#my new friend group situation isnt doing well

[tiredtriedfailures]

all i do is look really good in brief bursts and charm people momentarily to reveal a kind of off putting and kind of cold person who has something wrong with them 👍 if you saw me looking kinda cool or charismatic turn around dont do this to yourself

[meracyn]

Fairy Whispers ༄

a/n ; first ever fic ! apologies in advance if it isnt too good 😭 thank you for requesting anon <3 this fic is meant to be platonic, but read it either way you’d like + tomorrow ill probs post some shuichi content, n e ways i hope you enjoy !!

Fairy Tail.

The world where magic and adventure intertwine at every corner; where many are given the gift of bearing a sort of power, yet not everyone uses it to help and save others.

There’s corruption. Murder. Bloodshed caused by those consumed by the desire of gaining more power.

But of course, there are always ones with a good heart.

It was a sunny day today; and a day where everyone at the Fairy Tail guild could relax. Everyone was mostly off doing their own thing. Some drinking, reading quietly, chatting or hanging out with others.

It was supposed to be a chill day today, but definitely wasn’t for Lucy.

“Stop! Please, don’t hurt them!”

Lucy was sent on a mission — having to catch some robbers on a small village. It was pretty simple, so she took her time walking around, enjoying her alone time, or was, until she heard faint cries of distress. Following the sound, she came upon a scene that caught her off guard; it was a group of fairy poachers, trapping innocent fairies in nets, crushing or squeezing them in dirty bags. Lucy felt anger, and knew she had to act fast. Summoning her celestial spirits, she began to attack them, using her quick wit and power.

After sending them all flying off, Lucy quickly freed all the fairies, who hid or flew off as well, except for one. Stuck between a net, Lucy picked up the fairy out of the strings. The fairy, with sparkly wings and tear-filled eyes, looked up at Lucy, admiration, yet a hint of sadness mixing in her expression. “Thank you so much for saving me and my friends..” Slightly trembling, she continued. “I thought I was going to be their next experiment..”

Lucy smiled a little, lifting her finger to pat the fairy’s head. “It’s okay now, I’m here to protect you.” She said, hoping to provide her some comfort. However, as they both turned around, Lucy realized the amount of damage that was done. The poachers had destroyed the fairy’s home in the chaos, leaving her with no place to return to. “Where will I go to now?” the fairy whispered in worry.

Though dwelling in sadness, the fairy was admired by Lucy’s quickness to get involved and save her. “Thank you for saving me,” she said, voice slightly shaky. In a moment of thankfulness, she leaned in and gave Lucy a gentle kiss on the nose.

To their surprise, Lucy’s nose began to grow—two feet long, just like Pinocchio — Lucy was stunned — poked her nose, felt embarrassed and shocked. She did not expect that to happen by one small kiss. “Well, at least no one will see me like this! I hope...” she tried to joke, chuckling awkwardly.

The fairy gasped at the sight of Lucy, wondering how the kiss caused that strange effect. “Oh no..I’m so sorry, I didn’t know that would happen, but I’m sure it will wear off in a day.. I’m so sorry..” She cried out, frantically flying around while apologizing profusely.

Lucy only chuckled, shaking her head slightly. “It’s fine! It isn’t your fault, I know you have good intentions. But I guess I can smell trouble from a mile away now!” she exclaimed, trying to lighten the mood. The fairy, though still blaming herself, ended up smiling a little at Lucy’s attempt to make her feel better about the situation.

As they walked together, the fairy got an idea. “What if your nose becomes my new home in the meantime?” Lucy looked at her with an expression that said ‘That is the most wild idea I’ve ever heard.’ At the same time, she did understand how the little creature must be feeling, – losing the only place you call home is devastating.

“Does that mean you’ll decorate my nose and cut some parts to resemble it as a house?” Lucy teased. The fairy let out a short giggle while nodding, going along with Lucy’s jokes. “Now that you said it, maybe I should.” The celestial wizard feigned a look of horror before the two burst into laughter. Lucy promised to help her find a new home, and to find her whenever she needed help in the future.

The rest of the day was spent with them both picking up flowers, grass and small sticks. Using her magic, the fairy transformed the objects into a cloud seat, a small bed, table and chairs, filled with laughter along the way. Despite Lucy’s strange nose, she wasn’t too worried about it – at least it wasn’t permanent. Although it did feel really weird, she never would’ve expected to feel her nose heavy. Is this how Pinocchio felt? The blonde wondered. “I’ll definitely never forget this day.” she chuckled.

As the sun began to set, Lucy decided to lay down on the grass, humming contently as the cool breeze brushed against her skin. This experience was definitely strange but ending up being a lot of fun in the end.

It was quiet for a while, before she spoke up. “Like I said, whenever you need help, come find me at fairy tail. I’m Lucy Heartfilia, and I promise to always protect you.” Turning her head slightly, Lucy raised her hand, holding her pinky finger out. The fairy smiled, giving a nod. “I’m Y/N, and I promise you will always have the protection of the fairies from now on.”

They linked pinkies, under the starry night sky.

[enchantedsword]

okay im going to try and do as many headcanons/ideas i have for this au(now named stone twin au because i cant think of anything else and im bad with being original obviously) most of these are about wukong since hes the one i think about constantly but i guess i have to start somewhere(also i have a few of my headcanons in here that dont just pertain to this au plus a few things from jttw but i didnt feel the need to have them on a separate post), this is mostly just about sunny's(wukong) relationships with others, not everyone but the ones i can think of for now. i also finally figured out how to do read more.

obviously wukong(sunny) would be the more monkey like of the two, hes about a few inches shorter then mk, he's very clingy, loved to cling to pigsys back growing up and still occasionally does especially when not feeling well, also clings to tang and mk and occasionally mei, when the twins were first found he couldnt speak human(he understood it just fine the same way any other toddler would) and while mk couldnt speak monkey he could understand it and played translator until they taught him how to speak human, he still slips into monkey speach when hes really sick or upset/distressed, he prefers it when others play with/style his hair for him(the whole monkey socialization), loves climbing and being in high places and has very high energy when his health isnt acting up, this has caused a few heart attacks

loves both his dads but is closer to tang(we know why even if he himself cant remember) loves to spend time with him learning new things, always begs for stories of tripitaka and what he can of macaque. tang is the one that taught the twins the basics of what was needed for school, and actually does a lot of sunnys lessons himself when hes to sick to go to school, i dont really have a set job in mind for tang yet but i was thinking a historian of some sort that can work from home especially since he has a sick child. its also because of tang that sunny as such a love of reading and learning

with pigsy he's still pretty close, mk being the one closest to him, but hes still loves spending time with him. sunnys not very good at cooking, but he loves clinging to pigsys back and watching while he cooks(as said above its something he never grew out of), pigsy has made sure that sunny can make the foods he actually can eat though. sunny also shares pigsys love of singing and they will have mini concerts when no ones watching.

mk and sunny are very close and slightly co dependent, mk has a lot of anxiety about leaving sunny alone for long periods, sunny has a lot of guilt about this and self blame for mk not having many friends outside of mei and himself, and while hes just as codependent as mk he does make an effort to encourage mk to go out without him. it used to be worse when they were younger, but they both started going to therapy around 10 at sandys suggestion, they still struggle with it but they do have lives and hobbies outside of each other. obviously since sunny doesnt have his memories he cant exactly teach mk how to use the staff and powers, his advice is more of the sibling "well remember when you tried *random thing thats similar to current situation* when we were kids just try that" sunny is the one that eventually pushes mk to try and find an actual teacher at least to teach him to fight properly.

both twins are very talented artists(a canon fact that i just cant get rid of), like i said sunny loves singing and acting/performing but he does have stage fright bad enough to prevent him from doing so outside of his small group of friends/family(this stems from the trauma that always seemed to happen in front of large crowds in jttw poor baby getting affected by everything even if he cant remember). sunny is also the one that gets the better grades of the two despite missing way more school. due to not being able to run off his energy a lot he channels it into his studies and art and writing, he wants to eventually become a professional artist.

mei is obviously just as close to sunny as she is to mk, both of them are chaos and adrenaline junkies, shes his partner in crime when it comes to pranks, she makes sure that he's not alone even on days he doesnt feel well enough to get out bed or hes in the hospital. they both love cute things, and if mei gets a dress she doesnt want she gives them to sunny, especially if its pink(he has a lot of them). she keeps sunny up to date on all the shenanigans that happen while hes in the hospital, including the stuff mk wont say in fear of worrying him.

sandy is the one sunny goes to when he's feeling suffocated and overwhelmed by his familys hovering and overprotectiveness, he finds him to be a very comforting presence and hes a good listener for whatevers bothering him. sunny also likes to help train the therapy cats.

sunny does have a mean streak, especially when its something negative being said about his friends/family, uses his pranks to get back at whoever wronged him, since he's to weak for a physical fight(hes tried once it didnt end badly only because the other person was to shocked to really retaliate sunny did end up breaking the kids nose and his own wrist). the pranks themselves are never cruel or outright harmful just enough to make the person think twice about doing it again

PIF actually manages to figure out who sunny is pretty early on having seen the small family out and about one day, she does assume wukong has reincarnated into a new life, and as much as shes upset with him over what happened with DBK thats still her husbands little brother and one of the ones that help her son, so she leaves them be, looking in from time to time

for DBK he's still got some lingering resentment for being trapped for 500 years. his first thought on seeing sunny is that wukong is just faking and toying with him, his wife does inform him that that is not the case. after that he cant figure out if he's happy about this of not. on one hand he gets to see sunny be the happy carefree person that wukong used to be though he's upset that it'sat the cost of his health, but on the other hand he's lost his little brother and never got to make up. sunny does feel oddly drawn to DBK though hes not sure why but he deems him as immediately safe(much to the concern of everyone else)

red son was obviously very young the last time he saw wukong, so he has no idea who sunny really is, after the initial being enemies thing and getting a few good pranks in on him, they actually get a long well, both being sassy and sarcastic enough to keep up with each other(everyone else is happy that sunny has a new friend even if that friend is kinda of an asshole). red son grew up to hearing stories about wukong both good and bad so he does have some complicated feelings about him, that does carry over to sunny once hes told hes wukongs reincarnation and further complicated when it finally comes to light that he is actually a sealed wukong, in the end red son decides tgat sunny is sunny and still his friend even knowing who he actually his.

the whole macaque situation goes mostly as canon except macaque thinks sunny is just playing around and pretending not to know anything. mk meets macaque the day before sunny is released from the hospital, he follows mk to the hospital to pick him up which is the first time he sees sunny. the fight goes mostly the same but not, in the fact wukong isnt there to fight him and protect mk, but sunny is basically used as a hostage and accused of playing pretend, its sunny being in danger that helps mk get the powers macaque took back. sunny doesnt really know how to feel about the situation at all, hes had a crush on macaque since he was a kid and that same person tried to kill both him and his brother and claims hes someone that hes not. continues to antagonize his his friends and claim he's wukong, and a large part of him still does have feelings for macaque even after all that. hes got a lot of complicated feelsing about it but he is still incredibly pissed that macaque tried to kill his brother and tried to use him to do so. macaque is in for a world of hurt when it comes to the eventual pranks. macaque for a while refuses to believe that sunny isnt pretending, since the alternative is accepting the wukong reincarnated and isnt coming back. overall its very complicated and the family disapproves.

as for sunnys powers and memories and immortalies, they are all under different types of seals and of those there are many keeping them all wrapped up tight. like he could unlock one or two powers but his immortalies and memories seals would be uneffected and vice versa. he does unlock 2 powers during the whole spider queen thing that being his strength and his cloud, however he can't use them for very long without exhausting himself. DBK was the first to notice that sunny had powers during their imprisonment with spider queen, he was able to trigger sunny into activating them which got them free. though DBK did get punched for his efforts, sunny broke his wrist again and immediately passed out, DBK getting them the rest of the way out and bringing sunny to his family

[marloree]

hii could u do more hyuka pieces where theyre bffs and the reader isnt aware of his feelings/ cute confession stuff? hehe i love reading those slight angst + fluff pices :33 ty tyy

𝙸 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚠𝚎’𝚛𝚎 𝚏𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚜, 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚍𝚘 𝚢𝚘𝚞 ‘𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎’ 𝚖𝚎 𝚝𝚘𝚘?

Pairing: bff! Huening Kai × Reader

Genre: fluff, romance, friends to lovers, slight angst if you squint, attempt at comedy/crack (?)

Word count: 0.94 k

A/N: thank you so so much for being my first request, whoever you are dear nonnie!! May your life be filled with love and happiness and may all your dreams come true ahh (sorry if I come off as a bit too excited hehe), and feel free to request more in the future if you want to! I hope this matches your expectations <33

Taglist: @babymochibeargyu (feel free to leave an ask/DM me to be added!)

You have been friends with Hyuka since elementary school. Maturing was difficult for both of you, but, despite being in numerous different friend groups and developing opposite interests, you stayed by each other's side through all these years.

Year by year, your bond grew only stronger. Both of you have gone through many hardships during the time, but it only drew you closer. You deemed each other as your comfort person. It really was true: you could vent and tell all your worries to Kai, just as he could do the same.

But, most importantly, you shared your happy moments, too. It was safe to say you two made what people call true friendship.

Or, so you thought it was only a friendship. Hyuka, unbeknownst to you, developed feelings far stronger and more intimate to be considered as just a friend's. A little crush he had on you in elementary now turned into something much bigger.

In Kai's eyes you were a perfect friend, a perfect person, everything he could ever dream of. But, would you feel the same way? The thought always was in the back of Huening's brain. And he, as any lover, wasn't so sure about this. The poor boy definitely didn't want to lose your friendship, but he couldn't completely shut down and bottle up his feelings, either. Especially since you didn't have a partner and, maybe, just maybe, you would feel the same way? Hyuka, despite his attempts to be realistic, always held that tiny hope.

What could be a better way to test the waters than try and gift you something? Of course, as your dear best friend, he would frequently make you presents for special occasions, but he hoped that a little extra gift here and there wouldn't hurt.

A pack of your favourite candies, a new set of pens since he always knew you lose yours, your favourite snack when you would feel down - such little gifts soon turned into another part of your friendship. You weren't completely oblivious to it, but Hyuka always was such a gentle and caring friend, there obviously were no other motives except his sweet and kind nature, or so you thought.

At first, Kai was even glad that you didn't catch on the reason for his gifts. But, as time went by, he couldn't help but wonder, were you really so clueless or was it your way of telling him you're not interested?

Well, you definitely were a little oblivious, even in Hyuka's opinion. You both were rather air-headed, so he couldn't blame you for the trait he himself possessed.

If not for you absent-mindedness, would you get to experience the fun of running as fast as you could to not get late to class since someone forgot to turn on their alarm or mixed the time, or doing the homework 5 minutes before the start of the class because someone was too busy dreaming in class to listen to the teacher?

You definitely would miss many hilarious and ridiculous moments if you both, or at least one out of you, were, or was, a bit more collected. In the end of the day, this is also something that drew you closer.

Hyuka now was in a quite difficult situation, not knowing whether he should cry or laugh at your obliviousness.

As the optimist he was, Huening tried his best to not lose hope and to do something useful instead. Since you were so clueless to gifts, Hyuka, gathering all his courage, decided to actually tell you about his feelings.

The next day, Kai dressed up and prepared some flowers specially for you. You both agreed to meet up at your usual spot. As Hyuka was wiping his sweaty hands with a handkerchief for the millionth time since his arrival, he finally saw you approaching.

Walking closer, you noticed the flowers, but the thought that these were for you never even crossed your mind. What a truly clueless creature you were...

Once you got close enough, Kai got up from the bench, stuffing the wet handkerchief in one of the pockets.

"Hi, Y/N...", his usually cheerful voice now sounded a bit quieter, carrying a certain amount of nervousness.

"Hii, Kai!!", you greeted back, happy to see him. But then something finally clicked in your head, making you realize the presence of the flowers and nervousness that was hanging in the air.

Your smile dropped, a hint of worry visible on your face. "Hey, Hyuka, did something happen? Did you have a bad date? Why do you look so out of the ordinary??"

Your sudden outburst of questions made the poor guy raise an eyebrow. "Sorry, what?" Kai looked so confused.

"Well, you've got these flowers and you look a bit upset, I thought maybe you had a date with someone (why wouldn't you tell me, though?) that didn't end well..."

"What!? Oh my, how could you even think of that," your explanation made Hyuka burst into uncontrollable laughter. "I wanted to confess to you, you silly clueless thing."

"What??" Now it was your turn to ask the question, your lips immediately parting in surprise. "Oh, as in..."

"As in I love you, silly."

It took you a good minute to process this new information; after realizing your mistake, you couldn't help but let out a giggle as well. "I actually love you, too. But how have I never noticed you feel the same way..."

"How have you noticed anything at all, that is the question", Kai chuckled, finally gifting you the flowers you initially thought were from a failed date.

[pokemon-ash-aus]

I'm more curious on what reverse betrayal AU is, i couldn't really find anything in the tags sorry

Damn i SWEAR i wrote it down already. I guess Tumblr's tags are extra extra broken.

OKAY 👏

So everyone knows the canonical fanfiction trope of Betrayal AU's yes? Where the Main character of any fandom (in this case Ash) gets abandoned and spit on by their friends and partners except for the brief few that usually end up being the love interest?

In this case it's

Ash's friends leave him, ash's pokemon leave him except for the strong ones (pikachu is usually leaving him behind but i call bull so whatevs), Ash gets new pokemon, stronger and so much better (also legendaries, whoda thunk), he gets a love interest or a harem (cause why not) and then gets WICKED OP to the point its a bit unbelievable. Theb the betrayers come back and Ash wipes the floor with them while mocking them the whole time.

Its a well known trope, one that i used to adore myself, but i found it lacking after a hot min. The characters were always OOC, and the progression of events started to lean on terrible for me. No hate to the trope, i wrote one nyself once upon a time (unfinished), but it's nit in my wheelhouse anymore.

And so i made the Reverse Betrayal AU, mostly as a kick but really it started on the same premise but executed differently.

Ash's friends gather round, in this case, it had only gone up to alola so im sticking by that. My reasoning was that the little field trip down in Kanto was an excellent opportunity to get the rest of Ash's friends down there as a surprise!

Now, i want to point out the crucial information that Ash acts differently with each friend group. Not intentionally being deceitful, but more of, trying to fit into the type of person they need. For Misty that was a Brat, for May that was a Mentor, for Dawn a Sibling, for Iris an idiot, for Serena a hero. Etc etc.

Alola was the place where Ash *couldnt* do that so he finds himself in a mix of Mentor/friend/sibling role.

But when they all are there, Ash has a hard time trying to figure out what he should be and what he should stray into. And that leans into him being a Brat because Misty is a VERY loud personality in a way no one else was.

And boy do they grate on each other's nerves.

Misty is teasing him playfully, but Ash is biting back HARD. Not because he wants too, but the stress of the situation makes it hard for him to fight back just as playful. Especially with Iris there since her words used to cut before, but now he's painting Misty with the same brush but twice as deep.

And Misty doesnt appreciate this right, so this playfight on her end turns into actual fighting, words of anger and resentment speaking out on both sides.

"I WISH I NEVER MET YOU." Get's thrown out and the entire field goes quiet.

"Ditto." Ash growls.

And they turn away from each other.

And Brock is already trying to placate, he's seen this before a million times but then...

Everyone else jumps in.

Accusations are thrown, some side with Misty some side with Ash. None of these people are friends with each other, they all are connected through Ash.

And so Brock cuts them all off, cause the two were BOTH being uncalled for. And when he turns to Ash to ask what he was thinking.

The kid is outright gone.

No words no nothing and that leaves a deep deep dread in Brock's stomach.

"Oh he left, just like a little kid." Iris sighs, shaking her head as the others glare at her.

"No," Brock's voice trembles and that stops everyone else from really saying anything. "Ash can be rude and angry and wrong all he wants but he doesnt ever leave a conversation mod way- hell he doesnt even run away from a confrontation- this- this isnt right."

And while they look for him it starts ti become more and more clear that... None of these people are /friends/. They know Ash and Ash only.

And that starts *arguments*, screams of whose right and whose wrong and why Ash doesnt need to have a friend like *you.*

Its the take of, instead of Ashbeing abandoned by his friends. Its instead Ash 'abandoning' his friends instead. But its not really true, cause Ash wabts to be with his friends he's just...

Very mad right now.

Whoo i went on a tangent. I have more- somewhere- so ill need to look for it.

[roughentumble]

y'know not to be controversial but brave or a hypocrite because usually I been be put off by certain age differences in fiction but like. I don't think I've ever seen a good well handled 'age gap' romance novel and it would probably go hard

Like someone in their mid to late twenties who had to grow up faster than their peers because of life circumstances or whatever, who just hasn't had any luck with dating anyone their age because they inevitably want different things, maybe they're ready to settle down but their exes just aren't

Enter someone a little older, more mature, maybe someone who's already been married before but it didn't work out and the two of them just end up clicking

Idk could be interesting, especially if it's not the big obstacle to overcome just an extra facet of their relationship!

This is definitely not me thinking about Hugh Jackman

i think age gaps are, like anything else, just another "tool" in an author's toolbox that can either be handled well or handled poorly, that adds a complicating factor to a character's situation in a way that can be totally compelling, add depth to who they are as a character, and add stakes adn drama to the story at large! i dont see any reason why an age gap should be something that CANT be done well

and hell, it can bring with it an air of social taboo without anyone doing anything Wrong. maybe her friends judge her for her choice, think she's odd or getting taken advantage of or just dont sympathize with her, when all that's happening is she managed to click with someone a little more mature. and his friends maybe call him a cradle robber even though she's not That young, his ex-wife gives him a Look when he "rebounds" with a "new young woman" even though it isnt like that, its genuine and soft and caring

not to mention how everyone reaches different stages of life at different times, and the increasing stratification of society where age gaps of 10 years for friendships is seen as "weird" and "what could you possibly talk about" and even "predatory", when for example growing up my mom played with everyone from toddler to teenager because that was the group of children around her and there was no reason to arbitrarily keep children from hanging out.

as long as the characters genuinely click, i think its a really sweet premise for a romance! two people growing to understand each other and connect despite what others would perceive as "insurmountable differences", because it turns out those differences are what make them so compatible! because theyre both looking for the same thing from life! you could have something like; they could both be homebodies who enjoy going on hikes on the weekend, they like the quiet and the nature and getting out and exploring something new but in a very serene way, and they end up kind of isolated from friends because of it. because during the week theyre just relaxing, and on the weekends they want this quiet meditative spaces, and her friends all want to go out, so she misses these chances to connect with others. but he likes what she likes! he wants soft evengings in, and going to state parks, and its just so easy around him!

you know? it doesnt have to be hiking and staying in, but something where it stops her from connecting with her social group, but does seem more a mature guy's speed, and allows them to connect to each other.

basically as long as they want the same things, i think it could be cute and youre right.

[bittertarot]

honestly i agree about going for money in life cause rich ppl get to do so much but us average folk are like too average to have a lavish lifestyle as theirs. heck id even do music if i had any talent not just for money but the things these groups get to do nowadays versus what life was like before social media came about is a huge difference. sometimes its just a matter of being either too old or not young enough to do something like that nowadays as most music groups seem to sadly be getting younger and younger, i also feel like for those who have actual talent honestly id just go for it but theres always smth like age or different circumatances or perhaps not getting the right opportunities either or being somewhat limited in options. i do think life gets to a point where theres fewer options the older you are as its best to learn from a young age in order to succeed and gain that money. idk these are just my opinions you can disagree if you want.

so many folk fretting about fs and whatnot when they really never tried being single like theres not much responsibility besides whoever else is in your life and again honestly i do not think it matters if we do or dont date an fs. i think people were fretting about jungkooks fs so much lately bc they didnt want to be single or wanted jk for themselves and even if idols do date it would never make their fans happy for their idols which is sad

the fact its even called a dating scandal in korea shows how narrow minded it still is like what do people expect idols to be doing? dating rocks? no one? but i also think there would be some uproar regardless bc of who they are or their title as idols. like they can date a normal non idol but their fans still going to be upset that it isnt themselves. ahh well they cant win :( hence why in a way im glad im not an idols fs lol thered still be many cons or in general consequences. i do think idols are a bit more open minded in terms of other cultures and what they might want in their fs but their fans should accept its just never going to be them

sorry for my rambling and sorry for your loss too hope u feel better soon <3 ^^

Hello! So, I don't remember when I said "going for rich people is a good plan" or whatever but I mean there's points to both sides. To accumulate that wealth you need to be willing to put the hard work in, even if you marry into it. If you're a child of a wealthy family, you need to put in the work to maintain that wealth and legacy. It's a chain of hard work - I personally think you can do anything whether you're old, young, etc. It's just a matter of your mindset and how much work you're willing to put in! These days, it's mainly more about the connections you have and the hard work you put in. Social media can make you famous/popular, but it cannot single-handedly generate millions unless your life goal is to be an influencer doing TikTok dances 5 times a day for a living. I think learning certain skills (e.g. budgeting) are important and can help you establish that wealth earlier on, but you can always teach yourself. I have no prior experience owning a business, but the skills I learned throughout daily tasks over the course of my life have helped me to reach a point where an idea is starting to blossom into an actual product. And I agree, being single gives you more time to work on yourself to allow people to enter your life without the situation feeling forced. You get to become more comfortable with yourself, you make life-long connections/friendships, you develop hobbies, stories to tell your future friends, etc. It's a time to establish yourself and experience personal growth when you're single, not stress over finding a new relationship!! I think each relationship, friendship, etc brings a life lesson alongside it - so it doesn't matter whether that person is the person you intend to marry or not. Just enjoy the present without panicking about the future, that's the best advice I can think to tell everyone as well as my past self <33 It is quite sad, a lot of idols seem lonely. Jackson Wang is a prime example of this, he's expressed this loneliness a lot. Idols have the right to be happy without their "fans" criticising them for wanting a future where they have a family or just aren't dancing on stage anymore. That is quite narrow-minded, I think it'd be better if netizens and delusional international fans took a break from Kpop content for a month and got some hobbies, worked on themselves and enjoyed life for a bit. To an extent, I do pity some idols FS that I read for. They seem very closed off/introverted and would not do well if the relationship were to get leaked to the media, especially if their information is also leaked and they are a non-idol. I just hope they will be alright and fans will be more accepting sooner or later ! Idols ideal types may not always be the kind of people they'll marry - but they do definitely know what they like in a person. Fans do need to accept that the most likely case is that it is not them! However, the industry thrives off of parasocial relationships. It's fine, no worries! This discussion has certainly been interesting, feel free to respond to this via another ask if you would like to. And thank you so much :] <3

[drdemonprince]

Yes, that explanation completely makes sense! And I’m quite comfortable with disappointing people. I know for sure that I do it all of the time. I’m no stranger to rejection, either. I’m just in a really effing weird situation where someone isn’t properly rejecting me (I am deeply familiar what rejection feels like, and this ain’t it) so I have to adapt and just like, disappoint in new, similarly uncomfortable ways.

To be honest, it’s such a strange situation that I’ve grown to enjoy the challenge of adjusting to it. I’d much rather it make sense to me, and I hope that eventually it will, but I have no control over that right now, and that’s fine. The lack of control used to be quite painful and emotionally damaging, but now it’s often quite amusing. Sometimes stuff just doesn’t make sense, y’know? Especially when people are hiding the sense from you, and they don’t owe you any explanations.

It’s like “I’ve grown accustomed to your face” and the face is just someone being disappointed 🙃 I know people cut other people out of their lives for that sort of thing, but I care about this person more than I care about their apparent disappointment, so instead of “I hate myself for loving you,” it’s “I love myself for loving you.” Does that make sense to you?

Sorry for harping on about this, like I said, it’s just a very strange situation so I appreciate opportunities to at least explain myself, since I can’t explain the other person.

Hi, thanks for writing again! I mean it sounds like you are coping very well with being interested in someone who sucks? Or isnt treating you right? that youre not harping too much on a situation thats pretty unfulfilling to you, which is great, but maybe you would be better off leaving it

Theres this stage in codependency recovery where the codependent is supposed to ask themselves "if [partner] never changes, what would i do? regardless of what this other person does, what do i need in my life to make that life worth living?" and then they go and do that.

maybe they break up w the person they were codependent to. maybe they dont. doesnt matter. the point is that they have stopped making the other person the center of their world, and theyre going out living their own life rather than making decisions based on how it would impact the other person or the relationship. pretty much the opposite of memory foaming.

i got to this place in my last serious relationship years before the relationship ended. i realized he was never gonna make more time for me, was never going to contribute to finances, was never gonna contribute to household tasks, was never gonna want quality time, was never going to want to go out with me to do any of the things i enjoyed, and was never gonna get good at messaging me back. i said to myself okay, if thats all true, and he is never going to change or ever give me what i want no matter how i act and no matter what i do for him, what do i want out of life then?

and i started going to conventions. and conferences. and mister international leather. and concerts. and book readings. i made new friends at support groups and book clubs and gaming groups. i invited people to the museum or to concerts in the park. i tried new hobbies. i made a full life all around myself instead of waiting for him to change and give anything satisfying to me. and so, by the end of it, when i dumped him i lost almost nothing except for a fantasy.

I dont know your situation but it sounds to me like you want to be okay with doing more for someone than they bring you in the relationship. And i think that kinda arrangement always has an end date. but i only hope that you arent like i was and dont stick around past that end date for years.

[scourgefrontiers]

oc spotlight: patoto (villainverse)

oh man ok. villainverse patoto. probably one of my favorite ocs ive ever made tbh

he started out as a joke almost, a sort of "what if?" au sorta deal. what if patoto was a villainous saiyan? it sounded like such a fun concept i just had to explore it. and then i came up with this design

which was just SO cool to me i couldnt stop thinking about it. and then before i knew it he became his own character--a patoto from a parallel universe where he was a ruthless warrior, totally opposite from his mainverse counterpart

he developed so fast from there. i gave him a companion that ended up being kinpa, and he developed into kinpa's bodyguard. i gave him a rival that ended up being calabris. i gave him a complicated relationship with his parents, one of which he thought was dead for most of his life (his armor is actually based off of hers to remember her by). his universe grew and his story basically wrote itself i was so obsessed with him and still am

here's his current ref showing how much he's grown

even today im still giving him more development and story! as of right now in the timeline (post-mirrors and post-facets), he has a child with his partner kinpa and his family has grown from just him to a group of six including himself! he's learned to have friends and open his heart to others, and he's gotten so strong im so proud of him.

mirrors would have never existed had i not ran with his concept like i did. his character and story contrasting with mainverse patoto's is just so fun and awesome to me and i've always had fun with it and i feel like i'll continue to have fun with it as well!!

i could honestly keep going about some specific details abt him like his relationship with kinpa and zumeg (both of them) and his father and his kid and. yknow what i will LOL

his relationship with kinpa started as just a bodyguard situation but OF COURSE that developed into an actual partnership bc i love that shit. he was this cold and frankly mean guy that wanted nothing to do with kinpa or being his bodyguard--he hated it. but after getting trapped on earth in a parallel universe, he learned to open up to the idea of having at least one friend and letting himself care about someone for the first time since he was a child.

as for his parents...thats complicated lol. (facets spoilers ahead !!!) his mother zumeg was presumed dead when she didnt return from a battle when he was just a boy, and his father left some time before that, so he was basically raised in an orphanage into adulthood (or at least until he could join the army). he met the mainverse zumeg and that shook him to his core bc she was not only so different but she still cared about him and reminded him what it was like to be loved by his own mother. it wasnt until way later, many many years later, that he decided he wanted to find his father and find out why he left them. after getting that clarification, he chose to give his father a second chance at being part of his life--more for himself than his father, really--and then not long after that he discovered his mother was actually alive, just under someone's control. he saved her, and suddenly he had a family again.

i havent quite developed his story with his kid just yet, but so far what i figure is that he isnt experienced with children at all so he does have a hard time balancing the tough parenting act and the gentle, kind parenting. snake (his son) does feel a pressure to be as great as his father, since he's heard the stories of how he saved the universe before and how he continues to fight and reach new heights. patoto is a little awkward at handling this and has a hard time showing that he's proud of his son and that sort of causes a little tension between them but it eventually works out

basically i love villainverse patoto. a lot. i would die for him actually

[noxiatoxia]

hi i wrote this like bulletpoints bc im not making this an essay. tldr youre kinda right but kinda wrong and this isnt new but kaorus issues DO get resolved we just dont really see him say "hey!! my issues are resolved :)) ". he lives through the things he was anxious about and survives so we can see it gets resolved. just in a shitty way.

ep 16/karuizawa arc> kaoru tries to help hikaru and himself to have their own individuality by experiencing different types of relationships and increasing their emotional maturity

ep 21> kaoru describes the cindrella metaphor. the dynamics in the club are the carriage. (haruhi/tamaki as daughter/father noted)

>tamaki is the one leading the carriage, aka the dynamics. hes the "leader" in a sense.

>once tamaki realizes he likes haruhi, they wont be platonic like a father/daughter anymore aka->

>the dynamic is gonna change

>hikaru also likes haruhi

>in this situation, hikaru might care a lot about haruhi and might not take this well especially after "replacing kaoru" (i assumed this is how kaoru feels bc hes later relieved when hikarus w haruhi and he still seeks out kaoru to make sure he's ok)

>this complete dynamic change is going to seperate the host club

>but hikaru seeks him out first after haruhi and hikaru are trapped

>he is sure that the dynamic issues and a group break will happen when the dynamic between haruhi and tamaki change and time passes by (whichever comes first) but so long as he's hikarus first choice he's fine with it

>kaoru assumes tamaki creates a family scenario so everything can be platonic as long as possible, but is shocked to see that tamaki wasnt willingly doing this he was just fucking stupid

>this creates a crack in kaorus way of thinking, his ~deep~ theory is just a conspiracy (that he made up due to anxiety but he doesnt realise it yet)

>hani say "kao and kyo are as oblivious as tamaki" implying that they trust the host club to stay together in face of struggle

ep 25

>the host club is facing the struggles kaoru was scared of and in a sudden, unprepared way. tamaki is leaving (might leave and then leaves), kyoya's family suddenly seems disappointed aka he might pull away from the club entirely, in the end theres a lot of changes in the club. they lose hani and mori first in the battle (graduated), then kyoya isnt coming (pulling out for future plans/family pressure), they are running after tamaki as a trio when hikaru gets hurt.

>in the pumpkin patch when doubt is highest and they are thinking about how this is surely the end, we see haruhis flashback to her dad about not hesitating when the time is right. even though she doesnt have the need to continue, she still does because she /wants/ to. AND she succeeds. this would show kaoru that there is no "spell" or some uncontrollable event that would lead to the end of their friendship, and that he can keep it alive just by working on it

>the fact that the show ended the way it did (with tamaharu happening TO keep the dynamics alive + all members working their hardest just to keep it all going) wouldve been enough to curb kaorus worries because it was physical proof that even when the things that he feared happened the group didnt fall apart and even got stronger

>so he lives through his fears becoming true and it gets resolved symbolically. obv i would want there to be a 40 min episode where kaoru goes to theraphy and resolves his issues including the incest kink but the last few episodes were rushed as fuck

Hi! Never disagree with me about the carriage ever again I'm going to fucking kill you. (<- this is a joke i am joking im not mad at u u are my friend)

I've talked about this before -- about what the last episode symbolizes in terms of the carriage allegory. But it was an old post so many people probably haven't seen it.

To showcase why I disagree we need to first realize what the carriage allegory actually stands for.

In short, the carriage is the anime's way of implementing Kaoru's depression arc from the manga. If you're unaware of that, the tl;dr is very similar to episode 21 just without Cinderella metaphors. Scared Hikaru will leave him, scared he'll lose his friends, etc. Except in the manga, Hikaru and Kaoru actually talk about this, culminating in Hikaru dyeing his hair but reassuring Kaoru they'll always be together.

In my mind, the carriage is obviously a stand-in for this. But... It's also trying to serve to be a plot device to set up the end of the show.

My guess is the creators probably thought Ouran would get a 2nd season but it didn't get greenlit, so they had to wrap things up very suddenly, which is why the ending feels as rushed as it does. This is just a theory though.

The carriage, as it is presented in episode 21, clearly is setting up a major plot point: the dissolve of the host club. And since we as an audience are lead to believe Kaoru's word is to be believed, we're also like "oh, shit, is the host club gonna fall apart?"

cuz keep in mind, through this episode and episode 16, the show presents Kaoru in such a way that makes him seem "smart" and "wise" and that his ideas hold some sort of weight to them.

So, to recap, the carriage allegory in the anime is two things: 1, a character-driven arc about Kaoru's fears and 2, a plot device to set up the ending of the show.

This is where the "resolved" thing gets tricky.

The carriage is resolved on a plot-level. By the carriage hikaru, kaoru, and haruhi were one falling into the pumpkin patch, yet still saving tamaki in the end, shows that even though the "spell" ended, they still managed to get their happy ending. The club did not fall apart.

But, keep in mind, Kaoru's side of this equation -- about the fears of growing up, drifting apart, being different from his brother -- are not touched on.

To say it was resolved because of the pumpkin patch thing I think is just...wrong. At best it's incredibly lazy writing.

Tamaki & Kyoya had character-driven arcs, too. Ones that were presented throughout the whole show. And those actually got resolved in the final episodes. Yes, they were still open-ended endings, but they were acknowledged. That's what I'm pissed off about when it comes to the carriage. It doesn't get fucking acknowledged ever again. Not even a little bit. The best we get is symbolism that only, as I said, solves one half of the puzzle at best.

for further reading here's this post and this post.

[blueempty]

Bad news besties, the unbearable headaches I've been having throughout my poisoning situation went away when I drank caffine 😳

Listen. I know this is positive time, and I do not want to take away from positive time I will be positive I promise okay, but this week has been rough and today sucked really bad lol

I ended up going to work for a bit even though I dont feel fully recovered and I really wish I hadn't. Today kinda just turned into this confluence of negativity. I feel very disoriented as a result of sleeping for 4 days and driving makes me feel further from my fellow man than I already do. I genuinely dont understand what goes on in peoples minds. Then the pita place I trusted to not harm me was closed cuz sunday, which I always forget because I'm Vulcan pilled and days dont hold special meaning for me

After that was like, a couple of random things that made me feel really overlooked and unaccomplished which isn't normal for me. I dont typically care too much what people think but I guess I was primed to be upset. The specifics aren't really worth going into but its just like, I see people do something and everyone go wow thats awesome, and then I'm like, bro I have been doing that and no one gives a fuck when I do it. Even within my irl friend groups and back in my family when I still talked to any of my family I always felt this very pronounced sense of no one gives a shit what you're excited about dude. I start talking about something I like and everyone stares at the floor or their phones silently till I stop. But that doesn't happen when other people talk about things. I do not feel kinship with other humans, I feel very different and lost and confused and hungry and also incompatible with society

Its like in TNG when Data gives a time estimate and he only gives like days and hours or something and then stops, and everyone is confused. Riker goes no minutes seconds or milliseconds Mr. Data? And he turns around and goes "I have noticed a certain... annoyance with my level of specificity at times"

And in the same way, over time Ive just learned to talk less. Which isnt entirely bad cuz William Shakesman said brevity is the soul of wit I guess. I've also been noticing that when I'm alone I dont really emote much. Like I need other peoples vibes to mimic. Teacher give me the Autism test I swear I'll pass!!!!!!

ANYWAY negativity aside, I am still improving health wise. I'm spending more time sitting by the back door looking outside rather than being on my phone cuz text has been making me dizzy, and outside is nice right now. And once I got home from work I spent an hour-ish practicing the first world stages of Mario Wonder to get faster and remember 10 coin locations and that game makes me feel happy inside. That game is so perfect they literally thought of everything

Also my current Barony run is a Vampire Conjurer named Dracula Flow and thats going insanely well. Not gonna overexplain but one thing is that Vampires are weak to water and I found boots of water walking very early. I just need to stock up on blood and I'll be movin different

Live Long and Prosper

[fuwe]

i think sometimes cryptos and terfs in general follow me thinking im a crypto as well or that i secretly hold terf beliefs but that is not the case. if youre one of these ppl know that i am not on your side and im a bit slow but youll eventually get blocked if it clicks to me.

i used to be involved with your side of things a couple years ago and im not anymore and i dont feel comfortable being around you. it's a part of my life that completely drained the life of me and affected those around me, prevented me from accepting myself as a transgender person, every day is a new step to unlearn the toxicity and bigotry that being around you brought into my psyche and behaviors . it truly turned me into a horrible person and the damage my behavior caused is still ongoing. but i can confidently state that i dont voluntarily hold any radfem or gc beliefs anymore.

if youre in the process of letting go of terfism and bettering yourself thats a different story... youre welcome to follow me and ask me questions and all that or dm me about it.... most ofmy closest friends have been in that situation in the past, its not an easy task leaving a hate group or hateful mentality . its internal work for a good chunk of your life as well as actively uplifting the voices of those affected (mainly transfems in this case).

we have nothing in common and your presence isnt wanted here. i hope you understand . this is a public website and bigoted ppl arent known for respecting boundaries, but if you do have that ability, id ask for you to stay away ! thank you

[ratgingi]

[weakly crawls in] can . can you spare a bit of Mr Jackson Coxx lore and information. I am obsessed with his repressed dumbass in a "beee who you are for yourrrr prideeee" manner

ofc....... im glad his swagless demeanor has captivated u . jackson momence under cut

1. his name is an incredibly obvious pun . his middle name makes it funnier but if you ask him what it is he'll just tell you its jackson again. the only person who knows what his true middle name is is exie but she also has an embarrassing relationship with her name and is taking it to her grave. if you do not accept his double jackson answer and insist on finding out what it is he will probably cry

2. hes very cring yes but he IS actually decently strong, he can carry things much heavier than him for extended amounts of time and of my ocs the only person who can lift more than him is juniper (and it isnt by much, its like maybe 2 pounds more or smth and she cannot do it consistently like he can but she holds it over his head) with lillith being a close second to him

3. he has a mother who lives out of town that he writes letters to. moved to dialtown for a fresh start in a new place n' all that. michy has personally delivered a few of the letters for him

4. all of his Issues (tm) are very internalized. he hasnt nor will he ever project them onto another person, nd this would actually be a thing thtd be touched on in his route a little

5. hed have two bad ends, one where you fuck him up worse and the shit yourself and die end where you end up getting looney-toons flattened by weights in the gym after a failed bet from juniper

6. hes not very good at sticking up for people (himself or otherwise) and crumbles easy under pressure. he relies a lot on being tall and looking strong in the hopes people leave him be

7. he and jerry are acquainted from a few times where he'd been hired to move heavy equipment in the funfair

8. he has an insanely unhealthy diet but would never admit it, he insists that he is incredibly healthy and fit

9. the only other routes he would appear in are margos (during a scene between the player and juniper) and randys (as someone you could approach and ask if he'd seen randy around, to which hed say he didn't really know the guy but hadn't seen him at the park and would wish you luck finding him)

10. hes got a good bit of practical intelligence. he can adapt to situations pretty well. however do not ask him to do complex brain things if its for something important because he Will answer incorrectly and do so with complete confidence that hes right

11. he cant read roman numerals and thats why his watch has a digital display

12. along with michy and outis, hes one of my more 'social' ocs, which basically just means hes aware of a number of the others rather than just sticking to his set little group. the only people he actively considers friends / acquaintances though are michy, exie, and juniper

13. in chapter 3 when you meet him, he would have a sprite showing that his gym bag has a small pride flag pin on it. he'd mention that while hes not totally past his problem hes been trying to do more active interacting with the community and learning abt/becoming more comfortable with himself. baby steps :-]

[windupaidoneus]

walks back in. and the scions too. what's the dynamic what's going on there. walks out

the scions my friendssss :D except it's a little more complicated than that for hilde. ohhh the can of worms.

minfilia is... someone who ultimately he cared about because thancred cares about her. she wasn't unkind to him but like. he spent his whole life doing what he was told by his parents & various superiors. after just coming out of garlemald minfilia was pretty much just another superior who didn't utterly wreck him if he disobeyed or performed too poorly (but the threat was always looming even if he did not realise he even felt threatened at all until years later. yknow how it is with trauma). she was friendly & all! but uhhh. you think arr hilde would get close to his BOSS? i suppose that goes against his closeness w raya-o & a-ruhn as his whm instructors but like. raya-o never really... treated him like a pupil much. it felt more like she was helping him on equal footing. & a-ruhn has the same age gap w hilde that hilde has with nero that thing's a fucking toddler he's not taking shit from a toddler (a-ruhn's animosity was very teenish which was like. impossible for hilde to find even slightly intimidating). with the scions everyone looked to minfilia & it was also a lot more like... organised? neat & tidy? it wasn't like. yeah go out to that random camp in the forest theres a 21 y/o trying to teach you a spell that honestly isnt that cool. it was more The boss has summoned you come to this Building that we Own talk to the Secretary go get your Assignment & your Assignment could get you & many others killed btw! like. i honestly think being with the scions was nottt healthy for hilde at first he went from actively being dehumanised in garlemald to being essentially treated as a living weapon by a well-meaning Group of People who all had connections to each other & hildegarde was the Outsider, the one in the minority, the New Guy. & it wasn't really minfilia's fault. but she did not help his self-perception. & to this day he doesn't really know how to feel about her. they have a connection due to both having the echo but the more rebellious part of him that's resurfaced thanks to (gestures vaguely at shb/post shb/edw/lachesis) like. it feels like he's pushing up against an authority figure that isn't even there anymore when he thinks of her. thinks of all the ways he could've handled situations better. of how her being the authority figure among the scions is also why she ended up becoming hydaelyn's vessel. & she fully accepted & welcomed it, but also like... it does put her on higher footing, doesn't it?

it took him a while to warm up to urianger due to urianger being the way that he is. not much to warm up to for a while. found him amicable but intimidating as a figure who'd often be standing in the back saying... clever things. the warring triad did make him less subconsciously wary of urianger but initially he really felt like one of the "higher ranking scions", so a Superior, &. see above. urianger showing more of himself through being around unukalhai helped hilde see him as his own person rather than just Some Sort Of Authority, & the "betrayal" with the warriors of darkness is what really got him intrigued. obviously don't get to get to know him much more until shb though. & so after everything in the msq they are close friends as fellow Not Fucking Sharing Shit About Their Inner Turmoil guys! urianger was willing to open up with him which meant a Lot but even without that like... i mean hilde isn't stupid he could tell how much it sucked for him back in post hw too. & in shb too. urianger is not good at concealing his emotions when things come to a head. urianger is also one of the scions least likely to judge or admonish hildegarde for his grief & generally very strong emotions that may conflict with what his reason tells him. that is to say his immense compassion for the ascians & all that. how he wishes he could've done something to give elidibus a kinder death, or another chance at life entirely. how he wishes it could've ended differently with emet. it's probably not something he shares until post elpis but like he does share it! i think uri & him tell each other stuff they don't necessarily tell others except for y'shtola bc good fucking luck trying to hide something from y'shtola. also they clown on thancred together so it really gets to hilde when urianger takes thancred's side literally anytime

speaking of THANCRED... man. theyyyy got infatuated pretty quicklyyyy & his tendency to put everything on himself awakened the I Can Fix Him in hilde in arr. looking at the magical knowledge he already had & the fact he was pretty damn good at magitek shit despite not giving a fuckkk abt it solely bc he asked nero endless questions back in the day he was like. if thancred is going to feel responsible for people being tempered i will simply have to find a way to cure tempering so he stops blaming himself. cue the start of one of the most unhealthy relationships he's ever had with a person that didn't wish him ill 🎉 they NEVER got official bc thancred's always everywhere so good luck getting ahold of him long enough to get anything going but also they just didnt talkkk about feelings like thatttt. they spent some time together in post arr during downtime but well. emotionally unavailable thancred & doesnt know how to people hildegarde 🫶 great going chucklenuts. during post hw while hilde was very relieved to see him back there was some friction over thancred getting protective wrt aymeric asking hilde to do stuff like participate in the tourney thing & all that. it was one of those "i don't mind doing this! the scions aren't any different in asking me to do things for them! ... hey wait a minute the scions aren't any different in asking me to do things for them" moments that gave hilde pause. not nearly enough to get anywhere healthy with his views of himself though, just enough to side with aymeric (another thing that could've pushed them closer together... but alas. the msq. well they did get closer but. yeah) late & post stb was a good amount of hilde beefing with thancred over petty things bc he was on edge but not enough Heavy Shit was happening & anyway why are you always gone?? you're impossible to talk to! it's like you don't want to be around me or something! (thancred passes out) Uh Oh (regret) & then well shb. all that shittttt. they finally got closer LIKE TWO NORMAL PEOPLE but well the end of shb kinda. um. hilde was way too broken for. anything LOL! they had a talk about whatever the fuck situationship they had, decided to Not go forth with anything but to actually like, start relying on each other better. & so they do. but there's also animosity bc of ideological differences & thancred being a hater so they have sort of frequent spats... clears throat. they're not always serious but uh. likely thancred will have things to say when he finds out about emet's return. lol. i'll. work that out later XDDDD

papalymo! 🎉 one of the first scions he's met! also an Authority Figure but also he's small & lyse never everrrrr takes him seriously which put hilde at ease. lyse really did a lot to put hilde at ease intentionally or not in retrospect. best friends forever! like i said! anyway hilde misses papalymo & yes he does. kind of. blame himself for papalymo dying. he's got the blessing of light right? that has to mean his aether is like special right?? surely if he stays papalymo's entire aether won't get obliterated!!! papalymo please!! (cut to shb) oh my god his aether is special. oh no he's the monster he always thought himself to be. oh no- this isn't about that. but it is also similar to his thought process whenever he thinks of papalymo. leads to him thinking about all his failings & all the wrong he's done... yeppp. he appreciated papalymo for well. being reliable. for helping lyse too, retroactively. & he is grateful the two of them introduced him to the scions of course (even if again not good for him at all at first)

lyse... eugghfgu. well ive said it already. & yeah she was one of the people who he got on with fastest. not as fast as alphinaud but . yeah

y'shtolaaaaa. can't hide anything from her & at this point he doesn't even try anymore! matter of fact, in post shb he relied a fair bit on her to stay somewhat sane (he was Deeply Not Sane but ignore that) by checking with her how his aether was doing like. everyday. going up to her like do i look weird? is it still gone? is it really over? so on so forth. he trusts her a lot because of just. how much integrity she's always had. she was intimidating at first but out of all the scions i think he ended up adopting values closest to hers. she was always bold & uncompromising with the things that mattered to her, & that was really impressive & admirable to hilde especially considering how noble her beliefs were to him. she's kind of the platonic ideal of a scion in his mind. her not recognising him in shb after he already had concerns about the light absorption really hurt him even if it wasn't malicious or anything, it was more... a concern that she, too, believed him to be a monster - because if she of all people, the one who'd been arguing in favour of the, eh, "beast tribes" from the start, agreed with him then certainly he was done for. that she couldn't tell him from his aether bc of how bad he was corrupted? mannnn. that sucked. he kind of kept a fear of her thinking ill of him for some time afterwards, but ultimately she IS one of the scions he relies on most. rated top 3 scions he likely tells about his plan to give the ascians a chance at an actual normal life. yeappp. doubtless they do a shit ton of research together that would not be sanctioned by sharlayan or whatever other authorities on Knowledge there may ever be 🫶

g'raha voted also top 3 scions hilde tells about the Ascian Rescue Plan (basically what it is innit...). he has an incredibly unique lived experience & is trustworthy in all the right ways for him to be made aware of it. his reverence for hilde did put him off a lot initially but once he got past the awkwardness of being regarded so highly (& once g'raha became less starstruck) they got to become better friends. admittedly going through a bunch of horrific shit together helped, as miserable as it was, but yeah. i'm getting eyes seepy so im probably gonna type shorter now but like. yeah! that's his friend. they talk about concerning things together. they'd die for other people together. raha is also one of the least likely to judge him if he ever did admit to like... genuinely wanting to head to the tempest on his own & let himself transform. one thing about raha is that he's a FREAK! he's got an interesting moral code & we are so lucky he uses his scheming mind for good rather than evil

ESTINIEN MY MAN!!!!!! very good friends with hilde. the era of heavensward conflict is long gone! they are just hanging out. i think they travel together more than the game shows, even if they don't necessarily stick around each other. they just both travel a bunch so on occasion they make the trip together. estinien is so incredibly chill & non judgemental bc he's super straightforward & doesn't really bother with like... the nerd shit the other scions give a shit about. & it's a presence hilde really needs sometimes! so there's stuff that probably no one else has heard about that estinien knows about hilde because he just Does Not Gaf Like That. very nice safety net to have emotionally. hilde's headmates also really like him & while hilde is usually fronting if the convo even slightly appeals to another headmate they get dragged into front instantly. & well it doesn't really weird estinien out. have i mentioned estinien is a system to me. anyway yeah they're. yeah!! pals! hanging out!!! trust in each other! woo!

krileeeeeeeee ohhhh krile. hilde cares a lot about krile. surely he would've had a similar relationship with minfilia if she hadn't been. y'know. the antecedent. there's kinship there bc of the echo even if it manifests differently. they don't really share a lot with each other generally but they don't, need to? krile doesn't have the same amount of baggage as everyone else & seems to be coping pretty well with shit all things considered. they do hang out every so often to get food or just go sightseeing though. dragging krile from her office job of restoring the students of baldesion to go hiking in coerthas

tataru, alphinaud & alisaie are undeniably the most important scions to hilde. how could they not be!!

tataru is always there for him. she doesn't know all that happens, he certainly does not tell her jack nor shit, but she's always doing the most to help her fellow scions & was also one of the most welcoming members when he first joined. & with the whole heavensward shit... yeah. going somewhere without tataru to cheer him on from the sides feels wrong. maybe that's why shb went so badly. joking but. yeah lmao. there's shared experiences they have (with alphinaud too) that formed a really unique & important bond to him, & he will always take time out of his schedule to check up on her if he can. she's been there for him from the start & he will always return it to the best of his ability.

from the very beginning alphinaud & alisaie were set apart from the rest of the scions. they came to eorzea on the same carriage as he (& also they're 16 so def not intimidating or authority in any way lmao), & therefore while he felt like an outsider with the scions it was always different with them. alphinaud was certainly vainglorious but he was also a young, naive teen with big dreams, & when everyone was captured it was just him & alphinaud for a time. & then again in heavensward. life wanted for them to spend a lot of time relying on each other, which forged a strong bond. hildegarde would not hesitate even a second to lay down his life for alphinaud, & the same goes for tataru & alisaie - though he only got to bond with alisaie properly later he was always concerned for her when she wasn't around. she was a 16 y/o going around doing dangerous stuff on her own! when thancred brought her back unconscious it became an automatic "yeah sure i'll fucking die for her too who gives a shit not me that's for sure". getting to spend more time with her in stb & post stb cemented their friendship & the kind of... mentor, sort of parental vibe hilde has for the twins? & then shb obviously. he ran to find alisaie first. how could he not, with how distressed she'd been at their parting? yeah. yeahhh. hilde loves the twins. they're like his kids. they're not gonna like the stepfather (joking. we know they don't hate emet)

so um. yeah! quick shoutout to the others like riol coultenet hoary boulder & ofc our departed legends moenbryda & ysayle. they COUNT!! TO ME!!!!! & I LOVE THEM & hilde misses them. hilde thinks riol is like cooler thancred, jokingly

also another shoutout to ryne she's another daughter to hilde & she ALSO COUNTS. would've stolen him from thancred if he hadn't been the father who stepped up 10/10

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11, 12, and 14 for the OC asks!

-11. Is there a specific physical feature or item that holds special significance to your character? Why is it important to them?

For my twili group: they have a special tree! its a secluded spot where the 4 of them hang out a lot. its in the middle of a field, out of the way of major roads and towns. they found it one day while just wandering around, and decided that it was Their Tree. if one of them isnt around their usual spots, they are probably relaxing at the tree. I'll probably draw it sometime!

adding a hobic option as well because its funny, his staff is probably a very significant item for him. i think he wouldve gotten it when he became a full fledged wizard, which was also around the time he transitioned and came out as gay, meaning its the first magical item he earned, and he earned it as his true self. thats significant to him, even if most other wizards dont get it.

-12. How does your character react to change or unexpected situations? Are they adaptable or resistant?

raide is probably pretty adaptable! shes a very "fuck it, we ball" type guy. whatever happens, he'll probably be fine with it, as long as nobody is hurt by it. they would probably just shrug the change off and continue on with their day.

calen on the other hand.. he would be more resistant. dont get me wrong, he's willing to accept change, eventually, but its Scary! he gets anxious about it! he wont admit that though, at least not to anyone other than raide. unexpected situations are generally Not Welcome when it comes to this boyo. he Will panic about it. (unless its one of his friends asking for help with something. he would give the world for them, even to his detriment.)

kalt.. hm. i feel like he'd be slightly anxious aboutt change and unexpected situations, but he trusts the people around them so they'd accept it. itll probably be okay, right?

vang would probably be very calm and collected about all of it. change? alright, give her a day to plan things around it and everythings fine. she can figure it out. unexpected situations? she can probably work out what to do about it, if you give her a moment. (she's most of the reason kalt is fine woth change.) shes very reliable when it comes to most things.

hobic would rather live in a house that actively hates who he is on a fundamental level than face change or unexpected situations. this is a very literal example. his house hates him, but he's lived there so long that he would rather just Not leave actually. at least the house is predictable about it, you know?

-14. What is your character's preferred method of self-expression? Do they have any artistic talents or creative outlets?

raide loves so many forms of art! if you took a peek into his house, you would find art supplies of every type all over. sewing and instrument playing and drawing and painting and crocheting and embroidery and sculpting and- (his fav is just regular old drawing though.)

calen prefers to play music or write stories! both are very calming and in the moment things, and he can just get absolutely lost in them. his preffered method of self expression is probably his music specifically. he loves how music can explain things without the need for words at all.

kalt likes painting! hes not very good at it, but they dont care. they'll paint whatever the hell they want and if someone doesnt like it? thats their problem, not his. (its usually landscapes.)

vang likes to sing, she loves all sorts of music, but if it has lyrics? you bet she's going to be humming or singing it around the castle randomly. she does write her own lyrics sometimes, and then asks calen or raide to help her add a tune to it. (or vice versa, where one of them makes a song and then asks vang for some good lyrics for it!)

do spells count as a form of art? because if so, thats hobics choice. he also writes but he really just likes casting spells. or coming up with new spells. or fucking up spells-

[the-art-of-sanshoku]

Remembering this is my blog and i can be as cringe as i want so writing out more student hcs for this:

Ichijo and tsubaki kinda give off "went to an all boys school" energy so its an all boys school (what school they actually went to might be described in the novel but i didnt read that yet :p) godai strikes me more as a coed schooler but uhhh they move and this is the only school in the area or something, look i dont think about every logistic of the au

Although speaking of the novel one thing i did hear about it is that tsubaki and ichijo became friends over their love of shoujo manga? This will not change here. (Starting to think i hallucinated this because i cannot find the tumblr post talking about it but whatever its real to me)

In fact godai reminds ichijo of one of his favorite shoujo MLs and tsubaki clocks this immediately. If i knew more 80s/90s shoujo manga i would say which one specifically. Although in terms of modern manga godai is like a sillier version of the yubirenren guy to me a bit, they should be friends. He could teach him sign language- itd be chill

The mascot is the Gouram :) *looks up small cities in nagano* they can be the uhh shimosuwa stags sure (although ichijo going to a fancier big city highschool seems kinda right too but again logistics i don't think that hard about certain things)

Ichijo and tsubaki go to the same cram school and go most days. On the way home they sometimes stop by a local Japanese sweets shop for manjuu (mika had to learn about ichijos love for them from someone and to me its always had to have been from tsubaki, who else would know y'know. When they had time to talk to each other who knows though)

Godai doesnt go to cram school at all. His family cant quite afford it for both him and minori and he knows minori wants to be a teacher so he mainly works after school doing odd jobs for extra money. The school normally doesnt allow part time working but since its all off books stuff he gets away with it. This includes his off record work at Pole Pole (you know pops did NOT keep a proper payroll)

Luckily Godai doesnt really need cram school. He regularly scores near the top in japanese, english, and history. And while he's not as good at math or sciences he's at least average. Ichijo and Tsubaki are also high scorers in most subjects.

Godai and Ichijo bond a bit over their love of motorcycles (they both have their license in show so i figure they must be somewhat enthusiasts. Ichijo watched the trychaser video extensively iirc and i have a lil hc that hes a bit of a motorcycle nerd amongst other things)

Ichijo got his scooter license at 16 and is aiming for a full motorcycle license at 18. Godai is trying for his scooter license and can study with ichijo or somethin. Even though ichijo has a scooter he walks to school as some morning exercise, godai rides his normal bike to school. Ichijo is running late one day and has to hitch a ride on his bike (he will never live it down)

Some of the grongi attend the school and they are the the fringe outcast group of students (they are just humans in this au). Sometimes they cause trouble at the school. Thats how godai and ichijo meet actually xu gmun ba is bullying someone, ichijo tries to defuse the situation as part of the disciplinary committee and is not doing too well and then new transfer godai notices and peacefully manages the situation with his goofy charms. Ichijo is down bad immediately. Mixing elements of canon into the au is always kinda fun to me

Students always see ichijo as a kind of cold stick in the mud, but they notice hes significantly more chill with his disciplinary committee reprimands when the new transfer student is nearby... Although ichijo isnt unfair by any means hes pretty reasonable in terms of detentions/write ups only giving them when absolutely justified, but students still see him in a bad light because they dont see it that way lol

Ichijo is in the kendo club, it doesnt seem like the first time hes done it in the show so hc that he used to be in a kendo club. It teaches discipline and all that so its kinda fitting for him. The school policy is that students should only be in one club but godai is simultaneously in every and none of the clubs. Tsubaki is in the uh biology club? Sure.

Ichijo gets some lunch money everyday but he has a tendency to just work through lunch. When he does get lunch its usually something like a sandwich from the vending machine. Godai starts making an extra lunch for him and stopping by his classroom for lunch <3 (sometimes via window, as pictured)

To parallel canon a bit i think its fun to think about godai going on a school abroad study trip in his junior year and missing ichijos graduation. Ichijo with his complicated feelings think its for the best and hopefully they wont meet again. (Also hes pining like crazy and its driving tsubaki up a wall) But when the study trip is over godai is somehow at his apartment and how did he even know his address-

But also in my head theyre kinda just secret dating the whole time yknow this is a self indulgent au for white days and culture festivals and study dates etc etc

Also ill put the hcs from my og post tags just so everythings together- ichijo very well could be a class president but he doesnt think he really needs that for his career path so he doesnt want to put extra energy and time into it. But he is on the disciplinary committee which ive mentioned a few times

Hongo is godais professor in college so i think other showa riders should be their highschool teachers. Idk the showa riders too well though to say who teaches what but amazon could be a phys ed teacher

If i remember other things i can always edit this post for my own sake but thats most of it i think

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