#my mom likes torchwood and she got to name these guys

[oysters-aint-for-me]

the two new additions!! they are a mother and son. tentatively named ianto and gwen.

[brilliantfantasticgeronimo]

legend of ruby sunday let's gooo

TWO SHADES OF RED

ruby is so overhwelmed bless her lol

hOWS YOUR UNCLE. YOU SEXY BITCH SDKLFJ HOW YOU THINK!!!!??

they are making unit too quirky for them not to become a spin off lol

15 WILL flirt with your staff kate and you WILL endure it

screaming the clip was just the first clip. whats gonna happen

"Even I got that" SDKJ THE META

IS THAT SIGNIFICANT"

AAAAAAAAAAAAAA

ya'll are so self-conceited. millions of people are called susana. / i say this while vibrating at the rate of a neutrino star

"susan IS the name of my grandaughter" NOT WAS. IS !!!!

"we'll get him" is that a musk ref. rtd, musk is not a genius lol

"but what for" asking the tough questions

(also regeneration as a disguise…. what a good idea)

JUST DONT GO CHANGING YOURS OOK

"cant we just pipe in a bit of applause " the meta……..

mel pulling a 73!yards ruby

"we have another mystery woman" "ruby sundayyyyyyyyyyy" "you could've warned me" wtf i love tem. i love this. absolute bonkers vibes for a finale. (the horrors will start at any second)

ruby/rose flirting…….. ?? :eyes emoji:

doctor who wasMEANT to have a bunch of middle aged / old

women characters

stsly i love this energy "I love devina" amazing.

"you love to break the rules" she knows her uncle so well

WE CAN SHARPEN THE IMAGE. ENHANCE!!!

im enjoying how the fantasy / scifi plot mystery is tied to this very real personal thing for ruby.

ruby rose holding hands………………. im seeing.

"they never give me proper work" gee i wonder why rose!!! you think your mom wants you out there doing torchwood style suicide missions. cmon.

"he was a postman. she was a dinner lady" hmm

MEL IN HER LIL' ORANGE SCOOTER. OBSESSED!!!!!!!!

CARLA ON ACTION!!!!!!!!! GO GO GO

go get miss flood??????? A???????????

IM ALWAYS HIDING MYSELF AWAY

dont leave it to her oh my god. rip cherry.

(btw god bless. the hallway crack from the christmas special is still there lol)

ms flood nailing the old relative backhanded compliment

IT'S ABOUT TIME I CAUSE TROUBLE FOR MYSELF

HE WAITS NO MORE!!!!!!!!!!!

NOT QUITE. NOT YET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im vibrating so much

oof this is so good. this is so TRUE. "you need roots of your own not a senile old man" updated to "i bring disaster"" aggg

15 is so healthy guys. so healthy

"what if you just said hello to her face?" i cant believe this is happening ya'll. russel really said "the five doctors was BULLSHIT. im gonna fix-it fix this shit" and went and did it. icon

ill have some of that <3 !!!! (lol thats right kate. he'll never trust u like them!!! deal with it)

a phoenix is just a bird until it burns… awesome. what the fuck does that mean

thats right stammer. you're barred from unit. motherfucker 15 is so rude. love him

MANCHESTER MOMENT

MASSIVE INFORMATION FROM THE VHS. I LOVE THIS ABSOLUTE NONESENSE.

ooo the music did a little thing. hold on to your butts babes we about to get DRAMA

unit has better toys. but are they competentent? LOL

clara and the leaf energy tbh (complimentary)

(oh is ruby susan's daughter therefore 15' daughter????) love the snow thing tbh . rtd was like im about to give dw fanartists an easy motif to add to their art for years. thanks king "time has tides and hollows and secrets"

(this transition effect………. very pertwee era intro….. :eyes emoji:) memory is time!!!!

"you cant move" omg impossible mission moment. fathers day moment. 15/ruby dont know how to step moment!!!!!!!!!!!

this is rtd's thought process lol "time … memory… ah shit.. MEMORY TIME MACHINE THERE WE GO"

damn carla and ruby got me here.

"my memory of this keeps changing"

rip chipzode probably

T.T rubes

what the actual fuclk

Close the window!!!!

when is that thing, inspector spacetime???????

it's the beast!! (carla dont name the undefined thing on the "everything becomes what you name it season" o h my gOD)

I AM IN HELL

im loving the coloring/lighting in this episode. everyone looks very sharp and nice

"i bring disaster" hehe

finally some good fucking [kate vs doctor antagonism]

15 frustrated because he finally has to come back from buying the cigarattes/ bread

"FINISHED? STOP GRIZZLING AND FIX IT". mel!!!!!!!!!!!!! thats

mel!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love you mel!!!!!!!!!!!!

rtd said im gonna write a season that is SO self referential. thank u

for writting this show for the weirdos only. (We might run out of disney money tomorrow but TODAY we relish)

brigadier picture!!!

missing episodes restoration commentary? lol (if i was rtd i would have named harriet ms. bachel color)

"i'd remember a handsome chap like you" um. let's no go there!!! thanks

i told u doc u absolute anxious nerd. there's millions of susans!!! (not convinced this isnt anything yet)

the music is doing things

"being an ambulance?" mel u have always been in doccy who. catch up!!!

reverse the polarity of the VHS

(ALSO very 00's/90's "therre's something hiding in the music if u play it backwards Zeitgeist ("Blink"'s dvd easter egg realness))

donna this is all ebcause you had to go and spill that damn coffee. chodizee's blood is on YOUR hands

leave the tardis alone… "then they get wise, and they try to destroy it"

"thank you, and i love you, and good bye" aaaaaaaaa

our tecnology spreads lies and fraud!!! im gonna count that as aBINGO. taking my prize in cash beebs. thank!!!

"you do not question, you move" ummmmm

master? rogue? valeyyard? rassilon? omega? suttek? omega??? rani?? ???

harriet arbingers. rip.

A DREAM OF A WORLD WITH ORANGE SKIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol love this. going over the theories

THE MARA MENTION!!! TEGAN NATIO N WE R I S E

suketh!!!!!! well there it is lol (damn wish i had rewatch Pyramids so i could be more excited about this dklfjsdklfjdskldfs) (also def saw ppl on reddit calling that "second anagram" ou t sdklfjsd)

"did you think i was family, doctor?" rude.

CONCLUSIONS!!!

tbh this had a looooot of good character moments but i think it was mostly a "putting the chessboard pieces in place" episode. still tho damn, those characters moments. highlighting carla/ruby giving me emotions, sutekh/doctor taunting, doctor/kate antagonism MY BELOVED, ruby/rose (best ship name?????), doctor/mel!!!!!!!!!!!!!! being everything!!!!, doctor finally dealing with the susan of it all!!!! (ilu for this rtd). doctor/ruby being super cute and queer before experiencing THE HORRORS, idk how i feel about the reveal since tbh i didnt care much for that serial sdlfkjsdfds but hey. anyway excited for next week. tv show reveal def coming for the second-act-reversal !!!!!/is a hopeless case ALSO enjoyed the filming of this as well (snow! vhs effect!!!) and this is def the most interesting UNIT has ever been lol

[jakowskis]

Day 2 - Who’s your favorite Torchwood member? (And if it’s not one of them, who’s your favorite character?) Why are they your favorite? Do you have any secondary favorites (maybe a one-off or minor character that really stuck with you)?

owen, infinitely. i could write essays on why i love owen - hell, i have written essays. and at this point, you know when a character means so much to you there’s not even words for it anymore, they’re just kind of a fundamental part of you? Yeah. but nonetheless, i guess to majorly sum it up, he’s just one of the most utterly broken and fascinating characters i’ve ever had the pleasure of coming across. there's just a visceral sadness and anger to him that immediately reeled me in and i don’t think i’ll ever get over it, like he actually haunts me. and he made his way into my top 3 characters of all time in just a few months, which is pretty damn impressive. something just kinda clicked there. (and i highlight how fucked up he is, but then he's also complex enough that he's got a silly/dorky side too, which im super endeared by as well. i love his complexity. perf character for me, hes got like 30 things going on and im intrigued and compelled by all of them. i love him endlessly.)

also, okay, i’ve observed my favorite characters tend to unintentionally fit certain criteria, like when i look back at all my favs i can sort them into three categories. namely, it's 1) characters that make me lose my mind bc theyre so interesting (and/or endearing), 2) characters i relate to, and 3) characters i’d smash. fhdjkf. i tend to visualize it as a venn diagram, and most characters sit in one or two of the circles - owen is, i believe, the absolute only fav i’ve ever had who’s firmly in the middle. which probably has something to do with why he’s top 3. dhfdsjk

as for secondary favs… well, i absolutely adore the rest of the team, especially ianto and the girls (including suzie!!!!!!!! my girl suzie). i’m not sure why, gwen’s become a particular favorite. she gives me like cuteness aggression HFKSDF i wanna squish her (lovingly). she’s so fucked up n interesting, but also a lil gremlin to me. i love her playful side she’s such a love.

one-off characters… actually, quite a few have stood out to me and made an emotional impact. torchwood has had some wonderfully talented guest actors who really managed to get me attached to their characters, despite having so little screentime. carys, eugene, and beth all come to mind. i think about beth a lot. and maggie, ohhhh maggie. ill talk about aditd a bit tomorrow, ff.

also the episodes with mothers, oh g-d. eugene’s mom, and jonah’s, and jasmine’s. all really heart-wrenching, and damn good actresses. i always get emotional with plotlines about parents + their kids, fff. parental pain + fear just hits diff idk. i used to watch a ton of criminal minds and that was about the only place my empathy jumped out fhsdkfjd.

i also love the various romantic interests - john, diane, mary, lisa, mark (cough), katie, tommy. rhys!! i love you rhys. torchwood is such a character-focused fixation for me like g-d i just adore every character sm. so many good ones. AND HOW COULD I FORGET MY FAV GUY OF ALL - ANDY!!!!!!!! ily pc andy <3 <3 <3

[besidesitstoowarm]

"Aliens of Londons" thoughts

okay i thought this one was good. sorry

this is the first of many episodes that deal with the fallout the companions leave behind when they up and dust with the doctor. iirc they basically didn't address this with a lot of classic companions bc it would get inconvenient, especially in the era before reruns (or even. keeping the GODDAMN TAPES). it's handled well. the "family issues" stuff can get annoying at times iirc, i just don't care that much (this is true for all of new who, not just davies era)

so i think it's nice the doctor is willing, even happy, to take rose home quick to say hi to her mom and not let her worry too much. obviously it doesn't work out as planned. classic tardis. the cop asks if "companion" indicates a sexual relationship and nine looks at rose before they both answer "no" at the same time. when they're talking on the roof later he's being a little cheeky and she says "you're so gay" which i have never seen mentioned anywhere and did not recall happening. rose? hello????

hi tosh. i'm sorry torchwood is a bad show

i didn't remember the pig tbh. i like him. i feel sorry for him. when the doctor explains later that he's not an alien, just a fucked up regular pig "he must have been terrified" man that's sad. poor guy

one of the signs the doctor passes on the way to the crash says "ELLO E.T." i just want to mention this

the doctor is working with the military for once. i'm taking it as a sign of how recently he was in a war himself, and has not yet remembered how much he hates it. we get a unit name drop in this ep, which is nice. i miss the brig. none of these people have a stache remotely comparable

i feel so bad for mickey in this one. it must have killed him to hear "he's not my boyfriend, he's better than that, he's much more important" like wow rose. people shit on mickey (or used to? idk what the current mood is) for being "annoying" but he's the only one being remotely reasonable about the whole situation. i guess jackie too

so i don't know anything about uk politics except that a former prime minister formerly fucked a pig, which is. cool. but this is a very post-9/11 ep for sure, not as explicit as twelve's zygon two-parter in its allegory but also it's a lot better imo. the line about how 3 people have been killed bc they were mistaken for aliens, how the real aliens are hiding in british parliament, invasion as distraction. it's pretty self-explanatory, i like it a lot

i'm going to go on record saying i like the slitheen design. they are friend-shaped, to me. fat faces. i'd like to squish them. i want to know where they got their lip filler done, it looks fab. i will say i am quite tolerant of this show being stupid but i can't take all the farting. some is fine but i can't handle this much. not as bad as i remember tho

[dragonswithjetpacks]

Oh man. I’ve had such a rough year already.

I found out I was pregnant in February, which is great. But we’re having to remodel part of the house for the nursery. Which is a problem because my SO has been working out of town since January.

He was supposed to be done by April. It’s currently May. I’ve been doing things on my own. I’m currently 18 weeks. So things are starting to get difficult. But at least I’m not falling asleep at my desk anymore. Which got me into trouble at work. I was offline too much so I got written up. Even though let me have some days off excused for being sick while knowing I was pregnant. Whatever.

On top of that, my cat went missing for a week. Then I found out he passed away the same day he went missing and a random cop picked him up and no one has any idea what they did with the body. I know the local animal control guy and he doesn’t know, either. So I’ve been on week three of crying about that. He was my favorite cat... and we have a history.

On. top. of. that. My SO’s ex, mother of his children, has been an absolute terror. She’s been sending him gifts to give to me. Telling him what to do with me. Then projecting her insecurities onto me and telling him about it. I don’t speak to her any more and this is a snippit of why. She said I’m not close with the kids (bullshit) and that if I didn’t have a relationship with her, they were going to reject my baby. Um. Hurtful? But he gets the apology, I don’t.

On TOP of that, my SO’s mom has been asking for his help every single weekend. Like he barely gets to spend time with his kids or me. And I need him here to help with the remodel. But he doesn’t tell her no, of course. And is like “if we don’t have plans I don’t see why not”. LIKE WHY do I have to make plans with you to fix your own house. Like bruh. She’s been awful, too. Guilt tripping me about where I’m having the baby and the names I have picked.

And I’ve just been burnt out and restless. Can’t play a game longer than twenty minutes. Can’t sit still or stay awake long enough to watch anything. Can’t go outside because it’s been raining all week. Luckily I have some time off coming soon. I think I need it desperately. I have so much I want to do.

Good news is that I finally got an adapter to turn my hard drive into basically a giant USB. I have all my old screenshots and game saves, now. I also started watching Torchwood since we have HBO again. S2 Ianto is keeping me sane.

I’m ready to start writing again. Or playing. Or something. I miss posting. I miss having a project. I can’t even paint right now because my station is in the basement waiting to be set up WHICH I CAN’T DO BECAUSE I’M PREGNANT AND MY SO ISN’T HERE.

BUT, the baby is healthy. I’m healthy. So that’s all wonderful.

[trashboatprince]

I had another idea for Tentoo and Rose, and I had to write it up.

Summery: Clearly, if you’re going to be living in a new world where you can’t just always get away with psychic paper to get into places, you’re gonna have come up with an identity for yourself.

And that includes a name.

So, Rose and the Doctor have an afternoon to kill, why not figure out what works best for the guy?

The name I give Tentoo is pretty much my headcanon name for him, do with it what you will. Also, the names suggested are mostly for fun.

On with the fic!

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To Name a Doctor

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A thwump sound caught the Doctor’s attention from the banana he was peeling, and his attention was drawn to the puce folder in front of him. It was still weird that puce was the color for folders rather than manilla in this universe, but it was the little things that seemed to catch his attention more than the big things.

Like how the chips here were terrible and he was working on genetically modifying a root vegetable in order to make actual, good chips.

The Doctor looked up at Rose who sat on the opposite side of the kitchen’s bar, gently pushing the folder closer to him. “Dad wanted me to give you these yesterday, but I forgot them in the car last night.”

“And they are…?” He asked, opening it up to see documents that required him to fill out information.

“Well, they’re identification papers that Dad and I wrote up yesterday over lunch. You’ve been here for over a week now and you’ve done a number of things but have not given yourself an identity here.” Rose replied and the Doctor set down his banana, giving this a little bit of thought.

Yes, in just his ten days here in Pete’s World, he’s built himself a screwdriver, bought himself some clothes, pretty much moved into Rose’s room (though he technically had his own in the Tyler estate until he and Rose found their own place), and had gotten on Jackie’s nerves at least thirty nine times. Oh, and he was able to properly identify and disarm an alien gas bomb that Torchwood had discovered through a phone call with Pete.

But Rose was right, he had yet to do anything about giving himself ‘official’ documents here. Rose had her own made forever ago, excellent fakes, no one could tell that they weren’t real, which means he’d have to get himself some too.

“Hmm… do we have anything planned today?” The brunet asked as he looked over the papers.

“Nope.” Rose spoke, popping the P. “So, wanna lie on some documents?”

The Doctor’s grin rivaled the one his girlfriend shared, and he took the pen she offered him. She got up from her seat, saying she was gonna make them some tea and he nodded, looking down at the papers in front of him.

“Alright, let’s fill out the easy stuff.” He commented, quickly writing down his weight, height, hair and eye color for IDs and ‘updated’ information, before hitting the roadblocks. “Birth date… hmmm, what do you think works best? Christmas Day, or when the meta-crisis happened?”

Rose looked over her shoulder, confused. “Christmas Day?”

“You know, when…?” The Doctor raised his right hand, wiggling his fingers.

This got a laugh out of the blonde as she put the kettle on the stove. “Oh, that’s a good one! I’d say Christmas, I mean, technically it was the day you were born, both as the hand and as the new Doctor.”

“Well, actually, I was regenerated on that day in the Game Station, and we arrived back on Earth on Christmas Eve, but still, close enough!” The part-Time Lord wrote down December 25th on the document before frowning. “Okay, parents… technically myself and Donna.”

“Then put down John Smith and Donna Noble.” Rose snickered. “Oh, I bet they’d have real laugh about that.”

“Donna might! Before she’d get angry about it. ‘Oi, spaceman! I am not gonna be your mother, even if I did help make you’!” The Doctor spoke, putting on his best impression of the fiery redhead, which sounded way too much like her, so he quickly shut his mouth. Rose burst out laughing at this and he scowled, before laughing as well. He quickly wrote down the names before pausing.

“I do have to give myself a name. John Smith won’t work. I mean, it’s worked a number of times, but some people are so suspicious of how generic it is, ya know? And I’m technically another version of the Doctor, still him, but upgrade, in a sense.” Like Hell he’d say he was downgrade.

Rose shrugged. “You could be a junior, or a second.”

The Doctor made a face. “Hmm… I dunno… maybe I could try for a new name? Something a bit different. What do you think of David?” He asked, saying the first name to come to mind.

“Hmm…” Rose thought, looking him over. “You sort of look like a David, but we’ll put that in the maybe pile. What about Matt?”

“Nah, don’t look much like that. Peter?”

“No, not that. Alec?”

“I feel like that name would make me ruder than I already am. Anthony?”

Rose snorted. “No, that’s my brother’s name! Though, if you were ginger with that name… Crowley?”

The Doctor shook his head. “Don’t think I could pull that off. Corin?”

Both paused and made faces. “No, no, terrible name, you’re right.” He shook his head. “Somehow that sounds ruder than Alec! Cassiopeia?”

“Doctor, I know I probably won’t call you these names except around people who don’t know you’re the Doctor, but there is no way in hell I’m callin’ you that.”

The Doctor looked at her funny. “What’s wrong with naming myself after a constellation?”

Rose just looked at him, raising an eyebrow, crossing her arms with an expression that basically shouted ‘are you seriously asking that question’.

“Right.” He sighed, scratching his head. “Jack?” He joked and she laughed. “Nah, good point. Oh! Wait, I’ve got one! Wilfred!”

This got Rose to raise an eyebrow. “Donna’s grandpa?”

“Yes! He’s a good man, really enjoyed his company, got to spend some time with him. Did you know he got a star named after him after he discovered it? Amazing, real proud of that man.” The Doctor smiled softly, toying with the pen in his hands. “I hope he’s doing okay.”

Rose knew there was a quiet, unspoken addition to that, but she didn’t bring it up. “Wilfred is a good name; do you want that?”

“I was thinking that’d be my middle name. I might go with John as the first, for old time’s sake, but Wilfred is the middle name. And… Noble, for the last name?”

The blonde gave this a bit of thought, tapping at her chin. “John Wilfred Noble… I like it.”

“Sounds good enough to tag on Tyler to it in the future?” The half-alien grinned and Rose walked over, giving him a little shove before a kiss on the cheek.

“John Wilfred Tyler-Noble? I think that’s an excellent name. Just don’t be writin’ that down on that paperwork! Don’t want Dad asking us a million questions!”

“Oh come on, it would be hilarious to show my ID card to your mom and watching her reaction!” He got a punch to the arm, making him wince. “Alright, alright, I’ll save that for later.”

Rose smirked and kissed his cheek again. “Right, so, for now you just leave the Tyler part off until we get that far. But this looks pretty good, now, onto figuring out your birth year.”

“Oh, that’s gonna be a challenge.”

END

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Just something short and sweet. I’m in that group of Tentoo fans that loves the idea that he took on Wilfred’s name and Donna’s last name, especially cause I’ve been looking into the side content involving Ten and Donna and how much he seems to enjoy the Noble family (yes, that includes Sylvia, to a smaller extent, I mean, he even pretended she was his mother-in-law in an audio adventure). And yes, Wilfred does have a star named after him, its from one of the novels.

I might make this a little series of one-shots of Tentoo adapting to Pete’s World, spending time with the Tylers, and exploring this universe.

Thanks for reading! 

[flying-elliska]

What are the important bisexual characters that you said helped you? I am having a hard time finding good bi representation in which they aren’t considered promiscuous or unstable

Hiya anon ! What a quality question, thank you ! Here’s another mini essay about bi rep lmao.  If there are some that I forgot please tell me ! And to everyone, tell me about the bi characters who made an impact on your life, I’d love to know !!!!

Okay so.

-  When I answered the anon and talked about the characters that helped me come to terms with my sexuality, I talked about two in particular. Jack Harkness from Torchwood is depicted as very promiscuous, and somewhat instable. He still meant a lot to me because a) him sleeping around was never that much of a problem, it was because he was from the future, where things were different, which I thought was refreshing and b) his instability was because of the weight of being an immortal hero. Also fanon!Dean Winchester from SPN, as an older, more macho, emotionally witholding, badass dude written as bi meant a lot to me, but he doesn’t really avoid that stereotype either. But at least they were heroes.  However, I can understand wanting bi characters that actually don’t fit that stereotype, because bi people irl aren’t all like that, even if there is nothing wrong per se about sleeping with a lot of different people, or having mental issues to struggle with. And that was a while ago and now we have more and more cool characters ! Such as :

- Rosa Diaz from Brooklyn Nine-Nine. One of the best portrayals of bisexuality on TV imho. She didn’t start out as bi, she was this tough, cool, scary but with a heart of gold cop who had a lot of other plotlines before. But then, since they saw that a lot of wlw got this vibe from her, were really into her, and the actress came out as bi herself, they decided to use this. So it was super organic, and the way they introduced the subject was true to Rosa herself ; she’s a super private person, she doesn’t like anybody knowing about her life (it’s actually a running joke and Rosa Diaz has been implied to not even be her real name). But then she is dating a woman, and struggles with her parents not understanding and her coworkers find out, help her and support her. Her gay captain is there for her in his typical stoic but hilarious way. They organize game night with her when her parents won’t anymore. We see her crushing on women and dating, but it is treated exactly as the other character’s love life, they never make a big deal out of it. She isn’t the token queer character. She says outright she is bisexual and there is a specific point about her mom not understanding it’s not a phase and thinking she’ll end up with a man anyway, which #relatable. The focus is on the team as found family. Also right now she’s dating a butch woman, which is awesome since they are so underrepresented on TV and I hope we see more of her. That show really is my comfort show, it’s still bloodly hilarious and it really transcends the format to say some really deep woke stuff too, but never in a way that feels on the nose. Everyone should watch it tbh. 

- Korrasami ! Oh my god, I was so blown away when they got together. They’re two characters from the animated series Legend of Korra, they start out as rivals in love who have feelings for the same guy, but as they have to fight baddies together, they become bestest of friends, and both fall out of love with the guy. Then in season 3 and 4, their relationship becomes central to the show, as Asami stands by Korra through some really tough shit. Also, they’re both ultra badass and fight really well together. A lot of fans started reading their chemistry as romantic, but we’d never thought they’d actually go there. But the show ends with them walking into the ‘sunset’ (well, the spirit lands) together, holding hands. Now, it was never completely explicit on the show BUT they were dealing with a lot of censure from the networks and you have to be willingly obtuse not to read it as romantic. And after that the creators drew them on dates, and there is a comic series in which they are shown kissing, talking about their feelings, introducing each other to their families, etc. It made me feel so validated when it happened, and I just adore the whole ‘love triangle ditches the middle one and fall in gay love with each other’ trope. (is it a trope yet ? it should be.) It’s still a kids show at its core, but it has amazing depth and deals with some very deep shit. Korra starts off as a bit annoying but she has a really cool development, she’s a girl character we need more of - brave, dynamic but also brash and reckless and action driven in ways that are almost always exclusively shown for boys. And Asami is a more typical girly girl but she’s also a brilliant engineer and has a spine of steel and she’s also very slyly funny. They’re amazing. And the comics are super cute. 

- Now there are a lot of characters who are bi/pan that I love, and are good characters in themselves, but their arcs do intersect in some ways with promiscuity and mental instability. I’m thinking about Even from Skam and all his remake variants, Magnus Bane from Shadowhunters, several characters from Black Sails, Sarah Lance and Constantine from Legends of Tomorrow, Eleanor Shellstrop from the Good Place, Bo from Lost Girl, Ilana from Broad City, Joe McMillan from Halt and Catch Fire, God/Chuck from Supernatural (lmaooooo), several characters on Penny Dreadful, or in a totally different category, Vilanelle from Killing Eve or Hannibal from the series (who are hella bad guys but it’s never linked to their sexuality, and are also incredibly compelling to watch.)

 And even though these characters taken individually, I would argue, are good rep because they’re complex and layered and interesting and never one-dimensional (and watching them feels incredibly empowering at times)....it’s still a trend. I feel like when writing a character that is attracted to multiple genders, there is always this sort of...tangle of tropes that writers default to, unconsciously. Some negative and some positive. It used to be this trope of bis being villainous, instable, jealous, flaky, immature, perverted, manipulative, cheaters, amoral, greey, etc...and then it evolved into something of a reclaiming and subverting this trope. So now you feel like the Bi Character kind of has to be badass, glamorous, seductive, often superpowered or extraordinary in other ways.. And they also for multiple reasons (they’re immortal, they’re sensitive artist souls, they’re from the future, they’re psycho, they’re exccentric comic relief, they’re daring adventurers and pioneers) don’t care about social norms which allows them to sleep and fall in love with whomever. And so they tend to have those super busy romantic/sexual histories and very troubled backstories. In the past it was a bad thing, now it’s often presented as this positive, enlightened or at least fun and badass thing. They’re heroic, with big hearts, a tremendous lust for life and a cool rebellious attitude. They’re complex, dramatic, tortured. Which can be super cool, too. 

But it would be nice to have more ‘normal’ bi characters. I mean, boring bisexuals need to see themselves represented too ! Our sexualities don’t give us super powers. At the same time, it is true that bisexual ppl have higher rates of mental illness, which deserves to be explored, but it would be nice if it was actually articulated and not just part of this trope.  But still. We need rep, I think, that is more grounded and varied. So I think that’s also why I read a lot of fanfic. (I was really into the idea of bi Steve Rogers for a long time, partly also because he’s both very mentally resilient, kinda boring in a good way, and very unexperienced in terms of sex/romance, which is pretty much the opposite of the trope)

- I think books, and YA in general, are a good place to find these ‘normal bis’ characters. I’m thinking in particular of Leah from Leah on the Offbeat by Becky Albertalli (from the same book series that gave us the ‘Love, Simon’ movie) which is a super sweet coming of age/romance story about a super normal teenager who just happens to be also into girls (esp her best friend) and is loud and funny and very lovable and has zero doubts about being bi. You also have Adam Parrish from the Raven Cycle, another one of my forever faves ; he has an abusive family so PTSD from that but it never feels tropey, and it’s completely detached from his sexuality. He has magic powers, too. But his character feels completely opposite to the trope. He’s hardworking, somewhat withholding, prickly (and sometimes awkward), ambitious, determined, down to earth, and has a beautiful love story with another boy. And also Jane, from Jane Unlimited by Kristin Cashore, also really cool ; she’s a nerdy, smart girl who is actually inspired by Jane Eyre who has cool adventures in a weird house where we can follow her on different paths depending on the choices she makes, several of which are love stories. And finally the main character from The Seven Husbands from Evelyn Hugo, kinda fits the trope yeahhh since she’s a super glam actress who well, has seven husbands but it’s a pretty clever deconstruction since it turns out (slight spoilers) that Evelyn is actually through most of her life faithful in heart to the same person and the rest is mostly out of necessity, and her story feels very real and raw and down to earth. 

- I don’t go there yet but I really want to check out Crazy Ex-Girlfriend and Schitt’s Creek which I have read have very good bi rep. And I want to catch up on Orphan Black (Cosima and Delphine both don’t have exact labels but they’re multi-gender attracted and they’re this cool couple of scientists in a relationship that gets a happy ending). I will never forgive what they did to Lexa so I stopped watching but I do think that Clarke Griffin from The 100 is very good bi rep. Alexia from Skam France, meanwhile, is a bit of a boundary case for me because, even though she’s presented as the ‘weird one’ from the group, very colorful and liberated and exccentric, she’s still a very normal teen who’s happy and comfortable in her own skin, which is awesome. 

- Disclaimer, I included characters in here that are also pan/omnisexual or don’t have a label but are attracted to several genders, for the purpose of this discussion i don’t think the difference is all that relevant at least to me (i mostly identify as bi for the sake of simplicity but tbh i could also fit under pan so i feel represented by all those characters). But I understand the importance of characters that state their identities more clearly and with pride. 

- So in conclusion : there is nothing wrong with having a sexually active life or struggling mentally (even tho that one is not fun). And I do love all my badass casanova time travelling super powered bis. 

But we need more bi characters that don’t fit that trope. We need bi characters in children’s shows, or that don’t have more than one relationship, or that don’t have a relationship at all, to break the tendency to always show bisexual ppl as overly sexual. We need bi characters in committed relationships to break this idea that bi characters are bound to cheat or can’t be satisified with only one person. We need bi characters that are mentally stable and successful and happy, to show that it’s possible. We need bi characters that are boring, bookish, nerdy, ordinary, clumsy, not particularly seductive, socially awkward, rule-sticklers, etc...to show that bi people are not all party animals, or doing it for attention, or to be wild, rebellious and socially progressive. It’s just a sexuality, it doesn’t say anything about your personality. Even though there are some correlations with MI or being bi might bring you in contact with more progressive ideas and to see life a bit differently, there is nothing automatic about it. 

- In conclusion, reading testimonies from real people also helped me a lot. It’s a very dated but I got the book “ Bi Any Other Name: Bisexual People Speak Out “ when I was struggling with my own sexuality and it helped a lot, to read that even back then (1991) you had all sorts of regular ppl claiming to be bi and that it was not a phase or a fad or whatever. 

[thebeautifulisalwaysbizarre]

I was tagged by @vildeliens thank you Queen (of clowns and headcanoons) ❤️

Pick 5 shows, then answer the following questions, don’t cheat. Tag 10 (or however many) people.  

Oz

Skam France

The Walking Dead

Doctor Who

Torchwood

1. Who is your favourite character in 2? Well that one is easy as hell. Lucas Lallemant, without the shadow of a doubt. I just adore that boy... I really do believe that he’s the most developed character of the whole skam universe. Also, i relate to him so so much, being parisian and 17 and queer and just, globally similar. And that Acting (TM) sure helps (will i ever be over axel’s acting? I dont think so)... I am gonna stop before i write essays (you all think this is a joke but i actually write random stuff about Lucas when i get bored in class, thats how bad it is). I just really love this boy folks...

2. Who is your least favourite character in 1? Well that’s an easy one too. Vernon Schillinger, because he is a neonazi, which is enough. And he is just plain BAD (rapist, murderer, coward, blackmailer... you name it)... And it’s not even a love hate situation, i despise the guy so  much, he makes me wanna crawl off my skin whenever he is on screen. Also i think he’s quite one dimensional which is very weird for that show but yeah. He is The Bad Guy.

3. What is your favourite episode of 4? Well that’s a harder one lmao, because you know, the show has been going on since 1963, which means i have many many favourites... Imma go only with reboot, cause thats the one i know better and i have to say it’s the one i enjoy the most. I think my all time fave is the two parts one, The Empty Child and The Doctor Dances, because those are just so perfect in every aspect imo. But i also love love love the library arc from season 4 (i think lmao) because KUDOS FOR MAKING US INSENSITIVE ABOUT A CHARACTER’S DEATH ONLY FOT IT TO KILL US LATER (and overall the episodes are so so good). Also, because i’m a hoe for big dramatic moments, the episodes with the Master (end of s3 and end of s4 mainly, i dont really like Missy) and the two parts The Stolen Earth/Journey’s end (i remember being so hyped by all of them squading up). Also, it’s not an episode but it deserves its place there: the entire season 6. Because Matt Smith, Karen Gillan, Alex Kingston and Arthur Darvill are just so good. I didnt really enjoy seasons 8 to 10 (even tho i adore Peter Capaldi), but season 7 also has some that i loved (Angels in Manhattan and The Name of the Doctor killed me). And the 50th anniversary. I MEAN THIS IS COMPLICATE I LOVE THIS SHOW SO MUCH IT HAS SO MANY GOOD EPISODES (and it’s the first show i got obsessed with so theres that)

4. What is your favourite season of 5? I think i’ll go with season 2 (?), because i love the og squad and they were all in it in s2, and i think the arcs were done really well (and the last episode, haha, me dead)... S3 and 4 i enjoyed less cause i think the teams didn’t really work without Tosh, Owen and Ianto... I couldn’t really find that magic again (and yes i’m still bitter). 

5. Who is your favourite couple in 3? It’s hard to find ALIVE people to form couples with lmao so i’ll go with one that is in kinda stand-by... it’s complicate...  Rick and Michonne cause i loved how they were best friends first and how their whole story was built... It made a lot of sense to me. Also i love the show less nowadays but i think those are still strong characters (minus Rick now lol)

6. Who is your favourite couple in 2? I had to snort. I know, it’s going to surprise you all, but it’s Manon and Charles OF COURSE. Kidding (pls. break. them. up). It’s Eliott and Lucas (how many of you all are surprised) because. Do i need to explain. Just. Everything. I can’t even put it into words. they’re just a perfect match and so in tune and so in love and i should stop now but i won’t so i’m sorry. I love how they complete each other and understand each other, and i loved how Lucas made Eliott’s dream real (polaris), and i love how they arent perfect yet they learn with each other and they make each other better . I love how cute they look and how in love and how raw. I love the way Lucas’ voice softens when he talks to eliott, and the way eliott’s eyes are so full of wonder. Also the way they fight sometimes but always come back to each other and love stronger. And their ship names literally means “chosen one”, how could I not ship? LISTEN THEY JUST FIT OKAY AND I WONT TAKE ANY CRITICISM

7. What is your favourite episode of 1? oh god i don’t remember them all at all lmao but imma try to come up with one (not 22838 like i normally do). So i’d say 4x11 (revenge is sweet)?? but honestly the show is so continuous that its hard to choose one ep... id say s4 is my favourite hands down though

8. What is your favourite episode of 5? YES THAT I CAN!! it’s from season 1, even though i love s2 better overall, Countrycide. I loved everything about that ep, and it still sends shivers down my spine when i think about it. I particularly enjoyed how it depicted the team’s relationships and how it showed that monsters can be amongst mankind (which, we been knew, but still. it was very well done for a show that fights aliens to fight humans)

9. What is your favourite season of 2? Another easy one! Season 3, as my entire blog can attest. It’s just. A masterpiece. That’s it that’s the post.

10. How long have you watched 1? I bingewatched it in like two months (cause i had to take breaks because school) in 2016. It’s a show that ended around 2000 so it’s not like i HAD to wait, and the episodes aren’t really stand alone so i had to watch them in a row.

11. How did you become interested in 3? I started watching with my dad because he is a cinephile that shows me loads of movies and tv series, then showed it to my mom. And now my dad stopped watching so i watch it with my mom exclusively even though i dont enjoy as much as i used to (still love it though). 

12. Who is your favourite actor in 4? Matt Smith (even though i adored Eccleston, and couldn’t appreciate Tennant’s AMAZINGNESS cause i was too sad to see 9 go aoimjdk). But Matt Smith is the funniest, most Doctor-ish one imo.

13. Which do you prefer, 1, 2, or 5? This is gonna sound like a betrayal to shows i’ve watched for so many years but Skam France, hands down. (i’m obsessed okay)

14. Which show have you seen more episodes of, 1 or 3? 3 because it has more eps and i’m caught up with both, so logically its 3.

15. If you could be anyone from 4, who would you be? Umh i think i’m kinda similar to Clara in some ways (?). Maybe. Like in the way we’re both hopeless romantic in search of an adventurous life. Plus, she is a lgbt+ icon and you can’t convince me otherwise so there’s that. i mean i think i globally identify with companions cause i wanna be them so bad lmao (imagine how cool it would be for my nerdy self ugh). But i look like a Sontaran so. Mayhaps i’d be one of those instead

16. Would a crossover between 3 and 4 work? umh that’d be funny as hell. The Doctor just jumping in a zombie apocalypse. Though i think they’d find a way to stop the apocalypse, so the second show would be annihilated by the first one. Mmh. Interesting still, up for it (i’m up for anything tbh)

17. Pair two characters in 1 who would make an unlikely but strangely okay couple? That’s the hardest one i had to answer GOD. I’d go with the crack ship, Ryan O’Reilly and Miguel Alvarez, tho they would both kill me and then burn my body if they ever saw this

18. Overall, which show has the better storyline, 3 or 5? Weeeelll i think The Walking Dead used to have an amazing storyline (the Governor’s arc was spectacular), but now i’d go with Torchwood cause sometimes (a lot of times), shows that don’t try to make it last for ages tie everything better. And Torchwood did tie things well enough imo (even tho i’m forever sad and bitter)

19. Which has the better theme music, 2 or 4? I don’ think Skam France has a theme music?? more like soundtracks (amazing ones)??? But i mean even if it did Doctor Who would still win cause the themes are fantastic (yes i went there)

This was so fun guys so imma tag @evnisak, @isak-valterssen, @jebentnietalleen, @demauryy, @srodvlv, @takaoparadise, @starcassstic, @thebananaslug, @sleepingthroughmyproblems, @akalousthings and anyone else i forgot, or anyone wanting to do this really

[avaantares]

Tag game - Torchwood edition

Tagged by:  @humany-wumany-stuff

Rules: Always post the rules. Answer the 11 random questions posted for you. Create 11 new ones and tag 11 people. Let the person who tagged you know that you answered.

1. When did you start watching Torchwood and what (or who) got you to start watching?

I was actually a bit late to the party, since my personal history with Doctor Who is... complicated (and waaaaay too long to relate here, though I’m happy to share the story if anyone ever gets really bored). The net result is that I didn’t catch up with New Who and, by extension, Torchwood until long after Torchwood had finished its TV run. I think it was 2014, maybe? (Sadly, I’d already been spoiled for most major series events, so I didn’t get to experience the shock and dismay of those who watched when it was new.)

I started watching because yes please, more Captain Jack Harkness, thank you. But I stayed for Ianto Jones.

2. What is your go-to episode to watch when you’re feeling down/bored and why?

You know, I really don’t have that kind of relationship with television. I watch TV so rarely (by which I mean I went for 13 years without even having TV and didn’t miss it), and I have so little free time in my schedule, that I don’t tend to rewatch shows unless I’m 1) showing the series to someone new (which I’ve done with Torchwood) or 2) looking for specific costume references (which I have also done with Torchwood).

That said, I think KKBB probably packs the most pure, shameless entertainment value, so if I really needed a Torchwood fix I’d probably go for that one.

3. Which of the TW villains/aliens/whatevers did you find the scariest and why?

I think Torchwood’s storytelling was at its best when the team wasn’t facing camp alien monsters, but rather dealing with concepts and issues rooted in our reality. Suzie Costello was a decent person, slowly warped into a serial killer by the things she’d seen and done. Out of Time touched on aging and cultural disconnect and loss. Meat was about exploitation. Children of Earth used aliens as a frame to explore political corruption and the abuse of power. Those stories were much darker and stayed with me longer than, say, a poorly-CGed “fairy” with improbable dentition. (Apologies to The Mill, but those effects... weren’t scary at all.)

4. If you had to pick 2 characters to do a BF audio, who would it be and what would it be about?

Ianto Jones and Norton Folgate. Probably having to join forces to save Jack, or something. I don’t even care what the plot is, I just want a full hour of catty insults and cutting dialogue between those two. SO MUCH SASS.

5. What is your favourite fanfic-trope to read/write?

To read? Probably slow burn, but it has to be done really well. I also enjoy emotional H/C, if it’s believable and not just abusing or woobifying the characters.

To write? The pen-dulum (ha!) swings liberally between angst and dry humor/snark. I also have a tendency to get characters into really heated, emotional arguments, possibly because they’re all so stupidly repressed and it’s nice to see them let loose once in a while.

6. If you could assemble your own TW team (post-CoE) with canon characters from the extended Who-niverse (any show related to DW), who would be in it?

So this is basically just a list of all my favorite companions, right?

Core Modern-Day Team:

Martha Jones - brilliant medic; worked for UNIT; saved the world a few times. Won’t take guff from anyone.

River Song - Jack’s equal in every way, only far more likely to shoot you. Tolerates even less nonsense than Martha.

Zoe Heriot - super genius from the future who can calculate pretty much any mathematical solution in her head faster than a computer. Adorably perky, but not afraid to hit bad guys over the head.

Sara Kingdom - by-the-book former Space Security officer. The one who would constantly be reminding Jack that he’s in violation of Torchwood code #439.27 subsection A. Also handy with a blaster.

Ianto Jones - because of course he’s still around, why wouldn’t he be?

Victorian Team:

The Paternoster Gang (Lady Vastra, Jenny, and Strax) - They’re pretty much doing Torchwood’s job for them already. so why not?

Jamie McCrimmon - 18th-century Highlander. Only barred from the main team because if Jack actually had a young, athletic, kilt-wearing man on his regular team, he’d never get ANYTHING accomplished (also, Ianto would probably have to intervene due to Olympic levels of workplace sexual harassment).

Consultant:

Sarah Jane Smith and K-9 - journalist-turned-suburban-mom who still saves the world on a weekly basis, and her robot dog. She doesn’t really approve of Torchwood (that’s actually canon!), but helps out when they need it.

7. A question you would like to ask the actors on a panel (assume they are all present :p)

Since we know that the storylines and character arcs were often in flux as the series was being written, what grounding concept or idea allowed you to keep your character’s portrayal consistent throughout the series?

8. If there was another season and they would do a crossover with any show/movie/book/whatever of your choosing for 1 episode, what would it be and why?

This is a little bit cracked, but someone recently posted about a Dirk Gently/Torchwood crossover, and I think, with enough suspension of disbelief, there’s actually some potential there. I mean, except for the conflict of Samuel Barnett being in both series. (Though I could see some good material there, too...)

Apart from that, it’s already been, er, “established” that Sherlock and Doctor Who/Torchwood exist in the same universe (oh, Arwel Wyn Jones, did you know the chaos you were unleashing?), so... why not?

9. If you were to find out tomorrow that Torchwood is real and Jack is leading a Torchwood team in your home city, how would you convince him to let you join them?

Oh, man. Would I want to? I mean, what are my odds of survival?

I am (among other things) a professional animal trainer with some certification letters after my name, so I would probably just point out that they really need someone to train their pteranodon so it stops eating livestock and pooping on all the war memorials.

10. How would you recast the original Torchwood team? (Jack, Owen, Tosh, Ianto and Gwen)

Hmm, I’m not sure I would. The characters are so closely tied to the actors in my mind, I can’t picture anyone else playing them. I can only come up with alternate faces if we port it completely out of context. So here’s my completely ridiculous Golden Age of Hollywood Torchwood cast:

Jack - Errol Flynn (dat jawline, yo)

Owen - James Cagney

Gwen - Barbara Stanwyck

Ianto - Marlon Brando (young Brando. Not Jor-El.)

Tosh - Miiko Taka? (This is a hard one to cast in that era, because Toshiko’s Japanese heritage is so significant to her character, but there were so few headlining Asian actresses during the GAoH. Or... well, even today, for that matter.)

11. If you could pick any author to write a Torchwood novel, who would it be and why?

Are we excluding fanfic writers? Because if we’re going to talk novel-length Torchwood stories, I could name a few that are more consistent and true to character than the official ones... *sidelong glance at @gmariam321*

But while we’re dreaming of impossible things, how about Douglas Adams? He wrote for Doctor Who, and his own books spanned the bizarre (Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy) and the tragic (Last Chance to See), so I think he would bring an interesting perspective to a bunch of alien hunters trying to save the world from their glorified sewer in Cardiff.

Also, potential sofa cameos.

In all honesty, I was going to do the 11-new-questions-and-tag-people thing, but it’s now 4:59 a.m. (ZOMG1 what am I still doing awake at this hour?!) and I really, really need to turn off the computer instead of thinking up creative new asks. So I’ll just open this up to anyone who hasn’t yet been tagged and offer them the same questions @humany-wumany-stuff posed!

[escapaldi]

It’s like I never sat an exam on characterization or anything...

Under the cut is basically just me musing about why I’m not thrilled about certain things regarding my favorite show of all time, its current changeovers, and how others are seemingly handling it.

BBC: Time for us to announce the casting of the Thirteenth Doctor!

Me: Wow, as much as I like seeing my gender represented, I hope it's not a woman this time, especially since it would be directly after our first Lady Master and all the fuss over Bill. I’ll watch it no matter what, but it still makes me a bit uneasy when I go and break everything down...

BBC: It's Jodie Whittaker! Of course you don’t know who this is! She’s been in nothing you’ve ever heard of, even some Brits.

Me: ...because to insinuate that the Doctor is trying to emulate the Master in any way is pretty gross. I mean, as marvelous a job as Gomez does with the role, the Master has always been the Doctor's fallen brother--gender not withstanding--and to ignore that is to ignore integral parts of their characters and their relationship. It’s one of the few things that although still played with over the years, it roughly stayed the same, and in a show where continuity is often optional, that’s saying something.

BBC: omg we have a doctor w/boobies now aren’t we cool

Me: While it’s understood that actors have been cutting their teeth and molding themselves on the show for decades while the established ones have a ball, it seems like you have a lose-lose situation no matter who gets cast. We’re ending, probably prematurely, the best Doctor yet--literally an actor the entire show in the making--and the shoes are going to be large to fill. If anything, we’d need a big name to help mitigate it, but most big enough names are too busy with films to go to TV, and this is a completely gender-neutral statement.

BBC: This is so exciting you guys, because we really want you to forget how hard Class failed by giving you “diversity” to distract you from how much we clearly hate everything about this show and the fans and especially the YA genre, which was, combined with the Torchwood Jr-ness of it, was why Class was the biggest piece of stupidly-and.unecessarily-edgy-soap-opera-y garbage that was Doctor Who in assumption only since... well... Torchwood.

Me: I mean, we already had a disappointing time with s10 and Bill. She was pumped up as a huge deal, and all we got was a bland person who was good at being outraged. Not letting up on the Doctor is good, but that does not a great companion make. When you have to ask the question, “Did it have to be [character] who said/did this and it all still make sense/the same amount of impact?“ and you can’t say “Definitely”, then you might have a character depth problem. If you keep doing this to what are supposed to be very important characters and thinking it’s okay, please just know that it isn’t. You’re supposed to have each character serve a specific purpose and if they cannot serve that purpose, then what’s the point?

BBC: Look at all these ladies! Aren’t we hip with the cool kids now? Not like these guys, right? That is what we should say, right? Right? Right? If we say this stuff long enough, will you forget this show is funded by the parts of the British government, who right now outwardly likes no one who isn’t Anglo-Saxon and [mostly] male, ignoring the fact we’ve been sort-of led by a lady for decades and are soon to have a mixed-raced royal? Right? We only liked Tennant because he did a great Estuary accent; no Scots allowed ugh it was tough letting that rule relax for a tiny bit.

Me: Bill had potential, don’t get me wrong, but after a really strong companion in Clara, they would have really needed to explore her character a ton, which they never get to do much other than she has an imaginary version of her mom (tragic, but barely touched upon considering she doesn’t get a speaking role) and that she’s gay (which is as interesting of a main defining characteristic as being heterosexual--I’m not even in the LGBT community and I’m offended at how one-note it was treated). Doctor Who fans across the board really deserved more, but considering the palpable constraints felt from a showrunner who has never looked down on the show, characters, or the fans, it makes me feel like there was something Steven Moffat couldn’t control that was really hindering Bill’s more interesting potential.

Pre-2010 Internet: Thank GOD Moffat’s gone he’s done nothing for the show and is just such a pig

Me: Considering for the past seven years we had excellently timey-wimey plots, multifaceted characters, bonkers aliens, a decent balance between drama and jokes, and some of the best callbacks and prior plot integration, I’m really sad to see Steven Moffat go. We didn’t really have a lot of the diversity on and off the screen that we’ve gotten to enjoy until he showed up, from more regular women writers/directors to male characters with non-traditional jobs on-screen, and even people with very clear mental issues as main characters, which is rarely done let alone right/sympathetically. Shit, I’d doubt we’d have Gomez as the Master without him helming things. I know I never would have watched the show and become the person I am today had he not taken the role on. You can’t please everyone all the time, and I know I’ve been let down during his run at times, but the pile of good things was way larger than the pile of bad things, and that makes it worth it. If there’s someone who really shepherded the way to where we are now, it is him.

Pre-2010 Internet: oh hey the sexist asshole’s gone the show can be good again

Me: I just really wish and hope and pray that Chris Chibnall can carry over the sort of feel that Steven Moffat was able to create, because while YA soaps are alright for the YA crowd, it’s just really awkward seeing s1-4 again and noticing all the YA soapiness when Doctor Who is actually a family show. Young adults can be part of a family, but a switchover to the Young Adult genre can be really-super alienating and I don’t think that’s a direction the show wants to go back to if they want to keep the show both cohesive and true to the fanbase, which would probably be more alienated by the severe genre shift than a change in lead actors when all is said and done. No one really paid much attention when Davies was running the show, but that’s because he had so much free rein until he beat his Best OC No Steals’s storyline into a dead mush by the end of s4, and the show only really took off as an international phenomenon beginning with s5, which meant that the BBC suddenly cared because non-English were watching the show how dare. Yeah, people who aren’t English are watching now, but tons of old fans came back, bringing new ones with them, and the ones who noped out after Ten’s departure were tiny in numbers comparatively.

BBC: Oh hey look at this photo of the Thirteenth Doctor isn’t she rad we are totally being progressive give us all the praise for this thing that took minimal amounts of effort

Me: It seems kinda awkward that so many male-led shows and franchises are visibly forcing themselves to go female lately that it’s kind of scary how contrived and trendy it feels. Like, being me isn’t a trend yet that is how I feel? Let it happen organically. Okay, yeah, sure, we should have had a Lady Doctor in the 90s (during that time when the show was cancelled) so that we could still recognize there’s two genders in human biology while not sacrificing any of the amazing talents we’ve been blessed with, but if they want to act like they’re ballsy about casting (which casting white women is very low on the Ballsyness Scale), why not go with a non-Anglo-Saxon Dude Doctor? Having a Scotsman of Italian-Irish descent in Peter Capaldi was sort of like a soft intro, so just go full-in. Richard Ayoade? Riz Ahmed? Alfred Enoch? Devon Murray? Dev Patel? Get a dude who’s ethnic background can add to some interesting plots, so you can even go Irish and not be totally upset with yourselves. We could reignite the age-old Doctor Who tradition of reusing actors and go with Colin Morgan, or even use Samuel Anderson or Sanjeev Bhaskar in apology for what were kinda bogus character deaths...? Would Santiago Cabrera be an option? CAN SANTIAGO CABRERA BE AN OPTION?! Just not a Lady Doctor yet, please. We still can’t function on a societal level where we don’t devolve into just talking about what women wear as if that’s all that matters DESPITE THE FACT that Eleven and Twelve could be very suave dressers and very little to nothing was said about them.

Internet/Media: look at these suspenders she’s a quirky fashion icon look everyone the doctor is fashionable again

Me: ...gosh, hopefully a woman playing the Doctor won’t be because of Bill’s whole lesbian thing, because it was super-creepy when Ten was mildly more attractive than Nine for Rose, and it would be even creepier if Thirteen was so the Doctor could just to go from Bill’s grandad to romantic interest. It doesn’t matter how dead Bill is right now, because this is Doctor Who and if the Master can always come back, then so can companions.

Internet: Anyone who thinks that Thirteen being a woman is objectively wrong and evil because we said so.

Me: Guys, she’s literally the Thirteenth Doctor. She is the most common unlucky number. None of this is just me talking out of my ass--I kind of have a degree in this stuff. I genuinely had class assignments about all of these topics.

Internet: You don’t like diversity and ignore the plight of women and are part of the problem.

Me: I am a woman, I try to ignore the plight-makers, and I want better than feeling like I’m being thrown scraps and being told I have to love it. I will still watch the show, but I cannot change the bad vibes I’m getting from everywhere concerning this. It is okay to be critical of a show you love, or even the handling of it. That doesn’t make you a bad person.

Internet: Yeah, you’re a terrible person. Fuck off and die.

Me: ...what...?

Internet: You said “pray” and “blessed” you must be a super-conservative religious nutbag definitely go die in a fire we don’t want you here.

Me: Are you okay? Because you seem to not be able to discern between people who are merely critical and cautious and want cohesive answers from those who are just belligerent jerkwads who like to start shit.

Internet: die dinosaur scumbag

Me: ...do you realize how vapidly arrogant and ignorant you sound? Are you seriously okay? Do you need help?

Internet: You are the ignorant one; we are woke; accept us or get out.

Me: I’m not sure your way of dealing with others is exactly healthy, as it’s very combative and doesn’t do anyone any favors. Hateful levying of “get used to it” and “just accept it” and “we’re the right ones and you are wrong” is kind of what has led to the situation Western countries are currently in as far as their societal issues and violently forcing a matter makes us no better than those who came before us.

Twice Upon A Time: *has a role written for Clara but shoehorns Bill into it because that doesn’t make anything feel awkward at all, except it does*

Me: ...it’s going to be a long, long road ahead, isn’t it?

[emptymasks]

tagged by @ohpotter thank you :)

rules: you must answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people

tagging: sorry if some of you were already tagged @alyseofwonderland @clonetracers @lingering-snow @gemfyre @skip-mucky @ruinsrebuilt @gendryw4ters @alexpenkala @emono-omae @roecompany I know that’s not 20 but...

THE LAST

1. drink: water 2. phone call: my bank 3. text message: idk, I barely text any, I mainly just use messanger apps... probably my Dad 4. song you listened to: The Abduction - Natasha, Pierre and the Great Comet of 1812 5. time you cried: I don’t know, since my anxiety calmed down I haven’t cried as much 6. dated someone twice: nope, never even dated someone once 7. kissed someone and regretted it: still no 8. been cheated on: no 9. lost someone special: yes 10. been depressed: my mental health wasn’t the best when I was a teenager, definitely an anxiety disorder, and hating myself for a while, but I don’t know whether I got as far as depression, I don’t want to offend anyone who actually had depression... 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: no, I don’t drink

3 FAVOURITE COLOURS 12. blue 13. black 14. purple

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU 15. made new friends: yeah, started University this time last year, met some awesome people 16. fallen out of love: nope, never fallen in love 17. laughed until you cried: probably 18. found out someone was talking about you: I don’t think so. I mean my Mum talks crap about me all the time but 19. met someone who changed you: uh, yeah, I guess 20. found out who your friends are: not quite sure what that means 21. kissed someone on your facebook list: nope, never kissed anyone

GENERAL 22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them bar one, I only add people who I actually know, but there was one girl who I was friends with on deviantart back when I was about 13, but now I only add people that I know and talk too. I don’t even add people who I went to school with if I never talked to them. I don’t know, it just feels weird to do that on FB to me, 23. do you have any pets: our family has a chocolate labrador  24. do you want to change your name: um...no? It’s weird. I don’t really like my name, but not as in I don’t like it as a name, I just don’t like it for me. But I also couldn’t imagine having any other name. 25. what did you do for your last birthday: nothin 26. what time did you wake up: 8am-ish 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping 28. name something you can’t wait for: I don’t know... uh I’m being a vendor at the artist alley in Linc-Con (Lincoln, Comic Con) and it’s my first time being a vendor or doing anything like this and I’m nervous but excited but nervous. So I guess that. And Thor Ragnarok. 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: Like, an hour ago. I’m still staying at home for the summer, I move back to University next Monday. 31. what are you listening to right now: Natasha, Pierre and the Great Comet of 1812 (what a surprise) 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes 33. something that is getting on your nerves: uh, a lot of stuff, I’m very anxious all the time. in terms of something that’s annoying me... not much.  34. most visited website: Probably tumblr or youtube. 35. hair colour: brown 36. long or short hair: Long-ish. I’d like it to be a bit longer, but it hasn’t grown in like years. Seriously, I’ve never had a proper hair-cut, I just trim slip ends off and it hasn’t grown in so long no one ever believes that I’ve never had my hair cut. 37. do you have a crush on someone: not really, there’s clebs I’m attracted too, but there not crushes  38. what do you like about yourself: uh... I hate saying stuff like this, I always worry that I’ll come across big-headed. If I have to say something... I’m creative? 39. want any piercings: nope 40. blood type: no idea, I really should know, but I’ve never known and I’m not sure how to find out 41. nickname: None. I’m the only person with my name I’ve known that likes to be called Rebecca over being called Becky. I hate being called Becky. I had a teacher that called my Becks and I didn’t mind that too much. I do like pet-name / terms of endearment though. 42. relationship status: single 43. zodiac: taurus 44. pronouns: she/her 45. favourite tv show: band of brothers, legion, house of cards, halt and catch fire, brooklyn nine nine, hannibal, flight of the conchords, peaky blinders, star trek, the tudors, torchwood, the thick of it 46. tattoos: no, I like tattoos, but don’t want any myself 47. right or left handed: right handed 48. surgery: nope 49. piercing: no, don’t want any 50. sport: I did swimming for a long time, I don’t do it often now, but still enjoy it. I also have a thing for learning K-Pop choreography and then doing K-Pop random dance plays. It’s a decent workout when you’re too shy to exercise with anyone around and you don’t have the money for the gym anyway. 51. vacation: Haven’t gone in years, can’t afford it. The last time I went out for the day was with our Uni’s Harry Potter society and we spent the day at the Harry Potter studios. There’s another Buckbeak now and you can bow to him and he bows back and honestly I just love him so much and didn’t want to leave him. 52. pair of trainers: I actually don’t have any anymore. The closest the trainers I have is probably my converse.

MORE GENERAL 53. eating: um, I may snacking on tic-tacs 54. drinking: water 55. i’m about to: after finishing typing this, I need to test out how the Transformers print I just finished will look once it’s printed out, and then it’s back to making charms 56. waiting for: nothing for today, but I am kidna getting nervous about moving back to Uni 57. want: I got a 2.1 last year and I’d really like to get a 1st this year at Uni. Also to keep my Etsy shop up and running and to do well at comic con. 58. get married: eh. I honestly couldn’t care less. I’d be very happy to be in a committed relationship without being married. 59. career: want to be a concept artist for film, but will probably still freelance on the side

WHICH IS BETTER 60. hugs or kisses: what about both?  at the same time?? 61. lips or eyes: as in what I’m more attracted too? idk 62. shorter or taller: I’d want a partner to be taller than me, which isn’t hard as I’m 5′4″ 63. older or younger: ...I’m not going to lie. I have a pretty big thing for older guys, but realistically it would be better and probably healthier to date someone around my own age. Although now I am starting to be attracted to some guys around my own age, and I’ve never had a preference for older or younger women. 64. nice arms or nice stomach: ... 65. hook up or relationship: relationship. I could never do a hook-up or casual sex or a casual relationship. 66. troublemaker or hesitant: I guess hesitant?

HAVE YOU EVER 67. kissed a stranger: still no 68. drank hard liquor: nope, don’t drink  69. lost glasses/contact lenses: I like the only person in my family that doesn’t need glasses 70. turned someone down: actually yes, once, but he said he’d liked me for the past 7 years and I hadn’t even had a conversation with him (saying hello to each other when he saw each around school doesn’t count) in the last 5 years and I hadn’t seen him at all in the last 2 years so it just felt kinds creepy to me. 71. sex on the first date: no, haven’t had sex, haven’t been on a date. I don’t think I’d ever feel comfortable doing that. Not unless it was a date with someone who was a super close friend so you already know and trust them, but even then probably would never want to do that. 72. broken someone’s heart: not as far as I’m aware off 73. had your heart broken: no 74. been arrested: no 75. cried when someone died: yes 76. fallen for a friend: nope

DO YOU BELIEVE IN 77. yourself: eh 78. miracles: no 79. love at first sight: no, it’s really impossible, you can feel attraction at first sight, but you can’t love someone you don’t know 80. santa claus: no 81. kiss on the first date: I mean, that kinda feels like the odd one out in this category. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that. 82. angels: idk, I’m agnostic. I don’t really know if there’s any higher power of anything. Maybe there is, maybe there isn’t. Either way I’m not going to worry about it, I’m just going to make the most of my life either way and try to be a good person regardless cos that’s just the decent thing to do.

OTHER 83. current best friend’s name: idk if I really have  a ‘best friend’. I have friends, some of them I talk to more than others, but I don’t really rank friends. 84. eye colour: blue 85. favorite movie: ...this would be a really long list, are you sure you want that, I’ll try and put a few: Lord of the Rings, Baby Driver, Cap: Winter Soldier, Rise of the Guardians, The Princess Bride, The Breakfast Club, Inception, The Prince of Egypt, The Nightmare Before Christmas, Ferris Bueller’s Day Off, Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them, Kingsman, The Martian, Mad Max Fury Road, The Man From U.N.C.L.E. (I know it’s not a great film but I love the characters), Mission Impossible 4 (didn’t expect to like MI but there you go), Iron Man, The Avengers, Guardians of the Galaxy 1 + 2, Deadpool, Interview with the Vampire (I love Lestat and Louis but you can probably guess my feelings about Anne Rice), Fight Club.. I should stop typing now.

[quite-magical-high-warlock]

I got tagged by @such-hella​ thankie

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people.

THE LAST: 1. Drink: Water 2. Phone call: my mom 3. Text message: to the Death by Torchwood group chat 4. Song you listened to: Sing by Ed Sheeran 5. Time you cried: Friday

HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: no 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: nah 8. Been cheated on: nope 9. Lost someone special: yup 10. Been depressed: yes but not anymore 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: once nearly, managed not to

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12. Purple 13. Blue 14. Green

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: hell yes 16. Fallen out of love: no 17. Laughed until you cried: so many times 18. Found out someone was talking about you: yup 19. Met someone who changed you: i’m not sure tbh 20. Found out who your friends are: nah i’ve known for a while 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: nope

GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: i dunno 23. Do you have any pets: an asshole cat but i luv him 24. Do you want to change your name: no 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: met up with friends and played cards against humanity 26. What time did you wake up: today? 10:30 ish i think 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping 28. Name something you can’t wait for: visiting cardiff in a few weeks! 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: literally 5 minutes ago 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: i dunno,not much 31. What are you listening right now: nothing 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i think there was one guy in my class once 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: lots of stuff 34. Most visited Website: youtube or twitter

LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME

35. Mole/s: what?

36. Mark/s: i got a few

37. Childhood dream: i think vet

38. Haircolor: brown

39. Long or short hair: short

40. Do you have a crush on someone: not that i know of

41. What do you like about yourself: my ability to be very excited about stuff cause i love that feeling

42. Piercings: 4 earholes and i want some more ear piercings

43. Bloodtype: i have no idea

44. Nickname: sobja

45. Relationship status: single and very very happy about that

46. Zodiac: aries

47. Pronouns: she/her

48. Favorite TV Show: Shadowhunters

49. Tattoos: got two and want some more!

50. Right or left hand: right handed

51. Surgery: no

52. Hair dyed in different color: i had various shades of red for a long time and once i had black

53. Sport: nope

55. Vacation: cities

56. Pair of trainers: two

MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: just had Geschnetzeltes 58. Drinking: water 59. I’m about to: go read the book i’m currently reading 61. Waiting for: seeing Spiderman in a few hours 62. Want: lots of stuff 63. Get married: nah 64. Career: finished my apprenticeship as industrial management assistant 6 months ago, currently doing nothing and am back in school in september

WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: hugs 66. Lips or eyes: eyes 67. Shorter or taller: taller 68. Older or younger: older 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: stomach 71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive 72. Hook up or relationship: relationship 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a stranger: no 75. Drank hard liquor: yes, didn’t like it 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: nearly lost glasses (IN MY OWN GODDAMN ROOM) but found them again 30 minutes later 77. Turned someone down: yes 78. Sex in the first date: nope and also never cause i’m ace af 79. Broken someone’s heart: yes 80. Had your heart broken: nah 81. Been arrested: no 82. Cried when someone died: yup 83. Fallen for a friend: i think???

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: mostly 85. Miracles: yes 86. Love at first sight: nah 87. Santa Claus: not part of how i was raised 88. Kiss on the first date: nah 89. Angels: maybe

OTHER: 90. Current best friends name: @such-hella​ and @slyvleon​ 91. Eyecolor: brown 92. Favorite movie: La La Land

i tag: @lightwoodsmaia @mousserat @maydaforcebewidchu @magnusbanesmagic @odin-god-of-nothing-important @warlocksarcher @alecgaywoods​

[airshipcity]

i wanna know all the stationary themed asks please

I WROTE ALL OF THEM AND THEN I ACCIDENTALLY CLICKED OFF THE PAGE I’M SO ANGRY 

doing them all over again under the cut 

gel pen: when are you most comfortable?

when there’s a blanket around me and fresh pizzabakeren pizza in front of me 

ballpoint pen: tell me about the day you’ve just had

i signed my appointment lease contract and got a shirt with dancing avocadoes on in the mail, which was absolutely not the shirt i ordered, but i get to keep it and they’re sending a new shirt in the mail which will hopefully be the right one this time 

fineliner: what’s your greatest achievement?

i wrote a song and performed it at two danish schools and on danskebåten 

highlighter: what are your best qualities?

i’m a very nice person and i’ve been told i give good hugs, and i’m good at self-reflection 

greylead: what is something you want to try for the first time?

getting hormone therapy and singing with a deeper voice 

felt-tip: describe your aesthetic

big mess 

crayon: your earliest childhood memory

when i was three i went to a private kindergarten and my best friend was a boy named remi, and i had a crush on a boy named patrick 

scrapbook: something from your childhood that makes you smile

sketching pad: describe yourself from a stranger’s point of view

“man, if that guy doesn’t get a haircut asap, that’s gonna turn into a mullet real soon“

notebook: what’s your favourite quote?

“Mobiles, landlines, tin cans with bits of string, everything, absolutely everything: no phones, phones all broken. [holds up hand in imitation of telephone] Hello? Anyone there? No! Cause the phones aren't working!“ 

picking one is hard but torchwood is always good 

paper: what kind of book would you write?

i’ve already got so many book ideas that i’m writing some of them just to get it out of my system, but a general catch-all is “fantasy/urban fantasy, but super gay”

stapler: out of all the people you know, who do you think you are closest to?

tiril and julia, definitely, but you and dandi and my sisters aren’t very far behind 

glue stick: what do you look for in a lasting relationship/friendship?

someone who doesn’t mind me ranting about things i like talking about, and also someone with some or many interests in common with me so i’ll feel comfortable starting conversations at random when i think about my interests, which is always 

tape: tell me about your longest friendship 

you, probably 

ruler: what line will you never cross?

intentionally misgendering or triggering someone 

eraser: what do you consider to be your biggest mistake?

not telling someone earlier 

scissors: ever had a bad break-up?

oh boy have i 

the worst one took half a year, until i eventually just stopped coming online and then sat through 48 hours of blatantly ignoring all calls, texts, e-mails, msn messages, and all the other ways she yelled at me and harassed me and threatened to kill me or herself or everyone i cared about until she finally realised i wouldn’t come crawling back anymore 

calculator: list fifteen things that make you happy

bathtubs, tumble-dried clothes, wearing nice t-shirts, being called by the right pronouns without having to correct someone, the professor layton movie, stationary and art supplies, baking something that turns out perfect and delicious, tiril, giving someone an unexpected little gift just because i thought about them, blankets, my new phone, portal 2, griffin mcelroy, ordering things online, good hugs, pasta 

protractor: an unpopular opinion/angle you have on an issue

i unironically love the lorax movie 

sticky note: something about yourself you’d like to change 

any part of my body that makes me read to other people as A Girl, eventually getting rid of the chronic pain, either of those would improve my life significantly 

aside from physical things, not having anxiety and ptsd would be GREAT 

stamp: a date that’s special for you and why

christmas eve, because that was the last day i had to be at mom’s place, and the first day of never having to go back, ever again 

bookmark: a book that means a lot to you and why

luna by julie anne peters, the first book that introduced the concept of trans people to me, kicking off a series of events that took me from “i’m a straight girl” to “i am absolutely not even remotely either of those things” 

folder: describe your family

dad has bug-out bags for me and himself and my sisters in case of apocalypse, which sums it up pretty well 

we’re all just a bunch of nerds with a terrible sense of humor honestly 

whiteboard: tell me your plans for tomorrow

i was gonna buy stationary today but i didn’t have time, so i might buy some tomorrow, maybe even get that haircut i desperately need 

blackboard: tell me about a memory that has affected who you are today

when i was 13 i was in class watching some educational video about napoleon and then i looked at pretty girls and pretty boys instead of paying attention and i was like “hm, interesting development, i guess i’m bi??” like it was the most underwhelming realisation in my entire life 

pinboard: what are you focusing on in your life right now? 

getting to a better place mentally and physically, hopefully getting to start hrt as soon as i get my ptsd more under control 

tablet: tell me your plans for the future

i’d like to study someday, i just don’t know what yet 

stencil: who are your role models? 

luca dalen espseth and to some degree, andrew hussie 

envelope: tell me a secret 

i start tearing up whenever therese johaug is on the news 

[youremyonlyhope]

Co-Owner of a Lonely Heart

I missed the first minute or so of this episode because I was explaining to my dad why I screamed “NO” so many times over the last hour when watching Doctor Who. Those alien wood lice... just no.

So yeah I don’t know why the king killed that guy. Something about being angry that his heart still being shared or something. Ok random sword appearing in her hand. Cool. Totally normal. Cool. She’s got magical healing powers. I guess I really missed something in that first minute. “If you’re going to always answer me with a question then we’ll be fine friends because I like being the one with all the answers.” I like that. I can’t tell if she’s gonna be awesome or horrible because that line could really go either way. But right now I like her. “Is he like... all human... you know... like down there...?” *Matteusz turns away* “WELL OK THEN BYE.” Oh Tanya. And Charlie is like “uh no nope no April what are you doing” April. Girl... you got some issues. Time to tell Charlie what’s happening. Why is her dad even calling her during school? Tanya looking at Charlie and Quinn... yep. Why does her dad even know how to find her... is that legal? OK yeah it’s illegal, good. Call the cops. I mean physically threatening him with red eyes and dual swords works too. Yeah I don’t think I like the headteacher. WHAT? WHAT. WHAT? SHE JUST SAID TO TAKE HER HOME? WHAT? YOU FIND KIDS SKIPPING SCHOOL AND LET THEM GO? That’s concerning. Why does she not care? Ok how does a flower cut someone? Don’t know I feel about April and Ram honestly. Ok. Shadow Kin mating. Not what I thought I’d be seeing today. This seems to have gone beyond Torchwood’s level now. Oh poor April. Yes Tanya call him out. And Matteusz is just calmly like “There’s something else super weird going on guys...” “Don’t see so many Smiths these days. Like John.” Hmm... girl... that choice of a name to compare to Smith... is suspicious... Ram should not have been allowed to just basically dismiss himself from that conversation, but finding out your daughter’s father illegally visited her is way more important than interrogating the guy you found in bed with her. DUDE. STOP STALKING YOUR DAUGHTER. YOU’D THINK THE RED EYES AND MAGIC SWORDS WOULD BE ENOUGH TO KEEP YOU AWAY.  THAT SQUIRREL WAS SLICED UP. WHAT IS HAPPENING WITH THESE FLOWERS? Are the flowers in the bowl growing... Ok maybe I do like the headteacher... maybe... ...So... did she just kill her dad... I looked away for a split second and her dad is bleeding. WHAT?! IS SHE KILLING HER MOM!??!!?!? Ok wait she can walk now? WHAT?! Ok April no this is stupid why are you going into their realm this isn’t smart no and now Ram’s following you no this isn’t ending well.

That episode was weird... mostly seemed to be setting up the next episode... I was shocked to look up when April had her swords pointed at her dad that there was only 5 minutes left...

[angelfireeast]

The Flash 2.08 Legends of Today

Everyone wonders why Zoom is so much so much faster than Barry. Harry listed off reasons why Zoom could be faster - strength, form, body type, attitude, and so forth.

Zoom was taking speed drugs to make himself faster which why when he runs he leaves a blue trail. I find that Jay/Zoom had a bit of messy narrative. He was going to kill Barry in Enter Zoom. He was about to make the killer blow when Cisco stopped him. I have no doubt in my mind that Zoom was 100% there to kill Barry at that point in time. But he changed his mind afterwards and decided to steal Barry’s speed instead. Did he just discover he was dying then? Was that why he changed his plan? Or did he know the whole time and just wanted to kill another speeder so he was fastest man alive? Or did the writers just not think of it till later?

Zoom has the real Jay locked up and his speed stopped by the face mask. Was it possible he was stealing his speed the whole time like a leach? The mask kept the real Jay from using his speed...somehow. Which I don’t really get how that works for his whole body. It makes more sense if Zoom was using the mask to to contain Jay and drained him of the speedforce as it built back up in his system. That’s why he took him to E1 with him. Jay was like Zoom’s IV bag that provide with fresh speed force. He didn’t drain Jay’s speed force like he completely drained Barry’s later in season two. Barry had to recreate the partial exposition to get his speed back and Jay just had to have his mask removed. So either rather period time the speed force returned to the host’s body after it’s drained - so Jay was able to travel back to E3 with Harry and Jesse. Or Zoom didn’t take it all. Zoom is like a drug addict with murder and speed I think the idea of keeping just enough speed force inside Jay so it come back and he leach more speed daily from is possibly.

I know Zoom kept Jay alive to be his serial killer trophy. Barry was going to become the next serial killer trophy locked in mask in cage in his lair. But I still think part of the reason he kept Jay alive could be to leach speed force from him and become faster.

Zoom completely drained himself of the speed force so when Team Flash checked him over his story worked. Also at that time Caitlin didn’t notice his dying cells then? So were they not dying yet? Did the writers just not think of it back then?

It makes more sense if {fake Jay)Hunter was time revement who Zoom stole his speed from or simply just stopped taking speed drugs and got sick while Zoom stayed strong, healthy and did all his evil work. There was times Zoom was almost in two places at once. I guess the writers had to have Hunter and Zoom always be same man not time doubles for the plot about Hunter’s sick obsessive love for Caitian to be so strong.

Harry Wells:

Oh no Harry’s ball cap failed him didn’t see that coming.

Harry and Caitlin make a good term. Caitlin annoys the crap out of me with the way she trusts Jay word over her scientific knowledge and skills. Of Harry’s scientific knowledge and skills. Harry made very good point that Eobard only wanted Barry to get so fast so he taught him what he needed to get to that point. Eobard probably knew how to throw lighting too. Eobard used tect to help work up his speed. Maybe I’m letting my dislike of Caitlin/Jay make coloring me feelings about it. It’s just Jay barely even said explained things and walked out the door and suddenly Caitlin was back to Jay’s opinion on things.

Harry really likes and respects Barry and knows he’s still recovering so he’s “going easy” on him. He drops a rude hint that it’s Barry’s attitude that’s the problem and lists off some other reasons why Zoom could be faster to cover the rude hint. Harry is being such a unfiltered asshole who doesn’t care who he offends or damages as long as he saves Jesse and stops Zoom. Yet here he’s holding himself back...sorta...he’s still an ass. But in this stressful time of his daughter being kidnapped he’s trying for Barry.

So what are they going to tell Patty? I was kinda judging her on the whole situation - like why did she let Caitlin call the shots about calling 911 and going to the hospital? Yes, she shot him and if he’s alive the first thing you do is try to keep him alive by going to the hospital. Yes, Caitlin is Barry’s friend but she also worked for Dr. Wells the murder in STAR labs where Patty just found the murder everyone though was dead. Should she be trusting Caitlin when she says keep things quiet? When Caitlin is calling him Harrison and Dr Harrison Wells (why is she using his full name?). She hardly knows Caitlin. For all she knows Caitlin is working for the guy who killed Barry’s mom. If I was Patty I’d be less trusting of Caitlin till the facts are known and protective of Barry. But Caitlin yells about Joe and Patty jumps to it. It was at that moment I remember what a young officer Patty was who got promoted up to detective months ago. I am guessing she had to have passed her detective’s exam already and just been hoping to one day work her way up the latter. This could easily turn into a rant about police being not trained well, but that’s another rant for real life police officers. All I’m saying is she’s shot her gun before, but she thought she killed Harry so I’m guessing this is the first time she thought she killed someone and was confronted by a loved one. She freaked out. She shouldn’t have listened to Caitlin.

Shirtless Tom always nice. He was still pretty though covered by wires and hospital stuff so it took away from the moment.  

Harry is so pleased with himself telling Jay he’s going to be the gennie pig for speed drug. The way Hunter talked about the speed force it makes me wonder did he have talk with the speed force and what that talk looked like? Or did he con the real Jay pretending to be new speeder wanting to learn about his new power. So Jay told him about the speed force before Hunter learned all he could from him and overpowered him?

Jay just wonders in from where ever he was. Did the team ever wonder what he did when on his off time? Clue #58 that he’s evil guys.

This episode is the friendest Harry is with Hunter. It’s mostly him just being as ass going ‘going to test the speed drug on you. Get ready’ and later him thanking Hunter.

Other Team Flash:

HOW SO LITTLE IRIS!!! SHE’S THE LEADING LADY!!!

Barry is a really good artist!!!

I laughed at Barry going ‘how busy can they be?’ about term Arrow.

It’s really sad how hard Cisco tried to protect his relationship with Kendra and how much he cared about her and didn’t matter in the end. How much he was scared of losing her and than did. He’s still scared of his vibe powers and how this will effect his life. He still doesn’t want to be a meta human. Can Cisco find love in s3 that doesn’t totally break his heart? When Cisco loves someone he really loves them. It kills me. Cisco doesn’t open up his heart completely very often anymore. He’s protective of it even with Dante till he saw Rupture murdered. He is protective of his heart though he has crush on Lisa Snart and she kisses him. He let Eobard in and got completely betrayed so he didn’t let Harry for a very long time. Harry didn’t deserve to be let in for long time but still they got to point of friendship. I have to rewatch whole season to decide whether it’s Joe or Cisco last were the ones to let Harry in fully. With Kendra he complete opened his heart up.

Team Arrow:

John Barrowmen makes the best entrances. Loving John Barrowmen talking about immortals. I get old Torchwood feels.

Felicity wondering what Oliver on another Earth would look like. Simple answer better hair, less batman a better man. and married to the Black Canary. Sorry I had to say it.

Oliver is such a bitch sometimes! I don’t mean bitch all the time, but when he gets bitchy he gets BITCHY it’s so funny. Bitching Barry out for bring Kendra to them for help. Still dunno if I could handle watching the Arrow full time. Oliver’s bitchy moments and stuff work well when played off Barry. I don’t think I could take the manpain all the time. There is reason I watch the Flash and Supergirl full time and not the Arrow.

Oliver is so salty about the Flash drinks I love it. He was very sweet about kid and Flash action figure...then you realize that’s his kid and he knows it! The drama starts for Oliver, Felicity and William. I still think his son should’ve been half Afro-Asian or at the very least half black if Afro-Asian child casting was too hard for casting directors (that BS excuse IMO). Connor Hawk is awesome character and his relationship with Oliver is really important. It’s one of my favorite Oliver relationships in the comics. But no this BS show had to white wash him. I know they played this storyline out on Arrow that William gets kidnapped and Oliver sends him away and will tell him he’s his dad via video when he’s 18. That still works for Connor Hawke since Oliver didn’t raise Connor. But Noooooooooooo Legends of Tomorrow made Connor Hawke John Diggle’s son. Using the name Connor Hawk out of shame and feeling unworthy of his given name to John Diggle Jr. He feels unworthy to carry his fathers name. There is whole lot racist BS going on here. Once again Arrow & Legends of Tomorrow failed a important and great comicbook character.

Legends of Tomorrow Stuff:

I never found Savage that great of a bad guy on Legends of Tomorrow. Not on the level of the Reserve Flash or Zoom. He comes off a much better, scarier, stronger villain and with cooler weapons in the crossover episodes. Look how he fights both terms. The cool fans and throwing knives. On LoT he mostly talk, sexual harassment and few fights. If I had saw the Flash/Arrow episodes before LoT I would’ve been really disappointed in how Savage.

Carter is such a d-bag. That running theme started here and stayed with him from start to end of Legends of Tomorrow. I don’t like the way he treats Kendra. She didn’t even like him and he’s a jerk to her all the time. The only time he wasn’t as much of a d-bag was in Kendra’s flashback memories of their life in the 50s. He talks down to her all the time and is asshole. It’s been almost 4000 years of fighting Savage & dying before Carter finally thinks it’s time to train Kendra to fight with weapon in 1950. Seriously?

This episode had a lot good lines in it. Too many to quote.

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currently watching some different videos of hannah hart and right now watching a livestream thing she did for her book buffering, where she was signing copies and answering questions...fun stuff

ANYWAY...

so...it’s nearing the end of the video, and she read this question from a girl named becca (i’m assuming spelling lmao) from aurora, IL (which if you happen to know anything about me...I live in IL...and that’s only a few hrs away from me) so initially that was like really like ‘oh fun!’

but then...she read then question...

i’m gonna paraphrase it ‘cause i’ve had to pause the video and like...stop for a minute ‘cause shit got real fucking Quick lmao

basically just ‘what advice would you give to someone who has just come to terms with the fact that they’re bisexual and unsure if they’ll ever be able to come out’

like...Holy Fuck

it’s...too real right now lmao

admittedly I probably would have reacted this way regardless of where they live...but the fact that it’s somewhere so fucking near me is just like O.O

...and I mean like...I guess I’d say I’m ‘out’ like on here...but that’s different, ‘cause...no one really knows me on here (or talks to me lbr haha) so y’know...it is different

and like...I still kinda...pause when I’m talking aloud to myself and saying it

I mean...it’s not even been a year since I started thinking ‘i...might be bisexual’

I wish I could remember when the thought like first permeated my head, but I know it was sometime last yr...and probably in like...April-May

...and like the second it came up, I was like ‘DEAL WITH THIS ANOTHER DAY’

and just ignored it basically...and then like every few weeks, it’d kinda pop back up again...and then finally sometime during the summer...I was like...ok...let’s...look at my life and the facts and...think about this

and it still took me a few weeks, thinking about it off and on...but then after actually asking the advice of someone on here (anonymously of course lmao)...that...definitely helped

i still thought about it, but after that...i did feel more confident in saying it and knowing it to be true about myself

like...i’m 26 right now, and in a few weeks i’ll be 27...

it’s hard to change a perception you’ve held of yourself for so goddamn long, but...fuck i was so in denial about things

just a few weeks ago i was thinking about something and i was like ‘christ you should have realized when you were still in fucking high school dude’

but y’know...there were always guys...and y’know...ahaha...i definitely was never popular, i wasn’t and still wouldn’t consider myself an attractive person

so i mean...even the few guys that i went to HS with that i would maybe find attractive were all assholes anyway, so that totally ruined it

and i dated guys...i kissed...a lot of guys lol...like...just a lot

y’know and my last day of HS i started dating this guy i’d known like...since i was fucking 5 dude

and he was the first (and unfortunately so far only) person i’ve had sex with

and we dated for like... 3 1/2 yrs and then...long story short, he became a fucking ass and we broke up

(that’s not really what happened...i was terrible too...i was...yea i was a bad girlfriend...in the...manipulative way i guess i’d say now...i hate saying that...i hate knowing that i was like that...but...he wasn’t great either...we should have broken up long before we did...and i think that was a huge issue for us...but he still did some Fucked Up shit...and it’s been...4 yrs now??? and like...I still can’t think about him or anything without just...yea...i’m still not over it...i’m over him, but the situation? it’s all just so fucked...so like...probably not everything he did was entirely his fault...but...y’know...there were just...he lied about things...a lot...they were little things....but....they were lies nonetheless...and then when i’d days...weeks later find out the truth i’d obviously be Pissed...and then it’d be a big fight, and y’know i’m ‘overreacting’ and ‘this is why i didn’t tell you’ and blah blah blah’ LIKE NO OK...SO...for like...i don’t know...a week or two before I turned 21 I didn’t hear from him AT ALL...like...I had no fucking idea where he was...what he was doing...if we were still together...fucking Nothing...expected to hear from him on my birthday...Nothing...i was obviously initially pissed but I got hella fucking wasted and then it was whatever... and then like...i don’t know...another week or something went by...(i might be remembering this wrong...maybe it was like...a bit before my bday i didn’t...whatever anyway) basically i didn’t hear from him at all for like...2 weeks or some crazy shit and then one night I’m sitting in my room watching Torchwood (yea you bet I fucking remember this...it was the ep where Tosh and Jack go back in time and they meet the real Jack Harkness just fuck my shit up) anyway so I’m watching that and I hear the doorbell ring...and I just instantly Know. I don’t get up, I just keep watching the show...and then I hear a knock at my door...I don’t answer. Knocks keep coming....still don’t answer...(my door is locked but i don’t have a lock on my door...the way the knob is if you like...push it in and turn it it locks) so there’s a tiny little hole on the other side that you can push a very small screwdriver (or the stick of a dum-dum sucker lmao) into and you can unlock the door...so after a few minutes my door opens this way...and it’s Fucking Him...I just...like straight up ignored him and kept watching my show ‘cause like...you don’t talk to me for WEEKS...and then just show the fuck up?? fuck you (at this point we’d been dating for not even 3 yrs) anyway...eventually i have to pause the show and y’know what he fucking tells me? what he’s been doing? before we even started dating he had planned on going into the marines...like he signed some shit saying he was interesting or whatthefuckever i don’t remember what it was anymore...so keep in mind that was like..3 yrs ago almost....says...’so you remember when i was gonna go in the marines’ etc etc etc..basically...they like...got in contact with him (after all this fucking time????) and said that he was now recruited or whatever (i honestly don’t remember what he said...christ it’s been 4-5 yrs now) so he had been in Missouri doing training something or other...and like...i’m immediately fucking Suspicious...and he’s wearing a fucking marines t-shirt and has a lanyard like that’s Proof...and just...eventually it got ‘worked out’ and then it was just like...this thing that was gonna be happening...he was gonna in the next few months be leaving to go do that...and like...there’s even more to the story than just this...but...it’s such a fucking lie right??? but i was so goddamn desperate to keep him...like...that was my problem...i’d had boyfriends before, and like..only one that i would even say was vaguely as serious (and not even really ‘cause y’know...i was like 12 but...the feelings...and it was only for a few months but at the time...that was the most real) anyway...so y’know...first real serious honest to god we’re gonna get married boyfriend...first person i’d ever had sex with...huge thing....huge moment in my life...and...i didn’t want to lose this person...i put up with the most ridiculous shit ‘cause i didn’t want to be fucking alone...i ruined one of the best friendships i ever had ‘cause i never spent time with her...and just...would spend it with him...or wouldn’t hang out just in case i could ever see him (his parents were fucking...omg the actual worst) just..just...so much Bullshit

sorry that’s just all one big long fucking pile of shit right there lmao...if anyone actually reads that then...good on ya, but also im super sorry

so...then at the beginning of 2012...i’m single...and i was a fucking mess...like...he left (btw...not to join the marines...he just...like fucking left the state so y’know...super legit dude) and...i’m still not sure if it’s just...a coincidence or whatever, but like...immediately after that I got So Fucking Sick

like...i had the worst ear ache...like i was crying it hurt so bad, so finally had to go to the doctor...yea the ear infection i thought i had? turns out it was like a fucking terrible case of strep...like Awful...but my throat didn’t even hurt...it was just my ear...so that happened...

and for like...months i didn’t leave the house really...i mostly stayed in my room, i like...barely talked to my parents...it was...hard

and then summer came, and i went to the swim and golf club that my parents own (and which is now closed and i wish they could sell it) and i started hanging out there again...and i made new friends...and it was honestly? like the best summer...it was...so fucking great

there was this lifeguard...and he was just so cute, and I had the Biggest crush on him...but he was like 5-6 yrs younger than me lmao

like...I was so fucking pathetic...you could see the goddamn hearts in my eyes

and one of the reasons that i’m bringing this up is ‘cause...that first summer then...there was this girl that was also a lifeguard that I had ‘known’ sorta ‘cause she had grown up coming to the pool and had been friends with my sister and knew my mom and they were all really close and whatever...but i never really hung out up there so i didn’t know her...anyway...she had like...just come out to everyone as gay...it was a huge... (she was also like...a few yrs younger than me) and anyway...we eventually became like...Really Good friends

like...we talked a lot, and y’know...just hung out and shit...and...hahaha...i remember this one time...she said to me she’d like to just once take me out on a date...like...just a really nice proper date, and blah blah blah...and asked what my mom would think and i kinda laughed and said she probably wouldn’t care and asked if i would and i said ‘yea i definitely would we should!’ and it was just like...we were Cracking Up (we did that a lot....we both had super loud obnoxious laughs) and like...I was seriously really excited about this idea??? like i remember telling TJ (that was the cute lifeguard) Elaina (that’s the gay lifeguard lmao) is gonna take me on a date! like...I had  HUGE smile...and he kinda got wide eyed and was like ‘uhh...what?’ and I was like ‘no no no...just...’ and tried to explain it in such a way that was like...basically i was pulling the ‘no homo’ bullshit...

and i mean even looking back now, I didn’t have a thing for her...I really enjoyed her company, and I thought she was funny and fun to be around, but like...it was never like secret gay crush shit. but the fact that i was So Excited and interested about a girl taking me on a date??? like...fucking Hello Self

and then I got engaged to a few of the lifeguards lmao

...one of which happened to be another girl who I was like...kinda intimated by ‘cause she was just...like real quiet and I didn’t think she’d like me...and then we just started talking one day and got on really well

like...she made me a duct tape ring and everything...i think i still have it somewhere...and again...i don’t think i ever was like ‘fuck i think i really like her’ (but that could be ‘cause like everyone knew that TJ had had a Thing for her for a long time...so it was like...Awkward for me lmao) but she was really nice and very pretty

y’know...i’ve done this a lot throughout my life...which (i think?) it’s a fairly normal thing...but...y’know been ‘engaged’ or ‘married’ to different friends of mine that were girls y’know...and i just...never thought into that much or anything...and i don’t know if that’s ‘cause there really was never any sort of attraction or just because i was just so in denial about things that i just...didn’t let myself think about it...i really don’t know

the first time that i can remember thinking about another girl that i ‘knew’ i was like...18-19...and it was when i was really involved on twitter lol...and i made lots of new friends all over the world and it was honestly one of the best times of my life

...and i remember...lmao...’cause our initial bonding thing was over craig ferguson, and that’s how i was introduced into fanfiction and all that stuff...and i eventually wrote some (absolutely Dreadful) fics...and anyway...one of them...AHAHAHAHHA christ this is embarrassing...

one of them...I uh...wrote about me and this friend of mine...and uh...well...anyone remember the movie Hot Tub Time Machine? yea basically...that’s where i got my idea...we got into a hot tub...went back in time...to...sometime in craig’s past (i fucking wish this wasn’t true...but it so embarrassingly is) and uh...we had sex...the three of us...

....yeaaaaaaa

and like...it was...mainly just...basically we didn’t do much sexual things to/with each other...but we...did kiss at least i remember...and...something else, i can’t remember what lmao...and like...i remember being So Embarrassed writing this thing (she knew all about this btw...i mean I fucking posted it for everyone to see on the website they created for him...i think it’s all still up and if I wanted to i could go and find it but I’m definitely Not doing that) and like...I don’t honestly even know how or WHY i was like ‘I should write about you and I going back in time and having a threesome with Craig Ferguson’ like...i could have made it just me...or just...anyone else...but the fact that it was fucking self insert....with another girl...who was a good friend of mine at the time...

OH YOU KNOW WHAT...I...might have decided to do it ‘cause...ahahhah...she ended up in a dream of mine...her and Craig...and...did we kiss? fuck I don’t remember, but I remember her and Craig in the dream...and kisses were exchanged but I don’t remember with who or whatever...it’s been so many years...anyway

and y’know...she was (still is) a very pretty lady...she was a couple yrs older than me...and we talked a lot about real things...and she gave me advice on things...and, lol...she actually taught me some German words and stuff (she was German herself) and uh...she would like...help me learn how to say things correctly...we never got real far or anything, but it was fun...and I think I was probably...a little bit attracted to her...yea

but...y’know I was again...18-19...I had a boyfriend...it was...there was a lot of New Things

...actually by the time this all happened I was probably at least 20...but still

and then I eventually after a few yrs...was able to be like ‘oh this celebrity lady is really pretty’

‘cause oh yea...i also was that person that was like ‘i can’t say if another girl is pretty/cute/hot/whatever ‘cause that’s gay’ so...sorry about that lmao

and i eventually got over that...and then i was more comfortable with saying so and so is really pretty

and then...Billie Piper happened...oh that beautiful lady

and then it was ‘oh i have a girl crush on billie haha’

and then karen gillan with those ‘legs that go on for miles’ that’s an actual thing I used to say about her All The Fucking Time

i shit you fucking not

but nope...still just a total hetero girl crush....

and there have been various and many others...

(i’m skipping A LOT of other little things that are like ‘dude...you’re at least a bit attracted to girls...you’ve watched videos on youtube of girls hardcore making out and gotten off to it...you were like 15 then dude...accept it’)

so...there’s that

...and loads of other things

wow this...really went off the rails lmao

if anyone fucking reads this whole thing you deserve a goddamn medal ‘cause holy shit is a fuckton of embarrassing shit

but...i honestly feel better getting it off my chest

...i still don’t know if/when i’ll be able to totally come out to my family/people i know in RL as bi but i hope that the day does eventually come...

i had thought the other day about how...i really maybe should wait til my grandma passes ‘cause...well, there’s lot of stuff there (she’s great and i love her so much but she’s very much a church lady and gays go to hell and she’s still sure that my uncle who was gay is there and it’s upsetting to her and etc)

but like...i hate to have to hide this from her, but...i don’t know it’s hard and confusing

which is another reason why I’d like to as I said the other day get a tattoo of a violet on like the inside of my forearm...just..a little something for me that i can look at and know...and then...eventually work on telling people

(funny how i was thinking last yr during coming out month and all that stuff like ‘oh maybe i can do this next yr’ HA! good joke self...that...probably won’t happen)

so yea...anyway it’s probably time that i finally wrap this shit up

seriously if any of you read this...well fucking done, i’m sorry i’m such a mess and type like shit