#ngl i think there may be some improvement

[mercymermaid]

woah some more centaur redraws???

i literally only finished the second one (field scene) bc i’m procrastinating on my sad excuse of an ‘animatic’ (it’s a pmv i think)

new versions:

old versions

[saintshadow]

ADVICE FROM YOUR SPIRIT GUIDES

pile i

Have more faith in your circumstances, it’s okay to feel unsure but letting it consume you will not aid in navigating the rough internal waters of your emotions. You’re not processing something, a fear, an anxiety, a reality- perhaps you have a hard time holding onto this particular lesson. Your spirits do see improvement; they just need a little bit more from you so that they can actually bring in more blessings and stability. If you are not internally stable then you will have a hard time cultivating external stability. Stay busy, stay active, don’t be consumed by fear of loss or destruction. Destruction happens to us all, but we must let go of that fear- there is so much more to life than the now but we cannot grow as intended if we cannot exist in the present. You’re being advised to go within for comfort, to rely on yourself for strength- this is not meant to be painful but it is meant to be empowering. You’re meant to do great things, even if you can’t see it now. One day, your time will come- and you will know that your suffering was not for nothing. Dare to dream, and dare to go after your desires.

They will come to you much quicker than you think. If you move in alignment with your goals they will come crashing towards you. Try not to get wrapped up in the chaos and try to remember WHY you are doing this. There is also a message about taking things slow and being patient with yourself. Making sure to do your due diligence, making sure to research and to find whatever information is available to you to help you in your case or in your situation. Sit with the moments of calm and clarity, where you see a steady path ahead. When things become muddled and confusing that's how you'll know that you're overthinking and living from fear/trauma.

I heard "you're ready" you can absolutely plant the seeds for what you're looking to do. For some it could deal with travel, since the 3 of wands did come out. Moving, travel, building something steady or solid that you can utilize as some sort of foundation maybe? This could even be about internal foundations, emotional foundations, with a lover, with a best friend, or with yourself. Take what resonates and apply the message as it is applicable. I see that you are seeking a "new beginning" or a "new chapter" perhaps you've felt as if you're tired of your current circumstances or feeling exhausted. You're being guided to take this leap of faith to an extent- with planning and practicality included. This is more like a calculated risk, than a leap of faith ngl. All in all though, I heard "smooth sailing" it may be a lot easier than you think to attain your desires. You have to believe in it though, and you have to do your very best to remain positive love.

Have strength through your heartache, and know that this is meant to wake you up to the possibilities. It is revealing what no longer serves you, or showing you something. You are being supported in this, I think there may be people or things that want you to feel hopeless. You have to remain hopeful and you have to remain confident that you will get what you want. For some of you this could be about love, or even a long distance relationship. You can't let fear overcome you, and you have to be strong. Your person feels strongly for you and things can absolutely work if you allow them to. You can't get caught up in the what-if's you have to get caught up in the "how will" so to speak. "How will I get my desires, how will I go after what I want, how will I attain my desires" Your fears are unfounded, essentially- pile 1. I hope this reading resonated, if you'd like to book a personal on this topic for 35$ feel free to reach out.

pile ii

Let go of the past, I understand this person or situation may have really hurt you but the hatred/anger you’re harboring in your heart is eating you alive. There may be things about the situation at hand which you’re not aware of. There’s a message of patience, and a calm before the storm. This message will resonate with those for whom it’s intended. As for the rest of you, you’re doing really good imo. Sowing your seeds, being patient, and minding your own. Something could be bothering you, like it just doesn’t sit right. You could have witnessed an injustice, or something you seem to be incorrect or unfair. You’re being advised to move away from pain and sorrow. To walk away from the sob stories, trust in your gut. This could be a lesson of intuition, are you going to trust yourself or are you going to repeat the cycle.

Don’t ignore the blatant and unarguable truth. Embrace it fully and accept it, live with that truth.

If you’re struggling to find that truth be patient, spend time in nature, in due time all will be revealed pile two.

There's a lot of movement in these cards, the 8 of wands, the wheel of fortune, the chariot, the fool- you're meant to be moving forward. You are supposed to be creating something for yourself- but you may be fixating on creating something for someone else? You have to stop doing that, and you have to start putting in actual effort towards your personal goals. You're not a babysitter for this person, or for a specific situation and you have to stop acting like one. Be aware of this person, they could have vengeful tendencies, they may feel slighted by you and you could feel hypervigilant of their next moves. Some of you could perhaps be leaving an abusive environment, friendship, friend group, relationship, or an overall abusive situation. You could spend a lot of your time trying to balance this person out, and it's literally killing you. For some of you it could be because you have health issues, for others it could simply be because you have too much on your plate already and you just keep stacking shit on top of it. For reasons unbeknownst to myself and you. You could be scared of using some kind of savings you have, you may be scared of running out or being in a bad financial situation but I see where you will actually benefit more from taking this action than you think. Take measured action, look at your options- and move accordingly to those options.

You need to be making balanced decisions right now, even if you can't move to a nice new apartment that's top of the line you can find a room for rent, or etc.. It's not going to be perfect, not at first- but you will be free and you should have gratitude for that. You have to make a decision, and you may be shocked by the outcomes. You have many possibilities, you have many choices, and you should map out carefully what moves you'll decide to make next. Thank you for reading pile ii <3

VERY LAST MESSAGE: Someone's spirit stayed after I asked them to depart, they want to deliver a final message I have no clue who this is for BUT: You have well thought our your plans and the actions will deliver the correct consequences I'm hearing? Consequences don't have to mean that something bad is happening I suppose. It could mean that the cause and effect for this is more positive than you think. Rely on this spirit, they could be an air spirit or when they were alive they could've been an air sign or had air in their chart or had stelliums in air houses. I'm hearing "Uranus and Jupiter" idk what that means lol, but a lot of things are being supported for you. Just know that, I heard something about "I'm sorry" as well, "I supported you the best I could" this could be a family member of some kind that passed away. Idk. Sorry about the add-on! Bye pile ii ! <3

pile iii

Keep your head up, you’re in a heavily creative energy right now and they need you to understand that. For some reason I feel called to the inky blackness of the sky in the pile photo, darkness is what existed before the creation of existence. This is something we hear in MULTIPLE religions and belief systems, darkness is ALSO the chaos. So all of this chaos around you can be bent to your will, but you have to actually believe in yourself and be strategic. You’re allowed to have flaws or faults, but for the next 6-8 months you need to remain determined. Sit with water, sit with plants, sit with god or your ancestors or who or whatever. You could be favored by Adonai(yhwh) but for some reason I felt called to call him Adonai. Perhaps you should pray to Adonai, I see he wants to help you but you must first call on him. If you’ve been feeling a hankering for frankincense smells that may be because of him.

I sense a lot of adventure coming your way, but they need you to brace yourself and handle the anxiety. Don’t be afraid, you have to stop conjuring your worst fears. When you feel afraid say “show me how good it can get”. “Prove me wrong, prove my fear wrong”, you have a hell of a lot more support than you think and it’s time to wake up to that reality and bloom. The skies can only stay rainy and cloudy for so long- but it’s up to you to make the sacrifices to bring forward your desires. 💚

Some of you could feel drawn to pile 1, there may be some messages there for you ngl. ANYWHO, I see here that you are seeking love, and I think that they are trying to get you to understand that you have to transform to meet this potential. There are a lot of interpersonal things you struggle with and they are urging you to stop letting this get in the way of your success. You have to be more self reliant and self dependent, you need to be self starting and a go getter. Don't be afraid of being told no, because I'm hearing "if there's a will there's a way" I do sense this will be much easier than you think, it just may take a lot of foot work/heavy lifting and you may have to think cleverly to get what you need. You could be perceiving more stagnation than there is, there has to be a transformation in how you view "home", home is where the heart is- home is not always how you might see it.

I see that there is some kind of transformation happening in a home or around the concepts of the home in some way? You have ancestral support in what you want, that may be the message that was trying to come through regarding the home actually. Your ancestors don't want you to fear anything, they're going to help you- potentially with a lawyer for some? I heard immigration as well, so some of you could be trying to speak to migration lawyers. I heard "be blessed and know that you are loved" they are going to help you with a lot of this foot work ngl, Some of you may have an enemy working against you, your spirits are advising you to continue pushing for what you desire. This person literally can't stop you, I think you don't understand how actually powerless they are. There could be some kind of spiritual blockage stopping this person from causing personal harm to you. Do your best to dream about your desires, to dream of the best outcome- it will help so much.

Be more positive, be more outgoing- this seems to be the people from pile I who struggle with faith and inner strength. I heard "honesty" as well, so don't be afraid to bite if you have to. Don't be afraid to call people out, to have high standards and expectations- just figure out what those standards or expectations are. I heard "your own personal hell is awaiting you in the depths of your mind" you have to learn to control this part of yourself, you have to maybe LITERALLY avoid that part of your mind and work physically and in the world around you to actively prove it wrong so it shuts the hell up.

[teaboot]

Hey! Bamboo toilet paper person here. Your response was very thoughtful-- I want to apologize for placing the onus of climate issues on individual action, haha. I work at a zoo that bills itself as being very heavy on conservation messaging, but as a non-partisan organization we're obviously not allowed to talk about the evils of capitalism. This means that in our programming, we MUST place the responsibility of stopping climate change on individual guests, encouraging them to make more environmentally conscientious decisions like buying reef safe sunscreen or reducing carbon emissions by driving less. The most "political" we're allowed to get is telling people to stay educated and vote in favor of laws that will have a positive impact on the environment. I think I've been drinking the Zoolaid a little TOO much recently, because you're totally right-- the vast, VAST majority of damage to the environment is caused by major corporations, not random people working around their own unique needs. It was also low key a little ableist of me to take issue with that ngl.

Obviously no obligation to respond to this publicly (though it's fine if you choose to do so), but I did want to thank you for your response and mention that it did get through the nonprofit mission-based-organization propaganda living rent free in my head haha. Cheers!

Hey, you work at a zoo? That is SO cool, aadsdggjjg@!!!

And hey, no worries, you totally had a good point about endless waste and trying to counter it where possible- Just from personal experience involved in the barest edge of the fashion industry, I really, really, REALLY hate the idea that, like... people can't access simple shit like plastic straws, even if they're the best, most practical, least-harmful option for them.... because a 12 year old made up some random number for a school project about plastic waste

Where, as a zoo person, I imagine you're already aware that the average sea turtle is WILDLY more likely to die from abandoned plastic fishing nets or ocean-dump grocery bags than accidentally get a straw inside it

So here we are, using paper straws!- which may be an improvement, or may not, I don't have that data, and construction emissions are their own thing- BUT WE STILL HAVE OCEANS FULL OF ABANDONED NETS

WHICH ARE OBJECTIVELY WORSE, but MUCH harder to get rid of, and as the average person doesn't USE fishing nets, it'd much harder to market as a "You, not me" sort of issue.

Cleaning up fishing nets isn't trendy. It isn't sexy. You can't troubleshoot a cute little trendy solution for it that you can market to upwardly-mobile tweens.

But a reusable water bottle? A cute canvas tote? A metal straw? That's a solution you can buy and feel good about.

Never mind that you need to use a single cotton reusable bag somewhere like a million times before the cost of its construction counterbalances the cost of a single grocery bag every time you shop- which, hey, some of us were reusing as trash liners for their wastebaskets, or bundle bags for donating clothes, or lining for our leaky winter boots!

If a better option is available, I'll take it. But as ZERO HARM is next to impossible at this time, I personally am gonna aim for MINIMAL HARM as long as I can.

...sorry, I didn't mean to ramble off again.

But hey, if your nonprofit is doing good things, feel free to shoot me a link! I can post it on my blog :D

(Link to original post for context lol)

[theoriquewitherseld]

The association

Redrew their adult versions bc I really need to diversify unique features while also portraying their personalities... Which while I think it's an improvement, I don't think I've quite nailed it yet. May rework some of the minor features, particularly the eyes.

Some notes on the design choice:

Jacques & Kit - they're twins halves of the same whole to me, so they have the same face, just different vibes. Jacques is supposed to give the impression of a cool, strict, if a lil cold older brother, while Kit is the more carefree, also cool, affectionate older sister.

Lemony - I added scars from when Stew beat him up. His eyes are the same as his siblings.

Moxie - Other than polishing up the structure of her face and adding freckles, I think I really got her right from the get-go. 10/10 no further notes.

Cleo - She's supposed to look intimidating and regal, her hair is meant to evoke a "queen". She looks fierce, but she's nicer than she looks.

Jake - when he was younger, his hair is curlier and down, now he has it styled. He's meant to look friendly.

Ellington - doesn't look mysteriously enough ngl, but she does have femme fatale vibes. Kinda.

Lizzie - literally just Hedy Lamarr in terms of face. I really want a look that screams "STARLET", so she's the prettiest/most elegant looking here.

Kellar - my intention for him is that bc of his harried and anxious nature, he gives off the impression of being unapproachable and unpleasant.

Squeak - the youngest of the group, he grew up but still maintaining that core mischievousness. He looks a lot like Pip.

Pip - forgot to draw his glasses, anyways he looks more of a refined gentleman here bc he's now officially a librarian, a prestigious job.

Ornette - meant to look classy, enigmatic, and amiable. Perfect for a hotel proprietor.

[argentimybeloved]

I have winter exams starting tomorrow so time to have random thoughts of some of my fav hsr characters helping me get through it :3

Can be seen as romantic or platonic

Good luck to anyone with exams coming up!!

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Argenti would totally check in on you. Giving you water and snacks every hour or so and making sure you aren't over working yourself. If you happen to fall asleep at your desk he'll carry you to bed.

If studying happens to become very stressful to you he's quick to pull you away and urge you to relax. These exams may be important to you, but your more important to him. He can't stand to see you upset about these exams and ignoring your needs. So he'll take care of you.

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Boothill I feel would defo try to get you to relax. Of course not make you completely forget about your studies but he knows that if you spend too much time studying w/o a break. That in itself could be a problem

He knows you should study, especially if these exams are important to you, but there should always be time for yourself to relax your mind. So if he thinks you've been overworking yourself too much or have spent to many hours with no break studying? You bet he's dragging your ass out for a nice walk

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Dr Ratio helps you. I mean he is a teacher. He's able to help. He'll slow down, he'll write, he'll do whatever it takes for you to understand the topic and be confident in your exams. Of course I feel he'll still be strict but if he sees you're struggling he wants to help.

He may be strict but he genuinely wants to help, in any way possible. If it means taking it slow or using visual references so be it. He wants to make sure you go into that exam with as little stress as possible. And whatever grade you get he'll be proud of you because he knows you tried. And that's all that matters to me, that you tried.

He'll still be proud of you

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Imagine sleeping on Jing Yuans chest or lap after a long day of studying and/or exams. He'd let you. He's probably sleeping as well honestly. You deserve the sleep anyways, to relax your body after a stressful day

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Dan Heng defo also helps you study. He sees what you're struggling on the most and spends time teaching you so you can grasp it, even just a little. He'll give you small tests. Nothing too long, maybe 10-20 minutes. On different chapters you're going to be tested on. He checks them and goes through the ones you got wrong. Slowly you'll seen an improvement as the cycle of him teaching you the topics you didn't know, getting a small test and seeing where you went wrong repeats.

I'd love to hug him after a long day exams and just be held by his tail ngl, he might let that happen

[walpu]

Aventurine and Ratio hcs of their s/o performing a lap dance to them...👀 (separately)

oh 👀👀👀👀

sorry it's a bit short I'm writing this in between flights 😭a really hope I didn't mess up with Ratio's characterization since it's my first time writing for him

performing a lap dance to them

characters - Aventurine, dr. Ratio notes - gn!reader, a bit suggestive, no beta

Aventurine

Ngl he would adore it.

Having you so close to him, giving him your undivided attention while performing something just for him? Yeah.

He's greedy for your attention in general so of course he would like you doing something so intimate for him.

He's a patient man so he would not jump into actions, allowing you to tease him while his eyes linger on your partly exposed body.

May try to seek your touch, hugging your waist or unbuttoning your shirt for you. It's up for you to decide if he's allowed to touch you during the prosses tho 🤭

If you tell him that he's allowed only to watch then he'll do just that.

"My, so strict~ Will I at least be rewarded for my patience? It's no fun if there is no reward~"

He's bluffing, seeing you like that is already a reward.

He's seen you naked before so it shouldn't be a big deal anyway just some fun but damn. You, on hid lap, slooooowly removing your clothes while grinding against his hips?

Okay maybe he's not so patient actually.

He'll let you finish but as soon as you're done with the dance he's all over you, kissing you as if he's been starving for it for months, his hands caressing your body anywhere he can reach.

Don't try to play hard to get with him or he'll turn into a needy and whining mess I'm so serious. You promised him the reward for his patience after all.

dr. Ratio

lmao this man

I know a lot of people see him as a repressed virgin but I really don't think that's the case. MAYBE he's a virgin. But I he's not repulsed/embarrassed when it comes to the topic of sex or kinky stuff.

He is, however, a man with priorities. And right now his priority is to rate his students' homework.

So can you stop distracting him? You can't.

He scolds you and rolls his eyes when you laugh, trying to focus on the papers and not on the way your shirt slides down your shoulders. And differently not on the way you keep grinding against his hips. And surely not on the way you put your arms around his neck, whispering god knows what into his ear.

He could easily try to push you away if he wanted to. Don't point this out to him, he's aware.

It's so embarrassing to him because he knows he should focus but he just can't, not when you're doing this. And he needs to be fully focused if he wants to cure his students from "the persistent disease named ignorance". So dramatic and for what

Maybe if you remind him that body and mind need rest to function properly he'll relax just a bit.

Eventually his focus fully shifts to you, his hands, while not persistent, find their way to your hips, pulling you closer.

May or may not give come remarks about your technic.

Ask him to grade your performance and he actually will lol

"Zero points for your behavior" "Aw :(" "...but seven points for the technic and emotional involvement".

Now why the fuck it's only seven.

Now you just have to do it again. You know, to show your improvement.

[astrologanize]

pick a card : what can you do to ensure your blessings?❂

*please take a moment to take a deep breath and choose the image you are most drawn towards*

———-for pile 1 ⊹

do you ever feel like a plastic bag-...no, nvm, but do you ever feel like you've been typecasted? like you have been pigeonholed into being something for so long and now you're just attached to this identity a lil too much? cuz i'm seeing someone who is living as though they're an elderly person who is too set in their ways. you are the classic case of your ego blocking your blessings!

the only way for you to ensure your blessings is to start paying closer attention & recognizing the uninspired patterns of behavior you possess because there is too much ego and too much stagnancy. you can experience the life you desire if you rework your expectations and realize that what you've been accepting as your life is really a path that requires minimal motivation from you - there is no zest! no lust for life! if you are dealing with any sort of depression or low mood i can understand the lack of motivation but i'm afraid you have to actively participate in your life in order for it to change.

once you begin to rework your expectations and become an active participant in your life you will be amazed by all that you attract. you could go from being a homebody to the life of the party, you could start attracting a bunch of different people, you could start attracting a lot of attention, especially romantic attention, and you'll finally start feeling free and able to see all the choices you have for yourself and your life. there are joyous times waiting for you! stop settling for the sake of ego, set aside your pride and choose life.

———-for pile 2 ⊹

if you know better then do better. although i am seeing you open to the world, it is not in a way that is conducive to attracting what you truly desire for yourself. you're someone who seems to be winging your way through life but you're not necessarily taking chances or risks, at least none that are major or worth much. it's kind of reminding me of 'good will hunting'...like you're this person who does have strong capabilities but you're not believing such or doing anything with them.

in order for you to ensure your blessings you need to start shaping yourself to be a well-defined person who understands their capabilities and decides to do something with them. time to work on your ability to be decisive! i do not think it will be a smooth ride for you in doing so because you will run into some temporary problems as you make the transition but you will finally be doing something different with your life.

an annoying adjustment period is standing between you and your blessings! but the blessings are lovely; your connections with others will surely improve as you come more into your own as a well-defined person and you're able to show up in the connections as such - you'll be receptive to them and they'll be receptive to you because you will have an improved relationship with boundaries. 'you're okay' wanted to come through for you <3 take some deep breaths and know that you are more capable than you think you are. also it's coming through that you guys should take more photos! whether that's of yourselves or with others or of your life.

———-for pile 3 ⊹

lol y'all are giving baby energy...if you're under the age of 22 then you being childish makes sense but if you're over the age of 22 then it's giving adultchild. you guys are killing the mood ngl, i'm seeing that you have the tendency to be pessimistic, creatures of habit, and lazy. no bueno. it's reminding me of water placements that refuse to get their shit together.

in order for you to ensure your blessings you need to stop wallowing in your emotions and allowing your emotions to control you, therapy may be a good option for you but ultimately you need to start learning how to properly share & confide your emotions. this does involve you also learning how to regulate your emotions and recognizing what you are actually feeling instead of it being an endless cluster of emotions and moods. sorry but ya gotta build some structure in your life!

this will be a tedious process because you're going to have to dish out some tough truths to yourself and point the finger to the mirror so you can get a grip on your life. how can the blessings come when you're choosing to stay under all your perceived misfortunes?

———-for pile 4 ⊹

i fear you are missing the fruits of life by focusing too heavily on your own ambitions. it's not a bad thing that you are someone who has pursuits of your own that you want to follow but when its to the point of neglecting connectivity with others then it is a problem. you get so caught up in thinking that life is going to pass you by & that you need to do all these things in order to attain happiness or a sense of achievement/fulfillment that you end up living a life based in fear & bulldozing your way through life.

in order for you to ensure your blessings you need to calm down and breathe and trust that good things are happening instead of getting in your extreme existential moods that cause nothing but issues and stress and create blockage. your existential crisis for your life is making you miss out on the people around you and chances to connect on a deeper level because you're so fixated on what you think you should/need to be doing for yourself.

taking a step back from your own vortex and quelling these fears will help you to become present in your life. you will be able to have heart to hearts with people, conversations that give you the chance to improve and further the emotional intimacy in your life. life will stop feeling like an uphill battle and you will no longer be chasing fulfillment but instead actually embracing it.

———-for pile 5 ⊹

you have resigned yourself to a supposed fate that is not meant for you. either you are living your life not on your terms & enduring things that truly do not resonate with you and/or you are hung up on what you thought your life would be like & won't stop beating that dead horse. it's seeming like you're a glutton for punishment at times and choose to dwell on shoulda woulda coulda's.

in order for you to ensure your blessings you gotta do some soul searching to figure out what actually does resonate with you because once you know that, whatever you put your mind to...you will be able to attain it with far greater ease than you know. start journaling, writing affirmations, writing down manifestations, the power of the mind and tongue is palpable for you. it's time to utilize your wits, speak your mind, express your thoughts! there is too much you are lamenting and not enough creation happening, which only furthers the feeling of you being stuck.

in doing this, you will be giving up something in your life...whether it be a path you're going down or a mindset that is not serving you, whatever it is...it will be a relief for you to no longer persist with something that has offered little to no benefit for you. a new realm will begin to form as you figure out your way of truth, no more shall you be a sitting duck refusing to surrender to the beautiful waves of life. believe in the life that is and is to come!!!!!!

———-for pile 6 ⊹

suffer in silence type, perhaps? i'm seeing that you have the tendency to have a major guard up, you stick to what you know, you hold yourself back due to your own fears, and the crown is befitting because you do feel the need to hold your head high. unfortunately this does not allow for energy to flow to you though!

in order for you to ensure your blessings you need to chip away at the walls you've built and start allowing yourself a bit of vulnerability. keeping your feelings to yourself and suffering in silence is creating blockages in many areas of your life because you're living from a place of fear and not honoring sentience. you cannot do everything on your own and there is no reward in trying to. it's time to ask & accept the help of others because you must learn to trust in others and be open to leaving the confinement of your own walls. be a lil helpless, as a treat. it's a wonderful feeling to give momentary reprieve by leaning on another, and it also gives the other person the opportunity to tap into their own humanity by assisting a fellow human.

you trying so hard to stand on your own is only making you shakier! if you allow for vulnerability you will begin to gather your bearings and life will be able to flow for you. even though you will be feeling not as independent as you were of course, your sense of security will drastically improve and you will start to be okay with the bouts of feeling unassured in yourself instead of forcing yourself to always be standing upright (which only leads to instability eventually).

[gyurilla]

⋆˚𝜗𝜚˚⋆ k.wh - but i like YOU!

genre: strangers to lovers?? friends to lovers??, pairing: woonhak x afab!reader wc: dont know 😛 warning: being ignored?? lower case intended, i forget to use caps, reader is the same age as woonhak

kinda got the idea from: ‘This Other Side of Paradise’ by Coyote Theory

HERE!

more under cut!

kwon y/n, an idol, a girl who joined the industry at a young age, being a child actor to now a teen idol.

y/n debuted as a soloist . Being famous from the start, you may think y/n has many friends, but you would be wrong. She is a lonely child, a lonely idol. Her brother also a famous idol ignores her and instead praises another young artist and treats her like a sister and because of that idols ignore y/n. she was an outcast in the industry

that was until she met kim woonhak , a fun lively idol who never ignored her and treated her as a real person

for the first time, someone saw her as HER, not some legacy, not some shadow, just y/n

and maybe, just maybe. she wasn’t so lonely anymore.

a/n: ngl this is my first time writing in so long, i was a little wpad user ROFL, uh i dont know how to use tumblr i kinda just stalk and read..pls give me tips on how to improve my writing and how to set this stuff up, ANYONE WHO SEES THIS💔💔

[cramathonn]

Thoughts on Jane and Seth as a couple? And fun headcanons about them if you have any?

Ohoho, heck YEAAAH

I love Jane x Seth, they're so cute

Teasing dom woman and dense af submissive and pure man who she can ABSOLUTELY suplex (he'd let her but not without a fight, would so consider it training)

But like, I had a thought before this one and it was just

"Tom and Jerry but make them humans and Jerry is trans and a dominatrix" – My brain about Jane x Seth

And headcanons about them? Hmm, I think Jane would have a hard time spending time with Seth due to her missions and all, but she would try to make time, absolutely.

Seth would SOOO try to get her to come to his family time weekends. I mean, that's his gf, she's family now so like, family weekends with parents AND hot gf? Sign him up!!!

Seth is also the shyest boyo in the planet. Don't het me wrong, he IS dense as fuck, but once he gets the hint? Oh, he's blushing, oh he's hiding behind his tail and turning around to Jane cannot see his face (she loves seeing him all flushed and shy, that's her recharger, your honor)

I also can see them having sparring dates and training dates. Seth is a very hardworking individual and constantly tries to improve his physical capabilities. Considering that Jane EASILY bested him in their first encounter, he'd obviously want to constantly spar with her like, PLEAAAASE TEACH HIM HOW TO BE NIMBLE ON HIS FEET HE IS BEGGING

NSFW headcanons ahead! So if you're a Minor, please stop here!

Jane if VERY naughty. Like, have you SEEN her trailers??? That woman is the incarnation of Aphrodite AND Dionysus combines (aka she's the incarnation of SEX). So like, she will absolutely go down on Seth. Also, T4T Jane x Seth anyone?

But like, since so many ppl see Jane and Seth as Tom and Jerry, may I offer you transfem Jane, the queen of tucking? Like, Seth had NOOO idea she was trans and when he found out he just found her like, 10x hotter.

Like, imagine your girlfriend, who you know is strong af and sooo fucking cunning, finally tells you she is trans and you just "Omfg my girlfrend is so fucking strong and determined and beautiful and she has such a huge di-"

Seth is a virgin, I'm sorry but that SHOULD be common knowledge between all in the fandom. Like, bro has NO game due to how dense and blunt he is. While Jane has THE game, like, even Belle said she had rizz for fuck's sake! That woman is bisexual hazard in a way that she CAUSES the hazard and is, most possibly, a lot of people's bi awakenings (I just know some poor straight woman is looking at her going like "Wtf, why is she so pretty holy shit I wanna date her" and having to stop and rethink their entire history with sexual and/or romantic attraction)

Either way, Seth is prideful but not in an arrogant way, so I'm having a hard time deciding if he would vehemently deny that he's a virgin or if he would just... Say it. NO WAIT, BETTER OUTCOME. Jane is making out with him and he's so nervous and he has a boner (or his pussy is wet, live your headcanons to the fullest!) and Jane teases him about it and he's so so anxious and nervous and shy and gosh she catches on that it's his first time so quickly and she asks him about it and I can just SEE his ears pressing against his head in shame and him slowly nodding without making eye contact....

Soft first time. Jane is SO caring with him for his first time. Ngl, they probably continue to go soft for the first couple of times before Seth is comfortable with experiencing... But I feel like he would be very vanilla even after experimenting (is also very traditional with the "sex is supposed to be romantic" thought and that almost fucks up his first time until Jane calmed him down through it and just... Told him it doesn't need to be romantic and it can just be a fun and enjoyable activity)

Either way, Jane is kinky af, she was a dominatrix once and you CANNOT take that away from me. She revels when Seth lets her go rough on him and she's like, the queen of aftercare, change my mind

Very healthy couple who respects each other's boundaries. She knows she has to be blunt and very literal with Seth so that he can get things and he kinda appreciates it, since it's not always that people understand his problem with getting social clues or context hints. He hated it at the beginning, thinking Jane was babying him, but he quickly understood that he wouldn't be able to understand her boundaries as well of she didn't do that, so he talked to her that day and thanked her PROFUSELY (they ended up cuddling in bed after that)

[duckys-extra]

Chinese GP thoughts - it's basically my chance to yap

First I want to say does anyone else just absolutely adore the trophies for this race? I think it's stunning can't lie. Like one of my faves easily.

Starting with my boys

Edit: Wrote all this before disqualifications, my jaw is on the floor

McLaren

I mean just flawless from Oscar really. He had the upper hand all weekend, just seems more comfortable in the car. And honestly after last week he 100% deserved this redemption, like the universe owed him big time. I do have to say I think there was hesitation to let them fight after the first few laps not bc of team orders or nothing like that but more concern for tyres, they didn't really have the margin to work with for fighting and damaging tyres. Idk if Lando was in a position to really fight, obviously definitely not at the end. But Oscar was just on his own, he held that lead, the start was glorious from him. He really said "fuck off George" at that start and even really helped Lando get past.

Lando, honestly a solid race. But pretty nasty weekend, it got better as the weekend moved through and I suppose he did say last year "I'm not here to win sprint races" and he's sticking to that 🤣 I did lowkey expect a win from him because Lando was so strong on this track last year. But I did absolutely have a heart attack and doubt him keeping hat P2 with how fast George was gaining in that last lap. Thank god he kept it and we got the McLaren 1-2. Gotta hope the brake issue is a one time thing, not a reoccurring issue. I do think he wanted to fight for the win but also I was on his onboard the whole race, there was some sort of hint that they didn't want them really fighting. Not saying Oscar was protected but it did seem like there was hesitation and some coded messages referring back to the agreement pre-race.

Too early to call who has better odds from an objective point. But imo I do still think Lando has generally the upper hand and he won't be struggling on all tracks (I hope). If I do see people shouting that this race proves Oscar is better I may have to track down and jab people in the throat.

Haas

I just need to discuss them bc they were not spoken about nearly enough. Both in the points after last week they were last with no improvement in sight.

Bearman had me laughing when he kept saying "ciao" when he'd overtake. I mean his overtakes were also just great to see, I think it was very good to see him have a decent weekend after everyone was worrying about a bit of a repeat of a rookie coming in and crashing constantly. Redemption weekend 100% and it's great to see.

Ocon was moving in silence, or the broadcast just didn't cover him, but P7. I've always been a bit of an Ocon defender when it comes to him as a driver and his ability. Also not seeing any hostility between him and his teammate is a very nice thing to see. Ngl he's probably feeling much better about leaving Alpine for Haas this weekend compared to last weekend. My driver of the day for getting himself P7 ngl.

Mercedes

George is mr consistent rn. Credit where it's due, bc I had my doubts about Mercedes performance this year. I truly expected it to be a McLaren vs Ferrari show down but George is really rising to the challenge and I can't lie I think the dynamic of seeing what Merc is like without Lewis is a healthier and happier dynamic for all parties. Obviously we'll see how that goes once Kimi is out of his rookie year and they're in the new regs. Bc it is fairly obvious Kimi is considered the future and next champion for Mercedes even if George is consistent and getting those results for best of the rest.

Kimi, ngl idk how he got driver of the day. I mean by no means bad but I wouldn't say he was amazingly impressive today. He was there, started where he finished, kept himself in the points and out of trouble. I don't think he had a bad race, just an average one. I didn't really see much of him in a way that caught my attention. I do think there was more deserving drivers who should've got recognition even if it wasn't Ocon, I'd say either Oscar or Lando was deserving for their races. But good to see he's growing a fan favourite bc at the end of the day, that's a fan vote.

Red Bull

Max's back must be broken. Like literally. The amount he's carrying that team. Literally 100% of their points are his. And by some miracle he was flying at the end of that race, whether it was light fuel load, the hard tyres. Maybe a combination of both? Idk but like man is about to be a father, they should be easing their reliance on him not increasing it. I will say he does seem to be mentioning that he's happy and that he's happy outside the car which is the main thing...For me that is a red flag for Red Bull to look out for. If he's so happy outside the car, he might just decide to stop getting in the car.

Liam I mean I don't remember seeing him in the race aside from when Bearman overtook him. I will say I'm really starting to pity him every time I see an interview from him, he looks more and more beaten down. I do think he needs to stop making comments to the media, like Red Bull PR just need to be like "talk only about the driving, about the car, about the race or session. Stop talking about other teams, or drivers." Like they just need to implement that and essentially get him to stop running his mouth bc the more he does and the less we see in results from him. The hard it's going to get.

Seeing the way Red Bull is talking about him, the support is sort of minimal. They say he's a good driver, they blame the car but they're also saying "we need both drivers up there". I've heard this story before and the ending was harsh. Just watched Horner be asked about how much time Liam has and he didn't say "we've got this kid in the seat and we're keeping him" he confirmed time is limited.

Ferrari

Has Lewis been getting attitude lessons from Liam? This "I'll tell you when we swap" message was a bit of a joke, tbh. I know people want to defend Lewis but this attitude he's having is not it and he can try to defend it but he was holding Charles up so much. Within a matter of like 5 laps, Charles had a 2 second gap ahead of Lewis after he finally was allow to pass. That was with a damaged car. This is why I hate people getting ahead of themselves, yes Lewis had a mega performance in the sprint race but the truth is that doesn't account for much for a race. Idk maybe he's not enjoying that Ferrari aren't prioritising him but last year we saw the same thing with Merc when he'd hold George up and George had very apparent better pace. If he's going to hold his teammate up he has to get over himself and sending a message out like that. Ehhh no Lewis when you team tells you to swap positions and your teammate is half a second behind you, you fucking swap the position. Also wasn't a fan of him saying "Give me feedback" then proving that actually they had been giving him feedback bc he then followed that up by saying they'd already said that.

I will say idk whether I'd say the move to pit was smart. Either way Max was finishing P5 imo. The decision to pit just meant there wasn't a fight about it which would've used up tyres for Lewis in defending.

Charles, I mean damage on the first lap isn't great and he was at fault for that. I imagine he could've fought for p3 without it. Maybe not been successful but deffo fought for it. It's a hard call to make. I know people gonna say he was snappy on the radio but like he's snappy in a funny way that isn't really acting as an insult to the team. Also we know he's got an understanding with the team from 6 years of being there with them.

Lewis had a good weekend but I'm just not loving this attitude from him and him trying to justify it by deflecting onto other drivers and how they speak to their engineers. Ik he was misquoted as specifying Max, so I'm not going to dip into that. But I will just say I want to see Lewis regain his more respectful attitude bc Ferrari want him and he's start to become a bit of a dick towards them.

Brief over look of the rest

RB...horrendous luck. Neither incident that cost them their races was their fault in my opinion. Obvious great qualifying and Yuki got points in the sprint. It's just a shame. Hadjar just a victim of that incident.

Aston Martin, did feel for Fernando. Obvious the car is sitting steady in the midfield but that DNF wasn't his fault. Stroll...I think Brazil last year might've really been a wake up call for him. Bc he's kind of been on it for these races. Like out the points today but he's not disappointing anyone.

Sauber this track seemed to really not suit them in race form. I don't think it was representative, I hope not but we'll see. Haas made a strong come back so hopefully we can see that from them. Bortoleto obviously had that first lap incident, basically wrecked his race from there he was just sort of chasing the pack tbh.

Williams, kind of in no mans land. I want to see more from Carlos, I know he has better performance ability but I don't just want to blame the car bc obviously we're seeing better from Alex. I know it's the second race, I know Alex has the experience in a Williams. I know. But maybe I'm just sad I'm not seeing Carlos come out swinging and really showing us what we know he's capable of.

Alpine...Jack is a bit of a menace isn't he? 🤣 I suppose at least he finished the race. Gasly, similar to a lot of the midfielders he's just not very present so there's not much to go off of.

[eveningrainstorm]

my take on teenage raz and lili!

some design notes under the cut:

They're intended to be about 16 here! I didn't go for anything too drastic in terms of changes -- these are largely just what I'd consider natural evolutions of their canon designs

For Raz, my main focus besides just making him look older was to add a bit more resemblance to the other Aquatos in his design, since his relationship with them wouldn't be strained like it is during canon

Raz is shown with very straight hair in canon, but since most of his family's hair is more wavy or curly I tend to imagine he styles it that way on purpose as part of his Sasha Nein cosplay or whatever. He wouldn't still feel the need to do that at this point, though, so for this design I wanted to make it more curly, similar to Augustus or Frazie, while still similar to his canon style. This turned out to be incredibly difficult and I'm still not entirely happy with where I landed, but it's good enough

I didn't think he would still wear the helmet but I didn't want to discard it entirely, so the goggles were a compromise. I meant to give them some visible scratches and wear and tear since they're presumably the same goggles he's been wearing since he was 10, but I forgot. rip

Obviously the most notable change to Raz's outfit is the scarf -- I wanted something that would tie him visually to the other Aquatos while still fitting with his general look. I imagine they gave it to him as a gift, sort of an acknowledgement that even if he doesn't perform with them as an acrobat, doing his Psychonaut work is his own way of being an Aquato

Raz's outfit here is honestly very similar to his PN2 outfit. This is because in my eyes "long coat and turtleneck" is Peak Character Design and cannot be improved on. (Hence why I may not be the best person to redesign Raz.) He has an actual coat rather than just an oversized blazer this time though, so that's an improvement. With the turtleneck I was was vaguely intending for it to be color-wise something of a middle ground between the Sasha-style green striped turtleneck and the Aquato blue/green and white stripes, but it ended up basically just being the PN1 stripes with the PN2 color. which, you know, that works

I went back and forth on what their heights should be -- I thought it would be kind of funny if Raz ended up short and Lili ended up taller than him, but then I decided to just make them more in line with their families, with Raz being tall and lanky and Lili being average verging on short. Except then I accidentally made Lili tall anyway because I was only vaguely considering her height relative to Raz. I guess Lili's probably taller than her dad now? good for her ig

Most of their facial features are just slight variations of how they look in canon -- slightly smaller eyes and so on. the only real specific change is that Lili has a more defined nose now, similar in shape to her father's

Lili's outfit here is more different from either of her canon outfits than Raz's is, but there's still not much that really requires a ton of explanation. The goal was to make her look vaguely cool and fashionable, although as I am neither of those things I cannot guarantee I was successful

I tried a couple different hairstyles for Lili, and I'm still not entirely set on this one -- Originally what I settled on was to give her two braids, which I did like, but I kept doing sketches of her where I just drew the top part of the hair and was like "ngl this kind of works on its own" and so I ended up going with the short hair. I also briefly tried an asymmetrical haircut but I couldn't get it to look right. I think this one suits her though

Lili's tattoo (on her left wrist) was a later addition to the design, and even in the later stages of drawing this I wasn't sure whether to keep it. I like it conceptually I just haven't figured out a consistent design for it yet, only that it has to be of plants

god these notes got way longer than I meant them to be I am so sorry. Uh basically I'm still figuring out the details of these designs but for now here's Raz and Lili, they're teenagers now, thanks for reading

[itsgirlcraft]

Heyoooo back at it again with my old "dragon!Sabre saves knight!Rainbow from Princess Nightmare" au

Sooo this is from 1/31/2021, apparently. I'll put the first bit from the og fic idea down, bc the second half is just rambling about Sabre's backstory and I wanna talk abt Nightmare tbh.

@woahrarepairsagemare potential sagemare fic incoming? And also @its-indigos you n your man ((Genesis)) wanna join the fic? :)

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The eldest princess of the Yellow Kingdom was said to live within a hidden castle in the Nightmare Mountains' forest, supposedly performing dark spells and horrifying experiments on not only herself but the people of the Kingdom of Yellow. They will fear the name Nightmare Stevens. And. They. Will. BOW.

Princess Night used to be sane. Some say she was infected with a strange ailment known simply as "The Darkness," which caused her to go mad with power. Others say she was locked away in that void-like ruin of a castle, but why? Was "The Darkness" worse than we thought? Did she get locked away for her safety? Or for ours? Did she do something so horrible I dare not utter another word, that she deserved to be locked up? Or was she never sane in the first place. Perhaps her heart was always dark.

The Kingdoms may never know why, only that Night was no longer an innocent girl who had to be protected. She was scarred. Broken. A force of nature which no man could stand up to. Something that no one will be able Magic and against unless they wished to be dead. Some thought she was a lost cause. Others wanted her dead.

"After all, we all have a dark side, I simply chose to show mine to this useless excuse of a world." The Nightmare whispered as she breathed life into her first Dark Creation. "You shall be known as Dark Steve, and together we shall rule all the Kingdoms," Nightmare cackled as her Corruption Magic gave Dark startling deep blood red eyes against glassy white, hungry. "You shall be my general, and you will command The Soldiers of Darkness as the second-in-command of the Night Terror Army!" the insanity of the isolated princess causing her yellow eyes to finally crack, the light searing her eyes, leaving the once-loved Yellow princess as a mere reflection of her former self. Twisted and broken, she kidnapped a young knight said to have been a Color Kingdoms' Creation destined to end "The Darkness's" reign of chaos with finally stopping Nightmare and her plans for complete and utter rule of the Color Kingdoms, and later the entire MC Realm.

But the Rainbow Knight was far too young to be fighting such a dangerous enemy. He lacked control and understanding of the powerful and dangerous abilities a member of the Color Kingdoms could have, and being a collective Creation between all Colors, he held far more potential than he could imagine. But with great power comes much, much, MUCH longer training sessions, and Rainbow was getting nowhere.

Meanwhile, Nightmare could already destroy chunks of land with her new Darkness fireballs the size of the average Yellow apartment, big enough to house up to 8 people. Not only had the dark princess improved her new Red Kingdom skills quickly, but she could already run from the far end of the Nightmare Mountain range to the other end where the Night Terror Castle stood within 5 minutes! Dark was greatly pleased with the progress his young creator had made on her original abilities, her Yellow-Born powers. The Rainbow Knight and the Nightmare Princess may be similar in mental age, but there was no likeness of one in the other. Neither were aware of each other's saddeningly young age, until the kidnapping came.

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Ngl, it feels kinda cringe n edgy, but I think I like it that way. It's a good starting point for a revamp. Sooo obviously reworking Night's dialogue and the narrative around her would be good, but I think it could be REALLY good with some Sagemare.

This og version feels kinda mehhh at best in terms of how alive the characters feel, they're one-dimensional at best. I kinda wanna mess around with including Sage as the knight or dragon, but ehh it might work out easier if I just keep Sage separate from that dynamic.

So one key thing here, is that the Steve Realm is both RQ and TSS at the same time, it's very vague. And if I'm including technically SSO for Sagemare, I might as well add in the rest, yknow? I mean that I wanna add dragon!Genesis and dragon!Indigo, too. Because I've got those mcrp designs and like. Why not.

I could get a real bingo with all these series 💀 like Sabre starts off in Assassin's Creed, then we've got RQ/TSS as the MC Realm, then add in SSO and SL for flavor. AND the dimension/kingdom that Sabre comes from feels like a knockoff Cozen kingdom, so we've got AR too.

I feel like drawing some callbacks to AR would do a lot of good in fleshing out all of this, especially the og part after this lil analysis. The Guardian of the Spirit World is the one to send Sabre on his way, but it seems kinda out of place, tho if I wrote it more as a multi-chapter, the pacing would probably fix itself. Maybe mixing some AR in with that would make this 2nd part a little less awkward.

I also think the vagueness doesn't really work well here, especially with the color kingdoms. Exploring how Rainbow/Nightmare's dynamic effects the kingdoms would definitely fix some of the awkwardness as well, and including other dragons besides Sabre.

And here's the second half:

The strange dark gray/green dragon which came to save the Rainbow Knight was not the strongest or the most powerful dragon. In fact, he was not always a dragon. He is a...peculiar case, random curses and hybrid origins and assassin friends litter his past, like one insane plot twist after another. E.S. thought he was human, back in the so-called "True Reality" Realm which he called home. After he and his father were chased by men claiming to simply be guards wanting to collect tax, the young boy's parents were both killed.

Some time after being taken in by assassins, he learned that the men who killed his parents were, in fact, not guards at all. You see, E.S. lived in a world where magic and inhuman beings were real, but were all in the MC Realm or taken away/killed. "True Reality" was called such thanks to mass anti-magic propaganda that said those who were hybrids, cursed, magic etc. were simply monsters or did not exist, and that the MC Realm did not exist. The ones who killed E.S.'s parents were supporters of such, and were like magic police that tried to censor and remove anyone against them and/or were magic.

E.S.'s mother had a family curse, while his father was a hybrid trying to live a normal life. But both caught up to E.S. when his hybrid side began to show and the curse had finally appeared physically. E.S.'s curse caused his eyes to change constantly, cycling through almost human eyes, to animals like cats, snakes, etc., demonic/bloody eyes which could get particularly scary, and code-like patterns which sometimes made him "glitch" with a spike of pain throughout his body.

E.S. discovered this on his 16th birthday, to his horror. Almost a month later, E.S. found white wings growing on his back. Later the feathers continued appearing along his torso, shoulders, neck, and upper arms. That was when he realized his parents were far more interesting than they wanted him to think. They tried so hard to let him live a normal life without their own past ruining it. E.S. began wearing a reddish-brownish dark gray bandanna around his eyes, and his adoptive father made him a special little hoodie which would make an illusion that would hide E.S.'s feathers as a chicken suit.

E.S. continued to wear both as his journey as an assassin continued. That is, until he got a job to kill a particularly nasty man who was deeply obsessed with finding a way to enter the MC Realm. The man had done so many horrid things to other people and their loved ones while exploring the magic of the MC Realm. E.S. got many jobs from different people asking to kill the obsessive man. He was the first target that saw through the magic hoodie and magic bandanna, and the man seemed to recognize E.S. rather than be fearful. He violently took down E.S., plucking out a few feathers as E.S.'s scream of pain was muffled.

Ripping off his bandanna, the crazed man ignored E.S.'s struggles and collected some blood from his crying eyes, murmuring "you are the one, yes yes yes you must be the chosen, I am sorry my winged child but you must fulfill the prophecy, the boy with rainbows for eyes needs your help, you are the only one who can save us from the dark beasts now, the terror queen must die to the dragon within the child of a cursed and the winged one, you must rescue hope from the nightmare my boy."

'How can this thin old man keep me pinned to the ground?!' E.S. was sure there was no way that the man was somehow stronger than him, he is a hybrid after all. Soon something happened while the man was mixing strange things with the blood and feathers. A portal. And not just any portal. The only one to the MC Realm.

"You truly are the chosen one!" the man wheezed, as a strange concoction finished brewing. E.S. could not move, what was this man planning to do to him? Was the job really all a hoax?? How, how was the man keeping E.S. down without touching him?! Why did the portal just appear?!? E.S. barely managed to grab his bandanna before the man slouched over to him, holding the strange bottle. The liquid seemed to shine in the dim light, like a green fire against metallic scales.

"You must take this, my boy. You may be a hybrid, but. You. Will. NOT SURVIVE. Unless you take on the identity of the dragon within you," the man began pouring the liquid on E.S.'s wings as he spoke. It burned. It burned through his veins as some was forced down his throat. His vision went blurry, barely catching a glimpse of his wings. He had no feathers. There was a green shine on them now. The man wheezed in joy as he dragged the panicking young man towards the glittering glitched purple portal.

For a moment, there was kindness in his voice. "I am sorry for all I have done," the man spoke with a softness E.S. had never heard, "I have grown too old to return to the broken MC Realm, please, help them. The Color Kingdoms used to be my home, but now I cannot reunite with my family until the Darkness Age is over. You should be able to get help with returning home once you end the Darkness, mention that The Guardian brought you." And with that, he pushed an oversized iron sword into E.S.'s hands, which were growing sharp black claws. E.S. looked up at the older man, tears in his eyes. "Save them. I wish we had more time but we don't," the man whispered with a sad smile before pushing the rapidly transforming boy through the portal, still clutching the sword.

And thus, E.S. became the dragon sent to save the Colors from the Darkness. He took on the name Sabre, his middle name, as his dragon form. The oversized sword fit perfectly in his new clawed hands, now a glittering purple and blue, almost like a galaxy. The previously empty socket in the handle had what looked to be a star, having fallen long ago. E.S. went on to find the Rainbow Knight, knowing that the two of them were the only ones who could save the Kingdoms. With some help from each Color, of course. He could not do it alone, even if he were the so-called "saviour." The once-human dragon must rescue the young knight from the Nightmare princess, or else all will be lost.

[autism-man-9998]

too-long talk about an and kohane's relationship and its connection with nagi

im meant to be asleep. but! the brain wont shut up unless i talk about this so. here i am. this is my first longer post here so i hope i do it right

also, this is ALL my interpretation!! not necessarily canon and ngl i probably made some of it up/read into it too deep. but if i phrase something as if its canon: none of this is really outright stated. i just didn't want to clarify every time LMAO

so firstly, i wanted to talk about an's wedding event. in this event she pretty much states that she wants to be like shizuku and meiko in the sense that they are cool, reliable and mature women. who else is a cool, reliable and mature woman? nagi herself!

an is shown to emulate nagi, at least subconsciously, on many occasions, like the aforementioned wedding event. i think vbs main story and an1 are further examples of this: an takes it upon herself to be kohane's guide around vivid street. she introduces kohane to the places and the people and the culture the same way nagi had done for her, all while maintaining that kohane can always rely on her and never truly treating her as an equal. in many ways it feels like she is trying to be kohane's own nagi, that explaining why she doesn't treat kohane as an equal and more of a dependent: nagi was something of an aunt/much older sister who would have treated an in the same way.

nagi could also be part of why an is unable to be vulnerable with kohane. nagi doesn't tell an about her cancer diagnosis so as to not upset her and, as an older sister figure, presumably was never very open about her worries to an so she wouldn't be unnecessarily burdened as a child. this kind of leaks into an's relationship with kohane as she thinks showing her fears about kohane leaving her would disappoint kohane, and would shatter the nagi-like image an has tried to build up because it simply doesn't match how nagi would have treated her.

furthermore! an's fear of kohane leaving seems very much caused by nagi as well! of course there's the obvious reason: nagi left her(at least to her knowledge before an4). kohane is becoming increasingly similar to nagi. what if kohane leaves as well? and since an has been carrying this idea that the person she admired so much left her just like that for so long, it makes sense to me that, even when she finds out that nagi is dead, the impact of it wouldn't immediately fade. but i would also like to argue another reason for this (still relating to nagi, of course)

since an, who has been shown to want to be like nagi, has now kind of become kohane's nagi, she would surely feel something of an ego boost. she has, in some ways, become like her inspiration! amazing! that could be part of why she cannot see kohane as an equal—she never felt equal to nagi herself. so when, in kohane1, kohane improves dramatically, an's position as 'her nagi' is threatened. kohane has caught up. and how long will it be until she surpasses an? she feels like she has to cling onto this nagi-like status of being perfectly confident and reliable just to keep kohane looking up to her, because if kohane (who she is starting to feel inferior to) looks up to her, surely she is still worth being around? i think she bases her self-worth around this. the more kohane looks up to her, the more confident she can feel in the fact that someone she thinks is somewhat above her NEEDS her, and the more she has to keep the facade up. but the more kohane improves, the more she reminds an of nagi. if kohane is like nagi, why would she need an around?

the more similar to nagi kohane gets, the more scared an feels. she feels even more like she cannot be vulnerable so that kohane isn't 'disappointed'—or so that kohane doesn't realise she may not need an anymore. of course, kohane DOES want an around. kohane would even prefer an to be vulnerable around her. why wouldn't she! but an cannot see that.

by an5, kohane has become too similar to nagi for an. she decides that she HAS to finally sort this out (through singing, of course). during this battle, she (finally) breaks away from her need to be like nagi. she realises that she cannot truly do her best of she compares herself to anyone else, be that nagi or kohane. she asserts herself as HERSELF, to the point where the townspeople stop seeing her as an extension of ken or of nagi and just see her as shiraishi an, and this allows her to win. she sets herself free from being like nagi, and is finally able to see herself as kohane's equal for the first time. GOD i love an5. such a banger event.

that was a lot longer than intended!! a LOT longer!!!!! im so tired i cant be bothered to read that again. if i repeated myself. sorry. if it was way too long. sorry. good night.

[trolagygirl2022]

would you ever think about making a reading on the riize member about if they are good personal in general or they are all a mess like seunghan

cause I have trust issues but now it’s even worse

A reading on the RIIZE members

(remember that tarot shouldn't be taken literally)

Sohee: The Hierophant rev, 6 of Pentacles rev, Judgement, The Star rev, King of Pentacles rev 10 of Pentacles rev, King of Wands, 9 of Pentacles, The High Priestess.

I wonder if he has any aquarius placements this guy gives off "chosen one" type of vibes. Again he's meant to break this line of poverty in his family. He's focused on getting money but he can also be quite unstable. Idk if he's a messy person or. He's stubborn attimes and really likes his stability (Taurus placements??). He has been unlucky in the past and he's really focused on building a name for himself. Seems he owes a lot of debts or something. He's more guarded and maybe could be into spirituality?

Eunseok: Page of Swords, Knight of Swords, 2 of Swords, 2 of Pentacles rev, 2 of Wands rev, 7 of Swords, 10 of Cups, 4 of Cups, 3 of Wands rev, The Empress.

Does this guy have a lot of air in his chart? He's rlly chronically online is what I'm getting 💀. This one is pretty fake and a liar. Does he speak multiple languages? I'm picking up that this guy doesn't like change. He's pretty stubborn and likes things going "like they used to". He has problems balancing himself, he overthinks alot. He is quite traditional and places a lot of importance on "honor". He is though, quite creative.

Wonbin: The Sun, 8 of Pentacles, Queen of Cups, 7 of Wands, 3 of Cups, The Tower rev, 10 of Swords rev, Hermit rev, Justice, 2 of Cups rev, Knight of Pentacles rev, 10 of Wands.

This guy really drained my energy. He will do anything and I mean ANYTHING to get to the top. He's the type of person to forge connections and he has the skills and looks to get what he wants. Whatever he puts his mind to do he can get it. He has some childish energy and is very stubborn/ He hates when things don't go his way. He is quite social/can get out of his comfort zone easily and he cares for his job.

Anton: 10 of Pentacles, King of Pentacles, The fool, King of Wands, King of Cups, The Star, Ace of Swords, Queen of Pentacles, The Magician.

Is this the nepo baby? Anyways his energy is actually quite peaceful. He is really passionate about music. Being a celebrity is something he really wanted and he is very creative. He has a lot of ideas and genuinely loves music. He's grounded and cares a lot about his financial stability and I'm sensing parental figures around him with money.

Shotaro: The Lovers, 8 of Wands, The Hermit, 8 of Pentacles, The Tower, 10 of Swords, Knight of Pentacles, 4 of Wands, 2 of Cups.

This one I'm getting is a great dancer and he is always seeking to improve. He's more reserved and he seems like quite a romantic. He has either been in a lot of relationships or seeks to be in one. He likes when things are balanced. He also cares about money. This one seems a bit unpredictable and can change people for the better or the worst. If he has been in a relationship he's coming as rlly toxic sorry but the cards have spoken...

Sungchan: 5 of Pentacles rev, 6 of Pentacles rev, The devil, 4 of pentacles, The Chariot, The Moon, Hermit, 8 of Wands, Page of Cups rev, 4 of Swords rev.

I don't like this one. He's very secretive and hidden and honestly should stay that way. He's quite a toxic one! He seems kinda anti-social and awkward. He may be passionate about dancing. He is someone that is ambitious and has drive yes but he's quite anxious. He hides his emotions and kinda seems like a player ngl.

Seunghan: 2 of Wands, Page of Swords, 4 of Wands, The Sun rev, Knight of Pentacles, Tower rev, 8 of Pentacles, 3 of Wands, 9 of Pentacles, 2 of Cups 10 of Swords.

This guy has a lot of fiery energy in him. He's quite arrogant and childish. He has an ego and damn who hurt this guy?? Or he has been hurt. Idk how he does it but he has a lot of luck with the ladies. He is quite ambitious and will work hard. It's just that he's very impulsive ngl.

[remnantsofthepast-if]

Monthly Update - May 2025

May has been quite a productive month, I must say! To begin with, Chapter 6 is finished and already available to all patrons, and it will be released to the public on June 9th. Another chapter full of emotions, and with an extra branch that wasn’t originally planned but brings some interesting stuff for the future :D. Honestly, when I started this story, I didn’t expect it to get this intense so quickly. My original idea was for it to build up more gradually. Oh well, it is what it is xD

After this, there are only two more chapters left to finish Act 2! Although I still need to see if everything will fit into the next one, because there’s a lot to cover and I don’t want it to get too long either. If that’s the case, I’ll split Chapter 7 into two, and there’ll be three chapters left to finish the Act. In that case, you might be getting two new chapters in the next update instead of one, as I’ll probably write it completely before deciding if I should split it or not :P

Also, as I mentioned recently, I’m editing Act 1. The prologue is already done, with new scenes, tweaked variables, and more dialogue options for the protagonist. It’s been… a bit painful rereading what I wrote back then, lol! But that’s a good thing. It means I’ve improved :D This new version is not released yet, though. I want to at least finish the whole demo before updating it, and then the rest.

I did run into a couple of issues with the APK, though. I managed to fix them in the end, but it definitely took some effort. I still haven’t been able to get the music to play properly without static or weird interruptions, unfortunately. All these problems made me seriously reconsider adapting the story to HoG since, at least for me, I much prefer reading interactive novels on mobile rather than on PC. I even played around a bit with ChoiceScript (it’s pretty fun, ngl). I’d be sad to give up the music since it adds an atmosphere I really like, but I think in the long run it might be for the best. Plus, that way there could be an app for iOS as well. What are your thoughts on Twine vs. ChoiceScript when it comes to interactive novels?

Last but not least, I’ve finished all the summer specials for Patreon! In June we’ll start with Albert/Lavina and then Ada/Omar. July will feature Rayco/Gara and Leire/Luca, and finally, in August, we’ve got Mako/Iasa and Belicar/Nisa. I was really looking forward to writing something for our favourite villain that didn’t involve spoilers xD And of course, I haven’t forgotten about the Leire/Luca illustration for June ;)

Now it’s time to dive into Chapter 7. If all goes well, I might even finish Act 2 before the end of the year! :D

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Have a great month, and see you at the end of June ;)

[utilitycaster]

Hi! I'm soon (finally!) starting a Netherdeep campaign with my lovely friends. This is my second time DMing, but character work is not my strong suit. Any suggestions as a fellow Netherdeep DM for preparing how to roleplay the rivals? I thought of writing out fanfic style how they (the rivals) would adventure through the module, and writing out dialogue/party banter to get a feel for them, but I'd love to hear from you as a more seasoned DM on how you approach this kind of challenge. Thanks for your time!

I hesitate to say character work is MY strong suit either but I do think about the rivals a lot! so:

Read through the full adventure if you haven't as it does cover the rivals' arcs. I will warn you that my main criticism of Netherdeep is that there's a few assumptions it makes regarding what you and what the rivals will do, especially in Bazzoxan and in choosing factions in Ank'Harel. [btw: I did not have the rivals ally with Consortium of the Vermillion Dream despite my party allying with the Cobalt Soul because frankly based on how Bazzoxan went down it made no sense, and I'm happy to talk through how I've set them up with the Allegiance of Allsight. I think if your party chooses the Allegiance of Allsight it might be trickier due to the nature of the Cobalt Soul and the arcs of the rivals; you may want to have them join the Vermillion Dream with a goal of infiltration.] So while I think you should maintain the emotional arcs, you need to be flexible regarding the exact factors involved.

I think the book does cover what interests and drives the rivals, and that's very helpful. Honestly, the most basic advice of "know overall what this character is running from and what they are running to, and also what they want and fear in the short term" is pretty much how I play NPCs. This is also way easier than writing fanfic.

With that said: if you do want to write out their side of the story I think that's great - essentially, yeah, I do at least vaguely have a sense of what's going on for them and if making it more concrete will help you, go for it. My only warning is don't go ahead because they will be shaped by how your players interact with them - I expected my players to be super into Ayo and Dermot, and instead we've had a LOT of Maggie and some important Irvan stuff (my fighter has some really interesting parallels with both of them) and some fun Galsariad drama too (because we also have a snobby wizard in the party). Also, real talk, if someone does a rivals POV fic for a full netherdeep campaign in this manner I would 100% read that.

I don't know how helpful this is. I will admit I have a bit of a Spenser Starke problem in that like...while GM-ing while I do not per se black out it's kind of just pure improv instinct and vibes for how characters react. I am also ngl a little bit lazy and drunk off the power of the module being already written so I'm like "oh i don't need to prepare as extensively? GREAT."