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ceralmillkandstars · 2 years ago
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a beautiful ring pt 2 (namor x siren!reader)
excerpt: 500 year old god and a young, enchanting mermaid who acts like an absolute gremlin- she refuses to act any different in front of the man who could slice her in half. and he’s absolutely enamored by it.
welcome to part two :) thank yew for all of the support i’ve gotten from you guys so far. def slowly but surely buildin up here. part three is in da works as we speak, praying for some smoochy time cuz smut is my fav thing to write. 
here we goooooo 
You were raised to love the sea, but your home was the surface. 
And by the gods did you need a shower. 
Your back was sore, your hair stiff from the sea salt, and the slowly dying adrenaline rush was leaving your eyes droopy and body hunched over. Flying back to Chicago in the dead of night after returning from East Hampton’s beach killed you, your victory of stealing from a god seems meaningless when there is no more energy left to boost your own ego. 
You found yourself surprised when you made it to your condo's doorsteps in downtown Chicago safely, in awe that you were just that good. Winding the prize out of your pocket, you gingerly look it over before laying it on your vanity desk, giving yourself a once over in the mirror after you beelined towards your room.
The east coast truly brought out the freckles under your eyes. You glowed, blowing yourself a kiss before trudging into the bathroom. Inhaling the crushed eucalyptus leaves affixed by twine atop of your shower head, you turn the knob as hot as you can stand, beginning to strip from the salty slip dress and undergarments. 
A melody begins to hum from your lips, effortlessly wrapping yourself in a protective transfixion as you step into the shower. A groan mixing in with the angelic sound emits from you while the steaming water droplets pelt your back. You lean your head back, running your now goldless, godless fingers through your hair, gingerly tending to your scalp with lavender shampoo and tea tree oil. 
You don’t quite know what you are, but you are too unique, too important, to not nourish.
Twirling your conditioner-soaked hair into a clip, you lather yourself with similarly smelling soap that reminds you of the tide pool you once bathed in as a girl, singing hymns that reminded you of the ocean floor you visited today. Twisting and swaying your hips to the song, you let the water turn ice cold once you cleaned yourself sparkling, your hair soft and relaxed, ready to be brushed and braided for the night. The frozen pellets encourage your fears, your inhibitions, the fear that you might have not been forgotten, swirl down the drain, the song coming to an end as you turn the dial off. 
Lavender lotion, face oil, floral spaghetti strap and matching undies, french braids with rosemary elixir being soaked by your scalp- the perfect night. 
Pizza would make it better, though. 
You plop yourself on the bed, back on the mattress, legs raised and pointed towards the air as you dig for your phone to dial whichever place had stuffed crust and pineapple. 
You are not alone, the moon murmurs to you, allowing a black sludge of dread to pool within you. Your body jerks up, and you cross your arms over your chest. Eyebrows furrowing and lips jutted, you scan your room. 
My kitchen, my kitchen. 
Who is in my kitchen? 
If another absolutely rancid, stupid boy who couldn’t take the hint and throw away your condo key (you’d never admit that was your fault), you were drowning them. Even if you had to hull their unconscious bodies to Chicago’s murky waters to do so. Even if that’s never happened before. 
That’s never happened before. 
With a paling face, you slide off the bed and storm into the kitchen. Sometimes, you prayed that the moon would foretell you important information before such an event occurred. 
“Listen, Chad, or Jason, or Elijah, who-fucking-ever, if someone ghosts you and doesn’t call you back that doesn’t give you authority to come into their home even if you have a key. I’m going to count to ten before I lay you flat on that countertop and remove your most important ligaments from your body because I am just so fucking tired- oh..” 
Your fears did not travel too far down the drain while you showered. Your protection hum was not enough. In fact, the unease of being out of control slithered back up and wrapped itself like a serpent around your neck in a chokehold, for the moon did not whisper to you soon enough that he had followed you back home. 
Your protection song was not enough. Usually, something so simple would cause an intruder to burst into a billion water droplets. Usually, you would have just come into the kitchen to discover a puddle and smile to yourself knowing that an idiot got what was coming to them. You did not need the moon to warn you of robbers, of shallow one night stands who can’t get enough of your hypnotic stares, of anyone coming into your home without permission. 
And yet, this god stands in your kitchen, seemingly perplexed by your adornment of antique plates and cups poorly stacked in the open cabinets, not one of them the same. His fingers trace along adjacent jars, reading to himself each herb and spice labeled and put away on the wood shelf. You mirror his annoyed expression as his eyes wander near the sink, finding a ripped open, half eaten, chocolate bar. 
“I wasn’t expecting company,” you murmur, taking soft steps towards the barrier of your kitchen. You find your fingers smoothing down the base of your floral tank top, giving an angsty stare towards the pair of matching panties acting as a second skin. 
Well, at least it didn’t look like you were lying. 
He did not change, his gold armor tightly affixed to his shoulders, spear tightly bound in his hands. The large, gold-plated necklace and larger than life pearls, other finely varnished necklaces stack upon one another and his curly, damp, yet neatly toppled hair with those earrings had your cheeks heating. 
Very rarely does one of your stature, your nature, become seduced themselves. 
Or so the moon tells you. 
“Do those earrings hurt from wearing them all day, or does swimming in the water help with the weight distribution?” You blurt, cheeks red, back straight. 
The god simply turns, giving you a slow once over. Quiet rage, curiosity swims in his eyes, a deadly demeanor flowing from him to you, you to him. 
Exposing pajamas and random questions being unanswered won’t stop you from making his atoms implode with a whisper, for disrespect is a sour taste on your tongue. 
Could you even kill him? Leave a scratch on his cheek? 
Internally, you scoff. You won’t kill a god. You might steal from one, but it would be purely selfish of you to kill this man. The moon has whispered secrets of an underground world since you were a child wishing to sleep sooner, and it would be against your very nature to slaughter the man who leads a dream world. 
So you continue on, filling in the bloodless silence as he turns to your dining table, “I like how you wear your oceanic garb on the surface. I think it’s neat.” 
Is he going to take the ring back? Kill you? I mean, if you were him, you’d kill you if caught. Maybe you should go get it. 
“I will not conform myself to the surface when I step foot onto this land.” The silky, calculated, deliberate cool tone reverberates around your home, the tranquil atmosphere melding into an eerie fog. 
You pucker your lips, nodding. 
The moon must be humored by your calmness before the very man whose spear could impale you before you could send another twinkle. Or horrified. Her daughter lackadaisical, wearing floral panties and a small, matching top in front of the serpent god.  
He stares at you for a second longer, his eyes melting any confidence, any tranquility left in your body. A small girl with a knack for pretty things quivers before the god. 
“I have heard rumors of the ones who are creatures of the sea. The creatures that can return to the surface world if they wish, full-bodied at their will. The creatures who can manipulate, who could conquer the world at their whim-”
“The moon does not wish me to conquer,” you bite, chin upturning. You turn, beginning to move towards your room. If you’re going to be interrogated, it better be with pizza. 
A gasp pelts from you as his spear shoots out in front of you in a swift, presiding motion. The sharp metal kisses your cheek, the flesh of it nearly missing being sheered off. 
Whiplash consumes you as you turn towards the god, face shot. 
You guess it’s not the right time for pizza. 
“The moon?” He quizzes, eyes narrowing, utterly fixated upon you. He observes as your chest heaves, your wide eyes staring down his spear, watching as you fight between looking at his face and that skillfully crafted weapon. There hasn’t been this powerful of a man so close to you before. 
You gulp, nodding, wishing you could straighten your back, turn up your chin, more,“Yes, the moon.” 
The spear slaps back to his side, and he moves away from you, continuing to contemplate your home. Your living room, your dining table, the half eaten dark chocolate bar sitting on the counter from the other night. Flowery, ethereal, a little messy. You strived to bring as much essence with you to the surface world as you could, finding incandescence in each piece you brought back to your condo. Stolen or not is long forgotten by now, all you know is that this is your home. 
A god is looking around your home. Cheeks heated, you pray to the Mother to take the embarrassment and hope he is even the slightest bit impressed. 
He strides towards the velvet couch, and you cringe as he sits. It’s unearthly to witness a sea god attempting to relax into your couch. It seems he feels the same way, unable to sit in an indestructible way, so he settles for resting his elbows on his knees, gazing up at you. 
“Do you have velvet couches at home?”
It is not a request when he states, “tell me about your moon.’
“It is not my moon,” you begin, tiptoeing towards the adjacent couch. You grab a small throw pillow, shielding your peaking, freckled stomach as you sit down. Any wrong moves, any innuendos you’d fight him in your apartment would mean slaughter. The moon warns you of this as you cross your legs and force yourself to face the god. “She is simply the moon. She holds the energy to the waters, and water is within us all- no matter the level. I serve her and her me.”
His gaze gives away he is not satisfied with this information, and you shrug your shoulders. There is little information you wish to give away tonight, your growling stomach and fluttering eyes urging you to find a way to end this conversation and get this man on his way. 
“What more is there to know?” What a teasing answer, and his brows rise in the slightest. You’re both struggling to keep your composure, this god used to his world bending to his will and your sleepy, angry hunger fueling whatever delinquency was about to arise. 
“How do you serve her?” You nearly groan at that demanding tone, it’s what- midnight? There’s no food, emphasis on no food, in your stomach and you wish to curl under your freshly washed winter duvet to borrow away until the upcoming afternoon instead of being questioned right now. 
“I am tired,” you feebly admit, voice soft like silk and edged glass. A fine balance for a soon-to-be tantruming moon child. You prayed to her to not let him see you act a fool after stealing his ring. 
A fine price to pay for not being powerful enough. “Can we continue this conversation another time? You know where I live. I just want some pizza- what? Pizza is good.” 
You nearly scoff at his grimacing complexion. Slowly deteriorating, your once gentle, feline gaze began to melt into a matching stare as he replied. 
“The surface world food is vile.”
“Have you ever had stuffed crust pizza?” Gods, arguing was going to get you nowhere. What can you do to get this god to leave? 
He is not leaving, child. 
“How do you serve the moon?” He repeats, straightening his back. 
He just won’t quit. You ponder how it turns out for someone to push his button; a fire ignites in your stomach at the thought. 
“I’m in my undies right now, I’m hungry, I am exhausted, and I don’t even know who you are. Come back in the morning once I’ve eaten my vile food,” you spit, “and I’ll think about telling you all my cute little secrets.” 
Incredulously, his mouth gapes open in the slightest before standing up, bolting to tower over you faster than you can recalibrate yourself. Before your gaze can linger on his thighs for more than a moment's notice, you find a tight grip on your jaw, cheeks squishing and your lips pursed in the slightest. Dread consumes you, and you feel the moon shake her head. 
“You dare,” he begins, staring down at you as if you were less than the scum under his feet, “speak to me like this as if you did not steal what does not belong to you in the first place- siren.” You return the fever, glaring back at him, clenching the chair’s cushioning and pushing yourself to meet his face with yours. 
“It was pretty,” you seethe, “and I am not a siren.”
He tuts, clenching your jaw harder between his thumb and forefinger, twisting your neck as though you were the ring you plucked from him in the ocean, “Little surface girls taking things that do not belong to them, claiming they belong to the moon.” 
Mother forgive me, you silently beg, the rage allowing one last particle of energy to surface. You let yourself blow out a soft sigh that you hope, you pray, feels like peppering kisses all over his face and neck. 
Peppering kisses turn into boiling beads of sweat pilling along his temples in mere seconds, your silent will urging his blood to cook beneath you. Boiling blood and a dark, unearthed lust surfacing in the form of a longing gaze and heated skin. His grip molding soft, lips parting. 
“Return tomorrow, and I will answer your questions,” whatever sultry notes left in your voice bellow in his stomach, your eyes hooded, skin glowing as you summon the moonlight to cast against your goose bumped skin. 
Bend to me by the order of the moon, bend to me and go home. 
He longingly looks over your moon-kissed cheeks between his hand, down to your collar bones, the dip of your chest begging to pour out of your small tank top, tracing your navel with his eyes and they linger on the embroidered panties, your throw pillow long gone on the floor once you sat up fully to fight for yourself- for your pizza- tonight. 
But because the way he was returning your devilish look, you might not be hungry for just pizza. 
Bend to my will, sweet king. Let me continue my night, you may question me in the morning. 
And then he has the audacity to reel back and laugh, letting you jerk away at the expense of your own mortification. 
Heaven forbid, it didn’t work. 
Dark red embellishes your cheeks, your nose, your neck and chest. Blotchy. 
Your cooler hands find your cheeks, urging them to quiet, and you curl back into your chair. Looking down at your newly polished toes and back up towards him with pure fury, you couldn’t feel more humiliated. 
The moon did not let you win. 
There is no victory, no satisfaction when you are angry, she murmurs, synchronizing the gods movements as he lifts your chin again. It is gentle, testing. You are met with a curious, cautious, nevertheless impenetrable stare. His eyes travel between your cheeks, watering eyes, your pink, pouty lips. 
“I will return in the morning, when the sun rises.” He promises with a nod, “hopefully you will be as enchanting as you are described in the books with a full stomach and long nights rest.” There is a soft laugh, the god not yet letting go of your face, observing the pink splotches of shame along your neck. “I did not think the definition of moon children would be so literal.” 
You could not manipulate this man, and he is calling you a child. 
You are too angry, too tired, too defeated to rebuttal that you are the goddess, the justice, the love and power of the moon. 
He did not ask for his ring back when he let go of your face, gathered his spear, and took flight from your open balcony window, giving you another short, determined once over. 
A loud groan escapes you as the transparent, pink-hued curtains sway with the wind. 
You want to chuck that ring out of that very window, you decide. 
Before you went to bed, you ate a whole box of stuffed crust pizza.
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.
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He kept his promise. 
After failing to have a good night’s rest, tossing and turning, waking with cold sweats and dreams of cascading down a rabbit hole, you understand why your sleep was disrupted in the early morning.
There he sat, across from your bed in another lounge chair seemingly miniature while he shuffles about. He twirls one of your small shell in his hand, and it seems as though he took a good chunk of time out of his night to look through nearly all of your trinkets. 
You sigh and roll over in your bed away from the man in the chair, pulling the duvet over your head. A groan reverberates through the sheets when you shove your face into the surface of the mattress. 
This is not how you imagined your morning after East Hampton. You allow yourself to daydream for a moment, pretending you wake in the sun alone, stretch, cum with one of your previous vibrators, and make an omelet with the mushrooms you got from the market just the other day. Cheese and mushrooms and eggs, maybe a coffee, maybe a chai. 
With a final groan to ground you, you flip the covers and force yourself to sit up. Your braids are tightly wound, the natural lighting from the window causing your hair to glow and your freckles to surface and sparkle. From your tank top, a large tshirt covers you, fabric folding over your stomach and thighs, barely covering your underwear. 
Should you say hi? Should you act like he’s not there and get on with your morning routine? 
You decide the latter, swinging your legs to hang off the of the bed and scoot for your feet to touch the floor. Your arms raise, and you stretch, looking towards the sky as you silently thank the moon for allowing you to see another beautiful morning, letting the gratitude bathe you. 
He simply stares. 
You let him as you wander into the bathroom to wash your face and brush your teeth. 
There is no way you’ll be less than presentable in front of a god, you whisper to the moon as your examine your small closet. Your eyebrows furrow- you cannot remember a time you contemplated looking presentable for someone else. 
You can hear the moon giggle as you contemplate wearing one of your prettiest dresses that you specifically use for full moon nights. Or the new moon? What kind of energy are you bringing into this conversation? 
Energy, your lips quirk. May he be enamored, for it is not about the dress but jewelry that adorns you. 
You place yourself in lacy garments, a shimmer of silver and a soft green, puffy-sleeved, translucent blouse and lightly washed, high-waisted jeans. Matching, lacy socks and a silver necklace with a curled shell. 
Glamoured rings slide themselves onto your fingers, and you inspect the finery wrapped around your flesh with a grin. Silver and gold bands with crystals wired around them and dipped into moon water and rose oil bound to convey any man to serve you. Hopefully a god, too. 
Gold glitter smears across your eyelid, your cheekbones and a tap on your nose. Clear mascara and brow gel brushes its way on as you glow at yourself in the mirror. 
Wetting your hair and re-curling your golden ringlets with a serum, you place two pearly clips to push aside the front pieces of your hair on each side, framing your face in the most pleasing way. 
Terrifyingly beautiful. 
I am dreamy, I am translucent, I am a child of the moon. 
With a deep breath and another prayer to the moon, you’re gliding out of the bathroom. 
May the moon bless this day. 
“I’m hungry,” you state as your feet patter towards him sitting in the chair, his body did not move an inch, now holding one of your hair clips. You stand in front of him, nearly at eye-level. Perplexed, angry, annoyed, curious, lustful- all the emotions you could sniff out as he gave you a slow, deliberate look over. 
“Would you like to join me for breakfast?” You breathe, refraining from twirling your fingers together. Asking, not taking, was not a talent of yours. It makes you blush, makes you sweat. 
“Tell me how you serve your moon while you eat.” 
You find yourself agreeing with the slightest of smiles. 
@angeli-fucking-cat <3
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strangeandunusual21 · 2 years ago
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she was a radiant shade of emerald green.
but no one could see the color green.
and what people can not see they choose to ignore.
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youcantf1ndher · 8 days ago
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i'm not ready to become a millitary wife don't go king
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vesselsart · 3 months ago
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Wreck This Journal (Part Four)
Today’s offering is some more pages from the Wreck This Journal that I did when I was 14! Throughout the journal I was heavily inspired by the music that I liked at the time and you can see that in some of the pages that I have shared here! There’s a few more pages to come and then it’ll be a wrap on this content and onwards to something else!
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rexscanonwife · 4 months ago
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Morning guys!! I'm still working/taking care of my cat and making sure he's ok (he's doing WAY better and seems to be recovering quickly 💖💖) so hopefully I'll get queue and interaction back to normal soon!
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slutdge · 7 months ago
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average judas book clutter
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write-feel-live-love · 3 months ago
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Wellness Wednesday- Spoilers...
Well.... Okay.
Inside Out 2 wrecked me.
Like deep in my soul wreck me.
I finally watched it last night after waiting for MONTHS for it to come out since I couldn't see it in theaters. When I tell you I bawled for the last 20 or so minutes of the movie, I mean it.
I'm already a naturally sensitive person, but this went somewhere deep.
Potential spoilers ahead...
I didn't expect it. I mean I knew it would hit hard, but not that hard.
Little back story... I watched the first Inside Out in theaters. At the emotional climax of the movie, I was robbed by some jack ass who didn't turn his phone off so his phone started blaring the gummy bears song. Still hate movie theaters to this day.
This movie made up for it in spades. Oh my god I was heartbroken. I think I had an anxiety attack alongside the movie. But what got me is that *YEAH I WASN'T KIDDING, SPOILERS!* Anxiety wasn't the bad guy.... All these years I've hated my anxiety. HATED it. Because it made me weak, and afraid, and fed into an abusive relationship. But Anxiety isn't the bad guy... Anxiety is just another emotion who has a job. That's it. They think ahead so that we can anticipate things that will hurt us. But just like the end of the movie, you need to manage it. You can't feed into it or it's going to put you in the therapist's chair.
Enter me. I'm in the therapist's chair. Couch. Whatever. My therapist has a couch but I prefer the chair. Sue me.
I need to process with my therapist still, but criminey.... That one hit hard. Really hard.
I'll keep you posted Void... I think I feel another Inside Out inspired story coming along...
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naenaex0xx · 2 months ago
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sobs...
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wizardessfleur · 1 year ago
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My Aesthetics (nº69): Dreamlight Valley - Friendship Quest - Vanellope von Schweetz
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blizzardfluffykpop · 4 months ago
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why the fuck do i miss pigeons
#don't ask me i am going thru it today#ebhehbbehbhebhabh#i miss pigeons dude#oooh the poor little domesticed cuties#kate rambles from here#this is a small detail of the feeling i am feeling#like post leaving nyc is wrecking havoc on my psyche#i don't want to be in the fucking great plains#a few irls don't understand my want for city life- and i didn't know it was this bad until staying there for 4 days-#but my mom's whole family is from the city- i just feel so at home there- and everything i've inherited that way is in my blood#and i just wanna bawl my eyes out#i have been quite a bit but like ik i have a goal now- to move into the city- i've always had that goal to at least move to the city near m#but like nyc was like being somewhere i felt i wanted- it's not that i'm looking to make it big- i miss the noise the water and pigeons#around here you'll hear the occasional car go by- and crickets- i miss the city lights- i keep crying about it for so many reasons but#i just don't know how to actually express it?#because it's such an odd feeling for me to feel? because if yknow me well- i love being at home- i hate sleeping somewhere else-#taking a trip down south this last christmas- i couldn't stand the quiet- it's quieter the more south you go and i can't do this#i've always wanted to leave my small town but ?? like actually being somewhere that has felt home has been unattainable bc every#where in oh hasn't been home... and for once i felt like i could do this- and having to return here- just made me break down and cry#maybe it's the person i live with- that makes me wish to leave- but that's not the full truth- idk maybe a good nap will help#kate rambles#i have a life goal now but i wish i could do it now- i hope sooner rather than later i'll at least live in the city#i've been happily living but now i have a direction i wish to run towards- and i'm gonna chase after it#sure i miss seeing tbz i loved seeing them- but it's not even post concert depression- if that makes sense?#which it doesn't make sense- because for mx it was only pcd- but for nyc it's missing the city... and it feels awful#pls ignore this i just needed to be frustrated somewhere#ig knowing what i'm missing- i can finally work on filling that spot huh? i guess that's what i'll be doing#(also vv small point but the fact that one of the people i live with- refuses to ever visit nyc again- is so comforting to me)#pls don't send me an ask about this i just needed to ramble and i haven't caught up on my daily journal yet to do so- so this is here
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cosmicmudd · 2 years ago
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Getting creative today!! 🦊🎨💕
"All grown-ups were once children…but only a few of them remember it."
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vesselsart · 2 months ago
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Wreck This Journal (Part Six)
To wrap up my posts about the Wreck This Journal that I did when I was fourteen, I wanted to show y’all how chunky this guy is! It’s full of so much art and collected things and got so beefy while I was making it!
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rexscanonwife · 1 year ago
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I didn't wanna add self ship specific commentary on that art cause its for an AU of theirs and it seemed dickish
But its 100% how I imagine my s/i and Dingo's relationship 😂😂 already inspired by how I've never ONCE accepted his help on a dandori challenge or night mission (out of pride, not any hate for him). Essentially a one-sided rivalry where he's incredibly jealous of any attention Shepherd gives her, and poor lad doesn't realize she's a lesbian so he keeps trying to show off.
Eventually it turns into a supportive friendship! Especially since my s/i is not aware that he feels that way at ALL 😂
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dullahandyke · 11 months ago
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Just remembered that another side another story deep dive is a thing... ohohoho my plans for having a formal finish to kh1 are turning out quite nicely
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catra-writes · 2 years ago
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Burn Book
started writing and doodling in my pyromania journal and accidentally wrote a song with it so here we go
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Oh Fuck, the page is on fire
i got burned i must have played with fire
maybe next, i'll get drowned false hope of being doused being saved
go to hell (x4) fuck you (x3) fuck you, go to hell
light your way strike a match burn the pain away
burn (x3) burn (x3)
Destroy me rip and tear burn and blaze
Oh Fuck, the page is on fire
i got burned i must have played with fire
maybe next, i'll get drowned false hope of being doused being saved
crumple, crumple use me to destress your blazing mind
burn this book when its full coping with pyromania light a your way strike a match burn the pain away
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junosmindpalace · 2 years ago
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Just Finished Beast…
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