#COMPUTER: ERASE THAT ENTIRE PERSONAL LOG

[cauldronofmorning]

LOL. Sorry for the word vomiting on the replies, I don't know why I didn't just go to the ask box where it has more real estate. Thanks for indulging in my Trek talks, I know the season wasn't your cup of tea, and I respect it! I just--- apparently, Trek is my hyperfixation for-- *checks* A year now. I think its what replaced my Doctor Who fixation after I gave up on show and fandom.

No worries! I have a lot of opinions on Trek, and nobody is going to agree completely (I personally think it’s wrongly billed as a utopia and Roddenberry gets more credit than he should despite being a sexist scumbag just because he encouraged shipping). It’s fun to talk about with friends!

[daisyneptune]

so... i lied 🤫 i cheated 🫣 i bribed men 💵💵🧑‍🤝‍🧑🧑‍🤝‍🧑 to cover 🛌 the crimes 🚔🔍🔗 of other men 👨🧔‍♂️🧔 i am an accessory 💍👑👛🪭 to murder 🗡🗡🗡 but 🍑 the most damning 👿💀👹👺 thing of all 🤷‍♂️ i think 🤔💭 i can 🥫 live with it 🥱💅 and if ❓️❔️ i had to do it all over again ⌛️⏳️⏱️ i would 😤 garak 🦎🧵🪡 was right 💯💯 about 1️⃣ thing 👏 a guilty 😰 conscience 🧚‍♀️🧚‍♂️ is a small 🔎🔬 price 💰 to pay 💸💸 for the safety 🏥🛟 of the alpha 🐺 quadrant 🌌 so 🤷 i will learn 📚✏️to live with it 😒 because I can 🥫 live with it 😣 i can 🥫 live with it 😔🥃 computer 💻 erase 🧼🧽��� that entire 🌎 personal log 📖❌️👋👋

[too-many-eels]

Inktober Day 17: Journal

So… I lied. I cheated. I bribed men to cover the crimes of other men. I am an accessory to murder. But the most damning thing of all… I think I can live with it. And if I had to do it all over again - I would. Garak was right about one thing: a guilty conscience is a small price to pay for the safety of the Alpha Quadrant. So I will learn to live with it… Because I can live with it… I can live with it… Computer - erase that entire personal log.

[odessa-steppes]

Girls don't want a boyfriend. They want to stare into the camera and say, "Because I can live with it. I CAN live with it." Before ordering the computer to erase that entire personal log.

[buckets-of-dirt]

So... I booped. I booped. I booped men to cover the boops of other men. I am an accessory to boop. But the most damning thing of all... I think I can live with boop. And if I had to boop all over again - I would. Garak was right about one thing: a boop is a small price to pay for the safety of the Alpha Quadrant. So I will learn to boop... Because I can boop... I can boop...

Computer - erase that entire personal log.

[datasoong47]

From the Book of Faces

"Mr. Noodles was right about one thing, a guilty conscience is a small price to pay for the safety of Sesame Street. So I will learn to live with it. Because I can live with it. I can live with it… Computer, erase that entire personal log."

[ethereal-forest-furry]

So, I lied. I cheated. I bribed men to cover the crimes of other men. I am an accessory to murder. But the most damning thing of all... I think I can live with it. And if I had to do it all over again, I would. Garak was right about one thing: a guilty conscience is a small price to pay for the safety of the Alpha Quadrant. So I will learn... to live with it. Because I can live with it. I can live with it... Computer... erase that entire personal log.

[curator-on-ao3]

Again, cool response to the last question, so I'll let you pick from these options:

And there are things I have fan-fixed in my head to the point that I have to remind myself that the fix-it isn’t part of the actual canon: favourite one of these?

Or

Your/a favourite part of actual canon. Like, maybe something little but it's just so lovely and fitting to you and you're just happy that it exists?

I’ve been a little down on Trek lately, so I’m going to type as fast as I can to brain-dump, in show order, the first things that pop into my mind that I absolutely love in Trek canon:

Kirk calling Nomad his son, the doctor

Christine Chapel’s snark to Roger Korby about schtupping the androids

Mark Leonard’s performance in Balance of Terror

the Horta (a great mama)

“Edith Keeler must die.”

Captain John Christopher, United States Air Force. Serial number 4857932.

Tribbles

the lesson of The Cloud Minders that we must have empathy and listen to others when they tell us about their lived experience in an environment unlike our own

the cheap-ass animation of TAS

Q

Bynars and Minuet

Beverly Crusher’s frustration in Arsenal of Freedom (and the episode’s Good Ship Lollipop joke)

Picard shooting the other version of himself in Time Squared (to clarify: out of respect for those times when we have to stop ourselves from getting caught in loops/doing stupid stuff and we summon up the courage to break a bad cycle and move forward)

K'Ehleyr

Picard out-lawyering the Sheliak

Rachel Garrett; Yar and Castillo

Lal (but I can’t watch the end anymore, it hurts too much)

the Shakespeare and “Set a course for Betazed. Warp 9.” comedy in Ménage a Troi

Best of Both Worlds, I and II (Shelby inclusive)

every conference table discussion in all of TNG

Beverly’s jump in Remember Me (such a damn good episode)

the reveal in Future Imperfect (which one? all of them)

The Dancing Doctor tap dancing with Data

Darmok. And Jalad. At Tenagra.

Ro Laren

Troi saying, “You could have easily been right” to Ro in Disaster

Hugh, Third of Five

the fact that The Next Phase has so many plotholes and they’re forgivable because the episode is so fun and great

Scotty on the holodeck version of the TOS bridge and Picard joining him

Rascals!

Deanna’s “Ancient West” outfit

the Jefferies tube music and make out session in Lessons

Attached. Oh, my heart.

the Enterprise with three nacelles … and that absolutely perfect last shot of the series

“You exist here.”

Sisko’s casual, everyday affection for Jake

“Old Man”

Rejoined. Lenara Khan. The love. That kiss. The emotional stakes. All of it.

the three Ferengi hitting their own heads to try to fix their universal translators so the 20th century Earth military people mimic the movement to try to communicate

every second of Trials and Tribble-ations including Sisko working overtime to stop fuckmaster Dax, tossing the tribbles, Sisko meeting Kirk, “We do not discuss it with outsiders,” and so much more

Kira blaming Bashir for putting the baby inside her when … you know … behind the scenes

The Sons of Mogh helping with the harvest in Children of Time

Far Beyond the Stars — some of the best if not the best science fiction I have ever seen

the monster fakeout (and kindness) in The Sound of Her Voice, even though the end makes me cry

“Computer, erase that entire personal log.”

Solok

Sisko and Kassidy discussing their comfort levels about a simulation in which the reality was segregation

Janeway waterfalling off the sofa to be closer to Mark on the screen

“Warp particles!”

the lizard babies

the two Janeways in Deadlock

Remember (a painfully good Holocaust episode that doesn’t get enough credit and, yes, I know the path the script took and I’m glad it ended up as a B’Elanna episode)

“I don't know what I'm seeking.” “Then I believe you are ready to begin.”

“The child you spoke of, the girl. Her favorite color was red.” Also, Tuvok’s meditation lamp in the window for Kes.

hot damn, Counterpoint, yaaas

everything in Relativity

“The Yankees, in six games.”

Janeway going after Seven in The Voyager Conspiracy

“This is Lieutenant Reginald Barclay at Starfleet Command.” “It's good to hear your voice, Lieutenant. We've been waiting a long time for this moment.” “The feeling is mutual. Unfortunately, the micro-wormhole is collapsing. We have only a few moments.” “Understood. We are transmitting our ship's logs, crew reports, and navigational records to you now.” “Acknowledged. And we're sending you data on some new hyper-subspace technology. We're hoping eventually to use it to keep in regular contact, and we're including some recommended modifications for your comm system.” “We'll implement them as soon as possible.” “There's someone else here who would also like to say something.” “This is Admiral Paris.” “Hello, sir.” “How are your people holding up?” “Very well. They're an exemplary crew, your son included.” “Tell him, tell him I miss him. And I'm proud of him.” “He heard you, Admiral.” “The wormhole is collapsing.” “I want you all to know we're doing everything we can to bring you home.” “We appreciate it, sir. Keep a docking bay open for us.”

“Nice hair.” (Live Fast and Prosper)

Janeway and Jaffen in Workforce

the spot-on legal concerns of Author, Author

“Set a course. For home.”

(Nothing from Enterprise or Prodigy only because I haven’t watched enough of Enterprise or any of Prodigy)

Burnham and Georgiou forming the delta with their footsteps

the CGI on only the shields protecting Burnham from space

“Are we in session? Because I didn't know you were practicing again. Because if I have your undivided attention for fifty minutes, I can think of a whole bunch of other things we could be doing.”

“That's as depressing a trait as I've ever heard.” “I don't give a damn … I still don't give a damn.”

Cornwell beaming in, phaser aimed, taking command of Discovery

Cornwell phasering the fortune cookies

Cornwell’s voice breaking: “So my Gabriel is dead.”

Detmer’s little bounce when Emperor-as-Captain Georgiou takes command

Pike beaming aboard and instantly being all like MOJAVE to prove to the audience he’s the guy from The Cage

New Eden. Everything. Oh my God (pun intended). The visuals. Owo’s backstory. Pollard patching Pike up after he’s shot. The light at the end. Oh my God, yes. That episode. Yes.

Number freaking One beaming aboard and having her lunch briefing with Pike (Chris and Una’s decades-long friendship wasn’t canon yet, but it shows here so beautifully)

Gabrielle Burnham

“In case the shit hit the fan.”

Michael Burnham on truth serum

Book

Laira Rillak, everyone!

Q&A

season 1 Raffi Musiker

Fleet Admiral and Commander-in-Chief Kirsten Clancy

“You owe me a ship, Picard.”

“You need a feather in your hat.”

Riker greeting Picard

Hugh greeting Picard

the separate trio of Raffi, Clancy, and Deanna all telling Picard he’s shit

Rios singing in Spanish

President Annika Hansen

everybody finding each other in the Confederation Universe

Liam Shaw — a character with incredible highs and lows

Majel Barrett as the computer voice when the crew gets to the Enterprise D

“Somehow I figured you might.”

everything in Ghosts of Illyria

Spock and La’an’s mind meld

Spock and T’Pring in Spock Amok

“You cannot resign. The loss to Enterprise would be unimaginable. To me.”

���If you’re going to steal a starship, do it correctly.”

Neera Ketoul

La’an normalizing needing to eat all the time as a teenager (especially important for girls to hear)

Pike and Una visually checking in with each other so often that it’s in their cartoon versions (that whole episode, actually, including, “Riker!”)

That’s scrolling through episode titles and jotting down stuff I love off the top of my head, fam.✨

Thank you so much for this ask, anon! ❤️ I needed this positive energy in my life.

[thegreatyin]

so. i lied. i cheated. i bribed men to cover the crimes of other men. i am an accessory to taking two candies from the take one candy bowl. but the most damning thing of all, i think i can live with it. and if i had to do it all over again, i would. the urge to eat candy was right about one thing. a guilty conscience is a small price to pay for the fullness of my belly. so i will learn to live with it. because i can live with it. i can live with it. computer, erase that entire personal log

[incirrata]

very kind of ds9 to welcome me back from my too-long hiatus in watching with two consecutive episodes delving into a specific character’s ethical views as they’ve been portrayed for six seasons and to what degree the character believes that the ends justify the means!

first of all we’ve got “inquisition,” in which some other stuff is going on but I’m mostly engaged by the full review of bashir’s most important moral decisions. it’s not an original choice for a doctor, but he’s always has a strong do no harm principle that means he tends to advocate for the least utilitarian choice. possible counterpoints are brought up: he hid his status as genetically modified from starfleet and he advocated that one time for the federation to surrender because he didn’t think they’d be able to defeat the dominion. tellingly, though, neither case involves directly harming people for the end goal. I think it’s very realistic for someone to have some certain actions (directly harming or not saving people) which they will never take, while they also hold some principles (loyalty to starfleet) which they will set aside for the greater good. sexy and fun episode.

in the pale moonlight. here we’ve got our consequentialist! he feels bad about it but he can live with it. computer, erase that entire personal log. (sidenote: the framing of an episode like this with a retrospective monologue would never work unless you have someone as good at monologuing as avery brooks. I get why everyone quotes those ending lines now.) interesting things happening here beyond the “our character DOES think the ends justify the means” thing. it’s implied that garak keeping the full plan from sisko was necessary and he never would have signed off on it originally, yet he says he’d do everything again! is this an issue of personal responsibility? willing to be an accessory to murder vs. a murderer; the pulling of the trolley lever itself kind of thing? or is it what I see as the main consideration consequentialism must concern itself with: the question of uncertainty? does sisko retrospectively condone the murder now that he knows it was effective, but wouldn’t have done so with the outcome up in the air? how much uncertainty would he have tolerated? sexy and fun episode.

[solarishashernoseinabook]

Yk, I was going to ask this in the comments, but then I thought, why not a nifty little ask?

Do you actually write all your stories by hand? And how does it work? Cuz personally I am always put off by the fact I like, don't write fast enough to be able to keep up with the sentences forming in my head, yk. And do you then retype the chapter after you've handwritten it? Genuinely curious as to why/if/.. you prefer doing it this way

I'm glad you asked! And I'm glad you asked as an ask, because this would be a weee bit long to go in a tumblr comment 😅

I handwrite most of my fics, yeah! Tho it's more of a hybrid model instead of strictly handwriting, then typing. I bounce between handwriting and typing based on if I'm having writer's block or not. If I get stuck when typing up a chapter, I save what I have, close down my computer, and pick up a notebook and start writing from the last point I remember. Not being able to refer back to what I've written previously means I'm not stuck agonising over it, and allows me to write more freely than if I was constantly going back to earlier paragraphs. If I get stuck when handwriting, I boot up my computer again and transcribe everything. Y'know that bit of writing advice that's like "if you have writer's block, your problem is actually half a page back"? Yeah, that's why I transcribe! The process of rereading my earlier writing lets me identify what's not working and how to fix it.

TRR2 is actually the first fic where the majority of it has been handwritten beforehand, because Angel bought me a gorgeous notebook to write it in (and he got me a second to continue with!). A good portion of every chapter so far has been handwritten, and some chapters were entirely handwritten before I transcribed them :D

Further reasons I like handwriting include...

...no longer worrying so much about making it "perfect", and letting a first draft just be a first draft Sometimes in the middle of writing a scene I'll realise it works better in another character's POV, or in another setting, or any number of things. Instead of going back and changing it, I make a note saying what the change is and then keep writing as though I've already made the change. That way it doesn't break up the flow of writing and I can continue on a roll! Similarly, if a line is wonky or weird, but I can't immediately think of a better one, I just write down the wonky line and continue. Without the ability to erase what I just wrote, I don't get bogged down making every line perfect, and usually when I go to transcribe it later I have a better idea of what to write

...it helps me be more considerate of my words Wait, isn't this a direct contradiction of what I just said? Let's pretend it isn't I also write slower than I type, which I find is a bonus! My brain keeps working on the words and scene while I write, and they can often end up more refined than if I was typing everything because I had more time to turn the words over in my brain. There's also just something about handwriting things that helps my brain remember them more

...it's way more versatile I can't type on phones - it's actively very uncomfortable for me (small hands yaaay). Unfortunately, this means if I'm not at a computer, typing anything more than a couple of sentences is a no-go. Notebooks are easy to carry, don't require an external power source, and I can easily curl up with them to write in the car, in bed, or outside (bonus: it's MUCH easier to see a notebook in direct sunlight than it is to try and make out words on a screen). It also means I can write at work without worrying about keystrokes being logged, people seeing what's on my screen, forgetting a USB, or - disaster of disasters - computers crashing and erasing my data

...purely autistic/aesthetic reasons :D Writing is a huge physical stim for me. Typing can be too depending on the keyboard I'm using, but writing with a pen on paper is remarkably calming in a way that very little else is. Also, notebooks pretty ❤

thanks for dealing with all that (and also giving me an excuse to ramble on for way too long :D)!

[youngpettyqueen]

“Computer. Erase that entire personal log.”

All I can say is. Holy shit.

[mickstart]

Fundamentally star trek is a universe about peace and the potential of mankind and you are so right to say comparing it to star wars is dumb bc they ARE fundamentally different genres but also I lied, I cheated, I bribed men to cover the crimes of other men. I am an accessory to murder. But most damning thing of all, I think I can live with it. And if I had to do it all over again, I would.

Garak was right about one thing. A guilty conscience is a small price to pay for the safety of the Alpha Quadrant, so I will learn to live with it.

Because I can live with it. I can live with it.

Computer... erase that entire personal log

[squirrelfm]

"At oh eight hundred hours, station time, the Romulan Empire formally declared war against the Dominion. They have already struck fifteen bases along the Cardassian border. So, this is a huge victory for the good guys. This may even be the turning point of the entire war. There's even a 'Welcome to the Fight' party tonight in the wardroom. So I lied, I cheated, I bribed men to cover the crimes of other men. I am an accessory to murder. But most damning thing of all, I think I can live with it. And if I had to do it all over again, I would. Garak was right about one thing. A guilty conscience is a small price to pay for the safety of the Alpha Quadrant, so I will learn to live with it. Because I can live with it. I can live with it. Computer, erase that entire personal log." ~ Benjamin Sisko

[cauldronofmorning]

Filled with the sudden desire to get “computer, erase that entire personal log” as a tattoo