#nearly finished but a MESS
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#stray kids#bystay#staysource#createskz#staydaily#kpopccc#usersa#staytay#dreamytag#userbeepls#usertsu#usersemily#cheekyuser#bitsforkitts#melontrack#*mine#chris: nearly threw hands with a 13 year old#that stage lighting above did them so dirty 😭 hyuni looks ghostly#i tried to tone down the white the most i could without messing with the rest of the boys' skins but it still looks bad#alright i'm going i have to finish a pdf before class in uhhh an hour and a half#see you later~~~~
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Yuma Month: Day 20: Truth
The truth…is uglier than you could have ever expected.
tw // vomit (spoilers too)
...happens only if he ate a meat bun prior to this
(all vomit in rain code is censored in pink glitter ✨)
based on this post I made long back
#Yuma Month 2024#whumpcode#rain code#rain code spoilers#master detective archives: rain code#yuma kokohead#pixeldoodles#my art#tw emeto#okay the trigger is there but it is in a way censored XD#its kinda silly too but I will leave it there just in case#I'm emetophobic myself so I'd like warnings too#anyway yeah I had to do this for the prompt#yet another moment yuma nearly sickens himself#but this moment actually made me put my game down for 3 days#and I even contemplated on finishing it at all#I do NOT like cannibalism.. x-x even if its a giant meme now#it messed me up pretty badly playing the first time#and then after 3 days and a few walks to clear my head#i finished the game and yeah it made sense lol#anyway yeah the truth is pretty horrific#had to find another excuse to put yuma through hell lol#that pose was hard so it probably doesn't look perfect orz#dw tomorrow's prompt will likely be more wholesome#what's funny about this is they do get a solution key after this#shinigami’s like ‘huh did you cough it up master? mmm nope.’#anyway I hope I didn’t scare you all w this!!#very unlike me to draw this sort of thing...xD#I wanted to try drawing it once to test the waters ig??#that scene in Ch5 was kinda bait anyway lmao
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The Ockham backstory.
#ockham#my art#the original version was in flemish but i ended up going back to english for readability#this was also a nearly twenty thousand pixel long image before having to break it up#i hope that tumblr doesn't mess it up too badly#though this was also on me for not accounting for this#and assuming i could 'do you love the colour of the sky' my way through this seamlessly#if anyone knows how to do that please tell me#thanks fl community for inadvertently pushing me to finish this#it was sitting three snakes and some text short of completion for ages now#ockham ref
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not to be a negative nelly but my expectations for dragon age 4 are soooo low like the bar is on the fucking floor... they keep releasing trailers that tell us literally nothing and when they're not doing that they're firing their best writers or trying to get us hyped up by being like "hey remember that game we were making five years ago? well... we're still making it!" alright cool are you paying your QA workers a fair wage though? yeah. didn't think so ❤️
#it's been nearly a decade since DAI and we still don't even have any gameplay footage#i know these things take a long time and i'm by no means advocating for crunching or rushed game development#but this has been a complete mess from start to finish#layoffs everywhere and a toxic workplace do not a good product make#not to mention fucking solas is in it my loathed enemy#dragon age#dreadwolf
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12 kisses: march: scars, anathema.
Wow, it's been a hot minute since I posted anything. I'm kind of back? I've finished a semester successfully, just waiting for grades and information on next semester (I'm lowkey excited about my ofic that I'm writing for school), and just dealing with more health stuff plus I live surrounded by varying levels of Other People's Nonsense that I am involved in dealing with for an unknown reason.
But I'm back to writing fic, and thought I'd upload some stuff that's been marinating since February. First up, catching up on the 12kisses meme with something from Anathema. This looked different in my head but it's cute and it's building up Jasper's Anathema backstory, so I'm happy.
Asks will be answered, chapters will be finished,but today I'm just doing warmups and fic housekeeping.
12 kisses: march: scars, anathema
[ scars ] a gentle kiss on the partner’s scars
I’m frozen solid by the time we make it home, shivering under three layers of soaked clothing - I’m not entirely sure my puffer jacket is ever going to recover from this. It’s less ‘puff’ and more ‘soggy’ now.
“We need to get you warm and dry,” Jasper said, sounding stressed, as I fumbled with the house keys, my fingers numb. He’d been worried since he bundled me into the car; he was so protective of me. I might have been miserably cold, but there was no way I’d get sick from twenty minutes cold. But Jasper preferred to err on the side of caution - my human half - rather than risk me getting so much as a paper cut.
It was pretty cute, honestly.
“First stop, the shower.” I flipped on the lights as we went in; the entire house was dark. Freddie and Dulcie were at the conference in Seattle all weekend, and it had taken a lot of effort to convince them to let me stay home alone rather than going with them, or staying with the Clearwaters (not that I was on entirely good terms with the Clearwater since Jasper showed up. Sue was positively distant with me lately.) But I definitely needed to convince Dulcie or Freddie to let me get a cat - especially for nights when I was on my own. Not that it happened all that often. Hell, Dulcie had even offered to let me stay at her place, but I was happier here - especially since Jasper had upgraded my laptop and fixed the wifi.
Half-tripping up the stairs - my toes were numb in my boots with cold, I found the apartment was slightly more welcoming since I’d accidentally left the living room lamp on. My clothes were leaving a trail of water behind me, and my hands were shaking as I pulled out dry clothes and a towel, leaving a set for Jasper to dry off.
“Shower, Alice,” Jasper said firmly. “You’re freezing.”
“At least dry off your clothes,” I said, clenching my teeth to stop them chattering. “Use the dryer.” I could see him on the fence about that idea. “I can’t warm up and them get cold again from your wet clothing.”
“Go shower,” he said, and I knew I’d won as he gently pushed me towards the bathroom.
Twenty minutes later, I was toasty warm in a giant sweater, leggings, and the socks that Dulcie had knitted me for Christmas. My hair was ridiculously frizzy and I had tried to pin it down the best I could, but it still looked childish.
I dumped my clothes in the hamper to be dealt with in the morning before I wandered back through the apartment and out onto the landing where Jasper was drying his clothing. Our ‘laundry’ was in a closet on the landing because we had nowhere else to put it until someone (most likely Dulcie) cleared out the second floor so we could use it again.
Jasper was standing there in his jeans, checking his phone as his sweatshirt dried, and I was fully intending on just enjoying the view - he was staunchly old-fashioned towards me, but I had quickly worked out it was a defence mechanism. It was easier for him to fall back into the vague social expectations of his human life right now because everything was overwhelming. I’d cheerfully bullied him into doing things like holding my hand, and curling up on my bed with me to watch a movie, but both of those things were done fully clothed and there was still a very respectful distance between us.
That is to say, I had never seen him shirtless. And I had wanted to mentally imprint the imagine on my brain for the foreseeable future (I was very doubtful that being defiled on a gurney downstairs was going to be come to pass before I turned thirty), except…
The scars.
I knew he hand them; there were some on his arms and hands that I’d see, a couple of shallow ones on his face. He’d told me about life in the south and everything that happened with Maria and Peter, but I’d always felt that he was holding something back.
Now I had proof. The scars on his back overlapped; they looked like claws had dug into his shoulder blade and travelled down to his opposite hip. There were nicks in the skin and bite marks and smaller scratches.
And when he put his phone back in his pocket, all the muscles and skin pulled tightly against the scar tissue; I inhaled sharply. I know bodies. I know how they fit together, how they move. Human bodies aren’t even the same as vampire bodies; I know that. The venom does horrific things to the tissue and the muscle and the ligaments and the joints… But all I could think of was how every time Jasper moved, the scar tissue would try to stop him.
Jasper turned around when he heard me, his eyes wide. And I got even more of an eyeful. The damage on his chest and stomach were… different to his back. Not better or worse, just different. At one point, it look like he had been torn open from clavicle down to his stomach. Scratches, gouges, bites littered his body and all I could do was stare.
It wasn’t like anything I had ever faced downstairs. Even the bear attacks or falls weren’t like this. Because no human had to go on living with the remains of those fates. Jasper did.
“Alice, I…” he began and I shook my head, already moving.
“Oh Jasper,” I managed, before I flung my arms around him. His skin was cold against my face, but it was reassuring - I had become used to the fact that he was always going to be cold, or room-temperature at best. It was comforting and familiar now.
He stood rigidly in my grasp for a moment, before I felt his hand rest gently on my shoulder.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t intend for you to see this,” he said so kindly I wanted to cry. “I just wanted to dry my clothing before you came out, I’m sorry.”
I frowned at him. There was a horrific scar where his neck joined his shoulder, and I could see the teeth marks at the edges. “Why are you sorry?”
“It’s not an easy sight,” Jasper said, and he looked away from me. “It wasn’t something I wanted you to ever have to deal with.”
Well. Apparently I grossly overestimated gurney-defilement at age thirty; Jasper had planned on it being never.
A million things raced through my head when he said that. Jokes about wedding nights, frustration that he thought I was too delicate to deal with reality, the insistence that it didn’t matter because it did, to him. He was apart of a family without blemish - some shadows from the scars that changed them but nothing even remotely close to what Jasper bore. Maybe it had been the Cullens that had taught Jasper to hide them, to cover them up, and I felt frustration rise up in me.
“I cannot stand the idea of you hurting,” I blurted out, my fingers twisting through the belt loops in his jeans. “Do they hurt now?”
He watched me, frowning, for a second. “No, they haven’t hurt in a very long time,” he said, and I felt the ghost of confusion drift over my skin. “They’re just there, they won’t ever fade.”
“But your back, I could see the muscles pulling,” I said. The idea that Carlisle, a surgeon, hadn’t done anything about Jasper’s scarring was stressing me out. I’d cut more than one scar through on the bodies downstairs, so that they could lay flat and look comfortable.
“I can feel some of them, but they don’t hurt or restrict me. Vampire skin doesn’t work that way,” Jasper said soothingly. “It simply moves with me. If there was resistance, they’d tear.”
A shudder that ran through me as I curled closer to him. “I don’t like that,” I said honestly. I’d see torn, cracked vampire flesh once, a couple of years ago when a nomad needed to be disposed of. It didn’t look real.
“We treated our wounds to make sure we didn’t lose movement, Alice.” His voice is kind and patient, and I hate that he’s comforting me. “It would be a death sentence otherwise.”
“How did they happen?” I asked, absently tracing one on his arm. “What animal did these?”
Jasper sighed; it was the kind of sigh that came from so much time and misery. “Newborns. Maria. Battles. No animals, just monsters,” he sounded tired. “I’m sorry Alice, I didn’t want you to have to see this side of us. Of me.”
I shook my head. “Sit. I want to know,” I said. Sinking to the floor, I immediately sat in his lap, curled against him. “You should have told me before.”
“I’ll show you mine if you show me yours,” Jasper replies smartly, grabbing my hand and stretching out my arm, to push up my sweater sleeve. Three scars along the arm that I never really thought about; they were smooth against the rest of my skin.
“That’s easy,” I said. “That one, when I broke my arm as a kid - bone tore straight through the skin, I screamed like I was on fire. Jeanie nearly had a heart attack when she found me. I only needed three weeks in a cast.
“That one was a dog bite. Mrs O’Brian, who owned the camping store before the Newtons moved to town, had this retriever. I’d never met a retriever that wasn’t super friendly. He just sunk his teeth into me and shook. I thought Freddie was going to kill the dog and Mrs O’Brian.” I shrugged. “And the last one - was getting ready to work on a body downstairs, and I had a vision when I picked up the scalpel. I fainted and stabbed myself pretty badly. Sue had to give me a bunch of stitches.”
Jasper’s fingers were cool against my arm as he traced the marks. “Any others?”
“I mean, there’s a burn scar on my stomach from when I leaned over my hair straightener,” I said. “A couple of shaving cuts around my ankles. One on my thigh from when I tripped in the forest. These are just living scars, Jas. Not like yours.”
Jasper nodded but was still focusing on the marks on my arm.
“It.. it wasn’t something we worried about,” he says, quietly. “Newborns were cannon fodder, it didn’t matter what happened to them. If they were too far gone, we’d just destroy them - we didn’t want to waste the resources to heal them up again.
“But I had to be on the frontline for us to win, to stay in control,” he continued. “I was a target; everyone knew that without me, Maria couldn’t control an army that size or hold her territory.
“Maria or… Peter would be the one to put me back together. Peter would try not to make a big deal out of it. But Maria, she’d tell me how bad it was. That I needed to fight smarter, that it didn’t have to be this bad. That I was wasting blood and time.” He shivered and looked up at me. “‘It won’t be worth keeping you around much longer’. That’s what she said to me at the end. As if I wasn't still winning, as if she didn’t have her territory.”
Jasper shook his head. “So I get to walk around like this.” The bitterness and self loathing in his voice was evident, even without the emotions boiling around him. “The Cullens, they made sure I stayed covered up for the first couple of years. Esme and Rose, they have histories with violence, and they needed to feel I was safe…”
I squeeze my eyes shut, and try to wrestle down the flare of anger I feel at the idea Jasper was made to feel like a monster, a dirty secret, because he’d been raised in a war zone.
“You deserve so much better, Alice.” The tenderness in his voice was heartbreaking. “If things were different - if I was stronger - I never would have let myself get close to you. A better version of me, in a perfect world. Someone whole and normal who isn’t like this.”
He buried his face in my hair, his arms firm around me as if he was holding on for dear life. And I am stricken. I am not an idiot, I knew that Jasper struggled. That the human facade and living this way was like wearing ill-fitting clothes for him. That I terrified him in so many ways, but especially how easily I had accepted him and invited him closer.
And his second life had taught him one lesson over and over again; that in the end, he would be alone. Cast out, broken, used up. Nettie and Lucy, Maria, Peter… the lesson had stuck. And a few months together wasn’t enough to erase those decades of misery, of bone-deep fears.
My lips press against the snarl of the scar on his neck, and I felt him shiver underneath my touch. I knew I was turning red - there was something so intimate about the gesture, even though I didn’t intend anything salacious.
“I need you to know I love you as you are,” I said, his face still tucked in my hair. “That this you is my you, and there’s not a single thing I would change about you.”
“To me, you are perfect,” I heard him murmur into my hair. I didn’t know if he was reassuring himself with words I’d told him before or telling that to me, but I didn’t get a chance to clarify; he looked up and tilted my head back, his thumb absently stroking my cheek.
“I don’t deserve you,” he said, and there was something so sad yet so fierce in his gaze.
“And I’ve done nothing to deserve someone like you,” I replied. “We’re a perfect match. I adore you.”
Jasper chuckled, and there was a flicker in his eyes for moment as he seemed to lean closer… but whatever was going to be said or happen after that was lost as the dryer let out a thunk, a wheeze, and a chime to let us know that Jasper’s shirt was now dry.
“Time to go inside,” he said, the moment gone as he rose to his feet, helping me up before grabbing his sweatshirt from the dryer.
“I really was enjoying the show,” I said mournfully as he tugged his sweatshirt on. Jasper let out a surprised chuckle, and reached for me again.
“Time and patience, Alice,” he said in a funny way; all-knowing and reassuring but with a new warmth to his words. “All good things arrive eventually.”
I smiled up at him as he took my hand and lead me towards the apartment door.
For him, I would wait forever.
#my fic: anathema#my fic: 12 kisses#jasper is very much a feral cat desperately trying to accept domestication because alice is Perfect#alice would like to be less perfect if it means jasper would feel her up#every time i write anathema i add to my document of 'funeral home and autopsy information i must research'#and no the cullens weren't like 'cover your shame!' to jasper#jasper has unfortunately jumped to conclusions and misunderstood#i cannot wait to introduce peter and charlotte to this mess#and poor bella#i think the official first chapter was nearly done#but the outline still needs finishing#tomorrow: hopefully the april 12kisses which is spaceverse
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Why is it that the muses always strike right when I'm about to go to bed/suffering from insomnia? I've been planning on using this giant canvas for a tardigrade painting for nearly two months now, and then suddenly, right when I put on my pjs, I actually get the motivation/ inspiration to do it?
Anyway here's the guy half done, gotta wait for the paint to dry. (I'm very bad at that, which is why I love acrylic paint. Very good for my slap-dash methods.)
#I am actively procrastinating on so many things right now#I am staring at at least 3 half finished projects#Including a book I still have to decide my binding methods for.#Do I want to use fabric tape? Kettle stitch? French stitch? Fuck around and find out?#Idk but if I mess up even one signature I might cry because it's nearly 100 sheets of nice letter size paper and I don't have more#Fucking perfectionist paralysis#Maybe I'll break through tomorrow#Since I'm all caught up on immediate priorities
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my room is too small for my hobbies
#ive got yarn all around my bed#most of which will be gone when i finish making everything for everyone but it's a mess rn#and my books dont fit bc i have 2 nearly full bookshelves with my reading books#and 2 boxes plus 2 bags with all the academic books that i have nowhere to put#and we'll buy a new bookshelf for them#but in like 6 months at most the other bookshelf will be full. amd then what?#cause I dont have space for a 4th bookshelf in my room#i dont really have space for 3 tbh. i mean the 2 barely fit#i mean i could get rid of my desk 🤔 its not like i use it much anyway#anyway we’ll see#jo says stuff#personal ramblings
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ein drives me crazy he had so much potential and it was written a bit . weirdly ("it was just a red herring" idc, why was it needed 😭) but i'm still like. insane over his character. he's the worst fucker alive . he has the evil OP villain laugh. maybe it's just nostalgia but idk something about him. scratches at my brain. i think he's a really interesting character. and honestly im scared to admit that because i know the aphmau fandom runs.....Young and if you ever try to analyze a villain you will be yelled at but idk i like villain analysis. this bitch is fucked up and i love to learn about why. i hate him but something about completely overpowered characters does something to me. same with aaron . it's probably just the nostalgia talking though lmao
#i can't describe it#i never considered myself the type to like villains#but apparently i love analyzing them#they're not my favorites i just like to think about them because they mess me up so bad#god#i'm still not finished with my rewatch#but i need to talk about this#THE GALL OF HIM??????#100% convinced he will get his way no matter how many times he's nearly beat to death#100% convinced he could get aphmau to love him.#'no matter how many times i hit her she will still come back to me' OH MY GOD??????#paraphrasing here but that line was INSANE#HE IS. Insane.#if they hadn't done that half-sibling 'red herring' then that toxic stalker partner plotline would've been SOOOOOO GOOD#ok now to watch waf#because i....forgot what happens in that season#i . forgot everything ❤️#it's been a min forgive me#kez.txt#aphmau#mystreet#ein aphmau
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OH MY GODDDD IM GOING TO MURDER HIM he finally responded saying he's going to a local cafe for breakfast and he'll phone me once he's got some food in his stomach BRO YOU CANNOT JUST LEAVE ME HANGING LIKE THIS BLEASE
#im so peeved fjdksl i guess its not an emergency#BUT ALSO WHAT WAS HE DOING FOR NEARLY AN HOUR IN BETWEEN ASKING ME AND FINALLY RESPONDING#also i have things to do today !!! but now i have to just be available for him whenever he gets his food and finishes eating it omfg#im so fjdksls hes la-dee-daing his way thru the morning and making me stress out 😭#goddamn this is messing up my whole day plan 😭 i wish he'd just tell me what it is he wants to talk abt#dandy.cmd#vent //
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How's the cleaning going? Thanks for asking! Actually I'm a quarter way through knitting a shawl :)
#i have four days off of work#the life of someone with a part time job#but i decided to unpack and tidy my room#cuz ive lived here for nearly a month and nothing. literally nothing. is unpacked.#but then i saw some pretty yarn i bought years ago and decided that i had to pearn how to knit a shawl instead#thats right. learn#i learned a new knitting skill for this#instead of cleaning i improved my knitting skills#i can do a yarn over now#if you know how to knit. you know how easy that is#but a few months ago when i tried to knit a shawl i couldnt figure out how to do a yarn over#so here we are#procrastination breeds innovation or something#its also 1:30am and i could realistically finish this shawl that i startwd tonight#god my brain is a mess
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people have got to stop comparing everything to the obelisk flair situation bc there has really not actually been anything like it since and probably (hopefully) never will; the obelisk flair thing was the catalyst for staff at least consistently maintaining known gene error threads, because obelisk flair having apparently been a “bug” was something *never publicly stated at all* until the “fix” came out (and in fact obelisks were used in the promotional/announcement images for flaunt/flair���) and that was a big reason for the backlash. that’s why it was the one time they decided to go back on a supposed bug fix (after polling the userbase about it)—people were upset not just by the change to their dragons, but by the fact that no one had any possible idea the change could be coming. gene error threads were not the quickly organized lists they are now, this was not a remotely known error anyone was prepared to see fixed.
it was because of this situation that they started maintaining these threads! you can, in fact, check the threads and know which genes are going to get changed at some point, and if you get upset that your dragon got changed because an error got fixed… you should have checked the error thread first, buddy, sorry.
but then on the other hand: no one should HAVE to check the error threads first all the time—you SHOULD do it but that sucks and i’m sorry that you have to. it is completely and utterly abysmal that ancients keep getting so rushed and pumped out way too fast with a mile long list of errors that don’t even all get fixed before the next broken thing gets dumped out to add onto the horrendous pile of bugs. i say this not even out of my spiteful little ancient hater brain but out of solidarity with & support for my fellow FR users despite our vastly differing tastes: ancients are coming out way too quickly and the 2-3 per year pace is unhealthy and causing way too many problems.
#aberrations came out nearly 2 years ago and they apparently JUST finished dealing with all of their errors. lol & even lmao#i see they’ve just done a big sweep of errors which is good but also why do these fixes only come in big sweeps months apart#hm gee if only they hadn’t released 4 entire new breeds since abbes dropped maybe it wouldnt have taken 2 entire years to clear the errors#idk man like im an ancient hater and i will admit there is this snide part of my brain that just goes#yeah if you had good taste and weren’t geneing up an ancient you wouldnt be in this mess lmao#but i know thats mean and ultimately the fault lies with staff for releasing so much broken shit so fast#ancients were a mistake etc but especially the pace at which they’re being released… abysmal even for the enjoyers#anyway stalk the gene error threads before geneing anything released after aberrations i guess. should not be the way of things but it is.
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Everytime I think about (paraphrased)
"What? Are going to throw me out with trash, then?"
"'Throw you out'?"
"Like how you threw away Father's legacy when you sold his mansion."
"I just don't see a reason to keep things around that have outlived their purpose."
in this context. I just. The accidental implication would either be that there was no more need for the mansion because it was no longer needed to host their family in the city (well, intended implication, but not in terms of what that connotates for Kaeya) with Crepus dead - and by extension, that Kaeya's outlived his purpose in Diluc's need to have him around in his life. Which obviously isn't why he was saying it, he was responding to a comment about the mansion itself, and very likely Kaeya knows what he did mean, but the incidental Undertone is something that feels bad I imagine. Augh
Oh, this entire ask exactly
Diluc, probably thinking Kaeya would understand (because they used to understand each other so easily, like twins and all) just did it.
Kaeya, the Kaeya after Diluc left anyway, doesn't know what to believe other than maybe everything happening to him is just punishment.
Of course Kaeya would misunderstand what Diluc meant, and of course Diluc would assume that Kaeya would somehow still understand (they're both idiots who need therapy).
And when Kaeya mentioned he assumed Diluc threw away the vase he gave him, that was him attempting to confirm what he thought Diluc was trying to say.
Cue Nimrod? I think? Saying that said certain vase was still in Dawn Winery.
Kaeya was then faced with that fact (he probably wondered why the vase wasn't thrown out. He chose it because it was ugly, and it clashed with the decor of Dawn Winery after all... oh wait, there's no waaaaaay right???? does he identify as the damn vase?!?!?!???!!)
#my adhd is wildin today so my head is a mess and this took me nearly an hour to finish wtf#but thanks for the ask anon!#kaeya is a strategist and no good strategist doesnt overthink everything#kaeya twists his own words and also twists other people's words#kaeyachi asks#I SWEAR I HAD MORE THOUGHTS BUT MY BRAIN IS REALLY ALL OVER TODAY DAMN
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I have got to get worse at my job cus no way can keep letting them rely on me like this
#work tag#got on shift on Sunday and my manager pulled me aside when i clocked in to say thank god youre here i need you on front theyre an absolute#mess over there theyve got orders waiting nearly twenty minutes i need you to figure out whats going on and whip them into shape i know you#can just get all those order out right away just put them where you want them so you can clear that screen. and i did sort it in under 5#despite there having been 3 people on front before i got there which is more than enough people to deal with just 6 orders and yet#and today several people called in sick and one of my managers asked if i wanted some extra hours i said depends when she was like just#until ten tonight which is only an extra hour later than i finish but ive already expressed im not comfortable finishing at 9 for only a#8 hour shift cus its an hour walk back and thats far to go by myself in the dark but i agreed anyway one of my other managers then asked if#i was okay to get home if i stayed that late cus obviously there must be a reason i dont usually stay that late i was like im only walking#so it doesnt really matter but it is gonna be late to be walking back but its fine manager then comes back again and asks if i could stay#til 11 ive only done an 11 once before when they were understaffed again and she did the same but i was wary to agree to the 11 cus thats#reeeally late to be doing such a long walk by myself again other manager is like you dont have to agree to anything youre not comfortable#with then argued to the manager that ive got to walk home and i shouldnt stay however im thinking it over as i make my break and approach#the actual shift runner for this evening and suggest i stay until 12 instead cus thats when my work bestie is finishing and if we finish at#the same time i can then walk back with her instead of just doing the 10 and honestly i need the hours but i shouldnt be so relied on tbh
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i will say though my pile of art ive got to finish up for posting is all stuff im VERY pleased with, which is a nice feeling
i just want it to be finished now lmfao
#also predictably most of it is zelda shit because im a simple man with a simple plan and that plan is [high pitched wailing]#theres all the fucken ... refresher sketches ...#some of which i wanna post separately with more detail to them#then theres dragon doodle#then theres DRAGON COMIC holy fuck ive actually been working on it consistently for months after work#its been nearly 2 years since i first started that and i WILL finish it even if it kills me#then theres the absolute mess ive made of a request for some more info on my version of present day Ordon#THEN theres the other few stupid zelink doodles i have and the dumb au one#T H E N theres a few storyboarded ideas i refuse to touch until ive finished dragon comic#jesus fuck#and thats not even including any stuff that ISNT zelda related#side eyes OC related art lol#nfskjfdj help me i need more hours in the day#rory's ramblings
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one fic completed for merwaincelot week :D
#completed apart from a title but shhhh#telling myself that it's alright if i don't write anything new and just organise my active wips today#got 4 more that i would love to finish in time to post for the fest#one is a nearly complete first draft and another is close to similar completion in theory but has more plot that needs tying up#another is probably 1/8 of the way through#and the final is a bit of a mess#going away for a week and coming back 4 days before the start of merwaincelot week and being like ahhhhHHH#however#i am taking a notebook and printouts of what i have so far#with the intention to finish as many first drafts when i'm away and then edit like mad when i get home#failing that if i submit them late then i submit them late can't do much more than that#bought a new notebook in wilko yesterday specifically for fic :')#anyway one down four to go#(not including my gwainthian wip and ineffable bureaucracy fic idea that i should also probably write this week for the upcoming fest)#lit talks#lit writes#merwaincelotweek2023
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🫣 hopefully gna have a lot more free time this week so i'm gna play so so much games
#🌙.rambles#played stardew valley today bcs of the sale HDFLASDJL gna co-op w a friend soon <3 when we can <3#^^ i've always been interested in the game but yk rn it's. yk bcs they wanted to gift it to us aaaaa ><#i am. so very grateful#but. uh. 10.4 hours like nearly straight i think w just 1 hour rest w the game open so more like 9.4 hours but still#5 hearts w sebastian tho !!!! 🥹🫶🏼#admittedly part of me ended up giving in to the temptation n searched some stuff like loves n likes n all#i rmb doing stuff like that a lot w fe3h T_T rn i'm just. looking at occasional stuff so i won't mess up i don't want to mess up hdlfaksjd#i want to play. limbus company eventually.#n then. my poor neglected mobile games bcs i have no space on my phone rip#n other games too that. sob w lack of storage space n especially time#i'll finish my assignments asap. damn it yeah#JUST TUESDAY LEFT....#n the 'wellness break' is rlly just 3 days no school + the weekend buuut that's at least smth 🥺🥺🥺
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