#natdafat lore

[natdafat]

So I can't handle gore or implied gore (so, like when it's not shown, but either you know it's happened or you hear it) like at all

I don't know why, but whenever it happens in a game, film, show, or whatever, my brain tricks me into thinking and feeling what is happening to the character. Which is bullshit, thanks brain, but there's nothing I can do about it. Gore and I of any sorts are not on good terms, yet that doesn't mean i avoid anything with it. For instance, i have seen all the Saw films bar Jigsaw and Spiral as I enjoy them despite being unable to watch any of them without a pillow to cover my eyes.

Anyway, you may be wondering where I'm getting with this, we'll my main weakness is with eyes. I watch something with eyes, and I'm basically paralysed for a few seconds as I put my hands over my eyes as a refelx.

So when the fuckin phase change cutscene for messmer happened it was like morgots shackle had been used as by the time the cutscene ended I was still recating to the fact he pulled his eye out, so I died instantly as the controller wasn't even in my hands. Would have beat him first try if not for that.

Messmer was playing dirty, I tell you.

[natdafat]

'iQ test are bullshit' is just true. But it reminds me of somthing that happened while I was in college.

We were all asked to take an IQ. They said it wasn't for a mark or anything important they were just curious about our abilities, but I'm still unsure about that.

Anyway, we were all tasked with taking this IQ that they had chosen. Now, I am about as sharp as a marble, but I had an obsession with riddles and puzzles at the time. Like, basically, all I would so in my free time would be solving them as I found it fun. This meant that due to the nature of an IQ test, it was nothing I hadn't seen before. Thus, it allowed me to get 140 without even trying.

Once my mark was read out (yes, they read out everyone's mark, so we all knew what everyone else on our course got, which is cruel) they stopped speaking and said 'well these IQ tests were just for fun after all and don't mean anything'.

Apparently, after I left college after my course ended, a friend who was a year behind told me that the college stopped doing the IQ test after 'someone proved they were unrilable and not accurate' :/

So yeah, long story short, my obsessions with puzzles made it so my college no longer makes or judges people on the results of an iQ test .

One time when I was 9 my dad had me take a MENSA IQ test and I bombed it obviously, but he wouldn't let me try again so when I was 17 and had my own private internet access I took the same test over and over until I figured out how the questions worked and then practiced every IQ test I could find until I got 120-160 on all of them but by the time I really nailed it I'd found all kinds of studies proving that IQ tests were bullshit and I'm pretty sure there's a lesson to be learned there somewhere

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Just because something prompted the thought, but I don't really get angry. Like, don't get me wrong, I can get annoyed really easily, but my patience for things usually balances it out. It takes a lot to make me actually angry, which I do honestly view as a good thing as I'm a arse at the best of times.

[natdafat]

Gotta make a phone call that can take up to 2h :(

I have no problem phoning a stranger for that long it's just..

I don't know if I've got the minutes for that on plan :/

[natdafat]

what IS your profile picture?

Ah okay this Is somthing I've never really explained. So basically the original concept of it came from a drawing prompt from a friend.

'Draw yourself as a souls boss/character'

The original design looked Like this

The main design element came from a magpie as many, many people refer to me a a magpie in human form (there is genuinely a high amount of people who describe me as a magpie most not even knowing each other) I also really like magpies so that's a good thing at least. The main idea I liked from the desgin was a giant sac which holds everything I've ever, well, 'magpied'.

Then, I sort of developed it over time before making a profile image later on, which is what it is now.

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I don't think I have or will ever do somthing in a game because it's the most optimal/top teir/current meta.

There is only one reason why I will do something in a game, and that is for

The shits and giggles.

If the vibes ain't there, I ain't touching it with a 10 meter stick

Couldn't care if a wepaon build can kill players at max level in on hit or if a character has incredible frame data. If it's not fun I don't care for it.

I'm aware of course of all this information. it doesn't mean I'll use it in any other way of knowing how to deal with it.

I hate when all you see is the boring meta, and no one is just having fun with it

[natdafat]

So, like, I am genuinely cursed

I have horrifying face blindness, I once failed to recognise my best friend of 12 years because he got a new style haircut, and I can't remember people's names to save my life

The only saving grace is that I can remember people's voices... but even then. all I'm doing is recaling a voice without a face or a name

[natdafat]

So like does anyone else freeze up and start shaking at the just the idea of having to use or transfer money digitally and not physically in person and as such they can't do it even when they needed or want to and as sych must get someone they trust to do it for them. And as such, whenever you see a post about donating money it fills you with guilt and the feeling of being a heartless bastard as you physically couldnt do it even if you financially were able to for once or is that just a me problem?

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Something that annoys me is that I am both so fucking slow and sometimes really quick at understanding things through media literacy.

Now, if it's something obvious or like baby's first media literacy test, I can pick that up instantly, I'm not a complete numpty (normally)

Now that in itself isn't bad, we can't all be on it like a car bonnit. No. The problem stems from that fact that my brain makes the connection randomly at some unknown point later.

Like you remember this..

When it could be 5 min or 10 years, that's me noticing or making a connection in any form of piece of media. It's really embarrassing.

Example

Let's say i watch a film, I watch it I then forget everything about it, 7h pass I am currently eating dinner or somthing, my brain: "hey did you pick up on how the film discussed the idea that ones own capability orginates in their ideas of themselves, in essence what makes you different makes you unique and once that is accepted, and you stop comparing yourself with others you can walk the path to greatness.' And I'll be like dam, I only noticed the funny panda

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opinions on cake?

In simple terms, I adore cake. I can not get enough cake. I have been making a list of the best cakes I've had for years now. And I share my thoughts with anyone who asks, people I go to uni with ask if any of the cakes they sell at the uni are any good as they know I've tried them and have a detailed review on them.

My favourites are lemon drizzle, half moon cake, and an old faithful battenberg. But intruth there are at least 2 dozen cakes that I love.

However, cake is not my favourite food, nor is it close

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When I was like 9, I did one of those letters where you would write to your future self, my example being 21. Anyway, the problem was my memory is pretty good, which basically meant before opening it. I already knew basically the entire contents of this letter already. Devastated, I'll tell you, I wanted a bit of flare a bit of 'did I really think that' but no. Just ah yeah, I might as well read it nothing should be that grand to read

[natdafat]

Only took 1h and 20 minutes, made the person laugh and got everything sorted out. Dam, im good

Gotta make a phone call that can take up to 2h :(

I have no problem phoning a stranger for that long it's just..

I don't know if I've got the minutes for that on plan :/