#ngl if i finish my book + get it published

[delimeful]

Omg im sorry ppl r being rude. Can i offer some glazing in these trying times?

Ur writing is so amazing the fact that i get to read it for free (regardless of update schedule) is so fabulous

Ur incredible at building suspense and making the characters feel colorful and theyre always so well written. Im never left unsatisfied with any of your chapters. If u published a book id be all over it and showing up to ur bedroom window like a vampire to get it autographed

I am in so much pain and writhing on the floor in agony when i read your angst but isnt that what lifes all about? 😌

Plz never stop putting characters in situations i will give you my first born

wahhh thank you dove you are too sweet :') i've been having some doubts about my own writing lately because of the chronic illness brainfog™, so i'm happy to hear that people are still enjoy my stuff despite it all 💚

*upon receiving your firstborn* oh sick a baby. i shall dub thee marquis strawberry fruitrollup the first. okay you can have it back now.

[13reasonstoeatthatcake]

I really want to know how Lilith Sorrengail feels about trying her best to get her youngest daughter away from whatever it was that her dad supposedly found in the Archives after Brennan 'died', just to get said daughter even more involved with the tyrrish rebellion two: electric boogaloo.

[technicolorxsn]

love how there are pretentious video essays that just repeat the book and meander and ramble about house of leaves. it's what zampanó would have wanted. it is not, however, what I want

[acerola-tree]

theres so many greek mythology retellings.....

[chaoticfvckingdisaster]

No normal way to say you want someone to scroll through the pinterest boards you put your blood sweat and tears into making for your own characters. Like I need you to understand my love for this little guy. What do you mean a picture of a tree doesn't convey his thoughts and ambitions. It does to me

[thoughtfulseason]

the golden potato post (and months of manifesting) didn’t help guys. i didn’t win the contest :/

[no-where-new-hero]

omg I need your thoughts on the terminally o line author culture bc ngl it makes my eye TWITCH, there are authors I deliberately avoid even tho I've heard their stuff is good bc they're like that 🙈

HHHHH oh good lord, okay, from how I see it, there are two angles on this, both aggravating and sad: the official decree one and the spontaneous ecosystem one.

The officious one is that the nature of publishing nowadays demands an author have an online presence. You need Twitter/X. You need to let every potential reader know your book is coming out. You need engagement through reviews and pre-orders incentives (if you buy now you’ll get a special keychain!!) and word of mouth assurances from your peers that yes your book is as cool as you say it is. You need a newsletter with links (more buying! more voting on lists that are simply popularity contests!) and promises you’re still working on the next thing, don’t forget about me in the morass of everyone else doing the same thing. You need an Instagram and TikTok now to post pretty pictures and videos because one or two authors made it big off this kind of promotion and now everyone thinks it’s the ticket to the bestseller list (sadly, it seems to be working). You need an OnlyFans (a joke but I do recall a twt spat that was a joke/not joke about how rupi kaur will always be more beautiful than her critics and people who took issue with the conflation of beauty with talent). At the end of all this, you’re basically an influencer, a content creator creating content for the content you should be focusing on creating, the finished novel. And the novel itself seems to be disappearing behind the masks used to promote it (fanfic-style tropes, moodboards, playlists, memes) until I now no longer trust the book that I’ll pick up to have any resemblance to the enticements that brought me here. I’ve seen an author or two complain about the stress all this self-promotion generates, but it’s become such an entrenched part of the industry, I think people just accept it. And thus spend too much time online hoping that if they tweet just a little more, produce just one more reel, maybe that’ll be the difference between a sale and no sale.

The other side of this, distinct but obviously connected, is the ecosystem created by this panic of being perpetually visible coupled with the fact that so many of the new authors came of age during the rise of internet fandom culture. That opinionated community mindset that blurs the line between anonymity and friendship is the lens they bring to their own work. I mean, it makes sense I suppose—if you love yelling about characters and words, why wouldn’t you do that once you start to produce your own? This really came home to me hearing about that reviewbombgate “scandal” and how people involved were in reylo circles and that was used to provide receipts. You’re interacting with your readers and peers about your intimate work but they are also all strangers. They will not always give you the benefit of the doubt, and now—as opposed to the past when maybe the worst that could happen was a handful of bad reviews in newspapers—you will either be tagged in hate reviews, sub-tweeted, explicitly called out, demanded to atone for your sins. It’s no longer the morality of consumption but the morality of production. Of course, the easy answer is just log-off, touch some grass. But that can work only when you and everyone else are separated by anonymous accounts or when you have no platform to maintain. As an author trying to make your livelihood from this, suddenly it’s do or die. We’re in a strange moment of authorship bringing the Internet’s echo-chamber and claustrophobic into the real world (this is a lie: publishing now is no longer the real world. But it looks like it) and thus you can kind of no longer escape things.

Will the average reader who isn’t aware of all these machinations care about reviewbombgate? Would a reader browsing at Target think about the controversies around Lightlark? Very likely not. But the impression I’m getting more and more is that the average reader isn’t the one buying all the books. Or shall we say—a bestseller’s status relies on bookstore stock. Bookstore stock is only huge when they know a book will be a good investment. They’ll only know a book is a good investment if it and its author has street cred based on booktokkers, bookstagram, bloggers and reviewers (have you noticed how many books out these last maybe 1-3 years have these kinds of accounts thanked in the acknowledgments? Yeah), and THESE are also chronically online people who will Know. And decide the cast of fate.

Honestly, @batrachised, I see why you avoid these kinds of writers, though I wonder how long it’ll be before the disease becomes epidemic.

[sorryimananti-romantic]

You always write the most out of the box plots and plot twists like I think I'm getting somewhere and bam! Something else happens that I would have seen coming if I wasn't so dumb 🤭 Thank you for writing actual stories and actual plots for Ateez! I'm sure you could take any of your fics and publish it as its own book. All of them have the potential.

(If you have been charmed by my flattery, might I get a hint of what's next in store? Simply cannot wait.)

-🦄

omgg ahhaha thank you :')) no you're not dumb dw lol it happens! thank you for the love!

i hope i can keep writing actual stories/plots for ateez dfghjkfhg that's honestly the highest compliment i can receive so thank you sooo much <33 this brain isn't running out of plots for my eight gay pirates anytime soon hehe (there is honestly such a lack of actual stories and plots lately in general)

since i have been charmed, but not enough to spill the whole tea (kidding i just don't want to spoil anything imp):

Light (oneshot) ??seonghwa x ??reader (try guessing the trope you'll fail) also i've just started this (5k done) and i just hope i can finish it smoothly it's a tough one ngl

The Leaders (series) mafia au, very political, very plot heavt, kinda dark, slow burn, 80k words done and we're like only barely 40% into it oops (i think now is the time to reveal that it is indeed ot8? since i'm spoiling might drop some sort of a teaser soon once i cross that 50% threshold)

[tichiox1]

Watching movies with the Kaulitz twins ✧

A/n : Yoo you guys really loved my Gustav imagine thank you so much for reading this book you guys don't know how much this means to me, and another kaulitz twins one shot coming soon , should i make Bill the end game or Tom? Anyways thanks for reading!!

Word count : 700

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☆Bill kaulitz☆

➯ After a busy day, you saw how tired Bill is so, what do you do when you want to relax at home ? You watch movies of course!!

➯ Bill likes your idea and suggested he'll make popcorn and get drinks! "That sounds amazing! Wait here I'll go get us something to drink , do you want popcorn too?".

➯ You suggested to help him and he was very thankful for your help , ( He almost knocked the popcorn off your hands on the way to the living room because he laughed too hard about something funny you said).

➯ When you two went to the living room , (no lights of course to set the mood jk) and Bill being Bill he doesn't know what to choose from the variety of movies so you decided to help him.

➯ You decided to pick a horror movie to watch , and you noticed he was snuggling to you closer than usual ( he sometimes squeaks and flinch and he covers his eyes with the blanket or his hands when a scary part comes up, poor Bill is scared).

➯Your hands sometimes touches when you grab popcorn.

➯ You two also watched 'The notebook' and you were just watching the movie peacefully but then you heard sniffling besides you (You didn't question him or anything since you were lowkey crying too , all you did was rub his back to comfort him).

➯He eats alot of the popcorn , he eats like almost all of it but you don't mind of course.

➯ Bill is the first one to fall asleep , for example you'll just feel something leaning on your shoulder , and when you look to your shoulder , you'll see him just sleeping , or maybe when you were watching something funny and you laughed , but you were confused since Bill isn't laughing too or making any reaction so, you just look to your side and see Bill sleeping in the corner of the couch.

➯Bill likes holding you close whenever the two of you were just watching movies, he also likes playing with your hair when he gets bored.

➯When he gets extra bored he likes to paint your nails while you watch the Tv or while talking to each other.

➯Cuddling while watching movies is a must!! Especially while watching horror movies , he likes to snuggle close to you .

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❦Tom kaulitz❦

➛ He was also very tired after a long day of practicing his guitar solo , his hands are also sore , When you saw how tired he is you thought of something that might cheer him up , watching movies together!.

➛ Tom likes your idea and thought it was good so he agreed !.

➛ He also likes eating snacks when watching movies!! (Popcorn, chips , ect)

➛ Tom helped you carry the snacks to the living room (he carried it all ngl).

➛ When you two watch movies , he likes for you to sit between his legs and wrap his arms around you, he also sways you side to side when he hugs you.

➛ When you watch horror movies , he pretends he's not scared but deep inside he's scared af.

➛ He likes it when you lean on his shoulder when you two watch movies together.

➛ When the two of you watched 'The notebook' He pretends lile he's not about to cry , but when he sees you getting sad because of it, he'll hold you closer and will ask you if you want to change the movie.

➛ He's the last one to fall asleep , when you fall asleep he'll carry you to the bedroom or he'll cover you with a blanket and sleep beside you.

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Yoo hope you guys like this headcannon the smut is almost finished but I'm still contemplating if i should publish it or not cuz i lowkey don't know what I'm doing but i have another idea about the kaulitz twins right now like present them or maybe just Bill since he's my fav .

[coalitiongirl]

MARI!!!!!! I JUST GOT THE MARKLESS AUDIOBOOK ON AUDIBLE!!! i am so excited it’s finally out!!! 😭 how are you feeling now that it’s published? 💪 also curious about your future plans / projects if you’d like to share!

yesss i'm so happy!! this book is really half out already 😅😭🥰

I have a few other finished manuscripts that I'd like to make books someday!! Hopefully sometime soon 🩵

The first is about a demon girl who lives in a national park. When a Youtuber who hunts demons shows up in the national park, she goes undercover with the humans to try to protect the demons of the park– and has to reckon with her own humanity (or lack thereof).

The second is about a princess who was engaged to a prince– only for him to have a fairytale love story with some other girl and run off with her mid-wedding. The princess tries to make a new life for herself, accidentally dragging the Big Bad Villainess along with her, and gets caught up in rebellion, magic, and bad limericks.

They're two of my favorite things that I've ever written (and two of my favorite sapphic girls ever ngl) and I'm hoping they will make it to you someday!!!

[whimsyfinny]

Hi everyone!

So, ngl, I didn't think I'd be posting this so soon, but I'm going to be taking a bit of a hiatus. Basically I've been working on my own book, and I'm balls deep in this manuscript and if I stop to write anything else at all, it's never going to get finished. I've had amazing support from my closest people, so I really need to see this through.

But have no fear! The fanfics will continue! Once I find an agent and can hand things over to them, I'll take a break and carry on.

So please be patient with me, my brain doesn't sleep at the moment because it's full of fanfic ideas and original ideas and it's essentially just chaotic mush in my skull at this point.

I'm still adding to taglists and responding to messages/comments etc, I just won't be posting for a bit.

I love you all, and tbh the main reason I've gotten so far with my own book is because you guys made me feel good about my writing, and if/when I eventually get published, my thanks will be aimed at everyone here.

I love you all!

Stay wild

-Finny

[cypressmoons]

𝐬𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧 𝐝𝐚𝐲𝐬 (alhaitham)

summary: you were a new haravatat student eager to learn all that the akademiya has to offer. you were also a hopeless romantic hoping to find your true love match one day. but when you receive a phone call that puts your future in jeopardy, you have to make a choice...hurry, you only have seven days. a/n: i'm ngl this was 100% inspired by a scenario i ran into when playing the sims today lmao i had never come across this random event before so i decided to play it but it's giving story material!! hope u enjoy.also consider this my official "back from hiatus" post! i've decided to stop being a clown and embrace my creative tendencies so drop a request if you want :)

word count: 1,231

the doors to the akademiya were heavy and solid in your hands as you pushed them open, for the first time as a student instead of a wandering kid with wide eyes.

ever since you were little, all you dreamed of was one day claiming a seat at the tables where countless have huddled, browsing the tomes in the libraries where countless have spent sleepless nights, and if you're lucky, maybe one day having your name published on a paper.

so you began your journey, eager to learn from the best of the best. even as other students pointed fingers behind your back and called you an ass kisser, teacher's pet, try hard, whatever it is they came up with, you were determined to be nothing less than the top 1% of students. your teachers quickly took a liking to you, contrary to what the other students liked to say, and were always willing to spend a couple extra hours after class to discuss the most recent scholarly journals or new books you've read.

this includes, even to your own surprise, the scribe of the akademiya and haravatat's finest.

there was nothing attached to your purely academic relationship. alhaitham would leave a book or two on your favourite library seat with little slips of paper tucked between the pages, scribbled with his thoughts on why they were a worthy read and your name always printed in neat script at the top. when you were finished with them, you would return the note to the mailbox outside his office, your own interpretations of the book written on the back of the same paper.

it's not how most people conversed about scholarly matters, but it's one that worked best for the two of you.

the scribe has clearly taken a liking to you, and you are not oblivious to the whispers when you tuck yet another note into his mailbox. you hear them speculating what is so special about you, about how they haven't seen the scribe talk nearly as much to anyone else, and it always gave you a brief rush of superiority as you head down the hallway to your next lecture, knowing that a good friendship with the akademiya's brightest mind would surely challenge your understanding of the material, in a good way.

what you did not see coming, was how this "good way" was open to interpretation.

you had just returned to your residence from a frustrating lesson on deciphering king deshret's runes when your phone rang. the voice on the other end was unfamiliar, almost robotic in a way, as they informed you that you were to receive a large, undisclosed sum of money as inheritance from some faraway relative you had never met.

you were suspicious at first, of course, and you had questioned the stranger's identity and how they came to find you, but something told you that this was not just another telemarketing scam, that there was more to it than potential identity theft and murder. you vaguely remember your mother mentioning family living in the rainforests bordering caravan ribat, perhaps it was one of them?

hearing your hesitancy, the voice spoke again, this time with an almost preposterous proposal.

get married within seven days, and the money is yours.

"it's what they mentioned in the will," he added unhelpfully.

you almost started yelling at him. just where were you going to find a partner, let alone a spouse, in seven days? whoever this relative was, they must've been insane - cursed by aranara magic, hit their head on a tree, fallen down four storeys into a rock-

then you started to question if the stranger was a mind reader as he reminded you that you were deeply in debt.

you rolled your eyes but didn't deny it outright. it's true that studying at the akademiya had put a huge dent in your pocket, and if you wanted to further your studies - which you surely did - you would need at least another few years worth of tuition.

you pinched the bridge of your nose for a few moments to gather your thoughts. there's no way your dead relative, or this "lawyer" of theirs, would know if you file for a divorce as soon as you get the inheritance, right? the will only said "marriage", not "staying married". yes - it seems you had found a solution to your worsening financial situation.

"fine. give me seven days."

"you got it, then."

you tried not to think about what sounded like a knowing smile in the man's voice when he hung up. you had seven days, and it was starting now.

it was strange, really, how the first person you thought of was alhaitham.

but, how in the world would you explain your sudden display of affection? it would be the ultimate form of disrespect if you ever disclosed that your liking to him was based out of a desperate attempt to not go broke. alhaitham was not stupid, and neither were you. but the more you think about it, the more he seems like the perfect candidate: smart, kind, caring, with similar academic interests and always catering to your every need.

you rise from your seat, deciding that you would allow yourself one day, not a minute more, to test the waters and see if alhaitham was really the one.

and if he isn't, you still have six days to find a husband. surely there is got to be someone in this vast city ready for marriage no matter the circumstance? you have heard enough parents pressuring their children to get married to know that there are more than one anxious bachelor out there, tired of the constant questions.

there's no time to lose. you check the clock - it's barely past seven - and you know alhaitham is still holed up in his office, working through the mountain of papers that only seem to pile up higher each time you visit him.

the walk to the akademiya feels shorter than normal, frantic, even, as you write three thousand different scripts in your head like the main character of a dating sim game, complete with dialogue options and green (or red) indicators of how much relationship you've gained (or lost) with the male lead. you almost want to laugh at yourself. even in this dire circumstance, you still find a way to make up some scenario of the romance bar instantly shooting to 100 the moment you open your mouth.

reality is often disappointing, and you're about to learn it the hard way.

"just leave them on my- y/n."

you had not given yourself the opportunity to pace in the hallway or debate the practicality of your methods in fear that you would give up altogether. so when you appear in the doorway of his office, still catching your breath from sprinting up the stairs, alhaitham is surprised to say the least.

"alhaitham."

you nod as a greeting and clear your throat, and he pauses his reading to look up at you.

"everything alright? you look rather...flushed."

if you weren't flushed before, his comment is enough to make your skin heat up to an extent where an amurta scholar would be concerned for your health.

you force aside all the noise and doubts in your head, shutting your eyes before blurting out:

"how would you like to get married?"

there's definitely gonna be a part 2 so don't worry hehe i just like leaving you on cliffhangers <3 anyways drop a comment if you'd like me to tag you when i post part 2!

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[darcydarlingdabbles]

❣️🖋️ Darcy Darling’s Writing Update 🖋️

Dec 17th, 2024

(yes, I'm using the banner again. Causes it's pretty and I like it~)

🩷Fanfics |✒️Original Fics |🩸Fave Comments

~Fanfics~

At Mid Winter~

Posting every day until Christmas ~

All other fics on pause for the holidays

I made a new Banner for this AU~ first fic listed on my master post

Falling for the Morningstars ~

The rough draft is about...8 chapters ahead of the posted fic

The tension, is delicious~

I write linearly, but this is the slowest burn I've written and I AM DYING.

Until the Devil's Last Dance ~

First draft of Part 2 completed last night at 1am XD

Ngl, the ending of Part 2 made me cry

I can't wait to start Part 3, the in Hell section is my favorite and it has the happy ending~

A Harmony of Haunted Hearts~

This is the Alastor/Charlie/Vaggie one, my only not RadioApple

Rough draft is only about 2 chapters ahead of the posted fic

My other slowburn baby, killing me softly,

The Melody Between Us~

The spin off of The Static Between Us that I said totally wasn't happening but now totally is. XD

I started out writing shameless smut about Vox being cucked, now it's a whole thing.

This fic is last on my list currently, sooo don't expect updates until like mid January. But I'm impulsive so the first chapter/Prologue is up. (it's just a scene setter though don't get too excited XD

~Original Fics~

You can read these for free on Ream, but I've also got a special offer for my fanfic peeps to read for free for a year.

Throuple vs Plant Zombies -

Books 4, 5, and 6 have been vaguely summarized, about to do a chapter outline before the end of the year.

Book 1 is being published Jan 22, 2025 and is on preorder now!

Alpha reader gave me feedback that there was too much drama, not enough zombie...me, dramatic? Never. But I fixed that XD

Smalltown Sheriff 2nd Chance MM -

Book 3 has been finished!

Book 1 is being published Feb 19, 2025 and is on preorder now!

Everywhere but Amazon...thanks Amazon.

Got flagged for being erotica...whoops, look my boys are horny Okayyy? XD

MM Age Gap Superhero/Soulmates -

Book 3 finished this morning!

Book 1 is being published March 19, 2025 and preorder is up now!

Another slow burn bb, why do I do this to myself. The first major sexy scene is the end of book 3...killllling meeeee.

~Fave Comments~

"I love it when they play nice with each other and have each others back 🥹" Ream User on Take Me Home "Oh I loved this so much. Alastor is always the one to console and care for Lucifer. Seeing Alastor being taken care of is so beautiful. Doms also need reassurance that what they're doing is okay by their subs. Consent, words of affirmation, and safe words are for both parties. I'm glad we got to see such vulnerable displays from not only Lucifer but Alastor as well." Kermit_in_disguise on At Mid Winter " Omyfuckinghell!!! 😳😳😳 I think I need to change my pants now....... Al sooooo good and hot as dominant role here, so I understand Vox in 5 chapter. I'm wanna be in Luci's place too... Anyway in all your works which your write amazing sex scenes. Your fics with dominant Al are really one of the best, which i found in Ao3." Anji_Newman on Boys at the Beach

You have no idea how much my ace ass prides myself on having amazing sex scenes XD

Thanks for reading~

[magicalbats]

how do you get out of a bad writers block?? and what inspired u to get back into writing after ur hiatus?

Oof, I’m ngl that’s a bit of a difficult question for me to answer xmdkxkdnd for me at least, I wanted to write pretty much the entire time during my hiatus but I just couldn’t get my brain to function through the ✨ depression fog ✨ and even just opening up a word doc to force myself to write two sentences was extremely draining. My mental headspace just was not there. So what I did a lot of was read books.

I think I’ve read something like almost 60 books this year of different genres and topics - four out of five novels for the Court of Thorns and Roses series, Carrie by Stephen King, some old (really old xmxmdnd) Harlequin romance novels, a folk horror anthology, like six entries from the Anita Blake Vampire Hunter series, etc, etc - and that helped me get back into the mindset of creative thinking. I found inspiration in these works, ideas I wanted to explore, things that left me disappointed with their execution and wanting to do better, and I sort of relearned how to string a narrative together in the process. Then I started reading over some of my old WIPs. In some of them I saw real potential and was even occasionally surprised by my own writing abilities when juxtaposed against all those published novels I’ve read. I’d think to myself “oh, this actually isn’t half bad?” And that would make me want to finish that piece or rework it with things I’ve learned in the interim.

One of the very first things I wrote and completed was that Itto x reader x Gorou kinktober fic. I saw the prompt, had the inspiration and impulsively jotted everything down. When I was finished and I read it over I felt GOOD. Proud of myself for actually completing something from scratch. I thought “hey, maybe I could do another one of these” and then proceeded to write Scara’s (which I’m actually very proud of tbh cmdmxm) and from there it was really just a matter of keeping that momentum going. In particular I think writing them for myself at that point, thinking I might post them some day when I was feeling brave enough to come out of hiding and just enjoying the satisfaction of writing again in the meantime, was what really helped me find my confidence again. It kind of took some of the pressure off of having people perceive me and my work dmdmdmd and I was able to sort of let everything flow organically as a result without worrying about how terrible or messy it was. A lot of this was very spur of the moment and idk if it will actually help you anon but in my case these were the things that helped me kick my extremely uncooperative brain back into gear lol

So the TL;DR of it would probably be to read other stuff. Pay attention to what you like, what you don’t, what makes you excited, sad, horny, happy, grossed out, etc and basically expose yourself to different kinds of writing styles and topics. I’ve read some pretty terrible books over the last year and some amazing ones too, and each one taught me something, even if it was not to do a thing haha. When you revisit your own works approach it like it belongs to one of those other authors, look at it objectively and sort of remove yourself from the equation. I’d say a big part of getting over writers block is just tricking your brain out of it tbh. 🤣 Like I said idk if any of this is helpful but I believe in you, anon! I am cheering for you and I know we’ll get through this together!

[beanghostprincess]

Your book sounds so incredibly interesting! I really loves stories that really get into relationships that aren’t easily describable. I mean this as a full compliment when I say I love the absolute messiness of it. There’s something that’s so human and so real about it, and it seems like your book really gets that in a way that has my full intention.

Is it too early to ask where someone should look to read it? If so, (alternate question) then without spoilers what’s been your favorite part about writing it so far?

What if I cry-- Not to be one of those people but I was so not expecting positive feedback from the post that I'm SO happy right now!!!!!! Thank you so so much!!! 😭💖💖 I absolutely ADORE complex, messy relationships that often cross a morally gray line and yet describe their love in such a pure and sincere way. The whole point of my book is to make them feel extremely human and if you felt that raw, indescribable feeling of humanity with only that post, it makes me the happiest person in the world.

It is a bit too early to ask (because even though I have some stuff written, it is definitely not finished and it still has a long way to go) but I will announce it the moment I start publishing it somewhere!!! Also, if someone has.... Any ideas.... Of any page/app to publish OG books before publishing them physically so I can do it on my own... I'd be very happy to know about them 🫶🏻🙏🏻💖

!!!!!! (Imagine me kicking my feet and jumping around the room because I love talking about this) !!!!!!!!!!!

I think my favorite part of writing (always, but mostly with this plot) is how the characters do whatever the hell they want. I'm someone who needs a very specific story structure to write and always ends up changing stuff along the way, but these characters just do it on their own and have personalities of their own and it is so easy to just follow them wherever they desire to go. It's extremely fun when I suddenly gasp realizing what I'm going to do next because these girls whispered their actions to me. Of course I project stuff I've lived and seen in this book (since it's about something as sensitive as mental health and human relationships with suicide and the views these characters have on humanity) but my favorite thing about writing it is how much I laugh with this. It is an extremely dramatic book, ngl, but it's just so exciting to suddenly have ideas while writing that I end up sending messages to my gf laughing my ass off like "I have no idea how the hell this happened, but Ayleen is doing this now and it's so fun to write".

Something I also adore is being able to be as descriptive as I want in this because Ophelia is, after all, also a writer. Most of the stuff is seen through her eyes and words. I usually feel guilty for being so specific about the environment and the actions characters take when I narrate (since it can be boring for some) but Ophelia is a very meticulous character who focuses on Ayleen's every little move, and I love to show her way of seeing her. That being said, I also enjoy writing Ayleen and her perspective because she also focuses on every little thing (that's something they have in common. In fact, Ayleen is way more perceptive than Ophelia and it's almost scary) but in a more dynamic/quick way that is clearly different from Ophelia's view of the world.

(Actually my favorite thing about writing it is actually just the writing part in general because istg I've been wanting to write something original for ages. I constantly have new ideas and I never write anything, so let's hope I can actually do this for real!)

[rubyklaasje]

not only is TransMarkS 'the fic' close to publishing, CH 2 Of Art School fic is going up this week.. art school fic is funny cos its literally just an exercise in consistency and seeing what comes of following thru on an idea on a schedule

its been pretty fun ngl and i hope its a good litmus for like .. what i can do and in what period of time , kind of a ramp up for either nano pt 2 OR getting a first draft of last years nano piece finished (thru some 90day type shit)

i do kinda want to do nano again tho, that was so extremely fun...

heres my potential plan for the fall/winter - publish these 2 fics, read a couple books (wizard of earthsea and lathe of heaven probably lmao), do this dj set in october, do nano in november or a 90day first draft, then feel sick to my stomach until sev s2 premieres 😈