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𝐀𝐏𝐇𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐎𝐒 : 𝐁𝐋𝐀𝐃𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐎𝐎𝐍. edit ( 37 / ?? )
#━━ ❛ 𝐀𝐏𝐇𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐎𝐒 : visage.#please consider: shan hai scrolls aphelios#usual mark and possible idea of it being a paint stroke?#just swiped across his face messily#need to develop this more hmmm#i've been writing lots of phel verses w yunnie hehe is he a jhin kisser? maybe.............
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gay and stupid
#smth art#halftone#furry#queer artist#i made this for a Spotify playlist. very proud of how it turned out#long story short i developed a crush on a coworker very shortly after meeting him bc hes very cool and funny and cute#and we got along very well instantly. however nothing ever came of it bc hes the most emotionally unavailable person ive met in my life#so i just kinda Suffered™ for like 2½ years cycling through the stages of grief until acceptance finally stuck#now we're just chill. but i Did make a carefully curated playlist about it all and regardless of current feelings im very proud of it#its super specific and personal but also relatable and has a story arc to it (meeting->falling->pining->resentment->depression->acceptance)#anyway. i was thinking like hmmm i havent been doing digital art in a while and need to get back to that. whats a good lil warmup#to get me back in the vibe of it? and the idea popped into my head to do a cover for the gay and stupid playlist.#maybe ill link the playlist later! who knows! its very good after all#though theres a few specific songs on there that are Personal to the guy i made it about#like i dont think 'shelter' by porter robinson is especially relevant to an unrequited love playlist but. its there for My reasons.#theres also a nice flat no halftone or grunge texture version of this that ill throw in if i link the playlist later cuz why not#but im very happy with how this version turned out!!!#i did less layers this time and it was way easier#usually when i do like. a bunch of ink colors layered. i do 1 color per layer#but if im using more than 4 or 5 colors that gets SO unwieldy and annoying#this time i used 2-3 colors per layer and just made sure they wouldnt need to stack#it worked out rly well i think! and was WAY easier to work with after the colors were down
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i could just make sbau even more about seeking redemption through repentance
#i think i'll probably add more henry mike backstory.#and then hmmm. probably henry calling mike on his shit#i'd like to be vanessa ideally BUT. i think so fresh out of um. the turmoil that is being possessed and mind controlled#ummm. she would NOT have the emotional awareness or intelligence to call mike out AJSJKAJDKD#plus it's 1 billion times more devastating when the guy who was your father's best friend tells you you're just like your father👍#i need to develop vanessa more tho. and gregory now that im actually convinced he was also possessed#SOTM WHEN. SOTM I NEED YOU.
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do i need to write more feeding kink 🤔
#not with shrimp LMAO#but now it's on my mind#can't believe i came outta the gate and into this fandom with feeding kink#now that i'm more ~developed~ maybe i need to do it again#more polished this time IDK#i need something to scandalize myself with to get me inspired#because i have Serious Ideas#but i miss shorter smutty ideas HMMM
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Dream is seven when he first runs into Wilbur. A nine year old who has far too much leg in proportion to his body, who doesn't talk all too much either. It confuses him greatly because it is not the silence that portrays a certain shyness or anxiousness, but runs deeper. A silence that has Dream feeling uncomfortable like the older was sucking out the joy in the air just from simply existing. They only bump into each other now and then. Only twice throughout the years do they really interact with each other when they live in the same town and even that’s not much of anything.
The first was when they headed to the water well to fill their bucket to water their crops their family holds in their small backyards. Dream attempts to make idle conversation to pass the time. So, logically, the first thing he asks the older kid is how he’s doing as a formality. And then following, asks about how his brother is faring.
Dream has heard the news from his mother that Wilbur's sibling has fallen terribly ill. She saw it with her own two eyes too, tending to the young chap herself– the only lady in town who had any knowledge in medicine. She had said that his skin was awfully pale, nearly corpse-like even with the insane fever that ran through his body. And of course at a mere seven years old, Dream had no other reaction to give other than basic sympathy. As much as a seven year old could at that age anyways.
Wilbur, in response, snaps back like an angry turtle. He gives him a sharp, "It is none of your business." His words are sharper than the blade Dream sliced himself with just about a year ago. It was when he attempted to peel an apple in one long strip like his father had. Dream is taken aback by the sudden outburst but before he can bite back, Wilbur has turned on his heel and stalked off with his head held up high.
Absolute bastard, Dream thinks. He scowls to himself (though to Wilbur too even if he’s not here anymore). As he takes his bucket off the hook, the water sloshes and some spills onto his tunic. The fabric clings to his skin but the deeper scowl on his face is caused by the slight annoyance. It will dry before sundown, so Dream has no complaints.
Really, even if it is a possibility he may get a scolding for returning late, Dream takes that chance and loiters around the well for longer than necessary. The purpose being to avoid the chance of running into Wilbur on the journey back. His seven year old mind concludes that the other kid, though as pretty as he may be, holds nothing but cruelty and meanness in whatever heart he has. May he even have any heart. Probably not.
The second time Dream bumps into him is when he is thirteen and Wilbur is fourteen, not yet fifteen. Not until a month later at least. This time it is during his father’s funeral, late in the evening. The setting sun still bares down warmly on his neck as the crowd walks to the open field.
The only reason why Wilbur is even here is because the entire town is. Dream would just prefer it if it was just his mother and cat burying his father really. Though his mother said that the rest of the town folk just wanted to pay their respect for the man– a well known and well liked shopkeeper and innkeeper. Dream thinks that is stupid and that this occasion should be kept private. This was a funeral, place of mourning and remembrance (or at least that's what his mother told him when he attended his first funeral a few years back.) It is not just some…thing to gawk at.
Honestly it is not much of an interaction. At most they stand next to each other when the casket is lowered into the ground, Wilbur inclines his head towards Dream as if to say sorry, to give his sympathy. Dream pointedly looks away at his shoes. They are buffed and clean to appear presentable and a week prior they would’ve been scuffed and dirtied with mud and sand. He doesn’t like how they look, feeling the corners of his lips tug down further.
That is that. No more, no less.
#dreambur#dreamwastaken#wilbur soot#my writing#cowboy au#hmmm how they met#dream is kinda judgy in this ngl#hes going to sound more judgy in the next one ha ha#also feel free to send me asks about them#i have an outline in my head but also need to develop them more
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#tag talk#HE JUST ADMITTED TO ME HE FELT KIND OF SUBBY YESTERDAY. THERE'S HOPE#my top era starts NOW#I will put on all my seductive charm and woo this dude so hard#it's happening it's happening the future is now#tbh I think they've got a bit of a misunderstanding about what dom/sub really mean but as long as the intent is communicated it's chill#I'm just happy in general about it. we had really really really good conversation and both had a great time.#I would have been more confident if I'd had a better idea of who they were ahead of time but I'm gonna be so so confident on the second date#I said something about being friends and they were like “wait I'm friendzoned now?” and I kinda had to backtrack to explain#because like.. I don't wanna date someone I'm not friends with. why would I want to?#I guess some people see friendship and Relationship as mutually exclusive but I prefer a sliding scale of both.#cause at first I was like I'm really not interested in him but he's cool so I wanna be friends. but then as I started to get a vibe read#it changed and I was like oh okay so I don't want the kind of relationship I thought I was walking in to but I can see a different kind of#kind of relationship happening here. hmmm. I have thoughts about how dating/hookup apps encourage us to predefine our identities#whereas meeting in person allows vibes to develop organically. if you decide “I'm only a bottom” you'll automatically filter out any#any potential for experiencing someone who might be the exception to your rules. you define yourself and then limit too.#one of the reasons why I hate character limits on bios and I try and keep my interests as open as possible. I want to experience everything#I don't want to limit myself to just one dynamic or relationship type. I can be anything for anyone. I want to taste it all.#how else do you find what you want? I get that some people know instinctively who they are and what they want.#but not all of us have that privilege. some of us are blind to our internal workings and need to see it play out to really know what's up#idk. I'm pretty hyped for where this relationship goes. the first meeting went SO well.
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anyway listening to ethel cains cover of give until there’s nothing left and thinking about how hajun and suhyeon’s relationship changed so much. i’m like 100 chaps in and it could change again idk but i find it so interesting thinking of how hajun’s attitude was towards suhyeon before and after their first fight when suhyeon beat him..because hajun is wayy friendlier before he gets his ass kicked by him and even though the friendship is still very much there (and more genuine now) it’s pretty different and hajun appears/acts much more distant and cold..like Why…i guess his view of suhyeon chnaged as well? he went from seeing him as someone below him with potential to actually viewing him as an equal maybe? like even if he used to be more friendly the way he treated him didn’t feel like there was a genuine friendship idk how to describe this it felt more like how you’d treat a dog or younger kid? idfk i’m due for a quick reread before i continue reading and this was jambled and unnecessarily long and i could have been studying for my math exam tomorrow. on that note i am going to sleep goodnight
#steppingstarrambles#i’m so curious about these two actually. it’s interesting to see how that relationship changes and develops#because you can very clearly see how much hajun actually cares about suhyeon now even when he’s more distant#versus when he was more friendly and cared less#hmmm hmmm hmmmmm#i need to get into his head NOW
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ive been lowkey thinking about breaking up
#i just saw her match w someone else#CHARIZ#thats not the reason lol#but it does make me think like#hmmm#maybe she deserves better than someone whos constantly trying to change and prove their change#i think even my friends deserve a friends thats like#idk i have this fear of never being genuine#EVEN THO I AM??#like im trying#but back to the point i think maybe we were never meant to be together past 8th grade#like if we break up i wouldnt mind dating again once we're adults but#maybe we need to develop our identities more and shit#bc (maybe im the problem) but i always kinda feel like im trying to be like HEY THIS IS ACTUALLY ME BTW DONT FORGET THIS IS WHO I AM at#everything#idk maybe im the only whos not willing to stick it out#but maybe we were like supposed to form our identities outside of each other first before dating
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you seem to have a wide taste in books !! what are some books that you would recommend ??
Hmmm I wonder. I have the feeling I just read the same couple of books over and over, and at times only different iterations of the same story, like in that line by Borges ("the various intonations of a few metaphors").
I find recommending books without knowing anything at all about the person asking rather difficult. What I'd suggest to one may differ greatly from what I'd recommend to someone else. I'll give a list of some of my favourite books that I think are enjoyable in general:
— Thoughts by Pascal
— Cain: a mystery by Lord Byron
— The Iliad by Homer
— Crime and Punishment by Dostoievsky
— Othello by Shakespeare
— Pedro Páramo by Juan Rulfo
— Cyrano de Bergerac by Edmond Rostand
— The fragments of the Presocratics
— La Regenta by Leopoldo Alas, Clarín
— Tractatus Logico-philosophicus by Wittgenstein
— East of Eden by John Steinbeck
— Vita nova by Dante
— Contributions to the Founding of the Theory of Transfinite Numbers by Georg Cantor
— Caligula by Albert Camus
— North and South by Elizabeth Gaskell
— Peter Pan by J. M. Barrie
— Some essays by Russell. I personally love Mysticism and Logic
— Metamorphoses by Ovid
Poetry is perhaps harder to recommend because at times it translates horribly, but in general I love Baudelaire, Rimbaud, Lorca, Juan Ramón Jiménez, Rilke, Byron, Quevedo, Góngora, Lope de Vega, Horace, Catullus, Ovid, Tennyson, Maiakovsky, Garcilaso de la Vega, Oliverio Girondo, Vicente Huidobro, Emily Brontë, T. S. Eliot, César Vallejo, Luis Cernuda and Edgar Allan Poe, to name a few.
#I talk too much#I wanted to say The tragic sense of life by Unamuno and Philosophy and Poetry by María Zambrano#but I thought maybe they'd be hard to find in translation. They're both approachable texts of philosophy beautifully written though#Unamuno's essay Vida de Don Quijote y Sancho (translated as Our Lord Don Quixote in English according to Wikipedia?) is also beautiful#I adore Schopenhauer and Nietzsche but I'm not sure I'd recommend them to anyone. Probably you can't go wrong with Kierkegaard though#I know what some of these books look like (like Wittgenstein's Tractatus or Cantor's Foundations)#but I swear they're approachable without specific academic background. The last line of Wittgenstein's Tractatus is one of my favourite#lines ever in the history of anything‚ philosophy or literature‚ but to be as hitting as it is you need to reach it at the end of the book#I think despite what it looks like both Cantor and especially Wittgenstein have an aesthetic intent in their writing#Wittgenstein in particular reminds me of Kierkegaard and Rilke and also of Unamuno and Zambrano. And of course Schopenhauer et al.#The Tractatus is very similar in my opinion to Huidobro's Altazor which is just amazing but I don't know how it would translate#These books I like in form and not just in content (although form is content like I think happens in Wittgenstein's Tractatus)#so when possible I'd read them in their original languages.I myself can't read German and know but very little of Russian and Ancient Greek#and a bit of Latin so I must be missing a lot of those. Nonetheless they're great in what I can get through translation#Perhaps you'd have the chance of enjoying them in full#If you can't read Russian I am actually quite specific with the translation of Crime and Punishment haha There's a concept#Razumikhin develops through the book at several points and often translators aren't consister with the word which makes the readers lose#the view of this development. And I happen to think the development works alongside the narrative of Svidrigailov#and also with what happens towards the end with Porfiry and Raskolnikov so I think it's important#In English there are several translations that maintain the coherence such as the one by Pevear and Volokhonsky#(the only one I can remember right now but I could check the rest). Garnett's translation is everywhere but that one doesn't do it#Hmmm Pedro Páramo in English takes some liberties and La Regenta isn't as funny which is what happens with Wuthering Heights#and The three musketeers in translation even when the translations are more accurate#I haven't recommended Wuthering Heights because I take you've read it but that's my favourite book#And I haven't recommended Pandora Hearts because that's a manga and you asked for books but it does some very interesting things#that I think are in line with many of the books listed here (as I said‚ I basically like the same few things retold over and over haha)#There are many books I am itching to recommend but that I can't do freely without some knowledge of the person asking#Like Steinbeck's arthurian novel or idk Gone with the wind#I hope this list is enjoyable enough. I'm not sure if I've been able to avoid being too partial#I suppose one has to bear the conditions of their existence and can't ever entirely get rid of themselves haha
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#I'm assigned sex at birth#the idea of a doctor looking at a baby and going hmmm. i know what Gender this thang is just seems like#not a real thing that can happen. especially if that were the case we'd have way cooler birth markers on our IDs#so to me it's just. Body Shaped/Predicted To Be Shaped in a cerain way and May have the ability to do Certain Things#and this may also heavily influence the way parents choose to raise [baby]#like!! how would These bitches know??? personally. my folks hardly got my name down before i peaced out#MY sex means nothing to me other than which hormones my body makes more of most of the time and what things to look out for health wise#it dictates which vitamins i buy at the drug store. decides what Kind of heart attack symptoms i need to be aware of and#what other condition i may be more likely to have/develop#obv this isn't a call for people to use these terms on folks who say they aren't comfortable with them#but i choose to process these terms as useful Societal and Medical information as opposed to anything else#that being said I have a wonderful and loving family and support system and therefore can expect the best out of the people around me#trans#nonbinary#nb#2slgbtqia+#two spirit#2 spirit#gnc#gender#polls
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Having a real autism moment over the idea of doing fieldwork
#my brain just produced the thought 'they should have a class that teaches you how to talk to people before you go to the field'#sir i don't think anyone else needs that class. i don't think the people are clamoring for bulletpoints and flowcharts of social interactio#i'm just. i don't. i don't know how to do it#i can make friends fine when we've been in a protracted situation of working together but when i have to go out and meet people???#a thing you guys have to understand about me is that i WILL just stand and stare at people like the autism creature for 10 min straight#and then walk out of the room without saying anything more#or like i will start a conversation and then i will just Not Know What To Say#and like yeah it's social anxiety maybe but it's honestly more that i can't figure out how to have normal conversations#anyways. i am anxious i will say that#like i'm really excited too and i really want to meet cool people and work with them on developing the project#but also i am not sure how this is going to go. hmmm#maybe i should have just majored in cs and sold my soul. at least then i could be weird and off-putting in peace :')#(<- should not have done that. it is good to make attempts to be social and not put myself in a bubble)#perce rambles#this makes very little sense but you can ignore me i'm just having A Moment
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I forgot how fucking misogynistic Jotaro is. Dont call your mother a bitch!!! Stop being rude to Holly!!
#i would say at least he has character development but hmmm#i love him tho<3#need to refind those analyses about his misogyny. good stuff#i do belive that hes like. being aggressive to push her away out of some fucked up form of protection from him#but that doesnt mean hes not misogynistic!!#I do find him and hollys dynamic fascinating tho#and sado too#veryy intresting household#tbh while he is comically built unlike a teenager i do think it would be interesting to have him like visually look more like one#at least in certain moments#anyway yeah my arms are killing me so its watch jojos time
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I lowkey give up with Genshin entirely tbh
#I have sm time but#when I log in I just do nothing#cannot complete the AQs at all#even though they’re fun they take half of my will power to complete#I try to do the chasm world quest but I’m stuck and I can’t read the map properly#I’m so bad at reading maps and half the thing is uphill and the others are down and there’s a billion pits and idk how to get to that#monster so I can finally level up shinobu from level fourty and I don’t know how to do the tasks in the chasm quest and everything needs#fifty yrs of mental prep to do and there is literally so much to do that someone as slow as me could never do it all#I’d be lucky if I even finish inazuma atp when I wanted to do sumeru in the holidays#sigh.#dora daily#I just randomly keep falling asleep which is so weird cause I never even when I was a very young child would sleep in the day#and I don’t sleep as bad as I used to#hmmm#ngl I think this whole blog needs to be shown to a therapist#why do you think you’re autistic/have bpd *shows them the blog* OH!#I only say autistic cause ppl kept saying it plus this one girl who was neurodivergent said I am and I was like uhhh no I’m not cause I#never showed any signs and I know the signs to an extent#but now as time goes on I show more signs and apparently it’s something you can develop#and the thing is lots of times ppl say they think it’s bpd but it’s actually autism so idrk#I mean I don’t want neither cause they’d be with you for life either way so#none of them you can truly “recover from”
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me rubbing my hands together evily as i realize the poly ship name for my ocs could be spaceberry EHEHEHE
#chirping#no idea what the ship name for cal/saturn should be tho ToT#(technically callisto shortens his name to call but it's pronounced cal- the same a sound in apple#i can't be bothered to look up the phonetics sorry lolol)#i need to talk abt my ocs more#hopefully i'd be able to develop their lore....#i'm so bad at worldbuilding/character building y'all have no idea ToT#i can list all of my ocs/blorbos fav weapons and mapmodes and playstyles and how they feel abt the splat meta#but as soon as i need to figure out how they meet i am out of ideas ToT#(cal plays dualies saturn plays tetras/wiper and berry plays squiffer/blob. btw.)#ik that saturn/berry have known each other since they were kids#berry prob met cal in soloq/sendouq and decided it needed a short range on her team#i do kinda need a fourth oc to complete thier comp...... hmmm#they usually play non-meta backless comps and generally get by w randos in tourneys#cal refuses to play w/o cooler even tho he (and saturn) run SO much qr#hmmm maybe a blaster player? but there's no blasters w tac...#sloshers out#pencil is rlly the only long range cooler opOH MY GOD DYNAMO#eheheheh there's gotta be a dynamo main hmmmmmm#their name's gotta be spice related...
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Creator Spotlight: @camberdraws
Hello! My name is Camber (any pronouns), and I’m a mixed media illustrator located in the southwestern United States. I love drawing everything, but I have a special interest in depicting strange creatures and environments, often accompanied by abstract imagery and mark-making. Professionally, I’ve worked creating concept art and 2D assets for museum exhibits, but currently, I am engaged full-time as a software developer and make standalone illustrations in my free time. I’ve been posting art on Tumblr since I was a teenager, and the site has been very welcoming towards my work to this very day!
Check out Camber’s interview below!
Did you originally have a background in art? If not, how did you start?
I’ve had an interest in drawing since I was barely sentient, but at thirteen years old I decided to become “serious” about art. I was all about reading tutorials and doing a ton of studies. I would tote my heavy instructional art books to school every single day (my poor back!) Despite all this, I decided to forgo art school in favor of a bachelor’s degree in Computer Science at my local college. Alongside my major, I received a minor in Art Studio with a specialization in fine art, which totally changed my views on creating artwork and drastically changed my style.
How has your style developed over the years?
As mentioned previously, my style did a 180 after I studied under some very skilled fine art professors! As a kid, my drawings were very realism-heavy and inspired by video game concept art. I mostly worked digitally, too. During college, I was thrown for a loop when we were instructed to do strange things like, for example, make a bunch of marks on paper using pastel, WITHOUT looking, and then turn said marks into a finished piece of art! I quickly and deeply fell in love with abstract work, and especially appreciated images that are not easily parsed by the viewer. Since then, I’ve made it my goal to combine abstract mark-making with more representational subject matter.
What is one habit you find yourself doing a lot as an artist?
Hmmm, one habit I really enjoy as an artist is strictly tracking the amount of time I spend drawing! I currently work a full-time job wholly unrelated to art, so I have to be careful with my time if I want to spend enough hours drawing each week. I created a spreadsheet that allows you to enter the amount of minutes you’ve drawn each day and calculate how much drawing time you still need to reach your weekly goal (I aim for 20 hours a week.) Having such a clear, numbers-based objective keeps me motivated to work like nothing else!
Over the years as an artist, what were your biggest inspirations behind your creativity?
I know this is a common inspiration, but Hayao Miyazaki’s work has been rewiring my neurons since I was a child. Seemingly all of my artistic interests can be summed up by the movie Princess Mononoke: it has strange/abstract creature designs, a strong focus on nature and environmental storytelling, and a mix of dark and hopeful themes. Additionally, I’ve been deeply inspired by video game series such as Zelda, Okami, Pikmin, and Dark Souls. But arguably, none of these have influenced me more than Pokemon! I’ve been drawing Pokemon since I could barely hold a pencil, and I haven’t stopped since! I believe my love of designing creatures originated with my endless deluge of Pokemon fanart during my childhood.
What is a medium that you have always been intrigued by but would never use yourself?
I’ve always been fascinated by 3D mediums and am so tempted to try them out! Whether that’s 3D models created digitally or sculptures made from clay, I profoundly admire artists who have this skill. Oftentimes, it feels like I don’t have time to delve into a totally different artistic paradigm. However, I feel very strongly that learning new skills can enrich your current work. I should take that advice and someday give 3D mediums a shot!
What is a recent creative project that you are proud of?
I am in the process of creating an art book (a dream of mine!) and have been executing smaller drawings of concepts I find interesting from both a visual and storytelling standpoint. A recent drawing for said book is that of a snail made of ink with an ink bottle as a shell, and it went absolutely viral! I’ve never had an experience like this as an artist before and it has been spectacular! I was able to open a shop using my newly acquired art printer and sell many prints of my snail. Creating something original, directly stemming from my interests, and having that resonate with so many people has been unreal. I couldn’t ask for more as an artist!
What advice would you give to younger you about making art that’s personal or truthful to your own experiences?
I would tell my younger self to chill out and experiment more! I was so caught up in the idea that I needed to have a realistic style to be considered “good.” I also believed that technical skill was the only measure of how worthy my art was. That’s not to say technical skill doesn’t matter, but I now firmly believe the creativity and voice of your ideas far outweigh the skill of execution in terms of importance. Technical skills should elevate ideas, not the other way around. Once I began to revel in strange ideas and stories for my work, depicted oftentimes in odd styles or mediums, I truly found my voice as an artist.
Who on Tumblr inspires you and why?
My peers here on Tumblr inspire me more than anything! Sharing my work with contemporaries and giving each other support brings me joy like no other, and keeps me motivated to continue creating. I wouldn’t be where I am today without them! @beetlestench, @theogm-art, @trustyalt, @ratwednesday, @phantom-nisnow, @svltart, @mintsdraws, @mothhh-hh, @jupiterweathers, @thesewispsofsmoke, @picoffee, @fetchiko, @kaisei-ink, and @pine-niidles just to name only a few!
Thanks for stopping by, Camber! If you haven’t seen their Meet the Artist piece, check it out here. For more of Camber’s work, follow their Tumblr, @camberdraws!
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Eijiro confesses his feelings to you and Katsuki.
Kiribaku x Reader
1,600 words~
You turned the page in the book as you sunk more into Eijiro's bed.
"UGH!" I'm tired of studying!" You exclaimed, unable to hold in your frustration anymore.
"Same- let's take a break," Eijiro concluded setting aside his book.
"Tch- no wonder you damn extras are always complaining about the exams. You don't work hard enough!" Katsuki barked at you both.
"Awe- come on Bakugo we deserve a break," Eijiro pleaded. "Plus... I kind of wanted to talk to you both about something."
"What's wrong?" Bakugo asked his friend curiously.
"Nothing's wrong I just-" Eijiro began to say before being cut off by Katsuki.
"Yes, there is. You got that stupid look in your eye. Just tell us," He demanded.
"Well ok... here it goes... so I uh- I have a crush I guess-" Eijiro began.
"Aweeee~" You began to say in a sing-song voice. Katsuki grunted and rolled his eyes looking back at his studying materials.
"Don't be mean Bakugo!" You spat and knocked the studying materials out of his hand.
"HEY!" He began to yell at you before Eijiro spoke up again.
"You guys, come on! I really need help!"
"Fine! Just be quick and spit it out. This shit makes me uncomfortable," Katsuki replied.
"I like um someone, and I just don't know what to do about it..." Eijiro finished.
"Fucking tell them and stop bugging us about it," Katsuki said bluntly.
"Don't listen to him," you said giving Katsuki a playful shove.
"God damn it extra! THIS IS YOUR FINAL WARNING!" Katsuki yelled at you, frustrated by your playfulness.
You ignored Katsuki and continued talking to Eijiro. "As much as I hate to admit it, Bakugo's right. Just be honest with her," you said smiling at him.
"Oh well um- I just don't know how they will react," Eijiro said, Katsuki stayed silent with his arms crossed, his disdain for this conversation all too obvious.
"Oh, they? I'm sorry for assuming Kirishima! Is this a boy? Or wait, non-binary?"
"N-no- well I mean k-kind of-?" Eijiro said, stuttering his words suddenly.
"Oh! They must be gender fluid?" You asked.
"Um- Uh- I uh- I don't know- but- that's not the point!" Eijiro said, starting to get flustered as he looked between you and Katsuki nervously.
"The hell?" Katsuki grumbled, raising an eyebrow. "Why are you being so damn weird about this shitty hair? Who the fuck is it anyway?"
"I uh... I don't know if I can say yet- well maybe- I don't know," Eijiro said, letting out a big sigh and hiding his face in his hands.
"Sorry, are we overwhelming you? Just tell us how to help. We're here for you Kirishima." You said, patting him on the back.
Eijiro mumbled into his hands, "What happens if I tell them, and they don't feel the same?"
"HA?!! THEN I'LL MURDER THEM!!" Katsuki yelled. "How could they not feel the same?? You're going to be an amazing pro hero, and you're always too damn nice to everyone so- yeah- of course they will feel the same idiot," Katsuki said and looked away from you both, his arms crossing just a bit tighter as he wondered who could have caught Eijiro's attention.
Katsuki was very observant, so the fact that he hadn't noticed his best friend and developed a crush on someone was dumbfounding him. More important, he was concerned about who, and if they'd be good enough for Eijiro.
Eijiro picked his head up from his hands, a small blush was tinted on his cheeks at Katsuki's compliments.
"You- you really think so?" He asked.
"Duh- I don't just say shit to say it dumb ass," Katsuki said.
"Well so... if they do feel the same- then what do I do?" Eijiro asked.
You tilted your head to the side, "What do you mean, Kirishima?"
"Like- if they... feel the same way about me... then what? Where do I go from there?" He asked.
"Well then maybe plan a day to spend time together? That way you can get to know them more." You suggested.
"Hmmm...," Eijiro mumbled and looked down. "Well what if... what if I already spend a lot of time with... them?" he asked, and hesitantly looked back up at you.
"Oh uh... well I don't know, maybe you just give them a kiss, if you both are confessing your feelings?" You said and started to wonder more about what was going on. It seemed like nothing you and Katsuki had said was making Eijiro feel any better. He actually seemed to be more on edge now.
"Oh man," Eijiro said and hid his face again.
"The hell is wrong now?!" Katsuki asked annoyed.
"This is so not manly at all but- I've never kissed anyone before," Eijiro said.
"You're joking right?" Katsuki asked.
"No man! I'm not joking, come on don't make fun of me!" Eijiro said giving Katsuki a defeated look.
"Hey, it's ok! Everyone has different experiences!" You said, trying to calm him. "It's not that hard Kirishima, don't stress. It'll come naturally in the moment." You spoke.
"But what if it doesn't?! Have you seen my teeth?! What If I hurt them?? Or- or- what if my quirk goes off? Man, that would be so bad! Haven't I showed you what I did to my own eye?!?!" He said, panicking swinging his arms and pointing at the scar on his eye.
"Wow wow- calm down Kirishima," You begged him. It pained you to see your friend so upset that you wanted to do anything to help ease his anxieties. "Did um- did you... want to practice?" You squeaked out so low that Eijiro and Katsuki almost didn't hear.
"The fuck?!" Katsuki exclaimed.
"Wait- like... kiss you???" Eijiro asked, his whole face igniting in a blush.
"I'm sorry! That was weird for me to offer, wasn't it?! I didn't mean for that- I just- I hate seeing you so upset and-" You spat out anxiously feeling embarrassed by your offer.
"No!" Eijiro stopped you. "I uh-... can I?" He asked looking at you with wide eyes.
"You're fucking joking, right? I'm out of here," Katsuki said standing up.
"No! Bakugo wait!" Eijiro called after him.
"HA? Why the fuck would I stay for that?!" He barked.
"Yeah stay," you said. "If you leave then it does make it weird, then it's not just friends helping each other out and- well uh it would feel too intimate if it was just me and Kirishima, and this is just for practice." You explained.
"Uh yeah right..." Eijiro said, but suddenly looked downcast by your explanation.
"Tch- whatever," Katsuki said, sitting back down and looking away from you two. "Just fucking do it then so we can get back to studying,"
"Right ok," Eijiro said to himself as he hyped himself up.
"Alright well- go ahead," you said shrugging your shoulders.
"Um- just go? Like that?" Eijiro said blushing.
You couldn't help but giggle at his nervousness. "Yeah silly- here I'll get closer," you said scooting over to him more on the bed.
"Ok- ok-" He mumbled as he nervously shook. "I'm going to do it-"
"FUCKING KISS ALREADY!" Katsuki yelled.
Eijiro startled by Katsuki's yell, jumped, and moved his lips quickly to yours, causing his teeth to knock into yours.
"OW-" You exclaimed as your hand shot up to your lips.
"OH MAN! I'm so sorry! See I hurt you, didn't I!? That's exactly what I was worried about!" Eijiro cried out, tears beginning to form in his eyes.
"It's fine Kirishima! It didn't really hurt, it just startled me!" You said, trying to calm him.
"Oh my god! No, your lip is bleeding! I'm the worst at this!" He cried.
"SHUT THE FUCK UP KIRISHIMA!" Katsuki yelled, startling you both, and causing you both to turn to him. "Why the fuck are you always so down on yourself!? COME HERE-" Katsuki yelled and grabbed Eijiro by his shirt collar pulling him closer. You watched as Eijiro was now pressed against Katsuki by force. The moment happened fast but you could have sworn you saw it in slow motion. Katsuki forcefully pressed his lips to Eijiro's.
A surprised, "Hmpfh~," escaped Eijiro as you watched him close his eyes momentarily getting lost in the kiss.
Then, as suddenly as he had yanked him, Katsuki threw Eijiro back down to the bed.
"There, see you can kiss someone without hurting them. So- stop fucking crying," Katsuki barked.
Eijiro looked up at his friend, his face flushed as he panted slightly, "Bakugo that-"
"DON'T FUCKING TALK ABOUT IT!" Katsuki warned. "JUST- just go! Go tell whatever dumb fucking extra it is how you feel! Just- get the fuck out of here already," Katsuki yelled and looked away. You could have sworn you saw mist in his eyes before he turned away.
"Uh Bakugo-... we're in Kirishima's room," you dared to say.
"Tch- I'll fucking leave then," he said beginning to storm out.
"Bakugo wait!" Kirishima called after him.
"FUCKING WHAT!?" He yelled but didn't turn around to face you two.
"I already did..." Eijiro said.
"Hu?" Katsuki exclaimed and turned around looking at Eijiro, a confused look on his face. His cheeks were flushed, and his eyes were watery.
"I did... I- I told them... both of them..." Eijiro said, quietly and the room froze. No one spoke for a moment as you all stayed in this moment processing what it had meant, and what this whole interaction had been about.
"Both?... Kirishima... Is that what you mean by they- you meant they as in plural?"
"You mean... both- as in... both of us? You like both of us?" Katsuki asked him, eyes wide.
Eijrio nodded his head shyly.
The three of you looked at each other now having an understanding.
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