#today started rough but how nice it has become 🥰

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DA here reporting for duty 😎 needless to say I completely agree with what’s been said (you characterization is incredible YES IT IS), but also can we hear a little commotion for the smut!? You smut is life changing, every single intimate gesture feels SO big, so monumental, a transformative experience for the characters. The restaurant scene comes to mind, where Armand is just watching Daniel eat then making him eat then feeding him himself, it’s such a torturous, delicious build up that feels sexual every step of the way and they don’t even touch (properly) nevertheless kiss or fuck. And yet there I was reading it like it was the Count of Montecristo. Just exquisite 🤌🏼 But also there is this thing about your writing where everything feels big and important, even the building up to the big moments feels monumental, every gesture full of emotion and ahem, monstrous intimacy 😮‍💨

Dungeon anon 💖💖

Hahaha, would you believe that when I posted the Copley fic I actually took a klonopin and cried? I was so convinced the sexual tension would not telegraph, that people would read it and think it's totally weird because it's just a single bite of cake, and I would be some kind of insane feeding kink pariah lol I absolutely agonized about sharing it.

But I'm so thrilled by the positive response it's gotten and so thrilled that you're here commenting directly on the smut. Because I love figuring out how a mortal and a vampire could connect sexually, and thinking about what Armand gets out of all of it. Sometimes writing about his sensory experiences is more fun than writing about Daniel's dick feelings and that's pretty cool (though I really love writing him all turned on and sloppy with desire for the monster in his bed).

And I'm so glad it all feels big and important. Because in my mind it's all important, like Armand snatching Daniel's cigarettes from his pocket is an intimate action and just as big as Armand sticking his hand down Daniel's pants.

And because I love you, and because anyone willing to put aside shame and comment directly on smut deserves a treat, here's some vampire on vampire action I'm working on:

Armand turned his face. Daniel’s mouth was so close, right there in front of him. All he had to do was close his eyes, lift his head and close the scant few inches between them for the first time in twenty years. It would feel so good- kissing Daniel had always felt like licking a battery, like getting an electric shock that started at his mouth and spread out through his veins until his entire body sang with it. Armand inhaled softly, angled his face just right. Got so close he could feel the brush of Daniel’s lips against his.

The whine he let out when Daniel pulled back was pathetic. He tried to reach out and drag him back in but before he could a pair of strong hands caught his wrists.

“Really, Daniel,” Armand muttered when he saw the smug grin on his face.

Daniel pressed a kiss to his palm that sent warmth blooming all the way down his arm. “What, you don’t like your own tricks used against you?”

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Oh Mädch darling, the loneliness.. I'm 24 now, and I've felt that way too! It's so hard sometimes! Despite having many people I was friendly with and a handful of close friends that I did things with often, and despite being extremely busy (like four performances in one week, with two tests and a festival coming up), I frequently felt very lonely while I was in school. There's a certain amount of isolation that goes on in school simply because you've got work to do!! And more often than not you have to be alone to do it! And for you, doing all that plus the whole.. global pandemic situation. It's rough.

Handling my loneliness and general mental health has gotten a easier since I graduated, but my life has also changed quite a bit since then - I'm lonely still, but I'm doing things I like to do, I engage in content I enjoy, and I talk to both of my sisters literally all the time. I don't have homework or deadlines, I'm not so busy, and I have time to relax.

There are definitely weeks (like two weeks ago I think it was) where everything is WRONG and I'm LONELY and I cry for multiple hours about it, but I talk to my sister, and listen to good music, and dance a little. I'll clean my room (because you know it's gotten messy while I've spent a week crying), and make my bed, do laundry, and maybe make a goofy edit of some kpop boys, while listening to my favorite songs, and things are more or less okay.

So I don't know if I can say being deeply lonely is 'normal' but it's definitely something people feel. I'm still young, and my sister would definitely have more things to say (she's brilliant and so so smart when it comes to people), but you kinda just gotta ride it out, and cry a little.

There's a video of a guy with captions in this somewhat psychedelic font and he says "take it easy. but take it!" So like, be kind and forgiving to yourself, but don't stop interacting with the world and your friends, and don't forget to get things done!

Anyway this is kinda long (is that just the norm for me now? 😅) but I just wanted to tell you that I'm rooting for you! I'm always here, and available to chat. Even if it feels awkward, you can reach out to me. 🥰🥰

You always make me feel so loved and warm, and I want you to feel the same! I hope you have a restful weekend!! Love you 💖💖💖 dkbtho

hey angel <3 sorry i’m getting back to this a little late 😭 i was watching yt and i literally fell asleep for a good 45 mins NDNJD that just shows u how tired i was from my clinical rotation today :’) right before bed too !!! lol

i turn 23 in december and just like, the older i become the more i realize this? not a lot of ppl know my whole uni sorry but let’s just say i’m not with my original nursing class that i originally started out with, and this year more than ever, being with no roommate for the first time and not playing my sport with my team this year, i realize that with the class that i’m in right now ….. i really just don’t click with anyone? i feel so disconnected like even tho everyone is nice to me and i ram just a friendly person in general, i feel so out of place and like, i don’t have that “rice or die” friend group :/ and i understand what you mean like especially now that i’m in my last year of nursing and i leave campus literally 2 times a week for clinical rotations, i have a ton of work on my plate …

i guess i’m just really nervous for graduation bc i don’t want to live alone, yet i don’t think i want to go back home? i’m an only child to a single mother, so it’s not like i have the wonderful support of sisters like you have, ya know? but i also think living in a different city will be really good for me bc i want to have these experiences, and ppl do it all the time. but i know this will come with loads and loads of loneliness … will i be able to handle that? will i meet ppl or be so exhausted from working 3 twelve hour shifts a week to be able to go out and make friends? these are the things that deeply trouble me dndndnndndjd and i wish someone could just talk it out with me irl 😭

anyways besides my blabbering, thank you for your sweet words and encouragement 💖 they always mean a lot to me even if maybe sometimes they’re just hopeful words, they really make me feel a little better 🥺 i hope you have a good night hun, and have a good weekend !!! 💞💗💖💓💘💕