something i've been doing recently is trying to think of myself through the eyes of my hypothetical future child. how do i want them to see me? what habits and behaviors do i want them to have, that i can demonstrate for them? and it's simple stuff like being on my phone less, reading more, being more intentional with cooking and exercise and my hobbies, talking about other people with more kindness. but thinking of myself through this lens is helping me change my own habits in a positive way and i think i'm beginning to like myself more because of it
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Me, with two different Tavs, mocking Orin with the fact that Bhaal and Sarevok don't care about her and have both betrayed her: ha-ha, get fucked lobster woman, shouldn't have done all the murders
Me, with Durge, after practically no new information about her character has been added, but Durge's story has reframed her as the unwanted child, the always-second-best, looked down upon and despised by everyone whose approval she desperately sought her entire life because they created her to do so, while the framing of two of them as siblings creates the implication that they are of the same foundation, coming from the same place and following the same course up until the point when, through what was essentially a random chance, one that she never got, one of them was thrust upon a path to possible freedom and redemption - a path that inevitably leads them to crushing her as the very entities that set those fates in motion cheer on: oh.
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talking to a friend about getting back into art and i think the #1 most important piece of art advice i could ever get or give is just "figure out what is FUN to you"
like i think there is sooooo much emphasis on how to build SKILL in art but a lot of it really treats art like a job or like video game grinding, like it's this thankless job that you have to work at in order to reach a Threshold and i know it's not EASY to make yourself have fun but like
imo a solid 70% of the reason i create art is because the Act of Drawing is fun to me. it's fun problem-solving and planning and putting down lines and playing with colors and tools. it's fun to depict little scenes in my head or to create outfits or to find ways to fill the canvas. never forget that creating can be fun. sometimes it's hard and sometimes you have to battle through your own blockades to get there but the ultimate goal should always be to ENJOY it, to find what you enjoy doing and then do it forever. improvement will follow enjoyment.
i think especially with all the debate about ML image generation it's more important than ever to embrace FUN. if you're only focused on the end result it's so easy to get in your own head- to think about what doesn't look good or what skills you don't have yet or to compare yourself to other artists. but photography didn't kill the art of drawing and AI won't either because, simply put, there will always be people who want to do the physical act of making art because it's fun to do! using paints and markers, splashing colors around, doing shitty pen doodles, using the symmetry tool in your art program to do abstract mandalas that are just squiggles formed into patterns. do art like you're 5 and you've been handed markers to pass the time. do art like you're bored in class and you're keeping your brain entertained by drawing stick figure comics in the margins. do art like an absent thing, do art because it satisfies your brain. the goal is not to make something beautiful and perfect, the goal is to make something because your hands need to make and your body needs to make.
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I think one of the most difficult things you end up learning to have to say is "I don't think I'm able to help you"
sometimes it's trauma, sometimes school projects, sometimes money, sometimes recommendations for a new phone, and sometimes you can't say it out loud
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i have a very peculiar life where i've often, due to chronic illness and the resulting reclusive tendencies from said illness, just plain not associated with people of my own age on a regular basis for months or years at a time. but when i do go out, i'm, like, not an unattractive or socially unsuccessful person. well i'm not necessarily socially successful but i'm not unattractive. and i'll look back on like a certain period sometimes and realize that i had a lot of people trying to pursue me romantically, and i'm like "hey what happened to that? its been such a long while since anybody asked me out........."
"oh yeah i dont leave the house"
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ik its annoying to hear the advice “yoga will cure your depression” but the thing is that closing your eyes and focusing on your breathing and moving your body a bit in a way thats not punishing (like doing cardio) or meant to build up sweat necessarily, but instead moving it in an understanding way and only pushing yourself until its comfortable does help. Like I sometimes forget too but when getting depressed taking care of the very basics, like breathing, drinking enough water, eating enough and well, cleaning my body and yes moving at least a little are SO important. And after a while sure you might enjoy other more “punishing” or sweaty things but they are an acquired taste.
same goes for the touch grass advice tbh. or the go outside one. does not have to be a specific place just go somewhere where there is something green and some air. go stand under a tree on the street where your apartment is or some shit. bc its not about the place itself or being outside necessarily but instead not spending all your time in a small consigned space and about looking at something green. taking your mind off of whatever is bouncing around in there and just look at a plant. its good i prommy and it does not have to be structured
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