#my mental health is so down the drain

[blankweiss]

*smiles*

[dailygutterman]

Day i forgot 63: hhhhhhhhhhhhnnnnnnfffffggg

[icequeenlila]

If you're happy and you...

spent the night silently suffering bc you had a bad migraine and crying would've made it even worse and you had run out of medication bc you didn't think two attacks would follow this closely and it was a Sunday, so all shops were closed and you stood awake all night, marinating in your own agony, fighting to make it to monday morning and then driving across town to be there when the very first pharmacy openend its doors and then blasted yourself from existence and are now drained as fuck...

clap your hands!

👏👏

[sillyfreakx5]

i miss him so much :(((

(tw for implied grooming/csa in the tags)

[wxnda-darling]

Chat, im sorry I been dead. Take these aliens i drew as an apology.

[soraeia]

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[sanchoyo]

haven’t been on much bc my dog has been sick :( between seizures and an infected tooth we’ve been having a Time trying to get everything fixed (this started around the holidays so our vet has been very booked up…we have been like 3-4 times in the past 4-5 weeks OTL does not help it’s like an hour drive there, so that’s been exhausting) now his new seizure meds are making him sick (was hoping it was like, just an adjustment period thing but he’s been sick for a week and having concerning symptoms…) if I’m not on a ton or slow to replying to messages it’s bc I’m working as much overtime as my job will give me bc Vet Expensive and mentally drained obvi 😞

[pxrxmoore]

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[thetimelordbatgirl]

All I got from my nan's today is that you shouldn't let me in a book shop as someone whose town lost their only book shop.

[binnie]

venting real quick

[biteinsane]

Didn't have the best year but I got quite a few more things done than I thought.

On to next year.

[oflgtfol]

man like on one hand yeah destigmatize acne and all that but on the other hand i went on accutane not because i cared about how it affected my looks but because living with that kind of acne is genuinely so hellish like i cant tell you how it affects your everyday life to not be able to move your face without it being in pain, without it opening a wound. without being able to sleep comfortably at night otherwise you'll be in pain or open a wound. waking up in the morning to find blood smeared all over your pillow. always needing to carry a tissue in your pocket to quickly dab at any blood that started dripping randomly throughout the day. the humiliation of literally just sitting in the same room as somebody and then you have blood dripping down your face randomly and they notice before you. and during covid, having to worry about getting visible streaks of blood on your mask, and needing to carry extra masks with you in case you did get blood somewhere that others could see. i would get blood on the earloops every single time i wore a mask but luckily nobody else could see that, but if i got blood on the actual mask itself then i needed to throw it away

like i cannot stress to you how bad this was affecting my daily life. i felt so gross and disgusting because it WAS gross and disgusting, it was genuinely unsanitary to constantly have open wounds all over the place, i felt so gross being in public for any extended period of time, and it was always a constant worry in the back of my mind about the whole blood thing. and nevermind not being able to sleep comfortably

like yes accutane is fucking me over with the dry skin and intense body and joint aches but i hate looking things up online and seeing people argue that the only reason anyone goes on medication for acne is for beauty culture reasons. maybe some people do, sure, but it's so largely reductive and fucking annoying to people like me who dont fucking care about that and are finally finding relief from clear skin

[fenfoxs]

sorry for the no art

[silversneasels]

workin my tail off fuckin sucks man like i had a nice day today but it's totally overshadowed by the fact i gotta get back on the grind tomorrow and keep trying to bust my ass

[sydney-winchester]

I've got to start back on Shadow and Bone. Why am I like this?? I need to finish so I can fangirl with my friends!

[randum-famdoms]

Testing out the new stardew update and tried to make Mereoleona Vermillion from black clover...it kinda worked..? Sorta

I tried my best! I got the hair wrong though and can't fix it now :'D

Had to look the character up because I haven’t watch the anime (I have heard good things, even watched the first episode, but then I forgot lol. I should tho! Especially now that I have a cat named clover, lol). I think you did fine! Hair could use some work tho, lol. She’s still cute, and that’s what is most important (at least in my opinion, but then again I get upset if my fanart isn’t 100% accurate so I almost never draw fanart, so who am I to talk).

I tried playing stardew valley once but it stressed me out too much. Ironic, right? I suck at games like it, though. I hated trying out animal crossing, too. I cannot handle the idea of adhering to a calendar in real life, so trying to do that on a video game? Hell no. Not gonna happen. Just give me a gun or some magic powers and release me into the world to kill demons, thanks. That I can handle.

To be fair, though, I suck at any video game that isn’t Diablo 3. Never finished any other game. Ever. I’m being serious, here. Unless you found WoW, but that isn’t exactly a fake you can finish, is it? I don’t think it is… but if I’m wrong then I’m still proving my own point, so.

I am gonna try to finish p5r by the end of the year, though. Winter break is coming up, I should have time then. I can add it to the non-existent list! Once upon I time I planned to play the game twice, and also vanilla twice, to get the ng+ experience in both.

Maybe that might happen by the time I’m 80. That would fit my current track record.

I’m getting off topic again, though. Very cute avatar! That’s always my favourite part in any game where you can make an avatar. Unless you can also decorate a house or room. Then it would be my second favourite!