#ngl i would have loved another woman but alas

[stormyoceans]

my magic prophecy – behind fitting (x // x // x)

[autumnfuzz]

Alysia and Ergi's beef with Sovieshu

We've seen Ergi plotting with Heinry against Sovieshu and seemingly having a dislike towards him. The reason is Alysia, his stepmother.

Alysia was one of the concubines of osislll (Sovieshu's slut father). She spotted osislll in a dance party and immediately fell attraction towards his beauty 😑 That woman was basically obsessed with him. Then she spots kid Sovieshu who was splitting image of his father, and she wanted to adore him too as he looked like the man she loves (read obsessed) but of course kid Sovieshu only looked at her in disgust cause she regularly tormented his mother.

Alysia and kid Sovieshu

When Sovieshu didn't return the affectionate feelings, she grew to despise him as he wore the face of the man she obsess loves but hates her with the eyes of the woman she loathes (Sovieshu got his eyes from his mother, it's kinda adorable ngl)

One day she spots Sovieshu comforting his crying mother, saying when becomes emperor he'll dispose of all the concubines including Alysia. This enraged her 🙄 and she immediately walks towards them, mocking the empress and threatening to replace Sovieshu as a crown prince by giving birth to an illegitimate child who'd later ascend the throne, implying Sovieshu's murder and replacing the current empress. She also tells the Empress "Children die easily" (why everyone in this story casually talks about killing children? Yikes)

Because of this threat Sovieshu accuses her of mixing abortive drugs in concubine Sophia's cookies (the favourite concubine of his slut father) and him consuming them accidentally (leaving Navier's name out of it, cause it'd have ruined her, this also makes me question his 180 character change later and @webtoon-newbie wrote a piece about it which I agree with). I can't even get angry cause that woman literally threatened his mom and him. His hoe father than kicks her out of the palace as he was bored of her. This is the woman ergi mentioned to Rashta.

Anyway she later gets kidnapped by pirates and Ergi's dad who was the king of Bluhovan , finds her and takes her to his kingdom. She looked like his ill wife and tries to pass her as the queen in front of the public, basically using her for his own gain. In turn she takes the throne herself (okay I respect her for that, and I wanted Navier to pull this revolution but alas) , later some problems arose and to avoid that, she sets the palace on fire and accidentally burns a side of her face. For some political reason, Ergi's dad didn't make him the crown prince rather makes his brother his successor and that's why ergi is a duke not a crown prince. (IMO he's not fit to be king, he's too much of a weasel ) He despised both his father and Alysia for that reason ( I can understand his anger for that.)

And when he visits Eastern empire, Rashta reminded her of Alysia and that's why he sabotaged her. But what I don't understand is, why was he plotting against Sovieshu? One might say that Sovieshu reminded Ergi of his father but he was plotting way before Rashta came into the picture.

Even if we agree for argument's sake that he did it cause Sovieshu reminded of him his father who replaced his mother with another woman, what makes him the judge of moral and character when he had none?

It's said that he discarded women after using them for his pleasure (🤮) and ruined their reputations. Not to mention he later marries Evely who was underage. Not only he's a massive psychotic hoe but also a pedo(🤮🤮). Who gave him the right to judge Sovieshu?

He later manipulates the DNA of Gloryem who was as actually Sovieshu's daughter, an innocent child that didn't deserve any of it. He also plots her kidnapping too. This guy is a literal walking human garbage (another one is osislll). He never feels remorse. Ever!

I f**king hate this piece of filth. No wonder he's bff with heinry. Water seeks its own level. In this case, sewer water would be apt comparison.

Sovieshu later paid for his crime, so did Rashta. But what I hate that neither ergi or heinry ever paid for their sins. They didn't even feel any sort of remorse.

As I said before, he had potential to be a better antagonist but turned out to be s*ht water instead. Ergi is way better in fanon than canon.

[bloodypeachblog]

My Junji Ito Manga Collection (plus one more!)

Hey, so while I’m still writing part 2 of False Impressions, I ordered 3 manga books to add to my collection. They came in today, so I decided to show them off to you all!

If you told me to tell you who my favorite mangaka is, I would have to say Junji Ito. I love the way he writes his stories, how he makes the most mundane things in life the most terrifying thing imaginable, his body horror, and his ability to make every woman hauntingly alluring. Ever since I discovered his work, I always wanted to write a horror story or manga similar to his version of horror. But alas, that has not come to fruition yet. 

Anyways, let’s start the tour!

First off, this is my shelf. I had to make do with my mother’s cabinet and make my own corner to keep my books in one place. My boyfriend recently got me a plushie of my boy, Inosuke, and I like to think he guards my books with his life. Meanwhile Spleenz is just chilling on top. 

First off, we’ll start with one of his most famous works, Uzumaki. It’s about a city cursed with the concept of a spiral, hence the name ‘Uzumaki’, from the perspective of two people, Kirie and Shuichi. I won’t spoil anything, but let’s just say it goes from 0 to 100 real quick. I love this story so much, I admire the idea of making things you see in everyday life, like a spiral, into something horrifying. If you have the chance, go read it. You won’t be disappointed.

Next up is another famous work of his, Tomie. It’s basically a collection of stories with one thing connecting them all, a beautiful girl named Tomie. But there’s something wrong about Tomie... I haven’t fully finished this one yet, but so far, I love it. When you read it, notice that the art starts out as cruder and not as polished as Ito’s other work, because the first chapter was his second work he had ever done, made in 1998. Of course, Tomie is hauntingly beautiful, enough to draw you in for more. So if you’re interested, go ahead and check it out!

This next one is one of the ‘selected stories’ series, which is a collection of his one shot stories. This one, ‘Shiver’, includes famous tales, like The Hanging Balloons, Glyceride, The Long Dream, and the only story from him to actually make my skin crawl, Shiver. These stories are great and you are in for a treat if you read this. But pair it along with the next entry.

This is the second entry in the ‘selected stories’ collection, Smashed. This includes stories starring one of Ito’s most infamous characters, Soichi. But others include ‘Splatter Film’, ‘Blood Slurping Darkness’, and many more. Go ahead and give it a go. 

This is Junji Ito’s retelling of Osamu Dazai’s novel, No Longer Human. It’s a sad tale focused on one man and his life of troubles, his actions making him feel ‘no longer human’. Now it’s needless to say that this story gets real sad and depressing, so heads up if you decide to read it. The ending was pretty haunting, but you’ll have to check it out yourself if you want to know how it ends.

Now this isn’t a manga, it’s more of an artbook showing off Junji Ito’s best art. You’ll see artwork from many of his stories I previously mentioned, and it is amazing. You'll wonder how he was able to draw all of these with such detail and realism, like I have whenever I read them. I would say use this as reference for any large tattoos you want to get, especially the front cover (that would make a sick back tattoo, ngl). 

Now these final three I just got today and I either haven’t read or finished them yet, so I can’t really go into detail that much. Please bear with me.

This is, as you can tell, Junji Ito’s retelling of the Mary Shelley novel, Frankenstein. It also contains other stories, but what, I can’t really tell you until I read them. Now if you haven’t read the actual novel, when you think of Frankenstein’s monster, you’d think of some large dim-witted brute who rarely talks. But in the original novel, he’s actually quite intelligent and very handsome, with white irises and yellow sclera (they’re actually only described as creepy, but I like to think of it as that). But a lil story time for me, I’ve always wanted to make a story focused around Frankenstein’s monster, mostly a romance between the monster and a woman with a dark past. You know, a ‘Beauty and the Beast’ kind of tale. I might talk about that more in depth if anyone is interested, but for now, let’s move on.

This is yet another collection of stories, but it’s not in the ‘selected stories’ collection. This is ‘Venus in The Blind Spot’. It includes stories like ‘The Licking Woman’, ‘The Human Chair’, ‘Army of One’, and his most popular short story, ‘The Enigma of Amigara Fault’. I’ve started to read this one and so far, I’d recommend it for first timers of his work. Interestingly, this includes some color pages of the stories, although they are a bit blurry compared to the text in the speech bubbles. But it goes back to classic black-and-white soon enough. So if you wanna start reading Junji Ito, I recommend starting with this before you go in the big stories.

And finally, in my Ito Collection, we have ‘Remina’. I’ve read a chapter in Uzumaki called ‘Hellstar Remina’, so I think this is a more expanded, fleshed out version of that story. This is also the most recently published work from Ito by Viz Media. The story is basically, there’s a new star discovered by scientists and is named after one of the scientists’ daughter, Remina. However as things go on, this star comes closer to the earth and there’s a reason it’s nicknamed the ‘Hellstar’. This one, I haven’t read yet, but I really look forward to it. 

Bonus: The Poe Clan by Moto Hagio

And finally, we have this classic series by a founding mother of modern shojo manga, Moto Hagio, The Poe Clan. It follows a family of ‘vampirnellas’ and shows their stories of love, loss, and immortality. I discovered this on Amazon and read the summary and went ‘I gotta read this’. And let me tell you, I was HOOKED. I loved the classic art style (fun fact: this was published in the 70s!) and the tragic stories of the characters. The author also worked on stories like ‘The Heart of Thomas’, ‘Lil Leo’, and ‘They Were Eleven’. I already pre-ordered volume 2 of this omnibus series, so I’ll be looking forward to that.

And there we have it. My manga collection as of 2022. I have more miscellaneous manga books, but they’re all in boxes in my garage that I don’t feel like digging out at the moment. So I hope you enjoyed this little tour of my collection! Feel free to recommend me any more horror manga or any other kind of manga and we may talk about it more in the future!

[yanderesmythos]

🎼Yandere! Apollo(General) Headcanon⚕:

Tw: Violence, implied dub-con, delusions, mention of flaying, slight nsfw, toxic relationship, curses.

Ah, Apollo is known to be attracted to those that represent beauty. So when he got the gist of rumor spreading through the island of Kythira, that a young maiden has a mellifluous voice and an equally divine figure. He declared that he had to investigate, to make sure the rumours are true.

Thus, the blond god decided to pay a visit to meet the cryptic maiden; that had lit the flames of his curiosity as if it was the flames of Olympus* itself!

Before he descends to the village, Apollo disguised himself as man in his mid-thirties that have a flowing chocolate locks for tresses and stubbles beneath his chin. ' Now, to find the μούσα* of this village.'

The first thing that came to his mind, is that to search for her in the fields of flowers. Alas, he didn't find her which made him the more so frustrated. Were those rumours a mockery, just to taunt him for every lover he had met a tragic end?* If so, how dare they!

Yet, a kind gentlemen has came his way and saw the impatient expression painting Apollo's face. 'χαῖρε*, friend! I saw you were troubled, that's why I am here to help. As far as I am concerned, you're here to meet the allegedly fair maiden of our village. If you want to her, then head to the south east of chora. You'll find her humming a hymn and playing with animals, and Ὑγιαίνε!*'.

Before, he could give his blessing and gratitude to the man. The individual vanished into thin air as if he never existed. Nonetheless a smile tore Apollo's face, as he began heading to the place that stranger told him to go.

When he arrived to the location, his breath was hitched by not the beauty of place. But, with the woman in a flowy white dress who was singing her heart out. His heart was thumping so hard, that he feared that it may stop thanks to the woman in a simple village dress. It seems that the rumours were not an empty gossip, after all. Oh, did he finally 'meet' his muse and he won't let what occured to his past lovers happen to you!

Apollo is obsessive, clingy, delusional, and overwhelming-ly overprotective to the point of being overbearing. But, that's understandable when most of your lovers either wind up dead or turned into some kind of plant!

Apollo adores you immensely, so much that he will go as far as to defying you to his worshippers. Any mockery of you is akin of insulting him, which will steer his wrath. And his wrath isn't something to be taken so lightly, especially if his darling is involved.

It's a guarantee that Apollo will write poems, hymns*, and songs of praise for you. As well as, ensuring one of his devoted servants to sculpt you in the most pristine form and to be spread all through Greece. Then, he'll get rid of them* because he is the only one who has the right to appreciate s/o naked figure. 'What a fair woman you are, my μούσα. How fortunate, for the sisters of fate had decided to bind us together. So, let's take advantage of it and create the masterpiece of our deathless love.'

In fear of your death, the first thing Apollo will do is to force the ambrosia* upon you. Whether be it you're willing, or kicking and screaming to be let go. He simply will ignore it, as he believes those are 'signals' indicating that you desire him as much as he desires you. 'Shhh, μούσα. No need to be afraid, after all we will be together forever. Aww, those tears of happiness has blessed my day. Now, let me return the favour in our private chamber.'

If you're were to be taken away from Apollo, or worse injured significantly. Then, those imbeciles must be prepared to accept their fates. Oh dear, it has been itching him for a while to use his bow and arrow! Or, maybe flay them for their discretion of his sacred beloved.

Plus, he may or may not consider cursing their homeland with a terminal illness to make an example out of any mortal who has any ill intention toward s/o.

On another notice, rejecting or escaping him won't effect the outcome. As he'll accumulate you one way or another, in addition you'll be punished severely for 'breaking' his fragile heart. But don't worry, he won't hurt you....that much.

If you happened to escape on your own accord, not only will you make Apollo upset but also Artemis for upsetting her twin brother. (In which case, I believe from this scenario Artemis would've developed platonic obsession. Mainly, that you make her brother happy and that you haven't been dead yet. And, for that she promised to protect you until her last breath. Not only for her brother, but for herself as it has been a while since she met a kind mortal.)

Then, you'll become the prey of both Apollo and Artemis hunting game. If Artemis was the one to catch you, then you'll be handed to the lovesick god as he begin to drown you in his hold. However, if Apollo was the one to catch her then the s/o must be in for an intense 'love' session. In both scenarios, you'll be handed to him. It's just his reaction, that will differ.

Oh, also don't even attempt to break Apollo's delusions of you. As he will become a horrendous individual to meddle with, if he ever become lucid. And, the punishments will be amped to mind-shattering level. So try not to tread on his delusions, and you'll be safe for the most part. The more you escape, the more he'll be aware. Thus, he'll slowly become lucid. Oh, and just because he's lucid doesn't mean that he'll give up his beloved. NO! he'll be more persistent and bitter in his approach than his deluded state which is more softer and sweeter than any honey.

Anyways, one of his favored hobbies is to enact your and his fantasies with you. He can't help, but gushes at your flushed and drooling visage as he overstimulates your genital. 'Ahh, you're so.... dazzling especially with that flustered expression upon your face. Oh? You want more? Ask and you shall receive. No need to be shy with me, my βασίλισσα*.'

Anyways, as long as you play your cards right you might escape with your wits and sanity intact. But.....at the cost of either becoming the most dreaded immortal or cursed so no one can love you, but Apollo himself.

In which case, the isolation and ostracizion from the mortals will most likely drive you to return to him. 'Ah looks like you've learnt your lesson, κακῶς κόρην*. I forgive you now, so come into my warm embrace.'

Notes:

* Flame of Olympus: Here, I was referencing the myth of the first flame that Prometheus gave to humanity. Leading him, to be punished by Zeus.

* μούσα: Muse in greek.

* Tragic end: Poor Apollo. Each time he loves someone, they die or turn to plants. First, Daphne(turned into a Laurel tree) then Hyacinth(turned into Larkspur flower) then Cassandra(cursed for the rest of her life with the misfortune of no one believing her oracles). The last one, was a prickly act from Apollo ngl. But, then again there is no one right in the mythos. Everyone must've done something shitty for petty reasons with few exclusions (hestia/hades).

*χαῖρε: Hello in ancient greek.

*Ὑγιαίνε: Good luck in ancient greek.

*Hymns: are songs of praises towards a deity.

*then he'll get rid of them: you'll ask why would he spread sculptures of you around Greece, yet will punish anyone who worships it. Simply, because that's called hypocrisy and boy there is alot of it in the mythology. *Cough* Zeus *Cough*

*Ambrosia: Called 'the food of the gods', it is guaranteed to make any mortal into immortal.

* βασίλισσα: Queen in ancient greek.

*The first one to answer this will get a cookie from me: Who was the mysterious man that spoke with Apollo?

A/n: I apologize for uploading late, as I am busy with studying for my finals. Lastly, I hope you enjoyed this and thanks for requesting! Take care!

[bre-meister]

I need some pre married/family angst

this is early relationship so pre-family and pre-married Cleon. I hope it’s angsty enough I kind of got distracted while writing to fight a huge ass hornet in my room ( I was super terrified ngl). This was such a journey for me to write that I don’t even have an official title for it like I normally try to do lol. This has also taught me that I need to work on angst that is not “person A and Person B fight”. Sorry for the rant here's the actual work:

Claire was mad. No, Claire was beyond mad. Claire Redfield was absolutely furious. Her rage was so blinding that she couldn’t even be bothered to apologize to the nice looking doorman as she barreled through the lobby of the apartment building of the object of said anger. She was sorry - felt the apology in her bones as soon as the smaller man began to cringe and cower slightly in her presence - but again, her anger prevented it from passing her lips.

Secretly, she did take a little pride in the fact that, as she entered the elevator, a young-looking couple decided to “wait for the next one” instead of sharing with her. It gave her a little more time to stew in her anger - pulling from the depths of her soul, every time that she had said it was okay even when it wasn’t - before she came face to face with him.

“What the hell Leon!”

The door to his apartment opened with such force that if circumstances had been different, she would have been worried about possibly putting a hole in the wall. Alas, her attention was not on the wall, but instead on the man lying on the couch in front of her. Leon was clearly either drunk or hungover. Although considering what she’d heard from both her brother - half the reason she was here in the first place - there was a distinct possibility it could be both. Claire wasn’t sure that could actually happen, but if anyone could make it a thing it would most definitely be Leon S. Kennedy.

All that came out of his mouth was unintelligible garble mixed in with a few pained groans. Claire took pleasure in that for a moment and allowed it to further stoke the flames inside of her. She wasn’t exactly sure what she was about to do. She’d kind of just gone on autopilot after getting. Chris’s concerned texts. Apparently, Leon had been ghosting everyone over the last week. So, there she stood, upset and silent until Leon made the mistake of finally speaking real words.

“Red,”

Claire didn’t let him finish. She exploded,

“No! You don’t get to do that, you hear me? You don’t!”

Claire moved towards the couch and yanked off the blanket covering Leon with more force than was probably necessary. The blanket had apparently been completely wrapped around him and, in his current state, that was enough to cause him to tumble to the floor. He let out another grunt of pain as he landed but Claire didn’t care.

“Get your ass up.” Her voice had calmed, steadied to an even tone. Her anger no longer manifested itself in yelling, but instead as a low growl behind her words.

When he didn’t make any effort to move, she said it again,

“I’m not asking Leon. Get up.”

He finally did as told. Standing he slowly moved to the small kitchen behind the couch. There he found a glass that looked somewhat cleaned and began to fill it with water.

This wasn’t the first time that Claire had been there to pick up the pieces whenever Leon fell apart. Safe to say, those instances had never quite played out like this one and Leon was a little jarred and, admittedly, a little afraid of what the red-headed woman might do. 

They stared at each other as Claire gave Leon a moment to swallow the little bit of water that was left in his glass. When he sat it in the sink and she remained silent he let his impaired brain convince him that meant he should speak.

“What’s your problem? Chris piss in your Wheaties this morning?”

The look on her face caused concern. The laugh that followed chilled him to the core. Leon S. Kennedy had faced down and won so many B.O.Ws that he had lost count but at that moment as he looked across the room at a laughing Claire Redfield, he knew that he had quite possibly signed his death warrant. He also knew that if this truly were how he died, several people would help her cover it up, and frankly, he couldn’t blame them.

“My problem?” she continued to laugh, “What’s my problem?”

Leon was getting a little nervous. In yet another mistake, he even let out a few nerve filled chuckles himself.

“No, you don’t get to laugh! This isn’t funny,” and yet she was still laughing. 

Leon was not.

“Do you know why this isn’t funny? Because I don’t think you do.”

He couldn’t have answered even if he wanted to - Claire cut him off as soon as he opened his mouth to fumble through some bullshit excuse.

“You don’t. I know you don’t because if you did you would have had your ass at the restaurant last week, Leon!”

Leon felt his stomach drop. Oh no. He really had fucked up this time.

“Sherry’s birthday.” He felt more than heard the mumbled words slip past his lips.

“Ya, Sherry’s birthday,” Claire turned around to finally close the door and Leon took the opportunity to sit down in one of the few chairs at his tiny kitchen table.

“You know, I was okay with this when it was only me you were fucking over. I know I shouldn’t have been, but I was. I told myself over and over that it was fine, you needed this time, you needed me and I was more than happy to give it to you - everything. I give you everything! But it was okay because you were always there for me too. Most of the time at least. And I get it, Leon, hell I get it more than probably anyone else. What we went through was hell, no one should have to go through that once let alone as many times as you do. But I was there too, I have to deal with that shit too. Sherry has to deal with that shit. She was Twelve Leon.”

“I know -”

“Then where the fuck were you? This was all she wanted! All she asked for for her birthday was for all three of us to be there, together and you couldn’t even get your shit together enough to give that to her. No call, no text, not even a half-assed excuse just nothing. The hurt and disappointment on her face - I’ll never forget that Leon. And to top it off, I had to cover for you and as much as I love you,” she saw that way his whole body seized up at her words, “I’m tired. I refuse to do that anymore.”

“I’m sorry, Claire.”

Claire pulled at her hair which, for once, wasn’t in its usual ponytail.

“Stop! It’s always sorry with you. For once could you just stop!”

“Stop what? Tell me what I have to do to fix this.” He was desperate. He didn’t want to lose her or Sherry. The idea of that - of finally being completely and utterly alone - was almost too much to bear.

“For starters stop making promises if you know you can’t keep them. Stop overcommitting yourself. Stop overworking yourself because that’s always how you get this way in the first place. And stop looking like that.”

“Like what?” he was a little puzzled. He may have also been on the verge of tears but, if anyone asked later he would deny it vehemently.

“Like...like I just killed your puppy or - or like I’m taking away everything from you - it’s making it really hard to stay mad!”

In any other situation, he might have laughed at that but he had sobered up enough between when Claire had burst through his door and now. Now, he really did feel that Claire leaving here like this, Sherry being disappointed with him - that truly was as if everything were being taken away from him.

“I’m sorry. I - I don’t know how to make you believe that I am, but I truly am sorry. I would never hurt you, Claire. I would never hurt Sherry.” He was pleading at his point. He didn’t know what else to do.

“But you did. You hurt us Leon, and I’m not saying that I won’t forgive you, but it’s going to take some time. You fucked up and your usual ‘sorry’ isn’t going to fix it when we always end up in the same cycle again.” She sighed and as the air left her body she could feel all of her anger leaving as well only to be replaced with immense sadness and disappointment.

Claire turned and walked towards the door. A small clang echoed through the silent room and, although Leon couldn’t see from his spot in the kitchen, he knew that Claire had dropped her spare key on the table next to the door.

“Wait! Claire, please, don’t.”

“Don’t what Leon?” She didn’t turn around, she knew she wouldn’t be able to leave if she did. So, head down she gathered her strength and continued,

“Don’t leave? Give me a reason to stay then.”

“ I love you.” It came out in a soft whisper. 

Those three simple words - the first time he had ever said them to her in a non-platonic way. They made her heart soar and ache, both at the same time. She’d imagined this moment a lot but never like this. Never at the end of a fight that had been building for a long time. Never with her back to him, preparing to leave. Never with him sitting in his kitchen, a mess, crying in a way she’d never seen from him. Never like this. And, as much as she wanted to stay…

“ I love you too Leon. But that’s not what this is about. Call Sherry, she deserves to hear from you why you couldn’t do this one thing for her.”

With that, she left. With her, Leon felt a part of him leave as well.

The tears turned to outright sobs as he collapsed on his kitchen floor - dirty. The floor was dirty. He was dirty. He hadn’t cleaned or showered in a while but it was kind of fitting. His apartment was dirty, his clothes were dirty, his body was dirty but he was dirty in a way that was deeper than just the physical sense. 

He’d let them down. The only two people in this world that he still gave a damn about. The only two people he would try for.

Then why hadn’t he? Why hadn’t he pushed himself harder? In the same sense, why hadn’t he taken a break when he had pushed too hard. Why hadn’t he tried harder to stop her? Why hadn’t he?

There were too many questions. If he left himself to ponder them for too long he’d never get up from this dirty kitchen floor and he couldn’t afford to stay here forever. He had business to attend to, phone calls to make.

First, to his job. Claire was right, he needed to stop overworking himself and he’s acquired more than enough hours to take some time off. Then, to Sherry, because he owed her an apology in more than just words. He only hoped she would allow him to make it up to her.

He wanted to call Claire - show her he was trying, that she was right and he would do better. However, he knew that would probably only make things worse. She always gave him the time he needed, now it was time for him to do the same.

But before anything, he had to get up off the floor. The floor was dirty. He was dirty. Leon was tired of the blood and grime that seemed to fill almost all of his waking hours as D.S.O Agent Kennedy. He decided he wouldn’t let it follow him home anymore. So, Leon got up.

On his way to the bathroom he passed by the bowl he kept on his front table by the door. It was a housewarming gift from Claire who knew he was always misplacing his keys and yet never making an effort to get more organized. Always looking out for him, his Claire. 

Leon wouldn’t even let himself question if there even was a ‘his Claire’. Not that he owned her, no one could ever own Claire Redfield. But, looking at the two keys laying together in the bowl, Leon couldn’t help but think they were the same - a matching set. One complementing the other in a way that, while they were separate, they were still part of the same.

Yes, Leon Kennedy got up and as he looked at his dirty face in the mirror, he turned the faucet on because he was tired of being dirty. He was ready to get clean.

[braincoins]

Unusual Halloween Movies

Tired of Jason, Freddy, and Michael? Want something new this year? Boy, do I have some treats lined up for you! I’ve used JustWatch to list the streaming options (though these are US streaming options; I maaaaay be up for some streaming fun on Halloween...). I’ll tell you right now, this list can almost perfectly be broken into three categories: Horror-Comedy, Sci-Fi Horror, or International Horror.

American Mary -  A medical student drowning under tuition debt finds a lucrative practice when she enters the world of body modification. ngl, I remember liking this movie but it’s been a bit since I saw it, so for the CONTENT WARNINGS I’m going to straight up rip the MPAA here: Rated R for strong aberrant violent content including disturbing images, torture, a rape, sexual content, graphic nudity, language and brief drug use

Ava’s Possessions - Ever wonder what life is like once all your demons have been exorcised - literally? Now that Ava is free of the demon that once possessed her, she’s out of a job, down a few friends, and facing charges for the acts of violence her demon did. The only way to get out of trouble is to go to the demon-equivalent of AA. CONTENT WARNINGS: mostly blood and bad language; some mild sexual content 

Behind the Mask: The Rise of Leslie Vernon - A journalism grad student interviews a young man in training to be the next slasher killer, ala Jason/Freddy/Michael. An absolute treat of a movie for anyone who loves slasher films; it’s about 3/4 mockumentary, 1/4 actual horror film when she realizes that, no, really, he’s going to go kill all those co-eds. CONTENT WARNINGS: Blood, gore, naked boobs (”Ugh. Is that REALLY necessary?” “Now, Taylor, who’s telling this story?”), sex, occasional panty shots (because, again, slasher films). 

Bubba Ho-Tep - OH MAN another one I had to go back and add in ‘cause REALLY NOW. Elvis is in a nursing home (at least, he says he’s the real Elvis) and he and JFK (who is played by Ossie Davis - who you will note is NOT white) have to fight off a resurrected mummy who sucks the souls of the living out of their assholes. Bruce Campbell stars. HOW IS THAT NOT AWESOME ENOUGH FOR YOU?! CONTENT WARNING: Um... look, I think you kinda already know what sort of content to expect given what I just told you about the story.

Bulbbul (Netflix Original) -  (Hindi Language) During the 19th century Bengali Presidency, something - or someone? - is haunting the woods around a lord’s estate, killing men in gruesome ways. The lord has left his estate in charge of his young wife, while his younger brother, who’d been away studying in London, returns to hunt down whatever is causing these mysterious deaths. CONTENT WARNINGS: child bride, blood, and what Netflix calls “sexual violence”, meaning a rape scene so graphic (despite not showing any nudity or genitalia) that it is GUARANTEED to make you uncomfortable. The movie was written and directed by a woman, so there is nothing intended to be “sexy” about this at all. If you can make it through that scene, though, there is a definite payoff for it. (Or should I say “payback”?)

Eli (Netflix Original) - A young, incredibly sick boy with a fragile immune system is brought by his parents to a clinic for an experimental treatment that may be their last hope. But all is not as it seems within the walls of this place... perhaps literally. CONTENT WARNINGS: mostly just language, a few mild jump scares. People get set on fire at one point. No biggie. 

Errementari: the Blacksmith and the Devil (Netflix Original) - (Basque Language) Based on a Basque folk tale. Eight years after the First Carlist War, a government official comes to a small, impoverished Basque town asking after the blacksmith. Everyone tries to warn him away; the blacksmith is an evil, evil man. But he is on the trail of some Carlist gold that might be in the smithy, and the prospect of the gold wins him some helpers. And while everyone is distracted by that, a young orphan girl manages to get onto the blacksmith’s property. And what she finds there, no one could have expected... CONTENT WARNINGS: I took a screenshot of Netflix’s list of warnings just because it amuses me:

[sings “One of these things is not like the others...”]

Europa Report - Look, I really can’t recommend this enough for fans of found-footage features and people who can stand slower-paced, constantly-building terror. An international mission is sent to investigate Europa, one of the moons of Jupiter. (Those of you who are fans of real-world space exploration know that Europa is considered a prime target for extraterrestrial life within our solar system.) Contact was lost with the mission for a long time, until the data streams came flooding into Earth all at once. And what they showed... CONTENT WARNINGS: Like I said: slower pace than most horror/thriller movies. It builds slow and steady. There’s really not much in the way of blood and gore, though; an excellent example of terror without resorting to buckets of red corn syrup.

Event Horizon - Hellraiser in Space? Hellraiser in Space. Except the Lamentation Configuration is a fucking SPACE SHIP. Also, props for genre-savvy cast. CONTENT WARNINGS: EYE SCREAM. Blood, gore, and, no really, THE EYE THING. Did I mention the gore and the blood? Oh, and language. And blink-and-you-miss it nudity & sex.

Grabbers - Strange creatures are attacking a small Irish coastal town and the only way to protect yourself is... to be drunk? CONTENT WARNINGS: I mean, it’s Irish and everyone’s drunk, so bad language (by American standards) is a given. That’s... really about it, unless you have a tentacle phobia.

Green Room -  An up-and-coming punk band show up to play a gig and realize too late that they’re playing at a Neo-Nazi club. And when they happen to see something they... really shouldn’t have, it becomes an all-out fight for survival. Same director as Murder Party, though this movie was made later with a much better budget. CONTENT WARNINGS: Violence, blood, gore, and yes, some dogs die because they were trained to be vicious attack dogs by Neo-Nazis. :( Also, the most important content warning of all? PATRICK STEWART PLAYS A NEO-NAZI. (You think I’m joking, but for someone who grew up with him as Jean-Luc Picard, it is downright unsettling to see, okay?)

Life - Think Alien meets Europa Report (above). The six-member crew of the International Space Station are given a sample from Mars that might contain actual extraterrestrial life.  CONTENT WARNINGS: Blood. No, let me say that again: BLOOD. Sounds of bones breaking. Alien creature entering someone’s mouth and killing them from the inside (probably through a combination of choking them/asphyxiating them on their own blood/devouring their blood? It’s not clear, it’s just UNSETTLING).

Murder Party - This is what happens when snobby art school brats try to kill someone. (Read: it doesn’t go well.) Fuckin’ bop of a Halloween song over the end credits, too. Also, at least two characters are canonically bisexual. Same director as Green Room, though this movie was made first (with a much lower budget). CONTENT WARNINGS: bad language, blood, gore, nudity, mild sexual content (the nudity is supposed to be “artistic”). The dog probably DOES die, given the circumstances, but it doesn’t happen on screen, at least? And the dog gets some pretty decent comeuppance first... Also, 1000000% accurate cat representation. 

The Perfection (Netflix Original) - A former cello virtuoso (virtuosa?) gets in touch with her former teacher and meets his new star pupil. An instant connection is formed between the two women... or is it? (Yes, there are lesbians!) CONTENT WARNINGS: oh chaos, where do I start? Bugs under the skin, hacking off body parts, blood, gore, mild sexual content, sexual abuse, and the movie itself is complete and utter MINDFUCKERY. Did you like “Tales from the Crypt” as a kid? You’ll probably dig this. 

Ravenous - With apologies to all Native Americans, but at least they did get actual Native American actors for those parts (George is played by a Pueblo actor; his sister Martha is played by an actress of Menominee and Stockbridge-Munsee descent). A soldier who won a questionable victory during the Mexican-American war is given a hero’s status and then an exile to a remote fort in the Sierra Nevadas. Not long after he arrives, a would-be settler arrives with a harrowing tale, calling for help for what few survivors there are of his wagon train. The two friendly Native Americans at the fort issue warnings that go unheeded, of course. CONTENT WARNINGS: Blood, gore, cannibalism, PTSD.

Slither - James Gunn’s 2006 Feature Movie Directorial Debut! He wrote it, too. An homage to B-movie gore flicks like you’d see at the drive-in. I am just copying and pasting the IMDB summary ‘cause I love this movie too much to be concise about it: A small town is taken over by an alien plague, turning residents into zombies and all forms of mutant monsters. (Oh, but don’t forget the nasty, slithery blood worm things!) CONTENT WARNINGS: Nasty, slithery blood worm things. GORE, BLOOD, GORE, GORE. A very uncomfortable sex scene. Michael Rooker.

They’re Watching - An American TV crew filming what is essentially “House Hunters: Eastern Europe” stumble into superstitions, folklore, and... TERROR!! MWAHAHAHAHA. No, seriously, I LOVE how it’s basically “What if some HGTV crew wound up waaaaaaaay in over their heads, in a horrible and bloody way?” CONTENT WARNINGS: Blood, gore, and NO WI-FI.

[vonlipvig]

Survivor Winners at War Ep 7 Recap

In this episode, Wendell attempts to kill my best friend and I will NOT stop until he’s gone /j

But before that, we go see the Edge Gang, and ngl I really laughed when Parv was like “Getting voted out before the merge, that’s so lame! I’ve never done that before!” like KDFHGDFKH we STAN.

And then Sandra arrives, and she tells everyone that she basically screwed herself by giving Denise her idol.

Rob was shaking his head and like, yeah, everyone watching it was feeling it as well, cause that was...such a bad move.

And then it just...gets really sad. I feel terrible for Sandra, but I think she herself accepted that she had made a bad move. She says she’s human and makes mistakes, and even though you WANT to play a completely strategic game it is true that at the end of the day you have emotions and feel for the other people, and her trying to help Denise might have ended with her being eliminated, but what can one do? It’s still...WILD, because I mean..giving someone your idol is batshit, but I feel for her.

And oh my god, and then she says she won’t stay on the Edge and here’s were my friend and I gasped out loud cause GOD THIS IS SO DEPRESSING. In a way...I understand. She’s the Sandra Bench woman, I think she knows she has a veeeery slim chance of getting back into the game, and of course the Edge is demanding, so yeah.

I mean, it kills me because I wanted everyone to be at Ponderosa, but I kinda agree with Peridiam from YT when he said that people that raise the flag on the Edge didn’t necessarily “quit”, as it’s built in the game itself.

Still, a very bittersweet ending to the Queen’s Survivor career. You’re still an icon, Sandra.

God, I haven’t recovered yet :(

Now it’s time to go back to Sele, and GOD I CAN’T STAND WENDELL ANYMORE I SWEAR I WANT HIM GONE. So Yul is very rightfully wary of him since he basically offered Parvati a deal during tribal, and then we get Michele and Wendel talking it out, and Michele trying to tell him that maybe it’s not cool to create that much chaos, cause it could backfire...

AND THEN WENDELL IS LIKE “Thank you for schooling me”? ARE YOU KIDDING ME, DUDE?

THIS IS NOW A MICHELE STAN ZONE, I CAN’T BELIEVE THIS. She’s not acting superior or anything, she’s literally saying it in the nicest way possible, GOD! 

And of course Yul, who was sitting nearby, was very much uncomfortable with that, which game me the hope that maybe a Wendell blindside was going to happen...Oh, cute, innocent, naive me.

Back on the Edge, we get a very heartfelt conversation between Ethan and Parvati, and god the pUNCHES JUST KEEP COMING. I can’t imagine how tough it must have been on Ethan, and to know he was constantly thinking about if this was good for him and if it would give the cancer opportunity to grow back and all and...oh my god, I just wanted to hug him.

Luckily Parv is super supportive and OH MY GOD I JUST LOVE HER SO MUCH, she’s so nice and I bet that was such a great help for him.

We stan this beautiful, supporting friendship!

But ok, now it’s definitely tome for another scavenger hunt! There are four tokens scatter around the place, and all of a sudden it’s a mad dash and everyone is running around trying to find them. Tyson stumbles upon one, and the episode makes us think that ooh where are the others? Did they ever find them?

But alas! Rob was absolutely bluffing and he had already found the other THREE! Of course he’s keeping it hidden cause that’s gonna make him a bigger target for...whatever happens next, but hell yeah dude!

We cannot help but stan (OMFG Rob coming back to the game? That would be ICONIC).

Back in the game, we get some snippets of how the other tribes are doing: We get Dakal shenanigans with...Tony running a race by himself and Jeremy saying he runs like an old man, which is hilarious, but also Kim, Denise and Jeremy kind of cementing their bond, which definitely puts Tony in trouble. 

Then in Yara we get WAIT IS BEN SINGING THE PEANUT BUTTER JELLY SONG!? Anyway, the boys get a bit paranoid about idols, especially Adam who’s like “I’m cONVINCED that between Ben and Sarah they have the idol” which...could not be more wrong, but aight dfkjdfhkj. Lots of searching, lots of spider senses tingling, and the most hilarious Sophie moments when Adam asks her if she has the idol.

I just could not play Survivor cause I would NOT be able to control my laughter as I say the most BOLD FACED LIE POSSIBLE.

(Also plEASE look at Sophie’s face when Adam’s going on about his spider senses telling him Sarah has the idol dsbjfdbfkjkdk).

She wants to break the fourth wall SO BAD sdfhsdkfj.

So then we go to the challenge, and it’s the one with the big ass dish of water they have to fill, then walk through an obstacle course to drop the water and lower some puzzle pieces. As Jeff nicely put it, the one where Nick absolutely fucking SUCKED (Poor guy, lmao).

So, what happens is...Yara wins pretty comfortably, good for them, love that. Then Dakal and Sele are super neck to neck, but Wendell somehow keeps BRAGGING? AND CALLING FOR JEFF? MF JUST FOCUS ON YOUR PUZZLE WTF!

(Also, there’s one part where he says “Jeff, watch this!” and then fucking SCREWS UP, and here we fucking started laughing and my best friend almost choked on the coke she was sipping, so WENDELL ALMOST KILLED MY BFF HE DESERVES TO GO /j)

But yeah, in the end Dakal gets it first, so Sele is going to tribal.

And here I’m so happy cause it seems like both Yul and Nick are kinda pissed with Wendell for talking trash during the challenge, and it seems that maybe a Wendell blindside is gonna happen...but NOTHING IS EASY, AIN’T IT!

Of course Michele and Wendel have a relationship (as badly as they ended, at least there’s some trust there that she doesn’t really have with Yul or Nick), so they do kinda wanna do something together. 

BUT THEN YUL OPENED HIS MOUTH AND DUG HIS OWN GRAVE. He was talking about how they could vote to make it look like Michele didn’t vote for Wendell so that he’d maybe give his tokens to her, and I think that’s when Nick and Michele realized Yul was playing 4D chess which is...dangerous.

So in the end...yeah, they vote out Yul. For Michele I think that’s totally reasonable, I mean having a deeper relationship is definitely valuable, and for Nick...I wouldn’t know, Yul was definitely a strong ally, but so was Wendell, and I think he’s very friendly with Michele now, so yeah, it was good.

Also, Michele saying this to Wendell, we stan.

So no Wendell blindside (it’s ok, I gotta have someone to root against, lmao), and next ep is the Merge! And by the look of the preview...oh it’s gonna go DOWN!

[drunklander]

Drunj!Der Yells About Outlander

Thoughts on Ep. 503

Oh, Outlander. Le sigh.

On one hand, this episode gave me everything I’ve been wanting for 84 years a long time: Jamie and Claire, together, working as a team as the center of the episode. On the other hand, this very much did *not* feel like an episode of Outlander.

Bottle episodes are fine. The Garrison Commander, The Wedding and A. Malcolm were all basically bottle episodes. Two of those three are a couple of my favorite episodes of the whole series. This episode was like if the times the show decided to cosplay as a different genre (horror this time, rather than the political drama and military drama we’ve seen them attempt in the past) was dialed up to the point it no longer resembled an episode of the same show. From the music to the directing to p much everything.

This episode made me think that like if Outlander was a Venn diagram it would have Claire and Jamie working together as a team, them in the bulk of the episode, and a Good Episode™ of Outlander. You could have two but never all three.

(Also I hate horror movies. They’re just aggressively not jam.)

Ok but now that Marsali is Claire’s apprentice, can we have her and Fergus find out about time travel this season? Because in the books it’s like vaguely implied in MOBY but we never actually get to see that convo.

Also, yes, Marsali, Boston’s pretty rad. Not that I’m biased or anything. In addition to apparently “discovering” penicillin, we also invented Amurrica.

Shorter Claire’s VO: Idgaf about the timeline anymore. Don’t see how that can go wrong.

So was the blurry af title card Marsali practicing suturing? Why did they shoot it like that. It looks more like how they shot Mr. Beardsley’s POV rather than through the moldy bread covers or whatever it was through.

That whole intro part felt like it came from a different episode and was just tacked on to remind us that mold shenanigans are still a thing that is happening.

I do love Marsali, and her with Claire, though, but still.

SUPER SOFT FRASER FACE TOUCHING!

Ok so Jamie is only gonna do another cross burning when he calls his dudes to fight the English, right? Because he did the whole big thing like “I won’t light the flaming dildo again until we’re going to war” and now he’s raising the militia but not doing the fire part when they showed the new wicker dildo right there up high on the Ridge. So like, because that whole bit was about the men being loyal to him, he’s only gonna light it for freedom, right?

FLAMING DILDO OF FREEDOM

So Fergus using Claire’s list of medical tips as his note for the printer is def not going to come back to bite anyone in the ass. Nope. Def not.

Also I love that the whisky thing is Fergus’ thing in the show.

TEAM KEEP GIVING FERGUS AND MARSALI STUFF TO DO BECAUSE I LIKE THEM AND THE BOOKS FORGOT ABOUT THEM.

How many pigs is Marsali gonna butcher to practice her skillz? Also is Deadguy McWhatshisface still in the cellar somewhere?

Mr. Trouble! I love Germain a lot and would love more of him with Grannie and Grandda, pls and thx.

Also, would *love* some Bree and Marsali time. Maybe next episode while the bros are in Brownsville and they’re at the Ridge by themselves? Pretty please?

Ah yes, plantation jokes. In the time when those exist. And you’ve stayed at one. Come on, Bree.

Oh look, Jamie and Claire not keeping secrets from each other. Good. Well done, kids.

But they’re keeping it from Bree. Who, as the grown-ass woman at the center of the Bonnet bullshit, fucking deserves to know. So fuck y’all for not telling her.

She knows, I know that, but they think she doesn’t sooo, do better.

Lots of callback references from Jamie this season. The thing about his scars last week, Black Jack, the brand Claire cut off and his dad’s stroke this week. Ngl, the show is so different now that those references don’t even seem like they’re from the same series.

Gonna take this twin bit as an opportunity to remind everyone to watch Orphan Black.

Kezzie leaves-his-pants-for-the-kittens Beardsley, too good for this world. Too pure.

You come across a creepy fucking cabin in the woods, that you know is the home of a physically abusive fuckwad, and you immediately split up? Claire. Girl. You’ve seen horror movies.

OMG HAI CATS! I GOT ALL EXCITED THAT ADSO MIGHT BE ONE OF THE PANTS!KITTENS BUT ALAS. SOON. SOON, MY FLOOFER.

I fucking hate jump scares. Like I knew her face was gonna be in the window when Jamie turned back around, because this episode is the most trope-y horror short ever, but still. I fucking do not like horror movies, y’all, and jump scares are cheap.

Jamie on the other hand has never seen a horror movie and clearly doesn’t know that you DO NOT GO INTO THE CREEPY CABIN WITH THE CREEPY JUMP SCARE LADY.

Omfg with the banging door, it’s like they were like ok let’s read Making Horror Movies for Dummies and then put in ALL THE TROPES.

Also, this might be the one instance where the book name was better. Why the fuck would you name the goat Billy when Hiram is *clearly* a superior goat name.

CLAIRE. WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU GOING UPSTAIRS. YOU ARE THE GIRL WHO GETS KILLED FIRST IN THE HORROR MOVIE. WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS. STOP BEING A DUMBASS.

Oh, hey, another jump scare. I’m both bored and annoyed.

Like we finally get an episode that is centered on Jamie and Claire. Together. Team Fraser. And it’s this nonsense.

I cannot with this show, tbh.

“Poor men bleed for rich men’s gold.” Two hundred and fifty fucking years later and it’s still true, Mrs. Findlay.

Did they borrow zombie noises from The Walking Dead for this episode? I swear to fuck every time Mr. Beardsley makes a noise I’m like uhhh, what show am I watching again?

“What you must have done to deserve this.” Yeah, like don’t @ me. I know abuse is fucking wrong. But you know what? This is fucked-up-past-times. Fanny’s out here by herself with no rights and no help. Go for it, girl. Fuck that fucker up.

This season on AHS: Beardsley Farm, the dulcet sounds of afterbirth squelching.

Here I was, all pleased that we were spared Breast Milk and Periodpalooza in the premiere. I should have known better. And yes, I know it’s natural and a part of childbirth, yada yada. I watch Call the Midwife and even *they* don’t fucking squelch it like that.

The subtitles spell Baltimore “Baltimoe” and now I have Another Op’nin’, Another Show from Kiss Me, Kate stuck in my head.

Is it too much to ask that the show find some way to demonstrate the past being The Worst™ that isn’t women and children getting abused or raped or murdered by shitty men? We already know men are shitty. Men are still shitty.

Like seriously, who the fuck does Mr. Beardsley think he is, murdering all his wives for not having babies, Henry VIII?!

“Having a baby doesn’t make me a mother.” Yuppppp. You do what’s best for you, Fanny.

“And your name is Sassenach.” And she’s not even like and “that’s a weird ass name.” I lowkey love Fanny Beardsley?

I still wish they skipped this whole thing though.

Omfg Jamie. BuT tHeY wOn’T bE wItH tHeIr FaMiLy. YOU *HAVE* TO KNOW CLAIRE’S RIGHT. YOU CAN’T BE THAT FUCKING THICK. NO SHIT THE FUTURE IS SAFER. Also, they’re fucking adults. They are their own family. You left Jenny. Young Ian stayed with the Mohawk. PEOPLE GROW UP AND LEAVE AND IT’S OK.

“Maybe she’s gone to find help.” Apparently Jamie *is* that thick. Really, bro? She left to find help? Really? Fucking dumbass.

“And we’ll seek Mrs. Beardsley as we travel.” “We won’t find her.” That’s a nice way of phrasing “You’re a fucking dumbass, she’s gone and claimed her freedom for the first time in her life. Let her have that, you fuckwit.”

The shot of the leaves blowing is literally like straight out of The Walking Dead.

Also loool at the birds.

Oh hey, next week we get all the dumb Brownsville stuff! And probs little to no Claire and Jamie. Exciting times.

[atlaese]

Yes to all you said about her mom, her acting was amazing ngl, that she was being captive, so dark, so many dark themes, her whole storyline could have been so much better, my heart did break for her but it was an overkill. I like Trish, she's really central in season 3, I don't know how much you've watched but Trish and has her ex miliray boyfriend showed up yet? Will? He is going to be on Echo or Hawkeye, I can't remeber exactly now. Also the song???? So funny! Tell me about Malcolm! Isn;t he the cutest? I want him as my friend too.

It has two seasons and it's short and funny, really good, of course it got cancelled but it traslates that girls in their twenties living life really well. One of my fave ever. Matt we shall see, reports said that he would show up as well on Echo (she will appear in hawkeye which should be out in november and she's deaf also and native american and Matt was her mentor and in the comics they were a tight group, Matt Clint Kate soooo and she-hulk of course) Echo is shaping up to be a good one! Can't wait, I think they havent's started filming, righr now reshoots for hawkeye are in place.

Foggy likes blonde women, is funny! He shows up in iron fist as well and the Carrie Ann Moss of course, what a boss what a woman! And his glow up from one seaon to the next? :)

And Matt should be your favourite superhero, noone does it like him! He has a brain! Rarity in the superheroes lives. And yes Matt and Elektra are a perfect couple, boucning off each other and completeing one another. Her storyline in defenders was so sad I was hoping by the end they would ressurect but alas. Still you never know, she could come back at some capacity.

Hmm, the movie. It's a hollywood popcorn movie. It's fun and not very remarbable. So I don't know what to tell you honestly, you are not going to learn anything new, mostly about bullseye, matt's greateast villian that we never got to see on the show? The most difference, It's alright just... not good. And unfortunately I grew up in love with Ben Affleck, I blame the 90s and my mom so the movie does hold a special place in my heart. If you have a free afternoon and you wanna have fun, is not boring, not long just not... what you want to see for Matt.

i love jessica. i also love jessica and matt together (platonically!!) ooh i like trish too! i just watched the second episode of s3, so i haven't seen the ex yet, although i did like that guy, he seemed genuine and very good for her (all these set ups oh my god!!!!! marvel really is holding us by the throat and just spoon feeding content at this point!! i dont know where to look first!)

omg i L O V E malcolm!!! at first i was very unsure of why his character was in the series, but i love him as jessica's pa. but i also love that now he's making a name for his own and i'm proud he's growing into this businessman type person (all these suits, they all look great on him!!)

ah another day, another cancellation, what's new these days... but from the synopsis it looks great, i'll try to watch it!

WHATS. UP WITH ALL THESE STAR STUDDED SHOWS. i cant keep up. i cant. anyway, now i am exited for echo too and she-hulk and other marvel stuff. matt.. a mentor?? oh my god i bet that's such a fun dynamic!!! aaah.

another foggy cameo?? we're being spoiled ladies and gents. damn, i gotta watch iron. fist too then (just for foggy ofcourse <33). oh my god foggy had such a glow up!!! him in his fancy suit YES. YES. YES. couldn't have asked for anything better :').

smart superheroes who think (most of the time - matt sometimes turns off his brain lmao) are so cool. just shows that they're more than heroes and that their personality has more aspects than just the 'oh i am strong i can save people' thing most of them get. yes, i was very sad to see her ending in defenders, although we didn't really get full closure, so we'll never know if she's still alive or not. (i'm still confused as to how matt is alive lmao, i think i missed a part somewhere).

ben affleck really is a great man (i loved him in gone girl) so no hard feelings towards him! the 90's produced some great content though, i can't blame that, haha :). the trailer was just so corny and so early 2000's lmao. i loved the classical superhero feel it had though. i might watch it, but charlie will always be the™ matt for me. i cant help it!

[deafmakkari]

Warden of The North

A/N: This was a canon divergence fic basically to remove Sansa’s rape and making her queen in the north. Ngl, I also wanted to write in her feelings for Margaery. Since canon kinda re-converged and I was super disappointed with the end of GOT i’m not convinced that I’ll ever write this. So its going up as is and if I post more then, yay, but I most likely won’t. Words: 1302

A cold wind blew through the halls of Winterfell. The fire that the Greyjoy invaders had set had ripped holes in the Stark house. Winter was here, and the harsh snows had piled into rooms through ceilings that had flung open onto the skies in a futile attempt to avoid the reach of the fires that had quickly engulfed the castle. As Sansa first arrived back at Winterfell, she saw reflected in the ruins the state of her own once proud house. Her Father, Mother and eldest brother were dead. Rickon, Bran and Arya were dead. The last living son of Lord Eddard, Jon, had taken the Black and thus he could not be the Lord of anything, much less the lord of Winterfell. Sansa sat astride her horse at the threshold of her home with enemies at her side, she knew that it was not family who were waiting to greet her. The courtyard was alive with builders, guards and servants weaving their paths across it. Strange, she thought, it did not feel as alien as she had presumed. A hand appeared at her side and Petyr Baelish stood next to her horse’s flank eager to help her from her saddle. Sansa wondered who he saw when he smiled up at her like that now that her hair was dyed such an unfamiliar colour; Her own lady mother for whom his affection had lasted many winters or herself for whom she doubted his affection would last a single winter. He was a selfish man, and she was not so assured of herself that she thought she could keep or would want to keep his interest.  Nevertheless, his affections were strong for now and she clasped her hand in his as she dismounted her horse in the manner Septa Mordane had taught her. Septa. The thought jarred her. Another ghost to haunt these halls, brought back with her from King’s Landing. The ghosts must outnumber the living in Winterfell now.  Lord Baelish’s hand pressed against the low of her back, guiding her towards the welcome party.

Lord Roose Bolton stepped towards her. “Lady Sansa, welcome.”

Sansa stared into the eyes of the man that had betrayed her house. Her stare was hard and cold. She longed for her Direwolf Lady to tear through the courtyard and tear the Boltons to ribbons. Alas, as everyone else for whom she had cared for, Lady was dead. Sansa realised that time had continued to pass while she fantasized, and the moment for a polite response had passed. Steeling herself, she smiled, curtsied and replied. “Lord Bolton.”

The moment hung in the air as Sansa watched Lord Bolton decide if the moment had been disrespectful. The last time she had looked at a man like that she had been struck moments later by his guard. This time however, she had held her tongue. She had learned not to voice her treasonous thoughts. As Lord Bolton’s gaze relented and he stepped to the side to present his son, Sansa let go of the breath she was not aware she had been holding. I will not be so lucky a second time, Sansa thought.

Ramsay Bolton strode toward Sansa at the introduction of his Father and greeted her flawlessly. For the son of a miller’s wife, his manners were impeccable. She was reminded for a moment of Joffrey, whom she had met years before in almost the exact same spot. Joffrey however had exuded a cocky kind of confidence, born from never being told no. Ramsay however had lived a bastard’s life until now. Denied everything, in favour of his older half-brother, until he was recently legitimised. He had cautious way about him, as if the smallest misstep and his privileges would be taken away. But both men had shared the unwavering belief that women would be unable to resist their charms. It had defined Joffrey, and Sansa had no doubt that it defined most men, including Ramsay. His hands were rough as he bent his head to kiss her hand. Sansa had grown out of the notion that she would love the man she would marry, but even after two failed engagements and a failed marriage, there was something about Ramsey’s smile that made her brace herself. She knew that he wouldn’t beat her publicly like Joffrey, he wouldn’t ignore her like Loras and he most certainly wouldn’t allow her to speak openly like Tyrion. She had heard the rumours. He would beat her privately. He would take her violently. He would expect her to know her place.

Just beyond him, his step-mother smiled at her.  A winter living with Walda Fray would be difficult thought Sansa. She chastised herself quickly, thinking of the way Cersei had acted in those few secretive moments where her true self had come through. Sansa had a softer heart, it was true, but her mind made judgements to shameful to admit. The Old Gods would look down on her for this Septa would have said. Tyrion, however, probably would have praised her for it. A useful tool, if the right whetstone is applied he’d have said. As Walda waddled over, Sansa quickly realised Lady Bolton was pregnant. Another child brought into this world screaming, another child who will leave it screaming. Sansa returned her smile and walked away with the servant that Lady Bolton had been directing while her mind was fluttering elsewhere.

As she walked through the bitter corridors, Sansa trailed her fingertips gently across the rough stone. It was damp and crumbled gently as Sansa passed. She remembered doing this as a child, running through the corridors, feeling the stone rise and fall with every natural impurity laid bare to the world. Winterfell was made of thousands of stone pieces, each one ordinary and unsurprising in their own right, but when surrounded and supported these pieces made the centuries old imposing presence that looked out over the North. Sansa’s stomach jolted when she realised that she had gone to take the turn to her childhood chambers without the servant.

“I’m sorry, my Lady. The guest chambers have been made up for you, not your own.” She said softly.

Sansa’s eyes darted to the servant and her heart leapt. Her allies would be numerous here, Baelish had told her. “Do you know me?”

“Yes, my Lady. I fed and cleaned you as a babe.” She paused. “My Husband became the Karstark’s smith not long after. I returned after he died.”

“I’m sorry.” Sansa stated. How she had hoped her own harrowing betrothal and marriages could have been ended by the Gods. Her riding boots clacked as she made her way further down the corridors. The pressure against her fingertips suddenly disappeared and she found herself staring down the corridor to what had been her parent’s chambers.  Catelyn Tully hadn’t loved the man she had been hastily wed to as a young lady, but Sansa couldn’t deny that her parents shared something special. Their love was strong, born of a woman afraid of a cold new world, afraid being wed, and of a man who in her eyes was a weak imitation of his older brother, afraid to even touch her. It had been tested, through the first time he had told her to bite her tongue, through their first child, though his first bastard. But Sansa remembered the way her father had looked at Catelyn when she wasn’t looking and how he gently he had reached for her hand when they were close. Sansa felt that small hope for love flutter inside her heart once more.

They came to the end of the corridor and ducked through a doorway into a small room. Sansa remembered the little girls of other noble men she had met as a child living here.