#my rp diary

[playingpretender]

it really is so frustrating to work hard on a prompt idea and then get zero engagement. i have no idea how a pre-audhd diagnosis me was able to cope with so much passive rejection.

probably because then you meet someone who actually cares, who tries, who's putting in effort. it's only once in my life that i've managed to hang on to that person and become friends, but i have hopes for the future. i wish we could all trust each other

i remember once working on an idea i really, really cared about, and sending it as a prompt for days with nobody interacting. i know what you're thinking. why bother? if no one is interested, why keep trying? i ask myself the same thing every time i get back on roleplaying. because for every hundred ideas i have, there's one that resonates with somebody.

eventually, i started sending the prompt with an attachment asking people to tell me why they weren't interested in it. i got only one reply, which was someone telling me that they just didn't have any ideas for the story. it was so weirdly sobering. like, duh. no one is answering me because no one has any ideas. in my head, sometimes, it feels like people aren't answering because they dislike me, but that's probably just RSD talking.

at the same time, it made me sad. i've tried tons of prompts that i didn't have ideas for, just because it was someone else on my favorite tag trying to write for it. i wish that was standard. i dont even need like, the perfect response. any response will do. that's storytelling

[madhighlows]

Nicole

[firebrnd]

              Lovely-eyed. Death-touched. Witch.

I have never understood where the line is drawn, between sacrifice and self-slaughter. All the years I've been sacrificing for my friends sake, but at what cost? I love them, dearly. But what if I am sick of being the slaughtered lamb? The thought of being the protagonist of the story for once is uncomfortable, yet exciting. ( . . . )

# F̲I̲R̲E̲B̲R̲N̲D̲ ･ﾟ― headcanon based, private and selective portrayal of Bonnie McCullough ; influenced by book and show ( the vampire diaries ) but not following either of the storylines ( mun is heavily anti j.plec ! ) ; currently re-reading the books but consider this version of our beloved Bonnie as canon-divergent and heavily worked on by the mun. 21 + only, m&pdni ! ger/eng, but I'll stick to german for longer novels/threads for now. ― ･ﾟ

MAINS: @geisterwelt @ashbalfour @dopplgaenger @verflcht

NAVIGATION: 𝓅𝒾𝓃𝓉𝑒𝓇𝑒𝓈𝓉 l 𝒸𝒶𝓇𝓇𝒹 l 𝓇𝓊𝓁𝑒𝓈

( fyi: the muse and blog are still a wip and a lot will be changed within the next days/weeks, as I am still re-reading the books (hooked on book three) ! but i am absolutely thrilled to interact and plot with you ! )

[geten-iceman]

It’s my birthday today.

- Geten 💠

[yourbuddykermit]

the only man ive been in love with since i gained conciousness💚

[coquelicoq]

i can't stress enough that outside of this one moment in rogue protocol when murderbot wants to kill a human for betraying its sort-of clients but settles for the next best thing of menacingly hovering a drone in her face for 26 seconds while she's frozen in place by her armor, for the rest of the first four books mb is really only using drones for security purposes and doesn't have the time or inclination to be performing close-range facial analysis:

in ASR it doesn't seem to be all that familiar with drones outside of maybe using them to set a perimeter. it exhibits several other uses of drones as events escalate, but they're all related to protecting itself and its humans and getting intel on EvilSurvey. at no point does it mention watching a human with a drone; it's all "using drones to draw fire" this and "sending drones flying off in the wrong direction as a diversion tactic" that. et cetera.

it has no access to drones whatsoever in AC from what i can tell.

in RP it uses Ship's drones to record conversations between wilken and gerth, but it's not a participant in those conversations and it doesn't even watch them in real time. it also forgoes getting a good look at their weapons via drone because it thinks they would notice. later it takes control of a station drone to watch (from afar) their first meeting with don abene & co., but miki notices the drone and almost catches mb because of it, which freaks it out. then it hacks the combatbots' drones, but other than the aforementioned 26-second intimidation of wilken, it's too busy doing actual security work to use them to look at people.

in ES it accesses drones many times, including to observe its humans, but it only seems to actually control a drone to look at something one time, and only in order to zoom in on a suit logo. so at no point could it conceivably be directing a drone to get up in somebody's face, since it's just piggybacking on drones as they go about their normal business.

it does use cameras to watch people in the first four books, but in a much less obvious way: either it's using fixed cameras that are built into habitats/hoppers/whatever, or it's accessing mobile cameras (suit cams, station drones) but not controlling where those cameras go or what they're pointing at.

it's interesting, because while drones can be startling or intrusive, on the flip side, cameras that don't move don't draw attention to themselves and thus may make it easier to forget you're being watched (plus you have no way of knowing if that particular camera is being monitored at that moment or if it's just recording for later analysis). so in a way, having a drone in your face actively signals to you that mb is paying attention to you. it's making mb's gaze visible in a way it might not otherwise be. this changes the dynamic from "passive surveillance for datamining and threat assessment purposes" to "person actively choosing to pay attention to you in real time". one of these is covert and the other isn't; one of these holds the possibility of interaction and exchange and the other doesn't. maybe it puts a drone in your face to show you it cares.

[9h05t-f4c3]

when the aphmau phase comes back and now you’re binge watching minecraft diaries for the fourth time

[nikohlas]

the cards tell me ... he's a handsome trickster.

[lilyofthevalleycaughtintherain]

mcd meifwa moment

[cybrstalkrdotgov]

Its been long enough I must confess every time Aphmau got a new child ESPECIALLY IN SEASON TWO I was rolling my eyes. I did not fw those little babies

[playingpretender]

people seem very divided on whether or not RP scenarios are Fantasies, or Stories. A Fantasy being an unrealistic but somewhat logical sequence of events and a Story being a fantasy disguised by heavy layers of reality (in this context, exclusively. i do not consider that a universal definition of a story)

sometimes the story makes a fantasy too heavy and ruins the fun. sometimes the fantasy makes a story boring because there's nothing standing between the characters and their desires. both need each other, which is why neither has won out as the predominant format.

[kitsune-rp-help]

Apothecary Dairies Icons from vol. 3 Jinshi pt 1

100 by 100 icons of Jinshi as depicted in vol 3 of Apothecary diaries. Please like or reblog if using.

[monarchteen]

cringe minecraft rp enjoyer to cringe gta rp enjoyer pipeline

[geten-iceman]

Accidentally called Re-Destro ‘dad’. It might be time to go to bed.

I’m going to be embarrassed about this for the rest of my life.

- Geten 💠

[heythereneighbor]

Despite saying this was my plan some time ago, I finally have made some icons using the Darling Diary art.

[salvatoraes]

everywhere i go ... pain & death follow. ©