#my mood while making this gifset tbh

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"I don't know what I'm doing. About any of it."

ANDOR - S01E05 The Axe Forgets

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Gifset request, possibly???

wondering if anyone has done a gifset of rosie's 'sassiest lines without meaning to be sassy at all' scenes, which may include:

Rosie correcting Nash in ep 4: 'Dour the mood.' -'Sour, it's 'sour' the mood'

Rosie telling his crew what he's going to do while he was dogfighting in ep 5, eg: 'i'm gonna put these two in your back doorstep'

Rosie telling Bowman + Harding 'It's bad up there, we have no time for logs' at the end of ep 5 - i mean i know it's meant to be a sad scene but the way he pipes up to explain himself, has this unintended 'duh, why do you keep asking' vibe to it. the way he says it so earnestly makes me chuckle

Most of his exchange with the doc in ep 6 is Rosie at his sassiest tbh; honestly once he's out in his civvies it's like he's letting his sass out full on

His comment to Croz 'It will be good for you--', and repeated, 'it means, it will be good for you' even when Croz is being super snippy

'Are my daring tales of heroism not good enough for you Captain Marvel?'

I could go on and on, but honestly. I am living for Sassy!Grandpa!Rosie

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It's my own post so I'm allowed to bloviate about why all these moments intrigued me. Thought about doing it in the tags but I want to talk Way too much for all that :

How words came out like canaries, summer fruit in the dead of winter. → Little phrasings that remind me Armand lived most of his life in a time before modern technology (like that which allows some people to access all kinds of produce all year round). Also, I think the show version of Armand in particular struggles some with communicating verbally (haven't read enough of the books to be sure if I think the same is true there) so his awe at Lestat's words coming out like canaries makes sense. Also 'summer fruit in the dead of winter' is an objectively horny way to describe someone. You're starving and cold and want to eat him like a ripe plum we get it.

Cavalier, but I'm sure you're being careful. → Said in reference to the door to Louis and Claudia's apartment being a tiny bit ajar, during the middle of the day, while they (powerful dangerous monsters) were both awake and alert, talking in their own home. Armand sees this as dangerous enough to be worth commenting on. Also, CLASSIC passive-aggressive moment. He is not sure that Louis is being careful. He thinks Louis is not being careful but doesn't want to come out and just say that. It's so many years after Lestat broke up the CoD and he still sees living amongst humans as so perilous and heretical.

Why does that make you as evil as any vampire? Aren't there gradations to evil? → In hindsight I should've also included the later "only one sin is needed" section because that's the real kicker. Louis is toxic because he holds others and especially himself to an impossibly high moral standard and once you fall off that shelf, you're evil forever (I do think he struggles with this mindset and eventually starts to grow past it but this post isn't about Louis so that's the simplification for right now). Armand is toxic because he over-contextualizes the evil deeds of others, and himself, in order to justify them and render them Not Evil. He does this to paint over (ha 🙃) the abuses done to him, but also over his abuse of those under his power (Claudia and other coven members especially). Also this dialogue is straight out of the book and it slaps.

Do you keep this boy as a reminder? → First of all he sounds. So sad. It's important to remember how sad and weary he sounds here. Armand looks at Lestat and Nicki and sees Lestat as "keeping" Nicki - possessing him, even though we see no evidence their relationship is unequal at this point. We don't get lots of context for them in the show but in TVL they are childhood friends who had been a couple long before Lestat was turned. The phrasing, too - calling Nicki "this boy" even though Lestat is very newly a vampire and honestly not any older than him yet. The whole thing reads very 'projecting Marius-related feelings' to me.

Coven life requires a letting go of the self. → @atlasblue85 said it better than I ever could have in the tags tbh just gonna link that.

When you're the oldest suit in town, it is a comfort to be among your contemporaries. → Calling himself a 'suit' on the one hand is just slang, but it's an interesting choice. He's not a being, he's a suit. Even in this moment his identity is a thing to be put on, not something intrinsic and real. His demeanor here is so interesting he's so gleeful? I really do believe him that this is his favorite walk and that being among objects from his own era is a comfort to him. I don't think at this point he'd decided to show Louis the painting with him in it. Based on the change in his mood, safe to say that one DOES NOT bring him comfort. Probably on most of his walks he doesn't even go in that room.

The center isn't holding. → Love that the writers being nerds means that the characters are too. Go off with the Yeats, Armand. Am I going to make an Armand gifset with lines from 'The Second Coming' someday? Oh, inevitably. After all the ceremony of innocence is drowned and the best DO lack all conviction while the worst are full of passionate intensity! This stuff practically photoshops itself.

You'll be a monster. → At the end of the day, Armand really does believe he is a monster just as much as Louis does. It just manifests in extremely different ways for them. For Louis it's not wanting to eat humans, for Armand it is not wanting to doom any humans to the hell of being a vampire by turning them.

Life is cruel. Life is violent. → Louis dismisses the plays at the TdV as grimdark and edgy (fair) and Armand counters by inadvertently revealing that he sees experiencing 'cruel, barely motivated violence' as a fundamental part of being in the world. Which, considering Armand's entire life... also fair, but extremely fucking sad if you think about it for a second.

We do not need permission. We own dominion. → I think some people might read this one as Armand asserting vampire superiority over humans and I do see that but it's not really my main point of interest here. Vampire or human aside, it's obvious again how he sees the world as structured around power and ownership. Those who have power do not need permission to do whatever they want to those without power - that's just the way it is and always has been, no point fighting it. He's so casual about it here - maybe a little bit gloating but mostly just having the air of explaining something extremely simple that everyone knows.

armand + a few offhand lines that give some insight into how he thinks (imho)

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Hey can we PLEASE talk about how much unnecessary physical contact Ray and Egon make. These were supposed to be part of a gifset but I decided I wanted to scream about it instead

I wish I hadn’t cropped these now lmao but Peter is far enough away that Ray didn’t have to rub into Egon to get past him

You can see in the first shot of Ray on the couch that there is a whole other end of the couch that isn’t occupied. Not only could Egon have sat there instead, Ray chose to move over so little that they’re rubbing up against each other. (This is zoomed in, in the full shot you can clearly see that there is enough room for one of them to be at the other end of the couch and still be on screen)

This is my fav because both of them just tap the person beside them while Ray holds onto Egon for dear life the whole way down

Celebratory.. arm grab? Handshake? Tbh I have no idea what happened but you can see that they did touch.

This whole scene just has domestic scientist husbands written all over it. Also unnecessarily close.

NO ONE TALKS ABOUT THIS AND IT KILLS ME Egon literally held onto Ray’s belt their entire walk through the sewer. WHICH means that though we mostly see Ray initiating touch Egon is comfortable with it too (esp in front of Winston, not that he could see that well down there)

Guys, you’re autistic, gay, and in a mental institution in the 80S. You can’t just rub tits like that

“But Tumblr User Stantzy,” you say “Ray’s under the influence of positively charged mood slime, of course he’s gonna be extra nice.” You’re right. But Peter and Winston are also there. He’s not even turned to them, his whole body is facing Egon. When Winston and Egon helped him up after he got slimed he was going on about how he loved all of them, but now he chooses to single out Egon even though they’re all present.

Conclusion: 🏳️‍🌈

[alwaysahiccupandastrid]

His Dark Materials - Season 2 Episode 5 (rambles)

I only realized last week, there’s only 7 episodes this series because the eighth would have been the Asriel centric one. So only two left now after tonight! :(

Also I finished the book during the last week so I am so READY

Ahh gotta love that London traffic!

I don’t know why but the Golden Monkey wearing a seatbelt SENT ME

Mrs Coulter is watching the mother and baby :(

Boreal saying that our world is barbaric and our world is corrupt is so accurate tbh I’m not even mad

Will literally just threw the knife into the wall omfg watch it!

Red PAN-da is becoming a permanent fixture in this show apparently

Lyra’s hair was so pretty this episode? Her costume too obviously but her hair had me in awe

The theme music to this show gives me literal chills

Boreal is evil but his house is A-fucking-plus

Okay but how does Ruth Wilson always look so gorgeous and fluid in this show?!?

Her faking nearly dropping one of Boreal’s precious collection pieces and him panicking 😅

Mrs Coulter’s little “hmm” and smile... we love a Queen

“Why are we whispering?” “I don’t know” - LMFAO

“Will, you left the window open” - LMAO and also please don’t do that, that’s like one of the BIG rules about the knife!

“He’s getting good at this” “he is” - we love a supportive feral wild girl and her dæmon

Mrs Coulter looking bored as fuck as Boreal plays his music is such a damn mood

“You’d like it here too” - Umm NO STOP PLEASE SHE DOESNT WANT IT

“Carlo, can you make that stop?” - OMG 🤣

“You’re far too conspicuous like that” - but she’s not??? She just looks like a posh well dressed woman, maybe that’s not common in this world but she looks fine??

Boreal picking out clothes he’s obviously got just for her is... eww. Just ewww.

Her reaction to the jeans/clothes though XD

“Would you mind?” - YEAH BOREAL STOP CREEPING AND FUCK OFF PLEASE

“Maybe it’s time we issue a firm denial of the tear in the sky” BRO IT’S LITERALLY HUGE AND RIGHT THERE YOU CAN’T PRETEND IT AIN’T

Oh shit the Magisterium know about that witches going to the new world + the massacre

MacPhail literally imprisoned Father Graves and for WHAT?! I think the power’s getting to him (which I know it the point but still!)

MRS COULTER SHUT THE DOOR ON HER DÆMON I’M-

Okay so I know it’s been implied/said that Mrs Coulter can go far away from the monkey already, and that they maybe have been through some kind of process that’s made that a thing, but like DAMN.

“I’m sure you’ve encountered witches in your travels” - if I hadn’t already read the books, I would be asking if she IS a witch tbh like omg

This is probably one of the few times I’ll say this but... I feel so sorry for the monkey?? Just him watching her as she leaves from the window... like that’s so sad. I get why she couldn’t exactly walk around with a monkey but urgh

“I apologize if she was a nuisance” “She wasn’t a nuisance!” - Oof you tell her, Mary

“You must be so proud.” “... I am.” - OOF

Mary showing that she’s better fit to be a parent to Lyra than Lyra’s real mother tbh

Damn Marisa disappeared FAST

Mary really googled Mrs Coulter I’m-

“You must play the serpent” “hornbeam” “save the girl and the boy” - IT’S HAPPENING IM GOING TO CRY IM SO EXCITED

The computer turning completely off and the room going dark before going red OH MY GOD

“Oh shut it, Pan” - LMAO

OH NO OH NO ANGELICA FOUND TULLIO AND SHE IS PISSED D:

A+ acting from Bella Ramsay by the way

“We WILL get you” - OH SHIT

The fact that Will feels guilty over fighting and inadvertently getting Tullio attacked by spectres because he has the knife :’(

It’s so sweet to see Lyra and Pan comforting him though

“I’m not judging” - Mary’s sister says while totally judging her for reading the Holy Bible. She probably thinks she’s about to rejoin the convent!

I find the relationship between Marisa and the monkey so interesting?? I’m so intrigued by it

“Do they drink in this world?” “That, they do well.” - LMFAO ACCURATE THOUGH

“I found her arrogant, like many women in this world.” - umm, FUCK you, Boreal you misogynistic sexist piece of shit

So Mrs Coulter was denied a doctorate despite being the best in her class because she’s a woman, and they would only have published her papers if they were by a man. I’m starting to see why she got upset when she met Mary, who’s got her own office and a doctorate and is head of the department/project

“Who I could have been in this world” - oh shIT

The way she started talking about how she felt after the whole affair/baby ordeal, followed by “we’re not talking about Asriel, we’re talking about ME” - FUCK. I love Ruth Wilson’s portrayal, I love it

“You’ve spent your time trading trinkets” - lmfao you tell him ma’am

“Were you hoping to add me to your little collection?” “I was hoping this would be a life for you here” - oh god I hate it, fuck right off Carlo

“If you got me, you wouldn’t even begin to know what to do with me” - oh SHIT :O

Lyra turning up to distract them so Will could have the chance to cut a window and steal the Alethiometer had me on the edge of my seat

Let’s be real right now, the whole last 15 minutes? THE MOST TENSE AND INCREDIBLE PIECE OF TELEVISION ASDFGHJKL

Mrs Coulter’s face when she saw Lyra at the door :’(

Also she nearly saw Will and I was sitting there praying she wouldn’t find him, I was so worried even though I’ve literally just reread the book

So um THE FUCKING MONKEY BASTARD JUMPSCARED ME AND I AUDIBLY YELLED SO LOUDLY HOLY HECK

The way that Lyra saw her mum and immediately tried to run away though, she just keeps trying to yeet herself away from her parents and I honestly don’t blame her at all

Boreal was being truly extra in the way he dropped his snake dæmon out of his sleeve like that whilst advancing on Will

“Why would I trust you?” TRUTH

Coulter saying for Lyra to stay away from Will and getting super teary eyed makes me think she’s worried Lyra will suffer like she did? Like she’s worried that Lyra will suffer at the hands of men and be in the same situation she was I think? And that’s so sad but nuanced

“I am NOTHING like you.”

So Lyra did this little head move like Marisa did in 1x02, when she made the monkey attack Pan to subdue Lyra - AND THEN PAN ATTACKED THE MONKEY JUST LIKE THAT, LITERALLY EXACTLY THE SAME, AND MRS COULTER FALLING TO THE FLOOR AND CLUTCHING THE SOFA LIKE LYRA DID?? AND LYRA WATCHING WITH THIS COLD LOOK ON HER FACE?!

SOMEONE PLEASE MAKE A COMPARISON GIFSET BECAUSE IM CRYING

I love Will getting mad at Boreal taunting him over his mum, and immediately starting to punch him

HE SMASHED THAT COLLECTION PIECE ON BOREAL’S HEAD FUCK YEAH WILL 👏🏻

That was a DAMN close escape, holy fuck, but she’s got the Alethiometer back!

“The man who hurt you, I wanted to kill him” - same Lyra

I was so emotional when she was talking about how Marisa used her dæmon to hurt her and Pan, and Will saying that he’s never worried about his mum hurting him... the comparison is so sad

“I hope I’m not like either of my parents” - I mean I don’t blame her tbh

SHE CONSIDERED MA COSTA AND LEE SCORESBY TO BE BETTER PARENT FIGURES TO BE LIKE I’M CRYING

So Mrs Coulter is definitely planning some shit, like she didn’t seem that concerned when Boreal was talking about the Spectres, and like obviously I know what happens but I’ve always been intrigued as to why the Spectres listen to her instead of just attacking her. Also is it something to do with her dæmon? Like if they ARE separated in some way, maybe the Spectres don’t feed on her because it’s Dust or something? (Idk if that makes any sense)

“Deceive the guardian... okay... okay...” honestly same XD

Mary pretending to be Mrs Coulter to get past the guard is such a brilliant idea, like she just ran with it immediately, we have to stan a Queen who keeps a calm head

SHE WENT THROUGH THE WINDOW AND INTO THE CITY AAAAHHHH

The angels said they’d protect her, right? So she doesn’t need to fear the Spectres I’m assuming (I need to assume or I’ll worry)

The promo for next week was literally half what we saw THIS week and half Lee/John Parry footage I’m assuming is next week... ?

The fact there’s only two episodes left makes me so sad :( I have no idea what I’ll do waiting for the final series - and I’m assuming it’ll be delayed maybe because of Covid. Plus I’m hoping we get the extra episode NEXT series, the one that was Asriel-centred and supposed to be in this one but wasn’t filmed because of Coronavirus, so fingers crossed! 🤞

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if you need a reason to smile hopefully this helps 💕 — twitter. com/ judithandronic1/ status/ 1449895068567965700?s=21 (probably one of my fave cockles ops i’ve seen from dencon)

lovely! and thank you <3

some more after the cut

Not entering into the discourse, so my take-aways from the weekend: 1. clearly Jensen and Misha absolutely adore each other, 2. seriously, the body language is LOUD (thinking about when Misha crashed Jensen's panel and after the double take, Jensen looks him up and down while leaning back and spreading his legs open and positively grinning), 3. other body language is also loud (ahem Jensen high-tailing it out of the J2 panel, clearly pissed as all hell), 4. Angel. Plushie!!! - Honeymoon Anon

absolutely agreed on all parts. in conclusion: angel plushie!!

this angle tho — twitter. com/ judithandronic1/ status/ 1449793798184177667?s=21

yeah honestly the way his mood changes is palpable

Can we bask together in the double-take-and relax-moment please? It was perfection, the way his face just lit up kills me dead. I love them together. I wish we’d got more but I’m happy we were able to at least see that little moment of happiness. Misha saying “I don’t really know what I’m doing up here” and Jensen offering up his seat 😭 I’m just gonna live in that comparison gifset for a while… and ignore the drama. Saw some of your tags earlier I hope you’re doing okay, sending you love and good vibes. I hope you sleep better tonight 💙

ngl i think i'm probably gonna rewatch that 10 minute cut a lot because it's just. so wholesome. i missed seeing them on stage so much. and thank you! <3 i did sleep a little better and i'm taking things easy. feeling a bit better today.

oh 🥺 — twitter. com/ casisloved/ status/ 1449697672546377728?s=21

so true twitteruser casisloved <3

no thoughts, just this.

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Personally this wasn’t my favorite Misha outfit, but do we think Jensen dressed him? The unfitted red pants give me early Misha fashion “choices” vibe vs later JIBcons when Jensen was at the helm with layers, rock tshirts, leather jackets.

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no i def think he dressed himself sdhfshfhsfd

oh okay 👀 @ jensen: ”it’s no secret that antony/homelander’s suit is quite muscly and built out” misha: “in allll the right places”

lmao i laughed so hard at that. good for you mish, thirsting as always

OK but after tonight I'm 100% sure j2 are not over their fight, jensens face says it all rip

honestly it did feel very tense...

tbh i think misha's headcanon for post finale cas has a lot to do with how misha has been feeling personally since the show ended. :( i can't blame him, he's always been treated like crap by the execs and the ending was no exception. cas is clearly very important to misha and i get the bitterness.

however i'm super glad him and jensen are still smiley and lovey dovey and close around each other so that's what i'm choosing to focus on :) (and im sure he is too lol)

maybe... someone else also said that it does make sense that this is his "headcanon" because he is working off of what was in the script, and not necessarily making his own headcanons like we do, and that also makes sense.

Cliff seems to be more of a bodyguard for Jared than Jensen tbh? Like I’m sure he was originally for both but after that question, which was gross I feel like he spends way more time with Jared than he does with Jensen and same presumption can be made with his Twitter account (promoting walker etc).

i honestly wouldnt know cause i don't follow either clif or j*red on social media. i don't need that kind of headache.

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Omg I have yet to do a stage gifset and ngl I am a bit hesitant ndjajdjs I respect those that do them because there is alot going on and also at the same time. Not alot lol. Hey that's perfectly fine!! You also are moving ahead with life so gif when you can, I have huge respect for cc that are constantly up to date. Sadly while I do have more time, I feel like I don't want to be ontop of everything because it feels tiring(?) If that makes sense and I'm still new to making gifs so I just want to have fun with them still ya know? So far what I had done are simple gif sets with text (I really enjoy adding fancy text to my gifs. Idk why but it is fun to me), having fun with coloring and making the set pop (i.e. my recent skz one) or making myself cry with deciding to do an idea that I thought would be easy but turns out it wasn't but I won't give up because I am stubborn (ny ot13 svt set or combined gifs for txt)

I have yet to experience that but I have experienced seeing gifs look better on computer than the app and crying when how bad they looked (but then again I also realized I wasn't sharpening ALL of my frames until now sooo) also experienced the nightmare that your program crashes and you didn't save anything 🙃 love that for me, lost all of my night worth of sleep for that.

Idk if it is alright for me to ask but any helpful advice for giffing overall? Like what you have learned from giffing over time? I love hearing advice to improve what I can :D

SAME like it's hard both to crop and color stage gifs consistently esp if they're moving a lot and there's a lot of crazy lights going on 😭😭😭 idk how people do only stage gifs I cry after doing 1 (one) gif like not even a full set

yeah for sure, one shouldn't gif bc they feel obligated to but bc they're having fun!!! and ooooo text is always fun it always gives that extra huzzah to gifsets ❤️ I used to rly love doing captioned sets for a while. and for me exploring different colorings is the best part of gifmaking!!! I have sort of fallen into a standard coloring but I'm always rly proud of myself when I can do something outside my usual style that I actually like hehe

and mood oof I only have the energy for simple sets these days... I have ideas for more complicated sets certainly but wowowow it takes so much effort 😭 but also once ur like halfway through a complicated set it's like well I'm committed now vhehnsksnx

AND NOOO programs crashing is the worst 😭 tbh that's why I'm a sporadic saver like catch me saving after every layer adjustment dhksjdbdnjs

and yessss feel free to ask my anything!!! tbh I don't really know if I've... "learned" anything over time as much as just fumbled around and gotten more familiar w the process so that I have general settings and go-to filters that more or less will always work for me 😂

[cowboyshit]

twenty questions

tagged by: @dustofinsanity (thank you so much my dear!!!!!!)

what do you prefer to be called name-wise? honestly I’ll probably answer to most things as long as they aren’t mean. but ash, ashley, doe, those seem to be the solid three I’m known by around here when is your birthday? november 30th!  where do you live? in a tiny, backwoods cow-town smack dab in the middle of california three things you are doing right now? filling this questionnaire out, eating dinner I just finished cooking, and petting sadie with my foot since she’s curled up at my feet after she finished her dinner four fandoms that have peaked your interest. I guess I can go with four I’ve been heavily involved with, even though there’s plenty more than that since I’m a little fangirl at heart, but wrestling (obviously), black sails, the night shift, and pirates of the caribbean how has the pandemic been treating you? uh, I mean, it hasn’t been great and I’ve had to deal with some pretty bad shit as all of us have, and probably some of my worst mental health battles I’ve had to face in about a year or so, but honestly? I just kind of count my blessings these days. lucky to still be employed, even if my pay got a little cut it was nothing that keeps me from paying my bills. all I had to do was take away a few luxury things to make ends meet, and that’s a lot, LOT less than other people have had to do. so yeah, it’s been pretty shitty, this year has been bad news after bad news both personally and globally, but whatever. it could be worse. a song you can’t stop listening to right now? it is no-joke like a four-way tie. a bunch of good songs were in my discover weekly and I’ve been playing four of them on non-stop repeat one after the other. oh! and one my best friend showed to me. this baby don’t cry by k. flay, rock bottom by grandson, ok ok by hoko, and insurgents by the poolside by denny recommend a movie. i’ve jumped into holiday mood early af because tbh I need the holiday cheer, so keeping in that theme, I suggest the holiday with jude law because DUH how old are you? thirty! school, university, occupation, other? had some college, been working in my current career for the past ten years. hoping to pursue a promotion finally since my supervisors have been telling me for the past eight years that I need to promote do you prefer heat or cold? cold pleeeaaaase! I’m a radiator and put off heat like nobody’s business. I’m always warm. name one fact others may not know about you. this is hard because I just constantly blab everything about me, and I have two people who literally know EVERYTHING about me lmfao uhhh I guess... something people may not know... uhhh... on my dad’s side of the family one half was ashkenazi jewish who had to flee germany to avoid the holocaust, where they went to live in italy, while the other half were nazi’s committing some pretty bad stuff that my family won’t talk about, even to this day. funny how two descendants eventually met in america and fell in love, huh? and when they DID fall in love one of them was half italian and in the mafia! so I always joke that my bubbly cheerful self is a descendent of some pretty evil shit, and it feels like a nice little stab at those shitty ancestors of mine. are you shy? uhhh yeah and no??? like. I think I’m shy, since all interaction terrifies me and exhausts me, but everyone tells me I’m a social butterfly? and I’ve noticed in places I’m comfortable and confident, I do tend to be less shy and more involved and interactive? but I think I can be shy. a lot of waiting for other people to initiate because I’m too afraid to, struggling to talk or carry a conversation at times... I don’t know I think I’m overcomplicating this answer LOL preferred pronouns? she/her!  biggest pet peeves? gatekeeping, to be perfectly honest. I stopped following wrestling back in 2014 because when I first tried to get into the fandom, someone was trying to gatekeep a wrestler I also liked and had started making content for and they made me feel like shit for liking them, and I absolutely hated it. that’s why it took me an entire two years of quietly lurking in the wrestling fandom before I finally got brave enough to come out of the woodwork, and I’m grateful I’ve been so well received this time around. but now I’m hyper-sensitive to gatekeeping and I fucking hate it. no joke. and since it’s a pet peeve and I’m irked just remembering all that bs I went through, ima say I’m only a part of fandom to share my love of whatever that thing is with other people who love it too. I can’t stand anyone who thinks they have some sort of “claim” over a celebrity or a show or anything. get a different identity that isn’t wrapped up in that thing and stop seeing it as a threat when other people like it. be happy someone else is as passionate about that thing as you are and make a friend. damn. what is your favorite “dere” type? I’m pretty sure this is something with anime or that originated from anime, right? unfortunately I don’t know what they are so I can’t say LOL I don’t even know if I’m right about it coming from anime tbh rate your life from 1-10, 1 being crappy and 10 being the best it could be. 4, 5, but I’m putting in the foundation now and working to make it a 6, 7, or possibly 8 by a year or two from now. what’s your main blog? funnily enough? this one. my OTHER blog that was my main blog since I joined tumblr in 2009 got shoved to the side for this one last year LOL I assumed I’d log onto this blog once in awhile, but now it took over my whole damn life so here I am I guess list your side blogs and what they’re used for. I’m going to be fair and ONLY list my active ones because I have a few side blogs from when I role-played on tumblr that I haven’t touched in over a year. @doedreamss is my non-wrestling blog that WAS my main blog before this one, @cowboysht is my archive where I am ONLY putting my original gifsets/analysis/fanfiction so that one day I can offer people a blog of just my original work and no other posts (the queue is very slowly catching up I think I’ve queued posts up until june this year), @illfatedandstarcrossed is just a non-frequently used outlet for me to mope and dump emotions when I get sad about my relationship things (like a diary! but... public? and not my original thoughts? LOL), and then I have one more blog but it’s locked and private and it’s LITERALLY my diary where I can just vent when I got shit I wanna get off my chest but don’t necessarily want people to see it. Is there something people need to know about you before becoming friends? I probably won’t talk to you daily, tbh. I may not even talk to you weekly. socializing takes a lot out of me, on top of an already energy draining day-to-day in my personal life. I have a handful of people I connect with who I talk with frequently, but unfortunately as much as I’d love for it to be endless, I have to keep that list short for my own sanity. my infrequent conversations mean absolutely nothing about my lack of interest in you or how much I care about you. my granny once said I would be the perfect friend for someone you only want to talk to twice a month and she thought she was insulting me, but deadass I just said “YEAH! EXACTLY!!”

tagging: I really like this one so I WANT to tag people, but I feel braindead and also just want to post it cause I feel like I am definitely gonna forget to tag someone tbh aaaaahh okay okay I’m just gonna throw some names out there but please don’t feel pressured to do this (it is TWENTY questions) @kennyhoemega, @champbucks, @superkickparty, @adampage, @hintsofsunshine, @audreyhrnes, @sheslikealostflower, @lancearchers, @champnick, @janelanutella, @edgecution, @superrezzy00, @wardl0w, @writinglionqueen, @orangechuckiet, @hungmanhorsecarriage, @icouldbesus, @thatnerdwriter, @rampagewriting, @snarkandsarcasmftw, @tetsuyainthesky AND I DUNNO JUST ANYONE WHO WANTS TO OK I LOVE YOU ALL BYE

[chibinoyume]

Trivia tuesday #3

Creators: give a “behind the scenes” look at one of your works. This could be things that got removed or changed, the origins of ideas/details, whatever you like! (x)

For this trivia tuesday, I’m sharing bits of the second main sketch for Part 1 of 5x10 post ep comic (x). 

Aka the one before the actual lineart (minus Jane’s tattoos).

I often do leave notes to myself when I don’t do stuff all in one go, because sometimes I’m super in the zone and seeing everything clearly and when I get back to it, without the notes, I am like... what was I trying to do with this? 

Also, for this I tried to be especially careful of leaving enough space for the text to fit in. Since most of my comics have white backgrounds, it doesn’t matter if I mess that up, I just make the image wider or longer when I’m editing it in the computer, giving it the comic format. 

But for this one I wanted the background of the frames with color, and while you can still stretch those in editing, it doesn’t always look great and it’s best to do it in the original version (which is watercolor, on paper).

For the “he cried” frame, I was happier with the sketch than the final result, tbh. I feel it has a better aesthetic and mood, but I couldn’t bring myself to make a black background for that. It was tough choosing the background colors too, mostly because I’m not used to do colored backgrounds or serious comics, and also because I had a tight (self-imposed) deadline.

Still, I did what I could with what I had and that’s the most I can :)

A bit of bts on the idea itself, I just... after 5x09 & 5x10 aired, I was (other than punched in the face) struck with a boatload of inspiration I didn’t expect to have after being so royally pissed off by 5x08. I had so many ideas regarding a post-zipped Jane and that ending (that ending, my god) that I just *needed* to make. 

There are some ideas that never left the stage of “written down idea” because I was too busy on this comic and the following ones (I think I may have made just like 2 gifsets or something) or trying to unsuccessfully make progress on my fics. There are some ideas I wanted to do so badly for solo drawings, angsty and with a specific look, but now I feel we’re so removed from the amnesiac vibe it feels weird, OR, it feels too reminiscent of the potential Tragic Ending somehow. And that just hits too close to home atm.

But yeah :) hope you enjoyed this glimpse at part of the process and my thoughts on it! This comic took so long to make, a couple of headaches (and other aches) but I was so touched by the reception it had. Thank you all ♥

[kinetic-elaboration]

March 15: Thoughts on Fandom

Not feeling too well this evening but hopefully a good night's sleep will make me feel better and tomorrow will be low key and chill. And my hot water will be fixed successfully.

I was thinking today about how I've felt for a long time that I'm 'between fandoms' even though technically, literally, I'm not. I continue to write and read for The 100 but I don't entirely feel like I'm in the fandom. Sometimes I think I should just leave officially, but then I think--but to go where? And "Star Trek" seems both an obvious and an incorrect answer. It's like I'm not truly invested anywhere, but in a sort of limbo-like space.

Anyway, so I broke it down like this.

I want 3 three things from "fandom," broadly speaking:

1. To engage with media that I really love.

Examples: waiting for new installments (for ongoing media); rewatching or rereading; obsessing over how great the characters or stories are, dissecting plot lines and themes.

2. To engage with a fan community that also loves the media I love.

Examples: reading fanfiction; reading meta; engaging in online discussions; reading other people's excited posts; following blogs relating to the media in question; reblogging gifsets/graphics/fan art

3. To engage creatively with the source material through transformative works.

Example: writing fanfiction.

Ideally, I'd have one piece of media that fulfills all of these purposes. That was T100 for me for a while. But then I stopped watching the show in late S4, and got farther and farther away from the 'current' fandom. And then the show ended, and on such a sour note, so that the fandom itself, the fan community, started changing. And at the same time, I started getting seriously back into Star Trek again.

So now I'm in this place, where I'm still at least kind of engaged in all three aspects of the fandom experience, but not in a unified way.

Star Trek is fulfilling the first purpose of fandom for me, right now. I'm loving rewatching TOS, and the AOS movies too, and I just have a lot of Emotions about the characters and universe. It's that good kinda excitement that a show (or book or movie or whatever) that you really love always gives. Like--ahh!!! I cannot feel anything else but just happiness because I love this so much!

BUT I'm not engaging with ST in either the second or third sense of fandom. I follow a couple ST blogs but there aren't many truly active TOS/AOS centric blogs out there right now. I don't read any ST fanfic because, well, first of all I never really did, and second, I'm far enough behind on my T100 fic! And I have rl people like my mom and B to talk about it with, but not really anyone on tumblr or wherever who's into it like I am.

And though I've vaguely plotted and poked at some fic ideas, I haven't done any real ST writing in a long time--again because I have ideas for T100 that I need/want to get to first, and I'm not writing so much anyway now in general.

On the other hand, T100 is definitely NOT fulfilling function (1) for me and hasn't in a long time. When I stopped watching the show, I still engaged with the canon a little. I watched other people get excited or debate or discuss. I noticed the patterns of fandom as the show went into and out of hiatus. Plus, I still enjoyed the early seasons and liked early-canon and canon-divergent fics (reading and planning/writing). But even that is largely fading for me. I've been trying to rewatch the show but it's not really doing anything for me... I have a hard time getting into it. The canon-divergent fics I'm writing for the collab are not interesting me in the least, either.

I realized today that most of my fic ideas, or at least most of the fic ideas I really care about in any way, are so far removed from the canon they might as well be original fiction with some familiar names thrown in. The one exception is the Ark AU, but everything else is some form of extreme AU, modern or otherwise. I don't even know that the characters make me feel much of anything anymore. I've been toying with how to explain this for a while but... I feel like both for me personally and the fandom as I perceive it, the characters are more like a shared vocabulary, rather than actual characters from a source material we all love. I think this is partially because the fandom is old enough now to have some very long standing shared headcanons, and either small enough or bifurcated enough for fanwork creators to influence each other more than the canon influences them, and partly because the show ending on a sour note for most viewers has left the people who remain in the fandom with a sense that these characters are OURS and that the value of them is in how we collectively decide to use them now, rather than in how they are tied to the universally derided source material.

I'm not saying any of this is BAD, I'm just saying, that's how it is now, from my perspective.

I'm sort of engaging with the fan community (2) through T100, but... it's a little weird. I have people I legitimately like and enjoy talking to on tumblr who I know through T100 and of course there are events like Troped that I really love. I have a ton of cool fic bookmarked too and I'm getting back into reading it. But my dash has a lot less T100 content than it used to and sometimes I'll find myself j-ing very fast through it because I'm just not in the mood. I know a lot of people are either semi-disengaging, like I am, or wholesale moving on to other things. So it's like... the community straggles on, but it's uncertain at best.

And as far as engaging creatively (3)--to the extent that I write or plan fic it's almost all T100. But I haven't... I haven't been finding it easy to write. In general. This is a little hard to explain but.. when I think "I need to leave T100 fandom and really force myself to go somewhere else" it's usually because I feel like I'm not really getting what I need creatively out of the fandom. I like a lot of my wips and unstarted ideas, in theory at least, but the closer I look at some of them the more... herculean the task of actually writing them starts to seem. And tbh I rarely just... tell myself little stories about these characters or within these potential-fic scenarios. Like in all my idle, free thought time--when I'm washing dishes or taking a walk or a shower or going to sleep, when I want to think about something nice and fictional and not let the worries in... when I'm really engaged with a fandom, I'll imagine little scenes and tell myself little stories during these times. Sometimes they're scenes I want to eventually make into or include in a fic. Other times they're not. But they're still an extension of my creative life.

And I haven't really done that for T100 in a while. Sometimes I imagine Star Trek scenarios. Sometimes I retreat into highly silly comfort scenarios with original characters. But I only think about T100 when I specifically need to brainstorm for a fic. And that makes the fic feel more like work. And that makes me want to do it less.

So... I'm not sure what that will mean for me getting back into my projects when I finally (FINALLY) finish the last of my obligations. Maybe when I feel like I can actually make progress on old wips or ideas I care about, I'll get more invested in them. I was pretty damn invested in Mountain Lion Mean and that wasn't that long ago, so it is still possible. But overall, T100 definitely doesn't have, and probably never will have again, a total monopoly on my brain the way it did c.2016.

Which is fine. Like... it's more than fine. I've been here a while. What I'm trying to articulate to myself with all this is that the dissatisfaction I feel with my fandom life is probably stemming from the lack of one, coherent obsession. I have stuff to read, stuff to write, stuff to think about, stuff to talk about, and even a small fandom community of people I like--so what's the problem, right?? It's because it's not all coming from the same piece of media and that's not as clear and coherent and nice for me.

Plus, it makes writing more difficult when I do want to write these particular ideas, but I'm only motivated by own desire to see the ideas realized, not my genuine love for the characters and the material from which they derive. There's a certain energy that fannish activity has... but T100 fic barely feels like a fannish activity to me rn. Just another type of work. It's a work I'm invested in...but I just so often don't have it in me to WORK at all, is the thing.

So that's the biggest annoyance about it. I haven't really experienced this before so even though this situation has been forming for a while, I still don't really know what to do with it.

[hhuta]

Dhhdhsh yeah I'm the person who reblogged the place je passe gifset 😔😔 you didn't have to catch me out like that tho I was trying to be lowkey dbdbfbbdhdhdjdj

You like vixx?? Now it makes much more sense why I was following you and um leo... Friends with Korean salieri...... 👀👀👀 Is there. Is there any videos of the Korean production I kinda wanna see it 👀👀👀

I genuinely considered unfollowing on multiple occasions I'd just be like 'what the fuck is a salieri what is this' but I never did out of curiosity and it was like. I'd see florent on my dash and be like 'oh salieri person is having fun today good for them lol' like you just became a staple of my dash tbh dhdhdhsshhs

Don't even mention dm-ing mikelangelo to me!!!!! genuinely that's the sort of impulsive thing I'd do at like 5am and then regret for the rest of my life you're gonna give me ideas don't tempt me 😔😔

Listening to lbqfm 100+ times... Iconic of you dare I say. I personally am hoping to set a world record for 'most listens of place je passe' because like I am looping it constantly I listen to it between classes I listen while doing homework I sing it as I walk around the house if place je passe isn't reverberating around my skull then I'm not really living tbh

Also!! You seem really nice and cool and like! Genuinly thank you for getting me into mor THANK YOU I've been craving a new obsession and I've now found it thank god

kldjslkd wELLLLLL i cant help but read everyones tags !!!!!! i was going to talk to u even before u sent that ask but i got busy 😶but anyways here we are

and yes,,, they were even in musicals together before.... unfortunately theres no proshot of the korean production but u can find some videos here and here !

LKJDLKAJSKL WHAT THE FUCK IS REALLY A SALIERI... thats so powerful of him then... i get it tho sometimes my mutuals reblog stuff that ive no idea what it is and yet i could never unfollow! they are just happily doing their thing and i enjoy seeing it lkdjakls and "salieri person" is the best way i could be known as thank u

lkJDLKAS WHY WOULD U REGRET ITTTTT he still (re)posts mor stuff to this dayyy and is always interacting with fans u should totally give it a gooooo

thank u thank u and i fully support u in ur "most listens of place je passe" world record journey bc thATS A MOOD i loveeee that song toooooo she deserves the same love tatoue-moi gets!!!!!!! ur really not living unless u have a mor song stuck to ur head

🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 thank u and ur welcome pls im so glad u found mor! it brings me so much joy so im happy someone else feels that too uwu

[merlinemryspendragon]

Gif Coloring Tutorial

Requested by anon. Sorry for taking so long to post this!

This tutorial goes over how I color gifs, including tips for coloring dark scenes and scenes that are heavily filtered with a certain color (i.e blue scenes, yellow scenes, etc.).

We’ll be going from this:

To this:

Warning: This post is gonna be really long! (if the read more breaks blacklist “long post” or “usermerlin gif tutorial”)

*I’m using Photoshop CS5

1. Gif Making Basics (Note this part won’t include images since the anon specified coloring and avoiding noise I’m gonna focus on that)

First I take screencaps using Potplayer.

In PS I import the frames by selecting File --> Scripts --> “Load Multiple DICOM Files”

Once the images have loaded I go to the drop down menu on the animation window and select “Make frames from layers”. 

Then I crop my gif using the crop tool. I put all the layers into a group  (select all the layers and press ctrl + g (cmd + g if you’re using a Mac)

Now I sharpen my gif. I’ve created an action to speed up this process using user thepunisher’s action tutorial. I didn’t include the grouping of my layers in the action so that’s why I always group them before starting my action so that it works properly. My sharpening is pretty standard from what I’ve seen. I use smart sharpen: 

Now I can start coloring!

2. Basic Coloring

In this section, I’ll be going over a basic, but vibrant, coloring. When making adjustments you have to be careful not to increase brightness or vibrance too much or your gif will become grainier. Same goes with making changes to the colors. It’s better to have more layers with slight adjustments 

I always start by brightening up my gif. Sometimes I use curves to both brighten and adjust colors. For this particular gif I didn’t, but I use this adjustment often. User villainelle has a tutorial for using curves to color adjust here and so does user thepunisher here. They have slightly different approaches and I use either depending on the scene. I’ll also be explaining this adjustment more in the next section but I learned how to use it from them. 

Step 1:

For this gif, I just started with an Exposure adjustment layer. Exposure allows you to change the tones of your document. Gamma adjusts midtones, offset adjusts shadows, and exposure adjusts highlights. It’s really helpful with brightening up dark scenes or heavily shadowed scenes. I usually only adjust the midtones/gamma. Here are my settings:

I increased the Gamma to 1.12

Step 2:

I then use a Brightness/Contrast layer to adjust the highlights (you could also do this with Exposure but I find Brightness more manageable). At this point, I’m only increasing the brightness. I won’t increase or decrease the contrast bar. Here are my settings:

I increased the Brightness to 34

Step 3:

After adjusting the brightness, I want to bring back some depth (I’m probably using this word incorrectly tbh) to my gif by increasing the contrast before moving on to color correction and vibrancy.

To increase the contrast I use a black and white gradient map and set it to soft light. Then I lower the opacity between 10%-50%, depending on the scene.

You could also use Levels or Brightness/Contrast but I find the gradient map is easy to control while also making the gif more neutral. For this gif, I set the transparency to 10% but could go a little higher because the scene is naturally bright. All these adjustments are really about your personal preference. 

Step 4:

Now I can move on to the colors. For basic coloring I usually start by increasing the saturation. I use a Hue/Saturation layer because this way I can increase the saturation of everything. I feel like the Vibrance layer tends to just make the gif warmer rather than making the colors pop- and I have less control over individual colors. For this gif, I increased the saturation for all colors (”Master”) to 27:

Step 5:

After adjusting the vibrancy I move on to color adjustment. This can really vary based on preferences. I tend to prefer to make my gifs cooler in tone. I use Selective Color and Color Balance to manipulate the colors. 

I started by adding a Color Balance layer to adjust the colors on Aziraphale’s face:

I increased the Cyan to 4, the Magenta to 3, and the Blue to 1 to make the skin tones more neutral. I’m moving the bars toward the colors I want to add. So if my gif is too yellow I’d move it toward blue and if it’s too red I’d move it toward cyan. Also note that I only made changes to the midtones. If I wanted to make changes to the darker or lighter parts of this gif I’d alter the shadows or highlights but I usually only do that for rainbow gifsets. Typically, I prefer Selective Color to make more drastic color alterations so I have more control over the specific color I’m changing.

*Be careful when making these types of changes. You don’t want to make drastic changes to the natural undertones of a person’s skin. Same goes when you’re brightening your gif. You can easily whitewash if you’re not careful. User amorverus has a great tutorial on avoiding whitewashing in coloring here .*

I also wanted to brighten up the gif more after this so I added a curves layer :

Then I used Selective Color to decrease the yellow tones in the White background:

I decreased it by 26. I almost always do this for scenes with white backgrounds or large blocks of white.

Step 6:

After I make some color adjustments I adjust the brightness and contrast again. I always add another Curves layer to increase the brightness of the shadows by slightly lifting the line on the bottom left:

Then I use Levels to change the contrast of my tones. I usually increase the contrast by moving the left hand point slightly to the right:

After that I add another Curves layer, decreasing the shadow and increasing the highlights like this:

I feel like this adds some nice depth to my gif and brings out the colors more. The amount I decrease or increase the curve depends on the gif itself, so definitely play around with this. 

Step 7:

Now I go back to make some last color changes. I added another Selective Color layer and increased the Black on Whites:

Finally, I added another Selective Color layer adjusting the Whites again. I decreased the Yellow again and also increased the Cyan and Magenta to make the blue in the sky pop a little more:

I used a layer mask to erase this layer on Aziraphale so the change is only apparent on the sky.

Now I’m done! Here’s the same method on two other scenes:

And I uploaded the .psds (dl here) so you can take a closer look at what I did in Photoshop. Keep in mind that I don’t always follow these steps in the exact same order. Psd #3 features the curves color adjustment method and has some more adjustments. It really depends on the scene itself and the mood I’m in. Practicing a lot will build your familiarity with the different adjustments and hopefully boost your confidence in making your own coloring! 

3. Hard to Color Scenes

Blue/Yellow/Green/Red Scenes + Dark Scenes

These types of scenes can be hell to color but there are some techniques to help balance the colors so that you have something that’s easier to work with. 

For general dark scenes, adjusting the Exposure can be really helpful. Unfortunately increasing the Gamma or Exposure too much can make the gif grainy so be careful when using it. Consider using it in combination with Brightness/Contrast and Curves to avoid making drastic changes.

Another helpful adjustment layer is the curves layer. As the tutorials linked above explain, using the midtone or highlight dropper tool can help adjust the presence of red, green, and blue in your gif. Photoshop will balance against the color you select. 

Let’s take this scene for example:

This scene is really yellow. Using color balance or selective color to balance it out could help but given how yellow it is, you’d need to use a lot of these layers to gradually change the colors or you’d make your gif too grainy. Using Curves, we can adjust colors with less layers and hopefully introduce less grain (sometimes this type of adjustment can result in too drastic a change, so your gif becomes hella grainy so be careful). I used the midtone dropper around here:

And got this:

Here’s the Curves layer:

The shadows are a little more intense than they were to begin with but that’s easier to adjust. You could also keep messing around with the dropper so the scene doesn’t become darker. You could it make it slightly less yellow and then finish the rest with color balance and selective color. Either way, I’m satisfied with this so now I can continue coloring:

Here’s an example of a dark and blue scene:

Usually for darker scenes, I use the midtone dropper but that wasn’t resulting in a change I was happy with. I used the highlight dropper instead, clicking on the flecks of snow in the bottom right:

Here’s the Curves layer:

And here’s the final gif after coloring:

This method is great for making big changes to the lighting and colors of your gifs.

HQ GIF Tips:

Save Settings:

I save my gifs with Diffusion because I find that the dithering is usually less noticeable that way, so my gif looks smoother. Pattern can also look really nice though, depending on your coloring. Try out both and see which you prefer! Here are my settings:

Coloring:

Making drastic changes all at once can make your gifs grainier. Be careful not to change a color too much one one Selective Color or Color Balance layer. It’s better to make smaller changes over multiple layers. Same goes for increasing brightness and vibrance.

Source:

Use the highest quality video source you can. That’s an easy way to make HQ gifs. Blu Ray or DVD quality is better than Itunes for example and both of those will be better than clips from Youtube. If the file size is bigger that typically means there less compression so the quality will be better. If you can’t find larger sizes or you don’t have the space or time to save larger files, just make sure it’s at least 1080p. Keep in mind that now that gifs are converted to gifv, your gifs might look grainy or blurry when you post them even if they look fine when you save them. You can go back and mess with the coloring to see if this helps but otherwise there’s not much you can do about the conversion.

Those are all the tips I have for now! If anything doesn’t make sense or you have any questions please let me know.

[elriell]

Do you ship SQ now?

I am so sorry I have no clue when this was sent as my ask box is awful at notifying me but I think I checked about… idk a week ago? So hopefully you haven’t been waiting too long. 

There is a long and a short answer, short is yes. and i have been a multi shipper for a few years now (even tho i haven’t been on tumblr in ages prior) I even made a post about it WAY back when which you may have missed, So I will copy and paste it below (bare in mind this was written years ago when I first sort of began multi-shipping) but it still relates to this day for those who might be confused as I was a 100% CS shipper back in the day, they are still my OTP for the record! 

I just started enjoying other areas of the fandom too. If you dont care for the long answer no worries I’ll leave it under the (read more) bar and just ignore it, but if you do want to know a little about my experience and feeling with all the toxicity within the f OUAT fandom back then, then go ahead and give it whirl and come back and we can chat

Hellooooo. *blows out breath* Where to begin…

I made a post months ago about fandom negativity and how over time it got to me, I’m going to copy parts of it over here and add some more, newer thoughts since that post…And hopefully if you have the patience to sit through it you’ll understand a little better by the end.

*

I am a Captain Swan shipper (along with many other ships), I have been a member of the CS family for years and have loved it, I have made so many lifelong friends that I talk to outside of tumblr daily, however, there is something I have been…struggling, for lack of a better word, with for a little while.

Negativity. Fandom negativity to be specific.

(I also want to preface this by saying I am not calling anyone out at all, people who are discussing and standing up for their characters and/or actors. People who are having debates, wording discussions in way I never could articulate so beautifully, are awesome. I enjoy these posts and reblog them often. This is not directed anyone in the slightest.)

But there has been a lot of negativity surrounding certain areas of the fandom, there is no reason to beat around the bush, I am talking about anti-sq/anti-regina stuff. I see it on my dash from a few shippers, I see it in the “OUAT Spoilers” tag and on twitter and everywhere. There is literally this dark energy everywhere. This hostile feeling, and maybe I am the only who feels it but I am just going to honest and straight up say, it got to me.

It crept up in a way I can’t even explain…

I am the biggest believer in ship and let ship, shipping is supposed to be fun! It shouldn’t matter what is canon and what’s not, it’s about enjoying characters that you think have potential. It’s about discussing it with your friends and making fanart, and just enjoying. And yet at some point during my time in the fandom something in me changed.

I let the bad apples get to me, I let the hateful people get to me and twist my views on an entire fandom. When I thought of the Swan Queen fandom all I saw was the bad, and became so bad that I’d see a gifset or anything in relation to them and feel physically ill. Like a pit in my stomach, like a uncomfortable twist every time they came up.

I realise this sounds melodramatic, I mean how can seeing a gifset actually cause such a strong reaction? Such strong negative emotions… I suppose it was the accumulation of so much anger and bitterness towards the bad apples  (and also seeing my dash constantly with negativity, it is like being in a bubble) that I forgot that they aren’t a entire fandom, that I became hyper sensitive to everything surrounding SQ. It was confusing, I absolutely love ships between women, if anything 8/10 i prefer them, being a bisexual women i’ve learned take/appreciate representation where we can get it or possibly get it. [sidenote: it f* sucks that there isn’t more out there and i could rant about that for daaays] but anyways in this one show something just didn’t click originally.

I get so upset when I see posts about how the CS fandom is the most hateful fandom because there are so many amazing people who have become my family and who literally are like literal sunshine and I think to myself “How can you (sq’rs) judge a entire fandom by a handful of bad?”

But then I know what you’re now thinking… Isn’t that what you’ve been doing, Morgan? Yes, yes it is.

I don’t want to argue about which fandom has done the most wrong, or which is more guilty of hate, I just want to move forward. I want to watch the show again and have fun doing so. I want to watch OUAT and not feel annoyed every time Regina is on screen with Emma (because there is no reason for it). I want to watch OUAT with a lighter heart, like I use too back in season 3.

“I don’t know how, but I’ve simply decided to let go of all my hostile emotions, lets call it my new years resolution. At the very least I am trying to and you know what, I think I am getting somewhere good, I felt a lot better lately, my mood is up. You might have noticed a slight increase of Regina on my blog, I saw a gif of Regina looking at Emma (from 4x12) and thought “oh, you know I can see what you mean about the way she looks at her sometimes…” (tbh she looks at a lot of folks that way), it’s simply Lana’s acting.  But my point is, that physical negative reaction is gone.

And I am so fucking happy about that.”

-A quote from my months old post

That feeling has only gotten better and stronger in the months ahead, I have followed a few multi shippers and begun to interact outside of my usual circles, and its going good. There are always days were anti’s irritate me but I think that is normal, overall I am happier.

I am so sorry if this feels fake to some of my friends on tumblr, who I have openly talked negatively about characters/ships with, I don’t take back my beliefs on  some of their actions or our discussions, I’ve simply chosen to try and move past it. And look at it from a wider lens…

I don’t know if I have properly articulated myself during this post but I really just wanted to get this out in the open because I love and adore the CS fandom but I also want to open up a little more, I know that although I few of my friends on here wont agree with my opinions on trying to be more regina/sq friendly I am sure you’ll support me because you always have, and thats what friendship is.

HOWEVER, back to the main purpose of this swan-queeen side-blog I understand and acknowledge that this is my change, and my choice. A lot of people don’t have to follow me in it and don’t want it on their dash, I have a little under 5k on my main and I know that they followed for a specific set of content. With that in mind I am putting this kind of content on a separate platform, if you want to join me I’d love that, if not I understand everyone has a right to their feelings/opinions.

Anyways I have so much more to say but I’ll stop here or you will be falling asleep, I am always here to chat and discuss things so feel free to hit up my ask/messenger/etc…

[znts]

Tagged by @svmeragi. Thank you Anjali, despite me being on and off on tumblr (ha ha sweats). Looking through the edits I made sure feels nostalgic (which also leaves me wondering where did all my energy come from back then)

Rules: Choose five of your own favourite edits and do a short commentary on each, what you loved about it. Tag mutuals of yours to appreciate their edits and spread love~

01. Tokyo Ghoul My most favorite one; this was a gift for Senka. I really, really love this graphic because I poured so much emotion while making it. I still remember clearly that I made it right after the official trans of this chapter came out, it was really painful to make & there were too much feels that I had to express them. The quotes I included from the chapter and improvised, arranging the scenes, conveying the emotions, I love every bit of the process. And it was Arima, so of course it had to be for Senka. :’)

02. Psycho Pass (1) & (2) Sorry for cheating but I really can’t pick...... Both graphics hold dear to my heart (I mean of course since it’s PP). Very proud of how they match with the captions too. Loving the mood, calm yet sad and full of solitude. It’s always sad hours when it comes to PP.

03. Haikyuu (1) & (2) (Cheats again ha ha h) these were a lot minimalistic than what I used to make and that’s exactly why I love them to bits. Especially when I dislike making gifs so much. Ngl it was a pain in the neck but since I was (still am) head over heels for Oikawa back then, I made them anyway.

04. Zankyou no Terror Tbh this was a bit too pastel for my taste but I got to try and experiment new things with this? I really liked the white borders, and especially the 5th gif. The sun symbol represents Twelve′s energetic and cheerful personality.

05. Mob Psycho 100 I was a bit anxious before posting this one bc I think this was the first gifset I made with really contrast colors (which I’m not really good with). I did kinda like the outcome though, esp with the effects in the 1st and 2nd gifs.

Tagging: @yyh @luxeor @tomura @8ay @mondroid @meruis @ginoeza @ferveor

[singharit]

ur tags on the akechi / yusuke comparison gifset are my entire mood and some excellent analysis I'm weak for tbh

oh thank you so much!! 

imo, so much of akechi’s character is so incredibly nuanced that sometimes it’s easy for people to either miss out on those nuances, or just ignore them, and i think a lot of that is due to the cultural differences between the writers and western audiences.

similar to akechi, i remember reading at one point about japanese players’ reactions to adachi in persona 4 and how they were much more sympathetic than western players. a lot of them could relate to him and understand his motivations. it was primarily due to the nihilism and general misanthropy that pervaded japan’s youth after the bubble economy crashed in ‘92, where many kids growing up during what’s now called “the lost decade” resented the adults of the country for what they saw as creating the financial crisis, prolonging it, and leaving the youth of the country with nothing but hardship after they’d had their own fun. western players, who didn’t have the same kind of cultural context, just saw him as being a self-important and spoilt piece of shit.

while it’s hard to argue that adachi is a victim in the same way that akechi is, i find them to be very similar at their core, with the main difference between them being the power they hold. adachi, even with his front of being useless, was still a member of the police force, he was an adult, he had power and respect in one way or another just from his age and position. akechi was seventeen years old, which i think is something some people forget. he was still a minor, and beholden to the whims of adults as much as the rest of the thieves. if shido had wanted to, he could’ve withheld akechi’s education, he could’ve gotten akechi evicted from his apartment, he could’ve done a myriad of things to enforce his position of power. akechi is plainly aware of this since his shadow self says that shido is planning to have him killed after everything. that sort of abuse obviously takes its toll and may well be what shaped akechi into being a well-intentioned extremist with such a stark view of the world.

i think a lot about what kind of man akechi could’ve become if he’d been handed a better lot in life. he’s obviously cunning and incredibly intelligent even outside the whole detective prince image he’s cultivated, and knows how people think, what makes them tick. those skills seem to be innate in him as a person and if he’d had a better support network, with all the parallels between him and yusuke coming to mind again, i don’t think he’d have ended up even half as bad and desperate for vengeance as he did. 

my favourite headcanon: an older akechi, self-sufficient and slowly healing, practising law. he’s not like sae who faces down murderers and arsonists, he specialises in family law, typically mediating divorce proceedings and custody arrangments. it’s not a glamorous life, a far cry from his detective prince image as a teen, but he gets to make sure that the children he helps don’t suffer like he did. 

[wernerherzogs]

I feel like I remember being really hype for SOTT video and it just didn't...go anywhere???

i’m so glad you sent this ask because HERE’S WHAT I WOULD HAVE DONE DIFFERENTLY. talk about death below, sorry, please tread carefully! also apologies if the cut doesn’t show on mobile, this is… long. rip.

so sott is pretty much about death (harry has #confirmed as much), and i think that the music video focuses on death by suicide specifically (that’s My Interpretation, and i’ll explain my idea for this mv according to this reading). the mv operates on two pretty straightforward* metaphors: flying as being free (and flying = killing yourself; freeing yourself from the burden of living “down below” on earth, etc.), and then you have dramatic imagery of nature as a direct representation of A Man’s Anguish (aka 10000% European Romanticism. death was a big topic in Romanticism too obvs.) like the landscape is absolutely a character in this mv, too.

(*i want to stress that the idea for the mv to be simple isn’t a bad thing. i would actually make the same decision. i don’t want an elaborate mv, i want my audience to focus on the lyrics and to take them on an Emotional Journey. i want them to ANGST TO THIS.)

a music video is no movie (be it a short or full feature), but the best mvs are stories nonetheless. and with every story it’s good to have some kind of a beginning, the middle, and then the ending. like even simple mvs that feature, idk, people at a party usually have a noticeable narrative structure, too. for example: a girl arrives at a party, a boy notices the girl, tries to hit on her, they get together at the end or not. and, FUN FACT, even most of arthouse films follow the most basic pattern of constructing a narration in a film (except where a ~regular movie would explicitly show on screen something like a character death to milk the shock factor, an arthouse film might have that death happen offscreen and not be acknowledged by other characters for a while, but the death would still happen at the same minute mark as in a ~normal movie; just a simple example), but that’s a digression for another day, maybe.

sott is a long ass song that takes it sweet time to reach its conclusion (aka the bridge + final, most dramatic chorus). meanwhile in the mv, they have harry flying with the first chorus at the 1:20 mark, which leaves the remaining 4 min 20 sec with the “will he, won’t he? (kill himself)” question already answered (yes, he will). the audience already knows the ending. meanwhile the song continues to build up and build up in the background, but the viewers have already seen the big climax – he’s already been sent flying, doesn’t matter that the video cuts back to him back on the ground after that. the audience keeps listening to the song and still waits for something Big to happen because /the music/ urges them to, but they’re left hanging at the visual level.

so what you gotta do is prolong the inevitable + control the pacing. yes, it’s that simple. what i’d do personally is play with the idea of physical movement as a representation of spiritual struggle more? because, again, we don’t have to do anything complicated here. so i’d begin the mv with harry completely immobile, just lying on the ground. wide shots of nature in the beginning, have camera take a moment to find Very Small Harry Among the Big Hills and Tall Grass, etc. then some close ups of his limbs lying completely still before i even have my audience take a first look at his face. and then i’d basically make the “walking” part of the mv longer – i’d even have harry pretend to learn how to walk at first. i’d have him sit on the ground once or twice along the way, because maybe he wants to give up right there and then? then he walks some more. now’s your time to cut to those beautiful shots of nature, too. like that’s your time to show that as a director – because he’s maybe, maybe not about to give up on all of that beauty. you gotta show what exactly he’s leaving behind.

and then you have the moment from the gifset i reblogged earlier – for me it’s one of the two Money Shots™ of this mv, tbh. like it moves me so much, because it feels like a direct, 1:1 translation of that specific moment of struggle where a person is considering: am i killing myself now, am i waiting a while longer? it’s a beautiful shot, his feet touch the ground, then they don’t, and then he’s back at the ground again. he doesn’t do it yet, and the mystery is back, the audience is still left wondering. i’d do that once or twice before he’s finally sent flying for real.

i’d have him flying after the bridge! (and you can do some big, dramatic fall - maybe he’s walked to the edge of a cliff and you except him to jump and fall into the water, but boom, he TAKES OFF instead) aka around the 4:45 mark, and then you still have a FULL minute to play with footage of him under the sky. and i’d focus SOLELY on that for the remaining part of the mv, i wouldn’t need my filler footage of trees or waterfalls anymore. i’d also milk the moment that happens around 5:02 more, have it be 2-3 seconds longer maybe. because that’s my second Money Shot™ of this mv. like not to sound like a cheesy old lady, but that shit is breathtaking, bro. you can’t even see his full face at first, and then he’s looking up with tears in his eyes, but looking so fucking happy? IT WORKS. IT WORKS SO WELL. LIKE GREAT JOB, STYLES, THIS SMALL MOMENT STILL HAS ME MORE SHOOK THAN HIS WHOLE PERFORMANCE IN DUNKIRK TBH. like i get emo deadass everytime i see it.

this is a good moment to mention the sun setting in the background at the end. i love it, i’d’ve played with that imagery of a day ending/light changing in the background more, actually. i love that the day is ending (death, End of Things, etc., another simple but effective metaphor), but he’s so fucking HAPPY. he’s embraced death, he’s found solace in it. he’s leaving his pain behind/on the ground.

i’d COMPLETELY delete that footage of him running across the water, god, it RUINS THE MOOD COMPLETELY. DOESN’T FIT AT ALL. would’ve left the shot of him hovering above the water, maybe, but i’d have the water be still. like have that one bit filmed in a studio or something, i don’t care, i don’t need those helicopter waves? they kind of break the spell a bit.

and…… that’s basically it, i guess? lmao. like i said, i do like the idea behind the mv, i’d just have made it more (imho, at least) effective. like, punch that audience emotionally. yeah, he is dying. have people wait for it, so they can be properly moved when it finally happens. the end.