#next tags are just going to be personal rants ignore that

[moonchild-in-blue]

I haven't really done much art for tumblr (at all) lately, cus life, but! Here's a lil something I've been working on (it's a Xmas gift) 💙

(also peep that lil January calendar painting 👀 i did mini squares for each month for myself, because I need to have a physical one always, and they each have their own colour 🥺)

[m4iya]

⋆⭒˚.⋆𝜗𝜚 Order up! Matcha green tea, 100% sugar, 100% ice with black pearls and coconut jelly for @frosted-flakes!

Collab? Kenma Kozume (fluff, post high school, mutual pining + forced proximity)

Your phone had been blowing up with notifications all day since last nights stream. Who knew your viewers would get so heated over a couple jokes? Heck, was it even your viewers? It seemed more like the ones that were freaking out weren’t actually watching for the full context.

Well, that’s what you said every time. It kept them watching, right?

Though, being tagged in rants and comments wasn’t the only thing happening this time. You were receiving an absurd amount of messages from viewers as per usual, but also from other streamers and influencers. The most common words present within all of them being:

“Guess who mentioned you in their stream last night!”

This time, it felt a little different from other controversies you’d been wrapped up in, so you couldn’t help wonder who this mystery person was, and what you had done to earn yourself a mention.

One scroll on your timeline told you just about everything you needed to know. A post sat at the top of your feed; a video captioned “@/mc of all people?’

Clicking on it, a clip of someone’s stream began to play; a QnA of sorts.

“Kodzuken, will we be getting a collab with anyone soon? Can you drop any names?” The streamer read aloud before pausing to think.

“Hmm.. there’s a few things in the works, but I don’t know for sure when they’ll be out.” He replied, absentmindedly flicking through the questions on another monitor.

He paused for a few seconds before continuing to speak. “I’m not the best at reaching out to people, but I’d like to see what kind of content I could make with @/mc. She’s pretty funny.”

Proceeding to continue with other questions, he completely ignored the way the comments blew up at him.

Out of every streamer you knew, he had to be the absolute last person you’d have expected to even have any idea of who you were. You'd been watching his content for a while, having seen him at influencer events and such. Though, you'd never been able to approach him at any of them, often using 'I was talking to my viewers, that's why I couldn't approach him' as an excuse to yourself.

Even though it wasn't exactly your objective as an online personality, you figured that controversies and out of pocket statements would be one way to get his peoples attention. It wasn't like you were exaggerating your personality per se, you were always pretty outspoken, so the only extra steps would be recording or streaming your antics.

Even though it looked like it worked, you had no clue where to go from here. Would you send him an email? Or a message? And what would you even collaborate on? What would happen to his view count if he did make content with you?

You tapped onto his profile on Twitter, scrolling through his recent posts as you wondered what to do. Suddenly, a notification popped up on the top of your screen: A message request.. From him!

Kodzuken hey, this is @/mc, right?

You had a pretty large following, and he had mentioned your name in his stream. Staring at the message for a few seconds, you wondered if he was trying to be funny.

MC u really aren't the best at reaching out to people lol and yeah thats me

Your messages maintained an air of nonchalance, hiding the way your eyes were peeled—waiting for his next response, your heart thumping loud enough for it to reverberate through your ears.

Kodzuken thats a little mean anyways i'm assuming you saw my stream in that case so how does a collab sound?

MC I'm not too busy tbh I should be free next week. u sure u wanna collab with me? ur viewers will probably freak out over it

Kodzuken my channel not theirs 🙄 what do you wanna do for the stream?

MC something simple maybe some type of challenge? are u free to call so we can set it up?

Kodzuken give me a sec ill call you

Your hands shook in place, palms sweaty as you waited for him to call you first.

When your phone eventually rang, you let it sound for a few seconds, clearing your throat. Answering the call, you held the phone up to your ear.

"Hello?" He spoke first, his voice being exactly how it sounded on stream.

"Hey!" You internally sobbed over how that might've sounded.

And so the conversation began to flow, the two of you brainstorming ideas and details about the collab. It would be held on his channel, with you editing the stream into a video for your own channel. Before the two of you hung up, he asked for your number so he could send over his address. You wondered why he couldn't just send it over DMs, but your heart was already racing too fast for you to even bother asking.

You got to work immediately, organising your schedule and allocating time to buy the things you needed. He said he had most of the basic things already, but to make things funnier, you suggested a couple ingredients that you'd buy yourself. The idea was to hold a cake baking challenge with odd ingredients. Without telling each other what flavours you were using, you needed to decorate as nicely as you could, and you'd taste each other’s dessert at the end. One of you will guess incorrectly, and the penalty will be to post something on the other's social media account after the stream.

You both agreed not to do anything rash, but also not to plan or rehearse the ending too much. It had a mix of the chaos that was usually in your content, and the viewer interaction that he'd implement in his own. Preparing things behind the scenes, you both kept each other updated until the day arrived, and you nervously made your way to his place.

Standing in front of his home, you took a deep breath before knocking on the door. You heard the shuffling of slippers from the other side, stopping abruptly at the front door.

"Who is it..?" A voice groaned from the other side.

"Um.. me?" You nervously answered.

A faint gasp sounded from the other side before a flurry of steps took off, leaving you wondering what just happened. Could it be that he forgot that you were coming over today?

He returned around a minute later, opening the door immediately. You noted how crinkled his clothes looked, his voice as though he'd just woken up. The skin of his face was dewy—freshly splashed with water, the evidence visible on the hoodie he wore. It wasn't the one he usually had on in his streams.

"Sorry about that." He muttered, attempting a chuckle. His laughter definitely didn't come off as nonchalant, not with his eyes looking everywhere but at you.

Though, you definitely weren’t feeling too confident yourself. Your hands were clammy as you bent over to pick up the bags that you brought with you which contained the things you'd both be using in the stream.

"I'll help." He quickly offered, taking the things in his own hands with a faint smile tugging at his lips.

Butterflies. Your stomach churned in a way that it hadn't done since high school.

Following him inside, you realised how big his home was, surprised that he seemed to live alone. As you walked to his kitchen, he gave you a haphazard tour, which was limited to the rooms you both passed. He steered you away from the direction of his own room, telling you that it was 'just a little messy right now.' Looks like he really was asleep.

Once you reached the kitchen, it surprised you to see his camera and tripod already prepared. He placed the bags down on the counter, walking towards his setup.

"Should I set up my stuff as well?" You asked as you pulled it out of one of the bags, having brought it just in case.

"It's fine, I'll send you the footage." He replied.

With that, you prepared the materials you'd both be using. He provided the bowls, spoons and mixing tools. You handed him an apron and wore your own, giggling at how he struggled to wear it despite it being so simple. You offered to tie it for him and he did the same, even though you were more than able to do so yourself. You lifted your arms as he took the fabric around your waist to tie it, gently weaving one piece over the other.

"Is that too tight?" He asked. "Want me to loosen it?"

"Yeah, just a little."

You could feel your heart beating in your ears as he spoke from behind, helping you with this short, mundane task. Things were all over the place today, and you weren't sure how you'd get yourself under control.

The two of you went through a few more things, and soon began the stream. You greeted the viewers, and introduced yourself to those who didn’t know you.

And so the stream went on, unfolding much more differently than you had initially expected. It seemed that the people who were criticising you had either stuck around to see what would happen, or had simply left.

You cracked jokes with each other while mixing your ingredients, using the mystery flavours that you had poured into separate bottles last night—so tired that you could barely remember what was in them.

At the end, you both decorated the cakes together in an attempt to make them as appealing as they could be. Yours was coated in red frosting, and you used white buttercream in a thin piping tip to write out his name in cursive on the surface of the cake. His was haphazardly covered in pink frosting, purple polka dots shaped from fondant scattered over the surface and the sides. He had decorated the edges with sugar pearls and rainbow sprinkles, running out of time before being able to write your name on it.

Cutting each other a slice, you both took turns tasting it. You could barely contain your laughter as he cut into his—the centre was so moist that the knife he used was coated in batter as he removed it from the cake. You opted to eat a piece of the edges instead.

Exaggerating your reaction, you coughed, walking off camera to grab a drink of water. The ingredient he had used was chilli, and it wasn't settling well with you at all. His laughter echoed through the room as you drank from the cup of water; probably because of the slightly exaggerated reaction that you had rehearsed with him before the stream in the case that he happened to choose something spicy.

As he took a bite of your slice of cake after you had returned to the stream, his face contorted; confusion? He chewed once, then paused, scrunched his eyebrows, and continued chewing.

"Is that—" He coughed. "Is that coffee?"

You could barely contain your laughter at his reaction. Well, he wasn't completely off. It was coffee, alongside a couple different spices such as cinnamon, nutmeg, and.. well, you lost count after the first two.

"Not exactly! Wanna try again?"

He held his nose bridge, 'deep in thought'. You both knew that one of you needed to get it wrong to go through with the penalty. A few obviously wrong guesses later, it was decided that he'd be the loser. After talking to the chat a little, answering some questions and interacting, it was revealed to them that you'd soon upload a video on your channel, which would contain extra content, and that the penalty post would also be up on his account. With that, he concluded the stream, slouching over the table with a sigh as you took a seat on one of the tall stools, picking at the cake he had made.

"At least the frosting tastes good." You laughed, taking a spoon of it.

"Yours wasn't actually too bad," He muttered. "Just.. very flavourful."

The situation suddenly set in; it was now nighttime, and your belongings were scattered everywhere. How were you supposed to just pack up and leave? That same feeling from earlier was now completely overwhelming you as you felt your face warm up. What exactly was going on? Keeping your eyes on the slice of cake, your face began to heat up. In your peripheral, you noticed his head turn.

"You okay?"

“Just a little tired,” You smiled, avoiding his gaze. “I should probably get leaving soon." Reaching behind your back, you fiddled with the knot in an attempt to untie it. The quicker you could pack up, the quicker you'd be out of this mess.

Though, even the apron wouldn’t budge at all no matter how hard you tried to undo it.

"Did you superglue this or something?” You chuckled, exasperated. “It’s so tight!”

"Oh,” His head perked up. “I loosened the first tie, but I double knotted it just in case." He stepped towards you, offering to fix it yet again.

"All done." His hands reached over to the collar, lifting it over your head to which you pulled it down, folding the apron in your lap.

"Guess I'll do yours as well?"

You stood from the chair as he turned his back to face you. This was definitely something he could've done himself. Though as you fiddled with the fabric—in the deafening silence of the room, the way his breath suddenly hitched became overly apparent.

At this point you honestly couldn’t tell whether it was yours or his who’s breathing you were hearing. Your eyes scattered as undoing the fabric of the apron was the last thing you were thinking about right now. It was a little late to be realising this, but he was much taller up close than he seemed online, and given the way the apron wrapped snugly around his body—he was also a little thinner than you imagined. Not to mention the stray hairs at the nape of his neck that had escaped from the bun he’d made.

“..Are you done?”

Shoot. Who knew how long you were standing there with your gaze scattering everywhere? You quickly untied the knot with a single swipe, and he lifted the collar over his head, handing it to you. As you reached out to take it, you noticed how tightly he held it, seemingly not wanting to let go. It did seem a little out character for him to be so forward—having been the one that initially reached out to you first, inviting you over and being completely unlike how you initially perceived him. Not that you had thought he was mean, he just didn’t seem like the type to be so outgoing.

Or maybe it was motivated by something. Maybe the small patches of plush pink painting his cheeks, the way his lips were slightly parted so as to prepare himself to speak, his gaze focused on you for the first time today—maybe things were a little different for him as well. You for one knew yourself, being well aware of what you’d been going through today.

“..Do you have something to say?” You prodded, teasing although your voice was small, shaky, and laced with nerves. You definitely weren’t in any place to be picking on him.

He cleared his throat, gaze leaving yours once more. “..Do you have plans tomorrow?” Your eyes fluttered to his slender hands, their grip loosening as he spoke.

“No,” You replied. “I had nothing planned for this week other than—well, this.” Taking the apron from his hands, you set it on the counter. His hand moved to brush a loose strand of hair out of his face, “Do you live far?”

“A little.” Your car was parked outside, but you weren’t the biggest fan of driving at night, and alone as well? Not happening—not unless it had to. “But I drove here, so i’ll just-”

“You can stay the night.” He interrupted.

“No, I can’t—really-“

“I have space for another person.”

“I don’t even have a change of clothes!”

“I have spares.”

You were surprised that he’d offer something like that, and double down on it as well. Well, his place was huge; but you didn’t i expect him to go around telling random people they can stay over. Especially when he’s only met them once. He was now stacking the dishes in the sink, yawning as he did so.

You couldn’t help tease again, stepping towards him. “So you actually want me to stay over?”

He clicked his tongue, turning on the water. “And if I do?”

That.. wasn’t what you expected to hear. You couldn’t see his face, but the redness glazing the tips of his ears told you that he’d probably been going through the same things as you all day. Well, it was more than just today for you; and you wondered the same for him.

extra:

“Hey, we forgot about the penalty!” You recalled, slipping into one of his spare hoodies.

He sighed, brushing a hand through his hair as he scrolled through his phone, opening the camera. “Sit over there.”

“Here?” You took the seat on a chair in front of his setup, crossing your legs. The two of you giggled as you set up the photo, with him directing you to wear his headphones.

You took the photo of yourself, throwing up a peace sign, and captioned the post ‘get used to this face, ur gonna be seeing it a lot more’.

Watching the replies immediately come rushing in, you laughed together. It definitely wouldn’t be the last time you’d both record something together.

from my 100 followers event ✩ other works

[astracora]

Poly!LADs headcanons #2

Social Edition

Featuring main MC.

Masterlist

Social Media

Zayne uses his online profiles pretty much exclusively for work. He follows distinguished professionals, especially in cardiology to keep up with the industry and build connections. He also shares information and studies, because he's aware patients follow him or family of patients, about health and general ways to assist with recovery. Has reported a lot of articles though, for misinformation.

He only really has one personal account, which is not openly shared, he uses this one to keep up with the polycules updates (even though he finds himself tutting as Xavier posts about the 6th pot noodle he's eaten that day), and comments on as many as he can (absolutely has alerts set up for MC specifically). Has more than one caught Rafayel and Sylus (whose account is of course under Skye to alleviate stress), plotting some prank, and printed out a screenshot to question them.

It goes as well as you'd expect.

Rafayel does not separate his work from his personal. This man will post about anything and everything, you want art exhibit exclusive updates? Follow Thomas. With Raffy you'll get every little hyperfixation, all his personal updates, random things he finds pretty, the occasional fawning over his loved ones in all caps, and the occasional art related post (Thomas normally has to remind him.) He binged a 20 episode show once, and wouldn't stop talking about it for months. He also will rant about the environment and things people can do to do their part. If he loses followers he doesn't care. Once Xavier accidentally unfollowed him (because trying to type with one hand while half asleep is a disaster waiting to happen) and he sulked for a week.

Likes everything the polycule posts, except for Sylus. Sometimes he leaves his usual 'dumb crow' comment, but Sylus casually mentioned that it showed he still cared enough to read, and Raffy ignored his posts for two months after that in protest. (When it gets brought up, he still blushes.)

Xavier is only as active as he has to be. He doesn't really follow a lot of people, the polycule, Jeremiah, Nero, Tara, Simone, Andrew and Jenna. MC once asked why he didn't really follow anyone else, and he just shrugged, too much work, and went back to what he was doing. Will tag himself and the polycule in locations when they go out, he takes photos fairly often, but will normally forget to post them. Raffy made a comment about it being a good method to track the progression of time and remembering what you get up to, and he started posting more often after that. His updates are mundane things, day-to-day, nice things he's seen, and nothing too groundbreaking.

Sometimes he does go back through his account to look at stuff though, it normally reminds him he wants to print certain photos out though. Preferring to have physical copies of memories. (Nero absolutely runs a Lumiere account that Xavier does NOT follow, but Sylus and MC do because they think it's hilarious.)

Sylus' account is under Skye or whatever nickname he's been called that amuses him that week. (He once changed it to 'fish eating crow' and the argument between him and Rafayel was so loud, Zayne made a deal with Sylus to change it back.) He follows the entire polycule, as well as Tara, Luke and Kieran. He says he follows Luke and Kieran because they sometimes post what chaos they plan to get up to next, but he likes all the things they post, and occasionally comments. (Sometimes if it's particularly troublesome, he comments 'Come see me.', and they know they're in for a lecture.) His updates can be anything, they're even more eclectic than Rafayel on account of how much amuses him on a daily basis. He also posts an obscene amount of photos he's taken of the polycule.

Doesn't have a business account because he doesn't need it, his name is enough. Any information he gets about any shady n109 zone business is through other methods. He absolutely is the kind of person to save posts to show people because they made him think of them. So so many links, found when he has a particularly boring meeting. Was following Jenna, MC took his phone and made him unfollow Jenna. 

MC has one account that follows everyone they personally know, plushie release updates, anything relevant to their interests (gaming magazines/film updates), and the occasional account that just posts pictures of animals. They go through entire periods of not posting or visiting their social media at all, and then intense fixation periods where they sit for an hour or two just liking and commenting. They share a lot of things to show the polycule, can be anything from a picture of a crow with a little hat (it's you Sy!), or a really beautiful photograph (for Raffy's inspiration). Number one fan for Simone and Tara specifically. They don't have alerts set up but they'll periodically just open profiles from the polycule to browse their pages.

Their pfp changes CONSTANTLY. It's not them, Sylus keeps changing it, with any new photo he sees. Sometimes its a cat with the most ridiculous face, other times its a snapshot Xavier's taken where they've been taken by surprise. Sometimes they notice straight away, other times they don't notice at all.

Talkative levels

Rafayel > Sylus > MC > Zayne > Xavier > Rafayel (if he hates you)

Rafayel, if he likes you, will talk for England. He can talk about anything, and fill any empty space. As long as you're listening or want him to keep going, he'll do so. While he's happy to sit in silence, he enjoys conversation, about any range of topics. He's a smart, knowledgeable man with a breadth of knowledge. History, Art, Politics and Environment are some top things he'll be able to engage in. Also just likes to talk shit.

If he doesn't like you, he will barely engage, unless he feels the need to add a threat (normally only important when he's protecting the people he loves).

Sylus can talk a lot, and he enjoys being engaged with on topics. He's well read, old enough to have a lot of worldly experience (though can sometimes feel lacking on emotional topics), and is very insightful as a person. Aboveall else, however… he loves listening. Can easily sit for hours just listening to a conversation, whether he's multi-tasking, or just sat. Doesn't matter if he understands the topic, doesn't matter if he has anything to add, but he will truly listen. It makes him happy to have things shared with him.

Xavier is about half and half on his conversation, he's naturally fairly lethargic and is happy for other people to fill quiet, or just sit in silence, or he can chat. Normally only for people he is close to, however. Is a very good listener, but also prone to asking the oddest questions. Is the type of person to ask the worm question, because he likes seeing what he gets in return. Is the quietest of the polycule though, easily just letting convos pass him by, or only chipping in with the occasional comment. The more upset he gets, the quieter he gets. Is, however, capable of dropping the most baffling comments or stirring the pot with gentle prods.

Zayne is reasonably talkative, and very verbose. He's obviously a smart man, but prefers the relaxation of his personal life to have some more of a childish or calm approach to his life. So unless it's needed, he doesn't want to talk about anything too complex in his day-to-day. Very jovial, even if his expression doesn't always match, and is happy to go toe to toe with topics or personality. Mirrors to some degree. Especially with MC. Has learned over time, how to be a little less formal with others, to help them relax.

MC goes through stages, they can be incredibly quiet for long periods of time, especially if they're post a rough mission, or having a rough day and overstimulated. Normally though once they get started on a topic of interest, comfortable with someone, or in a good mood, they can talk and talk and talk. They are more talkative through texts than they are in person, but it gets easier for them if they know the person. (The polycule get the bulk of it, along with Tara and Simone.)

Arguments?

Rafayel's version of arguments, as long as he is with people he cares about, is normally a process of going through the loud, irritated, sometimes yelling, until he reaches the ice cold, will say something to hurt you, in order to lash back when he feels uncomfortable or strong emotions.

He'll need one of two things to calm down, time to think and take space, or pulling back early enough that he realises he's hurting people. (MC is most successful with this, unless they're part of the argument.)

He clashes most with Zayne and Sylus. Sylus because the two are akin to cats and dogs, their arguments are very rarely serious, but they can get carried away, especially if Rafayel feels cornered. He clashes with Zayne because he doesn't take well to being told what to do in any form, even if it only comes from a place of concern. His arguments with Zayne have lessened a lot overtime, but his arguments with Sylus are still going strong.

It's possible he just enjoys sniping with the crow though.

Xavier doesn't really care enough to get into arguments, if he's bothered by something, it's jealousy above anything else. He'll get a stormcloud above his head, and it's the polycules job to help him clear it (or give him space to process it safely). His normal feelings of irritation come in the form of a pout, or a few grumbles, but if he sleeps it off, he's fine. So he tries not to really show his upset if he can, because it never lasts that long. King of bouncing back.

That said, he argues most with Zayne and MC. The arguments are rarely serious, Zayne's are normally about his bad eating habits, and come from a place of concern, but the way he shares them can often make Xavier feel like he's being belittled. His arguments with MC are about how he hides things, secrets, and doesn't share when he goes off fighting dangerous wanderers as Lumiere (or just as Xavier). These arguments are (seemingly) calm from Xavier's side, and fierce anger from MC. This can often result in them having to bench the conversation where they're talking past each other, and someone else will have to mediate.

Zayne tries to be cool as much as he can, he doesn't like raising his voice, he would rather not show anger, and he tries to approach people with a level tone. This doesn't always work, and sometimes he feels like an icy wasteland when he talks. Chilling and sarcastic. It can feel biting, and even if he doesn't want to exacerbate an argument, it can often have the opposite impact. (He sometimes also can't resist adding a dig, when he thinks someone is being extra foolish.)

He argues a lot with Rafayel and Xavier, and his arguments with Sylus fizzle out the most, because he has no interest in being a source of amusement for the man. His arguments always come from a place of concern. He wants people to take care of themselves, he worries about them, dislikes tending to wounds that are unnecessary.

When he argues, he needs either a mediator (MC if they're not involved in the argument, Sylus if he has to), or for the person he's arguing with to extend an olive branch. Is surprisingly stubborn about it (though it could also be because Raffy and Xavi both are not prone to just backing down on something.)

Sylus' form of argument can differ. The man can be either cool, and amused, enjoying his arguing partners emotional output in the same way someone would poke a wild animal to see what happens. Or he can be cold, deadly and dangerous. The latter very rarely comes out, it is only through extreme circumstances, or something he truly would not compromise on, that it happens. These situations make him scary, and can make him cruel. It does not come out with the polycule, and it is rare for even an enemy to get such a reaction. He deals with everything very calmly. (visibly at least). He does not raise his voice, but he will match someone barb for barb.

Argues mostly with MC and Rafayel. Though the second he gets a real display of pain or shock, especially out of MC, he'll realise it's serious and back up quickly. Until then, he enjoys verbally sparring. He only outwardly argues with someone without them starting it, when he is truly bothered by recklessness. If someone jumps in front of him to get hurt, if they do not listen when he tells them something. If he's not trusted in situations where he likely either knows best, or feels he does.

Will calm down quickly because it's never that serious, or will go away for a joyride to give himself some freedom to feel better, and then return to find another way forwards.

MC is fairly conflict averse, they have enough stress in their day to day that added strain often doesn't react well with their body. (Heart condition, general hunter lifestyle.). Arguments are often far calmer than when they are actually angry. Their anger manifests as a vicious serpent, and depending on the situation, it becomes sharp like a dagger, to stick under a scale and force it off. For arguments, they match energy normally. If the person they're arguing with is cold, they're cold back, (though it might not always last, as when they feel forced into a corner, they can get emotional against their will and overstimulated.), if the person yells, they'll yell back too.

They argue most with Xavier and Sylus. It is almost always about safety, about their injuries, about recklessness. They also argue over smaller things, like money being spent unnecessarily, Mephisto following them unnecessarily, if they're standing up for someone else but get carried away. To calm down, they have to leave the situation, and come back to communicate better. They will often do this with something written down to help them stay level headed and resolve a problem. They always want and give affection after.

[mktskii]

—Explosive Fixation

part two.

—Synopsis: Bakugou's pride takes a massive hit when he finds himself drawn to someone outside the hero course—the best support course student he’s ever met, and the person who couldn’t care less about him. What starts as begrudging respect (and annoyance) slowly turns into something he can’t ignore. Now, if only his stupid gauntlets would stop breaking long enough for him to figure out how to deal with these frustrating, unfamiliar feelings.

—Pairing: Bakugou Katsuki x AFAB + Support Course!Reader.

—Genre: Slow-burn romance, slice-of-life.

—Tags: Enemies-to-lovers, banter, RBF reader, grumpy x grumpier, miscommunication, one-sided crush, support course expertise, Bakugou struggling with feelings, Bakugou crushing on reader so hard, reader is tired of everyone's shit, reader does not take Bakugou serious AT all.

Bakugou finding himself crushing on someone from the support course? The very idea would have Bakugou ready to throw himself into an explosion, especially since you're not even in the hero course. How did this happen? You're just a regular student from the support department, not some flashy hero-in-training. Hell, you don’t even try to impress people! Bakugou's Bakugou—so why, out of all the people, is he suddenly caught up in the fact that he likes you like that?

It all started with his gauntlets, which were, as always, broken after another insane training session. This time, however, Hatsume Mei was busy with a massive backlog of orders. So, when he stormed into the support lab to demand a quick fix, Hatsume just waved him off with a nonchalant “go ask them” and pointed to you, buried under a mountain of tools and gear. You were known in the department, even beyond that. People whispered that you were better than Hatsume herself when it came to making support items, which was already wild because Hatsume was a freakin' genius. But here’s the kicker—you didn’t want the attention. You didn’t care for the praise or even the stress of constant requests for new gear. Okay, fine. Maybe you do a little. And when Bakugou, the most demanding, arrogant student in the entire school, barged into your workspace, his booming voice interrupting your flow, you quite literally did not want to put up with his shit. “Get out.” Your voice was cold, indifferent, and to the point. Bakugou had expected, well, anything else—maybe some stammering or apologies and you dropping everything and fixing his gauntlets like he demanded. But this? Definitely not this complete lack of interest. He was fuming. “Do you know who the hell I am?” he growled.

Your eyes barely flicked up from the blueprint you were studying, annoyance clear in your expression. “Yeah. And I don’t care. Get out of my workspace.”

Needless to say, Bakugou had never been kicked out of anywhere before, and the fact that you banned him from ever asking for your help? Or, more correctly, fixing his stuff? That hit harder than any villain could. When he ranted to Kirishima, expecting him to agree with how crazy you were for doing all that, Kirishima was disappointed in him—actually disappointed for screwing up such a basic request. You? You were the best at what you do, and somehow, Bakugou had managed to ruin his only chance at getting you to fix his gauntlets.

Bakugou, in classic Bakugou fashion, decides to fix his gauntlets himself. He sketched up the mechanics of his gauntlets, so how hard could it be? Turns out, really freaking hard. Not only does he botch the repair, but his malfunctioning gauntlets accidentally explode during class, damaging some of his classmates and earning him the wrath of Aizawa and everyone else. He’s pissed—at himself, at his classmates, and mostly at the fact that he can’t get those damn gauntlets fixed without swallowing his pride and asking you.

The next time he sees you, it’s different. He doesn’t storm into your workspace like last time. He’s gritting his teeth, practically seething, but he still manages to blurt out, “Sorry for bein' an asshole. Fix this… please.” It sounds like the word “please” burns his tongue, but he says it.

You stare at him for a moment, and give him a sharp scoff but take his gauntlets. As you examined them, you muttered curses under your breath about “egotistical hero course jerks” and “time-wasting nonsense.” But, despite your annoyance, you went above and beyond. You reinforced his original design, making it stronger, lighter, and more streamlined for better control. When you handed them back, they didn’t look any different on the outside, but Bakugou could feel the difference the moment he tried them on. They were perfect.

For once, he didn’t have anything to complain about.

That’s when the “crush” began creeping in—though he’d rather die than admit it. Suddenly, he found himself making excuses to come back. His gauntlets were “damaged” again because he never knew just when to stop training. His headphones were “broken” (even though they weren’t). His phone “shattered” for no reason. Every stupid thing he could think of, he brought to you, just to have another interaction.

But the funniest part? You never gave him the satisfaction of a reaction. Your resting bitch face (legendary, by the way) stayed neutral, and your voice remained flat, devoid of excitement. You rolled your eyes, cursed under your breath, and muttered sarcastic comments as you fixed whatever Bakugou brought you. If anyone pissed you off, especially Bakugou, you'd mutter high-pitched imitations of their voice while glaring out of the corner of your eye, making him feel oddly uncertain—like he was the one out of place for once.

He hated it. You were smart. You matched his freakish drive to perfect your craft. And worst of all—you looked too good. Even after explosions from Hatsume’s latest disaster left you covered in soot, your tired, messy look didn’t detract from how attractive you were. It pissed him off.

But here’s the thing—he was still a dick. Despite the fact that he’d come back over and over, pretending his gauntlets needed another fix or inventing some nonsense reason to see you, he would never admit to liking you and, so, he’d go out of his way to piss you off just because, well, he can. So, hell no. He was not falling for some support course student who barely gave him the time of day.

...Right?

That’s what Bakugou kept telling himself, anyway, even as he found himself lingering a bit too long in the lab, watching you work with laser focus, unaware of the chaos happening in his head.

Reblogs and comments are appreciated <3

[chitty-chitty-bang-bang-bang]

“Tell me, where did you sleep last night?” (Colin Robinson x werewolf!reader)

Word count: 1,142

Age restriction: 16+ (vulgar language)

Tags: Fluff, crack, teasing, implied romance.

Synopsis: Your work doesn’t let you go home early on a full moon, so now you have to rush away from the office building to transform. Unfortunately one very nosy colleague won’t leave you alone.

Author’s note: Cringe culture needs to die. Let’s enjoy werewolves and balding men.

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You tapped your fingers on the table. At first it was rhythmic, almost like a military drum, but with time it just started to sound unsteady, matching the beat of your own heart. Anxiety filled you up so strongly, that only the tips of your fingers were loose enough to move. The rest of the body was tense and getting tenser, as you watched the sky gradually darken and a faint silhouette of the moon appear.

“Only five minutes…” you mumbled to yourself. “Only five minutes…”

“Five minutes ‘till what?” Someone popped their head into your cubicle. You didn’t have to look, to know who exactly it was.

“The end of my shift, Colin.”

Your insides churned violently, as you noticed new dark brown hairs pop out on your hands. So thick and dense, it looked nothing like human hair and you knew it, so you haphazardly tried to cover them with the sleeves of your office shirt. It was getting late. Too late for your liking.

“Oh, right. It sucks to be you, huh? Working, because you have no more sick days to slack off.” He chuckled. “Well, I could keep you company until the end of your shift. You know what they say, good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter, am I right? That’s a quote by Izaak Walton. Oh, by the way, interesting fact about Izaak Walton! Did you know that his wife and seven kids died almost at the same time? Yeah, can’t imagine being that poor fella. Probably way worse, than sitting in this office.” You felt your eyelids start to get heavy as Colin kept on ranting about stuff you literally couldn’t care less about, but the good person in you didn’t allow the pleasure of shutting him up. “… Why are you wearing sweatpants by the way? Wee-ooh! Wee-ooh! Dress code violation detected!” He laughed to himself.

You barely even listened to whatever Colin was saying at this point. The hair on your hands started to become more noticeable and you felt the same happening all over your body. You stood up, ignoring the fact, that your shift wasn’t over as well as your very annoying colleague and hurried towards the elevator, leaving behind your belongings. There was no time to think of this.

“I gotta go.”

“Go where?” Colin wondered, as you stomped onwards.

This was incredibly frustrating for him. He heated being ignored, because that was the only way to counter his powers. Now it was more of a challenge, than a need to actually drain you. It was a matter of honour, that Robinson had very little of, but still wanted to protect, so he followed you into the elevator.

“Oops, wrong floor! Didn’t mean that.” He smiled, as he pressed several wrong buttons.

You felt your face flush with annoyance and his eyes briefly flashed bright electric blue. The matter was too urgent for his dumb tricks, so you left the elevator at the next floor and started running down the stairs, because you felt your body slowly starting to expand with muscles and fur. Of course, Colin persisted as well. Turns out, it is way more fun to insensibly break you down and watch you slowly loose your cool.

You ran out onto the street and shouted into the alleyway. Robinson looked at you, scrunched on the pavement. Tossing and turning, as if you were possessed by something ungodly.

“Hey there, friendo… You’re good?” He walked a bit closer.

“Get the fuck away from me, you imbecile!” You cried, before completely turning into a Northwestern wolf, being ready to attack at any moment.

You howled and shook, making it seem like your whole body was in intense pain, trying to retain your human consciousness and stop yourself from tearing Colin to literal shreds. He saw how you aggressively turned your head from side to side and whinged. Usually, he’s not too keen on helping random humans, but this instance felt like a symbiotic relationship.

“Woah… Okay, that was not on my 2024 bingo card.” He chuckled. “Uhm… Did you know, that there is a very rare condition called hypertrichosis - which causes sufferers to grow hair all over their body, including their faces! It's also called werewolf syndrome for obvious reasons.”

His eyes flashed blue again and you felt yourself getting tired. It became a bit easier to suppress that primal urge to attack.

“You know, your kind might have an Ancient Greek origin. There's a very gory myth that Zeus turned King Lycaon into a wolfman as punishment for eating human flesh. In fact, this is where the fancy term for a werewolf comes from - Lycanthrope. From King Lycaon!” Once again, the alley was slightly illuminated by a bright blue light.

You laid down on the pavement, feeling less and less feral. Your consciousness was more present than ever before in this state.

Colin slowly walked over to you and crouched down. “Not looking very good, are you?” He poked you lightly and smiled. You were a bit too tired to react. “So that’s why you’re wearing those ugly sweatpants. Well, it’s nice to know that I’m not the only supernatural creature in the office. You’ve probably guessed what I am by now, right?”

You looked up at his face then nodded slightly. To be honest, you weren’t sure what exactly he was, you just knew that something wasn’t human in any way shape or form.

“Say it… Out loud.” He pronounced dramatically, with strobe lights reflecting in his glasses. “Oh wait, you literally can’t, I forgot. Shit. Anyway, I’m a vampire. An energy vampire to be precise, so it means I’m a day walker. I feast on your life energy by either boring you or annoying you. As you can see, I’m a professional at both.” He grinned with joy.

That definitely made sense for you. And it definitely made sense why he would choose your office as the hunting ground. He crawled even closer to you and started gently petting your fur in steady motion.

“Aw, this feels nice. It’s like petting a dog.” He started to brush you against the grain and his eyes flashed blue again at your irritation. “You know, this is calming. I could get used to doing this once a month.” You looked up at him once again, amazed. He returned your gaze with a shrug. “If you need it I mean, because seeing you fight your own self is kind of pathetic.” He chuckled.

You leaned your head a bit more into his touch and he continued to pet you the proper way. The night was spent in that cold alleyway with Colin slowly putting you to sleep with random babbling. Ironically, one of the most infuriating people you know created one of your most comforting memories.

[avicinda]

I'm going to rant and nip this in the bud right now. Read the whole thing if you're tempted to respond to any part of this.

It is factually wrong to claim Nikki is a minor, and also extremely weird to come into my mentions on a throwaway account to do this completely unprompted just because you are evidently obsessed with the possibility that someone out there is willing to draw Nikki/Giovanni because of their made up ages. No one mentioned this ship in the replies of my ask meme and I didn't indicate that anyone has requested it.

It's fine to be uncomfortable with a ship but going so far as "begging" unprompted for it not to be drawn on the vague what if someone will draw it? Genuinely please reevaluate what you're actually trying to accomplish here. Really think about why you feel that was necessary.

If you dislike the ship so much you can literally blacklist tags on tumblr. If it slips past the filter then just scroll away or block the artist so you don't see their future ship fanart. It's that easy to not look at ship fanart if it upsets you!

Bonus: my followers are here for Faewish Sprite yaoi anyway and 5/6 requests has been this (Percy/Strange outlier shoutout).

Anyway. Nikki is 19 in Shining Nikki. She turns 19 EVERY YEAR. Just like how Ash Ketchum—being one of the most famous examples of this—turned 10 in 1997 and then didn't stop being 10 FOR TWENTY-SIX YEARS.

But the real reason Nikki is not a minor is because she is bunch of pixels on a screen and not a real, living person who can categorically be called a minor.

This is the same reason I can literally just say "well, I headcanon Giovanni is actually still 15" if I REALLY wanted to (for the record, that's just an example to illustrate my point and not a real HC) and he would now be 15 in my hypothetical fanart. Giovanni is a collection of pixels on a screen with no real age. He will be 30 next year too unless the game explicitly says time has passed (but he will still remain 30 to anyone who doesn't reach that point—do you see what I'm getting at here?)

Also I put "ship and let ship" on my goddamn description FOR A REASON. those are words that MEAN something and I was really hoping no one would just ignore them. They are not there to signal anything except that I MEAN what they say. I make no moral judgements about other people's ships, (even the ones I'm uncomfortable with!), and I trust you won't make any on mine, because shipping discussion is for funsies and we aren't hurting any real people when we play pretend with dolls.

[panfroggy]

X-men FC Rant <3

Working on another fic rn (me doing anything but updating something I said I would.) and I am in pain

I love X-men first class, so so so so so so so so much! It's probably my favorite movie. H O W E V E R it does a really BAD job of developing anyone other then Charles, Erik, and Raven. MAYBE hank and Moira too

I mean like Alex and Sean have pretty alright development, like vaugely completed arcs, maybe. and hey Alex lives past 2 whole moves.(imediately dieing in Apocalypse but shhhhhh)+Emma is pretty great before she gets taken out of comition then killed off screen 1 movie later. And Angel has like, a moment of being a person when she joins Shaw.

Other than that tho??? I couldn't even tell you Janos's name until I started fanfic writing. Azazel is basically just a murder drone for Shaw that just says 'no' in Russian. Guess how many lines of dialouge Janos has. ZERO!!!!!!!! Angel joins the other team and does Nothing! At all! She just stands around. I know it's an action scene but like NOBODY TALKS during the entire final fight other than Charles, Erik, and Raven + Shaw when he becomes imporrant. And Armando, btw we only see him as Darwin but anyway, just DIES. He seemed so chill and cool but NOOOO lets blow up the guy whos mutant ability is legit 'My Body Won't Let Me Die'.

I'm aware these are set up movies for those three mostly but like, come on. Angry rate over I'm now just going to complain.

Trying to write about these guys SUCKS. I have no idea what they are like at all, and I don't rly like using comics cuz the movies are so Wildly different from them. (This doesn't rly matter cuz I ignore cannon anyway but still)

I'm out here making up personalities, and stealing them from mutuals. (Shout out @star-lights-up she is the biggest insporation ever from her fics shes so amazing we love her <3 Hear Me Out saved me in the middle of planning a WIP) Cuz dead ass I'm making up reasons why Janos says 0 words and everyone acts like weirdos (cuz they are weird <3 I'm so smart) ((sry for tag))

Also making up new hero names, at least for Angel cuz she doesn't even get one (im aware this is comic acurate). that's always fun.

Rant over, one day I'll update trust. Uh if you didn't see theres new chapter of chat fic out! Chapt 10. expect Chapt 11 before the end of next week unless something happens.

[diviningtime]

You know what is one of my own Lilia Rants? How much I hate freaking WitchTok. Aside from the fact it's forced onto my FYP and 90% of the stuff said is absolute freaking bullshit, it's such a freaking commodification of a culture in a way that just isn't accepted for other cultures (and rightfully so).

Because witchcraft, the old gods, old calendars, etc etc, might be something a lot of people discover when they are in their teens because your teen years are a time of exploration, but that does not make witchcraft a fucking fad or teencentric interest to be capitalised on and put out in little 2 min video bursts of misinformation disguised as legit witchcraft because you lit a candle and named yourself Raven Silvercraft or whatever.

And, on that note, Skyclad is not a thing for witchcraft. It was made up by Gardener when he formulated Wicca as basically an excuse to get everyone naked (and he even took that from Hindu monks, but I digress).

Like yes, witchcraft, like all practices is always evolving, and I both have a book I was gifted when I was 15 that has spells dating back 3000 years and more (one of which involves cous-cous and a dead body. Not gonna be doing that one, thank you) and one I bought myself in 2002 which has a little charm to make sure the teacher doesn't call on you for answers (also works to make the train conductor not ask for your ticket when you realise you're on the wrong train and don't want to pay another price. Just saying). Modern and ancient can and do co-exist, and the great thing about being a witch or a pagan is that you choose your own path, make your practise personal to you, because it is not an organisation or a religion: it's a practice, and one that does have global origins going back to pre-history.

But no, let's ignore all that, and just post stupid flashy videos, and call people 'baby witches' while you light your non-sustainably harvested herb, throwing in a nice dose of cultural appropriation while declaring made up rules that don't exist and warn people that if they're born in one of these seven listed years, they carry the karmic weight of their entire family. To quote Aunt Frances from Practical Magic; 'it's a very distinct smell, it's the smell of bullshit'.

Like I'm all for the internet connecting witches and pagans and sharing things, but I don't see that most of the time (occasionally I do); what I see is media-centric commodification and commercialisation of a cultural practice which is just like the next modern step in belittling witches, pagans, non-abrahamics etc. You kill us, then you dismiss us, now you package us into a TikTok trend.

This rant is not as unprompted as it might seen: I'm writing a reply that mentions the witchtok tag and rage forced me to write this before I could continue, haha.

[hetalia-club]

I'm not normally one to rant or anything but here goes.

I hesitate to tag this. but I feel it needs to be said, in fact I feel it HAS to be said or I think this fandom is just going to be done for within the next 5 or so years. People need to read this and understand what is happening within the fandom and not continue this behavior or turn a blind eye to it.

This fandom has a SERIOUS problem. I don't say that lightly either. I feel like 99% of this fandom are sweet and caring people. but we have that 1%.

This 1% is killing the community in this fandom. How is it okay to message someone, demand they make a statement on THEIR blog and when they say they don't want to talk about it you then tell them you wish they would die a horrible death?

TW for suicide and SA! (you have been warned) Long rant below. (preempted note to let everyone know that I am fine, I am not posting this for people to feel bad for me. I am using my own experiences as examples, but this is not a 'me' issue this is a fandom issue)

Why is that so normalized here? The vague blogging and the call to arms people in this fandom do is actually disgusting. Picking one person and just beating them down until they eventually leave the fandom and at the SAME people will be like. "Why is the Hetalia fandom so small?" Who wants to be in a fandom where making one statement that's not even bad could get you death threats?

I don't think the fandom realizes how hurtful what they say can be. Sure you might not have liked a post someone made because you disagreed. Well then scroll down, hit the block button and carry on with your life. Why do some of you feel it is acceptable behavior to make mass posts calling out someone or going into their inbox to tell them you wish they would kill themselves?

I say I don't like Spamano and people say they want me dead. I say I don't want to talk about IRL politics on my parody Hetalia blog and my life and entire country is threatened.

I say we shouldn't insert our ships into everyone's lives and let people ship what they want and not feel forced to appease you. and you guessed it people wish terrible things onto me and my body.

I feel the only way this behavior will change is if we start calling it out more. I know it will feel repetitive but I think ignoring it is only making it worse at this point.

I know a lot of people would read this and think "If you don't like it then leave the fandom" well YOU'RE the issue. This is not normal behavior. These are not actions of someone who is mentality well. Why should I leave a fandom I've been in for 10 years because some idiot cannot handle that I don't like shipping characters together? How is that impacting their life at all?

a few months ago I made a post and it was highjacked and someone totally just took it over and added their own thing onto it talking about SA. Totally out of left field not related to what I posted at all. I simply messaged them and asked them if they could please remove the comment as I am a survivor of SA and it don't think it was funny or appropriate to add onto my post and they just said. "No I can say anything I want to. I was talking about Hetalia so it's fine." like what do you mean no!? Who responds that way? What a normal considerate person would do is say "I'm sorry of course! I can just go make my own post." but no they just left it there. It's still there, won't say which post or who it was because it doesn't matter anymore.

But this is the kind of behavior I'm talking about. This weird entitlement of everyone being so defensive and angry all the time. Just wanting to pick a fight over nothing. You never know if simply saying something like (Example) "I don't really like Austria" Could land you 100 anons all saying they wanted you to off yourself. It's like a game of Russian roulette. It's a very stressful environment for a big creator to be in. All it really takes is the wrong person to see a post you made and disagreed with and all of a sudden they are making posts about you without mentioning your name but are CLEARLY about you saying "This person hates all Austrians, they are a neo-nazi and we should all block them and send them hate and also let's just reword what they said to make it sound 100x worse because people won't read the original post and they will just believe us." Who would want to be a creator in an environment like that?

would you believe me if I told you I still to this day am getting someone in my inbox calling for my r*pe because of the stupid fucking beauty pageant poll I did? Is that not insanity? Who is that person? Wtf is their life? I personally could not imagine sending hate to anyone for any reason, and if I did it would be off of anon and I would say it with my chest. Because in order for someone to push it that far they would have to saying some absolutely terrible stuff to make me take time from my day and life to give them negative energy.

The fandom is shrinking because of the 1% driving them away. They come after artists who draw a character in a way they don't like. They come after writers for depicting a character in a way they disagree with. They go after shippers for portraying their ship 'wrong'. They will comment on people's fun little head canons and just leave the rudest most unnecessary comments thinks like "He wouldn't do that" like okay?? Thanks for your insert betty sue. And it's always when you were never trying to set someone off is when they lose their minds. They do not understand even if a blog is big and has a lot of followers it is still THAT creators blog. they are a person not an identity who just churns out content for just you and they have to say and do whatever you want.

Another thing the 1% like to do on here is they will wait for you to say something and then they will jump to attack a person who does the thing you said you dislike and they will tell that person "blog name XYZ said you are a horrible person and I agree kill yourself" That one is a near direct quote I got not too long ago. I got several like that and actually had to message said creator and say "Why are you mad at me?" and they were completely confused, had no idea how they decided to attack me because of what they said. When I tell you that the 1% are sitting there frothing at the mouth wanting to send hate and death threats I mean that 100%

It's not JUST me either. All creators in the Hetalia fandom I'm sure could tell you about upsetting hate they received and had no idea what they even did or said wrong. I have spoken to former Hetalia blogs ones who I used to call my pals before I went on my hiatus and came back. They all said they left not because they started hating Hetalia but they left for their mental health because the 1% got too bold and unchecked. This was never an issue before quarantine. I know it brought a lot of new fans and that's great! But I also feel along with bringing in some wonderful people it brought in some really dark minded people as well. Saying "Just disable anons and move on" is also not a solution. these people are still here and if they're not bothering me or you they are tormenting someone else because that's what these people do. That 'someone else' may only need the tiniest nudge at the edge and they may just actually hurt themselves. You don't know people. You don't know what everyone is going through. You don't know what someone's life is like outside of here.

PLEASE Please! stop telling people to kill themselves. Stop telling people to go get R**ed in a gutter. Get some help talk to a therapist, a friend, a trusted teacher, a life coach, your parents, your sibling. anyone! And if you don't have anyone in your life you can talk to you can message me and we can talk about what you're going through. I'm sure any other Hetalian on here would say the same thing. Bloggers are real people.

International suicide hotlines

Website to help you find a therapist in your own country and in your price range

I know I will more than likely get hate for posting this. Which is upsetting to just know is going to happen but someone needs to say this because it's getting kind of out of control these last couple months I feel.

if you read this through reblog it, spread it around let the people who NEED to see it see it.

[my-castles-crumbling]

Anon Advice Asks - March 27

weird emoji anon, voicing anon (new), hypothetical question anon (new)(tw-mentions of violence), hair anon (new), concise anon (new)

weird emoji anon

OMG OMG I'M FREAKING OUT WTF HELP ME

I'm weird emoji anon

I'm actually scared though because I told one of our mutual friends that I like her and now he's just just called me and said that she's likes me???? I was not ready to think about this tonight. And he's SUPER happy probably more than me and really want me to tell her tonight over text and I said no because it's too soon and now I'm freaking out. I'm going to see if she's free in the next day or two to hang out but I'm so scared and idk how to tell her because I've never been in a relationship before 😭😭

Pls help me

Hi!

Well, this is exciting! But you still absolutely should not do anything you aren't ready for. No matter what your friend says, this is about YOU and what you're comfortable with and what you want. Are YOU ready to say something? If not, then don't! If you push yourself, it'll just end up with the relationship going nowhere. Do what you're ready for <3

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voicing anon

eee so im at uni rn and was just on ft to my mum but i realised when talking to her that that was the first time i'd spoken today except for speaking in class!

it's so lonely!!! like there were some girls who blatantly ignored me when i tried to join their conversation (about the lecture topic) which was so hurtfullll!

ahhh it was when voicing it to my mum i realised wait im actually kind of lonely in the week! i do a singing society which is fun and have friends there but in classes its so isolating!!

eughh anywys rant over and your blog/fics is a great escape/safe space for me so thank you for that :)

Hi!

Ugh, that's a shit feeling. Have you tried asking your friends from singing to get a meal together/study together? When i was in college, that was usually how I made new friends-eating together. Could you also look into joining other clubs? It's hard, but asking to get meals together is usually a good way because everyone has to eat lol.

I'm sending you love!

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hypothetical question anon

Okay, so totally hypnotical question bc I am a writer.

So I have a character who is crazy, like bat shit crazy.

(redacted)

So what do you think? Thanks xx

I....feel as if I'm not equipped to answer this? Like if I'm taking the question seriously...I don't think this would be considered racist. But I'm white so I'm not the best person to ask. Do you have a sensitivity reader?

Honestly, since it's a fanfic, I'd just add the appropriate tags and write what you want. And if someone comments and says it's offensive, apologize and take it down. Just make sure to tag the shit out of it because yeah.

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hair anon (new)

Hello! I hope you’re doing good! This is just a quick ramble since I don’t have anyone irl to talk to about this

I’m feeling really bad about my gender and stuff

I’ve been growing out my hair for years but it’s still ugly and short. And because of how curly it is, and the fact I’m black, and the fact I have so much shrinkage, I feel so terrible. I just want it to be long and nice and I try so hard to make it that way but sometimes I’m just ugly and it hurts

My hair just doesn’t look like mine. I want to cry

Hi! <3

First, I want to acknowledge here that I am white. Like translucent white. So I'm gonna try my best to answer this in a knowledgeable way, but if I say anything offensive, PLEASE call me out.

Though my hair is vastly different from yours, I understand the feeling of wishing your hair was different. It's so frustrating to try so many different things only to not get the results you want, and then to look in the mirror and get that sinking feeling. I'm so sorry you're feeling that way.

I could be giving you advice that you've already heard, but have you tried talking to/looking up people with your same gender and hair type to see what they do (on tiktok, pinterest, instagram, etc)? One thing that I've done to help affirm my gender is look up ways to style my clothes, makeup, hair, etc based on my current appearance to be more gender affirming, and it's helped a lot.

Also- and this is a scarier option but I've done it before and it's actually really exciting- Pride is coming up. If you're able to go to a Pride event, look around for people with similar hair types to you styled in ways you like and ask them what they do. I know it's scary to go up to people, but 99% of people at Pride are FABULOUS and I (an introvert) have talked to people at pride about things like that before and have learned so much. It could also be a great way to make new friends!

Last, I want to remind you that no matter what your hair looks like, no matter how you choose to wear it, or how it acts a certain day, it doesn't make you any less YOU. Your identity is valid whether or not your hair is cooperating.

I hope this helps, and again, lmk if I said anything offensive. <3

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concise anon

Hi Cas,

(Sorry, I feel like this will probably turn out kind of long, I'm pretty bad at being concise lol)

For context, I'm in my final year of high school (the important year that actually counts), and I've always been quite school-oriented with good grades, even if this has become harder in the past year because of mental health stuff

The rest of my friend group is really school-oriented as well, it's the main thing we talk about, especially my best friend, who's really good at being productive and has somehow managed to end up as like the only person in our grade who's actually on top of her schoolwork

And the thing is, even though I'm not bad at making 'friends', I'm really bad at making friends - as in, feeling close enough to tell them stuff, texting them and hanging out with them regularly, etc. My best friend is the only person I've had that relationship with since I started high school, and I really treasure that

The problem is though, because I'm the person she vents to about everything in her life, I get constant updates about all the schoolwork she's done and how productive she's been and how on top of everything she is and how stressed she feels for this exam because she's "only done a dozen practice essays" or whatever

And because I'm constantly feeling stressed about the fact that I find it harder to study than I used to, and I'm always beating myself up for not studying as much as I feel like I should, hearing her say that stuff to me hits all those mental health pressure points and it really, really sucks

I know I should just set boundaries, but she's much better at making friends than I am and I know there are other people she texts about her problems to, so I'm worried that telling her that will lead to distance between us, and I really like being the person she turns to when anything happens because I've never been that for anyone and I want to support her

Hi! <3

So I think the thing is, this is one of those moments that shows you if this really is a deep friendship or not. You say you can talk about deep things with this friend- now's the time to prove that. I think you need to sit her down and tell her how you're feeling: that when she tells you the work she's finished, it makes you stressed. But also tell her that setting this boundary is making you nervous, because you really treasure your friendship, and you don't want to create distance.

I know it sounds scary to be vulnerable like that, but to have a truly healthy friendship, you have to be able to talk about stuff like that. And I think if your friend cares like you say she does, she'll give you reassurance and talk about it with you.

It's okay to set boundaries and ask for reassurance. <3

[luhv-always]

I have no idea who you are but some of your toxic rants showed up on my feed and whoa, you really need to examine how you "love" your friends. Screaming you love someone and want more attention is not love. Screaming you deserve love and attention is not love. Throwing a tantrum about attention is not love. That's obsession. One-sided obsession. And it's not ok. You need to learn how to prevent obsession. I highly doubt anyone in your life will tell you these things because they are scared, based on how you present yourself. And some of them do the same thing. Do you know what you ARE entitled to? You are entitled to walk away from friendships that don't fulfill you. Romantic entanglements that don't serve you. You are entitled to ignore negative people and move on. You are entitled to take care of yourself and not throw that burden on others with demands, guilt and self-pity. And none of that is easy. It requires work, and practice. You are entitled to your own emotions, but what you SAY and DO about those emotions differentiates a child from an adult. A nasty person from someone kind. You are NOT entitled to demand love and attention, ever. Your feelings are hurt, ok. People lose interest. People fall out of love. It hurts but it happens. Being mad about it is strictly the ego of your expectations. And it will lie to you. Make you mean. And no one in your life is ever going to tell you this. I truly hope you get better.

You know, somewhere ahead of all this, the rational part of me knows whatever you just told me. You're right, I am a kid and I stupid more often than not, which I do know, and walking away from things is probably the best way to stop letting them hurt you.

But sometimes I need to vent. And yes, definitely it was my mistake that I tagged it randomly and spammed that tag for which I have to say I just now, am figuring out how tagging exactly works. That is on me. My mistake, I accept it, I'm sorry.

Secondly, if you are one of my followers and this shows up on your feed and it is making you uncomfortable, you could really just block me and it would make no major difference other than blocking my bad vibes from yourself, and over all protecting you from my negativity.

Nextly, you are right yet again, I fail to express myself if I have to do it do a person and I find it easier to express my issues out of context and in complicated ways so that no one really understands and isn't burden while I myself get it off my chest in the process.

It is also a way of letting people who genuinely care about this, in on an insight to what I'm feeling because if you ask me directly how I am, I would say I am doing fine.

Mun is a minor, which most definitely means they lack the emotional maturity of being here in general but mun is also terrifyingly lonely if that makes it any clearer.

This isn't to ask people to give attention if they don't care, of which I will take a precaution about the next time I post something like this, or people to look and read even when it is the most shitty piece of negative text ever. This is not for people to really make a judgement on which is why I haven't let many people follow this blog other than a trusted few. And I will make sure to stop tagging my posts too in order to stop drawing attention to this.

About obsession, maybe you're right. But let's consider when they are person to approach you, sugar coat you, love bomb you, and then withdraw like they do not care because they are afraid I will abandon them. Wouldn't that leave you with a grudge and feeling shitty when you're only 17 and don't know anything?

There are always 13 sides to every story, anon, and I fear you have barely considered one.

Feel free to block me because honestly I could not wish the misfortune of one of my posts showing up on your FYP, on you, ever again.

PS. Don't be too kind to people.

- Love Always.

[olderthannetfic]

Hello, I I hope you're having a good now. I just had a question regarding comments and behaviors on AO3. Warning: Long comment.

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I have been following a specific fic series for a few months now and once in a while I comment on it because I love that author and I want to help them stay motivated to write this research heavy fic until its conclusion as they have a tendency to drop their work when they're nearly finished due to steady streams of negative comments.

For some context, though, the stories they write are always ultra detailed, research intensive and most importantly, contain extremely dark themes (think rape, murders, graphic depiction of wounds, mental and physical torture, trauma layered on trauma, etc.). They also put a lot of effort into creating narratives in which every one of the characters' actions have positive or negative consequences. That is a core part of their storytelling.

The fanfic that they're writing at this moment contains a throughouly described scene of rape between two characters who happen to be middle-eastern. That event (as well as some other just as gruesome events) was tagged from the start's, had multiple warnings, was mentioned on the summary as well as the author's note and still only happened in chapter 19 out of 50. We are at what should be around 52k words in at that point.

So anyways, I leave a comment describing how I appreciate and love all the passion and effort that the author puts in their stories as well as how much I admire their talents to stay true to the characters they've chosen and how believable all their actions are in the fic's settings...

And myself, other commenters, and the author are being called racist by very a very vocal minority of readers(think commenting and responding to 98% of comments that so not voice their opinions)?

Like... what? For what reasons exactly? Apprently, and according to the negative commenter, it is racist and discriminatoring to write/read stories containing these elements with male characters that are of Muslim/Arabian heritage. The commenter then goes on a rant about how pathetic my comment was and how much the author took pride in bashing on Muslim/Arab men into making them rape machines and whatever else they can think about. They completely ignored the warnings they were given, and when they got told again about how many warnings they had, they still went on about how it shouldn't have been written from the start.

So my question is, how do you deal with those types of comments from a reader's perspective? Like... I wanna defend my author because I know that these comments will make them drop the fic like its hot coals... but I'm unsure which direction/s to go with it. I've already reported the more active commenters. Is the next step to keep reporting or to just defend my author in the comments?

Any help or guidance at this point is greatly appreciated. Thank you for reading this entire thing. :'c

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I don't think fighting in the comments is usually productive. If the author is the kind of person who finds that entertaining, they'll probably do it themselves.

Ignoring these people like they're delusional idiots making a public faux pas is probably more useful. Just keep on commenting on the author's skill.

[sundew199]

So I conducted my own experiment, not intentionally but I wanted to make a point, sort of.

So I’ve posted a couple of fluff pieces back to back and here are the notes over the past week or two, give or take: ⬇️

Now here is the smut piece I posted sometime the night before (has not even been 24 hrs): ⬇️

So to all the people who are still complaining about “hardly any fluff” in the x reader tags and smut tags, shut the fuck up. I’m serious, it’s so fucking annoying to get on here and see the same complaints when the solution is so obvious.

Next person I see ranting about no fluff in the tags is blocked, idc I’m tired of it. I’ve seen more writers post fluff since then, but if course engagement is low.

I personally don’t care about how many notes I get, because I know what I post won’t resonate with everyone and that’s fine. I write for myself, I write because I enjoy, but do you know how discouraging it is to some writers who are writing fluff after seeing the constant complaints and then getting next to no encouragement? It sucks, I know it does. And to be fucking honest the math isn’t mathing but I digress.

I’m not saying every fluff piece is going to resonate with everyone, but if you’re still complaining about the “lack of fluff” literally do yourself a favor and either go to a different app/website, request from an author you like or write it yourself.

And if you’re only complaining to complain, go to Twitter or smth because holy fuck this shit is so old.

I’m not saying you have like/interact with every fluff piece you come across but I know you know they’re there, you’re just choosing to ignore it and continue to complain because you like being miserable.

Only time all talk about this but I felt like I needed to make a point, anyway 😚

[lovemyromance]

I have a little rant lol.

In general, the entire acotar fandom is immature and toxic (I honestly think its gotten so bad since nesta's book came out). Most of these people are grown women and men arguing back and forth about characters and ships. It's bad enough that its been going on for years that its sad. "I'll laugh at the elriels or gwnyriels or the eluciens if their ship isnt endgame" Do the people who say that realize how embarrassing they are? Many people are going to have good and terrible theories but bashing people and harassing people over fictional characters is just immature. I also hate when they say "its that [insert ship] the one who is being the most toxic and weird" NO. its all of you. None of us know who is going to be endgame no matter the theories you have or anything. YOU DONT KNOW. So, please, can we stop this already? its getting annoying and weird. This fandom has made it incredibly difficult to know who the next book is going to be about when its right in front of their eyes. Sarah has not made it impossible to know who the next will be about and I think thats why shes been so quiet about because everyone is being so aggressive about this ship war. I just know the moment she announces the couple, she'll get a ton of hate when its not even her fault because people love to twist her words on paper and thinks she's probably doing that but it could mean a whole other thing. Yall have let theories get to your head and twisted words so much that I think it's incredibly unhealthy for all of you to be acting this way. Stick with who you ship or love and of course, you can have beautiful theories, but toxicity is not necessary. No need to go back and forth about who is the real "endgame".

I mean yeah this fandom is insane. Sometimes as I'm aggressively typing out a reply to an anon who calls me a delusional psychotic bitch bc I made an Elriel post they didn't like, I genuinely just blink and think what the fuck am I doing?

It's partly why I didn't want get involved. At all.

I still try to keep to myself. Only even entertain the antis if they come to my posts. I stick to my own tags.

But there are people - and you're right they are from both sides, as I have also said multiple times on my blog -that go out of their way to start a fight on posts they know aren't meant for them.

These are the people that are making this fandom so toxic. Like I understand, no one person can be responsible for a fandom's collective behavior, but you can be responsible for yourself at the very least.

I have always made it clear what i believe acceptable behavior for discourse in this fandom is and isn't. It's not something I can personally enforce for others, but I can follow myself.

It really is crazy how out of hand this fandom has gotten because other people can't control themselves. If I see an anti Elriel post I don't like (and I don't follow any tags, actually, so I see ALL the ships posting), I have the self control to ignore it and keep scrolling.

This fandom has been overrun by childish adults, intent on being louder than the rest. It's crazy how many disgusting things have been said over just fictional characters, it makes me wonder what these people are like in real life.

At the end of the day - there's going to be a book and one side is going to be proven right. It's not worth all these vitriol that's been spewed across all sides just to "be right". I at least, would be perfectly fine to read an Elucien book. If Elriel does happen, I'm certainly not going to lord it over anyone's head and laugh.

Not worth my time. Not worth my energy.

[hoghtastic]

Disclaimer: Rant of an exhausted fan. This is just my opinion.

Can we just take a moment to appreciate how completely INSANE everything has gotten? Seriously, it’s mind-blowing. Am I the only one who finds this whole thing deeply exhausting? Like, come on, people, you can’t honestly look at this and not see how unusual it all is. And sure, we know they’ll have a kid and get married, but anyone with a little life experience knows how this story ends.  

Let’s start with all the nonsense: the IG stunts, obsessively wearing ALL of his clothes (yes, literally all of them), the endless teasing and trolling, the dog tag necklace, wearing the same shoes, openly admitting she has an obsessive personality, and Alex disappearing more and more while promoting her nonstop. It’s honestly exhausting to watch because it feels forced upon us.  

I mean, come on, GUYS! His girlfriend has now infiltrated Comic Con of all places. She’s out there posing in photos with Alex’s fans as if she’s the person of interest. Like… what? Can’t fans have anything anymore without her inserting herself into it?! And don’t come at me with, “We asked her to be in the photo, and she was shy.” Yeah… sure. Girls, please……she made it clear she was in Germany for a reason. She knew some of you would ask her to join. That was her entire plan. Do you really think she just went for the exhibitions? Be real. 

She’s wants to be in control of situations and people (and hasn’t she admitted as much herself? How ironic). Looking at everything we've seen and heard from her/them, it's possible that she knows exactly what Alex’s fans want to hear, maybe she acts like the sweet, nerdy “girl-next-door,” and mirrors their interests to win them over. Do you really think she hasn’t been scrolling through YOUR IG accounts, studying all your photos with him? If so, do you also believe she accidentally posted the "Kattegat to Paris" bag in November of 2022? Is she just an innocent angel?

You better believe she knows that everything she says and does there will be spreading like wildfire through the fandom. To make matters worse, Alex is now signing autographs with lines like, “My girlfriend said...” Are you kidding me? Even though the woman who got the autograph didn’t mind, it doesn’t change the fact that we should all take a second to digest this… that is soooooo crazy.  

It’s like we can’t have a single thing about Alex anymore without Johanne inserting herself into it (and Alex willingly letting her). She’s everywhere, in every corner of his life, taking over everything.  

I couldn’t make it to the convention this time, and honestly? I’m relieved. If I’d bought a ticket and spent my time and money to see Alex, only to have Johanne tag along and take over „his“ event, I would’ve been beyond uncomfortable, not all of us like her, but we still love Alex. This whole dynamic is exhausting to watch, and I can’t imagine how awkward it must have been to experience it in person. Honestly, I don’t think I’ll ever bother going to a Comic Con for him again.  

What’s even more frustrating is seeing some of these superfans eating it up. Have they suddenly forgotten all of Johanne’s questionable behavior? Or are they just ignoring it because she was “nice” to them at the event, and it gave them a false sense of being closer to Alex? Newsflash: playing nice for a few minutes doesn’t erase her past actions.  

Seriously, does it actually feel good to stroke the ego of someone like her? I'm sorry girls, personally I just can't get over what we've seen in the past two years. Some classics: She turned Paris and Hermès into a self-promotion campaign. She had to tell everyone that it was HER who filmed his stories for the Red Cross, the constant ME ME ME. Oh and the “I wasn’t impressed when I saw you at an event, I thought you were extremely small,” when Alex was in the best shape of his life and at the peak of his career (while she was telling everyone in Cinderella interviews she’d never met him before). Or “You lost a lot of points in Paris, I almost lost interest in you,” just because he sang karaoke from the heart. Would any of you say that to him? Is this normal to anyone here? If this were my brother, I’d be warning him about how toxic his girlfriend is.  

And don’t even get me started on the infamous art stunt, where she blatantly lied about copying an artist’s work. “Pure coincidence,” she claimed, despite evidence she had saved the original on her Pinterest. Seriously? That’s the kind of person we’re talking about here.  

What made it worse was how predictable the hardcore fans were. I’m not talking about casual fans who’ve been to a convention or two. I mean the ones who travel ridiculous distances, blow their savings, and idolize Alex like a teenage crush. But the moment Johanne shows up, they’re practically worshipping her too. Why? Because they think sucking up to her will get them closer to Alex. Let’s call it what it is: a desperate little dopamine hit to feel a fake sense of connection. And don’t forget girls….you’re paying for those interactions.  

It’s honestly embarrassing to see how far some fans have crawled up her ass, knowing full well how much the rest of the fandom has been suffering since Johanne took over Alex’s life and his IG. He’s not the same anymore, and we all know it. Yet these superfans keep pretending everything’s fine, just to please her and maybe…just maybe….feel like they’re pleasing Alex too. Let’s be honest: would you be worshipping her if Alex weren’t in the picture?  

This situation is ridiculous. The fandom feels hijacked. Alex used to be someone we could admire and connect with, but now everything is overshadowed by Johanne. It’s exhausting, and honestly, it’s sad to see how far it’s gone.  What’s even left? Oliver Green? 

Hello, dear anon! Thank you so much for putting your time and energy into this rant (and detailed summary of the past 2 years) and for sharing your thoughts with us! 😊

Personally, I think you’ve made a lot of valid points, and I would just like to comment on the recent comic con situation. You pointed out, and very well so, that “she knew some of you would ask her to join”, and given that’s exactly what happened, I think these so called “super fans” are also part of the problem. I mean, she could be there, keeping him company, but if some fans weren’t so desperate for attention and trying to be in Alex’s good graces, they wouldn’t ask her for pictures, and she wouldn’t be taking space in events and moments that should be only about Alex and his fans. She takes the space that people allow her to take, and she’s important because people give her importance. Because some fans seem to think of them as some kind of unity, and we can’t be a fan of one without being a fan of the other, apparently. 😅 I’m not saying that people should be rude towards Johanne, by no means. But they shouldn’t idolise her either, just because she’s linked to Alex.

[starcanwrecked-confessions]

Ok, you don't have to post this if you feel like it's too much, but I just needed to get this rant out about Robert Manion (not censoring so people who have it filtered can avoid it).

When I joined the fandom in 2019 ne was basically the fandom's darling, every fifth post in the tag was about him or his characters and it was hard to find a tgwdlm song ranking that didn't have SSN in the top 3. I wasn't a huge fan of him, mostly because I'm ace and didn't find him attractive, but I'm not going to lie and pretend like I always hated him. I thought he seemed like a nice enough guy, as did most other people in the fandom. I didn't have twitter at the time, so I didn't see any of the stuff he did there, but I did hear some of it on here which made me not like him as much, but for the most part I ignored it.

It's his actions around the sexual harassment incident that still makes my blood boil when I think about it. To me his apology post came off less as a sincere apology from someone who recognised how shitty he was and more like he was trying to make himself seem like such a good person for acknowledging that he was wrong. It came at such a shitty time for fans too, since everyone who clicked on his insta stories would have been expecting something about NMT 2 but instead got hit with something so heavy and potentially triggering. It was probably the worst day I've ever had in the fandom, as the fallout was intense and the few days before SK officially addressed the issue were actually stressful.

I know we don't know everything that happened behind the scenes, nor are we entitled to, but it definitely seems like Rob did not take being kicked out of Starkid permanently after NMT2 well. He had a whole year between his post and when he went on Tik Tok live to talk about his side of the story, but chose to do it only during the duration of the Starkid Returns kickstarter, when it became clear he wasn't going to be invited back. I know he made some pretty serious claims against SK, and I wouldn't normally dismiss something like that, but the fact that he also tried to play off his harassment as a joke that others made into a bigger deal than it was makes me so mad. Also, some of the stuff he said, like claiming that Dylan gets too many solos and calling them cringey for being in their 30s and still singing some of their older songs, just came off as pure pettiness and spite, and like he wanted to discourage the few fans he still had from giving to the campaign, especially since he stopped when it ended.

Honestly there isn't really a big point to this, I just felt like I needed to get my frustration off my chest. I was watching tgwdlm with friends yesterday and it was so hard for me to get through SSN remembering all of this. I just hope that he stays gone and doesn't try to pull anymore shit during the next kickstarter. Also, I hope all the fans who were seriously hurt by what happened are doing better now.

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