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Official name: Creation Entertainment's SALUTE TO SUPERNATURAL, SMALLVILLE AND BUFFY/ANGEL Location: Hyatt Regency Woodfield, Chicago, Illinois Time: Sunday November 11, 2007, ?10:10? am (GMT-6) Panelists: Jared Padalecki Last episode: 3x06 "Red Sky at Morning" Nov 8, 2007 Next episode: 3x07 "Fresh Blood" - Nov 15, 2007

Question Index: 1- Dog snacks 2- Jensen impression; Fav Love Interest 3- Living, dead, or fictional dinner; 2x17 "Heart" love scene 4- Pranks; Kim Manners; 2x06 "No Exit" 5- Most rememberable SPN moment 6- Acting with Sandy; 3x05 “Bedtime Stories” crossroad demon scene 7- 3x03 “BDABR”; Sam laughing end scene 8- Fav pastime 9- 3x05; “Bedtime Stories” walking up hill scene 10- Gilmore Girls; fav drunk!Jensen moment 11- Dream Role; H/F 12- SPN Appreciation 13- Post Production 14- Fan Gift; Thank you plaques 15- On Set Happenings; funny

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Jensen: (walks off stage) Thanks guys. (audience cheers)

Jared’s Panel starts.

•Intro- (6:30-SA, 1:03-S, 0:38- DD)

Jared: Can I have a cold seat? (audience laughs) He kept it warm for me. Hi guys! (audience says hey back and cheers) Some the same, some different. Good to see y’all.

◘Chicago November 2007 - Jared Solo Panel - Enhanced Edition Con Video - V2.0 by DetailTilted◘

Were y’all easy on him? (thumbs off stage)- We can- We can smartify the questions now- now that- (audience laughs and oo’s) (grimaces and then smiles)

•(1:21 S, 0:57 DD, 0:06 DT )- Chicon07JP;Q1- Dog snacks

Audience member: Did the dog like his snacks?

Jared: No, my dogs loved the snacks. They love all snacks. Anything, they’ll smell it, they’ll find it, and they'll... (audience member: Cats.) eat it. (nods) Cats. They actually we were- (audience member: Cats.) (audience laughs) I took them to the vet the other day. Um, my-my shepherd, Sadie, uhm, she had a wart growing on her mouth. (a few audience aw’s) And, I was afraid it was a- I was afraid it was a spider bite or something. So, I took ‘em to the vet and there was one of those old school, fat vet cats that kind of hangs out in the lobby. It probably ran into a, you know, thousand dogs and.. vicious dogs and nice dogs.

And Sadie, just being the shepherd, goes up to the cat and starts kind of, like, smells and do a little rumble. And the cat just goes like (mimics rapid swatting) (audience laughs) maybe five or six shots. And Sadie was like, “Alright, I’ve had enough of that cat.” (audience laughs) “I’m not really-” And Harley’s too slow to really do anything. So, he’s sort of like.. confused. The cat moves too fast. He cries and.. (audience aw’s) I pet him. (audience laughs) So.. that’s it. (a few audience aw’s)

Anything else? H-How are y’all, uh- How was Jensen doing? Did he.. (audience says good and cheers) (?Did he do everything? Good?). (raises fist) Good. (nods) Yeah. I can always count on him to.. say the right things (?when he?) (audience laughs) (?does one of these?)

Anybody have any more? Anybody have any more... questions? (throws his hand up) See you later (mimics leaving) (audience laughs)

Audience member: Stay!

Audience member: Both sides.

Jared: Both sides. Both sides. Oh! (looks back and forth) Which side- Which side do I start with?

Audience members: This one.

Jared: (throws up a hand) Oh, this is very organized. (audience laughs) I was trying to find out.. which were camera phones and which were microphones. (audience chuckles) Uh, (looks to his right) Hi.

•(1:33 DT)- Chicon07JP;Q2- Jensen impression; Fav love interest

Fan: Hi, I’m Gen. I wasn’t really expecting a switch so, um... (giggles) (audience laughs)

Jared: (laughs) I can play Jensen. (audience cheers)

Jared swipes his bangs to the side, squints his eyes, and puckers his lips. The audience screams and then claps.

◘Jensen and Jared at Creation Con 8 by sarahmonious◘

◘Out with Jared, in with Jensen… by tchuuuka◘

Jared: (deeper voice) Yes? (audience laughs and catcalls) (laughs) He’s not here to defend himself. I feel bad. (audience laughs) Which means he’s going to defend himself back in the corridors.. like.. kicking me in the stomach.

Fan: Please, though, I have two questions then. (Jared: Please.) Can you do that again now that I zoomed in? (audience laughs)

◘Jared in Chicago: Being Jensen by BabyBlueSteel◘

Jared: Sure. (dramatized calm gesture) Out with Jared, in with Jensen. (resumes Bluesteel expression)

Parts of the audience are yelling out to look in their direction. The rest is laughing and squealing. Jared abruptly stops, laughs, and wipes his eyes and then nose.

◘Jared_cc1 by _sin_attract◘

Jared: I think I snotted outta my nose. (audience laughs) That was very not Jensen. He probably wouldn’t ‘ve.. snotted on himself. (audience laughs)

Fan: Okay, now for my real question (Jared: Yeah.) Umm.. uh.. (laughs) (audience laughs)

Jared: Uh, I agree. I agree. (audience laughs) (turns) Next. (laughs) Sorry.

Fan: What would be your, uh.. favorite love interest on “Supernatural” so far? (audience yells out Sarah)

Jared: So far? Uhm, my favorite love interest- which one? (audience yells out Sarah) You know what? I s- I feel- I feel like the most open ended- Obviously Madison’s dead, (audience laughs) and, uh- Though that was- that sort of s- was a full arc, it happened very fast. And, I think that Sam and Sarah did have something (audience: Yeah) kind of going on, and we never- (audience screams) And, nothing ever happened, so I’m curious to see if she comes back.

And it seemed like, at least at that point in time, it seemed like, um- it seemed like it was setting her up to come back, because she worked.. at antique shop where there might be more, uh, (audience member: Yeah.) more.. (shrugs) paintings or.. more stuff. (nods and points at the crowd) I borrowed that word. (audience chuckles) More stuff that comes in that she need help with. So, I wonder if we’ll see her come back. (nods) But, that’ll probably be.. the most realistic.. for my opinion. (nods)

Fan: Thank you.

Jared: Sure. (turns to his left)

•(3:37 DT)- Chicon07JP;Q3- living, dead, or fictional dinner; 2x17 love scene

Fan: Hi. (Jared smiles) I have two questions. (Jared: Okay!) Uh, a friend of mine would like to know, if you could have dinner with any person living, dead, or fictional who would it be? And I would like to know (Jared: Oh, wow.) who chor- I would like to know who choreographed the love scene in Heart. (audience laughs and squeals. Jared laughs)

Jared: That was, uh- the first- the second question easier to answer. That was Kim Manners. (audience laughs) Inevitably- inevitably it’s, uh, it’s.. I’m mean kissing on screen is awkward enough, because.. you're sort of like, I wanna look cool. (swipes his bangs bang) (audience giggles) I wanna be- I wanna be, like, hot and sexy. And I wanna, like, get (wiggles) that (a few audience catcalls) right emotion.

◘ Jared in Chicago: the Love Scene in Heart by BabyBlueSteel◘ ◘Jensen and Jared at Creation Con 9 by sarahmonious◘

And then, you know, (sits up straight and rigid) the light’s there and they’re going, “You’re blocking her light.” (audience laughs) (mimics stiffly backing up) So you back up. (audience laughs)

"Is it good now?" Like, “Okay, Yeah. Now lean in.” (leans forward) “Turn your head more.” (nods and turns head) “Okay. Yeah. Still look good? Still look-” “Yeah. Yeah.” (audience is laughing the entire time)

(sits back and relaxes his body) And so, that’s odd enough. And so, now take a lot of clothes off. (a few audience catcalls) And then you’re like, (slightly turns) “Where can you see? Can you see.. my forearm?” (gestures to his forearm) “No. So, I don’t need to flex my forearm? Just the top? Okay.” (audience laughs) “My back?” (turns slightly in the chair and gestures to his torso) “Can you- Can you s- Did you get any abs? Shannon!” My makeup artist, Shannon. “Give me some paint.” (audience laughs) (points around his side torso) “Some- Pour- Pour" (laughs) "paint around here.”

And so, it’s- it’s- Though it looks- it looks… fine on screen. It’s inevitably very awkward. And it’s always, like- She was a very sweet girl. Uh.. but it’s like, you know, “I’m sorry. Like, nice to meet you. Okay, uh.” (mimics taking off clothes and then shrugs) (audience laughs) So, it’s- it’s odd and it's awkward. So, they have to be very choreographed. But Kim Manners did that.

And the living, dead, or… You know what? This is just, uh, this is just something out of my own curiosity. And I’m- I’m.. I love my family and I never got to meet my dad’s dad. So I’d like to go back and.. (audience aw’s) and see, yeah. (nods) My mom’s parents, uh, I-I knew them both. My- my dad’s mom, but I never got to meet.. my father’s father. So-

Fan: Good answer.

Jared: -If I could.. go back and meet him, I- I’d love to.

Fan: Thank you.

Jared: Sure. Thank you. Now I go (snaps his fingers and turns and points to his right) New face.

•(5:32 DT)- Chicon07JP;Q4- Pranks; Kim Manners; 2x06 “No Exit”

Fan: Hello. Um, I was wondering- improvising here because (laughs) I had a question for Jensen. (audience laughs)

Jared: I- I can bring him back. (swipes his hair and puckers his lips) (audience laughs) (laughs then shakes his head)

Fan: But, um- You can if you want to. But, I was wondering what your favorite practical joke was.. that you played.. on someone.

Jared: My favorite practical joke was that I played, um- You know what? I-I still say Kim Manners once- (points off to his left) To go back to Kim, we always have a lot of fun with him on set. And last year, we threw him into- When we were doing “No Exit,” um, which is the one where they were in the walls, Jo and Dean. Uh, there was a tube that they built on set that had water all through it.

◘Jared_cc2 by _sin_attract◘ ◘Jensen and Jared at Creation Con 10 by sarahmonious◘ ◘Jared Padalecki talking a prank in Chicago by BeckyVids◘

And so, we had to crawl through it. We’re all getting wet and our knees are getting all scuffed up and- and Manners is laughing. And so, Jensen and myself and two of my buddies, my buddy Jordan and Logan who were in town visiting, um, picked up Kim. Who as it is, is already, you know, 5’6” and much smaller than (laughs) any of us. (audience giggles) And so, he’s like a hundred and ten pounds or something. (audience laughs) So, we just grab him.

And he’s like, (mimics struggling) “I’ll kill yah. I’ll kill you all.” (audience laughs) He’s.. struggling back and forth and finally we just overpower him because there’s like four of us. And we shove him into the, uh- into this.. tube full of water and kind of.. gunk and all this crazy stuff that they put in there to make it look like a sewer. And, so- He got us back though. (nods) He got us back. It’s actually on the gag reel, he's getting us back. (audience: Yeah!) (nods) Yeah. So, uh- So, he had the last laugh, but we still have to get him back for that.

We’re biding our time. (nods) (audience giggles) Yeah.

Fan: Thank you.

Jared: Thank you. (turns to his left)

•(6:55 DT, 1:02 SA)- Chicon07JP;Q5- Most rememberable SPN moment

Fan: Hello. (Jared: Hi!) I’m Maria. Um-

Jared: Hi, Maria. I’m Jared. (audience laughs)

Fan: My question is that- Um, my question for you is, what is the most memorable moment you’ve had in the process of filming “Supernatural?”

Jared: …Wow, uhm.. that’s a- that’s a.. very good question. (audience giggles) Uh… You know what? The- iit’s not really been one moment. But it’s been, maybe, a series of moments.

◘Jared's q&a by augustfading 1:03◘

This is what’s pops in my head.. of.. when you kind of realize that what you’re doing.. such as right now this very second, when you realize that what you’re doing is reaching people. And, people are actually watching and enjoying your work and- and getting along with those stories. And, you'll read this.. letter, o-or you'll hear from this.. fan.. or this person that says, “You know, listen, um.. it’s something that I can watch with my brother. We used to not get along.” “It's something I can watch with my father.” “It's Something I can watch with my sister.” "It's something like- We’ll turn the phones off. And you know, “We’ll- We’ll lock our doors and no one kno- Everybody knows not to call us.” (audience giggles)

And so, hearing stuff like that, (nods) it really gets you through the long hours. And the, you know, we’re living in Vancouver. We’re waking up, going to work, going home, going to sleep. Waking up, going to work, going home, going to sleep. On the weekends, we do grocery shopping, you know? (audience laughs) Like, and then go back to sleep, and then we’re waking up and we're at work again.

And so, these moments help you realize the last two in a half years has not been for naught. (nods) So.. (nods)

Fan: (?Well, you make-?)

Jared: Thank you guys.

Fan: (?You guys make incredible?) (?)

Jared: (nods and smiles.) Thank you. (The audience claps and cheers.) (turns to his right.) Hi.

•(8:25 DT, 2:33 SA)- Chicon07JP;Q6- Acting with Sandy; 3x05 “Bedtime Stories” crossroad demon scene

Fan: Hi. I’m Sarah.

Jared: I’m Jared. (audience laughs) Sarah. That was, uh, Taylor's name in.. “Provenance.” (looks down) (Fan: First of all-) (looks up and points at his head) My mind is always working, guys. (audience laughs) Always working. (leans back, grimaces, and then chuckles)

Fan: First of all, I just have to say, Hi, Sandy. I- I think your fabulous.

Jared: (hand on chest) I’m Jared. (audience laughs) (looks around) I can bring (swipes his hair) Sandy in here. (audience laughs, cat-calls, cheers, and claps) (laughs) Thank you. She was- she was absolutely fabulous. She is. Thank you.

Fan: Second of all, I have to say my birthday is on Thursday. And I just have to say thank you so much for coming out here, you and Jensen both. This is the best birthday present ever.

Jared: Oh. Well, happy birthday. And thank you so much.

Fan: And third of all, my question.. (audience laughs. Jared smiles) um, is, was it difficult in the episode Sandy was in, (Jared: mhm) acting that scene out because, I don’t know about anyone else, but that was disturbing for me to watch you shoot her.

Jared: It was- (laughs) (audience laughs) Well, I’ve always wanted to.. (gun gesture) you know, (smiles) (audience laughs and oos) (laughs) I actually called and asked. I was like- a-Originally I just walk away, but I called Eric, “Can I shoot her or something?” (audience laughs)

Um, it-it was- it was difficult in that.. you.. when.. you’re in a relationship and- and you know somebody so well and you fall in love with a person for many, many years.. (points back and forth to his eyes) you- you- there’s something different that happens when you look at them and you don’t- you don’t see- even what they say, you kind of- Like-like they could not talk and say anything and you’re.. reading? You’re buying what they’re selling (laughs and shakes his head and mouths “I don’t know”) Sorry. (audience laughs)

◘Jared and Jensen Q&A (1) by LauraTX1◘

So, it was weird to act with her in that sense. And-But it was kind of- It was a great.. kind of way to come full circle, because we met on "Cry Wolf" (nods) ..and acting (Fan: acted) together. (nods) And so it was interesting to- to go back and act and- and I was very proud of her and very happy with.. the work.

And it was fun. It was a lot of fun.. And our director was very.. (swipes hand) obviously.. conscious of what was going on. And-and it was fun. But, the only thing is, is that when I watched the ep- when I watched the scene, it looks like I’m smirking (audience laughs) at a point in time. And I’m like, “I know I’m not smirking. I know I’m smirking as Sam, but I hope it doesn’t look like I’m laughing.. because I know” (audience laughs) “Sandy.” Because I remember, I was trying to smirk to-to- to help Sam bluff the crossroad’s- (swipes hand through air) Anyways, (audience laughs) it was odd, but I loved it. (nods and puts briefly hand on chest) I loved it. And I’d do it again too. (nods) Yeah. (audience laughs) (turns to the audience and nods but then realizes) Not that! I didn't- (leans back and facepalms) (audience laughs, claps, and cheers) (smiles to himself looking down and then at the audience) I’m done. I'm done. (audience laughs) (to Sarah) Sorry, baby.

Fan: Thank you.

Jared turns to look at fan and turns to his left laughing to himself.

•(10:46 DT)- Chicon07JP;Q7- 3x03 “BDABR”; Sam laughing end scene

Fan: Hi Jared. (Jared: Hi.) I’m Amanda. (Jared: I’m Jared.) (audience laughs) Um, my question is about the "Bad" episode of season 3, “Bad Day in Black Rock”

Jared: Yeah. I got it. (audience woo’s) Yeah, (?I loved that episode?).

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Fan: I absolutely loved that episode. (Jared: I did too) And in.. the last scene between Sam and Dean where.. Dean is yelling out, “Son of a bitch,” (audience and Jared laugh) you can see you cracking up on film. (audience laughs) I was wondering- (Jared: [points] That’s- that’s actually-) I was wondering how many takes did it take for you to just give up and have that one on film.

◘Jared's q&a by augustfading 1:51◘

Jared: We, um.. Well he improvised that line. He- he’s thrown in a few- He’s said, “Son of a bitch,” a few times on “Supernatural” for those who- for those who know the history of “Supernatural.” A lot of times he’s just.. uh.. improvising it.

And so, the shot- a-as I had known the shot was over, and it was- it was a great shot- it was a Steadicam shot, that starts- And that was all- that whole scene was one shot. And it was sort of a way to cleverly tie in us leaving with catching her in the background, and then coming back and ending on us. And it was just a- it was a great shot, a really tough shot. We have a great Steadicam operator.

◘Jared in Chicago: The laugh in BDABR…Jared or Sam? By BabyBlueSteel◘

And, um.. we had to do that.. probably three or four times. You know, there’s a light.. that goes off. Or I fall. (audience laughs) Or one of those things like that. Or the car is not, um, is not cued on time. Or it’s cued on time, but she goes too fast. There was- there was so many elements that work, especially those long Steadicam shots. Everything has to be perfect.

And, he.. comes around. And so the people who are (mimics boom mic operators) running behind us holding mics have to like run (audience laughs) and then run back, and then get-hunk down, and like.. run into grave stones. And we try.. to ignore (laughs) everything.

But, um.. that one I couldn’t help but laugh (nods). (audience laughs) Yeah. It was one of those ones and I was like, “I don’t know if they’re still rolling, but if they are I better hide my face." (turns head) (audience laughs)

Fan: (?I'll?) say, I watched it and then I went- I was watching, um, Jensen’s reaction (Jared: Right.) and then I went, “Hang on, Jared. What's that?"

Jared: Yeah. My favorite part of that episode is actually (points then mimics holding the check) just the look on Jensen’s face when we win the- when we have the check from Biggerson’s. (audience laughs) He looks like he’s six years old. (mimics Jensen’s face) (audience laughs and claps) There’s something about… there’s something about- because he’s- he’s a li- he’s a few years older than I am. But there’s something about when he gets this goofy look on his face, he could be five. (audience laughs) He could be my son, like, on my shoulders. (mimics Jensen on shoulders and handing him food) “Want some chicken nuggets?” (audience laughs)

But.. But, yeah. That was- Every time I watch that I crack up. But.. yeah. That was a funny shot.

Fan: Okay, thank you.

Jared: Thank you. (turns to his right)

•(13:38 DT, 2:08 SA)- Chicon07JP;Q8- Fav pastime

Fan: Hi, Jared. I’m Tina.

Jared: Hi, Tina. I’m.. (Fan: I wanted-) Jared. (flustered smirk) (audience laughs) (laughs)

Fan: I- I wanted to ask what your favorite pastime while you're filming “Supernatural” is. When-

Jared: Um, my favorite pastime while I’m filming “Supernatural..” Uh.. I guess during the day.. um- It’s weird because.. when you’re filming a TV show or a movie or anything, it’s true what they say, you know, in a fourteen hour day only be working three of those hours? Four of those hours? Maybe on a hard day, half of that time? But, your off time, you can’t necessarily just go, (looks at watch) “Okay, I have five minutes between shots. I’m gonna go, uh, you know, like.. read a book or write-” Because you get totally out of the scenes. It’s, you know, you go from doing a crazy emotional scene to like, “Hey, let’s go play like.. you know, jumpin’ jacks or something.” (audience laughs)

And so, whatever- what I tried to do during the day is just try to set my head straight. You know, my dogs are usually with me (a few audience aw’s) and I-I’ll just kind of sit down with them and pet them, or I’ll call Sandy. Or, uh, turn on.. the news, just sort of have in the background.

But, even sometimes watching the news, you know, you’ll- you’ll sit there and go, “Oh, wait.” And they’ll call you, they’ll- “We're ready on set.” (mimics talking to someone behind him) And you're like, “I just wanted to see if.. this person’s alright.” (audience laughs) You know and so, it’s tough.

And-and it’s sort of this weird.. limbo where you can’t- you can’t… stay on set, because you’ll just go crazy. But, you can’t.. completely.. let your mind leave.. the job at hand, because then you’ll get out of the scene. So, it’s kind of- you kind of just.. zone out. But, I guess, just relaxing. (nods)

Fan: Okay. Thank you. (audience laughs)

Jared: Thank you. (turns to his left) Hi, I’m Jared.

•(15:06 DT, 3:35 SA)- Chicon07JP;Q9- 3x05; “Bedtime Stories” walking up hill scene

Fan: Hi. (audience laughs) I’m (?Brendan? or ?Brittney?) my comment was going to be for Jensen, sorry.

Jared: Okay! (Fan: Um-) I can- I can- (swipes his bangs back and purses lips) (audience laughs)

Fan: (?See if Jensen is still out there. He can hear this but-?)

Jared: He will be coming back. (Fan: Okay.) He will be coming back.

Fan: Alright, but.. I might not get to tell him. (Jared: Awooh) Fell in love with him on Dark Angel and, um-

Jared: Didn’t we all. (audience laughs) (leans back) What? (clears throat and taps mic) Sorry. (adjusts his shoulders and purses his lips)

Fan: Love him more now. But, um.. (Jared laughs) question can be towards you. (Jared: Okay.) In the episode-

Jared: I’ll-I’ll take it. (laughs) (audience laughs)

Fan: Well, it involves you, but um, his answer would have probably been a lot better. (giggles)

Jared: (nods) It probably would've- (audience groans and oo’s) (curls up, shaking his head, then sits up) Will someone come wipe my tears. (audience is a mix of laughter and groans)

Audience member: We love you Jared!

Fan: In Bedtime-

Jared: I’ll-I’ll take no offense. (audience laughs) In Bedtime. (nods to fan)

Fan: In “Bedtime Stories,” the episode, there is a scene that, um, Sam and Dean are walking together in con- (Jared: Right) in conversation. And you, like, look like you fforget your, um, your- no. ur- you know, your lyri- lyrics- (audience yells out lyrics and lines) your lines. (Jared: Right) (laughs) And, um.. And Dean has to, like, step in. In the- in.. offset there- not offset, but you can see, uh um, an extra- a female extra walk by and you kind of, like, follow her and Dean has to jump in.. and finish, like, your line or whatever.. and save you, I thought.

Jared: Which one was it? A lot of times that’s, uh, a lot of times he and I work out that. Do you remember which scene that was? Because, I could probably.. answer very specifically. (fan sighs) It was in “Bedtime Stories?”

Fan: It was in “Bedtime Stories.”

Jared: Were we in a hospital?

Fan: No, you’re not in the hospital. You’re outside.. in the park- (a few in the audience start talking) Yeah, you’re talking about what happened in the morgue.

Audience member: You said, “I got nothing!”

Fan: Yeah I- Yeah, you got nothing- you kind of, like, paused and (Jared: [mumbles] I got nothing) Dean had to jump in and, like,-

Jared: Oh, You know what that was! (nods) Okay, I know what you mean. We’re walking up a hill. We’re walking up the hill of the streets. (Fan: Because it’s-) What that was, is that was another long shot. The-the longer the shot the more you kind of have to rush things. And what it is, is that we had to finish the shot by the time we came exactly even with the street, because that’s where we had.. our cameraman. We had, uh, ‘cause we had another angle- We had an angle going down the street. And we had an angle that was sort of following us like this. (moves his hand horizontally to his left)

And so we had to time out that whole walk, to try and start it at the bottom of the block and finish it by the time we exited frame. (Fan: mhm) Um, and so it’s just this weird timing issue to where.. you sort of- Either you’re going too fast and then you have to really slow down and, like, dramatic pause (flips hair) (audience giggles) towards the end of the scene. Or you have to take your pauses through the scene and then you sort of, uh, rush it at the end.

So, I think that was sort of.. we both might have rushed it a bit at the end to- to make sure it got out.

Fan: Get- Because it.. It kind of looked like you were checking the chick out, which is so out of character for Sam. (audience and Jared laugh)

Jared: Well. (laughs and throws a hand up)

Fan: It’s usually Dean. (laughs) It’s usually Dean who’s really like, “woo.” You know?

Jared: Man.. (laughs) I think- I think it’s- it's actually- If-if- if I was checking- (laughs) (audience laughs) (stands up) Back pedal. (mimics stumbling back and then shoveling dirt) If I was- I’ve actually tried to make a conscious effort this year- for no reason I haven’t been (?informed by?) any writers. But, there’s a- there’s a line that Fred Lehne says to Jensen at the end of last year which is, “Are you sure what you brought back is 100% Sam.” (audience agreement)

Fan: Right.

Jared: And though we haven’t- So- So, we started to- I’ve started to sort of.. bring out the Dean in Sam. (nods)

Fan: Right. And that’s what I was wondering if that’s where (Jared: Right. [nods]) the storyline (Jared: Which is- [laughs]) was going. (Jared: Um-) Because it really- that's- re- (laughs) re- (laughs)

Jared: Not- not s- not tech- not specifically, but just as an actor (nods) some choices.. I make.. o- to deliver lines would be how I think maybe Jensen would’ve done it. (Fan: Right) Or with just a check-out here and there.

There’s also another part in “Sin City,” where they didn't- you didn’t see it too much, but where, uh-um, Martin Papazian, I forget his character’s name, but, (Brooklyn accent) “Forget about it,” that guy. (Fan: Yeah) Where he comes out he’s like, (Brooklyn accent) “My sister, Cheryl.” And then she walks away. And we both (leans forward) kind of check her out. (Fan: right) (nods) And that was another thing that I decided, you know, like, throw Sam’s face out there and- (nods)

Fan: You guys are great. Thanks so much.

Jared: (pats leg) Thanks so much. (audience claps) (turns to his right)

•(19:36 DT, 7:33 SA)- Chicon07JP;Q10- Gilmore Girls; fav drunk!Jensen moment

Jared: Hi! (Fan: Hello.) I’m Jared.

Fan: Taylor. Um-

Jared: Taylor was Sarah. Sarah was the girlfriend. (audience laughs) (snorts and then chuckles)

Fan: (laughs) Um, (?). I have two questions. (Jared: Okay.) First one is, are you in contact with anyone still from “Gilmore Girls?”

Jared: I’m not. I-I’m- I’m not in contact with anyone still from “Gilmore Girls,” but I have, uh.. When I see people here or there, like Scott Patterson is up in Vancouver right now shooting, Al-“Aliens in America.” (an audience woo) And so I’ll see them- Yeah, he’s great. But I’ll see them at, um.. Warner Brothers events or CW events. And.. the latest people I’ve really seen have been Scott, and I saw Milo, like, a year and a half ago. (a few audience woo’s) But other than that I haven’t- I haven’t really been able to keep in charge of everybody. (looks at audience)

He’s kicking ass, huh?- He’s kicking butt. (grimace) He’s kicking butt. (nods) Yeah, I’m really proud of him. He’s- he’s a- he's a hard worker. (nods) He deserves it, so. (nods)

Fan: Okay and the second on is, Jensen didn’t really answer this one but, what is your favorite memory of Jensen-

Jared: (?Wouldn't? or ?What do?) you mean my answer is going to be better than Jensen’s? (looks back and forth in the crowd) (audience laughs and cheers) (stands up) Where is she? (nods, points into the crowd, and then sits back down towards the fan) I’ll take care of it. (waves at the fan) What's your- What’s your question? (audience laughs) (laughs)

◘Supernatural - Jared memory…By csnutty◘

Fan: Tell us your favorite memory of Jensen when he was drunk?

As soon as the question registers, Jared’s face lights up with an open mouth laugh and then he gets up, turns around, and pumps his fist in the air. Then he turns back and pumps his fist towards the middle. The audience laughs and cheers. Jared walks and sits back down.

◘Jared Padalecki at Chicago Con…By DegaDreamer◘

Jared: (laughs) You know what? Uh- It goes back to my favorite memory of Jensen in “Bad Day at Black Rock.” He’ll sometimes get this face- this look on his face where he’s six years old. (audience giggles) And you want to, like, take a beer out of his hand and go, “Son, you’re- you’re not old enough.” (audience laughs) So, uhm, idk, we have a lot of fun. W-We don’t ever get stupid, but we have a lot of fun and like to laugh. So, just goofing around on each other. You know? (nods)

Fan: Okay. Thank you!

Jared: Thank you, Taylor. (turns to his left) Hi!

•(21:14 DT, 9:10 SA, 0:40 C)- Chicon07JP;Q11- Dream Role; H/F

Fan: Hi, Pam. I’m Jared.

Jared: Hi Jared- (audience laughs) (reels back, presses his lips together, and then hides his face behind his mic for a few beats) I did it on purpose! (mock frowns and then laughs)

Fan: Is there, uh, an historic person or fictional character that you would like to play?

Jared: Uhh.. Yes. I’d love to play Howard Roark from “The Fountainhead.” (Audience member: Yes! Woo!) (audience laughs) (nods points mic at audience member) Yeah. I-I love- I love to do that. When I read that book, I really- I really.. appreciated.. the character. And, whether you agree with Ayn Rand or not, you know, (swipes hand) that’s a totally different discussion. But I think he’s a very.. interesting character and he- and he’d be very, very fun to play. So. (nods)

Fan: Thank you for being here.

Jared: Thank you. (turns to his right) (audience laughs) Hi!

•(22:08 DT, 10:04 SA)- Chicon07JP;12- Spn Appreciation

Fan: Hi. I’m actually an actor from New York.

Jared: Awesome! (pats his leg) (Fan: Yeah) Well, nice to meet you.

Fan: Um, I so connect with the show and I’m not really a TV person at all. (Jared: Right) But um, I really wish that, you know, the darkness and evil in the world came from the supernatural, (laughs) you know. (Jared: [shrugs and nods] Right.) But, it doesn’t. (Jared: Right.) And um, I still connected with the show, because, um, well coincidentally my mom died the same week that the father died on the thing. And I- I look after my sisters and there's a lot of dark and pain and terrible stuff. And, um, these conversations that you have about faith and all these things, I just so connected. It has such an impact on me. You just- You know, the writers do it, but you really bring the unbelievable to be believable. Which I think is such a skill. And so...

Jared: Thank you so much. (audience claps and cheers) I’m very sorry, but thank you so much. And that’s- and that’s one of the things actually- (points at fan) You voiced one of the reasons that Jensen and I are so excited to be apart of this show. And Eric has voiced it before. And it’s.. in this guise of supernatural we get to... tackle a lot of.. real-life issues dead on. Like y- like.. the vampires, Do you kill them and sort of tackling racism? Or like you’re saying faith, you know, you’re talking about faith healers are real or not, you sort of talk about beliefs and that. So, it’s-it’s been a good- it’s been a good way to get away with talking about real-life issues, but not throwing it in your face like.. (shrugs) real-life issues. You know? (nods) (audience laughs)

Fan: Dean- Dean had this one line where he says- In, “My Time of Dying” he says um, I would, um, you know, “You always have a choice. You could roll over and die or keep on fighting no matter what.” (Jared: Right [nods]) And that stayed with me, through so many things. And I just wanna...

Jared: Awesome. Well, thank you so much. (audience claps) (turns to his left and smiles)

•(23:45 DT, 11:41 SA)- Chicon07JP;Q13- Post Production

Fan: Hi, I’m Charity.

Jared: I’m Jared. (an audience laugh) I’m Pam. What? (audience laughs) (smiles)

Audience member: (?That’s right!?)

Fan: Uh, my question is, um, since you guys obviously film out of sequence, uh eh, whenever actors are available or whatever. (Jared: sure.) What do you think of the final.. program once it’s put together?

Jared: It’s so bizarre. Because not just the out of sequence filming but.. um, with the visual effects, and the special effects, and the color timing that’s done- the changing- the- the darkening of, uh, a lot of the shots, and just everything getting put together. It’s- it’s great to watch.

It’s-it’s not- it’s not just like- and I loved Gilmore Girls. I loved my five years on Gilmore Girls, but when you film it, you know what you’re going to see. You know, you look around and you’re in.. uh, Luke’s Diner and you’re like, “Oh, okay. At least it's gonna be Luke’s Diner.”

Whereas, you know you’re here and we’re out in the field somewhere and we’re yelling, there are rain towers, and I’m reading Latin book, (audience giggles) and looking at absolutely nothing. And then you see, uh, what our visual effects guy’s have done and our special effect guys have done. And you’re going, “Wow, like tha-that’s good for them.” (audience giggles)

It-It’s just feels like a really collaborative effort because um- on all sides. So, not just the out of sequence filming. But.. every aspect t-that goes into “Supernatural” really. Um, makes it.. a fun production and fun to watch.

It’s easier t-to detach myself.. when I watch it. Because inevitably actors are very.. um, critical of themselves. And so, since it’s such a fun, kind of crazy-kooky show you can sort of get caught up in it as opposed to watching it going, “Oh, I suck there. I suck.” (audience giggles) “Well, I was better than Jensen there, but I-” (audience laughs) (laughs)

Fan: Do you get to watch it every week?

Jared: No, we don’t get to watch it every week. But- because we’re usually working. Actually, I think.. we work most every Thursday at that time. But-but, they give us a copy. (fist pumps) And I have the I-Tunes season pass. (audience woo’s, cheers, and claps)

I watch it on my I-pod. Whenever I want to get recognized I go, “Sorry let me pause “Supernatural” on my I-pod.” (mimics pausing a device) (audience laughs) (mimics showing off the device) “It’s a great show. This guy is” (fist pumps) “hot.” (nods to fan)

Fan: Thank you.

Jared: Thank you. (turns to his right) Hi!

•(25:44 DT, 13:40 SA)- Chicon07JP;14- Fan gift; Thank you plaques

Fan: Hi, Jared. I’m sorry. I lost my voice.

Jared: It happens. It happens. (audience laughs) (throws up hand) I have that affect. (audience laughs) (holds up hand and shakes his head) I’m just kidding. (facepalms) (audience woo’s, cheers, and claps) Okay. No! No! (makes a cut motion) Don’t take me seriously. Don’t take me serious- (swipes at the audience) Stop it. Stop it. Stop it. (audience laughs) (laughs)

Fan: (?blending the tar binding thing right?) No I just- I don’t have any com- questions, because I think I know more about you than probably your mom, I guess.

Jared: (reels back and nods) Good to know. I’ll-I’ll have to call you and ask you some stuff sometime. (mimics phone) “I was wondering!” (audience laughs)

Fan: Um, I just wanted, um, to say you’re doing a great job. (Jared: Thank you) I appreciate you guys getting up early in the morning. I know it’s hard. It.. takes a lot you out of you guys physically and mentally. (Jared nods) I’m also the one that sent you the thank you plaque. (Jared: Yeah! Okay. [nods]) And I got one here for your mom and dad.

Jared: Oh wow. Well, thank you.

Fan: For bringing you into the world, because if wasn’t for you and Jensen, I wouldn’t be here today.

Jared: Well, thank you so much. (some audience aw’s)

Fan: (?The more I say?) the more I appreciate it. (audience claps)

Jared: Thank you… Thank you very much. I- I don’t know how to.. get that- (looks back and forth) (audience laughs) I can leave- Can I? (gets up to hug the fan) Thank you very much. (hugs) (audience aw’s and claps) (talks to fan off mic nodding)

Audience member: You dropped a card.

Audience member: You dropped your card.

Audience member: Jared, you dropped the card.

Jared: (laughs) I got it thank you. Thank you (?I will talk to her?, ?I'll- I'll talk to her?, or ?I'll tell her?). (picks up card that dropped on the floor) Alright, Thank you. (goes back on stage) Awesome. Thank you so much. (on mic) That’s my favorite question yet. (audience laughs) Free stuff. Free stuff. (laughs sits down and puts down the gift) Put that down. Okay, I go back to this side. (points and turns to his left) Hi!

•(27:26 DT, 15:23 SA)- Chicon07JP;Q15- On Set Happenings; funny

Fan: Hi, I’m Carly.

Jared: Hi, Carly.

Fan: Okay. Um, (audience laughs) I was watching the Ellen.. DeGeneres episode where (Jared: Right.) you were talking about that experience you had where thought you were dead.

Jared: That’s right. (audience and fan laugh) Yep. (nods while looking down)

Fan: I was wondering if anything like that has ever happened again on set or anything funny like that?

Jared: That was during “Flight of the Phoenix.” (laughs) That was kind of.. (fan giggles) Odd. And I’m starting to wish I didn’t admit that. (laughs) (audience laughs) It’ll follow me.

Um, it’s, uh- Every now and again some- some kooky stuff will happen on “Supernatural.” Ah, I don’t know if it’s.. because of what we’re filming or because that's kind of where you put your head for the sake of.. trying to act.. more gooder. (audience laughs) So- But um, I remember there’s this episode- I remem- I keep on telling this story of when we were shooting “Skin” which was the.. one- of season one where we had the brother-brother fight scene.

We were in this house- It was this big gorgeous house. And, you know, there are grips putting up their grips’ stuff and electrician putting up their gaff stuff. And everybody is kind of doing their own thing. And then all of a sudden, on this opposite wall, where nobody was, was a wall that, um- Outside of that wall was outside of the house. Like, it wasn’t an interior wall. It was a… (Audience: Exterior!) (smiles) exterior wall. It was the interior of an exterior wall. (audience laughs) But, all of a sudden this clock just goes, (mimics clock falling) “blunk,” and falls off.

And a couple of us sort of looked over and we were like, (tilts head) “Who did that?” (audience laughs) “And why did that do that?” And then somebody, I don’t remember who it was. But, somebody just sort of walked over and.. (mimics picking up clock) picked it up and put it back on. And we all just sort of scattered. (laughs) (audience laughs)

But, every now and again there’s some- there’s some crazy things. (nods)

Fan: Well, Thank you. (Jared: Thank you) I still- I’ll agree with that person. This is the best birthday present ever. (audience aw’s)

Jared: Oh, well, Happy Birthday. Thank you.

•(28:59 DT, 16:56 SA) - Closing

Jensen: (walks in from the right of the room wearing a Sam t-shirt over his clothes) They’ve got some amazing merchandise.

Jared looks off stage and then looks down laughing. The audience screams, cheers, and claps.

Jared: That guy is-

◘Jensen in Jared shirt By jensenluvx3◘

Creation staff brings Jensen and Jared director’s chairs. Jared stands up and the staff remove the old chair off stage.

◘Jensen and Jared at Creation Con 13 By sarahmonious◘

Jensen: I’ve never felt more comfortable than I do right now. (audience screams and laughs)

Jared: (sits down) I’ve never been more attracted to your torso, Jensen. (audience laughs)

Jensen: It’s a funny thing isn’t? (sits down)

Jared: I don’t know what it is. Something about the whooole.. half- (circle gestures at Jensen)

Jensen: (sits down and scoots back in his seat) Ah.

Jared: I answered (?two? or ?a few?) questions better than you would have. (brushes back bangs and looks around) (audience laughs)

-J2 panel starts-

#spn #supernatural #jared padalecki #spn con #spn transcript #chicon 2007 #2007

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01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? They are dead, but we were inseparable, and I loved them to the moon and back. Today would have been their 68th wedding anniversary. ;',(((

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? My bff, whom I regard as my sis.

03: Do you regret anything? Oh, don't get me started!...

04: Are you insecure? I am.

05: What is your relationship status? Single AF.

06: How do you want to die? ♫♪"I don't wanna die, I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all"♪♫ But to answer the question: quickly, painlessly. Dunno, like suck-starting a 12 gauge shotgun or something...

07: What did you last eat? Hot dog

08: Played any sports? Hell no!

09: Do you bite your nails? I do.

10: When was your last physical fight? Who the fuck remembers?... :/ When I was like 12-14, shortly after dinosaurs roamed the earth.

11: Do you like someone? Sure I do.

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? Nope. After being awake for 20-24 hours, I'm dead.

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? I do! With the burning hate of a thousand suns. May they rot in hell.

14: Do you miss someone? I do. A LOT of people.

15: Have any pets? Nope.

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? Like shit? :/

17: Ever made out in the bathroom? I have. Much more than just making out :P

18: Are you scared of spiders? Not really, apart from some "exotic" spiders I have (luckily) never encountered in my life. (Black widow, tarantula, etc.)

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? Each and every minute, or I should say, second!!!

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? Fuck rememberes... :/

21: What are your plans for this weekend? "Ah, ah, ah, ah stayin' alive, stayin' alive"

22: Do you want to have kids? How many? No way. Zero!

23: Do you have piercings? How many? Just a standard lobe piercing.

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? Chemistry.

25: Do you miss anyone from your past? I think we've already covered this, but let me reiterate: I do!

26: What are you craving right now? Tranquility.

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? I have.

28: Have you ever been cheated on? I have been

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? I have.

30: What’s irritating you right now? Everything. Well, almost everything, lol

31: Does somebody love you? I don't think so. :/

32: What is your favourite color? Just one? Duh... Black. It matches everything. :D

33: Do you have trust issues? You're goddamn right I do!

34: Who/what was your last dream about? I don't remember, and honestly, I don't want to...

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? I don't remember.

36: Do you give out second chances too easily? I used to, but not anymore...

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? Forgive

38: Is this year the best year of your life? Huh? o.O I don't know what you're on, but I want some, lmao. My best years of life were decades ago.

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 16

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? No.

51: Favourite food? Chopped steak with mushroom sauce, potatoes & red wine

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? Sometimes I do, though it's irrational. Maybe some things happen for a reason...

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? Put on some YSL Opium (FYI, that's a perfume, not a drug ^_^)

54: Is cheating ever okay? It's not okay, but it happens.

55: Are you mean? Depends...

56: How many people have you fist fought? Do you actually expect me to remember each and every physical fight as a child? o.O

57: Do you believe in true love? I kind of do...

58: Favourite weather? Oh, those typical gray, gloomy (but NOT rainy!!) november days. Cool but not cold (shaken, not stirred) ^_^

59: Do you like the snow? I don't.

60: Do you wanna get married? Nope. Besides, who would put up with me anyway? :P

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? It would be cute, I guess... Lol

62: What makes you happy? I'll pass on that one.

63: Would you change your name? In a heartbeat.

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? No.

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? All kinds of questionable, naughty things. :P

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? I do.

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? A cashier.

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? My bff

69: Do you believe in soulmates? I don't.

70: Is there anyone you would die for? Right now? I don't think so...

70 horrible questions ... Fuck it

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? 03: Do you regret anything? 04: Are you insecure? 05: What is your relationship status? 06: How do you want to die? 07: What did you last eat? 08: Played any sports? 09: Do you bite your nails? 10: When was your last physical fight? 11: Do you like someone? 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? 13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? 14: Do you miss someone? 15: Have any pets? 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? 18: Are you scared of spiders? 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? 21: What are your plans for this weekend? 22: Do you want to have kids? How many? 23: Do you have piercings? How many? 24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? 25: Do you miss anyone from your past? 26: What are you craving right now? 27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? 28: Have you ever been cheated on? 29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? 30: What’s irritating you right now? 31: Does somebody love you? 32: What is your favourite color? 33: Do you have trust issues? 34: Who/what was your last dream about? 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? 36: Do you give out second chances too easily? 37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? 38: Is this year the best year of your life? 39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? 51: Favourite food? 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? 54: Is cheating ever okay? 55: Are you mean? 56: How many people have you fist fought? 57: Do you believe in true love? 58: Favourite weather? 59: Do you like the snow? 60: Do you wanna get married? 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? 62: What makes you happy? 63: Would you change your name? 64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 69: Do you believe in soulmates? 70: Is there anyone you would die for?

#ask game #ask #answered #personal #me

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fleshybones · 30 days ago

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Collective Soul - Adored, Good Morning After All

Queensryche - I don’t believe in love, silent lucidity

Queen - Mother Love , No One but you, days of our lives, the show must go on, save , love of my life

Written about freddie

Ginger Wildheart

Sorry, the one, one more arrow, the last song, empty garden, candle in the wind- Elton John

Motörhead 1916, love me forever , iron horse

Thinking of you - Lenny kravitz

Song for Emma - Joe Walsh

Rod McKuen - seasons in the sun

Either Way - Chris stapleton

Fade to black - Metallica

Alice In Chains- down in a hole, your decision , don’t follow

Day after Day - badfinger

When a blind man cries, mistreated, child in time, soldier of fortune - deep purple

Maggot brain - funkadelic

You light up my life - Debby Boone

Without You, you’re breaking my heart - Harry Nilsson

Chance - big country

Wildfire - Michael Martin Murphey

Eleanor rigby / the long & winding road, for no one - Beatles

I used to love her GnR

Sylvia’s Mother - dr. Hook

Crying, in dreams - Roy Orbison

Joey - concrete blonde

Silver spring, man of the world, storms - fleet wood Mac

Lost without your love, teddy bear, if, Aubrey , everything I own - bread

Tangerine, thank you - Led Zeppelin

Pictures of you - the cure

She’s gone, solitude, changes - Black Sabbath

Road to nowhere - Ozzy Osborne

Still in love with you - thin Lizzy

Garden of rememberance - phish

Final cut - Pink Floyd , broken bones, in any tongue, jug band blues , two Suns in the sunset , when the tigers broke free , sorrow , the gunners dream , nobody homr

Zzyzx rd / stone sour

Black, just breathe, bitter hands, nothing man, yellow Ledbetter - Pearl Jam

Tangled up in you, something to remind you - staind

It’s raining again - supertramp

The bed, the kids, perfect day - Lou reed

McArthur park

Love hurts, ebony eyes - the everly brothers

Paradise by the dashboard lights

Strange fruit, gloomy holiday - Billie holiday

The last game of the season -David geddes

Say hello to heaven - soundgarden

Keep me in your heart - warren zevon

Alone again - Gilbert

Knights in white satin - moody blues

The weeping song, your funeral my trial, into my arms - nick cave

Breakup - A.C.T

Angel flight - radney foster

In the river - black label society

No one has to cry - the fixx

The dance - Garth brooks

Lost horizons - gin blossoms

Tears of a clown - Smokey Robinson

Lonesome loser- little river band

Les roses blanches - berthe Silva

Bird song - Johnny thunders

It’s only make believe - Conway twitty

Sky blue & black - Jackson Browne

Swithin’s day - dubstar

For Martha - the smashing pumpkins

The sky above the rain - marillion

Motion picture soundtrack, true love waits - Radiohead

Long black limousine - Elvis Presley

Dead boy’s poem - night wish

By the time I get to Phoenix, / glen Campbell Xmas shoes

One more try - George Michael

Bright eyes, sound of silence / art Garfunkel

He went to Paris - Jimmy buffet

Everybody’s been burned - the Byrds

Puff the magic dragon Peter Paul Mary

Racing in the street, streets of Philadelphia, paradise - Bruce Springsteen

Tom waits- Kentucky Ave , closing time

Red gum - only 19

What about me - moving pictures

Fire & rain - James Taylor

New York minute, Heart of the matter - - don henley

Still loving you , daddy’s girl - scorpions

Turn of the century - yes

Honey Bobby goldsboro

Holy mother , the sky is crying - Eric Clapton

Fiddlers green - tragically hip

The last goodbye, lilac wine - Jeff Buckley

The walk - sawyer brown

Peace in the valley

Everything hurts - sad cafe

Sunday morning coming down , solitary man / Johnny cash

Leader of the pack - shangri la’s

Blinded by rainbows - The Rolling Stones

Time in a bottle - Jim Croce

Drive - the cars

& So it goes / billy Joel

Edmond Fitzgerald , if you could read my mind - Gordon lightfoot

When love & hate collide, long long way to go - Def Leppard

Only women bleed- Alice cooper

Farewell, I don’t want to talk about it - rod Stewart

It’s my time - filter

Funeral March - Chopin

Sure got cold after the rain fell - ZZ Top

Catch the wind - donovan

I’ll remember you - bob Dylan

John moreland - you don’t care for me

Anything for you - great white

Summers end - John prine

Darknessdarkneas- the youngbloods

Another day, disappear - dream theatre

Green fields of France - drop kick murpheys

Caroline no - beach boys

Cold turkey, god, I found out - John Lennon

I’ll be true to you - the oak ridge boys

Say hello to heaven - temple of the dog

Another day in paradise - Phil Collins

Reflections of my life - marmalade

Return the wish - Sammy Hagar

Starless - king crimson

After all - David Bowie

It makes no difference - the band

Hollow / pantera

Leave me blind - zodiac

Ready to fly - Lynyrd skynyrd

Save a little room , I’ll get by- Eddie money

The drugs don’t work / the verve

No one compares to u Snead o Connor

Love hurts - Nazareth

Without you - omega

Respect the wind

The day that never comes

That’s how much I feel - ambrosia

Something to believe in / poison

New order- in a. Lonely place

The water boys - too close to heaven

Solitaire - the carpenters

I left my heart in San Francisco

Rise again- disturbed

10cc - not in love

Mercy street - Peter gabriel

Big Balls - AC/DC

Tom petty - echoes

Holocaust - big star

Up the junction - squeeze

Midnight cowboy

Perfect blue building - counting crows

Thank You - Led Zeppelin

Crying in the Chapel - Elvis Presley

Time After Time - Cyndi Lauper

Box of Rain - Grateful Dead

(Don’t Fear) The Reaper - Blue Oyster Cult

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thisisqueso · 7 months ago

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Where do I start with my souless endeavor? Staring blankly into the spaces of my mind until a thought succombs to a memory.

This memory is not something.

It is a feeling.

Some days it comes off as a dread like sticky honey left over from a cap not closed tight enough. Even if you try to drip it into your honey or on toast right, the damn thing stays sticky.

It's sometimes a oversensitivity to touch.

The rememberance of the last time I've ever eaten a peach is far too long.

What is it? A feeling of an uncomfortable nature looking for someone that won't be there.

Or the fear that someone will.

What is it? I still smile and gaze through different vectors of my personality. Drawing closer to my creative spin until I let a distraction settle in.

Am I happy? Am I okay? Do I care about others? Do I still feel the need to make friends?

Has romance left a bad taste in my mouth?

Do I run or do I stay?

The feeling comes back to being fine as long as my Spotify playlist is on point.

Thinking about how this life is too short yet not long enough in one breath. So we eat, move, explore, and embrace everything that is possible.

There is some pain in soul on a certain side that knows a name.

It'll never be a person to blame.

There are just many things that I hate and one thing is to remember how hurt became a name.

With these conflicting feelings I still wish to smile and be at peace

I love corny jokes and working with my hands, learning new things until my heart's content.

Trying not to look up to expect anything at best, to no avail I still become disappointed.

A feeling of 'I knew it!' cloaks my super ego with a brand new twist; I'll just keep moving forward.

How selfish.

Where is the integrity of only helping those you see fit, even if you do try checking in with mindless small talk.

Just trying to grow but not enough.

Am I disappointed in my self?

Then why does my pain feel good as long as I design?

What is this feeling when insults arise even thought my body is mine to love, whether I share it or not.

Why does it fuel me to try to better myself until I crash to thinking and believing I forgot something.

Nutritional values and other demands that simulators couldn't mimic. So where is this feeling of sanity that I should keep doing this?

Its just another feeling of deceit to say I'm okay when I've cried so many nights that it feels like the right thing to say now.

That even though I feel blessed for the love and care that has been shown, I don't trust many but love with what I can.

So this feeling of independent love and genuine chatter isn't to implement being selfish, I am honestly regretting not putting myself out there more by just doing everything I could back in the day. From walking to hitch hiking was a life that became a real hazy since trusting strangers than the people I've ever dated, befriended, made acquaintance, and even worked with to where most things said about me I let run at this point.

So why is it that I found peace but still dissatisfied?

My creations have collected dust, calling out to me in my dreams and developing words to corner me into submission. In a disray of restlessness due to stress and honestly working out gave me some leftover energy. After roughly 45minutes I found my rotary tool I've been thining about for two days.

So this feeling of suffocation wasn't just the nicotine cravinga, alcohol overconsuming, self-indulgent media binging queen was just a cry to find it so I can get back to what I love.

Love.

There it is.

This feeling of consistent rises and fall is my love towards knowing this feeling is true. How I am described doesn't matter as long as this love is near, I will remain sincere.

#poetry

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dr4cking · 3 years ago

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Only You.

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draco malfoy x reader | angst | fluff | smut | req.

summary : you and draco got into a big fight but he make it up to you.

“why cant you believe me, y/n? how many times do i have to prove it to you that you are the only one for me!” draco shouted loudly slamming his fist onto the desk.

they were having a big fight after what y/n just saw in the common room, pansy parkinson was sitting dangerously close to draco, flirting with him. but pansy has taking things too far this time, she was placing a kiss on his neck and y/n saw the whole scene.

draco reacted fast, pushing her off of him but y/n already ran to her dorm. he cursed at pansy before running after his girlfriend.

“how am i supposed to believe you if you yourself let her lips going near your skin?!” y/n yelled back, throwing her hands in the air.

“for godsake i didnt let her touch me i pushed her away as soon as she crossed the line! but you already gone before you see what i did!”

“yeah? but you still let her pressing her body to you and you dont even seem bothered by it!” she was still bothered by the fact that pansy dare to flirt with her man.

“what the fuck?! i dont even noticed she was doing that? okay you’re just being overdramatic right now.” he turned his head to her.

“overdramatic you said? as if you wont act the same when you see harry flirting with me!”

“its totally different, you know he is my enemy!” he snapped in disbelief.

“so what? he also happened to be my friend!” she snapped back at him letting her anger out.

they both went silent for a few seconds before draco took a big sigh and stand up, anger still plastered on his face.

“fine, believe what you want. i’m so tired of you!” and with that he walked out of the room slamming the door shut loudly.

y/n flinched at his harsh action, regret immediately filling her. did she really being overdramatic? but he would do the same too.

tears rolled down onto her face remembering his last sentence, he’s tired with me.

she curled her body under her blanket, burying her face onto her pillow letting her tears wetting it.

>>>>>

two hours passed, and draco hasnt come back to her dorm. y/n cried harder when she realized she had messed everything up.

draco on the other side isn't doing any better, he was calming his anger down in his own room, reading a book but his mind always coming back to her. he lets his ego get the best of him and choosing to stay in his room longer.

he continued reading but her face flashed to his mind. then he rememberes the last argument he threw at her. “i’m tired of you.” fuck- how can he said that? the words obviously empty. he quickly pulling a shirt on panicking at the thought she must be crying now.

he grabbed his wand and casted a spell that make a white rose appeared on his hand then he made a way out to her dorm.

>>>>>

“y/n love, its me draco..” draco knocks softly on the door.

he waited for seconds, worry filled his face as she hasnt respond him. he twisted the doorknob only to see y/n curling up to her bed with her face buried on the pillow.

“love..” he approached her, sitting on the edge of her bed, his other hand shakily pulling her wrist to sit up.

his heart broke when he saw her face, eyes red because of the tears and her body shook due to her sobbing. he wrapped her in his arm burying her face onto his chest. his hand stroking her hair softly making her sobbed harder.

“sshh.. calm down love, i’m here..” he rubbed her back and placing soft kisses to her head.

“i’m so sorry draco.. i’m so sorry i upset you, i’m so sorry i’m tiring you” y/n look up to him still hiccups.

“no darling i swear you're not. i’m sorry i said that my love, it meant nothing i promise i just said it out of anger” he cupped her face, wiping her tears with his thumbs and give kisses all over her face to calm her down.

“i shouldnt have accused you, dray..”

“its okay darling.. its over now i’m here, we’re okay. besides you were right, i would act the same if i was in your position.” draco reached beside him and handing her the white rose.

“here, your favorite.” he kissed the tip of her nose making her smile.

y/n brought the rose to her nose sniffing it, the scent could always calming her down.

“thank you so much draco..” she wrapped her arms around his neck burying her face on the crook of his neck.

“you know i love you, right?” he tucked her hair behind her ear, tilting her face up to him.

“i know and i love you too dray..” she looks at him through her eyelashes letting him putting the rose to her vase.

“good. let me show you how much i love you, let me make it up to you princess..” he closed the gap between them, catching her lips in his, savouring her taste like he couldnt get enough of her.

y/n slowly laid back on her bed pulling draco on top of her without breaking the kiss. she let him exploring her mouth, heavy pants fill the room as the kiss heated and get deeper.

“i adore you so much my love.. you have completely stole my heart” he said as he broke the kiss and lowering it down to her neck, sucking on her sweet spot.

“draco..” she tilted her head back allowing more access for her boyfriend, her hand grasped onto his hair.

“may i?” she opened her eyes and look at him who tugging at the bottom of her shirt.

“yes dray, please..” she said allowing draco to take it off of her.

draco take her shirt off of her as soon as he gets his permission then he takes off his own, he groaned when he saw her not wearing a bra.

“you’re so beautiful princess” his lips instantly latched onto one of her nipple suckling while he twirled the other in his fingers.

“mhmm dray..” she arched her back as she feels his warm tongue swirling around her hard bud, his free hand playing with the bands of her shorts.

draco plopped her wet breasts out of his mouth, looking into her eyes when he was about to pull her shorts down. she nodded eagerly lifting her hips to help him.

“fuck.. looking delicious as always, i could eat you out for the rest of my life, doll” he began to eat her out like a starved man, licking her glistening folds and sucking on her sensitive clit making her body jolted out.

“dray..” she choked out of air at his sudden move, her hands pulling him close between her legs while he gripped tightly on her thighs spreading her legs wider.

all draco could think now is just her, her taste, and for her pleasure. he was making it up to her, but this was for his pleasure too. he would do anything to have her in his mouth.

he inserts 2 digits of his fingers into her slowly, stretching her out and thrusting them into her making the girl squirming there and then.

“fuck dray i’m close..” y/n cried out moving uncontrollably as he curled his fingers inside her hitting her spot making the coil tightened.

draco sped up his pace, both of his fingers and tongue helping her to finally reach her high. the slurping sounds and moans of him and her making her face heated.

“oh- draco..” y/n moans his name out loud as her high snapped hard through her body making her legs spasmed.

“you taste so good princess, i can't get enough of you..” he brought his fingers into his mouth sucking on her taste. closing his eyes and humming at it making her blushes madly and butterflies filling her.

draco kicked off his sweatpants, hissing as his cock slapped up to his lower abdomen, precum oozing out of it.

he pulled her hips closer to him, positioning himself at her entrance, lining his cock on her cunt making him grunted.

“you ready, love?”

“yes dray..” with that he pushes into her slowly, letting his cock inch by inch disappeared inside of her, both of them were moaning each other over and over again.

draco let y/n adjust for few seconds after being balls deep inside her leaving no gap between their bodies. his eyes never leaving her face.

“move.” she pulls him closer by his back to her face and reconnect their lips, muffling their moans as he slowly moved in and out of her.

“so t-tight love, so good for me” he broke the kiss to catch some air burying his face on her neck moaning against her neck.

“feels so good dray to have you inside me..” he groaned louder at her words, thrusting harder and deeper into her, his balls slapping the curve of her ass.

moans, groans, sounds of skin against skin filling her room, full of ungodly yet intoxicating sounds.

“i love you so much, y/n.. its you, only you’re the one for me” he intertwining their hands and put it on the side of her face as he snapped his hips harder.

“i love you draco, you’re the only one..” she said between her moan, her breath hitching as he hit her spot repeatedly.

“fuck y/n lets do it together” he caught her lips in his again to muffled their scream, both of their hands squeezing each other as they were near their high.

they disconnected the kiss and moaning each other loudly as they both came together. her walls pulsing and clenching hard milking him and longing his orgasm, filling her up with his cum, only.

“holyshit.. you are amazing as always, princess..” draco collapsed on top of her, resting his head on the side of her face. his hot breath tickling her ear as he catches some air.

draco grabbed his wand and muttered a quick spell to clean both of them before rolling to her side, getting both of them under the covers.

“i only have you in my heart, i promise.” he pulled her closer to him by her waist and reconnecting their lips one more time before falling asleep next to each other.

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qpraphael · 7 years ago

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My fave is Raphael strolling in front of the cage. Then Simon totally not checking Raphael out but looking at the floor to not fall over the armchair. :p Then the bottom two. *You’re cute but not that cute.* Then Simon being a sassy fledgling.

#actual married couple

#is this sad #my heart cries but in rememberance #not because it's bad #and then there's the thrid gif #and rapha being a puppy #idkkkkkk

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positivelyholland · 3 years ago

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hey girlie i saw that u write tom holland x sister!reader. can you do an angst one with that pairing? idc what, just angst lol tysm ❤️

Pairing: Tom Holland x sister!reader, holland brothers x reader

genre: angst

warnings: mean brothers, like one swear

summary: you hear your brothers talking about you behind your back.

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As the youngest Holland, and the only girl (other than Nikki, of course), you’re naturally the favorite. Both your parents’ favorite, and all of your brothers’ favorite. You and your brothers are all really close to each other, despite the age gaps.

Your older brother, Tom, had just gotten home after a 3 month trip, so he, Harry, Sam, and Paddy were all up in Paddy’s room, catching up with Tom. But you, however, you had just gotten home from being at school all day, and you were ecstatic to finally see your eldest brother again.

“Hey Y/N, how was school?” your mother asked you as you walked through the door.

“It was good, and I’d love to tell you all about it, but I wanna go see Tom” you replied. This made Nikki laugh.

“Ok darling, I think they’re up in Paddy’s room” she said while handing you your after school snack.

“Thanks, Mom” your voice was fading away as you hurried up the stairs to your brother’s room, you were so excited to see Tom that you tripped while walking up the stairs. As you stood back up, you thought you heard your name followed by a bunch of laughs coming from Paddy’s room.

Curious, you decided to wait outside the door, and listen to what they were saying about you, thinking it would boost your ego a little because of their favoritism towards you.

“She’s just so clingy, it was honestly so nice having a break from her for 3 months” at the sound of Tom’s words, your heart shattered, but you kept listening.

“Yeah haha, she’s a lot, almost too much, I don’t know how her friends put up with her” Harry replied. This is what caused tears that you didn’t know had been building up in your eyes to start falling.

If you’re being honest, you didn’t have any friends. You had been told by ex-friends that you were too much for them to handle. They would also tell you that if you ever wanted people to like you, that you can’t be yourself.

While all those words do hurt, they never bothered you as much as they should have because of the fact that you knew your family loved your personality. Yeah, you can be a little extra at times, but your family, especially your brothers, would assure you saying that’s their favorite thing about you. But you guess that's just not the case.

“Sometimes I have to lock myself in my room to hide from her begging me to spend time with her, because I can really only stand her for so long,” another one of your brother’s said. You were too heartbroken to try to understand who’s voice that was.

You eventually decided to go to your room. You didn’t want to hear any more of your brothers’ shit, and if you stayed there any longer, they would’ve heard your soft cries.

Once you opened the door to your room, you went to your bed and sobbed. You were quiet, and you made sure that no one could hear your broken cries. You had so many questions running through your head on why they would say that.

Am I really that bad?

Why do they hate me?

Why can’t I just be a good sister?

How long have they thought this?

Why do I have to be like this?

What’s wrong with me?

As your tears slowed, you decided you should probably leave your room, as it would be suspicious for you to be in there for so long. So, you freshened up. You wiped off all your tears, applied new mascara, brushed through your hair, and put a convincing fake smile on your face.

“Look who finally woke up!” you heard Tom say. Yeah, I was totally napping in there.

“Sorry, school was just extra exhausting today and I needed some rest” you surprise yourself with the excuse you made up on the spot.

“Too tired to even give your brother that you haven’t seen in months a hug?” he joked.

He’s an actor. You remembered. That’s why I believe he can actually tolerate me.

“Sorry” was all you said. He decided he wouldn’t wait for you to come to him so he walked up to you, before pulling you into his embrace.

You tensed at his gesture. He was hugging you not even an hour after he was saying how much he hated you.

This did not go unnoticed by Tom. He thought it was weird that you tensed up in his touch. Usually, if the two of you didn’t see each other for a while, there were lots of hugs exchanged. He just told himself that you were probably stressed. You did say that you had a rough day at school.

“I have some homework to do, call me down for dinner please” you said, breaking the awkward silence.

“Homework, on a weekend?” your mom questioned.

“Yeah, Mrs Brown is evil” you told her before walking back up to your room where you had just barely spent a little under an hour crying in. Before anyone could say anything else, you shut your door and pulled the school sheet out of your backpack.

As you went to sit down at the desk that’s in your room, something caught your eye. It was a framed photo of you and all of your brothers. This used to bring you comfort when you needed it, but now the sight of it just made your heart ache.

You quickly snapped out of your stare on the picture, and got to work on your assignment.

The assignment was finished within half an hour, but you didn’t feel like seeing any of your brothers after hearing their true thoughts on you.

So, you decided you’d lay in bed and actually take a nap. You cringed at the tear stains on your pillow, but the second you laid down, you were out cold.

You awoke to Sam aggressively shaking you, saying that it’s dinner time.

You quickly got out of your bed. Not because you were actually awake, but because you felt physically sick at the words you were reminded of, that had come out of the person currently shaking you’s mouth, just a few hours earlier.

Once again, this didn’t go unnoticed by Sam. You usually took at least 20 minutes to get out of bed. But, like Tom, he dismissed the thought that anything was wrong.

All of dinner, you sat at your spot at the dining table silently, instead of talking non-stop like you normally did. You didn’t feel like eating. All the crying you’d been doing wore you out, and you also just wanted out of the situation ASAP.

After about 10 minutes, you stood up, put your plate in the dishwasher, and started to head back up to your room. But, you were stopped at the sound of Harry’s voice.

“Are you ok, Y/N?” he said. The words terrified you, so you froze. There was no way you’re telling everyone that you overheard what they said about you. “Are you sick or something? You’ve basically slept all day and I haven’t seen you eat anything since you got home from school”

You felt relief spread throughout you. They think you're sick, not devastated like what you’re actually feeling.

“No, I don’t think so, just tired” you didn’t want anyone to worry about you being sick. Then they would try to take care of you, which you didn’t like the thought of, you just wanted to be alone.

Again, your family thought this was very weird. It was so unusual of you to be quiet and secluded. This time however, they did not ignore it. After you were out of earshot, Tom spoke up.

“She’s been acting weird all day. She didn’t come say hi to me when she got home from school, and her body tightened up when I hugged her” he told his family.

“I agree,” Sam added. “When I went to wake her up, she stood up really fast the second she saw me. She almost seemed defensive towards me” he thought out loud.

“I’ll go check on her,” Tom said as he stood up and started heading towards your room. As he got closer, he heard muffled sobs coming from inside your room. So something is wrong, he thought to himself.

He was surprised when the door to your room was unlocked. You usually kept it locked for privacy. As he opened it, the sight he saw broke him.

You were curled up on your bed, shaking furiously as you sobbed. He could tell that your cries were being quieted from what they would’ve been if you were truly alone, so he knew that this meant you were trying to keep this secretive.

He walked towards your bed, but then he saw something in your hand that made him very confused. It was the picture of all of the Holland siblings, and you were looking at it while crying. He knew that this object brought you comfort, so he just thought that you were using it to help calm you down. But that theory was shattered when he heard what you were whispering between cries.

“What did I do to you? Do you really hate me? I know I’m terrible” you said as if you were talking to the pictures.

You were so caught up in your emotions that you didn’t hear the door open, or Tom’s footsteps, and you didn’t sense him being in the room like you normally do.

“What’s wrong, and don’t lie to me” he said, making his presence known to you. You looked up at him like a deer caught in headlights. You just looked at him shocked, hurt. But then you just turned your back to the other side of the bed, where he couldn’t see your face.

You were so embarrassed, you hated when people saw you cry, and the last person you wanted to see you crying was the person that had caused your tears.

“I’m gonna ask you again, what’s wrong Y/N?” His voice was stern, and you were so emotional in the moment that you were scared of him, so you hesitantly answered him.

“Go away, why do you care anyway?” you said. This pissed him off. He was just trying to care for you, and you were being difficult.

“I do care, that’s why I’m here. Now tell me, what’s wrong?” he sounded so mad, so you told him.

“No, you’re only pretending to care! Just like how you pretend to tolerate me!” you yelled. He was so confused, what could possibly make you think this?

“What?” he simply stated.

“Don’t play dumb now, Tom! I heard what you said about me! And not just you, but Harry and Sam too!” This made him have an idea of what could be bothering you. But he wasn’t sure, so he kept asking before he jumped to conclusions.

“Did you hear us say something earlier today?” he questioned, but he was pretty sure he knew the answer.

“Yes! And you know exactly what you did, SO GO AWAY!” you exclaimed. How was he supposed to justify what he said? He can’t. So, it’d be better if he leaves instead of trying.

Then Tom said something unexpected.

“I’m sorry about what you heard. I didn’t mean it to sound the way it did.” he told you, but that didn’t help anything.

“Sure, you didn’t mean it” you said sarcastically.

“No, I didn’t. And I’m pretty sure you didn’t hear the part where we said amazing things about you and talked about how great you are, am I right?” he was right, you just didn’t want to admit it.

“No” you said shyly

“I know that doesn’t completely justify what I said, because what I said was not okay. But, I hope it helps” he told you honestly. It did help if you were being honest, but that was just Tom’s apology, and you deserved one from every single one of your brothers.

“Ok, thanks for your apology, but I’m not going to forgive you yet” you told him calmly.

Tom assumed you weren’t going to just let go of things so easily since he probably wouldn’t forgive himself if the roles were reversed. So, he decided he’d go tell the others about the situation.

After he finished explaining everything to the rest of your family, everyone felt strong feelings about the circumstance. Nikki was pissed at her sons for saying those things. Dom was infuriated that they hurt his little girl. Sam, Harry, and Paddy felt just as guilty as Tom, so they went to your room as quickly as they could to apologize.

While the apologies did help, you were still hurt. So Harry proposed they made it up to you with a movie night. So that’s what you guys did.

They let you pick the movie, and you could tell your brothers were genuinely sorry, and that they didn’t mean what they said. You could tell that they did actually love you, so you spoke up as soon as the credits started rolling.

“I forgive you guys” you spoke up.

Everything was alright, and never again did you doubt your brothers’ love for you.

#tom holland x reader #tom holland x sister!reader #tom holland #tom holland angst #holland brothers #holland family #sam holland x reader #harry holland x reader #paddy holland #holland sister #holland!sister #positively holland

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thestripedzhevra · 3 years ago

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Counterfeit Composure

Characters: Taldiruun Ebonoak, Trethine Willowwhisper

806 Words

Just a short something I popped out regarding an interaction between @vawianwynn ‘s OC Taldiruun and my OC Trethine taking place during Legion.

Another drogbar fell before Trethine, and as a moment of respite was created by the duo's steel she turned to her friend, half expecting him to pause with her to recoup. Taldiruun only paused to look at the lacerated corpse of the drogbar before lifting his head, the deadset expression blocked by his helmet all too apparent to Trethine. "Tal!" She cried out, hoping her friend would come to her for just a moment. He only stopped in place, not even turning his head. "That's another wave down and we're almost to the summit, please rest." Her voice didn't sound as if she was begging, but even the slightest desperation tasted foreign in her mouth. She had never needed to ask him to take a break, and the only time she had ever seen him fighting so feverously was when she had been the one charging recklessly into danger. With the roles reversed, she felt more helpless than she had in years.

"Don't need to." His answer was deadpan and left little room for a response. She felt a tightness in her chest at the foreign voice coming from her friend's mouth, her eyebrows furrowing as the frustration swelled. The vengeful recklessness that compelled Taldiruun seemed to have completely enveloped every part of the person so dear to her, and the unfamiliarity with who was left brought a lonliness that had been concealed to the surface.

"What are you going to do?" She asked, the desperation once again tainting her tongue. His shoulders could have raised in a shrug, but if so it was only slightly. "Fight." His voice sounded conflicted, as if he couldn't think of any other answer to a question that seemed so obvious. "That's it? Just...Fight?" She asked, the space between them feeling as monumental as the mountain they stood on. "What are you really going after?" The venom in her words brough her gaze to a glare, and as her eyebrows lowered she felt something akin to anger toward her friend.

"Them." Was all he said as he began to walk towards the carnage. Trethine felt her jaw tighten as she clenched her teeth, her eyes quivering for tears she knew wouldn't come. The answer was so short but told her everything she needed to know: Them wasn't the drogbar on the mountain, and it wouldn't stop with the demons on the Broken Shore. The answer that felt so familiar told her he wasn't going to stop until it was all over, one way or another.

"Tal." Her voice was firm despite the shake she felt in her throat. Her fingers clenched her scythe as she began to follow him. "So you're just going to fight? Until what? Gul'dan? Kil'Jaeden? Or do you intend to just fight the entire Burning Legion by yourself?" His silence told her what she already knew, and as his walking slowed to a standstill his gaze remained fixed. She thought he might actually answer but as his shoulders lifted in a careless shrug she felt the emptiness echo in her chest. The budding anger began to subside as a painful coldness formed in her core, his silent answer once again telling more than words ever could. She knew he wouldn't stop, and for the first time she knew she was seeing exactly what he had years ago. Looking at her friend who refused to turn away from his enemy to face her brought a rememberance of when they stood opposite to her mind. She knew he wouldn't turn away from the enemy, whoever it may be.

"Tal...Don't...Leave me here without you..." The cold spread through her body, and despair filled her as she looked at a friend she knew she couldn't help. She hoped he would turn around and face her, comfort her like he had so many times before, fall into her arms and break down crying, anything, but the sound of the ice that had formed at his feet breaking resonated in her heart, breaking her down to her heart. Her eyes widened in a helpless gaze as he continued walking away from her. She tried to take a step towards him but felt something stronger than ice rooting her in place. As the distance between them grew she felt the coldness push her down, sinking her in a despair that opposed the one that pushed her friend forward. "Don't..." Her words as quiet as breath barely left her lips before she realized she couldn't bring herself to finish the sentence. Standing in place she watched as her friend's back grew more distant she finally willed herself to walk, the feeling of the distance never closing lingered in her heart. She followed her friend, the darkness of her past pushing her to follow the shadow of the only thing in this world that mattered.

#World of Warcraft #WoW #fics

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superspoonie24 · 3 years ago

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Forgotten. 7/24/2021

Leave me behind, abandoned with the sheets.

Toss me down the chute in hopes I may get clean.

Forget me like a sock.

Leave me with the keys.

Carry me home in nothing more than memories.

I want attention no more than I want pain.

Yet both I receive, in plenty! And growing everyday.

Let me fade away, under the blazing of the sun.

An umbrella that once had use, but now its uses are none.

Throw me away. Let me expire.

Let me claim my final rest.

Forget the day you heard my name; it is for the best.

*NO.* Cried out a voice, betwixt compassion and fear.

*No matter how much you doubt your own self worth, I will not let you disappear.*

*Excuse me?* called the forgotten. *Who are you to decide if I live or die?*

*You're right in that regard; I cannot control death. But I can keep your memory alive, that is, until I breathe my final breath.*

The forgotten one stopped and stared, confused and largely perplexed.

A breath, they took, and then they asked, *Why on Earth would you do that?*

The rememberer stepped forward, rubbed a tear from their eye.

*Because, my friend, my dearest friend, I hate to see you cry.*

I know you hide your burdens from me.

I know you think I'm too innocent.

I know how much you cry and scream; I know you to every extent.

I know all this and it will never change my mind:

No matter how hard life gets to be, I know it is better, because you were in mine.

So if you decide to leave, I won't stop you; call Death and hop aboard.

But you can't take away this promise I make:

*You will forever be in my heart.*

Silence lingered between them; neither wanting to speak.

Finally, a voice, of the remembered one, quietly made a peep.

*Thank you, my friend; your words have done well.*

A smile now graced their cheek.

*While I do not know what the future will bring, I know your promise, you will keep.*

#aly writes #poetry #implied suicide #suicidal ideation #suicide tw #trigger warning: suicide #depression #suicide #vent poem #vent poetry #dark poem #dark poetry #happy ending #uplifting message?#idk #i blame Shakespeare

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newtcallsmetommy · 4 years ago

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Can we talk about this? Bc I think that in the safe haven you’d catch Minho moving to do this and then realize that he doesn’t have that thing on and then kinda gets stuck like thinking about all the years he spent in the glade, all the good times he had with his friends, with Alby and Newt and Ben and Winston, and all the people that died making the Glade what it was, and all the people that died escaping it. Bc like that was an essential part of his wardobe for most of his rememberable life and it’s such an automatic response for him at this point and yeah it’s such a small trivial thing but idk I was looking at it again and my heart went 🥺

Oh gosh! You make a very good point! Ah that's so emotional to imagine him reaching to do the thing, realizing his gear is not there and then suddenly his expression just drops and you can practically see him running through memories in his head😭 I like to think the rest of the Gladers notice that he still has the habit and somehow get their hands on a similar thing he can wear and grab (for some reason my brain tells me Gally would notice first??? I dunno he just strikes me as weirdly perceptive without anyone realizing). And then when they present Minho the runner gear similar thing he actually cries a little and hugs them all and from then on is seen happily doing his grabby thing because it feels good to have something familiar to hold onto (both physically and metaphorically)

#Now I'm emotional about Minho #Which is a mood lately #I'm trying to address some of his struggles in my fic #tmr #minho #noctophiliac #answered #Safe Haven

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modharlow · 6 years ago

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You not once ever regretted meeting Leorio Paladiknight at The Hunter Exam. You can still recall vividly when he tried to sabotage you—which not only earned him a good fist-fight but also a chance at love.

The two of you had been as inseparable as bees to honey since that beautiful fateful day.

...That was a weird euphemism but it works.

Either way, you can say with confidence that you loved Leorio. You loved his weird half-beard, his glasses that he obviously didn’t need, his spiky hair that could poke holes into your skin if he tried hard enough… His laugh was like the sun parting a way through the clouds, and his voice reminded you of that one time you did that one rememberable thing. Everything about him caused your heart to beat faster.

This time, though… not in a good way.

”Leorio, my dear, my love, my Prince Charming in a business suit,” you started with a gentle smile, “Please for the love of God stop offering me to vape.” As you said this you moved his vape-holding hand away from your face. “If you’re going to smoke, at least do something hardcore. Weed. Cocaine. Pixie Dust.” Your tone held a begging undertone to it.

Leorio tsk’d and shook his head. “You don’t understand luxury when you see it, Cheerios.” He scolded, a frown toying his oh-so-kissable lips. Lips that are now around the end of a vape-pen.

Tears formed in the corner of your eyes at his simple, cold-hearted response. In anger, you slammed your hands onto the coffee table that you weren’t aware was between the two of you. “Why won’t you listen to me, Leorio-kun?!” You shouted in anguish. “This isn’t you! The Leorio I fell in love with would never vape that weak shit!”

As if you struck the wrong cord, Leorio yanked the vape out of his mouth and slammed it onto the table. “Yamero!” He shouted back, his eyes somehow hiding behind his small glasses. “You don’t understand, do you, my Honey Bunches of Oats?!” His hair managed to cover his eyes as he spoke timidly. “Vaping… vaping is all I have left of… him.”

Ripples started to form around Leorio’s body, signaling that he’s experiencing a flashback but you could not see it because you were not him. “Leo…” You whimpered out, your heart knowing who he was talking about. “He… he wouldn’t want you to vape in his honor! He’d want you to do something cooler than that!”

”How would you know?!” Leorio cried out.

”Because I am him!”

Suddenly, you were on the ground, a sick look on your face. You smiled up at Leorio whom had rushed to kneel beside your dying body. “I… never said anything. I didn’t want you to be hurt again…” You wept softly.

Leorio took your hand into his, his grip begging you not to go, as his other cupped your face. As tears fell from him eyes, he spoke. “I’ll… I’ll vape in your honor, Count Chocula.”

You weakly nodded your head and sent him a peace sign, your body slowly disappearing into nothing. “Tight shit, dude.” Your hushed voice whispered throughout the wind.

Looking up at the ceiling, Leorio brought his vape pen back to his mouth. He inhaled the fumes and smile sadly.

It was your favourite flavour.

#leorio #leorio paladiknight #leorio x reader #leorio paladiknight x reader #hxh #hunterxhunter #hunter x hunter #hxh imagines #hunterxhunter imagines #hunter x hunter imagines #drugs //#vape //#hate how i had to tag that #mod harlow #absoluteky HATE how tumblr formatted this!#on mobile anyways #anyways dont ask & dont @ me its a silyfic

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clock-corpse · 5 years ago

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Temporally Cursed

Trigger Warnings for, Nudity, Violence, Gore, Blood, and Disturbing Imagery. Discretion is advised!

March 1st, 2020

To many human beings, there is a sacred tradition that goes in celebrating even the most mundane of events. Festivities, sweets, and laughter. All of these things are what humans enjoy while celebrating various events. The Inhuman however, has a slightly different method of celebration than others of her kind.

She makes her way down to the library, for a private ritual of sorts with the librarian and her demonic familiar. As she walks, she thinks about the events that will transpire once she arrives. It’s the same every year. She enters, she stays, then she leaves. This year will be no different, despite the doubts in her mind that tell her otherwise. Having been so deep in thought, she realizes that she had been standing in front of the entryway to the library for a minute or two now.

Sighing to herself, Sakuya enters the library. The air is stagnant with nothing but the feeling of dread lingering in the air with not a sound to be heard in the entirety of the vast library. The only signs of life being both Patchouli and Koakuma waiting for Sakuya near a door. They stare at her silently for the day has finally come. The day of celebration, joy, and renewal among human-kind. Yes, today is the day of Sakuya’s birth.

What joy does human-kind find in celebrating a shortened life span? How can they be so blissfully unaware of the looming threat of time? Sakuya does not know, for she is not human.

Swallowing her anxiety, Sakuya steps forward as Koakuma opens the door for her. Once all participating parties had entered the room, she shut it behind her, locking it.

The room they have entered seems no bigger than a normal bedroom. However, there were crystals floating around a nice and well made bed that has several towels covering it.

Without a word, Sakuya starts removing her clothes. She does so slowly and reluctantly as butterflies start to form in her stomach and her blood runs cold. She stops midway, and asks to herself, ‘Am I truly sure about this? I do this every single year but it never gets any easier...’

Noticing that the maid had stopped for a few moments, Patchouli approaches her and gently places her hand on Sakuya’s arm.

“Sakuya? You know if you really don’t want to do this, you don’t have to. It’s not a requirement.” Truth be told, she would much prefer to have Sakuya not to do this every single year. The fact that she does so often makes her rather uneasy.

Sakuya shakes out of her trance and hastily starts to remove her clothes again.

“No, it’s okay. I want to do this, Patchy.” There was no other way to go about it. “I’ve done this for almost two centuries now, and I’m not going to suddenly change my mind.”

At least, that’s what she initially thought before being courted by her Mistress. She knows very well that to see her like this would break Remilia’s heart and it makes her sick to her stomach. That’s why the ritual of Sakuya’s birthday had been held behind closed doors for so long.

With her clothes now neatly folded and placed onto a desk, Sakuya is completely nude. With this, one can see all the scars that she had gained this year and even before then.

The gash marks that were strewn across her chest, the scar on her neck from being impaled accompanied by fang bites, the scars on her shoulder and stomach from dishonesty, the scar on her side from heresy, and of course, the multitude of self-harm scars that decorate her arms and thighs.

She lays down on top of the bed and the towels, nervously twiddling her thumbs as she waits for Patchouli and Koakuma to prepare for their part. With this, she hears a hum as the crystals begin to glow, as well as a the sound of a zipper as Koakuma retrieves various medical supplies from a canvas bag.

After a few moments the witch softly calls out,

“We’re ready to play our part, Sakuya. Whenever you’re ready, you may start.” Oh how Patchouli hates saying those words, for she never knows just when it will be her last. She is her most valued research after all...no...She’s much more than that.

Sakuya stares at the ceiling for a good few moments, mentally preparing herself for the ritual, then her eyes turn to red. They shine brightly, as Sakuya is determined to see this through until the end, whenever that may be. Not soon after, the sounds of a clock can be heard.

Tick, Tock, Tick, Tock.

Oh how beautiful the chime of time is as it dances around the room as if it were moving in sync with Sakuya’s breathing. Oh how it calls so soundly and so passionately. It calls passionately for Sakuya herself. One could be so entranced by the serene sound of ticking that they wouldn’t even notice, that Sakuya’s chest has now ripped open.

Blood starts travelling down her bosom onto the towels, soaking them. Tissue, torn and broken hangs from the flesh that used to make up her breasts. The wound is very reminiscent of the one she received from fighting the manticore. Sakuya bites her lip and whimpers in pain.

Seeing this, Patchouli and Koakuma stand there, save for Patchouli using her crystals to monitor Sakuya’s vitals. They needn’t do anything, for the tissue starts closing up and reforms itself as if there had been no injury in the first place. Sakuya’s breathing becomes heavy as she places a hand on her chest to confirm that it is still there.

Tick Tock, Tick Tock.

Oh how the clock ticks so nicely. One could become so enveloped in what time has to offer, and lose sight of what fate holds for them. But now, the doll has become aware that her arms have been sliced and her stomach has been gouged, for she sits up suddenly and screams in pain.

Cold sweat runs down her face as she holds a bloody hand to the small hole that has opened in her stomach. She remembers this wound all too well. It was caused by her attempt to free herself from the consequences of her actions. Perhaps, she remembers it a little too well, as she can feel her strength fading.

As if it were by reflex, Patchouli positions her hands and starts to chant a spell. The crystals hum louder and energy starts surrounding Sakuya. It is an endurance spell, to keep Sakuya conscious. Had the witch not conjured this spell, Sakuya would have most likely passed out by this point, ending the ritual prematurely.

TickTock, TickTock.

Oh how loud the ticking of the clock is. It continues to grow louder, and louder and tick faster and faster, in Sakuya’s mind. Time no longer hides from a false front of a sweet embrace. Now, it wishes to make itself known to Sakuya, embracing her tightly as a hole opens in her neck, and her back.

The murderer coughs and wheezes as blood comes out of her mouth. She can barely scream, as the only other sound to be heard from her is the sound of her choking on and drowning from her own blood that has collected itself in her throat.

Patchouli acts quickly to try to draw the excess blood out with telekinesis until her wounds close start to slowly close. With the gears of time releasing their grip on her throat, she screams in between coughs.

TickTockTickTockTickTockTickTockTickTockTickTock-

Oh how the clock pounds so loudly in Sakuya’s ears. She cries, and begs for it to stop. Time, will not let go. Time grinds Sakuya’s feeble human body in between it’s gears, mangling her, and her body feels every single second of it.

Sakuya, bloodied and nude, writhes and screams in absolute agony. Every single ounce of pain that she has ever felt in her life, emotional, physical, psychological. It all returns to her during one single moment. It is during this moment that she wishes nothing more than for the clock to stop and for her to die.

Time wails out for Sakuya to finally return to the dust that made her. She has avoided this fate for as long as she can remember. One cannot stop time, for it will always find a way to finally bring you back to your origins, but Sakuya refuses.

Yes, she rememberes why she does this horrible ritual every year in the first place. It’s for Her. No, it’s for everyone in the mansion. Time and Fate have taken away everything that Sakuya has ever loved ever since she was a child, and she cannot accept it. She will not accept having time take her away from the family that she loves so much. Should anyone steal her away from this life, it would be by her own hand alone.

Whether she ultimately chooses life, or death, she will overcome time and decide her own fate.

Tick, Tock, Tick-

The ticking sound emanating around Sakuya finally stops. She is left motionless on the bed, gasping for air with tears running down her face. She cannot move a single muscle in her body, for she feels nothing but agonizing pain from top to bottom. Her stomach churns with bile inside of it begging for release.

The succubus instantly goes to her and starts wiping the blood off of her, taking notice that all remnants of injuries that she had sustained from the past year have now completely vanished. Her hair has also returned to its original length from over a year ago.

Sakuya hears the voice of the the witch calling out to her trying to keep her awake, but her wounds are too great, and she falls into a deep but temporary sleep.

Sakuya has found the joy in the celebration of one’s birthday. To her, it’s not about cake, candles, or simply another new year or existence. No, to her, it’s about seizing control of her own life. What Sakuya wants most, is to stay in the mansion forever with her family. She will not let a looming threat such as time dictate her life and prevent her from living. That is what a birthday, the celebration of life means to an inhuman.

Happy Birthday, Sakuya Izayoi.

#novels #gore #blood #violence #jesus FUCK I didn't expect to finish this tonight

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