#neil didnt deserve ANY of it

[yourfavvgal]

im not sure if anyone has mentioned this before (people probably have!!)

but when mr keating was saying ‘oh yeah everyone here will turn cold and die’ neil was obviously SUPER uncomfortable while hes talking about it

but when hes stood at his fathers desk, hes calm. his mind isnt telling him ‘dont do this’. hes not overreacting or crying, hes comfortable with what hes doing

[salfishersimp2]

[rrcenic]

sorry for posting so much about the neil gaiman thing im very opinionated but heres my general take on neil gaiman (TW FOR S/A AND SU1C1D3!!!!)

good omens fandom please read this. yall need it

i wanna start with: believe victims. it might not be as bad as it was claimed to be bc the reporter was an anti bdsm terf who considers all bdsm 🍇 (including the bdsm w neil), but there was still clearly manipulation, weaponized power imbalance, and dubious consent. even if it wasnt s/a, it was fucked up. neil did some fucked up things

while we dont know if he actually s/ad those women, neil gaiman is clearly flawed

ive seen time and time again that his fans (specifically the good omens fandom) can get so viciously defensive of him that they refuse to see any flaws he has

as someone who was ruthlessly attacked because of neil, i hesitate to give him the benefit of the doub

when i had just turned 13, id just gotten on tumblr. i was thrilled that good omens season 2 was coming out. i was even more thrilled to see neil gaiman on tumblr. so i sent him an ask where i asked if crowley and aziraphale would kiss. i get why that was annoying. he probably got those asks all the time. but i worded it respectfully, and i was genuinely unaware that he was annoyed by this question

he responded to my ask with a multi paragraph callout post talking about how sick of this question he was. harsh, but not necessarily nefarious

the response wasnt the problem. it was that i got so many hate comments and death threats and people telling me i didnt deserve joy and i was ruining neils life and so many fucking anon "kys" asks that i had to quit tumblr. i tried to apologize to neil, i sent him countless apology asks where i begged him to ask people to stop cyber bullying me, but he never responded. it took years before i was able to communicate to him all the hate id received. his response was a basic "sorry for the miscommunication" and that he wished there was a way to convey tone on the internet (someone said "there is! tonetags!!" and he responded with "i dont like those"). the SAME COMMUNITY who told me to kms was suddenly saying "oh neil your such a saint" (THE TERM SAINT WAS USED MULTIPLE TIMES!!!!!) and "this poor ignorant child"

i was a kid and i was bullied off the internet and neil didnt respond to my pleas for forgiveness for almost 2 years. i was also in the most unstable time of my life. i was EXTREMELY suicidal. people telling me to kms deeply affected me

plus he reblogs a ton of "vote blue no matter who" stuff. i dont agree w that statement but i think its okay for people to say if they actively support palestine. but neil gaiman doesnt post about palestine ever other than reblogging posts that say "sure maybe the stuff in palestine is bad but if you dont support biden 100% democracy will crumble!!!" also im pretty sure he never apologized for some older zionist posts

ive seen a lot of stuff where people are saying "hey shhh its okay i see good omens fans getting sad bc of the stuff with neil but its ok!! youre still a good person even if you ignore this issue!!" and like. huh??? i dont think ignoring it makes you evil but its certainly fucked up to not be critical of the media you consume. pretending nothings going on is immature. you all sound like jk rowling fans smh

his general attitude towards fans makes me uncomfortable. ive seen people bare their souls in his asks (all of them start with something along the lines of "oh sir mister gaiman sir i am nothing but a disgusting peon compared to you you saved my life id die for you!!!") and he gives rude cold responses. i mean of course he gets annoyed and of course he gets spam but no one is forcing him to respond to asks. he doesnt seem to care very much??? this doesnt make him a bad person ofcourse but it does give me the ick

summary: even if he didnt s/a those women his fans need to grow up. he is not a pure perfect person. he might not be evil but he makes some extremely damaging choices. hes not a saint and never has been. at the end of the day, hes a rich cishet white man

[ihni]

The hospital room is surprisingly cozy, for a hospital room. The walls aren't white, but a light green. There's a small plant in a pot on the windowsill, and a pile of newspapers on the table by the wall. One of them is open on the crossword page. It's only half done, a pencil lying on the page, forgotten, as if whoever tried to solve it gave up halfway through.

There's a chequered blanket on the bed, and an unmoving man lying under it. He's been there for a long time. The nurses don't mention the blanket, or the newspapers, or the plant. They know not to fight a dying man's family on the little things that might bring them comfort.

And the man in the bed is dying.

Neil Hargrove is dying.

He hasn't managed to eat at all for three days. Hasn't woken up for the last twenty-four hours. They've got him on a drip, but no one expects him to last much longer when he can't even drink. His mouth doesn't close anymore, and his jaw hangs open as if dislocated. His breath smells sour. Something rattles in his chest when he breathes, and his breaths are increasigly labored.

Billy sits in a chair by the bed, head in his hands, watching his father as he slowly withers away. Neil's hands are lying on top of the blanket, the skin of his hands like paper that has been out in the rain and then left to dry. The hands that have caused Billy so much pain now look like the fingers would snap if someone applied just the slightest bit of pressure. They look out of place, on the red and brown woollen fabric of the blanket. Soft, almost. Old. Alone.

Billy is sitting close. He could reach out, hold his father's hand as he dies.

He doesn't.

A knock on the doorframe and a rustle of someone moving behind him. Billy doesn't turn around.

"Hey," Steve says. "Have you been here all night?"

Billy doesn't answer. It's obvious that he has. He's still wearing the same clothes as he has been wearing forthe last two days, and he doesn't want to think of what his hair must look like by now. Besides, Steve would know if he'd left - they share a motel room while they're in town, after all.

A sigh, then, "Any change?"

He doesn't ask if Neil is doing better. Everyone knows how this is going to end, and it's not with Neil Hargrove's miraculous recovery.

"No," Billy says.

A coffee cup appears by his side, and he takes it, grateful. A hand lingers there, hovering as if the owner wants to touch but doesn't know if it would be welcome. Billy takes it (like he didnt take Neil's) and presses a kiss to the knuckles before giving it a squeeze and pressing it against his cheek. Steve gets the hint, and strokes his fingers over Billy's skin. His touch is comforting and gentle, like Neil's has never been.

Billy closes his eyes and allows himself a moment to feel the crushing weight of reality. Just a moment, before he opens his eyes again. Takes a sip of the coffee, and turns his attention back to the shell of his father, wasting away in the hospital bed.

"You sure you don't want to take a break, babe?" Steve asks. He's careful about it. Not demanding. They've already fought about this, several times. "Half an hour? Just to go back to the motel for a quick shower?"

Billy hears what Steve is trying hard not to say.

Steve doesn't think that Neil Hargrove deserves Billy being here. Thinks he deserves to die alone and forgotten in this hospital bed, after all the pain and suffering he put his family through. And it's not that Billy disagrees with him. He knows his dad is a piece of shit. But this is more than about what Neil deserves.

It's about Billy. And Neil is Billy's only living blood relative, and even though he has been a bastard for most of Billy's life, even though he has caused Billy so much pain and anguish ... he is still Billy's dad.

And he is dying.

And Billy needs to be there.

"I'm sure." He swallows, trying to force the sudden tears back. Fails. Attempts a smile that feels like a grimace. "Thanks."

Steve sees through him. Hugs him from behind, and doesn't say anything as Billy cries silent tears at his dying father's bedside. Billy is grateful for the silence. He knows what Steve wants to say, knows it all too well. Feels an echo of it in hos own heart, and knows the truth of it.

Neil Hargrove is a bad man. He doesn't deserve Billy's tears.

But Billy sheds them anyway.

He's crying, even though Neil hasn't even died yet, and he's not entirely sure what it is he's mourning for. He's pretty sure it's not the man himself.

Perhaps he's mourning his own ruined childhood. Perhaps, a father he never got to have. Or maybe the relationship they could have had, had Neil Hargrove been a better person.

He about about his past self, and his mother, and the father he wanted so desperately to love him. He cries about everything that happened between them, and everything they never had. He cries about the man behind him, who is leaning his head against Billy's back, with his arms around Billy's chest, holding him gently and making him feel so safe, so loved, so cared for.

As his father slowly dies in a hospital bed an arm's length away, Billy cries about it all.

His father is close, his powerless hands within reach where they're resting on the blanket. But Billy doesn't reach out for him. Doesn't reach out for the man who may have raised him, but never loved him.

Instead he lets himself be held by the man who does.

[mockingbirdshymn]

rating camp camp pairings

because i ran out of ideas for posts and saw someone else do this a few years ago so swoop the idea is mine now

nerriston - 10000000/10

i love them. ok. i really do theyre super cool. it make sense like. they have a perfect dynamic. theyre cute. we have magician who has anxiety, cocky loud theatre kid who does not give a shit, and short dnd nerd who would beat your ass and probably carries in all the groceries at once. LIKE. its perfect. it literally is the best

im equally as loving of presner/harriston/nerrison but nerriston is my main otp

presnurf - fuck you/10

hacks gags dies

presmax - 1/10

personally i dont see this? and its not because they havent interacted, mostly because their personalities don't mesh well imo? not to say that opposites don't attract, thats the building ground for so many good ships, but with them its just. kind of just pure annoyance any time they interact. and unlike nerrison, it's not a continuing thing that makes it a rivalry and has layers to it (ex. background interactions, like at the lake lilac summer social), with max and preston its just general annoyance any time they bump into each other.

plus i hc preston to be 14 and max is canonically 10 and while my headcanons arent canon, that interpretation of mine makes it a very much no go for me

neil x harrison - 3/10

not for me, but i can 100% see it

again though, i hc harrison to be 14 and neil is canonically 11, so,,, another dealbreaker for my bc of this headcanon

nerikki - 3/10

definitely compatible, and if it werent for the fact i have a sturdy hc on cc campers' ages, i feel i could like it?

but 14yo x 10yo is a big nono for me

ered x nikki - 1/10

for me it feels like nikki has a crush on ered in the same way kids tend to have crushes and idolize people older than them. like how someone may like their friend's way older brother, even though hes like 6 years older, but it dies out once they mature and stop idolizing him.

ered is either 15 or 16 in my headcanons, and nikki is canonically 10, so,, nikki can have a crush on ered in the same way kids have crushes on celebrities, but for ered to act on that would be very very bad

ered x nerris - 6/10

can see it, not my favorite, but i can definitely enjoy content from it (like fanart or fics) if its not the main focus.

ered x dolph - 1/10

sir, dolph is like literally the youngest. ered is the oldest pls stop (ik the eggs benefits episode was what started a lot of ships but. but cmon)

honestly though i rlly like the idea of them as older sister younger brother type of dynamic, tho ive not seen many people hc that if any

space kid x dolph - 8/10

i like them as friends more but i can definitely see it and enjoy it!! either romantic or platonic, i really love their (imagined bc they never interact lmfao) dynamic, and theyd mesh together very well personality-wise. both are clueless (dolph because he doesnt pick up on things well/holds a very positive view on everything, and space kid because his brain is like a pinball machine), and both have no friends/are generally excluded from everyone else due to their differences.

makki - 9/10

at first didnt like it at all, i like it now though!! dont have much of a reason for this, just think it's cute. angsty boy and feral girl. max would be moping and nikki would bring him a cool rock and he would not understand why but keep it anyway

maxneil - 10/10

"mandatory gay pairing for every main characters" is what someone from a random youtube video from like 4 years ago would say

though i rlly like it. guy who doesnt care at all and guy who overexplains absolutely everything/cares too much. max would ask a retoric question and neil would go into a ramble. max annoying the absolute shit out of neil and neil just. loudly sighing

neil x nikki - 1/10

i headcanon them as stepsiblings after parents day!! before i used to like it, but the fact their parents boned and nikki discussed being siblings killed that for me

nurf x a cactus - 10/10

he deserves to be prickled

neil x tabii - 1/10

i dont like fics where they're together as adults if im honest. as much as i adore tabii, her borderline obsession with neil makes him uncomfortble and i dont think it'd really be healthy at all. hes made it clear he doesnt like her

max x sasha - 7/10

can def see it! two bitchy assholes, though i dont like the idea all too much. would need someone else in the relationship to balance it out, or else its just kind of two dicks doing back and forth

pikeman x sasha - 8/10

it would not be healthy but by fucking christ it would be hilarious

sasha would be the gold digger and pikeman wouldnt know how to speak to a woman and it would be great

nikki x sasha - 5 to 8/10

nikki was bullied by sasha a lot, also sasha is kind of a dick, but they could be cute if sasha got over herself and started to be actually decent. with care put into it, it would be cute in a storyline of "girl forced to be perfect her entire life and externalizes this onto others, learns to embrace her true self through realizing that girl who is messy and doesnt care about how she looks is happy"

or maybe i just really like mabel x pacifica. its one or the other

tabii x erin - 8/10

very cute!! i liked how they acted at the end of the lake lilac summer social, but they work more as best friends in my opinion? badass besties who would wingman each other and tell each other everything in sleepovers. but at the same time, i do love gay people.

erin x neil - 7/10

SIGH if only erin got more character development. it could have been very cute. mostly because erin deserved someone who liked her for something other than her loks, which shed been pressured to prioritize just all of the time. also neil and erin could bounce ideas off each other?? and once more, pathetic bf x badass gf

erin x snake - 2/10

there wasnt much between them outside of "omg hes cute" without much emotion put into it, yk? which is funny because i like snake x tabii which wasnt too different but whatever

snake x tabii - 8/10

TABII WAS A DICK TO HIM BUT OH MY GOD IT WOULD BE SO CUTE

forever crying about that. they would go so well together????? tabii deserves someone who thinks shes pretty i really like tabii and she and snake would be badasses together and i and i and i

pikeman x snake - 3/10

do not like it personally. mostly because pikeman's an asshole but yk

camper x counselor - wtf/10

daniel x david - 4/10

definitely not for me!! can be cute i guess, especially in aus where daniel isnt a cultist, but i dont think david would ever fall for a child murderer

david x gwen - 20/10

i love them. i love them so much. goes into my favorite trope of badass wife x too scared to ask for katchup at a ristraunt husband

david x jasper - 10/10

pre-jasper death only. post-jasper death and thats creepy because jasper is literally still a child

pre-jasper death and in aus where jasper lives, i will gobble that shit up like a starving turkey. i literally love it so much. like??? i cant explain why. plus ive read so many good fics with it that i am unable to hate it.

gwen x jen - 3/10

jen has appeared a total of one time for exactly 5 seconds. but in aus where shes given a character and isnt a murderer then i think it could work

daniel x jen - 5/10

never interacted (as if im one to talk with my nerriston bullshit) but cultist x cultist can be made interesting

cameron x priss - 9/10

could either be 1 of 2 things

your grandparents that keep fighting all of the time but love each other

two irresponsible grandparents that teach the child how to make an explosive

they seemed to have a sort of romantic connection and it wasnt all sexual attraction, and cameron's fear of comitment was the only thing really stopping them from enjoying a presumably happy and healthy marriage

platypus x food - 10/10

a match made in heaven

[meyhew]

ALSO!!! I can’t get over how neil tried so hard to keep all his secrets to himself and kept everything he could from the foxes (other than the truths he gave up with his reactions like with the whole puppy dog face whenever anyone does when anyone does anything nice for him and the whole nicky friend thing) bc he was raised to hide all of himself and told that no one was safe other than him and his mom. And how jean just so frequently lets secrets out on accident because he’s not used to being allowed them. Because the ravens were so messed up that they both were not allowed to keep a lot fully to themselves and also were so all-around fucked up that they didnt feel the same need to lock shit away where no one could see bc everything/everyone was fucked up and knew not to ask questions. So once jean’s with normal humans, he doesn’t realize that a lot of what he says is so telling. And ofc he keeps some secrets close and doesnt let anyone fully in but like god idk something about neil being forced to lock everything away and jean not realizing that he’s not.

because neil is raised to survive!!!!!!!!!!! and jean is forced to endure!!!!!!!! surviving for neil has always meant keeping his mouth shut or lying about everything, because even partial truth are dangerous in the wrong hands. enduring for jean has always meant pretending (and believing) that he deserves what happens to him, that being sold means he's now a Thing instead of a Person. (how fucked up btw. he does truly believe it's possible to sell a person. it's thee fundamental truth that shapes his entire worldview). and his coping mechanism any time he thinks he's crossed a line is to literally claw at his own throat....... im going to be sick!

[flower-zombie-rob]

holy shit don't leave author's asks like that, that's seriously not cool??? like that was an absolutely unhinged 4chan-esque violent comment for what- leaving an emotional cliffhanger? No one deserves that kind of behaviour. for real, please don't, not even as a joke.

I hope you feel better soon if the ending made u so raw, but don't take it on others fam.

I was kidding. Im littlerally someone on the internet who was kidding. I didbt mean it in any capacity to be harmful it was jusg a joke its the kind of thing that i didnt ever want anyone to take seriously im really sorry please just leave me alone thats not tbe kibd of eay id ever behave to anyone.

I meant it in a joking way and im so sorry to people who took it seriously, thafs not how i intended it i meant it as one of those meme cursed kibd of interractions i would never wish any kind of violence or harm towards snyone. Neil gaimans one of my favourite authors and i adore his work and im so sorry if that in any way caused any kind of harm i didnt mean it please. I want to delete it so badly because i cant tell if it was taken as a joke and now im freaking out im so sorry please it was a huge mistake and i dont know what to do i didnt even think the ask sent at all when i first sent it, i thought i didnt hit send and i would never wish malice or bad intent on another person i think thats utterly disgusting and if i could take it back i would in a heartbeat

[dirtyvulture]

I have read the little “ dear diary” story for the darkest knight universe and it was AMAZING like always!!!!!! It was sooo fluffy, cute and wholesome ( the domestic bliss and life that BOTH Nat wolverine DESERVES and the two of them interacting with R’s kids * cough Nat’s step kids cough * ……. 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰) . But let’s NOT FORGET about the SMUT , the god of lust has DELIVERED yet again !!!!!!!!

Now I haven’t had many thoughts on either the DK or SB universe ( I have been talking to a friend ABOUT about the DK series but I digress) but I might have a few little things for both universes . Both are things that happen to me that sparked the thoughts . So last night I DIDNT SLEEP ( I might have slept and dreamt a little but not much ) and a couple of days ( maybe even a week ago I had a nightmare at like 3 in the morning and DIDNT sleep again that night. I also live with my family so I was devastating trying to be quiet so I didn’t wake them up. I also just did a cleaning day at work ( I work at a fast food place , I work four hour shifts. Literally spent 2 hours just cleaning the back of the store and then the next 2 hours doing my “ normal” tasks for work). So my thoughts are just going to be SB and Wolvie dealing with being unable to sleep and trying not to be disruptive to the people around them. Them also just doing a cleaning day ( it is the time for spring cleaning after all) .

In the DK universe we have already seen a bit with the aspect of Wolvie trying not to wake the people up around them ( She was trying to be as quiet as possible …��. but with 200 pounds of metal in her body….. THAT IS HARD TO DO) and went to the balcony . There is a very interesting history fact that can also tie into Wolvie’s sleeping habits but I wouldn’t go into it now because I don’t want to make this too long or bore anyone with something they don’t want to know ( if you want to hear about it then I will be more the happy to teach you) but it does contextualize some things in this aspect of Wolvie’s life and sleeping habits ( or lack there of) . I think Wolvie would go to the balcony and do some stargazeing , go to the kitchen ( get something to eat or drink) , common rooms ( probably to do some reading ) or go to the doom rooms and do a workout. Just SOMETHING to pass the time when R KNOWS she isn’t going to get any sleep but not wake or disturb the rest of the mansion.

For Spring cleaning (or just cleaning in general) I think that BOTH listen to music while doing tasks like that ( my Managers are really cool and but on music while everyone works, it helps past the time and makes tasks a bit more fun) . R has lived a LONG time so she has seen music and the music industry grow, change and evolve …… meaning she has VAST range of musical tastes and likes. I think when R is cleaning she listens more to the “ oldies” : Frank Sinatra , Johnny Cash , Neil Diamond . SB also has a WIDE range of musical tastes and genres ( nowhere NEAR Wolverine R but then again , Wolverine R is VERY OLD and SB is a BABY compared to Wolvie …… EVERYONE is ). I think that SB would just have something like pandora, Spotify , etc and just leave it on random or shuffle ( no real set play list at all) .

In SB universe …….. SB is just SHIT OUT OF LUCK , for many reasons. One the living space isn’t as big as the Mansion ( none would be ) , two Nat is a VERY light sleeper ( BOTH Nat’s are) ….. the way that Nat and SB sleep ( Nat ontop of SB , Nat being big spoon or occasionally little spoon. Bottom line it’s in a way that they aren’t apart and there is no way that SB could move around or leave the bed Without WAKING Nat up)…. Yeah the poor golden is SHIT OUT OF LUCK. They are just STUCK in bed until the morning and until Nat wakes up.

Before anyone tells me “ Wolverine would have to deal with Nat ( who like mentioned before is a light sleeper and both Wolvie and Nat sleep in a the same way that SB and Nat does EXPECT Wolverine R is the one that is mostly the big spoon and occasionally the little spoon) AND Jean ( because she can sense R’s restless mind and thoughts) .” I know !!!!!

Hope everyone has a nice Spring cleaning and sleep much better than I did ( also that you all have pleasant dreams with no nightmares) !!!!!! Happy Spring EVERYONE!!!!!

I am so so glad you enjoyed it! :) I was really excited to get to write a more happy and domestic fic (since no promises the next one will be 😄), but yes this is everything Nat has always deserved, I'm happy she gets to enjoy it for a little bit.

It has been a long time since you shared your thoughts, they are always welcomed here.

I am sorry you were not able to sleep much, but that is definitely a shared trait of Wolvie!R's lol. We've seen in the first fic already that Wolvie does have trouble sleeping and she likes to go stand on the balcony to look at the stars.

R definitely loves almost all kinds of music. While SB has no real preference for music and just lets Nat pick whatever they should listen to at any given moment. :)

(I also think SB is hardly the big spoon for Sergeant Romanoff...maybe on a rare night once in a blue moon.) But SB probably just lies there under Nat and strokes her hair while they think about whatever is bothering them.

Nat is probably used to Wolvie getting up and going around, sometimes she joins and sometimes she doesn't. (But if Jean is up and trying to follow R, you bet Nat is going to make sure Jean doesn't try anything.)

Welcome back, friend!

[stranger-rants]

At this point I feel like if there was a poll asking who's the worst parent, Billy antis would vote for him and totally ignore Neil(derogatory) and the other obvious choices cuz they just hate Billy that much. I mean the tags on the 'who deserved better?' poll just out right ignored Billy literally spending the last week of his life possessed by an evil entity that made him drink bleach, watch innocent people die, and destroy his body in real time, just to get impaled at the end of his short, yet extremely lonely, life. Like if anyone deserved a break it was him

(also sorry for the run-on sentences, I just relate and feel so many emotions when it comes to my ratson😔)

Some of them are Neil stans, I swear. I've seen posts saying Neil should hit him again get thousands of notes. I've seen people defend Neil, saying there's no indication he's a bigot and he's trying to discipline his son. I've seen people mock the fact that he made Billy cry. These people love Neil.

What's also funny about some of those tags on that poll post was that they list all the GOOD THINGS those other (dead) characters did and repeatedly call Billy a "racist abuser" who doesn't deserve justice when he literally died so that all of their favorite characters could live.

A typical villain and/or antagonist would have let everyone and everything burn, and given all that Billy went through I would not have been shocked if that had happened. But it didnt. Billy sacrificed himself after being tortured for a week. He didn't spend any of that time being a "racist abuser."

Billy made a bigger sacrifice than any of the other characters in that poll. But yeah. He doesn't deserve justice. He doesn't deserve a better life. He doesn't deserve to heal. They're such good people for hating this abused teenager who was brutally tortured and decided to die to protect everyone else.

Yeah. We're the problem. Okay 🙄

[cogneartive]

birth of manassas: the bible

hidden under readmore - an uncovered stone tablet.

excerpt: GRAHAM, CROZ AND NEIL ALL TOOK A LOOK AT EACH OTHER'S ESTROGEN SHOTS AND LOOKED AT STEPHEN. WAS HE NOT LIKE A BABY BUTCH OR SOMETHING?

STEPHEN ARTHUR STILLS BORN JANUARY 3 1945 WAS BALD BLONDING AND AUTISTIC HE WAS A GREAT COOK ACCORDING TO HIS BANDMATES AND HE WAS A MAMA'S BOY! GRAHAM ONCE SAID: this guy. welp. hes got like a mental illness or something AND HE HIT NEIL YOUNG IN THE FACE. ONCE UPON A TIME HE WAS IN A CAR AND HE MET NEIL YOUNG. HE SAID TO NEIL "YOU COULDA BEEN SAVED BY ESTROGEN" BUT ALAS NEIL SAID "im canadian now. and emo too" AND STEPHEN WAILED. BUT BEFORE THAT HE WAS BEST FRIENDS WITH PETER TORK JUST BECAUSE THEY LOOKED ALIKE. THEY WERE INDEED SISTERS BY CHANCE FRIENDS BY CHOICE. STEPHEN SAID "hey the monkees. you know the monkees? you could be the monkees. -im kinda ugly-" AND PETER TORK SAID "ok! ill be the monkees (i hate the monkees later on). LATER ON NEIL AND STEPHEN HATED EACH OTHER. NEIL SAID "i have epilepsy" AND STEPHEN SAID "aww gee emma lepsy? whos that? her ass jiggle good or no?" AND NEIL HAD A SEIZURE RIGHT THEN AND THERE. THIS WENT ON FOR MANY YEARS UNTIL HE MET THE CROSBY. HE HATED CROSBY. HE HATED CROSBY ALOT. BUT IT DIDNT MATTER CUS HE WAS FAT AND FUNNY. CROSBY SAID "i dont like this guy" AND BANDMATE CHRIS SAID "hey. you know i was writing something on my wrist and it came up on his wrist. i think we might be soulmates" AND HIS BANDMATE ROGER SAID "IRRELEVANT. I HATE HIS AUTISTIC ASS"

AND STEPHEN SAID. "hey. i fucking hate my band. they fucking broke up. hey crosby. join a band with me" AND CROZ SAID "ok. im a weed smoker and womaniser. but we need another woman in this band" AND STEPHEN SAID "hey. they arent any women in this band." THEN GRAHAM NASH ARRIVED. HE HAD JUST BEEN DIVORCED FROM ALLAN CLARKE. IT HAD BEEN A RAW AND NASTY DIVORCE BUT IT WAS ALRIGHT. HE TOOK ONE GOOD LOOK AT CROSBY: "oh great googly moogly! that orange bitch is kind of hot in a thick mama way." HE WENT OVER TO CROSBY AND HIS CHIHUAHUA STEPHEN STILLS AND SAID "hey. youre cool. whats your name. Oh kaff kaff im scik im goigntodie" AND CROSBY SAID "lets form a band! btw i think joni mitchell may be impregnanting you in the next few years." AND GRAHAM SAID "WHAT!" SOONER OR LATER JONI MITCHELL WOULD PUT HER HAND IN STEPHEN'S HAIR AND SAY "hey youre hair is nice and soft. very thin. oh hey that british boy looks kind of impregnatable. can i have a try?" AND CROSBY SAID "oh yes please do its kind of kinky" SOON: GRAHAM WAS PREGNANT. BUT THAT DIDNT MATTER

LATER: NEIL YOUNG WAS FORCED TO JOIN A BAND. NEIL SAID: "oh lordy lordy eh a band full of women eh this isnt going to end well eh. has a seizure" AND STEPHEN SAID "hey they arent any women in this band." GRAHAM, CROZ AND NEIL ALL TOOK A LOOK AT EACH OTHER'S ESTROGEN SHOTS AND LOOKED AT STEPHEN. WAS HE NOT LIKE A BABY BUTCH OR SOMETHING? LATER ON STEPHEN SAID "hey graham i think you have my girlfriend. hey graham. graham graham awwww whatever spits on you spits on you spits on you spits on you spits" AND ALL GRAHAM DID WAS SHRIEK AT HIM AND HIT HIM WITH A BUNCH OF CHAIRS. THEN CSNY DISBANDED FOR A BIT. AS USUAL. STEPHEN SAID TO CHRIS: "hey buddy. i think you deserve a little bit of that mandolin magic baby boy. baby. hey youre kind of a baby butch to me in a way." AND CHRIS SAID: "hey but there arent any women in this band. eh? band? thats weird. im part of no band." AND STEPHEN SAID: "boy you gotta join my band. they call me captain many hands they do. you can be my second hand man. my lieutenant. sleep in my mansion. sleep in the army beds. were you there in vietnam? I was" AND SO MANASSAS WAS BORN

[motionpicturesforcarrie]

my saved URLs

used to have this one i honestly didnt deserve it…. does anyone want @ rollingthunderevue

obscure car seat headrest references. paul we know is the subtitle of cute thing on the twin fantasy ftf vinyl pressing. stabby ode was will toledo’s project of taking samples from each song on abbey road, reversing them, looping them, and making songs based on those loops for each song. i probably will not use these unless i go actually insane again

these are just neil related i dont think id change any of them. i only have them because i was curious….. if i liked trans a little more id do mrsoul1982. motion pictures is an incredible song but i love tired eyes too much

[yourfavvgal]

reminding myself that todd never got to say goodbye to neil, he just watched him leave in the car without saying goodbye

[phoenixyfriend]

Gonna share a bunch of the Fun Tags I've seen on this post.

#I saw this a minute ago and I was like.#prachett was c of e and gaiman is jewish#(both of them atheist/ atheist-adjacent)#catholics do not have a monopoly on complicated relationships with christian theology lol#also I think reducing what makes a character catholic to just trying to find the most symbolicly christian character is kind of………..#reductive to the catholic experience?#not that the feelings of catholics are my number one priority lol but like it is in fact a distinct identity#shaped by its history and the ideology it purports to serve and the unique relationship to a unique faith#just like any other religious identity#idk this is a joke poll and like all joke polls it’s been funny to watch#and I’m not actually mad or anything this is at most an amusement fueled faux outrage#but like in general.#next time you say a character is catholic stop and think: are they? (via @onelonelystory)

#pls vote homura!#i love crowley sm too but homura absolutely 100000% deserves to win this one (via @catboywizard)

#now I'm no theologian. or whatever.#but crowley could not give me less of a Catholic vibe if he tried (via @ruin-gay)

#CROWLEY AND AZIRAPHALE ARE FUCKING JEWISH#homura is catholic tho ur right there (via @quinquangularist)

#Vote for Homura Akemi!!!!#Crowley's jewish#I'm sorry (no I'm not) but no catholic would question god like that#also Neil Gaiman is jewish#and based the scene where Crowley and co talk about their evil deeds off of an antisemitic play (? I think it was a play?)#as a way to make fun of and kind of reclaim it#and his relationship with god and heaven is just very jewish of him in general#also I'm jewish and I love him#have the catholics not taken enough from us#I'm joking but also not really#I love my boy and that's why he must lose (via @neerdowellnarrator)

#Homura loves god so much she is down horrendous for god (via @bootlegfriend)

#echoing everyone in the tags and saying that CROWLEY IS JEWISH#Homura is THE Catholic character of all time#religious guilt singleminded devotion and a same sex love interest that makes her feel guilty af#she has it all!#she is IN LOVE. WITH GOD.#vote Homura Akemi! (via @burnorgetburned)

#homura is actually catholic what are you people even on (via @lachrymosade)

#pls vote homura apparently the superwholock demon is Jewish#also it’s literally pride and she’s canonical a lesbian (via @usaigi)

#Oh homura is WAY more Catholic than Crowley lmfao (via @saccharineomens)

#if you ppl let the character born as a literal parody/subversion#of the ''evil jewish cult plotting the end of the world'' conspiracy get christianized we are officially worsties#vote the anime girl (via @carlyraejepsans)

#please vote homura guys shes a catholic shes a lesbian she trapped herself in a timeloop that changed the very structure of the universe#AND she robbed the military. shes so iconic please (via @sleepylinguistt)

#i didnt even see who he was up against or what the poll was for i just saw david tennant and voted wo thinking#milflaralorvan ur post would have worked if i saw it first BDJSHJF#i cant actually retract votes so im just gonna joke 'im keeping my vote for the transgenderism effect the 10th doctor and crowley had on me#exclusively but in spirit im voting homura' (via @zymstarz-rb)



Round 2 - Side A

Propaganda below ⬇️

Homura

she is a catholic lesbian whose girlfriend became god. she has been through so much.

shes such a lesbian for amdoke

Catholic guilt literally turned her into a demon

she literally watches everyone she knows die over and over and over again just so she can save madoka, the one girl who showed kindness towards her. when madoka ends up basically becoming god in order to stop the cycle of death and violence, homura RIPS AWAY THE HUMAN PART OF HER SOUL so that she can create a world where she and Madoka and their friends can live happily, effectively becoming the devil to madoka’s god

She has so much religious symbolism when it comes to her relationship to Madoka. Madoka is God and Homura becomes Lucifer so that she can save Madoka and give her happiness. She literally rips God from heaven and rewrites reality though. The way she sees her self and shapes reality is through the lense of Catholicism.

most fucked up little catholic girl. we love that for her.

Okay homuras entire fuckin arc is stemmed from the fact she is Catholic. Look at her trying to save Madoka over and over again and suffering for it because she thinks if she suffers enough and works hard enough Madoka will stay. Normal people do not go into time loops willingly. Catholics will.

Crowley

i'm pretty sure a central point of the book is that the demon is more catholic than the angel

[every-dayiwakeup]

Okay but if Billy equates love with someone who doesn't leave him... what about Neil? His father didn't leave him, and I'm sure Billy wanted him to leave. But then he would be alone, because he's sure Susan and Max would leave, too. And he would have no one.

And if he believes staying means that someone loves him, there's a big chance he does believe Neil's abuse is love. The "love" he feels like he deserves, which isn't love at all.

Having a parent who abuses you... just makes you feel more alone than ever.

Having people in the house who know there's something going on but stay silent because they are afraid... or maybe they know something is off about you but they don't look any further...

Having the adults in your life repeatedly letting you down...

Billy is very vulnerable, and if you think about it, him dying protecting Max and El (El being one of the only people who showed him any kindness)...

He died for someone who treated him like a person. Not hurting him is literally where the bar is for Billy.

Someone caring, someone showing him any attention at all (good or bad).

These are Billy's standards.

If most of what you know is abuse in any form, then someone even asking you how your day was or if you're okay...

Someone talking to you. Someone listening. Someone paying any attention to you at all. Someone who looks at you. Someone who smiles at you.

Speaking as someone who has this mentality (it's hard to shake), and if you don't know that you deserve more than the bare minimum (this can make all the difference) it is very dangerous- and very likely for the cycle to continue, taking you right down with it.

[transgenderangel]

just finished reading scythe and i miss scythe volta :(

[80svhstapes]

I'm sorry you always advocate for abuse victims like Billy but now you're literally throwing one (Susan) under the bus. Where is your compassion for her? She is a victim of Neils as well that's so hypocritical. And to say she neglected Max willingly, she also had the depression in s4 too. Susan deserved help as well she's not a cunt omg. You always be like no comparing of abuse victims but now you do the same because she didn't help your fave as she had her own shit to worry about.

*sighs* well here's the thing anon

the biggest difference between susan and the siblings is that she's the adult and they are the CHILDREN, I would have sympathy for her IF she hadn't neglected max and billy for the entire time she's been on this show

if you're gonna neglect your kid i'm not gonna have much tolerance for you, especially if you're an addict to drugs or alcohol

this isn't to say that susan didnt deserve help I am saying I don't have any tolerance for her because she reminds me of WAY too many adults that have countlessly failed me and my best friend in my life