#nebulous rambles

[nebulous-rain]

fuck you hellbent for my art project

[nebulousbrainsoup]

a night to remember 🖤

[nebulous-esper]

[zero-is-nebulous]

Just finished my first shift at my new job, my feet hurt but I'm actually having a good time, which is new. Can't wait to see how fast I get burnt out! :D

[nebulousbookshelf]

forgot i applied for a taglist last night and just got jumpscared to hell and back

[nebulousbrainsoup]

EVERYONE GO PLAY MY FRIEND'S INTERACTIVE FICTION GAME!!

it's so so good; the lore of it is beautifully intricate and i need more people than the creator to yell about it with!! fae's put a lot of love and thought into this beauty and it's a quick play with a cliffhanger that has me foaming at the MOUTH-- & your character is fully customizable, with the option for some neopronouns or custom pronouns if you'd like them!

anyway tl;dr--go play this beautiful little creation k thanks <3

Chapter One is here! 🎉

DEMO

Chapter One is finally complete and out in the world! It may be rough, but I do plan to keep polishing the writing, UI, and pretty much everything as I continue so that this game becomes better and better as time goes on. If you encounter any bugs or continuity errors let me know (being a one person testing team is hard lol).

More importantly: thank you for your patience and interest and I hope you enjoy! 💕

I am putting content warnings under the cut due to spoilers! If you have any concerns please check them!

Content warnings: unlawful imprisonment, character death (MC's included)(it is kept vague, but it is still there), mentions of blood

If there are any that you believe I need to add please let me know!

[chiricat]

sorry partner i just think you’re the coolest person on the planet. i have eyes for no one but you btw

[the-owl-tree]

out of all the hollyleaf chapters, this one from outcast has always really stuck with me in the way it resonated in constantly being taught that finding a husband and settling down to have kids was an expectation or even a path to happiness. squirrelflight's response isn't to tell her that she doesn't have to have children, that she doesn't need to become a mother if she doesn't want to - instead it's to assure her that her "path is marked out" and "she can have kits and still return to the warrior's den". hollypaw's pov chapter comes after lionpaw's and jaypaw's, neither of which have to deal with these questions and struggles. i'd be curious to hear the author's intentions behind the scene- it's interesting characterization - one that resonated with me obviously - but it's so strange to see in a children's book, one by authors who at the very least hold milquetoast liberal politics, be unable to outright have their authority figure in the scene, the one whom the child readers are meant to look to as guidance, say "you don't need to have children if you don't want to, you're not any less for not wanting them" and instead don't acknowledge the idea of not having kits and instead try and say, albeit in a less blunt way, "you can still have babies and a career! you can find a way to have children and still pursue your goals!" which isn't the Good Message shit approach they think it is.

this isn't really meant to be an organized piece of analysis, i just wanted to revisit a scene that really stuck with me as a young kid struggling with my identity. surprisingly out of everything in po3, this is really what made me resonate with the idea of hollyleaf being a lesbian.

[lelelego]

had a dream and drew it :o)

[nebulousbrainsoup]

thank you both for the best birthday weekend in my life!!! ily my bestie 💖

Got to spend the weekend with my bestest best friend @nebulousbrainsoup and finally spend more than 12 hours together doing stuff and kpop. AND I got to meet @kwanisms-replies the mom bestie ❤️🫶❤️ now if only I could sit on my ass and make money instead of opening my job tomorrow 😬.

Happy Birthday once again bestie!!! I love you so so much!! I can't wait to have a great summer together!! 🥰💕

[nebulous-rain]

i always get mixed up on the anniversary date so while i'm here HAPPY BIRTHDAY MSA you're a whole decade old now. holy shit

[nebulousbrainsoup]

every day I am struck a little more by how cool it is that I am moots and friends with some of my favorite authors. truly neat, truly blessed. content creation is fun.

[nyanbinary-87]

hey wandersong fans. do you ever think about the baron. how, in so little time, wandersong clearly establishes four things: one, the baron fucked up an Entire Town. two, he did it trying to bring that town happiness, because it was once His community. three, hes kiwis father. four, they do not recognize each other.

do you ever think about how profoundly sad that is? the baron, presumably already estranged from his community, decided to try and bring it joy. he abandoned his wife and child to do so. he spent years, decades, even, working on his factory, his toys. but the factory fails. the community comes together, rallied by a bard he does not know, to tell him that hes done them wrong. that hes done something downright evil, even. he looks at a determined community he does not recognize, and backs down. he goes home to his wife, their child nowhere to be seen. thats to be expected, after decades. they must be an adult now.

and kiwi...ohhh the ways the baron parallels kiwi...the both of them, estranged from the communities they live in, doing whatever they can to bring the people around them joy, but its never enough. theyre never Part of the community. so they leave, on their own journey. one to save the world, one to save the town. and they fail! theyre not the heroes of their stories, no matter how hard they try. but kiwi went out making friends on their journey. kiwi has miriam to lift them up and help them out. the baron has no one, not anymore.

[nebulousbrainsoup]

THEY FINALLY DID SMTH BOLD AND OUR BOY LOOKS GOOD

SOMEONE SCREAM WITH ME ABOUT YEO’S HAIR!!!! MY SCENE KING!!!!!

[gingermintpepper]

I think a lot about the depictions of Troilus' death that feature Achilles trying to prise him with a gift of doves instead of the immediate promise of death.

I've alluded to it before, but I tend to look at Achilles and Apollo as comparison cases - maybe not explicitly foils because I'm petty and that would imply that Achilles is narratively equal to Apollo and I don't want to give him that kind of honour even in a bit of casual analysis - but certainly as characters who gain a great deal of complexity when their actions are contextualised in context of each other's. The ambush of Troilus is just one of those funny little things that gets my mind a-whirring.

Because to me, Apollo's 'Troilus' so to speak is Kassandra. Kassandra, who Apollo coveted and wished to court. Kassandra, who was offered a great gift that would have undoubtedly forever marked her as one of Apollo's if she had accepted. Kassandra, who takes the gift but rejects the god and is cursed for her deception. Kassandra, whose curse makes her experience a thousand deaths over and over with no way of communicating such disaster to those around her.

The Achilles who falls in love with Troilus upon seeing his beauty and wishes to make a conquest of him is much the same to me. The biggest difference between Troilus and Kassandra though is that Troilus' rejection is much more physical. Those doves are nothing more than a symbol of the type of sacrifice Troilus would be; if he accepted them, he would die a docile death, sweet and quiet, a necessary casualty to turn the winds like Iphigenia. Except Achilles' love is nothing like Agamemnon's and it is nothing like Apollo's.

In the face of rejection, Achilles' instinct is to maim, it is to destroy. He was always going to kill Troilus - for the sake of the campaign, the boy had to die - but there was no dove's death, no quick and easy knife through the heart, no spit into an open mouth. Troilus' death is a brutal, drawn-out thing, a chase through the sand, a dragging that bruises his skin, a ripping of his hair, a violation of his flesh, a maiming of his corpse. As far as sacrifices go, it's an apalling one. None would dare to treat an animal set to be sacrificed before a god with that kind of brutality, sacrifices were meant to be blemishless and beautiful, something the gods would find appealing. Iphigenia was given away in her wedding finery, Kassandra was dressed as though to seduce a god. Troilus was a dove with his wings broken and his feathers pulled, whose death cries must've been like the terrible hollering of all birds when they try to alert their kind to a predator.

And as fucked as that is, I love it. It sets Achilles' love as this stormy, squallish thing that bleeds into his rage, it establishes that for him, love and wrath are but two sides of the same blade. Troilus was a necessary sacrifice, but he is in no way given even a modicum of the same dignity his contemporaries are and a part of me is just continually intrigued by this.

[nebulousbookshelf]

yk for being so very minho and hongjoong biased, I really don't have many fics for them on here. that feels traitorous