#my therapist will find this funny

[blurryface19]

Anxiety is wild because it paralyzes me from doing quick and beneficial tasks. The past two years, my car loan place has told me I don't have car insurance, and they are charging me to have their own liability. I have had car insurance this entire time, but I have been too anxious to figure out how to send it to them properly. Turns out the charges were over $3000. I got the money applied to my loan, and the whole process took 20 minutes. $3000 Anxiety mistake.

[smile-files]

another inside out design, by request of my dad! this is satisfaction/pride :)

[notedchampagne]

i know things wont change like *snap* that but i hope for this year i am forced to get new experiences. im undersocialized and overafraid and desperate to try and hit a few random benchmarks after essentially 21 years of just following a path. if i continue the way i always was ill rot along the road laid for me

[woozapooza]

Rewatching this scene for research purposes and I'm just gonna speak my truth: I love Jason and I wish he was in more episodes

[tevintersoldier]

my friend: oh btw i got diagnosed with adhd and i got meds that actually work!! i can do things now!!!

me: love that for you!! oh and i think i might have it too bc im having A LOT of the symptoms lol

my friend: yeah i've had that suspicion about you for years, we have the same symptoms

h e l p

[hismercytomyjustice]

Can you shitpost your mental illness…? Asking for a friend…

[m0nsterteeth]

I’ve got the coolest therapist, they may not have had personal experience with explicit nonhuman stuff before but they are totally open to it and I feel comfortable sharing with them. They believe in shapeshifting (in whatever ways it’s possible) and took classes from a practitioner of it and so my goal of learning that via therapy is a feesable thing. They take my desire for Monster Time as a serious thing that is incredibly important to me and don’t make me feel like I am crazy. They are super committed to being inclusive and open minded.

I wish other otherkin could see my therapist, too. I’m very lucky.

[the-holy-ghosted]

healing is possible just letting you know. btw. its real

[trashchaser]

Yeah I've got a complex.

Complex ptsd. *finger guns*

[larphis]

Therapist: We really need to talk about that self-isolating habit of yours

Me: Uhm,🤨I’m🧑🏻‍🦰not🚫self🤯isolating☣️, I’m🤓literally🤡an☝️avatar🧠of➡️the🙌lonely😶‍🌫️?🧿!🪬

[linabirb]

im sobbing so my grandma told me that one of my cousins got a job recently and NGL I DID FEEL KINDA JEALOUS like they're younger than me and they're trying so hard to get a job meanwhile im like "idk im just waiting for a very cool job offer to find me while doing literally nothing" and like a week passed and my grandma just told me "oh she got tired of working i think she's going to quit"??? 😭😭😭 I'M CRYGHFVBDJDSHDFJJ

[volkswagenital]

tbh i think if youre weird and annoying about accordion you owe every accordion player on earth 5000$

you dont have to like the sound persay. not every person likes the sound of every instrument. i know ive got instruments i dont typically like the sound of- and accordions can be loud irl and i sympathize with how that can be hard. but the type of person whos so outwardly dismissive of accordion and treats it like a joke is probably the most obnoxious type of person out there and im so serious about this

accordions are really heavy (they weigh around 20lbs average, some heavier, some lighter) and it takes a lot of very specific upper body strength to push/pull, not to mention how you need to do this while holding them very specifically in order to actually play. now depending on the type of accordion you either need to 1) have preexisting knowledge of piano 2) learn a piano keyboard to play or 3) learn 2 different sets of buttons that look pretty much exactly the same but Sure Dont Sound It!

its also really varied. most people think either stereotypical french/russian music or polka when they think of accordion, and i know why, but its a really varied instrument with a wide range of tone and can be used to effectively convey a lot of emotions musically

treating people like they are inherently jokes because they play an instrument you either dont like or just find funny makes you an asshole hope that helps!

[bonetrousled]

ohhhh the unending march of time onwards can do that

[belovedcarrion]

reading ofmd fanfic is wild cause it's always a game of "who's wearing the therapist hat today?"

you'll have stede or lucius or someone going "and how does that make you feel" and somehow managing to connect the dots on decades worth of repressed issues

like please do you honestly believe that any of these fucks have that kind of emotional intelligence? no they are all dumbasses that manage to stumble blindly into each other's issues like one would stumble into a landmine

[gxlden-angels]

Christians will see a group of stressed college students and ask if anyone else is gonna make their stress worse and not wait for an answer

[stergeon]

for the writer ask

💭🚦💛 💌

💭 What inspires you and your writing?

this is a real marketing major-ass answer (from your local marketing major), but i love sharing knowledge and telling stories. writing’s one of those things that’s a bit of a compulsion for me—i’m always writing something. i took a five-year break from fiction writing before i stumbled ass-first into fanfic last year, but even in those years when i was focusing on my career, i was writing guides and trainings and a ton of other stuff—just not anything fun, lol.

writing is also so cathartic. sometimes i set out to tell a specific story, but at other times, a particular emotion gets me in a vice grip and i have to put it to words before it’ll go away. my stories tend to wind up as emotional dumping grounds as a result.

i don’t write things pulled directly from my own life, but there are bits and pieces of myself and things that have happened to me scattered throughout stuff i’ve written, and usually when i’m about 75% of the way through a piece, i’ll realize it’s absolutely related to something i’m currently going through. funny how art works that way, even when you don’t intend for it to.

and occasionally i just have a fire lit under my ass about an issue and i get so hot about it that i gotta compile my thoughts. looking at you, silver snow

🚦 What sort of endings do you prefer to write: ambiguous, bad, happily ever after, etc.?

look, i would love nothing more for them girls (pick whichever girls you please) to have a happy ending where they kiss and are stupid in love for the rest of forever. i love reading those kinds of stories. but in my heart of hearts, i love an ambiguous ending. i like when there are still questions after the story ends. i like thinking about where things could go or how the characters will go on after the events of the story. like, shared space could be read as having a happy ending, but i don’t really think it is. and with the victors; the vestiges, well. you’ll see :0)

come to think of it, i’m not sure i’ve ever written a happily-ever-after, but i don’t think i’ve ever written a 100% bad ending, either. i read too many bury-your-gays stories and watched too many sad european queer coming-of-age films in my youth to ever be happy putting that kinda thing out into the world. i want to write about love with all its ugliness, but not despair or hopelessness. i think what most appeals to me about an ambiguous ending is that lingering feeling of hope. it’s not the same as the kind you get from a happily-ever-after, and something about it speaks to me.

💛 What is the most impactful lesson you’ve learned about writing?

honestly? how to take criticism. i took a creative writing class in high school where we had to read our work out loud and then receive feedback on it from the other writers in the class, and that did a lot for me. going into that class, i’d already been writing for forever and had won some little local writing contests and such, so i was a wee bit of a pretentious douche. but i’d never gotten real critique before beyond, essentially, spelling and grammar checks. it humbled me lol. it made me grow so much as a writer, and i could see where i needed to improve or where my head was wedged way too far up my own ass for others to follow. it also helped me recognize strengths i didn’t know i had, and that was huge. it’s easy to get into a self-doubt spiral when making creative work, and good, constructive criticism can do so much to help avoid that.

to this day i love critique. i like knowing what worked or didn’t work so that i can continue to improve as a writer and do better next time. did my themes land? did something really work, but another part fall flat? i’d love to know!! i try to treat everything i write as practice for the next thing, and frankly that’s helped take some of the pressure off so i don’t go into total Perfectionist Mode.

i know critique is kind of a sensitive topic in fan spaces, but i think that’s because a lot of people have gotten unsolicited criticism that is purely critical and isn’t constructive. but getting good, constructive criticism will do so much to help a person grow as a writer. it’s scary, and sometimes it hurts! writing is very personal for most people, and it stings when things aren’t received the way you think they will be. but i know i’ve grown more from having my failures pointed out (and, very importantly, having the good things about those efforts acknowledged) than anything else.

💌 Is there a favorite trope you like to write?

actually Just answered this in another ask!