citrusmaxxer

[citrusmaxxer]

i love waking up and being like yes,,, my life isnt so bad,, i am aware and make semi good decisions

[citrusmaxxer]

chat i might. Be struggling mentally

[citrusmaxxer]

i fought hard and survived guys

everyday my demons tell me to break up with her but that is just further proof we r endgame

[citrusmaxxer]

yk what i like you!

suicidal ideation is a form of self harm and can be formed not out of a desire to die but a desire to harm oneself in the process of committing suicide

maybe the fact that the suicide methods u were ideating were not going to kill you 100% but instead most likely only injure or disable you really badly says something about what you really want in ur head!!!

[citrusmaxxer]

I'm going to *remembers suicide is often not a desire for death itself but rather an attempt to radically change one's life because the current state of being has become unbearable but the person can't think of any way to change it other than death* kill myself

[citrusmaxxer]

NO I WILL NOT!!!!!

[citrusmaxxer]

I like when people like a character so way too much that it transcends even self shipping or kinning and becomes more of a patron saint that you pray to type of deal

[citrusmaxxer]

OURJGHHH I SHOULD BE STUDYING PERO I *NEED* TO DRAW GAY PEOPLE RIGHT NOW

[citrusmaxxer]

i love him so much he will be part of my blunt rotation

[citrusmaxxer]

me and my delusions against the world

[citrusmaxxer]

went from “dunno if this game is my cup of tea” to “I’m obsessed with a twink and an australian baddie”

[citrusmaxxer]

need to show my friends i love them more

[citrusmaxxer]

hmmm

less defense less defense less defense

love people be vulnerable love people

stop being defensive

[citrusmaxxer]

i have no peak, i am always better than yesterday

[citrusmaxxer]

i love him so bad its not even funny anymore

[citrusmaxxer]

being gay and self aware is too crazy, what is this a yuri plot point

[citrusmaxxer]

i cannot think normally about my relationships. must incorporate this into my yuri story