#nina loves to ramble

[once-upon-the-earth]

this fandom talks so much about how hard the final fifteen and its aftermath was/is for crowley and im not gonna deny that it was but. try seeing the whole thing from aziraphales perspective for a sec. Because it is so so so heartbreaking. i know its hard bc we dont really know whats going on there with the metatron and threats and things that were cut out but lets take it at face value and try to imagine what hes feeling.

He knows another apocalypse is coming. He wants himself and Crowley to be safe; he's always wanted them to be safe from the very beginning. Its why he's so unsure of the arrangement for so long ("If Hell finds out they wont just be angry. they'll destroy you!"). Even when he and Crowley are finally "safe", they know theres more coming and theyre just waiting, anticipating, until Jim happens. They panick, everything gets very chaotic but clears up without either of them seriously hurt, luckily. Aziraphale is still reeling with adrenaline when the Metatron takes him outside. He's definitely thinking "alright, just this, get him off my back and then I can get back to ignoring them until the next apocalypse." But suddenly, Heaven is offering him a way to stop that next apocalypse NOW - and even better, Crowley will be safe the entire way through! They'll both be angels, safe, on the same side and save the world!

(also the fact that heaven, whove been talking down to him his entire life, are now acting like they respect him. I dont think he entirely falls for it but that would feel good to anybody, whether he suspects its fake or not.)

Crowley says no. Crowley refuses, angrily, confesses, in the worst moment while theres thousands of other things running through Aziraphale's mind and now he has to deal with this too, years, millennia of unspoken things slapping him in the face in an already incredibly vulnerable moment. Crowley talks of running away again and leaving the world behind. Aziraphale tries again - he needs Crowley for this, he cant do this alone, neither the entire task of saving the world nor the simple act of going back there. Crowley kisses him, doesnt even want to accept Aziraphale's forgiveness for not helping him - leaves.

Aziraphale definitely has some sort of plan, going up there. But he will also be arriving in Heaven, cold white lights, cold faces over pale clothing judging his every move and have to juggle both responsibilities and his own, undercover plans, all this without any help and nobody to talk to. You remember how he ate an entire ox the first time he tasted food? He's still got Crowley's taste on his lips and an empty stomach. And he doesn't even entirely understand why Crowley rejected him because Crowley's always helped him before. It's their game. He gets himself into situations, Crowley rescues him and they never say a word about how theyre feeling. And now Crowley broke the rules, refused, and kissed him and Aziraphale cant even talk to anyone about it because who would listen and anyways, he needs to get to a meeting about killing everything on the world he was put on to protect.

[nina-ya]

was just reminded of my favorite headcanon that law just doesn't like bread because he's copying corazon

[chronicowboy]

PRAYER FOR WEREWOLVES, stephanie burt

[jellybeanium124]

"anyone else wishing they were skinnier :(" NO!!! I HAVE SEEN THE LIGHT!!! YOU ARE SEXY AS YOU ARE!!! I PROMISE YOU ARE PERFECT TODAY!!! WHAT IS THERE EVEN TO LIKE ABOUT SKINNY PEOPLE THERE AIN'T NOTHING THERE AND THEY'LL FLY AWAY ON A WINDY DAY!!!!! JOIN ME AND STOP WAITING TO LOVE YOUR BODY UNTIL IT'S DIFFERENT AND START TRYING TO LOVE YOURSELF NOW!!!!!

[hergrandplan]

Y'ALL IT'S OFFICIAL NOW I'M AN EDITOR

[one-million-kruge]

my six of crows hcs

I need to read Crooked Kingdom but I can't for at least another week and it's killing me so take this very self indulgent list

Kaz Brekker

-He finds it really hard to apologize so he literally buys a gazillion super expensive gifts for whichever Crow, refuses to elaborate, and walks away. Matthias is mystified by this.

-Kaz hates emotional attachments with people because he could easily lose them like he lost Jordie, so he made them with his cane and gloves instead.

-For a while as a coping mechanism, Kaz legitimately treated 'Rietveld' Kaz and 'Brekker' Kaz as two different people. When he was triggered by something or other he told himself it was Rietveld messing with him.

-He researched Saints so that he could know and understand Inej's religion, even though he had no obligation to. He also pretends he hates hearing her talking about it but just hearing the passion in her voice makes Kaz happy.

Inej Ghafa

-Similarly to Kaz, she has emotional attachments to her knives because after her time at the Menagerie it became really hard for her to trust people.

-Inej learned how to walk silently at the Menagerie because she needed to sneak around in order to get stuff she needed to survive, whether it be food or something to stitch herself up with.

-She enjoys being on the sea because it gives her a sense of freedom similar to how acrobatics made her feel.

-Inej has never once pitied Kaz, just felt anger for what others (*cough cough* pekka rollins) had done to him. Every time she sees him panic she feels a mixture of sadness and pure rage.

Jesper Fahey

-Jesper has a diary because he feels emotions in a very big way and he needs some way to get them out. He hides it under his bed and let me tell you it is bright pink.

-When he is stressed (often) he plays with his guns. Like, safety on, but he flips them around in his hands and whatever because it reminds him of his mother and her memory makes him feel safe.

-When on heists, Jesper legit takes any opportunity to wear high heels. There is no need to. The Crows make fun of him for it. He does not care.

-Jesper is typically very fidgety but whenever he's near Wylan he's just automatically much calmer. Wylan is like Milo for his stress but better. It's even better when he's touching Wylan in some way, shape, or form.

Wylan Van Eck

-If Wylan hears a phrase or saying or something of the like that he thinks is nice or cool, he writes it in musical notes (similarly to how he labels chemicals and such) and tacks it up on a wall or something.

-When he was younger and his father would use horrible tactics to try and get him to be able to read, he just took it and assumed it was normal because he didn't have a frame of reference (not being able to read books or make friends very well). Some days he felt he deserved it.

-Wylan loves symbolic art because it's a way for him to take in a story without having to read it. He loves making up interpretations of symbolic paintings and connecting unrelated ones into a continuous story.

-He is really not assertive at all and finds it hard to read the room, so Wylan always asks Jesper before he does anything affectionate. He sometimes gets embarrassed about it, but Jesper always reassures him that it's very cute and sexy of him.

Nina Zenik

-Nina is bisexual (canon) and in terms of her preferences she finds women to be hotter, but she loves men beyond physical attraction more often. Whenever people try to tell her that she's straight because of that she either punches them or knocks them out for a few minutes depending on how she's feeling that day.

-Nina loves fucking with people by speaking a language to them that they don't speak and then gaslighting them into thinking that she was speaking the language they do speak.

-She is like the #1 hype squad for Inej, and it's literally the only thing that Kaz and her can agree on. They literally get into compliment battles but they're complimenting Inej.

-Nina finds it hilarious how actually innocent Matthias is, so sometimes when they speak, she makes progressively more lewd innuendos to see how long it takes for him to catch on.

Matthias Helvar

-Matthias is super gullible and will believe almost anything someone tells him unless it is far too outlandish to be true. The rest of the Crows (bar Inej and Wylan) use this to their advantage often.

-Back when he hunted Grisha, everyone else said he was most definitely the least likely to become a traitor but also the most likely to be the nicest to the Grisha. Guess where they were wrong.

-Matthias tries his best to be mischievous and absolutely fails every time. He just feels bad about it and so he immediately apologizes even though all of his "mischief" isn't even that bad.

-Whenever Nina needs anything, Matthias will immediately do it/get it for her. Whether it's getting a book off of a shelf that she can't quite reach or committing homicide, he is always ready and willing.

[oh-my-frog]

Badger spotted !!!

[inefffablle]

i know we all obviously love aziraphale & crowley, nina & maggie, anathema & newton, etc etc

but can we get more love for shadwell and madame tracy? i love those happy old people they’re so cute at their little dinner table

[sunsis]

the way 90% of fics (and even memes) portray Kaz as constantly angered by/distrustful of and unnecessarily cruel to Jesper when he canonically shows the most playfulness while bantering with him, and was only mad while disappointed with him in ck and even then it’s made blatant that he sees Jesper as a brother he’s afraid to lose again...

their dynamic is one of the more deep friendships yet still the most heavily mischaracterized in favor of Kaz babying Wylan (did we even read the same book??) or somehow being “besties” with Nina (who canonically doesn’t like him much outside of their temporary alliance and he was fairly willing to let her die from jurda parem. Kaz respects Nina and values her abilities at best, but compared to Inej, Jesper, and even Wylan, he has the least attachment to her and Matthias if we’re being real. but certain fans have this idea that he cares for her more than he does when it's actually Inej that adores Nina and looks out for her)

shadow and bone series also is slightly guilty of this by having Kaz barely banter with Jesper beyond an eye-roll and having Jesper address and treat Kaz like a boss more than a friend (he never calls Kaz his "boss" in the books despite viewing him as a leader and going along with his plans, and still openly questions/criticizes Kaz and his motives/choices). basically, stop characterizing Jesper as Kaz's punchbag henchman. it isn't at all true to their dynamic or funny.

[redgearsmovin]

Movertober Day 5: Favourite Character Design/Style

prompt list here!

Warehouse Mouse is literally the cutest little buddy ever and I loooove how cuddly he looks sometimes. He's so Shaped love this lil fella. And his little outfits are always so neat!

And Knit Knots' style is of course iconic, he is like, *the* definition of beige.

For non-recurring characters, I love how the Movers' dads look and how much they reflect (?) their sons. Ah I love their moms too, lmao I love all their designs they're just really fun.

[incorrectsibunaquotes]

KT was really annoying I didn’t like her sorry

Why are you apologizing to me? I’m sorry that you’ve got no taste and you suffer from thinly veiled racism disease

[anabetel35]

If you like Kuwei, whatever you do, just don’t think about how he probably grew up isolated from his peers because of his father’s status. How he probably took to reading because no one around him could spare a single second for him. How, when he and his father had to flee the country and were captured by the Fjerdans, he probably realized that what happened to him was a perfect backstory for a main character of some epic story. How, when he had to watch his father try to create a drug that could enslave and kill nearly all Grisha in the world, people just like the two of them, his biggest comfort came from the silly belief that at the end of his story, he too would have everything that he wanted — a family, a lover, a friend, just anyone who would finally care about him. Recognition. Joy. Love.

How, when his father died and he was left alone, a small, delusional, cruel part of him was almost sure that it was necessary for him to then be loved. How, when the Crows came for him, deep down, he fully expected them to be his new family. How, even when everyone was cold to him on the ship, he still tired to convince himself that it was because one of theirs was on the brink of death. How he dumbly tried to tell himself that they won’t actually turn him over to the merchant that wants him because they’re reasonable people. How he spent his days and nights in a cold tomb, pushing down the memories of his now dead father and his grim future, all alone, curled up in a corner.

How he had developed a crush on Jesper, bright, kind, warm Jesper, as if he could do anything else, and then had to watch helplessly as that ray of sunshine ignored him, as he got closer to the boy that had his face. How his skills and efforts were ignored just because what he might know seemed far more important to the people around him. How, not more than two days before the auction where his death would be faked, he got kissed by the man he began to adore and then was disliked for it by the only member of the team that actually tried to befriend him for a while.

How he had to stand tall in front of all the people, all those merchants, the royalty, the warriors, the guards, the farmers, the children, everyone, all the people who came to the Church of barter just to see who he’d be sold to. How he had to trust the six teens who only had qualms about killing him because he was worth a whole lot of money, with his life as different governments called out numbers that could feed the whole world for an entire lifetime. How the last thing that he could’ve seen before he died if the bullet that hit his chest missed his button even by a single hair, was the chaos ‘Brekker and his Crows’ started.

How, when he woke up, he barely had any time to calm down because one of the teens, the Drüskelle, was dead. How he now had to mourn him now, too, along with all that he lost. How, when he was laying down on the ship to pretend he’s dead, he realized that the people he saw as his saviors less than two months ago, and as the thing that he wanted more than life, didn’t care for him at all anymore. That they might even be happier if he died. How, as he neared the sea, he couldn’t help but feel like he’d let his one chance at happiness higher along the canal and that he was now destined for a life of despair.

How, when he arrived to the Little Palace, he wasn’t met with kindness or friendly faces. How he had to hide the fact that the thing he worked on day and night was the cure to a drug that his father had created, a drug that could’ve destroyed Grisha all around the world. How he was their only hope in the war against Fjerda. How he spent his nights awake dreaming of being a part of the family that the Crows clearly were. How he couldn’t seem to fit in anywhere he went.

Most importantly of all, don’t think about the fact that he’d been alone all his life.

[nina-ya]

AAAA IM FINALLY GETTING AROUND TO POSTING THIS BUT THANK YOU SO FUCKING MUCH @nc-vb FOR THIS I WANNA SOB EVERY TIME I SEE IT

[chronicowboy]

[jellybeanium124]

so according to the poll I just reblogged 10% of tumblr users were not loved as a child and another 18% are unsure if they were loved. I think that's the main problem right there, guys. I know that tumblr polls aren't scientific and tumblr is well know for uhhh... not attracting the most well-adjusted and happy people, but like, we all live in the real world. we all have had a friend or family member tell us a desperately sad story from their childhood about how they were explicitly told they weren't loved right now. like, this is the thing. this is the main thing. how can we expect to have a society of happy, well-adjusted, engaged, supportive, and community-oriented adults if 30% of children aren't loved???

one of my best friend's parents have a metaphor that I really like. a child is like a piece of glass, and when a parent raises the child they're handling the glass. some parents just get fingerprints on it, others leave cracks, and others drop it and shatter it entirely. everyone's got trauma, it came free with your being born into an imperfect world, but like, maybe we need to be a little more focused on preventing so much shattered glass.

(bc tumblr is the piss on the poor website, to be clear, if you had shitty parents I don't think you're broken forever without any individual autonomy or anything, like obviously adults as individuals can grow and heal and get therapy etc, I'm just saying we should focus on building a world that's better for kids now than it was for us)

[hergrandplan]

orpheus was so right when hermes told him "don't come on too strong" and orpheus immediately said "come home with me"

like my man you have never even TALKED to that woman but I'll support you