#my guy is getting fatshamed with his own name

[queenhawke]

the worst part about trying to write serious, angsty mythic quest fic is that at some point you do have to use the name ‘brad’

[princelylove]

Your Highness 💞

Ever since you made that post about la squadra and talked about prosciutto being a model it's all that's been stuck in my head every time I think about him, and more so I think about him with a darling who's also a model (since you mentioned he was a runaway model I was thinking of darling being a photoshoot or fashion or commercial kind) . I think it'd be interesting to see how their dynamic goes.

All I can imagine is them at the met gala, help.

Please and thank you 🦪 (pearls for you if you're interested?)

Ooh, pearls. I love pearls.

Little warning for fatshaming (is that the word?) towards the end.

Prosciutto is simultaneously the most generous and selfish member of la squadra. He's genuinely very mean, but he mothers the younger members in a very 'gentle' way. Physical abuse aside, he's fairly loved. Even Ghiaccio likes him, and Ghiaccio's the type of guy to call all mother figures a bitch.

The reason I say "mother" instead of "father" is, well. There's two reasons. One, because I view Risotto as the family father. Two, because Prosciutto isn't the type to keep buying you fruit when you mention you like it, he's the type to not apologize after screaming at you but still makes dinner just how you like it.

Prosciutto is, of course, a diva. He doesn't want a model for a darling, he wants a nobody he can belittle. You think he wants to pretend you're sooo good at your job? He's doing this on top of his second job, and look. No eye bags. You're nowhere near his level, don't try, you're embarrassing him.

He views it as competition because he's....... a very jealous man. He likes to be the center of attention, as most divas do. Prosciutto could want a darling who also models, since it's easy to put you down for the obvious difference in levels. It's like if Naomi Campbell in her prime was dating a stock model.

Male models are obviously held to different standards than female models. It's unfair, but it's true. In the author's opinion, it's much harder to shine as a female model in the industry, so masc Prosciutto gets a boost from the start no matter what you're doing, assuming reader is fem.

But fem Prosciutto?

She genuinely outshines you. She could do photoshoots if she wanted to, even if she doesn't like them. She gets offers all the time, she doesn't need the side money.

She likes to be on set for your shoots for plenty of reasons. Entirely mean spirited reasons. Prosciutto likes to pinch your sides when you're feeling confident- are you sure they got your size right? You've been cutting for this, right? Jeeez, the sizing department really hates you, you should go back on that diet she tried to get you on a while ago.

Prosciutto's very fond of using pet names, it's 'unfortunate' that every last one of them is derogatory. Fatty, fatass, piggy, [REDACTED: CONTAINS SLUR], isn't she such a loving lady?

Prosciutto lets you come to her shows, at least! You get to exist in the Prosciutto’s dressing room- yeah, she's that much of a diva that she insists on getting her own room, despite getting changed by the designer and not needing one. Prosciutto's fully comfortable standing around in the nice lingerie she wears under her work clothes, she's baiting you to stare so she can accuse you of being a perv. What, stupid and all worked up over some underwear? Jesus Christ, stop thinkin' with your dick and go be useful.

[allycat75]

Happy (almost) Halloween, Boston Dumb Fuck!

During this season of masks and disguises, I really wish I could believe this was real. It would be so much easier. Afterall, the words came out of your own mouth and you are a terrible liar.

Forget that you look repulsed on the rare occasions you have had to be near her and have barely touched her in public. You haven't even said her name. During the summer, you proclaimed yourself to be a big alone guy and that your dog was your soulmate. Hell, even when you did admit to the ceremonies, you did your best to hide the ill-fitting ring and qualified it with "kinda". You talked more about Dodger, with much more enthusiasm, than you did the wifey. By the way, Dodger also looks miserable in pictures with her. You really are soulmates.

But at least I could understand you getting married for real. You could just cop to your middle aged insecurity and needing someone to not challenge you. And she is young so she can pop out those babies you want and are oh so prepared for, for years to come- unlike the crusty women your own age who would only call you out on your very real shit. Yes, an antisemetic, racist, fatshaming Lolita of your very own to feel superior to. Another cliche male being led by his cock and fragile ego.

And maybe you never were the woke, liberal, feminist you appeared to be. Maybe that was the PR and you have been a dirt bag this whole time. A better actor than we thought.

But I cannot shake my intuition all this is fake and that is a more unwelcomed feeling because a lie of this length and magnitude takes a certain kind of detached cruelty and master-level manipulation that it is unfathomable to consider a human could even think of executing it. You may not have been the architect of this mind-fuck, but you are certainly the perpetrator of it.

And to what end? It seems to me you are more unpopular than ever (we can check the PH numbers the next few weeks to see if they fall precipitously like Ghosted did, but we all know your problems are bigger than that even if they don't). With the actors strike continuing and the industry still recovering from the pandemic and writers strike, do you think they want an over priced, emotionally blocked pothead when there are plenty of other cheaper generic white boys available who actually want the job and will put in the effort? The irony is that the industry made you do this (allegedly), has killed your spirit and broken you all because it promised you more if you capitulated. Like a greedy ouroboros choking on itself.

Don't you think your soul would be a bit unburdened if you just took off the mask, no matter what it looked like under there? Let the fresh air and sunshine heal your wounds. Or are you going keep it on until it itches, chafes and festers, or until you feel nothing at all? And saying you got divorced to get out of this is only putting on another mask, that will eventually do the same damage. There are no shortcuts anymore. Choose wisely, this time.

[witchofrvnswood]

a thorough rant on why i despise awwp // part 1

TRIGGER WARNING: EATING DISORDERS, FATSHAMING, AND BAD BODY IMAGE ARE DISCUSSED IN A LATER SECTION OF THE POST

It’s been a long time coming guys,,,

But here it is.

I don’t know how this is going to end but it won’t be pretty.

So, AWWP is the sequel to SGE, a book in which the author claims he addresses themes such as feminism, girls vs boys, and what not. 

I feel like the book fails on many counts and does not even follow what Soman Chainani has described it as and intended it to be.

The first part of this rant will be centered around the themes of this book. The next part will touch on the plot and some of the characters in this book.

Let’s dissect this, shall we?

Toxic Feminism

God, this one drove me beyond insanity and is probably the worst plot point this book has to offer. I don’t even get what the author achieved by writing this ?? Instead of showing girls being progressive and realizing their true individual power and potential after an entire school year of being told they were objects and being trained to be beautiful and submissive to buys, he decides to show extreme feminism where girls just disown anything, ANYTHING that relates to femininity. 

Of course they don’t have to wear makeup. Of course they don’t need long, luscious locks. But to claim that girls only have these assets to impress boys is sexism in itself. “Third, we debeautified makeup as a pawn of patriarchy designed entirely to attract men,” the teacher went on.” Not to mention, Evelyn Sader, the woman pushing this agenda, isn’t following any of these rules herself and is running this sexist school while trying to trap two teenage girls just to get a man’s favor ??? What ?????

And of course. The whole enslaving boys thing. So many people falsely believe that feminism is about hating boys and that girls are supreme which is why so many people scoff at it. Because if this is the way feminism is being represented in media, in a CHILDRENS’ book, of course people are going to misunderstand it! This puts such a bad name on feminism and is just downright insulting to everything the feminist movement has worked for and now the author is pushing this idea into young children and teens. 

This entire book is set up to tell the readers that girls cannot be independent because they’ll end up enslaving men which cannot happen because they need men and can’t live without them! This idea is even pushed by Hester, HESTER of all people, who is said to hate boys. The way she says it makes absolutely no sense to her character whatsoever. ““Shut up,” Hester boomed, spinning back to Agatha. “No one likes boys! Even girls who like boys can’t stand boys! They smell, they talk too much, they mess up everything, and they always have their hands in their pants, but that doesn’t mean we can go to school without them! It’s like stymphs without bones! It’s like witches without warts! Without boys, LIFE HAS NO POINT!” 

What,,, why,,,, why would you make Hester say something to that effect ? She basically said that girls need boys to function and that “their lives are pointless without boys”. I’m sorry,,, I just,,,, guys, I lost it at that point. Take a shot every time this book makes me lose brain cells, much?? :p

The ending really defines this theme in this book. The last book ended with two girls choosing each other and this book went on and on about how that was WRONG, how only a girl and boy could be together. And then this book ends with a girl and a boy choosing each other and now that is supposedly “the right ending”. We know it’s not from Book 3, but does what’s said and done in Book 3 even matter since they ended up together anyways??

Overall, I just,,, I just don’t know where Soman was going with this. I just don’t. He doesn’t seem like an anti feminist but I feel like what he does is, he takes a controversial issue, puts his own problematic spin on it, tries to write it as overdramatic and satirical and just ends up writing a really close minded take on it which ends up affecting his readers, whose age demographic is usually 8-12.

He means well, he really does, and I know that. But he needs to step up his game. I honestly don’t know why his editor, who is a woman, let him publish awful messages like these,,, maybe he’s really convincing? We know he can’t take criticism though (*cough* instagram live *cough*)

But this leads to my next point: The body image messages in this book.

Body Image

TRIGGER WARNING: I DISCUSS GLORIFIED EATING DISORDERS, FATSHAMING, BAD BODY IMAGE, ETC. IF ANY OF THESE ARE TRIGGERS FOR YOU OR MAKE YOU UNCOMFORTABLE, STOP READING. THE RANT ENDS AFTER THIS SECTION.

Whew wee, where do I start. 

Here is another example of how Soman’s self claimed satire goes way too far and ends up being destructive.

The way the Evergirls are looked down upon by Sophie and Agatha for starting to eat more and not care about their weight or beauty is appalling to me. Sophie has always prioritized looks, which makes sense for her character to be disgusted by the Evers (not okay though!) but Agatha’s disgust makes no sense. This girl refused to take showers or brush her hair just a year ago, so I don’t know why she’s so disgusted by the Evergirls carelessness of their appearance.

Reena is even described with clear disgust in the book about how she had acquired a large bottom by eating chocolate and even candy is found repulsive by Sophie and Professor Anemone and the judgement they show towards the Evergirls for eating these is just awful. This message is really destructive and choosing whether or not to consume sweets is every individual’s own decision. Adding in the idea that eating sweets will make you gain lots of weight to your book is so harmful to young minds. And writing about how the protagonists, who the characters the readers look up to, are disgusted by girls putting on weight is horrible.

But the biggest victim of this theme is Dot. Dot, who was bullied endlessly for being overweight in the previous book. Dot, who somehow lost so much weight over the course of nine months that she went from being rotund to skinny with hour glass curves.

Okay, let’s break this down: there is no way, absolutely no way, that a person can lose THAT much weight in less than a year and still be healthy. Dot was not shown to have any health problems. When explaining how she had done this, she claimed she was “hungry all the time” and was solely snacking on vegetables such as carrots or celery. She further claimed that all of this was “worth it” as she is now popular and has a great social life.

I’m not,,,, I can’t even,,,, this. This is what you call glorifying an eating disorder. Are you going to read that above paragraph and tell me that people won’t feel inspired by Dot? That a self conscious girl won’t read about Dot’s “amazing” weight loss story and how “amazing” her life is after becoming skinny is not going to feel jealous and most likely try something to that affect,,,, I,,,, Soman, WHERE is your tact?

This is so disgusting and I am so sorry to anyone who was affected by this. If you don’t know, there was a movement of sorts on Instagram where the sge fans confronted Soman for how his way of writing eating disorders and weight problems seriously affected them and ended up making them self conscious or develop their own eating disorders.

This is all made worse by the fact that he just laughed it off, said he wrote it for humor, and was offended we even accused him of writing bad body image into his stories because he’s been teased for being skinny before.

This book has the worst problems with body image and glorifying eating disorders. This itself is enough to ruin the book for me.

Dot is a kind and humble character who’s only addressed in the story through her weight, it’s made into such a big plot point in her character arc, her weight and how she gets bullied for it, or how skinny she is, and what she did to get there. Her entire character is defined by her body and that is not okay.

This book did her and the other Evergirls so much injustice and it is so upsetting.

I would like to say this is it for the rant, but no, there are a lot more qualms I have with this book, ahaha :/

Stay tuned for Part 2: my issues with the characters in the books :)

[stagekiller]

 @feltcalling​​​  said:  billy, all this holiday stuff got me wantin'.... to ask...….. give us some lila headcanons puh-lease            

me: dumps everything i was doing to respond to this

 for our convenience I have divided the headcanons in three separate categories, starting from least to most sad and ending with a sweet one. :D

First of all: trigger warning for alcoholism and mentions of sexual/physical abuse. Here I wanna state that I personally don’t like demonizing Lila about what she did to the twins. Honestly, to me she reads more as one of those parents who are still children themselves, rather than a malicious woman who went out of her way to hurt her kids on purpose.

 Second, let me start by saying I have this FC for Lila that suits my image of her PERFECTLY but I can’t find more pictures of the woman depicted, because she’s some Greek singer with a very small following. ( sCREams )

                                  lukewarm sad:

  Lila’s aesthetic is opulence. But because she’s poor as dirt, the stuff she chooses to ‘decorate’ her home with are usually really cheap bling bling that she finds at street bazaars. Because she’s very lonely and emotionally numb, she likes to fill her house with shiny things she can look at and delude herself with. 

  She wears really heavy perfume and accessorizes a lot ( her fingers are practically covered in rings at all times ) . Lila dresses in a very sexualized fashion, without any real sense of what’s aesthetically pleasing. Her clothes are cheap and sometimes... don’t really fit her. ( Jerome fatshames her on the regular for this ) A thing that says a lot about her psyche is that, even though she’s always enveloped in this ‘nice’, extravagant wrapping, her body is very neglected. She’s a bit on the plump side, but because of her age + malnutrition + lack of exercise, it makes her look wrinkly and lumpy ( yes she has neck wrinkles and that’s actually canon )

  Lila will drink pretty much anything available and she often starts drinking in the morning. The smell of booze plus cologne is an especially revolting one, coupled with the fact she smokes as well. When she eats, it’s usually really low quality junk food, save for the times Zachary would bring something home from work for them.

Lila isn’t a horrible cook. When the twins were younger she could cook up a decent goulash. She knows some Russian ‘mom’ recipes, passed down from one generation to the other, but, as she grew up next to Zachary herself and he would most often take care of the kitchen, she’s not very experienced. As time goes by and she descends further in her addictions, Lila stops cooking or buying groceries all together and starts eating outside by herself, leaving no option for her sons but to learn how to prepare their own meals.

Lila and Sheba (the snake)  spend a lot of time together during work and often in the house as well. It’s not unusual for Lila to have forgotten Sheba in the caravan and the snake to have nested in a pile of dirty laundry. Fortunately for everyone in that trailer Sheba has a very calm temper and is accustomed to humans handling her. Lila, despite being the one to handle her most, leaves the ‘gross’ parts ( such as feeding, cleaning the cage ) of being her owner to her sons instead.

               pretty damn sad:

 Contrary to popular belief, Lila doesn’t have an explosive temper. When she’s sober; she’s actually rather catatonic.  She throws fits, of course, especially under the influence, but unless drunk she’s not likely to pick a fight. It is Jerome who antagonizes her 25/7 and Lila’s prefered method to deal with it has always been going to Zachary and crying about how horrible Jerome is so that Uncle Zach would reprimand him. However, she’s not above throwing things at him during her fits ( their caravan looks like a mess all the time ) and she’s been physically abusive towards both twins when they were younger. Growing up it became harder for her to beat Jerome up because he could fight back. But she can get creative sometimes, much like her brother, and, say, grab the clothing iron to slap him with.

 Lila doesn’t refer to Jerome as her son. She’s stopped doing so ever since Jerome was in primary school. He calls him by his first name. When Jerome does something ( or Lila thinks he does something ) to Jeremiah, Lila tells him things along the lines of  “ Stay away from my son! ” as if he’s a stranger. Jerome doesn’t call her mother either. Around other people he will most often refer to her as simply ‘her’ or with an insult and when addressing her he doesn’t use any particular name. Just ‘you’. She’s much closer with Jeremiah, however, probably because he doesn’t antagonize her.

really sad tbh:

  She and Uncle Zachary are too close to each other, with Zachary being very controlling towards her ( a behavior Jerome later on displays towards his brother, in imitation ). But Lila, through the years, has developed a dependence on him. He is her big brother, who will take care of things for her when she’s in trouble etc etc. Zachary is also rather possessive of Lila; he likes to know the guys she sleeps with and has often acted as a pimp to her in the past. Clearly he doesn’t care about what she does to make ends meet, but he does stick his greasy hands in her earnings under the excuse of ‘she’s not responsible enough to handle them herself’.

  In the past Cicero had not only shown her some genuine affection, he had also helped her financially. But there’s a darker side to that, because Lila wasn’t genuinely attracted to him. In a sense, he groomed her. And when she realized that, she felt deeply ashamed - though not ashamed enough to stop sleeping with him immediately. These days, however, she seems to avoid him as much as she can.

sweet :

 One of the few ‘family traditions’ Lila has with her sons consists of gathering in front of the TV and watching soap operas together. Jerome and Jeremiah would most often be comfortably snuggled up together besides her as kids. Growing up, Miah would sit next to their mom as a separating barrier between her and Jerome. They don’t talk during the soaps, but they do call each other when the show starts. After Miah leaves the home, the tradition slowly begins to fade.

EDIT : forgot to mention that the soaps headcanon came up in a convo with @/craftedsanity. I don’t remember if it was him or me who came up with it, so, to give credit where credit is due we’re gonna say it was him. But it’s such a good headcanon I couldn’t help it and I’ve incorporated it to the backstory ok, don’t judge me I like bittersweet things. :D 

[terresdebrume]

So today, I went out of the house intending to see the new Jumanji movie (which looked kinda bad in a fun way), buy new clothes (I chickened out) and get new glasses (couldn’t find the shop). Only one of those worked out, so let’s go on to the reviewing part of this post.

Jumanji: Return to the jungle is a sequel/reboot (a sequoot, if you will) of the 1995 movie starring Dwayne Johnson in the main role, which was honestly 80 % of my motivation to go see this film. (15 % was nostalgia for the original movie, which I intend to hunt down and download asap, and 5 % was ‘eh, it looks dumb but potentially funny, let’s see it’). If anyone wants to watch a trailer for the movie, here’s one. It’s...not the one I saw, and gives more things away like, for example, the fact that Dwayne Johnson is, technically, playing a white nerdy teenager for the whole movie while Kevin Hart plays the dark skinned black avatar of a black teenager (played by Ser’Darius Blain, according to Wikipedia). It...well, that’s actually the heart of this movie’s biggest problem.

While the movie is actually surprisingly mild with most of its unsavory aspects (few fatshaming jokes past the ones featured in the trailer, low levels of sexism and no homophobic comments in Bethany’s not-quite love story. Considering what I tend to expect from action movies, that was...well, it wasn’t good, but it was less bad than it usually is) the way it treats Fridge/Moose is actually pretty egregious.

For starters, the guy is the only one who doesn’t have a real name: he’s either a kitchen appliance or an animal throughout the movie. He’s the stereotypical academically inept football player who has to ask a nerd (Spencer) to do his homework for him and he’s also a bad friend who stopped hanging out with Spencer at some nebulous point in the past...he’s not the antagonist of the movie, but we’re clearly not meant to like him in his real world sequences.

His jungle scenes, on the other hand, are clearly meant to make us like him...or, well, they’re supposed to make us like laughing at him, which I suppose in the mind of far, far too many creators, is the same thing (hint: it isn’t). Here’s a little (non exhaustive) list of racist elements in Fridge’s jungle scenes:

He is mocked for freaking out about his avatar’s size and stature, even though it’s been established that he cares a lot about that aspect of himself and everyone else’s shock is seen as normal.

He becomes that annoying stereotype of the guy who literally can’t shut up about how he’s freaking out in the most inopportune moments (which in turn makes him the ‘let’s make the audience laugh by dismissing him as unimportant’ comic relief) even though in the real world Spencer is established as freaking out over a squirrel

He is literally Dwayne Johnson/Spencer’s servant (it’s in his avatar’s specs)

His avatar is a zoologist and a lot of the time when that knowledge comes in handy, Fridge follows it with a disgusted ‘how do I know that’ as if taking pride in his previously-established ignorance

He is physically manhandled and killed several time, and it’s clearly played for laugh.

EDIT: Forgot to mention but at the end of the movie, when Spencer is unable to Save The Day on his own (after repeating they needed each other several time, but I digress) Fridge/Moose’s first reflex isn’t to say ‘we’ll succeed together’, it’s to give Spencer Life Advice. I.e.:

Spencer: “I only have one life [left] and I’m scared to do things [like I am in the real world as opposed to being a badass in the super strong body of my avatar who’s going to come back to life.” Fridge: “We always only have one life, that’s why what matters is deciding what kind of person you want to be.”

Why fridge couldn’t take his own advice, I don’t know.

Even if you forget that Dwayne Johnson is playing a white teenager, it’s already really skeevy, but when you add the magical blackface on top of it it’s just like...why, you know? I mean. We all know why, but it’s still unacceptable.

It’s harmful representation and lazy writing, and it’s really freaking unnecessary, especially in a movie that managed to be fairly okay (ymmv) for the most part.

[leaveharmony]

** this got mad towards the end and it wasn't a targeted sort of mad at anyone in particular so much as a tired & probably-stemming-from-always-having-thing-I-enjoy-and-the-way-I-engage-with-it belittled sort of mad.  And as my father has always taught me, having or expressing emotions is shameful and wrong, so sorry.

Idk I think it's like....harder for me to cast judgement RE: ~cheating scandals~ or w/e because it goes back to it all being completely theoretical to me. No one's ever, face to face, at any time in any way expressed any kind of romantic interest in me whatsoever, I've never been in a relationship of any kind.  It hasn't come up, and that's fine.  Whether this is a case of you cannot miss what you've never had or whether I'm just like....a broken empty vessel for whom the yearning for human contact has gone beyond recall or desire, I dunno, and it doesn't concern me.  This isn't a pity me statement or an uwu secret crush notice me statement, I literally don't care at this point and tbh can't remember ever having done so.

Probably my oldest friend at this point, she....like as long as I've known her she's dated married men almost exclusively (and this started when we were both in highschool, when she was screwing around w/ her married english teacher - something I now understand was shocking predatory behaviour and probably statutory rape besides, but she does not acknowledge it as such so bring it up isn't my place).  She's been seeing the current one for at least three years now, I think, and he's married.  It's certainly an uncomfortable thing, and god knows I don't believe he could possibly think much of her or his wife if he's been doing this for so long and never once manned up and been honest or seriously considered ending his marriage.  But it's her life and we don't talk much anymore anyway, so I've never felt like it was my job or my place to be her therapist RE: holy shit what the fuck is wrong with you why do you do this to yourself and how could you do this to someone else?

Like full disclosure she started ‘seeing’ that english teacher when we were sort of puppy love internet-together (another long story but she wanted to or at least said she did and I sorta went along with it cos I didn't want to hurt her feelings...which of course, then it certainly seemed v. much like she didn't have many of, considering within a week she was having it off w/ someone else...again, this was a detached ‘Oh’ kind of moment, not really connected to any real hurt as she had instigated this and I hadn't really felt anything myself...it was upsetting in a sort of, ‘so this is what people do when they tell you they love you, that is disappointing but I guess life is not fiction’ kind of way but not in a ‘how could you, I love you’ kind of way.  As a first/only experience it could have gone better tbh, but it certainly gave me the right level of expectation afa being used & discarded when someone more convenient came along).

It's possible that most of the people I have ever known have just been fundamentally really bad at relationships and so I just sort of assume this is a normal thing; my father is an abusive shitbag and we're inescapably trapped with him, grandpa was a sort of...disinterested stick in the mud with a frightening temper for whom my grandmother gave up all her interests in sports and the outdoors because he did not share them.  Wabs never married, Tosh told me like she was expecting a pat on the back and a medal that she'd been faithful to her husband as he died of cancer 'even though she  ‘didn't have to be.’  And my instinctive reaction wasn't GOOD FOR YOU so much as it was “....what?!” but again...I didn't speak, because what the fuck do I know?  Maybe ppl run off and start seeing other ppl as soon as their partners get so much as a headcold all the time.

Ppl just sorta get abused and trampled and left and cheated on and discarded, or they do the same to others, and it just looks like a hell of a mess I'm well out of, tbh.  Which I guess is another reason...unless somebody's getting beat or otherwise abused, I feel like it's none of my business.  So honestly, “Tana slept around when he was single and one day some chick he canoodled with for like two months stabbed him for it” is filed under “Yeah that'll happen, thank god he didn't die” rather than “Hahahahaha karma amiright he totes deserved it, domestic abuse and attempted murder are hilarious when they’re directed at men who’re full of themselves!”

Nobody needs to tell me to have low fuckin' expectations for men, ok, I live under the boot of one of their idiot kings.  Tell me Tana fatshames his family for eating, tell me he gaslights them or acts like when they’re hurt or injured they’re making it up to personally inconvenience him, tell me they have to rigidly control their emotions around him to avoid setting off his violent temper, and ok.  Tell me he's a bigot, tell me he hits his family, tell me he hates women, tell me he's a rapist, ok.  But like...’he had a lot of sex and probably hurt people's feelings’ is not really high on my list of cardinal offenses b/c as far as I can tell, that's fucking everyone.  It isn't like he still does, it isn't like he's not tried to put it behind him and grow from it and be better.  It's practically his motto.   Why is ‘I acted in a shitty way but I'm trying to atone and I still look back and feel guilty about it’ only an admirable, affirming  thing to aspire to when it's a tumblr post & not when a guy is straight up saying it?  Which he has, on multiple occasions.  Can't change the past, can only try to learn from it.

At.  Least.  He.  Fucking.  Tries.

When has redneck george ever walked back his comments about gay ppl or his Islamophobia, when has Lesnar?  Beyond a token apology and chasing it w/ a dozen I'M NOT A RACIST THO interviews when has Hogan really acknowledged the depths of how he fucked up?  When did Warrior apologize for his vile bigotry, where's Elgin sincerely regretting being a fucking piece of shit dragging a rape victim's name through the mud?  Jericho's response to ‘hey maybe you shouldn't be advertising your cruise by saying there will be loads of bikini-clad women there available for you to ogle’ was essentially ‘are you triggered, bro, y so srys?’ and at no point did he objections seriously.  Orton never so much as thinks for two seconds before condemning BLM protesters or footballers who take the knee, AND he voted for Trump, but other than hollowly chanting that he's not a racist while blatantly doing things that are racist, silence.  Honma beat his girlfriend, Snuka murdered his partner, Austin smacked Debra around, Angle got stoned out of his mind and broke into his ex's apartment, X-Pac hit Chyna, exactly how often do they refer back to what happened, when did they apologize or express regret or even acknowledge any of it?  I mean I guess Benoit can't, what with the fucking suicide after he bashed in Nancy's skull and murdered his son.

Ppl have different things they can tolerate and forgive, is I guess my point, or at least one of them.  Which is fine!  I mean...I'd sure fucking side-eye anybody who writes any of the above a pass, but, I guess everybody's stories and reasons are different.

I like Tana.  I'm a fan of his.  Ok?  Like it probably sounds like I think he's a flawless angel crowned with light b/c compared to my fucking father, he IS.  It doesn't mean I'm being willfully blind to mistakes he's made or that I'm absolving him of every sin he's ever committed.  I think he's a good person and it's heartening and encouraging that he's in the world and if saying so without adding 18 asterisks about past behaviour and an disclaimer acknowledging all men as shit and all people as inherently flawed makes me a gullible childish ~fangirl~ than ok, I guess I am.  Everybody knows my tags for wrestling/wrestlers, which are there as much as a courtesy to anybody who needs to blacklist as they are a filing system for me (that’s why there’s a catch-all!  For ppl I haven’t thought up tags for yet or don’t intend to!), and tumblr savior is right there if me being silly about my favs in my own space bothers everybody so fucking much, god knows it wouldn't be the first time I set somebody cringing and they had to tune me out before they quietly dropped my ass like a particularly stupid puppy on a country road.  That I am a sloppy fawning emotional mess of untreated neurosis who hyperfixates on things & people who make me feel halfway hopeful for entire minutes at a time & gets stupidly overexcited about stuff isn't new information to me, so if you can't deal with that then... Well...sorry, honestly.  Like sincerely.  I know how I am and I try not to be but I can't help it sometimes when I like something.  Don't feel bad about leaving if you don't want to deal with it, cos I get it, honestly.  Have exactly zero (0) guilt feelings about it.  I’m a fundamentally repulsive creature, ppl have hard limits on how long they can put up with me, and so it has always been, and so it goes.