#no matter how hungry you are

[chickinu]

Sif gets hungry on the road to Dormont and picks up a snack(?) that isn't from a trash bin.....his friends intervene.

These guys don't have their chef cooker yet so they don't have cool snacks at the ready.

Sif in this AU isn't particularly picky when it comes to food and they'd often hunt for their food and eat it raw.....but you're not suppose to eat food raw, how curious~

Odile tries to keep a closer eye on Sif after this "silly" Lil incident. Nobody could eat garbage as rancid as that and actually enjoy it!?!?!?

[danmeichael]

it's really cute when a character is completely obsessively devoted to someone they are entirely aware is toxic. submissive not because they're naive but because they are completely content with being taken advantage of.

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

I've been thinking about how Vash always seems to be hungry. Or at least, that he's shown eating quite often in the manga. Happily having his salmon sandwiches. Eating an entire box of donuts in the side car. Knowing the conversion rate of bullets to pizza. Seeing a flower and immediately wondering if it's edible. Pondering his life over breakfast. It's a really cute little character detail about him - he likes food.

But then I kind of started to think about the angel arm and its specific brand of destruction. How there were no bodies to be recovered. Nothing but a crater left of July, left on the Fifth Moon. It's all been incinerated. Devoured, even. Tristamp takes it even a step further and makes the power something akin to a black hole - a yawning drain; a constant destructive hunger.

Vash is clearly terrified of this potential for destruction, and for very good reason. But it's not separate from him as some kind of "power he can't control" - it's his arm. It's literally his arm. It is him. Vash is scared of himself, scared of losing control. He does what he can to repress it, even subconsciously (the gaps in his memory whenever it activates). He can't control it in the moment, so he takes steps to preemptively push it down, to avoid the use of his abilities entirely, to hide himself away.

I talked a bit in a previous post about how there are probably several interrelated reasons for Vash's chronically avoidant behaviour, but I'd like to throw one more into the ring and suggest that it's not just a matter of not deserving to want things, but maybe also that he's afraid of wanting. That if he allows himself to even think about what he wants personally that he'll want too much, take too much, and that the only cure in his mind for this is to give and give repeatedly.

I wonder how starved he is for love. Vash loves hard, after all. Once he loves (and I’m not talking about the broad, distant love/compassion he has in general), for better or worse, he carries them around with him forever, long after they've passed. Does he feel like it'd be selfish to admit this kind of want? His love isn't really a passive thing after all - it's the drive at his very core; a mournful inferno he is just barely suppressing. Does he remember how to love in a way that doesn't consume him entirely?

Is that part of the reason he checks out at signs of intimacy? Diverts gifts towards others? Tends to accept kind gestures only when under an assumed name? Intentionally starves himself in Tristamp? Runs and runs and runs? Is he afraid he won't be able to stop hungering? That allowing himself to want means his want will become insatiable?

I just have to wonder how much of his avoidance of connection is being scared that he will cause more destruction (to them? or to him?) by trying to take far too much into his hands than he ever caused by turning his back and running.

...of course I may just be entirely deranged here sorry.

[toddtakefive]

btw todd’s reluctance to join the dps because he doesn’t want to read (which is then accommodated for) and is scared to put himself out there (which is also worked through) being read as todd not wanting to go AT ALL, and thus neil making the proper accommodations (“todd anderson, who prefers not to read, will keep the minutes of the meetings”) and encouraging him to step out of the box that stifles him being seen as ‘forceful’ or like he can’t take no for an answer makes me insane with rage

[vaguely-concerned]

if there's one thing the locked tomb series can teach us, it's that sleep is important. when necromancers start messing around with their own bodies to try to make up for not catching those sweet zzz's for a couple of days, we get such things as Soup and also Nuclear Armageddon. I'm not saying john taking a nap would have averted the end of the world, but he may have gotten a little bit less insane about it at least

[c0rpseductor]

food insecurity is like my own special hell i could talk about forever but suffice it to say food prices being what they are makes me want to [redacted]

[darkshrimpemotions]

If I see one more person who grew up well-fed bemoaning that they're bigger than their mom who grew up malnourished I'm going to lose my mind. I'm so sorry. I'm so, so sorry that fatphobia and diet culture ever made you look at your tiny mom, who suffered food deprivation in childhood only to grow up and make sure you never did, and see your larger body as anything but a blessing.

[izzy-b-hands]

salad prep done

dishes washed

and i have a bit of time leftover to scroll on here and just. not think abt anything until I have to figure what I'm forcing myself to eat for dinner lmao

[floral-hex]

So if I cancel an appointment the day of, I’ll get charged $100, but the doctor can cancel the appointment an hour beforehand and I’m just shit out of luck. Very cool. Not a bother at all.

[polaroidcats]

I’m doing these in pen so once I draw them there r no changes so I accidentally made u look u have transcended to a higher plane 😭 but my attempt to send u virtual bread <3 🥖🍞🥨

omggg thank u for the virtual bread that's so sweet!!!! maybe our class needs to take a field trip and have a picknic to eat the bread together soon!! 💖💖

and honestly transcending to a higher plane is just the correct reaction to good bread!!!!

[airenyah]

thinking about my tags on this post, specifically about:

#i keep watching ships on other shows kiss and it's like#this is nice and all but!! it's just not แค่เพื่อนครับเพื่อน bad buddy series ep. 5 [4/4] (11:33)

and it's like. not gonna lie but this applies even to the patpran ep11 beach kiss

[kyuureimu]

food poisoning fucking sucks bro :')

[vaguely-concerned]

...wolf hall!henry viii/cromwell version of the locked tomb pool scene, except that at the end of the book henry cheerfully eats cromwell's soul and chops his head off with all the whim and vigor of ianthe snacking down on babs

[evandorepart2]

ugh ughhhhhhh im hungry :( i grabbed our mostly empty bread loaf this morning since my brother was downstairs and i was panicked but it only had three slices and ive eaten them all and now im hungry.....when is that man leaving so i can have a decent meal in peace like what the hell. also i think theres something very very wrong with me mentally cause thats kind of fucked up :/

[louderfade]

i don't even know what i stayed up all night reading about, but now i'm texting my military sister about packs of army robot dogs fighting in the coming war with china, and this is why she thinks i have the mental illness

[martyrbat]

i genuinely dont think people realize the impact of being poor and how it effects your entire life - even if you do become financially stable in the future