#my preference in characters were always adults even when i was a teen lol

[mcsiggy]

Hey those anons were kind of unhinged and low-key disturbing. Hope you're doing alright. I think your art's really nice

I'm doing fine! Honestly it's a riot because after 10 years of dealing w/ people like this, i don't have a reason to defend myself because i'm so honest w/ what i draw, and these anons obviously don't know what i draw where they can't even insult me properly.

[olderthannetfic]

I've just read an article (in Gazeta Wyborcza) about a very popular series of books among young teens in my country, Poland, called "Rodzina Monet" (Family Monet). The author gained popularity while publishing on Wattpad lol. The article basically said that it's problematic because these books are read by young girls, even 10 years old, and it glorifies violence. Plus it just isn't well written - there were some fragments in the article and yeah it's not well written lmao. A woman in the comments said that her daughter is reading this book and asked if she should forbid it. Since no one answered her, I replied that I don't think forbidding the book is a good solution and suggested talking to her daughter about it, showing her the article and asking what she thinks about it. But I don't know anything more about that situation, for example how old the daughter is. I don't think I'd worry if my child were to read this book, I read trashy stuff too. But I started wondering if maybe there should be some control in such a case? The thing with the books from what I gathered (I haven't read them) is that they are about a 14yo girl, who suddenly lost her mother and grandmother, is sent away to US from Britain where she starts living with her 28yo (handsome) stepbrother and his 3 (also handsome) brothers. She lives in a beautiful villa since the stepbrother is super rich. He's also cold and distant and doesn't understand that she has issues with food (she has some kind of eating disorder). Some of the things he and his 3 brothers do can be described as domestic violence but they apologize, buy her expensive stuff and are all adult handsome men. Yeah it's a young adult fiction. The thing is that it's just not well written so none of the bad behaviours is commented upon.

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Sounds like typical godawful id trash that people eat up. Making a rule against it will just make it more tantalizing.

It would be far more valuable to kick any worthless partners out of one's life and demonstrate not putting up with shit to a tween girl than to ban her from reading trashy books.

One could always try buying her something better, but IME, people who try that always do it wrong: they buy books that are better written, yes, but the vocabulary and sentence structure are a thousand times harder, there's zero iddy wish fulfillment, and the plot is something fucking depressing and supposedly edifying.

Readers can smell a tryhard "your taste is bad" gift a mile away.

I think it's also important when trying to find replacement trash to understand what the kink actually is. Why is it age gap? Well, have you seen 14-year-olds? They're awkward and covered in zits. Of course the protagonist is young like the readers and the hotties are older.

More importantly, why is it abusive? Absolute idiots will be like "Because society taught girls wah wah wah wah wah", but the actual reason is obvious if you've read trash romance for adults:

It's so the love interest(s) can be in the wrong.

The self inserty protagonist of this type of story has very little power. Not only is she usually younger, but she's poorer, a fish out of water in a new situation, etc. The way she gets power is by the love interest doing something absolutely horrible, realizing they have erred, and then groveling forever. Their guilt is an effective way to manipulate them. And yes, retail therapy is usually the next step from this particular trash classic all the way back to The Flame and the Flower.

You can try giving a teen girl a book about a teen girl action hero who is awesome and whose love interest likes her because of that... But if the reader doesn't feel awesome, she's still going to prefer a book about a loser with a destined, fated love or a misunderstood woobie whom other characters have to grovel to after not initially realizing she was special.

You can't fix self esteem by handing someone a book they don't identify with and telling them their id is wrong. And if self esteem does improve, that doesn't mean the lizard brain is going to switch trash fiction tastes anyway.

One can try leaving other fun books around, but that's about the most that could be helpful.

[suchacomet]

Spring Awakening Fandom Tag

(By @winter-asleepening, tagged (kinda) by @feelssogoodinmyarms )

sorry for this being long and for jumping in on this out of nowhere, i got excited and i missed talking about this show now that i’m once again in my yearly spring awakening phase thanks to seeing a local production yesterday :)

1. How were you introduced to the show?

i was an emo kid trying to find musicals i liked bc i started doing theater in high school, i saw american idiot was made into a musical, and followed the john gallagher jr rabbit hole to a b00tl3g of obc spring awakening. this happened to be in 2014 and when i heard about dwsa on broadway i conned my mom into taking me to nyc to see it (i didnt tell her how sexual it was i just said “it’s about teens coming of age in germany set to rock music” and she had Words for me during that intermission lol)

2. Seen a production live?

yes, four: dwsa, a local college production, and two productions at local theater companies in the areas i’ve lived

3. Dream role/character you relate to most

y’all already know it’s moritz…. i imprinted on him when i was 14 and have never stopped being obsessed with him as a character. but i think it’s more likely i’d get the chance to play ilse before moritz and i would love to play ilse as well

4. Favorite male character

mort steeple :) i have never gotten enough of this dude, ever

5. Favorite female character

wendla <3 she’s such a good character when she’s played with the right amount of joy, stubbornness, and curiosity

6. Deaf West Revival or Original Broadway Cast?

dwsa all the way. i appreciate obc for what it is but dwsa is my definitive best revival/adaptation ever ever ever

7. Favorite song

comet on its way :) christ such a whole, like, deal 🙄😏

but if you force me to pick “a real song” that “is actually in the show” then… i think a production that has a really good “and then there were none” is killer bc it means 1. they’re focusing on my favorite boy moritz and 2. they have an adult woman who plays fanny gabor compassionately but flawed in a way that underscores the show’s themes around adults not trusting kids with their own minds and bodies. which i greatly enjoy

8. Least favorite song

this is unfair of me bc it never fails to make me cry and it has one of my favorite lyrics ever in it (window by window you try and look into this brave new you that you are) but it’s “the guilty ones” bc i think “there once was a pirate” is better. my hot take is that dwsa is only version of spring awakening i’ve ever seen where i actually prefer their use of guilty ones instead of pirate

9. Favorite quote/line

musical: so maybe i should be some kind of laundry line / hang their things on me / and i will swing ‘em dry / you just wave in the sun through the afternoon / and then see / they come to set you free / beneath the rising moon - don’t do sadness it’s just such an evocative description of feeling hopeless against all the pressures of life and perfectly encapsulates being 15 and desperate and just wanting a little bit of relief. plus the way daniel durant and alex boniello performed this is so killer. moritz stiefel i love you

play: “don’t let’s be sad […] if we recall this in thirty years, perhaps we shall make fun of it.——and yet everything is so beautiful. the mountains glow; the grapes hang before our mouths and the evening breeze caresses the rocks like a playful flatterer.” from hans in the vineyard scene. augh it’s just so tender and lovely in a way that the musical doesn’t have the time/ability to address, with the acknowledgement that yes this moment is temporary and who knows if ernst and hanschen will “make it”. and yet. everything is so beautiful. also PROOF THAT HANSCHEN ISNT A CREEP OR MANIPULATIVE HE IS ALSO A TEEN BOY IN LOVE FUCK YOU STEVEN SATER

10. Favorite TV performance

always and forever dwsa touch me on seth meyer i have seen it at least two hundred times and i’m not exaggerating

11. Favorite cast member(s)

daniel durant always always always. he is such a talent i’m so glad his career seems to be taking off, he’s genuinely one of the best actors i’ve ever seen in my whole life.

12. Favorite cast member moment

can i say 1st national tour cabaret where the boys performed comet on its way in order to bring up comet on its way again. if not it’s when i gave daniel durant a painting of him as moritz at stage door and i was a shy anxious teen who learned just enough asl to say “hi” and “thank you” and “will you sign my playbill please” and he was SO sweet to me and lovely and he hugged me and i know actors do that kind of shit all the time and i’m sure he doesn’t remember it but it really made my whole life when it happened :’)

13. Do you write fan fiction?

not outside of personal catharsis pieces that have never seen the light of day. i made an aloto/vineyard scene web weaving post though that i do think goes hard

14. Do you make fan art?

i still love the moritz and then there were none piece i did a few years ago but i haven’t done a whole lot past that… that may change though i want to get back into drawing

15. Do you cosplay?

no, but spring awakening costumes have 10000% influenced my real life fashion and hair decisions. lol

16. Don’t do Sadness or Blue Wind?

i just saw this GORGEOUS performance of dds/bw where ilse sobbed through her verse of blue wind and the rest of the cast like gathered around her and slowly peeled away to represent her memory/longing for real connection and the reality of her never really having that at all, and really underscoring that her spoken lines about her new life in the artist’s colony and wanting to take moritz home are just posturing to hide how lonely she is… so right now i think blue wind

17. Word of Your Body or the Reprise?

reprise when it’s done earnestly, but i do really love the lyrics in woyb

18. Touch Me or My Junk?

my junk! i love seeing the different ways it’s staged between georg and hanschen and the girls, plus it’s the only time the girls get to be horny

19. Explain the Song of Purple Summer

it’s a metatextual message from the story of spring awakening to the audience that underscores the themes of open and honest communication being the key to healthy people and relationships, it’s asking the adults in the audience to believe children (when they say they’re gay, when they ask for information and want to be given all of it, when they ask for help and say they want to die), it’s a message of hope to the kids in the seats who relate too much to the kids on stage, telling us that it will get better

20. Explain the Song of Purple Summer (wrong answers only)

horses fuck and have foal babies idk <3

that was very fun thank you for indulging me. if any of mine olde spring awakening/dwsa mutuals are still around please consider this me tagging you <3

[kingofthenorth]

HI!! oc questions: do u have more that are based in an existing universe or ones whose universe u made up? if u made up a universe(or multiple) what are some of ur favorite worldbuilding details? what are some of ur oldest ocs and when was the last time u changed something about them? do u have any that are direct self inserts?

Ooh, these are some good ones!

Overall, I have way more that come from my own little universes. So much so, in fact, that I couldn't tell you how many worlds I've created, let alone how many characters are in them. I spend entirely too much time thinking about this stuff.

One world in particular has the most extensive worldbuilding. I'd wanted to make it feel as real as possible, so as a teen and young adult, I spent countless hours coming up with history, fashion, religion, maps, and languages to flesh it out. Here are some of my favorite details:

In the Gomnivev language, any noun can be treated as a name so long as the final consonant (provided it ends in one) is doubled. This comes in handy given that Gomnivev first names are almost always a detail about the day the baby was born. You get lots of people named after birds that were singing, fruits/vegetables that were in season, or weather conditions from the day they were born. For example, "aean" is a crocus, but Aeann is a proper name for someone born when aean flowers are blooming. Because there are no capital letters in the written language, this is the easiest way to distinguish between the nouns and their Human Name counterpart.

Banazar, Rezeki god of the dead, is the god subject to most debate among scholars due to ambiguity surrounding his gender and origins. Names that end in -sar (common) or -zar (less common) are explicitly male, but some of the very earliest texts describe him as "mother to the dead," in his role caring for departed souls. Instead of just running with it, religious scholars fight bitterly about what this means. As for his origins, he's the only god that didn't exist in the beginning, when the Original Gods created all there is now, but also isn't a child of the Original Gods or their two daughters, like the rest of the gods are. No one knows where he came from.

Many Rezeki garments sport wild patterns, but the exception to this is their most popular formal wear, the mema. Mema, which are not unlike a toga, are almost always solid color so that one can pin decorations onto them and make them look different each time they're worn. Brooches and baubles meant to be worn on mema are a common gift, and can be anything from crudely hand-fashioned by one's kids to crafted by artisans. What matters is that it's fun and unique!

My very oldest OCs are from a story I came up with at 8, hoping to one day turn into a tv show. The original story was about a high school club for kids with superpowers, and the protagonist, Jairo, had none, but joined anyway to help out. In high school, I was reminded of the story and revisited it, deciding that it made very little sense that he'd be allowed to join, and changed it so that he had powers too, but they weren't as useful overall, else it wouldn't be a viable story. Imagine my fucking surprise when, years later, the BNHA anime came out and I saw the similarities. I am, perhaps, a bit of a fool. lol. lmao, even.

Finally, I did once make a couple self inserts, but I ironically never connected well to them. One I forgot about entirely until just now, and the other I changed so much, I often forget she was based off me in any way. It turns out, I much prefer exploring characters that aren't all that much like me. If anything, I think there's more "me" in the worlds I create than the characters in them. I'm in the politics, the public consciousness, and the messages, but not so much the characters.

[erigold13261]

I think Gwen said in ITSV that she’s older than Miles by 15-16 months, so that makes her 16 and Miles 15 YO… (also Hobie would be 17-19, and Noir and Peter Porker are adults? I guess??) (take this one by a grain of salt but I think Miles skipped a grade in Visions so Ganke could be 16 too)

I swear last time I looked up notes age it said 15-16 so I just chose 15. Actually, I know where I got that from, I had looked up Hobie's age and the little paragraph also talked about Gwen and how note is between 15 and 16.

So if you want then Gwen can be like 15 close to 16 or just turning 16. I will keep this in mind if I ever make a google sheets with all kinds of notes for spider characters like I have for NSR characters (which I really should do).

Same with Hobie, it was given an age range of 16-19 years old and I just chose 19 (or was it 19 that I chose? I think I chose 19) because I liked that age for Hobie.

I think I saw a tiktok saying Noir was also 18 or 19. Wiki looking it up says they are 18+. Probably under 21 since they say their like to drink cream soda so some people took that as not being able to drink. I personally see them at like 18 or 19 (Nicolas Cage definitely skewed my idea of Noir's age at first until I saw that tiktok lol)

With Peter Porker, the age seems to be all over the place and there isn't a concrete range anywhere. One source says 16, I think another said 18. I was kinda thinking of just going off the OG Spiderman age, which I think is 17 years old, because both were reporters (or at least photographers for the newspaper), so I think 17 is a good age for them to be in this au.

Ganke's age could be 16, could be 15 and had also skipped a grade. I don't think there is really any evidence for one over the other. I like Ganke being the same age as Miles at 15, but him being 16 is definitely not something that is going to bother me.

Actually I'm surprised you didn't say anything about Peni's age lol. Technically she is supposed to be Miles' age, but I decided to make her a year younger because in the movies I swear I thought she was younger. Like if I was going to be accurate then Peni would also be 15, but I just always saw kit as younger than Miles, especially in the first movie.

I guess also the idea of shipping Peni and Yinu also kinda pushed me to make this decision since I always saw Yinu at being around 13 after the timeskip (love the idea that Yinu was like a week or two from turning 10 when the game happened thanks to a fanfic lol), and having them be 1 year apart instead of 2 years apart was something I preferred to happen.

But yeah, all these ages seem to be pretty malleable. Just like quite a few of the NSR ages (that aren't specifically mentioned). Some people see the Sayu Crew as teens, some see them as college students. Some people see Kayane as an adult while I see her as a late teen.

Similar thing is happening with the spider characters who don't have their age officially given or mentioned (or only have an age range). Some people see Noir and Porker as full adults in their mid 20s, while I see them as late teens, maybe early adults at most.

But I think I will take into consideration Gwen's age! I'm probably gonna keep Ganke at 15, but I think making Gwen (and maybe Gayatri by extension) to be 16 years old.

Thanks for the info! I completely forgot about Gwen being a year older than Miles in the movie! (actually, my point is even proven in the second movie where Miles' mom thought Gwen was old enough to vote lol, though she was probably just being upset and saying rude stuff because of everything that had happened at that point lol).

[holydrakes]

Remembered that I used to be obsessed with SoMa precisely because they never explicitly got together or even confirmed to have anything going on (just UST if you pay attention enough) the ambiguity of the nature of their relationship is 'precisely' why I like them, not a source of frustration and why I read fics of them, it really was the reason I love them and why reading their fics and doujins were so much fun.

Back in the day, I did kinda take a relationship between teens unseriously and prefered my teen couples to take awhile to be together once they're both more mature and know what they are doing, and Soma definitely gave off that vibes. As teens they just had a semi-romantic friendship where they'd even flirt with each other constantly, and would even do stuff couples might do like go on dates or kiss each other (unseriously and anywhere but the lips) or joking about calling each other husband and wife to their friends every once in a while, and I can see them becoming official later after they're both adults. It's the way the story left off with their relationship clearly taking a more flirty turn but you can take as long as you need to imagine when exactly they'd realize their feelings for each other that makes the ship so fun to rotate around in the brain like a rotisserie chicken. Also the appeal of two friends who are so close and love each other so much that they don't need labels to know they belong to each other was also super appealing to me.

It's only in the recent years though that I noticed shonen action manga often have very lame hetero couples becoming official each time (often to the detriment of the female characters) that I started to wish Soma could have been official and Soul Eater could be the one action shonen people can sometime refer to whenever they ask for a series with a developed canon 'main' couple that treat both participants (especially the girl) with respect without making the whole series be about their romance (just their relationship in general especially when they're still mostly platonic) but due to their ambiguous nature I know SE can never have that kinda reputation since it will always require them becoming explicitly romantic for people to recognize them as such. At most you get: the manga where the girl and boy mains are just close friends at last (I can't brush aside the romantic undertones in their relationship though and won't really turn to SE if I want a series with a strictly platonic boy/girl besties. For me they'd brushed the line beginning with the first ep with the whole 'why do men cheat' spiel and the mind dance, and then officially crossed it with the whole 'call me an angel' nonsense. I'd rather call it, 'the manga I turn to when I want a cocktease between the main boy/girl leads' lol)

I also sometimes wonder, while I super love how ambiguous their relationship turned out and preferred it that way, if making their relationship this way hurts them more rather than help them. Shippers made up one of the most dedicated parts of a fandom and some might rather not be led on when watching a series and won't settle for a mere a cocktease.

[castlebyersafterdark]

as someone with evangelical parents, I definitely sympathize with those who are worried about watching S5 with their parents if it has sexual content. That obviously doesn’t mean it ~shouldn’t~ have sexual content, but I fully understand. it’s not even about being a young kid, either. like i’m in my early 20s and I know there will never come a moment in time where I can just watch things with my parents, adult to adult, without worrying about its content. like if I visit home and stuff later on.

I’ve definitely pushed the boundaries by purposely my mom showing edgier R rated content, films that have queer characters, and even shows with minor sex scenes. I remember my heart was beating out my chest when I showed The Umbrella Academy cause of the episode in S1 with the gay kiss in it, but everything was chill, so now I’m more confident with this stuff. I don’t even bother watching stuff with my dad anymore cause he even gets offended by, like, films that have too much feminism in them.

But my mom is chill overall, even if she’s still christian and a moderate conservative. But like, I would still prefer it if the media I show doesn’t have sex scenes lol. Which to some extent makes it difficult to find media to show cause so many classic films and modern shows have content concerns. A lot of these content concerns are things I don’t even notice specifically when watching, so I always have to go to like common sense media or IMBD parents guide to check if I’m gonna show it.

I’m also an only child, so maybe this plays a role in things too. Like when I was a young kid, I checked out films from the library and then always eagerly and enthusiastically showed my parents because, like, I had no siblings and they were a captive audience. in my teen years I became more cautious and selective lol as I watched more adult-oriented media.

But with Stranger Things in particular, it’s a specific case cause since 2016 it’s been like THE ultimate show to show my mom. And when it first came out, I was definitely unaware of its queerness and everything we know now. I was definitely a Mileven back then too. The amount of queerness has slowly built up, and it’s also coincided with me coming to terms with my identity as well. Real coming-of-age journey there. When S5 comes out, there’s no way I don’t show her the season after I watch it, cause like I’ve always done it. That’s our thing.

BUT I’m also rooting for a radical Byler endgame storyline complete with a spicy scene. And that’s a weird place to be in. I definitely admit that showing the Byler season will be somewhat easier if there’s not a sex scene in it as well 😭

I envy those with progressive, chill parents who don’t have to worry about any of this stuff

See, ok. I do totally sympathize and I get it!!! I understand the feelings of being restricted and having to monitor and watch what you share with family if you're in a situation, etc. Totally. Different perspectives.

I think what my concern and issue is, is just the demand (not you! I appreciate the perspective you shared!!) from people who think ALL media shouldn't have any sex or queer themes or gay characters expressing physical aspects of relationships (or even straight characters, too, actually) or anything that might be uncomfortable for a communal viewing experience. Even from otherwise progressive people or people who are queer themselves. Because, well. There should be choices. Not everything need to be shared. Or watched by every person. There's content I cannot watch. So I... don't watch it. And even if I'm out now and are accepted and have a whole bf who my parents are chill about, I still wouldn't want to watch tv shows or movies with explicit gay sex scenes with them! However chill they are about my life hahaha. I just don't think it's something I need to watch with them. I'm not personally ashamed? Just. No thanks haha. Maybe it's because I grew up doing my own thing and we all did (youngest of 6 😬) and the rarity was everyone sitting around the TV to watch something together. So, choices were personal? And that's where my mindset comes from. Obviously, there are infinite possibilities about where people are coming from in their lives.

So I admire and understand your perspective though, as this show has always been something you've shared with family members. I can see how that's a difficult thing to face, the change in dynamic and the story line potentially featuring something you otherwise may not exactly choose to specifically show your parents. That's an interesting situation! So, I get what people mean. I hope the show can be either pure entertainment or a good talking point rather than a point of contention for anyone in your situation or similar. ❤️

[scienter]

Why do you think TVD fandom is still thriving?Is it because of fan conventions being held at regular intervals or because of various shipper factions in constant competition with each other thereby engaging in "shipping wars" ( that includes hurling abuses at each other sadly) on social media or both?I wonder how many of these fans actually know or care about the mythology or the story or even the characters and what would have happened if the cast had actually managed to move on professionally.TVD sure had its moments but the over-all quality was never top-notch in my personal opinion.I might be completely wrong but I don't exactly understand the hype.

My initial reaction to your question was it's not a thriving fandom! 😂😂 I'm an X-Phile so my idea of a "thriving fandom" is TXF fandom, and TVD does not compare. Not even close. lol

But I thought about your question, and if people are still going to TVD fan conventions that TVD isn't dead yet. I think there are a number of a couple of reasons for this.

1- The cast and writers remain engaged with the fandom via fan conventions.

The cast interacting with the fans incentivizes the fans to remain attached to the show. After all, if the cast hasn't moved on then why should the fans? I know the cast is financially incentivized to attend fan conventions, but their presence encourages fans to remain interested.

2- The show was on for 8 seasons.

That's almost an entire decade. That's a long time to be attached to something, especially if you're still young (i.e. under 35). It's hard to let go of attachments that run that long.

3 - Most of the fans were young (teens or early adults) when the show aired.

People are nostalgic about the pop culture they grew up with. They return to the music, television, movies, and books that they grew up with because it's comforting. In fact, research shows that adults prefer the music they grew up with over the music released when they're adults because the neural pathways in the developing brain are linked to older music. [Source: Slate.com] So, it's probably psychological nostalgia pulling people back in.

4- Shipping and the ship wars.

Nothing will keep a fandom active like ship war. You know a fandom has truly died when the ship wars die.

5 - Fan communities on Tumblr, AO3, and Reddit keep the fandom alive.

It's always fun to be a part of a little community on the internet. Especially if the people in it are sane, reasonable, and kind. It's why I'm still here on Tumblr. There are people in the TVD fandom that I've been following and interacting with for about 10 years now. I value that. Especially when so many spaces on the internet are toxic and algorithmic. I imagine others in the TVD fandom value too.

TVD was not prestige television. Critics and TV audiences don't consider it classic. And the show will likely be forgotten in the coming decades. Despite the show's mediocrity, TVD did give its fans something worth holding on to.

[zanarkandfayth]

trope rating game

as a mutual I'm considering myself tagged by @quartzguts lol. also leaving it in its own post cos I ain't bothering to find the original.

rules: How much do these tropes affect your decision to click on a fic? -10 -> very dissuaded

0 - don’t care either way

+10 -> very enticed

nope -> if it’s a hard no and you’d never click on a fic with that tag or or you even have the tag blocked or you’d insta click out of the fic if it wasn’t tagged. Bonus points for explaining the rating and whether it’s conditional.

Age gap: 0 It's not going to make me not click, but it's not going to make me click either. I have some ships that are age gap for sure (tidus/auron, roy/ed, kratos/lloyd and no we will NOT talk about how they're all adult father or mentor figures to teen boys lmao) but the age gap doesn't really factor into it. it's also not in spite of it, it's just... there. I enjoy when it's used in a fic with my ships but it's not a draw.

Codependency: +10 I will admit, I prefer when it's romantised. Two characters who are so in love that they would genuinely die for each other, or kill for each other, who can't fathom living without each other, who might have other friends/family but are never going to value them to the same level, who make each other their entire world, all of it to unhealthy levels that would be unnerving as fuck in real life... I live for that shit. gimme. dear god pls gimme.

Obsession/Possessiveness, jealousy: -8 moooostly a no for me, if the summary is really enticing and presents as more of a character study or a short look into a relationship, I'll give it a go. and I don't mind a pinch of jealousy in a ship fic if it doesn't overall really affect the relationship. but otherwise it's not my thing. I need my characters to be madly and sometimes unhealthily in love, but I need it to be them against the world, not them against each other.

Opposites (grumpy/sunshine etc): 0 It's like age gap. I have some ships that are this but it's not because the trope does anything for me. It's just kinda there.

Enemies to lovers, Enemies with benefits: -10 it's not a hard nope, it just doesn't work for me. I can't think of any ships I have that are genuine enemies to lovers. rivals to lovers, that I can do, but there needs to be some sort of mutual respect there even if they annoy the shit out of each other, and they still need to be more or less on the same "side" so to speak. if they genuinely hate each other (or even if it's one-sided) and they're on opposite sides, I can't do it. Friends with benefits: +2 never seen a fic tagged with this tbh. I think I would click if it sounded interesting enough? I mean my one serious irl relationship started as this so I can hardly hate the concept 😂 but if it's not a gen fic then I'm really a sucker for the romance between my blorbos so if it didn't lead to that it would really depend on how the fic is presented.

Sex to feelings: +7 I feel like this could have been combined with FWB lol. basically if it involves my ships and they were friends with benefits who develop the feels and actually get together, then yes. anything else, no. I've read exactly one fic like that and even though it's no longer my ship it was still REALLY damn good so I'd be very likely to click if I saw another that was one of my ships.

Fake dating/relationship: +8 it's funny cos I never seek these out but when I see one I'm almost always like YES. I especially love if one of them is in denial about their feelings and keep trying to come up with excuses until they can't anymore. I also just love the awkwardness of the scene(s) where they're having to actively pretend and the person they're pretending to is totally oblivious and it's just hilarious and good cringe and gjskdgjksd I love it. not a +10 because I occasionally I come across ones where they don't wind up together for real and then I'm just left all sad xD

Friends to lovers: +100 this is like 99% of my ships haha. LISTEN AS A DEMIRO IT'S THE ONLY THING THAT REALLY MAKES SENSE TO ME. bonus if it's childhood friends to lovers. (ignoct, my beloved)

Found Family: +10 My daddy issues make me love this one lmao. My found family loves are largely either older father/mentor figures to younger guys, or two or more characters who view each other as a family of sorts, with or without any specific labels because I don't think found family necessarily needs to shoehorn characters into nuclear family roles, though sometimes it just works that way and it's fine.

Hurt/Comfort: ∞ yes pls. I can read cute fluff and smile at it, but nothing gets my feels going like hurt/comfort. me and hurt/comfort are in a codependent relationship except the codependency is all on my side. it's fine. I'd die for you, hurt/comfort. you're my world. I don't need anyone else.

Love Triangle: nope can't fucking stand it, sorry. it's not a blocked tag but I'm never gonna click on it, not even once.

Poly, open relationships: +5 poly yes, open relationships no. the poly ships gotta be closed. if they are then it's like any other non-poly ship for me. if my blorbos are all in mutual agreement to be together with each other and no one else, I'm good.

Mistaken/hidden identity: -10 zero interest Monsterfucking: +10 it's time for me to once again lament how little there is of this in the ffxv fandom, at least with noct. fandom??? can we please??? like pretty please??? THE MONSTERS ARE RIGHT THERE. I haaaaate writing smut but one of these days I swear I'm gonna give in and write that very specific non-con monsterfucking (plant) tentacle oviposition sex pollen fic I have so very desperately wanted with noct since 2019 now. lmao.

Pregnancy: ??? idk how to rate this. it squicks me out, buuut my daddy issues have given me a weakness for seeing my blorbos become dads, so like. if we skip the specific details, then depending on the fic and what it focuses on it's fine and I'd click? not that there's many/any out there that have it in the flavour I like.

Second Chance: 0 I... don't know cos I'm not sure what this refers to.

Slowburn: +8 I give it an 8 because even though I love it, I still need it to be friends to lovers 🤣 if they don't even know each other at the start of the fic? miss me with that thanks. but otherwise I'm fine if it takes 300K to actually kiss.

Soulmates: -10 Can't get into this, at least not the way the trope is presented in fics. Maybe it's my being demiro rearing its head again, but the entire concept of someone being predetermined for you since birth and you gotta wait until you meet and your marks match or whatever and you're stuck with them whether you like them or not is just??? baffling??? like??? idk, no shade to people who like it, it just doesn't click for me. I've tried some and I've always given up after the first few chapters.

Tagging whoever wishes to spend an hour doing this that hasn't already done so!

[hammerheadandsickle]

now watching last week wrap-up

boogie nights (1997)

if there will be blood didn’t exist, this would be my top PTA movie, but TWBB is a 10/10 movie so it takes a close second. i think what i really love about PTA movies is that he captures the pastiche of whatever time period he’s set the film in. it’s not that he’s 100% accurate in terms of the facts of how things were or looked like during that time but it just *feels* so real overall in terms of looks and feeling and attitude. costuming was perfect of course, esp don cheadle, whose character was also really cool because you understood he was part of this adult film world but he was never shown explicitly doing anything and never even talked about his time in it until near the end of the movie. i’d have to say scotty was my favorite character, he was the perfect background character and i always enjoyed just taking note of whatever he was doing behind everyone else. mark wahlberg was bearable to look at because of how young he was and PTA pulled a decent performance out of him which is more than you can say for most of his acting career. there were so many familiar faces in the movie that it was cool to pick out all of them throughout the runtime, which was long but appropriately so. i don’t care about rating movies but it’s close to 10/10

cont under the cut

memories of murder (2003)

this isn’t an original observation but what makes this film so good and timeless beyond the real-life case that this movie is based on is that the actual murder mystery is just a vehicle to explore character relationships and sociopolical issues. bong joon-ho is always gonna be more concerned with those aspects of a movie over trying to make a documentary-type film, which makes this movie more thrilling and cutting-edge than most of the true crime schlock that’s been released in the past decade or so. song kang-ho sort of plays a similar character to his character in parasite, where he’s just blindly defiant and arrogant without a lot of actual smarts to back that attitude up, but he plays that character very well so it was a delight to see him again. i don’t think it’s my favorite of bong joon-ho’s but i really liked it

synecdoche, new york (2008)

i'm gonna be real i didn't "get" the movie while watching it in the moment, because my head was spinning trying to keep up with the plot and the characters. not to sound reddit but it seriously got so meta i was kind of just in awe at how many layers deep the narrative got. afterwards sean explained it to me and i was like oh yea duh lol that makes sense and i sort of saw it along the way, i just hadn't put all the pieces together. i've only seen 1.5 of kaufman's other movies but despite how much shit caden goes through this movie ironically seems like one of the more hopeful movies of kaufman's career. it's funny that sean and i watched two philip seymour hoffman movies in one week; for a long time all i knew him from was the hunger games because i was still a young teen when he passed, but seeing these movies really makes me appreciate the work he did as an actor and how unfortunate it is that he passed fairly young. that all being said, i'm thinking of ending things is still my favorite kaufman so far lol

i am here … now (2010) and fateful findings (2013)

i watched these masterpieces with some friends over discord and it was a blast. i had already seen fateful findings but hadn't seen IAH...N and though i still think fateful findings is the funniest breen movie i've seen so far i had a lot of fun watching both. if you've never heard of neil breen or his movies, you need to check them out, preferably with friends (and, if it's your thing, while drinking or high) because they are iconic

[cottelini]

This time we'll be focusing on Grian ((he/him))~ <3

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Are any of your characters missing fingers?

nope! tho i do play around with one of the main characters missing a leg...

Does your character know how to tie different kinds of knots?

probably!!! Grain loves to work around the house-- building fences, tending to the garden, and such. he's quite handy!

How much does your character giggle?

just a little haha~ he does more of a chuckle tho

Are any of your characters nameless? (In that there is no legal record of them existing, they just don’t have names in canon, or history remembers them but not their name?)

...technically Sky?? but not really. they don't know their birth-name, since nobody knows about their time before they were kidnapped (<- yeah that's a whole story lmao), but everybody calls them Sky regardless

How independent was your character as a teen?

oh, Grian WANTED to be independent-- and he did have some secret rebellious moments-- but he mostly stuck to his parents' rules. and since they were very focused on "obedience" Grian didnt get much fresh air :-( he's always been rather timid so it was easy to keep him in line as a youngster

How much does your character care about their appearance?

a fair amount!! Grian loves to dress up and has a really specific style he adheres to (bohemian wizard vibes!!!). he also pays a lot of attention to how "masculine" he looks on any given day, so there's that anxiety there as well.

Do you have any characters who are twins?

!!! Giran is a twin!! he had a twin sister named Constance <3

Does your character like math? How good are they at it?

mmm i'd say he likes it a fair amount, and is quite good at it, but he prefers science/alchemy

Do any of your characters collect sea-shells or wear shell jewelry?

some later characters do, but that's spoilers ;-) I'm sure Grian would love collecting shells-- he is quite the collector (tho some may call him a hoarder owo;;;)

Naptime, yes or no?

yes <333 especially if it's a sunbath~ Grian LOVES to bask in the sun! Clementine says it's bad for his skin, but he doesn't care; "what's the point in living if i can't feel the warm sun on my skin? i'd rather look old knowing i embraced the warmth of a summer day rather than look young knowing i never let the sun embrace my skin."

Would your character prefer to sit around and chill or be up and moving and doing something?

both lol. Grian loves slow mornings staring at the horizon just as much as he loves tinkering away at a new project

Did any of your characters have a fever they almost died from as a child?

Sky is very very sick at the beginning of the story. they're a teen by then but it's a big enough plot point that i felt it worth mentioning. speaking of Grian, he was the more sickly out of the twins as a young child. he grew out of it after a few years tho and now he doesn't get sick often at all!! he can go nearly a decade without getting ill!!!!

Does your character worry about breaking the rules and getting in trouble?

not... really? Grian respects and follows the laws and rules set before him in any scenario. that being said... he has had rare moments that he felt the rules were less important or even a hindrance to the "greater good".

he isn't afraid of the law/rules and teaches others the importance of such systems. however, if Giran does go against these set systems he isn't afraid of the consequences as he has already made up his mind that he has made the best possible choice for everyone involved.

(i acutally like to think that this is how Guardian of the Sky starts! with Giran getting in trouble for breaking the rules because he found something more important to protect, or someone~)

Do any of your characters have the responsibilities of an adult despite being a child, or did they when they were?

Sherrie had to fend for herself a lot as a young child, but otherwise i can't think of too many OCs that have this theme. Grian was obedient and often not allowed to act "childish", but i wouldn't say he was forced to act as an adult.

If a loved one died, how long would they stay in mourning?

a very long time i'm afraid. Grian's greatest joy in life are the relationships around him. losing someone isn't something Grian takes well. he keeps it in so he can comfort others. it's a very quiet and painful grief-- one that he doesn't truly every mourn properly.

Do other people around your character dictate their life or do they get to choose for themselves?

Grian's parents were true dictators in his young life but once he moved out he was rid of them forever. they died not long after anyways. the only true tyrant in Grian's life now is himself-- for better or worse.

Did/do any of your characters have an arranged marriage?

Giran and his sister, Constance, had some suitors that they were set up with from a young age. Grian took a liking to one of his suitors, Elliot, and they had a really wonderful relationship for a long time. however, Constance (ever the rebel) always hated the entire arrangement process. She later married a farmer boy and had a daughter, Camilla <3

Do you have any widows/widower characters?

yes </3 but it's kinda spoilers owo;;; maybe??

Are any of your characters overshadowed by other siblings? Or have parents who clearly have a favorite? (ex: Boromir and Faramir)

mmm Grian was preferred by his parents because he was well-mannered and obedient, unlike his rebellious and outspoken twin sister. still, i wouldn't call it "favoritism". Grian and Constance were born for one reason; to continue on a legacy and reputation cemented by their parents.

their parents liked the idea of having kids and what benefits they would bring... they just forgot that kids need more from you than you'll ever receive from them.

Would your character kill someone to get what they want?

no. Grian would cry if he stepped on a snail. he may come to feel deep hatred one day, but the thought of harming someone would never even enter his mind.

Does your character prefer to lead or follow?

probably leading-- he's a teacher at heart <3 but power and all that doesn't matter to him

Has your character ever stolen anything?

just some hearts <3333333

Are any of your characters apprentices?

Sky is technically Grian's apprentice!! Grian teaches them all about the world, fae, and alchemy.

Are any of your characters certified Bird Nerds ™?

not in this story but i wouldn't be surprised if some of Fern's family was into that stuff. they're quite bohemian and into nature~ i'm sure Grian picked up a bird identification book at some point and now it's in a dusty pile somewhere lol

Are any of your characters Good Dads ™?

look no further than Grian himself <3333 also Sherrie's dads are hella cool!!!

[hyakki59]

Eren Jaegar x Reader - Being Together for each other - One Shot

(The reason why I sometimes chose an other age as a background of my fictions, is because I like to imagine different eras when my imagination goes wild, lol. I don’t know if you find my following kind of background or my story interesting, but for anyone who will read it, I hope you enjoy. : )) )

•The background of the story takes place some decades after the Industry Revolution. The cities have already been developed, being full of machines and factories.  

•That's not only this kind of world that exists though. You and Eren had grown up on a village. Actually, you could say that you two had grown together. Going on the same school, playing together on yards, exploring the woods like you were on mini adventures, etc, you know, stuff children usually do.  

•As you two were almost finishing the school Eren had a little bit of a change on his character, like every human being. He was serious all the time and his smiles were more like sadden smiles. It's not that all this was something abnormal. As a human grows, they understand more and observe even more. So, many realizations are not always welcomed happily.  

•Eren though had, let's say, a little bit of a flaw. He was giving up easily. He was preferring doing nothing when an obstacle was appearing in his life.  

•You and Eren as old teens had spend hours discussing together about life and your problems, while sitting alone on short stone walls, in the nature or while walking.

•Eren had problems with his family. They had many arguments. Those were a big reason why Eren was most of the time gloomy.

•You believed that one day Eren would recover from all of this and that all he needed was time. But this kind of changing wasn't coming. Years passed and Eren sunk into depression. It wasn't visible at first, because it came slowly.  

•You and Eren were no more students, but adults who needed to survive. You decided  to study to nearby city's University, even though it was something unusual for women back then (but we don't care lol). You were going to city by bus, and sometimes you were also living there. That's why you weren't in contact with Eren everyday and you hadn't noticed that he had "fallen" in a hole that he couldn't escape emotionally.  

•At the same period that you were studying, Eren wasn't putting even the smallest aim in his everyday life. He wasn't even starting a job, even to sell products from his family's farm.  

•After you finished your studies you got an office job (or whatever else you want) at the city.  

•One day you visited your hometown. As you walked the familiar roads of your village you ran into Eren. He was dragging a cart full of woods. His hair had grown a little, which he had pulled backwards, so they could not fall in front of his face. He was sweating because of his work and his clothes were having dirt on them.  

•Your appearance surprised him, not only because he wasn't expecting you to be on the village, but also because of your different look. You were wearing a pencil skirt, a buttom-up shirt and heels. You were also resting a shoulder bag around your right shoulder, also holding it's straps with your right arm. You were looking so elegant and beautiful, causing Eren to blush a little.

•You both stood still looking at each other,  Eren being at a loss with a slightly open mouth. He opened-closed his mouth slightly and finally spoke.

"Y/N?"

"Hey Eren"

You greeted him shyly, because you noticed his blushed and shocked state. Your eyes looked up at him, and you gave a small smile.  

"You have changed"

Eren added with admiration

"Really?"

You asked as you added a small awkward laugh

"Y-Yeah"

He answered while rubbing the back of his neck.  

"I'm sorry that I don't greet you properly. I'm full of dirt..."

•Eren added whipping slowly and awkwardly his hands on his clothes. He lowered his gaze down blushing more, because of his messy appearance, while you were there neat, with clean new clothes and your hair obviously made from a hair salon.

"Oh come on now, I grew up on a village, I know how it is, don't be sorry."

You told him while walking towards him.  

"I'm going to visit my parents. I would like to greet yours as well, would you like to accompany me?"

You asked him while standing next to him.  

"Y-Yeah, of course"

Eren answered and you walked ahead first as he turned his cart around to follow you. As you were ahead his eyes fell on your butt, who was moving right and left, wrapped with your tight skirt.

'That's city life'

He thought to himself, having slightly pink cheeks.

•That day you stayed for dinner at Eren's house. When you were about to leave you noticed that it was raining a lot outside, so Eren suggested you to wait at his home until the rain stops.  

•You two headed to his room, it wasn't like the first time you went there. You two had grown up like you were siblings or relatives, that's how close you were.  

•When you entered his room you headed to his bed and sat there. You leaned down and took off your heels with your hand leaving a pain sigh.

"Ah.. these heels are killing me. I suffer when I wear them for hours..."

You said while you lifted your legs on Eren's bed, benting them and resting them on your side.  

Not only Eren could see your bare feet through your tights, but your painted nails on your toes as well. If that would be possible, Eren would 'nosebleed' at that moment. But he tried to be expressionless, walking on his room like nothing was happening. He took a chair and sat across of you, resting his left elbow at the back of the chair and he also crossed his legs.

"Why you sat so far away?"

You asked him with full of question in your voice, smiling also at him in a way that was showing that you found his state weird.  

"Why you didn't sat there?"

You asked him again while looking and pat pat-ing the spot of the bed next to you

"Nah, I'm cool"  

He answered by closing his eyes and doing a circle with his hand/fingers with his left arm, in which he is supporting his self.

"No, you are not"

You told him moving your head slightly right and left, with an awkward side smile and added:

"You are acting weird"

"Am I?"

He asked trying to sound natural.

"Yeah"

You answered immediately. But Eren just shrugged and lifted his eyebrows as an answer to show that he wasn't seeing anything wrong. He changed the subject anyway.

"Will you stay many days here at the village?"

"No, I'm leaving tomorrow."

You answered to Eren.  

"So soon? Why?"

"I have to go back to work. I just came by to see my family and my closest people."

"Oh, so am I one of your closest people?"

Eren asked you by lifting instantly his eyebrows to tease you, also smirking at the same time.

"Of course, you idiot"

You answered seriously. Eren liked your answer and just stood still looking at you like he was observing your face, or you could say your expression. He then observed all of you, reminding to himself that you look beautiful and more woman than ever. It was like he was having a different Y/N in front of him. Eren was admiring you not only for your change but because you were an independent person who was living alone and working on the city. At the same time he was jealous by this kind of lifestyle and he was feeling like he had been left behind. (The living alone part I know that it may not be realistic for women back then, but anyway I wanted it like that)

•Some months have passed since that day. It was now a cold night of the winter and you were returning home from work.  

•As you were walking on the pavement, your eye fell on a man that was sitting down on a narrow pass between two buildings. He was sitting with his legs bented because of the cold and his gaze was down. He was wearing a white buttom-up shirt, black pants and a beige coat, all those clothes in a not good condition.

•For some reason that silhouette was seeming familiar to you, even though he looked like a stranger. His long hair were failing on his face, so it was difficult to see him clearly. But you approached him slowly.

"Eren?"

You asked that man without being sure it was really Eren. Only his eyes met you, without moving. The expression of his eyes was calm and his lips were slightly open, but he wasn't saying anything. How this man with the messy long hair, the grown beard and the sloppy clothes, who was sitting on the city's street like a homeless man, could be Eren? Yet, you couldn't ever forget his dark green eyes and you were sure that man was Eren.

"Eren is that you?"

You continue to ask that man but didn't get any answer back. Specifically, he looked away like he wanted to stop your questions.  

"Eren I know it's you, why you don't talk to me?"

You asked him worryingly and scared for his state. You approached him even more and bented your knees so you could come closer to his height.  

"Eren.. what's happening?"

You asked him quietly. That man, clearly that it was Eren, seemed annoyed by your questions, more like annoyed because of his state and that you found him like that. He rolled his eyes and turned his head to the right so he could avoid your gaze and he tapped his feet three/four times on the ground, as proof that he didn't like this situation.

"Go to your home Y/N"

He finally said with a low voice.

"Eren! I knew it was you! What are you doing here? Are you alright?"

You asked him obviously worried and grabbed his shoulder as you were talking to him. Eren shook his shoulder so you could let him go, his face still turned away from you.

"Y/N. I said. Go home."

Eren told you in a more demanding way. By the way his voice was sounding, you could understand that he was hurt emotionally.

"No.. Eren.. I don't understand. I can't leave you like that. Tell me, what are you doing here? What happened to you?"

It seemed like he wasn't about to answer.

"It's okay Eren, you don't have to tell me now. But, please, come with me. Let's go to my home."

No answer again.

"You are worrying me sick, you know- Oh my God, what happened to your face? Are you hurt? Did you got hurt anywhere else?"

You bombarded Eren with questions. Your brain couldn't accept what it was seeing and you were let's say shocked.  

Eren seemed to have some red spots and wounds near his left eye, which was not visible at first because his long hair were covering them. He couldn't avoid you anymore, you had discovered him at this terrible state and you weren't about to leave.

Once more he was looking away and his lips trembled. His eyes were a little bit red and misty.

"I decided to visit the city.."

He started saying but paused. You were waiting patiently for him to continue.

"I found a hotel to stay for while.."

Eren's gaze was down to the ground having the image of his previous days in his mind that he is describing to you.

"During my stay here...some strangers robbed me.."

He paused again like he was thinking before answering.

"...and hurt me in order to do to that."

You moved your head to your side with a sad expression, feeling sorry about Eren.

"I didn't have money anymore to stay at the hotel.. and we reach at my current state that you see me."  

Eren admitted at the end, not liking that he was saying all this to you.

"Why you didn't return home?"

You asked him quietly.

"How could I? How could I present myself to my parents like that? There was no way for me to do that."

Eren said determinedly, looking this time at your eyes.

"Why you didn't try to find me then?"

You asked him connecting your eyebrows worryingly.

"That's even worse. And see me like that? Not that you didn't anyway..."

He answered you, lowering his gaze to his knees.

"Eren.. don't say that. I'm here for you any time you need me. You have this bad habit and never ask for help from the others. Anyone needs help from time to time."

You told him reassuringly with care.

"How come you decided to come here in the first place?"

You asked him to learn more.

"I wanted to find a job."

He answered you

"But that didn't went well"

He added, something breaking inside of him.

"I can't do anything right. Nothing is right. Life is never with my side. Everything gets shittier and shittier, and in the end I'm a fucking loser."  

"No Eren, you are not a loser"

You tried to said but Eren interrupted you.  

"Yes, I am Y/N! I'm fucking disappointed with myself! I can't even understand me!"

Eren broke out having an indignant expression. You then approached him even more, shoving yourself between his knees and hugging him warmly around his neck. Eren returned the hug, shoving his face on your shoulder. His hand grabbed tightly your coat and he let out a small wimp, tears leaving quietly his eyes.  

You put your your right hand behind Eren's head, leaned back a little and touched your lips on his forehead, staying still for a while.

A drunk man that was walking not steadily down the pavement, passed by you two and laughed at himself.

"Lucky bastard"

He said loud enough looking at Eren, because in the eyes of his he was seeing a homeless man having a fine woman between his legs hugging and kissing him. And like that the drunk man lost in the dark of the night.

After your kiss on Eren's forehead you leant back resting your right palm on Eren's left cheek. Eren had a look in his eyes like he had found warmth.

"Eren, you will come now home with me and I don't accept any objection. You hear me?"

You shook a little Eren's face with your right hand as you said 'you hear me' to him. That's what Eren would like to do but he was too embarrassed to follow you. He just stood still having like a guilty look, looking you at your eyes. You could understood what the answer was by his eyes so that's why you said:

"Now get up"

You told him as you stood up first and grabbed him by his one upper limb to give him motivation to stood up.You tried to pull him but Eren let out a pain cry because his left leg was hurt. You did a worried expression looking at him in his face like you were asking him 'what's going on?'.

"It's nothing"

Eren said with pain in his voice and managed to stood still by grabbing your hand. You saw that he was limping so you grabbed his right arm and crossed it around your shoulders to help him stand. Eren looked at you with connecting eyebrows and added

"I'm a total loser"

"No, you are not! Shut up and move your butt!!"

You scolded him and like that you two took the road towards your apartment.

~°~°~°~

•One month had passed since the previous event. Eren is living now at your apartment for a while till he stands on his feet and find a steadily job.  

•He even got rid of his beard and decided to have a nice haircut so he would look more elegant. The day he did that change he asked you as he returned home.

"How do I look? Am I better now?"

He was all happy and lively, having a big smile. As he did the questions he posed turning left and right grabbing his suit's jacket.

"You always you look good. But, yeah, you look very nice now."

You answered naturally with a smile and kept tidying some things in the living room that you did before. Eren wanted you though to notice him more and said

"What do you say, would the ladies like me now?"

You did a side smile and turned only your head towards Eren.

"So you came only for the city ladies and not actually for working huh?"

You answered him teasingly.

"Well, I'm just wondering if it's too dangerous for me to go around with that new look of mine"

Eren continued the teasing looking himself in the living room's mirror and getting his fingers through his hair like he was admiring himself.

"Ladies' killer don't forget you have an appointment for your new job in a half an hour. You will miss the bus if you don't hurry."

You told him like a mum. Eren wished you would pay more attention on his appearance.  

"I know, that's why I got dressed so nice today."

He said, straightening up the collar of his button-up shirt, still looking at the mirror.

"It would be a pity though to wear my suit just for a short time. Why don't we go out after my interview and tell you how I got the job?"

He said smirking and sure of himself.

"Oh, you are asking me out mr. Jaegar?"

Eren tried to act cool and said

"I'm just asking an old friend of mine to accompany me after my today's success."

He answered still looking in the mirror observing himself, like if he was indifferent. You laughed with Eren's mood because you found his acting cute.

"Then how can I deny your suggestion? I will be ready by the time you return home."

You told him with a smirk. Eren suddenly felt the happiest man on the planet.  

•Eren indeed got the job and even though he was working he was still living in your apartment. To be more specific, he was sleeping separately from you, in the guest's room.

• It was supposed though to be like you two have agreed at first, for Eren to live with you until he could stand on his own. But none of you were saying anything about it anymore. You two actually were enjoying each other's company and wouldn't like to be separated.  

•One night you returned really tired from your work that the first thing you wanted to do when you would return home was to sleep.  

"Hey Y/N"

Eren greeted you from the couch in which he was sitting, smiling as you got home. You let out a 'hey' with a low voice as you were getting off your heels.

"How was work today?"

He asked you and you answered him by just turning your head towards him, showing him your exhausted state.

"Okay, I get it"

He added.

"How about I prepare you a nice warm bath to help you relax?"

He offered to you as he stood up approaching you.

"No, it's okay Eren. I'm so tired even for this. I will just go to sleep right away. Thanks for the thought."

You answered him as you headed towards your room to change your clothes. Then you visited to bathroom to find your brush. As you were combing your hair Eren appeared and rested himself at the doorframe, crossing his arms. He looked you up and down at you with a smile. You were wearing just a nightgown.

"You are beautiful"

He commented and you stopped your motions looking at him.

"Where did this came from?"

You asked him, observing him, having lips that wanted to smile.

"Nowhere. I'm just telling what I’m seeing."

"Well, thanks"

You answered him awkwardly, not expecting the compliment. Your heart started to beat faster not knowing what to do or say. You two stayed silence.

"W-Well, now, w-will you excuse me?"

You said to Eren still awkwardly by grabbing bathroom's door, meaning that you wanted to close the door and go to the toilet. Eren answered with a double nod and lifted his right lower limb to the air like he was saying 'yeah, of course' and turned away. He also rubbed the back of his neck while walking away, feeling nervous.

•As you returned to your room, you shoved yourself under the blankets and your eyes closed right away. Eren appeared by your door which was slightly open, hoping you haven't slept yet.

"Oh, Y/N, I forgot you to tell you. There's some dinner left. I cooked tonight. Your favourite fooood. Pasta."

He said playfully but as he opened the door more he saw that you have fallen asleep completely. You were laying on your back your face turned to the side. Eren approached you, climbing at the bed's side where was some space. You moved a little in your sleep because your sleeping state felt some interruption. Eren stopped moving, looking at you. He saw that your hands were out of the blanket. He grabbed the blanket's edge and he covered you properly. He then took some hair away that was infront of your face and thought 'Now it's my turn to take care of you'.

[gffa]

I know I've brought this up before, but how much of the fandom reception of the prequels do you think stemmed from the genre dissonance? That the prequels, genre-wise, are closer to high fantasy, while the OT is more an adventure/space western/underdog triumph story.

The prequels also have elements more reminiscent of a romantic period/court drama/Shakespearean tragedy, while if you consider the underdog angle of the OT, the OT also seems kinda similar to some of those inspirational movies about sports teams or something, or a shonen anime with the "Power of Friendship".

I'm just saying, these are rather disparate genres that tend to attract different demographics of people.

And not many people tend to be... great about understanding why they don't like something, much less putting it into words, or understanding that they can dislike something without that something being actually bad. (For example, instead of "I just don't really like [thing]," the usual statement is something along the lines of "[thing] absolutely sucks.")

So the usual response is trying to find (and gather) solidarity while putting down or being condescending towards any dissent, and trying to justify their own dislike. (*gestures vaguely towards pineapple on pizza*)

And historically, it's not uncommon for people to... react strongly towards things they find... different or abnormal, which they judge based on themselves, their emotional response to something, and what they're used to.

Looking at kids, this behavior is... fairly normal. "You're weird," "ew, why do you like that, that's gross," "that's stupid," and so on. A lot of kids/teens/young adults also get defensive really easily. And let's face it--adults are basically just older, taller kids who've had to deal with more of life.

(To be honest, I also get defensive really easily. A lot of people do, and it's... it's normal. The defensive reaction can be lashing out, denial, or just being passive-aggressive or staying silent and tuning it out or mentally rolling your eyes at it. But I'm trying to work on it, because just because it's normal doesn't mean it's a good reaction.)

So, what I'm wondering is whether some fans dislike the prequels simply because it's a different genre...

...but instead of realizing that, they try to defend and justify their dislike by pointing fingers and criticizing whatever stood out or looked different from the OT or cherry-picking details/taking things out of context or making negative conflations (that can be refuted).

Because it's not about logic, it's about how they feel. And people want to feel justified and validated, and we want to feel like we're right and we enjoy staying in our comfort zones. So... yeah. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

LOL, okay, this response is going to be really disjointed because I went off in like a dozen different tangents and even then it's not enough to cover everything, so just kind of read this in a Scattered Thoughts Nerd kind of tone, where I'm staring off into the distance because Navel Gazing Gets Me Going Sometimes. 😂 In my experience, it's sort of a mix. I don't hang around a lot of people who dislike the prequels (in the sense of dismissing them/not being fannish about them) because, well, that's the heart of my interest in Star Wars, so our areas of interest basically don't really overlap that much, so I don't have a chance to talk to a lot of people and find out their reasons or even how they dislike the prequels, in the bigger trends of fandom. I do think there's an element of what you're talking about, that sometimes people can't just dislike things because it's not their genre of choice, that's absolutely a part of it. Mostly because that's how a lot of people react to anything they don't like (and it's something I and literally everyone else has to work on), there has to be a reason for it that it's objectively bad and, like, I have experienced a lot of people getting mad because I like something in a different way than they do. And I don't mean just in Star Wars fandom, but in almost any given fandom--if someone likes something in a way someone else doesn't, if they talk loudly about it (even within their own space), then there's always a contingent of people who have to find a reason why that person is objectively wrong (or even try to make them morally wrong), rather than just shrugging and going, "We see things differently, my view on things doesn't overwrite theirs and their view on things doesn't overwrite mine." It gets more complicated in instances where fandom attitudes genuinely can be hurtful, especially when they're overlapping into the way real people are treated, likes/dislikes don't 100% exist in a bubble, especially when it comes to queer fans, fans of color, disabled fans, mentally ill fans, etc. But that there are a lot of instances where fandom culture has always been--and is increasingly so--contentious and it's hard to chill out when someone is always screaming at you, when the atmosphere of the fandom is always so intense. Further, there's also an element of how fandom has always been--and also is increasingly so--about personal resonance, personal emotional investment, interpretation, and meaning. That sometimes we identify with something so deeply that we feel attacked when someone else likes or dislikes something we feel so strongly about, something that we feel is a reflection of ourselves, and I see a lot of that as well. And this, too, often crosses over into lines of how the context of how we treat characters can be reflections of how we treat real world people, but that there's no monolith here as well. For example: I make fun of Anakin, this angers some people, because how dare I not take this fictional victim 100% seriously, despite that I have repeatedly said that Anakin is the character I most identify with, that things I make fun of him for are ones that I resonate with personally. I'm not disrespecting mentally ill people, especially considering that Anakin is not bound to a single interpretation on this front--he is not canonically mentally ill, no matter how easy it is for us in fandom to map much of that onto his character or, in my case, feel that so much of what I see in him are things I struggle with myself. By and large, the majority of the people I see (at least on tumblr) who make fun of Anakin are doing so within the same vein, that they're being silly about him on things that they personally relate to. (My experiences on this are not universal, I cannot speak for the whole of even any one part of fandom, only my own sphere of experience, but this is what I've seen.) As always, it's fine if someone doesn't vibe with my style or they find that it's not their thing because they do take him more seriously, but that preference does not make my jokes

suddenly not have the context that I relate a lot to what I see in Anakin. In contrast, the way some of the fandom treats Mace or Finn isn't just personal all the time. Not liking their characters isn't inherently racist, but the way they're consistently, consistently treated sure as hell speaks to a larger pattern of racism in fandom and doesn't come without that context. It's the same with Rey--is there a huge vein of misogyny when it comes to her character? Abso-fucking-lutely there is. Things Luke and Anakin get a pass on, Rey is raked over the coals for. Is everyone who dislikes Rey a misogynist? Not even close. Some don't like her because Finn was used as a prop for her story. Some people don't like her because she got sucked into Kylo Ren's story too much. Some just don't care for the way she was written for other reasons. Some just don't vibe with her. It's fine. Nothing is a monolith. And to circle this back around to what you're talking about--it's hard to judge, both because no part of fandom is a monolith in their reactions, but also because we're only hearing from a selection of the fans. How do you know how many people who aren't fans of the prequels, who just don't care for them because it's not their genre, but just go about their day? You don't hear from a lot of them because they moved on to things they do like, so it seems like they must not exist--except, they do, and they're just out there doing things they like more. We only hear from the people who feel the need to tell others they dislike the prequels for this reason or that reason, some valid, some less valid, etc. Ultimately, I do think there's probably a fair amount of genre dissonance for why people dislike the prequels and channel that into "they're objectively bad" and get defensive when people like them and say they were great, but only because that's true of anything anywhere. But that it's only one small slice of the bigger picture (and there's a lot of stuff that I had to eschew in the writing of this response as well because it can be a pretty sprawling topic), where there are tons of reasons and reactions that people have, as well as they're perfectly free to dislike the prequels for whatever reason they do or don't have, it doesn't really affect my opinions, unless they're trying to shove it in my face or are being a dick to those who disagree with them.

[wiihtigo]

have u been asked chibita hehe... chibita (you'll never know who this is)

send me a character and i’ll list:

hiiiiiii

favorite thing about them

this is so mean but its that his life genuinely sucks. like hes one of the more normal and grounded characters in oso (hes still really fucked up and evil though sometimes/a lot its just when hes next to all 6 of the matsunos hes like an angel) like he grew up an orphan living in a pipe with his only adult presence in his life being IYAMI he never went to highschool he tried and failed in his teen years to be a chef but kept getting kicked to the curb HE TRIES TO KILL HIMSELF AND IS SUICIDAL IN THE MOVIE (AS A TEENAGER?) why does chibita have such a rich backstory and multidimensional character. and the anime is about these 6 neets who keep not paying him at his business he started on his own and relies on totally and completely for a living. wtf.

also i think hes just so nice as much as they dont deserve him im glad the matsunos have a friend as good as chibita hes tough but kind of spoils them cuz i think hes kinda lonely when theyre not hanging around making his life worse. i love chibita hes awesome

least favorite thing about them

victim of a few gross jokes i wasnt a fan of but i more blame the writers for that and not him. kinda funny though how visibly his IQ goes down in proximity to iyami

favorite line

not a line but his matsu hunting song in chibitas revenge was so so so good. literally one of my favorite episodes in the whole show

brOTP

always smile at his interactions with totoko i think its cute how theyre buddies too. Also i suppose shoutout to iyami. think its funny he kinda still keeps iyami around and still gets roped into his schemes even though he doesnt REALLY need to he has a JOB just cuz hes been around since he was a little kid. sunk cost fallacy

OTP

i like karabita ^_^ i also think osobita is funny sorry karamatsu LOL

nOTP

im not a hater about it but i prefer him and totoko as friends

random headcanon

had a crush on oso when they were kids but realized he couldnt tell them apart so he came to his senses

unpopular opinion

um? i dunno lol. i think too many ppl use him for karamatsu suicide angst instead of just writing them going to disneyworld like any other ship online but who am i to judge. i actually am one to judge sorry

song i associate with them

i know he plays work bitch - britney spears on the ipod on his mind on those cold winter days he doesnt wanna get out of bed and get out the oden cart

favorite picture of them

this isnt a picture OF him but whn i was watching osomatsu on tubi the subs for the karamatsu incident were changed i guess so it would be easier to understand for the average english speaker? so they just changed this joke totally but its raelly funny the way they changed it so its ok. look at this

for context the joke origianlly was that jyushi misheard "kidnapped" (yuukai) as "yokai" and thought karamatsu was turned into a yokai

also the rest of the joke is funny too

i feel bad chibi isnt actually in these though so heres this picture i like from kun

[thehollowprince]

Just admit you are pissed that everyone - including the whole cast and your obsessed fav Posey - loves and prefers Stiles and Derek to your shitty fav Scott and fucking go lol

Does anyone else just stop and think about this person? This absolute clown, so desperate for any kind of validation that they go on anon and harass people with the same six "arguments" worded differently each time (which we're always able to disprove with actual canon)? For example, I got this ask, and then not ten minutes later, the "anon" must have thought to themselves "Hey, I can make that sound even more sad and clingy" and then gifted me with this.

That's practically word-for-word the same message, but with any added sentence on the end for some extra "oomph", I guess?

For the record, I don't care who anyone says is their favorite character. I freely admit that Scott McCall is an exception for me, because usually I can't stand the main characters of the shows I watch, which does make them hard to watch sometimes. That's why I enjoyed Teen Wolf so much, because here was a main character that didn't get on my nerves, and actually had realistic reactions to the horrible things happening to him. Here was a teenage boy who just wanted to play lacrosse and date the girl who liked him back, and instead he got dragged into a supernatural vendetta between werewolves and hunters. He was attacked by a man anywhere from six to ten years older than him (still an adult to his teenager) who broke into his house, threatened and manipulated him, and said what any sane person would: "Hell no!"

But true to what a great character Scott was, when said man, who had been nothing but antagonistic and even outright hostile to him, was dying because he got sloppy, Scott went out of his way - putting himself in danger! - to save him. Despite everything Derek had done to Scott, he still went out of his way to save him, despite the "smart one" asking him to let Derek die.

That's why I love Scott McCall. Despite everything thrown at him, he tried again and again to be the best version of himself. He didn't immediately resort to violence and murder, as so many others would have done in this same genre. Hell, in this same show!

So, yes, I love Scott Mccall. And ironically enough, no many how many times this anon floods my inbox, or how many people trying to replace Scott with Stiles hijack my posts, nothing any of them say is going to change that. The irony comes in when you consider they should understand how I feel. I (and others) point out the things that Derek or Stiles or Peter or whomever have done (things they claim to hate when they say Scott did them) and they say "well that's my favorite character!"

Good! Good for you! Enjoy your favorite character to your heart's content! That doesn't mean you have to try and smear the titular character for you to like them. Or, who knows, maybe it does. Maybe they can't like their "favorites" if someone else likes a different character. It's an interesting question, and if I were a psychologist I'm sure I'd have a field day with this. I enjoyed almost all of these characters. Yes, even Stiles and Derek, but not as much as I enjoyed Scott.

I don't care how many people prefer Stiles over Scott, the latter is still my favorite character. A lot of people I know are big fans of The Nazarene, doesn't mean I have to be as well. Actually, that's a bad analogy, because rather like Stiles, the canon version is better than the fanon.

Bottom line is that I love Scott McCall. I don't care if Tyler Posey himself called me to say that Stiles was his favorite character. That wouldn't change that Scott is mine. I don't know how to make that any easier to understand.

Anyway, have this gif of a smiling Scott.

[plusultrachaos]

hi sol!! for prompts,,, consider any of the following: student teacher aizawa,, mic causing an earthquake with his quirk,,, izuku bringing any+all of his friends to meet mamadoriya,,, shouto with his mom,,, ura with hers,, anything really lol (in my defense, you said you wanted ideas lmao)

hi cat! thank you sm for the prompts! i think out of the four that i did only one technically counts as angst... and slight character death. listen. um anyway here!

student teacher aizawa

He is tired.

He’s always tired, but he had a hard time climbing out of bed a couple hours after getting off of patrol for school. Not that he was going to be learning anything.

The idea of babysitting 20 kids while another teacher actually taught, that tired Shouta out even more. He knew it’d be a matter of time before the year was up and he would start teaching young heroes, but middle school kids are exhausting.

It is a requirement for his teaching degree, cause there was no way he was walking into a classroom probably filled with self-sacrificial students and not know what he was doing. That just seems idiotic. So he student teaches for an afternoon class at a middle school as far away from heroics as he could possibly get.

It makes sense in his mind, to just learn how to teach kids before he ends up teaching an entirely new breed of students.

He wasn’t prepared for how loud the classroom would be nor how annoying the teacher he is working under is.

All in all, he should move schools, but its too late so he will make the best out of this while he can.

mic induced earthquake (this is the angstyish one, there is a sight mention of character death) They were prepared in case this were to happen. Or they were supposed to be.

But nobody could prepare for something like this. For something so devastating. For something that Hizashi shouldn’t be seeing. For something that Hizashi should be used to seeing.

He accidentally activates his quirk as he lets out a blood curdling scream when he sees his best friend's lifeless corpse laying face down on the ground.

Nobody is prepared for the destruction caused by the soundwaves shaking the entire ground. For the buildings that are shaken so badly their foundations crumble.

izuku introduces dekusquad to mamadoriya

It surprises Inko when Izuku texts her on Saturday to ask if he can bring his friends over the next day.

So much so she spends the entire day after responding with an excited “Yes!” cleaning up the apartment that has hardly ever seen guests. Sure they had a few of Inko’s friends over a few ties, upon Izuku’s request, but never had Izuku invited over his own friends. Friends that he trusted enough to bring to meet her.

To say that she is filled with anxiety the entire morning, waiting for the small sound of Izuku’s key in the door knob, waiting to hear the sounds of five teens marching their way to the door. Her heart races just a little faster everytime she hears one of her neighbors walking past the door. She feels her phone vibrate against the part of her leg that it lays on and her heart rockets up in speed. She hurries to open it, heart falling back down into her stomach when she sees its just an email from one of her son’s teachers, confirming that he was coming home today.

Her eyes widen when she sees she missed a text from izuku an hour ago saying they were getting food (“Todoroki’s treat, mom. He won’t let you pay him back, either.”) before getting on the train, followed 30 minutes later with a “Hopping on the train, see you soon!” And she hops up from her seat, racing around the place trying to make things seem perfect, not wanting to embarrass Izuku in front of the first friends he wants to bring over.

In the middle of a fifteenth wipe down of the countertops in the kitchen, Inko can hear the sound of Izuku putting his key into the lock and opening the door. She hears the chattering of teenagers messing with each other and can feel the softest smile reach her face.

“In the kitchen, Zuzu!” She shouts, knowing the nickname undoubtedly made her son try to hide a quickie reddening face. Soon enough she witnesses the bright red face walking into the room, the group of friends following closely behind him. Her smile widens even more when she sees just how good his friends are, the brunette gently nudging his side, while the kid with glasses seems to be reprimanding her for teasing him. She watches closely as the one with dual colored hair—she can recognize him as a Todoroki, but she wants to see what he would prefer— starts telling Izuku that he finds the name endearing. The tall smart looking girl seems to just be taking in the place while a frog like girl just stares at Inko.

“Hi there.” She starts, her smile wide and welcoming, warmth spreads over the kids' faces and she gestures to the table. “I'm Izuku's mother. You can call me Inko, none of the formalities needed when I can tell you care for my son just as I do.” shouto and rei

Shouto can remember walking through the hospital halls as a little kid, holding tightly onto Fuyumi’s hand, and hoping that his mom wasn’t some scary thing like all of the stories said people who went to these places were. He remembers how he froze outside of her room and when Natsuo tries to pick him up , he remembers how he screamed and refused to go in.

Walking through the same halls as an adult is no less terrifying. He knows that the way that his heart picks up pace is irrational. He knows that the way his hands shake at his sides is a reaction to the same fear as the first time. It doesn’t even matter that this is his 20th visit to the hospital. It doesn’t matter that he knows shes not demented and that she’s not even in here because of her. He knows all of that. But it doesn’t help the fact that he hesitates outside of her room long enough for a nurse to pat his shoulder and tell him it'll get easier. His fists tighten around the bouquet and he sighs heavily before taking a hand away, shaking it out, knocking three light knocks on the door. He feels all of the air escape his lungs the moment he hears the knob turn and he focuses his attention to the place he knows his mom’s head will be.

He feels like he can breathe again when he takes in the sight of his mom’s gentle smile and the excitement he can feel rolling off of her to see him. He feels his own light smile spread to his cheeks and he holds out her favorite flowers out to her before he is tugged into a tight hug with a gentle whisper of “Oh, my Shouto.”