#nene’s birthday!

[junebluues]

nene’s birthday on 10/31!!!!!!!!! on that day (and the day after probably) i’ll post some more information about her along with stuff about numa/xael (since it relates to her. kind of. a little.) :3

[heartorbit]

THE GIRLS ARE FIGHTINGGG

[toastyyjams]

akito birthday with friends :) [i am so sorry kohane my queen i couldnt fit u in anywhere😭😭🙏]

[inkkill]

“Everyone moves on…

… And I get left behind”

[atlas-of-galaxies]

emu affection comes in many forms (though mostly physical)

[shenenenigans]

RESULT: Nene dreams of desire.

*this choice will have consequences.

happy birthday! | 020798

Dear friend,

My birthday is not my birthday. I celebrate it anyway, because that means I haven’t succumbed to illness for another year. Sometimes, I start to think that each new passing year is my last. This worries me. It feels like no matter what treatment I get, my condition only gets worse. Are they really trying to fix me? Or are they trying to kill me faster?

The only thing really keeping me going is my friends. And you, of course, but being with my classmates makes me feel so much better. I know it’s hard for me to go out sometimes because I’m so tired, but I do it anyway. I want to. I don’t want to leave everyone with bad memories.

I’m really scared. I think I’m scaring people nowadays, actually. When I walk out of the infirmary with tired eyes and a weary smile, it’s like everywhere I go, everyone is staring at me. It feels like my whole world is collapsing. I’m always cold, always tired, and it’s getting so much harder for me to just get out of bed and walk.

My dearest friend, do you want to know what I wish for?

I wish that I was healthy. I wish that I had the strength to live and breathe for myself. I wish I didn’t have to attach myself to other people in order to be happy. I wish I could say I’m sorry to everyone for worrying them, and I’m actually getting much better, even if I’m not.

I feel really bad. Especially for Eliana. I think she’s concerned for me, but I can’t let her know that everything hurts. I know she doesn’t love me like I love her, but I can’t bring myself to let her go. I can’t let anyone go. I can’t let myself go.

I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m always wishing, but nothing ever comes true. Do I have to pray? Do I have to pray to a god I don’t even believe in? If The Great ANAKT were a real, kind god, I would’ve been fixed by now. 

I’m a lost cause, aren’t I?

I won’t graduate here. I’ll never last that long. 

When I was a kid, I had a brother. Well, he was only technically my brother. We were never related. I’ve told you before, haven’t I? I remember we never really interacted, mostly because Lycos would always put more time and effort into caring for me because he thought I’d just drop dead at any second. He thought I was fragile.

Khoi was… he was different. There were times that he would sneak into my room, if you could even call it that, and rest his hands along the clear glass that surrounded me on all sides. I was in an enclosure, blocking out the world that makes me sick. 

Sometimes he would play music for me. Others he would talk to me. I think he knew I was lonely. But one time, and only one time, he spoke to me harshly. After that, I never saw him again.

“You know, Nene,” he said to me. “You’re so small and so weak. I don’t know what our father has in store for you, but let me tell you this: You wouldn’t last in the outside world. These segyein are cruel. They’ll beat you, torture you, and maybe they’d even kill you if they got the chance.”

He scared me, I told him he scared me, but he still kept going.

“When weak little kids like you die, your body gets burned into ash. Do you know what I believe? Humans are ashes. That’s where we start. We will always return to ashes. These segyein… where I’m going, they’ll take your body and spread it over all the other kids like snow. They’ll have death on their bodies, on their faces, in their mouths, and they won’t even know. You’ll die, Nene. We all die eventually. Don’t be so stupid and die so quickly.”

He rested his head on the glass next to my own. “You should treasure the life you were given. Live your life for yourself. Every day could be your last, so make sure you don’t regret anything. You don’t deserve to have this wonderful dream ripped from your hands, Nene. I’m sorry.”

He cried that night. I had never seen him cry before. I can’t get his words out my head. I don’t want to become snow. I want to treasure my life, like he said, but I’m not even living for myself anymore. I failed him. I don’t even know where he is now.

I wish everything were different. I need everything to be different. I wish I knew why I was like this, I wish I knew who I really was. Who are my parents? Why did they leave me? What was my name supposed to be? Who was I supposed to be? Is my purpose just to live and die in this hellish place? But I’ve found so much joy and love in this garden. That means this is meant to be paradise. A paradise with enclosed walls, a fake sky, fake trees, and artificial flowers.

I know so much. But at the same time, I know too little. I can’t help but want. I can’t help but need. 

I’m always yearning for things that don’t come to me. Maybe I just have to force it.

Thanks for listening,

Nene

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@aakaneeee @4listr @apriciticreveries @bluemoonscape @rockwgooglyeyes @zerostyrant @pwippy @nottoonedin @starry-skiez @paradisedisconcert

[pngsk]

happy birthday! (2023/2024) - WONDERLANDS x SHOWTIME

like/reblog if using. no reposts. f2u dont claim as your own

[rokencha]

Happy birthday Rui-kun!!!･:*:･ﾟ★｡･:*:･ﾟ☆

[mizuribbons]

yeah i love wonderlands x show signs of autism 👍👍👍

(yes i know half of them (tsukasa and nene) have a noticeably different art style from the other half (emu and rui), see my tags for explanation)

[kermitbread]

wow it's another birthday. here's a no. 8 nene au hananene doodle for you!! she's just eepy don't worry about it!!! byeee

[kerizaret]

Ok but can we just stop for a moment and admire just how brave Nene is?

We don't talk enough about the fact that she had to move houses as a child, change schools, make new friends... not even sure anyone would get along with her. She admits herself in the flashbacks in Mermaid Admiration how scary that was for her. Like stepping out of water into completely unknown land

And yet, Nene proves again and again that she's capable of overcoming these hurdles and situations that scare her. That she can work towards her dream despite the hesitation and challenges. That she doesn't want fear to control her life the way it used to ever again

She's scared of being alone in a new environment as a kid, but manages to make a friend in her neighbour. She's even the first one to indulge his ideas even if they're unusual to others

In fact, even after that failed show in middle school, she showed up for the next practice again, as if she wanted to apologise but try again – to correct her mistake – and I'm pretty sure it was the reactions everyone gave to that that discouraged her the most and ended with her eventually quitting

Nene's story is constantly about overcoming her fears to follow her dreams or live a life she wants, and be proud of herself. She decides to try acting with wxs, even if it's just as Robonene, because despite everything she still WANTS to be on the stage. She could refuse Rui's offer, tell him that it's no good and she'll just mess up again, but she TRIES. She's scared but she tries–

She tries and fails, and messes up again, and is once more faced with the consequences – but when Tsukasa comes back and apologises and tells her they want her back, she accepts immediately. And she really doesn't want to mess up again, she doesn't want her fears get the better of her – and she's already on stage by herself by the time they put on the show to get Rui back. She's back there for her friend, for this troupe, for this park, and most importantly for herself

And this just continues. Is Nene intimidated by Sakurako's skill and how she belittles Nene, but wants to prove her wrong and make their show a success. She's scared of coming up to Ichika and making friends and yet agrees to be her singing teacher. She's scared of being alone on stage and having to improvise until Rui fixes Robonene in Mermaid Admiration, and yet she sings. She's scared of staying on a deserted island, but agrees to act as a decoy for wild monkeys. She's scared of approaching Arcland members to ask for advice, but ends up doing it anyway. She's scared her singing will ruin the Happy Phoenix play, so she asks to be taught and trains, trains and trains until she knows she's ready

Nene, just like all of the wxs, won't settle for a subpar performance. She won't let her lack of ability and her mistakes scare her into inaction. And most importantly she's notoriously fighting her fear and not letting it stop her from what she wants. Just like her idol taught her

And isn't that so brave?

[heartorbit]

happy birthday, dreamer

(from the emukasa zine canvas 🎉)

[stxrringsky]

happy birthday kasa!!! :3

dont mind how they all look like twinks /pos

[do-mi-rek-blog]

Happy birthday Nene!

[project-sekai-facts]

The lighting in the opening sequence of the Netsu Ijou 3DMV is designed to mimic the opening of the original MV. The original MV starts out very dark, with only the character's eyes and hair being a bright red, though it gradually fades to being in full color and brightness. In the 3DMV, a similar effect is created with the red lighting, being much harsher and only lighting up parts of Kanade and Mafuyu's hair and eyes at the start, and becoming brighter towards Ena and Mizuki's parts, allowing us to see them much more clearly.

Submitted by @purpleparasol

[shulldreamer]