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“The Once and Future Knight,” Phases of the Moon Knight (Vol. 1/2024), #1.

Writer: Erica Schultz; Penciler: Manuel García; Inker: Sean Parsons; Colorist: Ceci de la Cruz; Letterer: Cory Petit

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Achilles and Patroclus: Friends Lovers or both? (An analysis based on Homeric Epics and some ancient sources)

Yet another analysis requested by my dearest friend @artsofmetamoor while we two explore the complexity of human relationships in our own projects including romantic relationships of various kinds, including homosexual and homoerotic material as well as more traditional notions of family and kinship along with the complexity of values such as companionship and friendship, which we hold in the same regard as in the above so here's one of the most discussed relationships in greek literature. Buckle up with me because it is gonna be a looooong ride!

Achilles and Patroclus are two figures of greek literature and mythology that sparked discussions and analysis from the very first time they were introoduced as characters in the homeric poems in 8th century BC and not for their heroics in Trojan War but rather the nature of their relationship. Not to mention in modern day times we also start the rather overused and kinda ridiculous joke of "Historians say" around. But there might be some truth in some concerns in regards to their relationship.

A small history of their family

Achilles and Patroclus were related by a distant ancestor, Aigina. Aigina had a son with Zeus named Aeacus who in turn got married and had Peleus, who has the father of Achilles. Patroclus comes from the same line for Aigina later marries Actor and has Menoetius with him. Menoetius marries his cousin Damocratea, also possible daughter of Zeus and had a son named Opus who in turn had Patroclus, making Patroclus and Achilles de facto first cousins by the line of Aegina

(Yes...sorry "Troy" haters out there...hahaha Patroclus really WAS Achilles's cousin! ^^; Not that it ever stopped anyone in greek mythology!)

Patroclus was ellegedly exiled from his homeland when he accidentally killed his playmate and he fled to the court of Peleus where he got adopted by him thus the two characters lived most of their childhood together. Patroclus by most accounts is quite older than Achilles so in a way he was also assigned not only as his playmate but also as his "squire" or protector in various occasions. Needless to say that of course the two of them developed a very strong bond together.

Greek Text

To be honest, every time some person who does support the theory of them being lovers is being asked on it and that person claims that "the greek text is quite simple really". Allow me to disagree though. It is not. Quite frankly if it were, it wouldn't have sparked the conversation even to ancient greeks themselves of their time!

Arguably Homer never explicitly describes them as lovers in his poems (as opposing to other figures in the text that are undoubtedly sharing sexual relationships in the Iliad such as Hera and Zeus, Paris and Helen or even, ironically Achilles with Briseis once she is returned to him). However one would be a liar if they denied certain insinuations of a romantic involvement betwen the heroes.

Φιλέω-ώ= to love < > ��ίλος=friend, companion (Substantive), beloved (epithet)

Quite frankly Homer as we said before he a master of words and none of his words is picked at random. And the term φίλος is no exception. The word is being explicitly used in Homer by various of characters. The term can be translated interchangably from either "friend" to "beloved" depending the context. One of the most infamous and touching moments this word is being used is at the lament of Achilles when his mother asks him to speak up on why he laments so hard:

With heavy groans, fast in feet Achilles responded to her: "Oh, my mother! The Olympians have done what they had predicted for me! But what joy remains for me, for my beloved comrade Patroclus is gone! I lost him! The one that I valued most among my other companions, equally to my own life!"

(Translation by me)

In here the concept of "φίλος" is clearly an epithet or plays the role of one since the actual word that we are looking for as a substantive is the word "ἑταῖρος" which stands for "companion" or "comrade" (a term used generally throughout the poems to indicate bonds in army or of friendship or even husband and wife at some cases). In here it clearly means "beloved" by the general text for the word "φίλος" is not used as a substantive. Other cases such as this appear in other parts of the poem even with the fullest form φίλτατος which means "the most beloved"

However it needs to be noted that the term φίλος as the essence of "friend" comes directly from this term "to love" which means someone "you are close with" someone "of your own kin" someone "dear to you". The ancient greeks do not seem to be making a distinction between love as in lovers and love as in family or relatives when using this verb and the words coming from it (one good example is Thetis referring to Achilles as "φίλον υἱὸν" which means "beloved son" and here has no romantic implications at all).

The term is being used interchangably throughout Homer to speak about characters with close relations of kinship that are not linked to romantic essences at all. For example the way Menelaus adresses Odysseus as such in the Odyssey:

Oh, how strange! That has come to my house the son of a man much beloved to me; who for my sake has suffered so many ordeals!

(Translation by me)

In here Menelaus again is usingthe term φίλος but he doesn't speak out of romantic intentions at all. He speaks with the warmest words but in here it is the most intimate form of friendship and kinship and is followed by the implication of gratefulness, how he adds up how Odysseus suffered "for his sake" aka to fight the war and be lost afterwards. And before someone says "it is not the same amount of warmth" one must think again because before Menelaus speaks about how because of the agony he feels for his friend he does not eat or sleep properly and given that it has been 10 years already since the last time they saw each other that is a damn long time.

But all of them I do not grieve as much, even if I mourn for them, as much as I do for one man, because of which I both detest sleep and neglect to eat, for there is no one of the Achaeans that suffered more than what Odysseus suffered and endured

(Translation by me)

So not only Menelaus feels like Odysseus suffered the most out of them (and strictly speaking one can look at fates of other heroes like Diomedes to see they are not far behind in suffering) but that the way he constantly wonders about his well-being makes him unable to sleep or eat and that seems to be happening for years and years which shows the true depth of their friendship.

So no, strictly speaking the word "to love" is not used by the greeks to imply only romantic love and it can be used pretty intimately even if it is not referring to romance. And the difference can be perceived by the same writer as well not just some play that was written several centuries later in which, inevitably, we could talk about some alterations of meaning to the words over the course of time

However there seems to be another phrase used to express intense feelings of love which is κεχαρισμένε θυμῷ which means "dear to my heart" and in Iliad ironically that phrase is spoken by no other than Briseis herself!

Oh, Patruclus! Dearest to my wretched heart!

(Translation by me)

This interesting shout of love coming from Briseis is also interesting for it could be implying both emotions of romantic love but also of affection in general. Which is another phrase that researchers have looked upon in search for hidden meanings of romance but once again it was often used either as such or with the term "φίλος" instead to speak of relationships of family or kinship. But grieving scenes such as the one of Briseis might also be indicator of romance although not exclusively referring to that.

The Lament

Quite frankly speaking, Achilles's lament is one of the most infamous and well-known in greek literature exactly because of its explicit nature. We do see characters lament in plays before but it is not as frequent to see lament SO strong coming from a male character and so openly (see for example in the Odyssey how Odysseus tries to hide his own tears many times or how his men are wrapped up in veils in lament for their own lives and their fallen comrades' but by n large the male lament is more subtle, more silent). Achilles is different. For example when he is first told about the news of Patroclus's death the result is nothing less but the ultimate emotional collapse:

So they spoke and black mist of distress covered him: With both his hands he gathered smoky sand and he poured it over his head and disfigured his face: his nectarous chiton turned black with ashes. And he himself dropped in the dirt and stretched over his lying (here: the corpse) friend/beloved pulling out his hair in lament. The slaves given as war price to Achilles and Patroclus, released a great cry of sadness and they approached all to the sides of mourning Achilles, beating their chests with their hands, and their knees each. Also Antilochus with them was lamenting and pouring tears holding the hands of Achilles: for he was moaning with his noble heart: worried that he would cut his throat with iron (here: a knife).

(Translation by me)

There is no words to express such an intense display of pain given by Achilles from second one when he receives the news of the death of Patroclus. He immediately pours ash over his head (quite a common trope for mourning done by many characters before.) and "disfiguring his face" which means he was digging his nails down his cheeks which was again a trope of mourning in greek literature. The intensity of his lament is so great that Antilochus feels the need to hold his hands just in case he would want to comit suicide in his pain!

Ironically for most part in this lament does it mention that Achilles was making any sound at all during the process, which somehow makes it even more disturbing to think that Achilles simply drops to his knees, covers himself in ashes and scratches his cheeks while lamenting over the body of Patroclus hardly making any sound at all. It is the slave women who arrive later that release the cries that undoubtedly are within the soul of Achilles. Somehow his lament is extreme and yet no audible hint exists for most part of the text EXCEPT the final one where it says "moaning with his noble heart". It almost seems that his body does most of the talking till the women arrive and cry out like he so much wants to and then his mouth also makes sounds. It is not a scream; it is a moan. It is possible of course that the clip refers to Achilles constantly moaning but I do like this as a possible food for thought that if Achilles was firstly responding to pain with his actions and then with his voice and in a way the moment he actually made a sound was the moment Antilochus truly began to worry!

There is a certain theatricality to this scene of lament and drama which of course as many analytics before me would say, it seems to be hinting to some other infamous laments of mythological characters and more specific the laments of Apollo. Apollo is one of those figures for whom we have no doubt he was lamenting his lovers and some classical examples are Hyakinthus and Cyparissus both of them transformed into a flower and a tree respectably. The associations of Achilles and the grieving god seem to be more than just a possibility here. Which of course enforces even further the idea of them being lovers. It is also the amount of time that Achilles mourns plus the intense way that he refuses to let go of the body of Patroclus to which he seems to be holding on from the 18th rhapsody when he first finds out of his death till the moment that she arrived with his armor one rhapsody later. Quite a gruesome scene is when she enters the tent and finds Achilles crying while clasping Patroclus onto him:

And she found her dearest son still lay there, clasping Patroclus and crying woefully and his comrades around him mourning

(Translation by me)

And at this point Thetis hasn't yet given nectar and ambrosia to the body of Patroclus to prevent the sepsis from happening, which happens a few lyrics later. So Achilles was holding the dead body for the entire day even after it was cleaned and prepared showing the intense pain Achilles was expressing and going through. And he seems unwilling to part from him till Patroclus's spirit itself arrives in his sleep and requests a burial so he can rest.

Of course it needs to be noted that intense lament is not exlusive to lovers in greek mythology. To name a few Athena grieves intensely the loss of her friend Pallas and by some accounts she does take her name as her epithet post-mortem. Antigone intensely mourns her dead brother and laments his disgrace when she finds that the ritual burial she performed had been disturbed. And the acting of killing oneself out of sorrow again is not strictly remaining to the love affairs. For example Ismene killing herself after learning the deaths of her family members in general and Antigone in particular. Another most prominient example is king Aegeus who throws himself into the sea when he sees the black sails of the ship coming from Crete, thinking his son was dead.

So the exessive expression of grief are not just dedicated to lovers or husbands and wives in greek literature but rather it is expanded to all people who mourn someone dear to them regardless of the nature of the bond between them. In the case of Achilles of course he does seem to be having a specially strong mental breakdown every time some important person in his life that is said to be romantically involved with him dies or is taken from him starting with Briseis for whom he expresses his emotions many times in the Iliad and she is the first reason of his anger, of course Patroclus and Penthesilea for whom he apparently has feelings for a few monets after he sees her face after she dies. In Posthomerica it is even said that his lamentover her dead body is "the same as the one over Patroclus" and of course Antilochus later according to the Epic Cycle when he died protecting his father, caused another explosion of anger to Achilles which was fated to be his last one.

It is possible since his love is clearly stated in the cases of Briseis and Penthesilea that the same can have occured for Antilochus and of course Patroclus which was the most heartbreaking of them all and for good reason. In fact the case of Patroclus seems to be that he plays every role in the life of Achilles. He is his friend, his companion, his squire, his advisor so why not his lover too.

The Same Urn

Now of course where people surely think they have a clear case of romantic bond seems to be the request of Patroclus to be burnt but his bones to be kept in the same urn that is to be used for Achilles as well. The passage happens in the 23rd rhapsody:

And one more thing I ask for you to excecute; do not place my bones apart from yours, Achilles, but together just like we were raised in your chambers, when I was brought to your land by Menetoios as a little boy from Opois because of the grievous manslaughter, for when I was a child I was foolish and killed the son of Amphidamas without wanting to, for I was mad over a game of dice: there I was accepted to the chambers of the horseman of Peleus who kindly took care of me and named me your squire. And the same way I want for my bones to be together with yours in the same golden box, the one your divine mother prepared for you.

(Translation by me)

So apart from the fact that it is a highly emotional scene, seeing your dead companion arriving at you and begging to be let go (this is literally Patroclus saying "Let me go, Achilles...just let me go" for Achilles literally refuses to give up his body not even for a burial) it is also the scene that seems to be winking to the fans of the idea of them being lovers as a proof that they are together. And quite frankly I can absolutely see why and it would be foolish to ignore this possibility especially given how tenderly Achilles calls him "my beloved" (or "as loved as my own life") after the whole request is done from the spirit of Patroclus which is more than clear indication for many accounts and that makes perfect sense.

The custom of co-burial was known in Greece from the earliest times of its civilization till the end (because quite honestly I am not sure the custom will stop existing in Greece since despite the lack of cremations, we still have the custom of common graves even if it is only for those who can afford have a family monument). We often find urns contain bones of multiple individuals and yes more often whatnot they are maritable partners and the obsession of words that mean "together" in this passage such as; "μή (...) ἀπάνευθε" (not apart), "ὁμοῦ" (at the same place, together) or "ἀμφικαλύπτω" (cover each other) seems to be pointing to the direction of a romantic relationship and it won't be the only time someone is co-relating the mingling of ashes and bones with "marriage" (and example is The Hunchback of Notre Dame, where Victor Hugo describes the way Quasimodo and Esmeralda's skeletons turn into inseparable dust as "Quasimodo's Marriage")

However on the counter-talk, co-burials were also common among family members (which is exactly what Achilles and Patroclus are). Ironically from the excavations to Mycenae several co-burials were discovered that were not related by blood but they were theorized to be connected to some relations of adoption (which again seems to fit the case of Achilles and Patroclus from the time Patroclus was brought in and ellegedly adopted by Peleus)

I am also convinced that the fact Patroclus gives us some good portion of his background story here was not just a random thing. It seems that Patroclus places emphasis on why he wants to be in the same urn as Achilles; because they were raised together, they were together all their lives and he wants them to be together in death as well. It absolutely could be a romantic insinuation on Patroclus's part however it seems equally possible that the background story serves as a lever to make the public understand how the two of them were raised together and wished to remain together. It almost feels like Homoer wants either to stimulate the idea that the past is an extra point towards their romantic relationship or yet another point of the closeness of their kinship or both (to me it seems the latter)

However another factor to this urn seems to be Antilochus. Antilochus who was close to the age of Achilles, the one who was in charge to bring the news of Patroclus's death to Achilles and the one that we saw consoling him and trying to prevent him from doing something foolish seems to be added to this circle. In fact in some future sources he is featured as the reason Achilles died, for he was driven in yet another furious attack against the Trojans, forcing them to fall back when he saw him fall dead protecting his father from the Ethiopian king Memnon. In some accounts, even possibly Homer included, is insinuated that Antilochus was also included in the funerary urn with Achilles and Patroclus although in the Odyssey it is clearly stated that his bones are not in it:

Your mother gave me this golden amphora (here an urn with two handles); a gift from Dionysus she said to me, made by the renounced Hephestus, in which lie your white bones, radiant Achilles, mixed with the ones of dead Patroclus son of Menoetius, but without Antilochus, whom he honored above all his comrades after Patroclus died.

(Translation by me)

So in the Odyssey it doesn't seem like they were indeed in the same urn (unless somehow Nestor could tell the bones apart and took them out? hehe) but they all thee of them are joined in one tomb and worshipped as heroes. So in a way Antilochus seems to join them just not in the same box. However the three of them are indeed seen together in the underworld as one trio literally. They are apparently joined after death according to what Odysseus saw in the underworld.

Once again seems like the romantic as well as the kinship theories could be true interchangably or even at the same time.

Ancient Greeks on their relationship:

As I mentioned above many ancient writers and not just the infamous "historians" everyone mocks on the internet, seem to have placed their own guesses and opinions on the relationships of the two heroes.

Aeschines seems to be contemplating the idea they are lovers (aka he says that Homer "hides their love") and he even reads Patroclus's story as "an intercourse they had once". He names their relationship έρως aka romantic love (eros). Aristotle in Nicomachian Ethics and Rethoric he uses the term "comrade" to talk of them, choosing to focus more on their friendship. His teacher Plato though was a different story. He was convinced that they were not only lovers but he had also figured their roles in their relationship as presented in his Symposium, naming Patroclus as ἐραστής aka "the one who gives love" and mentions how Achilles is in love with Patroclus. Plato remains one of the most...great "shippers" of the two having no doubt about their love affair. To the other end is Xenophon who is adamant that they are not lovers, in his own Symposium. A large number of greek writers seem also to comment on both possibilities, it seems to me quite interesting how many different readings the homeric poems provide.

More mordern readings:

While it is true that there is a certain confusion to the public since a large number of texts either were deliberately modified or genuinely mistranslated (given again how terms like φιλώ means "to love" in general in ancient greek and not just romantically or that the term ερώ does mean "to love as a lover" in some contexts but it also means "to desire very much" and it was used in various of contexts) and these double-meanings were taken advantage of to translate the texts differently and that is because when someone in modern times says "my beloved" by n large they refer to a lover which was something that was greatly hushed up in public

Of course as we stated above for ancient greece that was not the case since the term "beloved" could be used in various contexts and it showed intense emotions of kinship between two people regardless of the nature of their relationship.

However in some accounts the obsession upon trying not to show intense potentual homoerotic material made many of these translations unreliable. There were exceptions to the rule of course but the real breakthrough wouldn't really happen till later in the 19th century where we also have more samples of printed work. Translations like Butler at the end of 19th century are far reliable to the text and seem to follow the spirit of Homer. Quite frankly there was already a breakthrough to homoerotic material thanks to not only the neo-classisim but also gothic literature such as the vampire novelle Carmilla so many writers became more bold into translating the tender words of love as they were and leave the public decide upon their nature.

However this effort to hush up the tender words spoken in Homer out of fear that they might be interpreted as homoerotic created of course this modern uprage in which we have the other way round; that people are afraid to talk about friendhsip and kinship because they will be hushed up by the readings of the text as homoerotic

(see my other post for this)

This, in my opinion simply removes all the abive context; that love can be expressed between family members or friends or people who have been through a lot. Quite frankly as you can see not only I am not denying their energy as lovers, I like to believe I am also supporting this theory a lot because there is a lot of possibility in it just like there is on the direction of tenderness and affection. I do think today people are afraid to speak up on the other side exactly bcause nowadays the most famous way to see them is as lovers as opposed to the previous periods that did the other way round

Conclusions:

I have no doubts that Homer, even though not clearly speaking about it (for example referring to sexual acts) he seems to be insinuating that the two of them were sharing romantic bond or feelings for each other

(it needs to be noted that it is not entirely clear that if there WERE romantic feelings that they were confessed or known by both parties, which could potentially mean the two of them loved each other romantically but did not fulfill their love which could be another tragic note to their story)

Homer seems to be sending several hints to his viewers/readers that one could interpret them as lovers given the tender dictionary they use between each other and for each other, allowing his...fans to decide for themselves. It is also highly possible that he too saw them as star-crossed lovers, for he gives them all the elements of various other stories that involve homoerotic romance, even the tragic end to their story.

However I am equally sure that he also wanted to say that their friendship was of equal importance. There is no doubt that Homer considered them close friends (for he gives us a small hint of their backstory, how they grew together) and their story is being projected like many other duos and characters in the Trojan war that are linked together with bonds of kinship and companionship; stories that flourish at war. He might not straight out tell us that they are the case of story "from friends to lovers" but he absolutely seems to be letting us know that their kinship is there!

And I am grateful to Homer for his writing because it seems to me he wanted both sides to equally enjoy the story; whether they are those who do think their closeness is romance and those who think it is close kinship, strong family bonds or friendship. I am almost convinced that Homer deliberately used that as a way to please both sides of the audience or to give a more tragic aftertaste to their story since closeness is much more impactful to the face of separation.

I like them both and in fact I support them simoultaneously for honestly there is no best lover than your best friend; someone you can trust with everything you have. If I had to support one form of love, this would be it but at the same time I do support the idea that friendship is already a powerful bond of two people and that romantic love in this case would come as a bonus. Somehow Homer does seem to entertain this idea in his writing given again the extreme tenderness and the tragedy of these two while at the same time leaving the door open for his audience to speculate, make interpretations and enjoy the story in their own perspective.

If that is not art I dunno what is.

Okay guys this is only but scrapping the surface of this relationship that lasted for 3000 years now! Hahaha but I hope you like this! It took me several hours to synthesize but I hope you like it.

[sanjisblackasswife]

ℂ𝕒𝕥𝕔𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕋𝕙𝕖𝕞

Ft. Luffy, Zoro, Sanji

Bad Summary: You catch them playing with themselves to you.

Cw: SMUT, All consensual , Established relationships, Sanji does Panty Stealing, Zoro is looking at Seuxal Pictures, Luffy is Watching You

Luffy

Luffy was never the type to have shame. Any shame he did have was long diminished after he started dating you.

“Put…ah! Your fucking fingers inside yourself.”

Like now.

Like clockwork Luffy is behind the creaked bathroom door squinting his eyes to focus on the slutty sight before him.

“Lu…”

Two fingers making messy circles on your soft worn clit in the bath tub. It’s been about 1 week of no sex time with your boyfriend so the little time you do have to relax. You use it thinking about him.

It’s been 4 days of this routine so far and by the second day you found out your boyfriend was a true pervert you decided to give him a show.

It wasn’t hard to find out, right after getting out the tub you noticed the door opened and his hat left on the floor.

He was always horrible at stealth. Plus his moans didn’t seem to be so quiet either.

Tonight, you grew tired. It was fun at first to have him watch you moan his name, aching and wishing your fingers was his tongue instead but now you crave the real thing.

Opening your eyes, you and Luffy’s lowered lids meet, and in an instant you see his head vanish, you knew he was panicked so you giggle.

“You can’t watch me forever, Lu…come here.”

Peaking his head back in, cheeks flustered and bangs almost covering his eyes he eases his way in, your eyes widen to see him COMPLETELY naked trying to cover his dick but the closeer got to you the more his hands moved back down.

“How’d you know I was watching you.”

“Because I know how you sound when you’re moaning—“

“I DO NOT MOAN, YOU DO WAY MORE THAN ME!” He pouts crossing his arm, his dick springing up still hard and blushing which makes you burst out laughing

“HAHAHA! Fine, just come in here I’m tired of using my fingers.”

“I bet you are. You’re bad at it anyways—“

“Excuse you!”

Luffy giggles jumping into the bath with you, your arms immediately are thrown around his neck for multiple kisses as he hovers over you in the warm water since you missed him so much before getting to the part you both been waiting for and needless to say you proved him right.

You do in fact moan more than he does.

Sanji

Such a pervert

such a damn pervert.

He has been stealing your panties from the day you allowed him to be your boyfriend.

You never knew for what exactly, a trophy? A good luck charm? You didn’t care to ask, he was a pervert and you knew it before you got with him so it didn’t matter.

But this evening you finally figured it out

Sanji thought you were too busy hanging out with the girls that he didn’t want to steal you away. Which was no bother for him seeing as he had the perfect material to help him out when he is in need.

“Shit…” His breathing was shaky and slightly muffed from how he was pretty much smothering himself in your scent. Your pretty used thong right under his nose, he just couldn’t stop himself from moaning into the fabric.

Sanji knew it was wrong, even filthy but it all was too good, he imagined you in them, fingering yourself and crying out his name, maybe you’ve actually done it in those panties specifically. You have told him you do it from time to time when he’s busy and that thought alone causes him to pump his cock faster.

Even to do it on your side of the bed drove him insane he just didn’t want to stop but he had to quickly or else—

“Havin’ fun?”

You couldn’t hear the concealed scream from your boyfriend. Trying to hide your panties rather than his dick standing tall and proud in front of you.

“I-I um! I—“

“Stop stuttering you look a mess.” You close the door and lock it behind you to crawl on top of him, “You had to be naked to do all this?”

“I…my love I was…I just…I miss—MPH!”

You knew whatever bullshit excuse was ganna annoy you so you decided to shut him up with a kiss, not too long after you hand wonders to his cock giving it gentle strokes causing Sanji to whimper in your mouth and buck his hips.

He’s so pathetic and it turns you on so much.

“I knew wearing this skirt would have stirred something in you.”

“H-how’d you know…I-I-I mean you do look ravishing —“

“Yeah. I know I do…which is why I felt you eye fucking me since breakfast.”

Sanji couldnt have been more embarrassed, but you didnt seem to mind. It was a form of flattery to you.

“Well.” You throw off your top and toss your bra, the pervert’s eyes widen in shock to see your perked nipples at eye level “Lemme help you finish. I’m pretty sure my panties arent as good as the real thing yeah?”

Your love cook couldn’t have been more blessed to have a girlfriend just as pervy as him seeing as you began to stroke his shaft grinning beside his ear.

“Lemme hear some more moans of my name, Ji…please.”

“I—Ah!”

“Oooohhh Y/N! shit!”

“Good…hmmmm boy baby…”

He sounded even prettier with your slit rubbing against his shaft.

Zoro

He’s so full of shit lmao.

He teases you about playing with yourself to the thought of him but his ass uses pictures of YOU to get off.

You once gifted Zoro a few …provocative pics of you completely naked and at first he was a stuttering mess,

“I CAN’T HAVE THESE WHAT IF USOPP OR THAT EROCOOK GETS AHOLD OF EM?!”

“Then hide em.”

“YOU—!?”

He kept them, but swore to you he will burn them.

Well. It’s been 2 months and he haven’t lit up nothing yet.

“Fuck—“

You of course none the wiser didn’t know, he would use the spare time he had after a workout to use sometimes to …

blow off more steam..

His groans were nothing less than low, you were coming to see him because you missed him but the noises he was releasing from your room made you almost break your neck trynna see

“Fuck..FUCK!”

You gasp, of course that’s where go disappears to after training. Bastard didn’t even shower, laying all sweaty on your bed.

his wet tank top over his head

panting

face blushed looking at the lewd photos of your pussy

moaning your name

“Fuck it.”

You walk in and he looked at you like a deer in headlights, all you could do was smirk

“GET OUT!”

“IT’S MY ROOM YOU PIECE OF SHIT—“

“….”

“…”

“….don’t…”

You lock the door behind you, not wasting no time to crawl on his strong bare legs to straddle him, “Don’t what? Don’t say anything? Don’t say anything about you being so obsessed with me you didn’t even—“

He tried shutting you up with a kiss, and you ALMOST FOLDED but no. You had him in such a rare form you had to pull back.

“Uh huh. I wanna savor how shitty you are.”

“ME?! WHY—“

“BECAUSE YOU SAID YOU WAS GANNA BURN THESE AND LOOK AT YOU!”

You tease your finger tips up from his balls to his tip, playing with the stickiness of his precum that always riled Zoro up. He was so cute squirming below you.

“Well. Are you ganna suck it or not.”

“PFFFTTTHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA!…You think you ganna get it that easy?! Not from the shit you pulled, making fun of me for playing with myself but here you are doing the same.”

You push yourself off of him to take off your panties and face him with your legs spread teasing your clit as his eyes grow 2 times wider, cock already twitching.

“You’ll have to give me a show first.”

[keri-mcberry]

I am absolutely delighted with your comic! Oooh but now I'm curious and want to know more about Lyla's parents 😭❤️ How did they meet, where did they come from, how was their first meeting, love at first sight or something worked out? I read that Mr. Estaris didn't know how to speak the language well, did that influence anything?

Tell me more 😫

AWW thank you so much! 😭 Sorry it took me a while to answer this because I was wondering about their backstory myself LOL. I know they met in their early 20s, but I'm still trying to figure out HOW they met 🤔

Right now, I have it in my head that Luis moved from the Philippines to London to start a new life, but unfortunately he didn't speak English very well. So he struggled to find work and meet new people for a while with what little English he knew 🥺

As for Ava, I'm thinking she grew up in a very strict household with her father in London. Once she began to excel in fencing and schooling, it was nonstop lessons every day. She was suffocating under the weight of her father's expectations 😣

Maybe they met while Ava was out on an errand and noticed Luis getting bullied by some locals? She comes to his aid, and it was IMMEDIATELY love at first sight for Luis LOL. After witnessing this beautiful woman tearing his bullies a new one, he was SOLD HAHAHA 🤣

I like to imagine that their first conversation was really awkward with the language barrier 😭😂 So Ava decides to teach him how to read and speak English, (initially out of pity) but they eventually became close friends! She was so drawn to his silly and kind nature, which was difficult to come by considering her upbringing. The thing she admired most about Luis was his ability to make the most out of every situation. Needless to say, she fell in love too 🤭💕 Of course Ava's father didn't approve, but they eloped anyways! A couple years later, they had Lyla 🥰💛

One of the things they had in common was their love for reading, so now they run a bookshop together (which is something I wish I figured out sooner so I could've included it in the Spring Break series 😭) They definitely would've let Sebastian take home a few Muggle books to read!

[ultimatepokemontournament]

Gratitudes Combo Post! I shall be bulk replying to nice messages that people have sent me here in an attempt to minimize clutter! I hope this works for you all as well!

@roodllle I'm very very glad the system works for you!!

For those that weren't here at the start, I actually did initially have set polls up to be daily, but after a bit of poking at it, I was able to figure out how to make polls weekly and still keep things moving on at a good pace! It seems people have enjoyed that a lot more so I'm very glad I put the work in to make the switch!!

I found the reblogs important too, just cause I know how fast things can disappear on the dashboard, and how hard it can be to remember what events are going on, especially if stuff if happening on a daily basis! Plus I talk to a lot of people in very different time zones, so my morning is definitely someone else's midnight.

(Many more below the cut!!)

@pileofrats It is indeed a full time job gjfisjgfi but if I wasn't willing to do such things For Science, then what kind of scientist would I be? :D (It says Science twice on my diploma, not that you need a degree to be a scientist, but just to show that I am dedicated.)

@vampiredeliverylady I have indeed been thanked, but it's very nice to hear it every time!! Thank you for taking the time to write such a nice message and it's wonderful to hear that this tournament is making a positive impact for you !!!!

@samuwhal Thank you so much! I'm very glad you're enjoying it and hope you keep having fun!

Thank you! I hope you have a wonderful day (and I hope all of your interceding days have been wonderful too) as well! I'll admit I maybe wasn't thinking about how much work 1000+ Pokemon would be when I started, but I'm dedicated to seeing this through! (And they've added new ones since I've started!! I'm going to have to go back in and work those in after I'm done here. </3)

Thank you!!! 💙💙💙

I am !! Sometimes it gets a little stressful, but at the end of the day, I'm very lucky and very happy to be here!

Thank you!! I definitely gotta keep it organized, because I absolutely would lose stuff if I didn't ahaha, so it works out for everyone! (And if I am occasionally secretly hoping that sometimes people are finding about this tournament from individual Pokemon tags that they're browsing, well, let's keep that a secret between us ;D)

And needless to say, I am also very lucky to have you all here with me :D !! A tournament is not a tournament without all of you participating and hyping up your favorites!

Thank you so much!! It really means a lot!! 😊

@taintedhallows you know it!! :D 💪💪💪

@commieorcs Thank you!! I hope you're having fun participating! :D

@indiana-grace Thank you! They're definitely a huge help to me too because I absolutely would vote differently if I couldn't look them in their little eyes before casting my own votes hahaha. My hope is that it also makes it more newbie friendly as well, since I know not everyone voting is familiar with all of them!

Thank YOU!

gjiofsjgf I'm glad it's working out then!! I too am often too busy to pay attention to other polls I'll admit. Often times the only thing I do on Tumblr in a day is work on this tournament lol

Ok, I think that's a wrap! I shall now clear these asks out of my inbox, but one more collective thank you to all of you and everyone who has said nice things!! It's very very sweet and kind of you all and has given me a lot of energy and motivation to keep pushing forward with this!

Sorry for taking so long to answer some of these!! I know I wanted to avoid clutter, but I could've made smaller grouped response posts and answered these collectively sooner!

[awrestlinggirlwholoves80sbands]

AU of GNR going to a carnival?

Hi, my brain could only come up with headcanons, so I hope you like it. Also I might have blended a bit of how luna parks work here, because honestly I'm not American and carnival to me is like the Venice carnival hahaha.

Axl:

- Mr recklessness himself. He will try every ride that looks like it could kill you.

-"Axl, I'm not going on something that looks like it's about to shoot me out of space. "

-"C'mon it's going to be fun!"

- Probably he will drag you into the house of horrors but then you both get scared.

- He will spoil you. Are you hungry? He will buy every treat you want. You see a cute souvenir? Boom, it's paid and in your bag now.

- However he is extremely competitive. Shooting gallery? He will look like those poor targets own him money. He wants to win the plushie and he will win the plushie for you.

- If he succeeds, he makes sure you get the biggest one, if he doesn't, he will pout but still try to have fun for you.

- Beside the shooting gallery, his worst enemy is the punching machine. He wants to impress you, no matter what, even if you are aware of how strong he is.

-"Babe c'mon. No need to impress me, that's not our first date!"

-"I gotta beat my record!"

-Before getting home, you will have your romantic moment on the top of the ferris-wheel.

Slash:

-Slash loves rides, especially the one that will spike your adrenaline. So be ready to not have a break.

-You will both scream at the top of your lungs, out of excitement and fear.

-If your stomach is upset, he will take pity on you and wait before hopping on the next ride.

-Even more than rides, he loves the haunted house. If you are a big horror fan like you, then great!

-But if you are not, you either gather your courage or don't follow him.

- He will probably be so happy to be scared by random noises and flashing lights. He has even the courage to tell you that he didn't find it scary enough.

-"To be honest that scream wasn't even that scary."

-" I'm happy you didn't, because I found it very fucking scary."

- He will wear his sunglasses on every ride, it doesn't matter that you get thrown upside down. Somehow they will stay on him.

- If either you manage to win a prize, you already know if there's a snake stuffed animal, he will choose it and you will make him carry it around.

-"We should call it Elton John, it will make him a gentleman"

- Slash will laugh and you will know everything is worth that smile.

Duff:

-Duff loves carnivals, he didn't have a lot of money growing up so he didn't manage to go often.

- He will take advantage of his height at any time and make lighthearted jokes about you being shorter than him.

-"Are you sure you can go on this ride? Are you tall enough?"

-Jokes on him tho, because you drag him on the carousel and other rides for people who are not as tall as he is.

-"Is the horse too small for you, Duffy?

- Food doesn't discriminate and you make sure to get different dishes so you can taste them all, from funnel cake to chicken and waffle.

- You convince him (more like he pretends to have to be convinced) to go on the ferris-wheel for a romantic moment.

- The view isn't the best but the kiss at the very top pays off everything. You even joke about how this is the way Duff sees the world, so up there, and he will laugh.

- Lastly you want to take a photo in a tiny photo booth, to remember this day.

-Needless to say you take a few minutes to figure out how to get both in frame, without cutting Duff's head in the picture.

-"Say cheese!"

-" I can't feel my legs anymore."

-" But look how cute you are in this!" And you really mean it.

Izzy:

-he is not a big fan of carnival, but he will still go with you.

- Will skip most rides with the excuse that he needs to hold your stuff and he likes to look at it better anyway.

- You will manage to drag him to some rides, and he will be the most chill even while he is excited.

- "Did you have fun?"

-"It was okay. I liked when it felt like we were about to fall into the void."

- However you discover he has a secret talent : guessing how much something weighs by holding it.

- How's that helpful at a carnival? A game where you have to guess precisely the weight of an object.

-He will win a giant teddy bear that will make you both take turns to hold.

-"Why are you so good with weights?"

-"My previous "legal" job? "

-You know he had fun, even if might not show it. He can be just as crazy and childish as the rest of the band.

Steven:

-He is a child at heart so he will try every ride. Every single one of them.

-He will drag you to the carousel, saying it's not only for kids but for couples too.

-He is not the most precise with tiro al segno, but he will manage to win a small stuffed animal. Great, now it is your child.

-"C'mon, I bet we are short enough to pass for teenagers!"

-"Steven, it's literally a dog shaped train for children."

-His second favorite thing to do is eating. He will want to try every single food and will get upset if you say he can't.

- "I can't choose just one! You know I love both the caramel apple and the deep fried oreos."

-Needless to say he will get both and feel full for approximately an hour before asking for food again.

-He will still want to ride even with a full tummy, which means he will look like he's about to puke most of the time.

-"No way we are going on that roller-coaster after you ate a whole turkey leg."

-"But I feel fine!"

- At the end you will spend a fun day, feeling like a child again, with a new stuffed animal, hopefully with a non-sick Steven and getting over some of your roller-coaster fear.

[yukidragon]

Listen, Yuki, I’ve got to know. I didn’t come onto the SDJ fandom until maybe a month ago which means I’ve never seen much of JambeeBot’s art on twitter and Sauce’s old art, but I’ve HAVE to ask if you remember what Jack’s results were for the BDSM test? I’ve only seen hints here and there showing his top 5 or what was above 80% (for example, they wrote about his 100% exhibitionist tendencies, 100% primal Hunter instincts, 100% dominant tendencies, 97% degrader, 94% voyeur, rigger, brat tamer, master/mistress, sadist, and experimentalist side) but I haven’t seen anything else and I’m dying to know the rest! For scientific reasons, of course :o) I’m extremely interested on what you think how each of Jack’s results play out with his sunshine, especially with his more degrading side, sadist tendencies, and that primal hunter kink. We all know that he totally has a breeding kink (or at least the need to fill his sunshine with his love~) outside of the test results, but do you think that could possibly go hand in hand with his primal side? I love this incredibly horny clown man and reading all your theories and thoughts are always a delight so I figured you’d be the best person to ask! Have an awesome night!

-🧜🏻‍♀️

Aww, thank you for such kind words. I'm glad you enjoy my posts.💖

I actually used the test in a recent post about my personal headcanons when it comes to the love/sex preferences of the main cast. I went into detail about what I personally read into the test results, so I won't rehash too much here, but I'll post the BDSM results here as well.

In the post, I assumed that the degrader kink only went as far as Jack embarrassing his sunshine. As I recall, there were concerns raised about the kink, and an example was given of getting a character who was flustered by being in girly clothes to wear dresses. This, plus the rumor that Jack is unable to swear formed my opinion on how this kink was expressed in my post.

Then the new audio drama dropped on patreon where Jack calls his sunshine his slutty sundrop and has quite the potty mouth.

Needless to say, I've had to reassess those particular theories, though I'm sticking with my personal headcanons for Sunshine in Hell. I'm big into sweet romance and vanilla fluff, so I'm definitely exploring overall softer narratives for this yandere fandom, hahaha.

That's an interesting thought that his primal hunter kink would tie into a breeding kink. Personally, I headcanon that Jack has a huge breeding kink, since fathering a child would be the ultimate proof that he's real.

As we've heard in the audio... Jack really wants to fill his sunshine up with his cum "love" and make sure it's always inside them.

@channydraws @earthgirlaesthetic @sai-of-the-7-stars @cheriihoney @illary-kore @okamiliqueur

[apoptoses]

DA here reporting for duty 😎 needless to say I completely agree with what’s been said (you characterization is incredible YES IT IS), but also can we hear a little commotion for the smut!? You smut is life changing, every single intimate gesture feels SO big, so monumental, a transformative experience for the characters. The restaurant scene comes to mind, where Armand is just watching Daniel eat then making him eat then feeding him himself, it’s such a torturous, delicious build up that feels sexual every step of the way and they don’t even touch (properly) nevertheless kiss or fuck. And yet there I was reading it like it was the Count of Montecristo. Just exquisite 🤌🏼 But also there is this thing about your writing where everything feels big and important, even the building up to the big moments feels monumental, every gesture full of emotion and ahem, monstrous intimacy 😮‍💨

Dungeon anon 💖💖

Hahaha, would you believe that when I posted the Copley fic I actually took a klonopin and cried? I was so convinced the sexual tension would not telegraph, that people would read it and think it's totally weird because it's just a single bite of cake, and I would be some kind of insane feeding kink pariah lol I absolutely agonized about sharing it.

But I'm so thrilled by the positive response it's gotten and so thrilled that you're here commenting directly on the smut. Because I love figuring out how a mortal and a vampire could connect sexually, and thinking about what Armand gets out of all of it. Sometimes writing about his sensory experiences is more fun than writing about Daniel's dick feelings and that's pretty cool (though I really love writing him all turned on and sloppy with desire for the monster in his bed).

And I'm so glad it all feels big and important. Because in my mind it's all important, like Armand snatching Daniel's cigarettes from his pocket is an intimate action and just as big as Armand sticking his hand down Daniel's pants.

And because I love you, and because anyone willing to put aside shame and comment directly on smut deserves a treat, here's some vampire on vampire action I'm working on:

Armand turned his face. Daniel’s mouth was so close, right there in front of him. All he had to do was close his eyes, lift his head and close the scant few inches between them for the first time in twenty years. It would feel so good- kissing Daniel had always felt like licking a battery, like getting an electric shock that started at his mouth and spread out through his veins until his entire body sang with it. Armand inhaled softly, angled his face just right. Got so close he could feel the brush of Daniel’s lips against his.

The whine he let out when Daniel pulled back was pathetic. He tried to reach out and drag him back in but before he could a pair of strong hands caught his wrists.

“Really, Daniel,” Armand muttered when he saw the smug grin on his face.

Daniel pressed a kiss to his palm that sent warmth blooming all the way down his arm. “What, you don’t like your own tricks used against you?”

[oedipusted]

True: I told a follower I would post pics of my mother. But they are stuck on a broken computer. I said I figured out how to post another pic of her. To do so I had to contact 5 different friends to find one that could scan a photo into their phone to send me. The 5th one would be able to do it. I had to contact my sister to obtain the photo to scan. Needless to say, I had to explain to each of these people why I needed the photo scanned and sent to me. They all got a kick out of hearing the explanation! So now 6 local people know about my blog. Anything they did not know before (some did not know much) they will definitely know all about it all now!

My sister said "Omg, you are actually going totally public about you and Mom! You have chosen to do so? Hahaha! It is about time! People all along have been asking me if it is really true. Now I will tell everyone it is true. I will tell everyone all about it. Your goal shall be met, everyone will know my brother is in love with and dating our Mom! Hahaha."

[fallingangeltl]

Vanis SR Story - What I Must Do

Chapter 1

Vanis: What do you need? It’s unusual for you to call on me.

Adder: I’ve decided. About tomorrow’s kickoff party.

Tomorrow, all factions, humans, demons— and angels, will gather in Colchicum. I wanted to ask how you would be conducting yourself amidst it all.

Vanis: Me? Why now? I’ll just do what I always do.

Adder: As you always do…… huh. It seems you understand what you have to do as a freeloader.

Your redeeming quality is that affability of yours. Tomorrow, you’ll be networking. And if anyone catches your eye, you will inform me later.

Vanis: So you want me to screen people that could be used as pawns…… is that what you mean?

Adder: Well, that’s what I meant. I don’t intend on letting freeloaders eat for free. Do it well.

Vanis: Got it. Well, I was going to do that even if you didn’t tell me to, you know.

(Internally) Besides…… Tomorrow is a great opportunity to figure out what Gypsophila’s intentions are. In order to fulfill my purpose, I can’t miss this chance.

Is that all you wanted to talk about? I don’t think it’s worth calling me here just for that…… Unless, could it be that you were worried about me?

Adder: You guessed it.

Vanis: Isn’t it even more unlike you to be worried about me?

Adder: Worried…… It’s a bit different from that. It’d be more accurate to say I’m uneasy?

I think you also realize this, but naturally he will also be attending the kickoff party.

Vanis: He?

Adder: If you’re going to play dumb then I’ll say it clearly. It’s “Mere.”

Vanis: ………

Adder: Kukuku…… Your usual composed expression disappeared. As expected of you, though, to do so at the mention of Mere’s name.

Vanis: What are you getting at?

Adder: It doesn’t matter. Just don’t ruin my reputation tomorrow.

(Time passes, at the kickoff party)

Human Man: Hahaha! How interesting! To think that there’d be interesting people like you in the demon world!

Vanis: Thank you. I’m happy to hear you say that.

(Internally) Fuu…… Adder said all that to me yesterday, but I’m the same as usual. There’s nothing to be apprehensive about. At this rate, those expectations will……

Human Noblewoman: Kyaaa……!

Vanis: Oops.

Are you alright?

It’s good to have fun at parties, but don’t get too excited.

It would be terrible if a beautiful person such as yourself fell and got a scar on their face. You should be more aware of your own beauty.

Human Noblewoman: I-I’m sorry……

Vanis: No need to apologize. I should be saying sorry for saying something that would dampen your spirits.

As an apology…… Would you like to dance with me? Let’s enjoy this wonderful night even more together.

Human Noblewoman: B-By all means!

Chapter 2

Adder: Why are you in a place like this? The party hasn't ended yet.

Vanis: You…… No, I just needed a change of pace.

Adder: Changing pace is your way of doing things…… But, as a matter of course, what you need to do is also going favorably, correct?

Vanis: Of course. I’ve left no stone unturned. It seems your needless worrying from yesterday is over.

Adder: Needless? Don’t degrade me. Your pace is slower than usual, it’s obvious.

Vanis: What are you talking about? I’m the same as usual.

Adder: Don’t play dumb. After all, that Gypsophila lot are here, so it seems you’re more fatigued than usual.

Vanis: …… Good grief.

I thought I was hiding it well. You’re really observant, aren’t you.

Adder: Hmph. It must have been a burden for you since you’re just a freeloader. If you’re worn out, shouldn’t you scurry back to the demon world?

Vanis: Hahaha. Thank you for your concern. However, you’re caring too much. I won’t quit halfway through.

Adder: …… Hm, so that’s how it is.

That’s the correct answer. If you said you were going to quit here and now, I would’ve kicked you out of the manor.

We’re connected by our mutual interests. Don’t forget, if you become complacent, then you’ll no longer be of use to me.

Vanis: So you weren’t worried about me, you were testing me?

Adder: Who’s to say. At least, don’t betray my expectations.

(Adder leaves)

Vanis: Whew, Adder really is scary. He said he would kick me out, but that alone is inexcusable.

But…… I haven’t changed. Yes…… I just have to do what I must do.

(Time passes)

Vanis: Here, this is a list of humans who are connected with the devil. You can put this to good use, right?

Adder: Looks like you still have some value to you.

Vanis: It’s most important that you seem satisfied. So, does this mean I won’t be kicked out?

Adder: For now.

Vanis: That’s good, then. I also think it’s worth staying in Belladonna.

For the sake of doing what I must do…… Alright?

[cosmossystem]

[reply from @the-bioelectrical-network: "Thank you kind existences!!! I am much curious and info seeking….. you may decline to explain such concept to me or I would really love to have a conversation (mostly me asking your perspective and thoughts!) about MOGAI and such if you are up to but otherwise please have a lovely timezone :)) but again no need to strain yourselves since it sounds like a painful topic for you!" end ID]

not painful at all hahaha just a very obnoxious one to be honest. not sure what there is much to discuss

for the most part, i already explained transid here so im not going back over it and its many pitfalls, save for one.

i (and many of us in system) were there in the early days of MOGAI, literally since its coining, so ive seen it all. i still think xenogenders, neopronouns, all the works can be useful. of course, those are things that have existed longer than i've been alive, and i have absolutely no doubts that in a totally liberated world, we would use (and be encouraged to use) such tools. but there were/are many problems with the MOGAI community at large; and, aside from the ever-present clique aspect (which is an issue on its own) i think the number-one takeaway from it was that it really misunderstood the point of the queer community to begin with.

i guess in laymans terms, the problem i have is not with the labels themselves but with what they represent. in my experience, the more someone becomes confident in their gender and expression, the less they need hyper-specific xeno labels. you become less obsessed with finding that "one perfect match" and more comfortable in the ambiguity of not truly 100% knowing what, exactly, you experience--because no one, not even cisgender people, can perfectly describe their gender.

gender is a social construct with rich history, connotations, definitions, culture, contexts, expression, and mostly? it is entirely vibe-based. we only know what a man is because weve all decided what a man is, collectively. something vague such as "oceangender" can never truly encompass an experience as it is entirely subjective. in some ways that is great and intentional, but that intent is its own downfall; doomed to never really describing what "an ocean as a gender" could even possibly mean, ergo, it means something different to everyone and explains itself to no one. it says nothing. it means nothing. it describes no particular experience. it says as much about your gender as the blanket-term "non-binary" does; except, with "non-binary" that ambiguity is the point, which is why it is so commonly used.

theres more i have to say, and i could write a fifteen thousand word essay really, but it essentially boils down to this: young, insecure, and confused queer teenagers will create new terms to cautiously latch onto because they havent found their place yet. eventually they will figure themselves out, and those very terms will join the graveyard of the ones that came before it. its coining for the sake of temporary comfort, and while temporary comfort is necessary, it ultimately does nothing to further us as a community.

i think transid ties into this in the worst way. in their minds: with making so many needless labels for something so vague as gender or sexuality, why not extend that to everything? in fact, why not completely disregard the societal meanings of gender and sexuality et al? if "trans" means "to change", and gender can be trans, why cant anything?

this completely disregards the societal context of the meaning to be "trans"; which in some cases can be a positive thing, but in others its a negative--typically, the latter.

many things they claim to be "trans-" are not things we typically perceive as things capable of "becoming". things such as transautistic or transdisabled miss the point of their original terms; autistic and disabled both describe a set definition of symptoms or traits, with set connotations in our capitalist society. they arent a set identity, they are descriptors. it is, by definition, not possible to "develop" autism, let alone intentionally. and this is just barely scratching the surface.

it is a misguided attempt at self-discovery at best, and a harmful misinformation campaign at worst.

red

what is with this sudden fucking resurgence in transid literally everywhere. for the love of god go outside or read a book or something

[scarletspider2the2ndpower]

“Echoes of Silence,” Web of Spider-Man (Vol. 1/1985), #119.

Writer: Terry Kavanagh; Penciler: Steve Butler; Inker: Randy Emberlin; Colorist: Kevin Tinsley; Letterer: Steve Dutro

[broodygaming]

My dumbass attempt at getting a cute photo, haha

Wheezy is such a good boy <3 he doesn’t care in the slightest.

The chick was less amused lol

[captainsparklefingers]

And you know, I had another thought. It's a probably completely unrelated and wrong but as a nerd who knows a ton of random shit for no reason, I figured it might be fun to bring up.

So Quincy Morris knows what a vampire (or rather, a really hungry and murderous vampire bat) is and what they're capable of, thanks to the loss of his poor horse. But I can't help but wonder if there's another place where he could have heard the term 'vampire' in the context of humans dying.

The New England Vampire Panic, perhaps?

For those who don't know, the New England Vampire Panic (referred to here forth as the NEVP) was a mass hysteria reaction to a tuberculosis outbreak in New England in the 19th century. Before people knew what caused TB, one of the thoughts was that, because it could affect whole families, where people would gradually lose their health (in a manner not dissimilar to Lucy), that a deceased member of the family who'd died of TB was draining the life out of the rest of the family. Like a vampire.

We know now that TB is a bacterial disease and the reason it could infect a whole family was that it was highly communicable. One person gets it, the people taking care of them could easily get it, and so on. But the cause of TB wasn't discovered until much later in the 19th century, and during a time when the germ theory of disease was only just starting to take hold, and superstition and odd folk remedies still reigned (at least in parts), a dead family member draining the life out of others, while superstitious, didn't seem like the wild out there idea it does now.

Well, perhaps it did, because contemporary reaction to the NEVP was less 'oh shit vampires are loose in New England' and more 'hahaha look at these backwater superstitious fools, they think vampires are killing them.' This was probably do to the... creative methods used to deal with a 'vampire'. Turn the body over, remove and burn organs, make infected family members breathe smoke from the burning organs, eat the ashes of the burning organs...yeah. Needless to say, none of that worked, and was viewed at the time as being based in old superstitions and folk remedies.

Either way, the NEVP was in the papers, the term vampire was used, and perhaps our friend Mr. Morris read about it in the papers, this strange wasting illness believed to be caused by a supernatural force. And combine that with his one anecdote about the bat and the horse...perhaps he had a better idea of what was happening to Lucy as a result.

Or it could just be that he saw his horse drained of life. But I like to think it's a combination of the two, if only because it gives him the term 'vampire' as applied to people, and Lucy's symptoms do mirror those discribed in articles about the panic.

Either way, y'all should read about the NEVP, and its most famous incident, the Mercy Brown case, which occured in 1892. Dracula was published in 1897…so it'd be interesting if Stoker knew about these incidents and drew inspiration from them as well.

[azlrse]

hello! can i request some yan hcs for almond cookie? if your requests are open ofc-

thanks in advance < 3

Rejection (Yandere Almond Cookie x GN Cookie!Reader Hcs)

CW: yandere themes, stalking, rejection (towards reader at first), kidnapping, drugging, Stockholm Syndrome, manipulation.

A/N: ahh yes, the cookie everyone's been simping for. I hope you liked these, my dear!!

Also, I was inspired by this art. He's hot for a yandere hahaha 😭🖐️

‿︵‿︵ʚ˚̣̣̣͙ɞ・❉・ ʚ˚̣̣̣͙ɞ‿︵‿︵

You heard about the infamous Almond Cookie in your time at Magic City. A cookie that's smart enough to apprehend many criminals in his career.

There's no doubt that's the reason why you fell hard for him, not because of his career but also for his looks and personality; smart, cunning, determined, tough and handsome.

For a background check, you're also a detective, working under the wing of Almond in Magic City.

You even adored his daughter, constantly joining her whenever she goes on little detective adventures.

As always, to show your appreciation and affection to your boss and crush, you always bring him a warm cup of coffee instead of the americano he always drinks in the morning.

Constantly bringing him deserts whenever he works hard in his office.

You were there to lend an ear whenever Almond want to talk to somebody, wether it could be venting out his feelings, talking about the incomplete case or had a rough day.

Whenever he's out, you constantly talk about him to your cookie peers.

Your co-workers started to pick up a few hints that you have feelings for the detective, which you refused to admit but surrendered.

You just fell in love to your boss, shocker right?

After a few weeks of pinning for him, you couldn't contain these feelings anymore so once again, you turned to your peers for advice.

You were too nervous to confront him so you left a letter to his desk.

After a long day, Almond comes back at his office and saw your letter on his desk. He thinks that it might be a letter to another city for more criminal cases but was proved wrong as he opens up the letter.

Heyya boss,

I know that it's been a year since I worked for you but I need to tell you something. I love working for you and to have a massive contribution towards magic city. I really really like you, a lot and I was wondering if we could get coffee in your free time as a date? Happy to hear you soon!

- (y/n)

Needless to say, he was not impressed. So he called you into his office to have a little talk with you.

You began to swallow hard because this glare at you shows disappointment and shame.

"Listen, (y/n). Let me clarify you something, we are detectives and it's inappropriate to establish a relationship here. So I suggest that we should focus on our jobs and not on our love life."

Your heart shattered towards the words he spoke but didn't cry in front of him. You don't want to look pathetic in front of him. You silently nod and said;

"Okay boss, I understand."

From that day on, you tend to be around him less. Working less cases with him and chose one of your co-workers instead.

Almond notices the changes as soon as he stepped into the headquarters. You were more lively and talkative towards your peers but quiet and spoke little words when it comes to him.

Needless to say, he regretted it. He wants to have the same presence in his office; the warm coffee, the delicious desserts, your patient and understand self. He missed those.

He rejected you not because he's not interested to you, it's because he fears of being abandoned and left off again, just like his former wife.

He follows you around whenever you go out for errands, thinking that he's just protecting you.

He even got a hold of your folder of private information, from birthday to the street address you lived in.

Almond thinks that if he dated and potentially, marrying you in the future, his daughter might have a mother/another father figure in her life. You'll be an excellent parent to Walnut Cookie.

It gets to the point that he's extremely jealous and angry when you ignored him and only paid attention when required to.

It's sad to say that you already moved on from him, which he didn't appreciated.

When he invited you out for coffee all of the sudden, you rejected his offer and someone already took you out for a coffee break.

He is P I S S E D off.

He doesn't accept this and he became shocked when he finds out that you are moving to another headquarters in another city. He needs to do something!!

He can't risk loosing you!! He needs you!! He wants to feel that atmosphere when you are around!!

He's not gonna let you leave Magic City, when you are destined to be in his humble home.

In your last day in the office, he gave you an iced coffee as an 'apology gift' and wishes you the best of luck.

What you didn't know is that the drink was drugged.

It's didn't take long for you to be passed out as soon as you head for the door after you finished your drink.

You expected to hit your head against the dark brown tiles but his hands on your waist proves you wrong.

Before you passed out, you heard snippets of his words as he carried you towards his car.

"Maybe i shouldn't put three crushed pills on the drink it at least they're sleeping peacefully. I'm sorry if I have to do this but I can't protect you if you lived in another city. You're safe here in Magic City, with me."

Life with Almond

As soon as you woke up, your leg was bound with yellow chains on the bedpost of the bed. His coat was placed against the edge of the bed.

As you're about to scream for help, Almond came from the door with a tray on hand.

"ahh good morning, sweetie. How you feeling?"

You just stared in shock, did he take you? Is your senses correct that he drugged your drink with 3 freaking pills?

"Boss, why am I here? It feels that my head was crushed." You spoke.

"Easy now, (y/n). The pills had a strong effect on you. Take some painkillers after you eat breakfast."

He...he kidnapped you? Pills? Your gut is right all along. You shoved him away from him as you scrambled on the corner of his bedroom.

"Woah there, babycakes. Calm down, let me explain-"

"s-stay away from me! What are you going to do? Chain me here? Keeping me prisoner for the rest of my life? I already moved on from you so stop acting petty!"

"I am not being petty!!!" His raised voice made you flinched.

"What would happen if you moved to another city without me, hmm? Who would hear you pleas for help if Dark Enchantress Cookie attacked that city and took you away? Who will protect you?" He spoke as he cornered you once again.

You were about to move away but his arms are trapping you in the corner, you still refused to stare into his eyes.

"that's right, only I can protect you. You won't leave this house as long you accepted you fate here as my lover."

You cried silently as he sat on the floor and hugged your body as an act to comfort you.

"Then why did you reject my feelings when I fist confessed to you?"

"It's because I was scared, I may have my daughter but I want someone to love me and won't abandon us. I'm sorry if I rejected and treated you harshly because.."

'So that's the reason?' You thought as your sobs begin to die down while he cuddles you on the floor.

"I need time to adjust here, I won't accept your apology easily." You sniffed.

"It's okay, sweetie. I'll be patient for you."

At first, you were scared for the first few weeks of staying in his home but he tries his best for you to accept his love.

Bringing in your favorite breakfast, cuddling and giving you kisses everytime he saw you.

Almond also brought his daughter to the room to introduce you as his lover.

Also wants to be called by his name rather than 'boss'. Bonus if you call him by endearments; hot stuff, honey, babe. He likes those!

He even asked you if you need anything when he leaves for work.

Eventually you warmed up towards him and accepted your fate as his lover.

Let's just say that he's really happy! And eventually his daughter accepted you for you're the one that makes her dad happy.

‿︵‿︵ʚ˚̣̣̣͙ɞ・❉・ ʚ˚̣̣̣͙ɞ‿︵‿︵

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sexuality crisis: aroace? help 🥺

hey there guys... I've been struggling with something for months and well, maybe someone relates or has experienced something similar and can help me...

I've been struggling with my sexuality for year. With 15 I came out as bisexual. But my interest in sex is very complicated... so much later, with 20 I labeled myself as demisexual. But then with 23, I questioned myself again and thought what if I am a lesbian?? As things got too much I just went unlabeled, as queer, till this day. And now I am questioning again: acearo? or biromantic ace? lesbian ace? To understand my situation, I'll try to describe as best as I can what I'm going through.

As I said, I've been questioning my sexuality for year. I've been in situations before with guys, where things could've turned into something sexual, but as soon as it went further then kissing I felt disgusted and really afraid and uncomfortable. So the question of being ace has been in my mind for years, but I kinda always thought "ah, once you find the right person things will get easier" needless to say, this never happened. Sexual situations have and always will make me uncomfortable, it's a fact. But, I do enjoy reading smut fanfictions, talking about sex or watching it. I just can't imagine myself doing it. Even when I have some "me time" (yes I mean masturbation) I never think about myself in a sexual situation, but about made up person's (mostly fictional characters/ships) like I'm the third pov. I tried to imagine it with myself, but I'm literally unable to do it, my mind immediately refuses to think like that. So yeah, even tho I have a hard time accepting it, I'm pretty sure these are all signs of being ace. But then, there are girls. I thought okay, maybe men just don't do it for me, but even when I tried to imagine myself with a girl, it didn't work. Thinking about having sex with a girl is not as bad as the thought with a guy, but still, I don't that comfortable with it. I'd love to have sex with a girl, in theory, but I don't think I'd go through with it in a real situation. Besides all that, I do enjoy kissing people! Both genders, but I enjoy kissing girls much much more. I tolerate guys, but mostly I wish they were a girl hahaha. (Okay what else-I'm trying to think about everything that could be a help in figuring myself out, which is pretty difficult-)...

Oh yeah-I had crushes before, I think? I mean I'm pretty sure they were crushes. Both guys and girls. And even tho those crushes were there, nothing ever came out of it. Either my crush wasn't interested or, I suddenly lost my interest. For example, there was this girl (we'll just use the initial M). I met M through a friend and when I first saw her I was like "God she's beautiful" and I think I developed a crush on her. I was sooo nervous around her. I daydreamed about how our relationship could be like, because we were so much alike! Both obsessed with fictional characters, fanfictions and stuff like that. So we met up for the first time, and I was so freaking nervous, but I did it. And after a while, the nervousness faded because I realized she was not going to act on anything romantic or sexual, for her, it was just two friends hanging out and that relaxed me a lot. Next time we met up, i was still thinking about a romantic relationship with her, but then we spend two days together, did a reading marathon, went on a walk in a beautiful forest and just enjoyed each others company, I realized that the thought of cuddling with her or holding hands, didn't do anything to me, so the crush kinda just... faded. Weeks later we went clubbing together, got drunk and yes, the first kiss happened. I was really happy about that and freaked out, in a good way! But then, the more sober I got, the more I thought "yes, I enjoyed kissing her but I don't think I could ever feel anything romantic or act on something sexual, even tho I really want to" And now, the crush is entirely gone. Okay, not really true, sometimes I catch myself thinking "what if?" but also, I think I may be in love with the idea of how things could be between us, because we're so alike, and not really with her? Like- I love the idea how it could be. And realizing this, made me question a lot. All my old crushes. I feel like it's always been like this. Like I was always in love with the idea of it, but never with the person. I've never really fallen madly, deeply in love or been in a relationship, and I always thought it's because I haven't met the right person yet. But maybe, it was never about them, but about me? Another example: Just a few weeks ago I met another girl (initals B). B and I met at work, and after just a few days she told me she's interested in me and I said the same. Things went well, we flirted said stuff like "wish I could be in your arms and kiss you" etc. But all through texting over weeks. And when we met in person again, and ended up cuddling I once again felt slightly uncomfortable and thought "what the hell are you doing? You do not like her like that" and I broke it off, like I always do as soon as shit gets real. The thing is, I kinda enjoy cuddling but my mind never shuts up. I am always overthinking like- "am I laying alright? Do I move too much? Am I comfortable? Is she comfortable? Do I breath weird? What should I do? Move my arm? Push closer? Further away? Kiss her? Do nothing? Pet her arm? Hold her hand? Is this right? Am I doing it right? Why do I feel like I am doing everything wrong? I don't like this? I wanna move but don't want her to feel bad. Am I enjoying it?" and so on. It's a real struggle. The only time I enjoy cuddling is when I'm drunk. Because then my mind is silent, but as soon as I'm sober, I don't feel comfortable at all... The kissing tho, that's fine, but also mostly only happens when I'm drunk. I kissed like 20 people in my life, but only ever experienced one kiss while I was sober. It was with a girl I met over a dating app. We went on a date, and then she kissed me under the night sky, under the stars like in a romantic movie and it felt so freaking good. But I ended the kiss because I didn't feal comfortable going any further. So yes, I enjoy kissing but nothing more...

Okay so much about my past.

Moving on to how I am feeling right now.

I started reading loveless by alice oseman a few days ago and just after 19 pages marked half the book with a highlighter because "oh haha that's me I totally relate". The book is about a acoaro girl. And only after reading those 19 pages, I cried and cried and cried. Why? Because I saw so much of myself in this character and it scared me so much.

Ever since I was a child, I've been obsessed with books. Especially the kinds with lots of romance and all kinds of tropes (enemies to lovers, friends to lovers, slow burn, sharing a bed, hurt/comfort, soulmates etc) and I always, always dreamed about finding my own love one day. I am obsessed with fanfictions and ships, always have been. And I always thought "when is it my turn? Will I ever experience the feeling of being loved? Of laying in my lovers arms?" and now, being confronted with the possibility of never having this because I am just unable to feel it? That hurts a lot. And makes it almost impossible to accept. No matter how much I want to be in a relationship, I don't think I can do it. I wanna do couple things but not be a couple with anyone, not really, I think? I want a relationship but at the same time I don't. I want a person or partner to cuddle with and kiss and fall asleep but maybe in a friend way and not always? Only when I am a hundred percent sure and comfortable. I still want dates and stuff, spending time with one particular person like a relationship but not really a relationship? Like without the commitment of a relationship and without the sexual stuff? But also I am really not sure. Maybe I could feel something romantic or sexual with the right person? If I get to know them enough, like maybe after a few years I could develop those feelings? I have no freaking idea. I just really wish that one day I'll meet someone and I will feel something romantic towards them or even sexual because I want to experience those feelings but I feel like it will never happen because I just can't imagine myself in a situation like that- I just can't. No matter how hard I try, just thinking about having sex with someone, even just for a second, my mind goes blank and I'm physically not able to imagine it (with an old crush or person I think is attractive or even a fictional character).

We all have a dream of what our future should look like, no matter how unrealistic. Mine has always been like that: cottagecore vibes. living in a beautiful house by a lake, near or in a forest. with lots of animals and of course my horse. growing my own food in the garden. reading a lot, and writing. being one with nature and enjoying life. (of course I'd still work, but idk as what hahah) but- I was never alone in this dream future. There was always a woman with me. But I never really thought about it-if it's romantic or platonic? I don't know. But then again when I imagine this in my head, I try to see myself but it's a different version of me, like, not really me but at the same time it is me, or I wish it was me? I just know, I wish for a future with a woman by my side. I just don't know if I am able to get it, if I am able to feel something for them. Or if this whole "wish future thinking" is once again a product of the "I'm in love with the theory and idea but in reality I would feel uncomfortable and not enjoy it, because it's literally always like that"

I've been having these thoughts for years and yes, some friends have told me "hey, this sounds pretty ace for me, are you sure that this is not you?" but as soon as they told me I was like "oh no no no! It's not me. I just haven't found my person yet!" and that's it, I immediately pushed that thought away. But now I'm like... you're born gay. you're born a lesbian. you're born a bisexual, asexual and so on. You do not choose it, it's just who you are. Sure, you can choose what label you feel comfortable with, but you do not just wake up and randomly be like "yes, I am gay now" it's always been there, even when it was hidden and only came out later. It's who you are. And maybe, I should learn to accept it, accept me. I don't have control over the way I am born.. But as I said before, it's so incredibly hard for myself to accept that everything i read about, the romance and sexual attraction, I'll never experience. Because it's not for me. Because it's not who I am. Because, I just can't feel it.

I probably forgot so so much of what I actually wanted to say, but my mind is a freaking mess, there's so much going on, that's the best way I could describe it. I'm not a hundred percent happy with it and I feel like I could describe it much better with more effort, but I can't, that's too much writing hahaha... So yeah-now:

Might wanna share your thoughts on my situation?