#myifs

[dakotawritesif]

OC’S AS PLANETS

Tagged to do this uquiz by @stephschoices who also drew the art featured for the characters below except Cier, Emil, and Dima done by MirageIllustrations on Etsy 🪐

I’ll tag @grapecaseschoices @kalorphic @illbealive-nextyear @ot-hoe-me @icanmakewords (no pressure tho)

Did my Fallen Lights (@fallenlightsif) boys this time ✨

SATURN

patient. stable. reliable. preserving and diligent. your capacity to hold focus on something you choose to is unmatched by all other planets. you were made for hard work that you love and that you know is rewarding. you are the shoulder that everyone wants to cry on, so remember you can lean on yourself when it seems there is no one else. there is nothing wrong with being self sufficient. you are justice and evenly balanced scales.

URANUS

innovative. unpredictable. resourceful. imaginative. creativity in science and disruption. oh, uranus. you were dealt the cards that don't have much to offer, but luckily you can always make them work. you are acrylic paint that has been plastered over the same canvas so many times that it is starting to have those little grooves of texture. you are ever-changing and suddenly it stops. and starts again. keep moving. nothing is wrong with not wanting to sit still.

VENUS

passionate. romantic. loving to be loved. courtship. adoration and taste. you are your own personal aesthetic. you are hand written love letters in copper ink. you are "let me show you just how much i can love you." you are royalty and class. love has no bounds with you. your heart is wrapped in chocolate tin foil. you attract what you manifest so keep believing in love. it is you and you, it.

MERCURY

clever. intelligent and witty. wisdom, sharpness, anxiety and indecisiveness. you are the comedian. the "make someone laugh if they are crying" kind of lover. you dont want to think too much about anything because that stops you from just having fun, but your brain doesn't ever shut off. you are curious and never ending. forecast and shadows. the smell of clean sheets.

EARTH

nurturing, generous and caring. introverted, tolerant, honest and trustworthy. you are "my phone is always on, call me any time." you are "i feel like i'm everyone's therapist." you are impressive with your stability and peacefulness. you are wallpapers of cows and fields of ever-growing seeds. you are the best friend. mother nature. ice cold water and the smell of rain.

JUPITER

optimistic. hopeful. generous and compassionate. you are the guardian angel. you are 4:44 am and a sense of being watched over. you enrich the lives of others just by existing and caring for them. you give as many blessings as you receive and there is always more to go around. careful not to become too over-confident in these abilities. what makes you jupiter is your belief that ego has no part in caring and love. you are softness and the smell of almond coffee.

[sugaroto]

I THOUGHT HER NAME WAS HATUME😭😭😭😭

[lettucefather]

I owe you myife v1 ultrakill

[marco--the--phoenix]

I deleted my old vent blog. But I gotta gwt this out.

Tw: depression - eating disorder- personal - mental health - suicide - financial issues - chronic illness

For 5 years we have lived on bare minimum. Sometimes we can do the odd nice thing here or there but it'll drain us.

Every month is a making ends meet kinda month and sometimes we go without very often.

One meal a day, I go without phone service or unable to leave the house.

It's not even our fault. Wife works full time, I can't work due to both mental and physical health.

I am so unbelievablely grateful to friends who help us out when there's a struggle but I feel so bad every time.

I'm almost 40 and I don't have the means to look after myself. I'm not the worst off person in the world but I'm fucming struggling.

I had an ED that almost killed me many years ago and it permanently crashed my body. I have a dangerous autoimmune disease that's almost killed me once already.

It's agony, my joints lock up, I've been paralysed in pain by arthritis brought on by it. My skin hurts and aches and burns all the time.

I can barely move. I ooze and feel gross and stick to things and feel ugly and gross and vile

My mental health is bad despite being medicated. My adhd is wild and the two have caused me to loose all momentum in myife. I was once in control and on top of everything and now I'm drowning.

I try not to vent to people. So used to being punished for venting rhat I'm terrified if people saw the real deph of what I'm feeling I'd loose them.

I'm sick of money lasting a second. We do like ONE nice thing a month together and even then it's far from wild or much money. We treat ourselves to a little something but like.. a £5 sketch from a friend or a third store shirt for £7 but cus we are so broke all the time and need help it feels shitty to do.

It's bad, all the time.

This month I already have £70 left to live and I've not paid for my phone yet. That 70 I'd for food, travel, anything.

We had to use money we saved for my birthday in March and their upcoming birthday just to make it to the end of every month.

We don't have family or a support network where we live.

I know staying at home doesn't seem like a big deal but reason I made a habit of going with wife to their place of work was because of me not being safe.

We've both worked hard, really hard to start out stores and try sell but it's very disheartening that despite all the effort and hard work no ones biting.

I'm so scared of being a burden to people that I clam up. I've pulled away so much from people already that I'm worried I'm not good enough any more for them.

It's all jealous icky arlf doubting feelings drowning me but I'm tired.

I started chemotherapy again for my illness but had to come off for antibiotics for an ear infection.

Chemotherapy makes me feel sick, tired, awful and without it my body attacks itself.

We are trying to go on a trip this June. Just to another city and we put money we couldn't afford towards it but I for one need a break, need something nice to look forward to, something to keep me fucking going.

I don't want to die, I just want life to be better but I've been strong all my life and I'm so weak these days cus I can't find mental or psychical strength.

I try hard to be there for others, be a good person, look on the bright side but I'm so so fucking exhausted.

I've waited years after year for things to get better. I'm not a negative person I've just been beat over the head so many times.

I'm finally letting myself cry and crumble but I'm close to breaking.

I wish I didn't feel guilty or selfish or bad for having these feelings but I do and I implode.

I just wish it was all easier.

I hope people who read this don't change their view on me or ditch me. I'm so tired and scared and hurting.

I also didn't make this post to beg for money but if there is anyone out there who could just help a little it really does help.

My P @ y p@l is corazon_x_law@yahoo.co.uk (op people it's not a ship. This was back when x didn't mean a ship dhdhdbdhd)

Or my kofi is https://ko-fi.com/cyborgfranky

It's 5am and I sat crying on the toilet like a loser.

I feel better for screaming here but.. damn.

[dirtmunch]

Like rllt rhe hardest thing since reslly truly realizing the burden on my life straight dudes are and how unnecessary I feel th to b win my life since 1{going thru academica in a field that is supposedly dominated by women, one but where men still get preferential treatment over and over and over even if more competent women artists are available (fine arts)} and 2{becoming aware of myself as really and truly an andro dyke and that I really and truly do not need men in myife or owe any part of me and my time to men } is managing ANGER and STRESS bc my inhibitions with conflict have lowered and I just start arguing back and calling them out so they these guys r taken aback by someone fucking barking back get all defensive, slip up, and show their true core beliefs. They start to clique up into bro circles out of defensiveness and ego, justifying it by saying "well the girls and the gays have their OWN clique, why not us?" when the girls n gays groups are formed out of need for safety and community. Like sorry bro bro, I'm gonna hang around Kevin my gay cohort mate cuz I can actually feels safe talking abt being lesbo and I'm gonna hang around Ashley bc we can talk about the experience of being a woman, whereas I can't say any of that shit around you out of fear of u starting to debate me on the very material of my being and identity

[sunlightmurdock]

For myif hate sex, it is between Bradley & Ryan, right?

They gotta work it out somehow 🤷‍♀️

[ryanscottcormierz]

Can i pass as straight yet. Trying to get rid my faggy souning canadian accent and girly scream ;) i am loadedsoda almost ready for my return to webcam if i can get a new laptop and webcam. I miss zoom cloud meetings squirt.org and manhunt.net. hes finally fuckin dead now. My roomate scotishpiper overdosed in a warehouse across town April 25 2020...emotional abuse over. Kinda missed being treating like shit. But the gaybashers of winnipeg took over for him after his death and robbed me over and over and destroyed myife. Makimg me homeless no one worldwide will help me throw winnipeg in fucking jail still. Over 4.2 years later. At parents in different province still trying get justice. But self esterm. Sex drive and erections are back. Thank god. My real name is Ryan. Im 47 and gay. And single

[lakilemon]

Myife is a joke; I've been in an on-and-off situationship for 2 years.

[venovenous]

Now myif sis sweet like cinnamon >:)

[444namesplus]

Acma Adveesni Afow Aget Aghu Agvyxa Ahh'ud Ahqi Ajot Alm'zihibe Almi Almimyot Amry Amwo Anlu Annukielle Apnu Atca Atle Atli Atmiar Ats'da Atysih Awde Awilwo Axfu Azhy B'ip Bala Beewow Beho Boco Boha Bujefu Buushy Byinda C''ssa Cage Ceadonte Cefe Ceiv Ceoh Cevihi Cihi Ciip Cime Cosoet Cuan Cuci Cuihru Cujuaj Cukiwayr Cuudqe D'iz D'ri Dainec Damacu Daro Dawe Degary Dekicu Dili Dioh Disepo Disyd' Diwi Doet Dore Dota Doxi Duze Dyzy Ebij Ecl' Ecse Edj'jy Edne Edpy Eh Ejlile Ejsy Emfy Emwi Ennydoto Epne Eqsa Erep Eryd Esifut Esry Esulik Etih Etli Ewjube Ewsit' Ezeltu Fabi Feuv Fevowuty Fid'hopu Fite Foes'lbyx' Foid Fon' Foohfi Fydisiwo Fyup Fyyldy G'awku G'ow Gata Gauw Gawo Geis Go'x Gocunyibud Gofeob Gone Gyha H'at H'regu Haun Heef Here Hibyw'ro Hisona Hite Hoal Homy Hovo Huatryve Hubieh Huigsi Hyrati Hyvyle Ibunak Icivri Idcety Idohap Idojis Ifeszeug Ifih Ifku Ifpotidu Igsy Ihtoaz Ihyr Ilce Imis Imit Incowyrof' Inmaq' Innupi Inse Inud Ipif Ipsy Ir'h Irot Irt' Irwy Isno Ittooh'xmu Ityccu Ivhed' Jeiricig Jeoqtaas Jep'og Jina Jini Jitodu Jodoel Juulyv Juwa K'caty K'la Kaha Kegudi Kely'dcena Kemu Kenuyp Keny Keotno Kevi Kiir Kinohe'gfo Kisy Kito Koh''wisga Laahk'ap Lazo Lefa Leibne Lid' Lifo Likixi Lug'fo'd Luyjil Lyem M'ho Maid Maleyj Masi Mawaty Max' Melaym Mige Minora Mioqga Mito Mitoeh Mode Mola'r Momaro Monoti Myad Myif Myle Myox N'atiffy N'epupp'et N'fypuru Naebhe Nasu Nazipiot Nera Newy Nig' Ninete Nitaop Nixyopvefu Niynhi Nizu Nomo Nonoha Noodwinyel Notato Notyyt Noze Nuac Nuapr' Nubusi Nukyvyn' Nutu Nuwa Nyomhu Odhisege Ofnetet'ul Ofyd Ohdik'on Ohseho Okruoc Okyh Ol'pzy Oldusa Oleksy Olir Olp' Olupak Ongejo Ongot' Opcelaifli Oplahi Oret Orid Osdy Osfu Osge Osne Ospowy Otac Otbais Owd'olsa Owdyythe Pasola Pej'd' Piri Pu'v Q'avalgoed Qias Qipe Qitapoqe Qiteyxok Qiwaxeihec Qouvbo Qufy Quki Qumodi Qusa R'nigesa R'on R'qote Raar Rar'gehu Refe Ren'xi Reunzy Ri'locimsi Rigo Riji Rilise Rin'we Rino Riobqa Rip'wa Ripynif'ej Riyc Rodysy Roiw Roreibel Ru'mco'llu Ruhyma Ruid Ruih Ruytge S'et S'jahiosik S'ki S'mi S'or Saby Saci Saettisi Saifto Sasi Sat' Sedynuha Sejo Siajcave Sidu Siutwo Soerke Sujiittezi Supe Sybeangyr' Sydymo Sywi T'an Tagy Taidhoad Tailty Taloneraem Taytfido Teax Tefyowrouk Teiv Temeco Teyh Tidona Tine Tiso Tisu Tizi Toci Toirne Tojysu Torijy Tuetwo Tyibge Tyurla Tywaaz Ucj' Uct' Ucwawu Udatteih Ufxuov Ugdysati Uhowhy Ukfeol Ukko Ulhe Ulse Ult'syak Unomny Uqto Ur'des Urcual Ureh Uretto Urn' Urp' Usez Ussiv'ly Ustysa Uwadni Uwfiah Uwibha Uxeh Uxt'usry V''w Veticyby Vijy Vuehlehipo Vuhonenino Vuwyj' Waahxute Wakego Waubxuho Waug Waycreut Weno Wiaroqn' Wiipat Woarqemevu Wofe Womihu Womo Wootke Wuhu'd Wyhe Wyovsaqi X'ycn'fyha Xeicsyin Xihe Xocabeej Xuir Xuym Xyn' Ybda'm'd Ybpiod Ycma Yf'd Ygeh Yhhi Yhniesnimy Yleh Ylte Yltuib Ymly Ynog Ynuh Ypasunitb' Yqni Yrdohi Ysn'ad Ysva Ythe Ytyt Ytzehi Yxyc Zato Zoesreerag Zoosij Zuma't

[tr4shm4gic]

Ihate myife

[itzybitxy]

I hate myife

[zordonmlw7]

Hate writing assignments that ask me to talk about myife. Leave me alone if I wanted to tell you I'd have done it already.

[abovetheharddeck]

they’re so CUTE 😭 MYIF rooster is growing on me, we stan toxic king jr. on this blog

A little MFIY Teaser bc after playing with sim bradley as a dad yesterday, I miss them so much!! :

Bradley wanders through the house, whistling as he goes. It’s maybe a little too quiet, but he’s not complaining. At first, he assumes that you’ve gone to the store or to the park — then he remembers why he’s home early today. It’s Thursday. Lamaze. After you had made such a big deal about the two of you going, there’s no a chance in hell that you would’ve forgotten that it was today.

His whistling stops as he continues through the apartment, trailing his fingertips along the wall. He glances into the kitchen — no sign. Following forwards, he next checks the baby’s room.

“Hey, Seresin! — You home?”

You scowl at the way he chooses to address you. One hand rested on your swollen stomach, your eyes darken, features stormy as he rounds the corner into the nursery.

“Hi.” He gives you a nod of acknowledgement, leaning against the doorframe, chewing on a piece of gum. He looks handsome, standing there in his flightsuit with a neat, white t-shirt on under it.

“Bradshaw.” You answer him begrudgingly, hoping he takes offence to it as much as you do. Six weeks away from bringing his child into the world and he still calls you by your surname.

His grin falters as he lifts his arm and checks his watch. “Shouldn’t you be getting ready? — That class starts in like forty minutes.”

“Yes.” You reply, continuing to fold the muslins on the ground like that is all part of the plan. His brows scrunch softly — you’re never late and you definitely weren’t this chilled out about the class last night.

“So…?” He prompts you. Your face creases with irritation, calmly folding the cloths, avoiding his gaze. Sitting criss-crossed on the floor, a grey tanktop stretched over your growing bump. His face drops in realisation, breaking into a delighted grin. “You can’t get up, can you?”

“Yes, I can. I just don’t want to.” You bite back instantly. His grin widens.

“I’ll give you twenty dollars if you stand up right now.” Digging his hand into his pocket, he goes for his wallet, amusement dripping from that shit-eating grin on his face. Your hand balls into a koala printed linen cloth as you lift your gaze and glare at him.

“Why would I want twenty dollars from you?”

You would think that he would know better than to taunt a woman as pregnant as you are, but he continues anyway, his laugh practically a giggle as he urges you on. “I’ll go down on you the second we get home. Stand up.”

You hiss in annoyance, balling the cloth in your hand and launching it at his head. “Get out of my face, I swear to god — you make me want to hit you with things.”

He doubles over laughing, knowing that you just proved his point. Clutching a hand over his chest, he drops to his knees in front of you, cheeks red and flushed with delight. Your scowl twitches. Still laughing, he leans in closer across your criss-crossed legs. “Baby, that is the cutest thing I’ve ever seen. Let me help you.”

…

[frostbite-the-bat]

. Vent

. Mmm mm oh well eepy time I'm gonna try sleep long bc parents will be asleep until like 1 pm after a night shift again so I legit can't do shit bc of dad so sleeping as long as them is Good I guess

God despite having sm fun with my friends daily and it's great and I'm so happy in that regard myife is so empty rn like seriously just my house living situation and my Dad make it a nightmare and having to base my waking hours on my parents sleep schedules bc I just don't get privacy and wanna make the most of it. I know I'm tired and sleepy and grouchy but I do feel this way in general

But also I'm not doing anything in life and it's driving me mad slowly I can't even get art I want done but i guess currently I'm trying many things

Also I'll be real with you, the number 1 thing keeping me doing due to faggotry and hyper fixation is just waiting for april toons again

But thinking what comes after fills me with an overly familiar dread.

What after? The only thing after is. Irl shit. I am absolutely not getting to another school. I don't want to nor do i have the capabilities too. Nor are there even any good schools in the area

So for me after the summer I absolutely do have to get a job and I'm not looking forward and. I'll be real! Once April over I get not so nice thoughts about myself that I'd rather really not have because holy hell aside from friends I see zero meaning in this sometimes fucking hell I fucked my life up I'm always tired I don't wanna do this I'm too tired to get out of this environment and I'm too lazy and tired and anxious to even ask help or speak to the one person irl I know. They're willing to help they said they'd help but. Reaching out isn't easy. I should be doing it. But I'm not. That makes me a fucking loser. Bottom of the line fucking pathetic. I don't want to do anything I wish things were better I wish I did more in the past I wish I had someone to fucking take me out of here where 8 can actually do things. I'm so tired. I gnerral but also yeah I've been physically feeling more sore but again do I do any advanced movements like ever no I don't have I seen any doctor about Obvious Long Covid Effects no did I ask about it yes did I get told no and got laughed at for even suggesting I'm disabled YES

I'm tired tired tired tired I hate this it's so hard but I don't try hard enough and that's fucking pathetic and despite knowing I don't do shit it's fucking miserable I should do things I need to do things I'm literally in the fucking wrong and yet I'm too busy being a lazy (and I mean this strongly you know i don't exactly believe in the term lazy like that) and just doing things for myself that are fun and nothing else oh my god genuinely what is wrong with me I don't wanna be here take me anywhere but here I sewear

I am

Not acting normal

I'm going to slewp

I'm. So tired

Can the days go faster. While going slower. I'm scared and I'm tired. I'm.

Sigh.

[sugajimin]

stay gold x spring day