#next year i'm buying myself a chocolate rose or something

[youssefguedira]

deciding that i, a notorious aromantic, will be observing valentine's day from now on but in a 'i get to have a nice day by myself' way

[prinvessdior]

Possibly a sneak peak of chapter four of HOFAH I need to change the title holy shit

This ends pretty abruptly bc it’s just a sneak soz ;(

I must've turned on my heel too quick because the next second I collided with a wall face first, though it wasn't quite a wall, more like someone.

Unceremoniously, I fell backwards from the impact only being caught with an arm looped around my waist, and a cup of.. something sweet covering my favorite jacket in its sticky gooey goodness. My headphones jostled off my ears to hang around my neck, faintly I could hear a Billy Joel song playing.

"Sorry— I tried to get you before you put on your headphones." the brick wall said, oh no that was totally not cute blonde boy from the café, he was frowning looking down at my chest, woah back up buddy. I followed his gaze and realized there was a ugly brown stain in my former pink favorite jacket. My favorite jacket that I'd saved up for a month for.

"Oh," I said dumbly, still caught in the surprise of literally running straight into this guy and spilling his drink all over myself

"Uh- well I was trying to give you your drink back that you left in the café but uh." Totally not cute blonde boy said and released me his frown deepening. I hadn't even ordered a drink for myself, did he go through the trouble of buying a new one and walking all the way here with it? The chocolate was still warm as it seeped through my jacket to my sweater.

"It's-its okay!" I stumbled out flushing from the cold. Yep totally.

"I didn't really like this jacket anyway." I lied with what I hoped was a convincing laugh.

he tilted his head to the side at me, "Are you sure? That looks expensive?" Damn, how good was he at reading through lies. I strained a smile.

"I mean yeah- but it's not a big deal really!" I shook my head already peeling off the stained material.

I shivered when the nippy air seeped into the fabric of my sweater, and I was pleasantly surprised to find a new, warmer jacket wrapped around my shoulders. Totally not cute blonde boy had taken his own hoodie off, it was emerald green, like his eyes. While he busied himself I took another glance at his viridescent irises. Yeah, they were perfect.

"Can't have a pretty girl walking around in the cold." Oh god he was a flirt, my heartbeat picked up and another flush rose to my cheeks. "But- won't you be cold?" I asked though I pulled the green fabric tighter around my shoulders, he shrugged, "I like the cold."

"Could I uh- maybe get your jacket cleaned or something? I feel bad for scaring you." He cleared his throat, I held my pink jacket dumbly in my hands.

"It's okay! I can jus—"

He held his hands out in front of him for my jacket and frowned looking down at me from under his fringe. This close I really got to see him, his blonde hair was wavy and I could spot some curls near the back, it was cut in a mullet style, I thought they went out of style years ago.. but he could definitely pull it off.

"I insist." he flexed his fingers and then I noticed how big his hands were. You think if he put his palm on my face it'd cov—

NOPE. Stop it right there brain you don't even know the guy. Against better judgement I placed my favorite jacket into totally not cute blonde boy's hands and he beamed at me, it was comparable to the sun. He took my jacket and neatly folded it beneath his arms, and he was gentle with things that didn't belong to him, someone help me.

"Can I get your number? So I can text you to give back your jacket." and he was smooth I think I might melt the snow I'm standing on. I nodded a bit too enthusiastically and opened my phone, clicking on new contacts and handing my phone to him. Our fingers touched when he handed me back my phone and I let my fingers linger.

“I’m sorry again about your jacket.” He spoke up after he watched me deposit my phone into my—well his jacket’s pocket, it was muscle memory alright, totally.

[brokoala-soup]

I think my aesthetic might be something along the lines of cottagecore and light academia with a tinge of Studio Ghibli and bits and pieces of chaotic academia. So this includes:

classical music blaring out of cheap speakers, homemade food served in reused takeout containers, half dying houseplants in everything but traditional flower pots, the fragrance of jasmine and mint, mirrors reflecting sunlight on to disorganised bookshelves with the most random collection of books, soups in glassware, gel pen doodles all over my notes, herbal teas in whiskey glasses, locally sourced incense sticks, handmade woolen blankets over commercially sold quilts, baking granola bars on a lazy sunday afternoon, adding chocolate to literally everything, mid day naps when the weather is cloudy yet humid, ribbon ties instead of stapler pins, making my own spice powders, scented oil lamps, being obsessed with cloves, sleeping on a bed full of pillows only to find over half of them on the floor next morning, missing alarms because closing my eyes for two more seconds won't make me fall asleep again, picking flowers and herbs from the garden, sleepy afternoons, careful skincare but with the most day to day products, eucalyptus oil, use and throw inhalers to deal with my anxiety because the smell of menthol calms me down, short nails and neutral manicure, smelling like flowers one day and like the sea the other, getting excited whenever I spot the moon, absolutely in awe and in love with the clouds because they're amazing and so creative, puppies, calligraphy using ball pens, homemade mocha latte using soya milk, my grandma's childhood earrings that I wear all the time, newspapers, organic vegetables sold by retired social workers, tote bags, reusable metal water bottles, hot showers and cold rinses, using my grandmother's favorite brand of soap because I love smelling like her, herbal hair oil, smelling like sandalwood, cooking pasta with the family, reading secondhand books, collecting fused light bulbs, pencil underlines, postcards, 1 am poetry, pop instrumentals and pensive journaling, benzene rings on page margins, berry flavoured cough syrup, baking bread, long walks, loud conversations, thrifting, e-books, chocolate wrappers hidden between dictionary pages, colourful periodic table prints, plushies, honey, fleece blankets, sleeping cats, signet ring, dried rose I'd bought for myself and carried around like a trophy travelling back home with it in the public bus, twinning perfumes coincidentally with my best friend, vintage looking brand new ink pen and expired ink, sticky notes with motivational quotes covering my wall, never buying perfumes and only using the ones I'm gifted, random words that remind me of niche incidents or memories written along the corners of my study material, pearl jewelry set that my dad gifted my mom but it's me who wears it now, combat boots bought at ¼th it's price at a discount clearance sale, all my jackets being bought from different countries by my dad and thus each serving as a token of memory, lipstick shades that match only extremely specific vibes and look off and odd at other times, cherry lip balm stick that I've used only twice, daily calendar sheets reused as a notepad, birthday candles from my 16th birthday sitting on my work table, the lingering smell of multiple beverages in my room because I seldom wash the cups I drank them from and now they're cluttered all over the room, hand me down luxury watches older than me, chipped nailpolish, reminders written down on tissue papers, bus tickets all over my bag, sugar-free chewing gum, deodorant that never washes off my clothes, wearing clothes purchased 5 years ago and getting compliments simply because it's not trendy but is unique, mini origami cranes, rose sprays, lychee scented sanitizer, baking bread at home on weekends, homemade hair masks, turning up late because i was busy enjoying life walking through the eucalyptus grove on the way to class, running to the station yet missing the train, all my everyday ornaments having a deeper meaning to me.

[drvirgus]

Commitment & Responsibility

Yeji X Fem! Reader

Description: The life of Yeji and her Girlfriend Yn

Warnings: G!P Yeji, Smut, Angst

Chapter 14:

Flashback

Y/N POV

"Jagiya..." I sighed, looking at the older woman who had just come home. My arms reached out to her with a puppy-eyed expression. Yeji looked at me, not even taking off her shoes. Her eyes widened slightly in surprise as she saw me.

She smiled and quickly took off her shoes. Her arms immediately wrapped around my waist, pulling me close to her. My arms wrapped around her neck. "I missed you," I said. Yeji smiled widely, guiding me back to the couch. I grinned with joy. Feeling Yeji so close to me was incredible.

Yeji sat on the couch and pulled me onto her lap. I smiled, resting my face on her neck. "What's wrong, Jagiya?" Yeji asked, visibly surprised by my behavior. I laughed lightly, my lips leaving feather-light kisses on her neck.

Yeji hesitated a bit. Her hands were on my lower back. She tilted her head back against the couch, giving me more space. I grinned slightly. My hand tugged at her jacket, and Yeji took it off. Her hands wandered under my T-shirt.

She hummed with pleasure, closing her eyes. My lips, however, moved from her neck to her ear, where I sucked on the sensitive skin. She sighed out with enjoyment. Her fingernails lightly dug into my skin. My lips then wandered back to her jawline and her lips.

"What do you want to eat?" I asked, kissing Yeji as my lips met hers. My teeth caught her lower lip, tugging on it slightly. Yeji's eyes opened again, and she looked me straight in the eyes. I grinned slightly and stopped. I removed my lips from hers, looking into her eyes.

Yeji paused, "Are you... on your period?" she asked cautiously. Her fingers caressed my hip. I smirked as I nodded my head. Yeji looked at me. A soft smile formed on her face, "What do you want to order, Jagiya?" she asked, and almost immediately, I sighed. My hands played with her baby hair at the back of her neck.

"I don't know," I replied, but Yeji knew exactly how to handle this situation. She grabbed the remote, her arm holding me tight so I wouldn't fall off her lap. She turned on the TV and curiously, I looked at the screen.

"I love you," I immediately said as I saw that Yeji put on the K-Drama "While You Were Sleeping." Almost instantly, I got off her lap and sat properly on the couch. My eyes fixed on the TV. I heard Yeji giggle, giving me a kiss on the cheek before standing up.

I loved how Yeji took care of me when I had pain. She had ordered my favorite food for later and even went out again to buy me white chocolate and ice cream. Then she got ready for bed, making me a hot water bottle and sitting next to me.

She only wore a tank top, as she noticed that my body temperature drastically rose when I had my period, at least when I had pain. She had already prepared a glass of water and a tablet in case the pain got too much. She also made me tea.

We snuggled up and watched episode after episode. Yeji never complained once. Sometimes, she was on Tiktok, watching videos without sound. My head was on her shoulder.

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Annoyed, my forehead had been furrowed the entire time. I had to step in for a Colleague for a short period of 3 hours. i asked Ji-Eun Unnie if she could take care of Alex. Unfortunately, she had some work to do, and the only person I could ask for help was Yuna. She had Alex, my son. However, she had texted me an hour ago that she was called to the JYP building, and Alex went along with her.

Now, after years, I found myself back at the building. Nervously, I looked at the revolving door and took a deep breath before entering. My phone was in my hand, and I immediately called Yuna. It didn't take long for her to pick up. Panic-stricken, she stammered, "H-Hey, Y/n. I'm so sorry. I lost Alex," she said, and my breath caught in my throat. My eyes widened.

"I had to record something for the next album, so I gave Alex to Ryujin. She had to go somewhere afterward and handed Alex to Manager Lee. But he had to attend to another idol and handed Alex to Ms. Park... She said she never saw Alex," Yuna informed me. My heartbeat raced like crazy, and panic surged within me.

My breathing accelerated, and my eyes scanned the lobby. My heart was pounding in my chest. "Ryujin is already looking everywhere for him, and I informed everyone except Yeji," she said. I heard her slamming some doors in frustration.

My eyes wide, the phone still at my ear, my steps quickened. I was almost pacing back and forth until I finally spotted a child leaning against a wall. He was crouched down, running his finger over the floor repeatedly. Relieved, I stopped instantly. "I found him," I said into the phone.

I heard Yuna, who was already tearing up, exhale in relief. I chuckled slightly and calmed her down before hanging up. It wasn't her fault. Life was just hectic sometimes.

I went straight to my son, but I paused as I recognized the person next to him. "Mama!" Alex exclaimed joyfully as he ran towards me on his little legs, wrapping his hands around my hips. My hand automatically landed on his head.

Yeji looked up at me. Her eyes widened a bit as she saw me. She stood up from her crouched position, now taller than me. Yeji looked at the child and then back at me, with a question mark on her face. "Mama?" she asked, her eyes widening as she realized what that word meant.

She swallowed, her mouth slightly open. "You... have a child?" she asked, her eyes bigger than usual. Nervously, I looked at my ex-girlfriend. My heartbeat quickened. Now, it was me who had to swallow. "Y-Yes," I replied. Yeji nodded in understanding. Her eyes fell on the child before looking back at me, a small smile on her face.

"You've raised him well... He didn't say a word to me," she said, looking directly into my eyes. I chuckled and stroked the little one's hair. His hands gripped my pant pocket to hold on better. I took a deep breath. "I think we should talk," Yeji said hesitantly. I also felt somewhat uncomfortable now. I nodded with my head.

"Okay, fine. If you want to talk, I'll take Alex," Yuna said, breathing heavily. It seemed she had ran all the way here. Alex looked at Yuna and ran to her, laughing, calling her Noona. Yuna lifted him up in her arms. "This time, I won't take my eyes off him, I promise," she said, looking serious. I simply nodded my head.

Yeji, however, looked surprised that Alex knew Yuna and immediately jumped into her arms. Yeji nodded slightly, realizing that Yuna already knew about my situation.

"Is the café still there?" I asked, and Yeji nodded her head. Without a word, she started walking in a direction, briefly looking back to make sure I followed, which I did without objection.

We sat down across from each other. But shortly after, Yeji stood up again to go to the counter to order and pay for our drinks. My mouth opened slightly as she placed a Caramel Frappuccino in front of me. I swallowed as Yeji sat back down. "Thank you," I said barely louder than a whisper.

Yeji and I said nothing. We just stared at each other, sipping our drinks through our straws. Yeji seemed lost in thought. "What... is his name?" she asked, and my eyes widened slightly. I hadn't expected Yeji to say anything.

"Alex," I replied, and Yeji nodded her head. An uncomfortable silence fell between us again. Yeji placed her drink on the table, sighed, and remained expressionless. I had no idea what she was thinking.

"How old is he?" she asked, breaking the silence. I swallowed. "He... turned 4 in March," I replied, and Yeji's eyes widened a bit. She swallowed, her eyes returning to her drink. "Who... is the father?" she asked, and my mouth opened. She... accused me of cheating on her?

My eyes widened in shock at what I heard. Did she really think I had cheated on her?

Speechless, I stared at her with an open mouth. "Say it, Y/N! I need to hear it... Tell me you cheated on me!" she said, now raising her voice. Her eyes narrowed, her jaw tense, and her hand clenched into a fist. "Say it!" she demanded. Tears formed in my eyes as I replied, "I would never... I never cheated on you," I said, and Yeji continued to stare at me.

I stood up from my seat, shaking my head in disbelief. "You want to know who got me pregnant? You! You were the one!" I said as I picked up my jacket from the chair and was about to pass her. Almost immediately, I felt a hand on my wrist. I stopped and turned my head to look at her.

"Wait..." Yeji said as she finally released her held breath. Her big eyes looked up at me since she was still sitting. Her lip trembled slightly. "Alex... is my son?" she asked in shock. Her voice broke a bit. I hesitated. I should leave now after what she accused me of, but I was the one who left.

I pulled away from her and sat back down. Yeji looked at me, her mouth open. "He... is my son?" she asked again. I nodded my head. Uncertain of what might happen after this shock. Once again, there was silence between us. All this time, I could only look at the table in front of me. I... was afraid to look at her. Yeji took a deep breath. "W-Why... didn't you tell me?" she asked. "Did you... think I wouldn't be a good mother?" she continued, her voice trembling.

"Why... did you leave?" she continued, her voice shaking. I looked at her. I saw some tears quietly rolling down her cheeks. My mouth widened as my breath caught. My hand started to shake. I want to touch her...

"Because... I love you, Yeji... You would have been a wonderful mother," I started quietly. My hands clasped hers as I looked deeply into her eyes. My heart was racing like crazy. "But... I couldn't stand in the way of your career," I finally finished my sentence. Yeji immediately furrowed her brow. With teary eyes, she looked at me, her jaw tensing.

"No... Wh-What are you talking about, Y/N?" she asked, and I took a deep breath. I bit my lip. "JYP... talked to me... I mean... he hinted that I would probably ruin your career," I replied.

Surprised that Yeji now took my hands in hers and applied some pressure, I looked at her with big eyes. My breath caught as I saw her narrowed eyes. "You talked to JYP?" she asked. Her jaw was tense. "You left to not ruin my career?" she repeated, questioning.

She let out a humorless laugh, making sure I got up from my chair and now stood right in front of her. She also stood up, her face slightly angry. "You think that whatever is between us would destroy my career?" she asked, and nervously, I let out the breath I didn't even realize I was holding.

"God... Y/n... Since when have you become so foolish?" she asked, her tone much gentler and somewhat amused now. Her hand landed on my cheek. "Destroy whatever you want, but don't leave me," she whispered as her hand moved to my neck, holding me there.

"Yeji..." I breathed almost breathlessly. My breath hitched, and my eyelids were only half open. "You can't forgive me," I whispered, and now I heard Yeji humming. A grin appeared on her face as she leaned closer to me. Her hand on my neck prevented me from pulling away. "Who said I forgive you?" she asked softly, her breath against my lips.

My lips parted as breathing became even more difficult. My hands twitched, and with just a brief gaze into my eyes, she finally connected our lips after 5 long years. Almost automatically, my hands found their way to her lower back. She pulled me even closer by my neck.

She pulled away from the kiss abruptly, her eyes now slightly darker. I swallowed as I tried to control my breath. My heart was pounding wildly in my chest. Yeji bit her lip as she looked at me. "Go on a date with me," she demanded, and her hand on my neck tightened its grip. "I'll make you regret leaving me five years ago," she said, grinning. Her tone sounded playful, but she meant it completely seriously.

I let out a small laugh, my face blushing. "I've regretted it every second," I replied, and Yeji looked at me between my eyes. Then she let go of me and took her phone out of her pocket, holding it out to me. "Your number," she demanded, and I immediately entered my number.

[kydrogendragon]

❤ What the Boys Would Do for You for Valentines Day! ❤

Click here for the Dateables~

This man had everything planned out so far in advance. He's got that reservation at the classiest place in town (and made sure to get that private table as well), he's got a limo waiting out front with demonus for him and champagne for you, and you know you woke up to a vase with two dozen roses sitting outside your door.

This man also definitely got you the highest quality chocolates he could get his hands on.

He does the classic dinner date with you. The place you go to had multiple courses, so you both were there for quite some time, but you both had plenty to talk about.

When you guys get home, he'd lead you to his room where he gives you a necklace that reminded him of you. He puts it on you and kisses your shoulder blade as he does and showers you with how much he appreciates and loves you.

"You deserve nothing less than the best, my love. I'm honored that you chose me to spend your days with."

Mams forgot Valentines Day was coming up until he overheard Asmo talking about the themed cupcakes at his favorite bakery. Then he was in rush mode.

He worked odd jobs for that week before to save enough money to buy you something worthy of you. He didn't get as much as he wanted, but he did buy the both of you matching charm bracelets. He didn't have enough to fill the bracelet up, but he was able to get yours a charm of a crow and his a charm of a sheep.

He wanted to wait for actual Valentines Day (and technically he did), but he was so eager, so right as the clock hit midnight, he barged into your room and shoved the jewelry box as well as a box of chocolate he made himself the other day into your hands.

He spends the rest of the day telling everyone he was your first valentine and chased off any other demons at RAD from giving anything to you.

"So, uh, wanna come hang out in my room? I know my brothers are gonna try and take ya from me, but I just want you to myself today."

He went over all his romance anime with Valentines Day episode to prepare for this moment only to not end up doing almost all of his plans.

He did make you homemade chocolate, however and they turned out beautiful! He also may or may not have snuck in a Ruri-Chan themed one. He knew you'd appreciate it.

He was too shy to give them to you in person, so he left them outside your door at a time he knew Beel wouldn't be home and eat them, either. He also left a small bouquet of paper flowers he had spent the day making.

Levi wanted to give you a big Valentines Day he thought you deserved, but the smile on your face when you came down to thank him made him feel better. The two of you spent the evening in his room earing the chocolate and catching up on your shows, this time sitting closer to each other.

"Did you have fun today? Ah, good, I was worried you were bored. I'll make sure next year is even better!"

Satan is another whose in favor for a more classic Valentines Day. He starts the day by making you breakfast in bed, complete with a single rose on the tray for you. He'd tell you to get ready after you'd ate and that he's taking you out for the day.

He hands you a polaroid camera, saying the two of you should take pictures of the day to remember it for the future.

He filled the day with activities the both of you would enjoy, stopping for lunch part-way through. You both take turns throughout the day taking pictures of your activities and of each other. You managed to get some selfie in here and there as well.

At the end of the day, he'd give you a book he'd picked out just for you. It's filled with notes and his thoughts he had as he read, hoping you'd add your own as you read it. It was a love story and at the end is a love note he wrote just for you.

"Which picture was your favorite? Ah, yes, that was a good one. I'll need to make a copy so we both have it."

You better believe he woke you up with a kiss and some heart-shaped sweets in his hand. After spending some time cuddling, he'd give you a gift. Inside was an outfit, complete with shoes and accessories for you to wear for your date after classes today.

He took you to one of his absolute favorite bakeries where you both shared their Couple's Special and took pictures together for DevilGram.

Afterwards, you both wandered the streets of downtown, killing time before your dinner reservations. It wasn't anything as fancy as Lucifer's location. Asmo opted for a smaller place that overlooked one of the lakes nearby. He made sure to get a window seat as well so you could watch the Valentines Day firework show they have over the water.

Returning home, the two of you ended the day with a luxurious bath with the works: bath bomb, oils, and face masks. He'd absolutely give you a massage too if you wanted one.

"Did you feel special today? Good! I'd make every day this special for you if I could."

It took all his willpower to not eat all the chocolates he made for you. Granted, he definitely had some, but he had to make sure they tasted okay, you know? But in the end, he still had a good amount and they looked good too!

He brought them to school with him and gave them to you during lunch. He was happy you liked them and happier that you appreciated the effort they took. (Even happier if you offer one to him)

After classes, he takes you out for dinner (making sure to call ahead so they had enough food for the both of you) where you guys had a lovely meal at a place you mentioned offhand about wanting to try sometime (he remembered and made sure to take you here)

The two of you walk around after, enjoying the lights and the weather outside. You guys get home fairly late and cuddle until you both fall asleep.

"Today was fun. I haven't ever had someone to give chocolates to. I'm glad you liked them."

Belphie had stayed over in your room the night prior, lulling you back to sleep in just a bit longer. After finally managing to wake up for the day, he gave you a final squeeze and whispered, "Happy Valentine's Day."

He wasn't one for the classic, cheesy stuff. He rolled his eyes at the many fans of Asmo ushering bags of chocolates into his hands, but he did know that today was a reason to do something special.

After classes and spending a rather normal day with Belphie and everyone, you were about to head to bed when he had you follow him instead. He led you to the planetarium where pillows and blankets scattered the floor. A set of mugs and a large canister sat in the middle on a tray. A few candles were lit along the edges.

He guided you to the ground with him, resting against your lap as he poured the both of you some hot chocolate in the mugs. Beel helped him set it up. He knew it wasn't much, but he wanted you to know he didn't forget what day it was.

"See? I even got you some chocolate, just in drink form."

[scrtxai]

BOKURA NO MONOGATARI (BLACKPINK X FEMALE READER)

Blackpink members : Roseanne Park x Fem reader

Genre: Angst, Hanahaki Au, Adapted from Anonymous by Kaito (Vocaloid)

Grammar mistakes ahead

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                         STORY #1: ANONYMOUS 

credit to the owner

I'm on my knees, getting the papers that scattered on the floor. It's not just a paper...

I was standing alone in the room, papers everywhere and still waiting for someone.

It was a letter from me to her

My crush...

Roseanne Park

I knew she never notice my existant. I'm just an anonymous. An anonymous fell in love with a blonde tall girl. The popular girl in my school but I'm scared that she will say I'm such a creep if she knows that I'm watching her from a far.

As I trying to get the letter, the wind gushing making the letter fly away and getting myself struggle until my body on the floor with huffed comes out from my mouth, annoyed with wind.

After done I collected all the letters...

My final letters...

I take my coat and scarf, get ready to send all of these letters to her. I walk to the park beside Han river, the leaves started to fall knowing this month will be in autumn season. The wind became a bit cold and I looking around, taking a chance for the last time I saw all of this beautiful environment.

But she is more beautiful than this...

I walk again and I remember how joyful she is here, enjoying the beauty scenery of Han river with her best friend. I decided to put my first letter on the branch then I walk away.

I went to the playground, sitting on the playground swing alone. This is the place where the first time I saw her. The first eyesights of hers which make my heart started to fluttered. The playground swing also her favourite place she likes to play. I sigh as I knew she is barely here. I had waiting for her about years but she never notice about me. I get up from the swing and put my second letter at the chain, tying it up and leave the playground.

I was standing alone on the pedestrian bridge. This is the place where Rosé loves enjoying the beautiful scenery of the house and the vehicles passing by below her. The pedestrian bridge were above the road and she loves to watching it without knowing the reasons why.

I coughing badly as the disease taking over me once again and yes I forgot to say something... But I don't want to tell it. I ignore something in my hand and make it fly away. I make the paper plane and the wind hitting my pale face, the cold makes my muscle face numb and a bit pain. My hair waving and I think it's a good time to let my third letter fly in the sky and hopefully she will notice it.

"Right now..."

I was standing at the house. Which it's her house. I knew it's creepy when I standing here but I just want to send final letter to her. I feel my breath hitched and short. My heartbeat fastened feeling something piercing. My eyes started blurring but I must to endure the pain. I put my final letter into her mailbox and walk away leaving alone. I know she's not home yet because she hangout with her friends and her boyfriend, Chanyeol.

Well... I feel my time is near...

I look into the sky with tears on my cheeks. My love actually were unrequited and I hate the fact this disease of mine cannot be cured.

I let it taking over me and I'm gladly to be gone...

Who am I to force her to love me?

Did you forgot?

I'm just an anonymous to her?

She will never know my name at all

No... She will never know my name...

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"Hey, I found something!" Thai girl saw a letter on the branch. The blonde look and she take the letter from her best friend. Rosé open the letter and read it.

"It's been running through my mind

I wanna say it one more time

But when I try to speak the words just fly away from me"

- An Anonymous

"Wow, this person must have a hard time" Lisa said to her. Rosé felt something unpleasant but sometimes it's make the blonde determined. "It must have something behind this letter" Rosé said. Lisa shrugged off as she lazy to thunk about it.

They went to the playground and wanted to play swing, Rosé saw a paper tied on the chain. She take it and she look it was another letter.

"So I'm taking the chance to write it down

And send it out into this lonely town

And hope that you'll see it somehow"

- An Anonymous

"Another letter? What the heck?" Lisa look at the letter and obviously it from the unknown person. Rosé take the first letter and she read both of it, trying to solve those mysterious letter.

They walk along the street on their way to going home after buying the foods for dinner, Rosé saw a paper plane flying through her and fell on the floor. She taking it and open it.

Again... Another letter from an anonymous.

"I know that I could never hide

The little things I felt inside

And like the days grew long it just kept growing stronger

So if one day it finally reaches you

And you can feel what I was feeling too

Remember what I said to you"

- An Anonymous

Another letter makes Rosé felt so determined. What is the meaning behind this letter? A lot of questions pop out inside her mind like fireworks.

"Can you just throw that letter and let's go home in happily?" Lisa irritated with Rosé as the blonde busy with the letters. Lisa sigh as blonde become addicted to the unknown letters.

As they come home The Ambulance passing by then stopped about three house gap away from theirs. The employees rushing and they went inside the house. Rosé felt something went wrong. She ever knew that house. It was a lonely girl in her school. She don't know her name at all but she felt something strange about that lonely girl. She walk towards that house and she saw that lonely girl on the stretch, taking away by the employees in rushing. The mother crying a lot as the ambulance started driving away.

"That girl must be sick" Lisa said standing beside Rosé. Rosé just sigh and she asking Lisa to come inside her house now because it's getting dark outside.

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The time went fast and the news spread like wildfire. What the news about?

Well the lonely girl, Kwon Y/N, died because of disease.

They felt sympathy with the mother. Y/N was the best student in the high school and she's the one and only child. The hope of the school and now there is no more best student. No one could beat Y/N's geniuses but the fate are cruel as Y/N were no longer to lived.

Rosé says sorry to the mother. The mother just sadly smiles and she told Rosé that she accept her child's gone.

As Rosé reach her home, she open her mailbox and saw an unknown letter. Her eyebrow raising in determination. She take that letter and going inside her house.

The night comes, Rosé take out the envelope and she read the letter. As she read the letter, her hand covered her mouth and her eyes started glossy.

"Dear Rosé,

I know it's a bit stupid letter I ever made knowing myself that you will never read it at all.

I wanted to say that I like you. I fell in love with you at the first sights. I saw your beautiful smile happily playing together with your friend at the play ground make my heart fluttered. At first, I try question myself if I have feelings on you. I tried to deny but it failed.

The more you appeared, the more my feelings on you grower. Every single day, I waited for you at the play ground but it seems you barely there, I saw you at the park near Han River. You loves to enjoy the freshness of air at the park.

I thought I can get to know you at the park so I try waiting for you at the park and unfortunately, you were never seen at all.

It does not mean I will giving up. I remember the time you always standing alone at the pedestrian bridge above the road. You always been there every evening, watching the vehicles passing by. I don't know why you did that but who am I to judge people?

Then I thought you will be there to the next day but yeah it's still the same thing.

You were never seen over and over again.

I always put the chocolates and sweet letter inside your locker. I feel happy as your smiles created on your face as you read that letter I gave to you. I think it maybe my chance to make you notice me so I did it everyday.

But the things turned...

The day where you and the popular basketball player guy started dating. You thought all this day, it was him who gave those chocolates and sweet letters. But you don't know...

He just did that only once...

My heart broken into pieces knowing you were straight. I huffed in lose but my feelings on you still strong.

And it hurts me.

The day by day, disease started to taking over me. It comes out of nowhere and it's funny that when I coughing, it have flower petals? I laughed myself that I cough the beautiful flower petals.

It's rose petals.

And it so painful

The thorn, the roots and the flower started growing leaving me coughing. I can't deny it. This is because my feelings on you still inside my heart. This disease appeared as my love for you unrequited.

I can't blame you because you don't know me at all.

I'm just an anonymous to you.

Every single day the flowers blooming, making me cried in pain but I didn't mind at all. I deserves to have this rather than get humiliate by people.

I rather die in bloom than die in human's harsh words.

Yes I'm gay for you and I secret it. Only myself know about my sexuality. I better kept it because people are cruel in other way.

For the last words I write this letter to you, I wanted to say that I love you more than anything. I hope you be happy with him and always be.

If you find this message that I left behind. You'll know that time has pulled me away from you and though I know who you are and I am far away, I love you all the same.

Even though you will never know my name..

If you find this world is leaving you behind and feel like time is pulling away from you, Just believe in who you are and know that far away...

I love you all the same.

- Y/N (An Anonymous)

She finally realise something, All these days, Rosé always thought that Chanyeol gave sweet letters and chocolates to her everyday but her thought was wrong.

She finally knows that an anonymous who gave the letter to her is from Y/N. All of these things that she had was from Y/N herself. She cried more and mistakes taking over her. She felt guilt the she was the cause of Y/N's death. Rosé look at the night sky and closing her eyes. Her heart started to feel the pain and her breath hitched.

"I finally know your name"

Rosè smiles with eyes closed knowing Y/N looking at her from above smiling at her.

She once again opened her eyes, smiling at the sky.

"I finally know your name, Y/N"

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[courtneyyharper]

10 Christmas Gifts ‘for her’ if you’re completely clueless

Since it's apparently time to start thinking about that time of year I thought I'd jump on and attempt to give you some help in an attempt to spark​ some ideas. Whether you're using this list for ideas for your other half, your mum or sister, or even if you are that person that likes something on this list why don't you send it over as a wee hint... the irony of this is that I've banned my boyfriend from looking at this list as there's a few spoilers on here for his gifts! (Hope he enjoys a wee eyeshadow palette😬).

So let’s start...

1. AIRPODS

I'm sure this will be a big gift this year and a perfect gift if you know they'll be getting a new phone or laptop! Perfect for a music lover or just the person that always needs to have the next big thing! I'd recommend planning to get a pair of these bad boys from Amazon or Currys during the Black Friday sale.

2. STUDIO LIGHT

A gift my mum got me unexpectedly a few years back and I haven't looked back. Not just for the MUA or photography student in your life but even just for every day make up application and I know my friends always use mine for checking their outfits or taking selfies before a night out! I've shown in the product photo how you can get a full sized one or a desk sized one easily on Amazon, your choice. Along this line would also be a Hollywood mirror, the big vanity mirrors with the bright lights installed but they can be hard to source as they're so popular and you need to make sure they're the bright studio lights. Top tip would just be to check the dimensions so you know what you're getting.

3. POLAROID CAMERA

I wanna say this is a cult favourite. I don't know many girls who don't have one of these now but if your gift recipient is one of them then it'd be a great gift! They're a great idea for Christmas, birthdays and anniversaries because it means you can capture the memories and of course ironically take a photo of the polaroid with your phone and post it to Instagram!! They come in a variety of colours and you can purchase accessories and refillable polaroid packs for other special occasions after, making it the gift that keeps on giving.

4. VINYL PLAYERS

Another gift that keeps on giving. If they're a real music lover and always have Spotify going in their room, and with the lack of concerts this year, this would be a very thoughtful gift. You can get these lads pretty cheap on Amazon or fork out for the pricey ones from UO. The only downside is that the actual Vinyl records themselves is where this gifts will cost you the most, but at least you'll always have an idea for next years present.

5. FOREVER ROSES

Now these guys can be quite boujee and I remember them being really popular a few years ago. If you type 'forever roses' into google or, probably better yet, Instagram you'll get a lot of companies selling gift sets of these specially preserved roses that can last for years. An incredibly romantic and surprising gift, this one can cost you big bucks but if you shop around enough you can get single roses for around £20 or major bunches for a few hundred but it's sure to win you major brownie points.

6. LUSH

This is the standard gift and perfect for a Christmas Eve bath. If you couldn't come up with this present on your own then please pay close attention to this blog because oh buddy you will need it! There are so many gift boxes to choose from at Lush and the great thing is you can't go wrong with any of them. Not to worry if you don't have a bath too because I also have you covered with these Lush sprays which are sooo good that you won't need to work out what their favourite perfume is for the third year in a row. (Also a great brand to support for its morals which is a bonus!!)

7. BLANKETS

Not only perfect for those cosy Winter and lockdown nights but also a great home decor item that is so popular on Instagram! These massive knit blankets can get incredibly pricey online, ranging from 20ish quid for a tiny one to a few hundred for the massive ones, so if you're willing to pay that then go ahead but top tip is to have a look in Home Bargains because they had these guys in all year for £25 and even Primark Home had a few in recently but I'd get ahead of the game for this one before they sell out...

8. JEWELLERY

Now I'm not a massive jewellery fan myself but some girls just go ga-ga for a princess ring. If you're wondering if your girlfriend/sister/daughter is one of them you can identify these people by their less-than-subtle 'just gonna post this here xx' social media posts sharing the Pandora sales. I know most boys get scared to choose jewellery in case the person 'doesn't like it' blah blah but chances are unless they've told you somethng they specifically want or you've been missing some massive hints (ie. ring photos 'accidentally' sent to you) then they'll appreciate literally anything you choose. It's the idea you've went and chosen something specifically for them more than the item itself that matters. If you like it, they'll like it more. The big site is Pandora and many sites like it will have 'Christmas Gift Guide' sections to make it super easy for you. Top tip: you could do a wee price low-high if this is just an add-on gift and although it's horrible to say they will most likely look it up and check how much you spent on it... sorry about that!

9. EYESHADOW PALETTE

Now this is one you will most likely skip over because it feels like delving into a massive jungle with no map and no water and actually no shoes and no clue whatsoever of where to start. That's what boys feel like trying to buy girls make up and I really can't blame you. In fact, if you haven't been told exactly what to buy then who could blame you but if you're really looking to impress and go the extra mile and know they like make up then I'm going to attempt to help you as best I can and try and keep it really simple! So, first of all you'll need to somehow have a look at their collection when they're getting ready or be super stealthy and just double check they don't have the palette you're going to get them.

This is important. Right, so question one is do they watch YouTubers do make up? Because if they do then simply find out who they watch and check if that influencer has a palette or collab with a makeup brand because then your job is done for you!! If they've told you all about the James Charles/Tatti/Jefree Starr drama that encapsulated YouTube in the past then find out who's side they support because all three of those guys have palettes! James Charles x Morphe Artistry palette, Tatti has her own brand, or if they came out supporting Jeffree Starr and Shane Dawson in the whole fiasco then the Jeffree Starr 'Conspiracy palette' is for you. To each their own. These two main palettes I've featured on the left below for you to have a look at.

The top right palette is the new HUDA Beauty Naughty Nude palette and it's the one I'd go for if you're really unsure still! It's a new release so doubtful they have it and there's no crazy colours so can be used by everyone. It would be my top recommendation for make up this Christmas.

The three below that are all YouTuber/Influencer collabs with makeup brands that have been pretty popular this year. From the left: BPerfect x Stacey Marie Carnival III Love Tahiti Palette is one to get if you know they love doing colourful and adventurous looks, middle: Carli Bybel Palette x Anastasia Beverly Hills and far right: BPerfect x Jah Makeup Artist Clientele Palette are both perfect for more simple looks or if they don't go wild with colour and are both from big brands so will be very much appreciated!

God, this really could have been its own post where I explained it a bit better but alas...

10. HAIR CURLERS/WAVER

Maybe they're not as into makeup and prefer hair, or maybe they just love both? Then a Beauty Works hair styler would be a boujee gift for them. So, for this you can do the standard version of the products (gold) or you can do the newer versions in the collab with Molly Mae (pink). It's up to you. These products are pricey but great quality. First is the hair curler (Professional styler) which is great if both you and they love their hair curly, and you can't go wrong with Molly Mae's signature bouncy curls. The second option is a new trend in hair his year, The Waver, which creates the mermaid waves that I've pictured Molly Mae wearing below (and yes boys they’re different than curls) and a great gift if they already have the curler. Top tip: is to get these lads while ASOS have 20% off because you're grabbing yourself a bargain or if you're really on a budget many brands do these products without the hefty price tag.

BONUS: GIFT ADVENT CALENDER

This year there is a major boom in the idea of gift advent calendars, so behind every door is a small gift instead of chocolate. Now what would be super adorable is to buy advent boxes online and fill them yourself with personalised gifts but luckily many brands have brought out their own versions! The best one I have saw so far this year is this PrettyLittleThing beauty calendar but it has been sold out for some time now! ASOS etc. are doing their own versions and there have even been adorable versions in the likes of HomeBargains and B&Ms where you can get candle or even alcohol versions.

Well, I hope this helped even a little bit! If you're really on the ball you'll have noticed I haven't included anything like the staple Primark pyjamas or everything seems catered towards girlfriends or 'for her' but not to worry I've many more versions planned, including 'for him', 'on a budget', and 'how to dress up your present'!

Happy (very early) Christmas!🎁🎄