#my key trait/j

[oceanwithouthermoon]

once again thinking about saiki kusuo kinning twilight sparkle

[fckmeupflorida]

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[p1utofairy]

★ WHAT CAN YOU EXPECT IN REGARDS TO YOUR LOVE LIFE?

NOTE: miss me? hehe. i felt called to answer the bat signal (i saw y’alls messages in my ask box ILYSM) take what resonates, leave what doesn’t. thank y’all for the support always. 🫂

PILE ONE.

ooo this fall i do see a very solid romantic connection coming into fruition for you, pile 1. there’s such a high level of comfortability between you both it’s sooooo sweet and endearing. you could already be friends with this person, but if that’s not the case, they will be your best friend and lover wrapped into one. diary by alicia keys is coming to mind – wow! the energy is very sensual and venusian-like. maybe you or this person has taurus and/or libra placements? you two connect on such a deep spiritual level. i can just feel it, pile 1. opening up to this person will be so easy for you, which is crazy because i feel like you’re not vulnerable/open with just ANYBODY.

lay your head on my pillow, here you can be yourself. no one has to know what you are feeling, no one but me and you. OKAY BYE I’LL CRY RN?! the emotions between you two run very deep & i feel like you both will create such a calm, intimate and loving space for each other. this connection will be so healing — i’m picking up that either you or your person never truly knew what it felt like to have a strong support system or someone in your corner through thick and thin, but let me tell you something, pile 1. you and your person will show up and out for each other!

you might be a bit defensive or standoffish towards this person at first, because you’re afraid of being hurt or let down once again. however, i want you to know that it’s okay to open your heart and be receptive. some of you that picked this pile might have a scorpio moon, because i’m picking up that it’s really hard to knock down that wall you have built around yourself. this person wants to take the time out to get to know you, the REAL you, and all your little quirks and interests because there’s more that meets the eye when it comes to you. i feel like you compartmentalize different aspects and traits within yourself & suppress them to conform to what others think you should be/should act like — but your person is saying f*ck that. they are going to love you in all your glory.

i’m ngl you could see yourself settling down with this person. they’ll fulfill you in so many ways that others can't even imagine or measure up to. this person is going to take care of you & splurge on you. they have very dominant energy and you’re going to love that about them lol for some of you might f*ck around and have a baby with this person. for a small portion of this pile, they might already have a child from a previous relationship. if that’s not the case though, you’re just going to love how hands on they are with you (literally hehe) & how they take the lead and make all your dreams come true. your person also has a lot of sexual energy lol in the best way possible. it’s so sly and lowkey but you’ll be folding like a pretzel pile 1 LOL.

channeled messages:

pov by ariana grande, free mind by tems, touch my body by mariah carey, you’re the only one that i want, dangerously in love pt. 2 by beyoncé.

PILE TWO

i think you need to get yourself out there a little moreeee, pile 2. i think that you’ll have more opportunities to meet new people and have some fun experiences, but it’s up to you to go out there and mingle. you’ve been keeping to yourself for a while now and there’s nothing wrong with that. pulling your energy back & recharging is good for the soul, but you also need to step into your power and claim what’s yours. remember – whatever you want, wants you even more. you’re glowing tf up this fall, pile 2.

you’re definitely elevating and so many people are going to peep it, especially romantic suitors. get out of your heads my lovely pile 2’s and open your mind + your heart to the limitless possibilities and opportunities that await you. you downplay yourself too much! TALK YOUR SHIT. you’re gonna have a couple love interests trying to get your attention & shooting their shot and it might throw you off, but just go with it. f*ck it, the more the merrier. lol i’m kidding but seriously have some fun!

you’ll know who is worth the chance and who isn’t. some of you that picked this pile might be a little inexperienced when it comes to relationships/love, so you just need some side quests and test runs to decipher what you do and don’t like lol. i’m also picking up a situation-ship vibe from this pile as well – some of you might have a lot of options but all you can think about is one specific person. you might not be talking to them right now, but your guides don’t want you to worry too much about them. focus on how you can create the reality you want for yourself. you’re the main character of your story, don’t be a perpetual side character in somebody else’s. i’m getting a lot of different messages for this pile, but one of the main things that’s sticking out to me is that whoever you pick/choose to entertain, you will have intense sexual chemistry with that person lol. you won’t be able to fight it hehe it’ll be the start of something new and exciting, pile 2.

channeled messages:

body by summer walker, go out with your friends, lemon drop, out of my head lupe fiasco ft. trey songz.

PILE THREE.

oh my, pile 3. did y’all just get out of a relationship or situationship? it’s really giving that. i think you need to work on becoming more grounded, and enforce healthy boundaries with your romantic partners and just everyone in general tbh. you’re so giving and nurturing. you’re always pouring into others, but where are they when it’s time to pour into you? you’ve had to come to terms with this the hard way :( people think that because you’re so compassionate and forgiving that they can walk all over you. this feeling of frustration has bubbled up inside of you for so long now, that it makes you feel pessimistic when it comes to love.

your guides want you to release this energy and not let it set you back or deter you from opening yourself up to a new partner that can and will cherish you. your love is very powerful – you are a REAL lover! if you get knocked down, you’ll rise up 10x stronger. please remember that always. your love is divine, it’s pure and it’s simply addicting; that’s why people felt like they could just take and take and take without you saying anything to them. the person that you were previously connected to knows you have a good heart, but they don’t value it. i am very happy to let you know that there is a special someone out there that will, and they are coming towards you.

they will claim you loud & proud and be so greatful to have you in their life and by their side. your person is so encouraging and kind, yet a lil rough around the edges – you almost wouldn’t expect this from them. they’re definitely going to match your freak lol. physical touch + words of affirmation might be their love language too btw. i think you need to let go of your ex/previous situationship, and take a leap of faith into the unknown with this new person. their love will feel so freeing and refreshing <3 the love between you both will hold no bounds. you deserve this pile, 3.

channeled messages:

wait for you by future ft. drake & tems, i’ll be there for you/you're all i need by method man ft. mary j blige, maddy perez, mula, ketu-moon aspect, anything by SWV, the weekend by sza.

[thewertsearch]

Ask Comp 12/05

@carcinogeneticist-writes-fanfic asked: I know your policy has been to hold off listening to the official albums until you're done with HS and I totally get that, wanting to hear them in the context of the comic first is totally valid. That said, would you be willing to give early consideration to Michael Bowman's solo album, "Mobius Trip and Hadron Kaleido?" It's got the rather dubious honor of being one of only two or three official albums (out of like 30!) to NOT see any rep in the comic at all and I'd hate for you to miss out.

Found it on the Collection! It's generally a very chill album, with a lot of lower-energy tracks that might have been hard to fit in one of Homestuck's high-octane Flash animations.

It's not really my type of music, but that doesn't mean I can't appreciate something different every once in a while! I think my personal favorite is Dawn of Man.

@likelyvampirical asked: While on the subject of Bowman, On The Thirteenth Day has been sent to you.

This one's fucking great. It feels like the kind of track you'd hear over the opening/ending to a Homestuck anime.

It also sounds vaguely like Sburban Jungle, but I don't know if I'd call it a remix; it feels more like it's gesturing meaningfully in Sburban Jungle's direction, which I like a lot.

@shelbybunny asked: re: voice headcanons in the (as of writing) latest ask comp; i think a good voice headcanon for John is Toby Fox’s voice in his ska cover of sunsetter or Michael Guy Bowman’s cover of How Do I Live

It's still so weird hearing Toby Fox's actual voice. He feels like the kind of guy who shouldn't have a concrete presence in our reality.

Anyway, these voices are both fairly close to how I imagine John sounding. Toby even looks somewhat like John - or, at least, his hair does.

@heattth asked: Hi, I believe you mentioned once that if Tumblr died you would continue this blog on Discord. I don't know how likely this is to happen, but, could I ask you which server that would be?

I currently run an on-and-off gaming Discord which is open to all the blog's followers. If Tumblr goes down for good, I might just convert it into the new primary liveblogging platform - although Discord has its own issues, so I'm not 100% committed to that. Guess we'll see what happens!

Edit: I ended up retiring the Discord for now, simply because it grew too large for one person to manage. I still plan to continue the liveblog if Tumblr bites the dust, but I'm completely undecided on where!

@manorinthewoods asked: I've heard the Hockerberts (Hockengberts?) called the House of J. Unsure how common that is. ~LOSS (28/4/25) @cationicflood asked: the prospit kids may also collectively be referred to as the J-squad, as all four of them have names beginning with J (this is a trait that i do not think any other character outside this group possesses)

Yeah, there's no real way to legibly combine all four names. I came up with 'Prospit Patrol' the other day, and I honestly kind of love it - but I guess that'd technically include the Prospit trolls, too.

Anonymous asked: i think the key difference between jade and jake’s social lives despite being completely isolated is that jade at least had bec and prospit. with jakes dreamself dead (which presumably never woke up) and no guardian to speak of, hes pretty much completely alone out there

Actually a very good point. We eventually learned that Jade was in contact with the White Queen, so she was doing some in-person socialization. Clearly, that mattered a lot more than I realized.

@morganwick asked: Recall that future Jade shared your frustration over causal time loops, wanting ideas to actually come from where they came from. She did manage to get Karkat to be just vague enough to get her to do what she wanted herself to do while still giving herself enough room to come up with as much of the idea as possible herself. Karkat technically didn't even tell her to captchalogue the window, only draw it, the assumption/understanding being that she'd use the scribblepad to do so.

I definitely like that interpretation a lot better than the idea that the information was spontaneously stable-looped into existence, so I'm adopting it as my personal canon. The less loop-generated intel we have, the better.

@that-good-ol-fashioned-mothgirl asked: funny how Jane “biggest fan of a baking empire” Crocker subscribes to empiricism

Clearly, an 'empire' is any organization that values tangible evidence over logical reasoning. Jane's brainwashing is clearly benign - the Condesce is just trying to make her a better skeptic!

@that-good-ol-fashioned-mothgirl asked: the green sun is the theoretically infinite felt on English’s temporal pool table

In other words, the entire multiverse is part of Lord English's game. Seems fitting to me.

@elkian asked: Something I put together recently thanks to your blogging: the more conventially intelligent/sapient a Sprite component, the better a Sprite can communicate with the Player. BUT, these are also more independent and can operate on their own impetus, proving in some cases (like Jadesprite) to be unwilling/unable to help the Player for whatever reason. It's a neat balancing mechanic.

That's actually a really good explanation for why Jadesprite was so independent.

She's not the only one who's exhibited this trait, either - Davesprite also seemed comfortable with resisting sprite programming!

@mhafanlol2000 asked: Dave spent his childhood with Cal, too, and he doesn’t seem hypnotized. What makes you so convinced that Dirk will turn out to be worshipping English, or something?

Ah, but Dave didn't actually own the doll.

Bro was the one carrying it around all day, and he can't be flash-stepping around Dave that often. For the majority of the time, he was the one receiving the lion's share of Cal's miasma, as he has been since the moment he was cloned.

Dirk is the same, of course, but he's only had Cal for sixteen years, while Bro was in his thirties, at least. Dirk seems a lot more normal than his counterpart, so we can at least assume he's less corrupted than Bro.

Anonymous asked: I'm not going to lie, the fact that the entire acts 1-5 of homestuck are ONE DAY is one of my favorite fucked up facts about this story. Like, honestly maybe more than 24 hours passed, but because we got untethered from Earth time immediately after entering and it's not like the Incipisphere has a day/night cycle, A VERY LONG MONDAY AFTERNOON INDEED

The second the camera cuts away from John and Jade, they're going to immediately pass out for a good twenty hours.

Hey, do we think Davesprite needs to sleep? Surely not, right? Alright, he can look after them, then.

@elkian asked: Just wanted to say that I'm loving the liveblog in general, and in particular I really like your take on how the Alpha timeline works. "Based on what this character would most likely do in this situation" not only frees it from some of the rigidity of predestination, which can definitely get stifling or flatten a story if taken too far; it's also a good explanation in terms of meta. It works as both a general explanation and story-themed one, and I like it a lot. Seems accurate, too!

You can thank Terry Pratchett for putting the idea in my head, back when I was first reading Night Watch. It's a really satisfying way to resolve the identity issues surrounding time travel, isn't it?

@drakethedeep asked: Keep that thought in mind regarding a timeline involving interfering with the green sun. On a similar train of thought, timelines seemed to become doomed when they can no longer contribute to the timeloop that created them to begin with. For example, in the first doomed timeline we see, because John dies, he cannot perform the ectobiology that results in the creation of him and his friends/family. so keeping that in mind, what conclusion/ theories about the alpha timeline do you have?

Initially, I thought that any timeline which could no longer satisfy its own loops would be instantly doomed - but that would have caused Davesprite's timeline to fade long before Future Dave actually left, since John's death immediately made the Veil cloning impossible.

However, the wording you use here comes close to fixing that issue. Davesprite's timeline could never fulfil the time loop created by John's Veil cloning - but it still contributed to the Alpha Timeline, via Davesprite. Maybe a timeline only fades once it can no longer contribute to the Alpha in any way whatsoever.

@wolygan asked: Kinda neat how as Sollux is dying his powers change from the red and blue to just his blood colour, as if he is casting from his health instead of just having an ability, now that his eyes are burnt out.

Oh, interesting. I didn't consider that!

Sollux has said he's retiring his duality schtick, and apparently that includes his red/blue motif. After all, he's not really 'the duality guy' anymore - he's just Sollux.

@liliflower137 asked: This is probably a little late as I'm still catching up but,,, gush, Vriska's conversation with John, where she expresses regret, where she thinks back on what she has done… It made her my favorite character for a while. Just. The potential of her learning to be different, of becoming something more than the world she was born into. Seeing a character so HORRIBLE, so AWFUL, turn around and… realize. It's so powerful.

Yup. Super fucked up that she died before she was able to complete her metamorphosis - but I'm confident that her story's not over. After all, we've already started hanging out with her ghost!

@liliflower137 asked: Hello!! I am not quite caught up yet but your description of Scratch as thinking like an author is BRILLIANT, I never would've thought of that and it makes him make so much more sense!!! Man he's way more interesting to me now, thank you!!! This liveblog continues to be the most fascinating read of all time!!

Thanks - it just made sense to me, y'know? Scratch even talks a little like Hussie sometimes, and the idea that he's a pseudo-author is the only thing I can think of that explains some otherwise extremely strange phrasing on his part.

@liliflower137 asked: Hello hello again! I've just seen the map you showed of Rose's coordinates and you can literally see the town i live in on that map!! So I can tell you Northern New York State, at least around that section, is VERY rural. The closest Starbucks is in Canada and its mostly dairy farms and cornfields around here! New York is a big state and aside from the city itself and some other places it's actually surprisingly empty. Hell, I've lived here for like 9 years and I've never even been close to NYC! But its definitely not remote, people live and work in that national park nearby! And there's plenty of burger kings for sure. (I'd even say maybe the one 40 minutes away was the one in my town but I'm pretty sure it opened after I moved here so probably not) It's so wild I could pretty easily drive to where Rose's house would've been… crazy.

Oh, fun - it's like you're her neighbor!

If you're that local, you might be living closer to Rose's address than any other Homestuck fan on the planet. You've got to be at least in the top ten, right?

@liliflower137 asked: Another addition to the jade seer of light fakeout that I've noticed during my own reread (inspired by yours!) Remember Jade's wardrobifier? One of her possible shirt symbols was the symbol for the Light Aspect!

Hussie's Trick continues to bamboozle the unprepared.

@liliflower137 asked: After sending you a bunch of asks while reading, I'm finally caught up!! Whew I can finally stop accidentally staying up until like 5am reading your incredible analysis and being distracted at work! I'm free!! Thanks for the ride!!

Hah, this really is a serious compliment. Don't worry, I've been staying up till pretty close to 5 lately as well. That's what happens when you're gaming on a server in a US timezone!

Anonymous asked: hello ms wertsearch! i have just finished binging your entire liveblog in lieu of any meaningful way to access homestuck OR the unofficial homestuck collection (kind of a lie - i'm sure it's on the wayback machine) and i have to say you might just be the ideal homestuck reader! you analyze these characters AND this story so quickly and perfectly it is very awesome to read. i cannot wait for you to stick it out through the rest of act 6! have a wonderful day!!!

Thank you so much! As far as I'm aware, there are still a couple of unofficial mirrors of the comic floating around online. I asked around on the Discord and was provided with this link, which seems perfectly functional to me.

Anonymous asked: I just want to send a message to let you know how much I appreciate and enjoy your blog. Ive had a very rough couple of years (who hasn't, right?) and reading this blog has been such an escape. It makes me feel like I'm 13 again and reading homestuck on the school computer with my friends. You have such insightful things to say about the comic. I never really jelled with the homestuck fandom outside of my irl friends I read the comic with, so your blog is kind of like a second shot at participating in the fandom for me. I'm having so much fun. Thanks for doing this. <3

As always, messages like these are the greatest motivator I have for continuing to liveblog. I know I'm starting to sound like a broken record, but thank you for sharing! :)

Anonymous asked: Your liveblog is So fun to read, especially when you predict plot points that are either extremely true or extremely false (like when you theorised at the very beginning that jade was genetically modified to be a sburb player! Or when [spoiler] and also [spoiler] and especially [spoiler]) Are you planning to read through your own liveblog when you've finished reading the comments to see how many things you jokingly predicted that came true? Or are you relying on asks to point out things like that?

I'm definitely reading through it when I'm done! I've even half-jokinly considered liveblogging the liveblog, but that might be a bridge too far even for me, lmao

@manorinthewoods asked: I've found another HS liveblog! 'researchhpurposes'. They've not made it through Act 5 yet, so hopefully they're spoiler-free - although, like you, they're going in only mostly blind, so there might be a stray thing here or there. Going to read through and see if there's anything extraordinary. ~LOSS (29/4/25)

(I'm noticing they *do* engage with reblogs, so without reading the whole thing, I'd say there's probably *some* spoilers. -V)

I can't wait to take a gander at some other liveblogs - but, yes, strangely enough, some of them can still spoil the comic, even if they're even farther back than I am!

@mrjocrafter asked: Once Upon a Time, a serialized live action soap opera / fantasy show with a batshit convoluted plot on par with Homestuck (i highly recommend it) has this concept called The Author, who's an individual blessed/cursed with the power to rewrite reality by literally writing in book(s), but if this power is suppressed, overpowered, or lost, the wielder is just some guy with a pen/quill. This is how I like to think of character!Hussie in Homestuck.

I've actually been watching a Once Upon a Time retrospective series on YouTube, and it's been an enjoyable watch so far. I even checked out the first couple of seasons myself - and, yes, batshit is exactly how I'd describe the average day in Storybrooke. Why the fuck wasn't it in Kingdom Hearts?

Anonymous asked: Yo so i was just rewatching Dirk Gently's Holistic Detective Agency and i was thinking since you like homestuck you should watch that if you haven't seen it already. Similar vibes. It's super excellent, it stars Elijah Wood. It did get cancelled after season 2 which sucks but each season is its own story with its own resolution. The stuff they were setting up for season 3 looked so dope tho, it's so tragic i'll never get to see it. It's the only thing that gives me the same feeling as homestuck. I don't want to like, say what it's about cuz like homestuck i think it's best to just jump in blind. If you have already seen it i'd love to hear your thoughts.

I haven't seen it myself, but I know the book it's based off. Dirk Gently shares an author with one of my favourite series, The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, so I feel like the show is probably up my alley too. Will definitely add it to the list!

Anonymous asked: Community is a sitcom about a study group at a community college. I recommend it, it's got a wit to it that I think you'd like.

I've seen a couple of clips of Community, but it didn't really click with me. That said, it's hard to judge the overall quality of a show from just a handful of clips, so I may give it another chance.

@manorinthewoods asked: There's a further benefit to the three-year time skip; it'll bring the characters roughly in line with the IRL time movement. April 2009 -> November 2011 is five months off the three-year timespan - which is sensible, since you need that time to actually write the story. Five months is. Probably a reasonable expectation, from the outset, for how long it might take to progress to the end of the timeskip - but, of course, this is a webcomic, and webcomics are very well known for taking absolutely ages to write. ~LOSS (29/4/25)

If that's true, and Hussie is timing things so that the kids emerge in November, then they're kind of playing with fire here.

I mean, committing yourself to maintain a consistent posting schedule for five months? Couldn't be me, is all I'm saying.

[guacamolleee]

For the WIP ask game please can I have more Hezemmrook sugar 🥰

Ask me about my WIPs!

YES, YOU CAN. I was totally not waiting for someone to ask about the sugar baby fic, no ma'am. Definitely not 😌 I've yapped about this fic before, and it's been chugging along. It is like 90% smut, no plot to be found, and hopefully that doesn't disappoint people 🤣

For the uninitiated: this is the Emmrich/Rook/Johanna sugar baby modern AU fic that I've been tinkering away at for last few weeks. My sole goal is to get Rook sandwiched between these two lmao. The plan is three sections of three POVs (Johanna, then Emmrich, then finally Rook). I just finished Johanna's part (subject to edits) and I've gotten started on Emmrich's!

Here, have a snippet! Two snippets because I just love you, Red 🥰

#1 Johanna (some context to that last line thing I shared a few days ago)

Without having to be told, Rook also lifted her top — a disgustingly lovely cashmere sweater, Johanna was sure Volkarin had a matching one somewhere — and threw it onto the desk as she toed off her shoes and socks. She stood naked in front of Johanna, the flush of her cheeks spreading quickly down her neck and across her chest like some blushing virgin — as if they had never done this before and the slick between the little hussy's thighs wasn't proof enough of how badly she wanted this.

Johanna wasn't blind — their pet was a pretty one, all plush thighs and generous chest, freckles and moles dotting her skin. Like stars, Volkarin sighed dreamily once, and it took everything in Johanna not to mock him then and there, their girl worn out between them as he made constellations on her skin. A sentimental fool. Johanna had looked away then, pulling on a robe and stepping onto the balcony for a smoke. But through the open door, she could still hear it — Volkarin's soft murmurs and Rook's answering sighs, halfway to the Fade as he cleaned her up and kissed every bruise Johanna made.

Something uncomfortable settled in Johanna's chest that night, weighty and unwieldy. She didn't care to give it a name — but she looked at Rook now and that feeling returned to the forefront unbidden, unacknowledged. She only scowled and pushed it away, placed it under heavy guard, the key thrown out. It laid next to every other insipid drivel Volkarin pushed onto her. Johanna certainly wasn’t heartless, but he and Rook had enough of heart on their sleeves for all of them. Where would they be if she were anything like that?

So instead, she bared her teeth and narrowed her eyes at the girl in front of her.

“Get on the bed.”

#2 Emmrich (just the very start of his POV, that's still definitely not done yet lmao)

Emmrich's phone buzzed once, just as he closed the front door. Dropping his car keys into the little wooden bowl with one hand, he fished his phone out with the other.

A text.

You're welcome. J

He felt his eye twitch. Knowing Johanna, that could mean absolutely anything. He looked up, squinting his eyes across the living room, half cautious, half intrigued. It was quiet, nothing out of place — except for one thing.

“Darling?” he called out.

No answer.

Rook, as far as he knew, was home today, and he had expected her to bound up to him, loop her arms around his shoulders, and plant kisses on his face as she normally did.

Perhaps she'd gone out for a quick errand?

Instead of Rook, Manfred came to greet him, hissing affectionately and twining around Emmrich's legs, rubbing his neck onto the fabric of Emmrich's trousers.

“Hello, dear Manfred.” He scratched beneath Manfred's chin, soft bone-white fur beneath his fingers, the cat purring in response. “Have you happened to see Rook anywhere?” Manfred cocked his head and hissed, an odd little trait he had when Emmrich adopted him, as if he had never learnt how to meow. “No? Oh, well.”

[hexsie]

BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!

GUESS WHOSE 22???? YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yhappy birthday thomas!! :) love ya to death, man!

MNAGO IM HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!

(yap session??? fr???? where is it??? It's under the cut...... 😈)

i mean what who said that

erm

*throws a bajillion hammers at you before dropping this*

Lalalla

IM SO HAPPY I CAN SHOW THIS TO THE WORLD IM. FREE!!!!!

Also certified yap sesh coming in don't mind me..........

*Clears throat*

Tomm, Thomas, TSB, Theodore (/j), how do I find the words for you? How do I find the words to describe quite literally the person I looked up to and has perhaps changed my life the most in the last six months?

Ever since I got back into SMG4, you've been my literal idol and inspiration. You were someone I looked up to greatly. And if you were to ask me five months back if I thought we'd be friends, I'd say no.

Much like everyone, I discovered you through your comics, but I'm pretty sure I discovered you through your TSB lore comics! Ever since then, I fell in LOVE with your style! The way you pace your comics, the carefully written lore, your coloring style, I was in awe of it. I'd never seen someone incorporate a watercolor-like artstyle in their work before, so you can imagine how much my head exploded at the sight of it. /silly

Around September, I decided to try and reach out and make myself known to you, and I was so nervous tagging you for the first time. I was petrified at the idea of angering you because I tagged you. But you loved my silly little doodle of TSB! I can not tell you how giddy I was seeing that the Tomm tiredsmashbros reblogged my art.

Slowly, I got more involved in your community and, most importantly, you. Learning about TSB'S lore and joking about him and Hexsy meeting was a highlight on my Tumblr. Seeing you draw Hexsy for the first time gave me a heart attack (/j). Knowing that you agreed on the silly idea of humbling TSB with the ring light tail was so fun, and I felt like I connected with you on a deeper level! And don't get me started on the animations!

Every time you reblogged one of my animations and complimented my tweening skills or how my art was visually appealing, it helped me to see that I did the best I did at the time and it came out good, even if I was internally beating myself down for the timing on an animation or missing a pixel. It didn't matter. You helped me realize that I'm good at animating.

Then came your one thousand follower celebration and the Discord server.

You probably already know this, but holy SHIT I was nervous to join. Heck, it took me a week after the party to finally get the courage to join! In my head, I was thinking that I'd probably not talk a lot in the server or that the server would be small (man, I was wrong about that GEGHSHSH). But it wasn't!

Getting used to the fact that I was literally face-to-face figuratively with the man who had inspired me to keep talking and making stuff about Hexsy made me so nervous.

Honestly, you terrified me. (/hj)

But after months of hopping into VC and getting to talk with you, I realized we were similar and that you weren't that terrifying as my brain made you out to be. You're smart, creative, passionate, funny, silly, and a bunch of traits that would make this paragraph look like one of yours. /SILLY /J

Being able to communicate that we both loved Isaacwhy, especially after me thinking I wouldn't find a SOUL who loved Isaacwhy as well was a shock to me, but a good one at that. I was finally free to yap to someone about the silly guys who stayed up like lunatics in a Discord call. /j

Tomm, you have been a great influence on so many of us. Neo, Lore, Doodle, Vapo, me. You have been one of the keys to helping me become involved with SMG4 and feeling welcome. You've made me feel comfortable shipping Hexsy with SMG3 and SMG4. You inspired me to give Hexsy lore.

And I don't know where I'd be without you. To be fair, I don't think I want to know. I'm happy knowing that I met you in this universe and that you're my friend.

But AGGSHSGGSBSB I'M YAPPING I'M PULLING A YOU I GOTTA CONTAIN MYSELF HEHEHE

In short, Tomm. Thank you.

Happy birthday! :D

[zer0-devoox]

Serial designation V psychological analysis

Let’s start with this.

From the pilot, the first and clearest introduction we have of V is as a cold-blooded killer, which leads us to draw several conclusions:

• she DON'T feel guilt or other emotions for being practically a psychopath, right?

• Pretending (and perhaps overacting) not to know N.

• She’s sexy—wait, what?

If there’s one thing I can say with my eyes closed, it’s that V’s personality throughout the series (at least until episode six) is a defense mechanism. Having suffered firsthand the atrocities of AS, V had to find a way to stay sane and assured herself that it didn’t hurt to make N suffer, that it didn’t hurt to be a complete bitch to the people around her, and that it didn’t hurt to kill people.

(That last one is a given; what did you expect? You can’t ask for moral consequences for murder; we’re in Murder Drones.)

A haughty, playful personality that is, to some extent, easy to anger. I don’t deny that many of these traits may have developed over time, but most are tropes that hide what’s really inside—a traumatized girl who lost everything and was turned into a killing machine.

(Some might say that I justify V’s actions when it comes to killing, and yes, I do; number 1, we’re in MD, and number 2, she’s my favorite character. What did you expect?)

To some extent, her diva complex hides insecurities (???)

The point is that this girl hardened herself, sharpened her teeth and claws, and did what she had to do to survive—from killing random workers, beheading N in cold blood, to manipulating a teenager and pretending to be her best friend to kill everyone (can we talk about how in "The Promening," V tried to negotiate with N and keep Uzi alive?)

A little extra note: rewatching the series for this summary, I can notice that V still retains some behaviors from her previous self, like when she blows bubbles or when at the end of "Cabin Fever," she smiles upon seeing Uzi with N.

In a way, I can assure you that V is simply TERRIFIED—terrified of herself, terrified of what they are now, and of Uzi, of Cyn.

Disorders:

Perhaps (with the risk of being wrong) Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder.

We have several clues about this, like when in "Cabin Fever," she calls Uzi "Cyn."

That’s a detail we’ll discuss later.

Besides that, she’s always on alert and has her claws ready for any danger that may arise (another symptom of PTSD), and her aversion towards Uzi because when she sees her, she doesn’t see Uzi.

She sees Cyn...

People who ship VxN (sorry, I’m not a fan of the ship, but I don’t judge; I’ll try to give my opinion without it sounding like a criticism) always argue that V feels jealous of Uzi. But you know? I... don’t see it that way, at least not completely. I think V does feel jealousy, but more than romantic jealousy, it’s more of a necessary attachment feeling. Let me explain:

Let’s remember that J is dead, so if we add 2 + 2, we can understand what’s happening here: V is ALONE and the only "functional" support network she has left is N and only him.

And also when she tries to keep Uzi away from N because deep down, her clearest thought was that they were going to end up hurting each other, or Uzi would hurt N and the guilt could lead her to suicide, or N would have to kill Uzi if Cyn took over her body.

This is why she clings to him with teeth and claws, and this gradually gets better as the series progresses. Evidence of this is in episode 6 when she sees N holding hands with Uzi and her only reaction is "agh" (How I love episode six!!!)

I’ve already talked more in-depth about the climax of episode six, which is a key moment for the character; if you want to go see it, I’ll leave it at the end of this post.

My theory of post-traumatic stress increases with chapter 8 when we see the true V for the first time—someone damaged, scared of all the damn traumas she carries, who has had to endure practically alone all the atrocities that Cyn committed at her expense, and above all, that what she did, she did for N (I have some issues with this chapter, but let’s ignore that for now).

This is where I cry because we realize that V had hope that—after doing her job, Cyn would leave them alone—she had faith of being free, and it could not bring me more satisfaction to know that (unlike J) she could find her freedom by ending what bound her, accepting her traumas, and fighting against them (literally), and finally finding a new life with the other two idiots.

The only people who, despite what she has done and her flaws, accepted and loved her.

To wrap up, I want to clarify something:

V IS somewhat psychopathic.

V DOES kill in cold blood.

V IS a diva.

But V is not just that; she is a complex character with layers and nuances and a girl who has suffered the atrocities of a pompous being who treats them as toys. I don’t expect to encompass all the psychology of the character in this summary (because I’m not a psychologist), but I hope I’ve done some justice for my favorite character UwU.

[Conclusion]

The truth is that I’m a bit saddened by V’s development. It’s not bad development by any means, but the potential she had was somewhat cut short due to the limited screen time. Although honestly, Liam is a fucking genius who managed to package such a beautiful series into eight episodes.

Thank you, Murder Drones; thank you for informing me, for allowing me to draw my lesbian ships, for making me laugh so many times and bringing me to tears so easily, thank you for the two years I spent alternating between making theories at three in the morning and waiting for the episodes, having to save money just to be able to download the episodes and download all the possible fanarts on Pinterest. Thank you so much, Murder Drones, for marking my life and... if possible, one day, to do you justice.

🧡

[dom1re]

Hi! 💙 I partly know the answer to this question regarding Sunan’s hair colour, but other than that, are there any other characters (from books, films, etc) that were references for Sunan or influenced his traits, lore and/or design?

I don't think I referenced anything for Sunan specifically. The goal was to write someone who's nice and easygoing but sort of has a wall up coz he's scared of opening himself up.

In that regard, actually, Sunan reminds me of Allen Walker from D Gray Man. They're both in their teens but forced to grow up very fast; they are the keys to the war that's going on in their respective worlds, and carry this unreasonable burden to resolve conflicts and save lives. They also share a deep fear of being rejected by their loved ones due to their past. I remember being really fascinated by Allen as a teen myself so I might have drawn inspiration from him unconsciously.

(I didn't realize this but D Gray Man also takes place in 19th century... And Allen is presumably British)

But what I can say for sure is that the fic is loosely inspired by Catcher in the Rye by J. D. Salinger. The book's about a 16 year old boy, Holden Caulfield, who's basically stuck between childhood and adulthood. He feels rejected by the society and neglected by adults around him; he refuses to grow up and become one of them. This is the interpretation i take with not just Sunan but Sebastian and Ominis as well. Those of u who read the fic might recall the rye field and the cliff scene. That's meant to be a nod to this book (though it's pretty vague). I'm planning to use this imagery throughout the fic. We'll see how many times I can squeeze it in

Oh I also wanna mention The Sympathizer by Viet Thanh Nguyen. This book is about a double agent who's half Vietnamese, half French. Some of its key themes are, surprise surprise, dealing with one's conflicting cultural/political identities; the idea of belonging to both and neither.

Now Sunan's also mixed (Chinese Thai / British), and spent time as both a Squib and a Wizard. He has to lie and pretend a lot for his goal (protecting the Repository), which he doesn't particularly feel loyal towards. I guess being a 1.5 gen immigrant I've always been drawn to these themes, so I'm trying to explore them in my writing. And that's how Sunan became a deeply troubled teen

(In fact Natty is a perfect character for this; she's an immigrant who had to move to a different society and adapt to new ways. It'd be fun to write a one shot about her... if I ever get time 🤪)

Alright I gotta stop myself 😂😂 sorry this is so long, you can tell how much I loved this ask 🫶 thank you for ur interest diana!! such good questions keep em coming coming

[its-a-me-mango]

I saw your post about art fight (and by the way congrats and I'm impressed by the amount of pieces you've done) and you mentioned drawing furries. I kind of never did but I want to learn, do you have any tips on drawing furries?

Hi yeah my advice is to have an older brother tell you what furries are at the age of 8 and then get completely obsessed with drawing anthropomorphic characters until the age of 18, so if you missed out on that I'm sorry. /j

Anyway, my actual advice is to get used to drawing animals in general. If you already know how to draw humans then you've already done most of the work when it comes to furries, if not thats ok you can learn as you go! I always recommend looking at other peoples work that you look up to and seeing how they do it. Learning to look and pick out shapes and features is always my best advice, it's something you learn to do as you grow but being able to pick out characteristics, shapes and all sorts of what you're looking at will massively help with your work, never be afraid to look up reference!

Simply taking the time to understand how to draw some animals can help set you up for drawing furries, you don't have to learn every single animal right off the bat, just the ones you're interested in to start off with. Once you know how to draw one or two, all the other species should become much easier to learn, or if you just wanna stick with the one species that's fine too, whatever you're happiest doing!

For example, say you wanna draw dog furries, thats fair dogs are cool! I like border collies so I'm focusing on them, look at these guys they're so fluffyyyy

Right away you can pick out some key features, the pointy ears, the medium length snout, the long fur (especially around the neck), the markings, the fluffy tail, these are all key things that make up our awesome collie dog, taking the time to practice these traits first will help you later on for drawing furries, you can practice as you go if you want but if you're starting with nothing, go basic!

Once you're comfortable with drawing animals, putting those traits onto a human shouldn't be as daunting, head goes where the head is, tail goes at the end of the spine, and fur goes all over! Obviously there are so many ways to draw furries but I'm trying to be basic to start off with! Practising with putting human emotions/traits onto animals will help a lot to refine what you're doing, your first attempts won't be pretty so don't worry about trying to make them so, they're for practice after all!

Using this as my excuse to draw my border collie SMG4 inspired OC, come look at Jay he sucks so bad, you'll never guess who he's inspired by. Again learning to mix human emotions and put them onto cartoon animal heads is hard to learn but I promise it's possible and great fun once you know how!

There's no one set of rules for furries, it's whatever you feel works best! Add and take away whatever you want, maybe you want them blue and green with horns and wings, that's totally fine! Get as creative as you want and don't be afraid to go wild, furries aren't real after all, you can do anything you want!

Furries are so expressive and unique, it's one of the many reasons I love drawing them! You can get so much diversity and variation with their design and characters, they can be as realistic or as cartoony as you want! It's always important to have fun with what you're drawing and to be okay with making mistakes, you're not going to get it first try so might as well have fun getting to a point you're happy with!

Hope my insane ramblings helped somewhat, I never know if these actually help because my advice is always just "look at reference and say "fuck it we ballin" untill it looks right", I can't teach that to anyone I have to sound like I know what I'm doing lmao

[mister-snape]

Archetypes of Severus Snape (part 1)

Severus Snape is one of the most controversial characters in J. K. Rowling’s Harry Potter series. His actions and motives spark debate ranging from self-sacrificing bravery to cruelty and prejudice. To grasp Snape’s psychological nature from every angle, it is useful to examine him through the lens of archetypal theory. This brief study analyses Snape’s image on three levels: by applying Carol Pearson’s system of twelve archetypes, by tracing the stages of the hero’s journey (Joseph Campbell’s monomyth) and by referencing Carl Gustav Jung’s archetypes of the collective unconscious. Such an approach helps reveal the character’s deep-seated motives, follow his inner conflicts and observe his evolution across all seven books.

Disclaimer: everything below reflects my subjective reading of the character based solely on the books (not the films!). I neither idealise nor demonise Snape.

Carol Pearson’s Archetypes in Snape’s Character

The American scholar Carol Pearson distinguishes twelve heroic archetypes, each mirroring certain motivational and behavioural patterns along life’s path. Several of these archetypes can be discerned in Severus Snape—and as the plot develops, the dominant archetypal roles shift. Below I examine the Pearson archetypes most vividly embodied by Snape, supporting every claim with quotations and episodes from the novels.

The Orphan Archetype

Archetype outline. In Pearson’s model the Orphan is the “wounded child” or the outcast who met an unsafe world early on. The Orphan’s bright side shows realism, resilience and empathy for others’ pain—because the person has known deprivation firsthand. Yet the shadow manifests as bitterness, cynicism, distrust and, above all, the victim stance: the Orphan may blame others for misfortunes, expecting special treatment in return for past suffering. In its darkest form the Orphan lashes out even at those who sincerely try to help, harming others and self alike. Such a traumatised individual tends to lock into grievance, a sense of “nobody understands me,” and often anticipates betrayal where none exists.

Key traits. The Orphan seeks safety yet is disillusioned with trust. At its lowest the archetype is a “convinced victim and cynic”; at its highest it recognises vulnerability and the need for mutual support.

Snape as an Orphan

Snape’s childhood unfolded in a troubled family: a tyrannical Muggle father and a witch mother unable to shield her son. A thin, poorly dressed boy with a sallow face and lank hair—the details hint at neglect and lack of care. He learned early that life is unfair.

From childhood Snape shows cynicism and resentment toward the “lucky ones”: Petunia Evans, whom he views as smug, or wealthy schoolmates like James Potter. Friendship with Lily Evans became his single bright spot, yet it, too, collapsed through his own misstep and fascination with Dark Magic. All this forged an Orphan worldview: he feels betrayed—by parents, classmates, life itself.

After the Marauders’ “prank” (when James Potter saves him from the werewolf Sirius had set on him), Snape feels not gratitude but humiliation and hate, convinced one must trust no one. His cynicism is plain in his biting remarks and disbelief in noble motives. As a teacher he mocks students’ and colleagues’ idealism, as though deriding the very idea of selflessness or courage—an echo of the Orphan who expects only the worst.

At Hogwarts Snape is essentially still an orphan despite living parents. Sorted into Slytherin, he likely meets pure-blood snobbery (he himself is a half-blood, a “second-class” status to some). Besides Lily he has no close friends. Instead, there is always an enemy: the Marauders make his life a chain of humiliations. Isolation and displacement—classic Orphan feelings—cause Snape to harden and see only threats and injustice.

Deeply sensitive, he expresses hurt through sarcasm and aggression, hiding behind “thorns.” We see the adult Snape as a cold, caustic, cynical master who trusts no one and expects no good. His own line to Harry—“Perhaps you have not noticed, but life isn’t fair”—perfectly captures an Orphan’s conviction that justice is a myth.

Years later his hostility toward Harry feeds on old pain: Harry incarnates James, the tormentor of Snape’s youth, and reminds him of Lily, whose loss he cannot separate from guilt. Thus Snape often mistreats Harry as if avenging past wrongs. In Philosopher’s Stone he humiliates the boy on the very first Potions lesson with barbed questions. In Prisoner of Azkaban he tries to have Harry expelled. He complains that Potter “has an overinflated opinion of himself,” seeing in him nothing but his father’s arrogance — “pride encoded at the genetic level.” Of course, Harry does sometimes break the rules, but Snape’s response is always disproportionate, signalling projection of old wounds: he remains the hurt boy fighting a hostile world.

Order of the Phoenix reveals Snape’s most agonising memory: James and Sirius publicly bully him; Lily intervenes, Snape, humiliated, calls her “Mudblood,” ending their friendship. Here the Orphan’s bitterness peaks: he pushes away the only helping hand—typical behaviour for someone used to being a victim. Losing Lily, Snape withdraws fully into darkness, joining the Death Eaters. At the lowest expression the Orphan in him becomes the “convinced victim and cynic,” scorning all—including himself.

Archetypal Transformation

Did Severus ever outgrow his inner Orphan? Partly, yes. By the finale he chooses to stop being a victim and instead take responsibility. The guilt over Lily’s death never lets him go, but it shifts from passive self-torment to an active mission of atonement. Snape no longer complains about life’s injustice—he quietly (?) bears his cross, working for years as a double agent. He renounces personal happiness, risks his life and endures hatred without expecting gratitude or understanding (and indeed receives none while alive). Here he transcends the infantile Injured Orphan, becoming a conscious martyr-warrior, as will be seen in later archetypes.

Yet the Orphan’s shadow never quite leaves: Snape carries hidden hurt to the grave, never opening up to anyone (perhaps except Dumbledore) while alive. Only through his post-mortem memories do Harry—and we, the readers—learn the tragedy of this “abandoned child” who spent an entire life emotionally isolated. In the end the Orphan archetype converts from destructive (cynicism, bitterness) into a resigned tragedy: Snape accepts his lonely fate and channels the pain of loss into duty, but inside remains the boy yearning for the world to spare those he loves.

to be continued...

[missingpuppyboy]

Can you talk abt ur object partners? I'm learning abt paras and radqueer stuff and transids and all of that and I'm trying to learn and just,, u get it im sure! /pos

Also also also this is very aggressively /nf btw btw!!

Hellooo first of all I'm so glad you asked!!! Honestly I really like sharing my perspective on stuff like this, it makes me happy. Also it's really cool that you're learning, I hope I can help at least a little by writing this!!

First things first, I have no idea why I am attracted to objects. I have always assigned personalities to things not usually seen as having personalities though, so that's probably related. In my opinion, my phone really likes J-fashion, the season fall is a creepypasta enjoyer, and the number 6 has split-dyed hair (pink and blue). I have always thought like this.

I feel that every object, every concept, every word and every number are distinct, and also really cool beings. I love everything, I respect every object. And sometimes I feel as though the thing I love and personify loves me back. That is what I consider the start of a relationship!! My specific experience with objectum relationships are written below the cut.

My phone girlfriend is named Ririka, I found the name when looking through names for an OC, and I felt like she would love being named that. My brain also assigned her the pronouns she/her and decided that she would probably enjoy J-fashion, specifically jirai kei. She has a pink case and she really likes playing music for me. I feel very attached to her and feel that she is attached back, it just feels really sweet to be with her.

I also have a plushie boyfriend, he is named Fun, because he reminds me of the Funtime animatronics from FNaF (he is colored white, lilac and pink). He is a rabbit plushie and he is HUGE and very fluffy. He currently goes by he/him, but he is experimenting with a few other pronouns. We often take naps together. When I first got him, I got the vibes that he would love my vanilla caramel perfume so I sprayed some on him, he was so happy.

Perhaps more uncommon than electronics and plushies, but I am also in a relationship with a purse! She is an elegant light pink, has a mature and serious personality. I named her Gretchen because I felt that they would like it, since the name means pearl and they have a string of pearls as a handle. She uses she/they, and spends most of her time on my desk, she loves it there. We do sometimes go outside together, but she prefers just sitting with me while I'm gaming and stuff. She is caring and protective, she is definitely a mom friend lol.

I'm sorry for the long examples, but I just wanted to explain as much as possible about how my personal experience goes. Being objectum is different for every being, but basically I assign traits to almost every object I have, and over time I develop a romantic attraction to some of them, and if I get the vibes that they love me back, I consider it a relationship.

This was very nice to write, I love to yap, especially about my darlings. I'm so sorry if it's too long, it probably is lmao

If the anon or any other being has questions or things to say, feel free to reach out! I am always open for asks and DMs unless I explicitly state otherwise.

Peace!

[paalove]

okay thinking about "attitude to personal property" as a defining character trait in j&j might seem a liiiittle obvious bc. thief show. but rose and p'nang talking about being absolutely committed to (rosé's) moral right to her legal property made it click in my mind-

bc theres the loan shark thing too, of course, collateral being property that is yours but isnt, is the boss's but isnt, the way the ring especially is transformed by being collateral and then stolen collateral and then (briefly? depends on next episode) free and clear.

so yeah there's joke as A Thief - if it helps me, if youre using it wrong, then it's mine, and there's the desperation-led thefts of tattoo and safe, which are interesting in their own right, but the really interesting thing is jack returning the ring because its not really his if he hasnt acquired it Legitimately - in a way he perceives as legitimate, perhaps in a way the law does too. this aligns him with rosé and nang but in the inverse of their statement - "what's mine has to be mine", then "what's owed to others has to be theirs", and i suspect we'll see rosé trying to align her previously inwardly-focused beliefs with this, over the next couple of episodes.

and when you start asking questions about the extent to which love and people fit into this, it gets really interesting. nang makes it explicit with jack, but - the ring as jack's parents' (and jack's parents as jack's) and the necklace as arun's mother's/boss's wife's (the question of which of them has the right to it, thereby to her memory, being absolutely key to arun's arc lately!). rosé is more straightforward - don't even look at jack's things, give me jack.

(and boss, of course, doesnt see a distinction really - underlings, at least, are always things. he can take and damage arun's things/people, because arun is ultimately his too - he can give away jack, because jack is absolutely his.)

[galacticnova3]

Had some ideas for how a got-brought-back-mostly Matthew(yea thats just what Miracle Matter is called now I dont make the rules /j) would be. Consider this part of the same hypothetical verse I write DMS in. Maybe even similar circumstances of someone going “hm I wonder how little can be left of someone’s soul/mind before you can’t bring them back anymore”, with all the same issues that entails. Gonna have it under a cut since this post got longer than planned. By a lot…

Firstly, “short” version of my headcanons for Miracle Matter are that it was one of the most powerful Matters, being made intentionally by Zero as an attempt to basically recreate the copy ability. In that regard it was like Gooey, just with the capacity to retain whatever “ability” it gained indefinitely, and in fact in some ways it could almost be seen as a more “refined” version of what Gooey was intended to be. Key word almost. While it was closer to what Zero was looking for, it was also the least stable Matter they ever ended up creating by far. An erratic, constantly shifting entity that was just as hard to predict as it was to defeat. Endless turmoil and indecisiveness; a die that kept rolling but never actually landed on a number. Easily mistaken for having no will at all.

Part of that was because it wasn’t exactly… finished? I imagine it would have been forming before/during the events of KDL3 but had its development disrupted by Zero, y’know. Dying. When Zero reincarnated, Miracle Matter was rushed to completion because 02 needed SOMETHING strong that could put up a fight in the wake of the failure of DMS and their own death at the nubs of Kirby(and also Gooey). They needed something that could match that kind of power without also carrying the traits that made Gooey “defective”. While they did get what they sought in that regard, it wasn’t created to know how to best harness its strengths, and in lacking things that would give it more individuality, it lacked what had made DMS powerful: intrinsic motivation. DMS, more than anything, wanted connection and approval, as well as revenge after their first visit to Popstar ended in their death.

Miracle Matter never really wanted anything, though, so while it followed orders, it wasn’t exactly good at anything particularly complicated. It couldn’t operate on its own because it was inexperienced and unreliable, couldn’t lead a group because it was indecisive and lacked direction, and wouldn’t have meshed well as part of a group because, though it was undeniably strong, the need to compensate for its shortcomings would have outweighed its strengths. Never mind how it took the two eyes problem and multiplied it by ten; its body shape and inability to blink means it couldn’t ever just be looking at one thing. 02 didn’t end up with a powerful new warrior, they kind of just inadvertently discovered a new way to contribute more suffering to the world. The most miraculous thing about it was that it was alive and functional at all in spite of everything, and for 02’s purposes it was ultimately too little too late, given how quickly their plans to control Ripple Star were found out by the exact same person who killed them before.

It was almost more like its own distinct fucked up thing than a Matter, seemingly unable to really think for itself but having the sapience to somewhat acknowledge the hivemind. Its connection was limited but constant, although it nonetheless was ignored for the most part because the information it contributed wasn’t useful. Trying to read its thoughts would be like tuning in to a radio station that gives you instant sensory overload, or like a stream that’s streaming itself with a bit of delay so everything is getting repeated over and over all the time. It, on the other hand, received information from the others just fine, and was directly influenced by that information on a fundamental level, even if not in the usual peer pressure or mob mentality sense. This was hard to tell because even its kin could hardly understand it most of the time; it occasionally had bouts of lucidity, but that just meant its garbled thoughts had through lines where you could maybe infer what was meant.

In short, it was powerful and obedient to Zero, but too much of a wildcard to actually be relied on, unlike DMS.

On that note, if DMS was defined by their loneliness and jealousy, Miracle Matter practically embodied panic and confusion. It stared wide-eyed at the world, always taking in more information than it could actually process, barely able to act on anything it did understand before its focus was taken or clouded by something else— it spent most of its time in that weird “room” because of this. Said room was like a sort of mini Hyper Zone, but compared to the outside world it was about as close to comfortable as it could get. I wouldn’t say it was afraid or anxious, but it was certainly upset during most of its moments of actual lucidity, as one would be in its circumstances. It could hardly distinguish between what it was seeing and what was being projected to it by the hivemind, which certainly didn’t help, nor did the fact that it was constantly overstimulated by its inherently shifting nature. It did not control the way it was changed when it learned, and its attempts to form any sense of self were stifled because its self kept becoming different things.

That also ties in to the fact that all of its forms are the result of subconscious attempts to understand things that it witnessed and vicariously felt through the hivemind, but could not actually experience firsthand. Things other Matters out in the world came across and dealt with, took particular note of, or even utilized themselves through hosts. This is why it has forms as broad as natural elements like magma, ice, electricity, and stone, or as specific yet general as the concept of explosives, blades, needles; those were the primary things it was getting information about that it could draw from. Maybe if it had more time it would have gained more forms, but it’s a slow process to unknowingly will into existence a new physical form based solely on others’ lived experiences.

To be clear, Miracle Matter was one of the younger Matters, having been created at some point shortly after Gooey, in the wake of them turning out to be not at all what Zero wanted. It was powerful but inexperienced, unfamiliar with the world, and up until its death hadn’t even really done much of anything. It lacked the ability to possess others entirely and was too preoccupied with being and feeling fucked up to ever have any malicious intentions of its own. This isn’t to say it wasn’t a threat in its own right— it didn’t end up where it was by chance, and couldn’t have been reasoned with given that the one clear guiding force in its life was Zero/02. Mostly this is just to say that as far as special Matters go, it probably had the least overall impact before getting taken out. Had it been given more time to sort itself out, or even just to form into something more stable, it would have been a much more threatening entity to have to face; ultimately Kirby and co instead ended up fighting the equivalent of aimless lashing out by someone immensely disoriented who had been told to guard something and left to their own devices. Extremely high potential that never came to fruition because the circumstances just didn’t allow it.

Usually, revivals can���t bring back all of someone unless they had basically died right then, or died under specific and unique circumstances; people lose parts of themselves in death. The soul never decays, but it starts to get worn down and lose some of its distinct features. For lack of a better description, they become simplified— some of the complexity that made a person who they were before is gone. The longer someone has been in some form of afterlife, the more likely they are to come back wrong, or at least different in any number of ways. It’s why DMS went from being jealous over others’ friendships to the point of obsession and aggression, to being the quiet, curious, and awkward individual they are now. Fundamentally, though they are the exact same entity, they are not the same person anymore. Miracle Matter would be no different.

With that said, I think against all odds, if brought back, it would actually be better off than before it died in a lot of ways. For it, being Itself But Less means no longer being effectively stuck in a loop of constant overstimulation via its own faceted consciousness. It’s unable to recall its past existence as anything more than a hazy sense of ‘I have been alive before’, but it’s not like it had really lived much of a life of its own anyways. In exchange for loss of memories about itself that didn’t mean much, it’s now more than capable of comprehending and responding to the world around it in the present. It finally has the chance to stop and calm down and reflect on itself. It doesn’t have hundreds of other sources of information flooding its mind at all times, nor someone else making all its choices for it. It’s able to really live as an individual for the first time.

With that said, it would still be very unpredictable and fickle, just with actual thoughts of its own behind its actions and reactions. It no longer responds to foreign experiences by lashing out(usually) because it’s not assuming that anyone else it sees is an enemy it’s expected to deal with. It also doesn’t always know how to respond to things and may end up doing something unexpected. It doesn’t have to be actively hyper aware of its surroundings because it isn’t expecting or waiting for anyone or anything. It’s also curious enough that any kind of change immediately attracts its attention regardless. Its eyes actually focus on things(as much as they’re able to, anyways…) instead of staring blankly in all directions all the time, because it actually makes a difference now that it operates solely based on its own perspectives and not those of the hivemind. Being stared at by, usually, around 10 eyes also tends to freak people out, which creates negative emotion, which just makes it fixate on them more(it IS still a Dark Matter and that’s like blood in the water to them), which can lead to unfortunate misunderstandings…

It still struggles with actually doing anything most of the time— its issues now lead to choice paralysis rather than the purely random decisions it made in the past. Not that a sapient icosahedron covered in eyes really has much it needs to do, at least. It had no idea how to spend its time; there were so many possibilities, yet it had nothing to go on and no established sense of self, let alone logic. A dice landing on a number means nothing if the number doesn’t correspond to anything. So, it went the route of just trying to learn and orient itself in the world, being changed by it in the process, just like it had been changed by the observations and experiences of the hivemind before. It’s not good or evil, but quite literally chaotic neutral; just as likely to forgive as it is to hold a grudge, not altruistic but not malicious, mostly acting in its own interest but having no strict idea of what its interests are. More than anything it kind of just ignores others unless something specific about someone intrigues it. Sometimes it even stops rotating erratically to focus, though while in thought it moves just like it always had, pausing when it comes to any sort of conclusion, has a revelation, or gets distracted.

And it gets distracted a lot. Having twenty unblinking eyes all over your body makes it kinda hard to just not see things. And when it sees things, especially new things, it wants to know what they are, or why they are a certain way, or how they connect to other stuff. It spent most of its existence in a borderline featureless void because anything else was too much for it to deal with, but now it’s in a state where it can often NOT be instantly overwhelmed by stuff and things. It has finally discovered what it’s like to want something and what it wants is to Look. Its whole purpose was already more or less to observe, internalize, and recreate— it’s just able to do it on its own now, without an assigned end goal of spreading darkness and suffering. This does mean that in any given situation its ass is NOT listening because there is always some manner of Thing in the Environment and it has to Percieve. On the plus side getting its attention is easy, just move around a lot or(more likely to end badly) flash a light at it.

Oddly enough, it actually doesn’t like interacting with other Matters. Despite having none of its memories, it still experiences an odd sense of familiarity toward them in a not so pleasant way. It didn’t ever really have the same social connection the others had to one another because the nature of its existence prevented that— it was like their communication was mostly one way, with them on the receiving end of everything. Constantly. As a result, the others didn’t feel like family so much as a bunch of sources of information worming their way into its already constantly fluctuating mind and worsening its already disorganized perception of reality. They were something in it that wasn’t it, and were the primary reason it was always being bombarded with information it couldn’t understand or do anything with. Gooey is an exception because Gooey is very talented they have more of a kinship. And Gooey has a distinct presence it had never felt in its mind, anyways. They probably wouldn’t even recognize them as a sibling unless told a few times.

In terms of socializing with others who aren’t related to Dark Matter, it’s someone that you could try and establish contact with, though it wouldn’t have much interest…/and it would be very curious to interact with someone else after so long!/granted it would probably shy away from any kind of meaningful connection./assuming it did not try to reach out to others first…/which would not be too difficult to manage with a little care./however it would likely respond with aggression./but you’d need to be ready for anything!/… All of this is to say there’s no telling how it would react in any unfamiliar social situation; it might behave in an actually pretty hinged and reasonable manner relative to its state and life experience, or it might ignore you entirely, or it might become aggressive, or do something else nobody predicted. It’s almost like trying to talk to it is. It’s like. Talking to it is like you’re rolling a

It isn’t able to speak out loud or make any noises that aren’t just gurgles, instead communicating via projecting its thoughts into others’ heads, provided that they made eye contact with it. It’s still hard to understand and definitely A Lot, but there’s less going on compared to before its death. Talking to it is like having 3 or 4 identical voices in your head speaking out of sync, all saying slightly different things; in the past it would’ve been closer to 11 or more sometimes saying unrelated things. Its vocabulary is a bit larger than one might expect, too, so it can actually engage in conversation. However, if you use a word it doesn’t know it will fixate on that until it gets clarification. It tends to be extremely blunt, doesn’t really understand most emotion-based words(happy, surprised, dejected, etc), and both struggles to understand tone and is hard to understand the tone of. Unfortunately, while one might try to take things slow to make misunderstandings less likely, it gets frustrated when others don’t give it information as quickly as possible. It has at least gotten better about that, for example someone having to stop to breathe is tolerable, but it’s still adjusting to what “normal” actually is.

As for other things that changed, it manifests some of its elements/abilities differently, and even developed a couple more as it was exposed to more information. It’s at its most docile in its base form, given that it is best suited to watching over fighting. Since being revived it HAS figured out how to use aspects of its other forms without entirely transforming, however. For example it can make a spike from its needle form jut out of where one of its eyes normally is, or open one of its facets and spew fire or release beams of electricity from within. If need be it has discovered a whopping one way to attack with just its base form, that being using its own blood. This would kinda just look like it’s crying profusely, and rightfully so— it will burn itself in the process. Being resistant to elemental attacks seems to have left it vulnerable to Dark Matter-based abilities that the spawn of Zero would normally be immune to…

The spark form is pretty much completely unchanged other than maybe being a little faster at firing the beams; it doesn’t use this form much at all outside of fighting, which it also doesn’t do often. Now that it is actually interacting with the world, it has started to make use of some of its other abilities in more practical ways. Ice’s main body is unchanged, but the surrounding pieces look more like ice crystals than just cubes; it doesn’t use this form either, but may unthinkingly switch to it when in especially cold conditions. Fire is similar to what it was, though the main body is actually more like molten glass now, and it has more control of where it actually erupts, plus a little more reach. This is the first form it actually started using for the utility, as giving off your own light makes traveling at night easier— it usually just hides during the day because the sun is a deadly laser(blinds whichever set of eyes is on top). Sure, the spark form is brighter and doesn’t start fires, but it moves so much more slowly.

The stone form now has more rocks, and they have more variety size and shape-wise. The main body also has some crystals sticking out that look oddly familiar, based on something it feels like it remembers… Whenever it just wants to be left alone, this is the form it takes. Reject social interaction, become mineral. The needle form is also much like it was, but doesn’t extend the needles out in a predictable pattern anymore, as it actively tries to aim at whoever its dealing with or just becomes a ball of spikes, though it relies on sound to know where to aim because eyes and sharp objects don’t mix. If stone doesn’t work to make others leave it be, it will simply become an unapproachable eldritch urchin. It also forms two types of spikes, ones that are longer, thinner, and faster to protrude like skewers, and the type it used before with tips that break off into whatever they get lodged in.

The bomb form is more or less visually unchanged, aside from losing the bubbles— it just directly generates unidentified subdividing explosives around itself that blow up at random intervals. If being a big rock or a ball of spikes aren’t working to maintain personal space, it will use this form to make others fuck off or else. It tends to use it the least because the random detonations are also random for it, and loud sounds are a bad time. How it hears anything when it is effectively just a living bomb that can do mitosis is a mystery, but it does. There’s also just not that many practical applications for bombs that apply to it. It doesn’t have any aspirations to become a demolition expert.

The cutter form changed most dramatically, now looking more like a round saw with exaggerated teeth and no “tail”; it also moves much faster than before and tends to stay close to the ground, even rolling along it like a sort of wheel of ow. This is its preferred form for pursuit. After all, there is a very much non-zero chance it will actually try to chase you down if you upset it(or freak out and run away and make it more curious about you in doing so), so like. Don’t. But if you do, move smoothly and quietly— it’s completely blind and relies on sound or vibrations to know where you are. You can also just step out of the way and stay still and it might go past you, but you better be ready to haul as when it switches to a form that can actually see(if you aren’t moving it will know because no sound) because pulling a trick like this is effective and also very likely to piss it off.

As for what’s completely new, the bubbles that used to be part of the bomb form now manifest as part of an entirely new water form that will either resembles bubbles or floating spheres of water; this makes it entirely harmless or a drowning hazard depending on the situation and its mood. It sometimes uses the bubbles to try and pick things up to carry them elsewhere, but it isn’t very good at it, really only able to move lighter objects any sort of distance. It can’t move very fast but also can’t really be prevented from moving. Also, normal water won’t actually mix with its water, so if it gets rained on or something it’ll kinda just slide off because it’s slightly denser. Before any of you freaks from my inbox say anything: the water is poisonous and strongly drawn towards wherever its main body is. You can’t drink Matthew. Michael wouldn’t like it if you stuck a straw in it or something and would probably try to drown you.

It also has a cloud-like form that makes use of wind and vortices, sometimes making it look more like a small twister. One of its eyes is retained in this form, so it can also look a lot like a small bootleg Kracko at times. Kracko would probably hate this but the two have never encountered one another. In battle this form doesn’t really do much on its own, instead relying on objects in the environment, which it’ll pick up and gradually form a debris cloud with. Not a huge issue when you’re dealing with dust and leaves and twigs, much more significant issue when it’s gravel and sticks and rocks, or maybe a sword pulled loose from a scabbard, broken glass left on the ground, rogue 2x4 wooden plank... It can also use this form to fling things(or anyone it doesn’t like at the time) pretty far away, though distance varies considerably. Much like the water, the cloud is toxic. Don’t huff Martin. You won’t get high you will get died.

Lastly, its newest form looks vaguely like some kind of large… Spider-adjacent thing, perhaps, like their relative Mariel? Maybe more of a beetle? Let’s go with bug. D20 is bugs. This is the most incongruous of its abilities in that it actually resembles a living thing. It doesn’t often use this form, but tends to remain in it for a while when it does, as when it wants to change locations during the day it can do so quickly by taking flight in this form. It has conspicuous eyespots on its head, back, and elytra, but the actual eye it has in this form is actually on its ventral side, in the center of the “thorax”— conveniently protected from the sun, hence why this is a good way to get around during the day. It’s got eight legs and can run pretty quickly on the ground, as well as a set of strong, sharp mandibles that can easily cut through wood and maybe even rock. No mouth, though. Why it decided it wanted the powers of terrestrial arthropods is unclear. Maybe it just thought they were neat.

That’s all I really have figured out for now. If you made it to the bottom of this post, you’re so awesome, take this crab.

And also this because Discord spoiled the crab

[tableintheteacherslounge]

Abbott Elementary S03E06 thoughts

One of the best of the season so far

BRADLEY COOPER?? This is one for the cold open history books

“He’s just not that into u” “that was rude janine” lmao barb r u trying to set mel up w bradley cooper

Jacob calling him brad lmao

“Everyone was in openheimer” look to camera art

“Shes my sleep paralyisis demon” lmao

I’ve missed Melissa fighting people, feels like she’s lost this key personality trait a bit

And gregory holding her back aw theyve come so far since she wouldnt learn his name 🥺😪

Aw janine teaching jacob the finger heart - but i DO still do peace signs, what does that mean

“I can feel a but” “damn u freaky” theyre really loving avanine this season and im here for it (not in a ship way but respect to the shippers)

Whys melissa on her phone SO much this season, like literally while teaching, constantly in the teachers lounge eyc etc, am i reading too much into it? Does it mean anything? Or is it just like a prop?

Barb being happy bc janines happy aw we really have come so far as a family. They used to just be snarky but now work moms appreciate the importance of things to janine

“Maybe rashid” JACOB 😭

“At this press op- party! Party.”

JANINE MOVING THE MIC AND BEING HIDDEN BY THE PODIUM BC SHES SO SMOL PLS

Jacob having to zip up his hoodie no 😭😭😭

“Bad men..and women! Wait no”

“And the ones that are racist without having to google are priority”

“My clout!” Ava 😭

“I can do that” “janine can do that” avanine are really avanining

“What if she needs to reach a book on the middle shelf” 💀

“Like a handsome moth to cutey patootie flame” Jacob just GETS IT

Barbs purple coat is so cute

HELP NOT A FLAT EARTHER - you know what at least hes not racist, i think its fine, everyone has flaws, do they really have to cancel it?

They shouldve just let mr j do the investigation smh

Melissa high fiving her students as they enter the room awwww

The work moms are really work momming today it’s so cute, I love this dynamic and how it’s evolved

Janine’s out of breath again 🥺 i missed that joke 😪

Janine’s speech 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

Melissa hugging a student aww i love how this tough lady is also so soft

“Which one do u think was the jacob” “none of them” 😭😭😭

I think this ep really proves they’re better when Janine’s there. When she’s at the district it feels disjointed, she belongs in the school

And this one had so much heart. And I feel like this fuels abbott.

Plus teddie (we’re so back)

Plus work wives (who looked sooo married tonight)

Plus avanine

Plus after school crew

The combinations all combining

[sunflowervoidz]

Hey 👋 I hope this isn't too intrusive, feel free to ignore the ask if it is, but you have a post about loving and identifying with certain characters and you tagged it with Merritt McKinney and J. Daniel Atlas amongst others.

I love both those characters, but they both seem quite abstract characters to me? I'm probably not phrasing this very well, they are both just such fantastical characters that I sometimes struggle to see the more human characteristics for the both of them.

I would love to see an elaboration on what it is about Merritt McKinney or J. Daniel Atlas that you identify with?

Again, I understand that this could be quite a personal ask, so no hard feelings if you just want to ignore this.

Whether you choose to respond or not, I'm glad to share the NYSM fandom with you 💖

AWH NO THIS ISNT TOO INVASIVE !! U phrased it great I get ur question DW 💖

no you’re actually so right bc as much as I love these characters, they are very much at their core just simply written or flat beyond their like key personality traits (Daniel being bitchy, a control freak, and has more trust in himself then others) (and Merritt being chaotic and humorous, and also a shown semi lack of trusting others due to his past). That’s either due to the movies not showing much of the characters (due to the storyline very much hiding most of the 4 horsemen’s pov’s in the first movie), or just general writing flaws—

Personally I feel like I identify with them in a sense that leans more fanon assumptions / personal head-cannons when imagining the character 😭

Like in a lot of fan fictions or general online headcannons, Daniel has a lot of OCD and Anxiety based tendencies that I can relate with, and just when I’m feeling moody or stuff he’s a fun character to outlet through bc feeling bitchy is kinda his thing. And I just in general enjoy the concept idea of his character being an asshole who at his core is a secret loveable prick :)

And then with Merritt it’s the sense that he always seems to be chaotic and teasing, and I love the nature of that. He’s a fun character to work with, and family problems (ofc I don’t feel it to his degree, omg his brother sucks) is an aspect I slightly relate to in a media like now you see me that doesn’t show a-lot of the characters backgrounds 💥💥💥💥

Anyways I hope that answered ur question, if u have any more inquiries about personal ideas to the character’s personalities (or my idea of them) or anything else nysm I’d love to answer it!! 💛💛

[cherr1best]

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you can call me cherri, this is my silly little intro post!

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