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This is something of a continuation to this post, but Cherri's "bravey test" isn't necessarily all that voluntary nor involuntary. I mean, it's true that most people end up participating in it because Cherri made a show of boasting how "[it] is a fool-proof way to weed out liars" after framing some poor sod for stealing something they hadn't, but he also just lies to people that it's for the sake of impressing someone or other they got a crush on, which is objectively a bigger lie than the stealing
#i think the bravery test survives even during the comics era but this time instead of it being an epic prank lol xD it's more for keeping#assholes in line because for all that it is symbolic for cherri to give up using his gun during his pennace era this is the zones. you coul#hole yourself up in an abandoned building for years and you still wouldn't be able to escape the violence#n e ways i'm rambling#danger days#killjoys#cherri cola#headcanon#character headcanons#ttlotfk
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Hiiiii guess who finished her pmv. finally. um enjoy :3
#asoiaf#a song of ice and fire#valyrianscrolls#cersei lannister#and a bunch of others I don't feel like tagging them#wrote some of them in the desc if you scroll past my ramblings. the others I hope you can tell by context clues i believe in u#my art#pmv#it's finally joever oh my god#i dont want to look at it ever again. this is my child and I'm abandoning it at your doorstep 🏃♂️💼#btw confession time I started this before finishing adwd so like if you notice book inaccuracies. just ignore it#tbh towards the end i was just kinda going off the song lyrics more than anything#also like her hair should not be that long I think. the show poisoned my brain bc they do fuck all for like a year post walk#n e way ill talk about it more tomorrow probably. im gonna be so annoying about this btw I WILL force you to watch it#istg if it flops 🔪
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Something about the way people talk about Solomon's dismissal of his vulnerability rubs me the wrong way. (I don't have any specific examples, I'm just gonna hope you know what I'm talking about lol.)
I've never seen anything inherently mean, but I have seen comments that seemingly take offense to his "just kiddings" when he expresses his feelings, whether it's romantically or talking about past hardships... And I couldn't pinpoint what it was that confused me about the fandom's responses to that until now.
What Solomon is going through in moments like those is a trauma response. And yes, while trauma responses aren't always beneficial and can sometimes be hurtful to others or the person responding that way themselves, reacting with "negativity" to said responses just makes it worse.
Solomon has an avoidant attachment style, which means he struggles with opening up and being genuine in his feelings even if he wants to. I, myself, am the same way. More often than not, I also follow up a heavier topic with "I'm sorries" or "just kiddings." The thing about this, is it's not meant to be malicious. So, when I see people taking Solomon's comments as if it's a slight to them, I just...??
I can almost guarantee that if those comments where said to him right after he'd attempted to open up, even if it had good intentions, it'd probably make him want to close back up completely. Because there's no patience to his avoidance, no acceptance to why he behaves that way. There's just this perception of not being understood or that his feelings/thoughts aren't safe. It just feels like he's not allowed any grace.
#please don't think i'm mad or trying to be overly critical but i just realized why the fandom's handling of his attempts at vulnerability#bothered me#it's just like with the brothers dealing with their sins or their grief over being fallen angels and people complaining about the previous#progress made saying it was a waste of time (not talking about the storyline i'm actually referring to the mental aspect of the characters)#healing isn't linear and if you expect yourself or others to deal with trauma in an easy fashion you are sadly mistaken :(#n e ways...sorry for this little ramble lol i just got to thinking about this topic#obey me#obey me solomon#jo’s thoughts
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So, u h.
H O W. HOW, I ASK. ALL I DO IS POST ART ONCE IN A BLUE MOON AND MAKE REALLY CURSED REBLOGS. LIKE, I'M SO VERY GLAD YOU'RE HERE, BUT I CAN'T UNDERSTAND HOW OR WHY YOU'RE HERE-
I also like. Make really angsty, ungodly long fanfics that I do absolutely nothing to promote on this dumpster fire of a blog, but that's besides the point- ANYWAY. HAVE SOME REALLY SKETCHY DOODLES THAT I DID TO THANK YA MAD LADS ;_;
Thank ya, thank ya, you absolute mad lads. I will uh... continue to do what I do. Thank you for joining the ride, even though it's less of a ride and more that I found an abandoned theme park ride and decided to ride it as a prolonged death wish and you inexplicably strapped yourself in next to me with the moldy seatbelt-
#It's 104 followers now#This just shows how slow I am#SERIOUSLY#WHERE DID YOU ALL COME FROM#What am I doing really#To warrant this#I m e a n#Have we seen the state of my blog#It's not good#I can't begin to understand but I am so very thankful you are here anyway#Lord knows I am not helping your incentive to stay#With my ungodly cursed reblogs smh#Would you be disappointed in me if I told you my cursed reblogs is how I talk in real life-#It's true#I'm s o r r y#So you can see why I am baffled I have as many followers as I do#I came into this site expecting to be shouting my cursed ramblings to the v o i d#So to see the void a n s w e r b a c k is way more than I ever expected in my entire life#Oh w e l l; maybe I can make up for it by uh-#Idk maybe I uploaded a chapter or maybe I didn't#Don't look at me like that; we all know I can't make myself post something about a chapter update-
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Weird discrepancy I just noticed, nightbringer changed Lucifer's dominant hand fsr
In the original game [top 2], he's writing with his left hand, but in this card from nightbringer, he's using his right. Either he's ambidextrous or the devs just forgot that detail
#its not a massive deal?#i only noticed bc I'm drawing him writing w his left and had 2 pause to check which hand he writes with#n e way#obey me#obey me lucifer#elliot rambles
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I finally started watching My Journey To You and I'm completely enamored with these character introductions. Our introduction to the female lead is her flying in through a window and immediately knocking a roomful of people unconscious. She doesn't care who sees her naked. Her body doesn't belong to her anyway. She's cold, hard, and efficient. It's her last mission and she's not going to let anything stand in her way.
Our introduction to our male lead is... the complete opposite? He’s soft and curled up napping on a chaise in front of a fire like a housecat???? He's a beautiful delicate flower who's afraid of the cold??? He goes to the brothel when he's sad just so the courtesan will play him music so he can take a nap and de-stress after his father yells at him???
I can't believe this story is "ruthless assassin and her pitiful little meow meow". I love it so much.
#my journey to you#云之羽#zhang linghe#esther yu#the CONTRAST#i'm obsessed#well i guess they're both cold#just in like different ways#will changheng finally get his girl? tbd.#by the way the music in this is I N C R E D I B L E#i was thinking about doing a more comprehensive live blog about this#but i don't know if i have the energy#word vomit#text#my ramblings
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i feel like you’ve told me about most of these uhmmm let’s go with to the sky i'd throw it (ily <3333)
yEAH bc unlike you i am. bad at keeping fics a secret iuhgyftgyhu
anyways this is the depressed kunikida fic where he dies a lot and is like "well. life sucks man" ijuhygtftgyuio idk there isn't too much to say about it except this was originally supposed to be the kunikida writing a time for the kunidazai first kiss and havibg Shceudles like we talked about in the car on our way to cfa oiuygfgyuioiuygf the title also comes from the best song from shrek the musical, "who i'd be" which ruined my life and also i ate the song
here's a lil snippet with a chuuya mention Just for you <333
Kunikida is twenty-two when he dies again.
Perhaps it isn’t fair to call the aftermath of his personal explosion death since the butterflies didn’t have to save him.
the butterflies were too familiar now, they left a sickening sting on his tongue
she had to bring Kenji back three times in the past couple hours
he’s just a kid.
But before the boom temporarily deafens him, he hears Jun’ichiro scream his name, so loudly and full of pain and fear that Kunikida wants to remind him to drink some water when he gets home.
if he gets home
he’s just a kid.
He remembers seeing Chuuya’s face as he jumped from the plane. There was something akin to terror gleaming in their wide eyes, and suddenly they looked older than twenty-two.
Kunikida wonders if he looks older than twenty-two as he falls.
It’s practically death when he loses his hands, isn’t it? What is life without his ideals, without a means to write them? What is life without the Armed Detective Agency, and what right does Kunikida have to be there without his ability?
He’s not smart like Ranpo, he’s not cunning like Naomi, he’s…
He’s dead.
…
And then he’s not.
It feels trivial at this point, and as Yosano heals his hands, Kunikida thinks he may have been better off dead.
oops that is a. long snippet iuyftcgyhuij it felt wrong to break any of that up lol anyways ily kunikidaaaaa
#grace tag#corey rambles:)#ngl i went OFF with everything i've written so far which isn't much but i'm really proud of it#and i haven't really been proud of the stuff i've written in a while lol#n e ways ILYYYYYY#ugh i need to gradeeee
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Christians: Nothing should be over the Lord! You should give your money to the church because it belongs to Him!
Me, deciding I love my cat more than Jesus:
#This is $66 worth of stuff btw#I got litter food odor remover toys and treats all for $66 dollars and it'll last months hopefully#I buy my cat's food and little in bulk that's why I prommy I'm not risking my livelihood for my cat#I bought 20lbs of food and like 50lbs of litter#I also bought his treats in bulk this time cause it's like 3 times as many treats for a few dollars less#wait no they were out of stock of the 50 so I got 40lbs#They also had a sale on toys so I got my cat new toys cause he rips thru his so quickly#so I buy him new ones when they're on sale#My roommate once bought him like a $7 bag of crinkle toys and he ripped into all of them within months#I sometimes buy him plush dog toys cause they're sturdier but he doesn't like them as much#he specifically likes ripping his toys apart#that or he respects Jewish tradition so much he refuses to rip up the Hanukkah dog toys I got him#since he's half Jewish on my found family's side#he only plays with the gelt piece but won't play with the dreidel or menorah plushies#I think cause it crinkles the most of the three. the other two are more squeaky and sturdy#n e ways I love u bulk sales my cat will be living in luxary no matter what#he will not know struggle a day in his life#thank u for reading my rambles about how much I love my cat he's a devious creature and my son#ex christian#religious trauma
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every now and then i consider writing fir.e emblem aw.akening muses, but the anxiety kicks in and i chicken out lmao
#tbd later //#// i'm musing and tag rambling to myself lol#// i've been playing fi.re emblem hero.es again#// and have been considering finishing the BL route in Three Hopes / possibly restarting it#// but man i've also?? considered picking up my 3ds and replaying FE:A#// fe:a my beloved#// i've been considering replaying it but man.#// remember back when i had like 2 fe:a muses on the blog a few years ago and had no interactions for them lmao#// and yet i get tempted to add others#// i have a soft spot for almost all of the FE:A characters and love them v much#// n e way ignore me im rambling#// maybe i'll replay the of FE:warroirs a bit or smthn#// if i don't go and play more cor.al island before work lmao
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the L change the world movie is just someones fanfiction about L being the coolest and most awesome big brother in the world
anon you have activated my infodump trap card XD
i am currently reading the novelisation and let me tell you. i cannot wait to pick it back up because it's INSANE how much fun the author is having with their L characterisation ??? + the batshit Mello Narration™ straight from nisioisin's novel. genius storytelling, this crêpe cart is going 5000 km an hour and there are no brakes. the french translation includes such gems as:
— Bonjour, jeune homme, que diriez-vous d'une petite crêpe ? fit l'ours d'un ton aussi léger qu'à contretemps. ("Hello, young man, would you like to enjoy a little crêpe ?" said the bear in a tone as light as it was against tempo.) "La petite promenade occasionnée par cette translation de document s'annonçait silencieuse" (The short stroll brought about by this transposition of document promised to be a quiet one.) "L coinça un macaron entre chaque doigt, soit quatre en tout, et se mit à attaquer le premier avec une telle fougue qu'il faillit se manger les doigts." (L stuck a macaron between each finger, so four all in all, and started to dig into the first one with such fervour that he almost ate his own fingers.) (once again a mention of the third world war that L stopped when he was 8 by solving the "mad bomber of Winchester" case before he even met Watari. if you want context i hope you're ready to wait lmao) — Il va falloir revoir l'organigramme de la Wammy's... (We'll need to restructure the Wammy's organisation chart...)
i'm crying real tears of joy every time i open this book. impeccable translation work by Patrick Honoré and Machida Momomi, i send them my utmost affection. i had to stop 26 pages in but i'm IN LOVE already
also. have a meme. maybe i'll make more who knows c;
thank you for giving me the opportunity to be publicly unhinged about LCTW haha, i hope you have a good day !!!
#this was. WAY more than you thought you'd get i'm sure but thank you anon i'm having SUCH fun you have no idea. well. a small idea now XD#V tysm for the rec i am having the time of my life and when i can read again you and Nuity will get more happy Haz rambles. if that is ok !#n e wayz thank you for your time. take care anon and everyone !!!#L change the world#death note#dn#anonymous#olorea answers#txt#img
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so i was like 'i could swear i didn't feel this hideously dysphoric last summer, wtf is my dealio lately!!' and finally it occurred to me, 'okay, fine, let's maybe try putting on one of the ribbed men's tanks i wore religiously all last summer instead of the women's technical tops i've been wearing lately, and see what effect that has,' and. yeah. fuck. 🤦
it really is like. every! damn! season! i get seduced into thinking maybe i can wear just a little bit of reasonably-unfeminine women's clothing, and the idea is appealing because i'm actually comfortably encompassed by that size range, whereas with men's shirts i often ideally would wear an XS but can't get one—and yes, boys' stuff exists and i do ever wear it, but sometimes you're in the market for stuff that's slightly higher spec than anyone bothers to make for kids, you know? but anyway it's just so reliably the case that like. every fucking time i'm like, okay, sure, let's try a little womenswear, it turns out that i can bear it for a little while and then i realize something about it is making me fucking crazyyyyyy. >:|
sux bc the problematic batch of tanktops is like. such a good light comfortable wicking all-natural fabric! that's why i wanted them and they're everything i hoped they would be! and they're genuinely not even overtly feminine! but the straps are just a little too narrow and the cut is just a little too )ᓑ( and it's like. in some contexts those things are bearable, but in others they're really just. Bad, it turns out. :(
anyway they are sufficiently slouchy that in theory i could probably just, like, do some aftermarket alterations to improve the shape??? like i think i really just need them to be, you know, simple tubes straight up and down and not the vaguely /ᓑ\ shape they currently are, which in theory ought to be simple enough to achieve (especially since they're also a little long, so i could just hem them straight and stop worrying about how to factor in the vaguely high-low thing that's also happening). however. probably NOT realistic to do by hand (like. if nothing else i just don't have the patience) and while there is a sewing machine kicking around here somewhere i absolutely don't remember how to use it and do live in fear of it (i just have like. vague recollections of various Mysterious Snarls back in the day). so. idk. blergh, argh, etc.
(i assume 4p would just be like 'try it! learn as you go!' and like. honestly that's fair and maybe i even will, i think the manual is also kicking around actually, but. would prefer to have it magically sorted. :/ like, sometimes you just want a wardrobe and not a project, you know??)
#n e way sry this post is so boring‚ i'm just. frustrated that my attempts 2 improve my lot have just created more problems for me‚ lol sigh#and also between the adhd & the depresh (& probs the lack of physical exercise tbh) my brain is just like. a frantically churning sludgepit#so you get like. one million rambling words abt topics that i DO realize r ultimately not that riveting!#(also am feeling like. dysphoric abt my fucking blogging style which is. insane. but like. many cutesy tics. feel complicated abt them.)#(anyway. desperately need 2 go engage with something that isn't any of this. biketiem would be ideal but idk. we'll see)#sartorial#feelingsblogging#journaling#mundanities#embodiment (is violence)#(that's not exactly the right tag idt but i don't remember a more relevant one so it's what this is getting.)
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slowly building the monster boys' cabin in blender :-)
#blood tw#i have no reason to be doing this other than i just feel like it#& i have severe mb brainrot#this AU is so fun#like it's literally taking all of my restraint not to make 10 million posts rambling about it#i think it's fun bc like. all of my characters' worst features & fears are exaggerated in this universe#bc yk nuclear apocalypse & all that#i think i'm gonna write some actual story scenes from kel's perspective today#kel is fun bc like. as a monster he is incredibly apathetic & experiences zero feelings (for Reasons tm) until he meets dhes#& meeting dhes changes him in ways he does not fully understand or have the words for#like kel was straight up gonna kill dhes but obviously didn't bc. soulmates#n e way#rainyrambles#dl maybe
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I HAVE TEN MINUTES UNTIL I GOTTA GO BUT H O W AM I MEANT TO FOCUS ON SCHOOL WHEN YTTD NEWS DROPPED
#HDHSISBWJJWNABSNSJAJJSJ#Rambles#on the plus side it woke me up I'm no longer half asleep#I did so m e t h i n g to myself i could not sleep last night my. Everything hurt <3 that happens often though i get injured or sick in#Silly ways#If I'm still like. Owowowow by tonight I'm probably gonna call a doctor then but usually stuff resolves for me on its own and it's not bad#This morning lol#ANYWAYS that's why i kept randomly ghosting yesterday <3#VEHSKWKWBSBSJAJBDBDHWBSBSND OKAY#I AM GOING TO LOSE MY KIND OVER THE NEW YTTD GIRL#SHES A STRAWBERRY!!!! STRAWBERRY GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#Fambles
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spot the difference
#my sister's new puppy looks like a baby harp seal... akskdkfjs#anyway I'm home alone with le bebe rn and she's? so calm??? good grief i love pyrenees#i grew up with one!! but i was 2yo when we got her so i don't remember her as a puppy#my mom says that she was just as chill as this little one is so like. best breed honestly#*MY* dog (95lb mutt) was a MENACE at this age skskdjdkajfaljf#like#this is not my dog she isn't primarily my responsibility but wowww she's so much more pleasant to be around than mine was as a puppy#N. E. Way her name is sophie. like from keeper of the lost cities#Lu rambles#one of the few personal photos y'all will ever see from me#skdkfjksjf
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me: you can do multiple edits for multiple eras
also me: why did you do honda jenson so early
#n e way!!!!! working on more stupid stuff and i'm just. i don't want to beat the dead horse you know#i'm rambling again aren't i?
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...I should go to the craft store some time
#^ beseiged by a need to buy shiny plastic beads and rhinestones#also clamps. i want more clamps so i can hang more stuff off my jeans and the pull tab hooks on my battle jacket#oh. and a note to myself but i should check if I have enough carboard/the appropriate thickness of cardboard for the thingamabob#n e ways. niche skills don't learn themselves for the sake of a silly cosplay fit so i'm off ✌#boo rambles
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