#my fucked up freak child🫶🫶🫶

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INA!!!!! THE SILLY KID OF CYN AND R!!!!!! RAHHHJFJFKFFJ

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BABY SAID ~ OP81 Part 2

Part1

Oscar Piastri x Male!Driver!Single-Parent!Reader

SMAU and Written

A/N: Lemme know if you have any suggestions for scenarios. My inbox is open.

Faceclaim: Various men on pinterest and McKenna Crisp couldn't decide on a face claim I wanted for this fic

Summary: In your 2 years as Oscars teamate you two became fast friends. When you suddenly become the sole care taker to your daughter Oscar is there for you through everything

A/N; This has legit no plot, like at all, just a bunch of sweet instagram posts 🫶🏻

Warnings/Tags: Set in the start of 2025 season (Its barley mentioned), totally based on what is currently known about draver contacts and such. Reader drove in mclaren 2019-2024 and takes lewis' merc seat for 2025. Daughter is a result of a one night stand/ex-girlfriend, he is raising her on his own. Pre-established relationship for the rest of the fic.

March 2025

Your_Username

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Your_Username Showing baby Marcy Australia before we go racing again this weekend!

Oscar took great pleasure in showing us around even if Melbourne is miles away from where he grew up.

See you on Thursday for media day 🫶🏻

OscarPiastri My pleasure showing you around Australia, baby! Lovely spending my winter break you two wonderful people.

User1 I’m sorry do they live together or something now?

User2 @/user1 nobody knows, chances are they do considering how Oscar talks about taking care of Maceline so often.

mercedesamgf1 soaking up those rays ☀️. See you Thursday for media!

User3 (Y/N) is so-so freaking cute with his daughter and i’ve only seen them interact through photos

User4 FR, is so attractive too (sorry Oscar)

User5 Can we talk about (Y/N)’s abs in the second pic 🤤

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mercedesamgf1 andddd we’re back racing again in Melbourne for the first race of the season.

Good to have Marceline in our garage this season (and (Y/N) too we suppose). Great to see George back in black this season aswell.

Your_Username glad to know admin has their priorities right, I too agree that Marcey’s name should come before mine

User6 God this child has (Y/N) whipped

User7 (Y/N)’s DILF era may just be the death of me bc this is so fucking cute 😇

Oscarpiastri How am I supposed to see Marcey whenever I want now she’s in the enemy garage 😔

Your_Username Honey, we discussed this during the break. You have Toto’s permission to enter my garage.

Oscarpiastri Fine, i’ll enter enemy territory to see the baby. 😒

Your_Username So dramatic 🙄

User8 Toto really said ‘find me the fittest driver line up’ and went for it because 🤤

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Your_Username Ready for Marcey’s first day in the paddock! (feat. Osc). Race day ain’t ready for us 💪🏻

Oscarpiastri Happy to spend my getting ready time with you and Marcey.

User9 Oscar is so down bad for his boyfriend (I’m down bad for his boyfriend too)

User10 I cannot be the only one that thinks this is a bad idea, a baby needs a stable home and a present parent. Not two caregivers that spend half their year travelling

User11 This is so mean :( as far as we’re aware (Y/N) is Marcelines sole legal guardian plus we have no idea what his caregiving arrangements for HIS baby are

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User12 BABY IN DA PADDOCK 🗣️🗣️

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mercededamgf1 Thats a 1-2 finish for our boys in Melborne, lets keep this up for the rest of the season 💪🏻

User13 (Y/N) casually going missing for 6 months, has a child, comes back and wins a grand prix first race back. What a drive honestly.

User14 Mercedes may actually be in the running for a championship this season?! (Y/N) WDC??

georgerussell63 Amazing race guys 👏👏

Your_Username Woooo, the adrenalines still going, thanks for the amazing race guys

User15 I’m so happy for (Y/N) but i’m a bit worried George is going to get treated like a second driver :(

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Your_Username I think I found my new good luck charms. Words cannot describe how lucky I feel when i’m with these two. See you in China 🍀

Thanks @/oscarpiastri and the @/mercedesamgf1 admin for taking these photos

User16 Y’all need another child? I can cook!

User17 (Y/N) really out here gagging the haters with his driving and his parenting skills

oscarpiastri Happy to be your personal baby photographer, it’s a role I take very seriously 🫡

User18 I think (Y/N) and Oscars parenting arc might just finish me off because this is TOO cute

mercedesamgf1 Baby boss gets all my attention 🫶

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Your_Username On todays episode of we take Marceline places we went to the aquarium to see the fishes (and then went home for an afternoon nap so she could keep daddy and Oscar up all night)

User19 How (Y/N) manages travelling to different timezones with a baby is absolutely wild to me 🤠

Oscarpiastri Personally still think that we should get a shark

Your_Username How about no? We live in a flat (with a baby) for a start. Lets maybe give it some though first 😀

Oscarpiastri :(

User20 I love how Oscar just goes everywhere with them now to be their personal photographer

User21 I think Oscar has just accepted he’s a father now 😭

Oscarpiastri Tis my duty as a good boyfriend 🫡

User22 I think this is the first time (Y/N) has won a race and not gotten shitfaced afterwards 😭

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Oscarpiastri Guys guess what, I legally became this little ones other father today.

I am so so so beyond grateful for the little family (Y/N) and I have made for ourselves and I promise to love this child until the day I die

Your_Username I love you so much baby, You were already such a great father to my daughter, just now its legal ❤️‍🩹

User23 Way to make a girl cry first thing on a Sunday morning 🥲

User24 (L/N)-Piastri family is the cutest fucking thing ever

mercedesamgf1 Does this mean McLaren gets split custody on race weekends?

Your_Username afraid so 😔

Mclaren Baby (L/N) in Papaya?

Your_Username Think Toto would have something to say about that 😐

User25 (Y/N) beefing with the Mclaren admin as if thats not his old team is so fucking funny 💀

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Oscarpiastri Date night with this dumbass, Cheers @/georgerussell63 and @/landonorris for taking care of our kid while we went out.

georgerussell63 Taking my uncle duties seriously 🫡

Landonorris Marcey was a pleasure to take care of

georgerussell63 You sat and played with her while I did everything important 😐

Landonorris What happened to teamwork makes the dream work?

User26 Not (Y/N) full on biting Oscars face 😭

Oscarpiastri Its how he shows affection 🤷🏼

User27 Now the video of (Y/N) biting Oscars shoulder makes sense

User28 Not the spooned out heart, these are my parents yall

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A/N WHY THE FUCK IS IT SO HARD TO FIND GOOD PHOTOS OF MEN WITH BABIES ON PINTEREST 👹👹👹👹

[eternal-love]

GOOD MEN DIE TOO

Pairing: Benny Cross x Female!Reader

Summary: Danny finally gets and interview with you after years of trying, and he finds out how different was your perspective about Benny.

Warning: Benny being pathetic, not being able to win a fight, slight toxic¿

Note: Crush by Ethel Cain is Benny’s song, can’t change my mind. Hey, I wanted to write this for Benny SO BAD! Hope you like it 🫶

1971, Florida.

Danny had found you again, and he wanted to finish his project. It had been about 6 years perhaps? You looked different, you didn’t wear false lashes and your hair wasn’t huge like back in 1965. He didn’t see you much back then, you were as quiet as Benny, and Benny was rather possessive, he never really allowed you to talk to Danny.

“So Benny, he was shooting them glasses after our fight. I had been doin’ wash day, because he’s a pig and his clothes are always stained with oil and sweat. I looked through his bottom drawers and he had a gun! I freaked out, of course. I was scared one of our babies could stumble upon it!”

“Benny, the hell is this?” You practically rushed downstairs, Benny was wearing a wifebeater, denim pants, smoking a cigarette as he watched TV.

“It ain’t mine.” He answered, his ever-so-serious demeanor.

“It ain’t yours? Then it must have magically appeared in my damn house.” You raised your voice, he furrowed his eyebrows. “I don’t want none of these damn things in here.”

“Don’t be so nagging, woman. It ain’t mine, I swear it.” He took a drag from his cigarette.

“He kept bein’ defensive, I’m not really sure why. He kept lying, but I sure did remember seeing his bulking back pocket one time I bailed his ass outta jail. The gun was from an officer, he stole it. Til this day he denies it being his. But he know that I know the truth.” You laughed, Benny was a case, truly a case.

“About Benny, I asked you bout his family. But you never answered back then.” Danny said.

“His daddy was a deadbeat, but Benny says it proudly, he had to step up. Work, help his mama out. Back then, I could say 53’? His friends moved them mommy helper’s pills. He never tried ‘em, he’s never tried anything other than cigarettes and liquor. He’s never had a problem saying no, he’s always been— on his own. He doesn’t follow no one.

His older brother bagged this chick, the valedictorian. Real important gal, the pride of town. And Benny bagged me, I wasn’t in his mama’s expectations. I worked as a maid. Ha, you should’ve seen how his mama was every time Benny actually took us there, which was a rare occasion, Benny loves his mama but he ain’t the family type. His mama would constantly tell him to be like his brother.”

You had been watching Benny closely lately, making sure he didn’t get into trouble. But turns out, trouble followed him. You knew this when you first met him, he wasn’t the type of guy to settle down, have a family, live the picket fence life. You thought you could change that.

But when you had to start to bail his ass out of jail or take care of him after a fight. Or both! But you did it out of love, although you weren’t proud of it, because you were making him think that he could always get in trouble and you would be there to fix it.

You had to bail his ass out of jail again, this time, he had robbed a corner store, cigarettes and a beer. The owner, while an old man, could fight real good, he got Benny’s ass and knocked him down. Benny could not fight to save his life, he always lost one way or another.

“If you had seen him.” He said as he laid in bed, smoking a cigarette, his arm was broken. “You should’ve seen how I left that old fuck.”

“Damn right, Benny, damn right.” You rolled your eyes in annoyance, you held your child on your lap.

“My son had a loser for a father. I’m not exaggerating, now I see it. Back then Benny was not good news.”

“Ya ain’t believing’ me?” He took a glance at you.

“Benny, you have a broken arm. Of course I don’t believe ya.” You said, looking at him with an ‘are you serious?��� Look on your face.

“It was worth it.” Benny said, looking away. As if he was proud of being beaten down by an old man, a veteran, at all that.

“You idiot.” You scoffed, getting up from the chair and walking out the bedroom.

“Doll, wait—“

“He was an idiot. He was too pathetic to win a fight he started. There are hard odds to beat once you’re all on fours.” You said, then taking a drag from your cigarette, Danny laughed.

“What do you mean?”

“That he was getting fucked by the veteran. When police arrived, the old man had Benny on the floor.”

“And no one ever warned you about Benny? About his behaviors?”

“Johnny did. He was always tellin’ me that I shouldn’t care too much about Benny. He ain’t that serious. And I listened.”

You only wanted Benny when he wanted you back, you learned the hard way that you couldn’t dwell every time he left you without a single word.

You stopped waiting for him and continued on with your life, as if nothing had happened. When he came back, you treated it like a normal Thursday.

“You’re back.” You said as you were watching tv with your child, you didn’t even bother to look at him.

“I am.” He expected you to come and hug him, ask him where he had been, how was he, if something had happened. But you didn’t.

“There’s dinner on the table.” You said, a part of you wanted to worry. Wanted to know if he was okay, if he got in a fight, if he had slept with another woman. “And bills on the refrigerator.”

“He couldn’t even pay the club’s fees. But I wanted to punish him for it.

But he made up for it that night, that’s when our second kid was conceived. He smells like Marlboro reds and Benny does know how to use his hands. I will always appreciate that. I couldn’t get enough of him.

For whatever faults he has, he hasn’t laid with another woman. Not that I know of— if he has, best believe I’m using a shot-gun.”

You had been having an on going argument with Benny, your second child had been born and he hadn’t been there. You had some complications and you had needed him.

The reason was: he was wearing his colors. He didn’t want to take them off, he’d rather miss the birth of his child than take off his damn jacket.

“Johnny, Zipco, hell— even Funny Sonny tried to get him to follow the hospital’s guidelines. But he didn’t care. He just, left me alone. I cried, of course I did. Fifteen hours in labor and all I wanted was my husband and he wasn’t there. Our Jack was born sick and he wasn’t there.”

Benny was upstairs, looking for his damn lighter, you went upstairs, looking for him.

“Benny? What’cha doin’?” You asked as you entered the bedroom, you were a complete wreck because you took care of a two year old and a newborn.

“Nothin’” He answered to you nonchalantly as he put on his jacket.

“Look, I need to talk to ya.” You said, rubbing your chin softly.

“I gotta be in some place.”

“Well, we all gotta be in some place. You know?” You said a bit more softly. Your hormones were at a carousel, up and down. Benny sighed and leaned back on the dresser.

“What is it?” He asked you, as if your voice was the last thing he wanted to hear

“I can’t live like this no more.” You said, holding back tears. You were serious. “I can’t. We can’t. Me and the boys. You weren’t there, for your son, Benny. You didn’t even hold him. I didn’t even know what to do when Johnny said he was the father to make sure our boy was okay.”

“Johnny said Jack made it out fine. He took care of everything.” Benny said, as if that could make up for everything.

“That’s not true, he isn’t the father. You didn’t see him. How could you know? I mean, you weren’t there.” You said, shaking your head in disbelief.

“I know. And I’m sorry-“

“You weren’t there!” You interrupted him. Raising your voice. He stared at you like you were one mad woman.

“If Johnny hadn’t been there to argue with the nurses to let me see Jack then I sure as hell would be in jail right now. I know I always say that people that assault medical personnel are crazy sons of bitched but I guess I am one. Because they took my Jack, and I didn’t know if he was alive or not.”

“Benny was staring at me. He has this thing. When he’s holding back tears, the sides of his eyes get reddish, so does his nose. I saw him. He wanted to cry. For the first time I thought he’d trust me enough to cry.”

“What do you want me to do now?” He asked.

“I want you to quit riding. Quit the club.” You said firmly.

“Don’t ask that.” He shook his head, as if what you were asking was a crazy thing. Something otherworldly.

“I was thinking we could go somewhere. You told me about this cousin of yours in Florida. Let’s just go there, Benny.” You said, you weren’t outright begging but your eyes said otherwise.

Benny didn’t speak, he didn’t. He kept staring at you and then at his feet as if he was thinking of your proposition.

“Benny?” You called for him, he didn’t answer. Again, you said his name but you raised your voice. “Benny!”

“What?!” He snapped at you, slamming his foot onto the dresser. “What do you think this is? Hm? What did you ever think this was gonna be?”

“I stared at him in disbelief. I mean, I was his wife. The mother of his children and yet he still believed we were just playin’ house. I knew, I knew he believed I just tried to piss him off so that he would hate me. Or that maybe I was crazy.”

“For the boys. Benny?” You asked, years pricking your eyes. But he turned his head away.

“I gotta go meet Johnny.” He said before walking out the bedroom.

“He didn’t pour a single tear. I tried to play tough, I did. But deep inside I just wanted to see him show any trace of sadness. Anything. Because in such way, I could finally prove that he loved me. Because he only cried with the people he loved, there was a reason why he didn’t cry at his father’s funeral.”

Benny had left again, this time you hadn’t seen him since Cockroach had disappeared into thin air after the incident with the new Vandals.

The club was different now, there was something about it. You hung out at the same bar, but Johnny had lost control over the club he himself created.

Alone with the kids at home, you heard a knock on the door. You were actually thinking of leaving Benny. But you hadn’t decided when.

You weren’t going to open the door but you saw through the window that it was Johnny on his car. You opened the door to prevent him from leaving.

“Hey, Johnny.” You walked out and stood on the porch steps.

“Hey, y/n. How’re the kids?” He asked you, you crossed your arms, it was cold outside

“Good. They’re good. Tucked on their bedroom, it has gotten real cold.” You said, chuckling. Johnny chuckled but then he stared at you, he was going to ask about Benny, you knew.

“Benny ever came back around?”

“No. Actually, I haven’t seen him in almost a year now. I’ve been actually indecisive if to pack my bags or not.” You said, sitting down at the porch steps.

“That sounds right, doll.” Johnny nodded. Johnny cared about you. And your boys, and he cared for Benny too. He was family. Whether you liked it or not, he had helped a lot when Benny wasn’t around.

“I guess neither of us got him in the end.” You said, you both had a slight rivalry since you entered Benny’s life.

“I guess not.” He said, the rivalry had been long forgotten. “Y’know, you can give it all you got to a thing, and it’s still gonna do what’s gonna do.” He said, a small smile on his face.

“Well, that’s Benny and I for the world.” You chuckled, smiling.

“You don’t have to overthink it. If ya leave the kid, leave him. He ain’t changin’, he won’t. It ain’t happenin’.” Johnny smiled. “And I ain’t blaming ya. He’s not stopping for anyone.”

“You’re a good man, Johnny.” You admitted, playing with the fabric of your long sleeve sweater. “Thank you.” You smiled at him.

“Take it easy. It ain’t nothing wrong if you stay or leave.” He smiled, getting into his car. Driving off.

“From what I heard, one of them new kids shot him. You believe that? Johnny wasn’t a rebel, he ain’t a good-for nothing man. He was a good. A family guy. A loyal man. There won’t ever be another Johnny.

Once Johnny got killed, it was the end of the golden age of motorcycles. After that, that fucking kid took over and turned the Vandals into a gang. Running drugs, gambling, prostitution. If I ever complained about what it was before, I take it back.”

“What about Benny?” Danny asked you, you shook your head.

You hadn’t left Benny, you couldn’t bring yourself to do so. Not after he came back. You knew that Johnny’s death affected him deeply but the didn’t show it. You sat by his side on the porch after Johnny’s service. If Benny didn’t talk before now he was completely mute.

You saw the side of his eyes and nose get reddish. And his breathing labored, he turned to look at you.

“And that’s the first time I saw Benny cry. Like a baby. I just hugged him, what else could I do? I wanted to cry too. I knew he tried to be strong but in the end he just hugged me back.

We paid a last visit to Johnny’s grave before movin’ here to Florida. We both were smokin’ I remember.”

You and Benny were in front of the grave, smoking. You were just there, staring at the tombstone. You couldn’t believe it, none of you two could.

“That’s when I knew we all went to the same place in the end. Good or bad. I ain’t never seen Benny despise his colors more than ever.

You know knew that both bad and good men ended up all six feet under. If Johnny hadn’t died, you would have left Benny. You were sure of it.

“Does he still ride?” Danny asked you, he was happy that he finally got to see Benny through your eyes.

“No. No, ever since Johnny died. Benny don’t ride no more. And you know what? I don’t think he misses it.” You said, Danny smiled but he didn’t believe you. How could he? When all he had heard about Benny was that he wouldn’t trade his bike for nothing.

You stood up to wash both yours and Danny’s coffee mug.

“And things are good now. We’re happy. Benny works for his cousin now and things are real good. Our boys are in good schools.” You stared out the window to see Benny on his mechanic uniform, sandy blond hair, beard, sideburns. You stared at him through the kitchen window. “We’re happy.” He looked up at you, and he smiled with his lips closed, he chose you.

He didn’t wear his hair like he did before, he just didn’t smile like he did before, he didn’t wear those horrid old black boots anymore. He wasn’t the same, nor were his kisses. He had changed, completely. And something was missing inside of him, a part of him died when he stopped riding. His heart was still in the streets.

You turned to face Danny and spoke with a smirk. “Cause good men die too, so I’d rather be with him.”

[kombuuuu]

Miles m x younger sibling reader (platonic obvi) where we accidentally find out he’s Spider-Man?💕

Blood bond.

Miles + Gn!Sibling Reader

“Why are u on the roof?—” “I’m.. Checking the structure.”

so adorbs i ❤️ sibling fics

You were making your way home from school on some boring Thursday. Just having finished a math test, and ready to get the hell out of there, you ditched last period. Walking out with little to no trouble but an excuse of a family emergency.

So when you walked into your brothers room, trying to steal one of his pens. Only to see him stuck to the roof like a fucking bug.

You could say that your exhaustion had dissipated.

“Why are you in the ceiling?”

“I’m… checking the structure.”

You snorted, then freak out.

“*How are you on the ceiling?!”

“Okay, dude calm down.”

“Calm down?! You’re sticking to the roof!”

“Why are you out of school!”

“I uh—… Didn’t want to go.” Childishly, he changed the topic, which you called him out on.

“Hey! Don’t act like you can distract me from this, asshole!”

He slowly lowered, holding onto the plaster by one hand before dropping down.

You gaped are him stupidly, him snorting at your reaction.

“So uh—,” Miles coughed awkwardly “,I have something to tell you.”

You glared are him, snark evident in your tone.

“No shit, Miles.”

“Don’t talk to me like that, kid.”

You scoffed and crossed your arms, mumbling your reply. “Fuckin’ act like you’re my dad..”

“Speak up, child.”

“Oh, fuck off.”

“Yeah, that’s what I—“

“Tell me why you’re sticking to the roof.”

He looked uncomfortable now, but knew there was no playing this off.

“I’m… Spider-man….”

You gaped at him for a moment, brain running with thousands of thoughts before landing on, probably the most stupid one.

“Unfair.”

He barked out a laugh, snorting and coughing at your reply. He hadn’t expected you to be jealous of all things.

“I promise you, there’s a lot of downsides.”

“Are you a serial killer?”

“Wha- No!?” You stepped forward and poked his forehead. “Cause I’ll tell mom if you are.”

“Fuckin- No, [Name] chill!” He pushed his palm over your face, pushing you away.

“I don’t even kill people! I just hand ‘em over to the police!”

“To dad?!”

“Well… He doesn’t know, per se.”

“Like I didn’t know.”

“Yeah..” He laughed again, a nervous habit. Going to sit on his bed, he crossed his legs and slouched a bit.

“You’re not mad, right?”

You went to sit next to him, his bed creaking as he moved over for you.

“Nah, just kinda pissed you didn’t tell me.”

“Really?”

“Yeah, man.”

He sighed, putting his arm around your shoulder and giving you an awkward hug.

“Thanks, [Name].”

“Yeah, man. Anytime.”

He dropped your shoulder after a beat.

You stared at the floor with him for a while, both of you kind of sitting on the situation.

“How the fuck-“

“Spider bite.”

You glared stay him.

“Don’t interrupt-“

“Shhhh.”

“Oh my g-“

“I’ll tell dad you ditched last period.”

“I’ll tell dad you’re fucking spider-man.”

He looked at you in contemplation.

“Touché. Please don’t use it against me anymore.”

“Oh, you are never getting out of this.”

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another cutie little short one! 😽🫶

[brandogenius]

Omg your boygenius x young artist hc was so cute!! Just like think of how they’d tease you like a little sibling (maybe muna does too if you’d wanna write them in) like maybe your parents send you your senior yearbook since you might have not gotten it yet and they are just horrified you JUST graduated highschool and tease you about how young and cute you look in your photos😭 Imagine them just SCREAMING when you win a grammy like for best new artist and the way they’d go to WAR for you if the tabloids were going after you or your getting a lot of hate or like something happens. Think they went to your graduation and we’re just so proud! ok i’m ranting but your writing is so good and being 19 also maybe i’m projecting but you write them SO WELL!!

THANK YOU 😭😭😭🫶 i’m glad you like them!! i love it so much the dynamics between younger reader and the boys in a younger sibling way is my ultimate favourite!!

tiny bit of projecting in this one too mainly because i live for this trope / (if it’s even a trope) hc blurbs whatever you call it !

i’m trying my hardest to base it off an american school system but since i’m not american i apologise if it isn’t correct trying my best to be as actuate as possible !

i’m not too familiar with muna unfortunately! id love to write them in but feel like i wouldn’t do them justice! in the future 100%

‼️ RPF‼️

HC - boygenius & younger! artist

adding on from here :D

- taking away with some stuff anon said the boys are absolutely HORRIFIED when they realise you graduated school last year. what do you mean you were class of 2023?

- “this is a whole ass child we’re talking to”

- i like to imagine they DID go to your graduation. you knew of the boys since your junior year of highschool. opening for them on their tour when they were in your state.

- so many photos taken. ones with you and the boys in your graduation outfit. it was such a sweet moment. your parents meeting the boys for the first time and they surprise you by going to a nice restaurant. you, your parents and the boys.

- booking the biggest table in the restaurant it’s chaos. laughter and chatter is made. phoebe demanding your parents to bring the yearbook when they drop you off for tour.

- i can imagine the boys forgetting you’re not legal, you’re only 19. the boys going to after party’s with your for music awards and freaking out. “SHIT YOU’RE A FUCKING CHILD” julien is grabbing the car keys to drag you back to the tour bus

- when you get your year book you wish the ground would swallow you up.

- the scene unfolds by the boys acting like a pack of wolves that haven’t eaten in months. all grabbing the book to try and peak into it. lucy being the tallest holds it over all of yours head having the perks of being the tallest

- phoebe turns into an ankle biter in that moment. desperate to laugh at your photos and gossip with you about the tea

- you and the boys spend the rest of the night surrounded by the small tour buss table going through all the photos.

- “that guy? he is a bitch don’t like him. used to be mean to me in class”

- the boys got personal beef with some teenagers they never even met before “it’s on sight for real”

- trips to the theme park. it’s so random but you really wanted to go so up they went one day with you like “road trip!”

- the day you win a grammy is the day they feel like they’ve achieved in life.

- at this point they feel like they raised you. i feel like you might be like 25 or something when you get the grammy “they grow up so fast sniff sniff”

- absolutely goes chaos. standing on chairs and cheering (like julian on sunday 😭)

- they’d go ankle biter mode when tabloids and news articles come for you. it is fake news and rumours yet they are prepared to defend you on their LIFE

- defending you, subtly indirecting / actually going as far as @ ting on main twitter. they don’t take no shit and will immediately be by your side!

[garvalhaminho]

forgot to post my thoughts while reading the first chapter of tlkof as someone who has only ever read tda and tid (translated from chaotic portuguese)

thais??? who??

dru likes learning by understanding how things work, relatable (SHE'S LITERALLY ME)

she's learning about downworlders and can ask magnus for help, but specifically cristina (the diva who loved studying faeries!!), mark and helen (icon) and kieran and i love that for her 💞 like yes give her one thing she can take advantage of

SHE'S GOT HER MOTHER ELEANOR'S JACKET !! I REPEAT SHE'S GOT HER MOTHER ELEANOR'S JACKET !!

not her dyeing her hair black (ate)

"thais always looked glamorous in her gear" 🤨 no look i know friends can find each other pretty and beautiful etc but when it's ya literature.....it's usually the censored version of "hot as fuck" JUST SAYING

DRU IS 5'3 YAAA WE'VE GOT THE SAME HEIGHT (i think, i'm not american)

i already love dru and thais's friendship 🫶 they match each others freak

dru trains to forget everything she's gone through 😭

oh already the preppy guys and fuckboys (mason hardcastle)

"dru and thais didn't need to ask each other; they knew already they'd be a team" awwww i already know i'm gonna love their friendship

paige ashdown when i see you in the street (no but like an ableist and fatphobic bully? i'll fight that fucker with my bare hands)

thais speaking portuguese in the middle of nowhere i love it

OH AND THE FUCKBOY IS HER EX AND HE SUCKS, if it was me and i had classes with him i'd literally throw myself off a bridge

dru inventing "sex crocodile",,, she's too iconic i fear

"nothing scared [dru}. nothing in a movie, anyway." babygirl 😭 i remember her like mentioning how she liked horror movies but the horror depicted would never be as bad as the real life horror she's experienced

dru still talks to kit 😭 no like imagine your sister still talks to your situationship of two weeks from three years ago, i'd jump off a bridge (yet again)

"there's no danger. we're on academy grounds" famous last words

"she tugged gently at a dangling lock in her friend's hair" THAT'S LITERALLY A MICROTROPE IN ROMANCE MOVIES

"she cursed silently, imagining every bad word she could think of and some she was pretty sure she'd just made up." let dru say fuck pleaseeee. just once. as a little treat, she deserves it

"she wondered for a moment if she should mention that her brother, mark, was the consort of the unseelie king" not her trying to use her connections

ASH SHOWING UP AND HUMILIATING THE LITTLE FAERIE MEN 😭 he slayed i fear

no yeah he's literally royalty he's literally a prince (get that bag girl!!)

dru thinking that ash's eyes were like the sea glass julian loved......oh how i love this family

"'how do you know my name?' she demanded. his eyes narrowed. 'you must be joking,' he said. 'you've forgotten? you can't have forgotten.'" of course she's forgotten a random guy she was with for two minutes three years ago, she has a life, YOU'RE just a SIMP

ash getting yelled at and reprimanded by his daddy or whatever but still literally helping his crush and sending her away to safety 🙏 and your man can't even text you back

julian and emma leaving london to take care of their child drusilla blackthorn

OH AND JULIAN'S GONNA NEED A LOT A THERAPY AFTER THREE BOOKS OF HIS KIDS GETTING THEMSELVES IN TROUBLE

he didn't even sleep during the three nights she was missing 😭

i fear i might become thais/dru shipper under the right circumstances

[quinngefail]

Ms. quinnge, is it weird I've never been inside a Walmart? what is it like in there? I've only ever seen it in videos or mentioned in passing looks very sad and also kinda smelly

LMAO. Well it is indeed very sad and smelly.

Now everything I talk about could be met with BUT THAT'S JUST EVERY GROCERY STORE of course. But these are just consistent things that I've noticed in the Walmart I work at lmao

-Understaffed areas. But also I do not blame anyone for never seeking employment here

-It's frequently busy as hell :)

-Meandering people. Oh my god. This shit drives me up the wall

-We love the bitches who just leave their carts in the middle of the fucking aisles so no one can get past them 🫶

-Aisles and shelves in general just tend to be a fucking mess. Some areas are consistently worse than others though lmao

-The produce aisle...... 🗿🗿🗿

Gamers I am on my hands and knees begging. BEGGING people to not buy their produce from Walmart orz orz orz

The amount of rotten, moldy shit I've encountered is just. UGGHGHHHH

-Soooo many epic and awesome shirts and hats and tattoos and such, especially with election season happening..... I've seen at least two people with the fucking 2nd amendment tattooed on their bodies and so many cool shirts with very cool things on them 👌

-Walmart..... RADIO!!!! (The HOME OF THE CHRIS SHOW, KIRBY GWEN AND FRIENDS!! AAAND THE BO SHOW 🤪)

-I've bitched about the music remixes + mashups already. And now they don't play them every day it seems, but when they do. Ohhhhghhh my god

Just to copy + paste my thoughts from a very recent post because it's relevant:

Would actually like to know whoever the hell it is that puts those fuck ass song mashups together. Gamers I cannot adequately put into words how fucking bad they sound, especially when I'm on hour six of a shift and just want to go home

What if we took this chorus from this ABBA song...... But put the guitar to Sweet Child O' Mine behind it, and with the grace of trying to mash the square shape into the triangle hole 🤔🤔🤔 Ermmm would that go freaking epic awesomesauce or what!!!

Hint: no it fucking wouldn't

-A lot of shit will just be broken and/or unusable lmao. It's cool

-Screaming, wailing children :) And y’know it seems to consistently happen where if I'm already getting overwhelmed and stressed and shit, a crying child will spawn on the map which is so awesome 😩

...Those are some of the biggest things that come to mind HRKGGKGK.,, It's truly a spectacle that is just So Very American. And I promise you don't ever need to actually experience it for yourself lmao

In short. Sad and stinky indeed

[bbyquokka]

I'm ordering more brain juice to be sent to you ASAP!!! But thanks for answering my Sugar!Daddy Jisung thoughts🫶🏼

As for what I think? Just- Yes! Han most definitely would help you with cash purely out of kindness🥺And because he thinks doing that will fill that piece of him thats missing💔 But we all know, as you stated, Hannie's desires just can't be contained after being around you so much for so long😮‍💨❤️‍🔥

And his little one absolutely adoring you??? So freaking cute😭💘 I'm picturing:

"I love my daddy so much!" - Hannie's cute kiddie🫶🏼

"I like your daddy a lot too kid" - You😂

Maybe also:

"I want my daddy!!!" - Cute kiddie throwing a rare tantrum

"I want your daddy too but we can't always have what we want now can we?" - You trying to discipline the kid

"Who says you can't have me?" - Han who happened to be by the door when you said that

Ashdbwgaidkwbslcjsl- Okay I'm done Bai Bai🥲🫶🏼

- 🦁 PS: [ Poor kiddo is third wheeling🤣😭 ]

ajsbwjdn, yes!

SMUT BELOW CUT – MINORS, AGELESS & DEFAULT BLOGS; DNI

𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 | fem reader, sugar daddy jisung unprotected rough sex, breeding kink. 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐒 | 0.3k ~ ( 352 )

dont repost. dont translate. feedback and reblogs are highly advised and appreciated!

jisung loves being around you so much and so does his little one. you bring (and are) a positive role model for his child. his child looks up to you, asks about you on the daily. when you're not there, his child would sulk and pout. “i want yn to live with us.”

and why shouldn't you? jisung would invite you out for dinner where he would propose that you stay at his home–permanently. shocked at first, you'd listen to his reasonings of “my child adores you.” “having you at home would be sooo much easier for us all!” he's correct, being at his house would be easier for everyone; so you accept his proposal.

he's still your sugar daddy. he still throws money at you, that will never change (unless stated.) having you in his house has made everything feel warmer, brighter. how a family home should be. he watches you look after his little one during the day but at night, he rewards you by fucking you fast, hard and raw.

one hand covering your mouth, the other bundled up in your hair. his grip is harsh and tight, pulling at the scalp. it makes your eyes burn and tear up. your moans muffled but the sound of skin slapping on skin is loud. he has you in doggy because he loves seeing his length disappear balls deep inside you. he loves feeling your warmth, loves touching and stroking places he's never explored before. he loves knowing that you can feel every vein of his fat cock.

he wouldn't mind having another child, especially with you, so he's ready and willing to risk it all (with it being a mutual thing, ofc!) he pushes you down, your arms under your legs. lower half high up. his hand on your head to keep it buried in the sheets which also helps to muffle your cries and moans. “you're going to be good for me and milk me dry, yeah?” he pile drives in you, deeper than ever before where soon after, he floods your insides with a shiver and long moan.

𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐒 (𝐎𝐏𝐄𝐍) | @bintificreads ; @septicrebel ; @amyyscorner ; @writerracha ; @hyunluvxo ; @aestheticsluut ; @xcookiemonsteer ; @lilquokka04 ; @myprwttyhan

[celestialspiritbabe]

Fairy Tail 100 Years Quest episode 15: thoughts + opinions

Weepin' Wendy

HOW CAN WENDY BE SUCH A CINNAMON ROLL EVEN WHEN SHE'S CRYING? // I TOTALLY RELATE TO WENDY THOUGH, BUGS ARE FUCKING DISGUSTING AND SOME ARE REALLY SCARY!

I love how Carla also gets visibly more frustrated with that pesky little bug

with big sis Erza coming to the rescue, I wonder what she'll do? // I'm not surprised that she takes everything so seriously, even if it's something as mundane as swatting a fricking bug lol

it cracks me up just how zero fucks Erza gives about any property damage����😂😂

yeah okay, now with big boy Aldoron finally awake, I guess it's the time for shit to finally hit the fan!

WHY ARE ALL THESE TOWNSFOLK TURNING INTO THESE CREEPY WOOD ABOMINATIONS? I HOPE I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO GETS SERIOUSLY CULT-ISH VIBES FROM THESE FREAKS?

''Oh, if only I could still use magic to protect my darling Gray's cute, sensitive little ears!'' // WELL, GUESS WHAT JUVIA?

JUVIA FINALLY HAS HER MAGIC BACK! 💙💙💙

''When I find out who's responsible for hurting her, I'm gonna' make them pay!'' // WELL LAXUS, I WONDER WHO DID THIS TO ERZA IN THE FIRST PLACE?

cannot wait to see Jellal and Erza's conversation about what happened while he was under the White Mage's control lmao

and the award for the most annoying member of Fairy Tail goes to...

THEY ARRIVED TO KICK YOUR NASTY ASS, FARIS!!!

SELENE IS SO PRETTY! // I think her English dub voice is very lovely and fits her super well, but for the love of me I can't figure out who her VA is! It sounds a bit like Amber Lee Connors (Brandish's VA), but I'm not 100% sure if it's really her or not. // EDIT: IT'S NATALIE VAN SISTINE, AKA YOR BRIAR FROM SPY X FAMILY AND STAR AND STRIPES FROM MHA!

in famous words of Katsuki Bakugou: EXTRAS!!!

Wendy to the rescue! 🩵

DON'T THINK I DIDN'T NOTICE THIS GRUVIA CRUMB!

the one and only douchebag Fire Dragon God, Ignia

''Aldoron, I'm coming for ya'!'' // love Todd Haberkorn!!🔥✨

okay, these God Seeds do seem like interesting opponents so far

NOT THEM SUMMONING GILDARTS OF ALL PEOPLE

''Erza, I've gotta' find her!'' // aw, a Jerza crumb too!! 🥹🥹🥹

DID NATSU SERIOUSLY CONSIDER HAPPY TO BE THE MOST POWERFUL OF ALL? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Gajeel & Levy + Lilly 🫶🏻

I LOVE HOW THEY DON'T WANT MAKAROV TO FIGHT BECAUSE HE ISN'T IN A CONDITION TO DO SO, YET THEY SEEM TO BE PERFECTLY FINE WITH LEVY FIGHTING? ARE THEY FORGETTING ABOUT THE FACT THAT SHE'S PREGNANT AND IS POTENTIALLY PUTTING HER UNBORN CHILD IN DANGER?

''Go on and give them all a face full of metal!'' // Juvia being a supportive bestie to Gajeel as always!

look, I love Mirajane's Satan Soul, but I do wish she would for once change into a different form (Sitri or Seilah perhaps)??

OH-OH MIRA, WATCH OUT WHAT YOU'RE GONNA' SAY! JUVIA WON'T LIKE THAT IF SHE HEARS YOU!

M: ''It's weird. It feels like I had some kind of crazy nightmare where Gray beat me up.'' G: ''Yep, it never happened!''

an Elfgreen crumb too! 💚💚💚

E: ''What's the deal with these stupid robes?'' E: ''Oh, it looks pretty good on you!'' E: ''Please stop ogling me!''

WELP, ZEREF IS ACTUALLY THE ONE NATSU THINKS IS THE STRONGEST. HE LOOKS SO GOOFY WITH THAT SPROUT COMING OUT OF HIS HEAD THOUGH HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

ngl, it's super sweet to hear Natsu referring to Zeref as his big bro! ❤️

[not-5-rats]

It's been days since my last question/scenario post, bet ya'll thought you were safe lol

Questions/Scenarios for the best bugs in the land 🫶

1) Mafia! AU

Has your Bug got another job to try and hide their job in the Mafia?

2) How expressive is your Bugs face?

3) What's a sign somebody has upset/ irritated your Bug?

4) Something people often misunderstand about your Bug?

5) Swap! AU silly lil scenario :D

"I can't believe they've bloomed, I thought I planted them too late in the season!"

Chez had dragged Bug out to the garden...again, a clutter of iris' sat infront of them, clearly having bloomed very recently. Chez was clearly surprised he was so sure he had missed his time for growing them but luckily he had just made it :D

Chez began to ramble about the glorious, purple flowers infront of them. Bug tried to listen but this happened so fucking often, like dude how much do you know about these plants-

They sorta zoned out...but then they felt something brush against the back of their leg just below their knee. It felt kinda like a super fluffy cat strolling past. They were kinda started so looked down only to see Chez's tail softly curling around their leg.

It was like he was giving them a hug but when they looked at him with a confused look he was still talking abt the iris'...he didn't notice. Chez never really spoke his mind, he never said if he liked/ trusted somebody or not but this was clearly a sign that he trusted Bug, trusted them so much that even his subconscious knew they were a safe person

What do they do?

6) Anotherrrr scenarioooooo

(cw (mentions of): child abuse, alcoholism, ableism)

Bug was sat in the living room, they were minding their own business attending to a hobby so they didn't really notice when two young girls came and sat on the living room floor.

Both of the girls had some paper and began to doodle with a large box if crayons sat between them. Daisy was humming to herself whilst Fran sat in silence, Daisy asked Fran if she could talk to Bug multiple times but Fran signed at her that Bug was clearly busy so no.

But then Fran said she was going to get a drink and make the two of them snacks so Daisy took her chance to strike. She stood up, ran over to Bug and began to chat their ears off. At first Bug wasn't really listening but then she said something that caught their attention

"Is it weird that Fran doesn't speak? Dad used to get really angry when she wouldn't talk, he would throw his bottles at her. They smashed all over the floor then we had to clean them up. Look!"

She shoved her hands into their face showing a million different scars and scratches, most of them healed up but still clearly quite sore

"Dad said Fran was a freak, that she just wanted to cause problems and embarass the family, he said lots of other things but Chezzy says I'm not allowed to say those. And its not just Dad, loads of people call Fran bad names"

She pauses for a second staring at her hands, all the reminders of the actions of their deranged, drunk dad. Then she stared Bug right in the eyes as she asked her final questions

"Is Fran a freak? Why do people hate her so much just cause she doesn't speak?"

(For context Fran has Selective Mutism, she physically can't speak when she's around people she doesn't know/ is in a stressful/ uncomfortable/ new situation)

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[amberjazmyn]

my love, my life 💔🥹🫶

pairing : carlos sainz x fem!reader

summary : with the lyrics of mamma mia's version of abba's song, "my love, my life", we see carlos sainz jr and his wife cecelia sainz have their first child, a little girl called esmeralda rose, who was born on the same day as and named after her maternal grandmother rosanna perez.

warnings : mentions of deaths of parents from cancer, the birth of a child and baptism of said child, non-religious mom and semi-religious dad, crying, abba music if that's a warning, medical inaccuracies when it comes to pregnancy, inaccurate mentions of coronavirus

a/n : writing this for carlos because i wanted to write something again for carlos and this is what i finally decided on. as always, the lyrics will be in bold italics, any flashbacks or flashforwards will be in italics and year-stamped so it's not so confusing and present time of the literal baptism will be in regular font. also, yes, i have made cecelia, the wife of carlos, have the maiden name of perez but she is not related to checo perez who is on the same f1 grid as carlos. and the other drivers will be included as well. 

i've never felt this strong, i'm invincible, how could this go wrong?

december 28 | twenty twenty

cecelia almost screamed but couldn't since she was back at her family home in madrid, the rest of her family and her nieces and nephews in the loungeroom where her husband, was. this couldn't have been the reason why cecelia had been so ill recently, absolutely not was she pregnant and had been for a whole entire trimester already? there was absolutely no way that the positive pregnancy test in front of her and the messages from her obstetrician over the random madrid hospital phone app that she had were telling her that she had spent the last twelve/fourteen weeks pregnant with her and her husband carlos' first child and had absolutely no idea whilst also going through the last year of her mother's life due to cancer - rosanna perez succumbing to the horrific disease a couple of weeks ago, not even, on the fifteenth of this month.

but, it was absolutely true that cecelia was pregnant with her first baby. and it was the fact that if only she found out even two weeks ago, she may have just made it in time to tell her mum about her newest grandchild. and that was what took cecelia's strength and invincibility that she had built up since the death of rosanna from one hundred to zero with the click of a finger. cecellia was panicking, she was bent over crying, her head resting on the bathroom sink as her iphone filmed the entire thing. she had taken the pregnancy test at first as a joke after ana, carlos' sister and cecelia's sister-in-law, suggested it since ana had recognised the way cecelia was sick being the same way she was sick when she was pregnant with her and husband's first child. not once at all did cecelia think she was pregnant, sure, she thought she was ill but she genuinely just thought that was due to the grief and stress she had put herself through after the death of her mum rosanna and the broken heart syndrome that her father, riccardo, had just recently received.

no, here, here's where we belong, i see a road ahead i never thought i would dare to tread.

after cecelia finished her freak-out, she realised that maybe, whilst it was a road she never thought she'd tread, it was a road she belonged driving on. even with her husband being a formula one driver and constantly travelling around the world. wiping away her tears, cecelia picked up the pregnancy test with her shaky hands and she smiled, turning the positive pregnancy test to the iphone camera as she started laughing.

whispering, she spoke up, "...carlos is going to freak the fuck out! oh my gosh, he's going to be so happy this said positive! ay dios mío oh my god!" cecelia giggled as she then looked down to her tummy which didn't even indicate a 12/14 week baby bump

cecelia then realised because she was going into her second trimester, she was able to tell the rest of her family since there was now no longer any worry about her losing the baby. and then, she started crying all over again when she remembered carlos. carlos had always wanted to have a little family of his own. having a little mini carlos or little mini cecelia running around. and now, his dream was finally coming true. but, without his wife's mum with them. 

turning back to her iphone, cecelia spoke up again, "i need to tell everyone! but what do i do? i can't just tell them..." the spaniard trailed off as she tried to think of what she could do to announce the pregnancy to the rest of her family and husband as she quickly pressed stop on her camera recording

that was when a knock sounded on her door and she almost screamed, however, the voice that followed was not who she thought it was, "...lo siento i'm sorry, didn't mean to scare you cece, it's just ana here, are you okay? you've been in the bathroom for a while now, what did the test say?" breathing out in relief, cecelia unlocked the door so her sister-in-law could let herself in

letting herself in, ana closed the door and felt her heart sink when she saw her sister-in-law's teary face however, she wasn't ready for the scream that was to follow, "...i'm pregnant ana!" cecelia squealed out as loudly but also as quietly as possible as ana's face lit up in excitement

"seriously? cecelia, i didn't even mean to--"

"--no, don't apologise, ana! it's a good thing that you recognised my symptoms as being the same ones you had when you were pregnant! because i totally wouldn't have, not until i was giving birth anyway it seems like it..." cecelia trailed off as ana looked confused

"...what do you mean? you can't be that far along, could you?" ana questioned as cecelia nodded her head as ana's eyes widened

"ana, i've been pregnant for an entire trimester...if only i found out earlier, i may have been able to tell mum..." cecelia trailed off as ana's face deflated as she moved closer to the younger brunette

"...oh bebe oh, baby...cecelia i am so sorry!" ana's voice trembled as she pulled her sister-in-law in for a hug

like an image passing by, my love, my life, in the mirror of your eyes, my love, my life.

january | twenty twenty-one

cecelia and carlos couldn't hide their excitement as they watched their ob-gyn do an ultrasound of their baby. thankful that carlos was even able to make it to the ultrasound considering f1 could sometimes be rather unkind. after giggling over the coldness of the gel that the nurse had placed on her stomach, cecelia was entranced by the image on the ultrasound screen. she couldn't believe that inside of her tummy was a growing human being. whilst it wasn't their first ultrasound of their baby, it was still something that blew the husband and wife's minds every single time they came in for a new scan.

"...mr and mrs sainz, because of how many weeks the baby is, we are able to tell you guys the sex, is that something you want to know now or would you like to wait until the birth to find out?" the female ob-gyn questioned as cecelia and carlos smiled, their excitement doubling

"may we know now?" cecelia asked nervously, carlos nodding his head in agreement with his wife as the nurse smiled and nodded her own head in confirmation

"of course, you guys can! well, if you just look here, i can tell you that you are having a baby girl!" the ob-gyn was stoked to tell the new parents they were having a little girl, cecelia and carlos were silenced by shock

thankfully though, they weren't silenced for too long as tears quickly slipped from the corner of cecelia's eye that was closest to carlos as he wiped them away for her, "we're having a little girl, cece! that's amazing, thank you, doctor!" carlos spoke up with excitement as the doctor smiled and nodded her head as she moved the probe across cecelia's tummy a few more times

"my pleasure carlos and cecelia, and i can already tell how loved this little munchkin is," she responded as she wiped off the residual gel that had stayed on cecelia's tummy, allowing the soon-to-be mum to clean herself up properly

whilst the ob-gyn cleared her own station and led the sainz's back to the reception desk with the little envelope with the pink piece of paper inside of it stating that their baby was a little girl, she couldn't help but feel her heart breaking for the way cecelia reacted. it wasn't a secret that the sainz and perez family had just gone through a tragedy. it had been reported on by almost every single spanish and european media site, f1 related or not, that cecelia lost her mother, rosanna perez, carlos sainz jr losing his mother in law. and it was obvious that finding out that cecelia was now pregnant, not that long after the loss of her mum and now finding out it's a little girl would have been so conflicting and an added bag of emotions for the young girl to be carrying with her. the nurse just hoped that this child, this little girl would be the healing angel that cecelia and the rest of her family needed to heal and to see the light at the end of the grieving.

and, turns out that the ob-gyn was correct, that little girl would be the healing angel that the entire sainz-perez family needed.

i can see it all so clearly, all i love so dearly, images passing by, like reflections of your mind, my love, my life are the words i try to find, my love, my life.

february | twenty twenty-one

cecelia smiled and waited patiently in the press room of an f1 interview alongside her husband's f1 grid with david coulthard. she was going to announce publically, to the world, that she was pregnant after it had been rumoured. she was with the f1 grid because the rumours had gotten so bad that the magazines and journalists had started asking the other drivers about the rumours since the sainz's hadn't actually told any of them apart from fred vasseur, the team principal of ferrari and charles leclerc, carlos' teammate. and because charles had actually found out accidentally whilst cecelia was filming an ad for a clothing brand on her instagram. since cecelia's last ultrasound scan when she and carlos found out she'd be having a little girl, she had blown up like a little balloon and was starting to show so, it had gotten somewhat harder to hide the bump however, she managed with an oversized white button-down with a flowy skirt. the button-down being tied at the base of her belly button which somehow hid the fact she was ballooning with her little pregnancy bump after not showing for over fourteen weeks.

"...today's press conference we have my personal favourite guests in the world and they are the f1 grid and cecelia sainz, wife of carlos sainz jr. i interview them and i also find out what i'm being told is the best news in the entire world right after this break so don't change this channel..." david coulthard, the f1 interviewer announces as the camerman then signs that it's a commerical break to which david moves closer off his seat to speak with the f1 grid and cecelia

as he spoke with his favourite guests, david had a slight idea of what the younger girl's announcement could be but, again, he didn't want to pry nor did he wanna ruin the surprise for himself. so, he didn't even think about what the surprise announcement could even be. so, he continued his conversation like he always did, happy to catch up and also quickly sending his condolences to cecelia and carlos for the loss of mrs sainz's mother rosanna, moments before they were back on air. cecelia and carlos thanked david sweetly as they both smiled and readied themselves for the interview.

back on the air, david smiled and introduced the segment before he handed it over to the grid and cecelia, "...so, as i said before the break, i have the amazing drivers of the 2021 grid and the even more amazing, gorgeous young lady, cecelia sainz who is carlos' wife! so, guys, how have you all been? even though we did catch up a little during the commerical break, give us the gossip, what's been happening over lockdown?" david questioned, getting excited as he noticed the way cecelia seemed to be wanting to just already tell him and the rest of the grid and the world the big surprise news she was even in this interview for

"well, personally for the f1 grid, we've just been getting ready for our upcoming season after we had so many races taken out due to the pandemic. so, we're very very keen for it but, honestly, that's the only thing that's been different to what everyone else has been doing considering we've just been through lockdown just like everyone else has..." lando chuckled as david nodded his head and then smiled over to cecelia so she could answer for herself

"...umm, personally for me, i've been writing some music in my little home studio and doing some self-tapes for some tv and movie auditions but, carlos, we also recently returned from our honeymoon since it was postponed. because, for those who weren't aware, carlos and i got married just at the very beginning of twenty-twenty so, right before covid kind of destroyed everything *giggles* and it was only in the last couple of weeks where we were able to safely have a little honeymoon a year later so we went to greece for a couple of weeks which was exciting..." cecelia trailed off with a giggle as she had to stop herself from suddenly caressing her baby bump - a comfort thing she had since picked up ever since the belly had popped out of seemingly nowhere and instead placed her hands on the couch beside her

david smiled sweetly with a head-nod, "...that's gorgeous, i mean, we have got some photos here and where you and carlos were staying just looks absolutely lush! but, obviously, you made sure you were completely covid safe and took all of the precautions *cecelia nods her head* that's great. i'm glad you guys had so much fun considering it was still tainted due to the continuing worries of the pandemic..." david trailed off as cecelia nodded her head and smiled as she looked to carlos with a cheeky smile as he couldn't hide his giggle

this, obviously, caught the attention of david and the grid so, he questioned it, "...what was that about, mr and mrs sainz? care to share with the class? i feel like a teacher saying that but, care to share what's made you two giggle?" david laughs himself as the husband and wife calm themselves down as carlos speaks up

"i think cecelia is just ready to reveal the surprise announcement. you see, my wife can get quite impatient and can sometimes be close to ruining surprises if you make her wait for too long!" carlos giggles as cecelia shyly nods her head as david's face relaxes and he smiles, nodding his head as the other racers are still considerably confused

"okay then cecelia, come out with it. what is this big surprise announcement that you are so eager to tell us..." david was being cheeky as cecelia bit her lip as carlos gripped her hand tightly and she just came out with it

and, truthfully, this was not the surprise annouoncement that david or the drivers thought it was going to be, "...i'm pregnant with me and carlos' first baby..." cecelia trailed off, finally allowing her hands to cradle the growing baby bump, carlos' hand moving back to his lap as he bit his lip to stop his smile from getting any bigger and stupid

it was silent which freaked cecelia and carlos out but, it didn't last for too long when david cheered and stood up. ignoring the fact that he really shouldn't have pulled the newly pregnant woman in for a hug in regular non-covid times. but, especially now due to corona but, he'd known this girl since she was a kid when her parents first introduced her to formula one when he was still a driver. giggling, cecelia hugged the british former driver back before she moved out of the hug so she could sit back down as the other drivers were in shock at the surprise announcement. they genuinely had no idea that their teammates wife was pregnant. they knew she had been unwell ever since the loss of her mum, rosanna, but never did they think it was because mrs sainz was pregnant. but now, it made so much sense to them, especially when they remembered the way they heard carlos' sister ana immediately rushed up the stairs at the slight sound commotion heard by her from the upstairs bathroom to the right on that day that the drivers came to realise as the day that cecelia found out she was pregnant.

max was the first one out of the three to stand up and pull his former torro rosso teammate's wife in for a hug as she giggled, "...congratulations, cece! you've been pregnant this whole time?" max whispered as cecelia giggled and nodded her head

"yeah, this whole time!" cecelia giggled as lando, charles and daniel joined seconds later in an excited group hug as carlos watched on

thankfully the hug didn't last too long and david started to just focus on this new announcement and asked all the questions, "so, cecelia, how long have you been pregnant for? because from what it looks like, it looks like you've got a little bit of a bump," david smiled as cecelia smiled sweetly and nodded her head, caressing her little bump

"i found out i was pregnant on the twenty-eighth of december so, not that long after christmas and not that long after we lost my mum. however, i had been pregnant for a whole trimester before finding out that day. so, if i had found out earlier, i may have had the chance of telling this wonderful news of another grandchild to my mum..." cecelia trailed off as her smile stayed strong and didn't falter

"...aw, love. do you know the sex of the baby or, is that something you and carlos want to keep a secret until the birth?" david asks cautiously as cecelia nods her head, the other drivers, except for carlos, now in shock as they weren't told the sex of the baby

"yes, we do but, the surprise will be for these guys, they'll need to wait until the birth but, david, if you really can't wait that long, i can whisper it to you? so it's just between me, carlos and you?" cecelia giggled at the end as david's eyes lit up as he nodded his head, not caring this was live television

david stood up as cecelia followed, grabbing the english interviewer's hands and whispering it to him. david, if he wasn't on live television, could have burst out into tears but he managed to hold them off, "...congratulations, cecelia and carlos! oh, this baby is already so loved!" david whispered back after cecelia revealed that she and carlos were having a little girl

"thank you, d.c, this baby is so loved," she whispered back as they sat back down

the interview continued even though the excitement of cecelia and carlos' pregnancy took over and was still a big topic of discussion on everyone's lips, they continued to mention other things that were also supposed to be talked about. like the details of the next season of f1 that lando mentioned and the songwriting and auditions that cecelia had mentioned she'd been doing as well.

but i know i don't possess you, with all my heart, god bless you, you'll be my love and my life. you're my one and only.

present time | twenty twenty-two

cecelia was running around everywhere like a headless chicken as carlos and their little baby girl stood watching. carlos was trying to sort everything out but wasn't able to due to the way she was so manic about it and, carlos called her out over it.

"...cariño, cariño, CECELIA...querida, you won't be able to sort everything out before little one's baptism if you continue to be so manic over it!" carlos chuckled at the end as cecelia finally stopped herself and nodded her head in agreement dear, dear. darling

"sorry bebe, it's just..."

"...yeah, i get it, it's hard that she's not here but, just remember who still is here. i'm here bebe, you're here, nuestro pequeño está aquí our little one is here. if you keep on freaking out, you won't be able to get anything done..." carlos trailed off before continuing

"...i know your mum wasn't so sure about our future children getting baptised into the catholic church, but the spanish catholic church more specifically. but, it's truly only because of the fact that her papa is spanish and, if my own mama wasn't so insistent, i would have also said no to this happening. but, because i'd get my arse kicked, i compromised...we compromised and said our children would only get baptised and if they so chose to be religious as they got older, they could choose..." carlos smiled as he wrapped his arms around cecelia as she smiled and nodded her head

her husband was correct. the only reason why their one-year-old was getting baptised into the spanish catholic church at a year old was because of the little girl's spanish lineage due to her father being fully born and raised in spain. because originally, not only cecelia but carlos himself was unsure about their children being baptised when it wasn't really a thing that exisited in his wife's family. although cecelia was also spanish, born and raised, her family were not religious. 

"...so, cece, what is it you need to get done before we leave?" carlos was calm and he was collected and that was truly one of the reasons why cecelia fell in love with him because he always balanced out her impulsiveness and her anxiety-induced living whilst being an f1 driver for ferrari all at the same time

and, when it came to responding to her husband's question, cecelia had no idea how to respond, "umm, i actually don't know..." and that was because everything that needed to be done had already been done so this very situation wouldn't happen even though it was going to happen anyway because it always did

"...thought so, and it's because everything has already been done! we should be in the car driving to the church right now for bug's christening but, because i already suspected that this was going to happen, i rang up the priest in advance just in case. so, your welcome bebe, now can we make out way out of this house and to the church, please?" carlos tilted his head to the side with a cheeky smile as cecelia opened and then closed her mouth and smiled, shaking her head

"thanks, carlitos. i'd really be losing the plot if i didn't have you with me," cecelia whispered as she moved closer to her husband and daughter, her lips almost caressing her husband's face as he pulled away with a chuckle

"not here babe, we need to go watch our daughter's christening and your welcome and i too would lose the plot if i didn't have you with me, cariño dear," carlos spoke as the husband and wife left it at that with their conversation and made it out of their house to their car

on their drive to the church for their daughter's christening into the spanish catholic chruch, which would be photographed by vogue espana, cecelia felt a calm rush over her. her husband was right, she should really stop making her focus be on those who she no longer has with her. even though it included both her parents, rosanna and riccardo, riccardo lost his battle with broken heart syndrome ten months after rosanna, a couple of months after cecelia had given birth to her and carlos' little girl.

i held you close to me, felt your heart beat and i thought: i am free. oh yes, and as one are we in the now and beyond, nothing and no one can break this bond.

may | twenty twenty-one

cecelia hadn't felt this kind of pain in her life before but, it was a pain that she was sure she never wanted to feel again...even if it meant she never gave her daughter any more siblings. but, in all truthfulness, this pain was surely going to be forgotten about any moment when she...

...hears the cries of her little baby girl for the very first time...

"...here's your little girl, mamá and papá. isn't she just gorgeous?" hayley, cecelia's midwife smiled as she handed over the baby girl as cecelia choked down a happy sob, her arms cradling her baby girl as though it was a regular instinct - as if in a past life cecelia had been a mother before

"she's beautiful, oh my goodness, we made this baby, carlitos!" cecelia turned to her husband who smiled tearfully as he nodded his head, too tired to speak in spanish 

"yeah we did bebe, we made out little miracle, cariño!" carlos sniffled, wiping away a tear with his shoulder as he slowly sat himself down on the edge of the hospital bed, his hand reaching up to touch the top of his newborn's head

"wow...we're parents, carlos. we actually have our little family! we have our little dogs, our husky girl bambi and piñón and now we have our little esmeralda rose..." cecelia trailed off, tears hitting her eyes as she realised she had just said the name of her baby girl out loud for the first time

and it made both carlos and hayley smile, "...so, is esmeralda rose this little pretty's name?" she asked, rolling her wheely chair towards the computer to write up the birth certificate as both parents, cecelia and carlos nodded their heads

"yeah, esmeralda rose is her name...rose for her middle name since that's her abuela's grandmother's name and because they were born on the same day and esmeralda as her first name since it's my middle name," cecelia explained as hayley nodded her head, knowing the significance of the little girl's name

"that's beautiful, cecelia. however, because little esmeralda is earlier than her due date in august, we do have to place her in an incubator, however, once she reaches a certain weight, she'll be able to leave. is that all okay?" hayley asks, knowing how daunting it can be from being so happy with your newborn in your arms to them then being taken away to a different room

and cecelia and carlos smiled, both understanding that they couldn't hold onto their little girl forever like many other parents who had their babies on time, "absolutely fine, hayley. thank you for telling us, we'll be glad to hear that she'll be able to gain some more weight since she is really tiny," cecelia spoke up, only now realising just how tiny their little esmeralda was as carlos too only realised

"wonderful, well, if you two want to, we can either have the abuelas and abuelos grandfathers and godparents meet little esmeralda in here or we can place her in the incubator and have them meet her in there. which would you prefer?" hayley then asks as cecelia and carlos smile, they could choose how their family meet their little bundle of joy

"we can choose?" carlos choked out in shock as hayley giggled and nodded her head with a smile, making the new parents smile

"absolutely you can! however, if you do want for them to meet esmeralda in here, it can only be for five minutes per person before i'd have to then take her and place her into an incubator a couple of floors above us. is that okay?" hayley questioned as carlos and cecelia nodded their heads straight away

"that's absolutely fine, hayley! we just want them to see her, they've waited for so long already, i feel selfish enough making them wait whilst we have this conversation," cecelia giggled as hayley nodded her head 

this movement encouraged carlos to fetch his parents, esme's grandparents and the godparents. who, were obviously max, carlos' former teammate from torro rosso and cecelia's best friend as well as his girlfriend, kelly piquet. 

so, that's what carlos did, like the proud husband and father he was, he wiped away his tears with a tissue. placed it in his jeans pocket, gave a kiss to his two girls and rushed down the hallway to announce the happy news.

like an image passing by, my love, my life, in the mirror of your eyes, my love, my life. i can see it all so clearly, images passing by

june | twenty twenty-one

the last time cecelia sat in an interview with david coulthard, she was in the second trimester of her pregnancy with little esmeralda and now, she was just a month gone from giving birth to the little girl. since it was the twenty-ninth of june, this interview today was.

and, in the audience, slightly behind the camera was her husband carlos, their little girl esme and her godparents max and kelly and the rest of esme's f1 uncles and aunties who were watching the solo interview.

with the show on the air, david introduced his guest, "...on today's show, i have my favourite guest on the show. you know her pretty well because the last time i interviewed her, it just felt like yesterday when it february, only a few months ago, she announced her first pregnancy with her husband on live television with her husband's f1 teammates...it's only cecelia perez sainz sitting with me today on our brand new couches everybody!" david introduced as that earned a lot of applause as cecelia giggled and applauded

"haha, thank you for that wonderful introduction david, it's great to be back being interviewed by you and on this new couch, oh my goodness, so comfy!" cecelia giggled after pulling out from the hug david pulled her into as she sat back down, crossing her right leg over her left, slanting them to the side

"isn't it so comfy? i'd sleep on these couches if i could *giggles*. oh my goodness, it is so lovely to see you again and to catch up since, like already mentioned, the last time you were here, you announced that you were pregnant with you and your husband's first baby. and then just after that we spoke only briefly during my interview with carlos at the end of may since you were in the background and you were just about to pop weren't you?" david pointed and brought it back to rest on his lip as cecelia giggled and nodded her head

"yes, i was about to pop! literally hours from giving birth *giggles* so, my due date was originally in august of this year so, in two months...one month basically. but, no, the little one said absolutely not mamá, get me out of here now! *giggles* and i had to be induced and have the c-section to get her out and, she was a preemie baby but, thankfully she gained weight pretty quickly and within a couple of weeks i think, we were able to bring her back home with us," cecelia nodded as she smiled as david smiled as well

"aw, isn't the little one just gorgeous, falling asleep in papá's arms," david cooed, his eyes captured by the little sleeping girl as cecelia's eyes followed and she nodded her head with a small giggle

"i know, i still can't believe she's ours. like, i was fine with just having our little husky, bambi and little piñón for a little while before starting to try. but, apparently, we didn't even need to try," cecelia giggled as david and the audience giggled as well

"seems as though you didn't *giggles* but, back to this little bundle of joy because, you and carlos have obviously picked out a name for her, but, it's quite a special name, isn't it? would you like to tell us what the name of your beautiful little girl is?" david introduced, even though he was already told, he was still hanging to see how the rest of the audience (minus the family who of course already knew) was going to react

"of course i can, david. so, our little baby girl's name is esmeralda rose sainz perez *coos* and the reason why she is called esmeralda rose is that one, esmeralda, her first name, is my middle name and two, rose, her middle name, is the shortened version of my mother's name which is rosanna. we also came up with that name ages ago not even thinking what day esme was going to be born on either..." cecelia trailed off as david smiled

"...so, what day was little esme born on, may i ask, cecelia?" david questioned as his eyes sparkled with excitement as cecelia smiled, her concentration going to the very little girl and her husband who was teary

"she was born on the twenty-ninth of may, the same day as her abuela, rosanna," cecelia smiled, her own tears building in her eyes, managing to will them away as david's face relaxed and he smiled sweetly

"aw, that is so special and that is crazy because that was the same day we saw you for the last time briefly in my interview with carlos, cece. so, you were moments away from popping!" david smiled, a still of his zoom interview with carlos and just a little peak of six-month about to give birth pregnant cecelia

"i know, it was absolutely terrifying as well david because it was like, the second your guys' interview finished, my contractions started. and bang, carlos, myself and carlos' sister ana were off to the hospital. thankfully, esme had managed to wait until after silverstone to decide that during the three week break that she was going to arrive so we had time to leave england and return back to spain so i could give birth in madrid. and after trying to have esme naturally, my midwife, hayley, came back to us and said we had to c-section because esme wasn't in the right position since she was so small. so, the only other safe way to get her out and delivered alive was to have her c-sectioned and i'm forever grateful that we did do the c-section otherwise we wouldn't have our little love," cecelia explained as david smiled and nodded his head, the audience watching in awe

"aw, bless. and speaking of the little one, how old is she now?" david questioned as cecelia's eyes widened, how old was her daughter? what day was it? was today the twenty-ninth or the thirtieth of june?

"uhh, shoot, what day is it today?" cecelia asked in a hilarious panic as carlos reached for his phone

"it's the twenty-ninth, cariño!" shouting back to his wife, cecelia metaphorically clutched her pearls, grateful that her in-head counting was indeed correct along with the finger counting she hadn't been so secretive with as she liked

"oh, thank god! she is a month old! oh my goodness, i didn't count wrong!" cecelia could only giggle at her baby brain in the same way she laughed over everyone elses when they had kids

"wow, she's already a month? that's crazy how time flies, soon it'll be two!" david was in shock as cecelia nodded her head and she turned after hearing the crowd coo in aw only to see a photo cecelia had posted of the day she, carlos and little esme left the hospital

"i know, don't start me off, david. it makes me so emotional that she's already a month!" cecelia giggled as she turned back from the photo back to david to continue the interview

the interview continued on smoothly, except for a couple of times when esme cried out for her mamá. the second time carlos had apologetically brought up the little one so she could be held by her mamá for the rest of the interview. where in which she stayed silent the rest of the interview, content in her mamá's arms, her tiny little hands gripping tightly to her mamá's pinky finger.

like reflections of your mind, my love, my life, are the words i try to find, my love, my life. but i know i don't possess you, with all my heart, god bless you.

present time | twenty twenty-two

walking into the spanish catholic church with her little bundle of joy, her little esmeralda, cecelia was happy. she was content and she was in peace. even though none of her family, including her parents, rosanna and riccardo, weren't so sure on the spanish catholic baptism of their nieta granddaughter, it was still upsetting that they weren't there to witness it. because whilst they weren't really wanting it, like cecelia and carlos weren't, they wouldn't have disrespected the event because they knew that it was a compromise made by the parents and grandparents of esme that she would be baptised and if she got older and wanted to go further in the religion or not, she had that choice to. but, honestly, cecelia had truly made peace with that ages ago, way before the situation in the house had happened before they left. it was truthfully just a moment of vulnerability for the new mother and she had no other way of describing it other than her missing her parents, her mother especially.

in her flowing champagne-coloured wrap dress, cecelia held her daughter as esme's christening dress overwhelmed her because of how big it was. cecelia held her as she walked through the hall of the church and towards the priest, her husband carlos and esme's godparents, max and kelly with kelly's little girl, penelope, close by.

cecelia smiled in a joy that could have only been described as overwhelming. she knew every single person in this church: first, her remaining family which were her brothers and sisters with their partners and children; the (other) perez family, sergio "checo" and carola and their beautiful kids; pierre gasly and his girlfriend francisca; charles leclerc and his girlfriend alexandra and the rest of his family. and that was just the "main" f1 grid, there was also sebastian vettel and his family, david coulthard and his family were invited. there was no use in introducing every single guest and their families and plus ones that sat in this church in madrid, spain for esmeralda rose perez sainz's christening. however, it just really reiterated to cecelia how loved this little one-year-old baby girl was to so many people that weren't her direct family.

cecelia basked in the flashing lights from the photographers but made sure to still shield little esme's face just in case the lights still frightened her like they used to. especially when she'd visit her papá during race week and she'd get scared by all the noise and cameras. however, in a cheeky, sly move, the little one-year-old smacked her mamá's hand away and seemed to stare right down the barrel of one particular photographer's camera. of course, this shocked both mamá and papá but also made them snicker at the same time as cecelia then looked up and blood rushed to her ears in an instant.

cecelia couldn't help the blank, emotionless stare she shared towards the female photographer that little esme had also seemed to be entranced by. it was just that...the young photographer looked scarily similar to her mother, rosanna perez. that was until the young girl had completely morphed into cecelia's mother and the young mother was glad she didn't completely drop little esme herself.

it obviously scared the crap out of cecelia that she was the only one that was seeing her own mother in this female photographer but, she continued to zone out until a little side tap from her husband, carlos. it was only then that cecelia fazed out from the void she was in and noticed that the young female photographer no longer looked like her beloved mother and continued to photograph the christening. little esme taking a liking to the girl.

"...oye, cece, cariño, de qué se trató todo eso? estás bien?" carlos later questioned in spanish as he held esme after they finished the walk back up to the church foyer now that the one year old had been christened oi, cece, baby, what was that all about? you okay?

"sí... sí, estoy bien nena. solo, esa fotógrafa, la que tenía cabello castaño, se parecía aterradoramente a mamá, eso es todo... parecía como si esme también pensara lo mismo..." cecelia shook her head and rubbed her eyes, feeling like she was going insane as carlos smiled, gently kissing his wife's golden hair yeah...yeah, i'm fine babe. just, that female photographer, the one with brown hair looked scarily similar to mum, that's all...it seemed as though esme thought so too

"...i thought i was the only one who noticed that. she did look so much like your mum, i secretly hoped she'd do the dramatic movie reveal thingy, coming out with the dramatic news that she was your long-lost sixth sibling," carlos chortled in english as cecelia cackled, her head shaking

"oh shut up, carlitos...she is not my long-lost sixth sibling, you goose. besides, the more i looked at her afterwards, i saw the differences that truly sold it to me that she wasn't anyone in the family that we should have been told about," cecelia giggled as she grabbed esme from him as carlos nodded his head

"okay, that's good to know bebe, i'll be back in a moment, i promised ana and blanca that i'd touch base with them after the christening, see you soon darling, i miss my two girls already!" carlos shouted after he had left his two girls with kisses to their heads as that allowed the verstappen-piquets to swoop in to have a conversation with the mother and newly christened daughter

"...hey, max, victoria and kelly! penelope, lio and luka! did you behave?" cecelia lit up in excitement, hugging all six of them as the little girl nodded her head to her aunty cecelia, victoria's little boys, lio and luka giving a shy head nod

"she behaved exceptionally well, cece, she was quiet the whole entire time and luka and lio were also very well behaved. and, also, just a quick note, did you notice the female photographer right at the front that looked ridiculously like your mum?" kelly whispered at the end, just in case she felt like she was insane as cecelia giggled and nodded her head

"good to hear she behaved and, yes, i did and so did esme. did you see the way she smacked my hand away when that lady's camera started flashing?" cecelia giggled as kelly, victoria and max both nodded their heads

"it was absolutely bizarre, i thought i was going crazy when i turned around to see her," max spoke up this time as cecelia nodded her head in agreement

"i thought so too! i then had that weird moment where after looking at her for too long, she actually turned into mum which was even weirder. but, i then saw the things that was the reminder that she wasn't my mum," cecelia giggled as she bopped esme up on her hip higher since she started to slip

the verstappen-piquet's stayed to chat with cecelia and esme until papá had come back from his conversation with his family and happily picked up esme when she reached out for him. allowing cecelia to build up her arm strength again after feeling like they were going to fall off.

you are still my love and my life, yes i know i don't possess you. with all my heart, god bless you, you are still my love and my life

present time | twenty twenty-two

cecelia softly started to sing the song that was playing during the mamma mia: here we go again movie when she finally looked up from playing with esme and realised the song she had been singing the entire time...

...she had been singing along to my love, my life without even consciously realising it whilst the entire christening scene of sophie and sky's baby was going on during the duration of the song. and it reminded cecelia of esme's christening that had just happened the day before. it was sort of ironic because the scene that was playing in front of her was the exact same scene that played in cecelia's head when she saw that female photographer that looked ever so similar but yet still so different to her mother.

she then grabbed her phone and quickly put together a little instagram post dedicated to her little girl, her love and her life: esmeralda rose. 

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ceceliaperezsainz you're my one and only esmeralda rose 🤍

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carlossainz55 my two beautiful girls 🤍

ceceliaperezsainz carlossainz55 my beautiful man 🤍

maxverstappen1 absolutely gorgeous 🤍

ceceliaperezsainz maxverstappen1 thank you maxie🤍

schecoperez pretty baby girl 🤍

ceceliaperezsainz schecoperez isn't she just checo🤍

francisca.cgomes esmeralda is gorgeous, cece 🤍

ceceliaperezsainz francisca.cgomes i mean, her parents are also gorgeous so it makes sense

kellypiquet beautiful baby and baby mama 🤍

ceceliaperezsainz kellypiquet truth has been told 🤍

davidcoulthard esmeralda is beautiful, cecelia🤍

ceceliaperezsainz davidcoulthard thank you, david! she is truly everything i could have dreamt of for our first baby 🤍

fin

and this is finished! woo, what a fun time writing this but it was difficult! i am also kind of proud of the kind of mamma mia/cecelia moment i added in there but, i think it could have for sure been written better, right now, i like it. also, just to reiterate, cecelia is not a real person, she is a character which means her parents are not real, they are made up and were killed off for the plot. and also, i totally made up the fact that david coulthard has his own tv show but whatever!

©⠀amberjazmyn's original work. do not translate or steal any of my fics. 2024

[bylertruther]

no cause the last anón is so right. I scrapped a 50k byler fic because I actually got worried people might call me weird or a freak like they do others. I was on twitter when the whole fiasco went down and it pissed me off but if you even tried to speak there were so many accounts saying you were “speaking over minors” and calling you a predator/pedophile. So many of my moots deactivated bc of the hate- they eventually started attacking people for their ages alone saying it was weird that 20 year olds theorized and talked about byler. Literally word for word “you’re a freak if you’re 20 and read byler fics. Why are you fantasizing about two little 14 year old boys making out” if they would take a step back and think that maybe people are so interested in this relationship is bc they see their younger selves in these two characters then maybe they wouldn’t say such stupid shit. Anyway sorry for ranting I just have been fuming since that whole thing happened. I just wish they would take a step back and stop and think about why they see a kiss between two boys written and immediately shout creep.

oh no, anon! i'm so sorry to hear about your fic & your experience. i hope you feel comfortable enough to post it one day, if you still want to. 🥺 and don't ever apologize for expressing yourself!

not to be a cunt, but i am a cunt, so, ahem. from the bottom of my heart... fuck them kids. 🫶 i literally do not give a single shit about any of the ""discourse"" they inflict on us all. "speaking over minors" why are you even speaking to begin with, huh? 🤨 why are you buzzing into an adult's space and picking a fight when a) literally no one fucking asked you to, and b) you're just going to cry "waaaaah but i'm a minorrr :(" as if you're somehow the victim in this situation after they dare to defend themselves against your serious and unsupported allegations? be normal or piss the fuck off and do your homework.

and why do people take them seriously? disregarding the fact that anyone of any age can be a shipper & the awful homophobia laced in such rhetoric...

this is the internet. no one owes you shit & the wild web will never, ever cater to you. you need to curate your own space and protect yourself. this is, like.. basic shit. like, bare-fucking-bones basic shit. it's not anyone else's responsibility but your own. they taught me that in school, my parents told me that, and also i have a functioning brain that can come to that conclusion, too. people need to stop pretending like what these people are asking for—which is your silence and your shame—is reasonable. it's not. content gets tagged, there are multiple extensions to blacklist any tags you don't like, some of it gets put behind a privacy wall, block buttons exist, many websites have filtering options, and so on and so forth. there are multiple measures people can take to both find things and avoid them. and a lot of the time, content is something you have to seek out yourself. so, if you don't like it, why did you click on it? why spend any time on it when you could've just backspaced? how is your ineptitude anyone else's problem?

also, people need to stop throwing the words pedophilia, pedophile, and predator around. you're being an insensitive jackass when you do that. someone writing about two fictional characters is not abusive scum of the fucking earth. you're watering those acts down and showcasing your ignorance for the world to see when you throw their names around carelessly. a child predator does awful, sinister, repulsive things to real life people who did not deserve that. someone writing a first kiss or practice kissing fic is not anywhere near that and i'm tired of people pretending like this is an okay thing to say or even think. just shut the fuck up and stop saying those words if you don't actually understand the gravity of what they mean.

another thing: a lot of these people aren't just kids. grown folk fall for the same shitty rhetoric, too. it's all just groupthink and herd mentality. no one wants to get attacked so they just repeat the same shit without thinking about it beyond "protecting" themselves (which is senseless as well because conditional acceptance is not true acceptance, but i digress). this fandom would be in a much better place if people were willing to stand their ground and defend their friends when this stuff happens. it gets worse and worse if you just turn a blind eye to it and fall in line. we're all waking up and finally seeing the consequences of that now.

of course, this doesn't really apply to when you're getting attacked by hundreds of people. that's... just shitty and hard and demoralizing. i'm not victim-blaming, because no one wants to be on the receiving end of that and i know that you can't control what others do.

my argument is that it gets to that point because the fandom as a whole just lets it slide by never holding the right people accountable for their actions. they allow the needless bullying to happen. they allow the rhetoric to get crazier and crazier. they allow people to get fucking crucified for shit that isn't even remotely inappropriate. they reblog posts they don't believe in because they don't want to be the odd one out and get accused of something by someone with more followers than them. it's just... we, as a whole, need to support each other more and put our foot down when shit like that starts happening.

it isn't normal. it isn't okay. it hasn't ever been okay.

like... i KNOW that you KNOW that it isn't weird for them to kiss, for people to want them to kiss, or for people to make them kiss in their creations. i KNOW that you KNOW that it isn't weird for anyone of any age to enjoy a love story of any kind. we know these things. some of us just pretend like we don't online for whatever fucking reason. and i don't get it! i don't get why they would do that and willingly allow this place to become worse for it. you don't get anything good out of that.

also, a lot of those people are being trolls. they get a kick out of attacking people as a group, because that's the only time they feel brave and the only way they get attention in life. they don't think before they say things, because they don't see you as a human being—you're just pixels on a greasy screen. they use catchy social justice lingo to make what they're saying sound like something you should support, but at the end of the day, they're literally just gussying up the same right-wing shit we've been subjected to for ages. it's regressive rhetoric that's clear to see once you've allowed yourself to see it.

like, i agree with you. i do. you're absolutely, undoubtedly right in what you say, but... i just can't bring myself to argue that, because it's in response to what was a senseless attack to begin with. and we shouldn't need to defend ourselves and our communities against what isn't true.

homophobia, bullying, and trolling are irrational, illogical pursuits and i can't stand the idea of treating them with any ounce of seriousness in this context. to apologize would be to accept their absurdity and validate their accusations—accusations we know in our heart of hearts to be incorrect and baseless. and i won't ever do that! i won't give them that satisfaction and i wish others wouldn't either.

they keep doing this, because they haven't met any opposition yet, because we keep acting like we have any reason at all to feel shame for wanting stories about people like us, about something as basic and universal as love and connection. they don't care about our reasons. they don't care about our defense of ourselves. it's not ever about us. this is their cry for attention, good or bad, at our expense and they need to be starved out already.

like.. this is just unsustainable. it's mind-boggling and i remember kicking and screaming about it months ago in what felt like an empty room. and look at where we are now! we're already at the point where you can't win in any kind of way no matter what you do. you can't age them up, you can't leave them as they are, you can't ship them if you're older than eighteen, you can't write AUs, you can't write canon compliance, you can't write canon divergence, you can't make them kiss, you can't make them anything more than friends but you also can't make them not-friends, etc etc. we've officially been shoved into the "fuck it, we ball" stage, because this is a pissy fandom and you are never going to please everyone so you may as well just do whatever the fuck you want.

i sound soooooooo unbearably preachy in this response lol, but like... literally... all we have is each other! we all love byler and we're all here to have fun and find like-minded people. we can't keep acting like this in-fighting lunacy is reasonable and just a difference of opinion, or like it's based in any kind of sense at all. we know that it's okay to ship byler at any age. we know that it's okay to have fun and enjoy ourselves. these people want to make us feel bad. they want to silence us. why let them and give them that satisfaction? why is what they want more important than us and our happiness? i hate the idea of anyone ever feeling any kind of shame or fear over something as innocent as this. i hate the idea of them winning by getting into any of our heads like that. i just hate it.

now, this last bit is specifically for you, anon, but it goes for everyone else, too: please, please, please, i am holding your hand in both of mine and begging you to not let anyone take away the things that you love and bring you joy or your wonderful creations that you've put so much of yourself into. i promise you that there will always be people who will see you, understand you, and cherish what you have to offer, and they are the ones that matter most (after you of course hehe). we all have to find our people and just go crazy together and block out everything else. that's the only way to get through this without getting burnt out. 💛💙

[coffeeshub]

So.. idk why I had to post this out of the blue, after like,,, a year of being inactive

But well.. here you go

A Bucky Barnes drabble no one asked for and inspired by an instagram edit I can't find now. (If anyone finds it please tell me🫶🏼)

She's the flirty assistant therapist and he's just.. him

Warnings- Swearing and my writing

I ran through the halls as fast as my legs could take me. After missing the first five therapy sessions with the client, I doubt Dr. Raynor would be welcoming me with confetti and open arms. Especially if I'm running half an hour late.

In my defence, I was not trying to get laid with the guy from the bar yesterday. But he was cute, he approached me, was respectful yet charming and he had freaking dimples. Plus, I had busted my ass in the last few weeks for my medical exam. So I deserved the break.

As for the matter at hand now, I checked in with my card, nearly breaking the poor machine and turned around to reach for the 'therapy room'.

Suddenly my vision was blocked and I stumbled into something– someone. Of course, the floor had to be just wiped and wet. Of course, my foot slipped and small gasp rose in my throat when my body tilted backward of its own accord. I was two seconds away from falling on my ass when a hand shot out and gripped my wrist, pulling me back up into a standing position.

My eyes were still shut tight, embracing the fall that never came. Thanks to the arm tightly wound around my waist. Someone's light breathing fanned my face softly and I opened my eyes to find a pair of light grey-blue eyes staring at me.

Holy shit.

My breath hitched. Dark, wavy, just the right length hair. A light stubble, eyes the color of ocean, faint veins visible on his neck as he gulped.

I opened my mouth to say something, but shut it before I could embarrass myself. He lightly bit his lip before his hand momentarily tightened around my waist and he released his hold on me, stepping back.

"Running late?" God, he had a sexy voice. He was looking at me, his face relaxed and a half smirk playing at his lips.

A loud bang echoed into the room, startling me. I looked back to see the receptionist giving off apolegic glances at everyone looking at her.

I snapped out of whatever haze I was into. The man was hot but having my ass whooped by Dr. Raynor was not. I cleared my throat and smiled slightly at him, muttering an awkward "Yeah no sorry, thank you."

I quickly rushed past him, brushing our hands while doing so. Damn that was such a hormone-y teenager move. What the fuck was wrong with me?

~~~

I all but barged into the 'therapy room', leaving the door open and expecting to find Dr. Raynor talking with- what was his damn name? James. James Barnes. But all I found was an annoyed looking Doctor, ready to leave, with no client in sight. She glanced at me at my grand entrance and huffed in annoyance. I tried my absolute fucking best to not let the smile slip as Dr. Raynor looked at me -at an weird angle- like an annoyed child.

"Finally decided to grace the room with your presence did you? Both of you?"

Both of us? I turned around to find—

My jaw almost dropped. The man from the hallway. He was looking at me with somewhat of a similar expression I must be giving him. But it quickly turned into a small smirk as his eyes roamed over me.

"Well, hello."

Was that for me or the doc? Who knows. I shrugged and turned back to her. Giving her an apologetic smile and a professional handshake. Which was just me buttering her up and she knew it. I normally wouldn't even give her a glance when I entered the office. We had a kinda friendly relationship that way.

"Doc! Long time no see. How are you?", I tried to cheer her up, giving her the sweetest smile I could muster up.

She just groaned, not falling for my antics. "We'll talk about this later. Bucky." She turned to him, giving him a pointed glare. "Thank you for showing up, I must say. Sit, let's just jump to the point now."

~~~

I couldn't concentrate. At all.

Dr. Raynor wasn't amused. At all.

Bucky didn't mind. At all.

In fact, he seemed to be even less interested in being here than me, if his staring and subtle flirting were any indication.

Dr. Raynor was rambling something about mixing with the outer world, getting out there, and stuff.

"You know," I prompted when she finished and there was an awkward pause. "I do agree with going out there, try having some fun, clubs, bars, fucks, etc, etc.."

The doctor glared at me, oh if looks could kill.

"Sorry, sorry. Unethical dancing venues, unrequited alcohol consumptions, sexual intercourses, etc, etc."

Bucky was looking at me with a smile on his face. He licked his lips slowly and oh god, if I didn't die right there.

Dr. Raynor opened her mouth, looking furious, but Bucky quickly cut her off. "You know, I'm actually kind of feeling better right now, maybe we could stop today's session here? I'll even give you the diary thing next time. I- uh I planned on banging a water park today with Sam, you know- uh, trying to get out there?"

She appeared to have gotten tired of our never ending antics today and just given up. We received a helpless nod.

~~~

"Quite a show, you put on there." Bucky smirked at me as we stepped out of the office together.

I just shrugged and smiled innocently back at him. If he was staring at me back inside, I wondered how I hadn't melted already with all the eye fucking he was doing right now. He knew what he was doing. But I was better.

"Well, technically, I wasn't wrong. Fucking is statistically proven to relieve stress."

"Is it now?" I felt something stir inside me at his tone. Damn it. Why did this man have to be this sexy?

"I'd love to have some options then, Ms. Therapist, do you happen to know anyone?"

"Maybe I do." I shrugged mysteriously. "What's your type, Mr. Barnes?"

"I dunno. Brunette hair, brown eyes, glasses, light freckles, tight jeans and a damn pikachu hoodie doesn't seem bad."

I almost blushed at his description of me. He wasn't smirking at me anymore. More like, assessing me. Damn his hotness.

"Tonight at 8, Apple Bees just down the street. I'm going with my friends if you can make it. Bye, Mr. Barnes." I rushed away before I lost my confidence.

[bookishtheaterlover7]

Just remember there are numerous perspectives to this shitshow but there are two major sides to this.

This being pushed and sold to the public and looking an entire different way from those who no absolutely nothing except she looks like a child/teen.

The other side of course is the fandom and that’s why everything they do seems insane to us because based on what we know it doesn’t add up.

So if you all choose to stay to debunk, have fun, keep things in perspective, if you know it’s PR, don’t freak out over little bs they pull.

Also remember things aren’t always as they appear so it’s easy for theories and speculation to feel factual when they aren’t.

I can’t do this anymore, I’m too emotionally invested due to Chris. I was concerned about him throughout this mess. He’s been open about something I struggle with as well. I used this fandom as a unknowingly as a distraction especially during 2020, but due to my depression and anxiety getting increasingly worse, each new thing hits me as though I personally know this man and that’s not good.

I legit woke up with a depressive episode the morning of his so called page six wedding announcement and that didn’t happen until Sunday evening, but it damn sure didn’t help my ass.

I battle suicidal thoughts (not over this shit) and feel alone in my own crap, so I can’t deal with whatever the fuck this is. It’s too much. I fight for my life each and everyday and I can’t waste it wondering if a multi millionaire may or may not be willing or unwilling in a pr stunt or married to a racist for real. I’m black and deal with enough as it is. I hate myself for getting invested in this man. I mess up trying to see good in people I actually know and I mistakenly applied that to him. I fell into the celebrity bs that consumes society and feel like an idiot for it.

So yeah it’s a big world out there, the fandom is 1% of that. Focus on seeing this from the angle of the billions of strangers who might or might not give a shit about Chris Evans outside of Captain America.

To the world He’s married and to a woman from Portugal. If it’s revealed to be Pr, he’ll be known as the Chris who lied about being married.

Someone mentioned how his costars are problematic too and that doesn’t help because that just aligns that he would bypass the racism and still marry her, but idk.

There’s no winning here unless this is revealed as PR and CAA was using him for money gain or something, and if he finds a great team who knows how to do clean up. Acknowledges his part in this but that won’t happen. He’s a Hollywood star who has people paid to clean up in the worse way for him and her now.

I wish Chris the best but if this is indeed legit…..fuck him. Idc 🤷🏾‍♀️

Thank you for being honest, An🫶n.

Do whatever is best for you. Hopefully things will get better for you, and any of us are here if you need to talk. A lot of us are really good sounding boards🤗

[darlin-djarin]

okay. is Emilian a Child of the Watch (I know u like those guys), or are his hearing aids built into his helmet, or is there another reason you have his helmet on? How did he and Ahmed meet? What is their primary household language (signed? spoken? is there a specific dialect you have in mind? don't answer that one. that ones just me going nuts about language. leave me alone im tired.)

I have so many questions and also I dont want u to answer this ask bc I do want u to write the 50k bc I'm desperate for good Mandalorian reads that aren't associated with Filoni (gag) or Karen Traviss (gag part two).

Anyway. they're cool. or whatever. I'm normal. or whatever.

FJSHFJJF YOU ARE SO SMART YOU GUESSED IT ‼️‼️ emilian is a child of the watch! ahmed isn't (i'll explain how they met in a moment), but emilian keeps the helmet on bc of his creed. there are hearing aids in his helmet, but he's very deaf, so the hearing aids only help with loud noises like large thumps and vibrations, or blasterfire/gunshots, yk. he can't hear for shit, but that's fine with him, his helmet and visor help him stay super visual.

the way they met is honestly a VERY long story (50k...) but short story is that ahmed's ship got shot down, crashed onto the planet that the cotw were on. nablus was fine during the crash, but ahmed got fucked UP. like broken leg, punctured chest, arm fucked up so bad it had to be amputated later, you get it. a cotw team found the ship and pulled nablus and ahmed out the rubble (ahmed was wearing his helmet at the time so no one freaked out that much. nablus was like 3-4 years old). the leader of the team was emilian, which was how they met. they went back to the covert's place, where ahmed and nablus were to stay until ahmed could heal. emilian was mostly fine with ahmed and nablus at first, but once they put ahmed in a private room while waiting for a medic to arrive, ahmed took off his helmet (not knowing that they were cotw) and man. did emilian freak the fuck OUT

they use galactic sign language in the household. ahmed doesn't know tusken, only galactic, so they use that. if ahmed is talking to nablus alone, they use their voices (they don't use basic or mando'a. they are heavily arab inspired so in my head they speak arabic with each other but this is star wars unfortunately so idk. they speak a diff language only with each other). ahmed uses basic/mando'a with everyone else, but in the household they mostly use galactic sign language when communicating.

thank you for asking 🫶🫶 idk how i'll have time to write the 50k but maybe one day

[happy-beeeps]

so I'm obsessed with your echo fic like almost got me crying. I NEED MOREEEE I WANNA SEE WHAT HES LIKE AS A HUBBY AND DAD PLSSSSSSS YOUR WRITING IS AMAZING AND ILYSM 💙🖤❤️

AHHH YOURE SO KIND THANK YOU😭❤️🫶🥰

I’m actually working on part 2 of the echo fic! So as to not give too much away I’ll give you some of my headcanons on husband!echo!! (Also this is my first headcanons post I’m so sorry if it’s awful)

First and foremost, this man would work himself into a tizzy making sure your proposal is PERFECT

he’s got all these plans because you deserve them, but then the second he’s gonna start he freaks himself out, like he’ll get ready and then be like,,, wait ahaha ha ahaha ahaha

He still has a lot of self worth issues but everyday they get better and better because of the love you and his brothers send his way!

Because of this, even though by the second time you know what’s happening, you try and be gentle with him, it’s very endearing

When he finally asks you, it’s so spur of the moment

Y’all are on some ridiculously beautiful system after a mission and he just looks at you and is like “yep. This is it.”

And that’s basically what he says! (You say yes obviously)

You guys don’t have a super blown out wedding ceremony, in fact, you guys exchange some vows right then and there and he comms Rex over to officiate it (that feels like something a captain can do?)

Afterwards, you guys go on an impromptu mini honeymoon to Pabu to see the rest of your family (and because omega would kill you if you didn’t celebrate with her)

Pabu is perfect, and you spend your days eating fresh caught dinner and fruits and lounging on crystal clear water

You’ve always been a part of Echo’s family, but there’s something warmer about being officially a part of it

Echo is like the most supportive and doting husband

He’s the guy who’s like “yes!! Fuck them up honey!!! That’s my spouse!!!” And then the second things start going south he jumps in

He’s going to protect you with every fiber of his being, but he respects you enough to know that you’re a tough cookie

He’s suchhhh a cuddle bug, like, holoflic nights on the couch are his love language

Dad!echo

At first he’s apprehensive about having kids

Let’s be so real, you’ve already begun mothering Omega, and this isn’t really the safest time to be bringing kids into the world

If you’re having biological kids, I feel like the baby would be a ✨welcome surprise ✨

Otherwise it happens quick either way, there’s a little baby in Pabu who needs parents, and you and Echo just know it’s the perfect situation

He’s all in the second it becomes reality for him

Like… baby bjorn every day, painting the nursery

You cannot separate this man from his child

You know how Din brings Grogu everywhere? Echo vibes.

Like this man is walking through Pabu in the most dad outfit ever and the baby strapped to his chest

Omega looooves having a little baby to hangout with, and she plays with the baby any chance she gets

One time you caught him going through old holos of his brothers, he’s so ready to tell your child stories about Uncle Fives

BONUS: Uncle Rex comes over all the time when you’ve settled on Pabu, and it’s really not uncommon to see the two of them standing around the house with their hands on their hips trying to figure out new DIY projects

At the end of the day, Echo see’s you and the baby as his second chance, his gift at a new life. He doesn’t waste a day and wants to shower you both with all the love he can (which you happily reciprocate)❤️