#never join the server! or the community! they fucking suck!

[freakpercent]

taking a break from creatures of sonaria to play tower of adventures has genuinely been one of the best decisions we've made for our health im so serious

[slvttyplum]

suguru was one of your eaters, and there was no denying that he knew how to eat pussy and ate it well; it was one of his guilty pleasures, but someone who could eat pussy really fucking good was toji; he did what needed to be done. 

toji ate pussy off the bone, and then some, he didn't play around when pushing your thighs back and licking you from the pussy to the ass. this was something serious for him, and he made you cum every single time. 

he didn't even just stop at you finishing one or two; he made sure you would squirt back to back. he wanted his face and chest covered with your fluids. it got a rise out of him, a smirk on his face when he sees the exhausted look in your eye, knowing he's going to do it again.

all he wanted to do was taste you, feel you run down his mouth and chin, and feel how wet you were on his tongue and down his throat. it was his favorite sweet treat. all he wanted to do was eat you from the front and back until you were all on the sheets.

his long tongue slipping in and out of you, the feeling of how he stretched you out, and his tongue swiping back and forth on your clit had you squealing around and squirming. along with him, you just couldn't get enough of how he used his tongue. 

you never took toji as a pussy eater, just someone who could put dick down way too well. that was until he pushed your thighs out and got to work. you fell in love with him right then.

your taste was enough to have his eyes rolling, and your cum was leaking onto his tongue. swallowing it immediately so he could get more, swallowing you up whenever you needed to be or to put your attitude in check.

there was no talking, just you moaning and you running your hands through his hair, arching your back whenever he licked over your clit and slipped a finger in. curving his finger up to press on your sweet spot so that you could get the extra stimulation that you craved so badly. 

"you like this shit, don't you?" sucking on your clit as he keeps pushing his fingers against your sweet spot. 

this was his favorite pastime: eating you until he got tired; eating you until his finger was cramping inside of you; eating you until his spit and your fluids were combining and dripping onto the sheets; eating you until your legs were cramping up and your stomach was caving in. 

his favorite was eating you from the back while you sucked him up, almost making it a friendly competition to see who cums first, knowing you could barely do a thing when his tongue was deep in your pussy, freezing up while his dick was deep down your throat.

one thing about you, though: you took it every single time because you couldn't get enough of his tongue.

he was a real eater; he didn't care what state it was in; he was going to eat it no matter what—dry, wet, or both. he was in that pussy all day and all night long. even when he was mad, he was going to eat that pussy up, and that was the best time to get your pussy eaten. the aggression is what made it better. 

he didn't show you any mercy; he slurped you the fuck up, and that's what had you gripping the sheets and your stomach swirling with butterflies.

almost at 100 members and once we get there i’ll do suguru next >< https://discord.gg/jjkfruits

[batmanisagatewaydrug]

Hey there sex witch! This one might be a little bit out of your wheelhouse, but I don't really have anyone else to ask 😅 and this seems mostly relevant to what you talk about.

So recently I (a very shy person for a long time) have gotten pretty active in some fandom discord communities, and I've been making a ton of friends. Which is great because I used to have social anxiety to the point where I could barely talk to people, especially online. The problem is that my new friends are all VERY horny, all the time. Which, great for them, I don't really feel the same way. They're also very interested in ERP and other varieties of e-sex and often ask if I want to join. I really don't, but it's fine that they're into that. One guy in particular is really starting to freak me out though. He's a semi-popular creator and a mod on one of the servers. He's becoming a pretty good friend of mine and I play online games with him and others a bunch. He, like the rest of the crowd, is also very horny all the time. He often makes sexual comments about me, sometimes very graphic ones. Stuff like telling me to take my clothes off IRL while on call with him or saying stuff like "I want to fuck you until you cry" or just dming me asking if I want to have sex with him. Sometimes he notices that his comments make me uncomfortable and he did reach out to sincerely apologize for it once, but he hasn't changed his behavior a whole lot.

The big thing that worries me about him is the fact that he's 28. I'm 18, just graduated high school. He knows this about me. He does a very good job of keeping his server 18+ and would never make a sexual comment about a minor, but is still comfortable doing sexual things with people ten years younger than him. Another thing is that even though I've told him I already have a boyfriend, he assumes I'm in an open relationship even though I never told him I was. My boyfriend also says this guy kinda freaks him out and that he's a little worried about me.

I know that age gaps between older people can be perfectly healthy and problems arising from them vary pretty heavily from person to person, but I'm not entirely sure if this is ok or not. This guy doesn't want to hurt anyone. Have I probably just not properly expressed my boundaries with him? It's not like he's targeting me or anything, he acts this way with basically everyone. I'm torn on what to do, he's still my friend and I like him otherwise. Should I just keep laughing it off? I am uncomfortable but I guess it's not a huge deal to me. Should I stop talking to this guy?? Help??

🐟🐟 So I can find this quickly if/when you answer it

hi 🐟🐟,

this guy fucking sucks and needs to be banned from interacting with maybe anyone until he learns what "no" means. literally every individual thing you've described him doing would be alarming in it's own, but altogether this man is a walking collection of red flags. this is not your friend and this is not a guy who cares about your boundaries or well-being; this is a man using his fandom clout to sexually harass you (and likely others). him being ten years older than you isn't even really the biggest issue here; all of this would be shithead behavior even if you were exactly the same age.

get out of there, double fish.

[corpseconvulsive]

Hi! My name is August and im here to address the rumors of Toby/Plague, a cosplayer and content creator being a groomer and other accusations made within the last few days

You may recognize my name from other posts made regarding myself and other rumors including the rumor that i am one of the people Toby is grooming, which is devastating in my eyes because never once has Toby acted in a predatory way towards me, he is truly one of the coolest dudes ever.

Why did this rumor start? Its because of one screenshot where i am describing that i am cold and toby makes a joke saying he will “wrap his feet around me” which was obviously a joke, wrapping your whole ass feet around someone is not even humanly possible?

I fully consent to the sexual and darker jokes and fully enjoy them as we use in private in our servers for just ourselves and friends watering our humor down in the Blood of Salvation server, Toby always makes sure to respect a boundary if it is brought to his attention, still TO THIS DAY i am asked at least twice a month sometimes even three times if my boundaries have changed, the only one being to not make fun of me for my weight as it makes me incredibly insecure, Toby has never broken that boundary. If people had an issue with our humor, we have always communicated in the server that they can message a moderator to discuss any issues, no one ever messaged us saying they felt uncomfortable.

I can address that our humor is quite sexual and dark to begin with, however if toby is not personally friends, he controls his humor ESPECIALLY around minors, there have been many occasions where Toby has mentioned he is kind of sick of minors joining the server just because they simp and suck up to him and how gross he feels when people act like that just because the find him hot.

Majority of the jokes made were in a chat where only the moderators and admins can talk which you can choose if you want the channel to be visible or not, all moderators who are close friends talk here, we didnt say many of the screenshots shown to random members although we should have been more careful with what we say as some people are incredibly young.

Also the way this was handled was horrendous, Seirei has a large platform that i stopped following a few months ago, her content was great in my eyes and i completely idolized her because she seemed really cool, however things like calling ticci toby an abuser and other drama that arised has caused me to stop following her. She should have handled it like an adult and talked to everyone mentioned to get both sides as some people involved are minors which is so dangerous seeing how people are being doxxed now, some involved are as young as 14. Seirei’s posts are in my eyes, the reason this stupid situation has gotten to the point people have begun doxxing Toby and others, this in my eyes, is terrible, even for the ones making up these rumors and statements that are being doxed as well. I have no respect for those making up these things about my friend, however i think everyone deserves the right to feel safe in there own home without worrying about there information being leaked and something happening to them.

I have messaged Seirei who said to message her if you have more information or input as it says on her tiktok, explaining that Toby is indeed not a fucking creep towards me, is definetly not grooming me as I know the signs I have been groomed twice in my life for long periods of time such as 2-3 years starting before i was even a teenager, and about screenshots and things said about me in general regarding an old situationship. Seirei has not acknowledged my message along with another friend who has messaged her for a simple question.

Regarding the things with my ex situationship, i do not know why it is being brought up as it was irrelevant to this however all i will say is yes i sent her nudes however she did happen to start sending them first and it was a common thing for us to act sexual with one another, also one of the people who happens to be making accusations about Toby has told me i must not have sexual trauma if i sent nudes to her when I admitted i was a victim of sa and grooming which is a horrible thing to say to any victim to disregard what happened to them, it is not right and vile to do that to any victim no matter what abuse they have trauma and scars from, especially when some have developed hypersexuality from the trauma such as myself.

I would also like to discuss how these people accusing toby are hypocritical as well, they act like they have not done similar things while they have.

Robin, someone who started this mainly from what i know, loves to simp and support Jimmy Urine, who if you dont know who that is, he is a giant pedophile and was the singer of MSI(Mindless Self Indulgence). He has been charged with sexual battery against minors and they fully support this man and call him hot and basically drool all over him.

Virus is a person Toby used to be friends with before i came into the picture, a minor who said sexual shit and has wrote multiple in depth paragraphs about wanting to do sexual things with Toby as a minor before Toby finally kicked him from the server and blocked him entirely due to the shit he was saying. When i became friends with Toby I had heard stories about Virus as the server was still below 100 members(believe i was the 96th member after i messaged Toby asking if he had a server since his discord was on his IG) so the server was a close tight knit group with the moderators and there friends before it was opened for the public. After making it public Virus made MULTIPLE TikTok accounts and Discord accounts to join the server after being banned for his weird actions, how do we know? Because this dude kept posting art in his style, I was one of the people who analyzed the art as I am an artist myself, the eyes, nose, face shape, style, is all the same. He even presented us with a fake tiktok account, it was him in a red curly wig, same background as his other tiktoks. He is obsessed and seems to come back at least once every month or two.

Many others have made r34 of characters which is gross, like i mentioned before told me i couldnt have been sa’d and groomed if i sent nudes, someone tried accusing me that i was an adult talking to my situationship who is a minor despite the fact that my ex situationship was older than me, accused Toby of asking a minor to show him their tits as a joke meanwhile the “minor” i question is our friend Kat who is 23 so definetly a minor, people have called moderators who do there job mean, saying its wrong that we “shit talk” members meanwhile we only “shit talk” members if youre being stupid and we think its a possibility youll break the rules and start shit meanwhile these people accusing toby have servers and gcs on discord made for the purpose of shitting on Toby, myself, and other members of the staff in the crp server, and a bunch of other stuff.

As you can see, the list goes on with how hypocritical these people are, using things out of context to try and get the point across when all they are doing is lying to paint Toby in a bad light, its disgusting how they accuse Toby of being a groomer when this is who happens to be accusing him. Again to the rumor Toby is grooming me, i can fully state that no he is not grooming me, he has never acted romantically in any shape or form with me, he has never acted predatory towards me or any others, I mean if I dont text him, my dms are drier than the sahara desert with that man, hes not one to text first so sometimes i go a day or two without actually speaking to him. I know the signs of being a groomer from experience and research, Toby is not grooming myself or any others and its bullshit that people are accusing him based on messages taken out of context.

Thank you for reading🖤🖤❤️❤️

[imhereformysciencefriends]

3. What about their dynamic appeals to you? - also technopuffy

Size difference.

No, but seriously, size difference aside (though I do like the size difference (a lot ( ._.)), they just struck such an easy chord with each other. Brace yourselves this got long.

So the thing about Technopuffy is that while it is very much me smashing my two favorite characters’ faces together, there is a surprising amount of canon material if you’re looking for it. 

We all know Techno is someone who characters are drawn to when at their lowest. Niki, Ranboo, Tommy, Dream, even people who don’t like Techno will go to him when they’ve struck bottom and have no one else to turn to, like Tubbo accepting his help to look for Michael or Quackity using him at the Red Banquet before resuming their largely-one-sided feud. And the same can very much be said for Puffy! Her son just died in front of her, she killed one of her good friends as a result, she is wracked with grief and anger and regret and a deep sorrow when she first posits the idea that hey, this government/eggpire/people being in control of other people shit sucks. Maybe it’s time to do an anarchy about it.

But what’s interesting with Puffy is that, while she is prompted by hitting what she assumed at the time was her lowest point (she would then proceed to sink lower but shhh don’t worry about that right now), she reached that conclusion all on her own. There was no need for emotional speeches, no screaming matches across the blown out husk of the community center, Techno never once had to rattle her shoulders and beg her to understand him. She collected her own data, made her own observations, and came to the conclusion that “Techno’s probably right about this one actually.”

Not that she fully understood him, at the very start, she was still seeing him through the smoke curtain of server-wide gossip and rumors and his own daunting reputation, but independently of Techno’s efforts, she made the decision to give anarchy a try.

And I think that would be really valuable to Techno!!! As a matter of fact, I know it was, because the next time Puffy logged on he was attempting to recruit her! A touch more subtly than he’d done with Niki (if a giant flaming ANARCHY sign twice the height that she is in her basement can be called “subtle”) but the moment the rumor mill told Techno she was down—not even Puffy, just rumors on the wind—he was interested in having her join. He left the coordinates to his house in her basement.

Let’s repeat that. Techno “paranoid overprepare-er of the century” Blade left the coordinates to his house in Puffy’s basement. She hadn’t said anything!!! She’d told no one she just soliloquized into the empty air and logged off about it, and next thing she knows she’s got Technoblade’s coordinates. Let’s run over the number of people Technoblade has given his coordinates to, yeah? Phil, obviously, Niki, and technically Ranboo if you look at it sideways bc ultimately while Techno suggested bringing Ranboo over, Phil was the one to actually do it. 

And Puffy.

He never told Tommy where he was (and cc!Technoblade even complained that it made no narrative sense for Tommy to know where his house was), he never told Dream about it the guy just figured it out bc he’s a weird little dude, the butcher army only found out bc they raided Phil’s house; Techno told Phil, Niki, Ranboo-sort-of, and Puffy.

That’s fucking huge to me. Techno, who has had his trust fucking tried multiple times at this point, doesn’t even have a face to face conversation with Puffy before he gives her his coords. Doesn’t even need her to explain her motivations to him to be willing to let her join the syndicate. He is instantly, immediately down. 

It’s also worth pointing out that Niki and Puffy are the only people that Technoblade ever actually recruited for the syndicate. Phil was a given, Ranboo was a tagalong for Niki’s initiation, and Connor was likewise just kinda there. Niki and Puffy are the only ones to have received actual invitations. And I just think that’s neat <3 

And that trust is honored!! Puffy goes to his place with no harm on his home or friends, just “leaves a note” that’s a touch too clever for our pig. Techno is smart, his ingenuity has solved equal if not more of his problems than his pvp skills have, but Puffy still kinda buys into the larger-than-life image of him at the start and thinks he’s a bit smarter than he is, leaving a response that’s too subtle for him. 

But her (cursed) mama didn’t raise no quitter, so Puffy recalibrated and immediately started yes-and’ing him with Badboyhalo when he thought he saw Ranboo hiding in the Egg chamber. What are you talking about Bad, you’re crazy, it’s just me and Techno here. Immediate united front. Solidarity in bullying Badboyhalo. And then of course came their mutual care for Ranboo after the poor thing fell into the most obvious trap on the server, and the creation of Team Omelette which I am still inordinately happy about to this day. 

Now, Techno is a giver. We know this. He is someone who gives and gives and gives, and has had that reciprocated and has had that taken advantage of. Puffy? Puffy reciprocates it. He indicates his willingness to help her with the Egg (which was on his own to do list anyway (it’s funny, as much as I love Team Omelette it is very much two ships missing each other in the night. Techno thinks Puffy has not responded to his Giant Flaming ANARCHY Sign in her basement, and is offering an allegiance that is a step removed from the syndicate. Puffy thinks she has responded clearly, and Team Omelette is a step towards genuine connection and collaboration. They both think the other understands this perfectly)) Anyway. He indicates his willingness to help her with the Egg, and she wants to make sure he knows that she appreciates and values what he brings to the table! He repays kindness with kindness and wrongdoing with wrongs, and she meets him on his level. 

So she brings him foxes!!!! She goes on a whole manhunt which made for a very entertaining stream but was a frustrating endeavor in-character, but the man mentioned wanting arctic foxes and by god she’s gonna make sure he knows she appreciates his willingness to help and the trust he has placed in her!!! We all lose our shit about Blitz (for good reason) but very few people talk about the fact that Blitz’s parents were a gift from Puffy. 

And! If you don’t watch Puffy’s streams you don’t know this but!! The area Techno built his house in? Puffy was there first! The little castle turret Techno called an eyesore and probably leftover from Tommy wasn’t Tommy’s at all, Puffy built that thing and, upon revisiting the area, Puffy was the one who tore it down. It feels like such an act of fate, Puffy building her dinky little cobblestone turret in a place that, if gods and schedules were kinder, would’ve eventually become a home for her. She does tear it down though, also calling it ugly, because Technoblade is very particular about his Things and she gets that. She understands and she respects that while Technoblade is extraordinarily generous, that is an act of giving, not of other people taking. His space is his space, his stuff is his stuff, she’s conscientious of it, she’s respectful. 

The ease with which they fell in step with one another still makes me really happy, though it’s that same ease that left their relationship somewhat understated and I think contributes to why I’m the only person that’s as insane about them as I am. Like yeah we got some REALLY COOL Omelette Duo art there at the start but then it kinda dropped off, which like yeah whatever I get but ALSO!! C’mon they’re so cool.

Unfortunately, good writing can’t save bad scheduling. The number of things that needed to happen before Puffy could’ve narratively joined the syndicate and have it make sense kept getting postponed and rescheduled, Techno was in prison for months, Ranboo was a ghost until the end, and obviously real life Techno’s passing put an end to all the character’s storylines. It was a really unfortunate end, but in a kinder world we would’ve absolutely gotten syndicate Puffy eventually, and I can sit here with my little coals and let those keep me warm.

BEYOND the cool narrative stuff they had going on, they’re also just like. A looney tunes ass couple.

Like we all know Technoblade is the Bugs Bunny of the server but let us NOT discount the jokes and japes that Captain Puffy keeps us all in constant supply of. They’re goofsters. They’re sillies. They are the physical embodiment of “excuse me he asked for no pickles.” We’ve got a five foot nothing sheep shouting and shoving and blustering her way around, and a seven foot acolyte of the blood god  running away from social situations because he doesn’t know what to say in them. Captain “I dunno what you’re talking about, Bad, this is perfectly normal to me” Puffy and Techno “Skeppy I need you to run this maze that I definitely made and get the horses at the end. For no reason.” Blade. Captain Puffy has a weird cursed mom (I’m hoping for a Sherbet Above the Sea of Fog situation), Techno’s got his “where I come from… we only have one life” thing. Puffy is quick to yes-and anyone she’s talking to, and Techno loves a good joke.

Switching back slightly more serious: they DO have strengths the other lacks. As much fun as it is to depict Puffy being, like, competent in a fight or whatever bc pirate themes… she’s really not. My girl is not a pvp’er I accept that I have made my peace with it. You know what she is? An extravert. Techno, meanwhile, struggles to be On around other people, but packs a phucking wallop when the situation calls for it. He’s got stability and more or less his shit sorted out when Puffy is desperate and hurting and at her lowest, and can provide that safety and companionship like he has done for so many others. Puffy has drive and her thumb on the pulse in the way that Techno, in his isolation and his house in the middle of nowhere, is often left floundering for clues. 

And they both care. So much!!!! Puffy has a whole arc of determining that her attachments are why she’s in so much pain and trying to disengage with them, and can’t. She tries to stop caring as a self-defense mechanism and she can’t. She can’t stop caring, she can’t stop being attached, she cares so much about everything all the time and she cannot uncurl her fists. And Techno! Doesn’t want to! He knows he’s attached, he knows he cares deeply and truly about everything that’s ever touched him, and he doesn’t want to distance himself. He wants to punch the thing that would make those attachments hurt!  They! Are! People! Who! Care!!!!!!!!!!

And yes they have their differences and no I don’t think it’d be a relationship without any friction at all but!!! They’re!!! SO captivating to me, and I love them, and I think about them a lot, and I think they just work.

Also hot tiny sheep woman x hot giant pig man yes yes mm yes please tasty tasty I am nothing but mortal and when two hot people with likeable personalities exist near each other I want them to kiss.

Anyway, Technopuffy good.

[jewish-vents]

this was actually a bit ago but I can't call myself jewish if I dont complain anyway lol

Im in a certain discord fandom server, a server I joined after october mainly just to take my mind off things. People were good at first, I thought it was a good place to just try and have escapism from the war which I am experiencing in real time. Then I see people talk about the war. I should've expected it, I guess.

I contact the owner, asking them in honestly the most gentle way I could if they could keep politics off this server about fandom, and that it's paining me to see it being discussed when I joined just to talk about fandom things and feel safe in a community. They agree after discussing it with the mods that it'll be kept to adult and vent channels, and advised me to mute them, which I did.

Not long after I see it being actively discussed in another, fandom related, fucking channel. I come to them about it, asking them politely to maybe explain to people the new rule (which has never even been added now), and sure enough they not only ghost me but the messages fucking stay! Great! Here's to another place I can't feel safe in! Ugh

Is it that hard for them to delete the messages? Or even just ping everyone like heads up keep it to specific channels??? I swear I only feel safe in Jewish spaces anymore. Which sucks. I want to talk about fandom. I want more friends. I'm tired.

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[barzfrommarz]

Why do I still love c!wilbur so much?

small essay type post to just gush about c!wilbur

One thing that always surprises me is why I stayed with c!wilbur

Before cc!wilbur even confirmed the allegations, I dropped him and lovejoy because it was becoming way too stressful and way more obvious it was him even though he had became a special interest and a huge part of my life

So why didnt I do the same with c!wilbur?

Better question, why couldn’t I?

Maybe it’s because back in March of 2022, my online friends had just stopped being friends with me a week prior. Specifically on March 17th 2022 (correct me if i’m wrong) the first stream that kick started the apology streams happened. I think that’s was what reignited my interest fully, since I had changed myself so much for my ex friends since they hated dsmp so much and it was basically my entire personality

It was also an outlet to interact with people, since these specific friends were my only friends at the time.

It was so nice to have a community of people who love the same thing I love. Making art, fanfiction, theories even songs. It was great and it was definitely one of the best times of my life (in the recent years)

The days leading up to the final were the greatest but also the most nerve wracking, esp since I wanted c!wilbur to have a good ending and basically not die

Waiting for the stream to start on Sept 3rd 2022 was so exciting, I remember sitting in offline chat just waiting for a fucking minecraft stream to start. Something I had never done

Now im not gna critique the ending in this post. I have my gripes with the apology tour in general but thats not what this post is about.

It was surprising to watch. Not what I had expected but it had its charm and I grew on it eventually. Going on twitter afterwards kinda sucked but it stopped eventually

The community was still going strong. Even if our favorite character is completely retired. The love and passion was still there, especially for me. It seemed like my love for c!wilbur just got more intense

After the dsmp ended and 2023 rolled around, thats when I noticed things kinda slowing down a bit. I know why of course. Loveshit was kicking off for William so its obvious why more people gradually moved on from the dsmp and fan content slowed down. Including me!

I wont go more into it but it was disappointing for me as someone who just couldn't move on from c!wilbur and the dsmp to see everyone on all the main platforms I used move on. Yeah tumblr was still active but I didn't use it as much back then

Then of course, the allegations came out

Im not proud of how I acted during the first night. You could say I was very very delusional and willing to make up excuses and drown out a victim all for some white guy I didn't know.

Thankfully, the next morning I came to my senses a bit and left, soon after joining everyone in just waiting for him to respond. Luckily I had some great mutuals on twitter and we were all there for eachother, even though I was the least affected since I was more mad at the fact I wasted years of my life on him than upset.

You all know how the story ends, he responded and everyone hated on him blah blah blah

but throughout all of that, I still stayed with c!wilbur. Not any other bursona. I cant engage with any of the other bursonas because they remind me too much of william, so why is c!wilbur different?

Well one obvious factor is my autism. C!Wilbur and the Dsmp is one of my biggest and longest lasting special interest so I dont think its going away for atleast 2-4 more years atp. Who knows maybe ill be 24 years old still yapping about a minecraft server that I liked when I was 11

I also think its because of the dsmp community on tumblr. Yeah the c!wilbur part has gotten understandably smarter but the people who have stayed are awesome and cool and so creative but most importantly strong

We have all been through it. From the allegations to the shit we get from outsiders for showing slight interest in c!wilbur and the dsmp in general.

I also see it as one massive fuck you to William. Taking his creation for ourselves then actively hating on him in the process. Shipping the ship he has gone on record to say its not canon is also pretty cool

So I guess I just want to say thank you. I could not have kept my interest alive if it wasn't for you guys continuing to create despite the creator being a degenerate. This stupid little character has single handedly kept my passion for creation and art going so strong. If you look through any of my recent sketchbooks most of the pages have him on it. I got into wrighting and reading fanfiction because of c!wilbur (and c!tntduo but we dont talk about the fanfictions ive read). My point is this character means alot to me so to all the remaining c!wilbur fans...

Thank you, truly

[xomoosexo]

when people used to think being invited to the dsmp was the final level a mcyter could reach LMAO

i remember someone (snifferish i think) made a tiktok video being like "guys I'm a builder, I build stuff, the dsmp is like heavy roleplay being invited there isn't a goal i have" bc their comments were always filled with "u should be invited to the dsmp"

yeah that whole culture just sucked for everyone involved. "being invited to the smp" was seen as this huge life-changing thing by fans and the mcyt community in general. which put a fuck ton of pressure on dream to continually add new people, or else he was seen as selfish for being able to "give people this opportunity and choosing not to", pick "the right people" who were perfectly unproblematic and fit in the culture of the server (totally doesn't matter that the server started off as a casual one with friends), and add their fav big creator while also needing to add small streamers.

AND IT SUCKED JUST AS MUCH for the non dsmp streamers who were constantly being compared to dsmp, being told they should join, and being influenced by the culture that made them feel like they were entitled to an invite. or the streamers who knew dream/were friends of friends but we're never invited who ended up resenting him for that even though it was always a casual server with friends.

AND it ended up affecting the inter-server relationships for the streamers who felt entitled to blow up from being on the server but never did!

[flamingkorybante]

Any tips for finding the right people irl with whom to practice/do ritual/etc? I've always felt very confined to the internet with regards to religious/magical community and I've never found groups/folks I can really jive with in that regard.

I have a couple of thoughts, I hope they're helpful!

Do Stuff. Go to events, attend groups, try things that you aren't sure if you'll like or not! Go to in person stuff and virtual stuff! Join discord servers and facebook groups! Explore and see who you find there! There are a lot more weirdos in the world than you think and no matter what you want to do or make or be, I 100000% guarantee you that you aren't the only one.

If all the stuff that's available to you sucks, make more stuff. If you're feeling unsatisfied with the offerings other people are making, chances are good that you aren't the only one. Imagine exactly the event or group or thing that you want. What could you see on eventbrite or on the bulletin board at your local witch shop that would make you go "oh shit, I bet the people I'm looking for are there!" Get a really clear picture of that thing in your mind and then take a deep breath and make it real. You don't need any qualifications or permission to make there be a thing in the world that wasn't there before, and if you make the thing that would feel exciting to you, then anyone else who shows up has at least one thing in common with you, and that's a cool place to start!

Not everyone that you can do magic with already calls what they're doing magic. They might call it psychoanalysis, or sex, or BDSM, or LARP, or fiction, or poetry, or art, or critical theory. It's actually really fucking cool to collaborate with someone who is coming from a totally different perspective than you, but you can vibe with on a deep level -- they'll have ideas that would never occur to you, and vice versa, so you'll be able to get into some really deep shit! Don't stress out about terminology or discipline -- just follow the vibes.

Don't guard your heart a lot, but guard it a little. Not everybody that you want to practice with will want to practice with you, and not everybody that wants to practice with you is a good person for you to practice with. That's fine and good! Any time you notice that the fit isn't right -- even if it hurts -- it's a moment of beautiful power in that you are feeling present enough in what you want and need that you can sense the discrepancy between it and what's happening.

All kinds of monogamy are a trap. You're not looking for one person to be your spiritual everything, and in fact, if someone is trying to be your spiritual everything or tell you that they are, they're probably an asshole. You can do different things with different people. You can have spiritualism friends and sumerian polytheist friends and high protocol ceremonial magick infused BDSM friends and none of them diminish your connections with any of the others.

Be brave. I don't know about you, but I'm shy. Approaching someone I don't already know and inviting them into connection feels like everything about my life is hanging in the balance. But!!! That fear is not giving you good information. Acknowledge it -- thank it for trying to protect you -- and do not obey it. You may be surprised at how many people will blossom into curiosity and joy if you ask them "Hey, do you want to do some magic with me?"

[stateswscarlet]

hi i recently joined your discord server and saw the “3D sucks” thread where you were telling that girl that she wont get 3D sp back. can you elaborate on this? is it meaning we wont get SP back in the 3D? i messaged the OP about it but she never answered

lmao wtf why cant you straight up ask in there? whats the point in coming here and asking me and lorian as anons? if you dont want to be upfront and talk IN the community PLEASE get the fuck out of my server, I DONT WANT PEOPLE LIKE THIS IN THERE!!

and maybe just maybe if you PAID ATTENTION to anything in that whole server you would realize how your selective ass brain picked and chooses only what YOU fear and didnt give a SINGLE NOT EVEN AN ATOMS WORTH of brain cell to comprehend what we said. yall are so fucking dumb it hurts

[thedreadmachine]

We're here.

Hello Tumblr fam. I'm Alin (@allhailalin), the executive editor of an indie magazine you've probably never heard of (The Dread Machine). We've been publishing dark speculative short stories and poetry since 2020.

We mostly toil in obscurity. We've never won any awards, nor are we ever featured in reviewer blogs. Our marketing game apparently sucks, because nothing we've tried has worked.

As a niche-within-a-niche, we knew profitability was a pipe dream, but we hoped we'd be able to build a solid community and make something awesome together. We've succeeded in that respect. Our Discord server is considered one of the friendliest and most welcoming in the indie publishing space. Our web metrics are bonkers. However, our financial performance sucks, so we've had to stop publishing stories for free in an effort to boost print and digital subscription sales.

I fucking hate this change. I hate that our stories and poetry aren't being read and shared all over the internet. I hate having to "sell" what we're doing. Each quarterly issue costs us between $1,700 and $2,400 to make, so it's not even like it costs a fortune to do this. Our failure to cover even half of our expenses after three years is pretty upsetting, because we know people value what we're doing...they just don't value it enough to help ensure its continuation.

Indie publishers are being taken for granted, and this is why we're all dying off.

Currently, we pay $0.05/word for original fiction and $10 per poem. My goal was to increase our rates to $0.08/word in January of this year, but we're not in a position to increase our overhead any further.

So, I'm here to let you know we exist, and we'd love if you joined us. If you're into writing, science fiction, cyberpunk, slipstream, synthwave, pixel art, video games, and TTRPGs, you should come hang out with us in our Discord server. Maybe consider subscribing or supporting us on Patreon or Ko-fi. Follow us on Kickstarter so you can be alerted when we get desperate enough to run a campaign. You can also follow me on Tumblr, if you like Disco Elysium fan art and synthwave stuff.

Idk man. We're just a bunch of punk asses doing the best we can to keep written art alive. Join us if you're into it. Reblog this and we'll love you forever.

[hillbillyoracle]

For the last two months or so I was experimenting with writing weekly emails to friends instead of using social media much and I was initially pretty hopeful. But I only had one person reply regularly and about half of the rest never replied at all. 

I thought about going back to Instagram but after 5 minutes on the app I was so bummed seeing the friends who didn’t have time for me have time for other people that I was like “fuck it, I’m deactivating this” so I did.

Shortly after that I had yet another relative I don’t know blow past my stated boundaries + preferences on Facebook and was like “you know what, this doesn’t spark joy either” and deactivated that. 

I’ve been off Twitter since 2017. Don’t really go on Pinterest. Deleted TikTok off my phone in June. Considering blocking Reddit. 

I’m just fed up. I’d rather be actually alone than strung along with likes and the occasional message request to do a tarot reading for people who haven’t spoken to me in almost a year. I let my main college friendships fizzle out after I found out way after the fact that several of them had gotten married and I hadn’t even gotten a heads up so I could send a gift. At the start of COVID I put together a server we could hang out in and like one person joined and I was like...welp, I appreciate the clear communication about where I stand. 

But it’s spreading to most of my friendships now. I’m just seeing how I’m pretty consistently putting in more effort to try to maintain or deepen some sort of connection and I’m not getting anything back. My disabled ass can’t do what they seem to want anymore and they don’t want to make accommodations for me so. Better to just...not. 

Social media has never lead to deep or quality friendships with other people for me. It really does remind me of smoking - as someone who smoked for years. 

I did it in large part in order to be social with other people, especially when I was still playing shows. I got a quick thrill but often felt kind of gross afterwards. Always smoked more when I already felt bad which lead to me feeling even worse and so on. 

So. Yeah. 

It’s hard. When I was in high school, I was in an abusive relationship, had basically no real friends no matter how hard I tried, and was surrounded by people who didn’t really like me. I always hoped and strived to change that after I got out. But here I am at 30, in the same damn town, in an abusive relationship I can’t leave, next to no real friends, and surrounded by people who don’t really like me. The more things change the more they stay the same I guess. 

It’s painful I couldn’t change that for myself no matter how hard I tried. 

I’ve just seen over the years that at the end of the day - no matter how much I work on myself, move toward the other person, give them space, accept, etc - I’m just not who people want to hang out with after they get to know me. I’m not appealing basically. 

And that sucks a lot but at 30 I’m just tired of fighting it. This is my karma. Probably better to just embrace it the best I can. 

[daintymayhem]

I feel bad for all these new people joining the server they’ll realize that they’ll never get a dainty and leave once they realize how fucked the community is, but hey at least they’ll leave before getting sucked into this hellhole 👌

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[arjex-and-stuff]

There's some stuff I'm glad about.

A lot of lasts that have been really nice.

It's kind of hard to remember things.

Um. I got to go to a concert for my favorite band. Or my favorite right now. It was a really good time. I should make sure I listen to the CD's I got a few times.

I finally got to have a mini fridge in my room. It's been really nice. Going down the stairs hurts a lot more now than it did when I was a kid. It's nice to have drinks and some snacks in my room. And access to a working toilet. I can actually be by myself for a day when I need to.

I got to have that lobster roll I like one more time.

I decorated eggs with my neice.

I got to spend Christmas with most of my family. And I get to visit my grandparents on the 12th. That will be nice.

Some fun internet things happened. The charity stream was amazing. I'm happy I got to watch some of it.

There was an April fools life game. So I got to see one more life game.

A few fanfics I was reading wrapped up.

I beat the ender dragon with my friends again. It was a lot of fun and very silly. I hope they had fun too.

I did make 2 videos. They suck and I will never touch that channel again. But I did make them.

My friends are all still hanging out with each other. I'm glad they have each other.

The fish oil and magnesium have me functioning somewhat. I am able to do some of the things I like. I don't feel miserable all the time. Its a good bandage.

MCC is starting up again tomorrow. So I'll get to see a little bit of one last MCC before I die. My friends are going to hang out together and watch it.

I like most of my co-workers. My job isn't too hard. It hurts pretty much the entire time I'm there now with how bad my ankles are. But I can put up with that a few weeks longer. I feel kind of bad I'll just be disappearing on them without any notice. But I won't be the first and I won't be the last. With any luck they will just shrug off my disappearance and not find out what happened.

But it's nice to have a job I kind of like doing.

I did something awful. I joined a new discord server. I just kind of thought it would be. I don't know. I don't fit in well in the other servers I'm in. So I thought it would be about the same. I feel like I fit in on this server. It's really nice. They're good people. It was a really great few weeks spending time with them. I'm going to try to be a little less active. If I'm going to disappear I don't want it to be as harsh of a blow. If I can quietly fade out fewer people will notice I'm gone.

But it was really nice to feel like part of a community again. And feel like people cared. I only know the people there superficially. But I could actually vent about some of my problems a little. Nothing excessive. And could talk about adult stuff with the adults. I really hope that community stays strong. They were good for me. I hope that they don't miss me too much. Hopefully I'm just some guy who was a blip and then gone.

Stuff I want to do. Or won't get to do.

I really wanted to see the ocean again. It's not really that big of a deal. I was thinking about going out to the ocean to kill myself, but it's too long of a drive. Might change my mind before I get there.

I still want to go fishing. I don't think I'll get my shit together enough to go. I feel bad. My parents got me the stuff to go and I haven't used it. I really thought I would have the energy to go. I really want to. I just. Am useless. I'm useless at existing I'm just fucking useless.

I want to see my friends again. I won't. They don't deserve this and I am being unimaginably cruel to everyone I know and they deserve to see me one last time. But I don't deserve to see them. I don't deserve them at all.

I think I'll read one more book. I'll read one of the new ones I got for Christmas. Then the gift won't be completely wasted.

I'm not going to get my stuff paid off. That's only a problem if mom accepts the debt. I hope she doesn't. I've already been such a massive waste of time and money.

I really wanted to finish this one video. I actually wanted to make a lot more. I had planned a lot more. The plans went out the window when I decided to scrap my channel. I think instead I should just focus on spending time with my family. I'm not going to finish that video. I worked so hard on it. But it just doesn't matter. Nothing I do or want matters.

I'm just so fucking stupid. I wanted to figure things out. I'm just so fucking stupid.

Help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me

I can't help myself I don't deserve help.

I'd like to kiss someone again. I'm not delusional enough to want sex. But just being held for a little while would be nice. No one I've been with has just held me. I don't really deserve it. And it would be mean to whoever it is since I'm going to kill myself. But this is a list of things I wish I could have before I die. It doesn't have to be realistic.

I wish I had someone to talk to.

Pomegranates are out of season. They're my favorite fruit.

I can't really think of anything else I want that's within the realm of obtainable.

I could go for a hike again. It'll hurt, but I miss it. I'll try to go.

I'm sad I won't get to see the fireflies this year.

I'd like to drive out to somewhere truly dark and see the milky way again. That one won't happen either. But it was one of the most amazing things I've ever seen. It'd be nice to see it again. I hope that if there's some kind of existence after death you can see the stars.

I hope there's nothing after death. I hope that every fiber of anything I once was disappates and there is no mind or energy or flicker of being left. I hope there's nothing. I just want to be nothing. I don't want to exist any more. I'm so tired. I'm so tired. I'm only 30 and I'm just so tired.

My life isn't even that hard. I'm just pathetic.

I should play pokemon mystery dungeon again. It's my favorite game. I haven't played it in a long time.

Read a book. Go for a walk in the woods. Go fishing. Play PMD one last time.

That's a nice list. That can be accomplished. If I do 3 out of 4 of those I think I'll be happy. Not that it really matters if I'm happy.

I just have to remember that no matter how good I feel at the moment things will keep steadily getting worse and I need to end things before I set myself up to hurt even more people. I'm going to kill myself eventually regardless. I need to do it now so that I'm not even more of a financial drain on my parents. A funeral is cheaper than having to support me for the rest of their lives.

I'm useless I'm so fucking useless.

I wish I had someone to talk to.

I wish someone would hold me.

I'm fat and hairy and nasty and stupid and have nothing real to offer to a relationship. No one wanting to touch me is fair. It's allowed. I did this to myself and I'm hideous. I thought I'd get to finish transitioning and actually look like a man. But I'm stuck halfway.

I just want to be held by someone who actually likes me. I don't deserve it but I want it so bad.

I just want someone to talk to. I wish I could talk to someone. I can't. Too much risk of getting locked up in a hospital. The lifetimes worth of debt would be grounds for killing myself alone. I'd just be back to the same place. I'd get locked up and they'd just hurt me more and I just can't. I can't.

I hope it hurts.

I deserve to hurt.

One last horrible painful moment.

I'm so tired of hurting all the time.

I wish I had someone to talk to.

[mr2swap]

I'm the one who needs to suck a cock now

Stealing my grandson's body was the best idea I've had in years, now I'm in his apartment, in his young, muscular and hot body While he's in the fucking nursing home in my old, obese, already sore body 70 years, maybe if he had been kinder and visited me from time to time he would have stolen the body of that sexy nurse.

Although now that I have my nephew's body I don't regret anything, I feel so energetic that now I just want a good pussy to break.

I'm going to have fun in his body for a while, right now I'm looking at his messages to find a girl in which to bury my new and monstrous cock, it seems that I was his grandfather's cock although it is a pity because the one my grandson has now It only works with a large dose of viagra, although I don't think I will fuck in my decrepit old body again.

-Oh! shit! It seems that my grandson loves to suck cocks, I never knew she was a sissy, he did not look like it with all these muscles and tattoos, he always seemed quite masculine to me- without my noticing, cock began to get excited while he looked at the photos on his phone, only hairy asses and cocks. ... I think I'm the one who needs to suck a cock now.

A message caught my attention “Hey sexy do you have free time today? I left work early and I want to fuck NOW ”was one of my grandson's friends who was looking for some action.

oh shit, I'm so hot, I replied immediately "I'm going to fuck you so hard that you won't be able to walk in a week" I might get used to this being a fag ...

this is one of my stories from last year that i posted on my patreon if you want to read more of my stories take a look at my page or join my discord server

[void-inked-pen]

Very, very disappointed in hearing about Colin Stein and what he’s been defending(I can’t even say it, it’s so disgusting). How do you cope with it broken pedestals?

SUBJECTS BELOW DISCUSS SOME SERIOUS ISSUES RELATED TO TC*ST, NSFW CONTENT INVOLVING MINORS, AND MENTIONS OF MANIPULATION! PLEASE READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!!

I wasnt going to really say anything publicly but... I've known for a while he was more... lenient in regards to tc*st and nsfw around minors.

a while back, I participated in his first project for the fandom. The first rottmnt calendar. me and a friend of mine joined a server he had created for the project, and though both of us weren't super active in it, we both experienced the suspicious behavior within. he had an nsfw channel and a handful of the people who participated were tc*sters (I only knew this because when my friend was uncomfortable with a convo, i went to check these peoples accounts I noticed i had blocked them already for that reason so it was not a good sign.)

when people expressed our concerns about having an nsfw channel with minors present, Colin brushed it off and ignored our concerns. unfortunately for us, the calendar project was already done at that point and being sold so we just decided to leave quietly instead of deal with it.

This is not the first time I've experienced something like this in this fandom. A different artist, who will not be named, did a lot to both me and two different friends of mine that were in essence, an attempt at manipulation.

I don't have a lot of first-hand experience with this, and it is not my place to express what my friends went through because it's their story to tell, but in short, they were trying to get us into tc*st. They even went to a separate incognito chat room to talk to other tc*st artists about doing so.

luckily for me, I have a very strong personality. I openly talked about how I didn't like tc*st and changed the subject often enough away from the topic on more fun things unrelated to shipping and was... pretty much blocked by them after a few days.

But because I'm very close friends with both these artists, they couldn't really avoid me. It wasn't until both those friends came to me in concern over anonymous posts that I learned what was actually happening.

They have been on the receiving end of call out posts since then but idk what they're called anymore. Just because they did a fucked up thing to me and my friends doesn't mean they deserve to be harassed. You never really know what's going on with other fans on the internet and this is a pretty tight knit community.

it sucks when great artists and creators in the fandom are found out to be doing stuff that is not okay like this. Colin didn't do much, but he did defend some very gross behavior and included and nsfw chat around minors that could easily access that content. while that artist just did a lot of questionable stuff in the background that really hurt me and people I'm close to.

I'm using this opportunity to talk about what can go wrong in a fandom space and warn new fans what they should watch out for. I'm sorry you all had to experience a disappointment like this and hope it doesn't ruin your love for the show in any way.

Thank you, Pen