#ngl I feel like crying about it but I don’t have the energy to do it so I’m just gonna smoke it off

[jellyshark-jester]

Me yesterday before my slumber of doom when I was at work:

Rant/vent under

I hate men i hate men sm I hate them I just hate men so fucking much omg ndjdbiihjd Well I don’t hate ppl cuz I normally can’t find the energy to care enough to hate but when I do omg it’s a visceral hatred.

Anyways so backstory I was sexually harassed at work by a man cuz he saw my they/them pin and got really offended anyways I won’t go into details but he said a lot of gross things to me and by the end he said “good discussion” and try to shake my hand, I just looked at him and say enjoy ur food cuz fuck him, but he’s back a few moths later, I completely forgot about him and he’s back and then have the nerve to ask me if I’m still “they/them” and trying to ask invasive questions like bro fuck off

Anyways I have never so badly want to spit in a costumers food, just open that container and spit in his chicken chowmain and tell him to have a nice day.

I should be happy I didn’t get physically assaulted but I’m not letting gross comments be the bare minimum cuz the bare minimum is for him to mind his fucking business and maybe go shove a brick up his ass or something

Sorry just thinking about that made me sad when I remembered it… and also it was just a rough week I had 5 days shifts all til 10 and I was just tired and wanna go home, also can ppl just not come in to take aways 2 min before we closed like bro please I wanna go home it’s 10 and I have to walk back by myself

And can you not make out for a min while picking ur food this is already taking so long I just wanna closed the shop and go home ;-;

[harmslength]

(Mostly) NSFW Headcanons - Part II

Disclaimer: Slight spoilers ahead so be warned. Just covering movies I have seen before or know a decent amount about the character. Overall, just my own personal opinions. This is just for shits and giggles so feel free to disagree. I’m also very aware that I’m being a hater rn.

Red Eye (2005) | Wes Craven - Jackson Rippner

• FREAKY ASS DUDE

• probably would learn everything about you before asking you out

• mean asf, like definitely the type to pick on you and call you a cry baby

• loves, loves, loves roleplay, specifically: CNC (Burglar x Sleeping Victim)

• big on humiliating you, probably the type to hold your head down while giving head. Likes his balls being sucked..

• feral mf, loves to use his teeth (ankle biter energy) and eats pussy like a champ [insert slurping noises]

Perriers Bounty (2009) | Ian Fitzgibbon - Michael McCrea

• top contender for best in bed

• grimey little dude.. but hey, bums know how to lay pipe like it’s their god given purpose

• not attached to any particular fetish or kink just very experimental and kinky

• 3 words: tongue in ass. There I said it. Specifically from the back, he will stick his tongue in places god hasn’t even seen.

Broken (2012) | Rufus Norris - Mike Kiernan

• spontaneous and sensual. Probably an exhibitionist lowkey

• can be a bit selfish at times, but definitely makes it a priority to make you cum.

• could definitely see him having a thing for stockings or thigh highs

Inception (2010) | Christopher Nolan - Robert Fischer

• if a boy was a princess it would be him

• DADDY ISSUES

• all bark no bite, he’s a bottom if I’ve ever seen one. Loves being told what to do and how to take it

• big fan of praise and humiliation

• will dom at times but definitely is not his preference

Watched the Detectives (2007) | Paul Soter - Neil Lewis

• Puppy

• horny teenager vibes, probably would fuck you in his office while your bent over his desk

• loves roleplay but in the vanilla way like: cop x criminal, stepsiblings 🤭, strangers, Bonny and Clyde. Just overall loves recreating cheesy pornos.

• loves when you’re all natural down there

• definitely likes to think he’s the one in charge but you would absolutely wear the pants in the relationship

• whiny asf, likes to whimper and pout. Big on theatrics.

Breakfast on Pluto (2005) | Neil Jordan - Patricia Kitten Braden

• the queen herself 👸

• another top contender for best sexual partner

• pillow princess, loves to be taken care of but will absolutely do the same for you. Definitely giving switch vibes

• super tender and sensual, could definitely see a friends to lovers trope here

• LOVES to tease and loves sexual tension. Wandering hands and subtle glances kind of shit

Sunshine (2007) | Danny Boyle - Robert Capa

• needy little freak but in a subtle way

• you would probably have to make the first move

• would probably zone out during sex ngl

• classic fan of gripping hips and neck kisses, relatively vanilla but open to exploring

• nonchalant lover but good bf overall

The Dark Knight Rises (2012) | Christopher Nolan - Jonathan Crane

• say it with me now— Mommy Issues

• don’t be afraid to join in— daddy issues

• probably grew up with his grandma or two loving parents that he despises deeply

• sick little gremlin, probably into sounding or golden showers

• two words: doggy style 😎

• he’s a switch, but mostly doms because he gets off on the thought that he’s better than you

• big on quickies, hump and dump kind of dude. Casual sex, but not super big on multiple partners

• so repulsed by the thought of sex that either the utter crippling shame of it turns him on so much that he acts like a deranged animal

• or is so repulsed that it hinders him and only does it when absolutely necessary

28 Days Later (2002) | Danny Boyle - Jim

• Jim, Jim, Jim — I love him with my whole heart and my whole pussy

• hear me out.. probably the best sex out of everyone HEAR ME OUT

• this man is DEVOTED okay!! Bro would take out an army base of 20 men just to get a lick of pussy (more so, a gentle sensual kiss, shared between two troubled lovers)

• you know he’ll eat it for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Probably would bring his own bib and cutlery js 🙄

• not overly kinky, in fact probably a bit inexperienced, but satisfaction is guaranteed.

[cassiefromhell]

Stars

JJK man of choice x Curse!Reader

Choices that won't work for this piece: any non-human character (maybe choso?) and assholes (toji. just toji)

wc: 700

warnings: kinda sad ngl. but none other than that

a/n: i had an idea. and then i didnt know which character to write it for. so you pick. (kinda nanami/geto/other chill character coded im ngl) this is all over the place but i needed it out of my system. anyways have fun

The stars have fascinated you for as long as you can remember.

You find yourself staring at them tonight, sitting on the roof of the building you’ve lived in for the past three years. Your knees are tucked to your chest, shingles digging into the soles of your bare feet.

But you just can’t help it. You wanted to watch the stars. So you are.

Your thumbs rub over your knees, feeling the velvet skin underneath. It doesn’t matter how long you’ve been in this body, or that you can’t even recall what it was like when you were a mindless curse, your skin never feels like your own. You’re not human — you couldn’t even pretend that, given that most people can’t even see you. But you look like one, to those that can see you. Sometimes you feel like one. 

So this body is yours, in the end.

Why, then, does it often feel so strange?

“You nearly gave me a heart attack.”

You wouldn’t have even been able to sense his presence if it hadn’t been for the cursed energy radiating off of him. It’s rare to see him like this, out of his normal gear. 

“Sorry,” you say, not sounding very apologetic. “Needed air.”

“You’re a curse. You don’t need oxygen.”

“I feel like I do.”

He sighs, and sits next to you, leaning back on his hands. “Why are you up?”

You shrug, gesturing up towards the sky. “The sky is pretty. It’d be a waste to not look at it.”

He’s silent. Like he knows you’re lying.

“Have you ever had a fascination with the sky?”

“No.”

You open and close your mouth once, then twice— and then frown. “Maybe that’s not a human thing. You have such trivial fascinations, sometimes.”

“Like what?”

“Money. Fame. Being better than everyone else.”

“And the sky isn’t trivial?”

“The sky stays,” you stand up, starting to walk up and down the center of the roof. “It remains above you, always.”

There’s a long pause. It’s not exactly uncomfortable. You’ve lived with this man long enough, had him close enough to understand his silence at times.

“Is it alright if I ask you something?” he inquires, tilting his head forward. A piece of hair falls over his forehead.

“Fire away.”

“Do you ever wonder what it would be like to be human?”

Your breath catches in your throat, and you cough a little. “Sometimes.”

“Go on.”

You sigh, sinking back down into your position next to him, laying back on the roof and staring up at the stars once more. “December 7th, 1989, I open my eyes for the very first time in this body. I would later discover that I was something else before then, some sort of a mindless curse, made out of the broken hearts of humans,” your eyelids flutter shut. “But at that moment, I knew that I was… other. I understood what a human was, but had no understanding of what they think or why they do what they do. I’ve come to learn that humans have a much broader sense of life than I do. And I wish I had that. That thrill of a first love, the heart-pounding nervousness of a virgin about to have sex with the one they believe is their future, the satisfying smile a couple gives each other on their deathbeds knowing that they have done everything together, lived their lives through and through. All I know is the fear of love. The cry your heart gives when you hold out your hand and they step away, the shattering of hope when they reject you, when they die and leave you behind. It’s built into me. And I wish I could see the other side.”

His hand reaches out, his finger brushing your cheek. “You’re closer to humans than any other curse. Hell, that’s why you’re here. I was assigned to take you under my wing, make sure you weren’t a psychopath like most conscious curses. But you aren’t. I once watched you sit outside and watch a bee for twenty minutes. And I think that’s the most human thing — you admire the beauty of life, of humanity.”

And for the very first time, a tear slips down your cheek. He wipes it away.

“See?” he holds up his damp thumb. “Human.”

“…Human,” you nod, chewing your lip.

His hand slips around to cradle the side of your face, tilting your head up to meet his, noses brushing. An unfamiliar heat creeps up your spine as you admire those perfect eyes of his.

“Let me show you the other side.”

And you let him.

[norrisscented]

A Little Help

Daniel Ricciardo x Autistic!Fem!Reader

warnings:: ~shutdowns and meltdowns~, reader has a hard time communicating verbally. mentions of harm during a meltdown, talks sensory overload, ngl this is very self indulgent-

(a/n):: ANOTHER BLURB <3 motivation was poopy but i’m back i think!!!

You could feel your own skin, taste your saliva, and hear yourself blink. The comforter that you and Daniel had to search for in stores now felt too much, even though you couldn’t feel it on your skin. He wasn’t home, yet. He hasn’t seen you like this in a while.

By this you mean, the aftermath of a meltdown. You were hyper aware of it all. Your face red from your emotions and feelings. It all felt as though you only understood it fully but you knew if Daniel were to walk in, there’s no way to tell him how it felt.

You really tried to calm down, use the coping skills you have learned. You couldn’t though. Nothing was going right and you had reached your breaking point when you opened up a package that contained your safe food, it is what you are used to. Except it wasn’t, you are certain they changed the recipe. It all came crashing down on you then.

Other people would call it childish but you have few things you can rely on as a normal thing. This includes packaged foods that usually always taste the same, movies you’ve seen 50 times, and Daniel’s love and support. You could really use the last two things right about now.

Click.

Speak of the devil- or angel? You don’t know at the moment.

“Hun? You in the bedroom?” Daniels voice echoes throughout the home. You can’t find it in yourself to reply just yet, you know you should but the words are stuck in your chest.

You know he’s taken off his shoes by the softness of his footsteps, memorizing footsteps and the emotions or actions behind them was easy for you. The footsteps grow closer. You watch him slowly fully open the bedroom door, it being almost closed.

“Hey, you okay?” You notice the little things in his voice, how his voice lowers and softens when he sees the state you’re in. You don’t have enough energy to hide the fact that you had a meltdown just some time ago. You just don’t have energy now.

He sits on the edge of the bed, near you. Pressure, you need pressure on you. That’s all you can think, but once again you can’t verbalize it.

“Is there anything I can do for you right now, hun?” He keeps his voice calm, you nod.

“Are you able to tell me right now?” He’s so understanding you could cry if you weren’t dehydrated right now.

“Pressure.” He smiles at your reply, happy to help.

“Ok,” He scoots over to you and pulls you into his chest. Fully wrapping his arms around you and squeezing just the right amount.

“Might have to get you one of those weighted blankets, ey?” He laughs but you know it’s a real suggestion. You’ve talked about it of course, for when he’s gone. You just nod in his chest.

“When you're able to, wanna tell me what happened?” You sigh, the words stuck in your chest start moving upward.

“Built up. They changed the recipe in (your safe food) and that’s what threw me overboard.” Short and sweet, that’s the only way you know how to communicate after anything that has drained you.

“I know how much you liked that.” He draws light circles on your back. He takes a deep breath before continuing “You gotta let me know if you hurt yourself, I know how hard it can be to express your emotions especially when you're by yourself.”

A quick shake of the head is good enough for Daniel. He knows that you would’ve told him if you did harm yourself, accidentally or on purpose to try to soothe yourself.

“Can we watch (your favorite movie).” You ask.

“Of course.”

[rodolfoparras]

Pinky promise I will write more for the concept of turning homophobic dude into your puppy and breeding bitch as soon as I have time. I also wanted to write you something for your birthday but I genuinely don't have time at all 😔

Since my co-worker is on vacation and we only work one shift (aka mine) I am swarmed the entire day and I have cried from stress nearly every day this week and I basically never cry. Also I had customer yell at me and threaten me two days ago and I was certain he would attack me?? He might've if another customer didn't walk in and it was for his mistake too. And when I tried to tell him that and offer to correct it, he got worse. Thankfully my manager is really nice and he told me I could've called him and police and that I should next time.

I really miss being here and every day and interacting with people but like...I barely see my dog because most of them home is spent sleeping. And the play I'm in is in like two weeks and I didn't have time or energy to properly learn my lines yet and we're supposed that have rehearsals before work next week and ngl I feel like throwing myself off of the building. (And I didn't even start with my final paper for college). Also I had bit of a cold and hell of a sore throat, I could barely speak and it hurt to swallow :((

There was so much I wanted to talk about and comment on but I literally don't have energy to type and I wish I could psychically send my thoughts to my phone. I hope you're doing better than I am though ✨🫶🏻 I'm on a hunt for less stressful job, hopefully something online so I can do it when I start college again this year (after two years).

(and side note but I love the idea of period sex but in reality because of my pcos and other problems, I am in way too much pain to do anything irl which sucks. But there are fanfics and roleplaying 😌 and the anon who mentioned this and said they have vampire thing are so real, me too bestie. And thank you for providing links of my husband, trans Simon is elite)

-🔮

Dw sugar bee!! You pop in whenever you have time!! And besides I appreciate the fact that you wanted to write me something sweet in the first place as we say down there it’s like you already did it so thank you lovey!

Sugar bee :(( that sounds absolutely horrible I’m so sorry angel customer service can be hell on earth especially down in the Balkans they really should have security work alongside cashier bc that’s what they do here you never know what can happen you know it’s okay to feel upset about it and cry it out just rmr that it was his fault and customers in general can be devils my cousin worked at a store for a short period of time and she says every time she passes it she gets physically sick bc ppl can be so nasty

And again like I said pop in whenever you can I understand you’re very busy rn and I hope things become less stressful so you can get some rest and spend time with your baby and of course to pop in here but I also have to say I admire you for balancing a job school and hobbies bc personally I wouldn’t be able to withstand this 😭

I also hope you get a much easier job so you don’t get burn out no offense but isn’t life crazy like you’re doing everything that’s expected of us have a job do school hobbies and you’re on the verge of getting burned out every day I am reminded of the hell on earth this is our society

Fanfics and roleplaying are definitely a good way to go about it! I mean might as well take the chance and have a vampire role play with your partner I mean who said that :/

[lovingseventeen]

rating if i’d fight seventeen ༉‧₊˚.

a/n: totally self indulgent bc its funny to think about, i’d also like to hear your thoughts lmao,, who do you realistically think you could win against 

seungcheol: -5/10

○ i would not like to participate

○ honestly if coups landed ONE hit i think i’d be gone

○ wouldn’t even want to tease a fight for fun

jeonghan: 42/10

○ what does he take me for? A COWARD? 

○ i’d take this man on any day, any time for fun 

○ his skinny ass doesn’t scare me

○ (would somehow gaslight me into thinking he won though) 

joshua: 1.1/10 

○ big beefy arms are daunting lowkey 

○ he’s also so calm usually that i have no urgency to fight him lmao 

○ we can arm wrestle for fun with like 23% seriousness and i’d take the L bc who am i kidding with those arms

jun: 6/10

○ kind of like the challenge 

○ he’s such a wildcard who knows wtf would happen 

○ would probably become a “who can do x better” comepetition vs an actual fight

hoshi: either 9/10 or 3/10 

○ it depends on the day ngl 

○ sometimes i feel like i’m on the same wavelength as him so we’d be chilling 

○ OR maybe i’ve had enough of the tiger agenda and we see what happens 

○ would probably be crack,, he’d get so LOUD

wonwoo: -17/10

○ bro’s just chilling why should i disturb that 

○ i’d propose a lighthearted thumb wrestle so neither of us have to exert that much energy (i think i’d lose though, gamer mind hits different)

woozi: -293829/10

○ i like living lol 

○ wouldn’t even try to joke about it with woozi either 

○ mans would say “enough” and i’d stop immediately 

dokyeom: -2387723874/10

○ he’s so baby i would NEVER 

○ i feel like even if i hit him as a joke and he pouted i’d cry and say sorry NSYJJHDSJf

mingyu: 17/10

○ it’d be an even fight and i don’t care that mans is over a foot taller than me 

○ (ngl though bro could sit on me and i think i wouldn’t be able to do that much)

minghao: 0.5/10

○ he gets in some kind of martial arts stance and i am already surrendering 

seungkwan: 11/10

○ i love him but i also feel like it’d be fun 

○ he’d land a slap SOMEWHERE i already know 

○ i can hear the tsk-ing and envision the quick head tilt LMAOO

vernon: 2/10

○ also wouldn’t want to disturb him that much 

○ nor would he really be interested ??

○ he’d probably be like “you can just say you won” and it’d end there 

dino: 5/10 

○ he’s not that much taller than me i think i could take him 

○ i’m lying -- he’s literally 8 inchess taller LOLLL 

○ but i’m not scared >:)

[stars-tonight]

hiiii omg i really love ur work and ur aesthetic are just chef kiss 💋💋 i would like to request for a long romantic male match up pls

anon profile : 🎧

my pronouns are she/her

i prefer guys that are 178+ cus i like the height difference 😳 i’m around 165cm if you need to visual i like guys who can share me some TikTok memes and that are actually funny (he needs to have a humour or my life will be boring) maybe we can be chaotic together sometimes. i like guys who can vibe with me, i don’t become ‘high’ and chaotic all the time. most of the time im the kind that likes to stay on ground and just enjoy the peace, other times i’ll be the spawn of a devil and plot some ideas that could be fun but idiotic at the same time.

apparently i have some stress issues, like im prone to over stress myself and never realise about it. when that happens i tend to burst my emotions and get irritated. so i kinda need someone who can see the sign and cool me down?

i’m a girl that loves to study science and is good at it, but loves the artistic of life. i love going to museums and art galleries. i enjoy playing instruments and write songs, i tend to write songs about people or about my feelings. i like to dance on occasions too.

i’m that one friend that either hypes you up to do something stupid, or be the killjoy that prevents ur death. i love my personal space and tend to isolate myself, but when i really like you i will be clingy. i’m loud with my close friends and i don’t really bring up conversations with someone I’m not close with. my social energies dies up easily.

i love giving physical touch and probably quality time, and i really appreciate receiving quality time and acts of service.

my ideal dates are museums and aquarium dates. but on some occasions, i enjoy stay-in dates like baking cookies together and having movie marathons while cuddling.

i’m a cat person, and i dislikes watermelons, 100% they can have it. my mbti is INFP

headcanons

🥛 tendō is 187 cm

🥛 he's definitely chronically online and definitely has tiktok

🥛 he gives chaotic but chill energy if that makes sense; he's not energetic 24/7 but he's also not a couch potato

🥛 i imagine that's the kind of vibe you're looking for

🥛 he's a very chill guy (bro i just said that what am i doing 😭) and he's a go-with-the-flow, "no stress life's a game" kinda guy, so he doesn't get stressed a lot

🥛 but he's very perceptive and intuitive so whenever he notices you're starting to overload yourself or feel stressed he takes measures to help you calm down

🥛 ngl he's probably not the best at comforting you with words (flashback to "don't cry tsutomu!" *chops back*)

🥛 but he'll definitely crack jokes to lighten your mood and, post-timeskip, he'll make you your favorite dessert or chocolate

🥛 tendō isn't the biggest fan of science but you can't tell me he didn't sit outside and eat dirt as a kid

🥛 but he for sure likes art, especially those really strange paintings that are so questionable and mysterious and you just have to come up with some crazy story to explain them

🥛 honestly though, he'd find it hard to visit museums because they're kinda boring and you have to be quiet

🥛 he'd be the biggest fan of your music! would beg to sing along while you play an instrument

🥛 you'd conduct two-person concerts all the time (no audiences allowed except maybe for ushijima)

🥛 and tendō likes to let loose and have a little dance party every now and then

🥛 he's for sure the hypeman who puts everyone's life in danger

🥛 which means the two of you would either be a double dose of crazy and unhinged or you'll have to act like his mom and keep him from doing stupid stuff

🥛 i think he likes quality time and acts of service with his partner, especially quality time

🥛 baking cookies is such a cute date idea with tendō! he's great at baking and would for sure make it such a fun experience. you end up throwing little pieces of dough at each other and blasting music

runner up for you was suna rintarō!

[lovelylusts]

hello!!! i love ur blog! i was reading ur kinky bts stuff and it's so good!!! if u don't mind, i'd like to request something kinky about my bias, hobi playing ur ass i mean🥺 without him really fucking u, but things like him eating u out both ways, fingering ur ass, teasing u, dirty talking but not degrading, also spitting on u... ik it's too specific but pls i love these things and hobi sm 😭 it's kinda hard being a hobi stan and not seeing anything like this with him ngl

hehe i love writing and reading abt anal play!! also i’m kinda glad i waiting so long to write this bc since he’s enlisted there’s been a big drought in hobi content :( i miss him so much :(

warnings: dom!hobi, sub!afab!reader, ass eating, unprotected vaginal sex (do not do this unless you’re ready to face the consequences 😤),

this is an ass man!! he just exudes such ass man energy!

he’s always grabbing your ass, even in non sexual contexts like when you’re cuddling, he just really,,, appreciates its existence

the first time he took you from behind he thought he was gonna pass out because wow

so you weren’t necessarily surprised when he suggested trying out some ~back door activities~

y’all both did your research 😤 anal is fun if you do it in a way that minimizes unwanted discomfort!

i think i said this in kinktober but that was a really long time ago so i don’t remember, but he already enjoys eating pussy from behind ,, so why not try the other hole?

he knew you were a bit nervous, just bc you weren’t sure what to expect with some many mixed accounts that you found while doing research, so he rubs your clit a little bit to help you feel more comfortable

but then he kinda just goes for it by pressing his tongue against your tight little hole and licking a stripe

it sends a chill up your spine bc holy fuck that felt really good, it had you begging him to not stop

“aww pretty baby, you like how my tongue feels licking your asshole?”

you felt like you were about to cry honestly it was too good ‼️

he keeps it really messy too, he’ll spit on your hole just so he could watch it flutter around nothing, and then he’ll use his tongue to try to fuck it into your tight opening

he was having so much fun too and he didn’t wanna stop :( but he also was so painfully hard and he needed to be inside you or else he’d die

he keeps you on all fours, admiring your ass <3 before he shoves his cock in your pussy, which is absolutely drenched as the point

while he’s fucking into you he takes his thumb and starts gently rubbing your rim, spreading his saliva around and watching in awe as your hole starts winking at him again

“does my baby want something in her pretty little ass? hm?”

you could barely get out a sentence, just kinda rambling and begging, before he obliges and slips his thumb into your ass

skksldldm you couldn’t breathe this was amazing

especially when he decided to trade his thumb for his middle and pointer finger so he could be even deeper and make you feel fuller

and deeper and fuller it was - you were a shaking mess, the orgasm that was coming out was about to be intense, you could just feel it

“you’re so fucking tight,” he sighs out. “you’re pretty little ass is taking me so well”

after that night he wanted to try it all - buttplugs, anal beads, maybe even his cock one day 😳 ahaha just kidding.. unless… 👀

[merrycrisis-if]

okokokokkAYHSAHAHJA i had to turn off my notifs for your blogs for a few days to avoid all the spoilers bc i was literally so so excited for this update shsjsksjs

BUT before i talk about qiu i just wanna talk about shay for a sec because PleajsjeksSksja they’re the sweetest 😭😭 when they gave mc their band merch and said “you can have it for free because i like you so much” THAT WAS SO CUTE SHAY IS SO CUTE 🥰🥰🥰 also i love the irony in the breakfast scene of shay being the neighbor mc just met and the first meal they make for them is the closest thing that reminds mc of their grandma ugh i love shay’s spouse potential <33

NOW. QIU. THAT NERD HAS ME BY THE NECK!!!!!!!! i waited for this very update for so long and it cost me my emotional stability. i’m genuinely emotionally drained but it was so So worth it. that flashback took all of my energy. i wasn’t already feeling good about the grades scene and qiu unintentionally insinuating “we have the same grades but i need to do better” but when they almost said the L word i gasped SHDJSJ but yeah i was stupidly hoping that was just the incident

i thought i was prepared for it because i already knew it was gonna be sad. but mannnnn my heart was not spared from the heartbreak. qiu saying “we’re just friends” without stuttering <////3 but no matter how justified it is to be upset with them i just can’t pick the angry options because i Get it. i relate to them being a helpless kid incapable of making their own choices because of the pressure their parents placed on them. and their mom being so harsh like i know they’re all fictional but her words felt personal 😭 also qiu holding back their tears when they asked mc to leave………. pain

and the breakup. my god. when qiu was begging mc to not let them choose and said “please i can’t” istg i wanted to curl up in a ball and cry. i played both the breakup variation and pretending the whole thing with their mom never happened <//3 when qiu was like “so this is it?” and kissed mc’s forehead before walking away :((((( pls it truly fucked me up how they never had any labels but had to go through an actual breakup. but also the scene before the little going away party where qiu was like “do you want me to cry and beg you to stay?” :((((((( EVERYTHING HURTS! qiumancers are put on this earth to suffer

but qiu finally saying i love you and then the love scene before the goodbye :((( them being less calculated about it and just fully giving into their feelings really felt like a goodbye 💔 and when they were like “if we’re both still single let’s give this another shot” like qiu pls don’t make this harder for me and my mc 😪✋🏼

Omg HELLOOOOO ngl I re-read your ask (and your second one) like, at least 20 times. Thank you for sticking by merry crisis, and your messages truly never fail to singlehandedly make writing this IF worth it :P

I know you love Qiu but the fact that you enjoyed Shay's scenes too makes me so happy. Absolutely 1000% spouse material. Like excuse me they'd water the plants and cook and probably dance in the kitchen with ya.

Hehe I'm so happy that you enjoyed (ok maybe enjoyed is the wrong word) the "please I can't" moment, and the "so this is it" moment and the "do you want me to cry and beg you to stay" moment (OH and the last love scene!). Those were definitely the highlights of writing the flashback for me.

qiumancers are put on this earth to suffer

HAHAHA. Yes. But also.... a semi happy ending is possible, I promise :)

[imaginespazzi]

NIVI OMFG!!! CHAPTER 11 update?!

Okay I was the anon wayyy back that said you should include a scene where Azzi and Paige get into an argument about Stephie, and Aszi calls Stephie “my daughter”… yup you did your big one there 😭 it was so simple (stupid soda LOL), but had the effect that it needed to! Poor Paige, just a reminder about reality and how truly, Stephie is Azzi’s daughter first and foremost and not theirs 😭😭

Okay chapter 11 review time!!!

- holy shit, you writing P’s first W game and the fact that (ofc) it was against DC, and Azzi wasn’t there?!?! Idk why but I was holding out for her being there, like eventually coming at the end, and the fact that she didn’t is sooooo sad for Paige 😭 like poor Paige (I think my mind said “poor Paige” so many times throughout the chapter LOL), but I know that’s gonna stick with her forever

- DREWWWW. Nah man I’m sorry but Drew is just real! Call him a Pazzi hater rn, but he’s just looking out for his big sis! That scene of P in Drew’s room and Drew remembering that whole event… yeah that hit hard and made me cry fr fr 😭 I wish I could hug Paige lol

- the yapping comments about Paige?? How she was always a yapper, and then one day it just… stopped. Yeah girlie was broken and fr picked up the pieces and Drew was there and helped her do it. I can see why Drew resents Azzi now and I don’t fault him

- AND THEN AZZI ASKING PAIGE IF SHE’S FORGIVEN HER?? AND PAIGE DOESN’T SAY ANYTHING?? I would’ve genuinely been surprised if Paige said that she’s fully forgiven Azzi. I don’t think Paige has and I don’t think Paige has even fully processed what happened to them. I think she had to cope by blocking out what happened to them, rather than fully accepting it. And obvs, you can’t fully heal or forgive when that’s the case

- and then the ending, Azzi and Stephie hearing about Paige and her (what used to be) ultimate plan of getting to the Liberty?? That’s a big yikes, especially since Paige didn’t even tell them firsthand. Like idk how they’re all gonna recover from that.

Overall, I’m ngl, Azzi gave opp energy 😭 and I love Azzi down bad and obvs this chapter was from Paige’s POV, but man I am hurting for Paige LOL. My review and thoughts are already long as shit so imma stop now. But thanks again Nivi for the wonderful chapter! It was well worth the wait! (PS: Pls give Paige a big hug for me lol)

Ah omg friend that was you? Well I'm glad I did that justice. I wasn't initially sure if that was gonna happen in this chapter specifically but it made sense and unfortunately when it rains, it pours.

- I did actually consider maybe having Azzi come in but a) I already established that Azzi hasn't gone to see Paige play till the all-star game and b) I think if Azzi had actually tried something those first couple of months, the breakup never would've lasted this long.

- Drew's reaction is loosely based off of what I think my little brother's reaction would be which is basically that he'd be hella protective and honestly consider how much Drew has seen, it's definitely the right reaction in line with his emotions. I think when you see an older sibling, especially one that's so strong, break like that, it leaves an impression.

- Paige basically hasn't ever given herself time to think about what happened. She had basketball and in the middle she had Olivia and then eventually it was all Azzi and Stephie. She's never given herself the opportunity to really get closure within herself about the breakup.

- Ah maybe they don't recover? Maybe some things just aren't meant to be?

Eyyy not too much on Azzi but no I get where you're coming from. She definitely did a number on Paige but hopefully you'll all feel a little more sympathetic when get more of Azzi's perspective on everything.

[nullvoidface]

break and desire for the not-so-nice asks :3

This got way sadder than I intended ngl—

(CW: Suicidal ideation, starvation, and the stuff inbetween + mentioned character death(s))

Basically don’t read if your mental health isn’t a-ok. It’s not the most descriptive as I didn’t wanna somehow romanticise it, but like idk might be triggering to some. If you can’t read it: fuck yeah self care, go listen to Break It Down by Tally Hall it is fun.

Also a general spoiler warning for Living World Season 4

With the desire to break

“Any news on the commander?” Caithe’s voice was hollow. Thunderhead Keep was silent. Much like it had been before the Pact reached it.

Taimi looked away from Aurene, voice hoarse from crying. “He’s gone AWOL.” Taimi sighed. She understood it, in a way.

That broken, and defeated ‘I don’t know…’ clung in the air like the smell of smoke onto fabric.

He couldn’t stay, he always needed to move. Most of Dragon’s Watch were the same way. Though, a lot of them stayed behind. Waiting for the inevitable end.

“I see.”

—

Corvus couldn’t stand being there. Gawking at her c- at her. The same little dragon he had known since before she had hatched. With large and curious eyes and enough energy to tire out even the exalted at times.

The same Aurene who had faced her fears, the certainty of death- the death Corvus had blindly lead her to.

His Aurene.

He wasn’t sure what to do with himself. He didn’t have anyone to return to. Couldn’t face the remaining warband and tell them ‘I failed, again.’

So he went to the brand scar. Maybe in time he would be just another unnamed branded. His name long forgotten, as the world ceased to be.

It should have been him, really. The world would function without him. The world wouldn’t turn without Aurene.

His world had stopped the second before he saw her on those crystals. Piercing her body like some twisted and macabre trophy.

Why not him?

What kind of a champion- no, parent, allows their child to sacrifice themselves for them.

Corvus swung his greatsword once more, crushing through the crystallised skull of another branded hyena with a satisfying splinter and crunch.

Joko was right.

Corvus knew that much the second the lich began his rant.

The scourge of Tyria. A blight on the world.

Soon the news would spread across Tyria. The world was going to end, and the Commander couldn’t even show his face. Would people think of his failure in their final moments? About how this could all have been prevented?

Corvus planted the tip of his sword in the abdomen of an ogre about twice his height.

He wasn’t counting days anymore. Wasn’t counting anything. Wasn’t eating anywhere near enough.

What was the point? It’d be over soon. Why prolong it.

So instead he fought.

At least he could drown out the thoughts with alcohol and adrenaline.

At least he didn’t have to feel if he just had enough.

For a moment he would forget about Aurene. About Dragon’s Watch. About Elder Dragon’s and Balthazar. About Commander Corvus Blightstep.

He let out a scream when crystal as sharp as obsidian cut through the thin fabric of his shirt and into his flesh.

Every movement stung and ached as he managed to kill off the ogre that had landed the hit on his shoulder.

He looked at his shoulder, it was difficult to see with just the moonlight and lightning in the area.

A deep cut right across his old scar.

Malia.

About a year after he had gained that scar, Malia was lost when the mountain moved.

He never learned if she was branded, or if she was just another one of the casualties too badly beaten to be identified.

He took a sharp breath and went back to his makeshift camp.

He sat down in the grass in front of the thin tent.

“Good thing I didn’t like that shirt.” He mumbled to himself as he ripped off the sleeve so he could pull the rest of the shirt over his head with less pain.

But maybe he deserved it.

Normally Corvus would brush those thoughts aside, he didn’t have the time to think of it. But there was nothing to distract him. No friends gathered around dinner.

It was cold.

Maybe if he didn’t clean his wound he’d be gone before the end.

Maybe he wanted that.

He did, didn’t he?

—

After a few days he cleaned it, the pain was getting too much. Couldn’t even handle that.

The hunger pangs had ceased. Now just a dull, hollow feeling in his stomach.

It wasn’t dissimilar to the way he felt.

The anger was back. The same anger he used to feel so often when he was young. He used to point it at the Legions, at the world.

Now it was directed at himself.

Maybe if he tugged hard enough at his mane he would forget about the world. He wanted so badly to cry, he felt so heavy. He felt SO much and yet nothing at all.

So he screamed.

He screamed at himself, at the world, at Kralkatorrik, until his voice gave out.

He didn’t want to be.

—

Days passed, he had allowed himself some food and rest. Just to tank up on enough energy to keep fighting the branded.

“Commander?” A familiar voice sounded from his communicator. He forgot he had brought it.

“Caithe.”

[uc1wa]

Haiiii I’m the one who asked for plug Roy Tehehe :3c

But anwyas hear me out

Loser Dick Grayson or Roy Harper (can you tell who my favorite character is?)

Dick is one of those gym bro losers, like the ones on Tiktoc who post thirst traps and them in their car trying to be funny by talking super loud then laughing but everyone eats it up? (I’m into them.)

The ones who spend all their time at the gym and think theyer so cultured because they know of feminism has daddy’s money

Roy is the loser who works at 9-5 dead end job (maybe like Spencer’s or at a gas station) and just smokes all day once he gets home and fights kids on x-box live, dosnt even contribute to anything

They both somehow get their dicks wet every other weekend and then leaves the girls they hooked up with on read till their lonely but we’re special so that didn’t happen and their super pathetic. Roy dosnt really do much he knows how to get a girl to finish but he does it in a lazy way and mostly just wants to get himself off. Dick is the same but at least he is more enthusiastic about it. Both don’t really care if the girl they’re with that week even finishes, he just doesn’t wanna be rude. But when they met you and decided “yeah, that’s my next fuck”, they do their usual, compliment you in a subtle way, talk about stuff you might be interested in, crack some jokes then ask for your number.

You guys talk for a few weeks (it’s 2, 3 1/2 if you’re busy 💀) At first you didn’t agree but when they send you a picture of them waring a pair of sweat pants and a wife beater (I’m sorry, im such a sucker for men in black wife beaters I like- AAAA)

You finally agree. At first they expected you to be like the other girls, kinda Submissive, but shy, and quick. But boy oh boy-

Once you both are in the sheets it’s over for him. Bro is whimpering and moaning, CRYING, TEARS ARE STREAMING, he’s sniffing and stuff asking to cum cause you won’t let him, refused to put his dick in cause he was lowkey being a dick to you ngl- you finally ride him and he’s about to cum but you do before him and get off leaving him all shocked. You give him a kiss on the cheek and say thanks then leave. He’s like

“WHATT???”

And bro spam texts you, calls you, even dming you on Instagram a voice message of hun begging you to come back and help him finish.

But yeah, I love pathetic losers 😔😔😔💔

babe… this was a mini fic in itself. thank u for sharing. will be thinking about this for so long, my additions under the cut :3

these both turned me on i won’t admit but… your detail to roy… oh god. he’s such a fucking loser i NEED to fuck him NOW!!!

can i add? roy’s breath only smells like monster energy drinks, so nasty but you only taste it when his tongue is sucking yours so of course it leaves connotations of yummy-ness! cums all over you and, if he’s feeling nice, throws you a rag while he goes in the shower himself—without an invite of course. poor you :( all left out, naked n bare n cold.

dick would def get pissed if you joined him in the shower. don’t you know he brought you to his dingy apartment to fuck you and be done with you? c’mon now.

but the thought of getting these man whores pussy drunk is just so. oh god. them sending dick pics to you when you haven’t responded, thinking that’ll have to get you to answer. of course they’re wrong, and manipulate you into feeling so bad with how many times they’ve told you that you’ve given them blue balls, you have to fuck them again >:3

anyways! i hope you liked my lil plug!roy drabble, trust i have one too many drafts of roy and dick as plugs.

[signanothername]

Hello! Skit Anon here, and may I just say AJSGSBEMSKS MY HEART😭🥹❤️!!! Ngl, thought I killed you, BUT IM SO HAPPY YOU LIKED IT AND OMG I CANT STOP LOOKING AT IT IMMA CRY 💙🖤💙 And AHHH the small details drive me nuts! From HT square boxes to Baldés round ones, Blurr, just Blurr 💜, ALSO that fact that before Blades walked in HT was starting at Blurr getting wasted, THAT HURTS 😭

Also, also, I have a lot of Dadtide scenes in my head that I would like to share, and I wanted to ask if that’s ok because I really don’t want you to feel like you have to draw them. Idk if that sounded awkward, I’m sorry if it did 🥲

Hiii anon glad to see you like ittt dhhdhd 😭❤️🌷✨

AND AAAAH THANKS FOR NOTICING THESE LIL DETAILS CHJVVJVJ

I really love to put them in and I don’t really expect people to notice them but when they do it always puts a smile on my face and I’m especially SO happy you actually picked up on the Hightide looking at Blurr detail, it’s one of the more obscure details that I genuinely didn’t think people are gonna even know about yet here you are pointing it out EEEEEEEE

And aww Anon dw! Plz do share your thoughts it’s an absolute delight to read through them! They genuinely make me happy so plz do keep sharing! :D

And dw about making me feel like i have to draw them, i drew that scene cause I genuinely wanted to not cause I felt forced <3333

So yep! Feel free to send as many scenes as you want, and I’d probably draw some of them gdhdhdh but I promise that I would never force myself to actually draw any of them if I don’t want to or if I don’t have the energy, but i’d still absolutely love to read all the scenes in your head (and probably ramble about them if I don’t end up drawing them zhhxhxh) <3333

(And you’re not awkward, Thank you actually for being really considerate and worrying that i might feel forced, that’s really kind of you ❤️❤️❤️🌷✨)

Here’s a quick hug

[melonisopod]

How I feel about the Limbussy gang

Yi Sang: weird little racoon man, I listen carefully for his name puns cause they get lost in translation.

Faust: despite what the weird Redditors say she’s actually pretty alright. Has a very nice voice though. Faust calls you a fucking idiot while she exposits plot-relevant details ASMR

Don Quixote: beautiful ray of sunshine, adorable cinnamon roll, has done nothing wrong in her life, ever. I am in awe of her tisms.

Ryoshu: she scares me a little, ngl, but I am also a little bit turned on.

Meursault: Fr*nch but still valid. Swings between the most boring cardboard cutout and absolute wild card of a character. Pretty much anything he does is funny because he does it with the utost seriousness. 

Hong Lu: I love this himbo. I have some pretty intense gender envy for him too.

Heathcliff: I want to do unspeakable things to this man. I’m positive there’s some angsty backstory that’ll make me want to hug him which can’t come soon enough. I enjoy his Tom and Jerry relationship with Dante.

Ishmael: love her design, love her hair, love her voice, love how much of a menace she is despite trying to come off as the only sane man. Again, there’s a tragic backstory waiting in the wings that I can’t wait to read.

Rodion: I saw a woman so beautiful I started crying. I want her to bridal-carry me. She did absolutely nothing wrong. I wish I could be half as cool as she is.

Sinclair: baby boy, baby, he needs so many hugs after what he’s been through. Declaring him my son now.

Outis: I know damn well her compliments are fake and she’s a huge red flag and probably going to betray me but I don’t care. I want an older lady who can wreck my shit to tell me what a smart and talented person I am. I have problems.

Gregor: babygirl, poor little meow-meow, sad little bug man, I want to give him a hug but I also love watching him take Ls every day. Favorite announcer,

Dante: funny little clock just doing their best. Like Gregor, they have babygirl energy, I love watching them interact with the Sinners and I hope we get more on them soon.

Vergilius: ngl kind of a DILF, but he’s been on thin ice ever since Canto III.

Charon: vroom-vroom, I love her snarky little comments when you choose her as announcer. I’ll give her all the Bongy Plushies.

Yuri: *sobs in the corner*

[catb-fics]

“Exploding ovaries all over the place”💀💀 literally I’m gonna have to try so hard not to pass out or throw up when he first walks on. Gonna cry so hard and also die of lust🫠🫠🫠

I can’t believe we’re all gonna be at the FIRST gig back, it’s going to be so special😭 I have such good feelings about this time round, I don’t think it will be like 2021 reading and Leeds cause there will be no sour faces and beef on stage (I’m sorry bondy still love you). There’s an album! New single! More live dates! Promo and management! It’s looking up and I’m no longer worrying about Van being okay and his wellbeing, I don’t think this would all be happening if he wasn’t in a good place, I hope not anyway.

Our boys back‼️‼️‼️‼️ I can’t wait for this new era and for us to be back on the up again and to be introduced to the new members or session musicians. I hope when it all starts up again Van has the confidence and cockiness to do interviews, radio sessions (like live lounge) q&a’s and stuff like that again❤️

I hope he knows that we genuinely missed him and happy he’s back and well. The music is amazing and I’ve missed it like hell, but I’ve missed his personally and just him more. I miss all of them but it’s not going to be how it was again and that’s okay, things change and hopefully they’ll be new friendships and bonds made and everyone (Van, Bondy, Benji, Bob and Larry) gets their happy endings no matter what🫶🏼

I’m sorry for the soppyness!! It feels unreal that I’m seeing him/them live. It’s been so long and so many of us never gave up. It’s going to feel like a proper full circle moment, the energy will be electric and so healing❤️‍🩹

I’m happy for everyone that has been able to get a ticket. If you’ve not been able too I know it fucking sucks however it’s okay! There is still the general sale and resale AND the tour with the new album when it comes out!

Aww thank you for this lovely ask, it’s genuinely made me grin from ear to ear, ngl there’s been points when I never thought this moment would come but here we are with a new single, an album on the way and gigs to look forward to.

We are back baby!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[echovale052]

Gonna rant about Beau and Eliza (some Carol rant too)…. again. @frenchiefitzhere

-Beau probably got a concussion after Ep 5 ngl (bestie was shaking so bad after that, or really after every interaction with Carol who is avoided like the plague)

-They’ve thought about filing harassment with HR but it wouldn’t do shit

-Obligatory I’ll fight Carol if given the chance (we all know I’d lose though)

-I kinda wished that when Carol was crying that they would have thrown a tissue box at her and walked away. (Bc I feel bad for her but at the same time-)

-Beau is a classical music buff, played the piano as a kid

- Their brother works at the Corollary also or did (maybe carol replaced him??) and that’s why they began working there (bc conservator for all of their mistakes really doesn’t seem motivated to do this sort of work)

-Beau is called Monty to their family

-Youngest sibling energy

-Secretly enjoys Dina’s company (and has been finding themselves agreeing a little bit with her)

-Eliza her full name is Eliza Blakeman (they agreed that her fiancé would be taking her name ofc)

-Laurel was a big reason they decided to get married, (they weren’t planning to get married that early but a kid definitely sped it up)

-Usually has a hardened expression (probably from dealing with men in as a woman in stem, that’s exhausting stuff I speak from some experience) but is almost always smiling around Randi and her baby.

-I had planned Eliza to have never quite left her emo phase with black lipstick but i forgot to draw it. 🥲

-Eliza calls a lot of people affectionately or derogatory “Sweetheart or Honey” except for Carol who probably the derogatory “Hun” and the “Bless your heart”

-Neighbor has a southern accent I don’t make the rules.