#nico the og & whatever this is

[bayetea]

I'm gonna froth at the mouth over this in the tags so bear with me but reason #1278038 why the way rick went about breaking up jiper was bad: rereading her povs in hoo where she gushes over jason feels like even more of an unreliable narrator queer girl comphet psychological horror story

[maxedes]

we got a nico rosberg norris mention so safe to say we good

yeah i like milfs:

man

i wanna see

lando norris

flop

[thebaronsilver]

First of the bat, let me say this as a disclaimer. I love the og Percy Jackson series. Secondly, my fav character is Nico and then the Percy from the og series.

Do you know why I make this distinction? Because, Heroes of Olympus ruined Percy's basic characteristics.

Just think, this is the percy who was bullied in almost every school he attended (except, maybe, Goode). Even, camp half blood,till he came back from the first quest. This is the guy with so strong a sense of loyalty that he was willing to get into trouble with the teachers for Grover when they studied together, was willingly an outcast because he would rather be friends with the one guy everyone picked on and thus be bullied himself. He was pretty excited to have a brother once he got over the whole Cyclops thing, too. This is the same guy who spent all his free time looking for a runaway kid who said he hated him. Maybe it was out of misplaced guilt. Maybe it was due to the fact this guy big brothered everyone he could get away with. (Atleast, I felt like that.)

While we're on that issue. Was Nico right to blame Percy for Bianca's death? Absolutely, not. But he was also a grieving ten year old who just lost his only family (even though she had, in a way, already left him behind. But that's an entirely different rant on the Hunters as an institutions. Bianca was also a child, remember.). And considering that Nico changed his tune once he found the truth out and even helped Percy and the camp willingly afterwards, I like to think he more than made up for that mistake.

There's even a part where Percy refuses to burden Nico with the prophesy and claims it for himself. Considering that till then he was trying not to even think about it, I believe we can easily claim that Nico was in some ways important to Percy. Maybe not in the same way his Mom, Annabeth Or Grover was to him, but still an important person.

Then we have in the last Olympian, Percy using Nico as an example why Children of Hades shouldn't be treated as Pariahs. Because if not for him and the reinforcements his powers brought (not even counting the three whole deities he brought along) the casualties would have been higher. (It was Hades who locked Percy up. He even confirms that Nico hadn't had a clue. Nico in turn broke him out and got himself in trouble. Then in a turn of events, Percy starts to blame Nico for something that wasn't in his control. A reversal of roles so to speak. I had thought that it had been momentary anger on Percy's part, but apparently considering all the references to how Nico betrayed him in the HoO, it wasn't. He'd pushed it aside momentarily, it seems.)

Percy was not to blame for what happened to Nico in the original series. Life isn't fair and it just happened to be extra unfair to Nico. Even then Percy went out of his way to look after the kid, to make sure he had a safe space.

This is the Percy who I liked. The Son of Neptune only emphasised this. Even without his memories, he took Hazel and to a lesser extent Frank under his wings. He actually recognised Nico in a vague way. Not just Annabeth (which is something else I have beef with. What about his mother? Why didn't he remember Sally till a lot later and even then he didn't let her know he was safe till a lot later?)

Then comes the Mark of Athena. He apparently told so many horror stories to the 7 that there was a debate on whether or not they should save a 13 year old demigod, the brother to one of them, from a preventable death. This wasn't like the Titan war were demigods could be the enemy. Then why was there even a debate? It's like all that loyalty disappeared. This is the guy that was once bullied at every school he's attended. Doesn't he know the impact of telling tales when people aren't there to defend themselves? To tell the whole story? Then House of Hades. Every single person in that ship thought that Nico was spooky, creepy whatever and all that poor kid was doing was exist. He made himself scarce, barely spoke unless necessary and even then they were like ew, creepy. It's like Percy's personal loyalty became loyalty to just Annabeth. Fuck whatever happens to anyone else. It upsets me.

The later books ruined Percy as a character. And I will stand by this.

[tagthescullion]

A more realistic version of TSATS would have had Nico and Will having a relationship like they did in TOA, more kids being at camp (whatever happened to Harley, who was a year-rounder at eight years old? There were twenty kids last year and fifty the year before-), Nico actually thinking about Reyna joining the Hunters and his feelings about it instead of barely mentioning her at all, and Hazel finding out that Nico went to Tartarus and freaking out instead of her not even appearing once. Oh, and Hades not being behind it all, because that made no sense.

I once more start this with the disclaimer that I despise TSaTS with a burning, strong passion, so my words are as subjective as anything is ever going to be..

nico and will's relationship was a favourite of mine until the fandom turned it into something I don't particularly enjoy anymore, and the way it appears to be, TSaTS was a massive fanonisation of solangelo, meaning it was rubbish

nico should've talked to, mentioned and thought about hazel and reyna. they're --objectively-- the two people he's closest to at that point, followed at some length by the deceased jason grace.. which makes his talk with piper nonsensical (I love piper, but why would nico talk to her instead of people he actually cares about?) but no, no, reyna joining the hunters? who cares? not nico, that's for sure. nico deciding to voluntarily go to tartarus? hazel's fine I mean, what could possibly happen to her 14-15-16? brother in superhell, pfff?

hades letting nico speak to maria was off, the whole fucking point of the og PJO series was nico accepting his loved ones are dead.. rick also steps on that when nico tries to resuscitate bianca in HoO except that she's reborn (imo he wrote himself in a corner) but ALAS THAT IS NOT SO! for bianca is also present in nico's little tête-à-tête with his dead family!!!!!! (mentioned as his mother bc editing???? rick is way above editing and consistency ofc)

[catinasink]

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[confused-alienated]

Voiceless

Summary: "Josh would fight"

Tw: abuse, Dema

Notes: Set during the SAI era but Josh is real. I wrote this a while ago as a part of my prompts series. This is the first fix I've posted on here to don't mind any mistakes.

Word count: 756

Link to the og fic here

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Being in Dema revealed a whole new side to Josh. Back in Trench, Josh was a stoic leader and he wasn't a man of many words either.

Dema seemed to have lit a fire in Josh. Whilst Tyler grew quieter and more withdrawn with each passing day, Josh only got louder. On their first day as prisoners, Tyler swore he'd heard Josh talk more than he had in their whole time knowing each other.

Back in Trench, Josh was quiet and sugar sweet, Tyler would have never thought that Josh was one to hate. Oh, how he was wrong. Every insult, every word, every syllable that Josh spat at one of the Bishops or their goons was laced with more venom than Tyler had ever heard.

Josh would fight.

Obviously the lack of filter led to, usually physical, punishments. Those deterred Tyler from following Josh and fighting aswell.

At the start, Tyler had begged Josh over and over again to, "Please stop fighting them!"

"I can't, Tyler," Josh had said plainly.

Tyler was so sick of arguing, that all he could do was sob into Josh's chest.

Tyler had stopped asking Josh to stop months ago.

The two never lost hope that the Banditos would come for them. They just didn't know when. They'd been there for six months.

The Bishops had decided that since both Tyler and Josh were 'very influential both inside and outside of Dema' that they should produce propaganda together.

They had been forced to form a band. It was a long term dream of the two. They both didn't want it to be like this.

Some days they would chain Tyler to his desk, he would only be allowed out once he'd written enough.

This only made Josh fight more aggressively and more often.

Tyler loved Josh but hated that he would fight. He hated how often Josh was getting punished.

As well as getting beaten, Josh would be starved and isolated. Tyler had lost count of how many times Josh had been smeared. Tyler hated it when Josh was isolated, it got lonely for him aswell.

Despite the cuts and bruises, Josh would always be there at the end of the day with some story or memory to lighten the mood.

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Tyler remembered the day too well.

Josh had been dragged off for another punishment that morning. It had been hours, Tyler hoped he wasn't being isolated again.

The Bishops had given Tyler a day off, they'd told him it was for all his 'Good behaviour', whatever that meant.

Tyler had been laying on Josh's 'bed' since he'd been gone. He was half asleep when the door suddenly heavily swung open.

Nico entered the room and threw Josh on the floor.

Tyler waited for Josh's snide remark. It never came.

Nico mimiced a smile, "Hope you enjoyed your little break today. Back to work tomorrow, rabbit," he sneered then left, slamming the door shut. Tyler heard the lock and deadbolts click into place. They were in for the night.

Josh slowly got up and silently sat down next to Tyler.

Tyler waited for his usual 'How was your day?'. It never came.

Instead Josh took a shuddering breath and tears began streaming down his face. Tyler placed a careful hand around Josh's shoulders, trying to avoid any bruises.

"What happned?" Tyler whispered. Josh had never been this upset after a punishment.

Josh continued to cry. Tyler noticed that he wasn't making much sound. Josh was a loud crier. Tyler's stomach dropped. Even when he did cry he would always explain. Even if his cries were quiet, he would talk to Tyler.

Tyler slightly tightened his grip, "Joshie? Are you okay?"

Josh looked at Tyler helplessly.

"Can't talk?" Tyler got like that sometimes, distress and anxiety stealing his voice.

Josh slowly nodded before getting up and waking to Tyler's desk. Tyler watched curiously and stood to join him.

Josh's hands shook as he flipped through the notebook to a new page. He began writing something that Tyler couldn't quite see.

Josh's handwriting was nice. Maybe a little scratchy, a bit wobbly but nice.

Tyler heart lept to his throat when he read it.

'They took my voice.'

"What do you mean?" Tyler voice shook.

Josh pointed to the paper again.

'They took my voice.'

"Oh," Tyler breathed then brought Josh into his chest.

Josh cried harder. Tyler's jumper grew wetter and wetter with tears.

Tyler felt completely helpless. They had taken his voice.

Josh would fight. Well he used to anyway.

[ganeshpnf]

Are you a fan of httyd as well?! I agree how Percabeth they are :) If you are a fan, what do you think about the live action and casting? Since everyone is debating on it. Personally I dont like race-swapping but I like Nico Parker so much!

Hello! And yes I am a fan of httyd as well, it is one of my fav childhood movies :) Now I dont usually talk about races or other stuff on this blog, but since you asked, I gotta add some warnings first:

Please remember that these are mostly my personal thoughts, if you dont agree it is okay. You are free to add your own thoughts, but please be respectful. Okay, lets go-

I love Nico Parker and know her since her role in tlou. And I gotta say I dont like actors getting hate because I also got so many racist comments when I was a child too. I had a facebook account when I was 12 and you wont believe how people can be so cruel for someone's nationality. Thats why even today, I am rather secretive on my nationality, only sharing to people I trust and call them friends. So why would I be happy seeing actors getting the hate comments bcs of their skin color now? I would never blame the actors, but- I would blame the companies and todays "new era of televizion"

Whatever we like it or not, we cant deny the fact that they only do it for the new era, marketing. Look at Nico Parker, her face looks exactly like Astrid. If they give her a blond wig, she is Astrid. But they dont, also giving her braids. And the only reason is: To show us that she is black and would appear as so. They want us to see that. I hate live actions, because even though they do this for marketing and "diversity", they realize this would get hate for the actor, they are using them. And no we cant say "No it is not for diversity or wokeness". Well, it is since we see almost every og white character is getting race-swapped: Snow White, Ariel, Rapunzel, April from Tmnt, Annie the Orphan, Triss, Hawkgirl, Annabeth, Jimmy Olsen, Doctor Who and many more. I know, whitewashing is a big problem, but I dont think its ever a way to stop the racism. To me even, It creates MORE-

It is also giving double-standarts, because people flip when you even mention changing an og black character. Not that I support that either. "Their race has a meaning in the story!" You can change Snow White but you cant change Tiara. It gives the message "You can change white characters but you cant change poc characters". I am not fully white, but it is giving also racism to me. Not to mention, this new televizion era, tries to avoid blond characters, especially blond woman in any day. New httyd cast has 0 blonds and they are Vikings. Any blond character is replaced. Oh and people say "It is a movie about the dragons!" Well, these are all fantasies. Tiara has a talking frog yk? If you think that, that we should be able to change all of them.

But in today's televizion, race is everything to them. Everything has to be about race. Which is stupid. We all want to be equal, but now they made people look onto race only. Back then, we loved movies because of their plot, acting etc. But now, every remake only focuses on one thing: diversity, how to make it more diverse? Now I also love a good diversity, which means every races together on tv, which is amazing right? It is what we all want. But today, it changed all the meaning. And the only thing companies look for MARKETING. It is not fair to audience, it is not fair to the actors. I would prefer companies to stop doing live action but to make something new with diversity, with new characters who are white, black, latinos, Hispanic, Arabic, Turkish, Indian etc. Now that IS diversity. Not changing og characters to white to black OR change to black to white. Both of them are doing nothing but upsets the audience because people are aware the point behind it.

The worse part is, I think they know it wont do anything as well, but do it for money, using actors as shield. I dont think they deserve it, at all. Especially child actors would have that scars forever. Even how much people support them, at the end, the scars stay.

So yeah, this is what I think. Oh I gotta add, costumes looks like a school play kinda...Its like they only focused on Hiccup and Toothless. But we will see, I would watch it and then share my thoughts again ^^ Thank you for your ask :)

[bright-and-burning]

⭐️⭐️ can we get a directors cut on your fav part of the light between the lines <33

honestly anon... i couldn't choose a scene. i like them all so much... but i have all my notes from each stage of the process of writing this. so if u have a scene u wanna see the behind the scenes on or like. my thoughts on. lmk. instead of a scene, you're getting my OG messages to k describing the fic idea w some annotations!! (partially copy and pasted, partially transcribed, bc half of it was voice note). this has spoilers !

director's cut post

as you grow eventually u hit a trigger point where ur powers appear but lando’s like. 22/24 w/e. so he’s the longest lasting unpowered guy to stay alive. some kind of like pairing thing yk you get paired w a dude. he keeps getting paired and they keep unlocking their shit but he never unlocks anything. so the class he’s in gets younger and younger as the ppl around him r replaced w new people (old ppl sent off to die basically) oscar has telepathy stop thinking so loud and lando’s like bitch wtf

it's always so funny how much of my original nonsense just getting ideas down on paper makes it into a fic. "stop thinking so loud and lando's like bitch wtf" became a lot longer of an exchange but it is recognizably in there!!

some shit goes down action intensity w/e

lmfao. very helpful, past eve.

somehow they discover lando’s had a power this whole time. he’s an amplifier. that’s why lando’s thoughts r so loud, to oscar.

i had the lore behind the stop thinking so loud convo figured out before i had PLOT. LMFAO.

they save the world.

very descriptive. really set me up to spin out an actual story here

jenson is an instructor lewis is like, general essentially. nico was the last unpowered guy to last that long and HE turned out to be an amplifier but he accidentally made the creature thing worse when he tried to get rid of them

ok now i start sorting out plot. kind of. lore more than anything else

lando’s been wandering the academy for far too long… outgrown the spaces and yet also shrunk himself to them… climbs in vents and snoops and overhears everything. gets into old records and reads thru all the files he can get his hands on.

i had such a specific lando in mind like immediately. "outgrown the spaces and yet also shrunk himself to them" is just. yeah. he's bitter and spiky and nosy and too old and too powerless and far too aware of all of it. this was also before i decided it was called the institute lol

knows the only reason he hasn’t been booted is bc they have a shortage of trained bodies, basically, and lando might not shoot lightning out of his hands or whatever but he Does have the training down perfectly so he keeps getting sent out w newbies on training missions basically and they come back and move on and get permanently paired w someone to like go be Actual Fighters or whatever, not like baby fighters (tho w the shortage of bodies. there’s not a huge line drawn between them. just that lando gets older and older and the kids he gets partnered with stay the same)

he's just. so aware of the limits of his usefulness. that he'd be dropped by now if he wasn't Flawless w it and if there wasn't such an urgent need for bolstering their numbers. and he's also like. constantly being left. every person he's ever gotten attached to has left him (well. minus jenson, really, but that's not the same at all). and yet... he still cares abt them, yk? keeps them safe, tries to help them succeed, makes them laugh.

anyways. idk oscar’s flown through training but has struggled w finding a partnership that Works (like, is ruled a danger in the field bc of it. sent back to baby fighter status until he gets his shit together) hence why he’s paired w lando… can’t have a clash of powers w an unpowered guy. can’t fuck up too badly w the only unpowered guy who’s survived this many missions it’s like putting the misbehaving student w the star student . from a higher up perspective (and lowkey from the higher up perspective. if things go tits up… well they’re only losing some 20 something without powers)

rip oscar... hit w "the slow your roll kid" in every universe. baby fighter status... djfoiadsjflaksjd you can tell im fully just riffing at this point. i was typing as fast as i could trying to explain my ideas before they became nonsense. this bit really recognizably became lando's anger-driven monologuing in the like. second? scene of the fic tho.

some kind of line where lando’s like. they think im the next rosberg. and jenson’s like where did you- what. no you’re not. and lando SHOULD trust him bc he’s snooped enough to know jenson of all people around here knows exactly what rosberg was like. but something abt the tension in jenson’s voice throws him off etc etc

this obviously became the first scene of the fic. which was the first chunk i wrote, but took until the literal last second to figure out where to put (it still feels a bit clunky where it is To Me but i think it does open things up decently and by the time i was dealing w it i just wanted to hit post already jflsjf)

just like . government secrets piling up . all anyone *officially* knows abt rosberg is that he was the longest unpowered guy to survive. paired w hamilton for Ages and then one day they went out, only hamilton came back, and the fuckin . creatures got worse

well. this also stayed the same. albeit a little more eloquent than "the fuckin . creatures got worse"

jenson’s like. for sure the only constant in lando’s life like. for the longest time lando had his peers . and then they all one by one paired off and got real missions and disappeared

oh i didn't realize i also talked abt the abandonment issues semi-explicitly in these first texts. fjdksjfa. god. thinking abt the deleted scene i NEARLY wrote (and fully outlined/drafted) where the galexdo reunion is much sadder. bc of said abandonment issues.

something abt lando amplifying oscar n being able to shut down . idk the hive mind behind it all…

a hint of plot. wow. incroyable.

nico had figured it out that’s why he tried to fix it but he did it wrong and made it worse. and lando’s like terrified he’ll do the same but oscar’s like. you’re not him. you’re not gonna make the same mistakes. you’re gonna learn from them

this became conversation in the vents right before the alarms go off!! and also the starting point for a lot of the lore. it's also the last message! i then sat on this concept for like. five months. and then one night i had a moment like. wait... i think i know how to connect all of those vibes-based bits into a real plot. and two weeks later... tlbtl was posted!!

so yeah. welcome behind the curtains. this is how the sausage gets made. etc etc. sometimes you have to start w nothing more than vibes and nonsense. let it simmer for a few months. and then magically plot will start stringing them together...

it is actually crazy to look at this knowing what it became. but this is how all of my fics start. rambling thought-to-paper notes that slowly get shaped into something real lol

[apollothesunrat]

Y'know what I want to do?

I want to to create a "What if Kronos rose early" au(possibly a collaboration?). Because the Great Prophecy never says when Kronos has to defeated, never says if it is before or after he takes over. But if needed I could change the prophecy to make it fit better

Now this is by no means my own idea. I got the idea from multiple tiktoks and fanfics that presented the idea in iteresting eays that wanted me to make my own version.

Let ne explain below the cut because I do believe this will get lengthy.

In this universal, I believe a good majority of the characters we know would still exist because of the Fates. Most notably: the seven, Nico di Angelo, Reyna Avila Ramírez-Arellano, Grover Underwood, Will Solace, etc, etc. Because I do not believe the gods would disappear. Just because they are overthrown does not mean they are forgotten, many pagan mortals would still believe in them as well as the children they have. I believe they would simply go into hiding like many titans did when the gods took over. They simply hide away and occasionally have demigod chimdren in the hopes that one their children will help them overthrow Kronos again one day.

But that isn't the most important thing right now. The main story/idea for the stroy is all I have planned at the moment.

Our main characters are the big three children. We start our story with Bianca di Angelo at 19, Nico di Angelo at 17, Thalia Grace at 10, and Percy Jackson at 5. It begins seven years after the di Angelo's were released from the hotel, they were released about a year after Kronos took over because Hades didn't want to risk them getting killed or hurt simply because they knew nothing of the outside world.

I plan to have the story progress one year per chapter until Percy is twelve and then start following a timeline closer to the og books. Basically Percy turning 12 starts progressing canon events. It is by fate that certain characters die and all that, those type of canon events.

I honestly don't have much planned after that because I lost my original paper on the au.

So yeah, if anyone would like to help me or possibly collaborate on this, I believe that could be fun because I need more ideas and it is easier to create when I have someone helping me not put in dumb stuff.

You can reach out to me through dms here or whatever you want.

[frayna-of-the-hollow]

While there is still 5 hours or so left on the og poll, drawing characters from a fandom in my style seems to have won, so heres the follow up poll:

tbh i think i know whats gonna win but whatever

@homobrainjuice @fizzycereal @sk3tchyy42 @be-gentle-with-littluns-2 @s4gefr0g (again, sorry if you didn't want to be tagged!!!)

[happyk44]

It's kinda funny because w/ my Zeus kid OC (who I've been thinking about renaming as Araceli, 'cause it means altar of the sky, apparently, which I like 'cause sky-themed-ish but also like. A little bit I wanted something that meant cloud the way Coral's name means... Coral) the implication is that she takes after her father to an almost mirroring degree because I developed her and my other PJO OCs (who also all got retconned into an OG work) at the same time I was playing around with my ideas on the Big Six, and the gist at the time was supposed to show how the Big Six could've turned out if they weren't so weird.

So the dynamics of the friendship was supposed to be very similar to the dynamics of Big Six's relationship to each other (e.g. Mary having a major crush on Hera's "representative" but also being attracted to literally every other person that walked by, Nico being the soberminded big brother figure, etc). It's also one of the reasons Mary would get angry whenever someone would compare to her dad, because similarly I think Zeus would get angry if someone compared him to his dad.

And then eventually as I got older and the daydream moved around with whatever obsession I had at the time, the characters and general storyline began to change away from that in some ways but core features sort of stayed and so I ended up with a version of Zeus that ignores his daughter's pleas for help because he loves her but her pain hurts him because he can't do anything about it and it's his fault she's suffering.

She got this intensity from him, it's ingrained into the way it's ingrained in him. But he was able to rebuild the world according to his own needs and wants and beliefs. And she can't really do that. So he doesn't have any advice he can give her when she's on her knees begging for help with all the noise and pain in her head. He doesn't know what to do! It's like he can just go and rip it out of her.

But she's suffering because she's different and she's weird and she knows it and she knows it's his fault which is why she's asking but he just doesn't know and he can't handle watching her suffering and listening to her cry when there is no helpful answer to give her because "I don't know" isn't going to fix it.

He's supposed to fix things, he's supposed to have the answers. He's king of the world, by damn! He's a problem solver. He supposed to have a solution, and a million backup solutions. But he doesn't! There's nothing he can do to make the noise stop because truth be told, the noise never really stopped for him! It just got easier and quieter. So he turns away from her because he loves her and he's failing her and he can't handle that.

But also in the same breath, I think he recognizes similar aspects of himself in Jason, who isn't even asking for help, and fucking despises him for it, lol.

✨ Girl Dad ✨

[crumbsssscookie]

🩵 here!

Please steal whatever ideas I send in my asks lol it's an honor since most of these are just random things that pop into my head!

Anyways, I was wondering how/if you were going to continue to explore how Logan feels being a woman in her new life? Obviously, she's used to being one of the boys, but does that mentality ever cause her to slip up?

For example:

Would Logan occasionally forget that her body has changed? I mean, on OG Logan posted a lot of shirtless pics or stripped his race suit and fireproofs down in certain Williams videos, so he was comfortable like that. Do you think she'd ever forget and just take off her fireproofs after a session when she's exhausted and feels gross in the Prema drivers room without accounting for the fact that Oscar is right behind her and that she's a girl now? (Poor Oscar would do a very quick turn around and face the door until she realized what'd she'd done, but that'd take a minute imo)

Or during interviews when she's asked about her struggles as a woman in racing or when the press/fans/randoms are misogynistic to her, would she get thrown? Would others, like her PR person or Nico, point out things that Logan hadn't noticed because she's still getting used to perceiving herself as a woman?

Sorry for the deep thought questions! Just really interested in your take on things!

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Omg, that’s a hard hitter if I ever seen one 😅 I've put it all under the cut, because I feel this could double as my dissertation...

To be honest, I hadn’t planned on explicitly exploring Logan’s feeling about being a woman now. At least not consciously. I’m very go with the flow with my writing rather than planning all out down to a T. When I’m brainstorming for ideas, I usually write what feels right and fits for my characterization of Logan in that very moment. But it will be a part of the broader character evolution I have in mind.

Broken down on just the gender aspect of things, right now Logan feels very content with being a woman. In my head there are three distinct Logans. OG Logan, AU Logan and Post-time-travel AU Logan who exists ever since the memories and experiences of the first two were merged in chapter one.

Our Logan, the post-time-travel AU Logan is well aware that she is a woman and doesn’t really mind it. I didn’t exactly write it out, but I imagine in those first few days where she was holed up in her room, unsure how to handle Morgan or her family, she had enough time to mull over her new identity and get acquainted with her new body.

Although she makes up only about one third of Logan’s overall part of herself, AU Logan had a higher impact on how Logan handles herself in the beginning. Because the challenges she faced as a girl in motorsport and her place in it, are the “newest” information. It makes Logan approach her goals for this life consciously and methodically. Up until now, Logan is not one to pull the big spotlight on herself. She is happy with following her plan and is fine with performing well but would do nothing controversial that would pull the focus too much. But over time, as she meets the people she knows from her past life, OG Logan’s characteristics will gradually come forward as well. Like in the scene with Jenson when she acts impulsively because she forgot that he doesn’t know her yet but is desperate to have a similarly tight relationship to him as she had in the original timeline.

So with time, I see Logan forgetting not that her body changed but absolutely the part about how the public’s perception on her body changed. Seeing as this is technically the body of AU Logan, who had insecurities concerning her body like every woman on earth, our Logan would be aware of them too and acknowledge them. But paired with laid back, content with his body view of OG Logan, it makes her feel confident in her body bc it’s not like she can change them. She can only love herself for being who she is.

So yeah, this is just a roundabout way to tell you, that if she can’t be bothered, she’d act first and think later. Her own comfort is in that case more important than adhering to nonsense patriarchal norms. It’s not like she’s naked, she wears a sports bra underneath, and a fresh shirt is quickly on hand. (So unfortunately, no sudden undressing in the boy’s Prema driver’s room but the boys could get the occasional glimpse of sports bra Logan in the hallway before she reached hers.)

Also, she wouldn’t change shirts on air, but the common after race move of pulling up the hem of the fireproofs to “air out” with the abs on full display, Logan would absolutely do as well. (I also see her getting community service at least once for this in F1 because MBS feels uncomfortable with women living their best lives).

Our girl Logan is also an avid surfer and still a Floridian, so bikini pics on Insta would be a regular occurrence. Her PR agent would eat this up too, because it fits Logan’s brand of being the people’s princess of motorsport or F1 in particular.

The two situations Logan would be out of her depth, even though she’s comfortable in her own skin, is one, when the media would really lock onto the supposed “blemishes” in her appearance, and two, when she has to interact with people in a “dressier” environment.

The first situation would probably arise when she has created enough buzz to gather the attention of the non-motorsport outlets. Like she could be ridiculed for her paddock fit in a dodgy fashion magazine or the common weight related articles paired with blurry paparazzi pics. And it would put her in serious distress because why do people care for this shit, why not go and criticize her for her objective race results rather than this subjective bullshit. It would also make her angry and see her snapping at journalists if they dare to ask her something related on media duty. Nico would be the one to point out to her, that although he can understand her frustrations, she can’t behave like this. But rather than make her shut up, he would ask her to tone it down, because it’s better to still show defiance without getting personal.

The second situation would be public events that aren’t racing related bc OG Logan is already one of the drivers that falls into the category that doesn’t really like this whole part that comes with the job. So when Logan now has to wear a dress or being otherwise dolled up would make her even more uncomfortable. I think her mom or Morgan or even Nicole could help her overcome that, reminding her that almost every woman feels that way and that it isn’t something she should feel bad about. In my head, that would also fit in with AU Logan’s part of the characters, since she’s a teenager. Because when I think back to how I was at 18, I hadn’t figured out yet that other girls also felt uncomfortable in those situations, even if they looked like the most confident creatures on earth.

I hope that answers your questions bc they definitely melted my brain 🙈 Not mad though, I simply had to take a few days to mull it over like Logan did when she was brought back in time 😉

[spokelseskladden]

for the pjo asks, i’m curious about your rankings of ships and/or characters 🫶

Hell yeah I'll rank anything, I'll rank some of the main ships + the stuff i personally ship, but everyone can send me whatever/whoever and I'll rank them

1. Percy/Annabeth 7.58/10

It's a fine ship, they have chemistry and I'm completely alright with them being canon. I have a lot of nostalgia for them, but I won't actively look for fanart or fics about them cause I can just read the book yknow? But if they're together in a fic I'm interested in they would never stop me from clicking on it 👍

2. Nico/Will 3/10

Not my fave, they're there. They look alright together aesthetically but they just do not speak to me, never did :/ maybe it's because I've been shipping valdangelo since the dark ages (2013) but I just can't get into it. I've read fics where they've been a side pairing and liked them well enough but meh. Not for me, idk why lol. And no i haven't read that one book about them and I probably won't 🤷

3. Jason/Piper -11/10

Piper is a lesbian👍

4. Nico/Leo 100000000/10

I've been here since the beginning, I'm an og shipper, you have no idea what it was like to be 14, there were like 10 fics of them, no fanart, and I didn't even learn how to draw kisses good until i was like 17 so you can see how difficult this time was for me. I love then because the spite fuels me and also they have similar trauma and stuff😌

5. Piper/Annabeth 1000/10

They're badass, they're so very flawed, there's so many moments in the books where i just think. Wow they should probably have a romantic relationship about it. Plus i think they're very underrated :/

Ok next up I'll rate the goddesses based on how beautiful i think they are, I'm sure nothing bad will come from this👍

[eshtaresht]

GUYS GUYS I CAN'T KSODKLSOSL!!!1!!1LKDKJ;;S !!!l1JK!::kKD;P SOSKSLSPSODS A;SDOKDLAD I CAN'T EVEN FORM WORDS

spoilers for ep 12 (and a bit for trigun in general) and my overexited ramblings under the cut

you know an episode will be good when where's no opening

so, the twins are meant to be characterized straightforward in every anime adaptation, ig. it's not bad, but the manga twists their personalities 180° and it adds SO MUCH nuance (I'll talk about this at length some day)

tbh I had to pause for laughter when knives was YEETED outta the gate (I have sense of humor of a five year old)

everybody already said everything, but still. OG HAIR COMEBACK OMG AHRAHAAKFJDlahjddjha!!!!!!!! ;!!! ;! and not only hair, but the whole characterization this episode was much closer to trimax vash, and not just sadboy depressive bbg

MERYL/REM PARALLELS LETS GOOOO!!! like, I guessed this would happen, but the visuals, the tension and pure GRATITUDE in vash's voice when he was able to break free from his mental prison... we're eating good

speaking of eating, I CAN'T get over that moment when vash deadass BIT KNIVES. that's peak sibling behavior, he's literally fighting tooth and nail over there

also mashwood is so real tonight!! love love love meryl&nico interactions in stampede, they barely spoke to each other in other versions! and the look of relief on vash's face when he sees nico skedaddling away with meryl!!! he's so glad that they're gonna be okay and that nico made the right choice and came back to help, if briefly. interstingly, he was able to remember everyone, but after the explosion at the end he still lost his memory.

and THE WINGS, DUDE!!!! it gives the finale of trimax, when they both had only one wing left..... still missing feathers, but I love the diversity with knives's, eh... knives, and vash's energy/void or whatever that is, I support it

he's so pathetic even when he looks cool, homeboy had NO control when he used his wing for the first time... cudos for learning new powers on the spot tho

ow ow ow that scene with the military hurt... and he couldn't even save them!

"why are you like that, vash?" "I'm vash the stampede" "IT'S BEEN OVER A CENTURY AND THIS IS THE BEST YOU COULD CAME UP WITH" same here, knives, he's hopeless. I anticipated that moment, but it probably hits even hard for stampede onlys

angel arm!!! tho it's not that angelic now... how are we gonna call it? I take suggestions. rip arm and coat, I feel like we'll actually get a more trimax leaning design next season!

to all the ppl (myself included) who wanted to see vash cry properly... are you happy? ARE YOU FUCKING HAPPY??? after the last episode, after all the mental torture knives put him through, vash still doesn't want to hurt him and, just like knives, can't handle the distance between them.......... I am inconsolable. and as much as knives wanted to break vash, it hurts him so much to see those tears irl....... but he just can't stop, because they're both SO FUCKING STUBBORN and it already took to much to get there and he just can't. stop. now.

"nai is dead, you killed him" first of all, *sounds of screaming crying throwing up*. second of all, his name is million knives, vash, stop deadnaming your brother/j

the death scene itself.... oh it's soo good and yummy. I know this mf isn't fully dead and conrad will fix him, but still. he can have a second death of self as a treat

btw, gotta adress my earlier theory about "happy birthday" being metaphorical. no, it is in fact July 21st, and tristamp lasted about two months in universe. still pretty hard for me to believe, it felt five times shorter due to the pacing. but it is what it is: I'm esht and I was wrong, I'm singing the esht wrong song

and just as I thought this would be the end of it, WE GOT A FLASH FORWARD THAT HAD BASICALLY EVERYTHING WE WERE HOPING FOR AND MORE

RAISED BOUNTY! MERYL GIRLBOSSIFICATION!! a hint at insurance society (tho that was more of a threat and she's still a journalist). MILLY CONFIRMATION!!! ERIKS' LACK OF ARM AND AMNESIA!!!! EARTH FLEET AND CHRONICA!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!

IT'S GONNA BE GOOD SEASON 2 IS GONNA BE EVEN BETTER I CAN FEEL IT IN MY BONE MARROW

[elmaxlys]

since I interacted with your donato mask post, here's my mandatory contribution and I'd like to know your opinion as Official Donato Expert™:

it's so sad to me that we never really saw all of the clowns just hang out together and I can't stop thinking about what they'd do and how they'd act. but we do know that Donato is really good with kids when he's not eating them and most of the other clowns are childish af so I like to think Donato sometimes falls back into his dad role when he's with them because he kinda misses it (especially because of Amon) so while outwardly denying that he's "sentimental", he sometimes catches himself treating them like surrogate kids (or at least having Dad Thoughts about them).

thoughts?

Thank you for your service, anon 🫡

Yes, Donato's absence in both og 143 (inevitable) and :re 128 (criminal) is a huge loss. I would have LOVED to see more interactions between them all, especially with Donato, as we've barely seen him talk to anyone at all. (Uta. That's all.)

AND YES!!! Love it!

I tend to think most Clowns are older than we're presented so I can't really see Donato act paternal toward Uta, Itori, Roma or Nico - more like a friend that's a lot older (if I think Uta's older than we think and Roma older than we're told, I think Donato's way older than we think). Or at least, that's how I see it in canon (because Donato's the collective dad in, for example, my Mermaid AU where they're all his sort of kids except for Roma who's their sort of aunt), and I don't think he'd slip up acting paternal even if he did/does feel that way toward the Clowns (he's very weird about maintaining his image around them idk).

That said, I do think it's an entirely different matter when it comes to Souta. We've never seen Donato interact with him so I can think whatever I want and what I want is Souta to be the spoiled brat of the family. In my mind, Donato's half aware of the way he's acting around the little clown and tries to repress it - and I think Souta's aware he's responding to it - and when Donato sees Souta kind of needs it, he doesn't go all in orphanage style but he acts way more affectionate toward him. Not around the others tho. Never.

I would talk about Shiko here, since iirc he's even younger than Souta (?) but I think Shiko's just Roma's kid, when Souta's the Clowns' collective baby brother/son.

(also yeah Donato's totally bullshitting about not being sentimental)

This post makes no sense at all!! but!!!! the heart's in it ❤

redirecting you to this and this. very old stuff, but.

(i also have a bunch of AUs in which Donato adopts Souta, but most of them are "kid Souta escaped the Garden" kind of AUs, which is an entirely different breed)

Always up to talk about the Donut Family (extended)! Thank you, anon!

[f1uckinghell]

Brocedes walked so...oh no, that was Martian. Martian are the OG.

love the discourse, bestie, but

1. I don’t respect Mark Webber enough to agree and

2. nothing comes close to the journey from childhood besties to whatever nico and lewis have going on now