicted onlyâŠ
The episode opens with PuthKaeng in the same room, Kaeng busy doing something on his working table (probably something school related) and Puth playing videogames.
The fact that they seem so comfortable being in the same space, each one doing something on their own, shows that theyâve established some sort of routine and just by being in the same geographic space is enough for them. Puth then receives a phone call and Kaeng at first didnât seem to pay attention but turned around as soon as he heard the person on the other side of the call ask Puth âwhere he was?â, to what Puth answered that he was in âhis boyfriendâs roomâ while looking at Kaeng. The caller asks Puth to âhang out/meet upâ, making Kaeng arch an eyebrow, and Puth, while still looking at Kaeng, says that âheâs not going, because he wants to be with his boyfriendâ and after that ends the call.
 The fact that he didnât said Kaengâs name and simply said âmy boyfriendâs roomâ and âstay with my boyfriendâ and the other person didnât asked who said boyfriend was or made a big thing out of that, considering Puthâs past reputation, means that the person that called him knows exactly who that boyfriend was and that PuthKaengâs relationship is not a secret to anyone. Also, the way the word âboyfriendâ rolled out of Puthâs tongue, so easily, it shows that heâs proud to have someone to call boyfriend and have the opportunity to spend time with his boyfriend. JustâŠthe happiness energy he pours in those 30 seconds-ish of call is overwhelming.
After Puth puts down his phone and looks back at Kaeng, who is looking at Puth with a weird expression on his face, he get up his chair and goes to him, asking âwhatâs wrong, papi?â (I shit you not, when I heard that on the episode I blushed and almost screamed because it was so cute it gave diabetes) and Kaeng asked âwhy you (daddy) didnât go?â (Puth calling Kaeng âpapiâ was one thing I was not ready to go through but Kaeng calling Puth âdaddyâ and find out those are the pet names they use with each other was the death of me. God, please receive my soul in heaven), receiving a âhow can I go, I wanna stay here with youâ as answer from Puth.
Kaeng says to Puth that his explanation is a âlieâ and that âPuth wants to go, he can see it/he knows Puth very wellâ and Puth admits that, with a âsometimes, because he used to hang out a lotâ but Kaeng says a soft, and jokingly, âIâm sulking nowâ, and after Puth asks Kaeng if he âisnât bored of staying in the room?â because he âused to hang out a lot tooâ, Kaeng makes the CUTEST FACE EVER (pause to see how Kaengâs eyes GLOW when heâs looking at Puth. Seriously, how much love can that guy keep in his eyes, for them to shine like that?) and says that âheâs not used like Puth but heâs never bored of Puthâ and then they kiss.
This exchange makes me think that they are in the first weeks of dating and still trying to get used to the idea of being a couple (not that the way they were acting with each other before had any difference except the fact that they were not official but whatever), finding a common ground and a safe/comfort zone where they could stand and feel stable. New relationships are always that, new, and it takes time to get fully accustomed with them, let alone feel stable; it helps the fact that they are friends and knew basic things about each other, so now what they need to do is try to know about each other not as friends but as significant others. Thatâs why they like to spend time with each other and enjoy all the time they have together, to get to know what the other is like, as a boyfriend.
 (Before I continue, please appreciate Kaeng being totally baby. Thank you)
After the kiss, Puth ask Kaeng if they âshould find something to do?â, Kaeng, having understood something else with his question (I donât blame him, the way Puth was touching his arm, I wouldâve thought the same too) asks âhere?â and after Puth said âyesâ, Kaeng hits him lightly on the chest and complains that âheâs still soreâ (not that I needed it that but PuthKaeng versatile confirmed in only one sentence). Puth then says that Kaeng âis thinking too muchâ and that he meant âgo and find something fun to doâ. Kaeng seems uncertain about that but, as we see next, he obliged.
And the dateâŠguys, the date! Do you guys remember that Puth that didnât wanted to anyone to know that he and Kaeng were sleeping together? That Puth that denied vehemently that he was dating Kaeng (at the time, he was right), made shitty excuses to Mon so he couldnât pry for more details about what Kaeng had done to him in the night he went to their room? That Puth that didnât even wanted to be see publically with Kaeng? Well, that Puth is now walking on the streets, holding his boyfriendâs hands and oozing happiness. Seriously, the way he smiles every time he looks at Kaeng, his body language showing that heâs totally relaxed with Kaeng on his side, the way they are having fun together, even with a simple thing as an ice cream cone that they canât hold, is so fullfiling to watch because it shows that they are happy together. And Kaengâs eye smileâŠhe looks so cute and happy at the same time, it hurts seeing him so happy. They are soft with each other, feel happy with each other, feel good having each other as someone to spend time with, it just screams domesticity. They are that couple, people.
And look how Puth just throw his head back while laughing. I remember seeing somewhere, years ago, that when someone laughs that way while they are with you, it means they are really having fun. And remembering that made this scene 100x better.
 2. My entire heart, all of it that I have inside is for you
 Fast forward, we have PuthKaeng in a hotel room and the first thing I noticed is that they were holding hands (remember what I said about them always holding in intimate moments, back when they were only friends and how I always liked to think that it was something theirs, that they only did that with each other and how it sounded tooâŠhumâŠhow do I put thisâŠnot something that people that were not dating, especially players, would do? Yeah) and looking at each other (always the eye contact, people. This bitches been acting like a couple since the beginning), acting like the world were theirs and theirs alone.
Kaeng looked at Puth from head to toe while Puth takes off the robe Kaeng was wearing and then Kaeng took off Puthâs robe but did that while he was doing that he started to kneel down and was ready to give Puth a blowjob but Puth stopped him before Kaeng could even do something about it. The way Kaeng didnât disconnected his hands from Puthâs body shows that he enjoys feeling physically connected with the other man, in every opportunity he could get (I think that his behavior on episode 9 made that pretty clear but is never wrong to bring that fact back); Puth then asked why Kaeng was rushing things and Kaeng said that he was just warming up, before sharing a nose kiss and Kaeng kiss Puthâs nose (bringing back all the kisses from the main arc back and my thoughts about them being confirmed. Coming full circle here, people. Coming full circle!).
 Kaengâs statement about âbeing happy todayâ was something that even if he hadnât told Puth, Iâm pretty sure Puth could see that written all over his face, because the man was glowing with happiness like a Christmas tree in the middle of a shopping mall. After the Puthâs teasing about Kaeng being happy because he could âeatâ, Kaeng asking if he could âeat tonightâ, Puth saying that âtonight, he could only taste a littleâ and Kaeng pretending to âbiteâ Puth (they are talking about sex, people, nothing extraordinary here), Puth says that he would be back in a minute and then leaves the small bathroom (?) they were and this is where things start to get interesting.
 [A bit of a backstory about this: when the announcement of the âextra sceneâ came and people were excited to know who the âmysterious manâ was, I became confused because I had no idea of what people were talking about. Even after someone commented about the mysterious man being about the man who sent that message to Kaeng on episode 9, I was still confused because for me a friend of his had sent the message but brushed aside, for the perspective of having an extra scene of PuthKaeng was above any confusion.]
 Puth grabs his phone, goes to site on the border of the bathtub and is then revealed that he is the mysterious man! Mind you, we all had that revelation in an episode without subtitles, but the fact that he was sending messages to a guy that was in the same room as he was and there was no names displayed on top of the messages to identify the people in the conversation was enough for us to understand what was happening. Remember when I said that they were still getting used to the idea of being a couple and that new relationships take time to become stable? Well, Puth may be super-duper happy and see that Kaeng is happy with him but is normal to have doubts if the person next to you is actually happy or pretending just to make you happy, so Puth had to have that extra confirmation, so he used something that seemingly would make Kaeng be 100% honest (notice that Puth only does that after Kaeng said that he was happy).
 It had been a total twist receiving that information but then we had to have a double twist when after Kaeng said âI think we should stop talkingâ and the âmysterious manâ asked âwhy?â, Kaeng comes out of the bathroom, walks rather sensually towards Puth and after sitting next to him answers the question with a âbecause I have a boyfriend nowâ and then shows his tongue to Puth. Puth, understandable surprised with that turn of events, asks Kaeng if he had âalways know that it was him?â, receives a nod from Kaeng, so asks âhow Kaeng found out? Had he peeked on his phone?â and then Kaeng delivers a triple twist by saying that âthereâs only one person he knows who likes to text dot at the end of sentences in Thaiâ.
 At that moment I was like âthereâs no way thatâs how Kaeng found out about Puth being the mysterious manâ, so I went back to episodes 9 and 10, look for any moments where Puth sent any messages to confirm that he had that habit and there they were, clear as water, in EVERY SINGLE MESSAGE. Iâm not saying that lightly, since the FIRST message that Puth sent in episode 9, which a reply to Nong Jumboâs message about missing him, until the LAST message he sent, which was to Kaeng to tell him that he wanted to talk to him later, ALL had dots in the end.
That made my jaw drop because it is such a small detail, something we had in front of us the entire time, but never actually stopped to pay attention and it was that fucking small detail that made Kaeng caught him as soon as he sent a message, pretending to be someone else.
 And the fact that Kaeng knew since the beginning that it was Puth brings forward two situations:
It is established that we started their main arc with Kaeng already liking Puth. And I said in the final part of my theory, in the timeline of events, that both of them had cut off contact with any potential sexual partners, so Kaeng only continued talking to the mysterious man because he knew it was Puth. If it werenât for the inability of Puth for using fakes (seriously, thatâs hilarious to be honest, being discovered because you like to use dots in the end of sentences. Itâs like people knowing itâs me just because I never use abbreviations when I write messages. True story), Kaeng wouldâve blocked him as soon the first message got in his Line account. Knowing that, no wonder he smiled after reading the message;
Puth sent the message, put down his phone and got back to the room whistling âDear Friendâ, a song that talks about someone having feelings for their friend, a situation they didnât intended to happen. So, now we have a guy that receives a message from the other guy he likes, using a fake account, seeing said guy he likes, whom he just had two rounds, or possible more, of sex, getting back to the room whistling a song about a friend liking another friend. And considering that, in that scene, it was the first time we were introduced to that song in their story, it gives another meaning to everything, doesnât?
Now, we need to understand why Puth resorted to such âextremeâ measures to talk to Kaeng, if they were already talking normally and itâs not like any other person had access to his phone. If I hadnât un-hold it the theory of Puth also liking Kaeng from the beginning, that specific scene of the revelation of him being the mysterious man wouldâve make me do that on the spot. Taking in consideration that at the time of the unfolding of the events from episode 9 Puth thought that Kaeng was still sleeping around (even if he was suspecting of Kaeng having feelings for him), his own feelings had to be well hidden. However, feelings are sneaky little bitches that the longer you try to suppress them, stronger and hard to hide they become and Puth is an affectionate person with those he likes, so he needed to find a way of getting close to Kaeng without actually getting close to him and what better way of doing that than with a fake profile? That way Puth couldâve be a friend to Kaeng, probably even drop some hints about liking him and see how Kaeng would react to them, establish a connection with him and at the same time avoiding the possibility of getting his feelings rejected in real life, after all if Kaeng was still talking to other potential partners it wasnât a good omen to him; like I said before, feelings made Puth really dirty.
 So, the cat is out of the bag. Puth knows that Kaeng knows that heâs the mysterious man sending him messages and donât know how to feel about that, so he says that ânow Kaeng knows it all, how much he loves himâ (adding credibility to my idea of Puth having using the fake account to show that he liked Kaeng) and Kaeng tells Puth that he âdoesnât need to be embarrassed, because itâs cuteâ, that âhe likes itâ and then to Puth to âtry to speak like in the textâ aka being romantic. After this, we had the single most emotionally devastating moment of the entire episode and the perfect way of ending a special episode: Puth looked at Kaeng like the man in front of him was the most precious treasure he had encounter in his life and it is possible to see how he also has Kaeng in his eyes, just like Kaeng have him in his eyes. He takes a deep breath, open and closes his mouth once before saying âKaeng, I love youâ, his eyes shining with love just like Kaengâs eyes were shining with love in the beginning of the episode, and Kaeng reply with a âI love you tooâ before they kiss and the episode ends.
 I highlighted Kaengâs name in the love declaration because in this episode, this name had a special weight. Throughout the entirety of the episode, PuthKaeng always used âdaddyâ and âpapiâ to refer to themselves, a fact that made me feel more single than I already feel in a daily basis, but when the subject was to tell Kaeng how he feel about him, Puth preferred to use his name, in an almost reverent tone, and tell Kaeng that he loved him. And the way Kaengâs eyes also shined after listening those words and the soft tone he used to answer PuthâŠhonestly, I canât deal with them anymore, Iâm done.
 PuthKaeng has a story more complex than we couldâve ever predict. They are men with complex personalities, insecurities even with their appearances of people secure of what they want, donât know how to express their feelings but when they do, you know is not something superficial, is the reality. It took them a long time to be together, they almost lost the opportunity to experience the love they have for each other, cried, made mistakes and misunderstood a lot of things. But now that they are together, I am sure that they will make everything in their power to make it work, will solve their problems the best way they can, will continue to support each other, be their best partners, their safe zones and each otherâs hearts. After all, the love the have is forever; and even beyond that.
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G5 MOVIE THOUGHTS FOLLOWUP - THE ANCIENT EQUESTRIAN ELEPHANT IN THE ROOM
SPOILER WARNING: THIS WILL GET INTO SPOILERS FOR THE G5 MOVIE EVEN BEFORE THE BREAK. IT HAS BEEN JUST OVER A WEEK SINCE THE MOVIE PREMIERED. BUT IF YOU STILL HAVEN'T SEEN IT, PLEASE SCROLL PAST THIS.
This is something of a follow-up to my thoughts on the movie. My thoughts on the movie were generally positive. Though much like the movie itself, the positive thoughts were on what itâs doing on itâs own merit as the start of a new generation of pony media. As someone who had followed Generation 4 from all the way in the middle of Season 1 to the ending of Season 9, the connection the G5 movie makes with the previous generation in the opening scenes are enough that itâs necessary to give a perspective from a G4 fanâs point of view. Again, I do want to say that G5 will be within itâs right to not have to answer so many plot things at once and try to stand on itâs own by exploring the characters and this new Equestria first.
That said, it shouldnât be a surprise that the longer none of the questions G4 fans will have are answered. There is a huge elephant in the room with the unanswered questions from G4. And It is Hasbroâs fault in the first place for telling us itâs the same Equestria, There will be fans that are annoying about it from multiple angles, and there will probably be times where people who just want to enjoy G5 on itâs own just outright snap at anyone who wants their answers about what happened in between G4 and G5. Even if the person who asks the question is just genuinely curious and not being demanding there be answers. This is just the kind of thing that all fandoms that have timeskip sequels, especially ones where it overrides a happy ending where discussing with other friends can get dicey.
HAPPY ENDING OVERRIDES AND ALICORNS
Until we get an official answer from the show itself, we can only theorize with each other. Though theorizing about a happy ending override, regardless of how long itâs been and/or how sensible the theory is can start some heated discussions, Cause many were content with the happy ending of the original. While no realistic story ever has a happily ever after, a story within a fantasy land such as MLPâs can be an exception.
Let me give something of a comparison by bringing up another show. Avatar: The Last Airbender is perhaps my favorite show of all-time. And while itâs true I didnât like the sequel series Korra as much as A:TLA. It wasnât because of some happy ending override with at least half of the main cast from the previous series deceased. The Avatars themselves are just as human as the other characters in the world. Avatarâs still a fantasy world when all is said and done, but the way the world building is done still made it feel like it it was possible for the world to be in danger again by the time the next Avatar is grown up, most known Avatars had challenges they had to face. The Avatar series blends some form of realism but still manages to provide a fun fantasy world. Itâs a case where itâs believable that the main legacy of Aangâs time as the Avatar aside from defeating the Fire Lord where he created Republic City would have itâs own fair share of problems that would be left to his successor to solve. Aang in turn was finishing the war that Roku failed to stop. So while I have my criticisms about Korra, none of those are related to the way the world is after the timeskip. It reasonably makes sense in the context of the Avatar universe.
In contrast, there isnât much we know about the past of G4 and itâs a much more idealistic setting then in Avatar. Yes, ponies die with what I assume are human-esque lifespans for the exception of the Alicorns. But Friendship is Magic is a setting where the power of friendship is literal magic power that can save the day even when things look bleak. As a result it can get very sappy, but FiM is the kind of show you watch to put a smile on your face rather then go to for a multi-faceted plot. Most episodes of FiM are the kind of thing you see in a lot of other shows. But what brings most of itâs fans back even for the most overdone plots is the characters and their interactions. FiMâs lore is a lot less straight forward, and sometimes may feel not as consistent given there were so many different writers over the long span of time. That said, there is something about the series that sort of ties in heading into G5 and thatâs G4âs history, and especially Alicorn lore. We donât get a lot of either even back in G4, as the most we get is the founding of Equestria was through the Hearthâs Warming Eve story, and the knowledge that Alicorns like Celestia and Luna are at least older then 1000. Which is a huge gap compared to the Avatars that no matter how powerful, have similar mortality to our own. Throughout G4âs time, the debate about Alicorns have raged throughout the whole time even before things got really heated upon Twilight becoming an Alicorn in Magical Mystery Cure. Some went with Celestia and Luna being the only immortal Alicorns while Cadence and Twilight were somehow lesser Alicorns that arenât immortal but maybe at least still a longer lifespan then their normal pony friends and family. Though as of Season 9, that may be turned on itâs head when in The Last Problem. Twilight eventually grows to Celestia-size as Celestia and Luna even retire to let Twilight succeed them. If Twilight is somehow a lesser Alicorn, why did she grow to Celestiaâs size? Why did Celestia and Luna retire in the first place if they knew Twilight will not be as long lived as they are? Perhaps part of the reason G5 has as many questions as it does is because G4 itself created questions it never promised to answer.
That said, the implied length of Celestia and Lunaâs rule still presents G5 with a problem that will be asked everywhere. Even if we go with the possibility that most of the Mane 6 have passed from old age, you still have to answer something about Twilight. If Twilight is also dead, how long did she live? Did she at least have an over-1000 year reign as Celestia did? Was perhaps Luster Dawn chosen to be her younger co-ruler if Luster herself ascended at some point? The kind of things that might actually force G5 into a corner when it comes to Alicorns despite the fact G4 never had to, especially now that Sunny may have just become one herself. This is once again, another of the traps Hasbro put the writing team through by having them put it in the same world. G5 thus not only adds questions about what happened in between the Generations, but also now has to inherit what remained unanswered in G4. That is a VERY tall task on a team that will likely just want to do their own little fun pony show. Itâll raise expectations too high, and there will be annoyed fans regardless how they spin it. Which could have all been avoided if they set it up that this was an entirely new world, or made G4 a fictional story (With all the references to it being mainly merchandise for a really meta look at things) in the G5 universe. Youâd still have people complaining about it not being as good as G4 probably, but the approach they went with added more gasoline to the fire whenever G4 Vs. G5 debates happen in the MLP fandom. And inter-fandom generation fights are never fun, just ask the Pokemon and the Sonic fandoms how that turns out (Even though thereâs no Generation number count for the Sonic franchise. You could say Gen 1 of Sonic was the classic era. Gen 2 was the Sonic Adventure Era. Gen 3 was the âDark Ageâ Sonic 2006-Sonic Unleashed era. Gen 4 the Sonic Colors and Generations era. and Gen 5 the current Sonic Forces and Team Sonic Racing era. And then of course thereâs also the different TV shows and comic books that also have their own fans that can be at each otherâs throats).
There isnât going to be an easy solution to something that will no doubt have fans on the edge on their seat even if they will be left to hang on that edge for a longtime before G5 starts to give some answers. I think Iâll at least bring up 3 things that will probably be part of the discussions of just what happened between G4 and G5
(More after the break)
1. AND THEN EVERYTHING CHANGED WHEN THE FIRE NATION AN UNKNOWN THREAT ATTACKED
With G4 being considered Ancient Equestria. Itâs probably safe to assume this is at least 1,000 years after G4. And 1,000 or more is a really, really, long time. Where anything could of happened, including *GASP* a villain actually winning at some point (Or at least, did some lasting damage even if they were ultimately defeated). Though I think even with that possibility, there has to be a sense that the villain didnât defeat the Mane 6 while the other members aside from Twilight were still alive. If Twilight was at some point defeated. Perhaps the villain struck when Twilight was most vulnerable. You could also have it that Twilight somehow sacrificed herself to defeat a large threat. She saved Equestria one last time, but at the cost of even her long-lasting alicorn life. With the populace left on their own to continue life without Twilight, but the loss of their longtime leader too much for Equestria. Thus a slow decline happened.
As for who the threat was itâll probably be a while if we ever know. Perhaps the real Grogar showed up at some point and was truly a harrowing threat to deal with. Or something entirely new. Maybe it wasnât even a villain, but a catastrophic natural disaster. Whatever it is, if this is the case. Weâd have to deal with the sad thought of something being too much for even Twilight to handle
2. TWILIGHT BECAME DEPRESSED/JADED AFTER HER FRIENDS PASSED. POSSIBLY EVIL TOO?
This would basically be the cliche sadfic ending. Where after everyone of the Mane 6 has passed. Twilight just never felt the same afterward. Though I do feel like there is the slight counterpoint that maybe Twilight would still have Celestia and/or Luna (maybe, again weâve never ever gotten full confirmation of how long Alicorns live. Just assured that itâs more then 1000 years) and sheâd most certainly still have a full grown Spike and any of her friends descendants. Death is always a sad reality, but you have to wonder if Twilight would have prepared herself by the time that comes. Twilight would have not gone as far as she did without the rest of the Mane 6. But while Iâm sure it would be a tearjerking moment, itâs not like Twilight wouldnât have other friends she made throughout the generations. Celestia and Luna also must of gone through the same thing living for more then 1000 years, yet they seem pretty fine. So while the subject of âimmortality bluesâ is prime for sadfic material in the fandom. It feels like thereâd have to be more nuance then that, if this were the reason the time between G4 and G5 led into each other.
Supposedly, this theory is picking up some form of steam. To the point that a head canon is rolling around is that it was actually Twilight who sealed the magic away in the first place for one reason or another. Essentially making Twilight, in a huge plot twist, a villain in G5 or at the very least someone who took the magic with them into some form of Limbo very similar to Starswirl and the other founders during the Season 7 finale. I⊠personally donât know how Iâd feel about that. Theyâd have to be very careful with the execution of such a twist. And Iâd want more nuance then simply Twilight getting sad about the deaths of her friends. At the very least, itâd likely eventually get to a point where this villainous incarnation of Twilight is reformed and probably becomes a recurring character from then on. But the writers will have to tread very carefully if this is the direction they take.
3. G5 IS AN ENTIRELY DIFFERENT UNIVERSE/TIMELINE. JUST FOR THE MOST PART THE MAJOR EVENTS OF "ANCIENT EQUESTRIA" STILL HAPPENED
Perhaps this last one really gets into a more desperate side to deflect any possibility that the ending of G4 could of deteriorated into what the world becomes at the start of G5. I know there will be plenty that will be too frustrated with the lack of satisfactory answers that they annoy people in the comment sections, getting into situations where sometimes the only answer to those people will be others that just want to watch G5 as a fun show with a âcopeâ, âread a history bookâ, or âdeal with itâ. But honestly, there can be a case here. As I mentioned in my thoughts in the movie. There are visual details on characters and/or lore that while they may seem minor, to the point that even if they do ever answer important questions such as what caused magic to disappear and/or what happened to Alicorns like Twilight. That the staff may ignore completely because they think itâs too small of a detail to bother including. But the most nitpicky fan can and will latch on small excuses into why it canât be the same.
Letâs begin with the one-sided Cutie Mark. Again, while itâs true that previous generations made this a tradition. And it was only on one side on the G4 toys as well, as the actual reason it was on both sides in the G4 show was because it was easier for the flash animators. That said, itâs still a big pony design inconsistency. Because regardless of it was only to make things easier, it became a staple because of how long G4 lasted. So it was still so weird to see early screenshot and artwork of G5 characters with grown ponies with no mark. When that wasnât possible in G4, as it turned out it was because the one-sided cutie mark returned. But one side as opposed to both sides is still a significant difference. Similarly, the horns and wingtips being a different color then the coat may also be a significant difference. Of course I know it can be just waved off as art style difference, as the art direction is no longer based on what Faust wanted the ponies to look like. Itâs still plausible enough for someone to discredit it as truly in continuity with G4. Cause even for those that are on the side of âMore then 1000 years is a long time, anything could of happenedâ itâs a lot harder to argue against inconsistencies such as cutie marks only being on one side unless they switch gears to the meta explanation of âG4âs double sided cutie mark was not intentional, at least at firstâ. But from what most people saw in the G4 show, G4 ponies had marks on both sides. And the G5 ponies donât. Itâs again, quite nitpicky. But itâs enough to start a case that at the very least, the ancient past of G4 is not 100% the same G4 we saw in the show.
Speaking of not the same G4 we saw in the show, another possibility is that G5 actually came out of an alternate timeline. Where perhaps the last two seasons did not happen. If perhaps itâs a timeline where major events in the show either ended anywhere between the end of Season 4 or the end of Season 7, then it starts to feel a little more possible. (Supposedly, the tree of harmony in itâs Season 9 form that might counteract it. But then again it had none of the treehouse architecture and was all wood. Which ironically may lead into it leaning more that the G4 show isnât the same continuity). If the events of the Friendship School nor everything else that leads to the ending we saw in The Last Problem. Itâd be a lot more palatable because the pretty much implied world peace ending with non-ponies in the mix included is discounted. Thereâd still be questions even in this scenario, like did Celestia and Luna still retire in this timeline then. And regardless if they did or not, the show would still be burdened with the question of what happened to the Alicorns. But itâd at least solve the most pressing question with the peace of The Last Problem being squandered. Because perhaps in this timeline, the Mane 6 never went that far. Perhaps it would imply some sort of indirect failure in that case. But this is perhaps a scenario they had a similar foreign policy as Celestia did. Not really hostile to anyone, but not intervening even in ways that could be helpful. Heck, if we go far enough in saying that G5\s G4 (As confusing as that may sound) was different from what we saw in Friendship is Magic, what if there were differences even early on for one reason or another? With how vague the connection is, we only know that the Mane 6 were friends and Twilight still became a princess at some point. From there. potentially a lot of other things may have gone differently other then that.
Again, saying G5 is a completely different universe/timeline is probably always going to sound like a desperate way for people who cannot possibly believe the ending of G4 eventually led to the start of G5. And Iâd understand why thatâll annoy people who just want to watch the G5 series on itâs own merits. But it really wouldnât be entirely the fans to blame for that attitude. G4 lasted a whole decade, many got attached to the characters/world we saw that had about the happiest ending it could possibly be. It should naturally make people unhappy that in a few ways itâs stomping over a happy ending for this fantasy world that many watched to escape from the realities of the real world.
Even with the long time allotted of 1000+ years or more, thatâs made complicated by the implied long lives of the Alicorns from G4. Only opening up that can of worms further by seemingly making Sunny an alicorn. Thereâs a debate on whether this form is permanent, but if itâs NOT permanent. That arguably adds yet another addition to the list of reasons it may fall out of continuity. The only time we had a temporary Alicorn transformation (outside of Animation errors, or dream sequences like Big Macâs) was when Cozy was an Alicorn after receiving some of the magic from Grogarâs bell. But even in that case, Cozyâs wings were not more like a glowy hologram like Sunnyâs wings seem to be. And even if it is permanently on Sunny now, the design for Alicorns is too different. Adding onto the one-sided cutie marks, and different colored wings and horns. So the G5 writers may actually be stuck in a lose/lose situation when it comes to Alicorns after the ending of the movie. I think whether Sunny is permanently an Alicorn or not, they may not elaborate enough about it. And itâll be among the headaches in the comment section (Though may at least be a reprieve from the political discussions G5 are going to have on occasion I imagine.)
Hasbro chose to try to say this is the same Equestria, and a new show needs conflicts to solve. But from the perspective of some G4 fans⊠it forces a world they loved, to get torn down into arguably a more divided world then even the Hearthâs Warming tale. Which said tale seems to have been implied to be from before Princess Celestia and Luna were around (Based on the lore of the unicorns being the one to raise the sun and moon) and thus yes. Somehow, if everything that happened in G4 is canon to G5. Then the world peace in The Last Problem in just a thousand years or so become worse then even Celestiaâs sole rule.
RESPONDING TO âREAD A HISTORY BOOKâ
Iâve mentioned before, you can try to point to World History to point why this is a realistic take. But again, we donât have an ancient civilization from 1000 years ago that we look up to as the pinnacle of peace in the world (Like I said, the Golden age of Ancient Greece and/or Rome still had slavery and brutal wars). That has literally never happened. What was shown in the Last Problem very much looked like it was that for Equestria. I feel itâs a terrible interpretation of time, especially in regards to the context that the leaders of Equestria tend to live for at least more then 1000 years to imply things would just go backward like that.
CONCLUSION
The movie on itâs own merits is a good start for the generation, though at the same time. Itâs going to have some hard questions thatâll often be no-win situations for the writers. They can choose to ignore the G4 questions, understandably trying to tiptoe around as many cans of worms as possible which would allow them to do whatever the heck they want with G5. Maybe even getting a few stragglers frustrated with no answers to just shrug and continue watching anyway if the show entertains them enough. Or they can certainly try to at least give some answers on the biggest questions (What happened to the magic, and/or what was the fate of G4âs alicorns) but risk having an answer that just adds even more questions.
The movie is a decent start for a new generation if you only view it as a pilot for a new series, but if you view it as a sequel to Friendship is Magic. There are certainly problematic issues with that currently. Maybe the special in Spring, or the eventual Series will cover some of this but it does leave fans waiting a while for answers that theyâre not promised to get, or at least not as quickly as theyâd like. Remember when I mentioned that I may view some of this similarly to how I was about Starlight Glimmer after her sudden redemption at the end of Season 5? With many questions I wanted to know about Starlight before I could really accept her as a recurring character? (And not really fully coming into terms with her until I expanded on her myself in a story for I Dream of Twilight Sparkle) This may be how I have to view the connection of G4 and G5.
They can go one of two routes: At least try to give as much of a clear explanation as possible. Even if itâs one that doesnât exactly answer everything, at least giving a good try may help with those who have questions remaining in relation to G4. If instead however, they go the Season 6 Starlight route of just about ignoring all the questions fans have, itâll make things frustrating for many. At least with Starlight, she wasnât the major focus in every episode. That said, Season 6âs job was to endear us more to her reformed character. Now with G5âs setup, it may be running well into a corner where they must try to answer what happened in between G4 and G5 or else you end up making a lot of fans lukewarm or worse to your series. Starlightâs reformation and then lack of ability of Season 6 to explain more about Starlight to us was a divisive moment. And G5 involving G4 brings over the same kind of feeling but on a larger scale because now itâs in the very premise of the generationâs plot, itâs less avoidable compared to one character. Because even when it comes to episodes that will not further the plot and itâs just a fun friendly moment between the members of the mane 5, this movie is how they met and thus the not fully explained premise would always be looming over like a large shadow. It probably doesnât help that theyâre basically starting with a reformed Starlight-esque moment when it comes to introducing itâs premise AND on top of that something similar although certainly with at least a lot less backlash then with Alicorn Twilight since it came so soon. Though I do have to think there will be people who think this was way too soon to be ascending Sunny, since at least we got to see Twilightâs journey to Alicornhood (Even if you werenât a fan of the episode she ascended in). Sunny arguably does earn her Alicornhood through implied years of working to unite the ponies. But it can still feel too soon when you had 2 1/2 seasons worth of episodes before Twilight did, while Sunny did so within one movie.
Someoneâs ultimate thoughts on G5 might end up being what they are looking for in this new generation. If theyâre looking for just about everything new. The movie provides plenty of that with new characters, new locations, and a more modernized world compared to G4 Equestria (Even if G4 Equestria had itâs own fair share of electronics it looked like, such as video game machines). If youâre in this for the G4 references. Aside from the very beginning of the movie, youâre kind of stuck doing a whereâs waldo for most of the movie. And no guarantees youâll get much more then that later. As I said in the trailer thoughts, the G4 stuff could very much be just Hasbro trying to bake itâs cake and eat it too. With a world that feels like it should be itâs own thing, but they didnât want to commit entirely to that. So they shoehorn G4 in as the ancient past without giving a proper explanation to how point A (the end of G4) got to point B (the start of G5). Itâs only been about a week since the movie premiered, but there is just so much to digest. And for those looking for answers to the G4 elephant in the room, may feel like they get nothing but metaphorical tummy aches for a long time.
Iâll end this off by having a message to both people who already feel like theyâll be fans of G5, as well as people like me who were fans of G4 and have concerns about where G5 may be doing to itâs legacy.
For the G5 fans, as I mentioned in the trailer thoughts. I still hope that it turns out ultimately good. I donât know where things will go from here but the G5 movie taking in context that itâs basically a really long series premiere, had some genuinely enjoyable moments. At the same time, I hope anyone in the G5 fanbase can try to understand why G4 fans have the concerns that they do. Iâll repeat, G4 lasted a decade and was the absolute peak of MLPâs popularity. There will be a lot of people attached to that world, and understandably upset about the implication that it got torn down into how the world is at the start of G5. If theyâre really annoying about it, I can understand why you couldnât hold the urge to snap at them to âGet over itâ just try not to snap at the ones who are just asking curiously. Iâm personally not going to spam comment threads with âTHIS DOESNâT FIT WITH G4!â or âHASBRO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS PLEASEâ, but I would be lying if I were to say Iâm not just as curious about what those type of fans want to know too.
And as for G4 fans like me, if G5 ever upsets you in some fashion. Itâs ok to stop watching and just stay quiet whenever you find yourself in a conversation about G5 and only participate in G4 matters in the fandom. This is a natural evolution of a fandomâs lifecycle where eventually a direction a franchise is taken to a place some others donât like. So youâre only left to mainly talk with those who prefer an older generation and/or incarnation. Just because G5 has started and even though Hasbro says itâs the same world as G4. You can still do G4 content by itself and ignore G5. If you still have the inclination to do stuff with G4, do it. Generation 5 is not stopping people from still drawing the G4 characters, or writing more stories about them, or even if you donât feel youâre that creative. Support artists who are still drawing G4 ponies, and/or rewatch some of your favorite episodes of Friendship is Magic that give you a smile. MLP has lasted since the 80s, and while for the most part to Hasbro itâs to sell toys. Toys, and the shows surrounding themâs purpose is to make the people watching or playing with them smile. From the little girls in the 80s to the much more diverse both gender-wise and age-wise fandom that came out of G4. The cute ponies are supposed to make us happy, and itâs ok to get back into a comfort zone if perhaps a different part of Ponies donât give you the same feeling or even upset you in some way. Also as a vice versa to my message to G5 fans, try as best you can not to provoke those enjoying G5. If the G5 movie and/or episodes makes them as happy as your favorite G4 episodes/movies you should let them be. Many of us had to deal with that crap just for daring liking a pony show at all early on in the fandom. Try not to add to the toxicity as best you can. G4 is not going to be forgotten, the fact Hasbro decided to try to make it in the same universe actually has the side effect of making sure of that. Cause maybe you have fans that enter the MLP franchise through G5 curious about what happened in the past. And thus, they can be led to watch the previous generation. New G5 fans could potentially also become new G4 fans and friends. In other words, friendship⊠is still magic!
#mlp#my little pony#g5#mlp g5#netflix#my little pony the next generation#my little pony movie#generation 5#g4#mlp g4#generation 4
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Valentine's Day at the Roadhouse - A Recap
February 14-16, 2021Â
By @desperately-humanââ
TL:DR
Actors Chad Linberg (Ash) and Samantha Ferris (Ellen) made tweets to role play a Valentineâs Day celebration at the Roadhouse. Several of their comments seemed to be suggesting that they would celebrate the wedding of Dean and Cas, and fans took this idea and ran with it. On the fourteenth, fans held their own celebration across social media platforms by joyfully sharing writing, art, headcanons, and memes, getting #DeanCasWedding trending in the process. Ferris and Lindburg did not roleplay a wedding, and both actors became defensive when the subject was brought up, stating that holding a gay wedding would fail to âuphold the integrity & spirit of the showâ and that they had never suggested anything else. Fans were hurt and frustrated by these responses, as well as Lindburgâs liking of a post that claimed Destiel supporters have been âgaslighting the rest of the fandom for 10+ years.â Other people associated with the Supernatural community including actor Kat Ramdeen, writer Eric Charmelo, and the official account for Stands merchandising, responded to fans in a more positive way.Â
A more detailed account of events, including source links, is located below the cut.
Our post on the Roadhouse reopening
link to Chad Lindburg's twitter
link to Samantha Ferris's twitter
If you want to join us in commemorating Dean and Castielâs wedding, submit fanworks using the guidelines provided here. (Deadline extended to February 28th, 2021)
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Last week, actors Chad Linberg (Ash) and Samantha Ferris (Ellen) announced their decision to roleplay a Valentineâs day celebration at the Roadhouse. Lindburg and Ferris had already successfully liveblogged a birthday party for Dean Winchester on January 24 and the reopening of the Roadhouse bar on February 10 (Kat Ramdeen also rp-d this event.) (1)
Both Ferris and Lindburg mentioned âwedding seasonâ in their posts, which piqued fan interest, and fans latched on to the idea that they might be planning a Deancas wedding. This theory was further supported by Lindburgâs own interactions with fans: [this one might be too confusing: at one point, he failed to like--or possibly liked and then quickly unliked, a tweet that read âdon't like this reply if a deancas wedding is gonna happen at the roadhouseâ (2). He directed fans with âquestionsâ to an account who was a public destiel shipper (3) He also responded to a tweet reading âpeople think you guys are celebrating a Destiel wedding, that isnât the case of course.â with âUm no sorry...you did NOT get the memoâ (4)
On February 14 #DeanCasWedding trended on twitter as fans across the world staged their own, fan-created celebration by joyfully sharing writing, art, headcanons, and memes. Ferris and Lindburg wrote innocuous Roadhouse update tweets all day long, including a sequence where Lindburg got in a fight with Elvis, and concluding with the partial destruction of the Roadhouse by unknown forces. No mention was made of the wedding by either actor.Â
However, partway through Monday February 15, Ferris and Lindburg began addressing questions as to why they had hinted they would hold a wedding and then not followed through. Â
Chad Lindburg responded that he never intended to imply that he would hold a Deancas wedding, and issued this statement. Â
âYes, among other things, the Roadhouse does âweddings.â I had NO idea this would be taken out of context..If you thought you were sold something else, you weren't...this was a way to bring people together and have fun. State your views, however, Iâll be blocking any rude or nastiness today.â(5)Â
Lindburg did go on to block multiple twitter users who tried to engage with him on this topic. Over the next few days, Lindburgâs tweets ranged from attempts to validate fanâs feelings, such as âNo one is delusional. You're all validated. Remember, we're all just having fun with our imaginations. And actually, the Fandom has just as much weight as the actors. It goes both ways. We can't have one without the other. We're grateful for all of you.â (6) to hostile, such as replying âThank you [hands clasped emoji]â to a tweet that read âIronically the ones complaining about being gaslit by you are the ones that have been gaslighting the rest of the fandom for 10+ years.â (7)Â
Samantha Ferris responded that they would never hold a DeanCas wedding because Supernatural is âa story about family, bonds, and supernatural power struggles. The direction has never included sexuality or romanceâ and that she believed that her and Lindburgâs ârole is to uphold the integrity & spirit of the showâ and that âit would be disrespectful to all the people who tried to tell this tale if we validated it [the Deancas relationship]â (8) Her full tweets on the matter read,Â
âIma say this once then move on. @ChadLindberg & I canât follow you down that road. As part of the storyline, our role is to uphold the integrity & spirit of the show: itâs a story about family, bonds, and supernatural power struggles. The direction never included sexuality or romance. That was never what it was supposed to be about. So to honour the cast, crew, and creators, we respect their intentions. You wanna create your side story? Go for it. But it would be disrespectful to all the people who tried to tell this tale if we validated itâŠâÂ
Ferris and Lindburg have continued to roleplay their Roadhouse updates, although they have both lost followers in fan interest after the events of this week.Â
Other people associated with the spn community responded more positively: Writer Eric Charmelo responded to the wedding posting by liking #DeancasWedding fanart (9). Actor Kat Ramdeen (Alex) tweeted on Valentineâs dayÂ
âI love you #SPNFamily I see youâÂ
accompanied by a rainbow heart and a Social justice Pride Flag made up of hearts (10). Â Stands, a company that sells fandom merchandise made in collaboration with the actors and gives a portion of proceeds to charity, sent out these two supportive tweets in response to the drama in the Supernatural communityÂ
âIâve just caught up and Iâm sorry yâall are having a rough go. I love you. <3â  (11)Â
andÂ
âItâs so rare Iâm actually mad but to be clear- absolutely no one gets to define how you experience something you love. Just go on with your bad selves and enjoy the things that make you happy. As if the last two years havenât been shit enough. Seize your moments, ignore the restâ (12)
our post on roadhouse reopening
link to Chad Lindburg's twitter
link to Samantha Ferris's twitter
If you want to join us in commemorating Dean and Castielâs wedding, submit fanworks using the guidelines provided here. (Deadline extended to February 28th, 2021)
#destiel daily news#february 14th#valentine's day#the roadhouse#chad lindberg#samantha ferris#deancas wedding#kat ramdeen#stands#eric charmelo#recap
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characters: midoriya, bakugou, todoroki, kirishima, yaoyorozu, uraraka, + ashido
genre: fluff <33
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I. Midoriya ïżœïżœïżœïżœđđ»
this poor boy is so excited to be spending time with you
but he will not take his nose out of his textbook
he can't help it
he's so happy to be in the hero course he takes his schoolwork a little too seriously
however, you can use this to your advantage ;)
normally you're almost as invested in his journey to becoming the next Symbol of Peace and achieving his dream as he is
and you would never dream of doing anything that could jeopardize it
So you were silently bouncing off the walls with glee when you realized he was impervious to distractions when it came to studying
literally anything is fair game
which is why studying with him is your new favorite time of day
pet his hair
kiss his cheeks
climb into his lap
pat his head
hold his non-dominant hand
hug him from behind his chair
rest your head on his shoulder and take a nap
do whatever you want
you can basically do anything to him while he's studying without having to worry about distracting him
he will blush a little bit of you kiss him but but you think it's adorable
lol turn on whatever tv or music you want
but only if you're done with your work!!
hes very adamant that you keep up with your work as best you can do you can graduate side by side and be pro heroes together someday
K. Bakugou đŁđ„ đą
he would totally be the one to invite you to study and he would probably want to study in his dorm
it's super quiet and nobody will bother you guys because they know it's that spiky gremlin's room
overall his room just has a really relaxing atmosphere
you love being near him as much as possible
and he's much more affectionate in the comfort of his dorm room
but that doesn't mean he's gonna go easy on u ;-;
he still has his gruff attitude and will make sure you're studying every day
or else he will call u baka and force you to sit down and study until you know all your material
he's actually a great tutor tho
he writes out all the work for each problem and explains them thoroughly
all while holding in you in his arms while you sit in his lap
sometimes you can convince him to play a game with you where every time you get an answer right he gives you a kiss
but you whine when you get one wrong and he won't kiss you
he huffs before giving you a kiss while still trying to look annoyed
stupid girl he mutters
but he pulls you a bit closer to him to hide his blush and moves on to the next problem despite your giggles
S. Todoroki âđ„đ
he doesn't really need to study but he doesn't know how to just .. relax
like he doesn't know how to not do what his dad tells him to do
and his dad wants him to study
it's just easier for Todoroki to do what his dad wants than to rebel
that is, it was
Until he met you and the dekusquad
obviously everyone cares about their homework and wants to graduate well and go Plus Ultra!
but study sessions with Todoroki usually end up just being you guys trying to help him be less hard on himself while you have him as a captive audience
he doesn't really mind, though, especially when it's just you two
the intimacy of studying together in comfortable silence and just
enjoying each other's company
makes his heart go (*ïżŁâïżŁ*)
like i said he doesn't really need to study so he'll just end up helping you review material
please just ... hold his hand :)
after you're done studying for the day just pull him into a hug and over to your bed
he needs a nap
you feel warm fuzzies inside from how caring he's been to sit with you while you finished your homework and bring you warm tea
you don't even think you just
Time for cuddles :3
it becomes your daily ritual to study together and then cuddle
he always falls asleep in your arms with a small smile
E. Kirishima đżđżđż
(HAHAHSHNSJ THE đż EMOJI OMG I'M LITERALLY SO FUNNY LOL I'M CRYING)
"Okay, Y/N, let's study hard and do our homework like men!" *fist-pumping the air and grinning like an idiot*
"...what's so funny? "
he doesn't care if you're not a man it's his trademark
he likes to study at his desk because he says it's "important to stay focused and work diligently"
generally he is the least focused person, ever. besides kaminari.
however, he's so energetic and enthusiastic that once you sit down and start studying he'll be able to keep your motivation up until you've finished all your homework
GREAT at studying for tests and quizzes (in theory)
he will never give up
like I said he could keep studying for hours once he sets his mind to it
So you have to compromise and get him to study in short bursts throughout the day to help him have a better chance of remembering anything ;-;
his memory is not great but it's kinda cute
you, being the smart cookie that u are, realized the best way to help him memorize things was to study with flashcards frequently throughout the weekend while doing other activities
so you plan to hang out together and do something fun every week while having your study material on index cards in your back pockets
it's a literal study date.
a weekly date out to the mall or the park or a little coffee shop but with math trivia thrown in randomly throughout the afternoon!! :D
Of course he was ready to turn it into a game he's a literal puppy
he just wants to show you you can be proud of him
you giggle lightly when you hear him say that and let him know that you'll always be proud of him, no matter what
M. Yaoyorozu đđâ
studyblr wants what u have.
studying in momo's room makes you feel like a Victorian young lady studying moral philosophy, writing poetry about the mourning doves outside the garden window, and waiting for her husband to come home from sailing the seven seas
it's your Belle moment where she's in the royal library except it's every day
stacks of beautiful, old books
the smell of the crisp, white pages
soft classical music floating through the air
the window cracked open slightly
and you are the luckiest student in all of UA because you get to study with the smartest girl in the whole school
she's also gorgeous and sweet and perfect which def doesn't hurt
u know that joke that ur teacher can spend a year explaining something and u never understand but then a random indian guy on YouTube explains it in 2 minutes and you finally get it
she is that random indian guy
you will never struggle with a single concept after you start studying with her
And she's so proud of you for every little question you answer correctly
(even thought she's the one that explained it all so well in the first place)
it's the definition of comfortable silence
she insists that neither of you study too hard and that you take lots of breaks to stretch
she says its to help you stay concentrated but really she just wants to feel your gentle hands on her shoulders as you massage out the knots
you take turns kneading the tension out of each other's shoulders
you feel a pleasant tingle down your spine at the feeling of her soft breath on the back of your neck
She pulls away and you share awkward smiles, neither of you realizing the other one of blushing, too
(((*â§èžâŠ)ïŸïŸïŸïŸïœŻ
O. Uraraka đđđ
ur actually super productive study buddies
Like u started studying together and then all of a sudden you were almost at the top of your class
she's just so sweet that being with her gives you the energy you need to write that essay all in one sitting instead of procrastinating like a normal person
Shows up at your dorm with snacks and drinks to keep your energy up!! :D
even though she's still going to end up getting sleepy anyway later in the afternoon
You get most of your studying done at the beginning of your study date so it's not really a problem
you know she doesn't have a lot of money to be throwing around so you pay for dinner every night
It's usually takeout but sometimes you guys make your own dinner for fun!
it always turns out almost inedible and burned because neither of you were paying attention to the stove
don't let baku see it or he'll start screaming about how you need to try your best at everything so he can beat you fair and square and that includes cooking too
neither you nor uraraka can handle spicey food so you never eat what Bakugou cooks for the class
You grab a few bags of chips and some sushi and shut yourselves in your dorm to pull an all-nighter study session about once a month
it should make you tired but, again, studying with her is so enjoyable that you don't mind
u two enjoy each others company in studying so much that you sometimes read ahead in your textbooks just to be able to study more
overall, hanging out with her is just lighthearted and filled with giggles
and you just so happen to get all your homework done along the way
M. Ashido đŸđœđż
"studying" with her is so much fun
Hanging out with Mina in general is so much fun
it's impossible not to smile when she's around so even if you have a huge exam tomorrow, all your worries fade away just from being with her
She is pretty distracting in cases where you actually wanted to get stuff done
But you don't care
Change of plans
you're doing mani pedi's with Mina
No more studying
it's not as bad as it sounds though
You're not slacking off or anything and you can still keep your grades up with help from your other friends like Momo and Iida
you guys are just goofing off in the privacy of your dorm room when you should be studying
"It's not a crime to be young, Y/ N ;)"
she's just so energetic and happy like a little pink ball of sunshine
you can't help but laugh at her silliness and cute antics after a long day of classes
she makes your heart beat faster like you're on a roller coaster but without the nerves
somehow you feel giddy and comfortable in her presence at the same time
it doesn't matter what you two are doing, you always have fun
make sure she goes to bed on time, though, or she might end up baking a seven-tier cake at 3 am and Bakugou will scream at you for waking him up
don't feed her after midnight lmao
i started writing this after i almost died of boredom in my online calc class. my senioritis is already kicking in and it's still September (ïœĄ-Ï-) Â
#boku no hero academia x reader#bnha x reader fluff#bnha headcannons#bakugou katsuki x reader fluff#midoriya izuku x reader#todoroki shouto x reader#shoto todoroki#Uraraka ochako#uraraka ochako x reader#Mina ashido x reader#yaoyorozu momo x reader#yaomomo#Kirishima eijirou x reader#eijirou kirishima#mha x reader#my hero academia x reader fluff headcannons#study date#hc
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Lost and Found
By @pogokitten for @lost-lunar-wolf
Rating: Teen (for swears)
Relationships: Peter Parker & Tony Stark
Characters: Peter Parker, Tony Stark, Pepper Potts, Happy Hogan, Ben Parker, May Parker
Summary: People lose things all the time, keys, toys, favorite socks. It happens, itâs just a part of life. But sometimes these lost items make their way to soulmates. Itâs phenomena as old as civilization itself. You lose your favorite hair tie and poof, it just appears near your soulmate for them to find and eventually return. Romantic or Platonic, itâs expected that everyone stumbles over some of their soulmates' lost items here and there. Some people just end up waiting longer than others. Â
Or: The platonic soulmate AU where Tony and Peter find and hold onto a lot of each otherâs stuff over the years.
Tony is speed walking through his mansion the first time it happens. Heâs not paying attention, tie barely on straight and coffee almost sloshing out of his cup as he rushes for the door. Heâs late for a meeting and usually he wouldnât care, but Obie has been up his ass about this one. Something about a grouchy general that thinks Stark Industries weapons are overpriced and overhyped needing convincing.
So when Tony stumbles on something caught under his dress shoes, he finds himself cursing colorfully as splashes of coffee dot the marble floor. He glares down at the offending object when he has his footing, fully expecting it to be a tool or something that migrated out of the workshop.
The engineer stops short and stares however, when he takes in the soft blue baby binky on his floor.
Tony is no stranger to having strange things in his house, being an eccentric billionaire and all, but he has absolutely no clue how a pacifier of all things has ended up on his floor. Â
Tony scoops the binkie off the floor examining it, completely baffled.
It looks new if the bright color and barely chewed appearance is anything to go by. Tony wracks his brain for any possible reason a pacifier could have made its way into his home. This wasnât a week for the cleaners so it wouldnât be something of theirs, and the only other people who have been in his house since yesterday were Happy and Pepper.
The engineer knows Happy himself is allergic to children, but doesnât he have a sister or something? Does she have a kid? Maybe it got mixed up in Happyâs things? Itâs not the most plausible explanation.
As for Pepper, Tonyâs pretty fucking sure she doesnât have a kid. He knows from her comments that she doesnât have much in the way of family anymore and that sheâs single. Maybe one of her college friends has kids? Could one of their kidâs binkies have ended up in her purse during a visit or something?
The theoryâs not great, but thatâs at least more believable than Happy being the culprit, and for the life of him, Tony doesnât know where else the thing would have come from.
Tony stuffs the pacifier into his pocket and continues out the door resolving to ask Pepper about it later.
---
Tony never ends up asking Pepper about the binky.
He came home from an extremely long day at the office spent schmoozing the stuffy general and tossed the thing out of his pocket along with his keys onto a cluttered table in the workshop. He then proceeded to drink the night away to dull the built up tension. When JARVIS wakes him up the next morning, the pacifier is a distant memory due to his ragging hangover and Obie calling to talk business.
Itâs not until a few months later that the binky even crosses Tonyâs mind again.
Itâs another typical day in the life of a party addicted billionaire genius, when Pepper pages him through JARVIS to help her into the house. Tony finally emerges from his lab for the first time that day, muttering equations under his breath. Heâs lost in his own head, still focused on the designs heâs been hammering out downstairs.
So Tony nearly falls on his ass when he steps onto something that slides under his feet in the entryway. The engineer is quick to catch himself, heart still racing from the near drop, and looks around irritably for damn banana peel or whatever it was that almost killed him.
He quickly spots what looks like a scrap of fabric nearby. Grumbling, Tony snatches it off the floor and realizes it's not a pocket square or a tie like he thought.
No, itâs a lovey.
He gapes at the toy with wide eyes.
The blanket bit of the toy is a soft yellow fabric, the stuffed animal portion a smiling dog with floppy ears. Itâs a bit love worn and could probably use a wash, but it doesnât seem especially old.
It also absolutely shouldnât be here.
No one else has been in the mansion for the last two days except for him, and Tony knows the lovey wasnât there this morning.
âJARVIS, did someone break into the house to leave baby toys for me to trip on, and you just neglected to tell me?â Tony asks.
âOf course not, sir,â the AI says, sounding almost offended, âNo one has been inside of the mansion aside from yourself and I would have alerted you to a perimeter breach.â
âThen how is this here?â Tony questions, holding the toy up to the nearest camera.
âIt simply appeared in the foyer, sir,â JARVIS tells him.
âThatâs impossible, things donât just appear.â Â
âIt is possible, sir. I thought it would be obvious,â the AI refutes, a hint of a smirk in his tone. Â
Tony rolls his eyes. âNot in the mood right now, J.â
âI believe that your soulmate has lost both the toy in your hand and the pacifier you found approximately three months ago,â JARVIS explains.
Any sort of snappy retort dies in Tonyâs throat and he snaps his gaze back to the lovey heâs holding.
Soulmates were not something that Tony Stark had thought about often in the past two decades of his life.
Growing up heâd been as intrigued by soulmates as any child his age, waiting to find mysterious clothes or toys like many of his peers. Heâd waited and hoped and looked for years, anything to ease the loneliness of the Stark Mansion. Only to find himself at the age of fifteen without a single lost and found object to his name. That had been when he started to doubt, when he stopped looking for items that werenât his and steered away from conversations about soulmates.
Itâs not unheard of to not have a soulmate until adolescence and beyond, but after he hit twenty-one, Tony had concluded that the cosmos hadnât bothered to give him one. That, or his soulmate had died before theyâd had anything to lose besides their life.
He is well past the age where he would have gotten a romantic soulmate bond, but a platonic or familial oneâŠ
Itâs pretty common knowledge that a lot of parents and children share a familial soulmate bond, and itâs not like Tony is the most...celibate...person in the world. Heâs been careful about his fun, but could it have happened? Or was this some random kid who had gotten stuck with Tony Stark as their âshared soulâ by the misfortune of fate?
Tony stares at the lovey in shock while his thoughts race for a long enough amount of time that Pepper irritably rings the doorbell again. Still practically in a trance, Tony opens the door for her on autopilot.
Pepper bustles into the mansion carrying several packages of mail and one of his freshly dry cleaned suits, strands of her vibrant hair escaping the usually tidy bun theyâre usually pinned up in.
âFinally! Iâve been standing out there holding all these boxes for ages! Really, Mr. Stark what in the world did you order thatâs so-?â
âPepâŠâ Tony manages to choke out, the nickname and his tone catching her attention.
His PA puts the mail and dry cleaning on a side table and turns back to him, concern on her face.
âMr. Stark?â she asks.
With a slightly trembling hand he holds the lovey out to her. âI⊠I found this. And a binky a while ago. Iâve got⊠Iâve got a soulmate.â
âOh⊠Mr. Stark-â Pepperâs mouth opens in shock as she takes in the toy, before her eyes crinkle in a smile, âTony, thatâs wonderful.â
âGod look at this thing,â Tony chuckles, and to his slight horror, itâs a bit of a wet sound, âBetween this and the binky, the kid canât be more than half a year, huh?â
âIâd say so.â Pepper says smiling down at the little plush toy.
Tony swallows. âDo you think heâs mine?â
His PA looks back up at him, eyebrow raised slightly. âHe?â
âJust a feeling.â
âA feeling, huh?â Pepper smiles, âWell he is yours. Your soulmate. It doesnât matter if this child is yours biologically, because youâre going to care about them either way right?â
Tony nods, unable to voice any of his vulnerable thoughts. Too many emotions are still swirling inside, crowding his mind.
âBesides I donât think heâs blood related to you,â Pepper tells him.
âHow do you know?â Tony asks.
She gives him a bit of smirk. âJust a feeling.â
Tony gives a little laugh, giving her a grin in return. But eventually he looks back at the toy in his hands and feels it slip off his face. In his bones, he already knows that the bond he and his soulmate will have is going to be a familial extension of a platonic soulmate bond. Or more accurately, a paternal one. And that absolutely scares the shit out of Tony.
âWhatâs wrong?â Pepper questions, peering down at his whitening knuckles.
âEven if heâs not mine by blood, I donât want to be like my dad,â Tony confesses in a rush, âI canât keep the cycle going⊠I-â
âYou wonât,â Pepper cuts him off, âThe fact that youâre worried about that at all is proof enough that you care, and that you want to be better than Howard. So you will be.â Â
Tony doesnât say anything to that, gaze dropping back to the lovey in his hands. He wants to be better than his father, but can he be? Heâs been following in Howard Starkâs promiscuous alcoholic shadow for a long time now. But he owes it to this kid, and Pepper, and hell, even himself to try and be better.
Pepper eventually clears her throat. âWill that be all Mr. Stark?â
Tony gives her a genuine smile, the kind that is reserved only for the few people he trusts and cares for. âThat will be all Ms.Potts.â
***
Peter sits on the couch in his aunt and uncleâs apartment pouting. The adults are standing near the doorway, talking. Sure he loves Aunt May and Uncle Ben, but he loves his Mommy and Daddy more, and theyâve been going on trips so much lately. They just went on a trip a few weeks ago and now theyâre going on another one. And this one is so far away.
âWe should probably head out. Thanks so much for looking after Pete this week,â Peter hears his dad say.
âOf course, we love having Peter,â May tells him.
âDonât go!â Peter jumps up from the couch and tackles his momâs leg.
âItâs not for long sweetheart,â she soothes, brushing his hair back, âDaddy and I have to go to a few boring meetings. Youâll have more fun here with Uncle Ben and Aunt May.â
âBut Iâll miss you!â Peter whines.
âAnd weâll miss you kiddo, but weâll be back before you know it,â his dad says, kneeling down to hug him.
Then his dad picks him up so his mom can hug them too. Peter likes it when they all hug like that, it makes him feel warm and super safe.
âLove you. Bye-bye,â Peter mumbles into the embrace sadly. Â
He knows by now that no amount of begging will get them to stay, but that doesnât stop him from trying at least a little bit every time.
His mom kisses his forehead. âAnd we love you Peter.â
Peterâs parents set him down and hug his aunt and uncle before they step out of the apartment and are gone. Peterâs eyes feel hot, but he doesnât want to cry. Heâs six, so heâs almost big now. Mommy said it was okay to cry no matter how old you are, but most of the other boys at school just make fun of Peter for it.
Aunt May cards her fingers through his hair. âWhy donât you go get settled, sweetie. Then weâll all go to the park so you can play and feed the birds?â
Peter nods, subdued, and shuffles to the small guest room with his backpack and suitcase.
He sniffs back tears while he makes quick work of his suitcase, throwing his clothes haphazardly into the dresser, but takes much more care with his backpack.
Peter unzips it, double checking that all of his prized possessions are there. His dumb inhaler that he has to carry everywhere, check. His GameBoy and the handful of games he has, check. Toebeans, his stuffed snow leopard, check. His three favorite action figures at the moment, check. And⊠Peter panics for a moment before he feels his hand close around cold metal.
With a sigh of relief, Peter pulls the tool from his bag.
The screwdriver is small, the perfect size for Peterâs little hands. Itâs old and its red handle is worn. Uncle Ben told him itâs for putting together small delicate things since itâs way too small for normal sized screws. Daddy said the screwdriver had turned up in Peterâs crib when he was just a few weeks old. He had explained that it belonged to Peterâs soulmate and that they must have lost it.
Peterâs soulmate must usually be good about not losing things though, since Peter hasnât found that much stuff. So far itâs just been things like nuts and bolts or a couple of pretty neckties. Peterâs pretty sure his soulmate must be a grown up, since they never seem to lose fun stuff, like toys. Nedâs soulmate always loses toys, like My Little Pony dolls and plastic dinosaurs. Â
Still Peter keeps all the things he finds, even if theyâre usually kinda boring. Uncle Ben and Daddy always say itâs important to return lost items, and thereâs no way Peter would ever be mean to his soulmate. Especially when holding his soulmate's screwdriver makes him feel better whenever heâs sad. Itâs familiar and it makes him feel safe, like his parentsâ hugs.
Staring down at the screwdriver, Peter wonders what lost stuff his soulmate has from him.
...Maybe theyâve got that bouncy ball he lost two weeks ago? It was a really good one. He hopes they have fun with it.
Still Peter canât wait to meet his soulmate, even if they are old. Mommy told him to be patient, but Peterâs never really been the best at that. Daddy said they would meet when the time was right and he and his soulmate needed each other most. Whatever that means.
âPeter! Come on, letâs hit the park!â His uncle calls.
The boy quickly puts the screwdriver back and zips his bag closed, swinging it onto his shoulders. âComing, Uncle Ben!â
His aunt and uncle lead him from the apartment, his little hand clasped in his uncleâs calloused one.
Uncle Ben gives his hand a squeeze and a gentle smile when Peter looks up at him. âBuck up champ, your parents will be back before you know it.â
âYeah,â Peter smiles and never once that week did he think Uncle Ben would be wrong.
***
Theyâve just finished a meager dinner of mostly tasteless stew, and Tony wants nothing more than to collapse after another day of hard labor. Heâs lost track of how many days heâs been in this godforsaken cave, no longer having any concept of time after being hidden away underground. Since that first week, most days have been the same. Tony and Yinsen desperately trying to craft the instrument of their escape without being caught, all while making their captors believe theyâre cooperating.
It's a terrifyingly fine tightrope theyâre walking. Â
At least heâs finally getting used to the constant pain of the reactor in his chest, something heâs very likely to live with for the rest of his life. However long that may be.
Tony has just stood and turned away from the fire, intending to finally sleep, when he stumbles over something in his exhausted state. He glances down half-heartedly, expecting a rock or a divet in the cave floor only to freeze when he sees it.
Itâs an action figure of some sort. Clearly a superhero of some kind, his outfit is red and white with a helmet that hides his face. Tony thinks heâs flicked passed this show on TV once or twice. Power...Something. Power Riders..? No thatâs not quite it.
Tony picks the toy up, feeling his lip quirk slightly despite himself.
âStark?â Yinsen questions, coming over to look at what heâs holding.
âMy kid...my soulmate,â Tony explains with a sad little huff of laughter at the other manâs raised eyebrow, âThey must have lost this.â
âMy children are the same, always misplacing their things,â Yinsen tells him with a nostalgic smile, âWhat are they like?â
âWellâŠâ Tony heaves out a breath, blinking away the sudden urge to cry, âHeâs a little boy if I had to guess, probably around seven or eight since thatâs how long Iâve been tripping over his toys. He likes action figures and Legos, considering how many he loses, but I donât...really know. I⊠I never got to meet him.â
And itâs true, he hasnât. And god it feels like everythingâs been a waste. He never even got to meet the little kid whoâs stuff heâs been stumbling over for years. And now Tonyâs in a cave held captive by terrorists with shrapnel near his heart, the only thing keeping him alive being the electromagnet in his chest and the knowledge of a missile his captives want him to build.
Yinsen puts a hand on his shoulder, giving it a reassuring squeeze. âYou have not gotten to meet him yet.â
The engineer nods then, his jaw set. âNot yet.â
After that, Tony makes sure to keep the action figure close during his time in the cave with Yinsen. Itâs almost obsessive how many times he checks that itâs still in the same place. But itâs like a little spark of hope in their dark cavern, a tangible reminder that thereâs a life out there for him to return to, if he can just escape this hell.
Tonyâs got to make sure heâs there to give all those toys back to the kid someday, after all.
***
Peter blinks awake sluggishly when May shakes his shoulder. âCome on. Get dressed sweetheart, breakfast is almost done. I know you donât want to, but the two weeks the school let us have is up.â
Right. Heâd been trying so hard not to think about it, he nearly forgot.
âYeah,â he mumbles.
Peter pulls his aching body, sore from tossing and turning, out of bed while rubbing sleep from his eyes. Last night was definitely one of the worst nights heâs had these past two weeks. The teen had spent the first half of it shifting restlessly, unable to sleep, then heâd cried for at least an hour or two before finally succumbing to his exhaustion.
The boy shuffles into his clothes, not even bothering to check what heâs wearing. Moving to the bathroom, Peter cringes at his reflection after he finishes brushing his wild curls. Heâs pale as a ghost, but his eyes are red and watery. Dark shadows sit under them, marks of the past two weeks of mostly sleepless nights.
He looks horrible. Like heâs a zombie or is deathly ill. Thereâs no way people wonât notice. The teen is really not looking forward to all the pitying looks and whispers heâs going to get just from the news heâs sure has gotten around, let alone how he looks like a ghost. Peter really doesnât want to go back to school today...or well ever. Going back to ânormalâ after Ben⊠Well, it just doesnât seem possible.
Unbidden more tears spring to his eyes.
Peter sighs, dropping his gaze back to the sink.
To his surprise an unfamiliar pair of sunglasses are sitting on the porcelain edge. Peter picks them up examining them, already aware that they donât belong to May...or Ben. Theyâre a nice pair of sunglasses from what he can tell. The lenses are a deep red so dark it looks black, the frames a dark burnished metal. Clearly some really expensive name brand that probably costs near the apartmentâs monthly rent.
Impulsively, Peter slips them on and checks out his reflection in the mirror. To his relief, they do a great job of hiding his red rimmed eyes and the dark shadows underneath them, perfect for his first day back to school. And he can admit, although theyâre a smidge big, he does look pretty cool in them.
Peter slides them off and slips them into his hoodie pocket so that May doesnât see. She probably wouldnât approve of him trying to wear them all day. But hopefully his teachers will give him some leeway since theyâve probably all heard what happened.
Worst comes to worst, he can just lie and say he has a migraine or something.
He eats a solemn and slightly charred breakfast with May, sharing a long and tight hug with her before he forces himself to head out. As soon as heâs clear of their building, Peter slips the sunglasses back onto his face.
On the streets, no one gives him a second glance, but it is New York after all and thatâs just the norm. The real test starts when he finally makes it to the front steps of his school. There are some kids milling around outside chatting about their weekends in the few minutes before the first bell. He slips past them easily enough, with only a few brief glances thrown his way.
In the hallway some of the students and teachers do give him lingering looks, but he keeps the glasses on and his head down and the whispers are minimal. When Peter finally makes it to his locker, he breaths out a sigh of relief. The sunglasses do attract a few lingering looks, but no one has commented on his distressed state.
He keeps them on for the rest of the day, sighting a migraine when asked. None of the teachers seem keen to try and force him to take them off, as expected. Peterâs pretty sure itâs just because none of them want to be responsible for making him cry or have a breakdown.
He ends up wearing the sunglasses a few more days that week, on the mornings after rough nights. The sunglasses almost feel like a shield, protecting him from prying eyes. It feels a bit like his soulmate is there, letting Peter hide behind them. They make him feel safe, and like heâs not an open book for the first time since that fatal gunshot rang out.
Eventually, after the rubbed raw pain of Benâs death has faded a bit, the glasses end up tucked away with the little red screwdriver in the box that holds his most precious items.
***
Tony really wants a drink, despite all his promises to Pepper. He really has been trying to lay off since they finally got back together after such a long break. Not to mention heâd gotten black out drunk so many times in the first few weeks after Siberia that the few people left in his life had come together and begged him to stop before he killed himself. Tonyâs a lot older than he was when he went out drinking every night after his parents were killed, and the drinking isnât nearly as gratifying as it was then.
He hates that itâs still a struggle to not seek alcohol out on his own.
Now more than ever, especially after Ultron and the media dubbed âCivil Warâ, Tony wonders if heâs even managed to do any good in the world as Iron Man. More and more it seems like he just makes bigger messes than the ones he tries to clean up. Sure, heâs had his good moments, but they feel like they pale in comparison to all his missteps.
Not to mention how even when itâs a group failure, most of the world is content in letting just him take the fall. Everyone else seems to get off scot-free while Tony and his loved ones are left in the blast radius of the aftermath. Â
The engineer sighs, heading back to his lab after taking a stressful SI call in his office upstairs. FRIDAY opens the door for him without comment and he heads towards the single worktable heâs managed to set up so far in the compound. But then Tony blinks at the backpack thatâs now sitting on top of the letter and dinosaur tech Rogers mailed him.
The bag is dark blue and little worn, something inexpensive thatâs easily bought at big box stores. Feeling a bit excited, almost like heâs opening a present, Tony pulls the first zipper open. This isnât the first backpack his kidâs lost, but it is weird that itâs happened at least four times this year alone.
Inside he finds a handful of pens and pencils, a mostly blank notebook with some pretty high level physics in it, an advanced calculus textbook thatâs seen better days, and a change of clothes. Thereâs no name of course, because the universe hates to âruin the surpriseâ as the saying goes, but it still tells Tony a bit more about the type of person his kid is.
Obviously the kid is incredibly smart, although Tony already knew that from finding the kidâs advanced biochem notebook in the first lost backpack and seeing the sort of stuff he was working on (Some of which seemed to be of the kidâs own initiative and was complex enough that Tony himself had needed to brush up on the subject to decode it).
He also knows that the kid must not come from a super wealthy household going by the cheap bag and worn clothes. Of course he already knew that too. Most of the stuff that the kidâs lost is generally well taken care of, but always inexpensive. That knowledge had certainly gotten Tony to fund a lot more scholarships for advanced school programs around New York City. Not that he knows where the kid is other than somewhere in America, but it still made Tony happy funding the future.
Smiling slightly, Tony puts everything back in the bag and is about to take it to store with the rest of the kidâs stuff when he catches sight of the pin buttons decorating the front. One is a Star Wars one with some nerdy meme on it, but the other one has the Iron Man mask on it. He lets out a surprised and almost wet laugh. Even after all these years he's still the kidâs favorite.
Tony will never forget the first Iron Man drawing heâd found that the kid had done, or the first action figure of himself heâd tripped over in the lab. Tony remembers preening like a peacock and showing the toy off to Pepper, Rhodey, and even Happy for the next week.
Somehow, despite all the shit heâs done, Tony must have done something right to end up as his kidâs hero. Becoming a superhero might not be why he originally set out to be Iron Man, but somewhere along the way he learned that he couldnât just stand by and let people get hurt. Tony may not be as much as a pure hearted superhero as the spider kid, but itâs nice to have a reminder that heâs still got people to live up to.
Speaking of the kid, Peter is eager for sure. Heâs smart as a whip and has a good heart despite all the times the universe has shit on him. And young as he is, the spiderling is using his superpowers with a maturity that most kids his age wouldnât have. That and he did really well in Germany.
Tony looks back at the backpack frowning. Iron Man wonât be around forever, as much as Tony hates to admit it, he is getting old. And with almost all of the Avengers in the wind, he needs to make sure there are still heroes, real heroes, for the world to believe in. Â
Tony nods to himself and pulls up the design for the Iron Spider suit.
***
Peter pulls himself out from under the rubble of the collapsed warehouse, gasping for breath, limbs still shaking. Behind him the rubble shifts and tumbles further and the teen is quick to scramble away from it, coughing at the dust it kicks up. For a moment he just stands there trying to catch his breath and still his shaking.
Holy shit, that just happened. The Vulture dropped an entire building on him and left him to die. Peter can feel the embers of his panic trying to crawl up his throat and reignite. He already knows this incident is gonna be nightmare fuel to rival the ones he has about Benâs death. Just like that night, Peter feels like he lost something of himself, only this time it was lost under the rubble and not in a puddle of blood.
But he thankfully doesnât have time to dwell on it.
Thereâs no telling how far Toomes has gotten while he was trapped under the warehouse. Peter needs to move now if he wants to stop the villain from stealing dangerous Avengers tech. If that stuff gets out on the streets no one in New York City, or maybe even the country would be safe. The thought of what kinds of people Toomes could sell those weapons to is horrifying. Â
People are in danger, and even if Peter messes up or disappoints Mr. Stark again, he canât let anyone get hurt when he has the power to stop it.
So, still trembling slightly, Peter raises his arm and shoots off a web, swinging into the night after the Vulture.
He doesnât give a single thought to his Spider-Man mask, lost and left behind in the debris.
***
Tony is in the Avengers Compound again when he finds it.
Moving all the old Avengers tech to the compound has proven to be a nightmare. Heâs still got the government up his ass after the âCivil Warâ debacle. Not to mention the modified alien weapons on the streets that both the DODC and FBI have been too incompetent to get a handle on, or even find the source of. But heâs still so busy with SI, the Accords, and the move upstate that he doesnât have the time to track the guy properly at the moment.
And this Vulture guy really is below the Avengersâ pay grade like he told Peter. They were never really in the business of taking down arms dealers, not even high tech ones.
Tony sighs. He is starting to feel bad about taking back the kidâs suit. Sure, Peter was being reckless in it, but hadnât Tony done the same in his? And Peter had the excuse of being an actual child. Not to mention sooner or later, the kid is going to remember that his powers donât come from the suit. Heâs going to run into a crime he canât ignore and he wonât have the one thing that keeps him safe.
Tony had been telling the spiderling he didnât want to be like his old man before the ferry shitshow, and what had he done as soon as Peter slipped up? Screamed at him, taken away the suit, and basically told the kid he didnât want to have to deal with him anymore. And before that he had barely interacted with Peter after the whole thing in Germany, and yeah, Tony had some good excuses for that, but it was all still the exact same shit Howard would have done.
As much as Tony doesnât do feelings, maybe he should call the kid up and apologize soon. Itâs already been a few weeks.
Tony has just collapsed onto his desk chair in his workshop and started massaging at the tension headache sitting at the front of his skull when it catches his eye. A strange flash of red on his work table that wasnât there just a moment before. Tony already knows itâs not something of his considering how little heâs been using this lab up until now.
His lip is already twitching up fondly as he reaches for it, wondering what the kid lost this time. He grabs the fabric object and pulls it out from under the stack of blueprints itâs ended up under.
For a moment nothing makes sense.
Heâs holding Spider-Manâs mask.
The first one, from the kidâs onesie suit with the googly-eyed goggles sewn in. Itâs soaking wet and covered in concrete dust. There are also a few smears of darker red that take a moment to register as blood to the engineer. All he can do is stare at it in utter confusion for a few seconds.
Then it suddenly makes so much fucking sense and Tony is so damn stupid. Of course Itâs Peter, of course itâs always been the kid. Of fucking course his soulmate is the superpowered genius orphan with a guilt complex as big as his own. Of course it's the kid who agreed to help fight when Tony needed him the most. It was right in front of his face and heâs an idiot for not realizing that he found his soulmate nearly six months ago.
A soulmate who heâs been foisting off on Happy and refused to grow close to out of paranoid fear. A soulmate whoâs looked up to Tony his whole life despite how shitty of a person Tony is. A soulmate who has obviously gone out in his homemade onesie of a suit and has obviously been wounded recently, if the fresh blood on the mask is anything to go by.
âFRIDAY, call the Forehead of Security,â Tony orders, vaguely realizing that his hands have started to tremble. Â
As soon as the line connects, Tony is speaking before his friend can get a word in. âHappy, whereâs the kid?â
âTony- what?â Happy asks, sounding baffled, âWho? Parker?â
âYes. What other kid do we both know? Where is he?â Tony questions.
âWhy are you asking me? I donât know. You have his number donât you? Or just call his-â Happy cuts himself off, and for a moment Tony thinks the connection dropped until he hears Happy swearing, âShit! Shit!â
âWhat?â the engineer demands.
There's a long moment of silence and Tony thinks he might actually hear Happy gulp. âThe plane. It just went down.â
âOh God, thatâs what heâs doing,â Tony breathes out, heart clenching, âPeterâs there, Happy! Heâs trying to stop it and heâs going to get himself killed!â
âWhat? How do you know? Besides I thought you took his suit?â
âI did! But I found his old Spider-Man mask covered in dirt and blood!â Tony practically shouts into the phone, the fear he feels coming out easier as anger.
Happy is silent for a moment, maybe stunned at the outburst. âTony what are you talking about? Youâre upstate-â
âYou arenât getting it,â Tony cuts him off, feeling panic starting to win over anger, âI just found it in the lab! The lab that Peter has never set foot in! On my work table that was clear about five minutes ago!â
âWhat..? But that means...â thereâs a sharp intake of breath from the other end of the line, âOh God. Shit- Okay. Coney Island thatâs where-â
âIâm on my way,â Tony says, shoving Peterâs mask into his pocket and stepping into a suit, hoping with everything he has that the kid, his kid, is okay.
Then heâs blasting out of the labâs launchpad, streaking through the sky towards the glowing beacon of New York City in the far distance as fast as the suit can take him. He tries to call Peter from his HUD but it goes straight to voicemail and Tony tries not to lose it completely.
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When Tony finds Peter, bleeding, battered, and unconscious on top of the Cyclone coaster he greys out. FRIDAY is feeding him info on the kidâs condition and giving him instructions, but even as Tonyâs body moves to follow her recommendations, itâs like heâs not even there. Or maybe he is but only in flashes, like his brain is skipping. Â
One moment Tonyâs picking the kid up as if heâs made of porcelain and the next heâs shooting off into the air, streaking back towards the compound since he stupidly moved upstate and left Peter without support in the city. It feels like Tony blinks and heâs landing again and Helen and her team are taking Peterâs limp blood covered body from Tonyâs arms. He thinks Pepper calls him, and then Happy.
He has no idea what he says to either of them.
And then, what must be hours later, it feels like Tony finally wakes up in the compoundâs medby, sitting at Peterâs bedside. The kidâs old mask is still bulging out of his pocket. He pulls it out and stares at it for a bit before looking back at his kid, his soulmate, laid out in the narrow bed.
Peter in his hospital scrubs is smaller and paler than Tony has ever seen him against the crisp white sheets. Not that heâs seen much of the kid, a dark part of his thoughts remind him. The kidâs broken ribs and head wound are bandaged, and heâs got an air cast for a wrist fracture. Helenâs got him hooked up to a complicated IV drip of some sort and FRIDAY is keeping careful track of the spiderlingâs vitals on a nearby monitor.
Tony doesnât remember too much of what Helen said about Peterâs injuries, other than they were somewhat severe and heâd lost a good bit of blood, but they thankfully hadnât had to operate. Although he remembers there had been a fair amount of stitches needing to be done on the kidâs torso. That and something about having to give him an insane amount of pain meds to even touch his metabolism.
Peter shivers in his sleep and Tony hesitates for a moment before pulling the blankets up higher and tucking the teen in. After a few minutes the shivering stops, and tentatively Tony takes one of Peterâs hands in his. The kidâs hand is cold and a bit clammy in his, but Tony doesnât mind. His curls are adorably wild and the engineer has to resist the urge to brush them out of Peterâs face. Â
Tony doesnât know how long he sits there holding his soulmate's hand, going over in his head again and again what he could possibly say to the kid, before he feels Peter grip his hand back weakly.
âFinally back with us, Pete?â Tony asks with a softness he didnât know he possessed when the spider kidâs eyes start to slit open.
âMisâr Sâark?â the teen slurs still half asleep.
Tony manages a weak grin. âThe one and only.â
âWhaâ are you doinâ here?â Peter mumbles squinting his eyes open a bit more.
Tony squeezes the kidâs hand. âDidnât want you to wake up alone and freak out.â
The physical contact and words seem to get through some of Peterâs drowsiness and confusion because he blinks rapidly then snatches his hand out of Tonyâs own. The engineer tries not to feel stung by the action.
âOh my god, your plane! Toomes! Is he okay, is anyone hurt?!â the teen asks frantically.
Tony is quick to stop the spiderling from trying to sit up. âThe only one hurt was you, kid.â
Peter slumps back against the pillows. âThatâs good.â
âItâs really not. Peter, you could have-â Tony cuts himself off and breathes out a long sigh, not wanting to lecture the kid while heâs still recovering.
The kid is giving him a wary look, like heâs waiting for Tony to lose it on him again. It makes him feel like even more of a piece of shit. So he does the only thing he can think of and holds the Spider-Man mask out to the kid.
âI found this,â Tony says abruptly.
âOh. At the old warehouse?â Peter asks, taking it from him without meeting his eyes. Â
âNo. In my lab.â
The spider kidâs head pops up at that, confused. âBut, Mr. Stark, Iâve never been to your lab. And I had it for part of the fight with Toomes.â
Tony nods and clears his throat. Well, now or never. âI know. But you did lose it.â
Peterâs brow furrows in confusion. Tony sees it dawn on the kid after a few seconds, his eyes going wide and shooting up to stare at the engineer. Â
âYou⊠So youâreâŠâ the kid stutters.
âYeah, kid. Iâm your soulmate and Iâve got several boxes full of old toys, clothes, and backpacks that Iâve been holding onto for a long time,â Tony tells the boy feeling a little choked up.
Peter doesnât say anything, heâs still staring at Tony looking completely gobsmacked. When the silence continues to stretch on, the engineer feels his insides squirm with insecurity. After everything thatâs happened, maybe Peter doesnât want to deal with such a shitty soulmate. Tonyâs not sure heâd be too forgiving after the last few months of no contact and a near deathmatch with a supervillain that probably could have been avoided. Â
When Peter still doesnât manage to get a word out, Tony lets himself deflate. âI donât blame you if you donât want anything to do with me anymore. I know Iâm not anyoneâs first choice of wellâŠanything generally, and you deserve a better soulmate and mentor... But give me another chance, Pete. It wonât be perfect at first but let me try and fix-â
âThatâs-!â Peter bursts in suddenly, cutting him off, âThatâs not true Mr. Stark. The whole ânot anyoneâs first choiceâ crap, I mean. You were...one of my first heroes and- and you still are. Both in a science and superhero sense. And yeah you, uh, do really suck at the wholeâŠemotional availability thing, but you just need practice. Probably.â
Tony finds his mouth twitching up, especially when Peterâs ears go red at the last bit. The kid is endearingly honest and awkward.
âWhat I mean is, that Iâve been trying to follow your footsteps for a long time now. And I forgive you for the wholeâŠghosting me thing, and I donât blame you for taking the suit after the ferry. And I want to be your soulmate if youâll still have me after I crashed your plan, and-â Peter cuts off his own rambling and looks down, still flushed with embarrassment, âSorry, Iâm totally still freaking out that itâs you.â
âYou and me both kid, I donât know what I did to deserve compassionate, responsible, superhero Peter Parker as my soulmate,â Tony tells the kid, and immediately shoots for a joke to cut away from the vulnerability of that statement, Â âEven if youâre a little shit that gives me grey hair, especially with all the all the times Iâve nearly broken my neck tripping on your stuff over the years.â
âWell, I donât know what I did to deserve Tony freaking Stark as my soulmate, even if he only loses boring crap like ties and metal scraps. Seriously, Nedâs soulmate lost Nintendo DS games and all I had to show from mine were socks or nuts and bolts. You made me so lame, Mr. Stark,â Peter whines dramatically, a spark of mischief in his eyes.
âOh yeah, and it doesnât ruin my very polished image as Tony Stark, billionaire genius, to trip over your Legos while out in public?â the engineer teases back, ruffling the kidâs hair.
Peter gives him a big innocent grin in response like the smartass he is and Tony just rolls his eyes.
The engineer leans forward and opens his arms in invitation. âCâmere spiderling.â
Peter lights up and gingerly leans into the embrace, careful of his injured ribs. He lets out a soft sigh of contentment and Tony wonât admit to anyone that the sound makes him melt a bit.
âIs this actually a hug this time, since thereâs no door to get?â Peter questions with false innocence after a few moments.
Tony snorts. âYes, you little shit itâs a hug.â
Peterâs laughter in his ear is the best thing heâs heard in months.
âSo, when do we get to return each otherâs stuff? Can we do it now?â the spider kid asks when they break apart, excitement shining in his eyes even as they began to droop with fatigue.
âNot till youâre healed, first of all. And weâll have to take a day to do it. Itâs a lot to go through. Youâve lost a lot of stuff over the years, kiddo,â Tony tells him, helping to settle the drowsy kid back under the bedsheets.
âWeâve got time,â Peter yawns, âBesides, if I didnât lose anything, then how would you ever know to come find me and give it back Mr. Stark?â
Smiling fondly Tony finally gives in and starts combing his fingers through Peterâs hair. âIâll always come find you, Pete.â
The spiderling gives a happy sleepy murmur in response before he slips back into sleep.
***
A few weeks later, after May had found out about everything, superhero alter egos and soulmates included, Peter is finally ungrounded enough to be allowed to go to the compound one weekend. May and Tony had talked a lot in the last few weeks and she had come to terms with everything. Well, after a lot of yelling at least. But now she was glad that Peter had another adult to care for him and watch over him.
Peter wasnât just teasing about his not losing much over the years. Heâs only brought over about three cardboard boxes worth of forgotten items. Itâs a stark contrast to the eight or so big plastic bins that Mr. Stark keeps Peterâs things in. To be fair, he knows Mr. Stark has an eidetic memory which makes it pretty easy to keep track of most of his things, while Peter seems to be a bit more of a disorganized genius.
Mr. Stark starts in on his collection first, cooing over Peterâs baby toys and books while the teen sputters in embarrassment. In retaliation Peter just shoves the entire box of screws, nuts, bolts, and other assorted metal bits of various sizes at his mentor with a huff. Even Mr. Stark admits that it would be pretty boring stuff for a kid to find. Although Peter does confess to using a few spare parts in his refurbishing of tech heâd found in the trash. Â
âOh wow, I always wondered what happened to my red Power Ranger!â Peter exclaims when he spots the bright flash of red and white in the box of toys Mr. Stark has just opened, âI was so sure one of the other kids at school had stolen it.â
âI found that guy when I was in Afghanistan,â his mentor divulges quietly.
Peter freezes half way through grabbing the toy. âWhat?â
âWhen⊠When I was kidnapped, I tripped over it in the cave the Ten Rings kept us in. I carried him around with me the whole time after that. That little dude went through the ringer with me then,â Mr. Stark explains ruefully, his eyes locked on the battered action figure.
The expression on Mr. Starkâs face is hard to decipher. Itâs sad and haunted, but thereâs also some deep fondness as he looks at the plastic Power Ranger. Obviously there are a lot of heavy memories tied to the toy, good and bad.
âYou should keep it, Mr. Stark,â Peter says firmly, gently pushing the action figure back into his mentorâs hand. Â
Surprised, Mr. Stark seems to shake himself out of whatever stupor heâd fallen into. âYou sure, kid?â
âYeah.â
Mr. Stark doesnât have to say anything, but Peter can tell. His Red Ranger means a lot to his mentor. Itâs not something Peter wants to take away from him. Mr. Stark gives him a warm smile, his genuine one that he saves only for a select few people, and sits the toy on his work desk in a place of honor.
âAre you good to keep going?â Peter asks uncertainly.
Heâs still not sure where the lines are with his mentor yet. Theyâve slowly been getting closer over video calls and texts while Peter was grounded, but theyâre both still waffling in that awkward phase when you first start actually getting to know someone.
Mr. Stark gives him a soft smile. âYeah, kid. Iâm fine.â
A bit later, after theyâve gone through and reminisced over all Peterâs baby stuff, Tony pulls a big binder out of one of the bins.
âI loved finding your drawings,â his mentor admits, âRhodey, well youâd know him as War Machine, hung some up on the fridge as a joke when I showed them to him. And then, before I knew it, I was putting them up there myself.â
âYou did what?!â Peter gapped, âMr. Stark!â
âOh come on kid, your artwork was adorable. Especially after the Battle of New York and I started finding a lot more Iron Man drawings. I even had a few of them framed,â his mentor grins.
Peter gives him a flat look. âYou did not.â
In response, Mr. Stark  just raises an eyebrow and pulls a framed colored pencil drawing of Iron Man out of one of the bins. Itâs not a bad likeness, done on lined notebook paper depicting Iron Man blasting a giant monster out of the sky. Peter vaguely remembers having drawn the thing when he was bored during math class a few years ago. The teacher confiscated it when she saw he wasnât paying attention and Peter never did get it back.
The teen hides his red face behind his hands. âOh my God.â
Iron Man literally put Peterâs childhood artwork up on his fridge like a proud dad. He doesnât know if he wants to preen or hide from knowing that. Â
Mr. Stark just laughs and claps him on the shoulder. âDonât be like that, kid. Come on, I canât not be proud of my kidâs artwork.â
Peter feels himself turning an even deeper shade of red. His kid.
Stuttering out something incomprehensible, Peter reaches for one of his boxes of Mr. Starkâs lost items. Still chuckling, his mentor leans over his shoulder to see what heâs digging through. He makes a surprised noise and reaches down to extract something from the collection.
Itâs a very familiar small red screwdriver.
âWell, what do you know? Thatâs my favorite screwdriver from when I was in MIT. I put DUM-Eâs circuit board together with that.â
âSeriously? Thatâs so cool, Mr. Stark. My parents told me they found it in my crib when I was just a few months old. I used to take it everywhere with me when I was little,â Peter recounts with a small smile.
Mr. Starkâs eyes crinkle, a subtle upward quirk to his lips. âI can see you took good care of it.â
âIâm glad I could finally bring it back to you,â Peter tells him earnestly.
Heâll miss the screwdriver a lot more than he wants to admit, but itâs something so important to Mr. Stark. This is the tool his mentor but his first AI together with. He deserves to finally have it back.
âKeep it, Pete,â Mr. Stark places the tool in Peterâs hand and foldâs the teens fingers over it, âYouâve obviously given it a good home.â
Peter looks up at him. âAre you sure?â
âIt couldnât be in safer hands, kid,â his mentor affirms.
Peter beams in response. Heâd been so impatient to meet his soulmate when he was a kid, but now he knows it was well worth the wait. And thereâs no one heâd want more as his mentor, father figure, or soulmate than Tony Stark.
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BNHA Soulmate AU Week Day 1: The Ticking Clock
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Bakugou Katsuki x Reader
Word Count: 2,726 (haha oops)
A/N: Here we are, kicking off the first day of my BNHA Soulmate AU Week!! Todayâs fic is a timer fic, where a timer on your wrist counts down the time until you meet your soulmate! Poor reader has a clock that has been on zero since before they can remember, meaning they may never know who their soulmate is. I had a crap ton of fun writing this (a lot more than I probably should have haha), and I hope you guys like it! Remember, Iâm taking soulmate au headcannon and imagine requests for BNHA characters in addition to the 6 other fics I have planned this week! So stay tuned, tomorrow we have a red string au with Tamaki coming! If you want to be added to this weekâs taglist, or have a request, let me know! Thanks for reading! :))
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In a world filled with hope, you had learned to give up on love a long time ago.
While the rest of the world sat on the edge of their seat, waiting for the timer to hit zero, ready for the rest of their lives to begin with the one they were meant to love, you tried your best to ignore the clock on your wrist.
For while Mina had confided in you that hers was down to under a year, and Momo complained that hers was still just under a decade, you could never relate to the anticipation of the clock running out, of the first meeting of your one true love. Cause yours, for as long as you could remember, had always been zero.
As you got ready to hang out with your friends, changing from your school clothes to something casual, you tied a little scarf around your right wrist.
Most people covered their timers, no matter how exciting they found them. At school, the long cuffs of your uniforms covered up the ticking clock, but on your own time, you could get creative. You knew others who wore sweatbands or bandanas, hair ties or bracelets. But tonight, the small scarf covered your greatest disappointment pretty well.
By the time you were old enough to understand the concept of soulmates, you asked your parents who yours was, if you had already met them. Since you couldnât remember, they should have then, and for many years of your life, you found yourself blaming them for denying you this part of your life.
But they had been just as upset as you. They had tried so hard, they told you. Tried to keep an eye out for you when the timer was getting close to running out. According to their story, they had taken you to the park, and about three minutes were left when you ran off, slipping out of their grasp.
When ten minutes passed, they were so freaked they nearly called the police. But you came running back to them, arms open wide, and no matter how much they pestered you, they couldnât figure out where you had gone, or who you had happened to meet.
For a few years, you tried your hardest to remember that day in the park, but you didnât even remember a park, much less a person you met there. You had been two, three maybe, and you simply couldnât form the memories.
And you had theories, ones that involved a hopeful future, a future where you actually found the person you were meant to be with. Your two best friends, Midoriya and Bakugou, you had met before you could remember, and when you were younger, before you lost all hope, you liked to fantasize about finding out it had been one of them all along.
But you knew better than that, and like everyone else, their marks were always hidden when you saw them. Soulmates were never something you guys talked about, and by the time you were off to middle school, you learned to give up on that fantasy.
Your soulmate was out there somewhere, but youâd never know who they were.
Fixing your hair quickly, you rushed out the door. You were meeting Bakugou in his room, and he hated it when you were late.
As you waltzed into his dormitory, opening the door without knocking, you could tell by the look on his face that you hadnât made it in time.
âHavenât I told you to never be late when you make plans with me?â Bakugou growled, his body nearly sparking with anger.
âOops,â you said, not sounding apologetic at all, and hopped onto his bed. âExcited for movie night?â
Bakugou rolled his eyes, crossing his arms over his chest stubbornly. âYouâre lucky youâre getting a movie night at all.â
âIâm going to take that as a yes.â You grinned. âWould it be okay if I could invite Izu?â you asked, putting on your best puppy dog face. You pouted your lip as he looked at you, scowling at your expression.
âIâm not watching a movie with that nerd,â Bakugou scoffed, making you pout harder.
âPlease?â
âTch.â You could tell he was wavering, but by the dangerous look on his face, you could tell he wasnât very happy about it.
âYay!â you exclaimed before he even said yes. âI think heâs going to bring Uraraka too!â You jumped on the boy, hugging him tightly.
He shoved you off of him roughly, and you fell back on the bed. âYou already invited them!â
You giggled sheepishly. âBut you still agreed to it, so everyone wins either way!â
Bakugou rubbed his forehead, clearly frustrated. âFine, but Iâm inviting Kirishima.â
âYay! A party!â
âItâs not a party, dumbass,â he said, but he still reached out for your hands, helping you up from the bed.
âIâll go pick out a movie!â You went over to a shelf in Bakugouâs room, where he kept a collection of some of his favorite DVDs.
As you looked through the movies, you kept stealing a glance in Bakugouâs direction. He was getting the TV ready, getting blankets and pillows out for the others that were coming to join you. You knew he didnât like hugs very much, and you hoped you hadnât upset him by hugging him earlier. But despite how often Bakugou reminded you verbally how your touches made him angry, he always had let you hug him, squeeze his arm, or rest your head on his shoulder.
You never really were an overly touchy person, and it wasnât common to find people who werenât soulmates hugging each other or being overly affectionate, so you never really knew why you had been with Bakugou. When you were around your other friends, you tried to hold back, though, worried theyâd find your friendly affection to be inappropriate.
âOi!â the boy you were thinking about suddenly shouted, breaking you out of your thoughts. âDonât you have a job to do? Quit staring!â
Your cheeks heating up in embarrassment, you turned back to the DVDs, refusing to say anything.
Luckily, there was a knock at the door just then, and Bakugou left to go let the others in. Izuku, Uraraka, and Kirishima came into the room, each giving you a cheerful wave as they settled in. You quickly fished out one of the films on the shelf and leapt up to welcome them.
As you handed your pick to Bakugou, he gave the smallest of smiles in approval, causing your heart to leap in your chest.
âHi Izu! Uraraka, Kirishima!â you greeted, smiling brightly. The others smiled in return, the smallest sending you the biggest grin and a little wave of his own. When you noticed his arm was bandaged, you poked it with curiosity. âIzuku, what did you do to your arm?â
Deku scratched the back of his neck sheepishly. âI broke it again during training.â
You sighed, but had no words for your tiny friend. You knew nothing you could say would stop it from happening again at the next training session, and then again at the one after that. (Trust me, you had tried. Often).
After Bakugou chastised Deku for hurting himself (in his own, heartwarming violent way), everyone settled into their positions for movie watching. You found yourself squished between Bakugou and Kirishima on the bed, with your backs against the far wall, while Izuku and Uraraka shared a blanket on the floor, their backs resting on the side of Bakugouâs bed, just below your feet.
During the movie, Bakugouâs eyes were glued on the screen. You had made a good choice, and you could tell by the peaceful expression on his face (one that was all too rare) that your friend was enjoying himself.
You, on the other hand, couldnât focus on the movie in front of you. You spent too much time thinking about the boy beside you. And when, about halfway through the movie, Kirishimaâs bandana around his wrist shifted, and you could see the clock ticking down, you lost any hope of concentration.
Cause no matter how long you had spent knowing there was no hope, it hurt so bad to be reminded of it, especially when Bakugouâs shoulder was glued to yours, the warmth of his arm comforting, but a constant reminder of what you would never have.
No matter how much you knew you should move away, you couldnât bring yourself to, and instead, leaned into his touch even more. He was so warm, and for once he was still, andâŠ
~
You woke to someone poking your face. âHey,â you mumbled, struggling to open your eyes to what was around you.
When you did, you realized you were still in Bakugouâs room, which was still empty, except for the blond boy, whose shoulder you were currently rested on.
âSorry,â you said, laughing lightly as you lifted your head. âDid everyone leave already?â you asked, moving away from your friend and laying your head down on one of the pillows, stretching your legs out the length of the bed. You yawned, closing your eyes again, giving in to the struggle of trying to keep them open.
âWhat, did you hate the movie or something?â he grumbled. You could feel his eyes on you even with yours closed.
âIâm sorry Suki,â you said softly. âIâm just tired.â You yawned again, proving your point.
âIf youâre tired, you need to go back to your dorm.â He shoved your arm, but not hard enough to send you tumbling over the edge of the bed. You were grateful; it wasnât as if he hadnât done that before.
âBut Iâm too tired,â you whined, snuggling even more into his pillow. When Bakugou let out a defeated sigh, you knew he wasnât moving you anytime soon. He plopped himself down in the bed too, about a foot away from you, facing away from you at the wall his bed was up against.
âIf you keep me awakeâŠâ he warned, and you laughed in response.
A few more moments, and you realized you were now wide awake, staring at the ceiling as you listened to the breathing of your friend beside you. You thought he might have fallen asleep, but then you heard a heavy sigh next to you.
âSuki?â you said softly, poking his back lightly as you turned to face him. But he didnât turn around.
âI didnât want to watch a movie tonight with all those extras,â he grumbled.
You giggled softly. âTheyâre not extras. Theyâre our friends.â
âI wanted to watch a movie tonight with you.â
Your smile faded, and you pulled your hand away from his back. He was still facing the wall, and you desperately wanted to see his face, to see what he was thinking right now. âKat-â
âBut youâre not my soulmate.â
And in that moment you knew what he felt about you, and he knew that you felt the same way. But there was nothing you could do about it, the frozen clock on your wrist and the ticking clock on his proof of that. His words were permanent, and you realized then that any fantasy you had ever dreamed of was simply that. A fantasy. He was not your soulmate.
âItâs not fair,â you choked, clutching the back of his shirt as you rested your forehead on his back. You knew you would never have anything like this, and the thought that one day, he would find his true soulmate and heâd leave you behind, alone to deal with the fact that you would never have one of your own, left you trembling against him. âItâs not fair.â
You laid like that until you fell asleep, you sobbing against his back and him using all of the power within him not to turn around and pull you into his arms.
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When you woke up, you couldnât move.
You wiggled a bit, but you were locked tightly in place by a pair of arms that were most certainly not your own. Your eyes opened wide as you realized who you were snuggled up against, your head on his chest, his arms wrapped around you, and your legs tangled together at the end of the bed.
âKatsuki?â you asked, lifting your head to look up at your friendâs face just above you. Your struggling had woken him up, and he was blinking his eyes as he noticed your position on the bed.
He groaned when he met your eyes, rolling over as he attempted to untangle himself from you. He was still tired, and you guessed that was why he was groaning instead of yelling, but you were happy about it all the same.
You laid your back down on the bed as he pulled his arm out from under you, trying to calm your racing heart. Your cheeks were on fire, and as you finally found the courage to sit up, you couldnât look your friend in the eyes.
Instead, you looked down at his hands. But his right arm, which he had just pulled out from under you, was missing something you had never seen Bakugou without. His bracelet, his leather band he never went without.
It was a cruel trick, to show you your friendâs tattoo for the first time after you had spent the night cuddling and admitting your feelings. Except, as you read the tattoo, your heart stopped beating in your chest.
0 years, 0 days, 0 hours, 0 minutes, 0 seconds
âKatsuki!â you gasped, grabbing his wrist. âYour timer!â
But Bakugou yanked his hand from your grasp roughly. âYou donât need to remind me!â he yelled, making you realize that he wasnât too tired to scream. He shoved you away as you reached out again, and sent you nearly off the bed.
âBut-â
âWhat happened last night was nothing,â he said, already shutting down. âIâll never know my soulmate, and youâll go and find yours and none of this will matter. Just leave me alone, already! It hurts enough to think Iâll never get what everyone else has. I donât need to be thinking about the fact that you belong to someone else!â
âKatsuki, look!â you finally yelled back, untying your scarf and shoving your wrist in his face. He froze as he saw the frozen timer on your wrist, identical to his.
âWhat?â he breathed, his own hand trembling as he looked again at his wrist.
âI was too young to remember my timer running out,â you told him. âI met my soulmate when I was a baby, Iâd always thought it was someone Iâd never knowâŠâ you trailed off, looking up at him, meeting his crimson eyes.
But Bakugou had no words, and he stared at you in shock as you realized that you had never had to look far for the person you were meant to spend your life with. You were looking right at him, and no fantasy could compare to the way your heart soared at the thought.
He was suddenly on you, latching his lips to yours frantically, his arms secured around your waist. Before you toppled backwards off the edge, he leaned back, pulling you with him by the hips, until you were on top of him, his back leaning against the bed.
You sighed into the kiss, tears of relief streaming down your face and onto Bakugouâs beneath you. Your hands were on his face, and threaded in his hair, and his were wrapping tighter around your back, pulling you as close as he could.
The kiss was everything, every hope you each had spent years locking away. And when you finally broke for air, you buried your face in his neck, hugging him as tight as you could manage. His arms squeeze you as he held you on top of him, and you let yourself sob freely into his neck.
âWhy the hell are you crying?â he asked, peppering kisses on your hair, your ear, your shoulder.
You pulled up, looking down on him with a smile on your face. âIâm just so happy.â You have no idea, you almost said, but as Bakugou gave you a smile of his own, reaching up to give you one more peck, you knew he did, one hundred percent. âIâm just so happy itâs you.â
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Unbidden - Act 2, chapter 1
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Content warnings: sex work mention, one noncon kiss, minor noncon touch (suggestive but not sexual)
Morgan was deeply uncomfortable. The caravan ride had been entertaining, at least for him. Cain was delighted to have an attentive audience, and after divulging all he knew about the events currently unfolding - Diablo's corruption and influence spreading, the dark wanderer last seen heading east and his possible motives - he had expounded at length on his theories about the forces of Heaven and Hell and what moves they might make next. He also shared tales of the time he'd spent in the desert cities in his younger days, and anything else that happened across his mind. It seemed he had an unlimited capacity for storytelling. Morgan liked it, content to absorb as much knowledge as he could.
However, once they'd reached their destination, they had been almost immediately ushered to the palace by a taciturn guard armed with a very sturdy-looking spear. Cain had already slipped away, ostensibly in pursuit of an old acquaintance, but both Blaise and Morgan found themselves visiting the sultan unexpectedly.
Upon their arrival, the man, who introduced himself as Jerhyn, had actually been quite friendly. He had somehow heard about their defeat of Andariel and was eager to pay for their assistance with problems that had arisen in his city. The mercenary guild was struggling to maintain their ranks in the face of increasing demonic activity. Blaise had agreed to join them readily; working together with a group to combat monsters and demons was well within her comfort zone. Morgan was trying to delicately express his preference to work alone, but the sultan was being insistent and it was proving difficult to argue.
The problem he was experiencing was rooted in the attack the harem guild had sustained weeks earlier, prompting Jerhyn to offer the members shelter within his spacious palace. Priests of Rathma had no particular rules with regards to celibacy, but surrounded as he was now by women and men in various states of undress, Morgan found himself wishing they did. He'd never managed to grasp the allure of intimate relations. He was aware of it as a possible motivation for the actions of others - there was a long list of those - but he'd resigned himself to simply not understanding it. The guild members flocked around Jerhyn, all flashing jewels and rustling silks. It was impossible to look at the man without seeing an astonishing amount of bare flesh. Of course Morgan was familiar with the human body, had helped with preparations for some of the more involved burial rites, but this was different. It felt like an invasion of privacy, despite the fact that the display was clearly intentional. His discomfort was making it difficult to negotiate.
Blaise, on the other hand, seemed to be enjoying herself, gazing around with frank admiration. When Jerhyn finally relented, allowing them until the morning to come to a final decision, she grinned wolfishly.
"Does that mean we get to spend the night here?"
Jerhyn smiled indulgently. "Of course, if you wish it. You may stay as long as you like. Any of the companions here can show you to the guest chambers. Please, enjoy yourselves."
Morgan stood and bowed politely before turning to leave. A heavy hand came down on his shoulder.
"Where do you think you're going?" Blaise hissed next to his ear.
"To find an inn," he whispered back. Her grip tightened and he fought the urge to pry her fingers off of him. It would not be wise to make a scene so soon after their introduction, he reminded himself. No matter that he was already uncomfortable to start with, and it was only getting worse.
"You know it's incredibly rude to turn down an invitation like this, right," she pointed out. He... yes, he did know that, now that he thought about it. The overwhelming desire to be anywhere else was impeding his ability to remember all the rules of social interaction. He did not outwardly protest as Blaise steered him back toward the crowd of concubines. "Have a little fun for once," she said at a more normal volume, pushing him into the waiting embrace of a pale, slender young woman before turning away to mingle.
"Nice to meet you, sweetheart," the woman purred, running her hand down his chest. He tried not to shrink away from the contact. "Let me show you to your room. Don't worry, you don't have to be shy with me." She flashed him a dazzling smile.
"Thank you," he managed. She took him by the hand and led him down a staircase and up a corridor while he alternated between looking at his feet and looking at the ceilings. They appeared to be intricately painted tiles, but the details were lost on him.
Morgan heaved a small sigh of relief when she stepped into a room, beckoning him to follow with a wink. Finally, a respite. He opened his mouth to thank her for her guidance, but she muffled him with a kiss, pressing him into the doorway. He froze for a long, panicked second, torn between the desire to push her away and the lack of any adequately clothed spot on her body to push against. As she raised her arms to embrace him, that did it. He reached up to shove against her shoulder, leaning away.
"What are you doing?" he gasped.
"Showing you a good time, sweetie." He was not having a good time. She went to lean in again and he wriggled free, ducking under her arm and backing away into the room.
"Please, don't." He kept his hand raised to ward her off. She pouted.
"What, you don't like me?"
Not especially. The invasion into his personal space had been unexpected and unwelcome. "I'm sure you're... quite lovely," he said haltingly - it was more of a guess than a lie - "but I'm not... interested in... that." He gestured vaguely, hoping to somehow encapsulate the concept of physical intimacy.
A look of understanding dawned on her face, to Morgan's relief. "Oh. Oh! Sorry about that. I can usually guess. Your friend seemed pretty sure down there, doesn't she know...? Oh well, just sit tight, I'll get out of your hair." She flashed him that bright smile again as she left.
Morgan sat wearily on the edge of the bed. New places were exhausting, and he still had to figure out how to convince the sultan that he would gladly help the mercenaries as long as he was permitted to engage with them as little as possible. How best to frame it? He tested a few different scenarios in his head, starting to build a script from the pieces that seemed most compelling. It was laborious enough that he didn't notice the figure at the entrance to the room until it spoke.
"Not a lot of people turn down Meera's company. Perhaps I'll be a little more to your liking."
"Please, I just - um." He'd started to answer before looking up, and found himself wholly unprepared for the vision that greeted him. The most breathtakingly beautiful person he'd ever seen was leaning casually against the doorway. He smiled at Morgan, a flash of pearly teeth bright against the deep umber of his skin, and moved in to perch on the edge of the bed beside him.
"My name is Jemali. What should I call you?" He laid a delicate hand on Morgan's thigh. That broke the spell. Why did these people insist on so much physical contact?
"Morgan," he said, sliding away from the other man. "I don't like being touched," he added.
"You say that," Jemali smiled, edging closer, "but you've never been touched by me. I'd remember a face as handsome as yours." He reached out to caress Morgan's cheek, but he ducked away from the contact, standing and backing away.
"I don't like being lied to, either." The flattery was over the top. A particularly kind and tactful person might go so far as to describe him as distinctive, but that was just a polite way to skirt around the issue. He was ugly. That was an objective fact. There was no point in trying to disguise or deny it.
"Morgan, honey, I'm not - look, I think we got off on the wrong foot here. Let's start over." He patted the bed next to him. Morgan did not move. Jemali sighed. "At least meet me halfway here. I'm trying to please you. If you don't want Meera and you don't want me, what do you want?"
"To rest after a long journey." His patience was wearing thin and he didn't want any sort of company, no matter how lovely they might be to look at. "I just want to be alone."
Jemali arched an eyebrow. "You have a free shot with the finest concubines money can buy, and you don't want to take it?"
"I do not."
"You a eunuch or something?' He cast an appraising glance at Morgan's trousers.
"No."
"Well, now you have me curious." He sprawled across the bed, stretching long limbs to claim the space. "What possible reason could you have to turn both of us down like this? We aren't used to the sting of rejection, you know." He pouted.
"Is it not enough-" he closed his eyes briefly. Irritation was a loss of control, a failure to adhere to the principles that guided him. Plus, raising his voice was starting to hurt his throat. He took a calming breath and tried again. "I don't desire anyone's company. Please just accept that."
"Fine. You don't have to tell me." Jemali rolled over onto his stomach, propping his face up on his hands. "Akarat knows I could use a break anyway. So tell me about yourself, Morgan. Or don't you like talking, either?"
"Not really."
Jemali rolled his eyes. "Of course not. Just my luck, too. Stoic adventurer types are usually right up my alley, but you're going to be a tough nut to crack. I can tell. Don't-" he held up one finger to cut off Morgan's next words before they'd left his mouth, "- don't ask me to leave, because I will, but nobody's going to believe we've finished so quickly. And we're on orders from the sultan to see to you and your friend, so that means I'll have to send in someone else and you'll have to go through this all over again. So just let me sit here for... oh, an hour or so, and then we can both be on our merry ways."
"Fine."
Morgan seated himself in a plush chair opposite the bed, since the other man seemed to be making himself comfortable and he wanted to stay out of his reach. The following silence lasted for nearly a minute before Jemali's voice jolted Morgan out of his thoughts.
"So you must be some sort of wizard." Jemali was studying him, head tilted in what must have been a practiced pose. It was impossible for a person to look so thoroughly statuesque by chance. "You don't have the build to be a fighter. Are you any good? I mean, you must be, or else you wouldn't be here enjoying my company." He stretched languorously. Was he even capable of being still? "Oh, what a story! A strong, silent sorcerer, come to protect us from the clutches of foul demons! This could have been almost romantic, you know. What a waste." He splayed long fingers dramatically across his bare chest, casting his eyes up toward the ceiling.
Ah, yes, the demons. Perhaps he could get some useful information out of this encounter. "Were you there?"
"Was I there when - oh, you want to talk about that." Jemali hugged one knee to his chest, running the edge of a painted fingernail along his bottom lip. "No. No, I was lucky enough to be on a house call. Lost some friends, though." So he could be still after all. Morgan winced. Of course this lively individual had been friends with the victims. Of course the memories would be painful. He hadn't meant to distress him, even though he'd just been hoping for some peace and quiet.
"I'm sorry for your loss," he offered. The other man's lips quirked upward.
"Thanks, honey. That's nice of you to say." He gave a small sigh. "You want to know what you're up against, huh?"
"If I can."
"Smart. Now, we don't make a habit of judging our clientele, but everyone agrees there was a suspicious character who came through just beforehand. Refused to take off his cloak or even pull down his hood. Didn't want anything, just asked a lot of questions and left. Really strange. The demons showed up a few hours later."
Morgan leaned forward. That sounded like it could have been the dark wanderer Cain had described. "Do you know what he asked?"
Jemali shrugged. "Something about old myths, some sort of tomb or something. I don't know."
That would be enough to start with. He could question the sultan in the morning and go from there. Hunting for information was easy enough to justify as an individual task. If the wanderer was looking for something old, that might give him occasion to scour the city archives for information, a pleasantly solitary task. It could also be a justification for working with Deckard Cain, who clearly had some familiarity with the area. The scholar was a useful resource, he reminded himself. It was just a bonus that he liked the old man's company. Things were starting to come together.
Morgan leaned back, satisfied. The action made the collection of small pouches on his belt dig uncomfortably into his side, pushed out of place by the plush stuffing of the chair. He stood to remove them, but of course nothing could go without comment.
"What's all that?"
He considered his options. Ignoring the question seemed unlikely to work, given Jemali's persistence. A vague answer would just lead to more questions, and he didn't particularly want to get into the details of his profession. It might solve the pressing issue of privacy for the moment, but word would inevitably spread, and that could hinder his effectiveness with the sultan. Or get him expelled from the city, depending on the citizens' mood. It wouldn't be the first time. Might as well give a brief explanation.
"Potions. Ingredients for potions. Dried foods. Trinkets." He pointed at each pouch as he named its contents.
Jemali's face lit up. "What kind of trinkets? Like jewels? Oh, can I look at them?"
They were mainly jewellery. Sometimes a skeleton rose with some trappings of its former life still intact - clothes, weapons, baubles. At some point Morgan had started collecting the ones that were particularly appealing to him. The dead generally had no use for possessions. Sometimes he bartered them for supplies, which was useful enough to justify the collection. Sometimes he traded them for other, prettier baubles. To further aid him in his travels, he told himself. Nicer trinkets fetched him more supplies. But he also liked to just look at them sometimes, to appreciate their shapes and the way light played off their surfaces.
He passed the small bag to the courtesan at arm's length. Jemali upended it over the bed in front of him, spreading out the contents to admire them. Morgan, in turn, settled back in his chair and admired Jemali now that his attention was elsewhere. People didn't generally appreciate being stared at, he knew, but everything about the man was arresting. The shape and warm colour of his eyes, the smooth slopes of his skin, the slick, uniform coils of his hair. Even his movements were effortlessly graceful. His voice was easy to listen to, soft and lilting.
"Lost in contemplation of my beauty, hmm?"
Mortifyingly, he was right. "I - I'm sorry. For staring." Morgan averted his eyes. Stupid to have let himself get so distracted. He really did need to rest.
"You don't have to apologize, darling. Clearly you have excellent taste in pretty things," Jemali purred, playing his fingers first over the array of baubles in front of him and then drawing them up to frame his face. He batted his eyelashes. "You sure you don't want a little taste of this?"
"Quite sure." The threat of physical contact was enough to put Morgan back on the defensive. He shifted uncomfortably.
Jemali tilted his head. "You're a funny little puzzle, Morgan. Tell you what, let's make a deal."
"What kind of deal?"
"I'll tell the others that you've requested to be my exclusive client. They won't bother you if they know you're mine," he grinned.
It would have been preferable for the guild to ignore him entirely, but he supposed dealing with a single courtesan would be much easier than trying to explain himself over and over. At least this one seemed to understand his request not to be touched.
"And in exchange?"
Jemali reclined fully, wriggling his shoulders into the sheets. "You let me come and go as I please. I don't have a good place here to take a break when I need some alone time. I'll be as quiet as a little mouse, you'll hardly know I'm here."
He considered. It seemed favourable, provided he could count on Jemali to actually be quiet when he needed to concentrate. But would the guild really keep bothering him as long as he stayed here? Or was Jemali overstating the issue to get what he wanted? He eyed the other man warily.
"And I promise I won't lay a finger on you without your permission," he added. That was enough to tip the scales.
"We have a deal."
"Wonderful!" Jemali clapped his hands together and sat up. "Now let's seal it with a kiss, as a matter of tradition... oh, honey, it's all right, I'm just teasing. I said I'll respect your personal space, and honestly I meant it. I'm sorry, Morgan, you don't have to look so scared."
He clenched his jaw. He wasn't scared of being touched, he just didn't want it. Especially not from someone teasing him. Of course, he should have been expecting it. Tiredness and discomfort had interfered with his usual defenses. And if he was honest with himself, so had the peaceful journey, and so had the man's unexpected beauty. He had to remember that he'd earned a measure of respect from his traveling companions, that he couldn't expect the same sort of treatment from a stranger. Especially not such a pretty one, when he was just the opposite. That was just the way the world worked.
"I am going to rest here," he said, closing his eyes and hoping he could take Jemali at his word to leave him be. That ought to end the conversation.
"You can use the bed, you know."
"This is fine."
"All right, suit yourself." True to his word, Jemali was quiet. Morgan could hear the sheets rustle as he made himself comfortable, and shortly afterward his breathing grew slow and deep. Once he was sure the other man was asleep, he finally felt comfortable enough to slip into a light meditation.
It was nearly two hours later by Morgan's count when Jemali gave a soft, almost musical sigh as he awoke and stretched. There were some quiet sounds of fabric and jewellery shifting as he arranged himself, then the soft pat of his feet hitting the floor. "Until next time, darling," he said in a low whisper, and then he let himself out.
Morgan waited a few minutes before relaxing back into a deeper meditation. The chair was actually quite comfortable, much better than the back of the caravan. There was no need to move to the bed. Tomorrow he would meet with the sultan, well rested and hopefully on his own terms. He was cautiously looking forward to it.
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