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Hello gay robot fans
(Edit) I've heard your cries, I'm working on a part 2
Meanwhile~
#made these for my girlfriend <3#she's helping with the tags because idk what to put lol#maccadam#transformers one#orion pax#optimus prime#d 16#megatron#b 127#elita one#megop#divorce#shipping? more like sinking am i right gang?#please be nice to me ok this is only the second time I've drawn transformers#first time was a very cute D-16 pfp for my girlfriend <3#âsoft launching my girlfriend to my Tumblr accountâ according to my friend
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Me when I really want to draw fanart for a fandom because it looks so cool, but I haven't the slightest idea about any deeper lore than surface level plot and symbolism
#I'VE WATCHED GRAVITY FALLS TILL THE END LIKE ONCE AND THAT'S IT#I DIDN'T DO NO RESEARCH OR LOOK AT ANY OF THE LORE#I BARELY EVEN REMEMBER THE EPISODES#I'M SO FUCKED#It's just gonna be me pulling up to the fandom like: hey gang- look what I can do *draws the most simple & plain fanart ever* k bye#my post#sput chatters#I'll make a stupid fuckass AU called:#âhey what if nothing ever bad happened and Bill was nice and#just chill and hung out with everyone else as that one weirdâ eldritch uncle being#that is my AU. it makes no sense- ur welcome#HWINEBHABWNAJCAHOWEEATOWEUB AU
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happy pride month my beloved dykiest sunny episode
#my rewatch is timing itself so nicely with pride month#there's even more in it than this but i cba to do captioned ones#artemis calling dee babygirl <3#always sunny#iasip#dee reynolds#artemis dubois#deetress#old lady house#the gang beats boggs: ladies reboot#gif#+
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shuichi posting
#my art#fanart#strawberridraws#danganronpa#drv3#shuichi saihara#character design#don't ask me what possessed me to make this#(its the game grumps play through. the demons have officially returned)#all my aus and head canons bouncing around at maximum velocity rn..#technically this is part of my âthe tragedy was realâ au / towa kids au#but shuichi (in that au) was kinda just like#what he is on the tin#aka a nice dude taken under his uncles wing post parent death (tragedy) (they were on vacation and got caught up in one of the worst areas)#in my au its like. imagine a weather map with hotspots; that's how the tragedy worked#so shuichi lived in a less effected area but with the rise of infected people (like zombie apocalypse style) (and animorphs brain worm styl#as you cannot tell who is effected by despair and to what extent unless they choose to reveal themselves)#there was a hugeee uptick in crime and shit so he started working with his uncle early on#eventually his uncle went missing (I think its not super hammered out) and he went to investigate#which is when he runs into his like Gang of pregame ppl#(Kaito maki Kaede)#and later some others (towa kid gang [kokichi gang but with drv3 kids] island gang [angie kork n amami])#ANYWAYS its a thing...#ik its been like 3 years since I first posted about it but u can't control the brain worms ig#and I just wanted to do a redesign lmao
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Want more people to remember Tim Shepard is like super hot canonically âa lean, catlike eighteen-year-old who looked like the model JD you see in movies and magazines.â Like my boy is HOT AS HELL
#I think itâs funny#that ponyâs so nice about how the Shepards look#cause like within his own gang heâll be like#âheâs ugly. that oneâs rude. heâs sorta stupidâ��#the outsiders#the outsiders 1983#tim shepard
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Me: I wonder what Hook calls Sampo in the Japanese dub? Probably oji-san, since it's shushu in the original Chinese?
Hook: Sampo-ojichan!!
Oji is "uncle," which is hilarious because Hook calls Natasha by "older sister" when she wants something. So Hook either just really wants to get on Natasha's good side, or she takes Sampo at face value when he refers to himself as an old man. She trusts him a lot and takes him at his word and she calls him as such!
And Sampo calls Hook either ojou-san or oujo-san (I can't find the Japanese sub to see the spelling, and I can't tell them apart by ear)!
One spelling, oujo, means "princess," it's how you would refer to royalty. The other, ojou, (which I assume is what he's actually saying) is something you call the young lady of a high-class family with a high social standing. In Genshin Impact, the intro scene for a popular ship, chilumi, shows Childe calling Lumine ojou-chan, which the English dub translated as "girlie." Since Sampo uses -san instead of -chan, his is more formal and respectful, it's more like "young lady."
...It's also how you would refer to the daughter of a yakuza leader, which I love, since Hook leads her own little gang (the Moles) skzhkskdkd
But it really gets me in the heart, because! Hook is generally looked at as a delinquent by most adults. Which I mean. Not without good reason, she
calls Natasha an old witch
frequently sneaks out into the Fragmentum
has left graffiti all over the side of the orphanage
was constantly picking fights with other kids
beat a man unconscious for stealing from her dad
and has already picked up on how business gets done in the Underworld, and uses/actively participates in it to get what she wants- she basically acts an information broker
like Hook earns her reputation haha. The Underground is lucky that what Hook wants is just like. Candy and toys and to play hide-and-seek. I'm sure she'll have the capability to raise all kinds of hell and be more like an actual gang leader when she's older, even if she chooses not to act on it.
So Sampo calling her so politely and respectfully is really sweet and cute! Yes, he's polite and respectful with everyone, but that's just it- he treats Hook much like he does everyone else. He doesn't tell her to buzz off because she's a kid. He doesn't lie or try to cheat her or assume she's naive because of her age. He never talks down to her. He really does just treat her like a respected business partner and he takes her seriously, which Hook really seems to appreciate. And even when Sampo does treat her like a kid, it's not in a negative way; he guides her on little adventures and chats with her and takes her for joy rides on his moped. All of which Hook also really appreciates, since everyone else is too busy trying to get by to make time to play with her. She absolutely adores him.
I hope they officially join forces someday and terrorize all of Belobog with their shenanigans JSKJZNDKSJ
So Hook calls Sampo "Uncle Sampo" in a particularly affectionate/endeared tone, and Sampo calls Hook "Young Miss Hook" in a very respectful tone! And to reiterate:
#honkai star rail#hsr sampo#hsr hook#WHAT BUSINESS DO THEY HAVE BEING SO ADORABLE AUGH OTL#they're so cute...my heart...#I've seen people say Sampo is a bad influence on Hook but I don't really like that because I feel it takes away from Hook's character.#Let her be awful all on her own!!#god forbid women do anything skhzksjsnz#I actually do really like her just being like this no matter what though because I think Hook is a fascinating example of just how harsh-#-the Underground is and how it's developed separately from the Overworld and how it operates and what it takes to survive down there.#like Hook is like this because she grew up down there during the worst times.#even if she was born before the halves were sealed off she's too young to remember any of that.#I'm pretty sure the end of the main quest in Belobog was the first time she'd ever seen the sun.#and so I think it's really neat seeing how she operates and what she thinks of things. she offers an insight not many other characters do.#she's too nice for it but I would love for her to be more like a gang leader as she gets older it would be a fun divergence jzkzjdndkd#Sampo can be one of her business partners. Belobog is shaking in fear skxhjsjddn#hsr#sampo koski#hook
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Demi-Humans
#guilty gear#asuka r kreutz#raven gg#i-no#I started this before asuka was playable#so I didn't know the colors were the clone ones yet...#plus it fits in so nicely with I-No and Raven's color schemes#but yes it's the backyard gang!#the..... backyardigans#if you will#alright I'll see myself out#chesh art
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How absolutely wild must it have been for Nightmare to have like, minimum-to-no contact with mortals for hundreds of years and then the first two he has any regular close interactions with are Killer and Dust.
Like he must have a book in his castle somewhere of all the observations he kept like he was studying a new species
#UTDR#UTMV#Nightmare Sans#Killer Sans#Dust Sans#I could probably ramble for a while about the effect Killer had on him alone#But imagine being hurt by the world and carrying the grudge for hundreds of years while you wreak havoc all by yourself#And then you get one (1) roommate and he's so strange and unhinged but not at all what you expected#And then you get a second and he's so different again it's like they're different creatures even though they came from the same root world#And you get a third and he's a little more grounded but still has such wild needs and stipulations#By the time he got Cross he was probably onto his 3rd book of observations#If you dig around in Nightmare's library or office long enough I just know you can find at least one book where he's noted down what all hi#boys need and like and hate and what they refuse to do and how to handle them#Like someone leaving super detailed instructions for the care of their pampered beloved pet#Anyway Killer loves to joke to the other 3 that they should be nice to him because he ''let Nightmare adopt them''#and he's not entirely wrong#Anyway I need to go to bed so I can work all day tomorrow (rip) goodnight gang!!
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got the new Glory plush in the mail today!
see also: Glory, Glory, and Baby Glory lmao
#ash collects#my little pony#mlp#mlp g1#retro mlp#mlp plush#she's so soft... i lov her#glory's always been one of my g1 favs#nice to have a big gang of her
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RealAgeAu Drabble - Day in Town
The poll has ended (and as always i sneaked to see the results early :3) and this one won out! @spotaus
You guys really just like the domestic fluff of these guys trying to parent. Don't you? It is okay. They are rather sweet :D
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Lets get to it! (and for those who forgot because i did because i only mentioned the name ONCE. Crop's brother is called Straw :D) Also I had to really consider who's POV I was going to use for this one as they all would have worked but I ended up going with Killer because he is silly and hasn't had a turn in a while. At least that is what it feels like :D
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Killer taps the door as he stares out of the window of the truck. People would assume it is crowded but it honestly isn't that bad.
Mostly because Horror is sitting in the by rider seat with Nightmare in his lap, safely seated. Cross and Dust decided they prefered to drive in the actual cargo area of the truck. Which left only Killer and Crop in the backseat.
Killer honestly also thinks that Dust specifically prefered to sit in the back as he wouldn't have to see Straw. Dust still has the most issues with seeing any other universe's Papyrus. Killer would have gone to sit with him but Cross had been faster with offering it and there is no way in HELL that Killer was going to leave Horror and Ngihtmare without a set of extra sockets.
Doesnt make the drive any less tense.
tap. tap. tap. tap.
Crop sends him another nervous glance before clearing his throat "So.. you guys are finally going to see the town! excited?"
Killer huffs "Not really. But Dusty mentioned needed actual stuff for Nighty." which is why Killer leans closer to the seat before him holding Horror and Nightmare. He looks over the side and grins at Nightmare "sup tiny boss."
Nightmare looks over and sends him a tiny glare "You should have your seatbelt on."
Killer coos "Aw you do care~ such a sweet baby."
Nightmare blushes and mutters as he hides his face in Horror's sweater. Horror sends him an amused look "Killer. stop that."
Killer shrugs and leans back in his seat. feeling very accomplished.
Killer just needs to make sure that Nightmare doesn't fall into old patterns of trying to be the adult and leader. He doesn't need to do that and it isn't healthy for the babybones. so. Time to unlearn! At least those moments have been getting less and less frequent so there is progress!
Killer still doesn't appreciate the look send their way from both Crop and Straw, Yes he knows tiny boss is adorable but if they as much as try to get closer there is going to be spilled dust.
Straw stops the truck and announces their arrival.
Crop gets out quickly and they are on a parkinglot outside a shopping street. It isn't too large by the looks of it and just shops and a bar restaurant thing, probably this universes Grillby's.
Crop smiles at them "Okay! First day out!" Crop looks almost as nervous about this as Cross looks and Cross is actively looking around and has his hand ready to grab his knife.
Crop must see it too as he and straw share a look. Straw motions towards them and the town and Crop waves it off.
Crop turns back to them and Killer grins "SOmething the matter?"
Crop is quick to answer "What?! No! Of course not! It is just. a lot. This can be a lot and i just want to be sure everything is fine!"
Killer chuckles and sees Horror shoot him a disapproving glance. Still Horror goes over to Cross and hands Nightmare over to him. Cross is quick to hug him close and Nightmare has his grumpy face on again but still holds unto Cross. Clearly comfortable.
Horror joins his side "Killer. Stop." Killer sticks his tongue out at Horror and Horror's disapprovement makes way for amusement.
Hah! Still got it!
Horror looks at Crop "This isn't first time for us. We know how to behave."
Crop nods as he rubs his arm "I figured! It is just... If this works out you guys can stay longer and have something of a base to fall back on. I am just worried because some people can be..." he searches for the words.
Straw leans clsoer "Mean, harsh and rude."
Crop sends him a glare and Straw shrugs "It is true!"
Crop sighs "Anyway." he turns back to them "Ready to introduce yourselves?"
Killer grins "And spread rumours!" He can see Dust pull a pained face again. Dust is still not a fan of the backstory they settled on but they are already commited to it after the doctor's visit!
Crop chuckles and grins "I am still curious about what you guys settled on myself..."
Killer shakes his skull and shakes his finger "No no. No cheating. figure it out yourself" and he grins.
Cross huffs as he keeps Nightmare fully against him "Lets just get this over with..."
Adn they walk into town.
People are staring which they all had expected and should be used to at this point. But Killer doesn't like the fact how many people see Nightmare at the moment, and by the looks of it, neither do the others like this. Cross keeps trying to hold Nightmare as close as possible and almost hide by Horror. Dust has started to fully shadow the two as he barely looks around.
Crop and Straw obviously see the tension and seem to be sharing more uncertain looks.
Nightmare however doesn't seem to share their issues as he happily leans away from the hold to enable himself to look around. He studies buildings and vehicles. and even just stares back at people staring at him. Clearly more interested in learning about this new place than actual worry.
Or maybe he just feels safe with them and that does THINGS to Killer.
Crop stops them near the middle of the streat "okay! This is it!" he waves around himself "It isn't a lot now as people are still waiting for the produce to finish growing. But. Generally." he points to a shop "General store. they have most things needed." he points to the shop next to it "Bookstore. self explainatory." he points to the large bar "Grillby's is a bar and restaurant. people spend most of their free evenings there."
Hah! Called it!
Crop points out a few more buildings but most of those are for farming things and supplies.
Dust nods and looks over at them before looking back to the bookstore and general store "Going to get things. be back soon."
They watch him casually walk away on his own.
Yeah no absolutely not!
Killer is already half jogging after Dust as he waves at Cross, Horror and Nighmare "You guys stick together and get a feel for other people!" After which he sprints to catch up with Dust.
They enter the general store together.
Dust shoots him a look "don't need a babysitter."
Killer huffs and grins "Says you!" and he follows Dust as Dust looks at things. Killer just doens't like any of them being alone unless it is at a secured place. So Killer will jsut stalk Dusty for a bit! It is perfect!
Dusty looks at items and ends up getting two more notebooks and some pencils. he nods to himself and gets in line to pay for the items.
Killer checks the funds and frowns. They are running out and they will either have to go to another universe to steal more and risk drawing attention or actually think of a way to make money the legal way.
A groan from upfront and Killer looks up to see a teenager panicking over the cash register. the customers before them all look angry and annoyed.
The teenager presses buttons but nothing seems to help "I am sorry. I am sorry! It just... has issues once in a while. I can fix this!" the teenager does not look any clsoer to fixing it!
Dust huffs and turns to him "Hold." and Killer gets the few school supplies pushed into his arms. Dust afterwards walks over to the front. He grabs the basket of items and pushes it into the arms of the man in front "Hold." the man goes to say something but Dust just hops on top of the counter and sits next to the register. He turns it this and that way.
Dust hums as he pulls out his pocket knife and undoes some screws. the cap opens and he looks into the darkness, a shift in his socket and his eye light now lights up the inside of the register.
He looks at the teen "Got tape?"
The teenager blinks at him before nodding.
Dust nods "Get it." and turns back to the register as he removes some wires and starts making tiny cuts.
The teen grabs it from a drawer and hands it over "Euh... sir... I don't... i mean... i am not allowed... i don't know if you can..."
Dust hums and doesn't listen at all as he redoes some of the wires and removes some of them that looked burned through. He secures things with the tape and closes the back up again. he turns the register back in place and hits the side once.
The register lights up and asks for a log in.
Dust looks at the teen "Fixed." he hops down of the counter. Takes the basket the man in front is still holding dumbfounded. DUst places it back on the counter and walks back to Killers side where he takes his own stuff back.
Killer grins at him "Nicely done. I think that is a new record for you fixing soemthign."
Dust may appear calm but Killer know shim and can see the smaller skeleton looks smug "Easy fix. just a burned wire."
Killer nods "Still a new record! Sadly i didn't have the free hands to time it."
Dust shrugs and acts like he doesn't care but Killer knows better.
The line goes a lot quicker and once it is their turn they quickly pay for the items.
The leave the store and Killer points at the bookstore "Do we need anything from there?"
Dust thinks for a moment before shaking his skull.
Ah. seems like Dust doesn't plan on expanding the classes just yet. Likely wants to see if they actually stay for longer here first.
So they walk back to the group as Dust holds a tiny bag with the new things. they see them near another store and they seem to be talking to a bunny and a dog monster.
The bunny coos as they stare at Ngihtmare and Killer feels himself glae as he rushes to their side "Hey!! Whatsup!" and he nuzzles Nightmare in greeting.
Nightmare huffs and whines "Killer! Careful for my ice cream." Killer pulls back and sees now that Nightmare is also holding ice cream. woops. Killer looks down adn yeah that is ice cream on his shirt. Oh well. he shrugs.
Cross laughs as he smiles at Nightmare "Still good to eat?"
Nightmare studies his ice cream before nodding and going back to eating it with tiny tiny licks. dust joins them again and Nightmare immediantly looks at him. Killer can spot their tiny Nightlight starting to raise an arm towards Dust but he stops himself and pulls it back.
Luckily, or unluckily, Dust is very observant and saw it right away. He gives the bag to Killer and easily climbs the haystack Nightmare had been sitting on. Dust next pulls Nightmare into his lap without disturbing the ice crema eating process.
Nightmare hums happily and leans back into the hug as a tiny purr starts to leave him.
Killer grins as he leans against the hay stack and looks at the two other monsters, who are staring very intensly at Dust and Nightmare and Killer feels... something protective rise up. still he keeps asmile on his face as he speaks "who are the new fluffballs?"
The bunny smiles brightly "Hey! I am Ellie and this is Dani, we are fellow farmers like Crop. We own a tree farm and cherry farm."
the dog, Dani, nods "Yeah! Crop asked us if we had any spare clothes so we kinda knew some people moved in. it is nice to meet you five!" she smiles brightly.
Killer nods as he keeps his arms crossed and his grin sharp. stop looking at them. stop looking at them. stop looking at-
Horror nods "Nice to... meet friendly faces. We are still...settling..."
Cross helps quickly "As Horror said, we are still getting used to things around here. we are very lucky that Horror and Crop were friends and he was willing to let us stay."
Dani looks curious "I hope you don't mind me asking... why the name change from Sans to Crop?"
Killer freezes as he tries to think but Cross shrugs "Skeleton naming thing. Normally you are named after fonts that we speak in, yes we can see fonts and yes it gets weird and yes it takes magic. We just kinda know the vibe and with magic can see those. You can named after that. problem, we all speak in the same font type. Meaning we all kinda had the same name." he rubs his neck "Two people with the same name you can work around but six gets confusing. So nicknames."
Ellie smiles brightly "Dani and I are the same! We were both named Danielle and when we met we realised this would get annoying. especially when we.. euh... got together together." she giggles "so. we are now Dani and Ellie!"
Dani looks highly amused "Our house voicemail is still, the house of Danielle however. It was too good of a joke to pass up."
Ellie nods and smiles "If you guys need anything or help let us know. We have a lot of leftover stuff from our own moving and getting settled and saved everything we could." She looks at Nightmare and Dust again and smiles "And can I jsut say the tiny one is adorable." she looks curiously at them all "So... you guys got one?"
Killer feels that portective rage turn into protective and possessive smugness as Dust answers "he is mine. we all work together." and he shrugs at the questioning look.
Cross shakes his skull at the questioning look "That... is rather personal... they prefer not to talk about it."
Killer can see Ellie and Dani share a worried look before both smile reassuring "That is fine. Take it easy okay?" Dani smiles as Ellie nods along.
They continue the small talk for a moment longer before Ellie reminds DAni that they came to get fertilizer and they two walk off hand in hand.
Crop watches them go "That... went very well..."
Horror looks at him amused "Told you."
Crop laughs adn nods "Yeah you were right. You guys totally got this."
They remain there and meet a few more people from town as they wait for Straw to finish getting what Crop and him need for their actual farm.
Killer relaxes in the sun as the day slowly passes.
When they get back Cross will probably force him out of his now sticky shirt. Killer will tease him about wanting to undress him which will make Cross sputter and blush. Killer will end up wearing aclean shirt and probably watch as Dust teaches Nightmare more about math while Horror and Cross help Crop and Straw around on the farm.
Killer hadn't expected this all to go like this but it is nice. it is quiet. and most important, they are all safe.
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All in all? Great success!
I still don't feel like i quite nailed Killer. Killer is a curious character to write as he is very silly but also wickedly smart. mmmmh. but then again this is a drabble. *shrug*
Realistically? If this was a full on chaptered fanfic this would probably be a chapter i had to rewrite a few times. Just to make sure I get Killer's character and behaviour right. But for now it is fine :)
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#Realageau#utmv#utmv au#nightmare sans#deaged nightmare#killer sans#cross sans#horror sans#dust sans#farm sans#farm papyrus#drabble#I honestly hadn't expected this poll to win but here we are!#Also no one call Killer out on his possessive and protective behaviour#And his very specific teasing#he will figure it out himself eventually#Also yes Dust is shorter than all of them. Killer is just a bit taller and cross is a bit taller than him. Horror is a lot larger#Which means that as long as you don't check Dust and see he has maxed out LV and EXP you would not expect him to be violent as he looks cal#especially wiht dust focussing on JUST the babybones#and yes everyone is pretty much always seconds away from wanting to help the tiny bean that is nightmare#nightmare is still very confused by the fact that everyone thinks he is cute and sweet and that everyone is so nice#Killer is ready to stab a bitch for trying to even think to entertain to adopt their tiny grumpy nugget#That is THEIR grumpy nugget sir! They don't share!#villagers: HE IS A DEMON!#Everyone in the known multiverse: He is so cute <3#the gang: He is cute and ours. goodbye and good day :)#Nightmare: ???????
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Whumptober Day 13 Alternative ending to episode 167 where the plane crush didn't go as well as in the canon.. --- Tea: "I don't like the look of his wound, Pharaoh..we need to take him to the hospital" Yami: "Doma has taken over the city, there's no hospital we can turn to.." Kaiba: "Will you two stop chatting and start stitching already?!!" This is Part 1 of 4 Part 2: HERE Part 3: HERE Part 4: HERE
#yugioh#whumptober2024#today we have a guest#Tea is probably the one in the gang with medical knowledge#that's also a nice chance for her and Kaiba to yell at each other#tea gardner#anzu mazaki#seto kaiba#yami yugi#atem#warning#tw: wounds#tw: blood#I..don't know what this ship of them 3 is called TT
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Idk why but I was thinking of Shinjiham angst earlier but then it quickly spiral into "Hmm what if one of the important plot in this stupid AU is Shinjiro breaking his arm either because of himself or 100% because of Aki???" So I just drew this because uhhh I can i guess lol
Anyway without fiter below :3
#its either because Shinji cant get his ass out of trouble and decides that one day he wants to beat up a biker gang for shits and giggles#and Aki has to come rescue this dumbass#or he got into a fight with Aki and he accidentally pushed him too hard near a stairs and he just...#tumbling down tumbling down tumbling downnnnn#actually maybe the angsty route of Aki and Shinji getting into altercation is a better option#like yeah I love Shinji but he needs his ass beaten to be humbled#okay maybe not fuck up his arm in ther process would be nice#okay i will proceed to go to sleep now snorkk mimimimk#persona 3#persona 3 reload#persona 3 portable#shinjiro aragaki#akihiko sanada#kotone shiomi#minako arisato#persona 3 femc#foolmoon#shinjiham#00s highschool au
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what's wrong with data analyst bernard?
summary: tim's a workaholic ceo. bernard is, to put it simply, a down-on-his-luck loser with a kid to take care of. somewhere along the line, they meet. (very loosely based on the 2018 hit kdrama, "what's wrong with secretary kim?")
A/N: for @chamiryokuroi bc this fanart has given me brainrot since the moment i saw it. but also bc, i missed writing and your art helped. i hope you like it. (more notes at the end.) (AO3 LINK)
Today is a good day, Bernard thinks happily, brand new ID badge bouncing on his tie. It's his first day at Wayne Ent. and Mori had sent him off with a hug and muttered, "have a good day, Tou-san." It's been bouncing around in his head all day. Tou-san, Tou-san, Tou-san, he's really a dad now. He's got to make sure Mori has everything he needs and this new job is going to make sure he can do that.
Shaking his head once to clear it, he takes a sip of the complimentary coffee a team member bought him for his first day. His team leader, Young-joon Lee, is taking him on a tour of the building. Young-joon is a wonderful man in his late 30s but it's very clear that he's been consumed by the office lifestyle.
"...and here is our magnificent lobby!" Young-joon is saying as he tunes back in. His team leader spreads his arms wide out as he speaks, "Everyone knows the lobby but it's my personal philosophy that making friends or at least being on amicable terms with the ground floor staff will make your life easier."
Bernard laughs politely, "I know what you mean. I can't tell you how many times being nice to the host at the restaurant I used to work at saved my butt during rush hour."
"A man after my own heart!" Young-joon says, smiling widely as he leads him to the help desk.
Bernard tilts his head up to look at the skylight. It's a gorgeous thing with little animal motifs running alongside it. It lights up the lobby bringing a welcoming feeling into it. With the sunlight pouring into the room, along with the din of busy workers in slacks running to and fro, it really feels like stepping into a movie.
Are you seeing me Darls?, he thinks with a childlike glee, hand coming up to thumb at his badge again, I made it!
"This, my friend," Young-joon says, pulling up to the help-desk, "is our wonder-duo. Tamara and Abhishek. They practically run this building. Lord knows we'd be tripping all over ourselves without them."
Tamara and Abhishek smile as they get introduced.
"They run this building?" he asks confusedly.
"You see, young padawan," Abhishek says, "not only do we help the people that come in here asking questions or for instructions, we also answer any questions the staff has for us."
"Things like, 'What's HRâs number?' or 'Can you page Data for me?' or 'No seriously, I'm calling HR on this man right now. What is their number?'" Tamara says grinning.
Bernard laughs. It feels like that's all he's been doing since he got here. "You have to tell me the story on that one day."
"Sorry," Tamara says, faux-apologetic, "the minimum clearance on that story is half-a-year. Gotta level up."
His cheeks hurt from smiling. This is his and Mori's new beginning. This is where they level up. Nothing's gonna stop him now.
"Do you know the story behind that one?" he asks, turning to Young-joon.
"Of course! But where would be the fun in telling you? You have to stay the six months and if luck comes my way, longer."
"You want me for longer?"
"Of course, I saw the way you worked during those practice problems in the interview. I had to fight the other team leaders for you. It was brutal."
"Get back I say!" Young-joon says, miming a sword fight. A pleased warmth builds in his chest; they wanted him, they wanted him!
Darls you better be fucking watching this. I'm movin' up in the world.
"Ooh, send me that footage. I wanna see our newest recruits skills," Abhishek says.
"You got the data team fighting over you?" Tamara asks, eyebrows raised, "I wanna see itâ"
Whatever she was going to say is cut off by the sound of both of their pagers pinging. Immediately going stock still, they start typing on their computers.
Bernard turns to Young-joon confused but his team leader looks like nothing is out of the ordinary.
"The boss is coming." Young-joon says, like that's a reasonable explanation for two people shutting down in the middle of the conversation, "It's always quite a spectacle and they always have to notify the other execs. Just watch."
Still, the boss? Maybe Bruce Wayne will say 'hi' to him and he'll charm the CEO and Mr. Wayne can figure out a way toâ
No, no. He's done making those kinds of fantasies. Nobody is coming to help. Bernard is going to figure out his life on his own, he is going to take such good care of his kid, and he is not going to wait for some rich billionaire to swoop in and take care of him. He got this far didn't he? He'll get even farther.
He and his team leader lean against the help desk sipping coffee as they wait for the CEO to come in and sure enough, a black Rolls Royce pulls up to the driveway in the front. The minute the door opens, flashes from the paparazzi's cameras start going off. Out steps a bodyguard in a black suit with an umbrella opened. From below the umbrella he sees a nice pair of brown loafers step out. The CEO seems to be wearing a navy blue suit today. The paparazzi roars and the flashes increase.
"Oh wow," a man remarks a few feet away from him, "the circus is strong today, huh?" His friend laughs.
A woman wearing red heels steps out after the CEO, the paparazzi flashes decrease dramatically. More bodyguards exit after the woman and form a square around the CEO and his assistant/secretary. They shuffle towards the entrance where he sees the elderly doormen greet the executives with a smile. Whatever they say is lost to the sound of the city but the doormen laugh and push the doors open.
Young-joon's been making small talk throughout the entrance and Bernard tries to keep up but whatever the hell is going on at the entrance is way more interesting than anything his team leader is talking about. As they enter the guards spread out and dissolve the square. The woman comes into view first, red heels with a black slacks and a white button down. She's holding a long coat in one hand and a laptop bag slung over her shoulder. She's gorgeous and clearly the one in charge, going by the way she barks orders at the guards.
Young-joon says something and he turns around to respond, grabbing his coffee cup off the desk counter. His CEO's loafers tap across the lobby's marble floor, something about it is comforting. A lull in the room's conversations causes the CEO's voice to carry over.
"...Tam, make sure the quarterly reports are on my desk by at least 4 today and make sure to push back the sales meeting by 30 minutes to an hour, the board wants to talk â Oh Mr. BardakcÄą! Thank you for stayâ..."
Bernard's heart jackrabbits in his chest. He knows that voice but- it can't be. It's not possible; he chose Wayne Enterprises for a reason. He's not supposed to be here. He's supposed to be at his father's company. Unless... there was a merger? No, that seems like the kind of thing the news wouldn't've shut up about. He would've known.
When was the last time you had time to sit down and read the news, Bear? Darls says inside his head
She's right. With filing for custody of Mori and graduating from college and the job search, he hasn't had time for much else. It's entirely possible that he could've missed one of the biggest mergers of the decade.
Fuck, Fuck.
He wasn't supposed to be here. Bernard was supposed to be moving on. He was supposed to be building a life for himself away from the shadows of his childhood. He was supposed to be forgetting that Tim Drake ever existed.
He has to make sure though. Turning his body around, he prays that it's not the man he thinks it is. But sure enough, there stands Tim Drake, resplendent in a navy blue suit and a golden tie.
Golden ties for golden boys, he thinks absentmindedly.
The suit fits him perfectly, stretching across his shoulders and wrapping around his waist. Even the tie looks knotted perfectly. How long did it take him to learn, Bernard wonders. He could never get it right back in high school. Does his assistant Tam do it- no, no! This is why he didn't apply to Drake Industries. Bernard can't do anything around Tim and Tim is never going to care enough about him to stay.
Tim's head seems to be turning in his direction and Bernard whips his head back to make sure Tim doesnât even catch a glimpse of him. His hand twitches violently enough that the coffee cup falls out of his hand and spills all over the floor. The cup rattles deafeningly on the floor. Bernard can't fucking breathe.
"-ernard? Bernard!" his team leader's voice cuts through the haze in his head. Young-joon looks concerned, "Are you okay?"
He blinks slowly, "...What?"
"I said, 'Are you okay?â You look like you've seen a ghost?"
No, Bernard thinks, seeing Darls would be preferable to whatever level of hell I've found myself in.
"I'mâ, I'm fine." he says rather unconvincingly. His eyes dart back to the spill, "What am I saying? There's a large puddle of coffee on the floor. Iâ, I should get some paper towels for that."
"Do you have any paper towels, Wonder-Duo?" he asks, trying desperately to ignore Tamara and Abhishek's concerned looks.
"I already called the custodial staff," Tamara says slowly, like sheâs trying not to spook him, "but if it makes you feel any better," she pulls out a huge stack of paper towels, "go crazy, I guess."
Bernard takes a handful of paper towels and gets to work. The cleaning is meditative and with each swipe of the paper towel, the puddle gets smaller. Bernard pretends the puddle is his feelings for Tim. Swipe, forget about the 4pm milkshakes and his laughter when Darls snorted milk out of her nose. Swipe, don't think about the way he used to smell. Swipe, he left and never looked back; you don't look back either.
The tap, tap, tap of loafer on marble is getting closer to them for some reason. Why is it getting closer? Does it not have staff meetings, market research, and people to leave behind?
"What is going on here?" Tim asks.
"Nothing much, sir." Abhishek responds, "Newbie just spilled some coffee."
Abhishek, no!
"Oh is that all? And he took the initiative to start cleaning instead of waiting for the custodial staff. You made a good choice, Young-joon."
"Thank you, sir!" Young-joon says, "I was taking him on the tour when you came in. Most newbies love the show so I thought we'd stop here for a little bit."
Tim laughs. Bernard hates that his heart still skips a beat at the sound.
A pair of brown loafers and a wool-covered knee slowly appear in his vision. Why is Tim crouching in front of him? Why won't this man leave him alone?
"This looks like quite a lot of work, let me help."
You can help by leaving me the hell alone, he thinks uncharitably.
"I hope you found the facilities to your liking," Tim continues, like he hadn't heard Bernard's thoughts, "My name is Tim Drake-Wayne, CEO."
I know, he wants to say. I know you're Tim Drake. I know you like to skateboard and that you stared at Tony Hawk's photo for an hour every day in high school âcause didn't want to be one of those people who didn't recognize him. I know you struggled with your dad not really being there. I know you loved Mrs. Winters as much as you loved your mom. I know that you like history more than any other subject even though your best was always math.
Bernard says nothing instead.
Tim laughs awkwardly and Bernard knows he isn't helping the conversation along but whatever, he's allowed to be petty, right?
"I assure you, whatever you heard in the tabloids and the news, isn't true. I promise I won't biteâŚ," Timâs voice trails off as Bernard lifts his head.
"...Bernard?" Tim whispers, he looks like he's seen a ghost.
Bernard tries for a smile, he's pretty sure it comes out looking like a grimace.
"Sir," he says nodding curtly, hands still moving to sweep up the coffee puddle.
Tim's hand reaches out to touch his face, as if to make sure Bernard is really there. Bernard recoils as Tim's hand grazes his cheek. Tim's hand hangs in the air uselessly.
"Bernard?" Tim says again, as if to make sure his eyes aren't playing tricks on him.
"That's my name, Sir," he says through clenched teeth, "don't wear it out."
He can feel Young-joon and the Wonder-Duo's confused stare but he says nothing. What would he even say, really?
Hey, this is my old friend Tim Drake? Hey, I used to know him like the back of my hand? Hey, our best friend died and it feels like I'm the only one still grieving? Hey, in my junior year, five different gangs shot up my school and my best friend died in my arms and he left and I had to pick up the pieces by myself? Hey, I'm the idiot that's still in love with Tim Drake?
The clack of Tam's heels comes as a welcome distraction.
"Tim!" she says, grabbing his arm and pulling him away, "What the hell do you think you're doing? We have to go talk to the board. Build rapport with your employees later."
Tim stumbles to his feet, "Yes, butâ, Iâ, This isâ"
He sounds like he's glitching. Bastard. Is it really such a surprise to see Bernard in a well paying job? Even Tam is starting to look a little concerned now.
"Explain later," she commands, dragging Tim behind her. Bernard keeps his head down and continues wiping up the coffee puddle. Sneaking a glance upward shows him that Tim keeps turning back around to stare at him.
For a moment their eyes meet, brown against blue. 'Bernard?' he sees Tim mouth. Bastard, saying his name so many times. Doesn't he know what that does to Bernard? Why does Tim insist on breaking his heart again and again and again? Was once not enough?
He's tired of putting these walls up and just for a second, he lets them come down. Let Tim see the entirety of his brokenness. Tim already has his heart, he can have this too.
'Tim' he mouths back, smiling sadly. Tim looks stunned and the rage that had been simmering in his gut begins to boil over.
Do you see what I've become? Do you see how thoroughly Grieves ruined me? Is this not your doing too? Why did you leave? Have you ever visited Darla? Why was it so easy for you to not look back? Was I not your friend? Or was it just a time pass? Why wasn't I enough for you to stay?
He watches until the elevator doors close, separating him from Tim once again. His body sags like a marionette cut from its strings and his fingers clench uselessly around the coffee soaked paper towels. A hand lands on his shoulder and he flinches.
"Hey, hey," Young-joon soothes from where he's crouched right next to him. When did Young-joon crouch down? How much time has he missed? "It's just me, Bernard. Are you okay? What was that? Does our CEO know you?"
He exhales shakily. He needs to get out of here. He needs to sob hard enough he throws up. He needs the steady press of a knife on his back. He needs things he's not allowed to have anymore.
Bernard shoots up so fast the world spins around him. holding onto the desk for support, he tries to smile at his team leader. It stretches across his face misshapenly.
"I'mâ, I'm sorry," he says stumbling over his words in a rush to get them out, "I have toâ"
He has to what? Pretend to not see Darls out of the corner of his eye? Pretend like his hands don't have blood on them? Pretend like he isn't seeing bullet wounds every time he closes his eyes?
"âgo to the bathroom," he finishes lamely. Gathering up all of the paper towels, he walks away dazedly, ignoring Young-joon's calls behind him. He shoves the towels in the nearest trashcan, letting his feet lead him to the nearest bathroom.
The bathroom is thankfully empty when he enters and he locks the door behind him. Sliding down the door, he exhales shakily. There's not enough air in this room; he can't breathe. The fluorescent lights hum above their coverings. The one on the left flickers. Who's bright idea was it to install school lights in a business office's bathroom?
The world outside the bathroom rushes on too loudly. Somebody is talking about their vacation. Someone is bemoaning their presentation today. His chest is getting tighter. His hands come up to tug on his hair. Why can't he breathe?
The exhales are coming quicker and quicker. Something comes tapping down the hallway. It's the gunmen, it has to be. A quick glance down tells him all he needs to know: he's covered in blood.
It's Lila's, he thinks dazedly, I had to carry her into the office. Or no, it's Olu's. I held him when he died. He said, he said, what did he say?
Why can't he remember? He hits his head with the heel of his palm.
Think he tells himself, we have to tell Olu's parents what he said. He saidâ, he saidâ.
His body sags.
Oh now he remembers. He said, "I don't wanna die Bernard."
A whimper tears itself out of his throat and he slaps a palm over his mouth. There's blood smeared across his face now, he must look like he walked out of a slasher film. He has to be quiet. if he's too loud, the gunmen will find them and then they'll all be dead.
Cry quietly, he tells himself, Darls doesn't needâ
Darla! How could he forget about Darla with a hole in her gut? He needs to get to her. Lurching forward, he scrabbles across Mrs. Castillo's linoleum floor. He's smearing Olu's blood everywhere. Why won't Nikhil stop fucking crying so loudly? Goddamn freshmen and their hysterics. Where is Tim? Is he safe? He can't lose both friends today, please Lord, please.
BANG!
A violent flinch tears through his body. He sobs audibly this time, gagging on his spit. It's the gunmen, it has to be. He hasn't even held Darls' hand or counted Tim's moles for the last time. Where are the Darls? She shouldn't be alone. She doesn't like violence like this.
"Why didn't you save me, Bear?" a voice asks from behind him.
He freezes. Slowly he turns around and nearly yells in shock. Falling back on his butt, he stares up at his friend.
(He has to be quiet, he has to be quiet, he has to be quiet-)
Darls is standing behind him still in her crop top and cargo pants. Her once smooth midsection, bloodied and warped. The bullet wound still drips blood.
Plink, plink, plink.
Bernard hates the scent of iron.
"Why didn't you save me, Bear?" she asks, her voice echoing, "I thought we were friends."
Thereâs blood dripping down the side of her mouth. Now he remembers, the blood on him isnât Oluâs or Lilaâs â although there is that too â itâs almost overwhelmingly Darlaâs. Heâs covered in it. Elbows deep in it. It streaks up his arms like a macabre tattoo. He wore a white shirt to school today. The stains will never come out. He is Carrie at the end of prom, mortified and humiliated.
He crawls backwards until his back hits the wall, the impact knocking him out of the worst of that night. He's back in the bathroom. The lights hum loudly overhead. Darla hasnât left yet.
She tilts her head, âWhy didnât you help me, Bear? I thought we were friends.â
âWe are,â he rasps out, âwe are friends.â
âAre we?â her eyes have no pupils. His Darls had eyes that shone in the sunlight. His Darls is dead. âThen why am I still bleeding? Why am I still hurting? Why is there a bullet in my stomach, Bear?!â
Sheâs shouting by the end and he flinches. His hands canât seem to stop tugging at his hair. The blood mustâve smeared all over it. Talk about taking strawberry blond literally.
âI swear I did everything I could Darls,â he sobs out quietly, voice cracking, âI followed all of Mrs. Castilloâs instructions as best I could. I put pressure and tied the dressing as tight as I could.â
âYou thought that was enough?â she snarls, hands coming down to grip the wound. It twists grotesquely; he gags, âYou think any of that matters when Iâm dead and youâre still alive?â
âPlease, please. You know I wouldnât leave you to die, Darls. Please, please, please believe me.â
âLiar, liar!â she screams, blood dripping out of her mouth onto her pink LOVE shirt. It darkens as each drop hits it. Soon itâll be completely drenched and sheâll be drowning in it. Where did his smiling friend go? âIâm dead, Bear! Iâm dead, dead, dead and itâs all your fault! Why didnât you save me?! Why didnât you save me?!â
He keens, body curling in on itself. One hand goes down to press on his throat; heâs making too much noise. Nikhilâs just a freshman. He shouldnât have to die just because Bernard couldnât shut up for once in his life.
âPlease,â he whispers raggedly, âI tried, I tried. I swear I tried, Darls.â
âIt hurts, Bear,â she sobs. Darlaâs too young to be sounding so wrecked, âIt hurts so much. Please help me.â
All of sudden, itâs too much. The taste of iron sits heavy on his tongue and Darla wonât stop sobbing. His fingers fumble for his phone and he presses one. It rings once, twice and finally on the third ring does a voice answer.
âBear?â the other side says groggily.
âTy please, I can't do this anymore,â he sobs.
Tyrone suddenly sounds a lot more alert, âBear whatâs going on?â
âDarla wonât stop crying and she keeps on screaming that itâs my fault she died.â he wails, âI know I shouldâve done more but please, can you tell her I tried? That I stayed with her until the end? She wonât listen to me, Ty. She wonât listen to me.â
Thereâs a muffled yell of âBabe!â on the other end. âYeah,â Ty breathes out, âIâll tell her.â
âYou put me on speaker, okay?â Ty instructs, âAnd you gotta tell me if sheâs nodding or if sheâs gone or if she said anything, alright? I canât see her.â
âOkay,â he whispers, pulling the phone away from his ear to press the speaker button.
âYou tell me when to start, Bear,â he says, voice filling the bathroom. Darla looks up from where sheâs sobbing.
âYou can start now Ty,â he rasps out, holding the phone out.
âHey Darla,â Ty says, âBear told me you said a lotta mean things about him. Stuff like, âheâs the reason you diedâ and that âhe never caredâ. Darla, you gotta believe me when I say Bear never stopped caring. He held your hand the whole way through. Told you stories about all the things you two were gonna do once you got out of that nurseâs office. He tried, Darla, honest. Iâve never seen him as focused as when you stopped breathing and Mrs. Castillo had him give you CPR. He couldnât stop sobbing the whole time.â
âBut Iâm still dead,â she says.
âBut Iâm still dead,â he repeats.
Ty inhales sharply, âYeah,â he says thickly, âyou are. And Iâll never stop being sorry about that. But you canât take that out on Bear. Heâs just trying to live his life.â
Darlsâ face twists up like a childs, âBut it hurts,â she cries.
âButâ, but it hurts,â he repeats, voice hitching.
Ty curses, âOh, fuck. I canât do this. Babe, can youâ?â
âYeah, of course.âÂ
âHey, Darla. Itâs me, Jimmy from the football team. I donât know if you remember me but I remember you. After high school, me and Tyrone ended up getting married. Somewhere between shitty weed brownies and bad college parties, we fell in love. Isnât that nice?â
Darls nods; he tells them as such.
âWe visited you after the ceremony. I hope you felt that wherever you are these days. But the point Iâm trying to make is that from all Iâve told you just now, you can probably figure out that Ty and I didnât go pro like we planned. The shooting fucked up Tyâs knee and and my arm. After the hospital stays, playing football for a whole bunch of people just didnât sound appealing anymore. Weâre high school teachers now. Ty teaches math and I teach gym. When it rains or gets cold, my arm and Tyâs knee hurts like hell. But Darla, it doesn't hurt forever. It gets better, I promise.â
âDarla,â Jimmy says, voice unusually serious, âyouâre right, you are dead and it does hurt. Iâm sorry, Iâll never stop being sorry. I donât know if itâll ever go away for you; Iâm not too much of an expert on the supernatural. Tyâs the smart one, after all. But I love you, Ty loves you, Bear loves you. I hope that when it hurts the most you can use that as a balm.â
âAuntie Bea loves you too!â Tyâs mom hollers from the background, âAunt Betty, too!â
Ty laughs wetly and Jimmy snorts, âDoes that sound okay?â they ask.
Darls smiles, her teeth stained red from all the blood that built up in her mouth. Bernard misses her with an ache he feels in his bones. Darls nods.
âShe nodded,â he says quietly. He blinks once and sheâs gone. Where did she go? Doesnât she know that the gunmen are still at large? She needs to be somewhere safe. He canât lose a friend today.
âBear, Bear, you gotta breathe. Take a deep breath for me, câmon,â Jimmy says.
âSheâs gone, Jim. Sheâs gone again. Why does she keep leaving?â he says, crying. His body canât stop trembling. How long has he been here? How much time has he missed?
âI miss the cult,â he whispers, âI never had things like this happen when I was with them.â
âYeah,â Ty snaps, ââCause you were high off of like 50 different pain meds âcause you let them whip you.â
âTy, not helping.â
âMove over, let me talk to him."
"Hey, sweetheart," Auntie Bea's voice crackles through his tiny speaker, "I know you're tired and I know you're hurting. I know you miss the cult but you gotta breathe for me, okay? You're gonna pass out otherwise."
"I can't, I can't," he gasps out.Â
"Sure you can, you just gotta tell me five things you can see. Can you list those five things for me?"
Bernard desperately tries to get his breathing under control, "The sink is dirty."
"Good, good. Anything else?"Â
"The tiles need to be re-grouted."
Aunt Betty barks out a laugh. Bernard's lips twitch upward.
"Keep going."
"My pants, my white shirt, my ID badge," he rattles off.
They talk him through the rest of the grounding techniques and by the time he feels like he's in control again, he's exhausted. His eyes hurt and his throat is dry.Â
"Can you tell us why you spiraled so hard, Bear? This hasn't happened in a long time," Jimmy asks.
"I spoke to Tim again," he says simply. He pushes himself up onto his feet and walks over to the sink. Setting the phone down on the counter, he grips the sink with both hands and just breathes. The Bernard in the mirror looks like he just came out of a warzone, eyes haunted, hair messed up.Â
"Oh fuck," Ty says, "Where did you even meet him?"
"At my new job at Wayne Ent."
"Why would you apply there?" Jimmy asks, stressed.
"I didn't know! It's not like I've had a lotta time in the past few years to check the news!"
"Well, whatever, whatâs done is done." Ty says, ever practical, "Are you going to quit?"
"No!â he says vehemently.
âNo,â he repeats quieter, âWayne has the best benefits and Mori needs that. Iâll just suck it up and try to avoid him.â
âDonât be fucking stupid,â Aunt Betty says.
âMa!â
âOh be quiet Jimmy. Iâve never heard of a more stupider thing. Heâs your CEO, Bear, and he knows you work there. Heâs obviously going to want âto catch upâ or whatever. There is no avoiding him. Can you handle that?â
What can he say? Aunt Betty is right. He canât handle talking to Tim. Even seeing Tim felt like touching a live wire. He canât deal with another episode. Mori doesnât need him to be fucked up, Mori needs him to be the stable adult he promised the courts he was.Â
âYou canât, sweetheart,â she says softly, âyou canât handle it.â
Thereâs some shuffling on the other end of the phone.Â
âBear,â Ty says gently, âI love you, man. Youâre my brother. Jimmy loves you, Mama loves you, Aunt Betty loves you. But you gotta start thinking about therapy.â
âI know, I know,â he sighs, âI shouldnâtâve dragged you into this. Iâmââ
Ty cuts him off with an exasperated huff, âItâs not about that Bear. Iâll keep talking to your hallucinations for as long as you need me too. Even when weâre seventy, Iâll do it for you. I donât care about that. I care about you and I want you to be happy and healthy. I donât want you to keep seeing Darla. I donât want you to keep trying to scrub the blood off your hands.Â
âAnd I know youâve been avoiding therapy âcause you donât got the money and âcause talking about your problems is scary but itâs not just you anymore. You got Mori now. That custody claim is going through. You canât just avoid things âcause theyâre hard now. You work at Wayne now; that paycheck is more than enough to set a few dollars aside each month to save up for therapy. Hell, mental health probably comes with your medical benefits. Please, Bear. If you canât get help for you, then do it for us, for Mori. Please stop making us watch you hurt.â
Bernard exhales shakily.
âI never wanna find you the way we did after the cult, Bear. I never wanna see you in the hospital bed like that again. Please donât do that to us, please,â Ty whispers.
Unconsciously, his hand comes up to rub at the scar left behind from the sacrifice. It stretches along the length of his sternum, jagged and rough. On good days, he can pretend that itâs a scar from a heart surgery. He doesnât have that many good days.
Bernard presses the heel of his palms into his eyes before using his hands to scrub at his face. Heâs always so tired these days.
âOkay,â he says simply, âokay.â
âOkay?â Ty asks hopefully.
âOkay, youâre right. Itâs not just me anymore. Mori deserves the best and Iâm gonna give it to him. And I love Tim, I think Iâll always love Tim but he clearly doesnât give a shit about me. So I gotta make my peace with it or Iâll go crazy.â
Ty whoops, âThank you, thank you, thank you!â he chants.
âBear, itâs still the middle of the workday,â Jimmy says, although he too, sounds happy. Auntie Bea and Betty are muttering about a feast, he thinks. âDonât you have to get back to work?â
âYeah, thatâs if Iâm not fired already,â he mutters.
âHey!â Jimmy admonishes, âOptimism only, no pessimism.â
âAlright, alright. I gotta get back to work now. Thanks guys.â
âOf course, weâll let you go now. Ma wants me to tell you that weâre having dinner at your place today.â
âAunt Betty,â he whines, âI havenât cleaned and you and Auntie Bea are just looking for a reason to spoil Mori.â
âAbsolutely,â they say, unashamed, âheâs our only grandson. We have to spoil him.â
âFine,â he sighs but heâs smiling. Fuck, he loves these people. God knows he wouldnât have survived the past six years without them.
âBye Bear,â they say before he hangs up, âGood luck on your first day!â
He cuts the phone and slides it back into his pocket. Turning on the tap, he splashes some cold water onto his face. Using his wet hands, he tries to rearrange his mussed up hair into something acceptable for an office job.
Time to face the music Darls, he tells her smiling face in the mirror. She gives him a thumbs up in return.
The walk back to his office feels like a death sentence. Heâs fucked this up, he knows it. Freaking out over a small interaction with his CEO and then running away only to come back two hours later? Itâs over, done for. Bernard takes comfort in the fact that at least the severance package will be nice.
Stepping into the office, immediately draws the eyes of his team members. Every step towards his team leaderâs office feels nerve-wracking. Just before he enters, Esperanza, the teamâs second in command, stops him.
âWhatever happened,â she says, âjust explain it to him. Young-joonâs a reasonable man, heâs not gonna yell at you.â
Some of the tension leaves him and he nods. Knocking on the door, he enters. His team leader looks up and smiles.
âAh, Bernard! Why donât you take a seat for me?â
He crosses his wrists behind his back, âIâd rather stand, sir.â
His team leader looks confused, ââSirâ? Just call me Young-joon like I told you.â
âAnyway, after you left, I took the liberty of going through your file to see if there was anything I missed. I hope that wasnât overstepping my boundaries.â
âNo s-, Young-joon. Youâre fine.â
Young-joon sighs and pushes the file he was reading before Bernard came in forward. Itâs his file.Â
âIâm going to say some statements,â he says, âand I want you to confirm whether itâs true or not. If any of these questions make you uncomfortable, just tell me okay? Iâll drop it immediately.â
Bernard nods.
âYou went to Louis E. Grieves Memorial High School.â
âYes.â
âBased on the dates you put in your file, you were there for the shooting.â
â...Yes. Junior year.â
âYou know our CEO.â
âYes,â he breathes out.
âHow?â
He used to fall asleep on my shoulder during lunch and I would listen to him breathe. Heâs got moles all over his face. Darls once connected them with a sharpie. His step-mom was so hot, I thought Iâd spontaneously combust every time she smiled. HIs dad didnât really like me and flirting with his wife didnât help my case. The Drake condo had a crocheted flower blanket on the sofa that his mom had made during her pregnancy. He liked to skateboard but couldnât roller-blade to save his life. I have all this love and nowhere to put it.
âItâs a little private,â he says instead.
âIâm only asking because we work quite closely with him. We see him often and if that makes you uncomfortable, then I can have you transferred to another team.â
His shoulders sag, âWe went to Grieves together for one year. Our mutual friend died. Itâs a little hard to look at him.â
âJesus Christ.â Young-joon says, âOkay well the offer is still on the table, Bernard. Do you want to be transferred?â
âNo, I like your team. Iâd like to stay,â he says, firmly.
âAre you sure?â Youn-joon asks, eyebrows raised.
âYes.â
âOkay then,â and itâs like a switch had flipped. Gone is his serious team leader and in its place is the man he met this morning.
âIf you plan on staying,â he says smiling, âthen my primary recommendation is that you use the medical benefits the company gives you to find a therapist. If you need help, the infirmary here will walk you through it.âÂ
Oh thank god it comes included with his medical, Ty will be overjoyed to hear that. But first, he has to ask Young-joon why heâs doing all this. Bernard knows his experience with authority figures is a little skewed towards the shitty side of the spectrum but even so, people usually arenât so kind in his experience.
âWhy are you doing this? Why didnât you fire me? Why are you helping me?â
Young-joon chuckles, âDo you want to be fired?â
âNo! But still, why are you helping me?â
Young-joon sighs and stands up. Walking around his desk, he stops right in front of Bernard. Young-joon puts a hand on his shoulder.
âThis city takes a lot out of its people, believe me I know. And you were so young, when Gotham took her piece of you. It wasnât fair of you to go through that. Just like it wasnât fair to me and my wife when we got kidnapped as children. These kinds of things donât go away. I still get worked up over zip-ties. My wife still has nightmares. All you can do is learn to live with it.
âYou seem like a good kid with a good head on your shoulders. Iâd hate to see all that potential go to waste âcause you kept getting trapped in your mind. I had a lot of help to get to where and who I am today. Consider this, me paying it forward. One day, I hope you can pay it forward too.â
His eyes feel suspiciously wet. âThank you,â he chokes out, âthank you.â
Young-joon laughs, âThereâs no need for the waterworks, Bernard. Now, pack up your things and go home. Youâre in no state to analyze data today but I expect you here at 9AM sharp tomorrow, alright?â
Bernard mock salutes, âYes, sir.â
âGoodbye, Bernard.â
Right before he exits, he turns around and calls out his team leaderâs name.
âYoung-joon,â Young-joon looks up confused, âyou can call me Bear, by the way.â
A wide grin stretches across his team leaderâs face, âOkay then. Goodbye Bear, see you tomorrow.â
Walking out of the office, it feels like a burden has been lifted off his shoulders. Esperanza takes one look at him and snorts.
âYou just got Young-joon-ed, huh?â
His jaw drops, âHe does that often enough you guys have a name for it?â
The other team members laugh, âWelcome to Data Analysis Team 1, kiddo. We look forward to working with you from now on.â
Smiling, he gathers his things and leaves after a few goodbyes. Once outside the building, the smile drops. Itâs an hour-and-a-half bus ride from Wayne Tower to his house. The bus stop sits right in front of the tower too. Some new initiative by the mayor to promote the city moving towards green energy. Hey look, even rich people take the bus! What a fucking joke.
The tower warps the sunlight around it and he stares up at the top floor. Is Tim watching? Can Tim see him from up there? Does he care or was it just the shock of seeing someone he once knew this morning? Has Tim ever thought about him, about them? Or were they just moments in his life? Perpendicular lines, intersecting once and then never again.
I miss you, he thinks staring at the top floor, I miss you more than anything but Iâll walk into oncoming traffic before I ever reach for you again.
The bus pulls up next to him and he snags a seat in the back. Dropping his head onto the seat in front of him, he stares out the window. Darls smiles back at him in the window reflection, perpetually sixteen. Heâs twenty-two now.
Fuckinâ hell Darls, he thinks wearily, weâre really in it now.
Darls places her hand against the glass, he leans his shoulder onto it. If he closes his eyes, he can almost feel her warmth.
Weâll make it through, she says.
The bus rumbles forward and he lets the cracked streets of Gotham lull him to sleep. Heâll make it through.
A/N: chami! i hope you like it!!! i've never gifted a fic before, i don't really know how this works. and to everyone who read it, i hope you liked it too! please leave your thoughts in the reblogs or replies!!! i miss the days when td:r was coming out and we were all collectively freaking out. anyway when i said loosely based, i really did mean loosely. props to you guys if you can figure out the direct references to the drama. but this is a one-shot. i'm not gonna be writing anything else for this 'verse? au? (god i'm always so worried im using em dashes wrong)
if you have questions or you're confused by something i wrote, feel free to ask questions or send an ask or message. oh, and i know some people like know the exact wordcount. so, it's exactly 6,785 words long. nice number right?
also, please note that if you want to make art or a podfic or hell, even fanfiction of this, feel free to do so! i hope that's not too presumptuous or anything. idk i see fanfic writers make this disclaimer all the time, so i thought i'd do it to.
thank you for reading!
#god i'm exhausted#writing the latter end of a fic always feels like finishing a marathon#no more fics for like the next 6 months (<- me when i lie)#anyway big fan of the bear hallucinates darla club!#currently there's only one member (me) but you can change that#also favorite trope ever is when you see a regular dude and you're like 'what a nice normal dude' and then you talk to him for like#5 minutes and you're like '/oh./ this dude has something wrong with him'#also the tyrone/jimmy pairing? do you see my vision?#also big fan of the the shooting was worse than what you see in rr club!#it's just there was a city-wide gang war and all the gangs came to grieves to kill darla and you're telling me only she died???#i think way more people died. i think too many people died actually. i think the school had to do remote learning for all of tyrone's sr yr#cause the renovations were too much.#also just to clarify#the is hallucination!darla and there is the darls he sees all the time. no they are not the same to him. yes he is mentally ill.#also yes!! superheroes do exist in this world!!! i just didn't mention them.#also if we're being a little self-critical for a moment#(don't look at this part) i feel like i could've ended this at a way earlier point in the story but i had such a strong vision of what the#fic was supposed to be like that i just wrote everything#anyway lets start tagging#bernard dowd#tim drake#timbern#timber#dc#red robin tyrone#red robin jimmy
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Genuinely love how excited Tilly is at the beginning of Sean's return party. The way she squeals "SEAN :D" Also the little "I'd like to see you try" like she genuinely thinks he's so fun/funny and is so openly happy to have him back. I'd love to see them do a mission together or even just have more interactions :)
#also i like to think she saves sean's hide at one point. its my little headcanon and im sticking by it#he plays the womanizing fool a lot but he absolutely drinks respect women juice (except for that one scene with karen you know the one)#i like to think sean and tilly have a sweet friendship and mutual respect for each other#its clear shes comfortable with his jokes which implies a lot of trust in him which I think is nice#sean macguire#tilly jackson#hes up there on his soapbox doing his little speech being a silly little braggart#he really missed his gang buddies :')#also he started drinking so quickly to escape the trauma from his torture on top of just to have fun :)))#also the whiskey eases the pain
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going further. franks child self was living in that one room with a strange weirdo boy he dreamed up but never really had. now his inner child isnât alone anymore. he plays games with his real charlie in their terrible one room apartment. getting weird with it and being okay with being weird no matter what everyone on the outside might think. sharing a bed together to feel the comfort in being close to that
macs child self had charlie the whole time. inseparable. a package deal. the most genuine connection and comfort in both of their neglected tiny lives. not just because they were otherwise alone. decades later theyre not going anywhere. now their inner child rides bikes together they throw rocks at trains together they teach each other about the world just like they needed so desperately in old times
dennisâ child self never had charlie. not until highschool. but that was exactly when he experienced his csa. his inner child found charlie at the exact right moment. caught him when he fell. he got his child self back through charlie just as he lost feeling. and now what do the two of them do together? they go recreate memories and recapture lost youth with a mutual unspoken understanding of why
they all need charlie. relaxing into his genuine youthful energy lets them feel that way again.
#iasip#charlie kelly#:) the first one is the âplaying together in this room all dayâ from the last post i wanted to make it clearer#i wrote a part about dee but i decided its better to reblog with comment instead of one post#because this feels so good to me. so nice to think about him being uplifting. but not possible to ignore the darker aspects of his childhood#give you options#delicate.#im trying to be cautious#but you cant talk about the gang without dee and you cant talk about child selves without trauma. its not Honest not Authentic not Genuine#it does feel sad its kinda tough to touch on it. delicate yk yk#but she seeks charlies natural lack of ambition and a brother who doesnt push her to prop himself up#dees brother fought her and charlies sisters fought him. both cases about superiority. dee fights back charlie ignores#csa warning#kid selves#frank reynolds#bc theres no attention paid to him
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thinking about be cool scooby doo fred on this delightful evening. he's afraid of widths. he gets emotional over a drumkit. he knows how to apply eyeliner perfectly. he's a sleep deprived, paranoid, manic danger to himself and others. he becomes enemies with a goat. his shoulders are so tense that they can break a chair. he goes to jail twice. where on earth did he get the funds to give the mystery machine all those high-tech upgrades. he hired a guy to make his epiphanies look more dramatic. the exterior of his house is an affront to god. he cannot take care of himself to save his life. he is a middle aged dad stuck in the body of an eighteen year old. he has childhood trauma related to halloween. he accidentally parked his van on a space shuttle. he is consistently aggravated by daphneâs commitment to the bit. he really needs to let go of those tiny red shorts. he's a court jester. he represents the order to his criminal father's chaos. he has control issues stemming from this but tries to overcome them for the sake of the gang and always apologises when he goes too far and knows that even when they wind him up it isn't a threat because he loves and trusts them so much and they care about him in turn even before he fully opens up to them about his childhood andâ
#i finished the show earlier this month and MAN do i have feelings about this guy#i was working on a piece based on the finale but had to put it on hold for dtiys stuff#i'll return to it when i can!!!#needless to say i adore this fred#i wasn't sure of him at first due to my attachment to the goofier freds of recent memory like wnsd and sdmi#but bcsd is an absolute joy in his own right and one of my favourite freds for sure#it's a nice change of pace to see him mostly in the neurotic straight man role#but the writers still give him silly moments aplently!! night of the upsetting shorts might be the funniest sd episode ever made#also his character development in learning to work through his control issues and trust the gang more is subtle yet rewarding#and the finale. i promise i cried a normal amount. at a show called BE COOL SCOOBY DOO#anyway goodnight coolsville ohio please watch bcsd it's unbelievably good#scooby doo#fred jones#fred scooby doo#be cool scooby doo#nem misc posts :]#scooby doo and nemmet too!
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