#my heart physically aches

[timothyslucy]

NO!!!! NOT MATTHEW PERRY. 😨😨😨

[blueeyesfilledwithpassion]

Aching & Longing

"The aching, and yet pleasurable, intense longing for a life that we cannot yet have but naturally and universally crave. It is the feeling of having lost something that we once had - giving us a sense of homesickness and discontent with the less-than-ideal world we currently find ourselves in."

C.S. Lewis

[willowser]

oh 😭 my 😭 god 😭 right person wrong time with early 20s bkg 😭😭😭😭 i think about this all the time and ur recent is shaking in my head. and with how katsuki is just such a one person guy. like he sees you and he KNOWS you’re it for him but he just can’t. still thinks about you, looks out for you. and he tells you to find someone else with the emotional capacity that he doesn’t have, but you’re always in the back of his mind and he never really leaves yours either.

oh my god. yes. that's exactly it. he's such a one person kind of guy. he knows that you are everything he could ever want—and he just can't do it. there's a part of him that wants it soooo bad, but he knows he'll ruin it if he gives it a shot. he knows he can't treat you the way you deserve, can't give you the time he wants, can't open up the way you can. ooohhhhh my god it eats him up but HE DOESN'T STOP YOU from finding other people. quietly sits back and watches it and—he wants you to be happy, he does. he wants someone to treat you the way you should be treated. he wants to see you smile.

but he is always sitting back and watching from afar with his heart in his stomach.

(but—i do think that's the sweetest conclusion, you know ?? 🥺 you go off and you find love and it doesn't work out for whatever reason, doesn't have to be all terrible and heart breaking—it just doesn't happen—and you come back and few years later and katsuki stands a little taller and his skin has a new glow to it and he finds out you're single again and—he's ready, this time 🥺 to give it his all 🥺 can't help but smile to himself because he knew you were the only one for him 🥺)

[ethan-acfan]

My favorite head-canon, is that Merlin spends so much time healing and taking care of Arthur, that he forgets to do it for himself.

Arthur, a seasoned warrior, somehow has very few scars on his body. A few scuff marks on his knees and a few marks on the side of his neck, maybe a few knife nicks along his arms from training. But other than that, nothing. It's almost inhuman how this knight who lives on the battlefield has such a lack of scars.

Merlin, on the other hand, is covered in them. Burn marks covering the tips of his fingers, deep jagged cuts that dug into his back and arms. Scraps and cuts cover his legs and arms, and a small patch of discoloration on his forehead that never quite heald right. He goes to great lengths to keep these hidden. It wouldn't make sense for a meek servant to have so many brutal scars. He covers his body even during the hot months with long sleeve shirts and thick scarves so no one will ask any questions.

The reason behind this is that Merlin will always meticulously heal any injuries Arthur faces. Always being thorough so they won't scar over. He knows the way scars ache during the cold or thunderstorms, the way the pain seems to seep into your bones. He doesn't want Arthur to suffer through that. But when he gets injured, he does just enough to stop the bleeding. He lives with a physician. Why would he do more than that? He'll get them looked at eventually... (he never does).

Point is, Merlin does the bare minimum to keep himself alive while he goes the extra mile for Arthur to keep him comfortable.

[chirpsythismorning]

I’m just gonna come out and say it… Byler’s best scene has gotta be the rain fight. It just is. It’s arguably Finn and Noah’s best performance for their characters’ dynamic. It has everything. Repression. Instant regret. Groveling. Heartbreak. Devastation.

Me, rewatching the rain fight to feel something that is akin to every single feeling one experiences after watching a masterful feature length romance, only in this case it’s all happening in one single scene:

[oh-gh0st]

thought the last screenshot was them (the whole post is)

[lokh]

at this point i have to assume the ongoing chest pain is from living in this fucking house

[stackthedeck]

my tummy hurts in ways previously unknown to scientist

[mihai-florescu]

Ive been mostly keeping my livetweets to priv but im so scared to read faust's recollection of the past someone hold my hand

[slipperywhenwet0o0]

The next person to make a jjk edit to mitski is getting shot o

IMMEDIATELY

[jamesheathridge]

benson was in high school instigating fights just so he could get his own ass beat. in a way it was a release from himself, but at the same time he just thought he deserved it. his mom would get mad when he hurt himself, so he let others do it. but as he got older, his mother started caring less, got so used to seeing her son with cuts and bruises on his arms that she stopped saying anything. she got so used to him lashing out every time she'd asked that she'd stopped asking at all. stopped asking if it was someone at school or if he had done it to himself. stopped asking him why his fingers were busted and bloody and the kitchen mirror was broken. stopped pointing out that he couldn't cut himself that bad shaving. the less she cared, the less he did about hiding it. he'd leave evidence around the house, directly in her eyesight, walk around her with muscle tees and scarred arms.

[petpetpinixy]

lineart is done for this thing ^_^ i'm in agony

[theeminentlyimpractical]

I’ve been on a Remus/Sirius fic memory hole speedrun for the past 3 days and jesus christ no wonder I was so depressed in high school I was basically injecting USDA grade A angst directly into my veins for like 3 years straight there.

[blueeyesfilledwithpassion]

Desire

It's both sides of the same coin.

Desire......

It can be pleasure, it can be pain.

When the desires and longing is fulfilled its absolute bliss in its rawest form.

When the desires and longing is rejected, it is the deepest, darkest hurt imaginable.

The tornado of emotions that live within when battling with desires unfulfilled is a pull to the depths of one's soul.

Those feelings live and breed deep within and crave the purest touch of softest, warming light imaginable.

Nonetheless, the heart continues to pump its lifeblood.

Doing what it does best.

Survive.

Blu

Image by Tobe Fonseca

[cowdragons]

made this little sketch and suddenly i need to change the way i draw my own hair forever

[yusufstits]

thinking about nile having nightmares and not being able to sleep post london and then being very tired during the day and taking naps on whoever's around